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some doodles
#i meant to put the balor one in the previous post but i forgor šŸ˜­its in a diff file from the sketch dump i was coloring in so it just didnt#exist in my mind at all. i felt like smth was missing as i was posting it but i couldnt place what hlep#adeline and eiland have been driving me insane lately. expect more of them. probably.#dont minf the last two guys. some concepts for future farms šŸ˜‹ (pls mind them im crazy abt all my farmers even if they technically dont -#exist yet. pls ask abt them or smth pls im nroaml i can be nroma l i prommy)#fields of mistria#fom balor#sona#im gonna start tagging that i think.#fom eiland#fom adeline#fom elsie#fom farmer#my art#guys can i just say that im so happy that balor is silver n not gold cus otherwise i would have to confront a part of me im not proud of#we shouldnt talk abt it but like yeah jjust know i like his silver and his whole deal#have such a softspot n bias for characters who dont settle anywhere. who never lay down their roots or whatever. who keep their past secret#like oughh hes hitting so many marks#i like hawthorne a lot. hes more developed in my head. and also i like his dead look and hair bows. i have so many ideas abt him man it hur#i promised myself i wouldnt make a new save file til i reached y2 w rory but apperantly errols bday is cursed bc the game has frozen twice#sorry if you read all of these tags. go to my askbox w fom stuff or smth. ask abt my farmers plsplspls pl s jk haha unless. maybe even#gimme drawing reqs for fom in general. ok tyvm ly sorry for yapping. its what i do best
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If I may request a Rise fic!! Iā€™m a huge sucker for comfort/cheer up tickles, so could you possibly write a disaster twins fic with Lee Leo and Ler Donnie where Leoā€™s been having a pretty bad day (because of what is your choice!) and ends up feeling self conscious about himself and stuff, so Donnie decides to cheer up his twin!! Please donā€™t feel rushed and make sure youā€™re taking care of yourself ^_^
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ā€œI canā€™tĀ believeĀ youā€™reĀ doingĀ this to me again.ā€ Leo grumbled under his breath as he rested his mouth on his palm, glancing away from his brother as he sighed loudly.Ā 
ā€œWellĀ maybeĀ if you werenā€™t soĀ fuckingĀ recklessĀ I wouldnā€™t need to.ā€ Donnie growled lowly, glaring down at his twin.
ā€œIā€™m not aĀ baby,Ā Don. I donā€™t need to be supervised like Iā€™m some bombĀ triggered toĀ explode.ā€ The younger said in exasperation, lying down on his bed whilst grabbing a comic book to read off of his desk.
If Leo was going to be told off and scolded by his dear beloved brow-loving brother, he should atĀ least have something to occupy himself with in the meanwhile.Ā 
The softshell groaned eternally at his little brotherā€™s action, quickly snatching the piece of literature out of the otherā€™s hands and throwing it effortlessly to the ground.Ā 
Uninterested lime green eyes locked with a determined yet fierce light golden, both of them refusing to look away or blink to show their dominance.
But after a while, the red eared slider grew more impatient, looking away again as he picked a hangnail on his thumb, ā€œIf youā€™re going to yell at me,Ā can you just get it over with?Ā I saw a reddit post predicting whatā€™s going to happen in The Umbrella Academy season four and IĀ needĀ to read it.ā€Ā 
ā€œYou can read thatĀ later,Ā Nardo. I promise you, that reddit post isnā€™t going toĀ fly away.ā€ The elder said as he pinched the bridge of his snout, ā€œWhat IĀ needĀ you to do right now is acknowledge what you did today wasĀ stupid,Ā alright?ā€Ā 
Leo looked away from his older brother, scoffing lightly, ā€œI do stupid things all the time.Ā What stupid action of mine are you wanting to scream at me forĀ thisĀ time?ā€Ā 
The softshell turtle took a couple deep breaths at that comment, drumming his fingers on his left arm in a soothing motion because he wasĀ NOTĀ going to give into the urge of strangling his twin brotherā€¦
ā€¦No matter how much he deserved it.
ā€œIā€™m not planning on screaming at youā€” that wonā€™t helpĀ anyoneĀ orĀ anything.ā€ The purple banded turtle explained calmlyā€¦but you could see andĀ tellĀ he was starting to lose his paitence.Ā 
ā€œBut you want to.ā€ The red eared slider pressed on.Ā 
ā€œLeoā€¦please.Ā IĀ donā€™tĀ want to argue right now.ā€Ā 
ā€œWeā€™re not arguing.Ā Weā€™re justĀ kindlyĀ discussing myĀ oh-soĀ stupidĀ descisionĀ that unfolded earlier today, right?ā€ The younger twin smirked smugly, his eyes locking once again with his brother.Ā 
When it came to arguments, the leader in blueĀ alwaysĀ had thisĀ wonderfulĀ tactic to avoiding things:Ā attempting to annoy the other personĀ so muchĀ that they drop the subject they wanted to discuss with himĀ completely.
It always worked withĀ Raphā€¦which the red eared slider didnā€™t know whether that was aĀ goodĀ thingĀ or aĀ badĀ thing.
But the only downside ofĀ doingĀ this tactic was his dumb twin sawĀ rightĀ through itā€¦
ā€¦And LeonardoĀ despisedĀ it.Ā 
ā€œNardoā€¦youĀ knowĀ what Iā€™m referring to.Ā And stop picking,Ā please.Ā Your going to hurt yourself.ā€ The older attempted to say in a tranquil voice, but it personally just sounded like he wasĀ one secondĀ away fromĀ losing. his.Ā shell.
ā€œI sadlyĀ do not knowĀ what your referring to.ā€ The blue cladded teen said coyly, picking on his hangnail more desperately now, ā€œCare to enlighten me, Tello?ā€Ā 
Donnieā€™s expression hardened ever so slightly at his younger brotherā€™s absoluteĀ persistenceĀ on annoying him out of hisĀ right mindĀ so he could eventually drop the subjectā€¦but the softshell turtle wasĀ notĀ budging.
His twin would have to tryĀ way harderĀ thanĀ that.
ā€œIā€™dĀ loveĀ to.ā€ The light golden eyed mutant said in a fake sweet tone as he walked over to lean his shell on Leoā€™s closed door, crossing his arms in disaproval. The elder grabbed his brotherā€™s sword, planting it right next to his foot so the blue banded turtle couldnā€™t reach for it.Ā 
The red eared sliderā€™s cocky grin turned to a small grimaceĀ (shake)Ā as he soon came to terms with what his older brother was doingā€¦
ā€¦He physically could not leave from this conversationā€¦literally.
Leonardo crossed his arms, trying to mimick the otherā€™s serious demeanor but was only met with an icy glare in return.Ā 
ā€œWhat you did during todayā€™s mission was completleyĀ recklessĀ andĀ idiotic,Ā Leonardoā€¦and you know it.ā€ The second oldest said, ā€œI had that thugĀ exactlyĀ where I wanted him butĀ noooooo.Ā Because you saw meĀ tripĀ you thought it would be aĀ spectacularĀ ideaĀ to throw yourselfĀ on topĀ of me as that hooligan tried to hit me with hisĀ bat!!ā€ Donatello seethed.Ā 
ā€œWeā€™ve been over thisĀ multipleĀ times,Ā Leo! There wasĀ noĀ reasonĀ for you to do that!ā€ The light golden eyed teen yelled, his glare only hardening more as he saw the younger stuttering over his words to try to defend himself.
ā€œIā€™m not done.ā€ The taller teen growled, all of his calmness and collectiveness thrown completley out of the window.
The slider slightly flinched (which went un-noticed by the other) at his brotherā€™s genuine angry tone, his left leg fidgeting and bouncing up and down like crazy.Ā 
His tactic wasĀ reallyĀ starting to not work in his favour at allā€¦
ā€œJustā€¦stop putting yourself in the middle of danger like youā€™re just expecting the rest of us to justĀ watch.Ā Weā€™re your familyā€¦and mostĀ importantly,Ā we can defend ourselves justĀ fine.ā€Ā 
ā€œWell ihisnā€™tĀ thatĀ hypocritic!ā€ Leonardo scoffed before creasing his eye ridges together in genuine confusion, mumbling to himself, ā€œHypā€¦uhā€¦hypocrotic?Ā Hypā€¦Hypocraticā€¦?ā€Ā 
ā€œHypocritical?ā€ The older deadpanned.
