#and deep down... he still is...
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people like to imagine younger kim as some kind of politically correct punk but canonically he was a moralist who then joined the rcm. 20yr old kim wasn't a coolguy rebel he was, most likely, a righteous nerd
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this shit is so funny
#emmrichs lichdom is antithetical to his character and is objectively the wrong choice#i’m not even sure how he passed the lich test because saving manfred is indicative of how he can’t handle lichdom because of the whole#outliving everyone he loves#and based on in game interactions and other notes the way emmrich reacts to losing manfred is regret#and there’s a note somewhere where a companion notices crying coming from emmrichs room#like how did he not fail the test like hezenkoss had because deep down he is still afraid of death#it’s now not his own death but now everyone around hims death#anyways#this game needs more bad endings and angst#let them suffer i want a TRUE bad ending#dav spoilers#spoilers#emmrich spoilers#dragon age the veilguard spoilers#datv#emmrich volkarin#dragon age: the veilguard#lucanis#lucanis dellamorte#also i feel like lucanis’s reaction is less ‘wtf’ and more sad because he also knows this sort of thing isn’t going to make emmrich#not afraid of death
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A whole new meaning to Gay Chicken.
(For: Anonymous raffle winner!)
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#This prompt was super cute! Thank you for donating to the raffle!#And thank you to everyone who also donated!#Okay full disclosure I am on very little sleep right now so these next thoughts may be incomprehensible.#(That hasn't stopped me before. Sometimes the voices of the hat man give me good ideas.)#I have been vibrating with excitement for when we finally get to the chicken scene.#Because I really want to draw chickens! I love chickens! They are so optimally shaped for maximal cuteness.#That's a creature that was designed to be fluffy and sit on things. What is there to *not* love!#I know there is more significance to the whole exchange but really...I think Lan Wangji deep down just wants to hold cute creatures.#His hands are big and gentle and not meant for swords! They are made to be filling rabbit hutches with fresh hay and petting chickens.#This is to say; Lan Wangji's problems could all have been avoided if he was a farmboy.#He can still be a farmer. The two of them could run off into the country and start something new.#"True love is possible only - in the next world - for new people” Is a disco elysium quote I think about for wangxian all the time.#Ah but that's a different tangent. Look forwards to more art tomorrow!
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Thanks.
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#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#fop nature au#fop dev#fop dale#dev dimmadome#dale dimmadome#art#digital art#comic#The 'Thanks' after all of that makes me so insane Im not even sure I can fully articulate why#I mean. He got what he wanted. Honesty. Thats what you wanted right Dev?#what else do you say to that#He's spent his whole life being sure he knew the answer. That deep DEEP down dale did love him#Have you ever seen that post thats like“I was bawling my eyes out and somebody told me to shut up and I was so taken aback I stopped crying#I think he was so stunned that he just stopped crying.#or like when you get so upset that your feelings turn themselves off to protect you#is that a normal thing that happens to people Erm. anyway#Sorry lol as someone born to parents who.. should not have had me. Writing dale basically admitting as much is actually really cathartic#He shouldnt have had Dev. He doesnt love him. He cant. Dev cant do anything to change it. Its just a fact.#Hes not 1:1 with my parents they tried their best ig but like. their best was still pretty awful child neglect LOL
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All Caste Jason AU where he completes his training but still goes back to Gotham with a little less of murderous tendencies but still fully intending to kill the Joker, but when he steps his foot into the city for the first time while being magical, he instantly full-body recoils like "Jesus Christ this place is fucking rancid, what the fuck-"
So now he's just hanging around, trying to magically cleanse the city because this is just too much. It's too much. He can feel his aura take negative points the longer he stays there. Jason always prided himself in being a true Gothamite and having the lungs of an ox because he grew up breathing the grime, but now he has to periodically leave to get some fresh air. Has he gotten too used to the mountain air, why is the air so thick-
#Jason taking a deep breath when getting back to Gotham: ahh home sweet home-#Jason: Immediately starts to hack his lungs out#Joker is completely forgotten this is a much more pressing issue#he still keeps an eye out for Crime Alley and everybody there is so impressed by their magical boy#the rest of the Gotham can have Batman we have fucking Sailor Moon down here!#dc#dcu#Jason Todd#Red Hood#batman#all caste jason todd#batfam
