#afraid to tag the main fandom and get hated on tbh

[distort-opia]

You're braver than me for mentioning Khoa and Joker parallel in this hellsite that very much hate Joker lol. Im holding myself back from pointing out the same thing everytime i read Khoa story in fear someone gonna attack me. But anyway what do you think are the differences between their relationship (ghostbat & batjokes) since they're quite similar with each other. Cause tbh with you the way many describe ghostbat here feel just like they're describing batjokes instead

Ngl, this is one of the things that both depresses me and pisses me off about the current state of fandom. It sucks to hear you're too afraid of getting attacked over expressing a personal opinion on a literal blogging platform, built for this express purpose... regarding fictional characters and within a fandom, which is supposed to be fun. The block button and the filtering options exist for a reason though; I tag my stuff accurately so that people can blacklist, and I don't mind if people block me (I'm quite liberal with it myself). It's just part of curating your little niche, so I definitely encourage doing the same, Anon. Besides, despite the hellsite having its downsides, I've interacted with very reasonable and fun people as well, who dislike Joker or Batjokes but are fully capable of treating others with maturity and respect.

That being said, I agree that Batjokes and Ghostbat share a lot of similarities. I guess that for some it affords the fascinations of this type of dynamic for Bruce without the baggage Joker's character would unavoidably bring (both within Universe, and within fandom). However, there's definitely some essential differences between Ghostbat and Batjokes. Perhaps the most important consequence of them is that unlike Batjokes, Ghostbat has significantly higher chances of not ending in tragedy.

The thing about Joker is that, despite how seemingly desperate for attention and in love with Batman he canonically is, he also... hates Bruce's guts. And I'm making the distinction between 'Batman' and 'Bruce' because Joker himself makes it. Joker needs Batman on a fundamental level. He perceives his own current identity as having been shaped and defined by Batman, and he sees Bruce, the person underneath the mask, as the source of potential weakness and a threat to the Bat's existence. That's because Joker thinks of his own humanity as useless and weak, having decided to discard it and stomp it out. He then proceeds to try and do the same with Bruce's. This has literally been their main conflict since Death of the Family onwards.

Khoa also takes issue with Bruce being driven by emotion. He also considers it a weakness-- Bruce's need to save people, his vigilantism having revenge at its roots instead of a desire to perfect an art. However, Ghostmaker wasn't a direct result of Bruce's actions (accidental or not), like Joker is. Khoa's identity is much more stable and independent, not irrevocably intertwined with Bruce's Batman to the pathological degree Joker's is; and as a result, he's less extreme about it. Khoa can allow for disagreement without resorting to destroying Bruce's life, whereas Joker (at least of now) cannot allow any compromises, any pause from conflict-- because he needs it. Khoa, however, is able to stop and make peace. He challenges Bruce and his need for control just enough, right up to the point of fully enabling Bruce's darkness and self-destructiveness. Joker never stops. He keeps escalating the trauma, the horrors; a pit of knives Bruce keeps throwing himself into.

In a way, shipping Ghostbat is indulging in a dynamic similar to Batjokes, but one that can have a happier ending. Bruce can be a person with Khoa, whereas Joker would tear vulnerability to shreds. The parallels between Joker War and Ghostmaker's introduction arc are so interesting to me also because they showcase this from the start. The final confrontation with Joker, in Batman (2016) #100, has Joker stab Bruce in the back and then almost cut his face off, talking about how he'd then have "to start from scratch." Joker is tearing everything down to have Bruce rebuild it-- alone. The final confrontation with Khoa also includes him telling Bruce he's not enough, he's weak, he needs to become stronger; it also includes being stabbed in the back, but while in a fair fight that has rules. And then Bruce wakes up to Khoa sowing up the wounds he himself inflicted.

That's the crucial difference between the ships, I would say. Despite their disagreements, Bruce and Khoa are on the same side, and Bruce can expect to survive showing weakness to Khoa. Joker is, paradoxically, on the side of Batman alone and also against Bruce. That's not to say it couldn't be different, and that a happier ending is impossible to imagine for them too-- but it's a lot more complicated. Personally, I enjoy Batjokes so much because of how difficult a relationship would be. It inevitably has to involve Joker allowing himself to be human (since otherwise he would not allow Batman to be) and that's such a heavy and complex deconstruction of trauma that's fascinating to delve into.

Hope this was interesting to read through! There's a lot more stuff to say about the differences between Khoa and Joker as characters and their brand of psychopathy, and how that impacts the dynamic with Bruce, but I'm waiting for Batman Inc. and their interaction there to see where DC takes it. (Please let it be good.)

[thecasualqueer]

Fanfic Writer Questions!

Thank you for the tag @fazedlight and @thatonebirdwrites I've never been tagged in one of these before so this is exciting :)).

1- How many works do you have on AO3?

I have 4 works on AO3 I wrote 2 a few years ago (that will honestly never be finished) then took a long hiatus, and then came back and now I have one published WIP and one finished work

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

16,866 words

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Supercorp (although I have dabled in writing for other fandoms but never published anything, those ones are just for me)

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

I will always be your hero - 214 Kudos

Finding Family - 90 Kudos

Stay the night (not to be continued) - 42 Kudos

Two Heroes in one (not to be continued) - 37 Kudos

5. Do you respond to comments?

Yes sometimes, I don't respond to all comments but I also don't really have a system for which comments I do respond to.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I don't really have anything that fits this yet, and tbh I'm not the biggest fan of angsty endings so idk if I see myself writing one in the future, but we'll see.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I will always be your hero

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Not really, I assume I will at some point in the future but right now I am very happy to exist in this internet space where people are being nice to me.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

No, I don't (far to repressed for that lmao).

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I haven't written any but never say never, right?

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No, but if anyone ever does want to translate one of my fics feel free to do so :))

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Nope, but tbh I have a feeling I would be a nightmare to work with as I work very slowly due to my disabilities.

14. What's your all time favourite ship?

Supercorp

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

hmm... as I mentioned earlier on in this post there are two fics that will not be finished because I don't want them to be (I feel like my writing has improved a lot since then and I wouldn't make the same witing choices now so it doesn't make sense to drag them back out).

I also have 14 unpublished WIPs so I guess most of them will never be finished, I just don't know which ones yet.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Idk really, I feel like writing dialogue really flows out of me in a way that other parts don't as I can picture the characters in my mind acting out the scene.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

my main difficulty is speed, but also finding its to put in between the dialogue so that it doesn't feel awkward.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I don't really have any I'm afraid. I only speak English so I would probably never do more than a word or so as I wouldn't know how to do more.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Supercorp

20. Favorite fic you've written?

Absolute favourite fic is yet to come so stay tuned for that, but my favourite published fic is my current WIP Finding Family.

and now I'm going to tag @crime-wives to join :)).

[gilbirda]

20 questions for writers, tagged by @gremlin-bot

1. how many works do you have on ao3?

83!!! But a lot are crossposted from FFN, and not ALL of my FFN stuff is there.

2. what's your total ao3 word count?