ā€œYES!Ā THATĀ WORD!ā€ Leo said, ā€œWhen we were fighting Kraang Prime on the ship and he went to take a blow at Mikeyā€¦what did you do?ā€
Donatello scowled, his eyes not leaving his twin, ā€œā€¦I went in front of him and shielded him with my mystic tech.ā€
ā€œExactly.ā€ The lime green eyed mutant scoffed, ā€œAnd how is that any different from whatĀ IĀ did, hm?ā€
ā€œBECAUSEĀ IĀ HAD A PLAN!!!ā€ Donatello shouted, ā€œIĀ plannedĀ to accordingly go in front of Mikey so my sheild could protect bothĀ him andĀ me.Ā Did it end up turning out perfect?Ā Fuck no.Ā Kraang Prime slashedĀ right through itĀ and me and Mikey wentĀ tumblingĀ towards the groundā€¦ā€ The glasses wielding teen said through clenched teeth.Ā 
The light golden eyed teen rubbed his face tiredly, his hands clenching and unclenching in frustration, ā€œBut I had aĀ plan.Ā YouĀ on the other hand, just zoomedĀ recklesslyĀ on top of me and hoped for the best.ā€
ā€œā€¦IĀ saved you,Ā didnā€™t Iā€¦?ā€ The younger twin mumbled out meekly, causing Donatelloā€™s blood to absolutleyĀ boil.Ā 
ā€œThatā€™sĀ notĀ theĀ point!!!ā€ The elder said as he clenched his hands at his sides again.
ā€œThen whatĀ is?!ā€ Leo said desperately, ā€œBecause from the looks of it, it just seems like you want toĀ yell at meĀ for just doing myĀ job.ā€Ā 
Leonardo pulled on his mask tails anxiously, trying to calm himself down but ultimately just making himself feel worse by doing the action, ā€œIā€™ve beenĀ tryingĀ to be a better leaderā€”ā€œ
ā€œLeoā€”ā€œ
ā€œā€”ForĀ youĀ andĀ MikeyĀ andĀ AprilĀ andĀ RaphĀ andĀ CaseyĀ andĀ C.J.Ā a-andĀ Dad!Ā But it seems like no matterĀ what the hell IĀ doĀ thereā€™s alwaysĀ somethingĀ Iā€™m doingĀ WRONG!!!ā€ The younger twin shouted, blinking back tears as he glared at the ground as if it took his Jupiter Jim comic.
Whichā€¦itĀ did.Ā The blue banded mutant wanted it back now, actuallyā€¦
ā€œI saved you! I-I didnā€™t even getĀ hurtĀ by doing it butĀ somehowĀ thereā€™s an issueā€¦ā€ The lime green eyed teen murmured, both of his legs bouncing up and down as he tugged on his mask tails harder, ā€œThere alwaysĀ isā€¦ā€
ā€œLeonardo can youĀ pleaseĀ justĀ listenĀ to me?ā€ The older twin said in irritation.Ā 
ā€œBut Don Iā€™mā€”ā€œ
ā€œNo, Leo!Ā JustĀ listen!Ā Thatā€™sĀ allĀ you need to do!ā€ Donnie snapped as he cut his brother off, ā€œI donā€™t want you leapingĀ head firstĀ into harms way!Ā At all!Ā EspeciallyĀ if you donā€™t have a plan!ā€ The softshell turtle exclaimed as he flapped his hands against the side of his thighs, but his eye contanct remaining on his little brother.
ā€œOho soĀ nowĀ you donā€™t trust me well enough to know that I can handle myself in combat?ā€ Leo said in a last desperate attempt to make his brother drop the conversation.
ā€œIā€¦ā€ The young scientistā€™s eye twitched, his eyebrows creasing together as he had to physically restrain himself to not beat the ever livingĀ crapĀ out of the other teen, ā€œTHIS ISĀ NOTĀ ABOUTĀ TRUST, NARDO!ā€ The light golden eyed mutant screamed desperately, his hands flapping faster as the red eared slider shrunk at his usage of tone, ā€œThis is aboutĀ youĀ not evenĀ thinkingĀ about what would happen to yourself when you doĀ reckless nonsenseĀ like this.ā€
Leo glanced to the side, his eyes watering as he bit the inside of his cheek.
He just wanted toĀ helpĀ and be the leader his brotherā€™sĀ deservedā€¦
But he always found a way toĀ fuck it upĀ without even noticing, huh?
"You don'tĀ thinkĀ about what could happen to you andĀ IĀ hateĀ it!ā€ The elder cried, ā€œWhat wouldā€™ve happened if Raph didnā€™t come behind the guy and knocked him out cold at the last second, huh?! Would you have just stayed right on me as he continued to beat you with his bat?!ā€
Leonardo bit the inside of his cheek harder, his legs bouncing up and down more as his fingernails dug unforgivingly into his arms, ā€œI-Iā€™m sorry, Donnieā€”ā€
ā€œOr would you have tried toĀ fight himĀ instead?! Mind you, you dropped your sword before coming to me so youā€™d haveĀ no weaponĀ to defend yourself.ā€Ā 
ā€œYou don't thinkĀ about how much itĀ scaresĀ me when you do dumb shit like that! IĀ hateĀ seeing you get hurtā€¦I freakingĀ loatheĀ it.ā€ Donnie rested the back of his head on Leoā€™s door, taking a couple deep breaths and hugging himself in an attempt to calm himself down.
Jeezā€¦when the hell had he startedĀ yelling?Ā His throat stung like aĀ bitchĀ nowā€¦
AndĀ whenĀ had he started shaking like a bobby head?!
The older twinā€™s expression softened, pinching the bridge of his snout once more, ā€œI care about youā€¦soĀ fuckingĀ much,Ā okayā€¦?ā€ The purple banded turtle said gently as he gradually started to simmer down and become more calm, ā€œYour myĀ twinā€¦myĀ little brother.Ā And IĀ hateĀ to be repetitive but I-I justĀ despiseĀ seeing you hurtā€¦physically or emotionallyā€¦soĀ pleaseĀ justā€¦ā€
The young scientistā€™s eyes widened, peering down at his brother who did not seem to be followingā€¦at all.Ā 
Leoā€™s eyes were wide as saucers as he hit his arm with his fist repeatedly whilst obviously trying to suck in whatever tearsĀ daredĀ to try and escape.Ā 
The taller turtle basically ran to his distressed twin, trying to stop him from harming himself any further but was only met with a low grunt.
Shit.
Shit. Shit.Ā Fucking shit.Ā 
Wonderful job, Donatello! You yelled at your brother so much he shut down!
Even though you knew he canā€™tĀ fucking standĀ being yelled at and theĀ whole pointĀ of you evenĀ being hereĀ was to explain what he did wrongĀ collectively and calmlyĀ because that was the exactĀ oppositeof what Raph does when heā€™s worriedā€¦
But no!Ā You yelled at him anyway.
Wonderful job, Donatelloā€¦wonderful. job.Ā 
The older twin sighed sadly, gently grabbing his brotherā€™s wrists so he would stop hitting himself. The two brotherā€™s shared eye contact once again, an unsure lime green meeting an understanding yet uncertain light golden.
ā€œNardoā€¦ā€ The softshell started, squeezing the otherā€™s hands gently, ā€œā€¦Are you with me, budā€¦?ā€
Leo just nodded quietly, squeezing back.Ā 
ā€œGodā€¦Nardo Iā€™mĀ soĀ sorryā€¦ā€ The older muttered, ā€œI donā€™tā€¦I donā€™t knowĀ why theĀ hellĀ I lost my cool like that. I-Iā€™m sorry I yelled. IĀ shouldnā€™tĀ of yelledā€¦I-I justā€¦ā€ Donatello sighed, squeezing his brotherā€™s hands once again. ā€œIā€™m not angry with you. Iā€¦I was just frustrated.ā€
ā€œWell, noā€¦let me rephrase:Ā I amĀ angry with youā€”Ā livid even.Ā You know damn well enough that when you do those kinds of things my heart literallyĀ jumpsĀ out of my shell. I need you to put into consideration that I would like to live to atĀ leastĀ seventy-sevenā€¦ā€
The younger twin giggled wetly, fidgeting with his brotherā€™s fingers as he spoke, ā€œā€¦Why seventy-seven?ā€
ā€œAlbert Einstein died when he was seventy-sixā€¦I can andĀ willĀ outlive him.ā€ The light golden eyed teen said matter-of-factly, ā€œBut back to what I was initially sayingā€¦I know you meant well.Ā You saw that I was in troubleā€¦and you dropped literallyĀ everythingĀ in order to help me get out of said trouble. You donā€™t think of what happens to youā€¦you just do it because youā€™ll know if you do weā€™ll be alrightā€¦ā€
ā€œI-I justā€¦I just wanted to protect youā€¦I-I just wanted to helpā€¦ā€ Leo tried to explain.
