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#als your asks?? they're so fun and thoughtful and reliable..
astrumocs ยท 2 years
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Actually you don't get anon either I'm coming for u /LH
WREN .. MY BELOVED FRIEND OF ALL TIME WREN... you are such a fucking treasure dude. You're incredibly sweet!! I'm so glad we started to talk! I don't want to be corny but I feel really understood?? Very acknowledged.. you make all of our conversations so lively and I can really feel your passions man.. and seeing you talk about your ocs and all the thought and time you put into them inspires me!!! It really does! I love being able to joke about with you.. have these lighthearted times.. (I am also going to blow u up.. u going down with me u SEE..)
There's such a unique charm to all your ocs! They're all so charming and you really know how to build your suspense and make these plots and interactions connect all together.. It's like reading a GREAT BOOK MAN.. I love that all your ocs kinda have these different vibes about them!! But they all feel so yours and I sincerely don't think anyone could do it like you do??? I do have to say I love love LOVE how you design your characters.. I love the cutting edge fashion and seeing some of your older characters compared to some of your newer ones. You can see how you've grown!!! How you've translated your visual library to these designs.. OUGH ITS SO GOOD!!!
I feel very honored I am your friend and I get to make our sillies be friends too.. and ur right we need the gay ship(s) so bad.. we deserve it!!
With a final note.. I also think about your guys a lot!! I do!! they occupy my brain and i love thinking about how they interact.. and seeing how you play them out and answer asks and just talk about them?? OUGH.. you feed me ample.. and even with the ocs we don't have as friendly together.. I do think about handing more of your ocs friends <3
anyways ..ILY ... NINi..
๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿฆญ(a surprise..)
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leeyanyanyaaan ยท 2 years
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stray kids as brothers
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-archival-
skz as brothers
21 / 05 / 2022
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bang chan (older brother)
- no matter how hard i try, i can only see him as an older brother (foive year old hyung oppa ahehe)
- the super caring older brother
- worrywart type older bro tho, checking on you every five seconds, which might mean he's strict at times
- SUPER RELIABLE older bro, whenever you need him he gotchu โ˜†
- ngl he might spoil you if you ask for something.... or just get you something without even telling you just because he thought of you ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ’– also he wont take no for an answer
- super affectionate bro <3 never goes without showing his love for you that sometimes he just smothers you with it ajsbskns
- he's a bit cheeky tho so expect teasing and typical sibling banter lol XD
- sometimes he acts all baby all of a sudden though AHAHA AND SUDDENLY YOU HAVE A DONGSAENG TO TAKE CARE OFย 
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lee minho (older brother)
- THE BROTHER THATS ALWAYS TEASING YOU AND CALLING YOU UGLY /affectionate
- no but you guys get what i mean right?
- THE LOVE HATE TYPE SIBLING RELATIONSHIP YES
- lots of playful bantering and ratting on each other
- "EOMMAAAA (Y/N) GOT A LOVER-"
- if you did get a s/o however get ready for him to start interrogating the heck out of them, making sure they're โœจqualifiedโœจ enough to be with his younger siblingย 
- protective, in the "only i can bully them" way, but at the same time because he loves you of course <3
- sometimes mom-type naggy bc he cares y'know
- at the end of the day loves you very much, even if he doesnt show it as obviously. tsundere older sibling ๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ˜ฉ
- and at the end of the day, you both just laugh off all your bantering. you love your older bro just as much, just the way he is <3
- honestly when i found out he was an only child i found that so hard to believe bc he radiates THIS kind of sibling energy frย 
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seo changbin (younger brother)
- the younger brother that comes up to you often because he wants affection and/or your attention
- whines if you dont get him that, or if you tease him (make it up to him with hugs pls)
- noisy sibling definitely though, especially if you keep messing around with him he'll start complaining loudly
- "what are you doingggg ๐Ÿ‘€๐Ÿ‘€"
- don't steal his food. he (probably) won't steal yours
- ACTS CUTE AJSBAKNSKS AND MOST OF THE TIME IT WORKS for what idak but it just works hes cute uwu
