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I absolutely adore him
Updated Theo reference so he doesn’t look squingy anymore 😭 the old ones are all beta designs this is way closer to how I draw him now
Here’s a version without the dialogue as well
#stray 2022#stray robots#digital art#stray game#stray oc#barbie closet#barbie life in the dreamhouse#gender envy#updated design#no longer crunchy#he’s a sophisticated man now#and significantly more traumatized
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After the events of Spring Break and long before either of them even consider dating, Steve and Eddie become friends. Eddie shares his weed and buys them alcohol, Steve provides food and a place for Wayne and Eddie to crash for awhile, and Robin kind of freeloads on everything (although she considers her witty one-liners and company payment enough). Even still though, it takes more than just friendship to force Steve to join a DnD campaign.
With the departure of Grant, Jeff, and Gareth from the Hellfire club, the Party is woefully short on manpower. Will joins and Eleven tries too but even with the addition of their two characters, the Party isn’t strong enough to survive Eddie’s devious campaigns. So they target Steve. Between Eddie’s pleading puppy dog eyes and the endless pestering of the kids, Steve joins. Initially, he’s hesitant. He thinks he’s only going to play a handful of games to get the kids back on their feet before parting with them. But then he discovers that he’s good at it. He discovers that he enjoys flirting with the NPCs and annoying the shit out of his fellow characters. He likes saving the kids and watching their backs in fights all too reminiscent of the Upside Down. It makes him feel useful, needed, wanted.
Most of all though, he likes seeing how his words affect Eddie. He starts looking forward to seeing the blank look on Eddie’s face when he does something he’s not expecting, forcing Eddie to dive into the very depths of his imagination. Steve likes seeing Eddie’s lips quirk into a smirk when his flirts land their mark. He imagines kissing the quirk away until those very same lips are bruised red with burst capillaries. He wants to see Eddie’s smile directed at him for every moment of everyday, not just from behind the Dungeon Master’s partition or on a dinner date with Robin. Steve wants to hear Eddie’s husky voice explain his plans for DnD while they cuddle in bed hiding from the cold Indiana winter (although he would never admit something so nerdy to anyone). His thoughts and Eddie’s reactions to his admittedly mediocre flirting only makes Steve like playing DnD with him more.
He especially enjoys the day when all the flirting finally leads Eddie to corner him once the kids leave to ask him out on a proper date (or in their case, Cheetos and strawberry milkshakes on the roof of Eddie’s van while watching snowflakes fall from frozen clouds). In hindsight, it only made him wish he’d joined the nerdy dragon club sooner. Maybe then he could’ve been kissing Eddie Munson for years by then. Steve guesses he’d just have to keep Eddie around for years to come.
#the kids have to experience their flirting get significantly more detailed and graphic as time goes on#as if the Upside Down hadn't traumatized them enough#but it does get Robin to join the campaign for nothing else other than to gather blackmail to use against her dinguses later#hearing them flirt only serves to make her happier to be a lesbian#stranger things#steddie#steve harrington#eddie munson#ficlet#hellfire club
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This poor boy went for the Boiling Isles equivalent of EMDR therapy (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing therapy), it's canon and you can't change my mind.
