#and i feel so lonely 1000000% of the time

[jinstronaut]

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[jenyifer]

How to make Only Friends Sapphic

So jumping off of my previous post about the theory that BostonNick sharing clothes is one of the most lesbian coded things I can think of and checking Jojo’s Twitter and seeing this

I thought I’d give some suggestions as a girl lover myself. I think that BostonNick is already two steps away from being a lesbian couple. You ever played mind games with a girl who wants to “be free to explore her options”? And I can promise you Nick is barely a stalker in comparison to what me and my friends can do to someone we like. Nothing illegal persay but…. Questionable Stalking is done on both sides under the guise of “we have seen true crime and live online”. Nick and Boston already live together basically pre break up. I think they shared clothes and Boston was using Nick every time he felt too many emotions or insecure. I think this is part of the reason he kept bringing nick with him to events but I want to talk about that in its own post.

Now TopMew another super lesbian coupling. Mew is raised by lesbians so his underhand passive aggressive ways are very familiar. Top being in love with the competitive game of getting Mew or Boeing is also text book. Sometimes the chase is worth more than the capture. I also think as lesbians we try to prove our relationships are picture perfect for instagram we finally find someone to take on all those date ideas we saved off while single and lonely.

The couple you’d have to change the most is SandRay. As Severe Depression Panic Attack girlie myself I get good morning texts and good evening checks from my Ex everyday. It’s not out of love or anything it’s a bond we share so. Firstly Mew or Boston would be checking on Ray it doesn’t matter if he hides it or if he can’t stop drinking etc the “hello are you alive text or call” would be essential or a lesbian would call the cops or that one person who can knock knock on their door to check. Ray would also know all of Bostons one night stand stories simply because he’d check in with Boston the next day to make sure Boston hadn’t been kidnapped or raped. It’s common practice with my friends who are adventurous anyways. Second Sand would have moved in with Ray or moved Ray in with him. No buts ands or protests about it. There would be a uhaul involved. Nick would have been carrying the boxes too because see a sister in need who you crushing on “you can change them just get them under your roof”. I also think Ray being a sugar mommy on the DL would be a thing just replacing Sand’s shit with higher end things. Because he cares and then Sand pushing back. The confusion with Mew is 1000000% on brand for a lesbian relationship though. As I said my ex is my bestie and I can’t get rid of her she won’t let me. It’s a big reason why I don’t like talking about Mew because his attitude towards Ray feels like a mircoscope mirror at the moment and I hate it. But it’s common to stay besties with your ex as a lesbian we are eachothers chosen family we don’t abandon eachother. And yeah sometimes feelings stick around even if it’s not for the best. Even if it hurts new interests.

I think the most fascinating change would be the interaction of the girls because we get terribly involved in our friends business most of the time. Sometimes people fall off completely absorbed in their new flame but if you have a good group of girls they’ll pull you back to reality. Also Mew’s revenge on Boston would have been the stuff talked about in legends. Punishing someone in your chosen family goes hardcore mode real fast. I also think SandNick’s relationship is already Sapphic enough I mean… who hasn’t gone camping with their bestie to see the stars touch grass then kissed them found out yeah no feels there and snuggle cuddled to sleep. That is literally me sophomore year of college except we went to a reserve where there were gators in the lake and when we woke up and went the 2 min walk to the beach there they were waiting to eat us whole.

Also your gay guy friend in Cheum would have to be more prominent. ESPECIALLY IF CHEUM IS AN ATTACHED LONG TERM RELATIONSHIP GAY. Cheum would be all up in everyone’s business super judgy with Mew but always there. Cheum would plan things and Mew would make the others show up. I can just see Cheum’s eye roll at the weekly check in because Ray needs to be reminded of his friends and Cheum would understand that. Also Cheum and April would throw the best dinner parties with wine and messy gossip. Cheum and April would def leave everyone at the party but that would be expected.

Anyways I had fun imagining it I hope you had fun reading. I tried not to be mean to Mew again so hopefully I’ve achieved that tone. I really am trying to work on it. Reading other people’s meta interpretations has really helped. Thank you!!!

[holocene-sims]

oc deep dive

thank you @stargazer-sims for tagging me!! naturally, because i am predictable, i'll answer these questions for grant 🙈

not sure who has done this tag because it went around mostly when i was on hiatus, but i'll tag: @windermeresimblr @nectar-cellar @papermint-airplane @queeniecook @sparkiekong + anyone who wants to do it 💌

what uncommon/common fear do they have?

common: he's a major germaphobeeeeeee

hello, mr. showers-multiple-times-a-day! 🧼

btw i always headcanon grant as wearing masks frequently in public and always in very crowded places like airplanes. you just don't see that in-game because all the mask cc i have installed conflicts with his glasses and/or eyelashes 😔

uncommon: idk if he's afraid of anything uncommon. the main ones for him are germs + being yelled at or physically pushed around, which are common. i guess you could say noses kind of freak him out; the whole cartilage/bone/close-to-the-brain combo is a very unpleasant thought for him lolz

do they have any pet peeves?

you know how most people hate it when a two-person party at a cafe/restaurant sit on the same side of the bench? grant actually hates it when the other person sits opposite of him; he finds it a little bit awkward and lonely. he'd much rather have the friend or partner sit next to him, provided they're cool with it and a side-by-side seating arrangement is possible! ❤️

what are 3 items you can find in their bedroom?

his cat, probably

hand sanitizer (citrus scent)

pikachu plush acquired during the korea arc with henry

what do they notice first in a person?

physically: hair 💇 simply because hair is the first thing his eyes can see when looking at someone...unless they're the same height as him, at which point he can finally look someone in the eyes lmao

personality-wise: if they're nice to servers or other customer service workers and tip well

on a scale of 1 to 10, how high is their pain tolerance?

at this point, it's a 10. his body is a little (a lot) banged up from old injuries and being chronically ill. when he was super young, his pain tolerance was not that great, like stubbing a toe was a serious hour-ruining problem, but he's had to get used to feeling much worse, so his "i feel great, let's go run a marathon!!" days now are probably an average person's 6 on the pain scale but a 2 or so for him. it's not that things hurt *less*, it's more that the conditions that would get him to notice his pain, pay more attention to it, or rate the pain level at a 6 or well above that are far more extreme.

do they go into fight or flight mode when under pressure?

it depends what kind of pressure. if it's some kind of social pressure, aka being in an argument with someone or having upset someone, it triggers major fight or flight response, and usually, he's a flight kind of person. it's changed, though, over the course of the story. i think he's more willing to fight or at least just feel the fight/flight response while responding with a cool head.

if it's a non-social pressure like a situation at work, even if people are involved in the situation he needs to deal with, grant responds very differently. he doesn't get the fight or flight response here, he's always pretty level-headed and logical about non-social situations.

do they come from a big family/are they a family person?

his family is too big, but he adores them all (sans his parents and one of his sisters). grant is 1000000% a family person!

what animal represents them best?

personally, i think he could be a panda. large, cuddly, and endearing

what is a smell that they dislike?

ultimate irony: he hates the smell of cigarettes ☠️

and he finds it funny. he's unfortunately been addicted to smoking forever, but he's so irritated by the smell and also scared of bothering anyone with it that he takes extreme measures to avoid not absorbing cigarette scent lmao

have they broken any bones?

oh dear. yes, he has. lol. the whole "i accidentally knocked out/broke some of my teeth playing hockey thing" was real 😭😭

the teeth were probably the most obvious/annoying bones to break, but he did also break the pinky finger on his left hand, aka his dominant hand, at church when he was like six. he was fucking around in the church basement with his cousins and friends after some church event, and when they were leaving to go back upstairs, he shut the giant wooden door too quickly, which jammed his finger hard enough to break it 💀

how would a stranger likely describe them?

physically: giant, should have played basketball

personality-wise: charming

are they a night owl or a morning bird?

i think he's somewhere in between! he's happy to stay up late and get up early. although, even if he does stay up late, he still will always get up early. he's used to that from work and also from chronic pain bothering him in his sleep.