- tbh after the recent 2kidsroom changbin definitely started radiating more older brother energy fr, but ultimately i decided that he felt more like a younger brother to me, especially as an oldest sister, i can really see my younger sibling in him XD
- so have an alt! where changbin is the older bro instead
- a bit similar where he's still a loud and affection seeking bro, but as an older bro he wouldn't act as childishly as he would as a younger broย 
- tries to keep the cool mature older bro vibes all the time โœจโœจ
- issoki binnie youre always cool <3 is okay to act cute still
- which he does, he'll still pull aegyo (is this how it's spelled?) on you
- omg but in general/overall, a SUPER understanding brother that just knows you so well like the good sibling he is
- a great listener when you need it
- and he gives you very thoughtful gifts he carefully chose out <3ย 
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hwang hyunjin (twin brother)
- hyunjin, as your older twin bro!ย 
- typical sibling banters and teasing LOL especially w how dramatic he is, you'd definitely play along with it
- if no one else gotchu ur twin gotchu (esp if y'all make lame jokes)
- you guys care for each other so much ๐Ÿฅบ he'd probably try to get you to laugh or take you out to take your mind off of things if youre upset and you do the same and/or teasingly show how much you love him uwu
- YOU GUYS HAVE EACH OTHERS BACKS FR POWER DUO WHEN YOU TWO ARE TOGETHER!!!ย 
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han jisung (twin brother)
- omg i literally want him as my brother HE WOULD BE SUCH A FUN BRO ๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ’–
- it's just pure chaos whenever the two of you are together (as if it isn't chaos when it's only one of you already ๐Ÿ’€)
- if mom leaves him in charge when she's gone? he's the type who would be like "hey let's go do [something you're probably not supposed to do] >:D"
- 1v1 him at a video game = a fight till the death, probably. expect lots of noise and salt
- "YAH YAH YAH MY CONTROLLER WASNT WORKING FOR A BIT AGAIN AGAIN"
- steal each others foodย 
- "hey can i have some? thanks :D" "I DIDN'T SAY YES YOU LITTLE-"
- OKAY BUT ALSO BUYING/MAKING SNACKS FOR EACH OTHER IF ONE OF YOU ARE HUNGRY
- despite being the chaos bringers you guys are, you guys also enjoy each others presence in comfortable silence, just doing your own things
- sometimes you guys break the silence by saying something random or stupid LOL
- "gay"
- yeah sometimes he might feel the need to be loud as well LOL
- also he's older than you. sorry you just need to be reminded every time someone asks
- "**I**ย am the older one!" "yeah by one minute ๐Ÿ™„" "THOSE 60 SECONDS MEAN EVERYTHING"
- sometimes he acts five years younger than you tho smh
- your best friend bro fr and partners in crime!!!ย 
a/n: i'll be honest, i actually put hyunjin and han as your twin siblings because they also radiate single child energy (EVEN IF IT TURNS OUT HAN ISN'T ONE BUT OH WELL AKDNSKXNS)ย 
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lee felix (middle brother)
- the brother in the middle who's the good child and the favorite child of the family but honestly you don't mind that at all
- SOOOO AFFECTIONATE ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ’• SHOWS SO MUCH LOVE TO HIS SIBLING UWU
- sends you memes and random stuff and just texts you a lot hehe
- y'all do tiktoks together, if not willingly he drags you AJSJJANSKS
- if you're reading or watching or obsessing over something he'd get curious and listen to your rambling about whatever it is regardless if he knows it or not, he'd probably join you too :D
- you guys just have fun together and tease each other playfully sometimes but i think he'd have a more soft affectionate sibling relationship w you <3
- he'd also definitely be that reliable bro who you can lean on and talk to when you need him, giving you gentle advice
- if you're the youngest also expect him to be a lil overprotective over you ahe
- YOU BAKE TOGETHER :Dย 
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kim seungmin (younger brother)
- the good younger brother!ย 
- idk how to describe it but he just- HE JUST RADIATES THE ENERGY OF THE YOUNGER SIBLING YOU'D JUST LOVE UHUHU
- he's always there for you and supporting you all the way, he's also always thinking about you too! reminds you to take care of yourself and don't overwork yourself <3 you got this!! with that in mind he'd always have something for you like food and water, a sticky note with a motivational message, or maybe even a new pencil if yours is getting short/broken
- sometimes nags you to clean your room
- "hey i just have my own system here y'know?" "no, clean your room >:("
- oh but he's definitely also your goofy sibling. and he roasts you a lot too.
