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Date everything Mac nsfw drabble
I can't do this anymore I need a Mac like I need air
Mac getting handsy
Amab!Mac x Gn!Reader Nsfw
It's becoming a routine.
Every evening after dinner, your partner would look up at you expectantly, inviting you to sit in their lap before watching videos on YouTube or scrolling on a social media website.
You were more focused on an old Vine compilation from times much simpler.
Mac was more focused on your soft body squished against theirs. Their teeth sink into their bottom lip as their eyes drink in your backside as they lean against their wheelchair. Your sides look so inviting, so plush and soft. Human skin... They never knew how much they craved the softness until just recently.
You felt their hands around your waist. You shuddered but continued watching the following funny video. But that's when their hand slowly started to slide up your shirt, to get a handful of your chest or anything else they could grab. The other begins to dip dangerously low, threatening to slide underneath your pants.
"Mac?" You say, beginning to tilt your head back to look at them, but they stop you from going further by kissing the back of your shoulder before leaning in to nibble at your ear.
"Let's watch something else." With their husky tone, their sneaky hand is now gently rubbing below your underwear. Mac's other hand leaves your chest. They rest your chin on your shoulder as they lean forward to take control of the keyboard.
You shutter and squirm in anticipation as soon as they hit the incognito mode.
Their fingers rubbing against your core up and down. You became hyper-aware of their shaky breath in your ear. Their hips rolling up so you could feel how much they want you.
With a rumble in their chest, they pull up something that catches their eye on the very adult-friendly website. Eyes half of it, another rumble falls from their throat, their hands slinging back to your hips. Their teeth scrape against your shoulder's back before laying their lips upon it.
Their movements are rhythmic and fluid, as if they were in a trance, and they focus solely on how your body feels against them. Mac pulls you in closer, giving their hands more space to roam. You let out a small noise as you deeply feel their nose into your neck, inhaling your scent.
Mac shuddered, their fingers digging into your sides as they tried to roll their hips against you harder, pressing their flushed body against yours as if Mac was trying to meld to you. Their groans and moans turned into desperate whines.
You felt a tongue roll up your neck before Mac's desperate breaths hit your ear. "mmh~ I want more, babe, please can I have more?"
They don't even wait for your response, as one hand is already trying to undo their jeans. You follow their demands, slowly lifting yourself up to take off your pajama pants.
"Everything, please?" Mac rasps, and off goes your pajama shirt and your underwear. As soon as they lay eyes on your body, which they've seen before countless times, a soft "yes~" falls from their lips as they drink you in. "So hot, mmh! Fuck, I might overheat at this rate."
As soon as their boxers slid off their cock springs up hitting you right between your legs. Instinctively, you press your thighs together, wanting to feel their hardness against yours. You're not sure why but for some reason Mac's cock was always extremely warm, far too hot for a human you think.
Now that you think about it, Mac's entire body was hot, not hot enough to burn you, but a pleasant hot like a fresh pile of laundry on a cold night. But far too hot to be from a human body.
Mac's desperate whines cut off your train of thoughts.
"Why did you stop? Please keep going!" They ended their moans with a growl, their fingers digging right back where they belong, on your hips. Rolling your hips down against them.
"Oh God, why does this feel so good?!" You hear Mac breaking down behind you. You can imagine their eyes rolling back as you feel them nibbling on your shoulder and neck. "body always feels so good! so cool against mine! 'm not gonna last!" Their mouth quivers desperate huffs shaking more and more.
"Oh God!" They squeal rubbing as hard as they can cumming against you their cock squirting see it all over your body catching when the desk and your thighs.
You turn your body around and their face with kisses, seeing their flushed face was more than satisfying. Mac revels in the afterglow, A smile appearing on their lips, when they feel your pillowy kisses against their face.
They catch their breath and their eyes scroll down. "Oh... But I didn't make you cum..."
"No it's okay Mac seeing you finished this- Aah!" Your back arches Your back twists back And you look down to see their and playing between your legs.