753,449

3. What fandoms do you write for?

At the moment dpxdc, but I have projects for DP in progress. I have some really old Inuyasha stuff, and Twilight, and a Gravity Falls fic that I def will continue? but mostly dpxdc :D

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Clown around and find out (Kudos: 8,524)

Mondays, am I right? (Kudos: 8,080)

Employee of the month (Kudos: 7,865)

Can't have shit in Gotham (Kudos: 7,343)

How to confuse a Bat (Kudos: 6,749)

Unsurprising xd

5. Do you respond to comments? why/why not?

I usually do the week when I post a fic, but i stop after that period of time. I don't respond mostly because I dont know what to say... I love each and every comment!!! I just get nervous.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Hmmmm, I'd say What could have been. It's a DP fic from Phic Phight 2022 and the prompts I used weren't necessarily angst material, but I tied them together in a story meant to leave you empty.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I don't do "happy" endings? I think I do "realistic" endings - main quest is conquered but we lost and gained things in the way.

I do write a lot of fluff and unapologetic one shots, so I would consider all of those "happy" endings.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Yes.

Fortunately is not a normal event in my fics, but now that I have dipped my toes in comic book fanfiction I've gotten my fair share of purists and know-it-alls that come to my comments to educate me on what it's "canon" and explain to me how my interpretation is wrong.

That aside, I'm not afraid to portray "problematic" ships and delicate situations ,mainly mental health stuff. I'm not the first or the last person that pour themselves in their writing and use fictional characters as a medium to work on some personal things. Of course that's gotten me enough comments telling me how disgusting I am and how I'm writing XYZ wrong.

9. Do you write smut? if so, what kind?

Yes. I don't have a lot posted, but I have WIPs.

Mostly BDSM and how important it is to trust your partner.

10. Do you write crossovers? what's the craziest one?

Mostly DPxDC!

I did have an insane crossover between Twilight and a book not a lot of people know. TBH im keeping that information to myself xd.

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

Yes.

There's a russian website that reposts fics.

And also people reposting my stuff in wattpad with a "credits to the author [name]" but they never asked me for permission.

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! To Russian!!!! Made me so happy ヾ(≧▽≦*)o

13. have you ever co-written a fic?

Yes! I'm co-writing a fic with some close friends and my girlfriend. And another fic with just my girlfriend, but I'm so slow with it lmao

14. what's your all-time fave ship?

I'm a multishipper but usually I have 1 OTP that im Very Normal about in every fandom and then I'm just okay with everything else.

Some examples are:

KogKag, SessKag (Inuyasha)

Hardcover (JazzxJason)(DPxDC)

PrussiaxHungary (Hetalia)

Mabill (Gravity Falls)

HikaHaruKao (Ouran HSHC)

Deckerstar (Lucifer TV)

15. what's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you will?

I don't want to jinx myself.

But probably the DP longfic. It's just. So long.

16. what are your writing strengths?

I've been told that my characters feel very real and that I write dynamics in a very organic way. In romance, I think I'm very good at portraying falling in love.

In general I've also been told I describe things in a way you can feel it, like you really are there.

17. writing weaknesses?

English is not my native language and I make a lot of mistakes, grammar wise. Or I let my weird miss matched speech patterns bleed into my characters and make them sound not quite right.

18. thoughts on writing dialogue in another language?

Again, I'm native Spanish speaker, so I do write in English regularly xd

Other languages, I'd need someone that speaks that language to help me.

19. first fandom you wrote for?

Inuyasha. I was about 11 years old. Those fics were written in Microsoft Word 2003, in script format (aka "theater" format), and every character had an assigned color and I would switch colors every dialogue line.

20. fave fic you've ever written?

Difficult to choose.

I love a lot of my fics, even older ones.

If I have to pick just one, I'm picking Friendly neighborhood vigilante

Tagging!

Not feeling like tagging today, and grem kinda stole the people I was thinking I could tag.

So, if anyone wants to do this, go ahead!

[sister-claire-critical]

i don’t know if you or any of your followers might know what i'm talking about, but boy do i ever have a story to tell. i was in a sister claire discord called “mercy abbey” where the icon was stained glass claire, in around mid 2020. i found the link on amino and joined because it was the only independent sc server i could find and i didn’t want be in the official one anymore (what a horrific, bootlicking echo chamber, lol) but i still loved the comic for all its flaws & wanted to be in a community. i won’t say it was some thriving utopian hotbed of activity (it wasn’t dead, but there were only ever like 10-15 people in there and it was pretty quiet) but everyone was nice, normal and chill. we all loved the comic but most of us were growing tired of the glaring flaws in the writing and yamino and ash’s antics outside of the comic, and we weren’t afraid to critique or speak our minds. one day this new person joined and everything went south. the server had a conversation about how rosie’s death was a lame twist and it evolved into a discussion about how the duo’s plotting leaves a lot to be desired. the new person didn’t chime in except to say “you guys are being very rude and unfair” which i thought was weird since we are allowed to criticize and i thought we were all being pretty respectful. the new person abruptly left and we were all like *shrug* and moved on. then not even two hours later, 4 people joined at once. i did not recognize 3 of them, but one of them i recognized as a member of the big main sc server who was active in there before i left. i swear to god, i still almost don't believe it to this day, because of how utterly childish and dumb it is, but those people were seriously there to raid us! they started tag teaming, getting passive aggressive and sarcastic, going through the server and quoting certain things people had said and being like, "interesting, can you explain?" "wow, VERY thoughtful criticism, einstein!" that kind of thing. they just got more and more aggressive and trying to get a reaction until the mod, who was the most chill and tolerant mod i've ever met in a server, politely asked them to stop. then they all stopped talking but one of them typed for a scary long time until finally posting this long winded paragraph about how "i know who you are, you people are a hate group and a noxious cancer in the sister claire community and i WILL see you get banned from the main server if it's the last thing i do blah blah blah blah" (none of us were even in the main server??) the mod kicked them at that point, but unfortunately the mod suffered from mental health issues and a day later shared that the incident had made them spiral into paranoia and that they were going to delete the server, which they did, and tbh i almost don't blame them. i'm not in touch with anybody from the server anymore and thinking about it just makes me said on several levels. i still can't believe this happened because it's the absolute most childish thing i've ever personally witnessed anyone in a fandom do. it just sucks.

There was a second server?

Oh my god. I am absolutely fascinated by this story. I want to know more about this second server.

I believe, absolutely, that someone (a specific someone I have in mind) from the main server would raid and then destroy a server that criticized the comic. I think they're the one sending me anon hate, too.

I'm...disappointed that this server doesn't exist anymore. I would have loved to join a server that casually accepts deep criticism of the comic.

