#and im also wondering if all of those things they said was just bullshit or a lie. ??? was any of it true?

[revvywevvy]

looks @ my mutuals

looks @ my modern au

......... one of us! one of us! one of us! one of us!!

[bunnihearted]

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[sparring-spirals]

OKAY. after some sleep. back on my bullshit lets go.

I think its so critical that F.C.G made that choice, that in their last moments they looked at their friends and felt that sense of purpose and calm. I think it is wildly meaningful of him to know what his last resort would be, what it would end in, and choose it willingly, buoyed by a sense of purpose and love.

I think it's pretty clear the options were bad and worse, and that F.C.G made a strategic call that they perhaps knew would hurt but really, truly believed was worth it, and that call probably did stop their friends from experiencing further losses. I think there is something uniquely beautiful into turning a thing of destruction- perhaps something F.C.G had always seen as a burden or a curse or a worry- into an expression of his love for his friends.

And I think F.C.G, constantly plagued by doubt, getting a sense of crystal clear surety. And F.C.G thinking to themself: they saved me, and now i can save them is.

deeply fucking important.

and also something that makes me. emotional 😭

That said i can still be mad at F.C.G, and I can still want to hunt down a robot afterlife just to grab his chassis and shake him a little. Self sacrifice plays always have a steeper cost than just the person making the sacrifice. Their purpose was never just to lay down their life for others, and I despise a world where F.C.G could think that and not have the thought soundly rebuffed by those that loved them. There was a danger in him, maybe, but there was danger in all of them! A party of running risks!

Its just v important to me that: I don't know how I feel about the idea of it being a foregone conclusion this would happen. That this was the only way it would have ended. F.C.G made a choice, in that moment, that he knew would change things. F.C.G made that choice.

After a campaign of doubt and flipping coins and wondering whether choosing destiny or altering fate was even- possible: F.C.G makes this choice, fueled by love and determination and understanding, and everything changes because of it.

You did it buddy. You did it.

im gonna kick your ass once i figure out how, though, F.C.G. ashton will probably help me.

[stevie-petey]

oh also,,, whenever you wanna write. chap 6 steve & robin pov blurb because i am so sure steve would be going on and on about bug once she left so my soul needs that thank you <3

im kicking myself idk why i didnt include this scene in the chapter like its PERFECT for what i have planned later but ,,, for now all i can do is make it a blurb n tell people to read it lmao

enjoy <3

"it didnt matter that you were an ass. i was still... obsessed with you." robins confession hangs in the air. her back is pressed against steves as they lay on the floor, bound together. his eye stings and his nose is numb and crusted with dried blood. he isnt sure why shes telling him this.

"even though all of us losers pretend to be above it all, we still just wanna be popular. accepted. normal."

the rope around steves wrists tense. he clenches his fists and bites the inside of his swollen cheek. acceptance. he thought he had that, once. when he was sixteen with a crowd of people who wouldve done anything for his attention.

now hes eighteen and the crowds bruises still tinge his body.

"if it makes you feel any better, having those things isnt all that great. seriously." it took him a long time to learn that. to recognize that his acceptance was merely a precedence. it wasnt real friendship. he wouldnt learn this until he met you, until you taught it to him. "it just baffles me. everything that people tell you is important, everything that people say you should care about, its all just... bullshit."

bullshit. nancy taught him that, too.

"its all just bullshit, it was so obviously bullshit. i was an idiot for not realizing it sooner," steve bites the inside of is cheek again. somehow, his lips remained untouched when he was being beaten by the russians. your lips still linger on his. "you know, the only person who saw through my bullshit was y/n. one day, before we knew about monsters and russian lairs, she said that she knew i wasnt a bad person. it... it stuck with me. here she was, y/n henderson, telling me i wasnt so bad."

"and then...?" robin is almost too afraid to press him further. shes never seen him like this, vulnerable and open. she didnt know that his history with you went beyond just a summer fling.

steve nudges his head back and sighs. "i messed up. i... i hurt people. people she cared about."

robin frowns. you wouldnt forgive someone so easily for that. theres more to what steve is saying, she just cant figure out what. "she must really love you, then. if she forgave you."

"i dont know if she loves me, but i know that she believes in me. sees someone worth putting up with." he huffs, he cant believe he will never see you again. he hates that he will never be able to thank you for seeing a version of him that no one else could. "it wasnt until i messed up that i realized she saw something in me. its ironic, isnt it? but i guess you gotta mess up to figure things out, right?"

he had to mess up to realize that he loved you, too.

"i hope so. i feel like my whole life has been one big error." robin admits. its the least she could do, offer steve a piece of herself in return for what hes offered her.

an unattractive snort escapes steve. he laughs, and his shoulders shake against robins. he understands exactly what she means. "yup."

"god, i wonder how y/n does it."

"does what?"

robin pauses, worries that she might reveal too much. but its steve. if theyre going to die together, he deserves to know. he has to know. "shes always able to see the error in people and love them anyways."

steve is quiet. he lets what she said settle over him. its what he loves the most about you. how youve always managed to see the good in people, even in someone as cruel as billy. he hadnt known that robin noticed this kindness in you, too.

she seems to understand you in a way only he and jonathan do.

"you know, i wish id known you in clicks class." its a peace offering. an extension of himself to robin for caring about you the way he does. no one really seems to be able, despite how easy steve finds it to be.

"yeah?"

"really, i do. maybe you couldve helped me pass the class." he breathes out, the thought of all he couldve done differently will always haunt him. king steve is dead, but the persona is a ghost he will never be able to get rid of. "maybe instead of being here, id be with y/n on some romantic getaway. maybe you wouldve given me the courage to do what i shouldve done sooner."

robin doesnt say anything. she turns her face away, presses her cheek against the concrete surface.

"robin?"

she swallows. "yeah. yeah, maybe. you wouldnt have been stuck slinging ice cream with me like some smuck."

steve shakes his head. hes worried hes said the wrong thing. "hey, dont get me wrong. i enjoyed being your smuck. it was fun while it lasted."

bittersweetness creeps upon robins face. she smiles, though its a sad one. shes going to die with the understanding of why youve fallen so hard for steve harrington. "yeah. it was."

then the doors burst open and the russian find them.

