#and didn't realize I reblogged instead of posting😭

[delulustoryteller]

TROPHY HUSBAND HARRY POTTER EVERYONE 👏

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

aita for not wanting the zine I'm in to be explicitly pro-palestine / wibta for therefore not promoting the zine?

the actual problem is a lot more nuanced than that so don't judge just based on that 😭

I'm in a free fandom zine, and we've been working on it since january 2023. it's been a huge labor of love for me (I contributed three pieces!) despite me being less into the fandom recently. our zine is about to be published on social media for ppl to download for free, which is exciting! but the head mod told the group chat that due to the recent conflict with israel/palestine, they wanted to include a message in the promotional post stating that the zine was always intended to be free, and if ppl want to support us they can donate to humanitarian aid for palestine instead.

here's my stance on the israel/palestine conflict: I think it's complicated. obviously I don't support israel's government, but I also don't support things palestine has done. I think both sides are losing a lot of innocent people, and I want to be compassionate to both palestine and innocent israelis/jewish ppl who are experiencing very real grief rn. first of all, I hear abt the conflict so much in real life, I would like to not also have to think about it on my silly fandom app for the one hour I'm on here a day. but on top of that, I don't want to make my social media explicitly support only one side or another, because I think that takes away a lot of nuance from the issue.

anyways, most ppl in the zine chat said that message was a great idea. I personally didn't want to have that message on the main promotion post that I was planning to reblog a lot on my tumblr. so I asked if they could include that message in a separate faq post instead of the main post, and I explained my reasoning (basically that I didn't want to trigger my or other's anxieties about real world conflicts) and one other person agreed with me.

the zine mod said they understood but since it was just a one paragraph message, they wanted to include it anyway. atp I realized nothing I said would change their mind, so I just didn't respond. I get that it's not my zine and they can run it however they want, but it just sucks that now the zine I'm in is being connected to real world stuff that I didn't want to have to connect to my fandom safe space.

anyways, so now the zine is about to come out, and I don't want to reblog the promotional post or advertise it on my blog. when a month passes I'll post my piece (per what the mod has allowed us to do) but I don't plan on promoting the zine anymore. so my question is: was I TA for asking the mod to not include the pro-palestine message in the promo post, and WIBTA for not promoting the zine at all?

reasons I think I'm TA: this is literally not my zine, and I shouldn't be telling the mod what I want the zine to support or not. also it would be shitty of me to just outright not support the zine

reasons I think I'm NTA/NAH: I think my concern is valid, and I can do whatever I want forever

What are these acronyms?

[skania]

OnK Chapter 149

I know it doesn’t mean much coming from me because I’m always complaining about Aka’s writing, but…

And I mean it when I say that I expect nothing 😭 This was literally my first ever OnK-related reblog and its tags are more relevant than ever lmao

These, too:

#honestly I didn’t think too hard about any of this during my first read #because the romantic endgame seems so obvious that it kind of discourages guessing lmao #but re-reading these chapters has made me appreciate Aqua’s side of his bond with Akane a lot more

Back when I first got into OnK, I mentioned that Akane was the entire reason I kept reading the manga. I didn’t care about the romantic subplot, found Aqua/Kana extremely obvious and predictable, and Aqua plain boring.

It’s only during my second read that I paid close attention to Akane’s interactions with Aqua and I ended up playing myself into both, caring about Aqua and shipping him with Akane lol

This chapter has made me realize that despite everything, I'm not emotionally invested in whether they end up together or not. I’d prefer it, obviously, because Aqua truly is at his most interesting whenever he’s around Akane, and their dynamic has the best development in the manga (so far).

But it’s just like I said before: If they don’t end up together, that’s just Aka’s loss, not mine. I’m just here for Akane 😂

And as an Akane fan, I feel like the best thing for me to do right now is to just take a step back and watch things unfold, because Aka will do whatever he wants regardless of how any of us interpret his manga lol

So instead of posting the long post I originally wrote about this chapter when the leaks came out, I'll just share a a clown gif because in hindsight it was silly of me to expect Kana out of all people to have any sort of meaningful insight into Aqua 🤡

And a couple of things that caught my eye because I can't help myself:

Kana didn't even see Aqua and Akane have any sort of meaningful moment, just those two standing in each other's vicinity was enough to make her throw herself a pity party. How many more times is she going to pity herself and give up? How has Aka not tired of writing her this way? Where did her development from the Scandal arc go? 🤡

So Chapter 147 featured Kamiki thinking Ai doesn't love him and Kana thinking Aqua likes her. It even had a helpful "Cut 139: Misunderstanding" panel and everything. Will this mean something? Who knows!

Kana used guilt-trip! It was super effective!

Oh the irony! Poor Akane looks like she's been hard at work convincing herself that she's over Aqua. And you know what? I cheer for her and respect her energy 100%. I'd rather see her doing her mightiest to help him without any ulterior motives than to have her crying for him and hoping to get back with him every other chapter lol

Akane calling Kana out for her pity-party and for being cowardly was so cathartic that if I didn't already stan her, I'd have become a fan right now 😭 It also means that Aka is 100% aware of the way he writes Kana, so when will she finally be allowed to grow?

Kana's praise to Akane made me so sad though because yes, Akane is pretty and she's talented and she's kind. That's sweet of her to say. But that's not what made Akane someone special to Aqua: it was the way she understood him. The worst part is that Kana ends her praise by saying that Akane is a "goody-two-shoes" but... that's the opposite of how Akane views herself. She sees herself as someone who's not decent and not normal. So it's no wonder that while she gets flustered (it's her dear kana-chan praising her), she seems to get a bit sad/frustrated afterward. After all, for Akane it's probably the opposite. Men would prefer a decent, normal, bright girl like Kana - Aqua included.