ā€œI know. I know, Leeā€¦ā€ Donatello sighed, rubbing the sliderā€™s knuckles gently with his thumb, ā€œBut you need to understand that with you trying to protect us that way, your putting us in the same situation your trying to keep usĀ awayĀ from.ā€ The elder explained lightly, smiling softly as him and his twinā€™s foreheadā€™s touched.Ā 
ā€œYouā€™re getting hurtā€” or at the very leastĀ almostĀ getting hurt. Weā€™re feeling the same anguish and guilt you would feel if any of us did that. I get that you want to be a good leader and shitā€¦but you can lead wellĀ withoutĀ doing thatā€¦okay?ā€Ā 
Leo fiddled with the otherā€™s fingers a bit more, his bouncing leg starting to calm a bit, ā€œIā€™llā€¦try to be more careful when it comes to me protecting you guys like that. When I see you all in troubleā€¦I justā€¦react.Ā I donā€™t really care about what happens to me as long as you guys end up okay. Butā€¦Iā€™ll try to be more careful. And if I ever end up, like, being a bitĀ tooĀ recklessā€¦you can just tell meā€¦deal?ā€
ā€œDeal.ā€ Donnie nodded, squeezing Leoā€™s hands one last time before letting go, wiping his twinā€™s eyes with his hoodie sleeve, ā€œNowĀ pleaseĀ stop crying or youā€™re going to makeĀ meĀ start crying.ā€Ā 
Leo snorted, examining the otherā€™s now tearing up expression, ā€œI think itā€™s a bit too late for thatā€¦ā€Ā 
ā€œGAH!Ā FUHUCK!ā€ Donnie cursed, wiping his own eyes as the slider laughed loudly at his exclamation.
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ā€œLeoā€¦donā€™t you think youā€™re getting a bit tooĀ bigĀ for thisā€¦?ā€ Donatello grumbled as Leonardo was on his lap, getting all nice and comfy as he rested his chin on the olderā€™s shoulder. ā€œNoooope.ā€ Leo drawed out, making a dramatic popping noise at the end of the 'p', ā€œ'Sides, this is what you get for making me emo earlier.ā€
ā€œā€¦IĀ saidĀ I wasĀ sorryā€¦I didnā€™t mean to shout at you like that. I was just concernedā€¦ā€Ā 
ā€œIĀ knowĀ that, you worrywart. I was just kidding.ā€ The lime green eyed teen said lovingly, squishing his brother into a tighter embrace. The older let out a short shriek at the hug but of course didnā€™t mind the other being so clingy.Ā 
If the young scientist really and trulyĀ didĀ mind? Leo wouldā€™ve been pushed to the floor by now.Ā 
The two twins shared a comfortable silenceā€¦wellā€¦aĀ semi-comfortableĀ silence.
The purple banded teen feltā€¦off.Ā His younger brother had thisā€¦lookĀ in his eyes; like he wanted to say something but was afraid of what Donnie would say or how Donnie would react.
Which was so damn dumb Donatello didnā€™t even know how to explain it.
ā€œā€¦Thereā€™s something else on your mind.ā€ The taller turtle hummed, his suspicions only rising as the other glanced to the side. ā€œUhmā€¦no there isnā€™t.Ā See?Ā This isĀ whyĀ I call you a worrywart.ā€ Leonardo said, tapping his fingers on his thigh nervously.Ā 
Very convincing Leoā€¦veryĀ convincing.
ā€œDonā€™t evenĀ tryĀ lying to me, Leon. My older brotherĀ andĀ twin senses are tingling. You canā€™t argue against that kind of logic.ā€ The scientist said matter-of-factly.Ā 
ā€œWhat are you,Ā Spiderman?ā€ The younger snorted.Ā 
ā€œWe shall never know.ā€ The older shrugged, a small smile spreading to his face as he saw the other snort softly at his statement, ā€œNow stop deflecting.Ā Spill.ā€Ā 
ā€œā€¦Can youā€¦adjust my elbow bracesā€¦?ā€ The red eared slider muttered.
ā€œā€¦Why canā€™tĀ youĀ do it?ā€ The other questioned. Not in a malicious way; he was just genuinely curious.Ā 
ā€œI like it when you do it. You make it more firm, y'know?ā€ The blue banded turtle whined dramatically, ā€œPleeeeeease?ā€
ā€œUgh, Jesusā€”Ā fine.Ā But drop the poutā€¦you look ridiculous.ā€ The taller mutant sighed, lightly grabbing his brotherā€™s arm as he readjusted the braces.Ā 
The purple banded turtle meticulously took off the otherā€™s left arm brace, tracing his twinā€™s elbow to make sure it was healing correctlyā€” which the slider couldnā€™t help but wriggle slightly to.
As the older twin put the brace back on, he looked at the other turtle in complete worry, ā€œā€¦Why are you squirming around so much?ā€ Donatello asked in confusion.Ā 
ā€œā€¦No reason.ā€ Leonardo stated, but let out a tiny squeak as Donnie lightly pinched his forearm.Ā 
ā€œYohou okayā€¦?ā€ The glasses wielding mutant giggled.Ā  Ā 
ā€œI-Iā€™m fihine!ā€ The smaller turtle insisted, covering his mouth as he let out a loud shriek in result to his brother now lightly scribbling his forearm. ā€œEEEEE!Ā P-Plehease moohoove yohour hahahand!!ā€ The younger sputtered out, hiding his face in the crook of the scientistā€™s neck which the older turtle couldnā€™t help but let his heart melt to.
ā€œOh.ā€ Donatello hummed, biting back an amused laugh, ā€œSorry. Sometimes I forget how ticklish you areā€¦ā€
ā€œSnrtĀ I-Ihihiā€™mĀ nahatĀ ticklish. I juhust donā€™t wahant your hand thehereā€¦ā€Ā 
And isnā€™t thatĀ quaint.Ā 
If Donnie had a penny for every time Leo said heĀ 'wasnā€™t ticklish',Ā the softshell would be richer thanĀ Elon Musk.
ā€œā€¦Right.Ā Soā€¦you wouldnā€™t mind me doingĀ thisĀ then?ā€ The young genius mused as he scribbled one hand over his twinā€™s ribs. ā€œEEEEHEH!Ā Duhuhude noHOH!!Ā F-Fuhuck yohou!ā€ The younger twin managed through his small giggles, pushing on his brotherā€™s plastron to try and escape while he still could.
The elder laughed fondly at his little brotherā€™s futile actions, hugging him closer as he lightly tickled him, ā€œNahardo! My brohohother in Christ gehetĀ back hereĀ or youā€™re gohoing to fahall off of the bed!
ā€œN-NOHO!! LEHET ME GO!ā€ The lime green eyed teen screeched loudly, kicking his legs and pushing even harder on the otherā€™s plastron, his eyeā€™s widening in panic as his older brother casually lifted him up and pinned his arms above his head, his plastron now facing up on the bed.
Eugh boyā€¦
Donnie grinned, sitting on the otherā€™s thighs as he wiggled his unoccupied fingers in the air near the sliderā€™s side, ā€œThatā€™s better~!ā€
ā€œWAHAIT WAHAHAITĀ snrtĀ PLEHEASE DEEHEE!!ā€ The red eared slider cried, kicking his legs from underneath the scientist.
If he was going to go downā€¦he would atĀ leastĀ go down fighting.Ā 
ā€œI havenā€™t evenĀ touchedĀ you yet, you goofā€¦ā€ The older twin chuckled.Ā 
ā€œB-BUHUT YOHOUR GOHOHONNA!ā€Ā 
ā€œ'Gonna'Ā what,Ā exactly?ā€
ā€œTihiHICKLE ME!!ā€Ā 
ā€œTickle you?Ā Well, why didnā€™t you justĀ sayĀ soĀ in the first place?ā€ Donatello snickered, using his free hand to skitter his fingers along the crookā€™s of the youngerā€™s neck.Ā 
The blue banded turtle squealed, shaking his head back in forth whilst scrunching his shoulders, ā€œGAHahaā€”Ā snrtĀ EEEEHEEHEHĀ oho cohomeĀ snrtĀ OHAHAN!!ā€Ā 
ā€œWhatā€™s wrong, Leo? I thought you said youĀ werenā€™t ticklish~?ā€ The older teased.
