#and we know he doesnt admit to crying often

[curseddollfaye]

boy, I can't wait to get next to you

“Giving you true love in abundance, uh-huh. Giving and taking because we're not a fling. Giving me faith that it's not another”

toxic baby daddy toji! x reader NSFW headcanon

ᥫ᭡ MINORS DO NOT INTERACT! ty! please let me know what you think! ^.^ requests are currently open!! ᥫ᭡

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- Firstly, we have to talk about what’s under those sweat pants…

- Happy trail for days, thick thighs for days, back muscles that make you wanna mark him all up. He’s 7 inches soft and I would say 9 inches when he’s fully hard (he be all up in your guts to say the least)

- pink tip, veiny underside, you struggle to take him all into your mouth whenever you give him head. Often having to stroke what doesn’t fit or sometimes when you both are feeling it he’ll shove the rest of it in your mouth; muttering a soft

- “Don’t worry slut, I’ll make it fit. I always do don’t it?”

- He’s a dominate and would never let you sub (again, but that’s a story for another time ;) not that you would want to but Toji is just NOT submissive at all.

- his hands are on of your personal favorites. Apart from the looks of course. If he’s not sex on legs then you don’t know what.

- but you don’t miss the way the cashier from the grocery store slammed your eggs into the plastic bag whenever she saw you checking out with him happy at your trail…he knows he’s good looking too! which doesn’t help much when you’re green with jealously every once in a while

- Toji is 6’1 as established, he towers over you and you can admit proudly that you’ve always had a thing for big beefy men.

- SLUTTY LITTLE WAIST

- He was all muscle, obviously Toji likes working out! He likes lifting weights the most.

- you ask him to skip his morning gym session to lay with you he responds with a sly

- “Baby did you not see the way I was picking up up and fucking you last night? Daddy needs to be strong for his pretty slut”

- doesnt end up going to the gym and lays with you instead because you always get your way

- is very experienced! DUH

- Toji was a known bachelor. Before you he was with many women. He takes pride in knowing that he can satisfy a woman. Especially and strictly when that woman is you.

- Has mastered how to eat your pussy out until you’re gripping his head and crying out

- HE IS A MUNCH!!!!!

- Loves eating your pussy , breakfast , lunch and dinner. He’s not the slightest bit ashamed of it. Watching you quiver him and shake from the pleasure he was giving you did all sort of shit to his cock

- generous lover through and through. Your pleasure always comes first to him

- You will never forget on your first anniversary when he had you spread on the bed.

- Somewhere in Greece

-Thong shoved to the side and he really gave no fucks who was hearing from underneath the balcony

- the bastard had left the balcony doors open..which you hadn’t minded at first. Thinking it was innocent as the sun set and the soft breeze whipped through the silky lace curtains…

- “Gonna show everyone who this pussy belongs to, who makes you cry from how hard you get fucked…you’d like that wouldn’t you?” Toji had chuckled. Holding your legs apart and occasionally letting his hands wonder to grip your tits. The sounds of him sucking your clit into his lips and slurping all your juices into his mouth while groaning from your taste.

- you honestly were so lost in pleasure before you knew it he had manhandled you into the mating press and you were being fucked like you sinned

- LETS TALK KINKS!!

- No secret he had a breeding kink

- Lets be real it took you two year to have this man’s baby which you gladly did!

- Many nights were he’s had you with your legs to your chest while his cock drives in and out of you in a punishing pace. A white ring forming spring his base as your grip his forearms for some stability. Your creamy cunt squeezing him in so well.

- How could he not come inside you? And he does so with filthy words leaving his pretty lips

- “Mmm yeah you dirty fucking bitch take my cum. I’m gonna make sure it catches so you won’t think about leaving me ever again”

- “You want my babies? You think you’ve earned this fucking load? Come for me again and I’ll think about if you deserve it or not”

- “Gonna put my fucking baby into you so everyone remembers who you belong to, ohhh fuck…ahaha….m’gonna make your tummy so round for me. Making those fucking tits leak milk for our baby”

- he’s a big fan of titties

- but one thing Toji truly can’t get enough of is your ass

- worships it as if it’s his personal sanctuary

- you ALWAYS have marks on your cheeks from his bitting and nibbling whenever you two fuck

- because of this one of his personal positions is doggy, this man needs to hit it from the back

- eyes wandering down to watch your sss smack against his pelvis as he grins your hips and sets the pace for you both.

- has definitely pulled out mid stroke and buried his face into your soft pussy lips. gripping them fat of you ass cheeks back while his tongue wildly explored your wet cunt.

- you can only gasp and let out a pornographic moan as your eyes roll to the back of your skull “t-toji…daddy…ahhh!”