"Who said I was done? Haha... I want more... I want to see you cum and I haven't been inside you yet... I hope you called off of work tomorrow"
#smut#date everything#mac date everything#date everything x reader#I want them so bad#Don't mind this shitty drabble
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knife is so ridiculous in the remaster i love him.... they ramped his murderfreak tendencies up to 11 and he's so funny for it. he accidentally kills lightbulb and goes "....siiiiiiick" like he just found out that a character in a video game explodes into meaty chunks when you punch them. surely his actions causing everyone to fear and distrust him will not have any consequences in the future and his "friends" will never be asked if they trust him to which they will say No, shattering all of his hopes that he had the potential to grow and change and finally become a better person ! that would be unfortunate ! oh well !
#inanimate insanity#also obligatory olivia is a really good voice actress mention. i love you olivia#i dont wanna be a “oh this person turned out to be shitty so im gonna act like everything they did was actually bad” guy but#olivia voicing knife now just makes me go “damn. i wish he always sounded like this actually”
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Seeing a lot of people here on tumblr posting about how we should support Watcher and their dreams —
No.
They are a business, we are customers. We watched Ryan and Shane for Ryan and Shane. If they want to make absurdly expensive TV shows about other people, yes, that’s their right, and yes, good for them, but no, we’re not coming with them.
Good luck building up a whole new user base in a global economic crisis, fellas. 👍
#watcher#shane madej#ryan bergara#steven lim#buzzfeed unsolved#watcher tv#ghoul boys#Please remember Ryan and Shane are not your friends#This is closer to when Wendy’s tried to surge charge for everything than it is to a personal betrayal#It’s a bad move#It’s a shitty thing to do#And it SHOULD be called out#‘Cynimet you sound so bitter’#yeah man I got bills to pay#And unlike ryan shane and steven#I’m not a millionaire
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Lancelot: How have you been? I feel like you recently acted a bit... strange
Merlin: I have no idea what you're talking about
Lancelot: So nothing is happening? Something for which you act like this?
Merlin: No, no, a lot of things happen all the time so I have no idea what you mean by "recently"
#and give this man a break#Someone told me that Merlin sweats as if a bucket of water had been thrown over him#And I'm not surprised when this man goes from one pole to the other doing everything in Camelot#incorrect merlin quotes#incorrect quotes#humor#funny#sarcastic#bbc merlin#merthur#merlin emrys#ao3#merlin bbc#merlin#merlintv#the adventures of merlin#sir lancelot#amazing lancelot#lancelot du lac#the knights of the round table#camelot#arthurian#fandom#multifandom#reccs#writing#fic writers#txt.mine#shitty post#im bad at tags
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CHILDREN OF ABUSIVE/NEGLECTFUL PARENTS IN QLs (w/ various lyrics from "The Horror and the Wild" by The Amazing Devil) ♡ WE ARE - PHUM ♡ MOONLIGHT CHICKEN - HEART ♡ PIT BABE - KENTA ♡ NEVER LET ME GO - PALM ♡ THE HEART KILLERS - BISON & FADEL ♡ PERFECT 10 LINERS - YOTHA & FAIFA ♡ US - DOKRAK
#happy birthday to me! and an awful birthday to my father!#if you've ever been shitty to me about this subject or implied that i am taking everything in bad faith - i hope you have an awful day#to my fellow TAD fans yes i messed with the lyrics a bit and shuffled things about but what can ya do#we are the series#moonlight chicken#pit babe the series#never let me go#the heart killers#perfect 10 liners#us the series#phum tag#kenta tag#archer's gifs#Spotify
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Can you perhaps elaborate on the "Ganondorf should get to pummel Rauru"
As far as I'm recalling, we don't actually get that much of their issues in totk? We see leaders clashing, and then essentially Ganondorf kills Sonia and steals the secret stone, kicking off the imprisoning war. It's been a minute since I looked at the lore of totk (No Urbosa, so I'm nowhere near as invested as I am in botw) so I wouldn't be surprised if there's something big I missed, or even subtext I never picked up on
Sure! It's always very funny to me to receive the occasional ask like this, since I have been Renowned as a Rauru hater since release, but to briefly recap my perspective: I think Rauru was one self-conscious writing decision away from being the most compelling morally gray character in all of the Zelda canon, but unfortunately is heralded as being a near-perfect ruler (though even his imperfection is an extremely unclear and unexamined flaw that no character ever hold him accountable for --except for Ganondorf, and even what Ganondorf does call him out on is also unclear and also depends on translation because it wouldn't be a Zelda game otherwise) even though Rauru is mostly responsible, not only for his own problems, but also for everybody else's --including, crucially, Zelda's.
