Day 21: JOMPBPC: Hello, Winter Summer
It's Summer here in Australia right know, so I took a photo of a few beautiful, summery coloured books! 💕
an emotion of great delight by tahereh mafi - review
Read from: May 19 2022 - May 19 2022
Major TWs: islamophobia, depression, suicidal ideation, death (particularly of a family member (full and detailed list of TWs can be found here)
Thoughts: this definitely was not as good as mafi’s other book that i read, a very large expanse of sea, but i did find myself enjoying some of it. the problem is that there isn’t really a lot to say about this one? i initially gave it a 3.5/5 stars on goodreads but after a few months, i think i’m going to drop it to a 2.5. the prose is beautiful, unsurprisingly, and there are definitely a lot of emotions in this one (mostly sad ones, all of which are described well), but i found the overall story to be a little lacking. it feels almost unfinished? i don’t know. i really wanted to like this one, but it sadly didn’t do it for me.
“I saw the latent danger in the storytelling, the caricature we were becoming, two billion Muslims quickly solidifying into a faceless, terrifying mass. We were being stripped of gradation, of complexity. “The news was turning us into monsters, which made us so much easier to murder.”
An Emotion of Great Delight — Tahereh Mafi
Title: An Emotion of Great Delight
Author: Tahereh Mafi
Series or standalone: standalone
Publication year: 2021
Genres: fiction, contemporary, romance, historical fiction, mental health
Blurb: It's several months since the U.S. officially declared war on Iraq, and the American political world has evolved. Tensions are high, hate crimes are on the rise, FBI agents are infiltrating local mosques, and the Muslim community is harassed and targeted more than ever. Shadi, who wears hijab, keeps her head down; she's too busy drowning in her own troubles to find the time to deal with bigots. Shadi is named for joy, but she's haunted by sorrow. Her brother is dead, her father is dying, her mother is falling apart, and her best friend has mysteriously dropped out of her life. Of course, there's also the small matter of her heart: it's broken. Shadi tries to navigate her crumbling world by soldiering through, saying nothing. She devours her own pain, each day retreating farther and farther inside herself...until, finally, one day, everything changes. She explodes.
saw that ya fantasy rec post, and in your tags you mentioned ya contemporary and mental health... so ya contemporary recs please? 🥺
i got you!
here is a small sample of ya contemporary books that deal with mental health
Darius the Great is Not Okay by Adib Khorram: Darius has never felt like he has belonged in either world - American like his father or Persian like his mother. When a trip to visit his relatives has him confronting cultural stereotypes about mental health, he makes a friendship that will last a lifetime.
Eliza and Her Monsters by Francesca Zappia: Comic creator by night and an anxious student by day, Eliza keeps her lives separate until she learns that the new kid in school shares a similar passion for her comic.
An Emotion of Great Delight by Tahere Mafi: It's 2003 and Shadi's life is in shambles. Her dad is in the hospital, her brother is dead, and her mother is barely holding it together. When an old face reappears, Shadi must decide if she wants to fight these battles alone.
You, Me, and Our Heartstrings by Melissa See: A video showing a girl with cerebral palsy and a boy with anxiety playing music together goes viral. Now facing unrealistic pressure to perform, Daisy is afraid that their lives will fall apart.
White Smoke by Tiffany D. Jackson: Technically, it's horror/thriller, but this has one of my favorite (and accurate) portrayals of anxiety. Something is wrong with Marigold's new house. Forced to move with her family after an incident, she discovers that there is something rotten beneath the perfect neighborhood that could be linked to a disturbing history.
Sick Kids in Love by Hannah Moskowitz: School columnist Isabel considers breaking all of her rules when she meets a fellow disabled teen. But romance isn't always like what's shown in the movies, especially for disabled teens.
Happily Ever Afters by Elise Bryant: An anxious writer, Tessa, reaches for her dreams by enrolling into a prestigious school. As her friends try to help her find inspiration for her writing, there might be a love story just out of reach.
A Quiet Kind of Thunder by Sara Barnard: Selectively mute, Steffi is alone in her last year of school, leaving her social anxiety to spike. Until the new kid arrives, and he needs a translator who knows BSL.
An Emotion of Great Delight
It’s funny - i often think of the descriptor “a slice of life” as something that exists in movies and tv shows but not books. Books have to have far more of a plot than a slice of life can suggest. But here we are.
This book has no plot. This is not a criticism.
It simply... is.
In some ways it makes me question the writer-ish part of my brain that insists all stories must have a plot. That they cannot simply... exist. After all, which is more like life?
Part of it made me get close to the end, and get confused about there being a cliffhanger ending or a second part I wasn’t aware of? Because surely there wasn’t enough time for a problem and a conclusion. But there just... wasn’t one. It simply ended, the suitable time after it had begun. Not all things were resolved. But in life what is?