- loved LOVES coming inside you, but painting your ass with his white pearly cum is a bonus too

- also cumming on your face

- Toji makes you feel like the most beautiful woman in the world, and it’s because he knows you are. He knows men are lined up ready to be with you. Who wouldn’t!! Your a man’s dream and Toji has it in his head that every man that looks your way wants you

- It honestly offends him

- Which is why he always throughly enjoys coming on your face

- His hand moving quick against his cock, red tip leaking pre- cum begging for release, his other hand petting your hair, moving your hair from your face. His thumb slipping into your mouth. Warm muscles wrapping around his digit. You looked so innocent yet so fucking dirty at the same time. Your eyelashes fluttering against your tinted cheeks. His eyes wandering down to look at your plump lips. His thumb fully engulfed as your tongue swirls around it. Your start bobbing your head, mimicking you ducking his cock and his pace around himself starts to stutter.

- Toji swears he’s about to have a heart attack when he wants you tug your tank top down letting your tits spill out for him

- he cums on your face

- Is into taking pictures and photos of you, he keeps them safely in a password and Face ID locked folder on his phone

- is obsessed when you send him pictures while he’s away on business trips or conferences

- One time he had been gone for two full weeks, scheduled to fly back the next day.

- Toji’s had a glass shot glass up to his scarred lip, tossing it back, basking the feeling of success and new beginnings for him. He knew the deal would go off without a hitch. He was Toji Fushiguro after all, he didn’t waste his time.

- A light buzz caught his attention

- His green eyes peered up from his associate , who was happily chatting with one of the investors who was already sold on the idea of investing in Toji’s new expansion of nightclubs in Kabukicho. Japan’s vast nightclub, bars, and restaurant district.

- Picking up his phone Toji smiled at the name

- pretty girl

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- Typing in his password he opened up his messages, his jaw fell slack.

- A 15 second long video of you, your hands playing with your boobs as you sat back in the jacuzzi that he knew too well

- he had it put in your master bathroom shortly after you broke it off, he heard you saying something about being nice to have one to relax your muscles in. he had the money so, why not?

- His finger hovered over the play button, but not before quickly putting the volume all the way down and looked around to make sure no one was in near proximity

- we all know this man is possessive as fuck, doesn’t give two shits that you two are not together because according to Toji

- “tch….Technicalities baby…” he muttered to you when you remind him of the very (annoying) fact.

- his breath hitches when he presses play. Your hair is up, a few strands falling in front of your eyes, soapy tits come into view. Your fingers playing with the soft flesh.

- Toji at that point couldn’t be more jealous of soap bubbles in his life.

- He shivers and feels his pants tighten against his skin.

- The video ends with your smirk on your plump lips. Eyes saying ‘fuck me’ and of course he would if he was there.

- Toji mutters grumpily at your teasing, angry he couldn’t be at home giving you what you desperately need.

- His girl needs to be fucked and he’s away in another country , what an inconvenience for the both of you

- he quickly types a response before getting up to say goodbye to his brand new investors and excuse himself back to the hotel room.

- ‘naughty girl, you better be ready for me by the time I get back to my room or else you don’t come at all tomorrow when I get there’

- Although Toji is a very dominate man, he’s also the softest man for you. You bask it in, and sometimes you never want to let it go. Whenever he’s making love to you on the bed. Passionate sex filled with words of promise and sorrys. Toji lets himself melt into you as you moan into his shoulder while he whispers the sweetest words to you. It often leaves you wondering if you would ever find a man that was willing to give you as much as him.

- it scared the shit out of you.

- “oh fuck baby…babybaby…mmm….mean so much to me. Fuck ‘yer so perfect”

- “Cant ever be with another woman, you’re the only one of me beautiful…You’re the only one for me. This sweet pussy was made for me, takes me so well.”

- “I love you so much beautiful”

[bestruction]

i was the previous anon who asked about requests :D for sasuke i actually have a few ideas... so we know sasuke is like pretty stoic and traumatized so i was thinking of surprising him with a kitten to soften him up because i feel like he would fold and find it so cute even if he doesnt want to admit it and they r just playing with the kitten and its climbing on sasuke and just fluff, i really love the idea of gentle sasuke bc it gives me sm comfort :) i was also thinking of an au idea, i saw someone say they imagine the uchihas as asylum patients in a modern au bc of how insane and traumatizing their lives were and i was thinking of a oneshot or something of being sasukes nurse and slowly falling in love, it doesnt have to be a modern au though because i feel like a mental institution in the naruto universe isnt too unrealistic of an idea right? thank u for reading :) im going through a bad time rn and ur work has been so comforting

Hello there ❤️ I hope life is treating you better, and it made me genuinely happy to read that you find comfort in my stories. Thank you for sharing that with me.

I love both of your ideas! But for tonight, I'm picking Sasuke with a kitten one. I have a soft spot for kitties and him. It's a deadly combination to my mind and also, I loooove to explore how gentle he is although he is emotionally constipated.