what is a flavor they hate and a flavor they love?

love: coconut, chocolate, citrus, coffee

hate: strawberry, vanilla, tea

do they have any hobbies?

cooking, baking, playing video games, dungeons & dragons/TTRPGs, painting, stargazing/reading about astronomy, watching airplanes irl or in videos, watching youtube, watching cat videos on instagram reels, hiking when he feels up to it, working out, traveling, reading (he's trying to fully get back into it), etc.

boom, surprise birthday party! how do they react to surprises?

honestly, grant is one of those people who does muchhhh better with surprise birthday parties than planned parties. if you give him zero time to think about receiving love, gifts, and affection, he can't do the whole "woe is me, i don't deserve it, you're too nice" shtick

do they like to wear jewelry?

at this point, he doesn't really own any. he used to have piercings (the only ones remaining are the 🍒💍, and he did have a claddagh ring, which was a gift from his great uncle, but the piercings were lost to career dress codes, and the ring disappeared with all his other stuff that his mother threw out years ago.

so, he's not anti-jewelry, like he'd totally wear rings at least, and he regrets that his one very nice ring was lost :( i think he'd also wear a necklace if someone gave him one, but grant himself would not naturally consider himself a necklace guy, so he wouldn't go out of his way to purchase one of his own volition.

(author's note: he deserves a nice necklace)

he does wear a leather watch all the time, though, but i'm not sure if that should be categorized as jewelry or just an accessory!

do they have neat or messy handwriting?

he has very neat handwriting!

what are two emotions they feel the most?

probablyyyyyy contentment (i know that may seem ironic given the story, but i think he's generally chill *now*, and my image of him is always a little bit colored by the yet unpublished end of everything the stars promised, which will get posted some day when the plot gets to that point) and shame

do they have a favorite fabric?

he may not own anything in this fabric but minky dot!! grant has visited fabric & craft stores many times with grandma aoifeeeeee, and when he and his cousins were younger, they loved to run around the stores feeling up all the fabric. he's always fond of minky dot because (1) it's soft, and (2) the dots are fun to poke at.

what kind of accent do they have?

i feel like i've answered this so many times, but grant, in my mind, has a unique accent!! he grew up in small town upper peninsula michigan, so he's had plenty of time to absorb the yooper/midwestern accent, but he was also raised by a family full of immigrants and spent most of his childhood hanging out around his grandparents specifically and traveling overseas to visit family, so at the same time, his accent turned irish-y early on. he's not the only one that combo accent happened to, but he probably has the strongest case out it outside of his aunt and uncle.

basically, with 100% certainty, i deem that grant has never and will never be able to pronounce the th sound with the h in it or vowels without them being nasally.

it's hard to put what i think he sounds like on paper, but it's some mix of these people: (1) (2) (3)

[barclaysangel]

Junior Wheeler Playlist

*pats playlist* This bad boy can fit 207 songs that lasts in total 12 hours and 27 minutes. I fixate too much on Junior. But I got inspired by @high-functioning-fang1rl Nica playlist so I had to do one for Junior too.

This is on my iTunes account and idk how to manage Spotify so if y'all wanna listen to it, I'm going to put all the songs down below. The ones with * on it are the ones I 1000000% relate for Junior. And feel free to send asks about any of the songs and I'll legit do a lyric analyst to explain why I chose it for Junior.

Anyway, enjoy :)

Avril Lavigne

Losing Grip*

Wish You Were Here

Let Me Go

Billie Eilish

COPYCAT

lovely*

you should see me in a crown*

bury a friend

everything i wanted*

Therefore I Am

Happier Than Ever*

Christina Perri

Distance

The Lonely*

Tragedy

Human

Digital Daggers

Where the Lonely Ones Roam*

The Devil Within*

Can't Sleep, Can't Breathe

Still Here*

Bad Intentions

Dorothy

Raise Hell*

Wicked Ones

Beetlejuice the Musical

Dead Mom*

Say My Name

That Beautiful Sound

Home*

Evanescence

Going Under*

Bring Me To Life

Everybody's Fool*

My Immortal*

Tourniquet

Hello*

My Last Breath

Whisper*

Sweet Sacrifice*

Weight of the World*

Lithium*

Like You

Lose Control*

All That I Am Living For

Made of Stone*

The Change*

My Heart Is Broken

The Other Side

Lost in Paradise*

Sick*

Never Go Back

A New Way To Bleed*

Even in Death

Missing*

Farther Away

Fall Out Boy

I Don't Care*

My Songs Know What You Did in the Dark

Alone Together*

Young Volcanoes*

Irresistible

Centuries*

Immortals*

Halsey

Empty Gold

Hold Me Down*

New Americana*

Ghost

Colors*

Colors, Pt. II

Gasoline*

Control*

I Walk the Line

Alone*

Now or Never

Sorry

Good Mourning*

Lie*

Angel on Fire*

Devil in Me*

clementine

Graveyard

Forever ... (is a long time)*

I HATE EVERYBODY*

3am*

Finally // beautiful stranger*

Still Learning

Bells in Santa Fe*

Easier than Lying*

Lilith

Darling*

1121*

honey

Whispers*

Ya'aburnee

People Disappear Here*

Hollywood Undead

Young*

Paradise Lost*

Another Way Out

We Are*

Medicine

Renegade

Imagine Dragons

Radioactive

Demons*

I'm So Sorry*

Monster*

Who We Are

Natural*

Enemy*

LINKIN PARK

Faint

Numb*

What I've Done*

Heavy

Livingston

Shadow*

Surprise!*

Marina and The Diamonds

Oh No!*

Teen Idle

Melanie Martinez

Dollhouse*

Soap*

Training Wheels

Pity Party*

Milk and Cookies*

Mad Hatter*

The Principal

Show & Tell*

Drama Club

Lunchbox Friends*

Orange Juice*

High School Sweethearts

DEATH*

VOID*

FAERIE SOIREE

LIGHT SHOWER

SPIDER WEB*

LEECHES*

BATTLE OF THE LARYNX*

THE CONTORTIONIST*

NYMPHOLOGY

EVIL*

PLUTO*

Olivia Rodrigo

brutal*

Can't Catch Me Now*

Queen

Bohemian Rhapsody*

Under Pressure

The Show Must Go On*

Set It Off

Nightmare*

I'll Sleep When I'm Dead*

Wolf in Sheep's Clothing

Skillet

Falling Inside the Black*

Monster*

Taylor Swift

I Did Something Bad*

Don't Blame Me*

Look What You Made Me Do*

my tears ricochet

seven*

this is me trying*

hoax

Anti-Hero*

You're On Your Own, Kid*

Vigilante Shit*

Three Days Grace

Just Like You*

I Hate Everything About You

Born Like This

Overrated*

Pain*

Animal I Have Become*

Riot

Let It Die

Bitter Taste*

Break

The Good Life*

Someone Who Cares*

Chalk Outline

Misery Loves My Company*

Human Race*

Pain Killer*

Fallen Angel

So What*

Nothing's Fair in Love and War

One Too Many

twenty one pilots

Stressed Out*

Ride

Fairly Local*

Other Artists

Let Me Down Slowly by Alec Benjamin

Here by Alessia Cara*

Panic Room by Au/Ra*

I'm Gonna Show You Crazy by Bebe Rexha*

Dark Side by Bishop Briggs*

idfc by blackbear

Break the Rules by Charli XCX

Arcade by Duncan Laurence

The Monster by Eminem*

Gorgeous Nightmare by Escape the Fate*

Seven Devils by Florence + the Machine*

You Found Me by The Fray

Achilles Come Down by Gang of Youths*

So Alive by The Goo Goo Dolls*

Blood // Water by grandson*

Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day

Impossible by James Arthur*

Human by John "The Ragin Cajun" Jones*

Broken by lovelytheband

How Villains Are Made by Madalen Duke*

Twisted by MISSIO

Voices by Motionless In White

Funeral by Neoni*

How You Remind Me by Nickleback*

Don't Let Me Get Me by P!nk

Cradles by Sub Urban*

Bad Things by Summer Kennedy*

Shattered by Trading Yesterday*

Unsteady by X Ambassadors*

Heads Will Roll by Yeah Yeah Yeahs

[vicsy]

Kinda obsessed with strollonso mafia au but like nando has el plan and it keeps backfiring because lance just offers everything earlier than nando expected because lance is a lonely cringe nepo baby who is finally get the dick of his life obvs he'd want to marry nando 3 days after knowing him not in 3 months like nando planned

Nando finally met his match cause he’s used to outsmarting everyone, coming up with convoluted strategies but this weird himbo twink boy waltzes right to him to literally just get the dick, without any reservations cause he’s just this straightforward and sort of lonely, like you said; isolated by wealth and his father’s ambitions for him. So of course he’d go out of his way to get what his lil spoiled heart wants.

