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reptilequeen2000 · 9 months

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I’m so tired of the distance I’m so tired of the loneliness eating away at me

#I’m trying to be brave for us I swear #but it hurts so much #I was only able to do it before because I thought it would be the last time #my heart can’t take it #all I do now is wait and miss you #I can’t take care of myself I can’t eat I can’t get out of bed #I wonder if you’ll notice I’m still losing more weight #you didn’t notice before why would you now #I see you cringe slightly whenever you walk into my room and it’s a mess #you never say anything and I get it #but I wish you’d see me struggling and try to help instead of just not saying anything #please just do SOMETHING #I know you can’t just wait for people to notice and I should ask for for help when I need it #but for fucks sake I lost 20 pounds in a month and you said NOTHING #how do I get your attention #how do I get you to notice anything #I fell right back into my eating disorder this autumn at an alarming speed to the point where everyone else around me has noticed #if they didn’t notice I wasn’t eating they noticed how different I look #and you’re the only one who somehow didn’t notice until I told you they wanted to send me back to treatment if it continues to progress #I’m not blaming you for it but fuck you’re my boyfriend you should be the first to notice #you know I’m without a therapist right now too #I I feel like I have to beg for you to think of me #i know youre tired after work but I’m losing my mind over here #I felt less lonely when I was single this isn’t fair #things to talk to my therapist about

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daily-odile · 3 months

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AUGH I’d love to see more time looping odile if possible,,,,, how do you think she’d like; “devolve” over each of the acts as compared to Siffrin over time :O

ok im gonna be honest i did like portrait edits months ago and just never finished them. so here you go

act 3:

act 5:

#some of them are still missing... I'll edit this post if I finish them as well #isat #isat spoilers #odile loops au #day 108 #isat odile #i'm too lazy to individually export them in transparent atm...#tell me if yall ever need it #edit: I FORGOT TO ANSWER THE QUESTION #I mean yeah technically the portraits work but I do have Thoughts about this #I just think that throughout the loops odile becomes more. annoyed. and irritated #Like by act 3 fighting isn't really amusing anymore #dying/getting frozen is. ah. welp #But by act 5 she's just speedrunning #Just super irritated. like die already i've got variables to test #act 3 frozen is a momentary rest; the break is nice and she knows she can get back next loop; it's fine. act 5 is ugh seriously #tired. annoyed. unamused. what a waste of time #anyways wait how long has it been since I posted #(sees date of last post) OH. um #sorry guys I've been busy job (internship) hunting #will I post more from now on? No promises <3 #Thank you for sticking around nontheless... I appreciate all the stuff yall send in my inbox <3 #isat au

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fluffyartbl0g · 1 year

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Someone get this man a younger sibling that ISNT like. Twice his height.

#one piece #op fanart #monkey d. luffy #shirahoshi #kozuki momonosuke #IVE FINISHED REREADING THROUGH WANO IM OBSESSED WITH MOMONOSUKE NOW #I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AND I MISS HIM SO MUCH T - T!!!!#literally tears streaming down my face ‘But I think of you like a little brother!#You’ve heard of laser beam that make you read one piece #get ready for laser beam that makes you REREAD one piece #srsly. do it. I didn’t care about characters like bellamy or shirahoshi or even momonosuke all that much on my first read through #IM OBSESSED NOW. I LOVE HARUDJIN THE GIANT TOO AND I CANT WAIT TO SEE MORE OF HIM T - T!!! I ALSO DIDNT CARE ABOUT KATAKURI LIKE AT ALL #NOW I CANT GET ENOUGH #also what the actual heck guys. I know its only been a couple of months since wano ended.#but why aren’t there any fics centred on luffy and momo being brothers… There’s like one on ao3 and it’s in italian…#PEOPLE ARE ACTUALLY SLEEPING SO HARD ON LUFFY BEING THE OLDER BROTHER/MENTOR TO BOTH MOMO AND SHIRAHOSHI #IM SO MAD #SHIRAHOSHI AND MOMO ARE BOTH THE CHOSEN ONES ; - ;!!! AND LUFFY HAS BEEN PROHPESIZED TO HELP GUIDE THEM TO USE THEIR POWERS!!!#eg shirahoshi hearing the voices of the sea kings and momo hearing zunesha #both times luffy hasn’t been able to talk to them… but he’s been able to guide his younger siblings to use their powers properly #No im fr obsessed with luffy and shirahoshi and momo WHERE THE GOD DAMN FANFICTION AAAGFRGEHSHHSHSHS #LUFFY TREATING SHIRAHOSHI AND MOMO THE SAME WAY ACE TREATED HIM WHEN HE WAS YOUNGER T - T #KILL ME AAAAA1!!1!1!1!!1!1!1 #99 percent of all tags on my posts are just me freaking out LMAOOOO