[foxl0re]

Anyone living (or not) here? I reeeeally wanna roleplay Beetlebabes (I've seen only antis RPing and that should be fixed!)? Mainly I want someone to play Beetlejuice btw. Please?? 👉🏻👈🏻

[margaetyrell]

honestly i’m so tired of all this gaylor stuff that is going on. look, this is the first time i speak about it and i won’t do it again but i just need to get this off. idk what even started it now, but people seriously need to understand once and for all that it is just as weird to hate an almost non-existent group in the fandom and argue against it to earn coins to be the best fan, while underestimating and prejudging other people you don’t even know, and when you are gonna say hurtful things that you will later on regret, bc there is a 98% chance they will be understood as homophobic even if that wasn’t your intention. that is what it is. 'no but i’m bi and i find gaylors disgusting' that statement is even more damaging tbh, bc once again you are prejudging when you should know better how this hate form has always been harming to the collective you belong to

that’s the main reason ppl are afraid to even joke about it in their own blogs, or analise lyrics under a extremely brilliant, queer lens that is kept to themselves precisely bc the fear of being judged and attacked. i’m a gaylor and i have no shame admitting so, but i don’t talk about it nor write my own connections in terms of her lyrics bc of this, as i felt personally hurt by such judment in the past and talked about it with one only person privately. in fact, if you go to my gaylor tag you aren’t gonna find k*ylor, crazy easter eggs and conspiracy theories, instead it is full of quotes that she herself has said, queer campaigns she has been part of, thoughts ppl have found behind her lyrics and lots of gifs of her wearing lgbt+flag colours - all public. that is all, and i’m even reluctant to rb anything related to her past relationships, just as candids or posts about her current one. which btw does not mean that bc i’m a gaylor i don’t consider it true or that i automatically don’t believe anything she says and think joe is a beard, as most of you simply assume

THIS when that’s all some of you seem to talk about, like every time she releases a rerecording, the memes that circulate are 'well j.jonas will always be mr perfectly fine and all these songs are about him' fact that even his wife got to see and at which they both laugh now, probably to downplay how fucking tired of it they must be. and what about the hate harassment jake has been receiving since red tv came out, which he hasn’t spoken a word about, despite facing even death threats. or the fact that ppl keep saying 'lmao harry you are next, cannot wait for speak now tv so john gets what he deserves.' like ??? but that way of talking about your fave is alright just bc she is straight? is that supposed to make her feel better? isn’t all that just as toxic or even more so?? bc gaylors in general don’t make that much noise or harm to begin with. so to excuse all of this under 'all those relationships have been confirmed by both parties and that is why i have the right to talk about them' sorry but it’s the biggest bullshit i’ve ever heard 1) bc no, most of such relationships have in fact never been confirmed by both parties and by no means have these songs been confirmed by Taylor herself, ever. 2) the fact that a relationship has been public does not give you the right to inspect it and talk about it, once again, as if you were taylor’s bff and not even that !!! as in general friends and real fans don’t talk about her life so frivolously, no matter how much you excuse yourself under this shit that keeps crossing all boundaries

so basically, talk about her private life all you want like i personally dgaf, but i find it quite hypocritical to hate on a minority that happens to be lgbt, casually!! for saying 'hmm wait a sec, wonderland sounds gay and has too many similarities with dianna' 'hmm i wonder what happened there, whether they were friends or not, that was such a weird relationship' which even j.lawrence joked about saying ‘i’d just like to know what’s between kk and ts' - not the best example, but you get where i’m going. frankly, i highly doubt taylor would give a shit if i write a post on a social site she doesn’t even use anymore, that it’s gonna be reblogged by 4 ppl and possibly get 20 hate asks in return, like @13sleepless deals with on a daily basis, which is terrifying and admirable of them. bc who really care about this are those who claim not to be homophobic or have nothing against queer interpretation while continuing to make arguments against it and not only song interpretations, but the very words and actions that taylor herself has done on purpose, under advertising her albums, tours, or whatever and i’m not even talking about easter eggs. i mean, is it not by logic the same to say 'well i’m not declaring anything new if i say that dear john is about j.mayer' as to say 'well i’m not declaring anything new either by saying, hey, taylor made a song/mv full of gay themes, full of ppl from the collective, where she even wears clothing and a bi coloured wig that has been publicly recognized, started a campaign in support and an entire album promo where in the previous mv she said gay pride makes me ME!!!’ like...... isn’t it? sorry weren’t those her literal words?? okay....... then please explain to me how it is for you bc if you really think that doesn’t sound problematic or i’m making it up, it may be time to evalue your own morals and stop questioning those you judge under the same closeted box, without respecting them individually and without wanting to learn a shit about the matter

[occasionallykettle]

if you lost hope in byler after vol. 2, just spend 10 minutes on the tag #byler proof. that alone will restore your faith in byler.

also, consider how much more impactful byler would be in season 5 compared to season 4. if it is an endgame couple, we would want as much build-up as we can so that some of the toxic milkvan shippers can't go after the duffer brothers about byler being rushed. at this point, milkvan shippers can't even complain about byler having 0 build-up or it not making any sense, since we are lucky enough to have 4 seasons of build-up to it.

if you want more evidence, then i want you to know that the duffer brothers want will to be the centre of season 5, and how terrible would the viewing experience would be if we had to see will sulking and being miserable all the time.

the duffer brothers are incredibly intelligent, i don't think we give them enough credit for how well they write stranger things. i have highlighted in a previous post about how excellent the duffer brothers are at foreshadowing, and i meant it. they will put in the tiniest details, however when what they foreshadowed actually happens, it becomes so obvious and we are all like "why didn't we think of that before?", and the duffer brothers have actually foreshadowed byler the most in vol. 2 (in my opinion). they literally had a shot of all the canon couples standing next to each other - jancy, jopper and byler - and el, the independent badass, standing by herself at the front.

if you think you got queerbaited after vol. 2, know that the duffer brothers have no reason to queerbait. we already have robin, a gay character, and frankly one of the main ones in both season 3 and 4. if they were to queerbait in order to get a larger audience, they wouldn't have robin be gay (this is assuming that they want to be able to air stranger things in a larger variety of countries). also, they would get a lot of hate and accusations of queerbaiting if byler happened in season 5 and they are fully aware of that.

the duffer brothers wouldn't stop byler just because there are milkvan fans that would get pissy. that makes no sense. will and mike being gay (i am a mike gay truther but i will still respect you if you are a bi mike truther, tbh i'm just a "mike kisses boys" truther) is NOT new, it's been both implicitly and explicitly stated from season 1. it just makes sense for them to get together in the end, so it's not like the duffer brothers are making byler happen just because byler fans want it. and the duffer brothers are not afraid of making the fans upset - they were probably fully aware that eddie was going to be a fan favourite, yet they still killed him off. same with alexei.

also, the byler tag just keeps growing and growing and growing. as more byler proof is uncovered day by day, the general audience is beginning to realise that byler will be endgame and more people are joining us as a result of it. and then even more byler proof is uncovered.

byler is one of the most strong ships that i have ever seen in a fandom - they have so much proof that backs them up, the strongest relationship and so much build-up. byler will happen.

[weirdthoughtsandideas]

for the ship ask, ship you hate that most people like and most overrated/underrated ship (can be from any fandom) 💞💞 - iris

These are so hard ugh!!!!

I would say a ship I hate that most people like is Lutteo, but to be very honest, as many who likes it, almost as many hate that ship as well. So like. Yeah. I need a better option.

Update: After a long time of thinking, I cannot come up with any. At least not now.

Now for the most overrated/underrated ships, I again had trouble. I don't think so many ships are overrated, I mean of course there are a lot, but the ones I think are overrated are the ones that are popular and I dislike (so like, Lutteo).

But underrated? Oh god. I don't think I have one that is the most underrated, so here is just a list.