Like, Nando is making seductions plans that have a PowerPoint presentation, a binder with a bullet points and details the size of the Old Testament, and his right hand men (in my au it’s Daniel together with Carlos) are dying inside but Lance straight up comes to Nando with his own demands and attitude. And it’s driving Fernando up the wall but at the same time he’s finally entertained, intrigued and horny beyond reasonable comprehension.

I don’t want to spill the details for what I have planned for my own fic but the idea of Lance marrying Fernando….. with his family history and life of crime…. It’s just so…….. twisted Romeo and Juliet, cutting ties with your family to take on a new name, something about belonging and running away. Lance knows the dicking is fucking supreme but what else is driving him further?…. And Fernando is feeling things he shouldn’t be.

Oh look at me turning it soft again, lmao sorry, but you are 1000000% valid anon.

[minevn]

(I'm sorry for the mistakes) Does the action take place in any particular country? If so, what will be the reaction of LI to a foreign MC?

Yep! It takes place in Osaka, Japan!

Minato: Honestly, he doesn't think much of it, you're still human just like everyone else. He might do some thinking on it and realize that you may feel out of place or might not know everything and so he'll be there to support you, helping you feel less lonely and teaching you all about customs. He would love to know know about where you're from as well!

Haruto: Haruto probably wouldn't know you if you weren't childhood friends so for him and a few others maybe you moved to Osaka when you were little and your parents happened to get close with his. He probably wouldn't think much about it at first either, he might be shocked by certain things you do because he's not used to it, or hearing you speak another language would be really cool to him! He'd learn your language, he might pretend to be a bit rusty with it though to hang out with you! Either way you two are best friends!

Jun: Would be so interested in you when he sees you with Aki! Asks his sister TONS of questions about you. Another one who will learn your language. Tries to hang out with you more, she doesn't want you to feel alienated, she wants you to feel like you belong here, in her eyes you do, you belong here right by her side! She'll also help Aki with teaching you certain customs that you may not have!

Hoshi: Well, he'll feel awful about pranking and teasing you, but I don't see him stopping, pranks are just his hobby, they're a Hoshi thing and most people who have been unfortunate enough to run into him know that. He NEVER pranks you or teases you for being a foreigner though, and if his friends ever tried doing anything like that he's punching their lights out. Would honestly love to learn your language as well!

Habiki: I don't see him stopping being an asshole either, once again most people who meet Habiki know that that's just him. He's rude to everyone. But he's also never rude to you because of where you're from. I think he'd want to learn your language but I think he'd like to learn about the music where you're from and try learning it! He'd love to do duets where you're singing in your native tongue while he plays the violin.

Kage: Probably acts the same as Jun, being really interested in you, asking Haruto and his momma all about you, and learning your language. Other then that I can't see much changing. He'd definitely get your help with learning your language and he learns it pretty fast. Wants to try all the food where you're from.

Kei: Learns your native language 1000000% He already wanted to learn multiple languages before meeting you and you motivated him to go along with it! Speaks fluently in your language by the time he see's you again. He's also done research about cultural customs and really just anything about where you're from. LOVES when you speak to him in your native tongue.

Yani: Has never met someone who wasn't from Japan so he's really shocked to see you here! I think a lot of his curiosity happens when you two become friends. He's always been interested in you and wanting to learn more but for some reason he just doesn't think about the fact that you're a foreigner, but when he does he's asking you a ton of questions, he's really interested. He wants to know everything about you, what your life was like before you moved here, what meals you have, your language, everything!

Aki: Thinks it's really cool you speak another language! She loves when you speak in your native tongue, she probably would learn a few phrases to say to you to surprise you. Loves saying "goodnight, love you." in your language, it just seems so intimate to her. Aki really loves traveling so if you wanted to, you two could travel to where you're from and stay there a bit, she also wouldn't mind moving there with you!

[bibbykins]

Yo, your stalker here again lol. I've been meaning to ask you this but always forgot it but remember when I asked you about what would household Jimin feel if bunny cheated, is it okay if I'd ask the whole household boys reaction to that? Like what would they say or do? Tho I know it's impossible in the universe (coz bunny's yandere for them too, I know I know *wink*) and the nearest scenario that this could happen is bunny getting mad at them for something and wanting to get back at them, thus finding someone and tryin to make them jealous (which bunny 1000000% mission accomplished)

Anyways don't pressure yourself and Merry Christmas/happy holidays!!!! It passed by like a normal day for me but I hope you're having fun. 💜💜

My stalker fsdkfns lmao pls

Happy belated holidays my dear!!

Now if MC were to cheat... oh boy

Warnings: delusional, obsessive, possessive, and general yandere behavior, toxic relationship, yelling, suicide threats, kidnapping/entrapment

Ofc she would never but it kinda depends on the reason. Like if it was because she was feeling lonely/isolated then the reaction would be still horrible but not as horrible as if she just did it bc she got bored. If that happened, full stop she'd become a prisoner basically. So if it were for the first reason:

Jungkook would be the most likely to lash out at her. He would never physically hurt her or anything, but he would yell. He'd also be the most self-loathing but instead of dealing with it, he would channel that into making sure she never leaves his sight again. I'm talking he's taking her everywhere and if for some reason he can't, he's making sure one of the guys are with her. Basically he's suffocates her just not literally lol

Taehyung... now that would be what breaks him. Like he was straight up scared of loving some partially for this reason. He'd take the manipulative route and ask "Should I kill myself? Would that make you happy?" Would hold that over her head but would never break up with her.

Namjoon is the one that would need to be talked out of just keeping her at the house. He would pull away and be cold to such a degree that she would have to beg for days and on her knees for him to forgive her. Even then, she'd be similarly stuck to his side at all times.

Hoseok reacts pretty similarly to Jimin, like there's no way it was your fault. He's the problem, and he'll fix it. If you feel alone, you won't be anymore. You don't need your own room or bed if you feel alone, so he'll burn them and you can stay with one of them kind of "coping"

Yoongi... Yeah, he's not going to take it well. He'll lash out similar to Jungkook at her but then he'll ask for an apology and he needs it to be sincere. If it is, great! They're still together, and she's now required to wear a ring with a tracker on and if she takes it off without one of them present... yikes, just don't

Jin would lose his marbles, more than he already has so rip. He'll manipulate her into begging and pleading for forgiveness by crying and despairing about what must be wrong with him that you did that. From then on, he manipulates her into doing anything he wants, even staying home all the time unless it's going somewhere with one of them.