Because it's a treatment technique that actively involves the subconscious mind and would've been the most epic culmination and recap of all the following concepts and bits of lore in the show:
Mindscapes:
nightmares:
and illusion magic (used by the therapist with Hunter's consent, of course. The opposite of Adrian forcing information out of Gus in Labyrinth Runners):
To find out more, you can read my giant meta (link) and 3-part Complex-PTSD meta series (links to Parts 1, 2, 3)
Link to my Hunter mental health analyses masterpost
#it may be the most effective way to help him subconsciously make a breakthrough: significantly reducing Belos's traumatic hold on him#I had 2 years of EMDR sessions. the first breakthrough was giving my primary abuser a metaphorical burial which could heal me significantly#anyway yeah. I plan to create some of these EMDR scenes in the form of fake screenshots sometime in the future#toh hunter#the owl house#hunter noceda#hunter deamonne#loz writes a meta#this would've been how possessed Hunter got more screentime honestly
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the girls are literally gossiping
#sth#amy rose#metal amy#i think they should be besties#who's better bestie than your cyborg significantly more traumatized self#asb_art
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i’m not a transandrophobia truther in the slightest don’t get me wrong, but i think some people on here really need to realize and comprehend the fact that cis women, way WAY more often than not, hold extremely significant social and political power over trans men the vast majority of the time in our day to day lives
#sorry not to get on this bullshit i just saw a related post when i opened this app lmao#and by some people i don’t mean anyone in particular im not vagueing anyone or any specific post#and i especially don’t mean any transfem calling out transmisogynistic transmascs either#but yeah i see a lot of implication that trans men are like. somehow significantly privileged over cis women#and ofc i don’t mean that transmascs are incapable of being misogynistic to cis women bc that’s far from the case#but i need someone to name a transmasc with significant political or social or financial power that’s working to set back women’s rights#versus the amount of cis women with any of the aforementioned privileges working to take away the rights of trans people#bc i can think of 4 of the latter just off the top of my head without trying really hard#and the only day to day instance i can think of where trans men would hold significant power over a cis woman is like..#a workplace environment where he completely passes as cis and absolutely no one knows he’s trans at all or even suspects it#but then again most if not all of that privilege would be stripped away the second anyone there found out he was trans#but yeah i really do think some people need to grapple with how they conceptualize gendered privilege and their own power in these dynamics#and how that’s reflected in the way they think about/interact with transmascs#are you disgusted with this random transmasc on tumblr because he’s a man (or vaguely adjacent) or because he’s trans. ykwim#and again i hate the whole transandrophobia thing i think it’s stupid as shit and redundant to put it lightly and briefly but#idk why transmascs that believe in it have become the new face of anti-feminism and MRA movements#and not like. the cis men who started both of those things and contribute to the vast majority of that type of rhetoric in every way#and also hold enough power to leverage those beliefs over both women and also transmascs tbh#i think some people are just repulsed by the idea of anyone willingly wanting to be a man bc they see it as the same as becoming a cis man#in terms of privilege. when in reality by being trans you’re knocked down in terms of power and privilege from all cis people anyways#but also. some people also need to realize that transmascs can also have trauma and complicated feelings about being a man and patriarchy#and more often than not we ARE traumatized by the way cis men (and women!!) have treated us#and grapple with our place in the world as a result. it’s not just as simple as becoming a cis man over night tbh!!#and again i’m not talking about transfems with any of this because the vast Vast majority of transfems understand this more than anyone#i’m mostly talking about cis women both irl and also just in the terminally online leftist sphere#and i also think i should be allowed to vent my grievances with the power cis women often do wield over me without being accused of being a#raging misogynist or MRA or whatever
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while youre out ~“serving the country”~ by sitting around and daydreaming about being shot or whatever i’m sneaking into the military base with my expired id from when i was raised a navy brat and hitting up all the newlywed army moms and giving them the emotional support and care that they'll realize they’re missing in 7 moves and 10 years in a loveless marriage. also making out with them sloppy style so that they take me to the commissary for the cheaper soda prices
#cobble’s significantly more incomprehensible tones#this is nothing.#i’m mildly intoxicated and have been around my military family for like 2 days straight now i’m losing my mind#message to white women everywhere dont marry a military man no matter what anyone tells you#this is probably not the message that tumblr of all places needs to hear but just. pass it onto your friends and family#dont marry a military man you and your kids will end up traumatized and isolated
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Dayum, poor link. Spent his ENTIRE life training to Not Fail at his One Job, and then having a bunch of people come from a Different Time saying that they saw him Fail. Poor kid must be going way overboard to make sure that he doesn't Fail this time.
