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starxscream · 1 year

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I hope whoever made phones stop having headphones jack dies and goes to hell

#ben chats #i just went thru all my wireless headphones and broke them all bc they all sucked and were shitty and broke #im so fucking pissed i just want my music #meanwhile my earbuds with a wire are still the best ones ive had #and ive had them since college

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nerves-nebula · 8 months

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Anything on Neglected Karai at all? Is she Splinter’s daughter? Personality, skills, relationships, pronouns, or anything at all?

nah she's a 404 imagine not found screenshot and she doesn't exist she has no pronouns skills relationships or personality and she isn't anyone's daughter she came from the void and to the void she will return. amen.

#nnstuff #ask #sorry but like. im in college. i already cant make the art i want to cuz im busy all the time #yea i know a lot of characters outside the main cast are underdeveloped #i know we barely see april #i know the foot clan basically doesnt exist yet #if this were my full time job and i got like. paid to do it or something maybe i could come up with something but as it is !#im sitting at my work desk trying not to imagine killing myself because this next assignment is going to make me miserable for #at least another full month #and i didnt get to choose my partner because everyone else had already paired up because they all just. fucking known each other somehow #even though ive been with them all since freshman year #somehow im just not friends with any of them #and all i really want to do is attempt suicide to get out of it!!#but i CANT because god knows i wouldnt succeed!! and then i'd have to face making everyone i know fucking miserable #SO!!!!#TL:DR IM WORKING ON IT

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kuuchuuburanko · 3 months

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been feeling a bit nostalgic tonight. I miss the people i used to know online but time spread us far apart and all over the place. wherever they are i hope they're doing well

#like we havent talked in yeeeears #not since highschool or early college #some of them i have no idea what happened to them #like they dropped off the face of the earth #some i knew back from dA #i think im still moots with some of them here?#ive had this blog since 2014 or something #i hope nyall are doing good #to daniel #to captain #to coral #to saffron #to chiri #linny talks

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dbphantom · 3 days

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maybe i should have gone into practical effects instead of computer science...

#when i was in middle school i used to use red and black pens + spit for blending to make it look like the backs of my hands were torn open #i can't believe it's almost 4am. i just spent 5 hours typing up an essay about MM's erik that i just fuckin privated bc i was embarrassed #AND I STILL NEVER SPELL HIS NAME RIGHT THE FIRST TIME AAAAAAAA #i was right but im going to save all my points for the fanfic im currently planning out and promptly NEVER GOING TO ACTUALLY WRITE #I say shoving my plans for my h2o s3 rewrite off the table #yes i skipped from s2 to s3 i had a BRILLIANT idea [season 3 h2o spoilers ahead be wary my mutuals who are still watching]#okay so you know how lewis goes to the american institute of marine bio in the middle of 3? since this is tied to my s2 rewrite fic i wante #to actually finally reasonably re-introduced dr denman to the story because i never liked that she just fucked off at the end of s1 #despite WITNESSING the moon pool magic. so i made it so she runs into lewis while doing a presentation for the college and they have a chat #(because her JAW paper plays an important part in my s2 rewrite bc i imagine lewis is the kind of guy who SAYS he deleted every copy of #it... but ACTUALLY he secretly printed himself out a copy to study in private to compare to his own notes bc #[lewis voice] come *on* guys just THINK of the progress that he could make with this! [grabby hands in front of chest])#so yeah they have a chat and Linda kind of gives Lewis the opposite dilemma in s3 that Louise gives him in s1 about science and magic #since SHE knows about the moon pool and has been biding her time and she knows Lewis knows and Lewis is like ah... uh oh.#it will eventually tie into the idea it's not about forcing science and magic together or separating them #its abt respectfully and responsibly utilizing both to see their fullest potential. which lewis learned in s2 and Linda has... not.#BUT #later on she gets a call from 1 (one) ryan who is like 'hey so i heard u did environmental studies on mako for dr bennett a couple years ag #and i was wondering if you've seen anything weird there as im currently doing a-' and she's immediately like 'YOU SON OF A BITCH IM IN'#and he's like 'wha-' and she's like 'i have already booked my plane tickets we're going to have a great time we have lots to talk about :)'#and wheeee now they have someone who knows about mermaids on their team and it's the perfect way to bring lewis back to relevancy in s3 :D #it also gives me reason to have two bad bitches (linda and sophie) meet and get to know each other which is not a dynamic ive seen in #any of the H2O fics i've ever read so im very hyped to delve into how they'll play off each other #also charlotte is there so technically three bad bitches (only in my au Charlotte never lost her tail and is part of the gang she just move #because she felt like she needed to leave to really be able to find herself without being in her grandmother's shadow but she comes back bc #well... it's season 3 mako is sounding the fucking emergency alarms everyone is showing up sdkghkfjhg)#im also so so so hyped to show u guys who's coming back in the s2 rewrite because it ISNT denman and i think everyone thinks it will be :3c #(i said she when telling ppl to look forward to a familiar face... but can u blame me for getting hype she's one of my favorite characters!#i love u H2O #cruddy rambles

