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chiricat · 6 months

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acheswan 🔥

#cat’s art #penacony #honkai star rail #hsr #hsr fanart #acheron #black swan #acheswan #it's been a while... alas #i've either been super busy or having generally less than pleasant feelings about my art ...#enough about that though #MY PROTAG NUIS CAME!!!! THEY ARE SO CUTE AND LOVELY AND SOFT #and i'm almost finished with p3re! I'M SCARED... EVERYONE ALWAYS SAYS THAT THEY WERE BAWLING AT THE ENDING SCENES #also what is wrong with ryomina. RYOJI IS SO FUNNY LIKE BRO... BRO? ARE YOU G #will i be able to ryomina or will i get paralyzed by “they're too beautiful and i could never do them justice” ... find out next time

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hood-ex · 11 months

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The desire to have a No Capes AU where the Titans crew go to a boarding school and sneak out at night to read poetry in a cave...

#yes i just watched dead poets society again and yes it made me think some thoughts #no but i can't even think about it properly because that movie always makes me cry so much and now i've got a headache #like literally as soon as the play is over and neil heads for his dad's car--i start crying and i can't stop #and then comes the iconic ''o captain my captain'' scene at the end and i start bawling again #it's just!! so unfair!! and i fuckin love charlie bro!! this time i watched the movie--i noticed something i didn't before #and it's that when all the boys are singing at the school in remembrance of neil--all the guys from the club are singing #EXCEPT FOR CHARLIE!!#just like how when they were doing that exercise on being nonconforming--all the boys were trying to walk around in their own style #EXCEPT FOR CHARLIE!#because charlie was like hey i'm exercising my right to NOT do this exercise--and it's the same thing in the singing scene!!#he's exercising his right to not make himself sing the song when he damn well doesn't feel like it #yeeees nuwanda!!! you go king!!#No Capes AU

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fitpacs · 3 months

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#i’m reflecting on yesterday rn #and i could honestly bawl my fucking eyes out because of the appreciation i feel from this community #if i may open up a little #i’ve always felt very isolated in life #both irl and online in communities i’ve always felt on the outskirts #never been anyone’s first second or third choice #and yesterday just made me feel the opposite #i’ve only been on qsmpblr since january and tk get the outpouring of love i received yesterday #it blows my fucking mind #if i’m being honest again i don’t feel like i deserve it #but regardless i am so fucking grateful to the people in this community - the strangers and the people i call friends alike #just thank you for making me feel valued and appreciated as a person #because i’ve not felt that for a very long time #and i’m just an anonymous person on the internet with a chay pfp #there’s nothing else identifiable about me #and yet people still give a shit? people went out of their way to wish me hbd and created things for me?#honestly i’m tearing up rn because of it #so just thank you - these things may just not even have crossed your mind as something special to have done #but to me they mean the entire fucking universe #so thank you from the bottom of my heart - i will never shut the fuck up about the love respect and appreciation i have for qsmpblr #because that’s all i’ve received in turn and i am still not used to that #i’ll shut up now but thank you again to absolutely everyone #if there is anything i can do to repay you for the endless kindness you show me please let me know

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yuukimiyas · 6 months

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g’mornie!! ໒꒰ྀི ◜ ‧̮ ◝ ꒱ྀིა its another lovely day in april!! i hope you all have the v best day EVER!! <33

#ᕱ⑅ᕱ.* journals!#tw mental health!#hi hi hiii ik i said i was makin my way back here !! & i am!! i just was hit w a lot of personal/emotional stuff these past 2 wks :’<#& i wanna jazz up my theme & do sm more on here !!! but the depression!! ໒꒰ྀི ◞ ‸ก ྀི꒱ა #i got a lot of super sweet askies & i bawled readin them w my bf bc i feel like a shell of a moot ://#i hope you guys aren’t too mad at me !! i do v much miss you all literally ALWAYS ໒꒰ྀིஇ﹏இ`꒱ྀི১ #i go into work today at 1 so i hope i can do stuff on here !!#i MOST DEF have inboxies to stop by!! ૮꒰ྀི ∩៸៸៸∩ ‎꒱ྀིა eep!! overwhelmed!!!! but i forever have sm love for you all!!!#i totes understand those who unfollowed/uninterested in my bloggie :’< but i hope to bring sunshine back to your dashes soon !!