Overall, they don't react well lmao

[zeltqz]

Girl i really hate to say it… but that guy is trying to manipulate and control you from the left and from the right. He wants you to stop doing what you love and find comfort in but he’s allowed to watch porn because it’s „something different“ for him!? And the way texts you is so disrespectful, I know u probably don’t want to hear it, but that guy is only going to get worse once u are together. Then its not only the smut, then it’s gonna be u lookin at another boys etc. it doesn’t seem like he’s doing it out of love for you, but because he wants control over you. I love you and your work and i think it would be a shame if you stopped doin what you adore because some insecure guy has an issue with it. I really only wish the best for you and that you realize you only deserve the best snd a guy who is going to respect you and your hobbies. I know it’s hard to see the red flags when you really love someone, but u shouldn’t be searching for excuses for him when he is the fucking problem and not you. Sending much love to you 💗

yeah i understand 1000000% its just that i dont have the option for anyone else. me and my fam aren't on speaking terms right now and my "friends" haven't spoken to me since new years. like hes genuinely the only person i have in my life right now and if i cut him off then i'll literally be lonely aside from ppl i talk to online

im too emotionally invested in him and im not ready to just cut things off so easily i dont like being alone and as though his attitude may stink sometimes lmao theres good times too. whenever hes with me im happy and he makes me feel good and i havent felt that way in a long time

to give that all up is just a scary thought and im not ready to experience actual loneliness anytime soon. i hope that makes sense?

im not going to go right into dating him too so dont worry. i dont even think im emotionally stable rn for a relationship lmfao but i can tell him i want to take things slow and build a friendship first and see if he will accept that

seriously though guys im almost crying now but thanks for all ur dms and asks because i have nobody else to help me through this rn :(

[unimpressivegayarrow]

I think it was pretty decent from a 911ls pov. like everyone out here shitting on the show but when was it ever groundbreaking tv? like sure I screamed and paused it when I realised HE ACTUALLY WAS MARRIED AND IT WASNT JUST MAD SPECULATION, then I was like: oh, I mean this is just normal for lone star. There's always fix-it fics, I mean come one if u didn't like that's totally chill I don't blame you at all and I kinda even see where ur coming from. but the rescues were cool as shit. And there were a bunch of cool firefam moments it felt like really slice of life in the way it balanced the action and character time. (I swear that it was the longest Carlos has ever spoken for in an episode too). I can also see that everyone has like 1000000 better ways for the plot to have gone, and I agree the writers need to take some lesson, i do think it doesnt track with s1 but i also feel like the show doesnt track with s1. its not perfect and tbh I kinda like it as it is. I love the fandom, and getting hyped. I was so excited for weeks and weeks and I need that second episode. its the actors, guys. they carry it. its soo good as a silly network show and it just feels like 911ls. I wasnt expecting anything better from them, I watch this show to squeal about cute found family and ships and scream about soap opera level shit going down. I'm also always down for some character development and like- the way T.K. handled that "secret" was commendable. as I said before I was screaming. so yeah I'll be mad if they absolutely butcher a character but I can genuinely see where Carlos is coming from so i don't think I'll let it ruin my watch, its only the first episode and tbh I'm still pretty hyped.

[benefits1986]

AiAiAi Pug Ivig or is It Thug Igiv?

AI is a cure for the epidemic called loneliness 'di umano. Or, is it but another ano?

So eto na nga ang hindi super latest. Mo Gawdat and DOAC are chasing clouts again and again and again. Ang galawan? Training the sentient AI through voice. Opak. Ganern. Ang isang interesting na ganap ay mga teens na naglo-load ng mga conversations with the ex para magkaroon sila na AI jowabelles. Gen Alpha, beta ka talaga. Gen Z, kalma. Nakakagulat ba? I think not because online dating and online seggssss are but part of the hustle of kiddos these days. Walang mali, nasa flow na kung baga. Hindi ko rin sinasabing tama, 'di dahil play safe ako. Your body, your rules. Your space, your trace. I say... eto na. Ganun din naman boomers saka mga millennials na pak na pak ang demand for AI generated "jowa pro max" ++ with matching likes and comments and save and archive pa e. LOL. May trace pa sa public at times. In fairness ha! 'Yung mga models ng ibang fashion brands na alamin n'yo na lang kung anu-ano are fast-tracking drops through AI models vs real life models. I chanced upon AI muses (HAHAHAHA) the past months kasi nga nadapuan ako ng algo based sa podcast nina DOAC. Ang legit. 'Yung parang mutant na sila tapos alam mong AI sila pero damn, marionette levels... 1000000. Ganun. Free content pa. Even Only Fans top stars are shaking. I don't have any accounts ng mga ganito bilang sa erotica tayo and all roads lead back to the Delta of Venus. Bahala ka na lang kung pagtitiwalaan mo ang Book Sale copies because, you have been warned.

Sabi nga sa usapan nila DOAC na hindi overheard but juicy. May bearing naman na magka-AI jowa ang mga bagets kasi nga it's ganun talaga. Iba na ang panahon ngayon. For me, it's not about being cool. It's about how parents and grown ups help the kids and themselves na rin power through this very curious kagulo. Why am I saying these so early in the morning? Woke up early lang at pinulot ko poop ng bunso kong makulit. Plus, ang lala ng loneliness vibes these day and age. Kung nakakapag-travel lang ang cortisol levels ng generation na 'to, nakailang balik na tayo from Jupiter or Saturn in this lifetime and the next. I don't feel lonely naman in general, honestly. Lucky ako to have a strong and diverse small gone smaller circle since 2012. Gusto ko lang talagang maging on my own, pretending ___ beside me. Clue: MOM ko. Kung bibigyan ako ng chance, I will fucking take it. Have an AI version of my mom with her naturalesang kaingayan, ka-OC-han, ka-OA-an sa mga rules, at iba pa. Imagine: 530 AM, weekend, walang lakad: Anak, bangon na. Umaga na. Tara na. Hindi ka pa rin babangon? Ayaw mo pa ring kumilos? Me: Non-chalant. Mom ko: OA levels, attack hanggang paglalang niya sa akin sa mundong ito. Tapos ako pa masusunod anong frequency, reach at decibel. It's giving Be Right Back pero hindi malalang levels at hindi super mahal bilang naka-training mode pa ang mga AI na 'to now. Wala na akong pake for this one sa data privacy kasi honestly, it's mom's Second Life era. And mashe-share ko rin siya sa mga may gusto ng wagas na nanay sa buhay nila. However, syempre, halos walang digital footprint si mom as a non-camera, sungit girly. LOL. So, ano na? Delulu na kung delulu pero eto ang version ko ng quatum jump. Gamitin szn lang naman din ang AI era. And consumerist naman lahat ng mga tao. We all consume before our expiry dates. Simple. Walang salag. Pero, syempre, may kaakibat na balik 'yan. Mas malalang delulu? Possibly. Mas malalang spiral na parang sa Be Right Back? Check. Atbp. Pero, again, I will fucking take it, take it, take it all. Kahit 'di ako winner, ever. Not just because of nostalgia which is always bitter and biting and sweet in on gulp. But because, gusto ko lang may kabatuhan. I tried comparing my mom to other moms, pero isa lang talaga nanay e. Kahit spoiled ako ng mga nanay na nakakameet ko, alaws, par. Alaws. Oks naman sila, pero kamandag ng nanay ko, wild levels 100000. So, hindi ako makakapag-train ng AI, for now. Wala nga along voice message niya e. So, sayang talaga. Imagine, if may room full of videos, texts, and images ka, solb na solb na ang Second Life ng sino mang gusto mong maka-thing. Ikaw na bahala mag-define what ka-thing means. 'Di ba? Nakaka-brain freeze kahit walang ice cream sa melon pan. CHZ. My soul sis and I are actually thinking whether we'll CTRL + ALT + DEL our Tumblrista kaganapans na puro naman walang kwentang content. Ses: AI landed on Tumblr. Me: Okay. Tapos? Ses: Sa kanila na lahat ng stories. Me: Let the bards go barding in. Let the Gemini rule the twelve kingdoms. Let the Bing binge. Let GPT be a charming G*stapowowowowow mala Coco Chanel, mhie. Welcome to the Other Side! Ses: ... Me: ... Eto kasi take ko, puwede naman i-CTRL + ALT + DEL. Pero it's super sus na hindi magli-leak itong mga pakawala sa Tumblr like the rest of the non-analog world 'di ba? Saka dahil nga delulu ako, I think oks lang naman i-pass on ko 'to sa chose few like my Gen Z 4th anak-anakan. Mas mage-gets niya. Literal na my sins are more than scarlet letters emerut. Saka goal ko lang is 'wag niya akong tuluran. Puwede rin 'tong space na 'to sa pamangkin kong McQueen para may pang-tanggal aburido siya when he grows up. 'Di rin siya about legacy kasi wala naman sa book ko 'yan. 'Di bagay. Wala rin namang profound stuff dito maliban sa deep dive ng mga kashitan, katangahan, kalandian, atbp. Talagang nasa pang-aliw-aliw lang for the audience of one.

