#also most of the trainees are still very young so it's ok

[beautifulpersonpeach]

So...................................................................................................

Jaywon.

Can we talk about them?

When you said jaywon reminds you of jikook I was intrigued and watched some yt compilations.....

What is their deal? Jungwon is the dongsaeng right?

He's younger than Jay??

Do you have a read on their personalities to explain why they behave like that with each other? You said you bias them so I thought if there's anyone to ask it would be you.

I hope this is ok to ask on your blog. It's ok if you don't want to bring focus to them like you said. I just have a hard time getting a read on wtf I'm watching bc it's too ????? like jikook.

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Ask 2:

bpp im diff from the hospital anon but i went to the macys day parade and saw your boys! the parade passes near my neighborhood

they looked cute on the baby shark float. this may be a dumb question but what are their names? i can google it but it will take a long time to fix in my mind.

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Lmao @ anon in ask 1.

The fact you're asking about Jungwon first in this situation tells me all I need to know loool. And yes, I suspect it is exactly what you're thinking.

Honestly, a big part of me doesn't want to get into explaining what I think about Jaywon. I'd like to keep doing what I did when I first discovered jikook, and just keep observing while saving my opinions to myself.

But I don't want to leave you with nothing and since someone else is also curious, I'll talk briefly about the guys.

Enhypen is celebrating their 3rd year anniversary this week actually so I've got recent pictures:

(From left to right: Ni-ki (maknae), Sunghoon, Jake, Jungwon (leader), Heeseung (oldest), Jay, Sunoo)

They are all such interesting people but I remain somewhat ambivalent about them because they're still very young, there's a few things about them that make Enhypen a very peculiar team, and it leaves me a bit concerned for them so I don't want to push it.

Jungwon for example, is the second youngest member in the group, and he's the leader. Just on paper that's a recipe for a very unusual dynamic. When you add in the fact he's exceptionally intelligent, emotionally and otherwise, has a bit of an ego, and that teasing is his love language, things get even more odd in fantastic ways.

Jay, too, is someone worth studying in my opinion. I don't want to get into it but he's one of the members with the most 'adult' visuals, but he's earnest and kinda childlike, almost painfully so sometimes. Everything from how they met, to how they were trainees before i-Land, what happened while they were at i-Land, and what's happened since they both debuted in Enhypen - each event only confirms the conclusion from the prior event in a way that reinforces their connection with each other. But their personalities in the mix is what makes Jay's relationship with someone like Jungwon feel magnetic, somehow.

It's hard to explain lol. And I'm really not sure either, which is why I'm still quietly watching them.

I wouldn't say jaywon is the same as jikook though. In fact, there's more differences than similarities between them; but the things that are similar are significant in some ways. IMO.

[hiroshotreplica]

also can u infodump about ur agents

hi i will but its kind of a lot. Putting a break on this cause its long

Alister's a chill but still serious guy. He used to play turf war and ranked a ton as a kid while also working as agent 3 for the new squidbeak splatoon. His parents are missing. Cuttlefish took care of him cause of that, kinda treated him like a grandson. He almost outranked callie and marie in terms of skill before he was partially sanitized. He's a bit bad at taking care of himself. The only medication he's willing to take is his antidepressants. He loves the squid sisters and has so much merch of them, mainly from his youth. He has no fashion sense and will walk out of the house in the worst outfit you've ever seen thinking he did ok. He renamed the nss to neo squidbeak splatoon when he was promoted to captain. He loves his boyfriend josh a lot, ignore the fact they tried to kill each other in their first encounter. They live together.

Zara is cheerful and seemingly confident. But she thinks of herself as a fraud and is worried about people finding that out. She's good at her job as agent 4 and more but she focuses on her mistakes a lot. She is really good at building and using computers and the like. Her laptop is enhanced by octarian technology, she has reverse-engineered it. She prefers making friends more than splatting enemies, but knows when she needs to stop being friendly. She used to have a celebrity crush on Pearl and Marina when she was young. It didn't stick but she still loves the two. She has worked with them and still does as a social media manager. She is a lot less involved in agent work than she was as a kid due to her job + being with her girlfriend but she still loves it.

Josh is really mysterious, but still very talkative and nice. He has a lot of repressed memories. He's glad he can't remember some of them. He used to be a trainee in the octarian military. The calamari inkantation changed his life. He used to be a lot more daring and reckless, but he'll never remember. He's agent 8 of the new squidbeak splatoon. Something's wrong with him, but he's okay. He has a special interest (inkling culture) that he studies a lot. He isn't the best at socializing sometimes. He's loved alister since the two were stuck in the deepsea metro. He likes wearing most clothing, except for things that are tight. He loves loose, baggy sweaters. It took him awhile to do agent work, but he's good at it. He still can't play turf war matches with pink and teal as the ink colors without feeling dread. Ink bombs scare him a little.

Orion is a bit of a loner. He was recruited as agent 7, by his own request mainly. He's an old friend of josh, though josh doesn't remember that much, and josh seems like a completely different person. He worked in the octarian military until the domes stabilized. He mainly did it for his family, who he still visits often, no matter how awful travelling conditions are. He values connections the most despite insisting on going on missions alone often. He has a bit of an ego due to his experience. It won't ever hurt him though. He wants to train the new agents, though they're hard to work with. He doesn't mind.

Violet is the most energetic of the group. They feel a lot of pressure being neo agent 3, they have a feeling captain alister did a lot as agent 3, from what they've heard. They were an orphan that learned to survive in the wilderness with their best friend, scope. They got help from another soon-to-be close friend, too, and want to repay them by secretly letting them explore alterna (that will definitely go well). They love alterna. They hate the fuzzy ooze. Theyve been partially infected by the fuzzy ooze, though this doesnt show too much. Mr. grizz considered them partially mammalian when the two first met. They hated that. They want to be a pro splatterscope player when theyre older. They love the z+f one in particular. They do aim drills with their friends. They love their friends dearly.

Scope is quite rowdy but still well meaning. He had gotten lost from his family while on a salmon run, and violet had found him. He couldn't have asked for a better friend. He doesn't know his original name, he feels bad about it, he wants to learn about his culture. He's agent 5 for the neo squidbeak splatoon. He helps out violet on missions. He was apart of a family of stingers, and strives to be one himself. He really wants to work with violet as snipers some day.

I have an agent 6 in the works, but ill talk about them later

[ssera-yunah]

YUNAH BACKGROUND

⤿...yunah masterlist

EARLY LIFE...ᐟ

Yunah was born in Seoul, South Korea to Hwa-Young, and So-han Hwang. Her older brother Hyunjin was very protective of her growing up, because she was bullied often, so they stuck together most of the time. She joined Gymnastics at 3 and continued until she was 16.

She was introduced to K-Pop in 2012 when she was 6 from seeing Girls Generation live performance on TV with her dad they were the first K-Pop group that she'd seen and after that she became a big fan of them, also when Twice debuted in 2015 her mom allowed her and Hyunjin to go to their debut stage. Both groups were also a huge inspiration to her. Her mom finally agreed to let her and Hyunjin become trainees in 2016 after they both were scouted on a walk home from school.

TRAINEE PERIOD...ᐟ

On July 28, 2016, she joined J.Y.P. Entertainment along side her brother. Once she joined the company she was very excited to be under the same company as Twice. She stayed there for 4 years before deciding to leave, due to rude staff and false debut dates, in total she had 6 debut dates, all which were false.

After she left J.Y.P. she stopped training for a few months and focused more time in Gymnastics, which she later quit when she was scouted by BigHit and at one of her gymnastics competition, which she accepted, where she later met Yunjin, Eunchae, Ri-ki (for a brief few months), Ruka, and Garam, they were all friends, she was especially close to Eunchae and still is.

She slowly became one of the top trainees, which stressed her out a lot, because she was always known around the company as Hyunjin's sister, which she hated because she felt like that's all people saw her as, his shadow, nobody saw her real talents, just her title. But soon they started giving her opportunities, she was even given the chance to be Enhypen's only female member, but she declined that, because she felt like she wouldn't be comfortable around 7 boys all the time, and if she didn't accept being Le Sserafim's new member she was going to be a contestant on R U NEXT, but with Garam's absence from Le Sserafim, she decided to debut as the new member.

AFTER DEBUT...ᐟ

She debuted in 2022 of September, as the new 6th member of Le Sserafim under Source Music with the stage name Yunah (윤아). The public reaction to her debut was ok, many people thought she was using her brother fame to get famous, while some fell in love with her introverted personality and kindness, most thought she had no talent and criticized her, but after a while she started gaining more and more fans and now she's one of the most biased members of Le Sserafim.

They also compare a lot of the things she does to Hyunjin saying they are really alike.

[0613magazine]

221010 Proof Collector's Edition

SUGA

Between the past, present, and future, which one do you think of as most important?

Before, I thought that the future was the most important thing but now I think it’s the present. Past is something that has already passed, and you can’t do anything about it. When I lived my life only looking forward to the future, I had many worries. These days I am living with a thought, ‘let’s focus/commit to the present and do what I can do right now’. 

The word “past” what does it mean to you?

It’s something that has already passed. I don’t give much meaning to things that have already passed. Out of many emotions that I have about the past, one is regret. I honestly have a lot of regrets about ‘ why did I do that before.’ Despite that I had tried my best and it was the best choice at that time. That is why I don’t like the word “past” much. 

What is your first-ever memory?

It was when I was about 3 or 4, I was in a danger because I fell into the ocean. I still remember that. I was on a swimming tube that had Mickey Mouse drawing on it when I fell into the ocean. I thought I was in the water for quite a long time but my parents said it was for just a brief moment. Ah, a picture from that day has been released before. The picture of me that I took where I was laying on top of the swimming tube with sunglasses on. It was the day the picture was taken. Anyways, memories about the past differ for every person. So I don’t tend to linger on the past.

Is there something you miss from life when you were young?

Recently I went to Daegu where I visited studios that I worked at when I first started working when I was around 17 or 18. I also went around Namsan Dong alley, which I went around a lot back in the day. I remembered a lot of things like the atmosphere of the alley from that time. When I went, the stores have changed but the vibe did not change at all. That day I ate makchang with a glass of soju which I wanted to have with my parents. While having some conversations about what I do since my parents don’t know well about what I do. It also has been a long time since I went down.

What is your first meaningful place/space?

The first studio I received when I went up to Seoul. It was a point in time when the company was discovering composers. So I also received a studio as a composer. It was the first studio that was soundproof. When I was in Daegu, I did have a studio but I didn’t have money. So when I was working alone, I couldn’t work in a studio like that. It was cool/ fascinating. At that time, I spent my days working with the company’s older brothers and sisters.

Is there something that was memorable from back then?

For a trainee, I had an interesting life. Excluding 2 dance lessons each week, it was all free time. I just needed to prepare for a monthly evaluation. So even that day I was working in my studio when suddenly Bang PD came and opened the door. Up until then, I had never met him because I didn’t have a chance to. He said, ‘So you are Yoongi.” So I said ‘Yes’ The person who came along with Bang PD was Shin Seung-hun sunbae-nim. He (Bang PD) asked me to show him what I made and I happened to have one that I was arranging with the beats I made. So I let him hear that one. Then he said ‘Ok, work hard’ and left. For me, that was a very fascinating event. It was the first time I met Bang PD and I got to see Shin Seung-hun sunbae also. 

When was the “Moment of Proof”?

When I was young, I thought it was important to prove. That it’s important to show your talent. Anyways, there were a lot of moments to prove. Either, when I am showing my work as Agust D or, especially when I am working on external projects, I think, ‘If I wasn’t SUGA of BTS, would these people really choose me?’ So I feel that I have to be successful commercially no matter what. Since I have to show the worth that the client wants. When it’s like that, I feel burdened. As for BTS, I think every moment, we have shown proof. When something didn’t go well, ‘since it didn’t do well now it’s time to prove’ When it does well, ‘Since we did well and came all this way, now we got to prove.’ It’s been like that until now. I think because we did that it made us who we are now.

In your mind, how old do you put yourself as?

I think I’m still 24, 25. It’s that there hasn’t been much change since then and also because I’ve been living my days busy. 

While living as BTS, do you think there was a change that made Min Yoongi, as an individual, more clear or faded?

Before I tried to separate Min Yoongi, an individual, from SUGA. I thought that I had to do that to live a balanced life. Now I have accepted that it’s not separable. It synced. However, I try to separate the areas of work and the stories I want to tell. Putting Min Yoongi in the middle and ‘SUGA’, ‘Agust D’, ‘Prod. SUGA of BTS’ around it. 

How similar is your usual self in real life compared to the BTS member (you are) shown to the world?

Usually celebrities try to separate their appearance they show from their usual self. Especially in the beginning, they do that more. They try to make a better side that they show to the world. But as you continue to be active, it’s hard to separate it. It merges in the end. If a person seems nice on TV, that person is nice. In my standard, it’s impossible to live acting like someone for 10 years. Everyone has different colors and the way the colors are accepted is different too. They may be a bad person to someone but a nice person to another. So, if my appearance and my personality is not good to someone, to them, I am not a very good person. If many people like someone, that person is a good person to many people. My appearance on TV, my appearance on the stage, and my appearance behind the stage are not different at all. I think I am just exactly how I am.

What is “myself as it is” like?

I am not too sure yet. It changes a lot depending on the situation and the mood. At least I think I’m a person who tries not to act. Some may say that I’m being honest but I’m not sure if I can say that I am an honest person. Humans are complicated beings. You can’t say one is a certain type of person based on one thing. I think all of it is me. Serious when I need to be, funny when I need to be when I need to be messed up I get messed up, and when I need to act cool I act cool. There are many different kinds of me inside so I show them depending on the situation. 

Is the current ‘Me’ and the past ‘Me’ different?

It’s different. In the past, I had a lot of negative thoughts like concerns, worries, and regrets. Up until recently, I had a lot of those thoughts but now I let down a lot of it. Going through the pandemic, I thought a lot about what I like, how I want to live, and how I want to survive. At first, I resented the pandemic but if we didn’t have those times, who we are now, may not have existed. Everyone has their limits but we have run soo much. Since we were living a life where we were just about to reach the limit every time, we didn’t know that we were tired and we didn’t know what we wanted to do. We were able to organize a lot of those thoughts. 

If there is something you were influenced by from the ‘Past’, what is it?

I tend to remain calm and not get easily shaken up emotionally, and I think this is influenced by Daegu, North Gyeongsang Province, where I was born and raised. When I was young I grew up getting taught by my father that I have to live holding my emotions. Even if something good happens, I shouldn’t show happiness, shouldn’t be easily angered, and shouldn’t cry. I lived controlling my emotions and spending. So I didn’t do anything special much. 

What are things that have changed and things that haven’t changed as time passed?

There isn’t anything that hasn’t changed. Everything changed. I often say ‘original intention/resolution’ but it’s not a word that I really like. If you see it in a way I think it’s a word that they made to easily manage people by saying ‘Think about the days when you were nothing’ How can you live the same way when the situations have changed. What is important is how you are changing. I don’t think there is a problem with the fact that you have changed.

Do you have a belief that you uphold firmly?

I think before, I did. But the thing with beliefs is that when someone has a firm belief, they tend to suffer when they get a little deviated from that belief. I think I did too. So, I began to think let’s live flexibly. Now I don’t have a belief. If I had to say one I guess ‘live in the present’, and ‘do what you can do right now’ that’s about it.

Is there a way you can get along well with ‘my weakness’?

You just have to admit that the weaknesses are also me. Before, when I heard something bad I would say ‘I’m not like that. No, I’m not’. Now I think ‘I’m a person who could get hated, but I am not living to satisfy that person. So let’s not give much attention to it’ admitting it and carry my lackings.

Looking back, what was the darkest moment for you?

Before debut, when I was 20 years old. The company situation got so bad the team that was preparing was about to get to a so-called disbandment process. But I had to be a trainee. I came up from Daegu so I had very little monthly living expenses. It was money that wasn’t even enough to get a half basement floor room. That’s when I started working. Did part-time deliveries, gave lessons, and started to earn money like that, that is when I got into a motorcycle accident. And 10 years from that point I had to even get shoulder surgery. I felt so dark at that time. I locked myself in my room and didn’t even wash for two weeks. I was scared that I couldn’t even go out of the house. I just kept thinking, ‘I couldn’t go to college. Now in this situation where I got into an accident and my shoulder is like this, what will happen to my life?’ I felt bad as all the things I’d done until now were going to be a waste. Back then there weren’t even programs like <Show Me the Money>. I was devastated. The company asked what happened to my shoulder and I told them that I rolled down the stairs because I was worried that if I told them that I got into an accident while doing part-time delivery I would get cut off. Then the company gave me tuition for college and waited for me. There were several more times like that. I still feel at a loss when I think of that time.

If you were to write a letter to yourself in the past, what would you want to write?

“Do not fear, do not worry.” I want to write that I shouldn’t be anxious and think too much. 

What is something you think you could have done better in the past?

In the past, there were things that I had a lot of points of myself that I could have done better but now I don’t really have one. Making some mistakes, having some failures, all those moments gather up to make me who I am now. If I am disappointed right now, it feels like too much greed.  

During the day, what time do you think it’s your time for yourself?

There were times when I say it was early dawn. I usually worked on my songs during that time. Now I don’t think that. I’m trying my best to live a ‘routined life’ So my time is when I wake up in the morning. In the past, I just continued to sleep being tired. I usually thought ‘today I don’t want to do anything.’ and had no expectations toward the day. These days I wake up between 9 and 10 am, open the window the moment I open my eyes to circulate the air, and organize the surroundings. So I look forward to starting the day. Before, I think it was because I had such a busy life. Now I’m relaxed a bit. 

What do you like to be called the most?

I don’t tend to care much. In our company, we call people by putting ‘-nim’ on the end of their names. I feel really comfortable with that. So and so -nim or -ssi. Using honorifics like that is comfortable. On the other hand, even if those who are younger than me talk to me informally I don’t feel bad at all. I can be called whatever. I can be called Yoongi, SUGA, hyung, or dongsaeng. Whatever is ok. 

If there is something in life that is an indispensable existence, what would it be?

I learned as I went through the pandemic, that I would be really bored without the members. I believe it’s hard to maintain a family-like relationship while doing group activities. There is no reason to have a close relationship just because you are colleagues. We, of course, fought, quarreled, and did all sorts of things. However, thankfully good people gathered, time passed and it became a relationship that was beyond family. We know what each is thinking just from looking at each other’s eyes. I don’t have many friends. For me, the members are my colleagues and friends for a lifetime. 

Is there something you have been constantly telling yourself recently?

I like thinking. Reading a book while using my imagination is more interesting than watching TV. The problem was that I always asked myself questions and tried to find answers on my own. Tiring myself. I believe there are times when there is a need to fill the head with thoughts and times when you need to empty them, right now I think it’s a point in time where I need to empty so I don’t say anything particular or throw questions at me. Doing what I can do right now is what I mainly think about. 

How fast in km do you think you are going right now?

About 30 km? It’s the speed that I am going at. But my actual speed vs the speed I feel is different. Before, while going 120km it only felt like 30 km. ‘Other teams would be able to get no.1 within a few months, why aren’t we able to’, I was nervous and impatient. I thought we were going very slow, but those concerns if I think about it now were all meaningless. I now know that the most important thing is ‘not how fast you are going but where you are going.’

If there is something you are focusing on these days, what would you say it is?

I am doing quite a lot of external work. Various projects are running at the same time so it’s a bit chaotic for me. I don’t really have anything that I am focusing on other than working on music.