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again idk if this has been said before but i love the lucanis approval when you're going after zara and illario meets you half way. lucanis is trying to get him to fuck off but illario ignores him and addresses rook, flirts w them, tells them that they should let him give them a tour. and when they also tell him to fuck off cause their honey said so, lucanis likes it. he follows up with "this isn't your job, there's no one you can charm into dropping their guard". and idk it kind of reminds me of the comment lucanis makes during the coffee date cutscene where he says smth along the lines of "even before i was captured, most things were determined for me" and adding that w the implication of illario absolutely hating when attention isn't on him paired with his resentment toward lucanis for being their grandmother's favorite AND lucanis telling emmerich that he "doesn't have illario's gift for flirting" like idk i imagine illario poaching any person he sensed lucanis had even a passing interest in just cause he's a spiteful mf
so here "there's no one you can charm" = "this one is mine, they won't fall for it"
i just think the mutual possessiveness is neat :)
#datv#datv spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#what makes it even better is that at this point the flirting has hardly gone anywhere#so lucanis is deep in the 'afraid to want you' phase#but i think this small exchange and then taking out zara and THEN dealing w spite again#and then assuring lucanis he's still a baddie and u want him biblically#all happening in rapid succession is when he's like forced to reckon that he's also down atrocious for rook#and allows himself to almost kiss them#again idk if this has been said before i hardly have time to look at the tag cause im too busy staring at a wall thinkin abt him#man who never got to live his own life finally bags a 10/10 and acts like an unattended small dog in a parked car when someone walks past
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Seeing all the Dain/Sloane fanarts and I can't stop thinking of Xaden daring to give Sloane a similar speech to the one Mira gave Violet when he comes back
Xaden: You get one chance to pick your boyfriend, and you choose my girlfriend's EX crush, the quadrant’s resident CODEX BOY, the son of the man who orchestrated your brother's DEATH, and the one who tried so hard to be just like ME? This is your choice for the most important relationship you could possibly undertake?!
Mira: Shut tf up. You're both losers.
Brennan: What is it with little sisters and their choice of men? *glares at Drake*
Violet: We don't get to choose who we love.
Xaden: *grins*
Brennan: You literally set the standard. Maybe sit this one out.
#liam droned about sloane their whole fostered life#deep down she's xaden's baby sis too#and he can live without having dain as his brother-in-law#whereas brennan still can't believe that mira is actually in love#with a gryphon flier no less#their ancestors from lilith's side would be turning in their graves#dain aetos#sloane mairi#dain x sloane#xaden riorson#violet sorrengail#mira sorrengail#drake cordella#brennan sorrengail#the empyrean
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“I can’t bring myself to trust the Church of Seiros, not after they killed Lonato and my brother”
Oopsy, happy birthday Ashe!
Have angst, as a treat
#Ashe angst#this quote is always on my mind#I can’t stop thinking ab how ashe is such a vengeful person deep down#he has evil potential#I’m still upset he has no support with Edelgard#anyway!#happy birthday to ashe!#it’s his birthday today!#yippee#fe3h#fire emblem three houses#fe3houses#ashe ubert#fe3h fanart#ashe fire emblem#fe3h ashe#artists on tumblr#digital art#fire emblem#ashe fe3h#fire emblem ashe#ashe duran#i love ashe so much#happy birthday ashe#fire emblem art#fire emblem fanart
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got genshin on the mind again
#if i think too hard about wanderer i get SAD again#ououghhhh... the way he was so kind and caring... and even after everything he still is deep down...#how even all of dottores manipulations couldnt change who he was at his core - a good person...#ok ill spare you all the essay i could probably write lol#genshin impact#wanderer#scaramouche#genshin#kabukimono#moxie draws#sigh. me when a character is a clone/homunculus/lab experiment with trauma <3#(d. dont read too far into that ok)
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People constantly complaining about all the f/m ships is so funny because y'all really don't know how to deal with the fact that everyone isn't unanimously obsessing over the (white) mlm ships like you expected. Because that's usually how it goes, right? Those ships usually drown out everything else. They suck up all the oxygen in the room, all the attention, all the conversation. Bulldoze over all the other ships. But for once, that's not the case and that's because the show has a wide, diverse range of well-written, complex, amazing women that is getting our equal love and attention too. And we're not going to shove them, and their canonical relationships with the men, to the wayside just for the fanon mlm ship as is done way too often.