Every single WLW ship in SL. Yes. People do have some love for Ambilia and Jam, but they don't really make much content for them. I got very disappointed when I found out there were no Jam fics whatsoever so I had to write on my own. What is this talk about everyone agreeing they're gfs and then not making content? Y'all are too obsessed with the three main ships and while 2 out of 3 of them are good and I get why that is, god it would be fun with some variety there. And besides Ambilia and Jam, people don't really talk about any other WLW ships. I have dipped my toes in Jazmin/Delfi and Lunina, but tbh since... I, am the only one who mentions them it feels awkward sometimes to talk about it lmao.

Ámbar x Ramiro, to be honest hahahaha

In a way, Dunclet and Viodora from asoue. Those are well liked, but for example, when I go through the Viodora tag it's like, updated once every third month. Also those ships are not well liked on instagram, because asoue instafans are belivers that everyone is str8

I lowkey ship Gina and Ashlyn from HSMTMTS and I am afraid to mention it cause it feels like no one agrees. Also the fandom scares me so I basically try to never say anything

But I will say I got some vibes from Maddox and Ashlyn and already after 1 episode I feel like there can be hints there of something. But again, it's only been 1 episode, it could just be me being wrong, but if it turns out it was a hint and something will happen then I will brag I saw it right away

I very much shipped Mildred and Maud from the worst witch in the 90s show. No one ever has, at least not what i've seen, and The worst witch is such a small and obscure franchise and fandom it feels a bit strange to say.

[cacodaemonia]

I wanted to talk about this with someone and you seemed like a safe person to approach, so I’m gonna confess/vent a little to you I guess if that’s okay 🥺

I’m fairly new to the Star Wars fandom and when I got into the clone wars and specifically the clones in general, naturally I started reading fanfic and looking at art. I noticed some people shipped the clones together and I thought nothing of it. Based on their interactions on screen I thought “yeah i can see why people interpreted it that way.” Especially ships like Jesse/Kix and Boil/Waxer. To the point now that in my mind they are just naturally together, I can’t imagine them not. Even if it’s not necessarily romantic, but I could get behind the romantic ship side as well. I like any version of the relationships between the clones, whether it’s more familial/brotherly or romantic.

Imagine my surprise, then, to find out that some people think it’s problematic or equal to in*est? I never saw it that way, and I still don’t. They’re not actually siblings. They’re clones, yeah, but they’re still… different people? But because I’m new to the fandom, I’m afraid to talk about it anywhere or with anyone for fear of being judged or shunned. Especially after that blacklist nonsense that recently went down. And it sucks too because I want to make friends and enjoy the fandom space, but I feel like I can’t to the full extent I want to for fear of judgement or hate. I’ve dealt enough with that in other fandoms, I’d rather just avoid it if I can in this new one, which means keeping quiet. But I hate that, too, because then I’m forced to hide this thing I really enjoy, which makes it feel shameful. Like, I recently really got into Rex/Fives and read/reread every fic that exists in the tag, but I feel like I can’t talk about it with anyone without being judged :/ they’re not even real people, I don’t see why some get so up in arms about it

I'm happy you feel like I'm a safe person! <3

Oh, same! I literally didn't think about it, then I was like, okay well some people associate clone/clone ships with actual familial relationships, so I guess I should be considerate of their sensitivity. I never saw it that way, because you absolutely cannot have millions of siblings, but then the antis got pushy so I said fuck it and went all in. XD

Anyway, as you said, some of the clone characters have such great dynamics with each other, even in the very small amount of screen time they get, so it's completely natural to ship them just like you'd ship any other characters.

They’re clones, yeah, but they’re still… different people?

Yes! Tbh (and I'm not directing this at people wo are just squicked out by clone/clone ships while being mature enough to ship and let ship <3), I find it kind of... unsettling when some people suggest that, just because the clones all look roughly the same, that automatically means they are a monolith and can't have a variety of relationships with each other.

It makes me wonder if these folks are completely failing to grasp one of the main themes of TCW: even if you look the same, you're not the same person inside / you don't have to be special to be special??

But yeah, it sucks that this group of very vocal, nasty people is trying to ruin things for others who just want to enjoy fandom in completely harmless, yet slightly different ways. I make liberal use of the block button and content/tag filters so I never even see their BS, but the sane people in the fandom shouldn't have to do that just to not get harassed.

Haha, what we need is a Chill People List! It would probably be quite extensive. :)

I wish I could help somehow, but other than painting a bigger target on my back since idgaf, I feel like all I can do is try to be a voice of reason. <3

Also, Fives/Rex is very cute and is definitely growing on me. :D

Take care! <3

[habitbslouis]

the lovely @purplepantsniall tagged me for 20 questions <3 thank youuu

what do you prefer to be called name wise?

- you can call me sue or sun i guess? my name's related to that but i don't have many nicknames sadly :(

when is your birthday?

- dec 5

where do you live?

- latam

three things you're doing right now?

- reading, having tea and doing this thing? jdbdjf

four fandoms that have piqued your interest right now?

- louis & harry, and for other things i like i'm not really into the fandoms now :( used to be in a lot tho

how is the pandemic treating you?

- i'm very privileged! stayed home the whole time, i usually don't wanna complain about it even if it's felt like shit sometimes? lost people very dear to me so there's that. this week i saw friends at school i haven't seen since the pandemic started (march 2020)! the situation in my country is complicated, but it's been fairly chill for like a month or so

songs you can't stop listening to right now?

- amoeba by clairo, if only by raveena and paranoid by black sabbath

recommend a movie

- last movies i watched were before sunrise and amélie i think? so that? but i want to rec a book because i can and it's open water :D (tw)

how old are you?

- feels intimidating saying it here but 17 ;)

school, university, occupation, other?

- school, i'm finishing in like a month or two !! scary

do you prefer hot or cold?

- this one's tough because i love-hate both! i just go with whatever tbh it's winter now and thursday i woke up to 30º celsius and yesterday to 12º, so living here has taught me to just embrace whatever i get :) wouldn't go below 15º or above 35º maybe but whatever it's ok

name one fact others may not know about you

- i started this blog at like 12 i think but i've been here on and off because i didn't speak english and didn't really understand the website then ahjahsjahk

are you shy?

- yes, sometimes excessively i'm afraid. at times i come across as extroverted because i'm one of those people who want everyone at the party to enjoy themselves so i make myself go talk to them, but i'm very very shy

do you have any preferred pronouns?

- she/her but don't think i mind he/they really

any pet peeves?

- unnecessarily slow and inefficient things i think? lol that one has been pointed out to me, but being forced to socialise is a big big one, or when people leave stuff wet aaaaaa

what's your favourite dere type?

- don't know i'm sorry !! but a friend said i look like i'd be into a kuudere type if it helps? or boku (something like that?). the one that's like cold/emotionless but is soft inside and the "boyish" one, hope i didn't mess up the names

rate your life 1-10. 1 being really crappy and 10 being the best you could ever be

- i will overthink this so 5

what's your main blog?

- this one !! (many rebrandings later lmao)

list your side blogs and what they're used for

- not gonna @ but i have a random blog where i save miscellaneous stuff (mainly langbrs)

is there anything you think people need to know about you before becoming friends with you?

