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courfee · 1 year ago

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“Regulus would be proud of us,” James whispered quietly to no one in particular, still gripping onto the painting like a life raft.

— Tender Curiosities, Baby! @otrtbs

#tender curiosities baby #art heist baby #james potter fanart #james potter #jegulus #rosekiller #rosekiller fanart #marauders #marauders fanart #evan rosier #barty crouch jr #jegulus fanart #jegulus fanfiction #fic: ahb #art heist baby!#mine #my art #hp #ahb #ive thought about this scene for so long it just took me forever to draw cause once again the anatomy of cars is the bane of my existence #like originally i wanted evan and barty holding hands to be visible to have the contrast of sad lonely james and sad not lonely rosekiller #but alas cars wont allow it #ahb just still has my entire heart you dont get it #i have a none blurry rosekiller and a just james in front of blue with stars version of this but i think ill only put them on insta...#(sneaky end notes: i do have to admit i am not too pleased with evan and barty but this was my first time drawing them)#(so i couldnt figure it out quite yet hency why they look a little. less efforty...)#(also the snake ring is the same design that i drew for chapter 34 of ahb in my little chapter illustrations for my typeset)#((nvm i just checked back and i am fully lying here i used a different one for my typeset and now im vaguely upset oops)#(i shouldnt make decisions only half awake im going to think about this for too long now i am sad))#((like suddenly i was like. hold up. i had a different design there didnt i... it was an open ring goddamnit))

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meownotgood · 7 months ago

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nobody look at me nobody talk to me im. I'M REALLY NOT OKAY....

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notannascribbles · 4 months ago

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i sort of feel like the longer this show goes on the more i will grow in indifference toward it and then at some point things will shift and i’ll be able to enjoy it again but from like a detached horror-appreciating perspective because i don’t love the characters how i used to anymore and i no longer feel invested in them being good and okay

#like i used to feel very emotionally invested in adrien and marinette’s relationship #and i used to get a lot of joy out of seeing them together #i don’t really anymore because of the direction that the show has taken #and i think if it keeps going on like this i’ll eventually get to a point where i can just view them indifferently as characters #and at that point i’ll be able to enjoy the admittedly interesting horrifying thing they’ve got going on #right now it just feels too sad to do that bc i miss loving them so much #but much more of this and maybe i’ll be over it and then i can just watch the show as a show #and appreciate the horrifying scenarios #and recognize that it is truly Not That Deep #sorry for the melodrama i feel like miraculous ladybug broke up with me suddenly in the s5 finale and ive been coping.#i really DO find complicated horrifying stories interesting. i just never wanted that for adrien and marinette. yknow #i wanted them to have a good ending #i wanted them to love each other #i never expected that it would turn out like this #again!!! sorry for the melodrama. unfortunately i am just melodramatic #i will keep drawing pictures don’t worry

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kameyyy · 5 months ago

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I was just mentally writing a tumblr post abt how I need that iphone asap so I can preview a chat when I don't wanna answer (if I archived them I don't get notifications) and then I was like — wait.. I don't have read-reciepts on, they won't know I read their messages 😭😭😭

#driving school teacher texted me and I am doing NAWT ok #especially since this whole test thing his getting closer #drivers licenses are so incredibly expensive in germany guys most people pay 3K on average #and basically everyone fails the first driving test because it's difficult URGHHH #i successfully ignored I'm getting my license for like a month now why is he texting me #can't i just keep avoiding life and everything important #lately struggling a lot with the future again which is NOT great but SO great for my atsumu fic passion #i thought to myself a few weeks ago “i know what I wanna do now it's lowkey hard to channel that existential dread energy for yn”#well and god was like “i gotchu babygirl”#and suddenly my anxiety and fear and sadness is back like never before #and i keep getting content about life milestones or things I need to take care of for thing a and b #thing a; video - drivers license is getting even harder now in 2025 so I should hurry #thing b; video - college/university things and taxes and retirement stuff #like wow thanks for telling me this this is actually REALLY useful but this is also lowkey giving me a panic attack so no I won't like nor #save this video because I don't want this stuff on my fyp #i wanna keep practicing escapism otherwise I might breakdown #ok anyway #so this is really helpful for my fic ! yay !#😆#😶#the voices are speaking