Sasuke and kitty

You brought a kitty home, and he was very against it at first. You two barely had time for yourselves between missions and fixing the things in the Uchiha district. A pet isn't just cute. It's more responsibility but when he saw you crying? Big eyes saying you couldn't just leave the cat alone after bringing him home and giving them hope? He couldn't bring himself to say no.

So he agreed to keep the little animal under one condition: he was entirely your responsibility. Food, vet visits, training, playing, cleaning after...All you (he was actually trying to make you give up but it didn't work).

Weeks passed. True to his word, Sasuke did not lift a finger. He even named it "Trouble" ;-; He barely looked in Trouble’s direction, acting as if the tiny creature didn’t exist in the household. But you saw the way he paused in the mornings when the kitten curled up in the window. How he left his office door cracked open just enough for a curious nose to sneak in.

One evening, you came home early from a mission. The house was quiet, the kind of peace that hinted someone had already settled in for the night.

You stepped silently down the hallway and paused just at the corner of the sitting room.

Sasuke was on the floor.

Trouble sat on his chest, tiny paws kneading gently into his shirt, purring like a tiny engine. Sasuke’s hands, so often weapons of precision and destruction, were now playfully nudging a little ball of yarn the cat was batting back at him.

He didn’t even look annoyed.

No, he was… smiling.

The soft kind. The kind no one ever saw.

Trouble crawled up and bopped Sasuke’s cheek with a paw. Sasuke let out a barely audible chuckle—a chuckle—and murmured, “You're a menace, just like her"

Your heart melted on the spot.

Of course, the moment he noticed you, his entire body stiffened. He carefully lifted the kitten off him and sat up as if you hadn’t just caught him.

“You’re home early.”

“Mmhmm.” You leaned on the doorway, trying to hide your grin. “You and Trouble seem to be getting along.”

He didn’t meet your eyes. “He got stuck in the shoji door. I had to get him out. He was… distressed.”

You blinked. “So you played with him for an hour? It looks like someone is falling in love”

“He is still your responsibility only”

You walked over and sat beside him. Trouble, sensing the perfect opportunity, promptly climbed onto your lap and curled into a ball of fur and sleep.

Sasuke gave the kitten a quick glance, then looked away.

“You’re allowed to like him, you know.”

“I don’t.”

You bumped his shoulder gently. “Right.”

He gave you a sideways look, then softened. “…Maybe he’s not entirely useless.”

You smiled, your hand brushing over his. Coming from him, that was huge praise.

“You're a softie, Sasuke.”

He scowled, but the corner of his lips betrayed him. “Don't push it.”

And somewhere between your laughter and the quiet purr of a cat finally safe and loved, Sasuke found that maybe… just maybe… some trouble was worth keeping around.

"We can't keep calling him Trouble, by the way," You say glaring at him because he was the one who stared it.

[lesbianfakir]

Thinking about this post and can we talk about how important it is that fakir was okay with Duck not loving him back?

I think it’s fair to say it’s pretty heavily implied that he’s in love with her, and it’s explicitly confirmed in the guidebook.

While Duck’s feelings for him are more nebulous and hard to pin down, from his perspective she’s in love with Mytho. We as the audience know she doesn’t actually feel that way about Mytho but from Fakir’s perspective everything she’s done so far has been for Mytho. She admitted to him in episode 12 that she had feelings for mytho and there has been nothing to dissuade him from this line of thinking. In fact, he finds her crying because mytho chose rue.

There’s this little moment I like. When Duck tells him mytho has chosen rue as his princess his eyes narrow ever so slightly.

[ID: two screenshots of Fakir from episode 25. In the first he is looking at Duck (off camera) with a serious expression. In the second he narrows his eyes slightly. End ID]

He REACTS to this news, even if it’s subtle. And he doesnt look happy about it. Fakir is upset that Mytho rejected Duck. And this seems so antithetical from what we come to expect from a romantic subplot.

So the girl he loves loves someone else… and he’s okay with that. He never tries to pressure or guilt Duck into being with him. Hell he never even mentions his feelings. She likes someone else so what’s the point. But this never dissuades him from his devotion to her. He doesn’t give her an ultimatum or make her choose. He doesn’t even seem get upset that she loves someone else. Even when she goes back to being a duck destroying his last hope of being with her romantically, even then he never wavers. He wants to spend the rest of his life with her. Whether that’s as friends or as partners or as just a simple boy and a duck, he wants to be with her. How she feels for him doesn’t matter so much as getting to share his life with her.

And I find this such a refreshing spin on tired romance tropes. “Just friends” looms large in our media so it’s lovely to see a boy in the so called “friendzone” who’s okay with it. Beyond okay he treasures the time he spends with Duck. His affection for her doesn’t hinge on reciprocation.