- i'm very annoying and i talk a lot or not at all and i have too many feelings and i either answer texts within an hour or in 4 to 7 business days and i'm just basically a heart-shaped mass of stress. also as you may have noticed from this thing i can't give straight answers

this was fun but stressful hsbsjshsh <3

i'm tagging these lovely people: @jortslinson @strawberrysos @longhairlarry @holyshit @hearyouhowling @darkrainbowlouis

[cowboyshit]

twenty questions

tagged by: @dustofinsanity (thank you so much my dear!!!!!!)

what do you prefer to be called name-wise? honestly I’ll probably answer to most things as long as they aren’t mean. but ash, ashley, doe, those seem to be the solid three I’m known by around here when is your birthday? november 30th!  where do you live? in a tiny, backwoods cow-town smack dab in the middle of california three things you are doing right now? filling this questionnaire out, eating dinner I just finished cooking, and petting sadie with my foot since she’s curled up at my feet after she finished her dinner four fandoms that have peaked your interest. I guess I can go with four I’ve been heavily involved with, even though there’s plenty more than that since I’m a little fangirl at heart, but wrestling (obviously), black sails, the night shift, and pirates of the caribbean how has the pandemic been treating you? uh, I mean, it hasn’t been great and I’ve had to deal with some pretty bad shit as all of us have, and probably some of my worst mental health battles I’ve had to face in about a year or so, but honestly? I just kind of count my blessings these days. lucky to still be employed, even if my pay got a little cut it was nothing that keeps me from paying my bills. all I had to do was take away a few luxury things to make ends meet, and that’s a lot, LOT less than other people have had to do. so yeah, it’s been pretty shitty, this year has been bad news after bad news both personally and globally, but whatever. it could be worse. a song you can’t stop listening to right now? it is no-joke like a four-way tie. a bunch of good songs were in my discover weekly and I’ve been playing four of them on non-stop repeat one after the other. oh! and one my best friend showed to me. this baby don’t cry by k. flay, rock bottom by grandson, ok ok by hoko, and insurgents by the poolside by denny recommend a movie. i’ve jumped into holiday mood early af because tbh I need the holiday cheer, so keeping in that theme, I suggest the holiday with jude law because DUH how old are you? thirty! school, university, occupation, other? had some college, been working in my current career for the past ten years. hoping to pursue a promotion finally since my supervisors have been telling me for the past eight years that I need to promote do you prefer heat or cold? cold pleeeaaaase! I’m a radiator and put off heat like nobody’s business. I’m always warm. name one fact others may not know about you. this is hard because I just constantly blab everything about me, and I have two people who literally know EVERYTHING about me lmfao uhhh I guess... something people may not know... uhhh... on my dad’s side of the family one half was ashkenazi jewish who had to flee germany to avoid the holocaust, where they went to live in italy, while the other half were nazi’s committing some pretty bad stuff that my family won’t talk about, even to this day. funny how two descendants eventually met in america and fell in love, huh? and when they DID fall in love one of them was half italian and in the mafia! so I always joke that my bubbly cheerful self is a descendent of some pretty evil shit, and it feels like a nice little stab at those shitty ancestors of mine. are you shy? uhhh yeah and no??? like. I think I’m shy, since all interaction terrifies me and exhausts me, but everyone tells me I’m a social butterfly? and I’ve noticed in places I’m comfortable and confident, I do tend to be less shy and more involved and interactive? but I think I can be shy. a lot of waiting for other people to initiate because I’m too afraid to, struggling to talk or carry a conversation at times... I don’t know I think I’m overcomplicating this answer LOL preferred pronouns? she/her!  biggest pet peeves? gatekeeping, to be perfectly honest. I stopped following wrestling back in 2014 because when I first tried to get into the fandom, someone was trying to gatekeep a wrestler I also liked and had started making content for and they made me feel like shit for liking them, and I absolutely hated it. that’s why it took me an entire two years of quietly lurking in the wrestling fandom before I finally got brave enough to come out of the woodwork, and I’m grateful I’ve been so well received this time around. but now I’m hyper-sensitive to gatekeeping and I fucking hate it. no joke. and since it’s a pet peeve and I’m irked just remembering all that bs I went through, ima say I’m only a part of fandom to share my love of whatever that thing is with other people who love it too. I can’t stand anyone who thinks they have some sort of “claim” over a celebrity or a show or anything. get a different identity that isn’t wrapped up in that thing and stop seeing it as a threat when other people like it. be happy someone else is as passionate about that thing as you are and make a friend. damn. what is your favorite “dere” type? I’m pretty sure this is something with anime or that originated from anime, right? unfortunately I don’t know what they are so I can’t say LOL I don’t even know if I’m right about it coming from anime tbh rate your life from 1-10, 1 being crappy and 10 being the best it could be. 4, 5, but I’m putting in the foundation now and working to make it a 6, 7, or possibly 8 by a year or two from now. what’s your main blog? funnily enough? this one. my OTHER blog that was my main blog since I joined tumblr in 2009 got shoved to the side for this one last year LOL I assumed I’d log onto this blog once in awhile, but now it took over my whole damn life so here I am I guess list your side blogs and what they’re used for. I’m going to be fair and ONLY list my active ones because I have a few side blogs from when I role-played on tumblr that I haven’t touched in over a year. @doedreamss is my non-wrestling blog that WAS my main blog before this one, @cowboysht is my archive where I am ONLY putting my original gifsets/analysis/fanfiction so that one day I can offer people a blog of just my original work and no other posts (the queue is very slowly catching up I think I’ve queued posts up until june this year), @illfatedandstarcrossed is just a non-frequently used outlet for me to mope and dump emotions when I get sad about my relationship things (like a diary! but... public? and not my original thoughts? LOL), and then I have one more blog but it’s locked and private and it’s LITERALLY my diary where I can just vent when I got shit I wanna get off my chest but don’t necessarily want people to see it. Is there something people need to know about you before becoming friends? I probably won’t talk to you daily, tbh. I may not even talk to you weekly. socializing takes a lot out of me, on top of an already energy draining day-to-day in my personal life. I have a handful of people I connect with who I talk with frequently, but unfortunately as much as I’d love for it to be endless, I have to keep that list short for my own sanity. my infrequent conversations mean absolutely nothing about my lack of interest in you or how much I care about you. my granny once said I would be the perfect friend for someone you only want to talk to twice a month and she thought she was insulting me, but deadass I just said “YEAH! EXACTLY!!”

tagging: I really like this one so I WANT to tag people, but I feel braindead and also just want to post it cause I feel like I am definitely gonna forget to tag someone tbh aaaaahh okay okay I’m just gonna throw some names out there but please don’t feel pressured to do this (it is TWENTY questions) @kennyhoemega, @champbucks, @superkickparty, @adampage, @hintsofsunshine, @audreyhrnes, @sheslikealostflower, @lancearchers, @champnick, @janelanutella, @edgecution, @superrezzy00, @wardl0w, @writinglionqueen, @orangechuckiet, @hungmanhorsecarriage, @icouldbesus, @thatnerdwriter, @rampagewriting, @snarkandsarcasmftw, @tetsuyainthesky AND I DUNNO JUST ANYONE WHO WANTS TO OK I LOVE YOU ALL BYE

[emocatkeith]

oh i might add onto this little list in the future, but i just made two new blogs if you wanna check them out! they’re still new though. i also decided this would be easier for the people who followed me for the fanworks i make and not, like, memes or something lmao

superjail side-blog [in hiatus] @lordstinggay

batman side-blog [in hiatus] @wonderland-in-gotham 

sun and moon (fnaf)/general simp blog lol @soleilxe

ppg/cartoon side-blog @un-luckylynx

My General/Trigger Tagging System

3/09/21: Hey everyone! I want to implement something into my pinned post I made a bit ago, which is about how I tag certain things. To keep things tidy, I’ll add the tags underneath the cut so my blog doesn’t look cluttered. But that aside, the main reason why I’m making this is because I’m worried people could get triggered by some content I post.