ā€œSnrtĀ STHDHAHAH! ShuhutĀ UP!Ā IHIā€™M naHAT!ā€ The younger shouted, tugging and pulling his arms to try and get his handā€™s free from the otherā€™s grasp. Donnie just laughed softly at the action, wiggling his fingers above his little brotherā€™s stomach.Ā 
The lime green eyed teenā€™s eyes widened in panic, thrashing in the hold to try and loosen his brotherā€™s grip but the purple banded turtle did not budge even aĀ smidge.Ā 
Leoā€™s laughs became more giddy and loud as he continued to squirm, small squeals and snorts escaping his beak as his twin brotherā€™s hand wentĀ sloooooowlyĀ to his stomach.Ā 
ā€œN-NOHO NONONONO DAHAā€”Ā snrtĀ DOHON!!ā€ The smaller turtle snorted, hiding his face in the side of his arm which Donnie couldnā€™t help but giggle to.Ā 
The light golden eyed mutant rested his hand on the sliderā€™s plastron, making the younger turtleā€™s laugh raise almost a thousand octaves.Ā 
ā€œDOHONā€™TĀ snrtĀ DOHONā€™T DOHOHONā€™TĀ snrtĀ YOU DARE!! YOHOUR SOHOĀ MEEHEEHEEAN!!ā€ Leonardo whined, hiding deeper into his arm and becoming a giggly flustered mess.
The older twin shook his head fondly at his little brotherā€™s embarrassed state, taking the opportunity to tickle the youngerā€™s stomach while he wasnā€™t looking.Ā 
Leo let out a loud scream, descending into high-pitched cackles as evenĀ louderĀ snorts followed, ā€œHAHAHAHELP!! IHIā€™MĀ SNRTĀ BEEHEEING SLAHAHAUTERED!!ā€Ā 
ā€œIā€™m quite literally only usingĀ one hand,Ā Nardo. Stop being dramatic.ā€ The light golden eyed teen mused whilst watching his brother snort and squirm, ā€œAnd here I thoughtĀ IĀ was the dancer of the family. Look at you! Youā€™re making up a wholeĀ dance routineĀ right now!ā€ He said as he let go of Leo, crossing his arms in amusement.Ā 
ā€œS-ShuhuhutĀ snrtĀ upā€¦ā€ The younger twin wheezed out, hugging his middles as he playfully glared at his purple loving brother.Ā 
Then, a lightbulb went on in the scientistā€™s brain, a smug smile spreading to his face, ā€œHmā€¦you know, Leeā€”ā€
ā€œDohont callĀ snrtĀ me thahat!ā€ Leo giggly interupted.Ā 
ā€œUh-huh.Ā Well, Leeā€¦did you know that the underarms are one of theĀ warmestĀ places on the human body?ā€ The scientist said.Ā 
The lime green eyed mutant cocked his head to the side in confusion, ā€œSoho?ā€Ā 
ā€œSooooĀ my hands are cold.Ā VeryĀ cold, in fact. Iā€™d be forever in your debt if you couldā€”ā€
ā€œNO! NONOHO WAHAY INĀ HEHELL!Ā G-GOHOĀ AWAHAHAY!ā€ Leo squealed, reaching for his brotherā€™s wrists as the elder tried to tickle his neck once again.
Sighā€¦Leonardo made this too damnĀ easyĀ sometimes.
The glasses wielding teen wasnā€™t just going to miss thisĀ oh-so-definetly-not-plannedĀ opportunity! The softshell scribbled his fingers along the sliderā€™s underarms, making the younger let out a loud squawk as he shot his arms down.Ā 
ā€œNAHAH AHAHAHAā€”Ā snrtĀ GEHET THEHE HEHELL OHAHAā€”Ā snrtĀ OHOHOUT!!ā€ Leonardo cried while banging his heels on the bed.Ā 
ā€œWhat~?ā€ Donnie hummed inocently.Ā 
ā€œGEHEHET AHAā€”Ā snrtĀ GEHET. OHOUT. OHOF THEHEHERE!ā€
ā€œAweā€¦why~?ā€
ā€œBEEHEECAUSE IHITā€™S SOHO BAHAHAD!!!ā€Ā 
ā€œAnd?ā€ Donnie chuckled, ā€œThat sounds like aĀ youĀ problem, little brother.ā€Ā 
ā€œAHHHAHAā€”Ā snrtĀ GAHAHADĀ FUHUCK YOHOU!!!ā€
ā€œPardonā€¦what was that?ā€ Donnie questioned as he pinched where Leoā€™s hip met his thigh. ā€œN-NONOā€”Ā snrt NAHAHAH!!Ā I CANā€™Tā€”Ā snrtĀ PLEHEHEASE Iā€™MĀ snrtĀ SORRY!! I-IHI TAHAHAKE IHIT BAHAHCK!!ā€Ā 
ā€œNahā€¦I think Iā€™ll just stayĀ riiiiightĀ here for a bitā€¦ā€ The taller turtle smiled, using both of his hands now to tickle Leo into a laughing and snorting blob.
The younger weakly hit his big brotherā€™s arms, throwing his head back as he squeezed his eyes completely shut.Ā 
ā€œā€¦And you know what, Lee~?ā€Ā 
ā€œWHAHAHATĀ NOW?!ā€Ā 
ā€œIā€™m feelingā€¦kind ofĀ famished.ā€ The elder mused, his smile almost looking like the signature Jokerā€™s as he saw his younger brotherā€™s face pale.Ā 
Leonardo scrambled to sit up, fighting with his brotherā€™s arms as he giggly protested, ā€œPLAHAā€”Ā snrt PLAHAHEASE!Ā PLEHEASEĀ snrtĀ D-DOHONā€™T!!ā€Ā 
Donnie pinched his brotherā€™s thighs unforgivingly, ā€œYou should have thought about that before yapping suchĀ illĀ nonsenseĀ about yourself.ā€
ā€œWHAHAā€”Ā snrtĀ WHAHAHAā€”Ā snrtĀ WHAHAT DIHIDĀ snrtĀ IHIHIĀ snrtĀ EVEN SAHAHAY?!ā€ The lime green eyed turtle cackled, flapping his hands on the mattress.Ā 
It took literallyĀ everythingĀ in the older twin not to coo his baby brotherā€™s adorable actions; instead, he lightly moved Leoā€™s hands away, smiling evily as he lowered his head to the otherā€™s plastron, ā€œYou donā€™t even know. Guess youĀ reallyĀ want this, huh~?ā€Ā 
The blue banded teen kicked his knees into his brotherā€™s shoulders and shell, throwing his head back in complete hysterics whilst waiting for him complete and utter demise.Ā 
The softshell wasted no time blowingĀ raspberriesĀ afterĀ raspberriesĀ in the middle of his youngerā€™s stomach, making sure to move the otherā€™s hands away any time he tried to push at the young geniusā€™ head.Ā 
Donnie didnā€™t feel like getting brain damage after all.
Plus, he had his signature glasses į“…į“É“į“€į“›į“‡ŹŸŹŸį“ į“›į“ on! And those wereĀ trademarkedā€¦as you canĀ wonderfullyĀ see.Ā 
ā€œGodā€¦can youĀ getĀ more ticklish?ā€ Donatello giggled, squeezing and squishing the red eared sliderā€™s knees with one hand and scribbling his sides with the other whilst contuinung to raspberry Leoā€™s stomach.Ā 
ā€œDEEHEE DEEHEEHEEĀ SNRTĀ PLEHEHEASE!!!Ā IHIĀ SNRTĀ DAHAHAHā€”Ā SNRTĀ DAHAā€”Ā SNRTĀ DAHUNNO!!ā€ The smaller turtle screamed, happy stimming with his arms on the taller twinā€™s shoulder.
Donnie couldnā€™t help but chuckle, deciding to show his twin aĀ tad bitĀ of mercy as he nibbled his stomach lightly.Ā 
The slider let out bloody murder from his beak, happy tears threatening to fall from his eyes as his bubbly cackles and snorts bounced off the walls of his room.
ā€œJeezā€¦I think Peppa Pig has some competition, huh~?ā€ The light golden eyed mutant snickered.
ā€œPLEHEHEASE!!Ā TEHEHELLOĀ SNRTĀ IHIā€™M GOHā€”Ā SNRTĀ GOHOHAā€” AHAHAĀ SNRTĀ MYHYHYĀ SNRTGAHAHAHAD!!!ā€ The smaller teen pleaded.
ā€œDo you promise to stop putting yourself in between danger and your family?ā€ The older hummed.Ā 
ā€œYEHEHES!!ā€ The younger cried loudly.