[icarusredwings]

Spoilers?

Thinking about the fact that the Master "adopted" all those kids with Lucy and seemed genuinely (at least a little bit) upset when they got taken out of time. It makes me wonder...

Did the Doctor know how much this would hurt him? The amount of grief and "what once was but never could be" feeling he wanted to share with someone?

Putting aside the fact that he used both the Toclafane and Lucy, do we think he was ever actually fond of them? Maybe im just delusional, but I think so. I know his entire thing is manipulation and that Lucy was a prop to get votes, but the way he pulls out the chairs,

leans against her,

calls her his faithful companion/ darling/sweetheart,

how she dances when the music comes on,

how proud he is to show her their millions of children, how even the doctor says she was loyal to him.

M: How many do you think?

L: I.. i don't know

M: Six-Billion *turns off music* Down, you go, kids!

He also calls them "His children" in the Last of the Time Lords.

It seems almost... domestic? In about as much domestic as this Master can get sort of way.

Im not at all surprised, but it makes me almost sad to know that he hits her. The first time I watched it, I was like, "...oh.." Because yes, it makes sense, heavily, and I know the point is to make the viewer feel yucky about the Master but like...

It kinda just makes you pitty them. You know? Because you see what they could have had, and you're like, "What happened?" Especially because they were together for 2 years. That's nothing to the Master but that's still longer than I would think, especially since he doesn't need her anymore but keeps her anyway as another trophy. The whole power trip thing is so odd to me. And telling another girl hes going to take her to the stars infront of her?

Lucy gave him what he deserved.

Imagine your husband abusing you for an entire year infront of his weird old ex friend and said friend gets treated like a dog/ trophy, so you shoot your husband and watch said trophy run over to him and cradle him in his arms....

like im so sorry, girl. You deserved so much more. Jack is literally looking up because he just can't with this bullshit..

TLDR:

"The Master, the villan, treated Lucy like shit. Shocker.. It's almost as if bad people do bad things Forest-"

Yeah, yeah, I know! I know! It just feels gross, okay? Because I know its suppose to feel uncomfortable but i just can't explain it. It feels how Girl in the Fireplace felt. Weird and kind of out of character. Especially since what I've seen of classic master, he's kind of a classy gentleman... But this IS simm were talking about... that little rabid trash goblin... aka a whole different species of Master.

Thanks for coming to my delusional tedtalk.

[parasiticacidic]

A NonBinary Visor I made at work for Pride!

I work at a leather shop and we get to make special projects for the store so I really wanted to make this enby one specifically because even though leatherworking is very lgbtqia+ friendly you also have the other end of the spectrum being conservatives who make their disgusting opinions very evident whenever they come into the store so to deter those interactions I've been trying to make more pride items for our really amazing lgbtqia+ community along for us staff members :3 idk why people look at me with red hair square pink glasses while I'm wearing capris and think lemme "debate" them on people using they/them pronouns >:[ BABE GET A GRIP!

(Also the amount of disrespect and hate I get for just being/presenting as a young women working at this store is insane)(so I know it's just as hard if not harder for the other lgbtqia+ workers in our chain putting up with bullshit customers will say to us)

(Example of an interaction i had: I was just tending the register when someone comes up with his wife and son and the first thing he said was "Do you work here" and I'm like obvi ? Then he said "No, do you work here work here like do you actually know anything about this stuff" and I was like "I do this is my name badge" (also I was trained?? Extensively bc we also do leather classes so I need to understand and know different things) and then he was like "well I'm just wondering bc I have a question, is there actually a difference between leather paint and acrylic paint" I said "yes they are formulated differently but if you wanna know specifics read the ingredients on the label" like tf I'm not gonna be nice all for that build up of your question like I'm not qualified to answer just for it to be about paint (I'm also a painting major?!) bc if it was my male co worker working the register you wouldn't have lead with "do you work here" you would've just asked, like NO IM JUST STANDING BEHIND THE REGISTER BC I WONDERED IN OFF THE STREET uuuguggjrhrhrhrhr, also his wife and son just watching this interaction??? There's so much that could be said about that but whatever my beef is with him, like it's not a big deal but it's the way men feel like they can come up to me and immediately question my credibility working here) *steps off my soapbox*

Anyways (ToT) happy pride! The amount of ridicule we face in the work place is beyond disrespectful they don't even need to know anything about you they just size you up and immediately come to their own conclusions about you and treat you a subhuman when they are the actual animals, in the end we have a better understanding of ourselves, humanity, honesty, and bravery when they will never be able to escape from the cage society has put their minds in (which ultimately is sad for them but if you're a conscious being there's moments in your life when you can reflect on your self and the environment around you and find your truth instead of continuing to "play your part" but the animals that benefit from the system will never seek change and will hate on the ones who defy their "normal" always out of fear)

[steviesbicrisis]

Stranger Things S2 rewatch thoughts

I finally finished rewatching S2 and this is everything I've written down as I was watching lmao

KEITH USED TO WORK AT THE ARCADE?? Also the arcade is right next to family video so Keith just moved next door in season 3 lmao

Steve omg you’re so cute stop

FINALLY MAX IS HERE

Okay Billie is bad, yes? We all agree Billie is bad, right? But Dacre IS SO HOT I CANNOT HE TOOK A “PORCA TROIA” OUT OF ME LIKE IT WAS NOTHING

Honestly they’re so dope for dressing up as ghostbusters and going to school with matching outfits

Ugh Nancy and Steve are so terrible for each other

Steve’s face during the bullshit scene really broke my heart 🥺

People being annoyed at Joyce for being super protective of Will like what?? That boy was proclaimed dead, they had a funeral and he turned out to be in another dimension??? I dare you to not be at least a little paranoid

I’m getting the gayest vibes ever from this basketball + shower scene I’m not even joking, Harrington 100% felt what it is like to be a girl objectified in a nightclub

Billy calling Steve pretty boy is so fucked up like are you Eddie Munson? No so imma need you to back off ✋