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wardingshout · 9 months

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Family for day 6 of SpeSilverWeek! Edition uuh found biological and crime I guess...

#this was the first one I completed tbh and I'm not vibing but it was rly good warmup and tbh working lineless is so much easier...#I get lazier and messier concerning anatomy esp and stuff but I have fun...#spesilverweek #pokespe silver #pokespe blue #pokespe #my art #the thing about this is. I have so many thoughts about this one very specific rocket au where they aren't dex holders but find Giovanni #instead but he still goes missing and they still kind of hate team rocket bc the whole mask of ice thing still happened so they try to fuck #shit up from within now that giovanni is gone even though they also rly just kinda want him to return and deal with stuff himself #and the admins have these rly fun roles of all being in disagreement on what to do #like the boss might be dead his kids should take over or we Must find the boss or lol no boss my team rocket now #and then the dex holders get mixed in too and it's Fun bc everyone is fighting everyone #also sorry Giovanni for making you look like that #it's like 5min til day 6 technically but my laptop is being a butt so in case it won't turn on tomorrow here it is now #I will not wait 5min for midnight I got a new pillow for christmas and I wanna SLeep on it noW! hell yeah !!#pokemon

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vonlipvig · 1 year

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my recurring nightmare

#jonah ryan #greg hirsch #veep #succession #can you imagine that. disgusting brothers indeed. put them in a paper shredder NOW.#ive been thinking about this meme all day and laughing my ass off i had to do it dkjfhdk #WAIT EDIT FKJGH totally missed the typo dfhkjf

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secretsimpleness · 2 months

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Sometimes I want to bring Morrigan but then I remember I play as a face-tanking rogue and I bring Wynne. Warden Cousland, Morrigan, Wynne / Dragon Age Origins (c) Bioware

#dragon age #dragon age fan art #comic #morrigan #warden cousland #healer #bioware #dao #dragon age origins #hero of ferelden #cousland #wynne #I'm back. I guess.#I did not notice at first but apparently I took a break from tumblr. I've already had several breakdowns over the dashboard.#(turns out I was on the 'for you' tab rather than the 'following' tab. the theme had changed as well. absolutely insufferable.)#I've felt really unconnected for a while but it actually feels better now? as if my tumblr mutuals was the missing link.#very healthy and hot of me ngl #so. I had a two week holiday this year and they were instantly slurped up. it went so fast!#there was this big football thing the week before my holiday - basically teams of teens come from all around the world to play etc.#I heard a girl tell her teammates that 'I'd love to travel on this bus every morning; happy people all around you; just add some music...'#she was also very excited when the bridge opened. the 'happy people' around her sighed bitterly and leaned back for a ten minute wait.#it is thankfully over now. the bus home is no longer stuffed full of football teams. but it's a fun experience for the players etc etc etc #well. in other thrilling news I went to spy on our sister shops during my time off. to see what they do differently. maybe steal some ideas #one store was like an instagram post with fancy teacups and stylish outfits. who knew a second-hand store could be so boring.#the other was like a man-cave with furniture and a passively-aggressive note by the toys stating that 'if u break it u pay. idiot. tnx<3'.#the man-cave was my favourite :)#rant over now! take care and bye etc!

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mintjeru · 4 months

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hypothetically speaking, these would be cute sticker designs ^^

open for better quality | no reposts

#omniscient reader's viewpoint #orv #turning novel #터닝 #the third wheel strikes back #beware the villainess #i stan the prince #i raised a black dragon #fanart #myart #doodle #do i want to tag all these characters... probably not... there are already so many manhwas/webnovels tagged #i trust that you will all reblog so it can get to its intended audience right ;u;#this has been finished for a while but i was saving it to post later #but now that i think about it if i wait it'll get mixed up w/ some other things #so here you go lol #by 'hypothetically' i really mean that i don't know if i'll make anything out of these unless folks want them?#i also was considering designing ot3 stickers for jp a.nimanga series too ^^#edit: i'm yelling i don't know all the acronyms and i missed one of the tags. oh well.