Is there a thought you always think about before going to sleep everyday?

I try not to think. If I think of one thing, another one is followed one after the other. And like that when it’s about 2 am, I start to regret the work that I accepted thinking why did I say I would do it. “Why did I say I was going to do this? Should I say that I can’t do it? Ah, what should I do? The deadline is just around the corner. When I finish this I’m never going to do any other work.” I think of those thoughts and I end up doing it again the next time. And then I regret it every time repeating the same pattern.   

Is there a dream that you do not want to wake up from?

Sometimes I think that this reality might all be just a dream. Makes me think I’m in that kind of dream-like world where I am doing whatever I want to do and listen to only what I want to listen to. I have a lot of moments where I’m that happy. If this is all a dream, I don’t want to wake up.  

Not to the world but is there something you want to prove to yourself?

For now, I don’t have one, I wonder if there’s anything left to prove. I think that everything that I am doing is going well. It’s true I need to show better work but personally, results and awards don’t have a big meaning for me. Of course, it would be nice if I received it. (laugh) I like trying new challenges but I don’t want to do things that I can’t do. If I were to try out a different field, I would have something to prove to myself but there’s nothing like that for now.

If you were to look at life as one road, how far do you think you came now?

Life is so long so I don’t think I’ve reached even the half point. 

If you were to put yourself as a scent, which scent would it be?

I don’t want any fragrance coming from me. I want to be a simple person who lives a simple life. Not having any scent also can mean that I can accept any scent. In fact, I am living a simple monotonous life. So I think I am fragrance-free. 

Do you think you are currently standing in a crossroad of change?

Of course. This is a very important moment. Personally, I turned 30 years old, and our team is thinking about a lot of things. By the time this album is out, a lot of things would have probably changed, and it is a period where changes were needed. 

Do you believe there is a predestined fate?

I do not believe in one. You make your own life. There are times when a great fortune might come in an unexpected situation. I believe that even that is all from individual choices gathered and the chance that approaches pretending to be fate.

Are there any characters from a movie or a drama that you would like to resemble?

I don’t particularly have any character that I want to look after but I do have a character that I like. It’s prosecutor Hwang Si-Mok played by actor Cho Seungwoo in the drama <Secret Forest>. I found that character very charming. I don’t like being on the front line myself and in the drama, Hwang Si-Mok is that type of person so I guess that’s why I like him.  

If you were able to go to another dimension, do you have any place you would like to go to?

When you watch movies, you see people who would fake their identities and live in Switzerland. I want to try living in Switzerland like that once. Of course, you shouldn’t fake your identity so just as an imagination. It’s not because the life I have is hard at all, I am just curious to know ‘when all the things that were surrounding me are all gone, what would I be doing?’ Just curious to know if there is a parallel universe, how Min Yoongi is living on that side. 

If you were to make a documentary about yourself, which song do you want to put on ending credit?

It’s not in this album but of the songs I made as Agust D, a song called ‘People’. I didn’t realize it when I released this song but I learned because people around me talked about it a lot. That this song perfectly represents me. There is a lyric where it said ‘people change like how I have changed, nothing in this world lasts forever, all just passing by happening.’ and I like this lyric. I live thinking that, it’s all just a passing by happening. If I were to put it on the ending credit, I would say this song would be good. 

Personally, what is the most meaningful album out of the whole BTS discography? 

Both <The Most Beautiful Moment in Life pt.1> and <The Most Beautiful Moment in Life pt.2> are similarly meaningful. I heard later on but I heard that the overall concept of the album was set as they thought about me. So I was able to have the role to work on both albums’ intros. The memory of having fun working on <The Most Beautiful Moment in Life pt.1> so vividly. We started to leap from that point also. I reworked on the intro over 20 times. The last time I did it, I thought, if this doesn’t pass I seriously need to run away. I felt that I really couldn’t do it. For almost one month, I worked on it while I ate and slept in that small studio. So it became an album that I love and hate. 

Trivia 轉 : Seesaw

What does this song mean to you?

I like the sketch of this song. So I even had thought about releasing the full version of the sketch on my mixtape.

If there is a behind for this song, what are there? 

This song is Slow Rabbit’s arrangement version. I do like the version before the arrangement a little more. (laugh) I like similar flows as this song’s chord flow so it felt like the songs I produce all had a similar vibe so I arranged it so I had a bit of a retro feel. 

Which do you think you are closer to, a person who follows their own personal preference or the person who matches with other people’s preference?

I am more comfortable matching with the other person. It doesn’t even have to do with personal preference. I can’t even choose food menus well. There were instances where I was choosing what to eat and it passed 2-3 hours so I didn’t eat. Other than work, I don’t have things that I believe should be done a certain way. So I feel much more comfortable matching others’ preferences. And if this feeling is stronger, that might be love. Since love has many different kinds. 

Is there a special method in controlling your emotion?

Not giving meaning to emotions. The moment you give meaning to it, it becomes painful. If something good happens, just regard them as good things and I think the same way for bad things. 

If you were to make a song with a similar concept again, what kind of song do you think would come out? 

Even if it’s the same concept, if I make it again it will have a completely different interpretation. Since my life has changed. This song came out 4 years ago already, and it came out this way because it was during that time. Now I am more composed and my life has completely changed. I think a more mature version of a song would come out. 

BTS Cypher PT.3: KILLER(Feat. Supreme Boi)

What does this song mean to you?

When we perform this song in concerts I get really excited. I remember when we performed this song. If you listen to this song’s lyrics you will see we’re full of anger. It came out in 2014, at that time, we got a lot of hate from outside and beaten all over the place to the point I wondered why people hated us so much to that extent. So I guess we held it against it a little. (laugh)  

Do you have words that can motivate you these days?

I felt provoked when someone criticized me but now I don’t get much incitement. I don’t feel much motivation from compliments either. I feel more motivated from words that I say to myself than words I hear from others. When I was young, I was inexperienced so when I wrote songs it did not pass easily. However these days most of the time I receive an ‘Ok’ for all the things I work on, it now becomes a fight of my own. “Is this the best I’ve got? Is this ok? Shouldn’t it be more interesting than this?” I keep telling myself things like that.

In both the song and rap people are able to feel pure and powerful energy. Do you have stories you would like to talk about with this kind of energy right now?

I think this world is too cruel for the young generation. The world has always been cruel to the young generation but I think it’s even more now. I hope the younger generation, including myself, can be more angered. I believe that now, it’s hard to just only have hope. Everyone is living with survival on the line. In an era where the value of labor is diminishing, I believe for the younger generation it could be really painful. If I say this sort of thing it might sound hypocritical, but I always live having thoughts like that.

What kind of message do you want to throw out to the world through music in the future?

I want to talk and make music that is future-oriented. When we first debuted, and we were talking about school, people asked us why we were talking about these. There wasn’t anyone who was talking the same thing as us. However, I think in an era where everyone is tired, lyrics that contain comfort, empathy, or social criticism are necessary. There is a song called “Strange (feat. RM)?’ that I released as Agust D and in there I threw that kind of question. Looking forward I believe that there is a need we have to throw out messages that are needed. 

What does the album <Proof> mean to BTS?

I think it would be a branching point. I think a lot of things will change starting from this album. Since we now have quite a bit of experience, I believe now there is another path of our own as BTS. So I think it can be an album where we can anticipate a change.

English translation by: bomharu1230 Photo credit: mahoneysuga

[thesingingrevolution]

(this has been in my drafts for almost a month but i saw this tweet and decided i might as well write a little more and share)

part of the reason a survival show is a horrible idea for nct tokyo is because i feel like nct members have a very specific vibe. like you know when we call taeyong THE neo or say that something like a song or concept or outfit is “neo,” like it’s hard to explain but there is a certian vibe for sure… i don’t think it’s a coincidence that quite a few members were street cast or sought after specifically as opposed to regular auditioning like most kpop trainees.

this is also part of the reason why i think limitless expansion only yielded 23 members at the group’s largest point, because honestly if it was just about adding people mindlessly they could debut any somewhat talented somewhat attractive young male trainee and call it a day 😭

(i think the nct dream graduation system failing because it was so poorly organized is to blame too, with a graduation system rotational group it would be far easier to introduce new members but honestly no one really wants/wanted that)

sm has never cared about being organized with the nct units since so many members like sungchan, shotaro, ten, and kun remained unitless for years. they literally could have just added more people during nct 2020 or 2021. but i still think that back then they had a shred of integrity and knew that adding any boy to a group with a very specific vibe is just not the move.

it’s like when nctzens say only nct can cover nct. i literally knew nothing about these trainees when i started writing this, as of today i know their faces, names, and ages. i don’t think it’s right for me to judge them since i have never seen any of these guys perform, but i feel like there are other issues too.

going off track with this whole neo vibe talk, i am still so concerned about the gap in experience and even age. there are 06 and 07 liners in the competition, and that is just…… we do not need more 15 year olds in kpop. we do not want 15 year olds in nct. we have seen nct dream talk about how hard it was to debut at such a young age we do not need that or want that. there’s gonna be almost a 15 year gap between taeil and these little kids. this wouldn’t be as apparent of an issue if the limitless expansion thing had literally expanded to the point where new people are added all the time, but since nct will have less than 30 members it’s much more visible. nct has done so many mature concepts we do not need kids in nct

also because so many nctzens are adults too. i honestly don’t know how many new fans this unit is gonna bring in. i think sm saw how popular boys planet was and was like ok 😄👍. but i do not see this new unit brining in many fans, from what i’ve seen nct is already quite popular in japan. i don’t even think the 5 nctzens that are all all unit stans will tune in because we do not like this idea as a whole. and now that i am nearly 20 i avoid every group with extremely young members, i literally do not think i can stan a group where every member is younger than i am if i am literally just 19. so if none of the 02 or 03 (or even 04) boys make it…. yeah not good. we want older people please

and now: experience gap

literally over half of nct have been idols for over 7 years, which is how long most idols last at all in the industry (if they’re lucky and don’t disband earlier). in other instances where members debuted later (2017, 2018, 2019, 2020) the gap was less of an issue for a few reasons. in 2018, nct were still a pretty young group and still were establishing themselves. and since all the new members debuted in nct u with their more experienced counterparts, it was a benefit overall since the older members could help the newer ones. and i think in 2019 it was the same. when xiaohenyang debuted in wayv, the other 4 members of the group that debuted with them had been in the group for at least one (or, almost one) year at that time. and winwin had been in a fixed unit since debut and i think all of that helped the new members not stick out as inexperienced at all. and obviously by the time they debuted in nct u the following year they had already gained a lot of skills on their own.

as for sungtaro, it was similar to nct 2018 in the sense that it was just them and debuting in nct u with other members who were more experienced and could guide them. and when nct tokyo debuted they would have that connection to the main group thanks to sungtaro. and now we don’t have that. and it’s probably gonna be seven 15 year olds hanging out with grandfather aged nct 127 i hate it here 😭

[fallingforya]

i'm a bit late but FUMA DEBUT FUMA DEBUT FUMA DEBUT!!!!!!!

[penny-quinn]

Pairing : mingyu svt× reader,

Genre: fluff, slice of life,

Word count: 3k

Request:

By @reveluvsstuff so i wanna request for a seventeen imagine since the last one i requested was so so good but can i get a mingyu imagine where his friend who is a trainee with him but is deciding to leave the company because pledis has no plans to debut a girl group and how would he feel when she tells him that she is leaving on her last in pledis

Authors note: phew, took me quite some time. I'm very sorry for the delay, honestly the story is kinda slow burn and boring 😅 but it was very fun to write!!! Thankyou so much for requesting !! Hope you like it and it's quite late here so good night 😊 / good morning!

Part of @kpclub

"Hey, mingyu, long time no see" you gave a pleasant smile while taking a seat opposite of his. It was a flower café, surrounded by Asiatic lilies. " Same here, so how is it going?" Mingyu asked while his hands were folded on the table, making him arch his back to take a closer look at your appearance. " Nothing too much actually.... Oh! The waiter is coming. Wanna have lunch? I heard that this place sells amazing desserts" you enthusiastically say while Mingu's lips curl into a smile which he couldn't hide. It almost felt unreal to him; of how much you had changed yet how much you were still yourself... The same old (your name) who had her eyes sparking every time she talked about something she liked. " Hey gyuu! Anything you wanna eat or drink?" You asked while observing the menu.He answered " nahh, just order anything you'd want for both of us. It's on me" and there it was again! Those sparkles in your eyes " So I've ordered some tiramisu......" " Ok!.... So tell me, how's your life going?" Mingyu insisted after all it's been quite some years since you and last met " Well, I'm still a trainee. I write songs, work as part time receptionist in Pledis, and I also look over the younger trainees. Sometimes I'm a backup dancer.... It's all a hugeeeeeee mess honestly. As I'm still a student. I'm writing my thesis, while working full time.It's hard" you give a tight-lipped smile while not meeting him in the eyes… It had always been a habit of yours, to smile Through the pain; to say that you're fine when you weren't ok; to not meet the eyes when you weren't confident and mingyu knew about it; too well. " I see... It's the same here for me honestly. But at least I've got hyungs, I guess? You know, the limelight makes it harder to have a normal life but you know how it's just how it is" he lets out a huge sight while stretching out his arms. " Haha, yea! We're in our mid twenties...... We wanna be young and aloof but we are also learning to manage ourselves. To be sturdy" you say while your eyes glinted with tears clearly showing that they're held back; and the sight it somehow pricks his heart. " Well, I'm so glad that I got to meet you today. Oh! Look, the food has arrived... Let's eat"you try to alter the heavy atmosphere yet mingyu couldn't help but feel solemn.... It was Like he could sense your sadness. But like always, food always brought the most genuine smile to your cheeks. Once the plates are empty, you eye the clear sky above you. It was clear blue with a few fluffy clouds " You know mingyu, I'm gonna leave this industry...... '' you said as you looked upon the sky mourning; there was just too much to lose as you neither had confidence nor the courage to look him in the eye.., " R-really? Are you sure?" Mingyu tries to confirm as he was immensely surprised and taken back. " Yea" you said, finally looking him in the eyes……. " It was great meeting you, afterall we haven't met for so many years right? By the way, we should exchange numbers. I've changed my number you see" he says " Oh! Sure" After exchanging your numbers you went your own ways.....

~

You were walking back home while it was still day. The cold air hits your face and you finally come out of your daydream. Taking one last glance around you just couldn't help but be mesmerised by the scenario of Seoul city. Taking the stairs you quickly walked to your flat; Opening the door knob and instantly shutting it. As a prior trainee, you had learned to know when you were being followed and acting on your senses you immediately knew that a sasaeng was after you. Afterall you still had those instructions tattooed on your head and body. The meeting with Mingyu was a secret so how come they knew? Questioning the action you felt horrified. Not long after you Scrolled through your contacts and called Mingyu….. "Hey, mingyu" you say in a restless voice " Hey, missed me already?" " Nahh, it's just I feel like i',m being followed" you whispered " Wah-? But wasn't the meeting a secret? Anyways I'll come pick you up… just stay there for a while" " But then where should I live after?" " Well you could live with me" he said while his hands twirled his hair with nervousness " Could I ? I'm not feeling much safe here" you said " Umm, then I'll come to get you. Make sure to pack some clothes. Sasengs are hard to fly off" Once you DM'd mingyu your address you now start to pack some of your clothes and a whole lot of things you'd need while living in mingyu's home. " Y/N!!! Lee Y/N!!" The landlord comes banging at your doors. " Yes, Mrs. Seo" you said while opening the door " I'LL GIVE YOU A WEEK, MAKE SURE YOU GET OUT OF HERE" "wa-" "A COUPLE ARE HERE TO RENT THIS FLAT... LEAVE TILL THEN" and she walks off nonchalantly. " Uh, I'm screwed!" You scold yourself while you now pack all of your belongings. Some clothes, a few accessories, cooking potS? And of course quite a handful of bills, from the insurance company for the education loan you were trying to pay off. "Uh, what am I gonna say to him?" You dwelled " 🎶" The phone starts to ring. " Hey, mingyu!" " Hey, y/n! Which flat is it? " Uh, XX..." After the call was over you stacked all the boxes while the room was left with nothing but the bed and counters that home provided. " Hey!" Mingyu invites himself inside. " Hey, let's carry them out" you say while your eyebrows knitted.... The boxes weren't very heavy and once it all was loaded you arrived at Mingyu's glamorous apartment. Well, the elevator was cramped due to all of your boxes but nevertheless you had made it. " Waaaa... Your house is beautiful'' you complimented while his cheeks were flustered " Ahem! Thank You very much" mingyu gave his signature idol smile while walking you up to the empty bedroom " So this is my guest room. You can stay here" mingyu syid while his hands went through his hair locks. It took the whole evening for you and mingyu to actually arrange about half the stuff you'd brought. Saying that he'd cook the dinner mingyu left while you fixed some more objects and clothes…. Now about a quarter of boxes were left. Feeling tired " Phew, I'll check them out later" you said while heading to the attached bathroom for a bath. The long hot bath was truly what you needed. The soothing bath which relaxed all your muscles and your mind as well. Finally,getting out because you had to; you now wore your robe while heading outside the bathroom and quickly changed into your pajamas afterall the luring scent of the delicacies from the kitchen was too delicious to ignore. " Hey, y/n! Thought you were never gonna come out of the room ... Haha" mingyu teases you like always while toasting the anchovies. " If you knew then you should've helped me dummy" you tirelessly said while drinking the warm water that was on the table " You know y/n, Hearing your words at the café I thought we were never gonna meet but here we are…. Even more closer" he said while inhaling deeply " Well, I did intend to never meet you, you know. Maybe after 20 years? After I grew old and would have a relaxed life, I'd probably prefer to meet you then but it's just all so twisted... Uh" you say while he giggles

listening to your words…. " Haha, you're still the same y/n. You'd always say that once our debut was confirmed and you're still saying it even now….. say did you see the future? Haha ``he gives off his contagious laugh while placing the plates on the counter. " The future huh? Umm…" you giggled while mingyu played along with you " the about a future prediction of your own self?" " Sure why not? So let's see….. umm, maybe I'll get married . Well, even if I didn't I'd for sure get a boyfie, hehe" you smiled while mingyu scoffed " You and marriage? That's a pair that I'd look forward to. After All it's just opposite poles ,I tell you" he said while you munched on the French fries that he had made.