ā€œDo you promise to go easier on yourself?ā€Ā 
ā€œYAHAā€”Ā SNRTĀ YAHAā€”Ā SNRTĀ YEHEHES!!!ā€
ā€œDo you promise to accept your doing an amazing job as leader and we all love youā€”ā€
ā€œMYĀ SNRTĀ FUHUHUCKINGĀ SNRTĀ GAHAHAD!!!Ā IHIHIĀ SNRTĀ GEHET IT!!ā€ Leonardo shouted, his blush now completley blending into the red stripes on his face.Ā 
The softshell turtle got off of the other, sitting next to his little brother as his little brother in question hugged his middles and giggled tiredly.Ā 
ā€œY-Yohou could ohof juhuhust sahaid ahall of thahatĀ wihihithoutĀ tickling meeheeeā€¦ā€ The younger grumbled despite the evident smile on his face.
ā€œAnd whereā€™s the fun in that?ā€ Donnie smiled back, his expression softening as Leo got up and leaned against him softly. The older wraped an arm around the youngerā€™s shoulder, pulling him closer into a warm, protective gesture.Ā 
ā€œAhand would yohohou look ahat that! Ihi got yohour emo bahad boy ahahass toĀ smileĀ todahay. Your eheeven hugging me~!ā€ The blue banded leader spoke softly, his voice filled with affection as he poked his twinā€™s forehead cheekily.Ā 
ā€œYou tellĀ anyoneĀ that and I willĀ not hesitateĀ to deny that extremely untrue statement.ā€ The scientist huffed, rolling his eyes fondly as his smile spread.
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#Rottmnt tickle#Rottmnt tickle fic#Lee!Leo#Ler!Donnie#WHOOOOOO BOYYYYYYā€¦#Iā€™m sorry but Iā€™m not sorry šŸ«¶šŸ¾#Angst is like my second child šŸ‘¶šŸ¾šŸ’˜šŸ’žšŸ’šŸ’–šŸ’—#But I feel like I need to explain some stuff bc this fandom is probably holding me at gunpoint rn šŸ˜…šŸ”«#The reason why I feel like Leo and Raph had so many disagreements when Leon became leader is bc Leo canā€™t handle yelling#LIKE AT ALLā€” he just sees it as whomever is yelling means their mad#So if Raphie boy was like: ā€œI CARE ABOUT YOU AND LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH YOU DUMB ASS BITCH WHY CANā€™T YOU JUST BE CAREFULā‰ļøā€#Leo would hear it as: ā€œI HATE YOU SO MUCH RN WHY CANā€™T YOU DO ANYTHING RIGHTā‰ļøā€#This fandom has been sleeping on AuDHD Leo for Y E A R S and I shall not be silent anymore its SOOOOOOO OBVIOUS šŸ˜­ā€¼ļø#I could not remember the word ā€œhypocriticalā€ for the LIFE of meā€¦when I searched it up I probs wrote ā€œhippopotamusā€#Leon is trying PLEAAAASE catch him a break šŸ™šŸ¾šŸ™šŸ¾šŸ™šŸ¾#Older twin Donnie is canon idgaf I was in the writers room TRUST šŸ‘šŸ¾šŸ’—šŸ’žšŸ’šŸ’•#Big bro senses šŸ¤šŸ¾ Twin senses#Donnie is fucking UNSTOPPABLE šŸ¤ŒšŸ¾ā€¦bud does need to learn how to control is volume when upset tho eheheheh#He genuinely doesnā€™t know when heā€™s gradually getting louder or more upsetā€¦thatā€™s why he was so panicked when Leo had his lil meltdown LOL#Raphie just expresses his worry with yellingā€¦ex: ā€œAND NOT EAT POSIONā€¼ļøā€¼ļøā€¼ļøā€#Oh yeah this takes place a couple months after the Invasionā€¦so everyone is like healed and everything but yk theyā€™re still traumatized obvs#šŸ˜ŒšŸ‘šŸ¾#Leoā€™s lil tactic on dropping convoā€™s is a HC I have so donā€™t quote me on it šŸ™ŒšŸ¾#GDGDGSHSN I ALSO NEED PPL TO DRAW DON WEARING HIS GLASSES MORE OFTEN HEā€™S SUCH A CUTIE PATOOTIE šŸ’šŸ’˜šŸ’•šŸ’—šŸ’–šŸ’žšŸ’“šŸ©·#But tysm Nonnie!!! This was a TON of fun to write!#Make sure your taking care of yourself and drinking waterā€” or at least get a snack šŸ„°#But after the mission Raph was SEETHINGā€¦and usually Don tries to talk to Leon instead cuz like he doesnā€™t want either party being upset#Nor does he want either of them to feel overwhelmed. So when Leo was like ā€œUr doing this to me again?!ā€ Hes referring to all the times Don#<- has done that#Leo doesnā€™t like feeling pitied but itā€™s not Donā€™s intention to make him feel that way he just loves him family
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carnivalsong Ā· 3 months
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i think iā€™ve been possessed or something because yesterday i was struck with the inexplicable urge to draw art for a fic i wrote 3 years ago. so thereā€™s an insight into how iā€™m doing right now
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sealovinq Ā· 3 days
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drew some of my girls today :]
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fluxweeed Ā· 4 months
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hey. hope this message doesn't bother you. I love you. I love your work. you are one of my favorite fic authors, I am absolutely obsessed with everything you write. reread everything ten times over, drarry or not, fluffy or angsty - even when it absolutely shatters my heart (e.g. for lack of wanting, SUCH a great fic btw i'm so obsessed with it). the four doors? life changing. two to lie and one to listen? engraved into my brain for eternity. what's mine is yours? what a ride holy shit, im VERY normal about it. wrapped? my comfort read. and so it goes.
if I could aggressively smother you with kudos and love I WOULD!!!
awhile ago you said that there's no such thing as "big deals" in fandom and I 100% agree but at the same time you are a big deal TO ME!!! not in the sense of any kind of hierarchy but purely based on the fact that I think you are such a cool person and your writing is amazing and poignant and your presence in fandom makes it so much better. it's been a pleasure following you here on tumblr and just reading your tags and posts.
idk I just think you rule. that's it. thank you for hanging with us. MWAH šŸ’›
ahhhh anon sorry for leaving this message sitting in my inbox for a couple of days but !! i have zero idea how to react to this!! you're so kind!! thank you!! please discard any and all inclinations u have that i am a cool person bc i can assure you i am NOT!!
#tumblr tag essay time? tumblr tag essay time#why can't i do this in the main body of a post u ask? pure obnoxiousness ig idk#scarier when it's not greyed out and in a little whisper innit#1) anon i love and appreciate you + your kind words so so much but i rly cannot stress enough that literally nobody here is a big deal šŸ˜­#like i know u don't mean it in That Way but even so!!!#this is a hill i could write another 1k words about before i die on it again but i will spare u šŸ˜…#2) ur also v v kind to say the thing abt my presence in fandom#but unfortunately i'm coming to terms with the fact that my presence in fandom is v much on the sidelines#a non-presence#i'm embracing my role as the crotchety old hag who does not attend the functions#i have a hut in the woods and u can find me there (here in tumblr tags) muttering to myself#occasionally i'll wander into the town square (ao3) and present an unnerving thing i made from mud and twigs (a fic) and then i'll fuck off#that's about all i can handle in terms of group settings i think šŸ˜…#but the door to my hut (my DMs) is always open if u want to stop by!#3) i can't even begin to acknowledge all the nice things u said about my fics kjhsdf you are truly too generous šŸ˜­#let me smother YOU with love!!! cmere!!!#4) this is the second nice anon message i've had in the last couple weeks which is !!!!#anon(s) i'm kissing you wherever u consent to be kissed!!!#but ofc now i'm paranoid ppl will think i'm sending these to myself skdljf#can't stress enough how open my DMs are on here/twt/discord if ever u wanna chat in a way that i don't have to post publicly to reply to šŸ˜…#5) i'm soooo sorry about these tags#could have just said ā€œthanks!ā€ couldn't i#please put me right in the bin#anyway sorry again thank you again ilu very much ā¤ļø
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cerealmonster15 Ā· 3 months
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the block button isnt enough i need to set things on FIRE
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padfootastic Ā· 2 years
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Ahaha thank you for the nice comments in tags <3 i love Remus but he seems bit like a spineless people pleaser and after dating somebody who would rather lie about their feelings than have people be mildly upset with them..... I chose violence šŸ—”
no but ur so right because!!! iā€™ve been sleeping on this for a while but letā€™s talk about remusā€™ personality traits and how they have the potential to make him a bad/absent partner, at best, and an abusive one, at worst. everyone wants to turn him into this image of perfection just bc heā€™s such an ā€˜uwu victimā€™ figure in fanon but thatā€™s SO far from the truth omg
(i amā€¦just gonna put this remus character analysis under a cut bc it got unnecessarily long and i wouldnā€™t want u to read it if u didnā€™t want to lol)
so, for one, heā€™s manipulative. he has no combinations in twisting the truth or dodging it entirely for his own benefit. like, the man could stand in front of his dead best friendā€™s orphaned son & not even allude to the fact that he knew his dad. he had no problem bringing james & lily up in the most twisted ways possible to guilt/emotionally influence harry. so remus in a relationship would have the capacity to either knowingly or unknowingly manipulate his partner. the definition of gaslight, gatekeep, girlboss except more sinister.