- but that's probably revenge for all the times you tease him for being your adorable little bro <3ย 
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yang jeongin (middle brother)
- 100% the sibling who bullies and teases you playfully AHAHA he's one of the members that radiates the most sibling energy fr but i see him more as a middle child than a youngestย 
- the type who acts like being your bro is so ew in a /lighthearted way
- roasts you but roasts himself too
- nah scratch that y'all roast each otherย 
- scrunches his nose and pulls away in joking disgust whenever you guys try to be cheesy or affectionate
- so maybe he doesn't show affection much, but in reality he loves you so much, there are things he just admires about you. he will show his love through little subtle things like getting food for you <3ย 
a/n: these guys just radiate too much sibling energy it hurts my heart with wholesomeness AJSNAMNSMANS i just can't unsee all of this especially as the oldest of two siblings and too many baby cousins AHAHA what about you guys? do you have siblings too?ย 
also please note that this is old like earlier in the year so it hasn't been updated with any additional possible sibling interactions i may have not seen ๐Ÿ˜” do feel free to comment and add on though!
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ayuki-ikuya ยท 3 years
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Dorms and Archons
Twisted Wonderland x Genshin Impact
Part 2 of 2
Part 1
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Dendro Archon
The Recluse Scholar
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๐“š๐“ช๐“ต๐“ฒ๐“ถ ๐“๐“ต-๐“๐“ผ๐“ฒ๐“ถ
Kalim was excited to have a new friend! Oh the parties they'd have! The fun! The food!
When he met you, you were... distant. Did he do something wrong? Did he upset you?
He really did try to find out what he did wrong, and often sent you invitations (Malleus eyeing the invitations) you some of the parties he makes, but you don't show up nor reply, making him sadden.
Jamil low key face palming
During a normal sunny day at school, he and Jamil headed to the library to grab some books, and during the process, he found you, tucked in a corner with mountains, upon mountains of books around you, and you? You were reading.
"Ah? S/o??"
"HEEEEK!!!!"
he startled you so badly that plants from outside grew. which of course caused a commotion.
Kalim apologised for startling you, but he asked a question about your attendance, your reply was to fiddle with your sleeves before answering with a small voice that you were afraid of people despite being a deity.
Kalim immedietly thought of Idia, but he crossed the line of no return, but Kalim smiled warmly, held your hand, making you choke, and said a more softer voice that he'd throw a smaller party, just the three of them. (Don't tell me you forgot Jamil, HE MAKES THE DANG FOOD)
You accepted.
Several parties later, you two were unsurprisingly in love with each other that the students of NRC were rolling their eyes at the moments the two shared. COULD YOU TWO DATE ALREADY!?!?
When you two started dating, Kalim made a celebration, but kept you in a more secluded section, that way you could be apart of it, but not near a large crowd of people. And you were thankful for it.
As a couple, Kalim practically adores you. And he's super affectionate too! Jalim is glad to have someone more tameable and it also makes it easier to locate Kalim if he ever goes off by himself.
๐“™๐“ช๐“ถ๐“ฒ๐“ต ๐“ฅ๐“ฒ๐“น๐“ฎ๐“ป
He thought nothing of you at first.
Until you had full scores on everything.
He had requested you to help with Scarabia's studying, in offer of full meals, which you complied with due to living in a run down dorm and doesn't have a lot of money to support themselves with.
However, the study group went wrong due to the amount of people.
Jamil then figured that you didn't work too well with large numbers of people, and he found that you were slightly dependent on him when it comes to speaking.
He ended up planning smaller groups, working on those who had the worst grades then up.
And thanks to you, their dorm gradually got better.
Jamil spent time with you whenever he was free from following Kalim, and he was fairly fond of you.
You were soft, very soft, but highly reliable in terms of knowledge. So he'd often vent to you which is surprising.
But your presence and advice helped him grow better.
Jamil fell for you when he found you smiling at a Scarabia student showing you their improved grade, you looked like a warm hearted maternal parent, and his heart skipped at the sight.
When you two began dating, it was a bit rocky due to Jamil's family duty to serve the Al-Asim family. But Kalim was very kind to allow Jamil more free time, in exchange that he brings you over for more study parties!