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dilf-luvr-4evr · 1 month ago

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I must be fucking crazy because I’m thinking of moving out and the thing that made me go “wait” wasn’t my family or my money but the fact that I won’t be able to see Arthur on my brother’s computer anymore 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀

#crazy #why am I like this Lord help me #suddenly made me so sad to not be able to play RDR2 again #GODDD I NEED THERAPY OR SMTH

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ryllen · 2 years ago

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"Bran is practically my brother's cat" - is what i would like to think

#astral chain #astralchain #akira howard #platinum games #cat #fanart #i didn't write it on the tag back then #but what i was thinking when i made that past piece was him reflecting how it would be if he lost both her father and sister #he would truly be alone so on his free time he just spent time sitting beside that window mindlessly while thinking what could have been #like his sister could have knocked the door and come in any moment now #his father would came in with warm take outs for them to eat there #but then i just read recently that the sister he has in the end was one of the clone with memories planted by dr. brenda #and then suddenly i am sad again :'^\#i thought it was just one of her magically left out & appeared somewhere & have the noah memory fragments lost #but now i thought of it as when akira was heading back he found one of the pod was still unopened #and so they took her in #it makes much more sense but then it makes me think of how much a fake replacement she is now #i wonder if it's kinda painful for him to look at her now #knowing the original one who went through all that things with him is truly gone #and this one just starts things with him without actually did all those things with him before #just by getting some memories handed to her #me: i wish there are more astral chain fanarts #astral chain: *being the game that has characters with difficult attributes & legions to draw*#i find guys with this kind of haircut is cute #♡

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nixie-deangel · 7 months ago

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🐺, 😭, 🍼, 🤠

🐺 shifter au - hangster

He feels himself relax at the huff of laughter the man lets out in response to his flirting. “You always this forward?” the stranger asks, head dipping to put their faces closer to one another. “Only when I see somethin’ I wanna make mine,” Jake answers in a sultry drawl.

😭 jake doesn't deal with bradley's death - hangster

Was he ready for this? Was he truly ready to read all the thoughts and feelings Bradley hadn’t bothered to share with him? Did he really want to see if any of his worst fears would be confirmed by Bradley himself, from beyond the grave?

🍼 non navy bradley/fighter pilot jake as parents - hangster

Bradley feels tension leaving his body as he listens to Jake laughing at the ridiculousness of his sisters. Closing his eyes, he basks in the sound of it. The warmth he can feel spreading in his chest at knowing Jake was whole and hale and happy, even if he was almost half a world away for another few weeks before he would be coming home.

🤠 music producer Bradley x rancher Jake

He feels absolutely struck dumb as he takes in the man holding a sign with ‘BradBrad’ scrawled across it in a messy cursive. There had to be some sort of mix up, because there is no way in hell that is meant for him. Fuck, were Nat and Javy really trying to kill him?

Make Nixie Write!

#anonymous #make nixie write #sereshaw #hangster #ask nixie things #shifter au #bradley and jake first meeting #before they go on the rollercoaster of a ride to get their happy ending #jake not doing okay with bradley's death #jake is absolutely not doing good here but I SWEAR there will be a happy ending.#because I AM a little baby and can't do unhappy or sad endings #speedrun hangster girl dad's #bradley just needs to know jake is okay and happy and he's suddenly whole and happy again himself and not only halfway thanks to the kids #rancher music life #bradley is about to be so stupid over a blond man y'all #just an absolutely idiot over a blond cowboy

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fareehaandspaniards · 8 months ago

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Discord was officially banned in Russia, but it's not all bad - a great many people is against that, and some politicians as well. And this blocking happened in a very strange way, which I won't write and tell you something about, because I feel uncomfortable talking about something like this on the internet.