It’s so common for characters in fakir’s archetype to grow angry or sad that they’re not “the one,” often lashing out at the girl who doesn’t return their feelings. But instead we have Fakir who’s perfectly content to stay Duck’s friend. After all, being her friend is a gift in itself.

I just love to see a platonic relationship not treated as a lesser stepping stone to a romantic relationship. Sure, Fakir has feelings for Duck. But that in no way undermines the friendship they already have. It’s treated with all the gravity usually reserved for romantic relationships. They’re going to spend their lives together and whether that’s as friends or as lovers—that part isn’t important.

I’m tired of media treating friendships like they’ve suddenly become worthless when one party develops feelings and the other doesn’t return them. With fakiru, the lovely part is that their relationship is built on such a strong foundation it can stand on its own. We the audience are free to interpret it as romantic, platonic, or something in between, but with any reading their close friendship forms the centerpiece.

[viktoreznovs]

a little reznov rant i sent in a server i'm in

i love viktor reznov no one understands him like i do ( because i am him but thats beside the point ) ( will be referring to myself in the 3rd person so people dont get confused )

i love his characterization i feel like treyarch did an amazing work but i also feel like his mental issues are often overlooked . and it's so ironic because people always talk about reznov being some strong cold alpha hero or smth who doesnt need coddling and doesnt have any trauma and it's just . you fell for the character's facade meant to be dismantled by the player / viewer ! ! ! plus, their depiction of him is often way over exaggerated . like yes he is strong and sometimes cold towards his allies but he does care . he is most likely the most progressive person in the game i'd say ( these are my thoughts ) . deep down he is still a broken person just like the other characters , yet people don't acknowledge it because they can't see through his facade . they're at war , of course he isn't going to break down crying about his issues , but that doesn't mean he doesn't have issues .

think about it , he's been in that prison for 18 YEARS . there is not doubt he developed a lot of mental issues during that time period . we can already see this when mason writes about reznov and dimitri in his journal . mason knew in detail about the battles and journeys reznov had gone through with dimitri . mason says reznov often told him he saw dimitri in him . this man has been in prison for eighteen years yet he still has a perfect memory when it comes to his dead " best friend . " this attachment grows so unhealthy he starts seeing dimitri in other people . this delusion of his grows so strong he constantly puts himself in danger just to protect mason . where have we seen that behaviour before ? oh , right , with dimitri . ( he already shouldn't be putting his life on the line for one man but i digress ) . an example of this is the beginning of their vorkuta escape plan where reznov PLANNED to get beaten up by that guard just so mason could kill the guard and take the keys . plus , he quite literally admits just a step later ( step 2 : ascend from the darkness , on the elevator ) that he trusts mason with his life .

he takes the whole " victory cannot be achieved without sacrifice " saying way too seriously , but he has always been like that ( the most obvious example being mason's reprogramming done by his hand ) . another example would be when he sacrificed himself ( even though he ended up surviving ) just to get the guards off mason's back so mason could escape

also , in a cut content scene from waw , chernov wasn't supposed to die immediately by the burns and instead was meant to get shot by reznov / dimitri . reznov tells dimitri that chernov is suffering and that " he knows what to do " . if dimitri waits too long , reznov outright puts chernov out of his misery himself . in his eyes , he was giving chernov a quick and less painful way out , instead of trying to treat his wounds . it is shown so many times he believes death to be merciful .

all of this is not the mindset a " normal " or mentally stable man would have , but of course most fans will never acknowledge it because they can't even see past his whole hero facade that he puts on .

obviously this isn't to say that he hasn't done bad shit and that his trauma justifies what he has done to mason , but he wasn't some normal man who knew EXACTLY what he was doing . he was blinded by his need for vengeance . he always has been , and this behaviour most likely rose from his father's death : the undying loyalty to his motherland and the self - destructing need for vengeance .

he most likely regrets what he did to mason . will mason ever forgive him ? probably not . does mason owe him forgiveness ? fuck no . i like to think that's why reznov went along with the whole death thing after vorkuta . in his eyes it was better for mason to move on without him than for him to be a constant reminder of his trauma . did that help at all ? according to bo2 woods : not a goddamn bit .

[scekrex]

HIIIIII<33333333 i fucking love your Adam x reader fics ,im DYING to read more of them, so here is what we all love and crave

Adam x overlord reader. When reader found Adam after the battle, bringed him to his place with the garden etc, Adam lives here. Reader likes Adam and flirts with him often, trying to get closer to him. Adam, tho he would never admit it, likes reader back and plays along. Reader is also a very chill guy, so Adam feels surprisingly comfortable around him. He treats Adam as a equal person, not as some high-stated bitch who everyone need to bow to. As months pass, they are getting closer and closer, their relationship grow. But tho Adam likes reader alot, he still sometimes thinks about heaven, about Lute, about all he had left behind. Its not the same, down there. But this topic gets pushed aside whenever it pops up in his mind, cause he has his boyfriend(?) who loves him and gives him protection from all the sinners that want him dead. But deep inside Adam has that little hope that Heaven will send someone to get him back (tho they prob dont even know he is alive).