You figured since Kalim wasn't fond of studying and more for partying, that you'd make a study party which improved Kalim's grade by ten folds. Jalim practically wept tears that the seven sent him this angel.
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Geo Archon
The Consultant
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๐“๐”ƒ๐“พ๐“ต ๐“๐“ผ๐“ฑ๐“ฎ๐“ท๐“ฐ๐“ป๐“ธ๐“ฝ๐“ฝ๐“ธ
Azul was greedy for the power you possibly possess. and your money.
Azul underestimated you since he witnessed your lack of brains in terms of money. You forget about having your wallet on you, and whenever someone offers to pay for you, you attempt to buy everything without a single thought.
This was going to be an easy contract, Azul thought. They're an idiot, Azul thought. They can't complete this contract, Azul thought.
"I've completed my end of the contract. Now you must do yours."
"Huh? Nani?"
Azul was stupefied by this, he whipped his head towards the Leech twins, both begrudgingly nodding their heads in confirmation at the archon completing their conditions of the contract.
Azul had tried to change the details of the contract, you of course allowed it the first time.
But when you returned with the conditions once again completed, Azul tried to add more.
However, you weren't having it.
You stood up and leaned down to Azul, towering over him. A sudden pressure weighed the three mercreatures, it was heavy and foreboding. Your eyes glowed a gold with the amber ombre in your hair glowing gold as well.
"I was lenient to allow you the first time. Either fulfill your end of the deal or break the contract. But if you break the contract, you will suffer the wrath of the rock."
Azul was terrified.
When Azul fell for you, he questioned himself. How in the seven did he fall for a person like YOU!? He will never remember how, but all he knows is that he's in waaay to deep.
When you two became a couple, you were far more charasmatic and charming than before, it was like it was turned up a notch. Or two. or more...
The contract loving couple have been making more money than ever thanks to the Geo Archon, the avatar of contracts. It's either fill the conditions or suffer the wrath of the rock. Or just, don't make a contract. Simple.
But then we got the one brain cell trio doing their dumb sh**.
๐“™๐“ช๐“ญ๐“ฎ ๐“›๐“ฎ๐“ฎ๐“ฌ๐“ฑ
Oya?
What an intriguing being.
Jade was the first to be interested in you. But he couldn't exactly find you that well since you practically mixed with the crowd a little too well than he'd like. [Bro, Zhongli and Venti has statues of themselves around Liyue and Mondstaft, AND NO ONE MANAGES TO THINK "hmmm.. You know, he looks like one that statue there.. Wait a minute-" LIKE, SRSLY!!! Venti is more obvious, I can understand Zhongli since he wears more funeral consultant clothing, but he still somehow blends in with the crowd. Unlike a Lil wind spirit.]
But when the moment came where you made a contract, Jade was more than happy to hinder you, only for you to complete the conditions before he could figure out your plan.
"... What?"
["OSMANTHUS WI-"]
After that fiasco with you giving a very large heavy warning, Jade was by your side whenever he wasn't with Floyd, questioning your knowledge, in which you were more than happy enough to comply.
Jade fell for you when you showed how competent you were unlike the other miserable guppies in school. Sure you had a few problems, but nothing with a little Jade there and everything is perfect. He also favored your knowledge, specially about fungi.
When you two became a couple, it was.. Strange to say, a air headed but scary consultant with a sadistically calm eelman? That's ringing bells for everyone.
๐“•๐“ต๐“ธ๐”‚๐“ญ๐“ฎ ๐“›๐“ฎ๐“ฎ๐“ฌ๐“ฑ
Floyd had zero, zip, non, 100% no interest in you. Why? You looks, sound and seem boring. And he stand corrected.
it was later when you completed the conditions, which, not gonna lie, spooked Floyd.
"Hah?"
Later, he began to go after you like he did with Goldfish (Riddle), and when he tried to squeeze you, he found himself squeezing a shield instead.
He found himself utterly thrilled and had did several attempts at you, which failed.
His interest in you and your abilities heightened.
Then your relationship bloomed.
It was hard to say if it was romantic or platonic, but either way, Floyd was perfectly happy. Happy to have a partner who continues to show things or tell him things about their world.