Jfc no wonder Vecna chose max she’s a walking gold mine for therapists

One drive with Billy would be enough for me to become a target for Vecna I swear

A part of me will always blame Dustin for the cat’s death 🥲

Stranger things is so good I cannot fucking believe my eyes sometimes

First Nancy, now Hopper… can they like, stop going inside creepy ass portals all by themselves? FFS

OH MY GOD ERICA WAS SO SMALL HOW CUTE SINDFKJDF

Lucas telling Max “if I tell you the truth, you could be arrested or killed. Do you accept the risk?” Hits different now

FINALLY THE DUSTIN/STEVE DUO IS BORN

I was today years old when I realized Nancy broke up with Steve in S1 for a month but then she got back with him because she got tired of waiting for Jonathan

Dustin’s proud smile when Steve told him “good call dude” I CANT IM WEEK IM CRYING ON THE FLOOR

I will never get over Dustin’s pure adoration for Steve in this season

JUSTICE FOR BOB

BOB NEWBY THE SUPERHERO 😭😭😭

Everyone: it’s like the mind flyer! Steve&Max: don’t speak nerd in my presence pls

I’m sorry but Mike holding that small trophy as a weapon LOL

I CANNOT BELIEVE THE KIDS WERE AT THE WINDOW WHEN BILLY CAME ARE STUPID

I cannot believe they wanted to leave a beaten-up and concussed Steve behind, are you crazy???

I totally forgot that Steve, in a span of a couple of hours, pushed his girlfriend to be with another guy, got beaten up defending kids he barely knows and then went down - all beaten up and concussed - the upside down tunnels just for said kids?? ARE U EVEN REAL MAN?

Will turning to Mike when that girl asked him to dance 🥺

Nancy is so fucking right, those girls are so stupid turning Dustin down like fuck you who do you think you are????

Jopper at the end, I love my parents so much

Here my thoughts on S1!

[fictionfixations]

wasnt planning on making a post but im doing it now so uh

helluva boss the full moon episode (i dont remember which one it was. s2 ep8?? i think? idk)

(i just realized i said 'hazbin hotel' my bad. if i make a mistake like that uhh oops)

and yall are stolas defenders so im gonna talk about blitz (dont get me wrong i love both of them)

let me talk about it

(i dont know if i make any sense so oops)

notice how during stolas' proposal basically (cant help but see the gem as like a wedding ring ngl) blitz's eyes are shining because he cant help but hope

and then when he goes 'ohh youre just fucking with me right? this is some roleplay shit right?'

because its so incomprehensible in his mind that this is what he truly thinks it is.

anyway people have explained before about how stolas then proceeds to shut him out like being faced with blitz being in denial about it and taking it as a rejection

meanwhile blitz is like 'wait a second you were SERIOUS?'

and then hes like 'wAIT' because hes trying to understand. to comprehend that stolas was being real about it. that someone wants him. but then he doesnt have the time to think about it because stolas is leaving and he doesnt want stolas to leave

and yknow how blitz is hes kind of an asshole so then he defaults to being angry and frustrated. (i wonder if he feels like he'll only be heard by being angry and yelling. or if by being angry, by shutting people out and being the one to break it off makes blitz feel more in control. anyway-)

no but listen before this hes like 'what the fuck?' stolas leaves, blitz follows him in silence still in that confused and hella surprised state because it was so unexpected while stolas' talking about stuff

hes silent for awhile (probably trying to make sense of it while half-listening)

and then stolas is like 'thats enough to know what this is' and THEN blitz gets all angry and yelling

and inside hes just like. ..thats it? but its like. stolas is going to leave. and he doesnt want him to go. but he also doesnt know how to express that (especially with stolas having completely shut him out at this point in his own feeling, so set in the rejection without realizing that blitz hadnt actually rejected it. had been in disbelief instead of an actual no. and i get why he didnt stay to continue the conversation it just. sucks. so bad.)

("Can I get a fucking minute to think" got stuck in my head) and then blitz gets angry and blames stolas because thats whose infront of him. someone he can yell at and get angry which is so much easier then trying to decipher his feelings, or stolas' feelings. to try to understand. to be vulnerable especially in front of someone who he may like but its also complicated considering the power imbalance, or how all royals are asses so surely stolas cant be different, how its just a transactional relationship and nothing serious.

hes also saying things he doesnt necessarily mean meanwhile stolas is taking it to heart like 'this is how he really feels about me' when that isnt true (blitz is kind of just making excuses. and instead of being 'set free' as it might seem to stolas, it seems to him like stolas is just. throwing him away. getting bored of him. hes ignoring the love confession stolas just says 'i want you' PLEASE be more blunt about it oh my god theres so many wordings that i have an issue with from stolas im going to be honest.

like LISTEn he goes 'i want you'. blitz is in denial. stolas then starts to acceptance/resignment and blitz is like 'wait a fucking second'

so blitz who thought they were going to have a sexy time. suddenly gets hit with feelings out of the blue. and he doesnt do good with those. and its so incomprehensible that he doesnt believe it. and then basically stolas rejects him right after with blitz realizing 'wait you were serious?' and then gets angry like 'what? no, it can't be over. ..well fuck YOU then!' like. he kind of feels betrayed? like 'how dare you spring this feelings bullshit on me (and then LEAVE)'

also is he projecting? has he experienced something??? and i really dont think hes had the chance to properly process so he's just shoving it aside and focusing on the then and now. which is stolas leaving and dismissing him which blitz takes offence to and accuses him of being like all the other royal assholes. because he doesnt know how else to communicate. this is not to say that he isnt an asshole because he is, but id like to say that theres reasons to all of it.