Meanwhile Lute was pleasing Sera to let her go down and look for Adam, who she belives is somehow alive. Sera eventually lets her and Lute comes down to hell and starts to look for Adam and ask everyone who she mets where he could be.

After these few months, once as the two enjoy spending evening together, they hear a ring to the door. They come out to that balcony and see Lute standing in the middle of the garden. She calls out to Adam to come back with her. Adam seems excited that his hope and his lieutant didnt let him down. But reader doesnt want to let Adam go. Adam complained from time to time that "what if heaven forgot about him and accepted the fact he is dead" And also reader knows Adams past from Eden. And suddenly reader switches from a chill guy to a serious manipulative persona. He starts to tell Adam things like "and it would take them so long to get you back? They dont really want you there", also mentioning how Lilith and Eve left him before, to hit Adams weak point. Adam, shocked by his bf suddenly mood switch and his serious harsh words, knowing how he have been acting in heaven, doesnt even realise the act of a fucking cruel, possesive manipulation and gives in, shouts at Lute to fuck off and he wont get back where nobody truly wants him. As they get back into the room, Adam from angry comes to sad and curles up into a broken, depressed ball of misery. Reader hugs him, gives him comfort, saying shit like "noone will hurt you anymore if you stay here with me" (still manipulation) while Adam totally breaks and starts to cry, feeling that he will never deserve a perfect live he was meant to have when God created him, that hes worthless and ruined himself

I need to see Adam switch right from his usuall confident, loud persona to a wet sopping cat, crying his eyes out in a sudden mental breakdown pls

You can change smth if smth bothers you, i know you will make it fucking fire as always i live for your writings<33333

I decided that this will not be part of the Bird of Hell's Paradise story bc that story is too soft and comfortable to add manipulation to. Reader is an overlord in this one, but it's not explicitly mentioned.

We'll be together, forever, we'll never ever part

pairing: Adam x male!reader

warnings: language, kinda toxic behavior, manipulation

note: not beta read bc fuck you

Before Adam there had been loneliness and coldness, before Adam, there had been long nights and even longer days, before Adam there had been a lot of things and all of them were negative.

But having an angel roaming your halls certainly was not what you had planned for your life in Hell, but said angel definitely brightened your days - even though he was a - well let’s call him a special case. Adam wasn’t at all like the angels portrayed in stories, he was rude and harsh, respected no one but himself and the brunette loved to cause chaos on top of it all.

But to everyone’s surprise, the brunette angel settled in somewhat nicely once he realized that Heaven would not send their angels to bring him back, he even got used to having you around. Well, maybe the wording ‘he got used’ isn’t entirely fitting, Adam even enjoyed your company, sometimes he specifically requested it - when he was playing guitar for example. The first man was keeping you on your feet and moving at all times, that was for sure and if you were being honest, you didn’t mind it. It was a nice change from your boring, lonely life in Hell.

And even though Adam had everything he needed and wanted - you very obviously made sure that the angel never missed anything - you knew that he wasn’t doing as well with his new life in Hell as he pretended. Adam was a loud and cheerful guy, so when he went quiet for longer, of course you noticed. There was nothing you were capable of doing to help him through those times - he was simply homesick for Heaven. When things got really bad, you were even able to catch him praying before going to bed, praying to the creature he called father to bring him back, to send him Lute who would escort him back to Heaven, straight through the pearly gates without any complications - but that wasn’t happening. Every being had their reason to live in Hell, even Adam.

“Adam?” you asked with a soft voice, wrapping your arms around the first man’s torso from behind as you leaned your head against his shoulder blade. The man in your arms flinched at first, he had been lost in his thoughts and your touch caused him to snap right out of it. A slightly confused “Huh? fell from his lips before he looked over his shoulder to spot you. The confusion in his eyes was overplayed by an emotion you couldn’t name and the usual grin Adam somehow always managed to shoot in your direction laid on his lips. “Can’t get enough of me again, huh you shithead?” His words were teasing and not the slightest bit serious which caused you to chuckle softly. “You seemed lost,” you answered instead of agreeing with him, knowing damn well that his ego was already huge - bigger than Adam’s body.

Adam grumbled words you weren’t able to understand, then turned away and stepped away from the hug you had offered him. He didn’t want to talk about it - again. And that probably bothered you even more than the fact that he longed for Heaven’s pearly gates. You were fine with Adam having hopes and dreams, it’s not something you would be able to take from him, even if you wanted to, but he never talked about it. The only reason why you were aware of the Eden incident was because of the bible - Adam never talked about anything that involved his past, at least not about the negative things. What you did know was that he missed his band mates and playing gigs with them and that his lieutenant seemed to be a crazy bitch he liked a lot - not in a romantic way but rather in a platonic way, maybe he saw her as some sort of little sister, you weren’t sure.

