#and Jared is listening to him happily :D

[dank-meme-legend]

study buddies <3

Based on this fic of them in college that I am still very proud of and very in love with

[canonicallysoulmates]

J2′s Virtual Con Panel (March 7th, 2021)

Alright, let’s talk j2! As all of you probably know by now Jared and Jensen had a virtual con panel today (March 7th, 2021); it was the first j2 con panel of the year, and we started on a good note. I will be providing some time stamps, and as always I will be providing a link to the whole panel at the end of this post so y’all can watch it for yourself, I highly recommend doing so, it was a really good panel. 

Okay, let’s jump right into it!

- The panel started late, and the reason I am mentioning that is because I have to comment on how stressful that wait was with the grey screen saying ‘standby!’. I much rather preferred the countdown, it was less stressful 😅 

- Anyways, the panel starts off with some cute banter between the boys, they spend around 6mins just talking to each other, joking about Jensen’s hair, telling stories about each other. Honestly, answering questions was unnecessary because I would have happily seen a full hour of that, of just them talking. 

- Jensen said he missed Jared 🥺

- So...Jared addressed Jensen’s birthday and okay let’s talk about this. After Jensen says he missed Jared and that it’s been so long since they’ve seen each other, Jared fumbles on his way to comment about how he was gonna post for Jensen’s birthday. You can practically see his brain buffer cause I s2g that man was this close to saying he was with Jensen before his brain kicked in, and then he switched lanes to mention taking a trip with G for their anniversary. 

Of course I have an opinion about this, I don’t know if I’ll be able to express it coherently, but I shall try; it is so incredibly convenient he’d mention what has been a big talking point in fandom for the past couple of days. This is such a stupid thing to lie about, and it’s a lie that falls apart in seconds cause if you think about it shit don’t make sense. 

We know that Jared and G were on a trip, but we also know they were in Colorado. Thanks to D’s hairstylist, we know Jensen’s also in Colorado. 

So, I’m expected to believe that these two men who are incredibly close, who in this same panel mention how much they’ve missed each other, that Jared who says he didn’t post on his boy’s birthday (and yes he called Jensen his boy again 🥰) because he got all emotional thinking about how this was gonna be the first birthday in years he wasn’t gonna be by Jensen’s side and be able to give him a hug- I am expected to believe that Jared was in the same state and didn’t even make a pitstop by where Jensen’s at?! That they’d be in the same state and not even meet up?!  Not only that, Jared and G’s anniversary was on the 27th which fell on a Saturday, based on reports we know they took that trip from the 28th to the 1st, if this was an anniversary trip why not make it a weekend thing from Friday to Sunday? Why do it from Sunday to Monday which was a workday? And I’m also expected to believe that they went on an “anniversary trip” and little mrs. social media preferred to post an old ass pic and not post anything at all from said trip, even posting a pic as if she were in Austin on the 1st.  Bitch please, I love you but go to someone else with that tale cause I ain’t buying. 

- Continuing with the panel, the boys start answering questions and I’mma just tell y’all right now a lot of the questions in this panel are kinda shit. This is the first panel of the year, both these men have big projects going on and yet the first question is about parenting. Their answer is pretty much the same thing they always answer, that they can’t do it alone, that most of it is their wives, Jared says he helps with the kids in the morning and then goes to the guest house and leaves Gen to it, if you’ve heard once you’ve heard it a million times. 

- Next question is about dreams, and Jensen makes a joke about mushroom induced dreams that Jared finds so hilarious he has to duck out of frame. I don’t know if y’all have ever seen The Late Show with Stephen Colbert but Stephen’s wife is usually there when he’s filming and that woman laughs at even his stupidest jokes, if you see them interact they are that couple that is so obviously in love years into their marriage, they make each other laugh, and the reason why I am bringing this up in a j2 post is because that is the vibe that moment had! Actually, that’s the vibe a lot of this panel had; that mushroom joke was not that funny yet Jared reacted as if Jensen was the funniest man in the world.  And the j2 doesn’t stop there because when it’s Jared’s time to answer the question the boys say they’re in each other’s dreams. x 

- Jared said he sits in the Impala in his garage 🥺 Jensen said his Impala is safe and covered in a secure location in Austin, which I’m going to interpret as he left it with Jared.

- A fan asked if we would see director!Jensen make an appearance on Walker and Jared revealed he was supposed to! Jensen was slated to direct episode 5 of Walker but due to commitments to The Boys he sadly wasn’t able to but both boys say that it will happen and it’s something they’re looking forward to. So are we boys, so are we ❤

- When talking about how Jensen was supposed to direct episode 5 of Walker, Jensen commented that Jared was looking forward to having someone who knew him so well and could help him creatively on the set. Now, I will for no particular reason remind y’all that G works on the show. 

I love Jensen ☕ 

-  Moving on! Jensen talked about his production company. He said it is currently developing 5 different projects including one that they will be delivering to the network this week and that they have a project he’s excited about with an spn alumn. He said working on these projects and his company is what he’s been spending his time on in Colorado.

- Jensen put on a beanie and y’all are not ready for what happened. Not only did he look cute af, not only did Jared like how Jensen looked and compliment him but he called Jensen babe 😍 Now listen you don’t have to take my word for it, listen to the audio a couple times, form your own opinion about what you hear but I have listened to multiple versions of that clip with headphones multiples times at different volumes...and imo Jared calls Jensen babe, you can try to take that from me over my dead body. x  

- They were talking about a fight outtake they did on the finale in slow motion, and did an example and when I tell y’all those two somehow managed to do an in perfectly in sync slowmo fight virtually! 

- They showed their matching tattoos! 

- Jensen sends Jared shirtless selfies and gives him beard updates. I swear I am not making this up. 

- And in the line of things I swear I am not making up is that Jared grabbed the pic Jensen send him, and edited it to make it seem as if Jensen was singing the clean version of WAP, that is one of the funniest things I’ve ever seen 😂

- Jensen said him and Jared like to watch the early season gag reels 🤗

- At one point Jensen tried to tell one of Jared’s jokes and not even three words in this man was already in tears laughing so hard, he says it’s something that makes him laugh every time he thinks about it, he could barely get through the joke and to be fair it is hilarious; the joke goes: Did you hear there was an explosion at a cheese factory in France? The brie was everywhere. That cracked me tf up and it left them in tears 😂

- Jensen called Jared a freaking ox 😂

- Jensen says that if the roles were reversed and Sam had died, Dean would have wasted away at the back of a pool hall 😭

- The panel ends with j2 saying I love you to each other 😭❤

It was a really good panel, I had missed these men so so so so much, they have brightened my spirits and I’ve been in a good mood since I watched it, they just make me so happy 🥰. If you haven’t seen it yet I highly recommend doing so, the boys were looking cute, it was funny, they kept making each other laugh and there was even heart eyes! Jared kept getting the cutest little smile when Jensen was speaking, it was adorable! 

J2 Virtual Panel 

[boneles-ss]

*!!!!!!SPOILERS FOR JUST ABOUT EVERYTHING!!!!!!*

Things about the Magnus archives (mostly season 5) and it’s fandom that make my lungs collapse with the sheer amount of serotonin that floods my entire body when I see them

The fact that no matter what you do or how good of an artist you are Jared Hopworth will always look like a blobfish

Anytime Jon has an ace ring I literally combust

“ACAB” vs “I am gay” werewolf wife (also please I need more basira art please I need it please she is beautiful plea—)

Breekon and Hope: these homies have been happily married as a joke and as a fuck you to Peter and Elias for over 300 years

Tim “Kool-Aid Man” Stoker

The 15th fear: Teenagers (+I’m about to throw hands with a 13 year old)

Jonny Sims had to kill off the only canonical brain cells in the pre-canon and the first season (rip Sasha and Gertrude)

SIMON FUCKINH FAIRCHILD WHAT AN ABSOLUTE MADMAN HES BEEN MY FAVORITE AVATAR SINCE WE MET HIM AND HE KEEPS GETTING BETTER I DONT KNOW WHY IT TOOK HIM YEETINF HIMSELF OUT OF THE SKY TO LAND ON HIS ASS IN FRONT OF THE LITERAL MOST IMPORTANT COUPLE IN EXISTENCE FOR EVERYONE TO REALIZE HIS POTENTIAL AS A COMEDIC GOLD MINE THANK YOU FOR NOT KILLING HIM JONNY SIMS HES JUST A USELESS IDIOT GRANDPA BIRD RAT STUPI

WTGFs Georgie and Melanie, blind, fearless, and WILL kick your ass

*sounds of brutal pipe murder*

Here is a alphabetized list of why you cannot and frankly should not kill me: 1) it’s rude. Thanks, The End. Jon: “fair enough” Martin: *pikachu face*

“You fear the Dark when you’re a CHILD and then you GROW UP to have more MATURE fears, like a TRIPPY MERRY-GO-ROUND WHERE YOU STEAL PEOPLE’S EXISTENCES”— Jonny Sims

Jonah crying on a dramatic couch in the panopticon and listening to tik tok-assigned theme song on repeat as his only source of self-esteem because even his god thinks he’s a bitch bastard

The “We Actively Know He’s Probably Listening and We Still Love to Disrespect Elias” gang

Jon but brian david gilbert

The Home of Phobia https://bugeyesandstumpy.tumblr.com/post/622671728278126592/remember-the-lonely-house-with-uncomfy-chairs-in

He was subjected to the ultimate fear of Being Known

martin the murder cheerleader martin the murder cheerleader martin the murder cheerleader

+Helen the godawful “listen to Martin :D!!” couple’s therapist and queen of the jonmartin fanbase (I especially love all the theories about her she’s very fun and spooky)

“Hello? Hello hello??? — phone guy Annabelle Kane

Nikola being HORRIFIED at the fact that Jon doesn’t moisturize

Martin “I’m traumatized, my new boyfriend is a monster, I love him so much, and I’m about vicariously to go feral” Blackwood.

Manuela’s tiny, evil sun https://bugeyesandstumpy.tumblr.com/post/622776071826325504

And last but certainly not least because they’re what started this whole tumblr spiral (hahahahahahaha) and deserve honorable mentions

“I want. Another. Divorce”

the kayaking trip

And all the ensuing chaos

(If anyone ever sees this as I’ve never posted anything of my own before, please feel free to add your own favorite things if you want, I probably missed some good ones that I will also be adding as everything gets closer to imminent sobbing :)

[timelock97]

Time Never Stops

Chapter Five: Noticing the Obvious

Word Count: 3920

(F/A/D): favorite alcoholic drink

(Y/L/F/T): your least favorite topping

Warning: language

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I open my eyes at the soft light coming from the partially opened curtain. I nuzzle my face back into the pillow and listen the pitter-patter of the rain on the roof and Tom's soft breathing. I roll over carefully as to not jar Tom's arm that is across my back.

He's still fast asleep when I finally am able to roll over completely to look at him. His face is free of worry lines and in the glow of the early morning sun he looks younger, like when I'd wake up next to him when we were thirteen after spending the previous day exploring Kingston. His breath releases from his slightly pouted lips in small puffs, and his ruffled curls spread across his forehead wildly from a long, peaceful nights sleep.

I slowly crawl out of bed, only once I am free from under his arm. I slip on my favorite sweatshirt over my t-shirt and shorts before making my way downstairs to start up the coffee and cook breakfast. I turn on my phone and wait for the notifications to come rolling in from the night before. I stretch my arms over my head before I grab eggs, green peppers, cheddar cheese, and ham from the fridge and begin making loaded scrambled eggs while the bread in the toaster toasts. I hum along to some tune that lingers in the back of my mind while I work and smile at the notification that my and Tom's fans enjoyed the update from last night.

My mind is brought back to Tom and his weird behavior the past few days. Now, Tom is a weird person in general, but the way he had been acting was a little further out of the ordinary.

The first incident happened on the second day of our trip. Tom and I had been wandering through the Portland Art Museum, I wandered away from Tom while he is looking at one piece, over to a painting. As I stand there looking at the piece, admiring it, a man comes to stand next to me.