literally like imagine. you are link. you have spent at the very least the last year or so preparing to fight ganon, with, thanks to terrako, the EXPLICIT KNOWLEDGE that if you fail, everyone you love will die. then all of a sudden a bunch of idiots fall out of the sky and the FIRST thing you learn about them is that they are from a future where you fucked everything up. for whatever reason they don't seem that mad at you about it, but still. this is not going to do much to help your confidence
#not to mention that the version of you they know seems to have been significantly more talkative and less traumatized#and none of them seem to have made the connection that you do not know who the fuck they are#incredible game guys. 10/10 no notes#asks
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Hey, y'all, this is just your friendly reminder that other people on the Internet are, in fact, people.
We are not just faceless usernames or silly little profile pictures; we are human beings with human emotions and human lives outside of the internet sphere. We all have problems and issues that are never shared in our online lives. We all have things we are coping and dealing with. We all have complex emotions and complicated relationships and situations with others that we're struggling with.
The person you're about to send anonymous hate or say mean things to is still a person, just as you are yourself. The words you say may have a lasting impact on this person, so before you call them a mean name or try tearing them down, please take a moment to consider if it's actually that big of a deal, if it's actually that worth it to you to potentially leave a lasting - and very negative - impact on another person's life due to whatever situation happened online.
As a reminder, you know nothing of this person, aside from the things you've been told, either by the person themselves or by others. You most likely will never meet them in-person and get the opportunity to look them in the eyes as you speak to them. Would you look them in the eyes and say the same words you are about to share? Because it's so easy to see a cute little crow profile picture or a silly little drawing and dehumanize that person in your mind, associating the picture with the name and subconsciously believing that they are not a human being with emotions, such as yourself. It's so incredibly easy for us to do that, but frankly, it's not right. That profile picture still has a human being sitting behind it at the computer or on their phone. There is a real person behind that account.
Let's all be a little nicer to each other in online spaces, please, and stop attacking each other so viciously. We are not starving jackals, tearing and ripping into each other ruthlessly for any sort of scrap of meat we can find, so let's stop acting like them and treat each other more humanely.
#reminder#I'm just tired of this#this isn't aimed at anyone or anything#but after talking to my therapist about some situations that happened#i realized how much the internet has honestly traumatized me#and significantly changed me as a person#I'm not saying the internet is evil or something#but I am saying that we need to collectively help make it a more comfortable space to exist in#at the end of the day#we can only really control our own individual actions and reactions#but that is still a power that we are responsible for#and one that we should use responsibly as well#vent post
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hey babes, it looks like a few of my recent new followers here are under 18. I'm not gonna chase you out but you need to know I'm in my late 30s and I post a lot about sexual topics, including but not limited to recovering from sexual assault.
this is the internet and nothing I post is going to be worse than anything you'd find elsewhere but I do want to be cautious. on the one hand it's perhaps useful for you to get perspective on how an adult grapples with some of the same struggles you're probably facing. on the polytheist front, I know for a fact that the Infamous Fascist Guy talking about Dionysos doesn't turn away underage folks, which makes him an easy person to go to for information (yikes), and ideally you would seek out alternative sources that... aren't... fascist (I'm flattered to be chosen). which is an argument against restricting who interacts with this blog. on the other hand I know unregulated occult spaces (online and irl) are great at fostering unhealthy power dynamics between more and less seasoned practitioners, and even delusional thinking esp in newcomers who lack experience with discernment. which is not something I wanna encourage.
any "ban" on underage readers/followers is unenforceable - if you're rule compliant, you'll self select away, and if you're intent on staying, you'll falsify your age. so anything I say about it is really more about my own sense of responsibility than making anybody else do what I want.