next, his spinelessness. either as a defensive measure to deal w anti-werewolf hostility or as an innate personality trait, remus has the habit of justā€”not standing up for things. he looks away when his friends act like assholes, even when heā€™s in a position of authority (which yes, u can argue that heā€™s afraid of losing them but atp theyā€™ve literally risked life & magic & azkaban for him so either way, he comes off badlyā€”either he doesnā€™t mind himself, or he doesnā€™t fully trust their friendship, or itā€™s just easier to look away). in a relationship, this can manifest as bottling everything inside u until it makes u bitter or u violently unload on the other person in an entirely disproportionate manner. the dynamic would also be a bit skewed. the people pleasing u mentioned is also such a big thing that people usually overlook. when ur constantly trying to make the other person happy and donā€™t want to rock the boat, that is a cocktail for miscommunication and breakdown of relationships. ur also constantly putting the emotional burden of constructively dealing w issues on ur partner instead of doing it urself.
connected to his cowardice is his habit of running away when things get tough. remus is conflict avoidant; he does not like to put himself in a position where he has to take a decisive stance, especially if itā€™s against what others around him believe in. he runs away when things get tough, and tbh, for me, this comes from a constant spiral of self hatred & self victimisation, both of which stem from his experience as a werewolf. in every difficult situation, he centres himself & his discomfort and instead of dealing with it and moving forward for a constructive solution, he decides that stepping back from it altogether is better. which, yeah, works well for him bc he can temporarily put a pin in it but itā€™s kinda terrible for everyoneā€™s whoā€™s left behind. so i also think that remus is a profoundly selfish character who doesnā€™t look beyond the end of his own nose. u can imagine how those traits might manifest themselves in a relationship.
and his people pleasing!! so this might be verging on fanon but his gratitude and/or devotion to dumbledore sets anā€¦interesting tone. itā€™s also another example of how he cannot conceive himself in any other term except as a victimised werewolf. the marauders did a lot for him, arguably even more than dumbledoreā€™s token representation formula, but he never felt indebted to them the way he did for D. dumbledore also kind of makes him feel needed? validates his feelings? and that just speaks to a very twisted sense of self for me. which, again, wonā€™t bode well for his other interpersonal relations.
also, on a very hc note, i also feel like remus justā€¦does not have any significant capacity to love. he takes and takes and takes but doesnā€™t give much in return. this doesnā€™t even have to be an actively malicious decision, tbh, just a very self-centred one. he doesnā€™t realise how much heā€™s taking bc heā€™s only thinking about his own circumstances.
all of these are also just why i canā€™t see r/s working out in any healthy manner. remus is exactly antithetical to everything sirius is/believes in, and not even in the fun ā€˜opposites attractā€™ way. but thatā€™s another rant no one asked for lmao
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analyzingadventure Ā· 1 year
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You know I actually never realized this before-- so you remember how tri. retconned Original Chosen fighting and defeating Apocalymon into them fighting the Dark Masters instead? (To be fair it is possible they could've ALSO fought Apocalymon afterwards but that isn't the Epic Final Showdown tri. decided to depict so it's borderline a retcon)
If the Original 5 Chosen fought and defeated the Dark Masters once in the distant past, doesn't that mean that
A) They survived and hid for just a few thousand years until they came back for a Round 2 at conquering the world
B) They died, were reborn, and THEN went for the Round 2
You know I've just DYING with curiosity, desperately wanting to know if any of the villians in Adventure would ever be reborn after Adventure, right. Because according to the lore they should, right (unless their data was like somehow absorbed by Apocalymon and destroyed along with him (though that would still leave Piemon as an exception (and Vamdemon but we all know what happened to him) and the sole survivor))
And what tri. has essentially done is confirm that most of them should, in fact, be reborn sooner or later
But that just raises the question of if Apocalymon was lowkey driving the Dark Masters nuts (as suggested by the novels), and if tri. was kind of about destroying the last remnants of Apocalymon's data (within Meicoomon), if they were reborn this time would they be free of Apocalymon's influence
If so, would their third (?) lives then turn out different? Would they still try to take over the world all over again for funsies (this time just without Apocalymon giving them power etc), or were they just the same as Ken was in Zero Two? I mean Apocalymon was supposed to be a spawn of Milleniummon and Ken was infected with Mille's malice directly, so while it may have been a bit filtered it was still the same source of malice and corruption, right
And like regardless of how their next lives would turn out, shouldn't the kids (OR AT THE VERY FUCKING LEAST GENNAI) like realize that this is going to happen eventually and like. Go and see if they can find them (either as their pre-Ultimate forms or even when they're still in their Eggs) and try to figure out what to do BEFORE shit hits the fan
I JUST
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#Sorry I'm rewatching the second half of Adventure while working (it improves my focus actually) and#Oh the brainworms are real#Text post#I'm sorry I'm just thinking about Pinocchimon. My sweet poor murder child just needed friends šŸ˜­#But even if he was reborn without the craving for blood- who would be friends with him. After all he did in his past life#Who would want to be friends with him. Who would forgive him#IS HE GONNA BE DOOMED TO BE ALONE FOREVER. I'M šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­#Meanwhile for all we know Piemon is still stuck in that other dimension 10 years later lmao#Depending on if tri.'s reboot ever affected him at all or not because god fucking knows we'll never find out#(Or if he even COULD be affected by the reboot to begin with. God knows Wizarmon seemed to be fucking IMMUNE to it)#(Even though it was supposed to reset EVERYBODY)#But also that could have horrifying implications too if Piemon was just left to cook overnight with a part of Apocalymon#Like Apocalymon is just a collection of grudge and hate from Digimon who've gone extinct right#What's stopping that part of Apocalymon from just restarting the collection of hatred and grudge all over again#This time using Piemon as a vessel to just contain it#Like Apocalymon came from beyond the Wall of Fire to begin with so it's not like dimensional barriers should stop him either#I mean the good news is that there probably haven't been that many Digimon species that've gone extinct after Adventure#But still kids. Y'all might have a timebomb on your hands#Edited to remove some of excessive cursing lmao. I was feeling very intense when writing this sorry lmao
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How do you think Charles wouldā€™ve gotten on with Henry, Trapper, and Frank?
i love charles ( even though i never talk about him on here , he will be talked about extensively when i get past the frank episodes of my rewatch TRUST ) so HERE WE GO
ā€” like most everyone else , charles has little patience with frank . while i have the tendency to doubt heā€™d be as blatantly insulting to frank as hawkeye and trapper are , he certainly has his fill of backhanded and passive aggressive remarks towards him ( most of which go over frankā€™s head ) . objectively funnier is that when charles initially shows up , frank thinks that he finally has an ally against hawktrap . this isnā€™t true . one can catch him vehemently trying not to laugh at the stupid pranks that hawkeye and trapper pull on him , even though he knows that if they ever did see him laughing at the outcomes of said pranks that hawkeye and trapper would never let him hear the end of it . however , despite charlesā€™ obvious distaste for frank , frank never really catches on . heā€™s always like , ok see you around buddy ! he definitely wants to be the other version of hawkeye/trapper with charles so heā€™s always like ,, following charles around and trying to get his approval šŸ˜­ it drives charles absolutely insane .
ā€” a lot of people on here say that charles and trapper would absolutely hate each other and i just donā€™t think thatā€™s completely true . yes , charles would loathe the information that he hails from the same place as trapper , considering that trapper is even worse than hawkeye when it comes to childish antics . i think , at least in trapperā€™s mind , that charles would fall into the category of the frank burns variety . so there isnā€™t a lot of love lost between them , at least initially . but hereā€™s the thing . i do sincerely believe theyā€™d have this begrudging admiration for one another . because as stubborn as both charles and trapper are , as much as they donā€™t really care for people with personalities as different as theirs , they know damn talented surgeons when they see them . they put their differences aside in that aspect . also , one time , when trapper is really drunk and he , hawkeye , and charles are hanging out in the swamp , he mentions this place in boston while reminiscing and charles is sort of surprised because he doesnā€™t imagine someone like trapper going to one of his old hangouts , and heā€™s like ā€œ youā€™re familiar with [ insert place here ] ? ā€œ and trapper says something along the lines of what doctor in boston isnā€™t familiar with insert place here . and then charles asks him about a different place and hawkeye is watching , for once sort of speechless because pigs are flying , trapper and charles are having a conversation and laughing and if there are insults being thrown around theyā€™re taking them jokingly . nothing after that night changes dramatically , trapper is still trapper and charles is still charles . itā€™s not like they become best friends or anything , but thereā€™s a new sort of understanding between them . theyā€™re a step above acquaintances . friends in the very , very loose definition of the word .