In a few words, he cannot be excused (like Zelda or Rhoam) by having to bear the weight of a kingdom for his poor decisions since, you know, he invented the damn thing (then of course maybe he would have to uphold the zonai legacy or something, and this is his motivation, but we don't know, since the game isn't interested in giving us this kind of information). His repeated invitations to the gerudos (and others but the gerudos are the only one not drinking the kool aid? which should be completely ok), being this new ruler of a brand new kingdom that didn't exist 5 minutes prior and yet feeling like he is somehow owed extreme levels of loyalty and devotion from everyone around him, being considered reasonable by the writing, is really baffling to me. Him dismissing Zelda's warnings (as tame as they are, which is just incomprehensible writing contrivences) even though he accepts that she does indeed come from the future, from a Hyrule ravaged by war, is crazy. Him running off to hunt and leave his priestess-wife in charge of the kingdom he founded on her lands while still speaking over her politically is.... sure a choice that was made in the writing. Him then choosing to warn Ganondorf that Link is a guy that exists and will kick his ass, is literally the reason why Link doesn't get the advantage and gets his arm destroyed. And then, in spite of all that, in spite of having the full picture, Rauru is vague and utterly unhelpful as a spirit while Link recovers, pondering that it's so sad that Constructs have to toil for all eternity for no purpose... :(
And like, yes Rauru, indeed Rauru, but maybe, just maybe, that should tell us something about how incredibly self-centered this goat-dragon-dude is --not realizing what he was imposing to his servants and people for his own leisure, in the name of his peace. I don't think he is evil, as in: he's not a cackling unsubtle and vapid caricature like Ganondorf is, but wow is this guy the most self-unaware and entitled character accidentally written in a game that fails to realize the absolute metric ton of red flags inserted in every single one of his scenes that I've... ever seen.
Again, if all of this was intentional, he would have been a masterful character. Maybe my favorite guy.
But the game destroying all other characters' interiority (and botw's worlbduilding) to tell this incredibly uncompelling tragedy about this super-cool perfect king and his series of completely avoidable failures... yeah, that really did not sit well with me at all.
Other posts about the topic that I've written previously:
A post about imperialism themes and aesthetics in TotK (I think it probably deserves an update with more specific historical examples)
A post about intent VS execution (especially re: good rulers and good kingdoms, and why this trope needs to be earned --contrasting TotK and EoW)
So yeah! Rauru. Weirdo guy. Compelling weirdo guy I think, but in a way the fandom really uhh disagrees with overall haha
#asks#rauru#totk critical#thanks for the ask!#so why should Ganondorf get to pummel him? because this guy wanted to just. absorb his kingdom. for no reason.#and wanted Ganondorf to be nice about it too somehow#(even tho totk masterworks --from what I've seen/remember/not fully canon-- claims the gerudo civilization was peaking back then)#I don't like Ganondorf's writing because imo it's cowardly writing#so flat and uncommited to any exploration it murders any theme any character arc and any tension#but *conceptually* I think Rauru just. deserves some uhhhh well-needed perspective. let's say#and tbh I think both Ganon and Zelda (and maybe even Sonia) should get to punch the goat-man for a bit#because wow did he ruin all of their lives (and more importantly: writing) for no discernable reason#a lot of it is just totk's writing being incredibly bad#but he is kind of the event horizon of it all#making everything else warp around him so much that both Zelda and Link become completely passive in the conflict of their own story#everybody sacrificing themselves for this guy's shitty kingdom and then re-establishing it forever and ever#and aren't we glad that happened
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*sigh* thoughts on Nintendo's botw/totk timeline shenanigans and tomfoolery?