I wish someone would tell Akane that she is too ignorant of her own charms and that she doesn't have to act like an adult all the time. Truly the pot calling the kettle black! Sadly, unlike Kana, Akane seems to have no one in her corner in this manga. Aqua was the only one there and the poor guy is barely even a character anymore lol

Overprotective mother or controlling ex-girlfriend? Take your pick!

The English translation left something pretty important out in these panels. Akane doesn't just say "if you have a girlfriend", she says "if you have a precious/important girlfriend". This distinction is very important because it goes to show that... as expected, Akane doesn't think she was an important girlfriend to Aqua. It's like she didn't count and Kana would be the real deal. Oh, Akane...

Which takes me to her very silly, very convoluted yet very predictable plan (in true Aka fashion).

When Akane thinks “I know exactly what you hate”, I imagine she means that Aqua hates hurting and endangering those he cares for. So I'm guessing Akane thinks that if she plays matchmaker and quite literally throws Kana at him, someone he has a soft spot, then Aqua won't be able to go through with his revenge because that would mean breaking Kana's very fragile heart.

In other words, it looks like Akane is going to try and use Aqua's guilt-complex against him and her weapon of choice is love. But not her love, obviously, because as far as she's concerned, her romantic love already failed to save him.

Granted, using Kana's romantic feelings to her advantage is kind of... well, wrong. To quote Akane herself, [Kana] is neither her pet nor her property, but a person. But I'm guessing that Akane may be falling victim to the same loophole she got caught in in Chapters 96 - 98. She thinks she knows what's best, so she's putting her own beliefs aside for the time being.

Kind of like Aqua, actually.

And, ironically, it's Aqua himself who first realized how easy Kana is to use.

So! All in all, I'm here for Mastermind!Akane but I hope that Aka will actually make it worth our while. Will Kana realize that she's about to be used as a chess piece in this Proxy War? Who knows, characters in this manga seem to walk in circles, only being allowed to grow when it fits the plot 😂

Last week we wondered whether Aka would subvert expectations or go the predictable route, and down the predictable route he went. His way of making it less predictable is by including a twist in the form of Akane's ulterior motives, but will this be enough to allow this ol' used trope to lead us someplace new? I guess we'll have to keep reading to find out, but given the quality of the writing lately, I'm not expecting much lol

[gyarucoded]

gimme a sec i need to talk about this !!

so i saw a long ass reblog under an anti-sylki blog that started off as something like "actually loki & sylvie has good romance chemistry meanwhile loki & mobius doesn't have any romance chemistry at all"🤓– and in this moment i went "alright best frien i'm not reading all that" then went to block instead of arguing.

didn't try reading that bullshit of a post further either just to anger myself, i know better.

i especially didn't wanna argue cuz i think that was a child..??? (assuming from the miracoulus ladybug theme cuz no adult in their right mind enjoys that trash) but if i'm wrong that just makes it worse tbh, like grown ass ppl who srsly think toxic relationships should be the example of peak romance needs their brain to be studied fr.

i usually try to be respectful for others' opinion but i genuinely can't see where this opinion comes from.

makes no goddam sense to me.

maybe it's cuz i can't view things through a heterosexual lens, maybe not.

who knows?

but...(i won't make this abt lokius but focusing more on the "loki & sylvie" part) this made me wonder like...

what do sylkie shippers even post about?

no i won't check it out myself to spare myself from the headache but do they go "omg today episode's syIkie crumbs was so lovely dovely 🥺" and the crumbs in question is them disagreeing on almost everything and sylvie wanting to avoid loki as much as she can & constantly seeming to be angry at him.

sure, in s1 they did have a couple of cutesy romantic moments like being under blankets despite of them being supposedly immune to cold or the literal kiss but, it truly doesn't take a huge analyzation to realize that this "relationship" became one sided, even in that one little moment when they had to hold hands, sylvie immidiately goes "don't overthink it" like omgggsfg💀😭 and it's also clear that loki eventually got the hint, in ep3 he doesn't try to be with her anymore or gets emotional with her, he silently gave up.

not to mention loki avoiding to mention the kiss, when appearantly the two has nothing to hide? 😕

i don't know where this is gonna be heading off but if they randomly switch up after all this character & dynamic development then i have no hope for marvel's writing team cuz that would basically create a plot hole.

like aside from the psuedo-incest, that used to bother me in season 1 era but now i am concerned more about how this "ship" overall has no appeal, yet some of these ppl genuinely thinks it can work healthily between them and that ppl who are against it are just "petty that their gay ship isn't canon" when there's MORE to this.

in season 2 there's absolutely *nothing* happening with them that would make us, the audience, root for them to be together as a couple like i'm sry.

so yeah you can say i'm doing too much and too crazy over a fictional tv show (yes i know that babes i have full self awareness) but i literally cannot stress enough about how unhealthy it is to think that this is how a good romantic chemistry works.

based on a syIkie shipper's views: we could technically say that me + that one co-worker of mine who we always have disagreements on political stuff with & dislikes me for no reason is my "lover"... since we wanna pretend this is how love works 😀😀 no?

[onepiecebrained]

Announcement: I am moving accounts‼️

Moving to @cobymeppocean

I will not be posting new art here nor frequently logging into my main ( @cuttingmyfangs ) but everything will stay up as an archive + my instagram / ao3 will be the same.