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in-a-bucket · 28 days

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holy shit with drdt coming back soon my fridays are about to be fucking insane. like i'm gonna get tetro episodes and a despair time episode like that's so much peak in one day

#drdt #danganronpa: despair time #tetro danganronpa pink #tetro danganronpa #tetro dr #reminding you all again that you need to go watch tetro danganronpa right fucking now #im so serious you will not regret it #it's so good #but it's not for the faint of heart #like seriously the stuff that has been happening in recent episodes is fucked up #and for despair time ive missed it so much i hope the dev is doing better now #can't wait to see my boy whit again

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necrotic-nephilim · 1 month

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thank you for the tag, @sasheneskywalker!!!

rules: answer and tag nine people you want to get to know better and catch up with.

favorite color: it changes regularly, but currently, a dusty/greyish purple

last song: Maps by The Front Bottoms

currently reading:

Butcher & Blackbird by Brynne Weaver is my current fiction read and i *hate* it with my entire being. don't read it.

Postcolonial Astrology: Reading the Planets through Capital, Labor, & Power by Alice Sparkly Kat is my current non-fiction read and so far, it's very good

i'm reading a lot of comics at the moment, but my main read is Manhunter (2004) which so far, is very good, i highly recommend. i'm also planning to read Midnighter (2007) and Black Widow (2014).

currently watching:

The Acolyte has been my most recent fixation so that's just on loop rewatching over and over in the background. a lot

i've been watching Pennyworth which is far better than i expected it to be, i'm really enjoying it

i also started Invincible, which i've been enjoying

idk if it counts but i've rewatched Madame Web a concerning number of times in the past few days.

currently craving: i'd kill for an Italian Cream Soda from tea2go rn

coffee or tea: tea. i used to be a big coffee person in my teens but my chronic illness doesn't like caffeine and it *really* doesn't like coffee so i just drink tea now, but i do love tea

hobby to try: the unrealistic hobby i'd like to get into a fanfiction binding, but that takes materials and resources i do *not* currently have. i think a more realistic answer is i've been meaning to get into marvel comics more.

current au: tbh the main AU i'm working on is a Lance Brunner-centric Post-Crisis fic where i'm completely rewriting his origins to make his death as Robin more significant but still something no one talks about, leading to the ressurection of Jason also reviving Lance and Jason going on his little spree, having no idea he's not the only dead Robin. i've figured out all of the backstory and how i want to characterize Lance, but the actual plot of the fic i'm still working out. i'm leaning toward Lance/Dick as a ship, but i haven't decided. i have so many notes and ideas though and i think it's funny to take a random one-off character from a random 60s comic and actually turn him into something substantial and how he'd shape the Batfamily. trust me i'm so close to infodumping about it here everyday.

i'm also working on a *really* messed up unhealthy Damian/Tim fic, where Damian purposefully breaks the timeline so Tim was never Robin and Damian was the third Robin instead. but when Bruce "dies" Damian realizes he has no idea where to start with finding Bruce so he has to go to a civilian!Tim for help, who has no idea the timeline was changed or that he was ever Robin in a different world. it's gonna be fun and fucked up and full of Damian's jealousy complex over Tim.

i don't know if i can come up with nine whole people to tag for this since i'm still new here but i can try: @searchforahero @divine-dominion @kevin-day-is-bi @kerakeriza @deepwithintheabyss

@maryshellyswife @alicemaem @justmyshittyspace @sandmanwhore and yeah that's all i got.just tagging some mutuals/ppl i see on my posts a lot!!!

