#and for fandoms i barely interact w/

[sangled]

sequel to this

[galacticlamps]

ok I have A Lot of thoughts about the staircase confession (well really about Edwin's whole character arc, but all roads lead to rome) but for now I just wanna say that, yes, I was bracing myself for something to go terribly wrong when I first watched it, and yes, part of me was initially worried its placement might be an uncharacteristically foolish choice made in the name of Drama or Pacing or Making a Compelling Episode of Television but at the expense of narrative sense--

But I wanna say that having taken all that into account, and watched it play out, and sat with it - and honestly become rather transfixed by it - I really think it's a beautifully crafted moment and truly the only way that arc could've arrived at such a satisfying conclusion.

And if I had to pinpoint why I not only buy it but also have come to really treasure it, I'd have to put it down to the fact that it genuinely is a confession, and nothing else.

That moment is an announcement of what Edwin has come to understand about himself, but because it takes the form of a character admitting romantic feelings for such a close friend, I think it can be very easy, when writing that kind of thing, to imbue it with other elements like a plea or a request or even the start of a new relationship that, intentionally or not, would change the shape of the moment and can quickly overshadow what a huge deal the telling is all on its own. But that's not the case here. Since it is only a confession, unaccompanied by anything else, and since we see afterward how it was enough, evidently, to fix the strangeness that had grown between him & Charles, we're forced to understand that it was never Edwin's feelings that were actually making things difficult for him - it was not being able to tell Charles about them. 'Terrified' as he's been of this, Edwin learns that his feelings don't need to either disappear completely or be totally reciprocated in order for him to be able to return to the peace, stability, and security of the relationship with which he defines his existence - and the scale of that relief a) tells us a hell of a lot about Edwin as a character and b) totally justifies the way his declaration just bursts out of him at what would otherwise be such a poorly chosen moment, in my opinion.

Whether or not they are or ever could be reciprocated, Edwin's feelings are definitively proven not to be the problem here - only his potential choice to bottle it up - his repression - is. And where that repression had once been mainly involuntary, a product of what he'd been through, now that he's got this new awareness of himself, if he still fails to admit what he's found either to himself or to the one person he's so unambiguously close with, then that repression will be by his own choice and actions.

And he won't do that. Among other things, he's coming into this scene having just (unknowingly) absolved the soul of his own school bully and accidental killer by pointing out a fact that is every bit as central to his self-discovery as anything about his sexuality or his attraction to Charles is: the idea that "If you punish yourself, everywhere becomes Hell"

So narratively speaking, of course it makes sense that Edwin literally cannot get out of Hell until he stops punishing himself - and right now, the thing that's torturing him is something he has control over. It's not who he is or what he feels, but what he chooses to do with those feelings that's hurting him, and he's even already made the conscious choice to tell Charles about them, he was just interrupted. But now that they're back together and he's literally in the middle of an attempt to escape Hell, there is absolutely no way he can so much as stop for breath without telling Charles the truth. Even the stopping for breath is so loaded - because they're ghosts, they don't need to breathe, but also they're in Hell, so the one thing they can feel is pain, however nonsensical. And Edwin certainly is in pain. But whether he knows what he's about to do or not when he says he 'just needs a tick,' a breather is absolutely not what's gonna give him enough relief to keep climbing - it's fixing that other hurt, though, that will.

Like everything else in that scene, there's a lot of layers to him promising Charles "You don't have to feel the same way, I just needed you to know" - but I don't think that means it isn't also true on a surface level. It's the act of telling Charles that matters so much more than whatever follows it, and while that might have gone unnoticed if anything else major had happened in the same conversation, now we're forced to acknowledge its staggering and singular importance for what it is. The moment is well-earned and properly built up to, but until we see it happen in all its wonderful simplicity, and we see the aftermath (or lack thereof, even), we couldn't properly anticipate how much of a weight off Edwin's shoulders merely getting to share the truth with Charles was going to be, why he couldn't wait for a better, safer opportunity before giving in to that desire, or how badly he needed to say it and nothing else - and I really, really love the weight that act of just being honest, seen, and known is given in their story/relationship.

[saturnniidae]

Now that mha is over yes its borderline copoganda; Heros are glorified cops. Yes the LoV was right in the need to dismantle the system, yes the potential of actually exploring the overlaps of quirks that can be disabling/treated similarly to disabilities and mental illnesses and how being quirkless is seen/treated as a disability as well in how people are seen as less for being unable to 'contribute to society' was wasted, Yes the potential in actually talking about systemic injustices and the LoV getting Some kind of redemption was wasted potential, yes endeavor should've fucking died, yes the majority of the LoV being victims of abuse and dying was in poor taste and they deserved rehabilitation or at the very least for their actions to have sparked Some kind of genuine longterm change

yes any hopes of this were too high but #neverstopdreaming & complaing is actually a philosophy of hope and want for things to be better..