"It's beautiful, isn't it?" The man asks, he glances at me from the side, smiling at me.

"Absolutely gorgeous," my hand lifts to point out my favorite features, "I love how they captured the light coming from the back window, it causes the colors of the flowers to darken on this side, and the way the other light source hits the roses makes them look like they are so much brighter, but it also allows the shadows of the petals to contrast making these parts here and here pop that much more."

"You seem to know some things about art." He says moving to face me, "I'm Jared."

"(Y/N), and I would hope so, my best friend and her little sister are both phenomenal artists."

"That's amazing." He mutters, "Have they ever thought to draw you?"

"Uh, no, why do you ask?" I let out a soft laugh.

"Because you, my dear, are a masterpiece," he states with a smirk.

I blush softly and let out a small laugh. "Well, uh, thank you, I definitely haven't heard that one before."

"Well, I'm sure I could think of more when I take you out this evening, my treat?"

I go to open my mouth to politely decline since I wasn't the one to just go out on dates especially since I was on vacation, but Tom beat me to it.

"This piece looks lovely, darling, no wonder you wandered away." He says, wrapping an arm around my waist and places himself on the other side of me before glancing around me to the man to my right. "Wouldn't you agree, mate?"

Jared nods, and gives me a tight lip smile. "Yeah, dude, looks great." He glances at me softly before nodding his head, "It was nice talking to you, (Y/N), have a nice afternoon."

"Uh, you too, Jared." I say as he gives me a soft wave before leaving the room. I glance at Tom and notice his jaw is set and he isn't really looking at the piece. "Wanna head over to the next room? The Asian art is always really interesting." I ask with a small cock of my head. Tom smiles at me and nods before letting me lead him out the other archway away from where Jared disappeared moments ago.

The second incident happened at the Portland Zoo. Tom and I were wandering through the Africa section, hand in hand. Tom tugged me away from the painted dogs exhibit to walk down to where the giraffes were. Tom and I walk up to the area and I let out a soft, breathy "Wow."

"Turn and look at me, love." Tom says I turn and smile at him as he snaps a photo of me on his phone. After, he pays for me to be able to feed them, taking pictures of me laughing happily as a handler talks to me about the specific giraffe that had walked up to have a nice snack. When Tom and I walk away, we both hear people calling our names, making us come to a soft halt to see a group of teens jogging over to us.

"Holy cow, you're Timelock! And you're Tom Holland! Can - could we get a picture with you two? We promise we won't bother you after." One of the girls asks, bouncing on the balls of her feet.

"Yeah, absolutely!" I say, "Do you want pictures separately or all together?"

"All together is fine," she looks at her group who nod excitedly, "can we get it with the both of you in the picture?" She motions for a woman to walk over and from the looks of it, she was the girl's mother. "Mom, can you take the picture, please?"

The woman nods while we get into our poses, once we are done, Tom and I hug each one of them, once we are done his arm attaches itself to my waist while the group talks to us happily before they bid us goodbye.

"Sorry for bugging you on your date!" The girl, Madison, calls as they walk away. Tom chuckles beside me before waving with me and tugging me back in the direction of the small food court.

"That was fun." Tom mutters in my ear, his lips grazing the shell of my ear, making me blush.

"Gotta love our fans." I reply, looking at him to see the soft smile on his face.

The latest incident happened while we were hiking in Mt. Tabor Park. Tom and I had planned a full day of hiking, including packing a lunch, snacks, and waters so we would be good throughout the day. While we walked, Tom held my hand, helping me over fallen logs and other obstacles by either offering a hand or full on scooping me up bridal style and carrying me over several obstacles at a time.

"Tom," I giggle as he sets me down carefully, "I promise, I'm okay. I can climb over those too, you know?"

"I know, I just love to spoil you, I have to." He teases, smiling at me softly, blowing a curl from off his forehead.

"Well, I don't mind you spoiling me, but I feel like you are going to hurt yourself trying to keep me from injuring myself." I say, retaking his hand as we walk the trail, looking over the hills at the scenery below.

"I won't hurt myself," he scoffs, squeezing my hand and pressing a soft kiss to my temple. We stand there in quiet silence, or as quiet as it can be with other hikers walking up and down the trail.

"Enjoying the view?" Someone calls from behind us, Tom and I turn our head to see two guys walking up the hill toward us. We had passed them a mile back while they were taking a break and checking their map.

"It's gorgeous out here." I call once they are close enough to hear.

"Chris and I come out here every weekend to hike, it's wonderful, something new every time we come." The man puts his hand out, smiling, "The name's Zack."

"I'm (Y/N), and this is Tom." I say, motioning to Tom as I introduce him to the men in front of us.

"Nice to meet you both," Chris says smiling. "We were planning on stopping ahead and having our lunch, we were wondering if we could finish this part of the hike with you two. We enjoy talking with new hikers, hope that doesn't sound too weird."

"No, we would love that, we were going to stop and have lunch soon anyways." Tom says, motioning for us to start back up and continue our hike. While we walk, Tom either has his hand laced in mine or has it on the small of my back under my backpack. This doesn't go unnoticed by the two men walking with us. Once we make it to the eating area, Tom runs off to the restroom while I unpack the baby wipes and our sandwiches from my backpack and pull out a water from his.

"So, who long have you and Tom been together?" Chris asks, causing me to stop and lift my eyes from the task at hand.

"Oh, uh, Tom and I aren't dating. We are best friends." I state.

"Friends don't do what he has been doing with you, sweets." Zack stated.

Chris giggles next to him. "He's had his hands all over you, honey. If that's not obvious flirting then the way he has been talking to you is a definite clue."

"It's really not like that, we've known each other since we were very little. It's just how we interact." I say, brushing a strand of hair that had fallen out of my ponytail behind my ear.

"Well, we are just stating what we see." Zack smiles, "Either way, you two are really sweet together, it's nice to see two people so comfortable together."

I smile at them, but never get to respond because Tom plops down next to me.

"The water doesn't work, you grabbed the wipes right?" He asks, I had him one, "Thanks, love." He leans across and presses a quick kiss to my cheek before we start eating, a blush staying permanently on my cheeks for the next hour.

I let out a sigh, convincing myself that it's just me over reacting to the situations.

"Did you hear what I said, love?" Tom mutters into my ear as his hands find their home on my hips, making me jump and giggle against his chest.

"Sorry, my mind was elsewhere. What'd you say?"

"Just said that it smelled good, but I did miss waking up to you this morning." He sighs, resting his head on my shoulder, wrapping his arms around my waist while swaying us side to side as I continue humming. "What song are you humming, love?"

"Um," I mutter, "Life Changes by Thomas Rhett."

He lets out a hum before unwrapping an arm from my waist to do something behind my back. After a minute, the song I had been humming is playing behind me. I turn and look at him smiling. He sticks his hand out for me and I quickly turn down the burner to take his hand and sway with him to the tune of the song.

"Ain't it funny how life changes, 'y wake up, ain't nothing the same and life changes. You can't stop it, just hop on the train and you never know what's gonna happen, you make your plans and you hear God laughing. Life changes, and I wouldn't change it for the world, the world, oh no-." I sing along before the toast pops out of the toaster, scaring us half to death. We look at one another and laugh at one another before he takes his place at the stove finishing the eggs while I butter the toast and fill our mugs with coffee so we can eat and get our day started.

"I missed that." I hear him sigh behind me, I lean away from the table and look at his bare back in front of me.

"Missed what?"

"Just, missed you, doing things that only we appreciate. The whole works." He says, a small blush coloring his cheeks.

"Missed you too, Tom." I smile, hugging him from behind and pressing a kiss into his tee-shirt covered shoulder.

He hums before patting my hands so I let go and he loads our plates with food. We eat in silence for awhile, scrolling through our phones to see what we had missed the last few days. I go to GameSquad's twitter and giggle at the latest post. "What are you giggling at, (Y/N/N)?"

"Let me read this tweet from GameSquad, I'm sure it's from Jac. 'The fact that everyone is bombarding this page because @Timelock is away on vacation means one thing, she is not allowed to go on vacation again, unless we come with. #whatareyoudoing #gamesquad #weloveyoubut'"

"Oh my God," Tom laughed loudly, wiping a fake tear from his eye. "That's amazing."

"Only my friends," I giggle back, quickly commenting '@GameSquad sorrynotsorry' in the comment section. I let out a sigh and notice Tom watching me, "Whatcha looking at, Holland?"

"Just staring off." He states, rubbing a hand under his nose, "I was wondering what you wanted to do today?"

I sip my coffee and let out a soft hum, "Well, I think it should be done raining soon. I really want to go the Japanese Garden in Washington Park, and I was wondering if we could go to that bar in town that we have passed several times for dinner? Because you and I both know neither of us will wanna cook tonight."

"That sounds like a plan, we will probably want to dress a little more warmly since it's a little cool out." Tom states, wiping his lips with a napkin. "I'll clean up so you can get ready."

"You sure?" I ask standing and scraping what was left in the trash, "I can help clean up."

"No, go ahead and get ready. This won't take me too long." He states, motioning me to go upstairs. I smile and peck the top of his head before ascending the steps. I dig through my drawers looking for something to wear. "Love?" Tom calls.

I walk over to the edge to see Tom looking back up into the balcony. "What's up?"

"I don't think the rain is gonna let up, why don't we just stay in then we can go to the bar tonight and the Japanese Park tomorrow?"

"Okay, I'm up for that, gives me a bit to do some laundry and we can sit on the couch and relax."

"Don't bother changing out of your comfy clothes then, but will you grab my hoodie?" He calls, smiling. I turn and grab it from off the bed and toss it down to him. "Thanks, love. Want me to put in a movie?"

"Please!" I call, grabbing an arm full of laundry before walking down the stairs. Oh what a perfect, lazy day it was going to be.

~

"Ready to go in there?" Tom bangs on the bathroom door, almost messing me up while I fix my hair.

"I'll be out in a minute, asshole." I laugh, curling the last strand of hair before I check my makeup one more time. I smile at my reflection, happy with the way I look dressed in a pair of tight black jeans and a red, lacy shirt where the sleeves stop just above the elbow, the neckline plunging in a deep v. I walk out and find Tom sitting on the bed scrolling on his phone. I grab my ankle boots, sit on the bed next to him to slip them on and zip them up.

"Uh, (Y/N/N), isn't that a little revealing?" Tom asks, his voice shaking slightly as he looks at me.

"It's not that bad, Tommy." I giggle at him as I smile at him. "C'mon, the Uber is here and I don't wanna have to pay extra for making them wait." Tom sighs and follows me down the steps, I turn and admire the dark pair of jeans and burgundy button up tee-shirt he is donning before he hands me my jacket and purse. Tom locks the door behind us as I walk over to the car and smile at the female driver to confirm our ride. We drive to the bar in silence, beside the radio playing in the background. Once we pull up I thank the woman and step out of the car with Tom close to my heels. Tom wraps an arm around my waist and walks up with me to the door.

Inside is a quaint bar, an old jukebox sitting in the corner, two walls are lined with booths, the wall left of the door is the bar, and tables litter the rest of the space. Tom and I walk up to the bar and sitting down.

"Hey, what could I get you two to drink?" The bartender asks, his eyes lingering on my chest, but I decide to ignore it.

"I'll have a (F/A/D)." I say with a small smile.

"And I'll have a beer on tap. We'd also like some menus, we heard the food here is very good." Tom states, his jaw set as he speaks.

"You got it," the bartender, Jeff, states. He hands us each a menu before getting our drinks ready. I glance over the menu and watch Tom out of the corner of my eye. He barely looks at the menu and watches the bartender as he works.

"Tom, did you find something you might wanna get?" I ask innocently, leaning a little closer to him. He looks at me, but shrugs.

"Don't know yet, did you find anything?"

"I think I'll get a cheese burger, just sounds good." I hum, laying my head on his shoulder in hopes that it will comfort him.