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acourtofquestions · 4 months

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Currently on Chapter 59 of Heir of Fire & I’d be lying if I said I haven’t been crying since Celaena fell asleep in Rowan’s arms up in that tree😂🤣🥹😭🖤 just tooooooo much to say — Abraxos flying with Manon — Dorian & Sorscha — the kitty-cat friend🤣 — all of Aelin facing the Valg — she has short red hair now (?) & like the least of changes as she said, but also POWER MOVE — & just UGHAJABSNWLWN *keyboard smash head desk* … 9 chapters left, then on to Queen of Shadows😬😆

#Heir of Fire #HoF #reading reacts #TOG #currently reading #Chapter 59 #Throne of Glass series #Throne of Glass #first read #Aelin Galathynius #Celaena Sardothien #Aelin Ashryver Galathynius #why do they always forget the Ashryvers #read with me #Rowan Whitethorn #I wish they would just kiss but I know they won’t because this next book has to be about her not a love interest but her and grief and heal #Dorian Havilliard #the part where he calls her friend THIS MAN he already decided and she did too long ago that she would not let the ignored prince be alone #Sorscha #why do I feel like Sorscha is a spy and the one Celaena sends letters too #Chaol Westfall #the part where he said go to ellywe like yes this man has made mistakes and doesn’t know what the heck his plans are but he gets points #Aedion #Aedion Ashryver #im going to bawl like a baby when they reunite cause their friendship & love hits different like when they said your Aedion #Manon Blackbeak #Abraxos #queen flying with the thirteen let’s go minus the fact I’m afraid Celaena will be her mark then add the Crochan incident & weve got danger #what the heck is a blood oath I don’t wanna know why is everyone’s freedom getting sold the world needs Aelin and here she is but first she #must face Celaena and Arobynn and I have a bad feeling that’s gonna become the worst moment but she will rise like a pheonix

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ace-with--a-mace · 3 months

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houses head wilsons heart crushed me wtf doctors...

#this isnt supposed to happen bro i watched this show as a joke #because of tiktok because i love robert sean leonard #why am i bawling because of this man bro its always robert sean leonard media #ive only cried for neil perry and james wilson wtf man #i didnt even like amber i didnt hate her but my fave was mormon cole i wanted him to wij #i knew 13 would get the spot cuz ive heard her name before from tumblrinas i knew forman had a spot #i thought there was 1 spot left and i wanted cole #i didnt hate amber she chased what she wanted i respect it #her death was sad like her pills killed her ya but oh gee wilson im #AND THEN I WATCH FUCKING S5E1 WILSON LEAVES?? “i dont think we ever were friends” OH MY #im not supposed to be crying over this fuckass show what the fuck #ive binged 4 seasons #in 1 week #i hate middle aged gay white men what the hell this isnt allowed in my pride month #and i already know how the series ends like i have moots who reblog stuff here and there so i have a bit of knowledge #KUTNER DIES?? I LOVE HIM I HAVENT EVEN WATCHED S5E2 HE CANT DIE #and 13 has a disease thats gonna kill her. taub gets on my nerves. wilson gets cancer and house fakes his death #i know all of that but what do you mean kutner dies. that's not even fair #its always the men of color in this show i dont even know if i wanna finish it (i will by the end of the month)#l speaks #shut up l #house md #hatecrimes md #spooky liveblogs (kind of)

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sieglinde-freud · 9 months

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hey guys i just beat fire emblem fates revelation again. feels good. what do you mean “beat chapter 18 and continue progression” what the hell is that

#ann plays fates #kicking my feet giggling squealing twirling my hair blushing etc etc whatever else girls do #they r so important to me… laslow nyx support chain u will always be famous #i get to their A support and i immediately start bawling #ugh… anyways so now i have to go through and get all the other supports #which ive been able to speed up through cheats thank god #but now im just. spoiled for choice #i can do ANYTHING and thats scary #its not as daunting in awakening where the cast is smaller and i have very clear favs #i have my favorite pairings for fates but its only a handful and the rest are just like. five THOUSAND options #god. its fun tho this isnt a complaint its just. WOW. okay!!!!