[artifeast]

i hope the van explodes

[kittycatred]

[ ooc ]

pssst....did you know its this blog's 1 month anniversary ??? ( technically, its the 29th but...february has no 29th so march 1st will count shhhhh )

i just wanted to say, i can neverrrr put into words how much i appreciate every interaction, ask, like, reblog, comment, ect ect on this blog !!!!

this was my first time actually doing an askblog/rp blog, let alone roleplaying since i was 12 or so probably, and i am stilll to this day insanely suprised how far this blog has gotten in only a month ??? like, i dont care for numbers this is tumblr, but im only 11 followers away from 100 ?? its insane that nearly 100 people like this silly little blog ??

quite honestly i made this blog impulsively because of the green & blue blogs, i had no idea what id do with it, and honestly thats the fun in it for me !!! this blog has made me LOVE improv storytelling honestly it is so fun to do !!! :D

in only a month red has given out government cats, illegally got a corndog, joe mama'ed rocketcorp, been to fortnite, had ruben take over their blog, miss their friends, crashout so many times, go to minecraft, lose ruben, get shot by a skeleton, get bullied by anons, get drugged by anon peer pressure, and be taken care of by anons and probably more because this is all by memory lmaoo

AND THATS INSANE TO ME???? so again, i may be really sappy alot but i literally appreciate everything soso much !! you've guys made this soooo fun for me and its only ongoing :3

[asgardian--angels]

....idk in a fandom this gigantic how are people already coalescing onto a handful of popular headcanons and scenarios that just become the baseline now, when the source material gives us literally limitless possibilities to work with

[mjrdm]

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[depriviolent]

ppl blowing up my gf fics from 2014 rn bc of that book

[ebenelephant]

so I've seen some izzy-antis discussing the 'bury your gays' accusations regarding the finale. and for the record, i also dont think that izzy's death is an example of that trope. do i think it a rushed disservice to his character and frankly fucking unnecessary? yes. but sometimes writing can just be shitty and upsetting without it falling into bigoted tropes.

my issue with these individuals is the generally dismissive tone with which many discuss his queerness. almost as if they dont want to admit that Izzy is queer, or that they think that people are being ridiculous for mourning him because the 'good gays' lived. like, izzy died, but izzy was repressed and had internalised homophobia and perpetuated toxic masculinity and never explicitly came out, so it's fine! it doesn't matter, because stede and ed get to have their happy little cottage, and the possible-polycule are off on a high seas adventure, and lucius and pete are gay-married Mateys.

this really fucking bothers me.

every time i so much as see one of these posts my skin crawls. because i literally do not care if someone's fandom opinion differs from my own, as long as no one is being harassed; but this feels... different, somehow. it's not enough to dislike izzy, they have to somehow diminish his queerness.

like i said, some of them barely want to call him gay. skirting around the issue, barely acknowledging that him saying he 'has love' for edward is the same as being totally and devastatingly 'in love' with him for years - possibly decades. izzy is a bad queer, and so his queerness isn't important. his experiences, his growth, the fact that he died. he's a bad gay, so he isn't important.

and he's bad because for so long he detached himself from his queerness. he was scared of feeling, he was scared of softness, he was scared of sweetness. he was cruel, and he was mean, and meanness is a thing perpetuated against members of the lgbt community, not by them. it's this new system of purity politics: everything is black and white. homophobes are bad, and izzy was bad, therefore calling him queer chafes. it's almost like admitting there's some goodness in him.

and fuck. the idea that his death needn't be ruminated on just because other gays are happy is perverse.

[neallo]

Do you know why so many misa and light stans hate mello and near

baby what are you talking about

[transannabeth]

i think you're a fan of solving live triangles by having all three people date each other. do you think that goes for twilight as well? i think it would be perfect! jacob and edward have a special connection and bella apparently loves them both. everyone wins

hilariously when you sent this the other day, i was actually in the middle of a conversation about twilight

i'll fully admit that while i do love poly ships, this isn't always where my mind goes to. sometimes i just don't like one of the love interests much, or alternatively: i don't care for the person the two others are fighting for and think the two love interests should leave that person high and dry and date each other

in twilight i think both of them honestly stink and should stay far away from bella. i can't remember them interacting all that much where they aren't fighting (pre renesmee) but i have seen some fun edward/jacob fan content that's doing its own thing

and i mean i personally don't think edward/bella/jacob would be winning i think it would be so wildly messy and disastrous but like. i do love a messy polycule. so,

mandatory "read the truth vs twilight page from the burke museum and the quileute tribe right now" and "consider helping the quileute tribe continue their move to higher ground" note. thank you!

[emillungs]

Thank you for blessing us with new Liandrin art 🥹💕

happy to be of service 🫡

[slapstick-mountain]

I need to find this side of the ea fandom on Twitter because unfortunately that's the platform I'm most active in the world is so cruel....

[tunaricebowl]

i’m gonna say something possibly controversial but i don’t like spiderdads as a romantic ship. it’s cute platonically, i love seeing art of them being grumpy + sunshine besties. but them being a romantic ship just feels. forced. i personally really dislike ships that are just there because they’re the same sex and breathing next to each other. like maybe if peter didn’t have a whole ass family, maybe i wouldn’t mind spiderdads so much. but i really don’t like the homewrecking aspect of it

and don’t come at me with the mj+peter+miguel polycule. i rarely if ever see you guys include mj.

idk. maybe it’s a me problem, but it’s just kinda something that bothers me. i ship a lot of gay shit but i don’t like ships that are there just because they’re gay (also applies to franmaya a bit but it doesn’t bother me that much,,,, sorry franmaya shippers)

[kirkwallsquad]

what is a fandom mom?

they usually call themselves fandom moms; they're typically "older" women in fandom spaces who will "take younger members of the fandom under their wing". i'm sure there are nice ones out there who genuinely want to cultivate a nice fandom environment! but in my experience they're typically entitled, creepy, and are in the perfect position (of power) to groom young people.

[skylardoesthings]

so fun fact. if u know / rememebr my IE RPG au, it was an impulsive decision i made because at the time i had an entire idea of an RPG type game but I didn't know what to do with it, so, like a normal person I turned it into an AU with one of my hyperfixations at the time LOL

anyways, that au is in hiatus rn and i kinda decided to make the project into an actual thing. here's a drawing btw.

this entire project is still a WIP and i know because immediately after finishing this drawing i redesigned one of the characters.