"I think I'll get that too, make it easy on them." He states, pressing a quick kiss to my head.

The bartender comes back and sets our drinks down in front of us. "Here you go, did you figure out what you wanted?"

"We both would like the cheese burger, she would not like (Y/L/F/T) on her's." Tom states, handing back out menus.

"Sounds good, those will be out soon." The bartender states before leaving again. Tom lets out a sigh and I lace my fingers into his under the bar. He turns and smiles at me, but his eyes still linger on the bartender down the bar, glaring at his lingering gaze.

As the night goes on, Tom becomes more on edge, making me more annoyed. Whether it's the bartender making comments on my shirt or the lingering gazes of other men in the bar, Tom just can't seem to relax.

Tom squeezes my hand softly, moving to whisper in my ear. "I'll be back, just running to the loo. You think you'll be okay?

"I'll be fine, Tom." I state, faking a smile. He nods, squeezing my hand before leaving. I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding in, moving the straw around my third drink of the evening.

"I thought he would never leave." I turn to see a guy sitting a chair away. He gives me a bright smile, making me smile back. "I'm Josh."

"(Y/N)," I say, bringing my drink to my lips.

"What is up his ass? If you ask me you look absolutely amazing, and if you were my girl I'd be showing you off."

I let out a laugh, "Tom is just protective."

"Well I guess that is fair, I mean," he licks his bottom lip, eyes lingering on my figure, "look at you."

I feel my face get hot, and I avert my gaze from the man to my left. A soft, awkward laugh escapes my lips. Josh keeps looking at me up and down, biting his lip after a minute before he standing from his chair, taking two strides to stand next to me.

"Why don't we get out of here, I can show you what you're really missing out on in a man." He states, putting his hand out in hopes that I will take it. Instead I feel another hand on my shoulder, squeezing almost too tightly.

"She's not interested." Tom's voice comes from behind me, tone cold.

"I wasn't talking to you-"

"Well, when you get into my girls face, you suddenly are. She isn't going home with you."

"I hope you have a great night, Mr. Holland." The bartender muses, coming into my view, handing Tom his credit card and a receipt before telling us to have a good night. Tom carefully tugs me from my place and hands me my coat before making our way outside. Tom leads me to a car and opens the door for me, he greets the driver, but I don't even hear it. All I can focus on is the anger and embarrassment bubbling up in my veins.

The drive is short, and once we get to the house I get out and walk to the door, waiting for Tom to make his way over to unlock the door. He fishes the key from his pocket and opens the door. I walk in ahead of him, throwing my jacket over the couch and turn to look at him. "Okay, explain to me what the hell is going on with you-"

"He was harassing you so I stepped in-"

"That's not what I am talking about, that I can understand you stepping in." I pace in front of him. "You were being an ass all night: the bartender, the other guys at the bar-"

"I was keeping the creeps away from you!" He tries to reason, waving his hand in the air.

"You don't know if they were creeps, Tom!" I yell, raking a hand through my hair.

"Did you not notice how they looked at you, they were looking at you like you were a piece of meat!" Tom yells tugging at his hair.

"It doesn't matter!" I shake my hand in the air before pinching the bridge of my nose, "I wasn't acknowledging it so why did you feel the need to glare at everyone tonight! We couldn't have just a nice night, out at a bar-"

"I'm a guy, I know what was going through their heads as they looked at you!" He shakes his head and lets out a bitter laugh while he runs a hand through his hair.

"Okay, let's face it, Tom." I pull my hand away from my face and stand unmoving, "I know there is something else going on," I strode forward toward him, fuming. "Cut the bullshit, what is going on in that head of yours, Tom. Why does it bother you so much for someone to be flirting with me-"

"Maybe because it kills me to think of you with someone that isn't me!" He yells, throwing his hands into his hair to tug at the roots. "Maybe I want it to be me, because God dammit, (Y/N), I love you. I've loved you my entire life!"

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Chapter Six coming Sunday!

[4llmywr1tings]

Can it Green Eyes

Characters/Pairing: Jensen X Reader, SPN Cast Words: 2,096 Warnings: Jensen is a little down about himself, language i think A/N: you are Jared’s brother in law, Gen’s little sister

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“I think it would be a great run in the right direction for her, but of course you know I have to run things by her first. Yeah, of course one of us will call her.” You look up from your laptop from what you were doing. It was the time of day, that you were doing your daily social media perusing, scaring fans with your responses. You wait for your manager to stop what she was doing to tell you what was going on.

“I don’t think she’d mind working with her brother–in –law, or her husband. No. I don’t think so.” You hated filling in her conversations. Usually she would put her phone on speaker when it was regarding your job, but today she had forgotten. “Yes, I’ll have her make a decision and we’ll call by tonight, tomorrow at nine, the latest? Good, talk to you later Jeremy.”

“What was that?” you asked, finally looking back to your Twitter profile. Like you had predicted, a fan had freaked out when you had “followed” her. She had just replied with a long “thank you.”

“Jeremy Carver. He’s still curious to see if you’re open to taking that part. You’d become a regular. I know you’re still browsing, but.”

“I’ve been wanting to…”

“Stick close to Jensen?” You nod, knowing fully that was what she’d say.

“Yeah. This distance with him in Vancouver and me in LA, it’s starting to get harder. A lot harder. Especially since it’s just new in this marriage.”

“Well, maybe this’ll be an easier decision than we thought?”

“Yeah. I’ll go give Jeremy a call. Let’s get me to Vancouver as soon as possible. I want to go. ASAP.”

“Okay,” Brittany replies quickly. “And then you need to start getting ready for the awards show tonight. You promised you’d make the appearance for the show.”

You let out a sigh and nod, remembering you would help your costar Dwayne Johnson present the first look at your movie together. This movie was a big deal for you, and any good publicity, was well. Good publicity.

You had decided to surprise Jensen, he knew you would probably take the part – you talked about everything together, and he was a deciding factor.

You only wanted to do it, if he was comfortable too. When he didn’t object to the possibility of you working closer to him, your decision was final. If you ever got a job on Supernatural, you’d do it, because being in Vancouver meant being with him.

And that’s what you needed in the beginning of your marriage.

You arrived in Vancouver Sunday morning. The flight was rather quiet, until Ginnifer Goodwin and Josh Dallas joined you in first class for the remainder of your flight. By the time you would get in, Jensen and Jared would be at their panel for VanCon, so you thought you’d either crash or just listen in.

Jensen and Jared were their usual selves, goofing off, making fun of each other.

“Yes, you.” Jensen looked towards one side of the stage. He waves goofily with Jared and waits for her. “Hello.”

“Hello.” She giggles nervously. “Oh man, I’m so nervous.”

“Don’t be. Jared does this to all the ladies.” You scoff and shake your head, and even give an eye roll. If the crowd could see you, they would laugh at you.

The fan laughs at them, and continues. “My question is actually for Jensen.”

Jensen gives Jared a smug look of satisfaction and then looks back to the fan. “Continue my lady.”

“My question is, in having a spouse in the business as well, is it harder to work in separate states, or shows, or is it easier to do it together? Especially so soon in the marriage?”

“Well.” Jensen replies, laughing with Jared. “We were just talking about that. It’s hard to be apart. That’s for sure. I was just telling Jared how much I missed her, and having her with me. Vancouver to LA is such a long distance.”

“It’s good and it’s bad. We love her movies, I was a big fan of her before I met Gen, and she loves doing what she does, but we like having her close.” Jared points out. “We love having family close.”

“So she’s either too far away in LA, or too far a way in Austin.” Jensen laughs. “Which sucks.”

“You should get Gen to come here!” the fan responds, and with that the group agrees.

“We should. Hey. Thanks! Good idea.” Jensen waves to the fan and they turn to the other side.

“Um, my question is for the both of you. What do you think of this new Resident Evil movie coming out? I mean Dwayne Johnson is in it!”

Jared laughs and nods his head. “I’ve heard he’s pretty cool.”

“Eh.” Jensen shrugs his shoulders. “I like the (Y/H/C)’d girl that is going to be in it better. I mean I’m pretty star struck.”

“Dude, you’ve got it bad Jensen.” The fan chides him, and they all laugh with the group.

“Oh come on. It’s (Y/N) friggin’ Cortesi. How would you feel?” Jensen asks looking to the fan. In the dark, they can see the fan shrug her shoulders, then nod in agreement. “See. I told you.”

“I like her too.” The fan replies.

“Well, my smart little sister in law liked it, so she put a ring on it.” They laugh as Jensen waves his hand and makes a face.

That was your cue to go out and crash their panel. You sneak out behind them, motioning to the fans who saw you to be quiet.

“But if we’re being honest here, I have to like her, she’s my sister in law.”

“That is a very good answer Padalecki.” You answer, walking out. They start to cheer as you lean against Jensen and immediately he takes your hand over his shoulder.

“Hey, it’s like she knows we’re talking about her.” Jensen replies, kissing your hand.

“All women are like that. They have like a sixth sense.” Jared giggles. “Especially my sister in law, even more so when she’s around Gen.”

You give him a look, but then nod in agreement. “We are really bad together.” You look around to the group. “So, are y’all gonna come see the next Resident Evil movie?”

Jensen laughs and shakes his head. “What? Shameless plugging. I mean who wants to see me kick some Dwayne Johnson ass. Butt. Assbutt?”

Both of them slowly raise their hands, and the crowd joins in on the question. “See, shameless plugging. I am proud of the shameless plugging.”

“Do you want to stay around and shamelessly plug some more?” Jared asks.

“Nah.” You smile. “They paid to come see your handsome faces. I just wanted to crash your panel, say hello, say go watch Resident Evil: Humanity’s Last Stand, guard your carnal treasures, and of course as always. Watch Supernatural.”

There was nothing better to do, so you waited around with all your friends. Once their panel was done, you had to wait for their autograph signings and photo ops to be finished. Even though it was almost seven before dinner was over and you were home, you were done for the day.

“Mmm. Number 47.” You smile, seeing the familiar black numbers over your shared apartment door.

“Welcome home. I’m glad I’ll be sharing a bed this time.” He smiles wickedly at you, and through your exhaustion you think you either scoff or roll your eyes.

“I’m too tired to react Jensen. Put me to bed?” you ask, almost whining like a small, needy child.

“Anything for my beautiful girl. Glad you’re with me.”

You let the door close behind you and wrap your arms around Jensen, letting him pull you tight to his body.

“I am so glad you are with me. Even happier that your first day of work is tomorrow. With me.”

“Me too.” You elongate your words, yawning a little. He supports your bodyweight as you slowly walk to your master bedroom. You quickly strip of your clothes and you’re the first to make it to your bed. “Remember when we met?”

“God, don’t I ever? You were the prettiest lady there, and you were at a wedding.”

“Glad you didn’t tell my sister that. Cuz she would’ve been mad.” You yawned. The bed dips under Jensen’s weight and he quickly joins you, clad only in black boxer briefs.

He laughs and kisses your forehead. “Glad I didn’t. I’m also so glad that they decided to introduce us.”

“Me to green eyes. Me too.” You put your head on his chest and quickly drift to a happy, peaceful sleep.

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“I can’t believe it. Today’s the day Gen! You’re getting married!” you squeal happily. It was a bit of a whirlwind adventure, but your big sister (by less than a year) was getting married.

And you happened to actually like your future brother in law.

“I can’t either. Thanks for taking time out of your schedule.”

All you can do is give her a look. “Of course Genevieve. I wouldn’t miss it for the world. Even if it were Oscar weekend. This is your big day, and I want to be by your side.”

She gives you the smile you always loved. She was your best friend, and being so close together, you followed in your big sister’s footsteps. When she started to act, you did too. When she moved somewhere, you did as well.

You both found your successes and failures. Some movies or TV shows were hit and miss for you, while her first and major success was finding Supernatural, and then finding Jared.