ALSO ALSO. i think its less that blitz believes stolas to be like that but (besides reasoning to himself that stolas is just like all the others so he can distance himself and cut ties even if it hurts) that its because thats the position stolas has and so its what he turns to for insults. i had more to say about this part but i already forgot, oops.

and ive seen people talk about this too but stolas conversing through words while blitz converses through feelings. so its like for blitz youre not meant to listen to what hes saying but to listen to the feeling? meanwhile stolas being through words (thus probably feeling like 'i want you' is explanation enough while blitz needs more clarification then that)

and potentially with stolas being all horny around him cause haha my crush is here and hes hot and i love him and aaah making blitz think stolas just wants him because of what he can offer? (and maybe if hes never faced love that its unrecognizable? especially towards him?) a thought to go onto another time

also another thought to go down. you think after blitz realizes hes serious that hes trying to coomunicate. with the 'can i get a FUCKING moment to think'

and then his mouth goes on autopilot and starts insulting him trying to stall trying to get him to stay even if its with hurtful words because thats what hes used to thats what he does (also defaulting to anger)

just like yelling at him trying to get stolas to just stop walking. to stop turning his back on him.

and hes just running on anger at that point because he didnt get too long to process that stolas was serious so a part of him still thinks that its just. not real? and hes running off of that because again its so much easier than being vulnerable with someone

blitz has. probably been very trustful of someone, only for them to betray him and hurt him and use him so ahdishfu

also probably blitz's attempt at trying to get them to actually communicate

to get him to stop. stand still. stop leaving. stop moving. just turn around, face him, and talk. to get all their feelings out and explain. to clarify.

maybe he even wants stolas to get angry because that's what he's used to. wants him to get angry so they can get it all out there. maybe wants a part of him to feel vindicated of 'he was right, stolas was an asshole', the part of him that doesnt want to be close to anyone in fear of being hurt

..and then stolas doesn't react how blitz expects him to. (because they DONT understand each other at all! they don't interact all that much outside of sex, and stolas offering it to blitz is rejected)

blitz realizing 'wait... shit...' to wheres hes immediately brought out of his anger by stolas' words

'goodbye'

also it almost sounds like blitz is saying 'Stolas, wait I'm s-' as in 'im sorry'

realizing it wasnt going as he expected it to. that stolas really was serious. that stolas was hurt. that stolas was going to actually leave and blitz. doesnt. want that to happen. so then he. tries.

and then goes 'what the fuck' when he appears outside

and honestly sometimes a lot of relationships need space from each other to realize who they are without them. and also to realize how much they care about the other, yknow? to understand their feelings without anything else complicated thrown into the mix.

listen: blitz could go back into complete denial like 'no fuck stolas actually-'. realize he misses stolas, actually.

cause i feel like he really did try at the end only to get shut out (its a really complicated situation because ive also seen people talk about how blitz yelling could remind stolas of stella(?) i think the person he divorced)

and it could be seen as rejection of him trying to do feelings talk. which he could double down on his 'no one can love you, itll only bring you hurt' idea, or bringing other people hurt (as in his mother's death or fizz getting hurt)

but i feel like he also needs time to just realize things. to think things through instead of being faced with immediately having to respond because theyre talking face to face. immediately having to respond because stolas is leaving and if he doesnt say anything then that'll be it.

its complicated. honestly, though. i feel like its for the better for them to have this break. to rebuild their life without the transactional relationship. i just wonder how they'll get back together (daughter plotting time? maybe?)

i wonder if hell has therapy. (...but also. what if the therapists were corrupt and didnt hold any form of patient privacy???)

hh

anyway i dont know if i made sense. ive just had these thoughts stuck in my head so ive just been spewing out all the ones related to this so i could stop thinking about it

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holyfuck ok

also also i have more to add

okay so you know stolas' line of 'you have no obligation to touch me or to bed me'

you know what that sounded like with loona having told blitz 'hes getting tired of you'

it sounded like stolas didnt want blitz to basically touch him anymore. which is probably blitz' interpretation of it and thus his anger of 'you think you can do this shit just because im an imp and youre a royal?' or whatever (hes not even touching the fact of the gem. its 'am i not good enough? i can do better!' because the book was the only reason in his mind why he could interact with stolas. and just. aghhh)

any more thoughts im shoving here in the future before i get more brainrot over this

[slvt4bruce]

YEAHHHHH PT2 BITCH

Brozone finding out about Stars hair pt2????

and a huge thanks to @tadpoletiddles for giving me ideas!!!

also....this is not self shipping it's just for my YourNotAlone!au :3

⭐a/n: I may or may not make pt3, but I tried to make this where the whole group finds out tehe ;)

(color code 👉🏾 Star JD Bruce Clay Floyd Branch)

tw: slight angst, self hate and a small sensory issue breakdown (it's short)

enjoy!!!!!!⭐

"I hope this doesn't end bad" she sighed as JD left the pod

Star continued her daily routine, but the images and comments from last night were stuck in her head "I thought she got rid of that" "white is so not popular" "she looks like a freak" "I wonder what happened to her hair"

she sat all day thinking to herself 'I can't let them find out.....' those same words kept repeating over and over, the more she thought of it the more her worry had increased.

~time skip~

it was now afternoon and Star was finally starting to calm down until... a knock was heard on the door "wonder who that could be" she got up to open the door to see all the bros, standing there, looking worried and concerned "oh!.... hey guys... what brings you here today?" after a few moments of silence, Clay finally spoke up "hey Star.... we just wanna talk and ask you some things, is it ok if we come in?" ".... um.... yeah, it's ok" her tail slightly swayed from nervousness as she let them in

Once they all sat in the pod, there was an uncomfortable silence until Bruce spoke up "so.... JD told us about the concert and we wanna know...... What happened....?"