To begin, I always end with TW in lowercase for possible triggers, most rather common to have. For general stuff and memes, I usually don’t add, but for big fandoms and stuff I like, I usually put the name of the series I like in the tags. If there’s spoilers, I’ll put either the full title or abbreviation of it followed by “spoilers.” 

I also don’t really tag my specific posts or art since I don’t think many people see them, but you can check my archive to search for anything I’ve made, or you can just ask me and I’ll dig through my posts to find the one you’re talking about. Take in mind this might take a while as I have around 3k posts the time of writing this.

Now, here’s the general trigger list. If you need to add any spoilers you want me to mark, just hit me up an ask (I have anon messaging turned off because of possible hate mail and shit. I don’t have time for that kinda stuff, haha.)

bugs tw/insects tw: pretty self-explanatory. i use both for most posts including these so more people can be safe while not having to blacklist one of them at the same time.

child abuse tw/abuse tw (for general cases): also obvious. if it involves gaslighting and stuff, i’ll still try and tag that as abuse since that shit,,,is fucking nasty dudes.

body horror tw: i usually use this for fictional characters or art pieces not depicting actual people, since that’s really disrespectful to say to someone like that. if i do reblog something pertaining to this, i like to tag it as either “wound/wounds tw” or “disability tw” for people with major facial/body deformity and stuff.

sui/cide tw: tbh i’m half afraid to say the full word in a post, but i tag this content with the full word and no slash in the middle. i’ll also tag posts just mentioning sui/cidal things, or attempted tries, under this general category.

scopophobia tw/trypophobia tw: for the fear of characters or people staring right at the viewer or even implying eye contact, and the fear of hole-like spot clusters.

unreality tw: for the subject of fictional events taking place in real life (ie monsters being real, the moon being alive, etc.) while this is a source of personal comfort for me, i know some deal with bad paranoia and i can understand!

tw nsfw/tw nsfw txt: pretty self-explanatory lmao. for “tasteful” depictions (i guess that’s how you say it?? censorships weird lol) i’ll use nudity tw!

eyestrain tw: anything with bright colors or possibly harmful visuals when it concerns eyesight and stuff. for brightly-colored/flashing gifs, i use flashing tw/epilepsy tw

i think this is all i have now? or at least the ones i commonly use. if you need me to add a trigger to the list, let me know! this tagging system also extends towards my side-blogs as well. thanks for reading!

[spiltscribbles]

Fic Writers Interview

I was tagged by the gorgeous souls @silversickles @mooncat457writing @omgcmere @bi-disaster-fsotus Thank you so SO much babies!

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name: I’m Len and I’m also  LupinMoons on AO3, though knowing me that’ll probs change soon enough RIP me and my dicey head

fandoms: The two main ships I write for are definitely Wolfstar and Firstprince, though I’ve got a bunch for Pynch as well— but yeah we’ll not discuss that fandom experience lmfao

where you post: So I’ve got a BUNCH of one shots ranging from like 2k to literally 10k on my writing tag here on Tumblr, Spilt Ink, but obviously the more polished up ones can be found on my AO3!!

most popular one-shot: Okay that depends I guess? On AO3 by hits and kudos it’s THIS little thing I wrote for Malec in my shadowhunters days, but on Tumblr I reckon it’s This one I wrote for Andreil?

most popular multi-chapter: So by Kudos it’s Look At You, Looking At Me which is a completed Amy/Laurie Two-shot, and by hits it’s hands down Come Back, Even As A Shadow, Even As A Dream, which is my beloved Firstprince Amnesia FIC that I fully intend on completing once my mental health is a bit more tolerable and I’m at a less busy time in my life.

favorite story I’ve written so far: This is so awks j becs this question can be taken in so many directions, and I’m always a self conscious little prick, but I guess probably

Head In The Clouds, But My Gravity’s Centered for Pynch because I think I really did capture their canon voices pretty well and it’s perfect winter vibes tbh 

I’ll Breathe You In, If You Hold Me Close for Wolfstar because it’s such a guilty pleasure thing, and I remember being so terrified and embarrassed while writing it becs Victoria is such a remarkable author for Wolfstar and it was a belated Bday gift for her, but I think I had fun with it and that’s all you can ask for tbh 

and lastly The One With The Marauders for it’s comedic value and how light hearted and fun it is to write and I get such amazing support for it by lovely souls whether on discord or Tumblr or AO3, notably RJ who’s like one of the top tear Wolfstar writers IMHO and has always given me ideas for it and just been a sweetheart<3

fic you were nervous to post: Okay this is two tear, becs apparently I don’t know how to make decisions lmfao. But like nervous over being judged is definitely from Metamorphosis which was ALSO a bday gift, and I wrote it for that dumb bitch Beth who is literally the most profound Firstprince author and author in general tbh and just beautiful inside and out! And I just remember staying up sprinting with Kathleen and shaking becs i was sure whatever I came up with would be pure shit and she’d hate it, but I think it was actually a catalyst which helped build the foundation of our friendship and she’s literally like one of the only people in my life that I trust wholeheartedly and love endlessly and I’m happy i ended up just going for it.

However, if we’re talking about like nervous to break into a fandom, it was hands down,  I Tried Writing Your Name In The Rain for wolfstar, because I’ve literally loved the idea of them since I was a fucking child— like when I thought I was still straight bahahaha— and There is countless masterpieces within the Wolfstar fandom and it’s so fucking huge and immense and rich with substance and beauty and I love them so much and I was so afraid of ruining their characters and dynamic but I’m so thankful that i’ve found so many amazing people who helped me get more confident with my take on Wolfstar.

how do you choose your titles: They’re almost always a lyric from either a favorite poem or the song I was listening most to while writing. Like I can tell you right now that the next thing I post will definitely have a Stevie Nicks lyric as a title lmfao!

do you outline: Outlines tbh intimidate me, and feel a bit stifling, but it’s definitely something I want to start doing because I’ve got two long ass Multi-chaps planned for 2021, and right now it’s just scrambled scenes written on this messy ass doc bahaha. 

complete: Oh lmfao I will not be posting each fucking one shot I’ve written, but ya’ll can find literally everything I’ve ever written on either my AO3 or Spilt Ink Tag, every ship I’ve written for are Wolfstar, Firstprince, Pynch, Percabeth, Kit/Ty, Malec, Jimon, Hamliza, Andreil, Dair, Steroline, Jackie/Hyde, Peter/Jason from BAPO, Marvin/Whizzer from Falsettos and maybe a couple others?

in progress: So I actually have quite a few things in the works, and I’ll just mention the ones that are close to being published.