“Well, guess what? You’re going to meet Jared’s coworker. Jensen Ackles. He’s of course in the party.”

“You, setting me up again Genevieve?” you ask furrowing your brow. She zips up your dress and you look to her. “Come on Gen. When it happens, it happens.”

“Just meet him. It’s my wedding day. Do what I say.” She laughs, point to her. You nod in agreement, but it doesn’t help much. Her mind was set.

Now that you had gotten ready, all that needed to happen, was to get down the aisle. Of course your older sister Sarah would be the maid of honor, and you were next.

“So, is this the little sister in law to be, that Jared is trying to set me up with?” a guy asks. You look up to see a pair of beautiful, green eyes staring back at you. Everyone was lining up to walk down the aisle.

“Maybe, and who might you be, green eyes?” You fold your arms and give him a smirk. You knew who he was, and you were sure what his intentions would be.

“I’m Jared’s costar. Jensen.”

You let out an “ah” but have to stop as the procession is starting. “Well, after this is all said and done, tell me some embarrassing stories I can have for ammo against my brother in law to be?”

He laughs, and you feel yourself going weak at the knees. A laugh that you would love for the rest of your days.

A few hours later and a ‘we give you both our blessing,’ you and Jensen had found a quick exit after the bouquet had been thrown.

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“I still can’t believe you said yes to me.” Jensen’s voice still does the same things to you, and every time you heard it, you still went weak at the knees.

“Best yes I have ever given.” You answer. You were getting ready for the wrap party, which coincidentally happened to be the airing of your first episode. You look to him, and he gave you a weak, yet brave smile. He was probably having a moment of insecurity, like you had many times. “And I’d say yes. Over and over and over again.”

“Some days, I just, I don’t understand why you picked me. You have everything going your way, and you could have any hot male celebrity. Yet you chose me.”

“I got my hot male celebrity babe. You are it for me. You are my person. You get me 100%. You love me for me, 100%. You support me 100%. I don’t know what I’d do without that. You are my person. Forever. K?”

“I. I just.”

“Shut it green eyes. You are my person, end of story. You aren’t getting rid of me, and I’m not getting rid of you. For a long time. Okay?”

[ain-t-bovvered]

14x08 Commentary

Zeta and Giuls scream together, and then die.

Me & Zeta will watch together season 14′s episodes as they come out and we’ll do our commentary while watching.

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14x08 Byzantium

Guys I don’t know if I can be funny this episode.

-....HER?! WHAT. ....oooooh they are gonna do something stupid aren’t they?

Zeta: can I not see Jack like this please?

- “please don’t be sad”

Zeta : Sam? Not sad? ..lol

-is Dean there to choose an album ? wth ...also damn son can you all stop looking like pain in the flesh?

- the oxygen tank?....naaah fam I’m good, bye I can’t. Zee give me the strength to keep going because I’m gonna throw myself out the window 

- oh shit...the scene....the promo scene that killed us all.

Zeta : Cas doesn’t know who to worry about anymore.

- Everyone but himself that’s for sure

-Oh my god SAM, omg Jared you and your eyes are gonna kill me this season.

Zeta : “what happens next?” 

-oh shit I didn’t think about it.

both: we are gonna die too

- “an adventure”

Zeta : is he serious?!?!

-Oh Dean really doesn’t want to be there.

Zeta : LOOK AT ALL THE HURT

- D: “I can’t..”  bitch me too the fuck

- ..pAiN

- C:” He NEEDS you “

- S:”He’s gone” 

-asgajsvdaksdasdh WHAT

- I can almost taste the guilt seasoned with pain right there.

Zeta : the fuck?!

- THAT WAS FAST . U KIDDIN’ , WHAAAAAAT THEEEEE FUUUUCK

Zeta : I’m speechless. I can’t even focus on the bowlegs.

- Dean talking about the hunter’s funeral and Sam can’t fucking take it

-OH I love Sam’s stance, beautiful.....aaaaand he’s gone.

-My soul and whole being is hurting but boy that was an amazing Destiel moment and that’s the shit I wanna see.

- Damn, Cas is spiriling 

Zeta : Cas is obliterated

-.... OF COURSE THERE IS A VOICEMAIL. Dean’s annoyed af face at his mom’s voicemail is giving me life, and look....my skin is already clearer. 

Zeta : Like the bitch cares

- Castiel clutching Kelly’s pic , probably thinking he failed yet again.  lol I wanna die....it would hurt less.

- SAM NO

Zeta : where is he going??

-I hope not doing anything stupid

Zeta : I can’t watch them like that bitch

-CASS IS DRIVING!, CASS IS DRIVING , WHAT. HOW. WHAT. I love that is Cass who is driving

Zeta : Dean’s not driving??

- FUCK YEAH

- Probably Sam took Baby and Dean was like....listen babe I’m not even gonna touch that suburban mom’s steering wheel I don’t wanna feel dirty. Baby could smell it and you know how jealous she is.

-”Why did you let him leave?” WELL HE DID AS U ASKED BITCH

- AND HE’S WEARING THE SEAT BELT!!  my European's ass is singing ( is it true that y’all americans don’t have to use it? because....wild and also why. Here if they catch you without the seat-belt they skin your ass)

- kill me with that axe

Zeta : something’s wrong here.

-Yeah...they are hurting so much, I hate it. What the fuck is it with everybody’s eyes, fuck me.

Zeta : I think n.1 dad was Sam

-Nah....Cass is #1 Dad , Sam related to Jack. Dean is the step dad who didn’t think could love the kid and now he’s fucked because he love him too.

Zeta : “Taken before me”

Zeta : We get loaded

- omg do we get to see them drunk? omg yes.

Zeta : Please call help

- Is THat NOugAt?

-OMFG 

Zeta : bitch

-AAAAAAAAAAAH CAS SMILE AND LAUGH THAT IS JUST SO MISHA OMFG.

- But Castiel entering the room a bit unsteady and with two bottle ? FUCKING MOOD.

Zeta : I love drunk Dean

-WHAT

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.WHAT WAS THAT LOOK BETWEEN THEM . WHAT.

my soul....hurts stop it.

-Awe Sam....lol weak.

- Cause of death : Dean slurred drunk sad voice, “We did everything we could right?” 

Zeta : HIS VOICE

-”I’m gonna teach you how to read a map”

I can’t deal bitch

-THe DoubLE StRaws

-someone needs to change that lightbulb.

Zeta : Heaven

- THe fuck

Zeta :...Hell..?

- what’s up with shining there

- Dean’s dying groan in the morning: MOOD, SAME.

Zeta : you got old

- Cass and Sam looking fresh and stylish as always .

[enters Dean] the trashcan is heeeeere

- rebooting Dean.exe 

Zeta : he can’t even english

-shhh

- oh....no

both: PASS

- but what is the priiiiceeee

Zeta : simple as that

- ...well I mean...fair. I guess she wants to meet her daughter and shit 

Zeta : seriously?

-Well we already saw Osiris.

Zeta : Major Dick

-When god left - sorry long story- .

-Oh...no who ARE YOU

Zeta :he does that thing with the eyes.

-WHATSAHFDBF

Zeta : What the hell

- I wanna cry. I am crying

Zeta : thanks, the last part of my heart just withered and died

- Oh no wait until she realize he’s dead

Zeta : aaaaaand

- ...here it comes

- Boi this season is painful

Zeta : Peach, it rhymes with bitch

-oh he really doesn’t like her

- S: “ Taking risks , making crappy deals. The family business “

-”AWESOME”

- “ MORE AWESOME”

Zeta : Was that black goo Lucifer?

- I can’t tell honestly, maybe him and the Empty made a path or something IDK.

-I don’t like when Castiel leaves alone. Bad things happen .

-Sam head tilt lol.

Zeta : forced smile much. 

Zeta :look at him ( Dean)

- AH TOLD YA

-Heaven looking nice as always

- I do like seeing Castiel in heaven

Zeta : natural habit and I do love angels clothes

- yeah....50 shades of gray

Zeta : hello Bitch

- *gritted teeth* Naomi

Zeta : He was THAT annoying

- THAT ACCENT THO

- Naomi : Give it what it wants

Cas: 

- Cass: “ NO”

-no bitch , Jack he’s everything wtf.

- So Nick woke up the Empty then? *dean’s voice* AWESOME

So now there are 2 big baddies ?

*dean’s voice* MORE AWESOME

- SNAPPY

Zeta : pushing pencils , damning souls

-MY KIND OF WORK

-oh u going down that’s what

Zeta : I’d prefer the scale and the feather

- but the abacus has more sense tho...like....counting good deeds and bad ones, like in the good place right? Can we see the Winchesters using that? I bet the thing would explode.

Zeta : that went well

- Sorry bitch what did u expect

- oooooh what was that little chuckle Castiel stop killing me this season. It burned

Zeta : it stung

- “I failed you” 

 K: “ you didn’t....Jack...he’s wonderful “

*bawling* YES HE IS 

- Misha need to control that eyebrow or so help me god.

Zeta : he needs to control his whole face bitch

- I fucking hate where the angels goes when they die ok

Zeta : fuck

- OH BITCH. *dramatic zoom*

- “He’S OuR KiD”

KIIIIID

*bawling*

Zeta : look at Dean

-MY GOD

both: don’t do this to us

- Empty : “SToP iNteRrupTinG!”  Damn bitch, pipe the fuck down

Zeta : crazy ass bitch

  I     LOVE     HER

- I love how she’s doing the Empty. like....*slow clapping*

Empty: “Where I’m taking you is worse than Hell” 

oh well you are definitely selling the place

- Empty:” Oh god they look scared. Does that hurt you?”

- *Cass brandishing his angel blade* .... 

me already knowing where this is going: oh honey...no

-Puppy Winchesters eyes always wins

Zeta : He can’t hear you.....oh he can

- .... Is that how he is every time Dean pray to him?

When Dean prays:

SAME

me seeing Castiel getting up :

Castiel: TAKE ME

Zeta : take me instead

- he’s so.....snarly....

Zeta : I bet you are drooling

- I am.

 A dumb fucking angel: “You want me”

me: I do

A dumb fucking angel: “I would go now and I would go willingly “

me: no u don’t

-NO , NO DEAL, FUCK YOU, FUCK U.

Empty: “ oh “ creepy chuckle “but not now” sharps intakes of breath “ no no no, you see ...what I meant....I want you to suffer . I want you to go back to your own life and forget about this and forget about me and when you finally give yourself permission to be happy...and let the sun shine on your face ...that’s....when I’ll come. That’s when I’ll come to drag you to nothing”

Zeta :She’s goooood

- Castiel: “I accept”

oh look it’s me when I’ll meet Misha ^

and now for an out of context gif: 

-She’s so good. I love her BUT FUCK THE EMPTY

- “Because I love you Jack”  CRYING CRYING.

- C: “ They don’t need to know what happened”

Zeta : of course they don’t.

- Jack: “ I won’t tell them” 

OH so now Jack drove the Impala, snacked on burgers, has hunted, has died and now he has to lie and keeps secret?

CONGRATULATIONS YOU ARE NOW A 

- ...

NO 

FUCK , CASS YOU DAMN SELFLESS BITCH.

IMMA SMACK HIM.

hold me back bitch because imma smack his face

Zeta : control yourself bitch

-NO IMMA SMACK HIS ASS

Zeta : I can’t wait for the gag reel of this part.

Omg Kelly babe . I’m so glad they met .

-WHAT WAS THAT FACE AGAIN CASTIEL

Zeta : dEAD

- J:”Good, I feel good”

WELL I DON’T *hiss*

-oh that hug. omg my heart

- oh well....uh look at dat I fucking bet that the sacrifice got her heaven watch that.

HI LOOK HOW FUCKING HAPPY HE IS TO BRING HOME SO MUCH WIN ?!?!

friendly reminder that he just like...sold his” soul” to the Empty, tell me again that Castiel doesn’t care.

-...Naomi you bitch why couldn’t you tell that before?