As the rice was served, you both now ate in silence. The meal was delicious as always.While you washed the dishes, Mingyu watched some drama's on the TV. " Y/n, your favourite MOVIE IS AIRING!!" Mingyu shouts while gigging after all he knew that you were already rushing and hearing him scream only made you more anxious " Huh, which one?" " Kung Fu panda of course, you dummy. Now come here fast, palli" he says while his shoulders widened around the sofa " Haaa!man! You like to make me rush on purpose right? You prankster" You acted being annoyed flicking his forehead while sitting on the farthest edge of the sofa making yourself comfortable. " That's because you look better when you're flustered ," he whispers but you couldn't care less about it after all your head was very much focused on the TV show. " Mingyu! You pabo! you still remembered it" you dramatically spank his arms " Well of course i would...I'm not some Baka who'd just forget it when especially you spoke about it all the time" " Haha… yea! Oh,how lovely days were those" And once again after the break you enthusiastically watched the movie; being so engrossed in it that you had completely forgotten that your legs were now crossed above Mingyu's legs and he didn't even bother to point it out. " Man, I feel so sleepy" you stretch out your arms with a yawn. " Well, it's only ten thirty. Are you sure you're an adult? Cuz it's kids bedtime" mingyu remarks with a smirk…. Oh how could he forget? Of how much he loves to tease you " Who's A kid huh? I'm 26" you scolded while he laughed it off. " Yea yea, by the way.... Y/n you shouldn't leave the company. At Least not right now. Pledis is taken over by hit man bang, you know that right? So, in the near future you might get opportunities that you've been waiting for. Just for a little while, stay longer?" Mingyu tries to pursue you but maybe, somewhere bus words held yet another meaning embodied that you couldn't comprehend. " Uh, I LL think about it... Good night" you said not wanting to tease yourself….. ~ Like any other day, you had woken up at 4 hurriedly packing up your stuff just to ensure that the trainees would learn a lot more better. Loose bun, thick glasses, vintage skirt, and a plain shirt. You might have gone for a nerdy look but oh, whatever! Similarly for Mingyu he woke up at his usual six am. A short memo from your side in the early morning just made his day…. Oh, did I forget to mention that the whole day Mingyu was rather a lot more blissful and ignorant of all the worldly possessions and was rather happy in his solitude. Fed up by his emotion, Wonwoo invites Mingyu to the cafeteria for some talk. " Say Mingyu, what happened to you?" " Huh? What happened? I'm the same old me bro" " No you aren't… you look like you're glowing as if something very special happened to you? Tell me about it" " AHH, it's just y/n.. she's living with mez for now" " WAA! I'm coming for dinner tonight. Bye gotta take the call" Wonwoo purposely invites himself. Afterall he was the one who knew of Mingyu's one sided love. After texting you about wonwoo's arrival mingyu too spared no time and again went to practice. As the two men entered with a whole box of drinks, the fresh aroma of chicken stew hits their nose and they lure into the kitchen. " Umm, delicious" wonwoo enchantingly closes his eyes, feeling the aroma till his stomach. Turing behind, the sight of those men carves a small smile to your lips as you ask them to freshen up for dinner. " Hey mingyu.. doesn't it feel as if you have a wife? Uh, guess little brother is taking the lead in the romance department huh?" Wonwoo points out while leaving Mingyu be.. after all he was flustered and would need some time. The dinner was enjoyed till the last grain and later they had some drinking programmes. ~ The following day with a bloated face you exit your university With a handful of research topics…… Like always you'd return home very early than mingyu. Pacing back and forth, digging through your boxes you were now left nothing but mess. Clearing

them you again start your thesis. " Hey" mingyu entered through the doors while you had your thinking cap on. Tiptoeing round about you, Mingyu quietly walked pass. It was about noon and with no vegetables in the cabinet you said " Hey mingyu, wanna go buy some veggies?" And like an energetic puppy mingyu hurries up with you heading the town. While you chose the items needed, Mingyu carried all the loads like a gentleman he was. " How much is the cabbage?" " XX, but seeing you as a newly married couple I'll give you a discount.. how about xx?" The shopkeeper winked while both of you were red as a tomato. " N-no we-" " Oh, don't be shy now. Good bye" While you cooked the dinner Mingyu carried out some of his mixed tape. In between all of these events, Wonwoo's words were ringing in his ears. Gosh, he needed some help right there….. ~ Some days you had to work past midnight. Seeing the lights turned on in your room, mingyu would cook some midnight ramyeon and you both would enjoy it. In between these fleeting moments you had gotten the habit of living with Mingyu; his sarcastic remarks, his fun loving voice, his hugs and mostly the little things he did. But you had to leave right? How could you stay as a burden to him? ~

" Haiya........" You slowly wake up after all when was it? since you last had a good sleep. Freshening up you head to the kitchen which has a gorgeous aroma of freshly baked cake. " Good morning y/n" Mingyu greets you while he takes out the toasted bread. " Good morning gyu.... No schedules today?" You asked while comfily sitting on the sofa. " Took a day off today.... Mom's coming,``Mingyu casually mentioned while placing the breakfast for you and him. Along the trainee days Mingyu's mom loved to tease you; at least from your point of view. In a huge crowd of trainees she'd somehow manage to pin you out and give you a motherly smile while saying a word or two of tease. Nothing less, she was a very warm person. A fresh cup of coffee, toasted bread with choco jam and eggs..... And finally some salted butter.. just like how you'd prefer. " Gyu! I'm gonna be heading to the library nearby. Have fun with your mom and send her my greetings" you said while hurriedly heading for some change of clothes. " Oh sure" he smiles, showing his toothy smile. Pairing a white tee with mom jeans and a blazer you left. The library had a very vintage look and felt very warm and homey.... From as long as you knew, you had a very small crush on mingyu. Maybe it was because he was very kind to you; nahh, it's rather he was kind to everyone but more kinder to you. From remembering all your favourite food, movies, actors to actually buying the foods, merchandise and so on. He never told what it was but just in case if it were love; it'd be nice. But maybe you had your chance and it's all over right? You thought. "Bzzz" your phone vibrates.... " Oh, he's arrived" you whispered while buying the book you were reading and head to a cafe. " Hey" the young man greeting you " Hey seokmin," you greet him. Seokmin, your fiancé; he was a great man. Humble, kind, loyal, friendly just as you'd like( maybe not) " So how was your day?" He asked while smiling Endlessly at your presence. " It was great, I had some heavy breakfast... What about you?" You say with a smile that's untrue to yourself " It's good... It's just boss is annoying and bickering always" he sights Mingyu, who had come to the cafe down the road for some exquisite sandwich which his mother liked; was startled to see y/n with a guy he'd never met.... You looked happy and smiley while that guy next to you was intertwining your fingers with his..... To Mingyu, he wanted to see you happy but not happier after all the smiles that you gave to him; it was a sacred prayer only for him and himself.. Furiously he stomped his way through the cafe facing y/n and that unnamed guy. " Y/n....what are you doing here?" Mingyu abruptly comes in between you and seokmin. " Uh? When did you get here? And oh, meet my fiancé Seokmin. ``You introduced your fiancé while Mingyu's blood boiled in anger and his palms turned into fists.... Rolling his eyes in anger " We're getting out.. you've got some clarifications to make y/n" he angrily takes you with him while you say " sorry seokmin, let's talk next time" Silently you followed mingyu till home. He makes you sit on the sofa while his eyes demand answers.... " So what was that about huh?" He interrogates in s rather more lower toned voice which you were not used to " About what? It's like I said he's my fiancé" you kept it simple while Mingyu bids his lower lips trying to calm the anger inside of him " I asked when did you meet him? Why Are you marrying him? Do you even like him? Whats soo good in that stupid boy anyways? Huh?"He continues to insult seokmin in the heat of the moment…. The insults, you couldn't keep yourself calm either after all directly or indirectly they did attack you too... " ENOUGH WITH IT KIM MINGYU! You're not my father or anything to question my choices..... I'm in a marriageable age and he gives me a stable future. As for why I'm marrying him, could you even bring anyone better? Huh? Life isn't always what I'm wanting or what you want.... It's something where we must compromise to life; uh", unleashed your anger that was

beneath all your grief and thoughts…. Maybe it was the little part buried somewhere in between yourself, lost in the sea of tightened knots of feelings. " Then what about me? Was I never in your choice?" Mingyu whispers " You- you're too far away for me gyu" you whispered as well while your tears that were jammed now come out running like a river.... " I wàs never far away..... But I do want to let you know that there never was a day that I never not loved you" mingyu voices out as you now look at him with your teary eyes " i- " you started to cry even more.... Maybe just to let all the pains and grief out or maybe because of the reunion; for what if you hadn't called mingyu? Your love for him would have been in vain or worse nor you nor he would have known each other's feelings. " You know mingyu,the landlord has kicked me out of the apartment....." You said with a smile to which mingyu surrendered with a smile curling up " Your luck's as bad as ever but good for me " he sarcastically says while both of you laugh " And you're the lucky one I guess, cuz I love you" you say while Mingyu couldn't go bonkers inside his head!!! You liked him! And that was all he needed afterall puppy love is hard to ignore... And in this blissful moment Mingyu's phone buzzes..... Want pain he thinks while checking out the message only to be gobsmacked .... "Y/N!! MY MOM!!! SHE'S NEAR THE STATION" And so the days of the couple began.

[high-functioning-lokipath]

Star Trek - Leonard "Bones" McCoy x reader - Southern Charm - Words: 3,556

A/N: While I did write this with TOS in mind, I do believe it is fairly AOS compliant as well. Enjoy!

"Lieutenant Commander Y/N L/N, Chief Medical Officer of the Starship Serenity."

"Welcome aboard the Enterprise, Doctor L/N. I'm Captain James T. Kirk. This is my first officer, Commander Spock and our CMO, Doctor McCoy. We're looking forward to having you as the first trainee in the Starship Exchange Training program."

"Pleasure to meet you all. And I'm looking forward to it as well," You replied, stepping off the transporter pad. You gave the Captain a handshake, the First Officer a Vulcan salute and then turned to the grumpy looking CMO.

"How old are you?" He demanded to know.

"Old enough," You assured him, crossing your arms. "Why do you ask?"

"Just don't see many youngsters like you with that rank," He trailed off, leaving the statement open ended.

"Well, I happen to be an outlier. Or haven't you heard of that, Doctor? Besides, I'm not that young," You replied, curtly. You didn't often become confrontational this quickly but questions on your age and suspicions on how you got your rank were a sore spot for you.

"Just because I have to train you doesn't mean I have to like it," McCoy grumbled.

"I never asked you to." You quickly grabbed your bag that was transported with you and walked to the doors. Just before you stepped out to the hallway, you turned back around. "Captain, Commander, have a good evening. I am looking forward to working with you two over the next few weeks. Don't worry, I know where my quarters are. Doctor, I will see you at 6."

As you unpacked your bag, you thought over what happened in the transporter room. You had really been looking forward to this training and you had heard many great things about the Doctor. Of course, you had also heard he was a bit of a grump, but you hadn't thought it was this bad! You decided to stay in your room for the rest of that evening, as it was already late when you arrived, and try for a fresh start in the morning.

"Are you out of your mind? I'm a doctor, not an assassin!"

"I was simply saying, Doctor McCoy, that Starfleet medical personnel are completely untrained in self defense techniques! We are trained to save lives, not take them. That I completely agree with. But we must also be trained how to defend and disable. Defend ourselves, disable our opponents. Otherwise we may become a hindrance to any away missions we get assigned on!"

"Look, even if you're right, and you're not, when would we have the time to train?" He yelled. "Have you ever been to medical school? Do you know how stressful that is?"

"Of course I went to med school! I happened to graduate top of my class! And I remember very clearly how stressful it is! But they need to make it work! Even another month would be enough for most!"

"Another month?" He screeched. He raked his fingers through his hair and rubbed his forehead. "Look, I have plenty of training to defend myself in the field. Let's just agree to disagree and get this over with."

"Alright, Doctor," You sighed. The first 2 weeks of training slowly passed with the only change in attitude being on your side. You'd gotten to disliking the Doctor as much as he disliked you. Every day you trained was near constant arguing and insulting.

Unbeknownst to you, Kirk had started taking bets from the senior crew members on when in the final week you two would get together. Whoever won would get 3 days vacation. The current bets on Kirk's paper were:

Uhura: As she steps on the transporter to leave Thursday

Scotty: Monday

Chekov: End of shift Tuesday

Sulu: Beginning of shift Wednesday

Spock: At precisely 07:35 in the evening Friday

Kirk looked oddly at Spock when he submitted his estimate. "Spock, you do realize she is scheduled to leave Thursday afternoon."

"Yes, Jim."

"So why-"

"I have my reasons."

"Logical, I'm sure."

"Quite. Now if you'll excuse me, I'm needed in engineering."

"Ok, Spock. But don't get your hopes high about any vacation!"

Monday: Scotty's Day

You got up early and headed down to the rec room to get breakfast. Usually you had breakfast in your room but this morning, oddly enough, Scotty had invited you to join him for breakfast. Once you entered the rec room you mentally groaned. Of course McCoy would be there!

"Good morning, Scotty," You greeted, walking up to his table which was unfortunately right next to Kirk, Spock, and McCoy's table.

"Aye! And an even lovelier morning with you here, lassie!" You blushed slightly, surprised at the engineer's comment.

"Oh please!" You scoffed. You were about to walk away to the replicators to get your food when Spock cleared his throat.

"I believe Mister Scott is correct, Doctor. Your hair and makeup accentuate your natural beauty quite well."

"Spock!" You, Kirk and McCoy gasped at the same time.

"Look here," You finally said, gathering your composure. "I appreciate a compliment here and there but really! I'm going to go get my breakfast and I don't want to hear one more peep out of any of you when I return! Understand?" They all nodded and stuck to their word, not another compliment for the rest of the day.

Tuesday - Chekov's Day

Your shift had gone fairly well. Training with Doctor McCoy was finally becoming almost bearable and there hadn't been any major disasters. "Doctor, was there anything else you needed me for today?" You asked, stepping into the open doorway of his office.

"No, you can go if you'd like," He sighed, not lifting his eyes from his PADD.

"Is something troubling you, Doctor?"

"Just a lot of paperwork, darlin'," He said absently. You blushed brightly and he quickly tried to correct himself. "I mean, Doctor. Sorry." He finally looked at you, face as red as yours. You nodded and attempted to make a hasty exit but you ran into a gold blur.

"Oh! Ezcuze me!" Chekov quickly said, helping you up. "I'm wery sorry! Are you hurt?"

"Only my pride, Pavel," You replied, dusting yourself off.

"What in blazes happened out here?" McCoy yelled, stomping out.

"Oh nothing, Doctor," You assured him.

"Well watch where you're going next time!" He ordered. With that he marched back to his office and closed the doors. You sighed and wished Chekov goodnight before leaving.

"No vacation," Chekov mumbled softly before leaving Medbay too.

Wednesday - Sulu's Day

You walked into Medbay to start your shift only to find Sulu already there. "What are you doing here so early?" You asked. "Your check-up isn't for another 45 minutes."

"I wanted to make sure I got here on time. You know how it is on the bridge sometimes," He chuckled. You nodded and chuckled lightly. You checked the schedule on the PADD and noticed the Ensign before him had cancelled.

"Well, Sulu, you just managed to get an early appointment. Step on up!" You had him sit on the nearest biobed and grabbed your Tricorder. As you started running over the usual check-up points, Dr. McCoy walked in.

"You're here early," He commented. Sulu nodded and you explained what happened. "Alright. Y/N, I'm going to leave you to it. I have a headache this morning and I think I'll just sit in my office for a bit with the lights down." You looked at him a little better, noticing how exhausted he looked. His hair was a mess and there were dark bags under his eyes. He may be a pain but he was still human and you felt for him.

"Did you need me to get you anything, Doctor?" You asked. He shook his head but groaned at the movement. "Just comm me if you need anything." He made a noise of agreement and you went on with Sulu's checkup.

Thursday - Uhura's Day

"Good morning, Y/N," Uhura greeted you in the turbolift on your way to Medbay.

"Good morning, Uhura," You replied abit sadly.

"You alright, sweetheart?"

"I'm going to miss you all. I love my ship and my crew, don't get me wrong, but," You trailed off, unsure of how to explain yourself.

"You don't feel like family there?" She filled in. You nodded slightly. "Oh honey, I understand. Don't feel bad, alright? Who knows! Maybe you'll get a transfer one day even!"

"That would be nice I guess," You admitted. The doors swooshed open and as you stepped out, Dr. McCoy walked by.

"Doctor L/N," He said, sounding somewhat frustrated. "I need you to gather all the anti-toxin hypos we have."

"Of course. Is everything alright?"

"Spock just told me we're going on a mission tomorrow. He should have told me at least 2 days ago. The new colony on Oliza 6 sent out a distress call about 1 week ago saying that something was wrong. They said some of the younger people were having strange reactions to some of the foods."

"That's odd. Isn't the food on a planet usually tested first?"

"Yes but apparently they forgot to test on the younger adults. Blasted regulations. Test one adult you've tested them all." At this point you had nodded a silent goodbye to Uhura and started walking with Doctor McCoy down the hall. "Let's see if we can't find out what's on that planet and run some tests of our own. Might save some time."

"Doctor?" You said, somewhat hesitantly.

"Yes?"

"I do have to go back to my ship this afternoon. I," you paused. McCoy had finally started to be nice with you and now you had to go. You didn't want to upset him again on your last day. "I'll help as much as I can on the tests of course, Doctor, but I-"

"No, no," He said with a sigh. "I didn't realize it was Thursday." He smiled slightly and put his hand on your shoulder. "If you tell anyone what I'm about to say, I'll have to kill you," He joked. "Your work has been excellent. Your skill set is beyond your years and please don't take that wrong. You've impressed me." You blushed at his praise. "Of course, I still don't agree with the extra combat training," He added. You rolled your eyes and he chuckled. "But I guess you're not so bad."

"Well thank you, Doctor. I, uh, I guess I'll get the hypos for you now."

"Oh, um, yes, thank you," he replied somewhat awkwardly. The rest of your shift went about the same. You and the Doctor awkwardly dancing around each other. Eventually, though, the time came for you to finish packing, and leave the Enterprise.

As you headed to the transporter room, Uhura came running up to you with a small package in her hands. "What's this?" You asked.

"Oh, just a little going away present that a few of us put together for you."

"That's really sweet of you. Thanks so-"

"Bridge to Lt. Uhura," The Captain's voice rang through her comm.

"Duty calls!" She exclaimed. "Keep in touch!"

"Will do!" You replied, heading off to the transporters. Once you got there though, you saw Scotty talking to the Captain through the comm. He seemed upset about something.

"But Captain! I-"

"Scotty, we need to help that colony. There's no time."

"Aye, Captain. Scott out," He sighed. "I cannae believe 'at."

"What's wrong?"

"Oh, lassie. I'm so sorry! The Captain just got an emergency message from Oliza 6. We're heading there straight away."

"So I'll be staying another night?"

"At least." Your brows furrowed in thought. While you did want to get back to your ship to start your transfer application, a few more days here was not all that bad.

"Ok," You replied. Scotty seemed surprised. "I'll just take this back to my room and then head to Medbay. They'll probably need me handy."

"Aye. I'll let the Captain and Doctor know." You nodded in reply and headed off. When you returned to Medbay, you could have sworn you saw a look of relief on McCoy's face.

"Doctor L/N," McCoy said. "I'm putting you in charge of Medbay for the time being." Your eyebrows raised in surprise. "Jim's put me on the landing party and you technically are the next ranking medical officer on this ship."

"Well, thank you, I guess," You said. "Have you made any progress on the tests?"

"I believe so," He pulled up some test results on his PADD and showed them to you. "The hobgoblin ended up helping me but he was actually of some use." He looked around furtively. "Don't tell him I said so though."

"I promise," you said seriously. You stared at each other for a moment before you both broke out into a fit of laughter.

"Really though, the fruits on Oliza 6 seem to be causing a buildup of adrenaline in their systems causing aggression, anxiety and heart problems."

"Hm, interesting."

"That's what the hobgoblin said," McCoy grunted. You chuckled and he finished explaining their plan to administer hypos to everyone. The comm suddenly whistled.

"Bridge to Dr. McCoy," Uhura said.

"Yes, Lieutenant?" He replied.

"The Captain is preparing to beam down now and would like you to meet him in the transporter room."

"Alright, I'm on my way." You followed the Doctor as he gathered a few last minute items from his office. When he grabbed his phaser from his desk you couldn't help yourself.

"Doctor, that phaser is last year's model. Didn't you get your new one?"