ā€” first of all i think charles and henry onscreen together would have been fucking hilarious . all i can imagine is the camera cutting to charles rolling his eyes whenever henry makes one of his jokes LMFOA . but i also donā€™t think charlesā€™ habit of snarky , posh remarks would fly with henry at all . we already see him get annoyed with frank and margaret and , albeit more rarely , he even gets snappy with hawkeye and trapper when theyā€™re being smartasses . so i donā€™t think henry would take too kindly to charlesā€™ remarks and let them slide as often as potter does . but you know ? in a way , i think charles would more or less have to respect that he holds his ground with not only him , but hawktrap and frank and margaret too . but i donā€™t think henry would hate charles , either . i can imagine them sitting next to one another in the dining hall and henry laughing when charles rebuts some insult hawkeye/trapper makes towards him and charles letting a small smile slip upon making henry cackle . i can imagine charles walking into henryā€™s office while henryā€™s hanging up new drawings from his kids and henry grinning while charles examines them and calls them ā€˜ remarkable ā€˜ . i can imagine henry stopping by the swamp looking for hawktrap and at least trying to like the records charles has on . see , henry had this habit of at least trying to understand people , like them or not and i think that it would be no different for charles . lastly i think hen is a lot the same way with charles that he is with hawkeye in the sense that he talks to him . whenever hawkeye is upset about something , henry goes out of his way to try and figure out whatā€™s going on and tell him maybe not what he wants to hear but what he needs to hear . and i definitely think he would do the same thing with charles . iā€™m really sad that we never got to see them onscreen together because i feel like they definitely would have been quite the duo šŸ˜­
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anoddopal Ā· 7 months
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9 and 10 for the s/i ask game! (asking for both the regular timeline and the au timeline! šŸ‘€) -gideongrovel
[Link to ask game!!]
Main Timeline
9. Who are your self insertā€™s closest friends?
Bunā€™s very closest friends are Ni.co Robin, Tony Tony Cho.pper, and her āœØ~flashy~āœØ bestie, Bu.ggy the Clown!
The friendship bewteen Silva and Robin has been explained in more depth HERE; but as a whole, they are cut from a very similar cloth. Just your average duo of morbidly curious history buffs who in time- found their respective reasons to live. ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹
Ch.opper is Bun's preferred doctor. He took care of her when she briefly traveled with the St.raw Hats. Bun was rather unwell after the Ala.basta incident, and her pets communicated to the reindeer that she needed help. As a result she adores the little guy [+bonus points in his favor that he's an animal]! They both look up to each other; Bun admires his dedication to his craft, and respects the fact that he is a talented medical professional, despite some of his more childish mannerisms. Ch.opper outright thinks that Silva is cool, if not something of a badass- he always carefully regards the life advice she provides him with. Tony is always happy to translate what Silva's pets say to her! Even a ways off into the future, Bun still goes to him for her significant medical needs; or sometimes Ch.opper makes the trip to her. The little guy may be the only person that Bun earnestly listens to when he scolds her to take better care of herself.
Bu.ggy and Bun were practically instant friends. They initially met when Bu.ggy made a trip to Ala.basta to search for THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE his on-agin-off-again partner, Jinx [@/mothlover69]. Bu.ggy quickly perceived Bun as a secret freak outcast, and Bun couldn't help but think he'd be a fascinating specimen to observe, er, a unique acquaintance to have! In any case, they got along decently well right off of the bat, so much so that Bu.ggy eagerly allowed Bun to live on his ship after she decided she didn't have the heart to keep traveling with the St.raw Hats. Actually, rumor has it that he just shot out his detached hands and scooped her + her pets onto the Big Top sometime before Lu.ffy's crew made it to Jaya!
It would be fair to say that B.uggy is a bad influence on her. It would also be fair to say that sheā€™s as equally of a good influence on him. Heā€™s learned how to be slightly better because of her. For example, the slack he cut for a frightened Transponder Snail at Mar.ineford was due in part to Bunā€™s impact. Most of the time Bun is the responsible one in their friendship, but in the event sheā€™s not at her best, she has a tendency to feed into Bu.ggyā€™s nonsense. This was extremely evident when Bun was in a post-breakup[?] depression after Ala.basta, and Bu.ggy chose to enable all of Bunā€™s bad habits. What, whatā€™s the harm in eating candy and cake for breakfast? Breakfastā€¦ three meals a dayā€¦ HEY, he got her to eat, okay?! Psshh, he was only trying to comfort his friend! Thatā€™s what friends do, right? They cheer each other up? [Bless Jinx for rising up as the responsible adult in this specific situation!]
Bun respects Bu.ggy as her friend, but she also tends to call him out on his bullshit. [Nagging is one of her love languages!] Bu.ggy huffs at this tendency of hers, but deep down he knows that she wouldnā€™t do it if she didnā€™t really care about him. He very much enjoys the attention she gives him in any context. He furthermore appreciates her authenticity even though he doesnā€™t always know what to do with herā€¦ wholesomeness. Whereas Bun appreciates how she can ease up and laugh around him. In the future, Bun protects him from the wrath of her ill-tempered husbands.
Bu.ggy has been desperate to get his best bun to join his crew for a very long time. After she left with Cro.codile after the battle at Mar.ineford, he had a meltdown due the fact she was gone. [Actually he thought she was dead! They got separated during the battle and never regrouped. When Bun eventually came back a few weeks later to collect some of her belongings that were still on the ship, Bu.ggy legitimately thought he was being haunted by her ghost.] Though the two end up working within close proximity when Cross Gu.ild is formed, Bu.ggy still laments she still didnā€™t choose to join up with him. Listen, the guy is a better friend to her than most would think- however, that doesnā€™t mean that he still isnā€™t just a taaaad selfish. šŸ™„
Bu.ggy has since added some more pastels to his flashy wardrobe, while Bun can semi-frequently be seen wearing oddly clownish makeup [Bu.ggy uses her face as a canvas when she allows it].
[This answer really only included dynamics with canon characters but I simply must give shoutouts to @/mothlover69ā€™s Jinx and @/jj-exeā€™s JJ!! They are also Bunā€™s beloved fwiends.]
10. How do the other characters feel about your self insert and f/oā€™s relationship?
Most folks are baffled as to why/how Bun and Cro.codile ended up together. They became even more confused when Mi.hawk also married Bun years down the line. Bun is very small and kind- her husbands seem like too harsh of people for somebody like her. [Little do they realize how ridiculously soft the are for bun-]
But given that the three seem outwardly content with their dynamic, the rest of the world can only assume that Bun is extremely powerful, having wrangled two former Warlords of the Sea and all! And that assumption is not wrong. uwu
Robin is glad for her friend. She saw Bun and Cro.codile together during their early days, and she knows firsthand how inseparable they are. Bu.ggy does NOT care for his business associates/his best bun's husbands. They eat up her TIME and ATTENTION!! >:o( And he also secretly worries that they're mean to her like how they are to him!! However, the flashy fool has nothing to worry about.
Somebody -> šŸ¦© may be not-so-secretly seething with jealousy about the relationship, but the details on that matter are better kept hush-hush.
Forbidden Fruit AU
9. Who are your self insertā€™s closest friends?
Why, Bunā€™s very best friend in this timeline is the good doctor, D.oc Q! Ca.tarina D.evon and Ku.zan are also quite close with her.
D.oc Q is her ride or die. They have that Horse Girl [or uh, Horse Boy in this case?] šŸ¤ Rabbit Girl connection. They are both chronically ill [ofc Doc's health issues are much more dire] and count on their prey animal pets to get by: he has his horse StrongeršŸ“ [mobility aid] and Silva has her lapinšŸ° Stratus [ESA]. Doc has a way of knowing what's amiss with Bun before she even knows herself- he furthermore was able to pick up on some of her health issues that she didn't initially disclose to him. Bun assists him with his work when needed- D.oc Q has the MD degree and Bun has the bedside manner, lol. Though she mostly helps him take proper care of Stonger, which is something he is eternally grateful for.