Seriously though, ito kasi 'yung time na naniniwala akong mas importante ang kwento na may totoong hugot. Hindi 'yung masabi lang. Mashare lang. Marepost lang. Ito 'yung time na tatanong mo sa sarili mo, ano ba ang voice mo? At gaano mo kakapitan 'yang unique and flawed and fucked up voice na 'yan kasi iyo lang 'yan? 'Di siya madali pero ano bang madali ngayon maliban sa umayaw sa earth na 'di rin super dali, if may mga voices inside you na mala-Joy-Ennui-atbp. on good days and meh days. Saan mo ba gustong dalhin ka as a mutant powered by AI tools na sentient beings na kahit 'di pa raw tayo andun? Siguro, dahil favorite ko Her forever. It's hauntingly beautiful pero sad na tagos bilang reality siya. Plus Joaquin Phoenix is my cup of Ventea since Gladiator original version from Video City. May discount pa since client ni dad 'yung branch sa South. Tapos apaka uggghh kasi 'yung counterpart nito ay Lost in Translation. Search mo na lang connection ng movies na 'to sa suking Google Search 'pag may time ka. Mejj very meh lang ng plot ng Lost in Translation kasi out of touch siya pero gets 'yung subtext. Again OA sa orientalismmmmmm. Saka chixx ng bida plus the voice is giving *chef's kiss*. Hahaha.

So... CTRL + ALT + DEL ko na ba 'tong account na 'to? Abangan ang susunod na mood swing pakawala. Paalam muna.

[ykintsaiwfml]

Post #4:

September 24, 2023 - 6:18pm

I've been writing in my journal more lately which I love. But I've also been really busy with school so I haven't realllyyyyyy had much time to do this. Man, this summer. I really spiraled tf out July/beginning of August. That psychic reading really fucked me up, I'm not gonna front lmfao. She said CT is my soul mate. And tbh I wasn't surprised. I feel like I've always felt that way/known that but because of all the hurt and lies attached to you I wouldn't allow myself to admit that. I don't know how I feel about it now currently in this moment in time. I While in Hawaii for my girls trip, I saw you posted another girl so you've obviously moved on. But is it forreal? You've been heavy on my mind, can you get the heck out? I need rest now. I try to keep from losing the rest of me. Still worry that I wasted the best of me on you sometimes but then I wonder if that is just my ego talking. Cause I don't think you were a waste at all. I feel like you are my one true love. You were literally my other half. We fit so well together physically, emotionally, family wise, just everythingggggggg. I might lowkey be traumatized or just not healed still. I'm working on it tho. Cause I'm sitting here thinking if I can't have you is love completely off the table? Do I sit this one out and wait for the next life? Am I too cold? Am I not nice? Is love completely off the table?

I sometimes sit here and think are we really over? Are you really moved on? Do you really not think about me like I think about you? Do you not miss me the way I miss you, miss us? I don't know, I still can only visualize my future with you. I don't see it with anyone else even with someone I caught feelings for lowkey after you. I wanted it so bad to work with them but it just kept coming back to you. I 1000000% don't regret standing my ground and holding my boundaries because dude how the fuck did you get me back just to fucking fumble me so hard again on some dumb ass shit. And then you tried to fight for me and us but why the hell did you even put yourself in a position to have to do that? When you knewwwww from the jump of us talking again that I wasn't gonna play that shit this time. And there you were playing that shit AGAIN. If you were in love with me the way you were why did you even risk losing me. AGAIN!? You had to lose me AGAIN for you to offer to get it together. To see what you would be losing. To acknowledge my worth and what I really meant to you. Like just get that shit together so we can get together. For ever. For life. For the rest of our existence. Because you know and I know that we are each other's person's. We are each other's one true love's. We are each other's end game. We are each other's soulmate's. I truly believe that and feel that in my bones, in my soul. So you can take your time. I'm gonna take mine. Heal, better yourself, become the man I know you want to be and will be. So that when we come back together when its our time, that will be it. You and me for the rest of our lives. I trust in God's divine timing. God's divine plan.

I'm actually doing really good by myself. Sometimes it gets lonely. But I know I'm never alone. I have God, my friends, my family. I am blessed. I am the luckiest girl. I am healthy. I am successful. I'm doing what's best for me and am not tolerating anything less than what I deserve.

ykintsaifml

6:38pm

[troglobite]

no better time than 6 fucking am to just be hit with how utterly, crushingly lonely you are

how even friends that you love are moving on w their lives without you

you’re not a priority, and you can’t make them one bc they have other more important things

how even ppl you thought were safe to be around can say something so casually hurtful that’s not even about you but it hurts. and you don’t realize until it’s 5:30 and you’re trying to sleep. 

amazing that having met w 2 friends today and meeting w a different one in 5 hrs, i feel so utterly, pathetically alone. 

i feel like i’m cutting tiny portions of myself off to hand to other ppl to make friendships and keep communication open sometimes

but i just

i stayed up too late reading. i was gonna go to sleep 3 hrs ago. and instead i stayed up late reading.

and it was probably a mistake. i really enjoyed it but it just hurt. bc it was this beautiful prose abt ppl who had built lives for themselves by age 30. who had friends who could see all these pieces of them without it needing to be said. who could understand each other. who still did say things, but didn’t always need to say the small things. who felt safe in disagreements and discomfort. 

who weren’t alone. 

and i loved it and it hurt my stomach all the way down to my pelvis the way some emotions hit me. and i’m just sad. 

i don’t feel like anyone actually knows or understands me. i do my best to do that w or for others. 

and part of the problem is that i simply don’t trust anyone enough to be myself and part of that is that i’m tired of handing myself to someone only for them to go “oh. no thanks.”

i’m tired of being alone. i’m tired of being lonely. i’m tired of only mattering in pieces. i’m tired of not having energy for people, and them never having the time or energy for me. 

i’m tired of having to be someone else around/with everyone i talk to. and “everyone” sure is doing a lot of heavy lifting that isn’t accurate.

the number of ppl i talk to w any frequency right now: 7

it’s usually more like 4 or 5. i’ve had an unprecedented uptick in communication from a few people. 

the number of ppl that i feel like i can be 1000000% of myself around, whether or not it has anything to do with them: 1

and i don’t know if it’s reciprocal. 

i didn’t budget or plan for or anticipate a complete fucking meltdown at 6 am, sorry

oh i guess i could count my therapist for a whopping 8, bc i talk to her once a week. and then 2 bc the whole point is to be myself in therapy. 

my life is nothing that i wanted right now

i’m almost 30 and i barely have friends. i don’t have a life. i have no marketable skills. i’m on medicaid bc i can’t find a job, and even if i did, it would pay me nowhere near even half a livable wage. 

i’m so tired and miserable and i just can’t take any of this anymore. 

trying just HURTS because NO ONE i know is in the same situation as me. and that sounds so egotistical and pathetic. 

but i just mean

idfk what i mean

no one gets it and i guess it’s unfair and stupid to want someone to get it about everything

maybe it’s me

maybe i’m broken and fucked up

i wish i could kill my past

every day without even trying i just don’t think abt who i used to me, i’m just living in the now and recent past and thinking abt that

and i just wish past me didn’t exist and i didn’t have to carry them around w me all the fucking time

idek how to articulate what’s WRONG right now i just HURT i hurt so much i feel sick and i can’t stop crying

i guess i’ll just take an anti-anxiety thing and shove it back down to get a whopping 4 hours of sleep before i have to pretend to be fine again in front of someone i’ve “known” for 16 years who’s going out without masks, whose whole current drama and life struggle is about this woman she loves and who loves her

every time i just have to try and accept that people have been awful to be bc i’m short and fat and mexican and queer and trans and autistic

i just see other ppl who share these traits who don’t share the bullshit i went through or am going through

or who are in loving relationships

or have so many friends

or who are so successful

and i just want to die

what is WRONG with me? why is it like this for me, why am i like this?