"Oh, must not've. I'll ask Scotty for one." He grabbed his communicator and flipped it open. "McCoy to Scott."

"Scott here. Whaddya need, Doctor?"

"L/N said my phaser is old. Got a new one for me?"

"Sure do, Doc. I'll have her all polished up for ya when ya get to the transporters. Just remember, this one's a wee bit more powerful than the last. She's got a bit of a kick!"

"Don't worry, Scotty, I'm sure I can handle it. McCoy out." You looked worriedly at him because, knowing his views on defense training and based on what he said, this new phaser would throw him for a loop.

"Doctor, perhaps you should just stay with your old pha-"

"Doctor L/N," He said stiffly. "I do not want to hear anything more about training. I am perfectly capable of defending myself. Please do not worry yourself. Now if you'll excuse me, I have a mission to attend to. Do you think you'll be able to handle Medbay while I'm gone?"

"Of course, Doctor McCoy," You snapped. You heard the Medbay doors swoosh closed and sighed, leaning on he's desk in his office. You closed the office doors and locked them, needing a moment to gather yourself. "Gah! That man is so annoying!" You yelled to yourself. "If he doesn't get himself killed on this mission-" you left your threat unfinished. "Oh! I could just kiss him," You seethed. "I mean, kick." You paused, mid-pace, and shook your head vigorously. Your brain had apparently taken a left turn without telling you. "Did I seriously just-and now I'm talking to myself. Ok, Y/N, get yourself together. You'll figure it out later." You finished your little pep talk and headed back out.

The first few hours were fine. One or two clumsy engineers with a few cuts and bruises. A sniffle here and a headache there. It was actually somewhat relaxing. You decided to be a little helpful and got some paperwork done for Dr. McCoy. As you sat in his office tapping away on your PADD, you found yourself lost in thought. You hoped he wouldn't be upset that you did some extra work for him. "That's not what I asked you to do, Doctor!" You mocked under your breath. Chuckling slightly you continued your quiet monologue, "Oh wouldn't he be upset if I ran a report on him. He definitely is overworked. He'd come in here, yelling and screaming in that adorable southern accent of his, and he would proba-" You interrupted yourself again. Staring off for a second, realizing what you just said. "Adorable? Good grief. I'm either unconscious or demented."

The rest of the shift went fairly well and you heard that the landing party was making good progress too. Finally you turned everything over to the night shift doctor and went to your quarters to get some rest before your shift began again in the morning. Your sleep that night was restless, though, and when your alarm went off you didn't think you had slept a wink.

Friday - Spock's Day

"Good morning, Doctor L/N," one of the nurses greeted you as you walked into Medbay.

"Good morning," You replied tiredly. "Anything on the schedule?" You asked as you got a cup of coffee from the replicator.

"No. Just a couple of vaccines that the nurses can take care of."

"Good. I'll be in the office if you need me then."

"Are you alright, Doctor?"

"Fine. Just couldn't sleep last night."

"Oh, I understand. I'm worried about Dr. McCoy too. As I understand, the reaction the youths are having is fairly viol-"

"I am not worried about the good doctor!" You yelled, angrily. "Just in case you didn't notice, he's not exactly my type. And even if he was, that is no concern of yours, nurse!"

"Permission to speak freely, Doctor?" She asked with a slight smirk.

"Of course," You replied, rubbing your forehead. "I'm not the dang Captain." She giggled lightly before replying.

"That's exactly what McCoy would say. No go get some rest. We'll hold down the fort, Doctor." With that she walked off to get a few things prepped for the day. As you walked into the office and sat down, you thought about her observation.

"Well butter my butt and call me a biscuit."

A few hours later, after a short nap and another cup of coffee, you were reorganizing the supply room when Scotty called through on the comm. "Doctor L/N! We're gonna need a team down here immediately! The captain and Dr. McCoy were injured and we're beaming them aboard right now!"

"Ok, Scotty, we'll be right there, how serious is it?" You replied. Chills had run up your spine when he said Dr. McCoy had been injured but you kept yourself focused.

"The Captain's not too bad. I think he said a broken arm. Doctor McCoy though. He's in pretty rough shape."

"Alright. L/N out," You signed off. You started to grab emergency supplies and sent the emergency team down to the transporter room. Just like Scotty said, McCoy was in critical condition by the time you saw him. He was completely unconscious, had multiple broken ribs, a broken right arm, a fractured left leg, and a concussion. After about 3 hours in surgery, he was finally patched up. You looked at the chronometer and saw it was about 3 in the afternoon. Deciding that you needed to talk to him as soon as he woke, you opted to sit guard on a chair next to his bed.

"Doctor L/N?" A nurse called out. You opened your eyes with a start. Looking at the chronometer again you realized another 4 hours had passed.

"Has he woken up?" The nurse nodded. "Well why didn't you wake me?" You whisper yelled, not wanting to wake him now.

"For the same reason you're whispering now. He didn't want to wake you." You shook your head and looked back at him sleeping on the biobed. "His vitals are good and he will likely make a full recovery in about a week."

"Oh no! This doctor is getting a prescription for some real R&R for at least a month. He's been far too overworked." You immediately grabbed the PADD with his chart information and put him on medical leave for a month. The nurse smiled at you and shook her head.

"You know, you're technically off duty now. You can head back to your quarters."

"I think I'll stay here a bit longer," You said slowly, a blush rising to your cheeks.

"I thought so," She nodded. You settled back down in the chair and got a bit more paperwork done on your PADD. Looking at the chronometer again you saw it just turned to 7:33pm. You heard a groan from the bed and saw the Doctor waking up.

"Well hello there, darlin'," He smirked.

"Hello, Dr. McCoy," You smiled.

"Oh for Pete's sake, would you please just call me Leonard!"

"I'll consider it," You grinned. You stared at him for a moment, realizing again just how scared you had been.

"You alright, Y/N?"

"I was just so scared, Leonard," You admitted. "I wasn't sure if I'd ever be able to tell you-" you stopped mid-sentence, nervous to continue.

"Tell me what?" You decided to chance it so you bent over and gave him a quick kiss. Standing up quickly, you looked away embarrassed. "Well, I'm not sure I understood. Can I hear that again?" He smirked. You smiled and leaned forward again for another kiss. You vaguely heard the doors open but neither you nor Leonard paid attention.

"So, any plans for your 3 days vacation, Spock?"

[junicai]

Relationship with NCT 127

➣ Taeil ☾ taria 

taeil is the Sole Protector of aria’s sanity 

taeil loves his maknaes so much, but he literally looks at her like she put the stars in the sky 

the Proud Dad smile :’)

when aria first debuted, czennies thought that she was the same age as jungwoo - because she acted older than her age - but with taeil she lets her inner kid come out 

highkey dependent on his approval for things in relation to singing

“was, was that ok?” “perfect, ari.”  “ (O_O;)  - (◕‿◕)♡”

she will fight mark and donghyuck for his attention, and she will win

for a while, the two had shared a dorm room before they were rearranged, and taeil let her slip into his bed when she was feeling homesick 

the offer is still open, but aria takes him up on it less and less

taeil is NOT sad about that. absolutely not.

he’s vehemently against any and all diets she tries - saying that if she gets any smaller he’s going to be able to pick her up with one hand

que him dragging her out for ice-cream after a promotion, paying no mind to her protests

aria helps taeil with translating a lot of things into english during lives and interviews - so much to the point where he’s picked up a bit of an irish accent and the others never fail to clown him for it 

taeil still has the small braided bracelet that aria gave to the members on their first anniversary of nct (he keeps it in the drawer beside his bed)

aria is his self-professed happy virus. he told czennies in a vlive once that her smile makes him feel really happy and he wants to protect it to the best of his ability

aria always fixes his micpack before they go onstage if its crooked, because she comes out after him in the lineup

they have monthly movie nights and they alternate who chooses the movie / show (taeil normally goes for mystery or drama themed ones, while aria enjoys making them both sob miserably)

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT.

aria and taeil singing “I See the Light” from tangled for the NCT Music channel, and the tears that were shed by both moonis and realtai alike. sm really popped off with the staging and the lighting of the whole video - between the smiles that were on both of the singers faces and the whole ambiance created, its a cinematic masterpiece 

no one was surprised when it hit 2 million views in a day, and a lot of solo stans were born from that video

➣ Johnny ☾ johria

indisputable siblings 

there is not a single czennie who ships these two romantically, and that’s because they’re just too wholesome 

johnny is one of the few members that aria calls “oppa”, mainly because of the age gap and sm wanted her to appear respectful, but also because he thinks she looks so cute

very chill, excellent vibes

their vlives are either chaotic messes or the closest thing to therapy since ice cubes 

the blanket on aria’s bed? that was a gift from johnny - she had been complaining to mark about how cold she always was anemia tings

czennies are begging for sm to allow aria to open up a solo instagram account, becuse they see the amount of pictures johnny takes of her

in the park? he’s making her pose in front of the flowers. backstage before a show? the lighting, c’mon.

big big bear hugs - the height difference make nctzens want to die 

185cm vs 158cm? p l e a s e she’s so tiny in comparison  (/ =ω=)/

when she gives him backhugs it looks like a little kitten trying to wrestle with the family dog 

play fighting about vernacular:

“ITS CALLED A SIDEWALK” “S I D E W A L K, ITS A FOOTPATH YOU BUFFOON”

very vocal about her wellbeing, and has asked fans before to remind her to take better care of herself and get to sleep sooner

aria, starting a vlive at 3am: hi hi~

the comments: NO GO TO BED

johnny helped her a lot when it came to the style change in choreography, as aria was used to soft, flowing movements and not the powerful, sleek style that most nct dances have 

consistently forgets the fact that she is not the fourteen year old he first met, and is, in fact, an adult now. “you’re a child” “im 18″ “...no”

is the person to get angry on her behalf when interviewers belittle or ignore her 

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT. 

during a fansign, a fan asked aria who did she think was the most comforting when she was stressed (besides mark and donghyuck) and aria said johnny. “he’s so, constant? like nothing seems to knock him or throw him off, and that’s really comforting when i feel unsteady.”

johnny is now known as aria’s weighted blanket. 

that is all. 

➣ Taeyong ☾ ariyong

taeyong took one look at aria the first time she showed up for group practice and immediately adopted her (not literally, but he would if he could)

eomma meets highly protective older brother meets life coach type beat? 

so so soft for her its sickening 

says he doesn’t have favourites and will then spend an hour cooking for aria because she’s been in the studio for the whole day and he knows she hasn’t eaten yet

when aria was given a duet to do for the sm stages, she had to pick another member to do it with and her first choice was taeyong

she always has said that taeyong is one of the pillars keeping her upright and sane - without him she wasn’t sure if she would have been able to complete her training

because of all the schedules they share together, if aria isn’t rooming with mark then she’s definitely rooming with taeyong

whenever she does his makeup (more often than you’d think) she point blank refuses to cover his scar, even when he asks her to 

“please? i don’t like it.” *gasp* “how dare you.” 

sleepy aria! snuggling into taeyong’s shoulder when a schedule ran late! 

he gets uncomfy when the stylists put her in too revealing clothes, and has spoken to them on numerous occasions about dressing her in age-appropriate attire, no matter how “sexy” the concept might be 

he keeps little bags of sugar-dusted strawberry sweets in his bag incase she forgets to eat and feels faint after the last time (they used to be blueberry flavoured, but he heard donghyuck throwing out any and all “blueberry-contaminated” food one evening)

taeyong doesn’t tolerate hate towards aria, especially in person, so he always makes sure to sit down the line from her so that he can see when people skip intentionally her

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT. 

taeyong had just been awarded the solo bedroom on the last night of the Mtopia series, and was staring off into the corner looking rather uncomfortable. aria, who was meant to be rooming with baekhyun looked over and saw his mouth curled downwards slightly. 

“baekhyun-oppa, is it ok if i room with taeyongie-oppa tonight? i ran out of my tablets, and he has some in his bag..” 

baekhyun looked down at her with a small smile and agreed, while on the video edited captions appeared with the words, “a cute maknae, asking to room with a younger member...”

➣ Yuta ☾ nakamiya

the president of realtai 

this man is absolutely, completely and irrevocably whipped for aria and she is not afraid to use that to her advantage

she beat him at arm wrestling because she pouted at him - she’s too powerful 

aria.exe stopped responding when yuta started to playfully flirt with her the first few times

*winks* “hu-wha-”

one of the most outwardly protective members of her, because he feels a sense of responsibility for the younger girl

he was one of the trainees she first befriended, aria’s korean not being good enough to hold a decent conversation, and yuta happy that there was another japanese trainee 

9 times out of 10, when the members are making their way through crowded areas like airports yuta is always behind or directly beside aria

during a fansign one of the fans asked why he did that, and he said that he needed to keep her in his line of sight or else he’d get anxious that she’s so small that she could get swallowed in the crowds 

yes aria hit him for the short comment 

yuta, 50% of the time: you’re not allowed date until you’re 35

yuta, the other 50% of the time: bro where’s your boyfriend

he complains that she isn’t as sweet as she was when she first joined, and that hyuck must have corrupted her (╬ Ò﹏Ó)

he let’s her braid his hair when its longer, them both sitting on a bed with yuta in front and aria kneeling behind him so she can reach 

he was the first person to take her home for the holidays, because ireland was too far to go back for a week over christmas 

“what do you mean you’ve never been to japan???” 

bitching about the other members in japanese? more likely than you’d think 

when aria turned legal in korea, yuta took her out drinking and made sure to post pictures of her with her flushed cheeks on his instagram story with the caption “aish, i told you to pace yourself....” “happy birthday riri”

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT. 

you know that one clip of the sasaeng getting absolutely trashed by nct’s bodyguard and taeyong jumping 7 feet into the air? 

well taeyong wasn’t the only one startled; standing beside yuta, aria was closest to the wall of fans when the girl ran forward towards the members. aria jumped in fright, while yuta barely made a face (#unbothered). he simply wrapped an arm over her shoulders and pulled her around to the other side, tucking her underneath his arm.

tsundere!yuta

➣ Doyoung ☾ dori

*ahem* WHIPPED *ahem*

doyoung adores aria so much 

was he unsure about a girl being added to a group of boys? yes but it was moreso concern about how he was going to make sure she wasn’t accidentally trampled

they bonded over a night in the recording studio when he found her sitting on the floor with music sheets scattered around her 

a whole mentor when it comes to singing 

aria always turns to him after singing - especially when it wasn’t planned, like at a fansign - to see if she did a good job

doyoung has yet to tell her that she hasn’t but sue her, she appreciates the validation

the original mother and Will Not Let Taeyong Forget It

doyoung, dragging aria out of the studio: now listen here young lady-

kitten and bunny friends RISE

no seriously sm released merch of a kitten and bunny plushie and it sold out in a day

when aria had the accident that led to her two month hiatus, doyoung was the one who rode in the ambulance with her after refusing to let go of her hand 

“i’m sorry sir, only family are allowed in at the moment-” “we are her family” *nurse looks around the room at the 14 other boys sitting anxiously*

he is a weak, weak man he will crumple on any decision if she smiles and slash or whines at him even slightly 

carries band-aids and support strapping in his practice bag because he knows that she gets really bad blisters when she hasn’t practiced while wearing her heels in a while, and he makes her wrap her ankles for the first few sessions incase she falls 

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENTS.

NCT 127 Take a Friendship Test (Glamour - 2020)

“ahh, my first impression?” *laughs* “actually, we first met in a recording studio, at like. 3 o’clock in the morning? he stuck his head in the doorway and i was so tired that i thought i had died and an angel had come to save me...”  (*μ_μ) 

➣ Jaehyun ☾ jaria

you know how cheetahs in the zoo get emotionally support puppies?

this is the same type of vibe

very snuggly together? but only in specific scenarios, like when jaehyun is too tired to move after a movie night, he’ll just kinda engulf aria in a hug and make her sleep on the couch with him 

any back hug she gives him turns into a piggy back, its non-negotiable 

likes to randomly compliment her to see how red he can make her face go

did she have a crush on him when she first moved to korea? yes, but who didn’t

that faded really quickly though once she started into the group officially - now they are more like siblings

they don’t interact that much on camera? rip to the jaria shippers

but that doesn’t mean they aren’t close with each other its just that a lot of their interactions happen off-screen

naturally, jaehyun began to think of her as a younger sister over the years they performed together 

jaehyun will end anybody who lays a hand on aria 

a little bap bap if you will 

he asked her to take him ice-skating one day, and the entire time was spent with aria laughing her ass off as he ate the ice nearly fourteen times before getting the hang of it 

he takes her out for food when he notices that she’s been put back on a strict diet plan (aria thinks she’s good at hiding those pieces of paper, but she forgets that when she puts it on top of things, that other people are a lot taller than her and have a higher vantage point)

the prince and princess of nct? check 

head pats

he likes to pat her head and she’ll swat it away immediately until she gets tired and just lets him do his thing 

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT.

jaehyun was wearing a flower crown placed carefully on his head as he bent down slightly to run his hands through the damp grass. a soft shutter sound went off, before he heard a hum coming from behind him. “jaehyun-ssi, could you take off the flowers? we can’t see your face clearly because of the shadow.”

jaehyun glanced backwards at aria’s retreating figure, being chased by donghyuck with hands still stained green from the grass she had shifted through to find the fallen flowers. she stopped and waved at him before resuming her run.

“i’d rather not, if that’s alright. i think it fits quite well with the theme.”

➣ Jungwoo ☾ ariwoo

oh my god someone please stop these two

once jungwoo taught aria about the power that aegyo holds for persuasion tactics against the older members of 127, they were unstoppable 

you should be afraid of them

100% have plotted someone’s murder before (and have succeeded, czennies always wondered where that last manager went after The Incident)

aggressively cute together - to the point where your teeth will rot 

jungwoo will intentionally flirt with aria just to fluster her because its “so easy to do”

not very physically affectionate, but jungwoo has no hesitation calling out “uri fighting haeyadwae!” to her when she looks like she needs a little encouragement 

jungwoo is the reason she wants to do a bachelors degree after finishing high school 

he used to help her with her maths assignments after school when she was struggling with managing her time 

they’re called the “aegyo duo” of the group, and there has yet to be an outright winner of the competitions to find the cutest member (its aria. jungwoo said it himself, its aria but we been knew)

they have an odd dynamic of looking like best friends the first second, evil masterminds the next and then siblings who want to murder each other but they make it work 

will and has flopped down on her while she was laying on the practice floor and then whined when she tried to get up 

he spilled the tea that aria gets super emotional and affectionate when she’s drunk 

cutest shit ever that made ariwoo shippers lose their absolute minds was the clip that got released in the behind the scenes filming of Kick It, where jungwoo was half asleep in the corner and aria just pops up out of nowhere to shove a folded jacket under his head and made sure to prop it in a way that he wouldn’t get a sore neck when he woke up

jungwoo is the reason she knows korean curse words (dont tell doyoung)

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT. 

aria wobbled in her heels slightly as she stepped out of the van, trying to hold a blanket up to protect her legs while she slid off the seat onto the ground. jungwoo extended an arm around her waist, gripping the blanket in his other hand and carefully holding her to make sure she didn’t trip on the cobbled stone.