Maybe they'll give us that messenger back. I literally can't talk to my friends now and I'm afraid of losing contact with Tumblr as well. But don't get ahead, I'm sure everything willb fine. So if your Russian-speaking friends on discord haven't written you anything today, they just can't do it. Let's save each other's contacts for some emergencies, as Fantomette well suggested - at least email

UPD. IT'S ALSO IMPORTANT THAT WE MAY STILL USE IT by opening it in browser, but we need VPN (but they sometimes stop working)

#personal stuff #no comments lmao #I feel so frustrated rn #Not only becayse of this but also but also at work I suddenly started feeling sick and like like I'm gonna throw up #Now I am hungry sad and overwhelmed #UPD since I found working VPN and opened Discord again I am not so sad and overwhelmed #and not very hungry thanks to hubbo

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oldcurse · 2 months ago

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Having a relapse moment

#I was in the car on Tuesday being a nice and good person minding my own business listening to Icarus falls #then the album ended and it was playing lucky again so I continued my enjoyment but then! it started playing some Tate McRae song and idk wh #who that is so I skipped #and then I kept skipping and obv it’s on shuffle so it’s playing like random artists and suddenly it goes to stockholm syndrome…..#and oh did I listen and enjoy that song. so much that I started listening to made in the am and I was like oh I’ll just listen to A.M. the s #song and that’s it nothing more 🙅🏽‍♀️#obviously that’s not what happened and I’ve spent the last two days with that album on repeat and I do have some thoughts to share #I started with end of the day which I know I love and it brought me back to the days of working at speedway and it was just a nostalgia mome #moment but anyway right after that I started listening to iicf and good god what a snooze fest I made it ten seconds in and skipped and it m #made me so thankful to not be a larrie anymore bc I was pretending to like that song anyway #then I skipped long way down and then we get to the best part of the album which is never enough Olivia and queen herself what a feeling #and that is what the relapse is all about #what a feeling #I don’t think anyone received this song the way I received it I just cannot explain the things this song has done and continues to do to me #describe like I feel true happiness even now when I listen to that song #anyways now I’m going through the album and I think hey Angel the leaked version was so much better than what we have on the album and I do #remember being annoyed about that but then I heard what a feeling and it’s literally like Xanax to me so i didn’t gaf anymore #anyways also Olivia the song I’m annoyed that it got associated with Harry when Liam and Louis carrrrieeeeed that song all Harry does is the #chorus where there’s a bunch of music covering up his voice anyway so like??#idk why everyone was like this is Harry’s song it’s not lol #also drag me down sad excuse for a high note Harry does lmao I have to laugh it’s so embarrassing he really thot he could match zayn and we #all just let him and look at what we have now #ok I think that’s all my thoughts I just really needed to dump these somewhere #chhapa #also OH Louis in history literally made that song what it it’s so boring otherwise #it took me so long to memorize his solo but it’s sick mini bars and hotel rooms and good champagne and private planes but we don’t need #anything coz the truth is out I realize that without you here life is just a lie this is not the end we can make it you know it you know #I believed it because I think he did too 😔

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mochi-kitty · 3 months ago

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Someone sent a fic prompt request to my old Dr. Stone ao3 and idk how to tell this poor soul that I don’t actually write or even engage with the fandom anymore because somewhere out there is my ex-partner who will crack me in the knees emotionally (again) if they find this acc

#I am so goddamn lonely and tired #this poor person unlocked a Pandora’s box of emotions and have no idea’’ at this point I’m not even sure I can answer them #i talked to a lot of people during my d/r s/tone writing arc and I kind of feel bad for suddenly dropping off the face of the earth but I ca #one message to this acc from them and I’d be falling to me knees in forgiveness #which no they cheated on me and were so toxic by the end of our relationship but MAN DO I MISS OUR CONVERSATIONS YKNOW #‘I want to be friends again’ STFU I CANT HEAR IT AGAIN ESPECIALLY DURING MY DARK DAYS #I am weak bitch who can and will get steamrolled again but not this time! I refuse to yield #I still get comments and the new season releases make it all the more sad to me #I haven’t watched the show past the third seasons first episode #I’ve pretty much abandoned my old ao3 acc and made a new one so there’s about 90 comments I haven’t replied to #the small audience I had didn’t deserve that #mochi rants

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huginsmemory · 3 months ago

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Where's that one Ford art post thats like I'm in the best years of my life clutching a hot pink thermos thingy with hot gurl juice when he's clearly not. cause damn . Yeah