Star felt a lump in her throat and her tail wrap around her leg when Bruce asked, she tried sounding calm as she answered

"W-Well....the doctors say I was born with it..."

all the brothers looked at each other then back at Star not convinced "bullshit, Star just tell us the trut-" "John!, we can't be so hard on her, you know how she get sometimes" Floyd interrupted, reminding John at how anxious Star could get in a situations like this

"Star, we just wanna know....what happened, you don't have to lie to us" Floyd spoke, putting his hand on Stars shoulder, trying to comfort her

"yeah, you don't have to lie cause, we'll be right here" Branch said also trying to comfort Star

"Thats it!" JD snapped "look Starlight, we just wanna know what happened and who might've done this, just give me a name and I'll-"

"JOHN YOU CAN'T BE SO HARD ON HER WE'VE TOLD YOU THIS" Bruce yelled having enough of JDs demanding

"IM JUST TRYING TO FIND OUT WHAT HAPPENED TO HER HAIR"

"I THINK YOU MEAN WE WANNA KNOW WHAT HAPPENED JOHN, WE'VE TOLD YOU THAT SHE GETS ANXIOUS" Clay shouted also having enough of JDs demanding

as the three kept arguing back and forth, Star tried her best to be calm, it was just too loud, her breathing got rapid and she got fidgety but no one noticed cause John, Bruce and Clay were arguing while Branch and Floyd were trying to break it up until

"IT WAS VELVET AND VENEER, THEY'RE THE REASON WHY MY HAIRS WHITE!" she blurted out, just wanting them to stop arguing

the brothers immediately went quiet until they all said "what?"

end, pt 3 coming soon.....

⭐a/n: I think this also turned out very good!!! lmk what you think!!!!

[alastair-1205]

Season 2 Pt 2 Episode 11 reactions. Spoilers obviously and this is just for me to keep track for when I inevitably wanna make some theories later.

WHEN I FIND YOU JAY

Also More of Arin’s frustrations. Delicious. 

Wildfire my beloved. She’s doing… better

Kai :(

LMAO POINTS FOR SELF-AWARENESS LLOYD

At least they know the paperwork is bullshit

But like actually where did Jay go-

I both love and hate how dumb these agent dudes are lol

Fighting? This early? God Arin needs a hug. Or more like bickering ig. 

Big dragon?

Oh so all the types of dragons do have a matriarch then? That’s what it sounded like

Oh they like. Fucking maimed her holy shit that’s actually kinda fucked up

Arin just trying to prove himself I think

Ooooh that’s such a cool fight sequence actually

Cinder’s powers are animated so well

RAS. His delivery is soooo good 

Noktu is cool too. And not very happy about his life rn lol

Cinder flinching makes me feel things

OOOOH THE MUSIC IN THE BACKGROUND RN

How’d the others know to go there? Did Sora call them anyways?

DRAGON AMBASSADOR WYLDFYRE HELL YEA

THEY KILLED RIYU’S MOM????????

IM ACTUALLY IN FUCKING SHOCK SHES ACTUALLY DEAD

WE ARE 10 MINUTES IN OMG

Oh god Wyld and Riyu 

ORPHAN BABY DRAGON FUCKING HELL

Rieu’s got a sibling now ig

FUCKING HELL RAPTON 

Have YOU read a book Rapton??

RAPTON I LIKED YOU YOU BITCH

That being said I kinda fuck with there being a group of mercenaries running around. Could be a fun reoccurring threat 

Arin spinjitzu!! And it looks better I think

I’m choosing to believe that was airjitzu fuck you

Oh Lloyd’s  mad

Ok I like Rapton a little bit more again. Just a bit. Fuck poachers tho 

Someone had to have fallen to their death during all that-

:(((((((

10 bucks says Lloyd gets hellbent on revenge too hard 

IM SORRY WHAT

WHO TF ARE YOU

Oh

Damn alright then

How did Imperium Cath one of these things fucking hell???

Ok which of these fuckers died then??

I think we’ve only heard from 4 of them so far

Ok so I’m guessing that the Dragon from season 9 was just one of those Matriarchs then right? Wonder what her title was

How do your powers work then???

YO SEASON 4 NAME DROP LMAO

Also where tf are Cole and Zane? 

[tadpolesonalgae]

i know i have too many thoughts about cbmthy but i just saw that ask where op said they wonder how long until the ic notices reader is gone and it made me think as well. i've been giving them the benefit of the doubt for the last chapters but this ask just made go back to my "the ic is being mean to her" bullshit. i love the ic but in this story i really feel like they need to step up with her and i hope they apologize when she comes back. i've seen you say you don't mean to make the ic neglect her but they do. and even if she herseld doesn't see it as being neglectful it is. just because she likes being alone it isn't enough reason for how isolated she is from them and i get that she doesn't wanna be a bother so she didn't want to say anything to them but her being comfortable going to eris just makes me not want her to go back to the ic permanently. i think the worst is that this is years after she got turned so she's been in this state for years and no one did anything, like i know they had their hands full with wars and nesta and nyx and koschei but it's not fair that they just ignored her in favor of those problems and even worse that she was always the one being left behind. with the way you've written her it wouldn't take more than a good look at her to see the mess she was in. i remembered the conversation between nesta and elain too so i know the ic or at least nesta want to do something about her but elain was wrong by not letting her. i'll stick with my opinion from the last chapter too though, her dipping on the ic is also bad on her part as well because it's a shitty thing to do to her family but that just makes me go back to the core issue which is her and the ic don't trust each other or even look like they care much for each other, they don't act like they're family.

i know this is a popular opinion but i really think that after she heals and grows it would make more sense for her to stay with eris than with azriel. she wasn't thriving at all in the night court and there's not really much of a reason or even tension between her and azriel, it just reads like she loves him out of habit, like she always had that crush on him and since she hates change she won't let go of it even if he hurts her. but i know you said you wanted her to stay in velaris and be with azriel so i just hope you take into account that these people couldn't help her when she was at her lowest and treated her like a second thought so when she comes back healed and stronger you kind of have to be careful of how you write things so it doesn't seem like they only care about her now that she's strong and useful. also with healing come a lot of realizations, the most important being the people who helped you and the ones that didn't so when she finally reaches that stage i hope she tells the ic exactly that. i also see the ic having some trust issues with her though, they don't trust eris (for good reason too, eris kind of makes sure of it) so when she comes back after hiding so much from them and from being with eris it's normal for the trust issues to come

im sorry if i talk too much about this series but i can see myself in some things and it kind of hits harder for it. also tell me if im being pushy because im genuinely just trying to get my opinions across not trying to make you feel like you have to write this or that a certain way - 🧶

‘i know i have too many thoughts about cbmthy’

You literally don’t, I love getting to hear all of them so it’s not too much 😭

‘i just saw that ask where op said they wonder how long until the ic notices reader is gone’

Honestly it’s going to be pretty promptly because of the whole magic and prophecy situation? With Azriel knowing what he does now about how her power hurts her, and that she’s going to kill him, it would be weird for him to not call a meeting with the rest of the IC, which then will lead to Azzie realising she isn’t in the HoW and going to search for her :)

In regards for how long it’ll take for him to find out she’s actually gone to the Autumn Court, I’m going to try and have it also happen in the next chapter because otherwise I feel like that could be the story beginning to drag again and I really do not want that 😭

‘i've been giving them the benefit of the doubt for the last chapters but this ask just made go back to my "the ic is being mean to her" bullshit.’