Firstprince secret snowflake gift posted on Christmas day

Wolfstar secret snowflake gift posted on christmas day 

Wolfstar train ride one shot in January

Wolfstar next one shot for Friends AU before January

Wolfstar selkie Au in 2021

Tag some folks: So a bunch of people I was thinking of were already tagged, and I’m sorta not in a great mood but please if you’re interested in this challenge just consider yourself tagged! And tag me when you post and just have fun bubbyy!!!!

[ryuichirou]

Aren't you afraid of antis?

Oh we used to be.

It’s so bizarre to look back now and think about how we were discussing whether we should post Ereri at all or not.  Or whether we should tag it as Ereri. Or whether we should post only not romantic interactions with them. Or whether we should post it on our main acc or maybe post it on our nsfw acc instead, just in case.

When you see all these stories about people being harassed, bullied, kicked out of fandoms and threatened for just shipping something wrongly, you start to get super paranoid, especially when you don’t post very often and don’t know what to expect. We expected a fucking disaster lol We were actually wrong and expected Tumbl to be a hellhole before we found out that it moved to Twitter.

We were so sure that the moment we post Ereri the world would end. And then we thought that maybe it’s ok to post Ereri, but we shouldn’t tag it, or the world would end. And then we thought that maybe posting 19 y.o. Eren is ok, but if we post 15 y.o. Eren with Levi, the world would end. It’s fucking sad how sure we were that someone would think that we deserve to be condemned for this and that we’ll instantly get 10 callout threads and stuff. I remember that I was pretty upset and angry back then, because it felt so unfair and stupid. Why would a bunch of random people decide what we can and cannot post for us?

At the same time we saw that there were people who post Ereri, and it seemed like it was ok; this ship had its own fandom, active fans, etc… And we kinda wanted to throw our Ereri on Tumblr and Twi because we haven’t seen their dynamic portrayed the way we draw it in the western fandom tbh?

So we had a choice to make: either we don’t post anything, don’t risk it and as a result don’t get to share our take on Ereri (which I still consider interesting and not so popular...) or we post it and take the risk of becoming a target for loud and aggressive antis who want our blood. It didn’t really help that we like multiple ships and a lot of other shippers (esp Eruri shippers) hate Ereri too, they still despise us.

And then we started posting it and nothing happened. A couple of peeps complained about Zevi I guess, but that’s it for now lol

Of course there are still people who go “you can ship anything BUT don’t ship Ereri” and “if you ship this you support irl criminals” when they see this type of content, and there certainly are people who think drawing Ereri is a waste of talent and that harassing artists online is somehow fixing irl problems with c**ld p*rn*graphy and that it’s better to protect the feelings of 2d boys even if it means they end up ruining a real person’s mental health. But at this point ehhh I’m not as scared of them. Being able to block the most vocal antis (not even from the snk fandom lol) and mute certain words helped a lot to calm me down.

Of course, there’s still stuff that we’re not comfortable with posting and idk if we’ll ever be.

But I personally worry about antis much less right now. Maybe I just got used to this feeling that at any second someone can think that we’ve had enough of that sweet fandom attention and try to cancel us lol

It sucks though.

[missnxthingg]

what about having a scary movie marathon with the boys (tom, haz, harry, sam, tuwaine) and getting a little too touchy with haz? and maybe the guys start teasing like the divs they are lol ily 💖

Missnxthingg’s Birthday Sleepover Party

Halloween Prompts

Pairing - Harrison Osterfield x Reader 

Word Count - 1.5K

A/N: Soooo, I got a little carried away and turned this into a one-shot (probably). I was bored and I loooooved your request. So thank you and I hope you enjoy it.

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"So, what are you guys doing for Halloween?" You were having a nice evening with the boys at the pub, and thinking that maybe you could do that again soon.

"Horror movie marathon!" Harry cheered. "Starts at sunset and goes all the way to sunrise."

"It's our little tradition." Sam added. “We dress up in Halloween themed pajamas or a comfortable costume.”

"Harry picks the movies and we all watch it together." Tuwaine explained a little bit more.  “Then we sleep for the rest of November 1st because we’re tired.”

"You should come this year." Tom asked and all the boys nodded in agreement.

You really wanted to say yes. Ever since you became a part of their little group, you were comfortable and you wanted to spend some more time with them. Plus, you had a massive crush on Harrison and even though he always gives you the signal that he likes you too, you've never even kissed once.

And you really wanted to spend some time with him, because you always longed for those small moments together. But you hated scary because you were terrified of them. Although, you would never admit it to anyone.

"Oh, thank you for the offer but I don't wanna be a burden."

"Come on, it will be fun." Harrison nudged your side and smiled softly. "I would love to have you there." 

All the boys smirked with your little interaction, which made you blush a little and lower your sight to your drink. You took a big gulp before replying:

"Okay, sure. It will be nice."

But if you were being honest, everything was building your nerves up since that night at the pub. Not only the fact that you were going to watch horror movies, but also the fact that you would be spending the whole night at Harrison's house. It didn't matter if a whole bunch of other people would tag along, it still felt intimate.

So you put up your best Halloween themed outfit when you dressed up with your skeleton pajama jumpsuit. You did want to feel comfortable, but you also wanted to look cool. And that was a good way to do that. When the sun was starting to set, you drove to the boy’s place and found the driveway decorated with carved pumpkins and tombstones. The boys really put some effort into the decoration.

You knocked on the door and Harrison opened it up dressed as Freddy Krueger, but with sweatpants. He was holding a bowl of candy and a weird smile on his face, which softened when he saw who it was. He thought it would be just some kids from the neighbourhood asking for candy, but it was actually you - the girl he was in love with.

“Trick or treat!” You said with an exciting smile on your face.

“Hey, (Y/N). Happy Halloween.” 

“Thanks.” 

“Please, come in!”

You were the last to arrive. Well, to be fair, Tom, Harrison, Harry and Tuwaine lived in that house and Sam lived just a little further down the road, so it was only fair that they arrived early. But Sam’s girlfriend was already wrapped around him as they chose the best position to cuddle into the movie, and all the boys were already groaning because the girls they invited said they would not be coming.

“Yeah, whatever. Let’s just start this thing.” Harry shrugged as he pressed play on the movie.

“Uhm, sorry. They are a bit boring today.” Harrison whispered since A Nightmare Before Christmas was already playing on the TV. “There’s no place left on the big couch, but I guess we can squeeze in the two-seat couch.”

“It’s okay for me.”

“Come on, I got us a pumpkin blanket.”

Spending time with Harrison was awesome, and this was probably the closest you’ve ever been to the boy. He made sure to share a blanket with you as you watched the first movie. He shared his popcorn and even invited you to give some candy to the kids that were knocking on the door. By now, the movie night was going pretty well because the movie wasn’t scary at all.

But the next movie on the list was The Ring and you were terrified of it. You tried to hide it from everyone, but eventually, you would wince and jump scared of what you were watching. Once you even hide your face on Harrison’s shoulder after a little scream.