Zeta : because she’s a bitch

- D: “ And we know where Michael is, not sure how you pulled that one off “ *side eyeing Cas* 

me: *HISS*

- don’t make me think about the fact that Dean cooked those burghers ( as you can see from the counter) while he looked happily at his family reunited . lol *sobs*

- There is a warm happy feeling in my chest right now. I don’t like it, can’t wait for the writers to rip it off my chest pretty soon.

Zeta : is he wearing the dead man’s robe?

. ....yep

Zeta : I’m dead inside

- Dead with a slither of happiness that will get choked out of us, just you wait.

...

...

WAIT A MINUTE 

*goes back*

wHAT IS THIS SHIT OMFG DEAN 

IT’S FINE

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[writinginthesecrettrees]

Masterpost of my writing, I guess

Because I don’t write quickly, or often, and I do a lot of reblogs in between.  Almost all of this is also on AO3 here. Follow me on Twitter - I basically only tweet when I post something new.

About Fanfic and Feedback, according to me. (TL;DR: It’s always l o v e d but never required)

Anything added in the current month will be bold.

Please do not add on to my fics without permission. I love inspiring people to write - if you want to write your own fic based off one of my ideas, please do! Tag me even, I’d love to see it. But don’t add it onto my fic. It really upsets me.

Fics

Perfect - weecest, wincest, daddycest, explicit

Unanswered Prayers - weecest, wincest, John knows

Maybe - wincest, 14.02 spoilers, 

Breaking - kind of a character study

Bela - Bela/John, wincest mentioned

Heart’s Desire - wincest, minor spoilers for ep 300 (like super minor)

Killing Things - Dean’s first murder, not wincest

be a good boy - j2, mockumentary style, explicit

please daddy - Sam/John, spanking, borderline explicit

In addition to amazing looks the Gypsy Vanner possesses a temperament that is friendly and engaging.* genfic, total crack, Jared is a horse

Infidelity - wincest, past John/Dean, smutty angst is a valid genre, explicit

Figure it out - weecest (part 1)

Always Yours - slutty Jared and possessive Jensen w/wincest roleplay - collab with @ohnoitsthebat (AO3 version)

Smoked - Season 1 wincest, from John’s POV, with past John/Dean - collab with @ohnoitsthebat

fevered - mild wincest, just kind of musing

“Good Boy.” - a dying dog and Sam.

nine plus infinity - counting kisses

Stitches - Sam and stitches. Genfic.

didn’t know ‘til you were gone - wincest, necrophilia, explicit

A Little Off - serial killer au, weecest, and things are a little off

Kill Me Again - serial killer au (I love them, can’t help it), consensual necrophilia and lucifer keeps resurrecting Sam, explicit

jacket - wincest, mutual pining, explicit

14 - genfic, angst around Sam’s birthday

Head Games - wincest, weecest, explicit, PWP blow jobs

Baby Boy - wincest, weecest, daddycest, explicit - it’s sam/john hatefucking and sam/dean making love

I don’t know how to be without you - wincest, time travel, explicit

grindr - wincest wherein castiel puts grindr on the boys’ phones and waits for them to find each other

blood - wincest, weecest, boyking!sam 

motor oil and leather - sam/jess, when jess smells like dean

sex ed - dean teaches jack about sex, using sam as a demonstration model

drunk dial - wincest, explicit. sam’s at stanford and he gets a call from dean.

Stretch - weecest and fisting from an ask, explicit

Surely Heaven Waits - coda to the finale. Spoilers.

Big All Over - John/Jack, because why not. explicit

Family Heirloom - Sam & Dean Jr genfic.

sammy and shoes - Sam in high heels, weecest & wincest. mature

ring - sam/john, underage, explicit

Like Nothing Else - jensen/OMC, explicit. Collab with @ohnoitsthebat

Haunt - What Emily Walker does as a ghost.

almost chivalrous - weecest, sam is roofies at a party, not explicit

Happy Birthday, Dad - post-finale, genfic

And one to grow on - wincest, spanking, birthday

Birthday Puppy - winkline, puppy play, explicit

On Camera - pre-wincest, Sam tries doing porn at Stanford

Disaster - j2, prequel-gate from Keegan Allen’s POV

Currently Thinking About Henriksen

(ficlets of Henriksen pursuing the Winchesters - serial killer! au style with a holiday theme)

masterpost

“Currently thinking about”

 (various short things, united in that they are unpolished but otherwise unrelated)

serial killers! weecest

stanford era pining

rulers of hell wincest

weecest in a motel

pining weecest

smutty angst

breaking dean’s heart

sick!sam fluff

after the pilot

sam tempting dean

in honor of the 300th

slutty!sammy, weecest

valentine’s day, murder bros, outsider POV

sam liking dean’s lips

weecest in a sex shop

wincest in early s4, possessive!sam

weecest and a knife

weecest and sam feeling dirty

weecest and mutual pining

weecest and lipstick and head in bed

moc!dean and dubcon

weecest and sam’s a noisy little bitch

boyking!sam with wincest-if-you-squint

weecest and sam is an untouched little slut for dean

pining sam coming out to his girlfriend

boyking!sam and dean decide to rule hell

possessive serial killer wincest

budding serial killer sammy (no ships mentioned, but it’s always wincest)

dark!dean and sam’s eyes

daddycest, sam/john style

late season wincest after a hunt

pilot and pining!wincest (with sam/jess)

almost weecest and bruises

weecest and old movies

sam making dinner

petting hair

weecest and sam in lingerie

weecest and dancing in the rain

sam in makeup

after school special episode related

sam in a bath

weecest and john knows

flagstaff

weecest and dean catching sam

camboy!sam at stanford

crowley listening in late s5

post finale with sam

weecest and sam doing homework while dean talks dirty to him

sam and jess at stanford

sam and calling dean just to hear his voice

sam/jack and jealous!dean in highschool

john and “the talk” with weecest

“something wicked” season 1 pre-wincest

sam and mpreg right before stanford

weecest and drunk dean and first times - explicit

Currently thinking about... j2

j2 in the pilot ficlet

mistaken soulmark au - brief jensen/chad, endgame j2

jared hooks up with dudes when he’s drunk - s1 fic

as azure cuisine (on AO3)

Cursed - wincest, first time, set in later seasons, not explicit

Black and White - a series of character studies, sort of

Broken Things - non-con wincest and addiction. no happy endings.

And The House Burned - young Sam and a burning house, not wincest

#beardguy - early s14, the internet appreciates Sam’s grief beard

not crossposted to AO3

drabble - dean and feeling damned

sam/jack noncon after ouroboros

happily ever after - retirement

sam and dean and shakespeare - headcanon fun with @sorryimnotthatkindofdoctor

serial killer!dean snippet

demonic little sam in 3 sentences

early season wincest dynamics - from conversations with @ohnoitsthebat

at stanford, winchester mystery house

a/b/o for “It’s A Terrible Life”

sam and dean and using the internet pre-stanford

pre-wincest weechesters - headcanon fun with @ohnoitsthebat

unfinished snippet of sam and shaving

Fratboy!Dean when Sammy joins - submission to @wincestismyguiltypleasure

sam and dean end up at a drag show instead of a vamp nest - ficlet for @ohnoitsthebat

j2 as a hawk and a vulture - snippet of a fic i’m not writing

trans!sam having a bad period and dean being awesome

dean taking spankings for sam and giving them back later 

Wild Cards

The casino owner!Jensen and card counter!Jared d/s au that was unplanned but is turning out genius (putting all of it here including amber’s posts because... well, it’s nice to have it in one place)

bb jared at jensen’s casino - original ask from @wincestismyguiltypleasure 

discovering aftercare - by amber  

after security guard!chad tries to ‘rescue’ jared - by amber

introducing high roller!jdm - by amber

jared and bad dragon filling his slutty hole - by amber

jdm pushes too far, jensen has a few doubts, jared clears things up - by me

jared having a darker edge (and loving jensen’s more murderous side) - by amber

Chad (wherein the security guard attempts a rescue after jared takes things a bit too far) - by me

Disobedience (where jensen installs hidden cameras and jared doesn’t know he’s putting on a show) - by me

not fanfic

In the Dark - a Little Red Riding Hood retelling

Take Me To The Ocean - wherein Kelly writes poetry

an essay for an old class

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Stay Beautiful - Chapter 4

A/N: So it’s finally here. Chapter 4. I’m so sorry about how long it took for it to come out. I’ve been coming down of a medication and the withdrawal symptoms have been insane. Okay, so I’m going to be busy from Thursday for a while (I’m surprising my sister and going to her uni with my family for her birthday. I hope she doesn’t ever find this blog but yeah, surprise!) and so if I don’t get a chapter uploaded by then (which I hopefully will) that’s why. Anyway, I hope this chapter does the other chapters justice!

Trigger warnings: Kidnap, missing child, depression

Word Count: 2443

Tag List:  @winchesters-favorite-girl @winchester-writes @storyofawinchester @rosie-winchester@bea789  @inkedinpastel @alicat-life @wayward-marvel-sommer1196​ @bellero​ @unicorndreamer1622  @internationalmusicteacher​ @xdsockmonkey​ @lolawinchesterr​

The Padalecki’s did exactly what Ava had predicted. Which meant that, twenty-four hours later, I found out I was going to be living with them until the court hearing took place to resolve my permanent custody at the end of November.

Ava forced me to see a counsellor the next day. She said something about me needing help to adjust to the new situation I was in. But to be honest, talking about everything just made me feel worse. The stupid counsellor was ancient. She kept nodding at me sympathetically and saying “Mmn, must be very difficult for you,” until I wanted to scream at her.

I know it’s difficult. What the hell can I do about it?

I was sure part of her was thinking that I had no problem. That I wanted to know who I was, and here I am. I’m Chloe Kendra Padalecki. Get on with it. It was so hard to explain how I felt, and I’d already had to go through it with the judge.

What I’d said was that ”I’d rather live with the Padalecki’s than with a strange foster family,” but what I really felt in my heart was all muddled. Of course I wanted to spend time with the Padalecki’s. But I didn’t want to move in with them. I didn’t know them, and the thought that I’d be moving in with them was terrifying. And strangely enough, I missed mum and dad.

My only hope is my parents being found and them explaining something. Anything to make their innocence apparent. But the chances of them being innocent at all are slim to none, and I had another stupid session with the counsellor after lunch. My last lunch with Morgan before she had to fly home.

“Hey, what’s up?” Morgan asked. We were having lunch at a separate table to her parents who were out all night because they were discussing my situation. Go figure.

“I’m just distracted. The stupid counsellor is making me think about everything. Really intensely too. She just wants me to go in further detail so she can say she’s sorry I’m feeling that way. It’s annoying.” I said, picking at my food. I wasn’t hungry at all right now. And judging by my nerves, I don’t know if I ever will be again.

“So, try not to talk about those things. Try and talk about good things. Like, I don’t know. Remember in primary school? We played that game in which we could transform into anything. I know that idiot will probably try to make it a big deal, but just talk about our games. I remember once, I’m pretty sure I was some European king in a former life and you wouldn’t believe the…”

As Morgan happily spoke on about the escapades of our youth, I smiled sadly at her. I couldn’t imagine a future without her. Or mum and dad. I had thought knowing for sure that I was Chloe Kendra Padalecki would make sense of everything. I thought finding my real parents would fill up all the missing parts of me.

But Chloe Kendra was just the name of a missing baby.

And my mum isn’t even here anymore.

And I was more alone than ever.

Once lunch was over I said goodbye to Morgan and the Caldwell’s.

“Listen, try to enjoy yourself. I mean, I know it’s easier said than done, but remember, you get to say that your favourite actor is your father. Pretty cool if I say so myself.” Morgan said. I rolled my eyes and smiled at her. My heart was in my throat.

“Don’t go?” I begged. She had tears welling up in her eyes as I had mine.

“Kendra, it’s okay. I promise we’ll be back in the summer. Before you know it. But this one has to get back to school. She’s not exactly at the top of her class.” Morgan’s dad said. I cracked a smile, and Morgan shoved him slightly.