tbh. my maybe-unpopular opinion is that the timeline is only important when a game's place on the timeline seriously informs the way their narrative progresses. the problem is that before botw we almost NEVER got games where it didn't matter. it matters for skyward sword because it's the beginning, and it matters for tp/ww/alttp (and their respective sequels) because the choices the hero of time makes explicitly inform the narrative of those games in one way or another. it matters which timeline we're in for those games because these cycles we're seeing are close enough to oot's cycle that they're still feeling the effects of his choices. botw, however, takes place at minimum 10 thousand years after oot, so its place on the timeline actually functionally means nothing. botw is completely divorced from the hero of time & his story, so what he does is a nonissue in the context of botw link and zelda's story. thus, which timeline botw happens in is a nonissue. honestly I kind of liked the idea that it happened in all of them. i think there's a cool idea of inevitability that can be played with there. but the point is that the timeline exists to enhance and fill in the lore of games that need it, and botw/totk don't really need it because the devs finally realized they could make a game without the hero of time in it.
#i really do have a love-hate relationship with this timeline#because it's FASCINATING lore. genuinely. and i think it carries over the themes of certain games REALLY well#but i also think it's indicative of a trend in loz's writing that has REALLY annoyed me for a long time#which is this intense need to cling to oot#and on a certain level i get it. that was your most successful game probably ever. and it was an AMAZING game.#and i think there's definitely some corporate profit maximization tied up in this too--oot was an insane commercial success therefore you'r#not allowed to make new games we need you to just remake oot forever and ever#and that really annoys me because it makes certain games feel disjointed at best and barely-coherent at worst.#i think the best zelda games on the market are the ones where the devs were allowed to really push what they were working with#oot. majora. botw. hell i'd even put minish cap in there#these are games that don't quite follow what was the standard zelda gameplay at their time of release. they were experimental in some way#whether that be with graphics or puzzle mechanics or open-world or the gameplay premise in its entirety. there's something NEW there#and because the devs of those games were given that level of freedom the gameplay really enforces the narrative. everything feels complete#and designed to work together. as opposed to gameplay that feels disjointed or fights against story beats. you know??#so I think that the willingness to allow botw and totk to exist independently from the timeline is good at the very least from a developmen#standpoint because it implies a willingness to. stop making shitty oot remakes and let developers do something interesting.#and yes i do very much fear that the next 20 years of zelda will be shitty BOTW remakes now#in which botw link appears and undergoes the most insane character assassination youve ever seen in your life#but im trying to be optimistic here. if botw/totk can exist outside the timeline then we may no longer be stuck in the remake death loop#and i'm taking eow as a good sign (so far) that we're out of the death loop!! because that game looks NOTHING like botw or oot.#fingers crossed!!#anyway sorry for the game dev rant but tldr timeline good except when it's bad#asks#zelda analysis
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fifty million years later and this is all i've been able to do so far, plus the maybe probably magnae accessio dress she wears (begrudgingly)
#rogue trader#my art#rogue trader crpg#marazhai aezyrraesh#yrliet lanaevyss#pasqal haneumann#i forgot im really bad at colouring#six + months of not drawing regularly or almost at all does not help#its been sort of discouraging and i have a love/hate relationship with how everything looks so far but it's been good practice#again might delete this later but i also didn't delete the other one so we'll just see how i feel about it later#also omg im sorry for my shitty handrwiting i forgot about taking that off but im too lazy to fix it rn
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So rewatching "The Fires of Idirsholes", I realized the reason why it seems Merlin was out of character in killing Morgana was that when I first watched it I assumed Merlin felt he had no choice and had done the deed reluctantly justifying it as the greater good while still caring about Morgana.