To all my friends and mutuals, I'll be able to follow you back with my art account now so please stay in touch with me on my new account! 💖

explanation for my move under cut

I originally made my main blog for posting fanart and memes for another fandom before restarting it and also making this side account for my one piece / koby and helmeppo works but I wanted to fully commit to one piece with my main (also so it is less confusing for my mutuals because I treat this account like a main but then seemingly disappear when it comes to liking posts and following back 😅)

My biggest regret was only making this a side blog because I did not understand how they worked before since I was new to tumblr. I didn't realize I could not follow people or like posts and sometimes when reblogging or replying I am on the wrong account 😭

I think starting fresh would also be good because I am going to commit to my new art style a lot more so everything can keep more consistent. I want to post more higher quality drawings, I might make a doodles side account instead that I don't really check up on unless I am shitposting. Plus I won't post daily anymore (apologies to those that are used to their daily dose of kobymeppo) I will still draw daily because otherwise I will go insane, but I'll only post when I have a good amount of images all together after a couple days which will help prevent me posting too much in a day and spamming your feed.

Thank you for reading all of this and I hope to see you on my new account! 🫶

[i-am-totally-not-a-lizard]

since you mentioned you dont know yet what you'll get in trouble for here: reblogging posts from radfems is pretty high on the list!

since you can't avoid nasty groups by not visiting their subreddits, the main mechanism on here is blocking and not interacting, and using word-of-mouth to warn each other

on desktop many people use shinigami eyes to tell who theyll want to avoid, and you also learn to pick up on a lot of digwhistles over time. ofc it can happen that you reblog sth from a (crypto) terf as an honest mistake, and most people wont bother checking every single op's account to see if they hold some shitty views or w/e

since tumblr posts spread directly from person to person instead of being posted on a central forum, most people trust that the people they follow (or somone in that reblog chain) will be trying to reduce engagement for terfs (often ppl will get a polite anon or dm informing them that they have reblogged terf content, and the will delete it before it spreads further)

OOPS!!!!! 😰 I didn't realize until I scrolled through their account! I just saw a silly image and thought of a funny caption why'd it have to be a terf account 😭

Answering this for other oblivious redditors to not make same mistake

[tankgotstuckinthecircusgate]

for the art ask thingy you reblogged, mayhaps 8, 12, and 17? (don't feel pressured to do them all)

ty for question! there will be a lot of text below bc i like to talk about my art or myself😭 i'm an egocentric😭

8. What do you like most about your own work? It's hard to say, because i criticize myself a lot or treat my art like idkkk things i have to do while i'm still alive?? like creating (anything) is literally the meaning of my life so my work to me it's kinda like a "vacuum the apartment" item in to-do list. you vacuum your apartment, delist it, and then forget about it forever but if to think a little deeper it's hmm i like the style in which i’m drawing rn, though i’m still not really happy with it. but this whole styling thing is super hard to me after years of academic art 💀 if im super tired my hands automatically draw something realistic and this really upsets me bc i don't want to draw realistic things :( i don't post many original art here, but i love the sense of freedom it have, that i’ve worked very hard for and still working on it! like replacing "how to do it acceptably?" with "how i want it, how i feel it and how to do it honest" in my mind. honesty and sincerity are the most important things in my life, work, people etc. there are many problems with this now because of the russian laws and autocracy, which has long been more like totalitarianism. i have a hard time saying and doing what i think, constantly having to go around/come up with metaphors/not putting something out there at all, even changing ideas and plots. it disgusts me, i hope i can emigrate in the next two years or so, freedom is a key value for me and ok if to be more abstract, i like the fact that I draw/etc for myself, i.e i create something that i lack in this world. every time it gives me a feeling of satisfaction (though it doesn't last long) that "there! at last I see what i wanted, what i craved to see". i.e actually i work from "i don't like what there's rn, i want to see it differently, I want to do it other way". as if the store didn't have clothes in your size and and you'd have to sew your own

12. Show your favourite drawing from this year

i realize that this question implies one drawing, but idc and will show several instead of just one :^) the first drawing that comes to mind is this! well it's not exactly a drawing ofc but still. it's one of 54 illustrations for the play "the shadow". i love this work very much (text here says "your country is like every country in the world" in different languages, and on the color block the phrase is "it's all so mixed up", it's quotes from the play)

and three more illustrations for the same play! best part of this year in terms of art is probably that i finally got into lettering. although it's not lettering in the classic sense here, like these lettering aren't meant to be readable, i just think the letters are very pretty:^)

and the last one. this fanart turned out to be very important for me! i drew it some time after my diploma and finally for the first time in a long time allowed myself to loosen up and not think about what others will think. thanks to this art i realized in which style i wanna work:^)

17. What inspires you?

almost anything tbh. movies, books, theater, songs, science, news, colors, clothes, people, whatever in personal projects, it's usually a reflection on current events/experiences talking to people and their stories inspire me a lot on a more simple level: music/songs. i believe that any visual composition is music (even Kandinsky wrote about it and he himself considered his abstract works as painted music). So rhythm, intonation in songs and other things inspire me af. i always make playlists for every big project im working. it's not even about the lyrics of the songs, it's about the vibe/mood they give. (i had an exhibition this summer with illustrations for "the shadow" and like i put a disco projector there and made a 6 hours playlist 😭 bc all the illustration were based on music (and i hate exhibition snobbery, pseudo-intellectualism, and in general when people consider themselves superior to others. i also think that looking at pictures without music is boring) aaaaand i'm also inspired by the words themselves? (you can notice in the pictures above, haha). sometimes by the meaning they carry, sometimes just by the way they look. and the letters inspire me bc that, again, is music to me. the rhythm, the plasticity, the contrast. i just love letters ahahh

thanks again for the question and hope it was interesting! have a good day/night/morning/etc ! 💞

[discoasphodel13]

Hi there! I know that this is literally out of the blue but im asking for a favor or some help w/ my cats current situation. Please boost/share it for us so that we could get some traction or it could reach more people. I understand if its not okay, so sorry for taking some of your time and I wish you to be safe and healthy, xx.(Please considering answering my ask privately or probably send me a msg! 😭🙏

Okay, Ive heard a lot about these but didn't think I'd ever actually get one.