➣ Mark ☾ mari

1/2 of the best friend crew

honestly at the beginning, mark and aria weren’t very close, having only really seen each other in passing or with johnny 

but after being dropped into training together the two quickly became fast friends, and now they’re borderline inseparable 

you thought you knew pain? watch aria’s reaction to mark’s graduation from dream :)

mark’s the reason why aria felt confident enough to pitch some of her lyric ideas to the team, after staying up until 4am to help her make some edits so she was as confident as possible 

kinda just, rests his head on her shoulder? and wraps his arms around her waist when he’s tired 

mari being confused in foreigner: ??? 

aria said once in a vlive that she finds mark really comforting to be around - when she feels stressed or worried about something she’ll go to mark’s room and just sit on his bed for a while

aria is so close with his parents - “ahh, how’s my favourite child” “i’m doing great mom.” “no not you, how’s aria?” “wh-hu-MOM?” 

you’d swear sometimes mark is younger than her, considering the pout he puts on and how much he whines when they’re not on the same team together for promotions

mark big protecc boi but also little small cuddly boi 

they’re so soft for each other ( ╥ω╥ )

in one of the fancams for mark’s solo stage during superm, someone zoomed into aria singing along with him in the wings and dancing to herself with the Proudest Smile(tm)

he’s! so! proud! of! her! constantly! she could be walking and he’d be like “omg get it” 

when aria refuses to get up and make herself food (this happens way too often, she just gets into the groove of her work and doesn’t want to move) mark gets her to by threatening to do it himself 

consistently caught by czennies just standing behind her and holding her hand in crowded areas - airports, waiting rooms, etc. 

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT. 

mark and aria were standing off to one side as the mc explained the rules of the game they were about to be playing. mark looked totally confused, and elbowed aria in her side before looking down and mouthing “what?” to her. aria opened her mouth, before closing it and looking down at the ground, muttering to herself, “결합... 結合..... le chéile.... le... le.. oh oh - combined! we have to put them together, markie.”

and thus, a new confusion meme was born

➣ Haechan ☾ arichan

the other half of the best friend crew

absolute heathens to be around when they are together 

donghyuck is the person aria is closest to, and someone she’d call her best friend (only when she was sure he wouldn’t hear her)

she calls him “the demon child i can’t get rid of” but will, and has definitely pouted when he ignored her for too long 

generally aria is a pretty soft spoken person, but not with hyuck around - he brings out all her chaos energy (please pray for the patience of dotae)

the pair have a little tradition of kissing the back of each others’ hands before going on stage for good luck. they can’t even remember how it started, but now its an unnegotiable pre-show ritual

he’s so clingy with her absolutely everywhere its painfully adorable  (ಥ﹏ಥ)

interviews? hyuck has a hand on her knee, or if she’s wearing a skirt he’s tucked his hand in between their chairs so she can hold it discreetly. in the dorms? full body tackle onto the couch, where he proceeds to lay on top of her completely. 

because of hyuck’s nickname being the sun, and aria always being around him, czennies gave her the nickname “moon” to go with him

fans thought that aria was older than hyuck for a good year and a half before she released her birthday on a vlive, because she’s normally the one tasked with reigning his chaotic energy in during promotions (that is, if she hasn’t already joined him)

but off-camera, aria is absolutely hyuck’s baby there is no disputing that. aria’s sad?he’s there with ice-cream and a blanket and a baseball bat.

the winnie the pooh character that is on aria’s bed was a gift from hyuck for her 17th birthday, after she made him watch seven episodes of the show on netflix with her one night 

yes he complained, but he slapped her hand away when she went to change it to something else 

a twitter thread of a czennie comparing their horoscopes together went viral when people realized that it was quite plausible that the pair were each others (platonic) soulmates 

after an incident involving blueberries, donghyuck took it upon himself to check the ingredients of every. single. food item in their dorm to make sure it was ok for her to eat 

hyuck clowns her for her irish accent, and aria curses him out in japanese

tldr: they cute or whatever 

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT. 

donghyuck was doing a vlive in his bedroom, sitting and talking to czennies when aria opened the door to his room quietly. she didn’t say anything, just waved slightly with almost closed eyes before she crawled underneath his covers and tucked her plushie underneath her chin. hyuck didn’t even blink at it - so it must have been a regular occurrence.

[pips-fics]

ask: hey! first of all i wanted to mention my favorite fics of yours, the one with hyunjin and felix. i love their dynamic and feel like they go really well together as a pair in a story. i also love the hyunjin and chan one because hyunjin is just so cute, he can fit into any sickfic plus, chan can be such a good caretaker and it warms my heart. could you possibly make either one where jeongin has the stomach flu or smthng and chan stays with him and is like the caretaker? if not that’s totally ok!

tw: vomiting

childlike; not a child –––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––

jeongin liked to think that he was fairly mature for his age.

he enjoyed spending time on his own, and he didn’t like to burden other people with his problems, which had made him more independent than a lot of his same-aged friends. jeongin knew how to handle himself in different situations because the kept a close eye on his hyungs, and he was good at following their example. most of all, he had built up a strong mental game after years of working in the entertainment industry. most people in the industry were pretty unshakeable, but especially those who started young and stuck with it.

getting sick, though, made him feel very small, and very helpless, and when his stomach started hurting in the early morning hours, he just wanted someone to hold him. in a half-daze, jeongin willed himself up, just long enough to seek out chan’s bed. he couldn’t even really explain why, but seeing chan there, sleeping peacefully, sent a wash of relief throughout his body, so jeongin didn’t think twice before crawling in next to his oldest hyung. his stomach still hurt, but at least he was able to fall back asleep.

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chan had planned to sleep in until 10 am, and then get right back to the studio and continue his work, but he scrapped that train of thought as soon as he woke up.

it had been about two years since jeongin had slept with him. he used to, during their trainee days, when he missed home, or had a bad day, or when a nightmare woke him up, but since they debuted, jeongin had been more determined than ever to grow up quickly. according to jeongin, that meant no more sleeping with hyungs.

it didn’t take long for chan to figure out why an exception had suddenly been made. jeongin had the most obvious fever chan had ever seen: his cheeks were flushed, his forehead was burning and shining with sweat, and he was shaking from head to toe, hogging the blankets as if his life depended on it. chan sighed, and stroked the younger boy’s head until he woke up, bleary-eyed.

“hyung…” already, jeongin looked teary. it had been so long since chan had seen their youngest member express himself so openly, a certain amount of nostalgia trickled into the otherwise painful situation, and chan smiled slightly.

“hey, innie. how are you feeling?”

lip wobbling, jeongin sniffled. he spoke quietly. “i thought if i slept, it would go away, but i just feel worse, now. i don’t know what to do.”

chan felt his eyebrows draw together. “aw, innie. can i give you a hug?”

jeongin nodded. “please…”

without another moment of hesitation, chan pulled jeongin into his arms, rubbing his back and wishing he could do more. he could feel the younger boy nuzzle his face into his shoulder, and for a few minutes, they just sat like that. jeongin and chan both relaxed in a way they hadn’t in a long time. it was a reminder of safety that they’d both needed without realizing.

it ended far too quickly for either of their preferences, but jeongin eventually pulled away, shaking. “hyung, i think i’m going to throw up,” he admitted in a whisper. chan tried not to wince, and squeezed jeongin’s hand instead. as he stood, he guided the sick boy to follow. they made their way to the bathroom hand in hand.

“i think you must’ve picked up some kind of stomach bug,” chan said, hand to jeongin’s sweaty forehead. leaning over the toilet in what was possibly the most uncomfortable position he’d been in, jeongin nodded. he didn’t know when he was going to be sick, but he was confident that he would be, eventually, and felt that it was better to be safe than sorry - even if that meant holding his aching body up in a rigid and unnatural pose. a chill ran through him, and without thinking, jeongin leaned into chan’s warmth.

“do you want me to get you some blankets?” chan asked, thoughtful as always, but jeongin shook his head. he really just wanted chan to stay right where he was. not for the first time, he felt very childish, but the last thing jeongin wanted was to be alone.

despite the drawn out wait and the steady moral support, jeongin was caught off-guard by a sudden gut-wrenching cough. it was enough to turn his stomach and send some of its contents half up his throat, and the retch that immediately followed brought with it a waterfall of soup-like sick. he heard a quick intake of breath from chan, but couldn’t spare him a glance as more coughing, heaving, and vomiting ensued.

it was absolutely vile. not just the taste, but the texture of it, of having warm liquid spill out of him with chunks of his lunch uncontrollably, splattering back in his own face. it was the inability to stop it, the feeling like he couldn’t possibly get enough air, and like it might never end.

there was a moment when he thought it was over - when he needed it to be over, because his muscles couldn’t hold him up any longer, even with chan’s support - and jeongin allowed himself to lean back as he continued to cough. he was hardly coherent, but as his mouth started to water and his coughs became headier, he tried to follow chan’s guidance and lean back over the toilet. they weren’t quite fast enough, and a mouthful of mushy brown barf ended up on jeongin’s t-shirt.

“it’s alright,” chan said, feeling more helpless than ever. “you’re okay, innie.”

he wasn’t even sure if jeongin could hear him, but he wanted to make sure than jeongin knew he wasn’t alone. the next few rushes of throw up were, fortunately, the last ones, at least for the time being, and jeongin immediately reached for chan’s arms when he was finished.

“good boy,” chan said, helping jeongin out of his soiled shirt. jeongin blinked, teary eyed, and chan placed a hand on the younger man’s head, cradling it gently. “you did so well. do you feel better?”

jeongin nodded. “i’m just so tired, hyung, i know you just got up, but–” he cut himself off.

“how about you drink a bit of water, and then we can get back in bed?” chan offered hopefully. jeongin didn’t look entirely pleased, but he nodded. chan smiled.

the two of them went back to the bedroom together, and jeongin was able to keep the water down. it surprised him how quickly they became comfortable in the tiny bed together, but it felt right. despite the years that had passed, there was still a part of jeongin that was chan’s little-kid brother. it was more reassuring than he could have imagined to be reminded that chan still recognized and accepted that part of him, too.

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a very quick reader survey (specific to this fic!) to make me smile and possibly send a free fic request that i may or may not actually use :D

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LARRY FIC REC - recently read

1. I don't want a taste (I want it all) [3K] by  thedaggerrose (blessedfetish)

What Louis really needed was a fat fucking nap.

What Louis got instead was some hipster-looking wannabe arguing with him over the validity of avocado toast.

Or the AU where Harry tells Louis to go fuck himself, Louis tells Harry to fuck him himself, and Harry follows through.

✨ Cute and hot + they bantering over avocado tost.

2. Right Side of the Wrong Bed [10K] by  eyesofshinigami 

There, standing in a pair of ridiculously tiny briefs and wielding a frying pan in one hand, is quite possibly the prettiest boy he's ever seen. Louis scrubs a hand across his face. "I'm in the wrong goddamn flat, aren't I?"

Or, the one where Louis wakes up on the wrong couch only to meet his future husband (even if Harry doesn't know it yet).

✨ This was not the first and won’t be the last time I read this fic. It’s super fun, hot, and even though it’s “just” 10K, their connection is really well-built.

3. When Least Expected [22K] by  Rearviewdreamer

Drowning in a sea of emails and Zoom meetings in the living room, his lonely son falling more and more behind in his kitchen classroom, and crushing weight of the world being on house arrest for the foreseeable future, one fateful online interaction suddenly has everything looking up.

✨Louis’ kid is having a hard time trying to adjust to the new reality brought by COVID, until he starts having music classes with music teacher Harry, and things start looking up for both father and son. Very sweet fic and really interesting to see them falling on love over this hard times.

4. Naked Attraction #2 [29K] by reader_chic_2

“By the way, I checked you out quite a lot before your tube was raised.”

Harry smiled lustrously, “Yeah? More than Leonard? He might have been crazy, but he was sort of cute.”

Louis raised an eyebrow. “Maybe to you, Styles, but I don’t enjoy dominating in the bedroom.”

“Is that so?” Harry licked his lips. “Funnily enough, I do.”

Louis felt like his heart was going to explode out of his chest. “I’m not sure if someone as adorable as you could dish out commands.”

Harry laughed brightly, and in a second flat his hand reached out and gripped his hip so hard it made Louis gasp. His eyes darkened, boring into Louis’ with a burning intensity. “And I’m not sure someone as mouthy as you could take my commands. Want to test it out?”

. . .

Louis Tomlinson is the first openly gay football player in the Premier football League. He was outed by the paps, but he’s had to embrace it since then. To show he doesn’t have shame in it, he goes onto Naked Attraction, and all the money will go to LGBTQ+ support, but he has made some changes to the show. Incidentally, he meets a certain Harry Styles there, and that is when things get interesting...

✨ This was really really fun, loved their dynamic and found it a very original story. Fluff, fun and smut. 

✨ Additional tags: Spanking. Subspace.  

5. Hold Me Closer [36K] by  balanceds

Louis Tomlinson is one of the most promising dancers of the English National Ballet, on track to become the youngest principal dancer in the company's history. That is, until forces conspire to significantly complicate his life, including: a surprise ballet, an unfairly attractive guest choreographer, and being pushed into a rivalry with his best mate. Featuring lots of wine, dancing, pining, and a happy ending.

✨ I’m not an expert but from the comments it seems the writter nailed the “dancing world” characterization (even though you don’t have to know anything about it to enjoy it). There’s some good banter and friendship; hot smut; lots of pining and not that much angst.

6. Whisper The Wind [36K] by  jacaranda_bloom

Louis’ father has political ambitions and decides it’s time for Louis to step up as the company’s Chief Financial Officer. Louis thinks this is a monumentally stupid idea. After storming off in a rage he has a chance meeting with a tall, dark, curly haired stranger. A technical glitch with their shared elevator finds Louis spending twenty minutes with the most intriguing man he’s ever met. Unfortunately the man is leaving London the very next day and moving to Australia to work at his mates surf school. Timing, as they say, can fuck right off.

Fast forward three years and Louis is miserable, a shadow of the man he once was, working in his father’s company, and hating every moment. At his thirtieth birthday party, surrounded by people he doesn’t know or doesn’t like, he decides to throw it all in and follow the impossible dream. Happiness, a fulfilling life, and someone to love. The question is, will that dream be found ten thousand miles away on a sandy beach, with a curly headed surfer dude?

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Or the one where Louis rides an elevator that may change his life forever, Harry loves the ocean but is a terrible surfer, Liam proves not all heroes wear capes, and Niall might actually have all the answers.

✨ No angst, this is 36K of pure fluff and hot smut (read tags). They fall in love almost immediately, so they are already together most of the story.

7. King of wishful thinking [38K] by  Star_Henderson

“Don't umm don't get on the bus, come inside.” Louis blurted the words out, speaking quickly.

Harry looked startled.

“Just. Look I don't know if I want..” Louis scrubbed his face with his hand. “I'll pay for your time. Just come in.”

Harry stepped away from the bus stop and the bus sailed straight past.

“What's umm what do you guys make these days?”

Harry shuffled his feet. “Depends. Like two hundred an hour.”

Louis hummed. “Reasonable.” He gestured towards the hotel. “Come up for a drink or some room service or something.”

Harry scraped the toe of his already scuffed boots on the floor. “You don't have to do this, I feel like… like you're a nice person who feels bad but it's fine. I get it. You don't have to make it up to me.”

Louis stared at Harry. It'd been so long since he'd even spoken to a guy let alone hung out with one. He'd enjoyed the banter and the flirting.

“Come up.” Louis’ voice was soft.

Harry’s face bloomed into a smile. “Ok.”

✨This is another one that I’ve read more than once and still love. Sex worker Harry. Really sweet, very well-written and their love is really well constructed. 

8. hush. [41K] by  Wankerville

“I don't like you like that, Harry.”

“See,” Harry starts, Louis can hear the smile in his voice, “that's where I think you're lying.”

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or an au where small towns suck, louis is losing it, and harry’s just too perfect.

✨ Read the tags! My notes on this one were: SO SO BEAUTIFULLLLL. Loved it, angst (but not a heartbreaking one), SO MUCH FLUFF, great dialogues, great banter and smut. Loved it!!! (lol)

9.  Don't Look Down [91K] by  zarah5

AU. In which Louis is a solicitor at one of London’s most prestigious law firms and Harry happens to apply for the position as his trainee. And everyone else is around, too.

✨I love everything they write and this one wasn’t different. Amazing characterization, great dialogues, great banter! Absolutely loved it! Not much smut. A bit angsty, wanted to punch Louis at times, but all ended well. 

10. Let Me Be Your Star [252K] by  lovelarry10

Harry Styles has always been a singer, but he’s never had much confidence in himself. When his idol is brought on as the new judge on The X-Factor, he figures, what the hell? He’d get to sing and meet his idol. What could go wrong?

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Louis Tomlinson has always wanted to mentor young musicians. When he’s asked to be a judge on The X-Factor, it’s a dream come true, everything he ever wanted. What he didn’t expect was to meet a curly-headed stranger that would turn his life upside down

✨Hot smut, a lot of fluff and not that much angst. Harry seems a bit immature (which makes sense for his age) but their relatioship is really sweet. (I also enjoy that the writer included pictures of how they imagined H and L on each presentation)

[akookminsupporter]

One of the most prolific and popular 'tea' givers on quora (many thousands of people avidly read and believed what she peddled) who claimed to be

A. Namjoon's cousin

B. Korean

C. A dancer who worked in the industry and was an ex trainee

D. Best friends with a famous female idol

C. A LOT of other lies

... and was eventually revealed to be a middle aged woman white woman. (I won't get into details but they were basically doxxed, with proof and pictures etc. Doxxing this person was wrong and shouldn't ever be done. It also seemed like this person was in some pain and dealing with mobility issues. You don't do something like this if you are a happy human being. She has my sympathy. Maybe some would say that makes me weak I don't know).

The prolonged nature and depth of the deception indicates that this is a person who is obviously dealing with mental issues. But they were not unintelligent. Far from it. Their quora answers were usually quite articulate. They used a lot of background information from Koreaboo articles and the like, then laced that with 'insider info' that apparently Namjoon and BH were just OK with her sharing (ok...). Sometimes their claims were truly outlandish (ie. She said she was shot at in North Korea, and told A LOT of contradicting details about her life). Her responses to people who questioned her claims were often rude and smug. There seemed to be a lot of accounts, sock puppets maybe, that trolled the internet and rushed to her defence when people expressed concern for how big she was getting.

One of the things she always insisted on was how resolutely STRAIIIIGHT all of the members were. She even wrote about 'how upset' Jimin was that people thought he was gay. The scary thing is that literally thousands of people believed this quora person was being confided in by Jimin about his sexuality. She also said a lot of other things that were baseless and hateful (clearly targeting certain girl group members etc). People like this get a lot of fulfillment from making themselves important on the internet. In cases like this it may be a coping mechanism of some kind. But that does not excuse the lies and malice. Lies were always presented as facts from a close friend of BTS. It was all so obviously fake. But a lot of young, or impressionable people believed and still do.

My point is: beware of all 'tea' givers. If I wanted to, I could go on twitter, quora or curious cat right now and start rumours. I can talk fancy and make that shit sound realistic. I promise you that. I could throw in just enough hard to find info to make me seem like I am in on stuff. I could say 'I used to work for JYP, or 'my cousin works as a Hybe publicist', 'I'm friends with a member of an unnamed GG'. Don't fall for it.

Tbh I would question anyone who believes something they read on quora to begin with, especially if it is "gossip".

As I said in one of the previous asks, some people are very good at telling a... lie or making you believe that a fallacy is true. They are good at presenting opinions as facts. And unfortunately there are many people who believe it. Hey, there's a reason politicians still exist. 

There is also the problem as I also said in another ask, that these people say exactly what some people want to hear or read. And that's why they become popular, that's why so many people follow them. And that is dangerous and sad. 