#necrotic ramblings #tag game #!!!! ty sm for tagging me in this aaaaa i love tag games #also sashene the omegaverse worldbuilding thing you're working on sounds so cool.#i *love* well built omegaverse worlds so much that consider real world dynamics and mechanics. cannot wait #sorry tagging random ppl is awkward i rlly don't have many mutuals yet #but i see all the lil ppl who mass like/reblog my stuff at once and i love all of you.#i do recognize who consistently interacts with my stuff. i see it all.#idk how to be cool mutual friends with ppl tho. socialization isn't my forte #which is weird bc it *used* to be. idk what happpened.#i had to text my groupchat for their tumblr handles so i could make it to nine whole ppl #ty alice ronnie and skye for being my sacrifices <3 y'all have to suffer with knowing my batcest blog now.#the lance brunner idea is plaguing me though i think it's really funny #i've had it in my head since i read the comic he's in. bc there's only one. after seeing posts about him #he's fucking ridiculous but. i see potential i won't lie #this was delightful tho i miss doing tag games. 10/10.

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danwhobrowses · 4 months

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Okay so I was gonna do a big gush over all the new Bells Hells outfits on the recent cr episode (a surprise since I had expected that they'd show them for the live show), but instead I'm gonna encourage you to check out @agarthanguide who is answering asks about the process of designing them, they're very insightful, and I'm sure they're more than happy to answer more - within reason ofc.

#critical role #cr spoilers #c3e96 #bells hells #bell's hells #cr3 #cr3 spoilers #sorry for the tag I'm sure you have notifs in the 100s by now #but like there's so much to gush about on these new outfits #and of course my shipper ass can't help but love the smaller details between Ashton and Fearne's outfits #will miss the long coat and the corset but I understand Ashton's desire to distance from the hishari logo - and they do look punk as hell #very surprising to learn that they aren't privy to the episodes ahead of time #though it makes sense for the ones who didn't go into a winter climate to not prep for cold weather XD #true himbo bard and 'clothes will only weigh me down' barbarian behaviour #Laudna looking more like Delilah does show the worrisome furthering of her addiction - plus the birdcage-esque petticoat #Imogen looking really fierce in her design - Letters' dark tones did suit her very well #all the vines from Orym too and so many different flowers for Fearne which I expect represent each of the Hells #I bet there's more to come because of Sam's new PC and the Werewolf form for Chet - but do we also get more Titan form art?#oh wait I'm still gushing! shit my bad (not actually sorry)!

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nothinggold13 · 7 months

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Two so far:

“but YOU’RE the doctor!” “Oh, I don’t look like him.”

*reads his old diary*

*plays recorder*

*steps in a puddle*

*jumps over a boulder*

*wears a tall, lumpy hat*

*murders some daleks*

*that grin. you know the one*

I support him in all his endeavours. 💛

#classic who #doctor who #the second doctor #patrick troughton #the entirety of his first season as is available on Tubi is animated #so idk if there’s live action differences that exist somewhere out there in unfinished serials?#’cause I’m just going off the reconstructions available to me rn #but my GOODNESS he has been an EXPERIENCE so far #btw for people reading all my thoughts. You should know that Tubi ONLY includes complete serials #so episodes that survived the rest of their serials being lost just… aren’t there. So I know I’m missing things that technically exist #and again I know eventually I’ll need to delve into the audio recordings! but for now I’m doing one medium at a time 😅#ANYWAY. can’t wait to meet live action Two. 😂 but animated Two is delighting me.

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heybaetae · 6 months

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hi

#hi #i am just popping on here for a second bc i’m not in the mood to be back yet but my queue is getting quite full #so i think i might have to unpause it soon #maybe tomorrow idk yet #just a heads up in case i seem active again i’m not really i just had a lot of stuff piling up 😭#it will be a Huge shuffled mess so patience is appreciated!!#i apologize if you’re waiting on me but thank you for waiting regardless #please keep using my tracked tag for your creations #i will be back for real eventually #my mental health is quite terrible lately i still need time #it’s about to be a year since the last time i saw my sister before she passed so like. my grief is going through a crazy stage #i’m still not getting a ton of sleep #my brain is just Bad things all day #it’s all just really sucky but i’m trying to do my best 🙃#i hope you are all well i miss you #i will respond to messages at some point too #there are very few which..well it puts things into perspective and validates certain feelings ig lol #it’s all good that’s something i’m working on internally #hopefully i get there #bye again for now 💕

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akimojo · 1 year

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people love to use ffxiii’s messy development as a reason to completely shit on the game but honestly the fact they managed to sneak in so many little details in the gameplay in a way that reflects the characters and story despite all the miscommunication between the dev sections is just impressive to me