‼️‼️This is a scam! ‼️‼️

i followed someone who reblogs a lot of scam alerts, and it's just. Confounding that this is such a big problem on here.

Anyways, it's a scam because:

Random person I've never seen before asking me to reblog their pinned post which is a donation post

the donation post is about a pet (these people are really heinous and will try to manipulate you by having cute pet pictures right next to body horror graphic images usually)

They sent me an ask but ALSO want me to NOT publish it publicly, and instead to "message them privately" which translates to --

--- "I do not want people who are searching for the wording of my ask in the Tumblr search function to realize I have copied and pasted this message and sent it to dozens If not hundreds of users" --

Speaking of, any time you get a random ask like this for you to reblog someone's donation post, copy the text contents of the ask and put it in the Tumblr search bar. You will no doubt find dozens of other people who received the same copy pasted ask.

The super self conscious, constantly apologizing way of typing to play on your sympathies and lower your guard

Someone in the replies of their pinned post already pointed out it's a scam along with the scammers previous username of " vanessxndwich "

Someone where out there is a list of known scammer PayPals, I don't remember who made it but I can gaurentee you this person is on the list. It's a handful of people just constantly making new Tumblr accounts, stealing legitimate pet fundraiser information from the actual pet owners on other social media, and connecting it all to the same PayPal accounts.

Too long, Didn't Read: this is a scam, and you should report the account as spam asap. Any time you get an ask like this for you to reblog a strangers pinned donation post, especially if they ask for it to not be published, report for spam and block, and warn your followers.

[golbrocklovely]

letting you know this that shifting anon! i tagged you in my post because it’s too much for the ask box 😭

sorry for not responding sooner. i had a crazy day at work and was just super tired haha

i'm gonna respond to your post here instead of in replies or a reblog.

so when i was in school, i was able to get my work done on time. i'm kinda worse now with time management, but if i know i have to get something done, i'll get it done by the date it needs to be done at. even if that means struggling the whole time to get it done fast enough lol

idk what types of flowers they were, and having been on that campus (at that point) almost four years, they NEVER died like that before. and there's no way someone burned it without there being some form of message sent out to campus. plus by spring they grew back. so it was just so odd that they all of sudden died when they were alive literally the day before.

to give some slight more background into what i audition for and whatnot, so i audition, back to back days the previous week for a musical and play. the play, i had a gut feeling i wasn't gonna get strictly bc i was the first person sent home lol the musical on the other hand, i went thru callbacks and shit like that so i was a bit confused as to why i didn't even get considered or whatnot. but the director, who was also my advisor, ended up picking her own child and her friends to be in the show. so…. nepotism at it's finest.

and to be a skeptic on my own end: while i don't think it was a manic thing, bc even after i graduated and really sat with the fact i wasn't gonna have another show or two to add to my name, i still really wasn't upset about it. it was weird as hell how pippy skippy i became after getting the news when 10/10 times i usually would be upset, beat myself up over it, and cry.

but…. it's possible that i realized how lucky i got. bc the play i auditioned for, the director for that i had worked for once. i wasn't in a production, but i was her assistant and then became a stage manager. and let me tell you, that woman did not, at any given point, have her shit together. like, if you feel like your life is messy, you don't even hold a CANDLE to her mess. so i wasn't too heartbroken over not being in that show. then the musical… again, i think it was realizing i didn't have to worry about the director, who was also my advisor… who barely did any advising. i could spend the rest of my senior year in peace and just do whatever i wanted to. i only talked to her once or twice afterwards and that was bc of a senior project i had to do that she graded and passed me on.

my advisor/director, i'm telling you, had object permance problems when it came to me. there had been multiple times when she wouldn't even tell me there were auditions so the night before i would scramble to learn and entirely new song just to go perform it the next day. that happened multiple times. and just to add some more context for fun, her husband was the music director. so he dealt with the music side, she directed the actors. we did a production of into the woods. i auditioned, got callbacks, genuinely thought i had a chance at a major role, only to not get it. and i remember being outside the theater when they were practicing, i think bc i had a class in that same building. he came out, said hi to me, we chatted for a quick second, and then he very softly said to me "i'm sorry you didn't make it in… you should have" or something like that and then walked off.

so….. she might have just hated me for some reason lol so that could be why i was able to be like "you know what, i'm very happy i'm not dealing with you anymore."

but it didn't make sense how quickly i became happy. bc as someone that has suffered with depression since i was kid (and also didn't know i was suffering at the time this took place), happiness is not something that comes easily to me. i can be happy for a brief moment, sure. but i was giddy, and that itself was jarring to me then and still now.

and yeah my mom saying that to me was super creepy but also weirdly comforting. i never found out what was off, but it was just like a general feeling of things feeling out of place somehow.

and oh i didn't know that. i thought shifting was just a sleeping thing. well, that's cool to know :)

[stinkrascal]

A couple things I was wondering is how did you figure out you had BPD? I know there's a couple disorders that can often get diagnosed beforehand, so I guess how did you know there was more going on? Secondly, what kind of therapy do you feel was the most helpful, if any? I have issues keeping a therapist because they tuxedo mask away after realizing I already have CBT down (which only kind of helps me). Thank you for being open about BPD! I feel like there's so much unnecessary stigma.