[luckycheesefoodie321]

ok...ok ok ok... ok... so I watched Mulan (2020)... spoilers + LONG POST (yo this took me an hour and a half)...

before yall scream at me for spending money on it, lemme just say i was fully intending to wait until December so that I would not have to give even more money to the Disney machine (especially in light of things that happened with John Boyega) nor endorse individuals who support police brutality or oppression... but my mum and sister nagged me to buy it so we could watch it now, and explaining the politics of supporting both Disney’s greed and the controversy around the lead actress and would’ve just frustrated us both so I paid for it -_- please don’t crucify me... 

also want to preface this by saying I am not Chinese (though I am Asian), and I understand that the 1998 film and this film have inherent issues, given neither were directed by Asian directors, let alone Chinese ones... so the representation of the Chinese culture is likely flawed (and likely straight up wrong) in many ways... additionally, Li Yifei has been shown to support the actions of police in Hong Kong, so just know I’m viewing her role purely from an acting and movie standpoint...

now that’s done... general rating for the movie

when compared to the original animated film (my favourite Disney movie of all time): scrapes by on a 5/10

movie that stands on its own as I watched it (just note I’m the type of person who can enjoy pretty much anything - even if I’m hyper-critical of it): 7/10 (I’m very generous but my viewing experience was nice)

if I break it down completely into its underlying faults and wash away the Hollywood sheen and the nostalgia filter: 4/10 for themes 8/10 for cinematography and the technical aspects... (this movie was gorgeous to look at and had some really fun camera work, sue me for enjoying the visuals)

Full SPOILER review:

For the most part, my nostalgia filter from the animated film, which I dearly dearly love, basically had me ecstatic anytime there was even a hint of a reference to the animated film (see: occasional notes from the songs), and also sorely disappointed when the acting or the general pace pulled the fun or the emotion from key points (see: A Girl Worth Fighting For being abruptly cut off upon seeing the carnage would’ve been so much more impactful because they actually showed the bodies in the 2020 version but instead we got this kinda funny convo referencing the lines completely separated from that scene)...

The biggest issue I have with the film is that Mulan was naturally skilled from the beginning and was told to suppress her abilities.. making her OP from the beginning undermines the 1998 journey where we see every step of her development both in physical ability and her emotional struggles... then through her wits, intelligence, and strategy, as well as being on par and even better than her fellow soldiers, she manages to defeat Shan Yu and makes us feel her “Hero” status is very much earned... so it takes away from what the 1998 film tried to show in suggesting Mulan could just OP her way to victory at the drop of a hat.. and also implied her being dishonest about her true identity was her primary flaw? idk thematically they were trying to be super empowering of women and the capability of women, and the boxes women are forced into according to society... but then suggest Mulan was always inherently gifted/had a special power and that is why she succeeded, while the other soldiers worked hard and effectively achieved the same goal (albeit in a less flashy manner)... so the message gets very confusing...

i felt that Xian Niang (was that her name?), the Witch, had a lot of potential, but I was also really concerned they introduced her to make sure Mulan had a female enemy to defeat, and Shan Yu/Bori Khan was a minion of this female enemy... so in that sense I’m glad she served as a foil to Mulan... I would’ve liked the parallels more if the “being your true self”/”bring honor to us all” theme wasn’t so muddled... Mulan was accepted while XIan Niang wasn’t because they both had powers, but then Mulan convinces her to take the noble path and so Xian Niang died for her? idk there was a better way to fold her into the story...

Shan Yu/Bori Khan was about as much as I expected from him... I think he matched Shan Yu for skill, though idk about ferocity or intimidation power, though the actor was decent enough... but I did enjoy his and Mulan’s fight... less impactful because he didn’t even know about her and how she was the one to take down most of his army...

didn’t mind that Mushu was missing... fondly referred to the phoenix as Mushu (though I understand there may be cultural missteps in a phoenix being the spirit/ancestor/guardian)...

I also didn’t mind they removed the power imbalance between Shang and Mulan and had her love interest be a fellow soldier...I really liked Yoson An’s character actually...but the romance element was significantly dialled back, so we didn’t get the bisexual icon that is Li Shang... also Li Yifei’s emotional acting was normal but not outstanding... so her feelings for Honghui didn’t really register much except for that first time they chat in the barracks about girls, and right before she goes home... (just me being pouty about him not joining the Imperial Guards to Mulan’s home and presenting himself for matchmaking... though I understand it was to keep focus on Mulan’s journey, not her love interest)...

while it probably wasn’t the intention of the 1998 film, the positive portrayal of gender fluidity, the specific empowerment of trans and bisexual individuals through Mulan and Shang (bc let’s get real, he was just as attracted to Ping as he was Mulan), all did not ring in quite the same way in the 2020 version... again I’m not part of either community, so I can’t say for sure, but this is what I read from it...

overall the fun was taken out, with the songs... I would say this is probably on the higher end of Disney Live Action adaptations, there were some fun moments and funny dialogue even, and I didn’t mind that they were trying to do something different, unlike some of the others which made it note for note the same... but ultimately the biggest flaw of most of the adaptations are that it removes the fun and the levity in lieu of a more serious tone... 

I accepted no songs (I was hopeful and then pleasantly surprised when they did pay some minor homages through the score to the original’s songs)... but the fun moments were meant to be intentionally undercut by the reality of the war... there’s a reason A Girl Worth Fighting For was cut off so abruptly in the 1998 version... it was the moment where these trainees (all of them young and having never experienced battle or war before) suddenly realised the severity of the situation before them, and it was in that moment they accepted their fate and duty to protect the kingdom...

the 2020 version just kind of had them walk through the carnage without any real build up... the grand battle sequence with the avalanche was pretty well done, the overdramatic “Hua Jun died but Mulan lived” scene notwithstanding.. i didn’t mind that Mulan volunteered to expose herself rather than be forced half-naked into the snow by the Chancellor dude... didn’t like Honghui got the “you listened to Hua Jun, why is Hua Mulan any different?” line... the “I believe in Hua Mulan” was kinda goofy, but I could see what they were going for... it was kinda undermined by the Commander saying “you dishonoured your family and this regiment but hey, you’re brave and loyal kid”...felt very patronising...

I’m not gonna lie, I kinda loved Cricket... he was adorable and I had half a heart attack when I thought he’d died... 

DIDN’T REALISE MING NA WEN MADE A CAMEO UNTIL I CAME ON HERE...so that was nice..

still pissed they didn’t even put the drum beats for “I’ll Make a Man Outta You”...they were using drums during the training sequence too so would’ve been real easy to do so AND THEY DIDN’T...they did it for “Bring Honor to Us All” and “Reflection”...idk why they couldn’t even give us that much of my favourite Disney song...

again, cannot emphasise enough how gorgeous this whole movie looked...and there were so many fun camera work moments... the visuals had me dead on the floor ya’ll...

idk what else i have to say now...

tl;dr I enjoyed the experience of watching it, but hooooo boi the film is flawed as hell...

[alpacaparkaseok]

Okay, so I have an idea and I NEED to get it out of my head so im just gonna go ahead and write it cuz i love ur writing style and if u dont like it/dont wanna write it please feel free to delete this ask.

Ok so any member u like (i first thought of it with Tae but u can choose which member, doesn't matter so im gonna say 'member' instead of a name) so i got this by listening to the nightcore female version of 'Don’t You Worry Child' (if u wanna listen to it, press here ) ((i mostly got it from the second verse/paragraph thingy of it, so from 'there was a time, i met a guy of a diffrent kind... tillllllllll the end))

anyways, so its about Y/N also being an idol but from another company and her company doesn't let her date, so Y/N and member were dating before they became trainees and all that so they were very young, so everyone except their parents thought they were just silly relationships and they didn't really love each other and it was just admiration, but the parents of member and the parents of Y/N knew how much they love each other and that they would die for each other. Anyway they both became trainees at the same time but from different companies, but Y/N's company forced her to sign a contract that she cant date and forced her to break up with member, she didnt want to but she was forced to sue didnt know how to tell member. He somehow found out and cried a LOT and his parents comforted him thru video call cuz he was in Seoul as a trainee now and they were in his hometown, so about 3 days later he decided to break up with her, not cuz he didnt love anymore he still loved her very very much but he thought he could releive some stress and pain off her shoulders, he broke up with her up on the hill across to the blue lake like the song says and later when each of them video call their parents (after they go to the place they are staying at) crying, their dads told them that heaven has a plan for them. Flashforward to the present, Y/N is a the most famous k-pop soloist and member is in the biggest boyband, they still love each other and didnt get over eachother, even if they havent seen or talked to eachother for so so so long but like i said they were truly inlove and in an interview of sorts, reader says that she still loves him and tells the story but doesnt say who he is and what happened to him and where he is and what he became and all that, so she says no details just breif explanation cuz the interviewer/reporter/whatever-they-are-called asked about any exes and she said he was her first love and she still loves him and regrets leaving every day and blah blah and member is watching the interview and he is sad and happy at the same time, but he cant do anything cuz of the contract and she can get fired, so her fans decide to take things to their own hands and decide to spread it and demand for that contract to be taken down and it took sometime but the amount of people became too much for Y/N's company to ignore so they removed the contract and Y/N and member started dating again and most of the fans (the only true fans) supported their relationship cuz they all already ship them together a lot. So agnst (kinda) with fluff ending. And PS, mmeber's parents and Y/N's parents are bffs so member and Y/N are childhood lovers.

Sorry this is soo long, i swear if u dont like the idea PLEASE DELETE THIS ASK AND DONT FEEL GUILTY FOR DOING SO!!!

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Ok HI sorry it’s taken me forever to respond 🤪

Wow, this is so interesting! I’m definitely gonna save this for later. Gonna put this on the back burner for a few months until I finish up all my current requests!

As always, love hearing your cool ideas! 💕💕

[jaehyunspeachparty]

1.5

"MIGA! MIGA!" Yuna, a friend of Miga's who went to school with her, ran to her. "He broke up ... from her ..." Yuna was out of breath, but Miga still didn't understand. She was just packing up her books and was about to go home. "Yuna, who are you talking about?" But when she asked her at the moment, her friend suddenly widened her eyes and fell silent. "Hey, Miga." She knew that voice too well. When she turned around she saw him. Soori, her ex-boyfriend. Two years ago she was so in love with him and they were a couple for a few months. But then he cheated on her and started a relationship with that person. "Hey," she said, taking her backpack. The two of them hadn't talked to each other for a long time, and that just made things weirder. "Can we talk?" Soori looked at his ex-girlfriend. Miga didn't know what to say, after all, she had cried after him so much. "Ok ..." She just shrugged and went on. Soori immediately followed her and Yuna looked after the two in surprise. She was always a fan of the two as a couple and hoped that they would get back together.

"What do you want, Soori?" Miga sighed and leaned against her car. "I want you ..." He rested his hand on the top of the car and leaned over her. His face was near to hears and Miga got a little nervous. Soori was clearly one of the most attractive boys in school, a future idol, and currently a trainee at JYP. "Soori ... I don't know." Miga turned away and Soori sighed. "Okay, but let me prove that I'm serious. Give me a chance ..." He looked at her with faithful eyes and Miga sighed. "Hmm..okay. I don't have a day of shooting today, you could come to me." She smiled and Soori nodded in amusement. The two got into the car and Miga starts driving. It was briefly quiet between the two because it was still strange between them. Miga doesn't know what to think of all this. After all, everything had ended so ugly with him. "You look really beautiful," said Soori, biting his lip. "Um, thank you. You too." She still didn't know what was happening here. She wanted to open the garage, but her remote control didn't work. Miga pressed again, but nothing happened. Then you came to the car of your daughter and she opened the door. "What's going on? Why is the door not working?" She asked, looking at you in confusion. "Kiwoo and Geon have all the locks glued. I can't get into the mail, the garage, or the house. The locksmith is already on the way. I tell you, the twins are driving me crazy with their pranks." You sigh and you go through your mind how you will punish the two. But your thoughts were already interrupted when you see someone else getting out of Miga's car. "Good afternoon, Ms. Jung." Soori stood behind his ex-girlfriend. "Soori ... what are you doing here?" You weren't so happy to have the boy back here. Miga had been crying about him for too long and he treated her so badly. "Miga helps me with my homework." He smiled softly and you just nod. Your eyes go to your daughter, but she doesn't dare to look at you. You didn't know what to do because you think she's making a big mistake with him. But you didn't want to get involved in her love life.

After the locksmith was there and he changed the locks, you sit in the kitchen with an espresso and go through your emails. "Shouldn't you give up coffee when we try to make a baby?" Jaehyun was suddenly behind you and put his hands on your hips. The tests were there, your hormones were still perfect and you had the IUD taken out two days ago. You agreed to try again. "I also got pregnant with coffee before." You grin and Jaehyun gently put his lips on yours. "Are we alone?" He asked then and you knew what he had in his head. But you shake your head. "No. Do you know who Miga came home with today?" You look at your husband with wide eyes. Jaehyun shook his head. "Soori." "You mean the one who looks like a young Cha Eunwoo?" You nod Jaehyun didn't like Miga's ex-girlfriend. He checked always exactly what they were doing. "Is he still there?" He asked in a panic. "Yes, they do homework in her room." You shrug your shoulders, but Jaehyun didn't like it at all. He immediately broke away from you and went to Miga's room door. "MIGA OPEN THE DOOR!" He called angrily and knocked on the door. When a boy was there, he never wanted the door to be closed. His daughter followed his words and looked at her father. "You know what to do when there's a boy." He glared furiously into the room where Soori was sitting on the bed. "Daddy, I'm 18 years old." She sighed. The two had a close relationship, but they always struggled on this topic. "And when you are 30 years old. As long as you live here, I want to know everything." Jaehyun was really angry and Miga really annoyed. "MUM!!!! DAD WILL NOT LEAVE ME," she called then after you. You go to the two and sigh. "Miga, just leave the door open and Jaehyun, come with me." You take him by the hand and pull him away from your daughter. "Jaehyun, we have other problems. We have to do something about the twins. They have all the locks glued." Miga was an adult, what she did with boys is up to her. But Kiwoo and Geon are testing your limits very hard right now.

Sunoh sits on the bench and sees Chichi waiting in the distance for Sana to pick her up. He dreamed of her that night, but this dream was not a normal one ... it was intimate...dirty...something he saw only in adult movies. Since then, Sunoh has been unable to stop thinking about it and she triggered certain feelings in him. Because of this, he couldn't look her in the eye that day. "Haven't you already finished school?" Sunoh looked up in surprise and saw Jaina standing in front of him. She was finally back from Chicago and today was her first day at school for her. "Yes ..." Sunoh was still looking at Chichi who was just getting into the car. "Are you going on the bus home or someone picking you up?" She asked. "Dad ... we'll go boxing then." When Chichi was gone, Sunoh slowly came back to reality. Jaina nodded and sat down with him. "How was Chicago?" He asked then and turned to her. "Well ... Dad was just sad and I almost went crazy with my siblings. You can't call it a vacation." She sighed and brushed a strand of hair aside. "Did Irene's child come too?" He asked. Jaina just nodded and sighed. She didn't find this whole patchwork family so funny. Ever since her father was with Irene, the house had been wild. Too many children and she was the oldest. She preferred to be at home with her mother. She and Jasper each had a room and therefore always her peace. "I'm glad you're back," Sunoh said suddenly. Jaina looked up in surprise and blushed. She also had a crush on him for a long time. Her heart was pounding and she was happy that he apparently missed her. "Yes?", She giggled and stroked her hair to one side. At that moment, Sunoh saw his father's car and got up. "Yes. The girls exclude Chichi and she needs a friend here." He waved to Jaina and got into his father's car. Jaina sat there, staring at him in wonder. It was always about Chichi. Chichi here, Chichi there. Slowly it was enough for her.

The next day was the weekend. You and Jaehyun just quickly went to the bakery to buy something for breakfast. Meanwhile, Miga was sitting on the couch in the living room and reading her script because she had another shoot in the afternoon. Sunoh came sleepily down the stairs and sat down to his sister. "Good morning," she said with a grin. Sunoh just grunted and rested his head on the back. "Do you have any plans for the weekend?" She asked, but Sunoh just shook his head. "Do something with Chichi," she then suggested to her brother. "Migaaaaa ... it's too early for such conversations." "When do you want to tell her that you like her?" "What if she only sees me as a friend?" "Oh God Sunoh! Are you blind? She doesn't see you as a friend." Miga rolled her eyes and cannot understand how long the two have been acting back and forth. But before he says anything else, the Kiwoo and Geon pass by. They giggled and had something in their hands. "Kiwoo, Geon? What have you done now?" Miga sighed because after all you and Jaehyun had confiscated all their video games and their pocket money was canceled for a time since they had glued all the locks. The twins ran to their siblings and grinned mischievously. "Do you want more trouble?" She asked her brothers and took the letter from Kiwoo. The boys shrugged and just laughed. "What is that anyway?" Asked Sunoh. "No idea. It was in the parents' bedroom," said Kiwoo, sitting down next to his big brother. "I think it is a test of Mum's doctor." Miga looked at the paper and didn't know it either. "Is Mummy sick?" Asked Geon and climbed to Miga too. She went to the next page and then stopped. "It's none of our business," she said then and closed the letter again. "No, I want to know what's inside." Kiwoo got up and leaned over to his sister. "Kiwoo! No! We don't care." Miga tried to keep the letter away from her brothers. In the meantime, Geon tried to take it too. "Come on Miga. We want to know what's inside now," said Sunoh and laughed. Before Miga could say anything, Geon took the letter and gave it to Sunoh. He opened it and read it out. "The results showed that the hormones are all normal and that Ms. Jung should have no problem getting pregnant." Sunoh froze and looked at his sister. "Huh? What does that mean?" Asked Kiwoo, also looking at the letter. "Do Mum and Dad want another child?" Sunoh still had the result firmly in his hands. Miga just sighed and doesn't know what to say. "But Mummy and Daddy are really old," Geon said and laughed. "Yuck, Mom and Dad still have sex?" Sunoh looked at the paper in shock. "Come on, leave it. They will tell us when they are ready." Miga took the letter away from her brother and glared at him. But at the moment she hears the door open and you and Jaehyun came into the house. The siblings grew quiet and looked at each other in panic. "Hey, we're here! We can eat breakfast now." Jaehyun called into the room and the siblings started whispering. "What's going on?" You ask when you see how all of your children behaved suspiciously. The four looked at their parents in panic and you crossed your arms. Jaehyun also came to you. "You want another child?" Sunoh then asked, almost a little angry. "From where...?" You look around and see that Miga was holding the letter from your doctor. "MIGA!" "Mum, it wasn't me! Geon and Kiwoo found it." She immediately defended herself and the twins started grinning. "KIWOO! GEON! What did I tell you about privacy?" You were angry with them. Lately, they have been out of control. "Y/N, I think we should tell them the truth." Jaehyun sighed and looked worriedly at you. "So is it true? Mum, Dad, you are too old for another child. We are already too old!" Sunoh was clearly not enthusiastic about the idea. Miga couldn't stand the whole mess. After all, she knew about the secret. She took her phone and went into the garden. She dialed a number and when she heard a hello on the other line, her heart started pounding fast. "Hey, I have a bit of a mess at home and you offered to give me tips. Do you have time for me to come over?" Miga knew exactly what she was doing. "Yeah sure, you are welcome to come," said the man and she smiled. "Great I'm in 30 minutes here, Jaemin."