As long as Floyd kept out of trouble and/or content, Jade and Azul didn't say question their relationship.
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Pyro Archon
The Warlord
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๐“›๐“ฎ๐“ธ๐“ท๐“ช ๐“š๐“ฒ๐“ท๐“ฐ๐“ผ๐“ฌ๐“ฑ๐“ธ๐“ต๐“ช๐“ป
Who are you? What are you? Why are you here? What are you doing? Get out.
Leona didn't care for you, not one single bit. Until you messed with his sleep schedule due to your chaoticness.
Whenever your around, you just bring trouble with you. And he doesn't like it one bit.
And when you bring trouble, you bring noise.
Which officially ruins his nap times.
However, Leona praises and respects your prowess in battle. You always gave it your all, which he liked. You weren't holding back, which allowed him to gauge how powerful you were as a deity with or without your element.
As it turns out, you're stronger than what you make yourself out to be, but what catches Leona's attention the most, was how calculating you were. It was as if you were analyzing him
To be honest, he felt violated.
At most times, you're energetic, but when your quiet or serious, it's either pack your sh** and leave or get out of their way.
Because when your either if those, you will either send someone to the nurse with severe casualties or some of the schools property will be destroyed. And of course, there is a justified reason for this.
Other than to make Crowley very upset of course.
Leona fell for you with your strength. He loves a woman who can lead and he could just relax. Unless it comes to some other type of leadership, like in the bedroom, then that will change. ( อกยฐ อœส– อกยฐ)
These two are dangerous as a couple when Leona's awake and active. And when Leona's on the move, expect a gremlin to be tailing after him, and be sure to clear out of their way. Mercy didn't in their vocabulary.
๐“ก๐“พ๐“ฐ๐“ฐ๐“ฒ๐“ฎ ๐“‘๐“พ๐“ฌ๐“ฌ๐“ฑ๐“ฒ
Huh? Do I know you? No? Goodbye.
Ruggie, quite literally, didn't give a rats ass about you.
To him, you were like any other beast man, rowdy and rough, other than your form that is.
But thankfully, you knew how to take care of yourself. Less work for Ruggie. I guess.
Not only that you knew how to cook. That was a god sent gift to Ruggie. Sadly though, you only know how to make mostly meat dishes. If it contains vegetables, expect the veggies to be over seasoned.
Leona was scared when he saw you in the kitchen, only to calm down seeing you being calm and not rowdy.
Ruggie fell for your cooking. He is literally the term "To get to a mans heart, you go through their stomach". although you should work on cooking vegetables better for a more healthier lifestyle.
๐“™๐“ช๐“ฌ๐“ด ๐“—๐“ธ๐”€๐“ต
Strong? Strong.
You two are 100% besties.
You two are glued to the hip whenever you guys are free or share classes.
You both like to exercise and spar, so you two mostly go for each other.
To say the least, Jack mostly saw you as a sibling. Sorry, no romance.
Jack often scolds you for not eating more vegetables.
Which makes you pout and huff.
Cute lil tyke - Leona
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Hydro Archon
The Judge
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๐“ก๐“ฒ๐“ญ๐“ญ๐“ต๐“ฎ ๐“ก๐“ธ๐“ผ๐“ฎ๐“ฑ๐“ฎ๐“ช๐“ป๐“ฝ๐“ผ
Nice, another rule setter like me. We're gonna be great friends.
"Explain why two cubes of sugar should be in a lemon tea? It's blasphemy."
I see you have chosen violence ๐Ÿ˜Œ
Riddle at first liked you, until you learned about the rules of the Queen of Hearts, did he start to hate you.
"BE QUIET OR IT'S OFF WITH YOUR HEAD!"
He loathed you.
He thought that since your a judge, you'd understand the rules, much like him. But no, you judged the rules as well, evaluating if they are fair or not.
Whenever you call out on the rules that appeared ridiculously stupid to have (like the two sugar cubes in lemon tea. That's bs to you.)
After the overblot, you were more nicer when he changed.
He stand corrected.
But he didn't mind it, he low key enjoyed arguing with you, without him screaming at you of course.
You two as a couple sends fear in everyone. A judge and a tyrant? That's a deadly combo.