hiiiiii!! sorry i didnt reply yesterday i spent all day writing my silly sims stories 😴 i will talk about my experience under the cut!! ty for being curious about it!! <3

umm tbh i was diagnosed in a really weird way lol. so, like, where i went to high school was a really conservative and religious town, and when i was a freshman in high school i was one of the only trans/lgbt kids that was vocally out at my school. there were more of them, my friend group was basically all lgbt ppl, but i was the only person in my school who would demand staff to call me a different name/use different pronouns. but anyways so my lgbt friend group was being bullied pretty badly so our school hired this counselor training in lgbt issues that would talk to us individually about our experiences as lgbt kids who were bullied and such. it was actually really cool you know! but anyways i was one of the students who had to participate in this and the lady who was talking to me realized that i was, like, a really troubled kid lol. and on top of that i was failing all my classes and i had been struggling in school my entire life (like consistently making report cards with at least 5/7 of the classes being failed type of shit) sooooo they basically had this like idk meeting with my parents? where they were super adamant that they take me to a doctor and put me into therapy bc i was struggling really badly and yeah. after that my parents put me into therapy and got in touch w a doctor and i got some treatment and eventually a bpd diagnosis. but yea it only happened cuz of my school forcing them to take me ha.

the truth is i didn't really suspect anything was wrong with me because the way i grew up, i thought everyone acted like me 🤷‍♂️ i think the only time i started really thinking i might have bpd was when i got my first boyfriend at 16, that's when my codependency and attachment issues really started to manifest, and those have always consistently been the bpd symptoms i struggle the most with. but even back then i didn't really know what bpd was, so it wasn't like i was specifically thinking i was suffering w bpd. more so that i knew something was Off about me but i couldn't really explain what it was

unfortunately i haven't gone to therapy in a long time :( and the last time i went it wasn't for bpd treatment at all. so i really can't say what could help you there in terms of therapy. i did group therapy during my bpd treatment but it didn't really help me much.

you're probably not gonna like this answer lmao but i use weed to medicate my intense mood swings and that helps a lot. also just being able to recognize when i need to cool off and being able to use my words to tell ppl that i need to be alone for a minute to clear my head, that helps too. basically just being mindful of ur changing emotions and giving yourself room to feel those emotions and allow them to pass u, without feeling guilt for this, and without projecting those emotions onto other ppl bc at the end of the day it isn't really anyone else's fault that u feel the way you do.

also just try to give ppl the benefit of the doubt in general, ik my bpd makes me SO sensitive like for example. ik we make jokes about this but you guys im not kidding, my favorite mutual reblogging a post from someone else instead of me hurts my feelings so bad some days i have to just log off and go cry about it. CRY ABOUT IT YOU GUYS! it's really awful and totally not grounded in reality 😭 but like it's there, it's something i experience and deal with, and it isn't anyone's fault that it happens, it's just the cards i was dealt with.

so instead of projecting that feeling onto my beloved mutuals and being like Ohhhhh so you actually hate me! You actually want me to kill myself! You've actually never cared about me ever, person I've had two conversations with in total! yeah instead of working myself up for something so silly... i just try to put myself in other ppls shoes, try to remember that when i do things it is not with malicious intent and most people are also not doing things with malicious intent. bc for me, my bpd tends to dehumanize ppl... they arent people with nuance and depth and complex and at times contradictory lives, theyre my Favorite Person, person who does no wrong, person who could never do any wrong no matter how hard they try, and that's dehumanizing, that's unfair to the person!! so by humanizing the other person, by remembering we are all people with rich inner lives and struggles and most of us just want to do our best even when we slip and fall... it helps calm me down from those spirals where im like, ohhhhh god everyone hates me because they didn't reblog a text post from meeeee!!! lol

[rosietrace]

huehehehehe finally posting my req...

Canon! Yuuta and Mirens first interaction and its Miren offering some donkkaseu (basically a savory, breaded pork cutlet)

Yuren my lovelies 😭❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

What the hell is that?

Event: Rosie's valentines special 💌❣️

Ocs featured: Sumeragi Yuuta, Miren Lockhart(@authoruio)

Ship: Yuuta x Miren

Summary: Yuuta decides to question Miren when he chose to ruin his weekly gardening session. So Miren's only solution at the time was to offer him food.

Warning(s): Yuuta, their relationship is left ambiguous, Yuuta being an overprotective plant daddy, Yuuta is implied to be a big clean freak, Miren is genuinely afraid of him, potential ooc moments

{ Apologies for any out of character moments }

[ Reblogs are recommended/encouraged ]

Yuuta was having a wonderful time.

Gardening was a passion of his. A comfort he'd confide in whenever there came a time when he just needed to create a rift between himself and the rest of the world.

His touch against the white rose in his hand was gentle, a contrast to the proud and devious smile on his face.

"I'll never understand why Heartslabyul doesn't just leave these roses white…. Probably something I forgot about from the movie." Yuuta murmured, feeling rather petty enough to chop off the red roses instead of the white ones.

He knew Riddle would've given him a lecture over the rules of the queen of hearts, but honestly, Yuuta could hardly care less.

His gloves were like a second skin to him, something that was conceived when he was born.

He hummed, touching the lotus in his hands."My symbol of wealth…." He fought back another chuckle before he continued walking around the botanical garden.

He had managed to narrowly avoid disturbing Leona's regular naps, as well as managing to convince Grim that he'd chop him in half if he ever did anything to disturb his gardening.

But unfortunately for the young man, Miren ended up bumping into him as he was wandering around the botanical garden.

And that irked Yuuta. He sent Miren a scowl, along with showing the vein on his forehead.

Miren blinked with wide eyes for only a moment.

"I-I apologize…"

Yuuta clicked his tongue, visibly annoyed."You better be. You interrupted my alone time." The tone in Yuuta's voice was enough for Miren to understand one thing.

That gardening meant more to Yuuta than he initially thought.