Rewatching it the second time, I realized that in Merlin's point of view based on what the Dragon had said, Morgana had willingly been involved in the sleeping curse, at least according to the Dragon. Merlin does not have the knowledge that we, the audience, have that Morgana is ignorant and innocent in what is happening to those around her, but you can tell based on her expressions she seems to have an inkling that it might have to do with her. Much of her expressions throughout the sleeping crisis when she is with Arthur and Merlin is not only full of fear and horror, but also guilt. Horror that she might have unwittingly agreed to be part of a plot to help destroy her home due to her admission to Morgause that she would do anything to take Uther down, and guilt because this was her fault.
Whether Merlin recognizes her expressions or not, I'm unsure, but the moment the Dragon reveals Morgana's part, he automatically believes her guilty. The next scene has him looking at her with both anger, disdain, and suspicion. He responds to Morgana's genuine words of gratefulness for his friendship with coldness. I think she can feel his coldness, hence why she opens up to him in order to win back his trust that she must have sensed she lost without recognizing why. Perhaps due to the belief that her magic is protecting her or the fact that she's the magical person in the room in her own eyes, she felt Merlin was blaming her? Idk. Though deep down Morgana probably agrees since it seems to me she was having suspicions that the reason she wasn't affected like the others was due to Morgause and the fact she agreed to help Morgause take down Uther which she seemed to be regretting.
Merlin also notably abandons her when a knight almost tries to kill her, possibly hoping the knight would do the deed instead of he.
All of this points out that Merlin killing Morgana wasn't out of character. The moment he heard she was the source of the sleeping curse, that she was involved, was the moment he decided she was his enemy and that she had to die. And he was willing to let that happen. Their prior friendship didn't matter anymore. She was now the deceitful wicked and dangerous witch Kilgarrah claimed her to be and a danger to his destiny.
The only thing about Morgana he seems to feel is regret. In the end, when he was holding her as she was choking, he looked grief-stricken but also angry. I think he felt betrayed by Morgana for her actions and what she forced him to do but also sad and regretful that he had to kill someone he felt was similar to him. Someone who was once his friend.
Anyway, I guess that's why he never apologizes. In his mind, it was never his fault. She forced him to do it. He had no choice.
#their relationship is so angsty#honestly part of the reason I want Mergana is just so he could realize what he did wrong#that he jumped to conclusions#and for him to stop relying on Kilgarrah all the fucking time!#like think for yourself Merlin#show some fucking independence#and stop making everything about your stupid destiny#guy's just looking for glory#like i really want him to feel bad and shitty for what he did to Morgana#that scene was hard to watch#he deserves a cold shoulder#and no way does he have the right to act self-rightous#season 3 will be hard to watch#merlin#morgan le fay#mergana#bbc merlin#morgana#arthur pendragon
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I bring a sort of "flawed female characters can be fun and enjoyable blorbos - both flawed in terms of having character flaws and in terms of having occasionally flawed writing" that it appears many, many, many people do not like
#i'm sorry for all the annoyance lately. i've been tired.#and a lot of the media i'm enjoying right now has focal female characters so i'm seeing the most absolute stupid takes of all time#anyways. cyan did have a character arc actually and her arc's flaws are largely similar to my criticisms of lin ling and yang cheng's arcs#so i don't appreciate the double standard#tianxi is just as interesting as tianchen if you actually read into her character the way one would for any underdeveloped male character#we don't even know anything about shao yuanyuan yet either why does everyone shit on her. i mean i get it i'm unimpressed with#her leaving her son behind - that is undeniably shitty. but there are so many who just don't want to see anything more of her. why???#yes wang qing got less screentime and marketing than hhh. but we actually have just as much if not more concrete info about her#than we do for any of those three. why is it that i mostly just see people complaining about her lack of screentime instead of#making five million headcanons for her the way hhh gets? :/#and like. all the arcane female characters. i'll admit i never did get as attached to caitlyn as i wanted to. but man.