You sighed as you watched Adam go. He needed time and you would not deny him that.

-

Lute was walking up and down in Sera’s office, explaining her detailed plan on how they would get Adam back - she hoped it would be quite easy because Adam never actively fell, he had never truly died. So technically there was still divine blood pumping through his body which would let him cross the pearly gates back home. Sera sighed at Lute’s idea, rested her head on her hands and watched as Adam’s former lieutenant never stopped walking.

“Lute,” she interrupted the exorcist who stopped in her tracks to look at the tall seraphim angel, Lute clearly had not expected Sera to interrupt her. “We can’t bring Adam back, he is gone,” she explained as the seraphim slowly got up from her chair and crossed the room to face Lute properly. The white haired woman was not having it though, she stood up for herself, “You’re wrong.”

-

It was only a few hours later that Lute flew through one of the shiny golden portals and landed right in front of your house. She knocked against the door quite loudly, even kicked and slammed her shoulder against it, “Adam!”

You turned your head as you heard an unfamiliar voice calling out for the person of your desire and watched as Adam rushed over to the balcony. What the fuck was going on and who was calling for your lover? You followed Adam with heavy steps. Once you stopped right next to the tall and loud angel you wrapped your arm around him as you looked down only to see a woman you had never seen before - she appeared to be an angel too and you instantly feared for the worst.

“Lute!” he yelled back and was about to jump off the balcony to get to her, but you stopped him by tightening the grip on his hips, a little confused he looked down at your hand, then his eyes met yours, “Y/N?” he asked quietly so his former lieutenant wouldn’t hear. You immediately knew you wanted him to stay with you, there really was no way you would ever let Adam leave again, not when he was very much able to stay with you for the rest of eternity. And it wasn’t that you weren’t aware of how wrong that seemed, but it had been long since the last little toy that brought you happiness and joy, so you would hold onto Adam for as long as possible.

You simply shook your head and pulled him a little closer against your side, “If they truly want you back, then why would it take them so long to come and get you?” That caused Adam to close his mouth and he seemed to genuinely think about your words - he came to the conclusion that you had a point.

“C’mon Sir,” Lute yelled up at the balcony where you and Adam stood, “We’re going home.” Unsure eyes roamed over your body and you could feel that Adam waited for you to say something, you were right after all, why would Heaven wait so awfully long to bring him back? The expression on your face was blank and your usually soft sounding voice turned bitter and cold, “She wants to take you from me, Adam. She wants to separate us like Lucifer separated you from your past wives.” And that caused Adam to freeze, he slowly backed away from the railing of the balcony. “Darling, she could have taken you back ages ago, yet she waited - for what though? She seems to be out for power and she realized that you are the only powerful thing she can possess and get away with at the same time, all while she can stay in Heaven,” you hummed as you backed off alongside Adam, slowly guiding the golden winged angel back inside.

“Fuck off, you can go back to crawling up Sera’s fucking ass, I ain’t coming with you, cunt,” the brunette in your arm yelled and flipped the smaller angel in your garden off. A victorious grin appeared on your lips, your plan was working out just fine.

The door to the balcony fell shut and you heard how Adam crashed down onto the couch, he laid there, face buried in the soft fabric it was covered in and his wings were tightly wrapped around his body to isolate him from his surroundings. He looked so miserable, so helpless, so lonely and you hated seeing the usually loud angel so quiet. Your voice softened a little as you sat down next to Adam, you had forced him to stay simply because you wanted him to stay, now the least you could do was to lure him into the thought of protection and a good, bright life.

“Hey now,” you mumbled quietly as your fingers combed through Adam’s soft brown and messy hair, pushing it out of his face - his face which was still pressed against the couch. Your other hand gently moved up and down Adam’s back and when you heard the brunette sigh, you knew you had him wrapped around your finger just fine. “Noone will hurt you, not if you continue to stay with me,” you hummed, the tone you spoke in remained soft and calming and when you saw how Adam lifted his head to look at you, your heart did shatter a little.

His eyes were red, slightly puffy and his lip was quivering. The first man moved his head from the couch to your lap, pressed his face tightly against your belly and cried - it was the first time he was showing so strong and overwhelming emotions. His nails dug into your sides as he held onto your waist to keep you close, to feel you under his hands and to keep you from leaving like everyone else did, he wanted you to stay just as much as he wanted to stay with you.

And the worst yet best part of it all was that the brunette hadn’t even noticed how manipulative your words were, let alone your soft, comforting actions. He was yours through and through and there was nothing in this world - Hellspawn or Heavenborn - that would ever separate you from the brunette man crying against your belly.