#ive got it actually downloaded on my phone. so dont actually need it forwarded to me. but also #christ man what day. what a life. what am i doing man. im so exhausted. trying to figure out my masters. which like. UGH first pushed to #do things and then im like oh okay yeah makes sense ill do it and then suddenly people are like a YEAR LATER wait what do u actually want.#like. idk man i do enjoy what im doing and enjoying myself. but also fuck im tired. but also i would be excited to do further work on what #im doing. like. i get my aunt dying recently has suddenly all my other aunts reassesing their lives but its just like. yeah and now suddenly #youre reluctant about the shit youve pushed on me huh #and CHRIST the stress of figuring how the dynamics work since everythings changed up here and ive gotta move AGAIN #and the oma needing to be medivac'd out today like fuck man. and then i fucking went to craft night and started weavibg a basket #like. what the fuck man. and then finished two typesets.#ughhhhhh. and was like damn i needed to make those hours for work today but whatever i guess. tomorrow it is #me w my sad little micky of liquor and my laptop for typesetting and antique roadshow on in the background trying to relax #omas probably fine but CHRIST last i was in they were like shes fucking dying. okay wait shes a little better no one else is in can u #look after her. horribly stressful #yeah. sure. prime of my life. to stress out about everything.#hugin personal #had a breif moment sitting on my bed where everything dropped away and i was like damn what the fuck am i doing. what is going on.#how am i still moving. anyways. i think i need a vacation #its fine its just been a long few months and things keep piling up and im supposed to be making importnat life decisions and i feel like an #impaled beastie on a fork writhing around. AND im not home so i dont got my snuggly boy to cuddle. i just need some sleep i think #the prof i was thinking of supervising me seemed super nice... and talking to stydent this week also where nice and only had nice things #to say. idk man also been thinking this week about growing up and never having your work being acknowledged. its just why havent you not #done that. like. damn. dont think i can recall my dad every saying im proud of you. ughhh some ways good to be out of the house since dads #stressful af to be around and the parents still arent sure about maybe getting a divorce but its also awkward af dynamics here #the rents seem fine for the most part but yeesh. the fall was not good. also i miss my boyyyyyy #anyways. yeah classic NDN thing of your life being fucking run by your aunties somehow work wise #also being asked point blank what i want was like fuck man. what do i want. can u just leave me alone to do hobbies actually...#jk i do enjoy my job. i love research tbh. coordinating stuff less so but it do be a part of it #ok well. whoops rambles on here wayyy more then was expecting

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chieana · 10 months ago

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I am so tired that every time I find some joy in something, the fucking masses decide it's the worst thing ever actually and my entire dash goes to shit, bashing the thing I enjoy.

Can we just focus on the things we like for once, and not bitch and whine about all the things we hate??? Stop forcing all this negativity into the world, please.

#vent #fandom #negativity #I am so tired #I try so hard to stay positive #but then the people who were so cool and nice suddenly decide that it's time to be negative pricks #and inadvertedly they criticise me for my tastes #it's the whole fucking bullying bullshit all over again #where the fuck did everyone's sense of maturity and empathy go #fucking hell man #it's not fucking easy to find enjoyment in things for me with my depression and the sad state my life is in right now #and it's so hard to not fall into the dark thoughts when everyone else decides that the thing I like is terrible actually #way to make me feel like the freak again #I am not strong enough for this right now #ugh

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femmefaggot · 4 months ago

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? hello my loves ?

#bloodletting #oh despite the fact that we are sad suddenly i am here and things are dire however they have been before #IT HAS BEEN A TIME!#this is not a long term sign of anything unfortunately i fear this will be rather fleeting.#i can still feel others very much #I will give anyone one guess!#i am the only one that talks like this however i also fault no one for not knowing this is a game to me #goodbye for now dears if we do not speak again #we feel stilted in too many ways still /':#i feel a second to breathe though.#perhaps before we get forcibly shoved underwater again but a breath nonetheless #why is this almost an exact year cycle my god has it been a year ?

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twistedwonderlandshenanigans · 4 months ago

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tag vent time