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Hidden: Chapter 12

Chapter 12: Heartbreak, Glory, and Unholy

(Mikasa’s Pov)

The streets became a war zone. How ironic? The raven haired assassin uses her ODM gear to fly through buildings. She noticed a familiar face at a pile of rumbles. Gabi Braun was removing the destroyed house. Mikasa landed on the ground to check on her. 

“Gabi? Are you ok? What happened?” her tone was worried for the young girl. 

“Mikasa? Mikasa, you’re here. I’m glad you are here. I need your help. The bomb destroyed this neighborhood and my parents and auntie are under the pile. Please help me to get them out.”  Gabi ran to her and hugged her tightly. The young girl was in tears. 

“I’m glad that you’re not hurt.” Mikasa hugged back to comfort her. “Of course, I’ll help you. We’ll get them out.” 

Gabi gave a faint smile and let go of Mikasa while resuming digging on the pile. Ackerman goes to lift up the heavy ones. Soon, they saw three bodies. Gabi’s parents and Reiner’s mother. 

“Mom and dad! Wake up!” The brunette cried out. They didn’t respond. Gabi checked their pulses, but as she feared none of their pulses was detected. 

“N-no my parents they can’t be dead?” the girl sobbed from realizing her loss. 

“I’m so sorry, Gabi….you shouldn’t feel the loss of your parents.” This breaks her heart. Just seeing Gabi grieving, it hits her home. Then both girls saw a small movement. They glanced to see Ms. Braun groaned in pain. “G-gabi? My niece, shouldn’t you be with your comrades?” Ms. Braun coughs from struggling to breathe. Her blood spat out from the coughs. 

Reiner’s mother feels her legs crushed. Her lungs had collapsed from the big chunks crushing her chest. The older woman barely hangs on to her life. She knows deep down she only has a few minutes left before Death takes her away. 

“Yes, yes I’m here auntie. I have my friend, Mikasa. She will help you and we’ll go to Reiner.” The little girl held her aunt's hand carefully. 

“Mikasa? Mikasa Ackerman? Girl, come here so I can take a good look at you.” Her voice was wheezing. Mikasa obeys the dying woman.

“It’s nice to officially meet you Ms. Braun. I wish we had met in a better circumstance.” Mikasa stared at the older woman.

“You are a beauty. My son must be lucky. Tell him I love him. I don’t think I would make it soon.” She coughed again. 

“No, don’t say that. We’ll get you out of here and find a hospital to treat you. You can leave Reiner alone along Gabi. They need you.” Mikasa trying to encourage her things will be ok. 

“You silly girl. I have not much time left so let the dying woman say her final words.” Ms. Braun chuckled weakly. 

Gabi’s tears shed more from hearing what her aunt had said. Mikasa was struggling not to shout and convince her that she needed to be strong. This feels familiar when Carla Jaeger was crushed under her home until a titan saw her and ate her. Now. Mikasa cried because what will she tell Reiner? That his mother died and she couldn’t do anything about it to save her? Oh god, she wants to shed blood on the ones responsible. How many people’s lives need to lose in order to win a war and have peace? Could for once the world be beautiful enough to enjoy it? 

“Auntie! Don’t leave me...and Reiner….I can’t be alone. Soon all of you will leave me.” Gabi screamed in agony at the thought of losing all her family members. As a warrior trainee, she will be under responsibility of the military. 

“My sweet warrior please listen to me. We’ll be in your heart to protect and guide you, just remember that. I love you so much and your parents love you very much. We are all so proud of you for your accomplishments.” She said. 

Mikasa listens to the conversation between aunt and niece. Then Ms. Braun began to speak to her. 

“Mikasa, promise me you will make my son happy...his feelings for you are deep. If you have no feelings for him, give him a chance. He is a good man and honorable.” She pleaded. 

“I already...we confessed how we feel about each other. I promise to be there with him until his time..” The Asian woman made her promise. 

“I’m grateful to hear that. I may not get the chance to see my future grandchild, but please give my son a child. This is my dying wish and take Gabi under your care. She deserves to have a better childhood. Promise me, Mikasa.” Ms. Braun gasped for air until she drew her last breath and passed away. 

“I-I p-promise, Ms. Braun.” Mikasa’s tears fell and closed the older woman's eyes. Gabi cried on Mikasa’s chest while the raven haired woman held her tightly as both cried. 

After they calmed down, both females got up to start heading to find Reiner or Armin and Annie who had arrived at night time from the other side of the world. 

“Let’s go find a cousin or my friends.” Mikasa grabbed a gun for Gabi to use it. “You know how to shoot right?” She asked. 

“Gabi nodded. “Yeah, we learned from our training.” The little girl grabbed it and held it like a true soldier. 

“Alright, use it when necessary. I don’t have a lot of bullets, but we’ll find one on the way.” Mikasa watched the girl then both begin to walk away from the grim scene. They need to survive this hell. Mikasa will protect Gabi with her life. That’s a promise. 

(Eve) 

Since the day at the festival, both Eve and Eren had a hard time keeping their hands to themselves. Everything felt like those romantic traveling movies. She felt like in a fairytale. Eren was perfect in her eyes. All they did was walk around the town and have those crazy love makings. Everything was great until rumors of an attack at the capitol. People prayed for the safety of their loved ones who lived there and the queen.

Both couples were laying on the bed thinking their own thoughts. “I think I have to leave.” This made Eve glance at him. 

“Wait what? Leave where?” Eve frowned. 

“Into hiding before these new enemies come find me.” Eren already begins to get up and gather his clothes.

“Why would they want to find you? Eren what did you do?” The brunette woman sat up. 

“That’s confidential.” He said. 

“So that’s it then. You’re going to leave and pretend this didn’t happen?” Her grey eyes began to get watery. 

Eren had his back facing her. “Yes, it's just fun while it lasts, but I need to focus on my purpose.” 

Just hearing his words, breaks her heart. How could he be so cruel? All those sweet words and promises were nothing but lies. It may be short but it felt like their relationship was longer than it seems. 

“Please Eren...don’t leave. Whatever your purpose is, we can do it together. I need you...I want you.” She got up to go in front of him to stop him. 

“Eve, don’t make me do this the hard way.” To be honest, this is killing Eren also. He wants to protect her from what is coming soon. Those few weeks since their first meet, slowly they were falling for each other.  

“Take me with you, please. I can’t be without you. I know it’s so soon but I’m in love with you.” Her tears kept falling. She gripped on his shirt. 

“I know you feel what I am feeling too. You love me as much I love you. Don’t break my heart please, my love.” Her lips already started to leave kisses on his neck and lips to show him how much he means to her. 

Why is she making this difficult? If he takes her with him, she could get killed. He prefers to have her alive and safe. Of course, what he was doing is hurting him too. 

Damn it, she is going to hate him. 

“Eve stop this now.” He grabbed her wrists to have her away from him. “At least have dignity.” His tone became cold. 

“Why? Baby, don’t do this to me.” Her tears fell hard. 

“Forget what we had. There was never us. I was just a lonely man who wanted comfort on my bed.” Her heart dropped from what he said. All long he was using her to satisfy himself? 

“You jerk! How can you do this to me? I opened up my heart for you and you just take it? So you have never loved me like you claimed? How dare you play my heart you asshole?” She began to yell at him. This pain is too much. She was a fool. Eve had fallen into the same trap as her previous relationships. She thought he was different, but clearly was too dumb to see the signs. 

“Don’t take this too personal, Dollface. I am a man with needs and your body fulfills that. You should consider using your talented skill into a professional business. I hear whores make a lot of money if they are exotic and talented.” He smirked to make this act work. 

Eve gave a glare that’s so familiar to him. The only ones who pulled it off are Mikasa and Levi Ackermans. Before he was about to say more, his cheek was stinging from the slap she gave him. 

“I hate you. I hate you so much; yet I still love you, you bastard!” The heartbreak was too much for her. She falls on her knees from her body trembling with so much emotions. 

Eren glanced down at the woman he loves dearly. He can’t believe this was the only way to keep her safe and away from him. What he was about to do is placing his palm on her forehead. Since She has Eldian blood in her veins. He can erase her memories of him and their heavenly time together. It’s for the best. Maybe one day he’ll have her back. 

Eve tried to remove his hand away from her, but she felt a static on her body as Eren erased her memories of him for good. After the deed was done, he walked away leaving her with a blink look. 

“I’m sorry...I love you, Eve.” He whispered low enough for him to hear as he exited the room. 

When Eren left her alone in the room, Eve stared at the door where he exited. What he did know, Eve still has her memories of him. After all Ackermans are immune from the power of the Founding titan. Her true identity was not Eve. Well, it’s her middle name. Her true name is Natasha Eve Ackerman and her grandparents are Historia Reiss and Levi Ackerman. Yeah, Eve came to the past...accidentally. The most reckless thing she ever did was fall in love with the Earth devil aka Eren Jaeger. 

(Historia) 

The young queen was on a loveseat while the maids did her hair. She was already bathe, dressed in her white wedding dress, and had done her makeup but lightly. 

“Your majesty, you look so beautiful. Your king will be pleased.” One of the maids said. 

No no can they just shut up. He is not her king. He will never be her king. That belongs to Levi. He is her king, the king of her heart. The one thing she was grateful for was that her son had escaped safely. At least, she can focus on trying to escape or kill him. Oh Walls, she misses her sweet little boy. Barely a few hours born and already the queen is separated from her baby. She misses Levi so much. Soon, she will reunite with her boys to be as a family they are meant to be. 

“All ready, my queen.” Another maid said with happiness while another one grabbed a mirror to show how she looked in the reflection.

Historia glanced at the reflection, but felt unamazed. She hated it. This was not her dream wedding. 

“I see.” Her tone was mono and uninterested. 

Before one of the maids said something, a knock on the doors appeared. One of them opens the doors. “Is the bride ready? His Majesty is waiting at the altar along with our guests.” The messenger said. 

“She is ready now.” The door opened wider for the man to enter. 

“Your majesty, it’s a pleasure meeting you in person. You are a beauty that rivals Our three goddesses. I’ll be your escort to the citadel. Our King is awaiting his queen.”  He smiled from meeting the Queen Historia. 

Historia gets up. “Let’s get this over with.” She walked to exit the room which the man quickly followed her behind. 

When exited the palace, another machine cart or what these invaders called a car was parked in the pathway of the palace ground. It’s similar to the other car that kidnapped her from the Orphanage property. 

The gloomy bride hesitated to enter the vehicle as the backseat door was opened for her. For a woman that just gave birth, she was holding herself together. Even with makeup it doesn’t conceal her pale face. Historia felt scared, but her escort gently pushed her in. 

“Your majesty, we must go quickly. It’s improper to make the guests wait for the bride taking too long.” he said. 

Historia felt tears fall from her eyes as she slid into the car. The man gets in after her and closes the door. The car begins to drive to downtown plaza of the city of Mitras.

As she stared at the window from the car, the view was like a nightmare. Fallen soldiers laying on the ground dying. The streets were covered in blood. Some civilians were in distress from the scene. Smokes coming out of a few buildings. The queen began to breathe in and out panicky. Why? Just why, must there be good men and women dying in vain? This is not the reign she wants to be a part of. A true ruler will put their people first instead of their personal agenda. 

“Why...why is he so cruel? This nation is already worrying about another war but with Marley. My people shouldn’t be suffering. Nobody shouldn’t.” She looked down. The blonde haired woman couldn’t look at the scene. 

“I agree, but we must preserve our strength so you can rise up and bring peace again.” The man said. He tries to comfort the crying woman. 

“You’re not one of Evans’ loyalists? Or Templars?” Her blue eyes glanced at him. 

“No, I’m an assassin that’s undercover. I’m on this mission when Mentor Miles and the rest of the brotherhoods arrived on this island many months ago. He assigned me to join the templar as a spy. Don’t worry Queen Historia, I informed the Mentor that you're alive and well.” The assassin said. 

Her eyes widened with hope. “Tell me...is my son safe? Did Commander Hange have my son in custody?” 

“The prince is safe, my queen. I received a message from the mentor before they departed to their hideout.” He reassured her. 

A sigh of relief came from her. Her little angel is with the people she trusts. She wonders if Levi knew their son was born. Has he met him? 

“What about Levi? Has he met his son yet?” She said. 

“No, the captain left around 3 am to get to you in the morning.” He sighed and shook his head. Historia nodded and felt sad. He probably doesn’t know what’s going on yet? Or maybe he does and is on a rampage. 

The car finally stopped. She looked at the window to see the entrance of the citadel where the wedding ceremony will take place. 

“I don’t want to go..” Historia whispered. 

“I’m sorry your majesty...I don’t want you to go in there too, but keep up the appearance as an obedient queen until we strike. I promise you it will be long.” He encouraged her which she sighed in understanding. She has to do this. For her son, for former comrades, for her friends, for the people of Paradis and for her husband, Levi. 

“What’s your name if I may ask?” Historia waits for someone to open the door since it;s protocol and also she doesn’t know how to open this metal fancy cart. 

“My name is Reignald Garcia, your Majesty, but Reggie it’s what most called me.” he said.

“Thank you, Reggie for reassuring me. I need that. I don’t know who to trust at the moment.” Historia glanced at the assassin. 

“No problem your majesty. I wish you luck.” He gave her a smile. 

Historia nods and the door is open for her. She grabs another escort’s hand to get out of the car. Few armies guard her as they lead her to the main double doors. Finally the doors open and she takes one last breath. The queen steps into the citadel to wait for her doom. 

As she enters, all eyes are on her. The citadel is full of people. Carefully she notices very familiar noble families. She doesn’t know whether they betray her or they were forced. Historia stare at each one of the nobles and priests because once she holds her power as queen, they will answer their loyalty towards her. If any signs showed their betrayal to her and the government and people, all hell will lose. 

The music church sound began and everyone stood up. The bride slowly walked down the aisle. This time she held her chin up. She will play her part then when the time is right, she will strike and bring them down. 

(Levi)

Levi reached the city of Mitras. He noticed the streets were being cleaned up from an attack. There were guards that were not from either military regiment. His instincts were telling him to stay hidden. The captain avoided the guards passing by to patrol. He got to the headquarters to notice, no one was there. It was empty. Thank god, he knows where to go if something like this happens. Quickly, Levi led his horse back out of the city to find the hideout. 

The area was surrounded by trees as he galloped through the forest. It took Levi twenty minutes to reach his destination. In his view, a cabin appeared. The raven haired man could see people there. Most were the assassins but he saw Four- Eyes there with a tiny human that she’s carrying. Why did they bring a baby with them? What are they babysitters?

He was finally at the cabin. The short man got off his horse and had the horse being tied where food and water are already displayed for the horses. Commander Hange glanced to see Levi here. 

“Levi! I’m glad you’re here. A lot has happened in 24 hours.” She was interrupted. 

“Hange, I know shitty things have happened in the capital, but I just got back from the Orphanage. Those bastards burnt down the property. Luckily, most of the children had escaped and hid, but they killed off the adults. H-historia was taken and...I need to find her. She’s in danger. The baby….I can’t fucking lose them. I swear I will kill them all.” He felt his anger arise again. Then the crying of the baby stopped him talking. 

“I understand your pain, Levi but we have someone undercover keeping an eye on the queen. Please try to calm down, your kid can sense your anger.” Hange looked at the baby who was still crying. 

“Shitty Glasses, what are you talking about? My kid hasn’t been born yet. Historia is still pregnant.” The captain was confused. He stared at the baby. 

“Well, she gave birth in Lord Evans’ estates. One of the girls who works for the midwife sneaks your son out because he’s in more danger. So Levi, meet your boy, Atticus Ackerman. Isn’t he a cutie? He looks like you only with Historia’s blue eyes.” She showed the baby to Levi. 

He glanced at the baby to notice those familiar blue eyes. They are definitely Historia’s. He can’t believe it; his child is here. His heart gave a squeezed feeling for missing the birth of his son. Wow, he has a son. Now Levi doesn’t know what to do.

“Atticus? I-I don’t know where to start.” He said. 

“It’s ok, you can start by carrying him. I think he senses you’re his papa.” Hange carefully placed Atticus on Levi’s arms while the baby stopped crying. 

“See he wants his daddy.” She grins while watching Levi cradling his newborn son. 

Levi was lost in admiring his child. He and Historia had created this innocent angel. He will do what it takes to protect his son. As a new father, Levi is scared of screwing his kid’s life. Atticus starts to smile and let out a cute giggle. Hange felt her heartbeat with joy. This is one of the rare moments seeing Levi smiling. She is happy for her friend as another good thing was given to him. 

“Atticus, my son...I’m sorry you were born in this shitty moment but I will promise you. I give you the best life you deserve. You and your mother will have the best life I’ll give. I love you; be strong.” The captain has leaned closer to kiss his son’s tiny forehead.

“Zoe...do you know where my grandfather is? I need his help to send Atticus away from this island.” He looked up at his friend and commander. The commander rarely heard him calling her by her first name. 

“Yeah, he’s inside. Let’s go in and talk about sending Atticus to America.” She walked back into the cabin which Levi followed her while carrying his child. Levi doesn’t want to be separated from his child. He just met him. As the war just started, his boy is not safe here. He won’t risk his son’s life. 

William was busy on his laptop. He was in contact with Shaun on Zoom. 

“Everything is a mess here. It’s technically a war zone. We’re lucky enough to escape before we get amush.” The Mentor sigh. 

“Wow that sucks. I’m not surprised the Templars are capable of conquest. Do you plan to get more recruits? You don’t have enough men and women to fight.” Shaun said on the other side of the laptop. 

“I have three of the new members, Mikasa Ackerman, Armin Arlet and Annie Leonhart; to go to Marley and get recruits or allies.” Will said. 

“Huh? One of them has the same last name as your grandson, Levi.” Shaun said. 

“Yes, she’s a distant cousin of his. Marley is also being under attack too. The queen is the hostage of the Order. She just gave birth to my great grandson. Thank god there were some people who have a heart to help escape the boy. He’s now safe and sound with us.” Will hasn’t had time to process what had happened. He was glad Hange is more alert on surprise attacks. 

“Congrats on being a great grandfather now.” The blonde man chuckled from the screen. 

“Thank you. I hope Levi arrives soon.” Just when he mentions his grandson’s name, Levi and Hange enter the dining room. 

“Oh neverminded he’s here.” The older man smiled seeing Hange and Levi especially holding Atticus in his arms. 

“Grandfather, I need that favor I told you about if it comes to this.” Levi said vaguely. 

“Oh that favor. Of course, we can get a plane here to have Atticus escape. We’ll need someone who can be trusted to take care of the baby.” Will remember what Levi meant. 

“As long it will get him out of danger.” The captain stared at his son who’s making cooing sounds. 

“Excuse me, Levi. Hi, I’m Shaun Hastings. One of the best tactical guidance in the Brotherhood. It’s a pleasure meeting you, Levi Ackerman. I can help out to make a safe trip for your kid.” Levi heard the laptop talking and raised his brow at his grandfather in confusion. 

“It’s one of my fellow members of the brotherhood from America that I’m speaking to on my laptop.” William explained which Hange’s sparkled with intrigue.

“Wait, you can communicate far away with this laptop thing?” She goes behind Will to see a man on the screen. 

“Can you? I don’t want anything bad to happen to him. I’m putting him under your responsibility. Got it?” Levi was now on the other side next to Will while talking to Shaun. 

Shaun was annoyed the way Levi acts towards him. Obviously, Levi doesn’t care. He’s itchy for using his blades on the templars, Lord PrettyBoy, and Zeke. Oh he has plans for both of them when he sees them. 