“Hey, are you okay?” He whispered and you shook your head, still not looking at the TV. “Oh, you’re scared.”

“A little.” You groaned and felt the boy wrap his arms around you.

“It’s okay, I got you.” You felt comfortable and safe with him, so you melted into his hug. 

“Harrison is showing off as a protective boyfriend, y’all.” Harry teased and the boys all laugh.

“What a tough boy.” Tuwaine tease. “I want a hug too, Hazzy. I’m scared.”

“Come on, just kiss already.” Tom teased and all the boys agreed.

“Hey, fuck off! She’s scared.” Harrison pressed her a little tighter on his chest and threw daggers with his eyes at the boys.

For the rest of the night, you were secured with him. The other movies weren’t so scaring with him holding you. When you were feeling afraid, you would grip on his hand tightly and he would distract you. And it was actually very comfortable. On the third movie, he spent the whole thing petting your hair and listening to some other jokes from the boys. And on the fourth movie, you lied your head on his shoulder and played with his hand.

By the time it was 4 am, you were starting to get a little sleepy. The boys were still hyped with Monster House -  lighter movie after a few very scary movies - but you were definitely fancying some sleep. Also, you were a little cold, so you sneaked off to the kitchen to make yourself some tea.

“Come on, Harrison. Go kiss her!” Tom whispered once you were off and Harrison rolled his eyes.

“Just leave us alone.”

“Haz, she’s so into you. The way she looks at you…” Tuwaine said and a small smile cracked on the blonde’s face.

“And you’ve been holding each other all night.” Sam finished.

“Just go ask her to stay the night with you.” Harry finished. Harrison suddenly had a wave of confidence hitting his body and he smiled widely.

“I’ll go after her.” He whispered and the boys silently cheered.

He found you in the kitchen, pouring hot tea in a cup. You smiled warmly to see him and made sure to pour another one for him because you knew he was a sucker for tea and wouldn’t deny some. He silently thanked for the tea and sat next to you.

“Thank you for making my night a little better, Haz.” You nudged him. “I’m very scared of horror movies and I’m thankful to have someone to help me feel a little better.”

“It’s nothing. I’ll always make you feel safe if I can.” He smiled warmly back. “Uhm, I like you, (Y/N). I like you a lot. And tonight’s been pretty amazing.”

“I like you too, Hazzy. A lot.” He put a stray of your hair behind your ear and licked his lips.

“C-can I kiss you?”

“Yes.” You smiled before feeling his lips against yours.

The kiss brought a little sweetness to this scary Halloween night. You were tired, but you were willing to stay awake until the sunrise just kissing him. It didn’t last long, but it was a perfect first kiss, and you felt like it wasn’t going to be the last of the night.

“Are you tired?” He asked, very close to your lips.

“A little, but… I don’t wanna go to sleep right now.”

“We can watch the rest of Monster House cuddled up on the couch and ditch them after the movie.” He suggested. “I really would love if you spent the night. I-If that’s not too much for you.”

“Of course! I would love to cuddle and watch the rest of the movie. And I’ll actually accept staying over because there’s no way I’m sleeping alone in my apartment after The Ring.” You laughed once again and kissed one more time before going back to the living room.

The boys all cheered loudly when they saw you two come back to the living room together and holding hands. You didn’t care, deciding to only sit on Harrison’s lap and rest your head on his chest. He left many kisses across your face, and even stole some from your lips. You did steal some back and you were enjoying it a lot. The boys did tease you a little more, but you didn’t care because you had each other.

And that was definitely the best night of sleep you had in your life. Harrison made you feel safe and feel loved, so you weren’t scared at all. He would always be there to hold you whenever you need it. He is your safe haven.

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Writing Tag Game

Tagged by @swaps55​. Thank you, lovely! Tagging whoever wants to do this next! 

How many works do you have on AO3?

Okay so this is slightly complicated by the fact that I have two pseuds, so for one it’s 22 and for the other it’s 11

What’s your total AO3 word count?

209021 and 48539

What are your top 5 fics by kudos? (there’s a chance I’m about to offend the hell out of some of my new followers but here goes.)(also this is all for my main pseud bc the top count on the other is 4)

What Remains - A Wincest fic featuring amnesia and a small town in Texas. 

Shape I’m In - a hockey fic I coauthored

Never Lived a Time Better Spent In Love - a different hockey fic where two dudes retire and adopt a baby

Actually, Plenty - a sequel to the fic in the number one spot, written about six years after I posted the first one and left the fandom

Everything Changes, Everything Stays the Same - Wincest holiday fic. My greatest claim to fame in fandom is that astolat read this and recced it. 

Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

Always. As a reader it makes me sad when I have this big emotional feeling about a fic and gush about it to the author and it’s just crickets. Also I just appreciate the fuck out of anyone who takes the time to leave a comment and tell me that they liked something I wrote. 

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

Oh definitely lathbora viran which is just this short one shot I did out of a much larger idea I had but just didn’t feel like writing. So I just wrote the angsty ending. 

What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

You know, I don’t know? Like maybe You’re Good For Me (a hockey fic) because absolutely nothing bad or angsty happens in it at all? Like 95% of my fics end happily but I’m an angst queen so there’s always a black lining. 

Do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you’ve written?

A couple. The first was literally twenty years ago when I put the popslash boys (and girls) into Anne McCaffrey’s world of Pern with All the Heart Can Know. (This is incredibly embarrassing so please don’t tell me if you click this link.) 

I’ve also written jaeger curtain fic with the hockey boys in Pacific Rim, under Scenes From the Apocalypse.

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Not that I can recall. -- ETA that I forgot that I got blasted on the hockey anon for my first hockey fic, which I’ve since expunged from the internet because the main pairing involved someone who has since been accused of sexual assault. 

Do you write smut? If so what kind?

I have. The smuttiest thing I’ve ever written is an Oiler boys threesome, Hold You Down.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I’ve ever seen. 

Have you ever had a fic translated?

I did but it’s the fic that I’ve since expunged from existence. 

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Mildred, A College AU is a J2 fic I co-authored with one of my besties. I also coauthored the aforementioned Shape I’m In, which started its life as chat fic on twitter. That’s it so far. Co-authoring is so much harder than just doing it yourself though. 

What’s your all-time favorite ship?

That I’ve written or read? I used to say that Rodney McKay/John Shepard from Stargate Atlantis were my OTP of OTPs and that still feels correct in my heart, but I’ve never written them. I honestly don’t know what my favorite ship to write is. 

What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

I’d love to have the motivation to finish anything, tbh. But I had so many plans for Scenes From the Apocalypse that I don’t think I’ll ever actually write down. 

What are your writing strengths?

Conveying emotion with sparse phrasing, dialogue, making people cry. 

What are your writing weaknesses?

Writing in anything other than tight third person present. 

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

I’m of the firm belief that it should only be done if you get a native speaker to spot check you. 

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

I was rewriting scenes for The Princess Bride at 13, but the first fic I posted for was popslash and I am not afraid to talk about it. 

What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

Right now it’s gravity, my Julie and the Phantoms fic. I think it’s one that best displays my strengths and also one that you can really see my growth as an author if you’ve been with me the last twenty years. Also I read it out loud to my best friend while we were in the same room and we both had to take a cry break.