#look i'm usually down for some good yaoi#but we're actually get some good food here with the f/m relationships#the genuine rapport mel and langdon have#the attentiveness and care he shows her throughout#the little moments between mohan and abbot#the deep respect and admiration he has for her#the clear feelings robby and collins still have each other#the jealousy when he sees her chatting with another guy#the writers are actually cooking#and i'm feasting lol#mel king#frank langdon#kingdon#samira mohan#jack abbot#mohabbot#robby robinavitch#heather collins#rollins#the pitt
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The other day, I saw a non-fandom text post along the lines of:
“What we had was so special you’ll look for me in every new person” (sorry I haven’t been able to find it again)
And I haven’t stopped thinking about it since.
Because to me this perfectly describes Durgetash + romancing your companions.
I can’t help thinking about amnesiac Durge missing something, always searching, but can’t remember what.
They find echoes of it in Gale’s intelligence, his enthusiasm and knowledge when he speaks about magic. And yet, it doesn’t fit entirely.
They find it in Lae’zel’s easy superiority, her ruthlessness and determination. And yet, it’s not quite enough.
They find it in Astarion’s deception and easy charm, the way he manipulates a situation to his advantage, the way he doesn’t need magic to have people literally bare their necks to him.
They find it in Shadowheart’s snark, her secrecy, her dark goddess. They find it in Karlach’s rage (though she burns hot instead of cold which is odd..), in the smell of sulphur and hellfire that clings to her. They especially find it in her mechanical heart, that makes them want to reach out, bury their hands in it, just to see if it feels as familiar as it seems. If maybe owning her heart will fill the hole in their memories, their chest even.
And yet, surprisingly, they find it in Wyll’s pact, Wyll’s past, but also Wyll’s manners and they way he dances, his stories, that make them feel closer to a city they don’t much care about otherwise.
They find it in the deep possessiveness, maybe even hatred, when Raphael first comes to camp.
And yet none of it is enough, none of it fits quite right, and while maybe eventually they manage to look past that familiar feeling and find new things to admire about their chosen partner…deep in their heart they know.
In the end, they’ll always look for something none of them can give them.
Not until they first encounter that handsome young man with an easy smile, and all the jagged broken edges click together like horrible little puzzle pieces.
#sorry this is a long one#Durgetash#enver gortash#the dark urge#mayhem was absolutely intrigued by Gale’s intellect bc he reminded him of Gort#I just#the thought of Durge looking for pieces of Enver in everyone he meets#it makes me think of stuff like ‘enver was the only one to ever fully accept durge’ and the way durge would look for that in a relationship#just imagine durge romancing one of the companions and it’s good and wonderful#but still they can’t help that deep down they’re missing something#‘I love you. but you’re not…him.’ kinda thing#why do I do this to myself none of them deserve this#gort would be so horribly pleased with himself and the hold he still has over durge (as if he isn’t just as lost)#I do like thinking about romance dynamics with durge bc I think it can be very hard to figure out when part of the relationship#consists of whatever Durgetash is doing#just some thoughts#i almost included Cazador’s horrible boots#btw I cannot stress enough how much I love durge and companion relationships#this isn’t meant to shit on them#but this makes me absolutely feral so I needed to share it SOMEWHERE#and also nothing is ever easy when it comes to Durgetash
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I can't remember all the times I tried to tell myself
to hold on to these moments as they pass
- counting crows, a long december
detail below the cut (and wolverine angsty musings in the tags lol)

#poolverine#the song lyrics are supposed to reflect upon logan's pensive facial expression#I imagine even after he's settled in with wade and feels like that dumpy lil apartment is a sort of home#he would still be waiting for the other shoe to drop#because he's never been able to hold onto happiness for long and he sees no reason this time would be the exception#and when wade is asleep he isnt there to distract him from these thoughts#so he just. drifts off into a melancholic daze#vaguely wondering what will happen to wade#to althea#to puppins#to laura#what bizarre universal machinations are already at play to tear what joy he has been able to scrape together#and quietly ruminates on what he'll do next once it is all inevitably ripped away again#which is why he secretly prefers when wade us awake and Constantly Talking#(though he would never openly admit it)#because then he can just listen and block the weight of knowing deep down it can't last because it never does#I wonder how long it would take him to accept that he couldnt lose wade if he tried#deadpool and wolverine#deadclaws#wolverine#deadpool#logan howlett#old man yaoi#wade wilson#deadpool & wolverine#anyway just always thinking about them on some level#also I'm reading that “psychology of wolverine” book and it just. damn. he never gets to hold on to anything or anyone for very long#especially not worstie
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Have a gold star...