#i don't make arcane posts or interact with the fandom for a reason. the only female characters people seem to like are jinx and isha#mel has been done a great disservice in fandom imo. she is wayyy more interesting than just being beautiful.#and mizi is not a manipulator. wtf is your problem#i legitimately have no idea what kind of female character it would take to actually be considered good.#people want flaws but then completely misinterpret her. bad character writing means she's bad female rep.#it doesn't matter that people would lovingly take a guy with mediocre writing and give him a better arc. she's just “boring”#a male character can have the same internal conflict as a female character and everything about how she treats it is wrong.#writers then “play it safe” by giving their female characters external problems to overcome instead of internal ones#thus making her... “boring”. again.#same general issue applies to any character with a slightly darker skin tone too. doubly so for darker skinned women.#anyways. i am really scared for queen's arc honestly. i've already seen people being more excited for X than her#and shitting on her for being a “nepo baby” (???)#meanwhile i am concerned that they are going to play it too safe with her writing thus making her “strong woman” whose problems are#all external#that most of her drive will be related to the two older men in her life with no nuance (i'm hoping not but this is always a fear)#or that they will delve into a messier internal conflict and everyone is going to hate her except for the handful of people who#actually have a baseline understanding of women's issues. lmao.#liu yuwei get behind me.#storyrambles
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Who the fuck is paying for a subscription service for one YouTube channel in this economy Jesus Christ
#watcher#i hate it here soooo fucking bad.. insanely doomed#deleting everything theyve put out to feels actually insanely shitty they genuinely have no basis on that one
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rick bringing percy and annabeth back in cameos just to consistently shit on their characters is enough to ruin my mood for at least a week
#the tone his books carry with percy and annabeth being made to feel guilty for being shitty forgetful friends will never not be BULLSHIT#esp when you need to create literal plot holes to do it. bob is not supposed to exist after the events of hoh#or even if you forgot that little detail (what are editors for again?) he shouldn't have regenerated that fast#and even if we ignore all of that#why the fuck would percy and annabeth be able to do anything in the first place? how and why would they jump back into the pit#like stop taking these characters out of their own series just to include a cheap ooc cameo scene with them that does#absolutely nothing for the plot and adds nothing to their characters#except you know ... make them look and feel bad for shit they shouldn't#using nico to do this as well is just so ... leaves a bad taste in my mouth quite frankly#like nico literally killed bryce and let octavian kill himself or wtv bc he /understands/ that there are some things u cant prevent#and saving your friends lives in times of literal war is .. what anyone else would do#so like ??? leave these characters ALONE jfc#and the fun part is there is plenty there to use for emotional tension with nico and percy specifically#you dont need a contrived out-of-character moment with percy bob annabeth and nico when u already have#the events of the first 5 books which.. nico and percy never really talk about after the war#not that they need to talk about it but if u needed to give nico something to reflect on about percy's flawed moments#there's all of pjo to pick from. bc wrapping up everything theyve been through and felt bc of the other the way rick did in boo#is also bullshit. if you were going to bring percy back at least give us a more fleshed out scene between the two#it was such a wasted opportunity that was spent on making percy and annabeth look bad instead lmao#and i will never not be angry about it#it would have made the scene where nico is looking at percy in a new light after realizing how much he carried in tlo hold more weight#both in a literal and metaphorical sense bc yeah percy was carrying a lot! so to have nico who put him on a pedestal and watched him fall#have a moment of reflection would have been way more meaningful if rick hadnt just shit on his character a few pages ago lmfao#rr crit#cin's txt.
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thumbs 'n reference sheet for this--i started to give up on Porky by the end of the ref because looking at him too long was making me laugh at how dumb and frumpy he looks next to Petunia. which is the entire point!