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mitskijamie · 1 year

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Casting went crazy jamie looks so much like georgie

I KNOW RIGHT!!!!!! He's mummy's boy 🥰🥰

#ask #i feel like people always compared Jamie to Georgie when he was little but once he got older and they grew apart and he got closer to James #everyone always told him he looked like James #and he just kind of internalized it like he's been hearing it since he was 12 years old and he has his name anyway so it makes sense #of course he has his face. they're the same person #and he bleaches his hair and cuts it short because James always wore it long and dark and he pierces his ears bc James would never do that #etc etc #but after roy and keeley meet georgie like at the cocktail bar or whatever roy is like 'you look Just like your mum'#and Keeley's like 'yes oh my god you're identical'#and it's the first time he's heard that in years and he's tipsy and it's been a crazy emotional week so he just starts bawling

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lucyvaleheart · 9 months

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#sigh. another vent post....#almost getting tired of making these but. I'm just.... I just don't really have much else I can do without botherin people #uh pretty big trigger warning for this one BTW #don't read on if you're low on spoons and whatnot. genuinely it's fine and I will be fine I always am #but like. yknow. when shit sucks it fucking sucks #anyway. uh. I just can't stand the idea that I might be bothering someone #so at least this way my stupid cries for help have a possibility of getting me some without making any specific #person feel obligated. yknow? maybe you see the post maybe you don't #Maybe you don't read all the way maybe you do. either way you can choose if you have the spoons to reach out #without feeling guilty either way. I hope.#.......i kind of want to fucking kill myself again #.....it used to be a much rarer thought. and I used to be much less struck by intense loneliness and longing like this #but I just feel so fucking needy. so desperate for attention and love and it hurts so much if I don't get it #and like. it's realistically nobody's fault but my own yknow... i need to ask for it more. i know that. i just suck at it #and then I can't ask. so I don't get attention. and in turn I feel neglected. secondary. like I'm not anyone's primary focus #and it just fucking hurts so much and it's just my own damn fault and I don't know how to fix it.#......i do. I need therapy I need meds or something. that's the answer here really #picked out a psychiatrist. need to call and make an appointment. but adhd and executive function and anxiety (that last one I need meds for)#mean it's very hard to both remember and then actually perform the task of calling the fucjing Dr #......believe me I'm trying.....like fuck I'm trying so hard.... and I started bawling having seen sparkles and ms robot girl reblog that #post from me about letting prev know you're proud of them. bawled when quinn called me cutie last night. bawled when #ginny said they wished they were here.... fuck me I do too I want to be the focus of someone's attention so so so so badly #fuck #...............it's redundant to say at this point a second time but. goddess above its a little scary how much I wanna kill myself #........sigh #....anyway. please do not feel obligated to respond to this in any way. do what you got the spoons for.#thank you for even reading all of this shit if you've gotten this far. i love you deeply and with all my heart. I'll be fine I promise #won't act on it no matter how strong the feeling is. just.....hurts in the meantime. but I'll be ok. I promise #................fuck. im going back to bed

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sanctfy · 2 months

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#+#i wanna bawl my eyes out ToT #just found out im going to be working at a different school this year #which is ultimately okay bc i know itll work out #kids warm up to me really fast + i get along with other ppl well #it's just like... im gonna miss my kids sooo much #+ my coworkers too #update three days later bc i saved this in drafts 😔:#i still want to cry about it sometimes but i have made peace with it #im really nervous but ik it will be okay + tbh it distances me from drama that played out last year #i’m really sad that i don’t get to tell my kids bye… they’re just babies (kindergarteners ) so i was excited to see how much they grew #+ ik they won’t really understand why i left. but they’re also so little they won’t remember much #it’s okay though! i poured so much love + care into them + ik they’ll remember being safe and adored #i think that’s the most important thing for little kids to experience and im glad they can carry that with them #i am nervous about being a new environment bc i’ve worked so hard to be flexible and adapt quickly to change #+ i do well with it #but honestly even though i cope well it terrifies me #ill be so glad once august is over and things have settled #but im excited too.. things will work out bc they always do ^^

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cosmic-ships · 3 months

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might not be super active today? We'll see??