It was Doc who first started referring to Silva as "lucky", which is a judgement that has stuck, though Bun denies it. Bun will sing with others, but Doc is the only person she will sing to. He insists that her low-toned warbles are soothing, that the sound helps him feel better when he's sick. The often have deep discussions about death and the fragility of life. If D.oc Q's mantra is "memento mori", then Bun-Bun Silva is soon to follow with a gentle "memento vivere".
When Ca.tarina Devon first joined the crew, Bun was ecstatic! Being surrounded by a bunch of men all the time wasā€¦ a bit exhausting, so finally having a woman around was a nice change of pace. Of course, Devon is as rotten as the rest of them, but she found that she couldnā€™t possibly rain on Bunā€™s parade. Turns out itā€™s nice to have a platonic ā€œgal palā€ to share the AFAB experience with. Theyā€™re both LGBT+, they manifest ~queen~ energy together, and Devon continuously tries to teach Bun how to live the: Gaslight. Gatekeep. Girlboss šŸ’… way of life. However, Bun is a bit too kindhearted to really adapt that approach to herself. So Devon has to settle for engaging Bun in juicy gossip- which Bun is juuuuuust petty enough to indulge in. šŸ’–šŸ’œšŸ’…āœØ
Ku.zan and Silva are alike in ways that set them apart from their other crew members. Both have a capacity for compromise and compassion. They are disenchanted with the World Government; they found they could seek their own freedom and fulfill their own needs by aligning themselves with Bla.ckbeard. Out of everyone else theyā€™re the most socially acceptable out of the bunch. Ku.zan had his world turned on his head, which is a feeling of despair that Bun can relate to on a deep level. Sheā€™s always interested to hear what his life was like when he was a Marine, and she always chuckles bitterly when she relates to how his perspective was forced to change. Ku.zan enjoys her ability to match his dry humor- but the ice puns get a little repetitive. Overall they have a seemingly casual, yet actually rather close, friendship!
Oh! And Bun tends to give the latter two unwarranted relationship advice. "You know Devon, maybe you'd have a girlfriend if you didn't keep trying to behead every date you've landed since you've been a free woman! šŸ’€ And Ku.zan! Please tell me you didn't try the 'big bazongas' cold opening on another poor woman again-"
10. How do the other characters feel about your self insert and f/oā€™s relationship?
The rest of the Bla.ckbeard Pirates wholly support Silva and La.ffitte as a couple! Their union was a product of destiny after all- the two were simply meant to be. None of them would ever deny that fact or attempt to get in the way of their relationship. Theyā€™re the crewā€™s resident lovebirds. [It helps that La.ffitte, in a terrifyingly cheerful manner, makes it clear to any potential newcomers he and his beloved wife are strictly exclusiveā€¦ and any person who attempts to challenge that will be dealt with accordingly.]
ā€¦ Though in the beginning, the crew were almost certain Bun would end up with D.oc Q, given how close they are. But it seems fate had other plans in store!
And as for the rest of the world; as for everyone that was close to Bun before she became involved with Te.ach's crew? They're very concerned. The Bun they knew would never associate with a person like that! Something must be wrong. Something must have gone horribly wrong.
... Sir Cr.ocodile is filled with so many regrets...
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natetrx-selfships-n-shit Ā· 6 months
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A cadet? Nah nah, that's weird. I dunno if i can. Oh, oh nevermind...
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(My drawing and anatomy was really testing me here MY GOD.)
So uhhhh this is my cadet, Noisy Natey. And if you don't know already, his power is basically like he can make his voice really loud whenever he wants. Not like yelling loud but LOUD LOUD. Like a megaphone for example.
And if he screams? You're basically screwed to say the least,,,
(Also fun fact, when he uses his LOUD voice, the soundwaves/vibrations cause his hair and bangs to blow out like when you use a blow dryer)
He basically came from this really cold place and honestly? He doesn't even remember how in the world he joined The Aquabats, he forgets easily. And he also plays the Keytar for them!
But other than that, his bf is Ricky Fitness (Ricky!) and him and the 'bats save the world and stuff
He's a super rad dude to say the least!
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bobmckenzie Ā· 1 year
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I FINISHED ALL THE LOUIS EPISODES OF TRGB
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this last episode was SO FREAKING CUTE he was babysitting his nephew and was so caring and adorable and AUGGHGHGHG I MISS HIM ALREADY...
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kimmkitsuragi Ā· 11 months
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look this will be extremely 2016-core of me to say but. 16 year old me would genuinely cry if she saw dan and phil announcing their gaming channel is back with a video featuring jacksepticeye
#i know their gaming channel was still active in 2016 BUT DO U GET MY POINT????#im ngl i do not keep up with these guys anymore the last time i actually try to keep up was when they came out#and then i started to not enjoy their recent videos :( so i stopped#hopefully i have enough cringe living inside of me so that i can still watch their gaming videos :3#once again im ngl even if i dont keep up w these guys anymore they still mean so much to me tbh like.......#it's s hard to explain#above all else; they literally taught me english!!! šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ not even kidding!!!!!#i remember i started watching their videos while i still couldnt really understand english that much sdhfbdfh especially not spoken english#WITH accents mind u#and im 100% serious the moment i realized 'HOLY SHIT i can actually understand spoken english to a good extent rn????'#i was literally watching a dnp video at that exact moment#so yeah dnp literally taught me english. this is only one of the reasons why i care abt them deeply still#let's not get into the more emotional reasons#anyway another thing is sean was THE reason i got into gaming im not even kidding šŸ˜­#i just realized i was so fucking real in middle school. a non-english speaker whose fave youtubers are#3 english-speaking dudes with Hard Accents. hell yeah#i need this exact energy with german rn#anywayyyyy i was also gonna say something else sbhsdbfdbfs im sorry for rambling but#everytime i open up sims 4 my thoughts are always related to dnp gaming channel fr#šŸ—’#sorry to be cringe or whatever btw#dnp
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twistedappletree Ā· 1 year
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Thinking about Jin Ling becoming a sect leader at 15 and crying because no??? heā€™s a baby. He IS baby. heā€™s a baby boy and he needs to be a kid pls someone stop this right now LET HIM BE A KID
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mysticmoondancer Ā· 1 year
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Etharah Week 2023 - Day 4: Free Day
"Life After The Cure"
After the Lucifractor explosion and defeating Stern, Sarah and Ethan decided to give dating another shot. Almost a year later, a cure for vampirism was found and of course, Sarah took it. Now eight years later, their relationship together is still going strong, and they couldn't be anymore happier. Funny how the darkest time of one's life could also bring so much light into it, as well. She may not be immortal anymore, but her love for Ethan always will be, though. For their love knows no end. Whether it be in this life or the next.
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sensitivegoblin Ā· 1 year
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For those that get their period; does orgasming help?
Maybe it's cus of my pcos but I feel like the periods I m*sterbate through are easier than the ones where I don't (pls feel free to add your two cents!)
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#tw: period talk#I've got a meaty thick undercarriage#and I think I'm general my bodies muscles are tight n hard like rocks#so I feel like the act of cmming opens me up and pushes shit out#I get sick sometimes cus it all gets trapped inside of me#and I'm like an extremely heavy bleeder#it's kinda the same feeling as throwing up or di*rrhea#it's gross and unpleasant but also it feels good cus you can feel the bad things leaving you????#i probably sound weird I'm SORRY I don't have a therapist šŸ˜­#yknow the scooper from the FNAF series? I feel like I scoop my insides every time I c-m#aggsdfffff tmi but sorryšŸ˜­#feel free to leave your experiences/advice/opinions etc if you get a period#it's gross but we need to talk to each other kinda like finding out y'all get paid differently before y'all decide on a union#I'm sorry I high and lonely aggssffffff#anyway let's discuss periods cus I never had that safe place in my life#scenario: my partner gives me forced O s to make my cramps feel better and they shush my sobs with my favorite chocolate#i don't feel like a womanšŸ™ƒ#like...I feel so seperate from the concept todsy#God wouldn't give me these feelings pre weed if they didn't mean something#some days gebder is really hard and I want people to see -real name- not my gender :/#like I'm one of those people who'd use my name as pronouns#I'm just a lil fella#the plots of muppets in space has been my entire life#I feel like it'd be eaiser if I was fully trans cus like#that sounds more legit than 'sometimes I feel different genders'#it sounds like I smoked at least I can see my dad thinking that#I wouldn't even make my dad or family use different pronouns or even involve them in that part of my identity#but I feel like by them not knowing it's a big lie and I really hate lying :(#that's what made me come out as gay even tho I was single#I just...I don't like hiding or lying I wanna share the real me
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