๐“ฃ๐“ป๐“ฎ๐”‚ ๐“’๐“ต๐“ธ๐“ฟ๐“ฎ๐“ป
Trey had taken a liking to you, seeing how similar you are to Riddle.
He enjoyed answering your questions about rules, but if there were rules he can't remember, he'd look at them with you to not only answer your question, but to commit them to memory in case.
What he's scared of is when you give trials regarding about incidents. Riddle would present his case then the 'innocent' or innocent would present theirs.
If the person is guilty, you ensure punishment, because like Riddle, you detest rule breakers unless in reason. You didn't mind them bending the rules as long as it doesn't break.
Trey is envious of your abilities, but you reassure him the his Doodle Suit is superior if you can use it against others magic.
You often praised him as well.
You admitted to thinking about a scenario of if Trey was born in Tevyat, he'd receive a hydro vision.
He flushed in response, secretly happy to have caught your attention.
You two as a couple puts everyone, minus Riddle because it's you, at ease.
๐“’๐“ช๐“ฝ๐“ฎ๐“ป ๐““๐“ฒ๐“ช๐“ถ๐“ธ๐“ท๐“ญ
#ohmyseveniminlove #calltheambulance #loveatfirstsight #goddescendingfromheaven #pinchme #PLSNOTICEMEANDLOVEME #foryoupage
He practically fell for you.
To him, you were perfect.
"You have flaws? I only see perfection!"
He's a smooth talker, albeit feminine due to having a lot of sisters, but smooth nonetheless.
He's a simp for you, willing to use his unique magic to do anything and everything for you.
Literally fell at first sight of you.
As a couple, Cater often takes couple photos with you, at first you were content with the pictures, but at this point they kinda peeved her when he takes pictures on every occasion.
"Smiiiile~"
"Cater, I love you, but please, stop."
"If you give me a kiss I might~"
๐““๐“ฎ๐“พ๐“ฌ๐“ฎ ๐“ข๐“น๐“ช๐“ญ๐“ฎ
You're his role model.
Literally the Geno to your Saitama.
He carries a notebook with him to take notes on you since he strives to be like you. A model being.
Even if he looks smart, he still has a split braincell between Ace and Grim.
Don't hold it against him if he's trying to know almost EVERYTHING about you.
More platonic than romantic.
๐“๐“ฌ๐“ฎ ๐“ฃ๐“ป๐“ช๐“น๐“น๐“ธ๐“ต๐“ช
Complete opposites.
And completely disliked each other.
You rubbed him the wrong way, maybe it was because you were more justified than him, better at things than he was.
He didn't know what, it was just you being better than him. He understands he's not smart, because he foes dumb sh** with the other two.
But whenever you have to deal with their messes on their own, he feels irritated.
He often tries to get after you as well.
"Oh wow, such a god you are. Pathetic."
*cue angry archon noises with an 8 feet tall wave behind them, ready to flood Ace's ass.*
Yeah, your relationship is very... Rocky and slightly concerning.
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Here's part 2! I'm happy that you read this! I will have a link to the first part after connecting the links to certain parts. Feel free to request or refer to the main master list pinned on my blog if you wish to see other choices to make! Happy reading!
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shadowfae ยท 3 years
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**breathes in deeply**
(vent)
So I'm a soulbonder who's looking to make a new bond to a particular person and nothing is working.
I know a lot about this person, I know a good amount about their world, and I know what I need to do, but none of the things I've tried have worked. I've bonded people before in both intentional and unintentional ways. This is unusual for me. I don't quite know how to handle what's going on here.
I know what's probably causing it. My mental health kinda tanked between this and the last time I called a new bond. Like. I've started experiencing psychosis issues intra-headspace. Thankfully I've avoided anything that severe in meatspace, but I have had increased issues with my pre-existing executive function and emotional regulation issues. Every time I think I've gotten somewhere with bonding this character it's only been psychosis issues and discernment issues, and it's really, really disheartening.
But even aside from mental health issues, when I'm relatively lucid I'm not having luck.
I've tried summoning, I've tried inviting, I've tried direct "hey come here", I've tried indirect "hey we'd like to talk", I've tried yanking them, I've tried directly appearing to them in their own world, I've tried just trying to talk to them before. Most of these I've tried more than once. Nothing has worked. There may have been contact in the past (and seemed positive-to-neutral about learning more about this place and visiting), but at this point I really doubt even the more reliable incidents. Something should have worked here, and I can't shake the feeling something is going very wrong.