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blood-choke · 8 months

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literally I need a slice of life segment scene of Clear catching MC up on lesbian pop culture???? Like making them watch a Shane McCutcheon edit on repeat or throwing carol on the tv

all of them crowding on the couch to watch the L word together would be kind of iconic ngl. Clear definitely has the full series dvd box set (she collects lesbian lit and media). i do have a hard time imagining Valentina watching anything really, she's more of a book kind of gal, but she could definitely be convinced... then she'd probably get really into it, 8pm sharp once a week for the L word episode. or else.

#ive never seen carol actually :/ sowwy...#im behind on a lot of lesbian movies actually bc i have the attention span of a goldfish #last one i watched was the hunger which was like. Okay. kinda slow but that was to be expected #watched it for my novel it actually came up while i was researching lesbian bars apparently it was a favorite #that they played a lot at the bars #it was kinda crazy since my novel is also about lesbian vampires but i had never heard of the movie before #and then to find it while researching the bars rather than like. actual lesbian vampire media. was a fun coincidence #it's considered ~problematic~ by todays standards but apparently back then it was like Huge in the lesbian scene #lesbian tv shows i tend to just not bother with... i find them....bad. i did watch the L word many years ago tho in college (dont rmr much)#same with orange is the new black when i was in high school which was one of the first times i saw a real butch on screen #dont remember much of that either except for natasha lyonne and lea delaria being sexy #ask #anonymous

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vanweezer · 26 days

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pre haircut

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#blood freak #its gonna be weird seeing myself bald on the sides bc this is like. maybe the longest ive had them grow out? since i started cutting it #id be fine with the shape if it was even. etc #also shoutout to this shirt my grandma bought me three years ago when my aunt when graduating college #with the intent that if i got this shirt id be inspired to go to college #now i just be posting

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mossy-covered-bones · 2 months

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I dont think that anything you do in the second decade of your life should permanently impact your health

#i havent grown a whole bunch since middle school and. yknow i have a theory that it might be because ive had what could be classified as an #eating disorder all four years of hs and my freshman year of college?#like its permanently affected my metabolism but yknow malnutrition can also stunt growth so theres a theory that i fucked myself up a bit w #that one and thats why im shorter than all my immediate family by a significant amount #a bit beyond just natural variation . since all three of them are ~6 ft and im 5’7 on a good day #but also trying alcohol or weed when youre in your late teens shouldnt have a lasting impact i think. you should be allowed to mess around #a bit without it being bad for you #sev rambles

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acircusfullofdemons · 4 months

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MaDD will fuck up my life in ways I won't even realize like girl wdym you only have 2 friends 💀

#maladaptive daydreaming #madd pains #madd negativity #luka.txt #told my mom one of my friends is moving away n she pointed out that i only hang out w her n another person #theres some people at work i wanna ask to hang out w but idk #for some reason my brain keeps going ''but what if we're not close enough Work Friends to hang out''#i guess i could start messaging them on Instagram?? since were mutuals there???#why is making friends so hard n complicated. why is my brain like this.#maybe i can message those from my old college too...#idk it's so weird ive never really. had the desire for friends? if that makes sense ???#like theyre nice dont get me wrong I love the ones i have #and idk if its the madd or other mental illness skewing it. but part of me is sort of fine being alone?#ive always been of the ''if it happens it happens'' mindset when it came to friend making. does that make sense. probably not!