Okay this is so difficult to respond to (for spoiler reasons, not emotional ones) but there is some casual stuff going on in the background that’s keeping them a little away from her? Also since they trust Elain’s judgement on reader as the one who’s closest to her, because Elain made a bad call about what she needs, that’s also getting in the way and contributing to how the IC act around her?

‘i love the ic but in this story i really feel like they need to step up with her and i hope they apologize when she comes back.’

I have actually already begun to write this scene! The idea for the dialogue came probably around a month and a half ago and I’ve just been adding bits and pieces to it since then to help me try and prepare when the time comes for that part of the story to unfold? Either way it’s probably going to be quite taxing for everyone in that conversation so it’s a little stressful to write, but it’s got to happen eventually so things can start looking up after so long 🤦

‘but her being comfortable going to eris just makes me not want her to go back to the ic permanently.’

This is actually one of the few topics in cbmthy that I’m excited to write/discuss? There’s hopefully going to be a patch of dialogue where Eris brings up how messed up that is (satirically, of course🙄) and that will be touched on! I’m both hoping and not hoping that it’s something some other people will be able to understand since I think it’s kind of difficult to explain why it’s sometimes the case one doesn’t want/feel they deserve help?

‘i know they had their hands full with wars and nesta and nyx and koschei but it's not fair that they just ignored her in favor of those problems and even worse that she was always the one being left behind.’

With this theme it’s going to be kind of difficult, because for this particular issue to be resolved it’s going to take reader understanding that she didn’t deserve that, whether it was intentional or not, and that is going to be a big step for her.

I think it’s quite simple to be angry or upset on other people’s behalf, but standing up for yourself can be so difficult when you don’t want to be seen or cause a mess? When others are being treated badly it’s obvious that they don’t deserve it, but when you’re the one on the receiving end it’s so easy to slip into the mindset of “it didn’t hurt me that bad” or “I don’t want to overreact to something small” so reader has to first overcome that before she and the IC can have that talk?

Even if the IC were the ones to initiate that conversation, we’ve already seen in part 6 when Azriel tried to apologise that she just cuts it short because she doesn’t feel like she deserves that, which is why I think she needs to go spend some time with Eris for a little to get a blunter point of view! 🧡💛

‘i remembered the conversation between nesta and elain too so i know the ic or at least nesta want to do something about her but elain was wrong by not letting her.’

Honestly whoever suggested the multiple points of view really saved the day with that one 🫣

Elain didn’t make the right call with that, despite thinking it was what was best for her, which just adds to the pile of issues building between reader and the IC, so there’s a lot to deal with already without the mess of her magic, Eris, and some other things on the IC’s side. Also, while there is going to be a conversation discussing the whole Eris thing, obviously it’s not all going to be magically resolved after a single chat, no matter what? There’s still going to be a lot to sort through between her and Azriel after the Eris moment happens, so that’ll be a boat load of fun to tackle 🫠

‘i'll stick with my opinion from the last chapter too though, her dipping on the ic is also bad on her part as well because it's a shitty thing to do to her family’

I’m glad you’re keeping that stance because yes the IC hasn’t been great with her, but she also has just made a pretty bad decision to deliberately go straight to someone she knows they have bad blood with (and for good reason as far as we know from the books)

‘it just reads like she loves him out of habit, like she always had that crush on him and since she hates change she won't let go of it even if he hurts her.’

That is a big part of Can’t Bring Myself To Hate You—the whole doing things habitually without questioning it? Her beginning to make her own decisions and come to her own conclusions (and making mistakes in the process) is something I’m personally enjoying getting to write about (even if it isn’t the best)!

‘so when she comes back healed and stronger you kind of have to be careful of how you write things so it doesn't seem like they only care about her now that she's strong and useful.’

That’s something I’m worried about, but she does have a lot to work on and heal, which her and Az should get a chance to work together on and have some moments of realisation 🧡💛

‘im sorry if i talk too much about this series but i can see myself in some things and it kind of hits harder for it.’

I literally love getting to read your thoughts on this story. Not only is it helpful to hear things you like or things you’re concerned about (like the Eris mess, and fair enough) but it also makes me so happy that you’re so engaged with it? Like that you want to talk about this fic and are interested in it just makes me so happy to read and reply to 🧡💛

[froggowivdagudvibes]

Ive been meaning to post this for a while, so uh.. ye.

Ok before i start, its stoopid o clock and im incapable of wording rn, so bear with me.

I am very much confusion.

Um

So im questioning the possibility of being a demigirl?

Im afab and up until maybe a year ago, have felt pretty comfortable as a girl. Then i started feeling more nonbinary-ish but also female, but i was convinced i was just overreacting. I thought i was just subconsciously making it up for attention (idk how else to describe it, but hope dat makin sense). I was just tryna squish all those feelings down bcuz i was sure they weren't real. I didn't realise it was a thing, to be both non binary and female, and i felt just so invalid.

Then the other day me and my friend were talkin abt her new oc, and she said they were a demigirl. I asked wat dat was and she explained to the best of her knowledge. I just stood there open mouthed and while i didnt say anything, i was screaming inside.

WAIT WTF THATS BEEN AN OPTION THIS WHOLE TIME. WHAT. THE. FUCK. WHAAAAT.

That night i did sum research and i thought i was definitely a demigirl. The feeling comes and goes tho, and sometimes i feel more nonbinary, but for the most part i feel much more female. I still feel like im probably a demigirl, but im just kinda confused.