I dont know? Maybe Ali? As much as i enjoyed the book, i honestly dont know i was attached too deeply to any of the characters to actually have a favourite one by the end?
Probably: “There was no refuge for my brand of loneliness. I was neither Iranian enough to be accepted by Iranians, nor American enough to be accepted by my peers. I was neither religious enough for people at the mosque, nor secular enough for the rest of the world. I lived, always, on the uncertain plane of a hyphen.”
Alternatively: “It seemed a terrible injustice to be exposed in death, to be found out as predictably human, as frail as everyone else.”
Fighting DEMONS rn trying not to get invested in one piece to figure out wtf you're posting about!!!!
come here cyber.... we have this thang
I have fallen down the anime sports hole and landed on Eyeshield 21 and I'm so sorry I'm adopting all these kids.
(I was actually going to like. Hold off posting my silly sports anime doodles until after commissions but no I wanna share them now. It's hard out here being me who thrives off interactions and this show is like "hey what if we gave you lots of interactions and also a secret identity for MORE interactions".)
just reread the tgcf extras. tldr hualian’s married life is just, chilling, hanging out, having great sex. they are so free and comfortable, they spend so much time laughing together. which is exactly what marriage should be tbh (silently wipes away tears)
I really feel the quote;
"I have love in me the likes of which you can scarcely imagine and rage the likes of which you would not believe. If I cannot satisfy one, I will indulge the other." -(1994 Frankenstein)
Works very well when applied to Edward.
You know what else? 2022 was also a really great year for fiction for me
My special interest in The Owl House continued through the whole year because Season 2B/the start of S3 were both phenomenal; I had a resurgence of feelings about the first Critical Role campaign because The Legend of Vox Machina really exceeded my expectations as an adaptation; The Locked Tomb series got me reading again in a BIG way; and now here at the end of the year I am a puddle of emotions about Pentiment and telling everyone I know to play it
All incredibly good stories, that also make me have emotions ABOUT stories, and all sort of interesting/weird/unique in their own way. There's some extremely tasty thematic intersections between them all too which I think is doing a lot for me as a storyteller and writer myself.
(Also they all have actual queer characters and I love that for them.)
Day 4: JOMPBPC: Cover Lust
Such a stunning cover and book!
hate how people have pathologized narcissists into being this extraordinarily harmful type of person. it’s so fucking exhausting. either that’s someone with a personality disorder and you’re being ableist. or you’ve just encountered an incredibly self-absorbed asshole and, look, that’s not a special kinda abuse it’s just the fucking toll of being alive
flexing my "extremely chill and normal and good brain" vibes by spending a completely normal and chill amount of time stressing planning out messages to ensure they demonstrate just how Normal and Good And Chill my brain is.
(spending two days planning a message asking a friend of they want to hang out later this month, with an additional two days of buffer in order to make it not sound like i spent two days planning and agonizing over this message)
(theres no like. secret feelings or internal turmoil or this friend being particularly dangerous this is all just extremely anxious hellbrain spirals that only make sense when im in the throes of "oh?????? distaster??? hatred??? evil????????" and dissipates the MOMENT i like. take a moment to actually think about the potential responses and not my pre-empting every natural disaster known to man)
(like its very. "im drowning!!!! in a kiddie pool. because im holding my head underwater. if only something could be done about this.")
(tbh the funniest part about this is that she knows me well enough that if i send her a three paragraph message way overexplaining myself she's going to Know i spent multiple days agonizing, and she will 100% not hold it against me or say anything cruel about it but she'll know. and i'll feel bad in the way i do when i implicitly assume people dont actually like me and act accordingly and then later realize how. mean. and dismissive that is of people who really, genuinely do and who act like it and get doubted anyway.)
(anyway so listen. Normal Brain time!! Normal Brain Behaviour!! Normal!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Once I navigate this hell minefield of a brain ill have SUCH a good time hanging out. i know it.)
70k for trans lifeline, we really did it y'all <3
hiiiiii loved LOVED the first chapter of the wedding fic, do you have a timeline for when the next chapter(s?) are coming out 🥰
hi hi hi!! I plan on having it up next weekend!!
I had most of it written when I put up chapter 1 but as it's been Out In The World I've gotten more ideas/better ways to tie up and tie in some of my favorite details of ch 1... It's also a bit of a bigger chapter than I anticipated so my revision process is taking me a tad longer too lol
I'm really happy with how it's shaping up now though. I'm glad I took my time to let the Themes and Motifs (👀) grow on the page and I can't wait to share it with you so so soon!!!
Thank you so much for reading-- and asking this! I appreciate you! 💌 hope you like ch 2