#D noticed a change in me this morning and its a not good change. she thinks I'm starting or already in a depressive episode. i had no idea #until she mentioned it. ill continue to not realize it either even if i think im okay sadly. she gave me some good encouraging #words before she left for work and gave me a big hug. told me if i need anything at all shes here for me. she also said #that she is going to make some of my favourite foods for dinner tonight. shes so nice?#i always seen her as like a mom to me. huh so this is what it feels like to have someone actually give a shit?#she pays attention and knows when im not doing great mentally. i am always blown away because *i* dont even notice it #then someone asks of im okay and i bawl my eyes out for literally no reason but it turns out i wasnt okay because i was #feeling not like a real person <- literally its one of the big things i struggle with and apparently according to D its a big tell that im #in an 'episode' i tend to just sit here and stare 'into space' for awhile.#i hate that she can notice it and i dont even though im the one doing it its a little frustrating to say the least #not self ship #tw: mental illness

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qqqqqqqqqqq0 · 14 days

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#unfortunately i dont have anything to show you foday #or anything particular to tell you either #so how about you look at this flower i bought at the local store and i think about what to say along the way #actually the employee at the store gave me a discount #every time i buy flowers im forced to participate in human interactions with strangers and remember that we live in a society #i think now that summer is over and the grass is no longer that green and touchable we should buy flowers from time to time to remain sane #i had to take a break from meds for a few days last week and it went rather ok. except i was bawling my eyes out at every given opportunity #you know. there is actually a game that keeps making me cry even when i cant really physically do it #its not really that sad. i would say that the main genre of this game is actually comedy. but the topics raised in dialogues wreck my brain #i dont really feel anything at all while reading the text or anything like that. i dont ecen think about it that much #but every now and then i feel the wetness on my hands and realize i've been crying for a while because of what read there #thats how i cry 99% of the time since the day i was born and i didnt really think anything about it untill now #my psychiatrist told me i have severe problems with dissociation and recognising my own emotions #but a few days ago i was watching some silly local soap opera in the background (im binging this stuff its iconic) & it broke my brain #the raised topics in the series triggered me this much i felt The Pain™. idk how to describe it rather then The Pain™ lol #now im back on meds and i dont feel anything at all again. this or my ability to recognise my own emotions just went down to 5% again #sometime i dream of someone who would posses my brain for a few minutes so that they would help me understand what i really feel #or if my reactions to life events are correct. sometimes when i think that i know exactly what i feel i stop myself and recognise #that i dont know nor understand shit #the more i think about it the more materialistic i become #you can always measure something physical. you can touch it or even search every inch of it with a magnifying glass all you want #but you cant measure the feeling #you know its really bizzare that i feel so much attraction towards poetry while having so much trouble with the concept of emotions itself #you can call me pragmatic but im too lenient for that. you can call me lenient but im too pragmatic for that. idk man. im gonna sleep now

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lululeighsworld · 16 days

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finished shadowbringers a year ago today and went back to watch some of my fave cutscenes now that the graphics are updated :'''''''') i don't think a day has gone by since last year where i HAVEN'T thought about these two in some way shape or form!!

#kalyna orben #leigh plays ffxiv #ALL OF EMET'S TEXTURES LOOK REAL FUCKING GOOD. HIS UNDERCUT ESPECIALLY?????#also yes hearing full fathom five/neath dark waters still makes me bawl like a fucking baby #goddamn this expansion really just decimated me in the best way possible. IT HIT ALL THE RIGHT BUTTONS.#also genuinely haven't felt so inspired to flesh out oc lore since finishing it. goooooooooood.#once shadowbringers sinks its teeth into you it's not letting go #also regrettably i picked up on the fact that SO MANY OF THE THINGS EMET SAYS. HAS LAYERS. THROTTLING HIM.#GO SIT IN THE CORNER WITH GUNTER I CAN'T HAVE YOU BOTH DOMINATING MY ENTIRE BRAIN SPACE #anyways im normal. im fine. will probs see if anyone in party finder wants to run hades ex tonight. for fun.#also the reason why kal doesn't have the flowers in the first set is cuz they were a gift from emet <3 #a lil memory prompting on his behalf to see if kal remembered them. cuz azem always wore that flower.#(spoiler alert they do not remember <3)#emetkal #ffxiv shadowbringers spoilers

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andragoras-in-vanity · 1 year

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