#and also anything that's more rambling goes into the tags!!

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

HFKSHIDJDJ I really, really enjoy reading your ramblings in the tags after I finish reading your writings :∆

hehe thank you it's where i put all the unorganized thoughts that i couldn't fit into the writing/brainrot itself :D i am glad you find them enjoyable :)

[daily-odile]

Odile patting Molly Epithet Erased on the head, you know why

have two bc i care them

[kenobihater]

of all the star wars movies, which of them do y'all 1) enjoy the most 2) consider the best quality and 3) think you've rewatched the most. add your answers in the reblogs or replies, i'm genuinely curious how much of an overlap there is within everyone's three answers. mine don't overlap at all! they're revenge of the sith, empire strikes back, and the force awakens :^)

[henriiiii-1001]

oc ask game for Adam and Estrella!

betrayal and skin

oooo ty for the ask!!!

betrayal: both adam and estrella experiences betrayal differently; estrella was betrayed by her former husband, as he promised to be there for her and eva but never acted upon those promises. adam was the one to betray someone, specifically his many lovers. he’s even betrayed one of his contractees, and as much as he hates to admit it, he regrets it every single time.

skin: stella is p comfortable w her current self, at least in terms of her body. their feelings towards their morals are constantly changing, but thats a different can of worms i might open one day. as for adam, he’s constantly trying to fight an urge he’s never able to hold back for long. lilith can deal w this urge a lot better than him. but the more adam lets the urges take over, the more he loses the humanity he’s been fighting to keep for about two decades.

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

the sensible part of my brain is like maybe I should fess up to my doctor at the appointment tomorrow and the part of my brain that got me into this mess in the first place is like no absolutely cannot do that until it's got bad enough it should have got stitches again (but unless I hit a vein I am not going to get stitches)

[s0ckh3adstudios]

AHH THE STUFF YOU PUT IN TAGS OH MY GOODNESS….. that is so nice and wonderful to hear thank you 100000 times forever…... I am so glad to be a rayman fan these games are so awesome and it’s SO COOL YOU RECOGNISE MY ART…. i will definitely be posting some more stuff at one point as i learn more about the games so stay tuned :DDD AND THANK YOU AGAIN YOU ARE SO KIND !!!!!!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Also ps tysm for saying my globox design is shaped. He is my favourite i love that fucking thang

HEHEHGJFKGH!!! HELLO HI!!! YOU UNDERSTANDD these games are such gems people do not talk about them enough. HEHEHJHGE IT'S SO FUNNY THAT I RECOGNIZED YOUR ART the Pizza Tower to Rayman pipeline is real. I saw your art get reblogged on my dash and was like OMG THAT ARTIST GOT INTO RAYMAN????

I AM STAYING TUNED!!! Sitting patiently looking respectfully and politely. your Globox is so shaped it's true I am a huge fan. i love Globox he's such a funny character to me (design wise AND based on the stuff he got up to in the older games)

[docpepion]

[goldiipond]

there are endless possibilities for ray interactions w other characters living in my mind at any given moment its crazy. like theres the obvious trio stuff like norman and ray have a friendly rivalry of sorts and fuck around w each other but still very obviously care abt each other. and emma and ray are just the besties ever full stop they are everything to me <3

but also. ray and don go from a tragically strained relationship to infodumping to each other about anything they can think of. don carries ray around sometimes and he does not object to this. ray goes on shopping trips with gilda and anna. gilda does his makeup sometimes. singing is something extremely personal to ray but if he ever got the confidence to share it w others i think him and nat would make kickass songs together n perform them to the rest of their family. rays relationship w thoma and lanni is so funny in canon but i think its underappreciated. jemima basically becomes ray's shadow after the escape they are the siblings ever <3 i think they'd do photography together too. i need ray to have a talk with phil abt the two years he stayed behind at gracefield good god.

ray and nigel are both supremely autistic and good w mechanical stuff if they started talking i dont think you’d get them to stop. ray and pepe are best cooking buddies. ray and violet are similar in pretty much every way they are best friends. ray and ayshe because that one offscene of them talking abt their respective parents makes me insane but also like. just look at them. 

anyway i think its very nice tht a character who spent the first 12 years of his life in crushing loneliness ends up with such a massive family that loves him so so much. endless friendship upon you for the rest of your life boy!!!

[unxpctedlygreat]

His Majesty's Shields hanging out

[theunconcernedembalmer]

Hey, is there any other blogs or media I could possibly follow you on? I really love your art and never get the chance to send an ask (couldn't keep up with IDV after a while). Feel free to ignore if anxious though.

Hey there my dude! Thanks so much for this message and liking my art, no worries about the ask thing cos im also very anxious when it comes to sending stuff aha. Answering is much easier XD

Anyway! I too kind of stopped following idv for a bit. But just in case, my other two idv blogs (@the-count-desaulnier and @the-bloodline-embrace) are there. Fortunately or unfortunately im not on any other platforms, but recently i revived my very dead art blog (@betheflyinggrapes) from 5 or 7 years ago since i have a new chew toy character, so theres that. Just. Please dont scroll too far down. My art from 10 years ago is. Quite disastrous aha

I'll still be here though!! When there's asks in the inbox i will eventually get to them. Eventually being the key word.