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pallases · 4 months

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the weak spot of this audition being my singing DEATHHHH

#cannot believe i did well on the dancing and bad on the singing. THIS IS SO BACKWARDS can we please switch that #like bad dancing in a musical audition is whatever they know you’re just learning the choreography and it’s just not as much of a priority #as other parts of the production like you know. The Music.#personal #the music chronicles #i wish they’d had us do dancing and even maybe acting before the singing but they started w singing. doing dancing esp beforehand would have #helped make everyone more comfortable and hyped them up i feel #i got back in the swing of my song as it built up but the way i started was soooo. ugh like i was singing it 20x better an hour earlier 😐#and even toward the end it was still like. good lord you can do so much better than this what is happening #and it’s not a matter of being unable to perform in front of ppl!! god knows how many solos ive done. but The Auditions #but whatever. honestly i hope i just got in at all bc literally any role in it including ensemble i think would be a lot of fun. and they #seem like a really nice group of ppl i don’t think ive felt that comfortable in a group of ppl that fast like. ever since getting to college #actually scratch the i don’t think i ABSOLUTELY haven’t #i miss theatre sooo bad

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pepprs · 2 years

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semi-recent sketchbook spreads bc i am having so much fun 🥳 (top left is from 2019 (it’s my favorite spread in the entire book) and the other 3 are from the last couple months but they’re still in progress!)

#purrs #i started doing it in like 2011-2012 and then i took a long break from like aug/sept 2019 - feb 2022 bc of The Horrors and then i took anoth #another short break in like july-sept of this year but now imwdoing it again and it’s so funnnnn. i love choosing colors or picking #placements of collage stuff etc to communicate / imply emotion / etc 🤓#my art #ive had my current sketchbook since 2017 it’s just taken me so long to do it and im not even close to being done… i used to finish them in l #less than a year in hs somehow lol but ive had this one since i started college and now im an alumna. wtf #ALSO. the citrus girl in that one spread is designed by strangegutz! but the other characters like the star (memini) and the cat with the ri #ring around its neck (pepe) are my designs / characters :D #sketchbook

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asexualjedi · 1 year

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Just spiraling being like 🤪🤪🤪 what am I doing with my life I miss art I miss making videos I miss making coming and animation do I really want to do law. And logically I don’t really think I would want to move away from everyone I know to move to where I would need to be to do film or tv and animation. So like. 🔫🔫 accept it. And like I think helping people is something I’m very passionate about and will make me happy and I think if I just did art and comics I would feel bad about like big things like prison abolition and how terrible people are treated in our justice system is would bother and upset me and at least I can feel productive. But idk idk what to do. I just don’t know what is my anti drepressants or what. But truly working for the knife by Mitski whenever I watch tv or see cool art I get really depressed and yearn to be doing that stuff and idk what to do??? Like did/do I define my identity to much to being an artist but idk. I want to make things I misss working with people to make things and I know as a lawyer I will collaborate a lot. A lot of what u do seems so not fun and miserable and idk idk. But I’ve spent so much money and also i going to law school allowed my friend to have housing for foreseeably 3 years. Do I just get the JD and end up completely turning around and doing fucking. Like?? Entertainment law but in my head that’s always just disneys evil lawyers idk.

#I don’t know how much of this is my depression and how much is like a real genuine I #thing bc I’ve always had problems with like since I was like 8 or even younger as long as I can remember I’ve had issues with regret being l #like after making a choice freaking out like I’ll never be able to do the other choice was this the right one like even for shit like I took #this summer camp instead of another and I’ve been able to manage as good as ai can but with this such a big decision #idk #like it was easier when I decided not to bc o to like a big art school bc that was saving money right and I could still take art classes #and major in it #here I’m loosing moneh spending so much money and i technically could do art but I don’t have time and law school mental illness I have no #inspiration motivation #and like I know I have been trouble with motivation creation like was my most depressed and mentally I’ll in high school and freshman of #college but I also created my most art then I was drawing all the time and happy and also very depressed it’s hard to explain #and now I. like. I haven’t done art in so long since last summer #and people’s housing is on me know. and ive already spent so much #money specifically im so lucky my dad is paying for my school BUT my dad is paying for my school I both want to drop out incase im #wasting his money and also I can’t waste his money I must get this degrrr #but will I be happy #idk I accidentally didn’t take my anti depressants mayeb yesterday and this morning #I took them this afternoon but I’ve also been depressed lately that’s. ahhh #I’m haha #girl help #Kelly talks

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anadorablekiwi · 1 year

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12 year old Kiwi would simultaneously be Very Very Disappointed and also Very Proud