“Dad!” She whined. I smiled and hugged her one last time before they left.

Ava came up to me after that.

“The counsellor’s been called in to an emergency about one of her regulars. You’ll have to see her some other time.” She explained. “Are you all packed?” She asked. I looked down sadly and nodded my head.

I went to my hotel room and picked up my suitcase. Isn’t it strange how this one room felt more like home than either the Padalecki’s or the place I called home for so many years?

I followed Ava out to the car. As she shut me inside it felt like I was being locked into a prison. The journey to the Padalecki’s house seemed to flash by in seconds. I sat in the back of the car with my hands clenched tightly together.

When I saw the yellow ribbon tied round the tree in the Padalecki’s front garden, my heart, already in a mush in my shoes, dribbled out onto the ground. “There’s not going to be a party or anything is there?” I asked Ava.

She shot me a puzzled look. “That ribbon’s been there since Jared moved here and been on every tree on his house ever since you disappeared,” she said. “Didn’t you notice it there before?”

I hadn’t. As we walked through the gates and up the path I saw she was right. The ribbon was faded and stained, and it looked like it had been retied before. “It’s a tradition,” Ava said, “for when people are a long way from home.”

As she rang on the doorbell my heart thumped in my chest. The house seemed quiet, but I was dreading all the people I might have to meet.

Jared Padalecki opened the door almost before Ava stopped pressing the buzzer. He stood back to let me in. I got the same impression I had before. Lots of space and light and polished wooden furniture. This time I noticed a swimming pool through the back-door window.

I stood awkwardly, wondering where everyone else was.

The woman who had spoken to me when I was here before was hanging back by one of the flowery sofas. But I could feel her eyes boring into me. I knew her name was Genevieve Padalecki.

My stepmum. And yet, so not my stepmum.

I looked at the floor wishing I was anywhere else.

Ava said goodbye, but I was trying too hard not to cry that I just wasn’t able to say anything back. Genevieve showed Ava out, then came and held out her hand for my suitcase. I gave it up reluctantly. I still hadn’t spoken.

“Come and sit down. We’re on our own. We thought it would be easier for you.” Jared said. Genevieve put my suitcase by the stairs and led me over to the sofas. I had this strong sense that Jared was dying to hurl himself at me and give me this major hug and was restraining himself with great difficulty. I sat in the corner of the sofa, as far away from him as possible.

I looked down, this tatty friendship bracelet Morgan gave me at the end of year six to make sure we’d always be friends no matter what was still clung around my wrist. The sight of it brought such a lump to my throat that I had to dig my fingers into my palms to stop myself from howling.

“Kendra?” I looked up. Jared was sitting on the sofa opposite me. Genevieve stood behind him, reaching over his shoulder. They were holding hands.

They couldn’t have been more different from mum and dad. Genevieve was obviously much, much younger than mum and really groomed. Her hair was carefully set and her makeup immaculate, right down to the glossy pink lipstick. Jared appeared even younger. He was tall and athletic-looking with dark brown hair that flopped down to Just above his shoulders.

“The counsellor told us you prefer to be called Kendra.” Jared said.

Of course I do, it’s my name.

“Which is fine.” Genevieve added quickly.

“Kendra was your mother’s mom’s name,” Jared went on. “That’s why it’s your middle name. I’m so happy you remembered it – at least, I assume you must have or else…” He looked away. “Her mother wasn’t much older than you when you were born. Nineteen. She was called Kendra after her grandmother. It was her middle name too.”

“Jared.” Genevieve patted her husband on the shoulder.

“Yeah, I’m sorry, I’m just…” A tear trickled down his cheek.

I looked down at my lap. This man was my father. I had to live with him. And he was a complete stranger.

“This is so hard on all of us, Kendra. But… but d- Jared and I want you to know that we love you so, so much.”

You don’t even know me.

I suddenly missed mum and dad unbearably.

Oh god, what if they get sent to prison and I never see them again?

My gut twisted

“We never stopped waiting and searching and hoping and praying you would come home to us. Oh… oh what is it?”

I couldn’t hold the tears back any longer. At the word ‘home’ my whole body just heaved in despair. I bent over, hiding my face, every part of me racked with silent sobs.

And suddenly they were both there, in floods of tears themselves. Jared at my knees, his arms round me, going, “My baby, my baby.” Genevieve’s hand stroking my hair.

It was hideous.

I wanted to scream and yell at them to go away. To let me go home. But what good would it do? Mum and dad were on the run, and probably not allowed to see me even when they get found.

I forced myself to stop crying. I sat up, drew back and wiped my eyes.

When mum and dad get found, they’ll prove their innocence and they can fight for me. The Padalecki’s won’t make me stay. If they really love me, they’ll let me go.

About an hour after I’d arrived, everyone else who was there the other day turned up. Including Jared and Genevieve’s other kids.

I remembered two of them from that day. Thomas, who was confused more than anything else, and little Shep, who had stared at me over the top of the sofa, his eyes as big and as round as a bushbaby’s.

“Are you sure it’s okay?” Thomas asked from the front door.

“Of course, sweetie.” Genevieve stood up. “Come in and meet your big sister properly.”

Thomas shuffled cautiously into the living room. His hair was the same colour brown as Jared’s and he was wearing a teenage mutant ninja turtles costume. I knew from what Jared told me, he was five.

“Hi Chloe.” He blushed. “Oh, I’m sorry. I’m supposed to call you Kendra.”

“Hi.” I said. Then, feeling perhaps I should be a bit more generous, I added: “I’m sure you’ll get used to it.”

Tom���s lip trembled.

“It’s okay, sweetheart.” Jared gave him an enormous hug, then turned to me. “Tom’s just a little emotional right now. He’s only heard stories of you, so this is all kind of strange for him.”

Strange for him?

Thomas fixed me with his round, brown eyes. “I’ve always wanted to meet my big sister.” He said in such a monotone voice that made me wonder whether he actually wanted to, or it’s just what he’s always been told. Either way, it’s quite obvious that he didn’t really care one way or the other.

“Oh, Tom. What a sweet thing to say.” Genevieve hugged him.

I heard a noise behind my chair and looked round. I jumped. Shep was standing by the arm, about half-a-metre away from me.

“Shep, please don’t creep up on people like that,” Genevieve sighed. “I’m going to make some tea. Come through when you’re ready.”

Tom and Jared followed Gen out of the room. I smiled at Shep. “Hi.”

He stared at me.

“So how old are you?” I asked, even though Jared had already told me.

“Three.” Shep still hadn’t taken his eyes off me. “Are you really my sister?”

I nodded.

“I imagined you were a princess.” JJ, Jensen’s daughter said from the door, sucking her thumb.

“Oh. Well… er… I’m not. Sorry, I guess I’m just ordinary.”

They leaned forward, and JJ whispered in my ear. Her breath smelled of strawberry jam. “We could still pretend you are.”

I grinned at them. “Do you two like pretend games?”

Shep nodded solemnly. “I’m going to be an actor when I grow up.”

“Really? D’you like dressing up and stuff?” I asked, remembering how I used to like putting on mum’s old clothes when I was little.

“Some.” JJ tilted her diamond face to one side. “But what we really like is pretending. You know, imagining being other people.”

“Tea’s ready,” Jared called. Shep ran out of the room, and JJ skipped behind him. I followed, watching the way her long blonde hair swung from side to side across her back.

“I hope you talked nicely to Kendra,” Jensen said as JJ sat down at the table. He turned to me. “She’s such a shy little thing.”

“Actually, they were both great,” I said. “They told me… lots of stuff.”

The pair reddened. I tried to smile at them, to reassure them that I wasn’t going to grass them up about their acting ambitions in front of their actor parents. JJ smiled back, but Shep looked away.

Danneel, Jensen’s wife, set down a jug of milk down on the table. As she sat down I noticed a photo from behind her on the windowsill. Without hesitation I got up to look at it. It was quite an old photo. I could tell because it was printed and framed, but the colour of the frame seemed a bit faded. However, it wasn’t old enough that the photo inside it was grainy and of poor quality. No. This picture was of my mum holding me as a baby. And as bad as it was I only had one thought in my head as a looked at her slight double chin.

Great. Just my luck. On top of everything else. Fat genes.

It felt like the whole world was moving even slower than usual as I heard the deafening silence filling the room. But, out of the window I noticed something.

Ava’s car was parking up into the driveway, and as soon as she got out, I could see it in her face that it wasn’t good news.

[kiera-writes]

Connor Murphy x Reader - Freak (FLUFF)