Idk why i made this post, ig i just needed to tell someone, cuz im not ready to tell anyone irl (partly cuz i still dont trust my own feelings) (i mean wut i said. theres sum weird shit goin on in my head lol)

I guess i also wondered if theres maybe sum demigirl/boy (or anyone rly) out there, to just tell me that my feelings are valid (or that theyre complete bullshit, if thats the case).

And if youre homophobic/transphobic/just dont agree with the concept of demigirls/boys, then i dont need your input. Its really not helpful.

Anyway, uhh ye. Bye ig.

Fuck i needa get sum sleep—

[ham-st4r]

hi!!!

so, i read “nobody gets me me (you do)” and wow!!! it was so amazing!! i cant!!!!!!!!

first of all, i loved that this time yn is an idol/famous and hee was a “normal” guy !!! it was fun to read and to see a different perspective on that!! this also brings me to the fact that omg omg omg omg heeseung was such a sweetheart here :((( like omg he was everything !! a husband material for sure <3 he was so supportive and caring and omg!! i melted ngl <33 BRUH yn was such a bitch lmaooo  - i was literally pissed while reading some of the shit she said!!! and NO!! i will not put myself into her shoes!!!! she said some bullshit that no one especially !!!hee!! deserves/d :((( but i guess we got some good and im taking RLY GOOOD fucking so - yeah the sexy scene u write never disappoint !! but still !! and when he left YEAHHH GOOD FOR HIM but also :((( seeing both of them  be still in love was so sad, i mean yn rly fucked up and im glad she realized it!! and omg this sza song is sooooooooo good and wow the story plus the song WAS TOP TIER !!!!! the whole getting back together was so cute :((( i hope they did get married eventually <33 

THANK U THANK U this was a lovely <333 <3 i appreciate the work u put into it <3 it rly shows! i was excited for this since it was a wip and it rly met my expectations !!!!  thank u !!!! take care !!  ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

Hello!

First off, thank you so much for your review. I appreciate this so so much.

I’m glad you enjoyed the reversed idol roles. I’m constantly trying to come up with unique ideas, so I’m happy that stood out to you.

I agree that heeseung was a sweetheart. He didn’t deserve all those things y/n said to him ;( and I also agree that y/n was a complete a hole 😂

And of course I had to write make up sex lol

Also, with the part where heeseung broke up with her, I wanted to showcase that you can love someone with your whole heart, but if they don’t put that same love back into you, then they are not worth it.

But, it also showed that people can learn from past mistakes and get a second chance cause they realize they messed up and they’re willing to be a better person for the one they truly love.

And also, yes! The Sza song is literally gold.

I could, maybe in the distant future, write a little scene about them getting married finally, but who knows.

I didn’t know anyone was even waiting on this story. I’m sorry it took so long to get out. I had a bunch of issues with the editing, but it came out just the way I wanted it to.

Once again, thank you so much. I really enjoyed this, and it made me feel the emotions of the story all over again.

Thank you so much! I hope you have a wonderful day!

For anyone that hasn’t read the story yet you can read it here >>>

[jupiter-pls]

(look, im sorry idk if read more is still a thing/on the app but i can't see it im hoping tumblr does that auto read more thing if not IM SORRY! i just need things written out for my brain sometimes)

ya girl had a cheeky weekend in amsterdam to have just one good night...and afternoon 🖤🧡🖤 it's been the. best. and i spent it with some wonderful people who im missing so, so much 💖 (there's a group photo of my pals when i had gone on to m&g round 2 with them holding up my art that makes me SOB! 😭 goodest of eggs!) and ill remember it all for a long, long time. got to give dan the new piece after telling/showing him the piece from back at the start of tour needed a companion piece & the reasoning behind it. he was so SO sweet and said how he loves my style, especially with the circles always being used (😭😭😭) and then pointed out the photo backdrop with the eclipse on 🥺 yes 🥺 love a weird wonky dan heart too 🥰 i was a bit annoyed with myself cause i felt/heard myself fully tripping over my words and ugh but! it was really really lovely...

m&g no.2 however! 💖💖💖💖 (look, i panic brought a resale ticket cause i was so nervous about the matinée getting canceled in the wake of the promoters bullshit on this tour and knew i would be beyond heartbroken if it had happened) god, that felt so so special and im going to remember it forever 😭 i got so many laughs out of him and SO MANY HUGS idk what was going on there i guess being able to actually get my words out was the cause? (just lots of thankful words for the tour, meaning i could meet my wonderful friends, the show being something so special & important and that he BELONGS on a stage that is is home!) id been talking myself in & out of taking minnie ears for a photo for WEEKS, would i be ~brave enough to ask for a photo in them? no i couldn't it's too scary! but i found the perf wad aesthetic ones for him and dlp is my favourite place in the world, this was actually important to me! (see me fully not being alright when he got that fleece thing from anaheim disneyland...if u got to meet him in that ur on my list 😭) after a moment from him of "um...what are those?!" and telling him look, it's important! we got a bunch of photos with him declaring "ok these are cute, oh my god we're so cute!" yes! ears are silly & over the top but they are fun! and cute! and make u feel like a kid! told him he probs has no use for them but he can keep them if he'd like (the orange ones...not my prince charming carousel ones!) and he was all 🥺 that's such a sweet gift thank you 🥺 (also this is all backwards, we did the ears photos before everything else). i mentioned while i was so excited for the show again, it was bittersweet as it was my last one and i love that he responded with his whole damn chest that i better make sure i make it to the next tour then...that boy is never going to stop doing shows and i love that for him SO SO MUCH LIVE UR FUCKING DREAM! 😭😭😭

i had a whole lot of feelings during that last show, "embrace the void/one good night" really getting to me after getting that most recent sketch done & all the feelings that went into that and my decision to do it...it's all so much.