i just want to know what’s so fucking unlovable about me bc i wasn’t 

i wasn’t always this pathetic in this way

but my stupid fucking life is just and has just not been that fucking awful

why am i so weak?

and i can’t just SAY this to people. to the people who are my friends. that i’m supposed to trust. 

you can’t just DUMP taht on someone.

which is why i just bullshit it into the void on here for ppl to choose whether they read or engage or not.

i know it’m annoying and pathetic. i put it under read mores. you know what this is, you can (and should) scroll right past without reading. i know most ppl do. and good. i’m not trying to manipulate or guilt anyone into this. 

i need to be out of my own head with this stuff like i’m explaining it to someone else bc if it’s a journal or a diary i get sick of my own bullshit too fast and i know what i’m going to say before i type it so it’s pointless

i’m just sorry

i feel like i have to justify everything

i don’t want to hurt anyone--at least not due to negligence. accident, it happens. 

i have so many plushies now. and my new one that i can’t let go of. it just feels so sad and pathetic. holding them all the time. 

i’m 27, almost 28, i’ve never dated, i’ve never been myself in any friendship. idk who myself is bc i’m so twisted around and busted. and i’m so afraid. constantly. and i feel. insane. with fear and with seeing so many people i cared abt just. not. care. about any of this anymore.

and there’s nothing i can do to fix it. 

i wish i had gone to sleep 3 hours ago like i had planned to. i’ve been tired this whole time. my eyes burning. 

all i know abt myself is that i can never shut up or leave well enough alone. idk what close relationships look like. idk how to be a person. i can’t do this. i can’t carry this. i’m so tired of burying how i feel and biting my tongue or choosing anger bc it hurts less and fades quicker. i’m tired of losing track of time and days. i’m tired of being a disappointment. i’m tired of being disappointed. 

i should take a fucking anti anxiety thing and go to sleep and stop. bothering everyone. i’m going to be a mess when i have to talk to my friend in a few hours on like no sleep and puffy eyes and i’m going to have to help her manage her traumas and feelings and other sundry bullshit (not derogatory) so that she stops getting herself hurt bc if i’m being given the power to help then i have to take it. if i don’t then i’m letting her get hurt. i will have done nothing. 

i’ve already spent weeks and hours and thousands of words via IG DMs. she couldn’t be there for me when i needed her. she doesn’t pay attn to where i am in my life. she’s trying to figure out who i am but doesn’t listen to me when i try to tell her. 

she acts like i’m always putting myself down.

i’m not. i don’t. i try not to.

i’m just stating facts about who i am and what my life is. 

and if that feels like i’m insulting myself then you’re just making me feel even worse bc my life is apparently so pathetic it sounds like an insult.

no, i’m not qualified for that job you sent. i’m flattered you thought of me and i appreciate it, but i’m not qualified.

no, i’m not selling myself short. i know ppl in the industry and i know it takes more than what i have. it would take years to be anywhere near capable of being ready for that position--and it’s not even in an area that i would want to pursue. 

but pushing back and pushing back against that as if i’m insulting myself

and i just keep

“by then i’ll be hotter than the cheerleaders [because i’ll be thinner]” and “you’re not fat!” and her fucking ex-girlfriend making fun of fat americans while my mom and i fed her pizza that we paid for. her paranoia about fitness and thinness and how she sucks her stomach in in all of her pictures. 

all of the ways i am made to feel shame for who i am right now. it’s alien to them, to everyone. 

i don’t have. a social life. i barely have friends. and the ones i have just. say things. 

and i feel ungrateful, or cruel, or judgmental, like i’m holding people to impossible standards that they can never meet.

and maybe i am. bc why would i ever trust anyone. 

i don’t want to deal w my stupid fucking inner child, the pathetic kid who was weak and clueless and who no one actually liked. 

i was just amusing. or they could cheat off of me. or i was convenient. 

or i did things for them, emotionally. i supported them. we had jokes and fun.

but it was never anything more--not for me. not towards me. 

i’m so good at not needing anything and no one ever seems to complain.

and then when they do and i take them up on it and try to change my behavior it just doesn’t go well.

i’m perpetually too much. 

just look at all this fucking bullshit i’ve typed out after telling myself to just take a pill and go to sleep. TWICE. 

i don’t like knowing what loneliness feels like. it’s so crushing and all-consuming. i’ve already been here before. i never wanted to be here again, but somehow worse. 

bc i’ve worked so hard. to get better. to build things up. to have a life. and i failed. just like i fail at most things.

imagine changing your expectations and goals in life so many times, continuously making them less and less ambitious, and still managing to fail and fall short. imagine. well, i’ve done it. i’ve managed it. and i hate it. 

“everyone’s afraid of rejection, but you just have to push through”

i’ve known almost nothing except rejection for all of my 27, almost 28, years of living. i’m tired. i had gotten over it, i thought i was stronger and could move on bc it wasn’t always rejections. 

then grad school happened and the pandemic happened and it just became rejections all over again, implicit and explicit. 

when will anyone else take responsibility for everything so it’s not my fucking job to have to deal w everything myself, entirely alone?

and all of this bullshit. isn’t. enough. i cannot. go to other people w this. why would i? why sympathy would they have for any of this? pathetic. weak. i’m so tired.

[astrorising]

I think the only other you've done as a dad is jin 😅

hmmm… seems like i have to change that somehow 🤨

*based off astrology

kim namjoon ❤️

super nurturing

also super protective of his babies

i can see him being the dad wanting his babies to grow from experience. would include them in a lot of his life (obviously, but more than you’d probably imagine)

would 1000% be the tour guide on vacations type dad. would love taking his babies to learn about the world and how it works

definitely is the type of dad to record all the firsts, just to look back at and cry

joon would be so devastated if he missed any of his babies’ firsts. lord that man would be emotional

super attached to his kids

but his kids better not have joon fucked up because when he’s in i mean business dad mode; he means it

joon might run into some boundary issues, especially with work, so every second he can spend with his kids is very cherished to him

joon would tell anyone tf off if they fucked with his babies

domestic af. my guy can’t cook, but he will teach the kids household chores for sureeeee he gotchu on that part 😂☠️

will have his heart from the second they were born. deeply connected to this kids, being a dad will transform him tbh

will be fully committed and invested into his kids, as his kids will be a reflection of joon. to joon, being a dad is a very transforming and healing experience with his ceres in his 8th house. 8th house being ruled by cancer. joon strives to make longtime connections, it makes him feel whole. joon’s true instinct is to invest time into healing others, and this doesn’t stop at his kids. if anything, this energy is very intense with his kids. A LOT of his effort, time, and dedication will be focused on his kids.

definitely has the instinct to just “know” there’s something wrong with his kids

will be very private about his loved ones in general. would be very surprised if we even knew he had any kids tbh

definitely the person to comfort and hold the kids while they get their shots and for check ups

there will be times where he will fall to self doubt, but one look from his kids could instantly change his mood and perspective

very much “it was worth everything i went through if it meant i would get you” while looking at his baby

1000000% will buy baby books and be the one to write in it

is the tooth fairy

will probably have to learn how to take a break or a vacation from being a parent 😂

min yoongi ❤️

protective, but maybe just a tad more than joon

papa bear for real 🤣 do NOT mess with this mans babies

definitely the dad to pack his little ones lunches when he could

would tell his kids to invite their friends over just to flex in the kitchen

quietly picking out his babies clothes for the next morning after a late night at work

falling asleep with his baby in arms…… just imagine….. crying and throwing up rn

me rn knowing it will never be me

total sport dad, proudest dad in the stands. has a replica shirt underneath his hoodie to show. it’s yoongi now, he’s subtly bold 🤪

smiles when he sees the background picture of his babies on his phone

probably randomly looks at his phone often to go through pictures of his little ones

especially when they’re in the baby stage, can see yoongi looking for his sleeping babies, just to hold them while they’re all cute and peaceful. especially when lonely and stressed out. i can see yoongi just admiring his babies in silence and maybe a good silent cry here and there because it grounds him.

with his aries venus, pisces sun, and virgo moon; he’s naturally a very sensitive and can handle a lot of emotional intensity. i think children will bring out more of his confidence in himself, noting his leo chiron in his 5th house. children would be a very healing experience for him. his kids will definitely bring out a side of him i don’t think he himself will realize.