Miren gulped, "Sorry…" he muttered, looking away from Yuuta's direction with a nervous smile.

Yuuta's eyes narrowed. He put the watering can he had been holding to cross his arms. He looked down at Miren like he was a mere speck of dust that needed to be removed.

The cold stare he gave him had Miren realize another thing. That Yuuta should never be disturbed whenever he's gardening.

After those fleeting moments of total silence, Miren gulped and cleared his throat.

Yuuta arched a brow at him."What now?" He questioned, appearing impatient for whatever Miren had to say.

Miren had to take a breath before he could respond."I… Can offer you food." He suggested.

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Yuuta's lips parted once he said those words, but Miren noticed how unimpressed he was with his suggestion. Which… Is unsurprising.

"Seriously?"

"Y-Yeah-"

"Food isn't gonna change the fact that you've ruined my mood, you utter disturbance."

It was Miren's turn to narrow his eyes."This guy is more easily irritated than I thought…" he muttered as quietly as he could.

"What was that?" Unfortunately for him, Yuuta had managed to hear him.

"Nothing!- Uh- How about you just try the food?"

Although Yuuta turned away from Miren, he kept eye contact with them."Depends. What kind of food is it?" Yuuta's voice sounded like he was requesting an immediate answer.

To which Miren gladly obliged, just so he doesn't get even more upset at him. So he held the food he was holding out for Yuuta to see.

"Donkkaseu, it's basically a breaded pork cutlet…" Miren stated. His smile became even more awkward, and he didn't know how Yuuta would respond.

In response, Yuuta pursed his lips."Seriously? That's your offering for my forgiveness?" Yuuta criticized.

Now Miren was starting to get a little more than pissed at the taller young man in front of him."It's not like I bring a feast everywhere I go." He retaliated, deciding to show a little more of his annoyance.

"Oh please. Aren't you a good cook?"

"Of course you know I am, I'm literally the one who makes breakfast."

Yuuta rolled his eyes."That doesn't change the fact that food isn't gonna be the solution to my bitter mood."

This time? It was Miren's turn to have an unnaturally visible vein on his forehead.

"Just eat the damn food, Yuuta."

Frustrated by his insistence, Yuuta took the donkkaseu from Miren's hands and shoved it into his mouth.

And immediately Miren noticed the change in his expression.

His eyes softened and his face didn't look as irritated after the first couple of bites. And his neutrality transitioned into having literal sparkles in his eyes.

After swallowing the donkkaseu, Yuuta felt a faint blush on his cheeks and looked away.

Miren saw this as an opportunity to affectionately make fun of him.

"You liked it, didn't you?"

"No comment."

Miren didn't fight back his snort."C'mon, Yuuta. Admit it already."

"Absolutely not."

"You've got to be- Yuuta, just admit that you like the donkkaseu. It isn't that difficult."

After what felt like hours of bickering, Yuuta groaned as he rolled his eyes. Miren was surprised his eyes weren't stuck at the back of his head from how many times he's rolled them.

But at least his answer was worth it. For Miren, at least.

"F-Fine….. I guess I did like it a lot more than I thought."

Taglist: [ I'd like to hear your thoughts if possible! ]

@starry-night-rose @windbornearchon @nem0-nee @fumikomiyasaki @sakuramidnight15 @geminiiviolets @twsted-princess @oseathepebble

Request by: @authoruio

Hi UiO! I'm really sorry that this took a long time for me to answer, writer's block hasn't exactly been kind to me ^^|| Another thing I'd like to apologize for is the potential ooc moments and the writing quality of the oneshot. I was genuinely excited to finish my WIP of this(Because its Yuren) oneshot, but I hope it wasn't too bad for you! I hope you enjoy this oneshot, even if the writing quality isn't the best ^^ (Also I was listening to Ifuudoudou while writing this-)

[bivampir]

reblogs off bc i don't want this post spread but also bc im not set on this. this is just me sort of thinking out loud bouncing my thots on the wall to see what sticks (more than usual lmao) feel free to comment tho. my iwtv episode 5 dv thots under the cut

considering i'm 99% sure they'll make Louis and Lestat endgame this is. i don't fucking know. annoying stupid and just fucked up tbh. they really fucked up with that and it's so fucking frustrating to see.

i have no idea how they will address that in s2 in a way that. Makes Sense. maybe they'll just pretend it never happened (like we do LMAO). if they decide to suddenly un-do that then they make Louis and Claudia liars, plain and simple. they would make the Black husband and their Black daughter liars who lied about being abused by their white partner/parent. many people drew parallels between that scene and how Armand treat Lestat in the books. if they decide to make that scene be Armand idk. planting Louis his memories of abusing Lestat as being now abused by Lestat then that's just. fucking shit that's so Fucking Stupid i can't 😭 WHAT WAS THE REASON!!!!!!

while i think it makes sense for Lestat's characters to Blow up on Louis (and Claudia) like that and turn to straight up just beating the shit out of him bc Lestat is from episode one carelessly violent and emotional i don't think the writers realized the implications that would have. like i cannot in my mind even picture why the fuck they did that, especially contrasted with the gentless of the way Louis kills him. Lestat is now no longer a dumbass who makes mistakes, he's a domestic abuser who never apologizes or repents for his actions.

and yknow what! my take was originally that they're both monsters bc i was so fucking sure Louis and Claudia would get their revenge which didn't happen! so what the fuck!

as a dv survivor it fucking sickens me that they put in a scene of domestic violence and seems like they didn't even fucking noticed they did that. and it would've been such an easy fix too: just make it a fight. make it an equal fight instead of Lestat leaving unscathed fucking villan flying in the air.

it's just so fucking disappointing man.