[highlifeboat]

No thoughts only under appreciated OC Elizabeta

[walkeddeath]

meta • mental profile :: ADHD  a chunk is under the cut because this ended up being 3 pages. it's not even all i wanted to talk about. ask to tag if i don't tag something !!

　　gen was diagnosed early, at about 6 years old, but only due to her father stepping in and refusing to let it go unchecked. they had been struggling in school to a severe degree, getting into fights, having breakdowns over tiny little things that to her made sense to break down over, and couldn't seem to keep friends if she was even able to make them. her mother fought against it, refused to accommodate it, denied it up until her death.

　　gen has known since she was diagnosed that she has adhd. still, never getting proper or remotely adequate assistance or help made it hard for her to accept that the majority of her "bad" behaviors were related. once she was able to do her own research, she pieced things together, but going through life unmedicated and continuous gaslighting attempts left a considerable impact on how she handles it all. 

　　therapy helps, meds help, but she still struggles day to day. emotional regulation, object permanence, and RSD are the primary things that cause the most issue, she has frequent crying episodes that seem to just come out of nowhere, forgets things constantly even if she's just seen it / interacted with it, and has a hard time dealing with others even begin slightly upset with her/ feeling like she's done something to push someone away. if it gets too intense, she withdraws. she flees.

　　she has rage episodes that are heightened by not just trauma but also her powers. a lot of it is tied to control and losing it. also feeling super overwhelmed / too tired. sometimes it's just because she hasn't eaten that day, or one too many things has happened and she can't handle it.  she will lash out if everything gets to that specific and undefined level of too much, and depending on the situation this can be verbal or sometimes physical.

　　90% of the time, physical reactions are directed at herself. she'll throw things / break things, though this is more a thing when she's younger. she does not use this as an excuse for any hurt or upset she might cause another person, but it is an explanation and a reason. they have been working on this in therapy for around 9 years, ever since her mother died and she was able to get help.

　　ALONG WITH THIS - she has a hard time with remembering dates no matter how important they might be. they forget they need to go to the bathroom, need to eat, need to blink at times. it's all very frustrating to them and they have a hard time letting others help them with all of it. she had to do it all on her own growing up, anytime she did let someone close it was just an inevitable that they would give up. it would get to be too much. so somewhere along the way she just... stopped asking for help. it never felt like anyone could hear her no matter how loud she screamed so, she just decided to save her energy, save herself from the hurt of not being listened to. shut off. 

　　they have their coping skills and some are good some bad, as she gets further into therapy there's an increase in the good and a decrease in the bad, but, some are still there. 

　　they have a tendency to get attached to others, they don't like it, and when things go too well or are too good, she bolts. she's working on this, at least to a degree. it isn't just the attachment but also the need for novelty, for something new that constantly pushes her to running and finding something that can fill a little empty part of her, and it hurts them to do it but they don't know how else to handle it. they do not and will never intentionally want to hurt someone that they love. it just happens sometimes, and she has to deal with the fallout, and it hurts. 

　　her overtalking and overexplaining is both due to the adhd and cptsd, but, it's mostly just how she expresses feeling comfortable. if she's able to just talk without filtering the speed or length at which she talks, it means she feels like she's in a safe space to do so. most of her hyperfixations are things that she won't share unless she's close to a person, they're on the odder side of things, but there are some that are really the only thing she wants to talk about the majority of the time.

　　 they will shove into a conversation at incorrect times, so, they do sometimes have a tendency to not talk. if they don't know how to enter a conversation, they'll avoid it, and if they don't there's a high chance she'll start talking over the other person. she doesn't intend to do this and ends up overapologizing for it.

　　she is not afraid to talk about her struggles and her diagnosis, she encourages others to talk about theirs, but does understand if it's not something someone wants to discuss. they do, from time to time, slip into a doom / rumination mode. it's something that she just has to ride out. all she needs is someone to support that she's having a hard time, not try and fix it all immediately.

　　there's a lot more to it all, but, this is some of the more important big things. i'll talk about the smaller things in another post. 

[axellis-archv-2]

a moment abt overhalliday if you dont mind but its in the tags bc im embarrassed sowwy..

[glimmeringtwilight]

So i'm not going to do a follower celebration until I finish the halloween pieces for the month (I go on vacation tomorrow, planning to get the bulk of it done on vacation and then I'll post them all a handful of days apart) but gkdkdksk jesus 😭

I didn't even have time to do anything for 600 because 700 snuck up so quick GJDHFKS

I appreciate it sm though 😭 I can't promise anything on a big scale bc I thought I'd have more time for a cyoa type thing before 1k, but I'll try to keep doing polls at least as thanks and so you all get more input on what I work on next

[demonio-fleurs]

it is so wild to me seeing people treat bi weekly or monthly released manga as some new phenomenon that has only existed within the last 5 years

[floral-hex]

So this is my thing now, I’m afraid to go to sleep. This is kinda bullshit, brain.