100% will be the human jungle gym and be unbothered by it. it might shock some, but he would definitely act the act of a human jungle gym most of the time…. within reason 🤣

another man that will be naturally very nurturing. very domestic, very much dreams of family dinners, movie nights, helping them with homework while they’re in his lap

will be more affectionate with his kids than with people in general

hoseok ❤️

very sensitive and in tune with his entire family

kids for hobi will be a very big change for him, almost a karmic experience in some ways

very emotionally expressive to his kids

definitely will call them every night to tell them he loves them probably until he takes his lash breath tbh

hobi’s 5th house has a lot going on, expect him to raise his children to the fullest hobi extent

definitely the dad that’s in the baby section for HOURS

bringing his kids to his closet to prepare for some made up, hobi style fashion show

i can see him being the dad that is very encouraging, with a gentle sternness

constantly giving his kids affection every second he can

definitely the type of dad to cup his kids gently by the cheeks and give them forehead kisses

volunteers to dress the kids from day one

will be the dad to buy them literally anything they wanted

how children will be very spoiled with love, gifts, and attention as hobi has very balanced qualities about him

jimin ❤️

ohhh my bb

probably the member who’s most in tune with his babies

will know what cry means what within a week

very very involved with his kids

could be a tad… over bearing and protective tbh

definitely the “awww that’s my baby 🥰” to anything his kids do

definitely will know EVERYTHING about his kids…. but they definitely won’t know he knows 😂😂 literally this tiktok sound “i know something you don’t… i know something you will NEverrrr kNOOOW 🎶🎶”

the best part is, most of the time he would be cackling about his kids’ rebellious phases because nothing phases him (based off of his gemini moon in his 8th house) 🤣🤣

very open with his kids. will probably be more of the emotional/mental outlet for his kids 🥺

probably will have a hard time setting boundaries with his littles

definitely a push over 😂 jimin has very strong water energy, especially with his 5th house being ruled by pisces. will have a hard time saying no 🤪 mix that with his well loved libra…. chim will definitely need to learn how to set boundaries with his kids 🤪

super playful with his kids. any time of the day (on a day off, of course) is an adventure between him and his kids. time spent with his family is very valued to him, jimin will make sure every second counts.

with his strong scorpio, like namjoon, will definitely instill honesty is the best policy type dad

very expressive. will have a one baby in his arm, and how many other little jimins attached to his hip

happily plans birthday parties for his kids (with help, of course!)

definitely the dad to let his kids lay their back facing him, so he can rub their head while watching a movie with them

would 100% cuddle his kids when they’re sick

tbh when his kids have bad days, it would really affect him too

definitely the dilf that oozes fine as hell, but only has his eyes set on his family

and when i say oozes i mean OOZING because whew 😳 his libra and scorpio mix makes everyone feral to begin with 😭

have any beef with his kids???? that’s cute, i hope you can fight 🥰 jimin is all about his babies, and WILL fight for them

probably will be called daddy by his kids

taehyung ❤️

ooof this man drives me wild in all the right ways but someone who is very cap dominant, i can nail this one on the head

caps are very sensual once you break down their hard shell. we love affection, we just don’t like it constantly. but oh boy, you show us a kid and you will see a total different side to us. this is no different from taehyung. actually, taehyung expresses some of us heavier capricorn people very well in my opinion. 🥰

tae’s second house just screams rich family first of all

definitely not the cocky, flashy, rich family vibe…. his aqua venus gives him more of the humbling energy. definitely the dad to show off the cool things his kids learn and are involved in.

very proactive but the cool dad. will be stern at times, but will be the dad that will say “mom doesn’t have to know” while letting them play games for an hour longer 😂😂

with tae’s aries moon, he tends to act on emotion meaning he will definitely be the acts of service dad

would definitely be the dad to take the kids out for a day and not have a single thing planned 😂 just doing whatever his kids wanted to do. he is a kid at heart, so whatever his kids wanted to do; more than likely he would want to do/always wanted to do.

very loving, very affectionate with kids as well. once it’s him and his babies… good luck getting his a attention, they’re off in their own world

tae in the grocery store with his kids would be too damn funny. imagine his curious baby just asking every question out of the sun, and tae’s over here damn well answering every single one of them 😂😂 his aries moon in the 4th house + curious toddler = entertained taehyung

buying a treehouse just for his kids to play in is very taehyung

and it would be a lie if i said he didn’t buy it for himself too 😂 100/10 would build a slide as the only way to get out of the tree house

because it would be cute to see everyone laugh about sliding down a slide to taehyung. taehyung loves cute things and children happen to be one of those things 🥰

jungkook ❤️

as a woman who has been raised by very different types of virgos, i also have some insight 🥰

the very thoughtful dad omg. i don’t think i’ve seen a lot of post giving him enough credit honestly in my opinion

SUPER attentive. jk does have a lot of introvert to him, but his virgo energy is always on the lookout. they’re naturally very giving and serving people. he notices EVERYTHING, and that would intensify as a dad.

would be the dad to worry about puberty, and would be very cautious about what they’re going through

would definitely write them cute encouraging notes and slip it underneath their door

with his 4th house ruled by capricorn, his parenting skills will come naturally and with experience

will 100% provide for his family

moon trine just uranus, he’s able to handle unexpected changes well, and is able to adapt better than most. despite popular belief, i think jk will smoothly sail into parenthood. especially with his leo moon, i think this is another instinct of his. very loyal, very playful, very loving with his kids.

jk’s kids will never have to doubt if he loves them. if he can’t tell him, he will show them. jk is that parent that will SHOW his kids he is there. showing up to dance recitals, sport games, talent shows, whatever he can to see them shine. he will be the proud parent from the crowd, everyone will be able to tell a mile away.

very encouraging. will push them to be the best versions of themselves they can be.

along with jimin, will fight for his kids. those are HIS babies! virgo + scorpio energy…… i would tango with jimin before jungkook hurts my feelings. 😂

did you miss me? 😀 just a random but much needed post for everyone. 😘

[skipps-writes-for-gojo-satoru]

I think Gojo's more of a lonely God than a cheater. He's put on a pedestal since birth and everyone wants him for his looks/power. His friends (Nanami, Shoko) and students (other than Itadori) insult him/treat him like an annoyance. I'm sure anyone would be bothered by how the people closest to him, who are supposed to support him, constantly call him a bother and don't want to be around him, so based on that Gojo probably doesn't even think he'd be fit for a relationship when everyone always brings him down. The only one who saw him as Satoru rather than "The Strongest" is probably Geto, who was almost as powerful as he is but more importantly, treated him more like a friend.