I'm not a fucking cop. you're going to learn about what you want to learn about somewhere. teenagers are curious, and not oblivious to the realities of the world - all my dirtbag high school friends watched porn, several of them went to prison, most of them shot guns, my sister was pregnant at 17 - I know you're finding out what you want to know, one way or another. but I want to be mindful of my own impact on you.
if you are underage, my preference would be for you to ask me for recommendations of other resources, unfollow me for now, and then if you're still interested come look me up again when you're a bit older. you are explicitly welcome to ask me direct questions rather than following the blog. I don't want to be censoring my posts for an underage audience, and I don't want to be giving you material that's not suitable for you. plus I lack the constitution to feel comfortable yelling about dildos in a room full of 16-year-olds.
I'm not the boss of you and it's literally impossible for me to enforce my preferences, so I'm requesting that you respect them, instead. 🤍 thanks friends.
#personal#failing at tumblr#like what do we actually mean by 18+#is what i'm saying#how do we actually prevent and mitigate harm#and what harm are we trying to prevent and mitigate#and by and towards whom#i love u weird teenagers i want u to thrive#the best way I can support u online is send u some links to start with and then talk to u more freely when u are a couple years older#seeing a nude body is not inherently a traumatizing thing for a young person#but I do not want to be the significantly older person showing you the nude bodies#do you see the distinction?#i'm saying 'underage' in this post but i feel like under 22 is my actual 'ack' range#anyway!#that's enough tags
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more redraws bc it's fun and I'm not posting them for literally no reason
#may as well#vash the stampede#trimax#trigun maximum#panel redraw#drawing#comic#illustration#manga#my art#artists on tumblr#guy who is so traumatized <3#im hoping I'll have more energy after i quit my current job. last day today :D i am starting a new one next week but im hoping it's uh.#significantly less taxing#i have plans and i wanna execute them damnit#preferably before i have to buckle down and work for the vashwood big bang lol. ive never been in a big bang before and i dont wanna#disappoint my writer. whoever it is#god i hope they wont be disappointed in me lmao#i know there's really good artists in that event and im not one of them 😭😭 but i will do my best
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how do you think adam and jonah would welcome cesar if they were still alive?
Adam probably would be. a bit cold to him at first. just kinda. doesn't trust him.
Jonah however, picks up on Cesar's energy and they're like. near instant buds-
#asks are neat#tmc alternate au#Jonah and Cesar both are goofballs. just. one is significantly more traumatized-
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I can’t tell if I’m just bad at finding Bedsheets That Don’t Pill, or if it’s just another case of Severe Decrease In Product Quality Due To Ongoing Plague And Labor Shortages, or if I’m just autistic and doomed to experience all bedsheet textures as Level 10 Pain
#sorenhoots#😞 the expensive bedsheets I bought a while back didn’t even make it to the first wash before pilling#due to circumstances I can say that the pain of the bad texture is literally worse than shingles!#it took me like 6 months to gather the energy to go bedsheet shopping last time so I’ll probably just keep suffering for months again 😓#I’m laying on my weighted blanket because it’s soft and stays in place but that means I don’t have my weighted blanket#I am trying a new strategy of wearing a onesie so none of my skin touches the sheet but#the occasional instances of my hands/feet briefly touching the texture is intensely horrible#I know it sounds dramatic to phrase it this way but like: it’s kinda like 😥 traumatic? if I am allowed to use that word in this instance?#the spike of panic and adrenaline I feel when I so much as *almost* touch the sheet is familiar to the panic I used to feel when avoiding#PTSD triggers or when I’d get a very distressing intrusive thought#I literally have nightmares about accidentally touching the sheets#and my entire behavior has shifted significantly to avoid the texture at any cost even at my own detriment#like when my shingles was hurting terribly but I curled up in a way that hurt it worse just to avoid the bedsheet texture#I don’t even know where to get better sheets. I tried Walmart and target but they only seem to carry their own brands now and they’re all#the same material and style and there’s no options#I thought about trying a more specialized store like a Kohl’s or idk something#but by the time I’m trying to think of where to buy new sheets I’m beyond overwhelmed and can’t even leave the house. much less#drive to a store and look for good sheets underneath fluorescent lights and loud music and the fucking Bible Belt Middle Aged Women staring#at my androgynous appearance like I’m Satan incarnate#ugh….. I need to go like. touch grass lol. watch a rolly polly meander across an acorn shell.