[leafatlaw]

Top 5 Sunkissed moments for the ask game •□•/

o/ OOOH yo thanks for the ask !!

5. "Do you still want to be teamed" "Why wouldnt I?" "I left for 97 days" "But you came back"- OUGH They both have such bad abandonment issues and Derap was like 100 percent sure they were over before she cam back. AND Zam describing his coming back to lifesteal as "Lovers reuniting" !!!!!!! I hate it here.

4. Zam giving Derap a heart- I rewatch that moment so often and its terrible because they care about eachother so much it makes me want to cry :((((((((((((

3. Zam going on the Pangi date to make Derap jealous.

2. The moment at the very end of DEVOTION where Sunkissed are watching the sunset together and Zam just stares at Derap instead. 💥💥💥

Special mentions before we get to number one: When the atlas breakup was happening and Derap told Zam "They would fix it", In Save the world flowerboy Zam tells Derap shes glad hes back, Derap describing their teamup as him feeling empty and thinking Zam was feeling empty too, In the Evbo day stream where Derap and Zam both affirm independently that if the other asked for help they would be there and know the other would as well, In the same vod the entire conversation they have by the titanic where they apologize and Derap gives her a heart, at Zaun when Zam goes and picks out a flower specifically for Derap and places it on her build, the entirety of the Derap stream where its 2am for Zam, Derap saying he would pick Zam over Wemmbu, Woogies pep talk to Zam that Derap wants to team with her still, Zam admitting to Derap about giving Bacon hearts, Derap telling Zam "Im sorry that you feel that way", Derap saying spawn "doesnt feel like spawn" when Zams not the one who fixed it, and that one message where Mapicc calls Derap Zams partner.

1, "I just want to be by your side"- In all honestly probably the entirety of dynasties and dystopia, can I say the entirety of a stream, Im going to go with the entirety of that stream. But its just-- Zam begging Flame to leave Derap alone, Flame not, because Deraps "Important to you". Zam trying to stand in front of Derap, Derap refusing and trying to stand by her side. "Everything Ive done recently has been with you in mind" I hate them I hope they explode into a million pieces forever and ever.

[gothushi]

partially because it's been the flavour of a lot of my interactions with your bots : But which of our boys would be absolutely a *mess* when they find out you're pregnant? Who's the most likely to be just constantly trying to spoil and protect you? And... who is most likely to run? (not ACTUALLY run, but sort of wants to at the beginning)

(brought to you by a recent interaction with one of your Seb bots panicking over a pregnancy)

THISSSS ive been wanting to delve into the boys being dads and dealing with pregnancy but ive nvr done it before nor have i read much in terms of tht.

for the boys most likely to be very protective.. spoiling u a lot… i think we know the obvious answer. rob. and in other terms, nikolai. those two are definitely the most territorial of the boys and charlie is just under them. all three would actually be completely overjoyed, but also violently protective. rob wld refuse to leave on any work trips longer than maybe a few days, nikolai wld be by ur side constantly, and charlie trusts u enough for him to be away for work during the day but once he’s home he’s all over u glued to ur side to do anything u need. even in the early stages of pregnancy, nikolai especially is very territorial. keeps u behind him, hand on u at all times, keeps u marked as his, growls at any others who get too close to u. some feral vampire thing. rob constantly babies u. always massaging ur sore muscles, rubbing ur feet, he takes over the cooking and cleaning even when u tell him he doesn’t have to. charlie does the same, fusses and snaps at u to stay down, sit, stop getting up, ask for things, but he does it all with love even if he sounds kinda angry.

also, speaking of charlie. i think if it were in the early stages of ur relationship he’d be scared at first. he didn’t have anyone to care deeply abt before, so the thought of smth so intimate happening, u carrying his child, has him a bit terrified, and he doesn’t necessarily run but he does pull back a bit, is more snappy, stays at work longer, he’s smoking more often, until u just end up breaking down bc u think oh god he doesn’t love u anymore he regrets it. but once that happens he snaps out of that headspace and completely switches up, confesses his genuine undying love for u as he had before, reassures u that this is really what he wants, he was scared. it takes a lot for him to admit that. babies u, does everything the others do in the end.

i think simon wld actually run. if we’re talking in the midst of brendan stuff, he’d easily shut down his brain and just disappear. completely go ghost on u and u just have no idea what happened. u worry that he’s dead or smth, yk? but after a couple months he comes back, completely broken as a man, tired and wanting to just live his life again free of this mess. (i fesr all the boys would eventually be sweet, caring, rub ur sore muscles, cook meals for u, look up things that can help, all of em. some just lean more some ways.)