[tottymatsuno]

I went through the tags of that other post I reblogged and the universal answer was "if I like something it's just fine, if I reblog it then it's worth putting on my blog" which is another direct confirmation of the very thing I was paranoid of.

I also saw several "if you get your motivation tied up in the likes/reblog game then you're wrong" and advice on how reblogs are.... Advertisement? Or promotion? And not just how content is spread across the platform? Which was strange because literally if everyone only posted and liked, there would be no tumblr.

That isn't how people frame the likes and reblogs. When I reblog a post about Osomatsu’s long tits I'm not giving the op advertisement on Oso's saggy boobs? It's not like I'm promoting long cup bras 😭

Anyways, the entitlement of having new content to consume, and then not providing your half of the bargain in the way the OP would like - its at odds.

When i realized, and have been proven correct in the assumption that when a post is exclusively liked that means it isn't good enough to be reblogged

I didn't stop creating. I didn't stop writing or drawing, or really anything. There is a huge archive of things I've made that I just don't have the energy to post for 3 notes. Idk if yall ever tried to upload fics onto tumblr but it's not easy. The formsting and tumbles half baked 3 text post editors that don't accomplish anything on their own was a hassle and took forever.

I write for my friends, and I write for myself. Writing for myself was the big advice I'd been given, not to tie up my self worth with it, that I didn't need or shouldn't need the validation that came from comments & reblogs and that 4 notes was a fair exchange for four hours of effort.

But I always write & draw for myself. I just don't post it anymore. I remember people were begging me not to stop making things when the truth was they were begging me to POST what I'd been making. It felt very much like I was being a treated like a content mill instead of a person who they could be friends with. So now I have several friends I exchange/do trades for or just show my stuff too! it's pretty easy to become my friend and with just a little encouragement I'd share any and all of my works, but I upload what I don't care about or I upload stuff for my friends.

Anyways the post really reminded me that artists were correct in the assumption likes meant it wasn't good enough. Yall said so yourselves

[stardew-atlantis]

I posted 887 times in 2022

That's 45 more posts than 2021!

54 posts created (6%)

833 posts reblogged (94%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@loversandantiheroes

@runawayface

@lizardfootman

@phillypumpkin

I tagged 555 of my posts in 2022

Only 37% of my posts had no tags

#sdv - 373 posts

#stardew art - 314 posts

#sdv harvey - 202 posts

#sdv farmer - 141 posts

#sdv shane - 39 posts

#stardew writing - 38 posts

#sdv elliott - 35 posts

#sdv inktober - 33 posts

#sdv sebastian - 26 posts

#bast my 'pun'tner in crime - 24 posts

Longest Tag: 137 characters

#saw a fic post about asexuals that suggested giving an ace character a 'sexless romance' so sorry to my readers expecting smut in the end

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

The BRILLIANT AND AMAZING @artjdg has created this absolute masterpiece of my beloved nerds 😭❤️🫂

This takes place during This Chapter of Winter but in order to add it directly to the chapter I gotta post it here first. (I really hope this works)

(Also click for better quality because tumblr likes to microwave images)

61 notes - Posted June 5, 2022

#4

Comfort - (Harvey/F!Farmer Oneshot)

(Art by @jellyaris ^_^) (Click for better quality)

I'm back with another fluffy oneshot! Last time the art was based on the fic but this time the fic was based on the art!

Summary: Harvey needs some comfort after a long day.

Word Count: 790

Warnings: improper soup practices, lmk

Now on Ao3!

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"Hi honey," Harvey said, as he stepped into the bedroom after a frustratingly tedious day at the clinic.

SJ was sitting on top of the covers, typing away into her laptop. She looked up and smiled the moment she saw him. "Hey. How was your day?" she asked.

Harvey tried his best not to roll his eyes, instead offering a disgruntled sigh, preparing to tell her that he didn't exactly have the best day, and he did not want to talk about it.

"Uh oh." she teased. "That great, huh?" she said, sarcastically.

"Am I really that obvious?" he asked.

"Afraid so." SJ smirked, waving him over. "C'mere."

Harvey crossed the room to SJ's side of the bed as she slid her laptop forward to make room. When she rose to her knees, now at eye-level with him, he slipped his hands around her back, holding her close as she rested her hands on his chest.

SJ leaned in for a quick kiss, before asking, "You wanna talk about it?"

Maybe it was the slight concern in her expression, or maybe it was just because he was frustrated after stewing in his own thoughts for the majority of his walk home, but Harvey found that he actually did want to talk about it.

"Today's just been a nightmare." he began. "I told Lewis not to let Gus pack up the potluck soup, but he wouldn't listen to me."

At the Luau the day before, Harvey tried his best to warn the mayor that the scorching summer heat wouldn't be enough to keep the soup fresh all day long. At the end of the festival, Lewis suggested packing up the leftovers to serve at the saloon the next day. When Harvey pointed out that the meat in the soup could likely make people sick from how long it had been sitting out in the sun, he was met with condescending laughter.

"Eight walk-ins, three scheduled follow-up appointments and at least four cases of food poisoning, that I know of." he continued.

SJ reached for the knot of his tie, loosening it as he talked.

"I swear, the next time- what are you doing?" he asked, realizing she had untied it, and gently tugged at one side to remove it completely.

"Go on," she prompted, carefully unbuttoning the top buttons of his shirt. "I'm listening."

"I... okay. Where was I?" he asked, trying to get back to his original train of thought.

"Next time?" she reminded him.

"Right. Next time Lewis tries to undermine me like that again, I swear I'll have that soup marked as a health-code violation."

"You should. It's disgusting." SJ added, sitting back down, leaning against her propped up pillow. "Come, sit." she said, patting the space on the bed beside her.