I swear, I started this as a wholesome innocent comment on how when Crowley has to think of a prize, after 6000+ years, his sweet head still goes to stars as the ultimate symbol of something beautiful and cherished.
But then I was struck by something: sarcasm.
Both times, when he tells someone to "have a gold star," he doesn't say it with a tone of affectionate irony, like the cool-but-sweet uncle with a rough personality but a soft heart. He says it with a tone of bitter sarcasm, of painful disenchantment.
Because it's not a prize that he is offering; it's a sop, a cruel joke-gift, something that will get you excited at first just because you have a stupid, naive, innocent soul, and you will later realize that it means nothing to the one who assigned it to you, and that they are ready to take it away whenever they want, while the rest of the world laughs at your ridiculous gullibility.
Because this is what stars were for him.
They were his beloved, exciting creation. The star-factory nebula was his cherished task, assigned to him by God, and he believed that it was meant to be a thing of beauty and splendor, and hold value in the grand scheme of the universe... only to discover, immediately after he created it, that it was never intended to have any value at all. It meant nothing to God. It wasn't even planned to last enough to fullfill its purpose. It was a joke, a cruel prank.
The stars were God's bad pun of giving angel!Crowley something to do, and love, and have hope and expectations for, and then taking it away. Revealing that it was just a shiny piece of gold cardstock that only a simpleton could consider valuable. Of course he can only say "have a gold star" as a dry snarky sarcastic comment on someone who thinks they have achieved something meaningful when it's actually nothing. Be it the Them defeating the Four Horsemen. Be it Muriel being noticed by the Metatron.
Great, sure, have a gold star, be all excited and squealing with happiness, it will turn into ashes before you even know it.
I am not sure that Crowley's snake eyes were ever intended to signal that he cannot see the stars because snakes have bad vision (even ignoring the zoological fact that they are sensitive to UV light though, so they should still see astronomical objects, in the book it says that demons must be able to see at night, and that's why Crowley doesn't need to turn on the lights on the Bentley), but for sure the Fall and Heaven's cruelty has ruined the stars for him, in a way.
Now, in his mind, they are the ultimate symbol of delusion, of naivety, of foolishly investing your love and passion and hopes in something, of stupidly ignoring that the things you cherish will be ruined or taken away from you or leave you on their own accord.
That's also why Aziraphale's "nothing lasts forever" cuts him so deep. That's why his "no... no, I dont' suppose it does" sounds so much like a truth that he is remembering instead of one that he has jsut discovered.
Here you go, you did it again, you thought you had something significant and instead it was just like your stars, you should have known that whenever you find something beautiful it's just a matter of time before you lose it, you shouldn't get too attached.
In s1e6 he says it to the Them, in s2e6 he says it to Muriel. I do hope that in s3e6 he will get the chance to say it again, but this time it will be honest and out of joy, because whatever is going to happen will make him able again to believe that you can be happy, and can hold onto the good things that you love. You can have all the gold stars, for real. They don't always have to disappear and leave you in pain. They can stay with you.