#that's why her hair has highlights in the comic but his doesn't to sort of make it look more like a cheap shitty wig LMAO#and i originally wasnt gonna have Porky do a wig take but a) it;s funny and energetic b) it's a nod to Eatin on the Cuff with the black#widow and c) more effectively sells the 'after' where everything falls to shit#so the one panel where you see the wig price tag and nothing else was gonna originally be my only acknowledgement of that#but i kept it in anyway even with the take because it's funny to me LOL#i've had 3 people mistake Porky for Petunia so far 🥲 i wasn't even gonna give her eyelashes at first#i incorporated her bow motif to her cape but unfortunately the physicality of the posing didn't really give that away/you only know by#looking at the ref#im not often proud of my art but i really like this comic since i got to combine so many of my favorites into one#pig(s) snd duck. TDTEBU. (original) Snow White. illustrative pieces. stupid out there humor. energetic expressive drawings. softer drawing#and of course making Porky's life miserable sorry Porky#NEWAY thought this'd be interesting since i never draw ref sheets for my art outside of work#i shoulda kept the crying Daffy in the one panel .. damn#tdtebu#not bad for a guy that never took a lesson in his life!#lt
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game dev is such an alluring thing to try to do bc its a kind of media that allows for such an active and direct way to interact with others like most things just dont
im still dreaming of trying it every now and again but, among my other problems, i run into the more unique problem of .. not knowing or not wanting to start bc i cant find tutorials that teach me about how i structure code, where do i begin, where does a script go, what makes sense to seperate into its own piece of code and what should stay together, what do i do first?? i have found ones that teach you about single things but never really how to structure it all, how it should look like as a whole, and idk what mental wall i run into but i need to know before i can even try!! its the not knowing where to start that keeps blocking me bc i dont want to make a mess, i am very chaotic and code is something hard to get right and hard to untangle so i dont want to just .. do stuff that wont work
#ganondoodles talks#personal#also if anything id want to use godot since that is an open source engine but its even harder to find anything there#maybe im not lookign at the right things#................ if could write well i could at least write some things while i cant draw#but i cant seem to be able to do anything but waste away and its infuriating#my writings gotten just as bad and messy as my art and im just#so fucking sick of it all#cant i just work for once- cant i just be functional for ONCE cant i just FUCKING enjoy doing things again for ONCE in months#im promising you im trying so hard to let go of all pressure but it just wont work regardless#i just keep doing very wrong looking shitty sketches of a vague horse shape and even that is like BOOM battery out goodnight#hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#when i do pixel art i start to think about coding and how to make thigns work and what is even possible to make at all#then wondering if any effort put inot it is even worth it if its not doable for me or at all#when i listen to toby foxs music i want to try it so bad too but im a noob at everything#if i cant put in the effort to DRAW -somethign i have been doing sicne being able to hold a pencil- then how can i learn literally anything#i know brains need new stuff and need to learn new things but i am so incapable of even trying even though i want to#its that god dman clash of two sides- unlimited passion and need and want and an absolute blockage of fearing to waste time#i probably suck at everything i want to try but how will i know if i dont try it seriously at least a few times im hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhrrrr
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#another test#what a shitty week ffs#let me go#shake it out#ceremonials#i know it looks bad i will create a gifset#i just. had a terrible week#a shitty friday too#i hate when your mood is good and everything is fine and then BAM someone comes and ruins it#florence and the machine#florence welch#fatm#arosetolivefor#my florence
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but for real i love adventure time bc in the face of shitty family members that are also space war criminals, most kids show protags would be all "guys lets not fight... we're family! we can be friends! peace and love!" but finn is like "im going to personally rip off my dads arm because i hate him"
#not that its healthy and im glad he didnt actually do it (for the sake of his own mental state)#the choice to not rip his dads arm off is abt his own mental health not any sort of greater good or whatever#but im also glad the shitty parent conflict wasnt resolved by everything just being pushed under the rug#it sort of just ended with. okay fine. i cant change you so just be out of my life forever now#tho it is also tragic bc martin wasnt always a bad guy... hes sort of a victim of circumstance too#but that doesnt really matter as far as finn's journey is concerned#adventure time
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