The moment she suggested it, Harvey suddenly felt the exhaustion catching up with him, the ache in his legs and back reminding him that he hadn't sat down in hours.

Nodding, he circled the bed to sit down on his side. "I just don't know why he constantly feels the need to prove how paranoid he thinks I am."

SJ reached out for the green blanket at the edge of their bed, draping it over his legs.

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62 notes - Posted November 30, 2022

#3

my goal for the day: edit that next chapter that I've had written for months

64 notes - Posted July 15, 2022

#2

Thunderstorm - (Harvey/F!Farmer Oneshot)

(Art by the lovely @lizardfootman) (Click for better Quality)

So Lizard and I did a sort of collab with this one ^_^. I wrote a mini-fic, and they drew the amazing masterpiece above.

Summary: Harvey and SJ watch the rain together during a thunderstorm.

Word Count: 774

Warnings: none, lmk

Now on Ao3!

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It was the middle of the night when a loud crack of thunder startled Harvey awake. He took a moment to remember where he was, and took a few deep breaths to calm his racing heartbeat.

The weather forecast had called for severe thunderstorms all throughout the night, so before they went to sleep, SJ and Zephyr made sure that all the farm equipment was put away, and all the animals were safe in their respective buildings.

Listening to the wind whip through the trees and the rain battering the windows as he first climbed into bed, Harvey almost worried for the structural integrity of the farmhouse, but when SJ wrapped her arms around him, holding him close, it silenced his fears enough to let him fall asleep.

Hours later, just as he began to calm down, he quickly realized that he was alone in the bed.

Harvey reached for his glasses on the nightstand, looking around the room to attempt to figure out where SJ went. He knew he'd never be able to sleep unless she came back, he still felt out of place sleeping in her bed without her.

Out in the living room, he spotted a large shadow, wrapped in a blanket. She sat in front of the window with the curtains peeled back, staring out at the storm.

At first, he wondered if she was afraid. If the thunder woke her up as well, and she was worried about the animals or the crops, but as he approached the window, he found her eyes sparkling with interest at the lightning outside, an excited look on her face that usually accompanied watching the stars on a clear night.

Hearing his footsteps, she turned, smiling as soon as she saw him.

"Hey." she whispered. "Sorry, did I wake you up?"

"No, the storm did." he replied, rubbing his eyes underneath his glasses. "What's the matter? Can't sleep?"

"I just like watching the rain." she shrugged, before raising her arm to lift up one side of the blanket. "C'mere, come sit."

Harvey sat down on the surprisingly cold wooden floor, sliding in close to let SJ share her blanket with him. She kissed his cheek as she draped the soft fabric over his shoulders, pulling him even closer.

"Warm enough?" she asked, softly.

He nodded, smiling as she turned back towards the window.

"I love thunderstorms. My favorite type of weather."

"Can't say that I agree." Harvey replied, shuddering as another rumble of thunder echoed through the valley.

"Not a fan?" she smirked, reaching out to take his hand.

"Thunder.... Makes it a little difficult to sleep, is all." he said, lacing their fingers together.

The touch helped to ground him. It reminded him that he wasn't in his apartment, where the walls vibrated during particularly strong storms, and the windows shook so badly he thought they might shatter. He was much safer here, with SJ.

"Rain is just soothing for me, and the lightning looks so pretty." she added.

He watched the storm with her for a few moments. He could understand her appreciation for the quiet beauty of the flash that cut through the clouds and lit up the night sky, but the roaring thunder that followed was a grim reminder of all the damage that one little flash could do.

"Aren't you worried about the lightning damaging the farm?" he asked.

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80 notes - Posted August 5, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Meet the Farmers (Pixel Portrait Masterpost)

Hello all!

During my recent stardew modding hyperfixation (I say recent, it's been like a year now😅) I've taken up making stardew-style portraits of farmers! I started with my 3, and then started making some for my friends, and now I've got about a dozen farmers from my fantastically talented stardew friends. (aka, this is a very long post)

So, without further ado, I'd like to introduce you all to the squad!

Name: Sadie "SJ" V

Pronouns: She/They

Farm: Atlantis Farm

In-game spouse/partner: Harvey

Creator: Atlantis

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90 notes - Posted November 27, 2022

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[little-cereal-draws]

Hello, I just wanna say that I just saw ur reblogs towards my last post and I need to tell u that U MADE ME MY WHOLE NIGHT😭💖💖

Really, Im very happy to know that u find my idea interesting and that u commented some hc it so great to me and I can't man— I will take some of the ideas into account because really they're so cool and ayyy<@<"&!,'s

(Idk how respond reblogs but I didn't want you to think I ignored it soo aha)

AAA thank you! I am in love with your designs; I haven’t seen anyone do that before.

I’ve done half of another screenshot redraw and thought of half a dozen more ideas but school is kicking my ass so it’s going to be a minute before I finish any of them. (Most of them involve Sammy and Bucky in their madripoor outfits though because 😍)

For my next idea, I’m imagining that everything in their world is the same as it is in canon, just everyone’s the opposite gender. But I realized that in this universe Zemo would be Karl’s mother instead of father… I don’t know how your headcannon of Zemo being ace falls into this but it made Civil War/Zemos backstory even more heartbreaking for me. It also reminded me of Wanda’s line in Multiverse of Madness, “I’m not a monster, Stephen, I’m a mother.”

[tassaonkaikki]

Hey sorry about your notifs btw, I didn't realize those would go to the person whose reblog I hit reply on instead of OP. I'm a bit new to the Tumbl..

oh yeah it's alright lol, it just scared me when i opened up tumblr to 81 notifications when i hadn't posted anything special in particular 😭