#he's still the starmaker deep down#have a gold star#good omens#good omens 2#go2#crowley#aziraphale#good omens thoughts#go2 spoilers#go 2 speculation#good omens 2 spoilers
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Tim Bradford & Lucy Chen The Rookie 7x04 Darkness Falling
#chenfordedit#lucychenedit#timbradfordedit#therookieedit#Chenford#Lucy Chen#Tim Bradford#The Rookie#7x04#eric winter#melissa o'neil#justa's edit#i came back to queue you#i think lucy sees the logic of what tim is saying#but deep down she knows something isn't right#i love that he's the first person she shared this with#she still trusts him and respects his opinions
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failure and futility
for day 2 of campfire fest! prompt: third eye (and i guess could also count for explosion, or a lack thereof lol) @outerwilds-events
#i meant to do something yesterday but i had a crazy shift at work and was feeling lazy lol#anyways. pye and idaea after the probe didn't work#this line of text is the first thing that comes to mind for 'third eye' for me bc its the only evidence/in-game mention of the nomai's -#- third eye being special/different from the other two in some way. im curious if it is actually composed differently and has better vision#or if it is just better for seeing fine details in things directly in front of them since it is forward-facing as opposed to -#- being on the sides of their head#also i just think about these two a lot. can you imagine being co-leaders of the most difficult and controversial part of a massive project#that is so important to so many people including your friends family members and ancestors who have died in search of what you are -#- going to potentially destroy your entire clan while attempting to find#you are building a weapon intended to destroy yourself and the entire star system you were born in#and your co-leader is the person with quite possibly the most opposite opinions and disposition to you#idaea having to grapple with the fact that the failure of something he never wanted to exist in the first place is still upsetting to him -#- because despite their differences he still sympathizes with pye who was so confident and wanted it to work so badly#and both of them as well as anyone else working at the sun station put so much time and energy into constructing it#and that work was so miserable due both to the heat and the tension due to their differing opinions and their own mixed feelings on it#pye having to admit defeat to everyone else working on the project who were so excited for this to finally give them the answer#in front of idaea who was so convinced that it was a bad idea and who she was probably desperate to prove wrong#in front of the entire crew of people who had spent probably months in miserable working conditions#after she had been so confident that it would work and so insistent that this was the only way#and she had to admit not only that it failed but that it couldn't possibly work. that deep down she knew and had probably known for a while#- that it would never work and had continued working on it anyway because she wanted it to work so bad#anyways. the fucking brainworms#tried out a new style for this and i really like how it turned out#outer wilds#outer wilds spoilers#outer wilds nomai#frostgnaw draws
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I liked your art, you won🎉🎉🎉
WE WON NO REDEMPTION WAHOOOOO/silly


I'm still terrified of the redemption route for this clown though hdhghfg, I want his silly self to stay evil and wimsy and goofy and with redemption uhhh
We're like
I dunno I'm sooo scared devsis is gonna take away that aspect which is what makes him just so funnn. Please pretty please let him be god awful and rotten and rude and goofy if you take that route Devisis I want him to keep his funny wimsy qualities. Please please pleaseeee write him well y'all are doing sooo good with him don't fumble by taking the redemption route (And if they do it better be good and he better stay chaotic and goofy and sassy and condescending and all his "rotten rabid thing" qualities)
If they do him (And his fun aspects justice in this dreaded hypotetical) then I may be cool with it. Though the mean ass possum has grown on me so much I'd 100% miss that evil and unhinged part of him TONS, devsis have mercy pretty please/silly
[Longer more insane ramblings are in the tags hsfhfhhv]
#my view of these two is that these should still be some bitterness on both sides#Both on SM's rabid half and on PV's half#they should both hold some form of “fear” towards one another. just deep deep down considering everything#and SM being rotten AF shchshfn#just thoughts#speaking of...#I like to think of PV's “”friendship“” offer as leff of a “yeah let's be buddy buddies!!!” offer but more of a “I could show you a#better way. Fighting like this is pointless and things could be better if you let me show you the right path.“ kind of offer#I like the idea of PV not really being able to “forgive”/“forget” the horror of the spire of deceit. But compassion is his entire thing#(cough cough the guy's known for ending wars trough reconcilliation and civil conversation. With the occasional “we are cool now!!!” on bot#parties cough cough)#and so I believe he'd be the kind to understand what “explains the guy's sheer insanity” and all but withouth#seeing that as a justification.#TLDR the good old “I get where you're coming from but it isn't an excuse. I'm still condemning your actions.”#*LESS (i aint rewriting that y'all gotta stick with my embarassingly dumb grammatical oversights unfortunately)/silly#long story short I'm a fan of PV trying to do the whole civil convo approach but I want SM to be a stark contrast to that#he should be a HUUUGE challenge to get trough. And it'd be fun if he was simply too far gone#If he isn't though. I want them to have leftover tension#stuff's inevitable imo and it'd be fun to see some clashing#askbox stuff#beetle's ramblings#cookie run kingdom#pure vanilla cookie#shadow milk cookie#crk spoilers#beast yeast spoilers#awakened pure vanilla cookie
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