I know I should probably give up and move on at this point, as it's been literal months. Honestly I've asked a lot of places for help and I've looked into what resources I've been able to find on their source world and bonding in general, and my options are running dry. Nobody would blame me for giving up. But I have my reasons not to. I have a feeling about this, and they're in a situation I don't feel like leaving alone. Like, everyone they thought they could trust screws them over. I also DESPERATELY want to at least talk to this person. This entire situation is so fucking frustrating. I'm at the "try shaking cat treats at them" phase.
Also I can't talk to anyone about this because 1. dude's source is from my own AU, and is technically my oc, 2. the places I can talk about this shit are not open to sensitive parts of this, going assume I'm lying, or uh, were exposed to a few cringey false alarms on related things, 3. it's been long enough and constant enough that it's too much to talk about the full extent of this nonsense. 4. My SO can't tolerate this person's source world, so I won't make them endure my prattling.
Because I needed isolation added to this clusterfuck.
Anyway that was good to get off my chest, feel free to throw this into the tumblr void with the identities of anon asks if you want. Or post it, I have no investment in the fate of this.
Mmmm, it looks like there are several issues here that you're facing.
I want to ask: do you have any other bonds right now? Because maybe getting them to try will help, just because their methods will be different than yours, and sometimes you just need a second set of hands. (Or fins, as Albafica wants me to make sure you know.)
There could be a ton of things blocking it, and I would suggest dealing with your psychosis issues first. Not give up, but put this on hold until you know what's causing the psychosis and have dealt with it. You do not want to forge a bond on such a shaky foundation. I'm not saying 'psychotic people can't soulbond', flames forbid I am, I'm reading that this is a new and difficult thing, and you don't want unknown variables getting in your way, especially when they can induce things that look similar to soulbonding but really really aren't.
I have to account for my Devil powers every time I do a spell, ward, or fuck around with the headspace. Because I'm the host and the god in the room, and things answer to me when they won't to anyone else, and Albafica's commentary on that is "stop locking me in a room with your crazy sentient brambles that only speak static whenever you're majorly upset" and I think that's not fair to me, that only happened once and it was accidental, but you get the point. That's a variable you need to be predictable and accounted for.
Then yeah, past that it looks like they're just not willing, and if you want to bond, you need to see it from their side. Because to some random person in their world, you probably feel / appear like a particularly dangerous spirit that's trying to eat them. Al agrees that's how he'd take it if someone pulled that on him, and he's very untrusting on his best days. So it sounds, so far, like your approach is not the best for this.
If you rule out medical reasons for your psychosis - and that is not an easy thing to do, please check out medical things for that, you don't want to fuck around with it - it could also be them refusing you and using their own wards. (Or at least, I can see the line of thought between them trying to stop you and such backlash; but that's an option to consider after medical issues.)
If you can get in contact with them, you need to ask one question, and one question alone, and do not pass go or collect your 200$ until they've answered clearly: do they want you to stop?
You haven't said why you want to bond with them so badly, and motivation is a key factor here. With Goni, he showed up looking for Luco and serves partially as the adult to go to when shit gets bad and also as the resident prettyboy and slut. Al is logical and blunt and his remarks cut deep, but he gives a damn and functions as lieutenant where Goni's advisor and backup. South is uh, he's the demon commentating about how much we should just kill people and he's right, he is, but that's illegal. He also serves as the youngest and the most prone to extreme emotions, and when someone else is doing the extreme emotions, it makes it that much easier for the rest of us to keep our heads. He says what I'm thinking, and then I can deal with it rationally.
They're all people, and they aid each other as well in headspace, but the bond between host and bond is a bit different than bonds with each other. I pilot the body most of the time, I handle everything in meatspace, they help me do that. It's simple: keep the guy who pilots the body running, get body privileges.
And what you need to consider here is not only what they can do for you, but what you can do for them, and how exactly you're going to coexist. Because while my triad of fishmen help me, I also help them, largely because uh, /gestures at the fact they all died in a war in various gruesome ways and the journey they took to get there was actually worse/. It's all fun and games until they're here, away from the danger, and then there's the exotrauma.