#was xiii horribly planned out and missed out on a lot of important feedback because of the poor time management? absolutely #does that mean you cant be impressed with what the game achieved regardless of whether you liked it or not? fuck no #also the fact theres next to no bugs (not counting the pc port because... yeah) is amazing all things considered #and the graphics still hold up to this day #the linearity is everyones main issue with the game but look at x dude #x was linear as hell too but it makes sense bc yuna had a pilgrimage to follow #just as how it makes sense for the xiii cast to not have time to stop and explore cocoon while they were being hunted by the government #thats why you have so much more freedom to explore when youre on pulse #theres not even anything objectively wrong with having a game be linear in the first place #and the people complaining about the story being ''incoherent'' are just... wrong?#they give you enough hints within the dialogue to piece the story together yourself while also not leaning on exposition dumps to tell it #and if you cant do that then the datalogs are right THERE #games have relied on ''notes'' to tell parts of their story for ages now and i dont understand why its suddenly bad when xiii does it #i dont like sitting through exposition dumps and i like being able to analyse and theorize about a plot WHILE im experiencing it #and a lot of other people feel the same way so its not an objectively bad aspect of the game's storytelling #you just need to pay attention and be patient and wait for the story to unfold #i went off the rails but ANYWAY #aki stfu #final fantasy xiii

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katabay · 7 months

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I'm sure that there s a perfectly good reason, but it's just really funny to me that Pompeyo has beef with a teenager (Marcus). What a way to NOT copy Sulla

lmaoo yeah

honestly, it’s very one sided: Pompeyo is trying so hard to get along with Marcus and it’s just not clicking because Marcus distrusts him for being a (former) political ally of Felix.

like, from Marcus' point of view, Pompeyo let Felix fuck Crasso over for his own gain, and fully expects Pompeyo to behave exactly like Felix once Pompeyo fully realigns himself with Crasso. Marcus really only acts civil to Pompeyo because of Publius (who. god. he needs a new name so bad. Paolo? Paris? I might give up trying to pick a name that begins with P and just name him Celestino or something, tbh), and even then. the civility is debatable.

later tho! it takes two events that happen several years apart from each other, but they do come to an Understanding. Pompeyo is actually totally unaware of the moment that Marcus decides that Pompeyo is part of the family.

Marcus still gives Pompeyo a lot of shit, but it's no longer actively hostile. just regular, garden variety fucking around (affectionate) and making Pompeyo's life a little bit difficult on purpose because it's kind of funny.

#I’m thinking of changing Marcus’ name to Mark to give him another degree of separation between him and his historical namesake #I’ll have to do some sample dialogue scenes to see how it goes #ask tag #anyway. i actually miss so much people stopping by at 11 and pulling out the coffee mugs and the instant coffee and sitting around #uh. wait. this might need a cw #what's. the cw for famine related hunger #cw starvation //#cw child death //#bad governance the series #WAHOO anyway it's all rough drafts so you get to see all of my blocking notes. subject to change the next time i do edits etc #like already ive decided that the weight of marcus changing his opinion on pompeyo has another part to it i just didn't have it #sketched out. so for now. this is the general very barebones idea of the scene

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ithinkdogshouldvote2 · 1 year

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YOURE TELLING ME THAT I GOT A TASTE OF TERRY JR AND NOW I HAVE TO FUCKING WAIT 2 GODDAMN WEEKS WHILE ANTHONY BITCH CUCKS ME????? I'm gonna fucking THROW UP.

Update:

FUCK.

Due to recent developments, I'm freezing myself in a block of ice. Unthaw me in 4 weeks.

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vault81 · 13 days

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finally got the achievement for killing all the high dragons in inquisition

#that shit was so hard #thank god blackwall is ridiculously op as a tank #also thank god the lightning rift mage build is op as shit #gonna miss you in veilguard my beloved #mainly took him cassandra and iron bull for dragons #solas as well bc he's a good support but not all the time #also i stg the dragons get harder to kill the more of them you take down #now i have just have to wait hours and hours for the war table stuff and i can do what pride had wrought #and doing blackwalls and josephines quests #then i can finish up the mq and do the dlc's

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