WC: ??? Warnings: lots of swearing (it's Connor, come on now) Summary: (y/n) and Connor work together on a school project about a romance novel... Requested?: on Wattpad ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ First day at a new school and all (y/n) could think of was how huge the place is! From the outside there were three visible floors that stretched across for miles either way. Lost in thought, you fail to notice your childhood friend walk up behind you. "'Sup, (y/n/n)!" The one and only Jared Kleinman says, swinging his arm around your shoulder. You shrug him off, masking a smile. You hadn't seen Jared in years and, though he's clearly still an idiot, you'd kinda missed him. "You got the first day jitters yet?" He jokes at you. "As if. I've moved around since I was 6! I've got this, man." You remark, heading towards the doors as the sharp shrill of the bell chimes. Your first class was English, a subject that always had you caught between love and hate. Stepping into the full room, you scan about to find the one empty seat left. Sat in the chair next to it is a rather tall boy with long brown hair and a huge black jacket on. With a deep breath, you stride towards him, feigning confidence. I hope he doesn't mind... You pull out the chair and sit down with a plonk. Your (f/c) skirt splaying out around you. "Hey," you whisper to him. "I hope you don't mind but there aren't any other seats left in the class." Your attempt to strike up a conversation falls flat as the somewhat moody kid scoffs at you and turns away. "I'm sorry. My name's (y/n)." "Good for you." You hear him mutter under his breath. Now visibly irritated, you turn away and pull out your notebook. Laying it in the middle of your actual work page to disguise the fact you really didn't want to take notes, you begin to scribble rapidly, ideas and images flowing out of your pen like magic. From the corner of your eye, you see the boy turn to you slightly. Page after page fills up, black ink tattooing the clean canvas. "Connor." A rough voice says from beside you. Turning with surprise, you cock your head. "My name. It's, uh, Connor." Slowly, a smile creeps onto your face. "Well, it's a pleasure to meet you!" You exclaim, happy to have drawn some conversation from him. She's new, he had thought to himself, she doesn't know you. She doesn't know that you're a freak, yet. As the class was about to finish, the room filled with idle chatter. Over the top, the teacher was demanding silence and being profusely ignored. "Stop it now, all of you! I have a project to set and if you don't listen, I have half a mind to fail you all now!" That shut everyone up. "Thank you. Now, as I was saying, to help get your creative juices flowing, I will be assigning everyone a classic book for you to review by Monday!" He was met by a collective groan, to which he abhorrently ignored. "I want all of you to pair up now before I start choosing books." Shit... nobody's gonna want to pair with the new kid... Shit... nobody's gonna want to pair with the freak... Gingerly, you turn to Connor and hope he understands what's going through your head. He grants you a small nod, barely noticeable, and with that you have a partner. Standing to leave the room, the teacher turns to the pair of you. "(Y/n) and Connor! Oh you're so lucky! You shall be reviewing the wonderful Pride And Prejudice!" "A love story?" Connor shoots back with disgust. "Yeah. We're sooooo lucky". The sarcasm oozes from his words as he storms off. Behind him, the teacher begins to babble. Something about it being 'so much more than love' or something? "Hey, um, Connor?" You call after him, jogging to keep up with his strides. The boy ignores you, stomping onwards with force. "Connor!" You demand, taken somewhat aback by the power in your voice. "What?!" He snaps back, furiously. You step back nervously before clearing your throat and breathing in. "Doyouwannamaybehavemynumbersowecantalkabouttheprojectandstuff?" You sputter out, praying he understood. Connor looms over you, standing a good foot taller than yourself and cocks his eyebrow. You couldn't tell if it was humour, mockery or plain confusion. "Sorry..." You hang your head. "Do you want my number? So we can talk about the project and stuff?" You try again, retracing your words with caution. You hold your breath, ready for him to shout again but instead, you feel him reach for your arm and roll up the sleeve of your (other f/c) jumper. "W what are you d doing?" You ask, cursing yourself for the stammer. "What does it look like? I don't have any paper so here!" He replies, bluntly. You look down and there, in shimmery numbers, was what could only be his phone number. You turn to smile to him but he's already gone, leaving you alone in the long hallway. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Sat at home on your bed, you put the shining numbers into your phone and type out a message. To: Connor From: (unknown number) Hey, it's (y/n). When do you wanna meet up about the project? X Hoping to god that he actually gave you the right number, you hit send and place your phone behind you. About 10 minutes later, whilst you were sat reading the assigned book, a chirp came from your phone. To: (y/n) From: Connor Idk. Tomorrow, mine? To: Connor From: (y/n) Sounds good. What's ur address? Ping! Connor sent his location We're all set. The following day at school went rather dully. Jared had taken it upon himself to give you a... not so PG tour of the school. He seemed to know just about everything about who hooked up with who and where. He also mentioned Connor briefly, calling him 'freak'. Though not sure why, you found yourself defended him against your childhood friend which earned you a day of teasing. Despite you ensuring him it was no more than a project, he now calls you Mrs Freak. Finally, the last bell rang and you rushed home to get ready. Though not sure why, you felt the need to present nicely today. You slipped on a soft t-shirt with a laced up front in (f/c) and a pair of skinny black jeans. You were just about to leave the door when... Ping! Your phone sang. To: (y/n) From: Connor U don't have 2 come tonight if u don't want. Don't want u getting a bad rep or whatever You blink at the screen, partially confused. Why on earth would you get a bad reputation for hanging with him? To: Connor From: (y/n) Never been one 4 reputation. See u in 5 x You shoot back at him, shaking off the confusion and heading through the door. To you, Connor was an enigma. Something about him seemed so trapped. As though that harsh exterior was masking something. You couldn't help but think about him as you padded down the hot concrete pavement. The way his long hair fell to his shoulders, his sharp bone structure, his perfectly painted nails polished in black. He was kind of cute... Shaking it off with a sigh, you try and divert your mind to the project as you approach the Murphy house. Whatever you do, (y/n), do NOT get a crush on the guy. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Inside of Connor's room was a weird and tense atmosphere. The kid had never had a girl in his room before and so he watched and marvelled as you took in your surroundings. On the walls were rows and rows of book ranging from classic literature to modern comic books. "Wow, Connor!" You gasped, in awe of the arrangements. "This is amazing! I didn't have you pinned as such a reader!" While you spoke, Connor found himself staring into your sparking (e/c) eyes. "Y yeah. I read a lot. It helps with... stuff." He forced out, trailing off at the end before he said too much. "So!" You said suddenly, clapping your hands and swivelling on your heels. "With all of these books, have you ever read Pride And Prejudice?" "I, uh, yeah. I have." He replied, ramming his clammy hands into his jean pockets. Why the fuck are you freaking out?! It's just a dumb project. Not like you'll see her again after this. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Aaaaaand... done!" You sigh, contently. Between you, Connor and you had managed to complete the project in about 2 hours. Though little to your knowledge, Connor had spent a lot more time looking at you than at the screen. In the time it had taken for you to write the review, he had noticed so much about you. The way you'd let your hair fall across your face without noticing from being so distracted. The way you'd bite the inside of your cheek while thinking. Even the way your breathing would pick up as you sped up your typing. He scolded himself for noticing but he found every little detail so... endearing. It felt like the time had gone so fast and, deny it though he might, he didn't want you to leave. "So... you going now or what?" He asked, hating how forceful he sounded. "Oh! Um... I told my parents I'd be back at 8..." You say, embarrassed a little. Glancing at the clock, it read 4:13pm. You had hours left and no way back into your house. "Youcanstay." "I'm sorry, what did you say?" "You can stay here until then. If you'd like... that is?" Connor felt the heat rise in his face, turning away from you in hopes he could mask it. Connor Murphy does NOT blush! Without thinking, you grin wildly and fling your arms around his neck happily. But, like he had burned you, you recoiled quickly, muttering a thousand apologies into your chest. Ah shit... I think I've got a crush! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Moments passed by, feeling like hours, as the pair of you sat in silence. You were certain that the hug had messed things up, unaware of Connor's racing heart. It was him that broke the tension with a quiet fact. "You really seem to get the whole lovey dovey shit in the novel." "Oh! Thank you. It's a better book than I thought it was, actually." You replied, unsure of his point. "Do you... fuck... do you have a boyfriend then?" This takes you by surprise. You open your mouth to tell him but are rapidly cut off by him rambling again. "I mean, it's not like I fucking care! Why should I care? You're probably very happy with him and that's just fucking great, isn't it!!" He erupts, getting louder and harsher with each word. You were baffled by what was happening in front of your eyes. He turns from you, muttering furiously to himself. You catch the odd curse word but nothing more. Slowly, you reach out to touch his arm. Your fingers curl around the black fabric, surprised he hasn't pulled away yet, as you turn him to face you. "Connor..." you begin, nervously. "I don't have a boyfriend. Look, are you oka-" Your words are cut off by his lips pressed to yours. They're oddly soft and you can taste mint and weed in your throat. But as soon as he's there's, he's gone again. "I'm sorry! I didn't know what came over me and I just... maybe it'd be best if-" This time, you're the one to cut him off. You place your lips on his, wrapping your arms around his neck. It takes a moment but soon you feel his arms wrap tightly around your waist. You pull away, putting your forehead against his and smiling. "Thank you..." he breathed so only you could here it. Not wanting to ask what for, you lean your chin on his shoulder as he holds you. Connor wouldn't tell you but he was scared. He clutched onto you like you would just disappear in his arms at any second. He couldn't let that happen. The first person to see him as something other than a freak. He wasn't about to lose you now. Not now, not ever...

[rhina988]

Jealous Much?

“Hi”, I said to a young girl wearing headphones of some kind with a microphone, and holding a big folder. She was running all over the lot, but still the only person I managed to talk to. 

“Hello”, she scanned me from head to toe with her eyes and said “You must be Y/N” she put her hand on my back and took me towards a trailer.

“Yes, that’s me” I said with the biggest smile on my face.

I was on the set of my first big movie. I had one of the 4 leading roles and I couldn’t believe my dream was finally coming true. I’ve been acting for past 4 years, and never had the chance to grab some of the leading roles, until this movie came along. Not only was it a big production, but I am going to have the chance to work with some of the greatest actors and actresses in Hollywood. Jared Leto, Kate Hudson, and Ryan Reynolds were the leads, and I made the final cut for the 4th part. Jared and Ryan played brothers while Kate and I were supposed to be best friends, and fall in love with the two of them. 

I met Ryan during casting, and I was yet to meet Kate and Jared. Ryan was so great and pleasant, I had the felling we’ll have so much fun during the filming. 

“Here we are. This is your trailer. Oh, and I’m Rachel by the way.” she said and went to deal with whatever business she had. And there was some serious preparation, I can tell you that. Never have I ever seen so many people run around getting things done.  

“My trailer” I said out loud and giggled a bit.

“Yap, your very own trailer” I heard a male voice and blushed instantly. That wasn’t supposed to be heard by anyone. Crap, I made a complete fool out of myself.

I turned around and saw Ryan Reynolds. Thank God it wasn’t someone else. Even though we didn’t know each other that well, he knew this was my first big movie role, so he wouldn’t tease me for this little blur up, for sure. 

“That must’ve sounded ridiculous, right?” I said and put my hands on my cheeks looking at him with a bit of embarrassment. 

“Not at all. It was cute actually. Don’t worry, we’ve all been there. I can still remember the first time I came to a big set. The best feeling ever. So, have you met the rest of the cast?”

“Not yet. I just got here. Are they even here yet? I thought I was gonna be here much earlier. I just couldn’t wait any longer.”

“Ha ha ha, you’’ll never come to the set earlier than you’re supposed to. Trust me. ”he said and waved his head.

“What do you mean?” I was a bit confused.

“You’ll be so exhausted from the scenes, but mostly from the waiting in between the takes, that you’ll be here on time, or even late sometimes. You’ll spend as much time away from the set as possible. Trust me.”

“I don’t know. I love hanging out with the cast and crew. We could totally make these few months the best time ever.” I said eager to start with the shooting. 

“You’re gonna be one of the favorites, I can tell. You’re so friendly.” Ryan said and rubbed my back. He was such a sweetie. 

“C’mon, I wanna show you around”, we started walking down the “streets of New York”. It was absolutely amazing. I actually felt like I was walking down the Upper East Side, how well-built everything was. 

As we were strolling down the empty New York, suddenly we saw Jared Leto coming towards us.

“Here comes our fellow cast member” Ryan said and smiled as he saw Jared approaching.

“Hey man” Jared greeted Ryan and gave him a hug.

“Hey, yourself. Jared, please meet our charming co-star Y/N.”  Ryan said and pointed at me.

“Hi, Y/N, I’m Jared. Nice to meet you.” he said and offered me a handshake.

“Likewise. I’m so glad we’ll have the chance to work together. I’ve been a great fan of your previous work.” I was so excited to finally meet him. Kate was the one I still haven’t met, and I couldn’t wait to see what she’s like.

“Thanks, I felt like this type of movie would be something refreshing, so you’ll be able to see me in something a bit different.”

“Well, now all we have to do is find Kate, so we could all get to know each other a little better and go through a script a bit.”, Ryan said and we started going towards Kate’s trailer to see if she’s there.

Ryan knocked on the door and Kate opened it. Finally, we were all together.

“Well, well, miss Hudson. finally .” Ryan said and laughed a bit.

“Hey guys, are we starting already?” she asked and stepped outside “Hi, you must be Y/N, I’m Kate” she said an hugged me. “I can’t wait for us to start working, I can already feel the chemistry between us. You’re really cute, and I think you’re absolutely the right choice for this role.”

“Thanks, nice to meet you as well. I’m really flattered, but let’s not jinx anything. I’ve been under a lot of pressure as it is, with all of you here.” I said and suddenly felt a hot flash.

“Oh honey, don’t worry about a thing, anything you need we’re here to help you and guide you through it. Right guys?” Kate asked Ryan and Jared.

“Absolutely. Don’t hesitate to ask whatever you need help around”, Jared said and pulled me close to him rubbing my right arm. 

“Thanks, you’re all so sweet.”

I felt so comfortable around them. This was definitely gonna be one of my favorite projects. So, after all four of us met we went to rehearsal, and tried out a few scenes. First there were Kate and myself having coffee at the coffee place, and later all four of us shot the scene where Kate and I met Ryan and Jared. The whole time while Kate and I were in our coffee place scene Ryan and Jared stayed there to observe us. Every time I’d glance at them I could see Jared looking at me carefully. He barely got his eyes off me, except when I directly looked at him, then he’d pretend to look at his phone or just take his eyes away. I thought he’s maybe gonna have some advice for me, or something, but he didn’t say a thing except that both Kate and I were great.

As the movie progressed, Jared and I got closer together. A week after we started shooting he decide to take me out for a coffee. I found this gesture really nice and accepted it. I couldn’t wait to hear how he felt about my acting. 

“This is a great coffee place, I love it. It’s so cozy and off the radar. Do you come here often?” I asked and sipped a bit of coffee.

“Yeah, it’s my favorite place. Nobody here really cares about famous people, and paparazzi never show up, so I like to hang out here sometimes.” Jared said and sipped his coffee.

“So, are you satisfied with the movie so far?” I was curious to know how he felt about the entire progress.