#disappointed because I’m 24 still single never had a boy friend no job no degree and dropping out of college soon #but proud because i drew a person and he turned out decently well #ive written a lot of fiction which includes and centers on original characters and i even have a completed 20k words fic #(and while i didnt know fanfiction existed at age 12 i would have loved it. and also just been proud at having written fiction)#i have a car of my very own #i own a nice gaming console (switch) and games for it and my family still has a working wii #12yo Kiwi would have been astounded and very happy to see the 112% completion (or whatever number it is) in botw and just how many korok #seeds i collected #she would have loved to see the 10% exploration i have in every genshin area to date #she would have been happy i have friends even tho 95% of them are online (I love you all so very much here have hugs 🫂🫂)#I’m sure theres way more #anyways my point is i should try and be proud of where i’m at right now #even if its miles away from where i wanted to be st this point in my life #I’m gonna try and do nice and fun things as a gift to 12yo kiwi #maybe that will help reduce the incessant negative voice in my head telling me what a complete failure and letdown and disappointment i am #also i think 12yo kiwi would have had her little mind blown at the existence of weighted blankets #and would have LOVED the loz games/franchise/etc #and also would have laughed to discover that i am still the exact same height as her #(I haven’t grown since like 7th grade. i have been 5’2” for around half my life at this point #anyways i guess what I’m saying is do what makes you happy. make little child you happy.

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chiisana-lion · 11 months

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^ had to look at their old classmates' and childhood friends' graduation pics and celebrations and whatnot

#its FINE im fine who cares if im a little behind its not my fault i had to transfer and repeat a year bc of it #its not a race!!!!!! nobody probably remembers or particularly cares abt you anyways take ur time #man.#i only really go on insta like once or twice a month or whenever i just went to a con or smth and yet #these past six months have been awful for my self esteem (like its ever been much better rly lmao) all of them getting into good colleges #having fun and actually having friends . couldnt be me!!!!!#feel like my childhood friends ive been together with since kindergarten are so far away now too #yeah its none of our faults i had to move away in elementary at least we kept in touch. its none of our faults the pandemic happened once i #got back in the country. its none of our faults when the one time we couldve possibly met up they were suddenly busy and couldnt make it and #now i wont have a chance to see them until like december at the soonest and even that chance is slim #if i go to college abroad ill be able to see them even less too.. well no use thinking abt it now #i should go season my shrimp and heat the rice back up hrm #duck rants about something

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the-ghost-king · 2 years

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actually the most annoying thing about my coworkers (and in general, quite a lot of people) is they all say the right things to sound really progressive and like they're well read politically but the second they actually have to apply those learned beliefs they continuously fail again and again yet continue to act like they really are Those-Progressive-Thinkers™ because they want to be so bad they forget they aren't...

#im not gonna say I felt like attacked or whatever today because of something that happened #but like holy fuck ow i guess?#also ive had a coworker who has now worked their for months and they keep misgendering them #and it's so aggravating just being around it I know it has to hurt being the one subjected to it #like i pass so I get by but like being nonpassing is hard and months later they still haven't improved #its not even like this coworker changed pronouns since working there or anything #...#idk I needed to rant this is that rant im good now #btw I hate college

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apocalypticdemon · 1 year

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man there's this one post that I can't track down but I gotta talk about it

it talks about how the op was singing in the kitchen and their roommate slid around the corner and was relieved that they were singing bc they don't do that then they're depressed, and that the kitchen had been silent for 3 months. thinkin about that post today

#mostly bc .... i just realized that people have had that same recognition for me.#i got horrifically depressed in college. my sophomore year.#and when i dont feel badly. i frequently wear flowers in my hair. theyre pretty and i like to match them. but that takes energy.#and i hadnt even noticed that id stopped #until one day i went 'hey. its been a while since ive done that. lets wear some pink flowers today'#and my piano teacher looked at me and said 'oh good. youre feeling better today. im so glad'#and whrn i went ???????? he said. 'you're wearing flowers again. you havent done that in a long time and youve been really down.'#'but your flowers are back! im happy for you'#and now whenever i see that post im like. oh. other people see me like the op's roommate does. my flowers came back.......

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hobismilitarywife · 2 years

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#//ramble #hobi is genuinely so nice #like the fandom completely boycotted him and only voted for jin because he had more chances of winning apparently #i mean of course jin will have higher chances if we only vote for him lol #despite it being hobi’s first solo ‘album’ but it’s whatever #seeing him and jimin carry jin on their shoulders for the award just made my heart melt #ive to learn so much from him in this aspect #feel like ive become way more judgmental and negative since i joined college #but the thing is that once you start living alone you see how everyone is only nice for their own benefits and only very few selected people #are genuinely nice and want the best for you #this does make one a little cynical #but i feel like hobi isn’t like that #ive been trying to implement both stop and equal sign’s messages in my own life #but it’s really hard to forgive and forget so easily #i really look upto hobi in this aspect #also just a psa that im in no way against jin winning that award infact i believe that he truly deserved it and im really happy for him :D #i voted for both of them…

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