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that being said im pretty sure if someone else described the same childhood experiences as i had to me, i would tell them that was abuse. but when its me im like well what’s a little hitting and screaming between families right guys<3
#abuse tw#and the things that are the worst sounding are not the things that impacted me the most significantly like#it was stuff like having people very close to my face#when i see someone like get right in a kids face even if theyre being super nice and friendly i always tense up adhdhufsgdfg#whereas the things we like all recognise as traumatic im like well whatever im over it LOL#and the majority of like lasting bad habits and coping mechanisms and emtoional difficulties etc dont come from thatthey come from my#relationship with my sibling whcih i feel like we're way more equipped to talk abt abuse from caregivers#but not about if ur sibling fucked u up for life -__#i mean im fine but i think if i was an only child id be like TOO well adjusted#had to give me a struggle somewhere
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Sooo tempted to make a First ai
#i don't know how this shit works#but i can guarantee one thing: he will be significantly more gayer and traumatized#lu ai#mb's two am rambling
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i want to take the time to talk about a series of disabilities that no one takes seriously or even recognizes as a disability, which is food intolerances, and allergies. if a person can get sick if they eat the wrong foods, they are disabled, as this illness will make them unable to function all because they ate the wrong food. it's not okay to guilt someone for seeking foods that won't injure them.
in 2022, i began to lose my ability to digest land meats (pork, chicken, cow, etc.), animal milks, and eggs. it started slowly but quickly progressed to every type of land meat. i am only able to digest seafood, plants, nuts, seeds safely without becoming horribly sick. i tried to buy cow's milk because it is cheaper recently and became so ill it was genuinely traumatic. i have never been that sick in my life before. i cannot safely ingest cow's milk, the cheaper option, because it will injure me for several days or even weeks at a time. this happens to me with all land meats as well.
i cannot eat eggs. i cannot fried rice that has egg, i cannot eat most sauces like mayo or ranch dressing because of their high egg content. i cannot eat anything dressed in mayo as a sauce. anything that is baked or brushed or washed with egg is a risk. my digestive system really hates eggs in particular and they are inescapable.
people who can't digest or process lactose, gluten, meats, seafood, eggs, nuts, seeds, beans, fiber, certain fats, proteins or sugars don't have their needs considered very often, nor taken seriously, especially when that person is poor. people with digestive issues need to be able to eat foods that don't hurt us- it's not our faults that alternative milks, breads, pizzas, snacks, sauces, dips, spreads, meats and more are significantly more expensive. we still need to be able to eat foods that don't harm us regardless of how much money we make.
#disability#physical disability#disabled#invisible disability#disability rights#digestive disorders#digestive health#food allergies#food intolerance#lactose intolerance#our writing#about us
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my favorite thing about researching psych is the amount of shit that secretly comes down to trauma
#like even disorders you wouldn’t expect#or that you’ve been told is 100% genetic or whatever#no. it’s not#obviously genetics are a Factor and you can be significantly more or less likely to develop certain shit#and you can end up all fucked up without trauma#but like… RARELY.#almost all of it can get triggered by childhood trauma#idk maybe we need to be doing more research into what constitutes as traumatic enough to fuck someone up#and how to prevent that shit from happening to kids and ruining lives#i think a lot of problems could be solved if every expecting mother was sat down and told#‘if you talk about dieting with your fucking kid there’s a significant chance of it killing them’#‘hey don’t hit your fucking kids it fucks them for life’#i just think that expecting parents need to be put thru extensive courses on trauma#you put women that want abortions thru so much bs. bro that’s a jellybean it doesn’t have feelings it wont grow up to have a psychotic break
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