“Oh don’t mind Levi. He’s just overprotective since he’s a new father.” Hange said to Shaun. The British man nodded and let it go. 

“Will, just say the word and I’ll get a plane to you guys.” Shaun already begins to use his connections to find a good plane availability. 

“Get a plane and we’ll get someone taking care of Atticus.” William said. Levi and Hange were focused on the baby. 

Later as the hours got dark, few selected assassins joined Levi who had his son on his arm while riding the horse to the location where the plane landed at an open spot in the woods. 

When they get there, the new father hops off his horse. He looked at a figure besides him. 

“Blouse, you’re in charge protecting him. Can you do that? You will have all the necessary things in his diaper bag. The rest of the stuff is at the location. I’m leaving my son under your care. I’m counting on you. If anyone threatens him or you, shoot them.” He gave his orders to his subordinate. 

She gave her salute. “Sir, I won’t fail you.” 

He nodded and gave the diaper bag to her then his son who’s asleep. Before both Sasha and the baby depart, Levi kisses his forehead on last time. He steps away from them as Sasha gets into the plane while holding Atticus. The captain watched the plane leave and the area became silent. 

It’s for the best Host. Our offspring will be safe. Let’s focus on getting our mate back. I’m drenching for vengeance. 

“Tch. Let’s go.” Levi orders the rest of the crew to get back to their hideout. His eyes glowed silver. He kept hearing the mumbles Iapetus will do to Zeke and Prettyboy. 

(Reiner)

They made it into the base hospital where Pieck is now being treated for her gunshot wounds.  The rest of the small group were waiting outside. 

“Thank god, we made it in time to save Pieck.” Porco sighs in relief. 

Reiner agrees with Porco. He doesn’t want to lose another comrade. He didn’t imagine this war will be against their favor and it’s not just them being invaded, Paradis and other neighboring nations are being invaded by these hungry conquerors. The Marleyans hadn’t felt this helpless since the Eldian Empire. This time it’s not their descendants it’s these unknown groups called themselves the Order of Templars.

At least, they know the identity of their invaders. If Reiner can find any surviving higher officials, maybe they will consider to ally the Paradis and these other groups called the Brotherhood of Assassins. They know more about the templars. What Armin and Annie told them was both factions were hidden from the world. It’s difficult to find information about these two societies. They are considered ancient since the dawn of humanity. Not everything that they knew of their history was true. The Marleyan Warriors had a hard time grasping these new facts. All their lives, they were taught the history of their ancestor’s sins and how they need to atone from the past mistakes. 

“We need to find a higher up at least in these bases.” Reiner said. 

A Marleyan soldier ran towards the group. The man was in his prime 20s. He glanced at Armin and gasped. “Deputy Chief Braun, we were looking for you. Lieutenant Romos has summoned you. By the way, why is the Paradisan devil here?” He glared at Armin which Annie was ready to act in order to protect her lover. Yes, Armin is capable of protecting himself, but she will not risk it.   

“He’s here because he along with another Paradisan have valuable information to deal with our new enemies.” He glared at the Marleyan soldier. “As of now he and Mikasa Ackerman are under my protection as Deputy Chief of the Marley’s Warriors.” 

“I see very well, I’ll let my superior make his judgement. Come, he doesn’t have patience at the moment, and you can bring the rest of the group with you.” He turned around to head back.   

Reiner and the rest of the gang started heading in that direction. Once they reached where Lt. Romos is located. The man was in his 40s with heavy dark under eyes. His wrinkles were visible from the stress and weather made him aged too fast. Lt. Romos was busy looking at a map while being surrounded by the remaining of the troops besides the ones fighting at the frontline protecting their base. 

The Marleyan soldier saluted his officer which Lt. Romos turned around to stare at the soldier. Not that far, he saw Reiner, Porco, Annie, and Armin entering the strategy room. “Ah Deputy Chief Braun, I’m glad you’re alive. I’m sure you understand what’s going on. We don’t know this foreign invaders, but they were hiding under us for a long time to ready to strike. We found out our leaders who were assigned at the shoreline base are dead. It’s just you and I.” Lt. Romos grabbed a paper to hand to Reiner. “Here before Commander Hugos died, he left this last order towards you. I suggest reading out loud for the troops to hear the Commander’s final wish.” 

Reiner nodded and took the paper and read what it said. He was shocked at what his late commander’s order was. 

Dear Deputy Chief Reiner Braun, 

The council and I have hereby to grant you honorary citizenship as a Marleyan. You and your family will be treated as citizens with military benefits. For your loyalty and service to this great nation, Marley. As now you’re an honorary citizen; I, Commander Hugos of the Marley army of all regiments  anoint you as my successor if I died in action or incapable of acting as commander. For any soldiers speaks out or disobeys your commands; they will be labelled as traitors and be held in trials under a suitable sentence as decided by you and the councils. I wish you farewell, soldier. You and our fellow comrades bring pride in our nation. 

Sincerely, 

Robert Hugos, Commander of the Marleyan Army.   

Silence took over. Reiner doesn’t know what to say or do. He actually did it. He and his family are safe. They are granted as citizens. What’s shocking he’s now the commander of the whole nation of Marley’s armies. 

“I- I don’t know what to say…” The blonde Eldian was processing what he just read. 

The soldiers mumbled at what was written. Lt. Romos now salutes the new Commander. “I’m at your service sir. My platoon is under your commander. What’s your first order.” He gave a smirk at Reiner. Around Reiner and Romos, the rest of the troopers salute. “We are also at your service, Commander sir!” They shout with pride. 

Reiner nodded in acknowledgement for their fealty towards him as their new commander. “My fellow soldiers, I’m honored to be your commander. I will lead you into victory to drive these invaders out of our great motherland. I promise you, if you die in battle your families will be set for life for the loyalty and dedication to this country. Things will change especially in a time like this. We all have a common enemy. Today we are one army, not as Marleyan-Marleyans, Eldians or half-Marleyans. Today we are the Marleyans. Protectors of our nation, our families, and our beliefs. Are you with me, soldiers?” Reiner raised his fist up. Everyone raised their fists along. 

“Yes, sir. For Marley!” They chanted. 

“The first thing we need to do is Lt. Romos, to step closer.” The lieutenant did as he was told but was confused where this was leading. 

“As today, I’m promoting you to General since you’re the last high up officer of our military. I know it’s not much, but after the war you along several promoting officers will get a ceremony that you deserve. Congratulations, General.” Reiner needed a new general for now. Since then their numbers have shrunk. This will do unless they recruit more. This army will break barriers of Eldians and Marleyans. Maybe this big step will help take the first step in diminishing segregation between Eldians and Marleyans.  

“Thank you sir. I will bring honor to our military and nation.” Gen. Romos salutes in respect. 

“I need two soldiers with good penmanship's and use our telecommunication.” Commander Braun stared at the troops. Two hands raise to get his attention. 

“Sir, I know how to use telecommunication and penmanship. The soldier said. 

Sir, I can help him out.” The other one speaks out. 

“Alright, both of you go to the communication room and send messages to any surviving troopers from all over Marley and outside. Give them an update. One of you has to go to the frontlines to pass on the message that I will personally give you. The rest of you troopers are on guard and protect our base. You’re all dismiss except Gen. Romos and Porco and Annie, Armin.” Once he gave his order, the troopers left and the room was quiet with all five  of them.

“Porco, since I’m the commander; I’m naming you my successor as Deputy Chief of the Marley’s Warriors unit. Congrats, you have earned it.” He gave a smile. Porco was flushed at the promotion he was given. “Thanks Rein- I mean Commander sir.” 

Reiner nodded. “Ok now that settles. General, I need you to pick some of your best soldiers, maybe like 3 or 4 to find Mikasa Ackerman and my cousin, Gabi Braun.”  General Romos salutes his commander and heads out. 

Reiner sighs. He hopes this war will be the last. At what cause they keep this old centuries feud and fear between Marley and Paradis? No one is safe at the price of war, especially fuel by hatred and fear. Like what Mikasa said, all this started because of Templars and their ambition of ruling the world. This time they will stand their ground for a new beginning of peace for their children and their children’s children to have a future. 

(Nathaniel) 

The Usurper awaits for his bride as she walks down the aisle. She may be beautiful, but her face is pale and her eyes look dull. The death of her brat had hit a milestone. Nathaniel is pleased the newborn had died with mother nature being involved. That beast she is so in love with will know he has nothing. His child is dead, Historia is his. The “king” will find the Ackermans and send their heads to his bride as a late wedding gift from. He will grin with joy when she sees it and scream from losing her precious Ackermans. 

The cruel man notices Historia finally stands beside him at the altar. The high priest began to perform the ceremony. Nathaniel takes her hand, but she quickly rejects it by moving it away. The nobleman rolled his eyes. How childish of her? ‘

“You acting like this will not stop the wedding, sweetheart.” His tone gives off a sweet but threatening. “So behave like a good bride. This is your happiest day.” Historia glared with hatred towards him. 

So he forcedly grabbed her hand. Historia this time didn’t struggle and continued listening to the high priest. 

As minutes turned to hours, both bride and groom were lost in their own thoughts. After all, the high priest’s monotone can put anyone to sleep. Finally the good part begins.

“Do you Lord Nathaniel of House Evans take Queen Historia of House Reiss as your lawful wedded wife to cherish her, comfort her, and love her through sickness and health. Through good and bad?” The high priest said. 

“I do.” He grabs the ring and holds roughly Historia’s hand while sliding the ring on her finger. Nathan glimpses at her as tears fall from her eyes. 

“Do you Queen Historia of House Reiss take Lord Nathaniel of House Evans as your lawful wedded husband to cherish him, comfort him, and love him through sickness and health, through good and bad?” Nathaniel can read her face. She wants to say no. Of course, she doesn’t have a choice. 

“I-I...I...d-do.” He hears her choke up from those two words. Her hand trembles when she slides the ring into his finger. 

Once the rings were exchanged, the high priest said his last phrases to seal their marriage.  

“With the power invested in me and the blessing of Ymir, Sina, Rose, and Maria; I pronounce you husband and wife. My lord, you may kiss your bride.” 

Nathaniel glances at his new wife then leans to give a kiss. Honestly, he can’t stand the though of kissing her or anything like sex. In order to have heirs, he’ll have to get over with. Maybe getting drunk will help to get it over that part later. 

“As the law of our kingdom, Queen Historia will be stripped of her title. Lord Evans with your marriage with her majesty. I crown you as the new reigning king and his wife, queen consort. All hail King Nathaniel of House of Evans and Queen Consort Historia of House Evans. Long live the new dynasty. May the three goddesses and Ancestress Ymir bless you children and longing reign.” The high priest placed the crowns on him first then on Historia. The crowd cheers and chants. 

After the ceremony, there was a feast in the halls of the palace. The newly wedded couples were seated on the high table where everyone could see them. Nathaniel was sipping wine and chatting with other nobles and templars. His eyes glimpsed at the crowds. Some were eating and chatting while others danced. He spotted his lover dancing with someone. The new king felt a small jealousy. He may be the king but their society won’t allow two men or women to have a relationship. He already finds it bullshit of their church practices. That’s why he needed Historia. One to be the decoy and two to give birth to his heirs. Nathaniel couldn’t stop staring at Gilbert. He’s such a beautiful man. How he craves to have him here beside him and not this whore. The light brown man glances at his queen who was gloomy since their marriage ceremony. 

Historia notices him staring at her and scoff. “Is there something on my face, my king?” Nathaniel blink as he swore she sounded like Levi Ackerman. 

“Yes, with makeup you look like one of those whores from the Underground City. I’ll tell your new ladies-in-waiting of not to put any on you.” He said. Historia rolls her eyes and looks away to stare at the dance scene. 

“I’m exhausted. I want to sleep.” Historia said. 

“Darling, could you wait for a bit longer? The guests came all over of the Three Walls to see us on our special day.” He grins then gulp his drink.

“No.” She said with a flat tone. 

“Oh well, you will wait until I get tired.” he said without a care. 

She mumbles incoherently while sipping a bit of wine.  

One of the higher ranking templar members began to speak. “Your majesties, may your marriage be blessed with abundance and fertility. And your reign brings prosperity. Cheers to the King and his Queen.” 

Everyone repeated. “Cheers to the King and his Queen.” The crowd toasted to the rulers and drank their wines. 

“Thank my friends and loyal subjects. As part of tradition, the queen and I will have our first dance as man and wife, king and queen. My darling queen, may I have this dance?” Nathaniel smiles while playing his sweet act around everyone towards Historia. She was contemplating as her eyes stared down at his hand. Finally, she gave in to take his hand to be led to the dancefloor. 

The music starts and he places his hand on her waist while holding her other hand. They waltz around the dancefloor going along the music. The guests surrounded themselves around the dance floor to watch the king and queen dancing. 

Nathaniel observes how Historia gave a blank expression as she went along this dance. Her dancing skill is flawless and graceful. For a bastard raised in a farm, he would have thought she was raised as a princess. Once the music was over, they stopped while the crowd applauded from their dance. 

The crowned king had his eyes again on Gilbert, who now has an envious expression. Gilbert walked away from the scene. Nathan knows this is hurting him. He wants to go after him to hold and kiss him. He had explained to him this marriage with the whore was just for political movement to be officially king without having the chance of being removed easily. All he needs a male heir or two then he can discard her. After the consummation, he’ll go talk privately with his lover.  

Speaking of consummation, Nathaniel sighs and raises his hand up to silent the crowd. Little by little the place got quiet. 

“It is time for the queen and I to depart for our final step to be man and wife.” He grins. Of course, some whistles and cheer. 

“So it’s time for us to go, but don’t let us stop all of you to enjoy the wedding feast! Servants serve more food and wines for our wonderful guests!” He ordered the servants and the people to cheer happily. Nathaniel grabbed Historia's hand to drag her out of the festival hall. 

As they walked through hallways to reach the bedroom, the door opened but Historia was shouting to be let go. 

“Nooo let go! Please, I don’t want to do this. Don’t make me.” She was trying to pull her hand away. The guards closed the door. Now there are two of them in the dim light. Earlier the servants had the marriage bedroom prepared. 

“Can you just shut up for once?” the king lost his patience and slapped his wife. She fell on the floor while sobbing silently. Nathaniel doesn’t want to do this either but that’s the price to be king. 

“You need to get used to it. The faster I have my seeds in you, we’ll not have to share a bed ever. I don’t know why the Grandmaster templar wanted me to marry you? You are nothing. A weak girl; the bad seed of your father. The only foolish thing he did was to fuck your whore mother and let you exist.” He rants to himself but Historia can hear him. 

“W-why does the grandmaster want us to be married? He has no business in our nation’s matters.” She cried out angrily. 

“Of course, he does because if it wasn’t for him; I would not be king. Someone else would have governed our home. It should be the blood of King Fritz who should sit on the throne.” The king glared down at her. Historia grabbed on the pole of the bed to pull herself up. Her body was exhausted and still sore from childbirth. She’s lucky a fever or infection did appear then she would be knocking on Death’s doorsteps. 

Historia feels scared as she sees him finally making a move on her. He grabbed her to have him gripping her wrists then pulled her closer. “Don’t make me do this the hard way, Historia.” This is the first he called her by her name instead with insults. With her being surprised, he tries to take off her wedding gown but the layers were thick. Stupid women’s fashion. Why do they always make it difficult to take it off and put it on? King Nathaniel begins to rip her dress since it’s the last time she will one. 

His queen noticed her gown was ripped down in the middle from the back and felt the breeze of air caressing her bare back. The dress slipped down from her body to leave her completely exposed to him. She quickly covered her breasts and crossed her legs to cover her intimate part. Her tears resume falling. She’s now helpless and vulnerable for him to take advantage of. 

Nathan stepped away to go pour a full glass of wine to gulp down. He needed to get drunk first. He finished his glass and poured another round. He sipped his drink and glanced at his nude bride who's still crying like a hot mess. This is getting old. Crying will not make it stop. He thought while finishing his second round. He felt the wine kicking in. Just when he turned around to grab the bottle, he could hear the door opening to see Historia wrapped in her ripped dress and opening the door. The king placed the bottle down to run towards her and pull her back into the room. He closed then locked the door. Now his grip was on her golden hair being dragged to the bed. Already, had her dress dropped on the floor. Her screams were heard probably the whole floor of the palace. No one will come since it’s their wedding night. They must complete the consummation to validate their marriage. 

“Stupid bastard. You just never learn do you?” He grabbed the dress to rip a long piece of fabric. He tied her wrist a bit harsh. He pushes her to lay on the bed, her tied hands are palace in front of her. 

Historia was now struggling to be free. “I hate you. I hate you! I fucking hate you.” She screams at him. 

“The feeling is mutual.” He said coldly but drunk. His hands started to undress himself until he’s exposed too. 

Nathaniel climbs on the bed hovering over her. He positioned between her legs, gripping tightly her thighs so she wouldn't kick him. The king began to thrust himself into her which her body became stiff. Historia closed her eyes so she could pretend it’s Levi. Nathan keeps thrusting faster and hard to go deeper. He now moans and mumbles words. “Oh goddesses, what sorcery is this?” He said in whisper. His heart belongs to Gilbert. He was always attracted to him when they met, but Historia is a beautiful woman with a very desirable body and he would be a fool to not notice or take the advantage. Due in time, she will learn her place. He will just enjoy fucking her until her purpose has been served. It’s such a shame, Levi Ackerman is not here chained up to watch his whore getting fucked by another man. 

(Levi) 

His grey eyes open from having a nightmare of Historia screaming for his name to come rescue her. He sat up from a chair. Since he came back from seeing his son being taken to New York City in America, the captain decided to take a small nap to have his anxiety be calm. It’s like his instinct zapping him to go save her now. Screw waiting. Her life is in danger even Iapetus had been on edge growling to go save her. 

What you dreamt? It wasn’t a nightmare. It’s happening right now, human..

What the hell are you talking about?

You know deep down you're looking through her eyes. We need to get her out. They have harmed our goddess. That weakling had defiled our mate. We’ll give a slow and painful death.  

So...this wasn’t a dream? He actually had the nerve to touch her. That sick bastard! Historia just gave birth. Fuck it we’re going to get her out. 

Levi gets up to go put on his assassin outfit. He put his blades into their place then grabbed two guns for back ups. After he is ready, Levi gets out of the room. 

“Ah Levi, grandson. I’m glad you're up. We have news. Armin, Annie, and Mikasa had sent more back up for us and Marley.” William walked towards him. The older man notices his grandson is dressed to go on a mission. 

“Where are you going? Our back ups will be here by tomorrow evening.” He said. 

“I need to go.” He said vaguely to his grandfather. He doesn’t want to explain why he’s in a hurry. 

“Go where? We need you. If this is about trying to rescue Historia, you know I can't allow you.” The Mentor uses his authoritative tone. He dislikes using it on Levi. He can understand why his grandchild is agitated. 

Levi hiss at his grandfather angrily. “I’m not gonna wait until something bad happens to her! I made a promise to my son that he will have his mother in his life. I don’t want him to be growing up without a mother like I had. I am going and that’s final.” He opened the door and walked out leaving his grandfather with sadness as the old man feared something terrible would happen to his grandchild. He doesn’t want to go through losing another family member. 

A/N: Hello hello! So I’m sorry for writing more dark scenes. I promise you good things will come later. Warning: I don’t condone to rape or any kind of sexual violence or any kind of abuses. So in other words, enjoy this chapter and let me know what you guys think? I love hearing your thoughts of each chapter. See you until next time!