When Gege said he can't see Gojo as being faithful to a certain woman, it's probably because we've seen how women are treated in Jujutsu society, and since Gojo is so busy, if she can't keep up with him, they'll probably hardly see each other. She would have to be a very strong sorcerer who can keep up with him and sees him as a person, like Geto. Otherwise, Gojo probably can't have a relationship with a woman because they wouldn't be able to understand each other- most people wouldn't be able to understand Gojo, actually, like Gojo can't understand most people, because of the power difference. Gojo grew up with a whole different mindset after being treated differently than everyone else. Therefore, he would need a woman who is incredibly strong, almost as much as he is, to understand where he's coming from. She'd also have to be knowledgeable enough to have a deep conversation with him about Jujutsu, morals, beliefs, and future plans to plot with him. She'd have to support him, but also call him out on his bs or when he's doing something wrong, and praise him when he's behaving well while also treating him like a human being with emotions. She would most likely be the girl version of Geto, but more patient and affectionate and teach Gojo about how to care for other people and give proper affection. Most of all, she would have to have an unshakeable character, someone who will stick to her beliefs no matter what and stand her ground, even if the world is against her (and if she's with Gojo, the world will be against her). After Geto's betrayal, she'd also have to prove that she'd never betray Gojo for him to let her in, so patience is very key for this relationship. Gojo needs a partner in crime, an equal or close to it, that he can share his life with and go to when he needs help or when he feels vulnerable, someone he can let his guard down with and trust wholeheartedly. Someone who can protect "The Strongest" or be decent enough at it. Therefore, you can see how such a person (man or woman) would be very hard to find. Geto was probably the closest one to being in a real friendship with Gojo, let alone a relationship.

Also, this is just me but I personally think Gojo's too busy to have an affair/one night stands. Gege said he doesn't sleep long and in the light novels, Gojo said he has to sightsee while on missions cause otherwise he would have no time. Gojo doesn't drink either so it's hard to see him going out of his way to the bar or wherever to pick someone up. If he feels needy, he can just get off by himself like the rest of us 🥲 He also probably wouldn't go out of his way to seduce someone, bring them home, and then kick them out when he wakes up 3 hours later. That might just be me hoping he still has his v card tho lol.

Sorry for the rant too lol. Just wanted to share my thoughts and see what you thought of this cause I really love your work and how you write Gojo and wanted your opinion 💙 🙏🤔

Omg anon do not be sorry at all for this 1000000/10 ❤🙌 honestly there's nothing I can disagree on you with becuz this is exactly how I see his character as not some cheater or player who goes around messing with people MAN GOT NO TIME FOR THAT he just wants to enjoy his life becuz he's got so much shit to do and deal with and imagine the pressure of having everyone relying on you but something tells me he was wild during his highschool days and lost his v card along the way lol man has too much ego to be called an almost 30 year old virgin

[reikunrei]

OKAY UUUH i need to put my thoughts about the final stroke p1 here right here right now fresh hot of the press i just finished watching this shit less than 30 seconds ago let’s gooooo

anyway just a precursor like. none of this is going to make sense bc ive only watched it once so i dont remember everything (barely remember anything from road to the world which i probably should’ve watched again before this bc they would like mention things and i’d just be there like ?????? wha??? but ANYWAY)

these are also going to be very disjointed and not following the order of scenes bc im hgdfjk my brain is going 1000000 mph

god like the first half of it is so fun and just like. really just diving back into the whole FEELING of the series. like everyone just being friends, having fun, talking about swimming, swimming together

i can’t tell you how happy i am that we got to see the entirety of haru, rin, AND ikuya’s races like. i’d gotten so used to like. just seeing haru’s or just seeing rin’s and then it just cutting to like the results of the other or w/e, so i love love love that we got some devoted time to all of them inn sydney

also going insane over the like. makoto seeing himself trying to reach haru and just not being able to at all no matter how hard he tries

and how haru in that vision is all sad and lonely like how haru is becoming based on the events of the end of the film

AND LIKE LIKE

LIKE HARU HAS PEOPLE who want to help him and be close to him and love and cherish him and want him to succeed

even after his filter went completely down and he said THAT to rin, rin walked off and was like “of course i still care” or w/e like... even HE can’t be all that mad at haru, at least not in any real long-term sense

i still feel like the video interview things at the beginning are gonna be what wakes haru up out of this stupor. i want that so bad. like why else would THOSE be the opening scene of the movie like come ON

i want haru to go back somewhere, like to the high school or SOMETHING, or maybe somebody forces him to watch them, and he sees how much people love and care about him by stumbling across those tapes

god the albert possession fucks me up tho. i thought it was gonna be mostly silly and like. kinda cringe. but man. it was fucked UP it HURTS. i think it mostly had to do w shimazaki’s performance, i always forget how much i love him as haru and he does a REALLY good job stretching haru’s character to really make him unhinged when he’s so normally quiet and borderline monotone. like haru isn’t a flat character by any means, but he’s not very expressive either, so to see shimazaki get to flex those muscles in this role is SUPER nice

the scene where haru almost fell down the stairs fucked me up too LMAO i was like oh shit he REALLY fucked himself up he is not himself at ALL

and to see that just keep happening

everyone in this show has abandonment issues god

i am going crazy oh my god okay

and just. to see him going even farther down that rabbit hole. feeling like everyone is going to leave him. like makoto left before he got to say whatever motivational quip he was going to say, and then rin drops it in his lap that both he AND ikuya are not goinng to be swimming free at the next tournament, and like........ man just realized how that reminds me of when makoto just dropped in his lap that he had decided to go to tokyo

even when makoto walked away to go back home it mirrored exactly that scene in s2 when haru leaves makoto standing there...... ugh my heart

ANYWAY

i am super fucked up and also pissed off at ryuji!!!! like. i dont think ive ever disliked him as much as other people do, like he’s just a grouchy old man and haru was listening to him, but also pushing back against him and keeping him somewhat in his lane

and it was really nice to see haru so adamantly be like “im not giving anything up” in this movie like. and how that sparked something in ryuji. but now at the end when haru was like “yeah im ready to give everything up” ........ i really hope ryuji also plays a part in getting haru to wake up? bc it’ll also be an interesting wake-up for ryuji himself?

he is such an asshole tho hsgdfjgk i do love how they put scenes back to back of haru x ryuji, rin x mikhail, and ikuya x natsuya, and even throw in there makoto x nao x sousuke! like, we got to see the swimmer/coach dynamic between all of them and got to see how NOT GOOD ryuji is in comparison to all of them lmao. like sure being analytical is good, but damn give the kid some room to breathe LMAO

and god. i do love albert. he’s such a weird scary motherfucker but god god god i’m so intrigued by this weird fucked up dynamic he has with his coach? or whoever he is? im not even really sure. but like. he’s living his dream through albert rather than letting albert be his own person. but then it’s interesting bc haru (and everyone else) sees albert as this big scary foreboding guy. which like, he is, but i think they all have a twisted view of him? like they see him as this powerhouse and NOTHING else

i think haru has seen albert interacting w other people in his entourage and like. seen some weird dynamics between them? but it’s all very behind-doors right now, so like. everyone sees him as a “villain” for lack of a better word, when albert really just wants to swim and like. be normal? like i don’t think his words of “i want to be stronger” are truly his

i really really really would love to see albert tie into haru’s awakening more. like, after haru gives up his relationships bc we all know at this point that that’s 100% for sure what he’s gonna do, i feel like. like maybe he will have a better performance, but it’s just so Not Him that he’s not even a worthy opponent? and then albert gets fucked up about it and is like “man what happened, this isn’t good at all, what did you do to yourself?”

like. right now haru is trying to be more like albert, but i think albert is trying to be more like haru

unless im like. totally misreading everything about his character, but im thinking of like. s3 and rttw, with him hanging out with haru, his “the water favors you” quote, him getting excited when he saw haru doing really well in his race while he was like. getting his drive from his friends and whatnot. like!!! i really feel like it could be a fun little switcharoo to do!!!

god. that’s my biggest thing rn, i love the dynamic between haru and albert and how there’s this friction within both of their characters as they try to become like one another

ugh god okay i need to stop bc. i have work tomorrow and need to go to bed ghsfdjk im sure i’ll have more thoughts and write more as i mull over the movie more, and maybe watch it again next weekend, but ugh. holy shit

holy. fucking. shit

i can’t wait for part 2

overall im super pleased with the movie. i was worried i really wouldn’t like it, but they did a very very good job and like. kept it really grounded to its roots and the original dynamics and bonds, while also having a TON of really good stuff with new dynamics (ie. rin and ikuya, makoto and sousuke, etc.)

[sehunned]

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