ALSO! getting to meet & spend time with some really, really special people ive gotten to know in this fandom and them being what made the weekend so incredibly special 💜 saying goodbye to those folks was hard but they all give the nicest hugs. i really hope i can see them all again in the not too distant future, thank you for making this trip all it was 🥰

tl;dr dan is the best boy in the world and deserves ALL the good things in the universe & i have some incredible people im lucky enough to call my friends 🪐

[two-sides-samecoin]

okay regarding your latest (i think) post that i just reblogged:

why are we completely incapable of sympathizing with s1 steve harrington as a whole? idk its just so bizarre to me. we can sympathize with nancy despite her flaws, jonathan despite the whole camera scene, etc, but when it comes to steve harrington people get SO much shit for feeling bad for him.

i have so many thoughts on this in particular because its always in my head (forever a steve harrington never did anything wrong truther here!!) but also. not to be insane or get too personal here but i quite literally went through an experience SO similar to the bathroom scene at the halloween party that its kind of insane (like. a very bad fight that was basically relationship ending, etc) and. i do not think a lot of people are capable of basic empathy at this point (which, i get it, maybe its not so serious because these are fictional characters but still!!) especially given the narrative of stranger things. like i understand how both of them feel in this moment, because its stressful for nancy and i think she misunderstands steve's actions and he doesn't really know that she's so distraught, but also. to everyone who thinks it wasnt that bad or that he deserved that, from experience i can say being called bullshit by someone you genuinely love is NOT fun 😭

literally everything you said in the first paragraph! also like it’s wild how much people are like ‘i wanted him to die in season 1’ like wonderful you wanted a 17 year old to die cuz he made mistakes and then immediately felt bad and went to fixing those mistakes? like congrats or something yet people constantly hound on you if you don’t feel sympathy for nancy and jonathan in season 1.

god i’m so sorry you went through what steve went through. i’m giving you so many hugs right now 🫂🫂🫂 and so much love ❤️ but yeah like it’s kind of insane to me how some nancy stan’s just can’t understand that we’re not villainfying her instead we’re just emotional about our comfort character being told by someone who genuinely thought he loved him and continuously said those words that she never did love him and she thinks he’s part of the reason barb was murdered. like apparently empathy/sympathy can only extend to nancy now for some reason because we’re always being told to see nancy’s perspective and blah blah blah think about how sad she is like yes i do get that! i am sympathetic about it but being told all the time that i should be empathetic about it just makes me overwhelmed and not want to feel empathy anymore cuz the word is just being shoved in my face. meanwhile you’re like ‘listen just think about how steve feels’ and you immediately get shat on and shut down on like girl it’s just major hypocrisy and bias at this point.

im sending lots of hugs and love ❤️

[incarnateirony]

The fact that you addressed only the Anchor Baby part of the ask and nothing else (being wrong about “Jared” on the phone, wrong about Jake Abel, wrong about Misha, claiming some southern identity to hide the mayo) proves you know I’m right: that you’re full of it. And you did exactly what I said you would. Pretend to be intelligent, hurl insults that mean nothing, and deflect, deflect, deflect—talking about shit I didn’t even bring up. Meet and greets and TFW2P0 and other things you’re obsessed with and talk about at every turn just to distract from what I really said. And you can choose to publish my exact ask right now or not (while publishing others lmao). We both know.

no actually, you just sent 15 pages of nonsense and there's only so much garbage.

"WRONG ABOUT JARED ON THE PHONE". Bro. it was a shitpost that included "I wasn't sure it was him", and within about 30 minutes, was deleted. Because, unlike you, I'm not above or beyond reason, but I"m not sure how you're trying to connect "instagram prank misheard" as "PROVES YOU ARE AN UNRELIABLE LEAKER!!"

no dude i didn't declare nothing. i didnt say it meant shit. it was funny. Before you guys ran out of pocket doubling down how wrong I was, I deleted it, not because OMG IM ASHAMED, but because like you, I don't share misinformation at length. I'm also VERY FUCKING UNCLEAR WHAT PART OF YOUR MUTATED BRAIN FACULTIES CONNECTS THIS TO LEAK ACCURACY.

And? Yes, I already addressed Jake, at length, where you guys are dipshit lying pieces of shit that can't read the posts where I said... yeah, he was in austin too. Omg!!! {falls over dead, clutching chest} THE PAIN, THE PAIN OF IT ALL THAT {checks notes} He was in fact in austin like I said but never cared to check because nobody gives a shit about your shitty show? Like we're not mad. Dude we just don't care. what's not clicking. That's not a leak either. Walker doesn't have leakers because nobody gives a shit about Walker to leak it for or from.

THIS IS ALL YOU TRYING TO TELL YOURSELF THAT "FAN HAS REACTION TO FAN CONTENT PROVES FAN DOESNT HAVE ALL THE REAL PHYSICAL SOURCES THAT HAVE BEEN PRESENTED AND PROVEN TRUE TIME AND AGAIN WHILE WE SCREAMED AGAINST IT."

Maybe... just... MAYBE. YOU guys' malfunctioning cerebellums not understanding what is a *source*, what is a *shitpost*, what is *reality*, what is a *meme*, and other segregating factors is why you crashed out on that GIANT ASS LIST OF THINGS YOU DENIED AS I SAID THEM THAT CAME TRUE. Like, maybe if you stopped listening to fucking dumbfuck speculation and 2po's M&Gs he's been busted lying about and thinking they're sources:

you'd stop failing at spn

you'd stop confusing my shitposts with sourced leaks

What in the fuck kind of broken brained, jackshit insane logic is this. No really. I want you to look in the mirror and tell yourself you're okay, when you're literally screaming that I dared to delete an incorrect SHITPOST, and shows that I'm somehow an unreliable leaker. I want you. To go. Stare in the mirror. Look yourself in the eye. Say that. And then apply whatever self will is needed to not do self harm when you perceive how stupid your entire desperate spiral is right now while you deny blatant reality

What even are you trying to do? Is this your acceptance spiral that Destiel is happening and you're just trying to convince yourself I bullshitted all the details through the last 2 years? Is it you realizing all those times I said the crew sees this shit, and all your denials, that I might be right, but you can't accept that you've been clowning yourself while the main account openly retweets Destiel?

Cope. dumb motherfuckers think instagram stories count as leaks and sources, holy fuck, no wonder you guys can't hit the broad side of a barn.