“Absolutely. The four of us really clicked perfectly. I love working with all of you. I’d just wish I ‘d have more scenes with you... to see how we’d look on screen... you know” Jared said and gave me the cutest grin. I blushed a little. 

“That would be interesting. Who knows, maybe we get to have some exciting scene in the future. I haven’t really gotten the time to go over all the scenes yet. Plus, they always write more, and delete some of the existent ones... you never know what we might get to film.” I said and thought about Jared and me alone in the scene. Now that he mentioned it, it would be kinda cool. He was always so great to work with alongside the others, but it’ll be a challenge to see the other possibility.

Suddenly our phones buzzed at the same time. It was time to go back to the set. That’s what you get when you’re in the movie industry. You can never be 100% sure that you have a time off. 

“OK, so that’s the one where Ryan and I kiss right? The date is over and he kisses me even though I thought he wouldn’t?” I asked the director.

“Exactly. Do you need more time to prepare?” he asked me.

“No, I’m fine. I’m not sure about Ryan though... Where is...”

“No need, I’m all set”, Ryan came behind me and hugged me.

“Oh, hey. OK, let’s get down to work”

Both Jared and Kate were here as well, because the next scene was again with all of us together. As the director explained where Ryan and I should stand, and how he should pull the sudden kiss on me, I saw with the corner of my eye that Jared watches carefully my every move, and listens to every word the director was telling. 

We did most of the scene, and it was time for the kiss. We did it once, and the director wasn’t happy with the shot. He said we need to look like there’s bigger passion between us. So, we did it again. This one was OK, but not as good as he’d wanted it, so we had to kiss again. After the second kiss Jared left the set. I could see Kate’s confused face, because Jared literally just stormed out of the room. It was probably some private problem. Ryan and I finally finished the scene and made it happen. The director was thrilled, and we could move on to the next one.

After a half an hour break, we all changed into our night outfits and went to shoot a scene at the night club where all four of us would be on a double date. When Jared showed up he looked so handsome. He was wearing a black on black combination and my jaw literally dropped open when I saw him.

“Sorry guys, we’re all done for today. We’ll have to leave this scene for tomorrow.” the director shouted through a megaphone. Nevertheless, I couldn’t keep my eyes off Jared. He was talking to some of the assistants of the director and other crew members and some of them were openly hitting on him. Surprisingly, this bothered me a bit. I mean, I never thought about Jared in this way, but the way he was laughing with them and how the girls touched him from time to time, I felt a bit disturbed.

“Well, I guess that’s it for today. I’ll see you tomorrow partner.” Ryan said kissed my cheek. 

“Yeah, see you tomorrow” I said and smiled. When I glanced at Jared he had this weird look on his face, like he was a bit jealous because I was so close to Ryan. I mean, nothing was going on between us, obviously. He’s happily married, with two kids, and I would never be the one to mess that up. Plus we were really getting along as siblings, off camera. Still, every time Ryan would touch me Jared would make this strange face.

Buzz, buzz

“Hello? Oh, hi mom. Yeah, I’m on the set, just finishing up for today. I was about to call and let you know I won’t be coming home until next month. It’s been crazy around here. Yeah, say hi to dad for me. I’ll keep you posted. Love you too, buy.”

“Your boyfriend misses you, huh?” suddenly I heard Jared’s voice behind me.

“Wow, you scared me. I didn’t see you coming. Um, no, it was my mom. Just checking up on me.” I said and saw this as a clear sign Jared’s interested in me, but I wasn’t gonna make it easier for him. I think I kinda liked him too, but I wasn’t sure yet. 

“And your boyfriend doesn’t check up on you?”

“No, he doesn’t.” I said and waved with my head, waiting for Jared’s reaction. He just sighed, put his hands in his pockets and nodded.

“Right...”

“I mean. he probably would if I had one.” I said and smiled. Jared lifted his head up and put on a big smile.

“So, you’re single?”

“I am... for now.”

My phone rang again and it was my BFF so I answered immediately, since we didn’t really have time to catch up. 

“Hello?” I said and started walking towards the exit, but I turned to wave Jared goodbye. “See you tomorrow”, I said, smiled and walked outside.

Tomorrow morning I came to the set early, and despite what Ryan told me the first day, I could never get tired of this place. If anything, I became more addicted to it by the day. The people were fabulous, and the energy was extraordinary. As I was going through the script I saw a love scene between me and Ryan, but the one between Jared and Kate as well. The mere thought of Jared and Kate together kinda gave me a hot flash. Well, actually, the hot anger flash. Jealousy, to be exact. That’s what went on, no matter how much I denied it. I didn’t wanna be the one who started a relationship on her first big movie, but I had little to say about it. My heart was already fluttering at the single thought of Jared.

Knock, knock

“Come in” I said from the inside of my trailer when I saw Jared at the door.

“Well, good morning miss Y/N. You sure are an early bird, aren’t you. Here you go.” Jared said and set next to me on the couch giving me a cup of coffee.

“Thanks.  Yeah, I like to come here early and get wrapped up in the script and the story. It helps me focus better in the next scenes.” I said and looked at him when I felt my cheeks burning. I could totally see them blush so I turned my head and started to talk about the scrips. “So, we’re filming the love scenes today, huh?”

“We are? I didn’t realize that was today? Wait, all four of us?”

I was just about to swallow my coffee when he said it, so I almost choked on it, and started coughing and laughing at the same time.

“My God, I hope not.” I laughed and looked at him with raised eyebrows. Then he realized what I had in mind. 

“Ha ha ha, you little pervert, I didn’t mean all four of us together. ” Jared said and took the script away from me. “Let me see.”

As he went through it, his reactions were getting worse. His frowns went from surprised to completely disturbed. Then he closed it and left it aside.

“Well, the director really wants us to make some hot romance, doesn’t he” Jared said and got off the couch.

“Yeah, it’s gonna be really steamy.” I said and drank some more coffee. I have to say Jared was so cute pacing around,  all jealous. Now there was no doubt he liked me. But why didn’t he say anything? Or asked me out?

“Well, since we have some time before the filming starts, we could go have breakfast. Are you hungry?” There we go. Not that breakfast could actually count as a date, especially since we never had an actual first date, but it’ll do for now.

“Famished. Let’s go.”

We came to a little cafe and ordered some pancakes and fruit. Then we started to talk.

“So, what about your love life? Seeing anyone special?” I decided to cut to the chase fast, since he already knew I was single.

“No, not really” he was intentionally being vague.

“Not really?” I asked and raised my right eyebrow. 

“Exactly. I think you know what I mean. I am not dating anyone, but you know, I have my needs as every other man. Or a woman.” he said and looked at me implying he had casual sex, as well as I probably did. Well, he wasn’t far from the truth.

“Right. Still, I’d like to have someone by my side. Sometimes it’s much easier to share everything with a special person” I said and looked him flirtatiously.

“I know what you mean. It’s just that, until recently I haven’t met anyone like that” Jared said and looked deep into my eyes. If this wasn’t a confession, I don’t know what is. 

“Yeah, me neither.” I said and leaned my head giving him the biggest smile.

After the breakfast it was filming time. We arrived at the studio chuckling and still talking about everything. Kate noticed the way we were acting around each other and couldn’t help but comment on it.

“Well, someone’s been really chummy lately, huh?” she teased us.

“I couldn’t help it. She’s absolutely adorable.” Jared said and grabbed me from behind kissing my temple.

“Stop it, Jared.” I chuckled and tried to get out of his embrace, but he wouldn’t let me go.

“OK people, let’s get naked.” the director came and started clapping his hands.

Wow, that soon. Well, let’s make some magic.

“OK, it’s showtime guys. Ryan I think we’re up first.”  I said and looked at Jared. He was seriously pissed off. 

We were shooting the scene and as I got undressed Jared become more upset than he used to be. The moment Ryan layed his hands on me I could notice Jared became more nervous by the second. I had to be perfectly concentrated for the next couple of takes, so I didn’t pay attention to the people behind the cameras. Once the director said “Cut” I looked and saw Jared was not in his seat. I put a robe on and walked to Kate.

“So, what did you think?” I asked for her opinion and sat in my seat next to her.

“That was some serious action going on there” she said and nudged me with her elbow.

“Ha ha ha, that’s called acting.” I said and flicked my hair.

“Yeah, you were so convincing that Jared left after two minutes.”

“Why would he leave?” I played like I didn’t know what she meant by that.

“Oh please, Y/N. We can all see how fond of each other you two are. He’s obviously bothered by all the on screen chemistry you and Ryan share.”

She was dead on. Right to the point. Just to think that this is exactly what her and Jared are about to film, gave me the same anxiety and frustration as mine and Ryan’s scene gave him. Suddenly I saw Jared walk in and he wasn’t so happy.

“Hey Kate, are we on?” he didn’t even look at me. Like it was my fault I had to do what I did.

“Yeah, in a couple of minutes.”

“So, where did you go, all of a sudden?” I was curious.

“I needed some air. It was really... steamy in here”, Jared answered and raised his eyebrow.

Kate and him were called to film, and now it was my turn to go through an agony. Jared had the ability to get inside the character so easily, that you could barely recognize him when the cameras were on. I tried to play cool, but the more steamier the scenes were, the less I was able to watch. I tried to distract myself with my phone, but it wasn’t so helpful since I could still hear everything that was going on under the spotlight. Finally, when the scene was wrapped up I jumped off my chair and went to the trailer. 

I took a glass of water and sat on the couch, still wearing my robe. I went through my hair with my fingers and leaned my head against the back of the couch. Million thoughts came to my mind. Why was I so jealous of his chemistry with Kate, or why was he so bothered by mine and Ryan’s chemistry? Jared and I were also feeling sparks between each other, so there’s really no reason we should be hiding it anymore.

Knock, knock

I didn’t even get the chance to say “come in” because Jared got inside on his own. Well, at least he had the decency to knock.

“You’re supposed to wait for me to say that you can come in. Where are your manners?” I got up and crossed my arms over my chest. Jared just took me by my waist and pulled me closer to him. I was instantly on fire, and couldn’t move an inch. His eyes were locked on mine and I could feel the fire burning inside him as well.

He cupped my cheeks and kissed me with such passion I immediately felt like I was melting in his arms. He broke the kiss, and slowly parted his lips from mine. He looked at me, still holding my face.

“I’ve been dying to do this the entire day” Jared said and licked his lips. Then he kissed me again softly. Suddenly, this robe felt so constrictive. I needed to get out of it because my body was on fire. Not to mention that the fact that Jared was also wearing his robe, made this entire situation even more intense.

Nevertheless, I managed to calm myself down a little, because I knew we were surrounded by an entire cast and crew outside. This would be the least appropriate moment for us to have sex. 

“I thought you weren’t so cool about those sex scenes, and I was right. ” I said and smirked at him.

“I’d be cool with our sex scene. If you know what I mean?” he said and kissed me again running his fingers through my hair. While I wanted him so much, I couldn’t let myself let that carried away. So, I broke the kiss and moved away from him.

“Yeah, I know exactly what you mean. And I’d be cool with it, but not now. Or here for that matter.” I said and sat on the couch

“You’re right. This is not the time or the place. I guess we should at least have a date first, right?” he said and sat next to me, wrapping his arm around my shoulders.

“Absolutely. A date sounds great.” I said and leaned to his shoulder.

“OK then, tomorrow night. You, me, 8 o’clock.”

We both looked at each other and laughed. There’s no such thing as a scheduled date when you’re in the middle of movie making.

“How about, tomorrow, whenever we’re done with the scenes. We could go to my place, if it gets too late” Jared suggested.

“Deal. Tomorrow after the shoot” I said and kissed him quickly.

Well, this was gonna be interesting. I can’t even imagine how the press is gonna react to the two us dating. I just hope they don’t catch us until we can realize what this was gonna grow into. But judging by the way we were so jealous this early on, I could guarantee that our relationship is going to be extremely passionate and intense. I don’t think you could get anything else with Jared anyway. 

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