Goni handles it by not handling it until he has to and right now we're working on actually acknowledging that he's got issues. South deals with it by being resentful as all hell and incredibly violent and yandere, but being allowed to not pull his punches is still so new to him that it's actually quite good for him to get to say what he's thinking and be respected for it. Al's grumpy about it but is trying to build something of his life now before he falls apart. He wants something to hold onto first, which is smart. Trust Al to figure out the most logical way with none of the words and then adamantly refuse to let that go wrong. He and I both understand bullying the universe into giving us what we want, and since he has full utter control over his own mental processes thanks to being able to make my Devil powers do what he wants, I don't think anyone's going to be able to interfere with his ability to do that.
So now I have to ask for you: what is this bond going to be doing for you, and just as important, what exactly do you expect to be able to do for them? Because they're also an OC, and they may have some goddamn feelings about that. They may see you as having coincidentally written down their life, they may see you as channeling it, or they may see you as the one who made it happen. All of which you'll also see in fictionkin spaces. If they fall into the last category, they're gonna be pissed you didn't give them a happy ending, and they're justified in that, and so are you for not doing that.
You have to be prepared - especially from reading between the lines of your ask here - that they're not going to be as functional as you want them to be. When we handle our exotrauma, we're a mess. Everything gets put on hold to deal with it, and even then, we rely a lot on our partner system (Faolan and the Nebulaic Collective) to keep the body from crashing so we can hold onto our life instead of falling apart utterly for a week straight. We don't do jack entirely with the four of us, and it's better that way.
The fact that you can't rely on anyone outside of yourself, especially considering 1) they don't seem to want this, 2) your attempts either very coincidentally happened alongside or caused serious mental issues that need urgent attention from you, and 3) you don't sound prepared to handle the severity of what you're implying it to be; all goes to show that this reads to me like a terrible fucking idea. I mean that honestly and gently and bluntly.
I don't mean 'give up and don't do this', I mean 'seriously dude either you're not giving me context or you haven't thought nearly hard enough about the realistic way this is going to go', and if it's the latter, no wonder you're having issues.
I already know who my next bond will be, and I know what needs to happen for him to show up. Right now, the four of us are functional, and we have a good Thing going on, sleeping arrangements and all. If we're getting another, a Space needs to open up for him, job to keep us functional that he can do as well as a part to play in our dynamic that is currently not being met. We got Adult (Goni), we got Logic (Al), we got Emotional Teenager (South), we got Has Context And Admin Access (me).
(Side note, South is vaguely 17-19, but he's been treated like he was five for most of his life and has been forced to rapidly oscillate between genuinely horrifying scenarios and being incredibly sheltered, so trying to put any sort of 'he's an average X year old' is downright impossible. He's on the upper end of teens and we call it a day there, and if he hears a word of "you're not old enough to do X activity" then I have to stop him from sending you graphic descriptions of things he can do to your insides and that's no fun for anyone so don't do that please.)
So when we have a space the new bond can fill both in keeping things functional so he has something to do and a space in our relationship so he's not standing on the sidelines looking in, he'll show. As it stands right now, that hasn't happened, so he's not here yet. That and I think I'm stretched rather thin when it comes to bonds, I need much more time with our fishes before I think I can handle more folks in here. So much on my mind, so little time.
But either way regardless. You have several glaring issues that are fairly obvious that you may not have noticed because you can't be objective in a situation you're involved in (true of everyone), and until you fix those, yeah, this doesn't sound like it'll work all that well.
Although I will note that I typically bond via my writing, simply writing from their perspective until they start commentating. They go from 'maybe MaDD doing shit' to 'oh hey soulbond' when they don't comment only on themselves but also on things I'm doing in meatspace. Albafica's a character when he's narrating his own life, he's a person when he demands More Salmon For Dinner; if that makes sense.
I doubt you'd get that far unless they genuinely did want the connection, because otherwise they wouldn't tell you stuff about themselves. Works for me, might work for you, who knows, please get your psychosis symptoms checked out first before touching this again and make sure they actually want to bond and it's actually viable before continuing and then try again I suppose?
A very long answer for a very long ask, but I like Helping, so. Hope that helped a bit.
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