ernst wld just looove to start a family. i think he’s such a girl dad. he’d cry like a baby when u tell him. wld be so attentive to ur every need, wld know a lot of different remedies and things to make u feel better bc he researches everything easily, remembering little details abt what u like. same with father anthony. ugh just looooves to be a dad.

depending on where we’re at in lukes story is how he’ll react. if it’s earlier in his career, before his eye injury, he’d probably be pretty fucking terrified. i don’t know if he’d go as far as to ghost u bc i mean .. u know where he lives. u know his game and practice schedule. so. can’t rly do that even if he wanted to. but he’d be a bit distant, more harsh, more anxious around u. he’s absolutely terrified of passing on his condition, terrified of ruining someones life, and he doesnt rly know how to like … love smth like that. he’s still got his own issues w u, how’s he supposed to raise a kid? but, it gets worked through. similar to charlie, u either end up breaking down or just straight up snapping on him. gets his head outta his ass real quick. if it’s a bit later after he’s retired, recovered from surgery, adjusted to his new life, he’s thrilled beyond belief. granted, if it’s too soon after everything happened and he’s dealing with everything he’ll probably panic a little but then just sob bc he loves u so much and he wants a family so bad no matter how scared he had been

now seb.. it’s kinda same how w luke, it depends on where ur at in his life. early on if he’s still dealing with severe issues, bad anxiety, his bipolar and anger problems, i mean, he’s just a mess. walks right out and u don’t hear from him for a few days. it takes a long time probably to get everything straightened around again .. and get him into some therapy and on some medication. but, again like luke, if it’s a bit later on after he’s opened up abt his issues, after he’s accepted help and has slowly learnt to cope, regulate his emotions, found some meds that work for him, i mean.. tbh i think he’d be pretty damn happy. i think he’s such a girl dad too. wld probably take a little while to like … remember everything u need help with.. and by god are ur mood swings throwing him for a loop. often jokes ‘is this how i was?’

[juicezone]

EXPLODES. Tell me about the heavy part w/ cooper's envy PLEASEEEEE 🙏 if u want to PLEASE

@ittybittykippy

putting below a read more jic

Cooper grew up in a busy "well-intentioned" family in which Cooper presented very smart, very mature, very capable and so he ended up often being deemed the "Easy" kid, who would often be asked to go along with his siblings in order to make his parents life easier. and his parents weren't necessarily BAD but they had. very particular ideas on how kids should be raised (along the lines if "suck it up, your life isnt that bad, you're not that sick, etc etc"). the kind of parents who are like "you like uhhh. racecars right?" because you offhandedly mentioned a cool car, but then act surprised to find out you're fascinated with like natural sciences even though you're constantly talking abt it

there was plenty "Sorry, kiddo, I know we promised to get you a chocolate cake, but your siblings like vanilla and they don't like chocolate! we got choc frosting though, that's okay, right?" or "Can you let your sibling watch their cartoon? i know you got the remote first, but they really want to watch this cartoon and i'm trying to make breakfast"

and lowkey it got worse when they hit their teen years bc one of their siblings got sick and so while Cooper KNEW it wasn't like they were TRYING to ignore him, it frustrated and upset him when they'd accidentally schedule an appointment on like their usual movie night, and promise to "watch it tomorrow!" but they never would remember

so Cooper really just became very self-reliant because he would constantly be put to the side anyway. and when he DID once try and talk about it, he got lectured and grounded for being selfish so he never bothered to try again honestly and just decided that he might as well take care of things on his own

so throughout the academy and Pre-Ward, that's basically what Cooper did and he was like yeah this is fine, i enjoy it , i dont really want or need anyone involved (Slightly changed when met Cade in the academy, but they'd mostly just hang out instead of like. be babysat/looked after. Cade doesnt mind babysitting necessarily, but caregiving really just isn't her thing and Cooper wasn't exactly the type to insist upon being looked after

BUT THEN Cooper makes friends with Ward (re: Ward kinda crashes in and declares them buddies and then they get assigned to share quarters and the rest is history). and Cooper's like "whatever" and eventually does admit to Ward that they regress too but that they DONT WANT a caregiver but like

he's sitting there, watching as Bones patiently puts Ward to bed again and again, never getting angry or frustrated. When Ward gets up on Bones' space or demands his attention, Bones doesn't tell him to go play on his own, doesn't push him off. Ward gets to be obnoxious and all over the place, and Bones might get firm and redirect, but he never gets MAD. nothing harsher than firm words and a time-out, followed by a conversation

ohhh it makes Cooper so so angry. they get into a fight and Cooper bites Ward HARD and Cooper is expecting to be yelled at by Bones because they bit his kiddo, but Bones just puts them both in time out, makes them talk about it, and then gives them BOTH a hug. No lecture about behaving the right way, no disappointed looks, no "you know better".

and he gets so mad when Bones offers to include him in things at first. asks if Cooper wants a snack, or if Cooper wants to come watch a movie, because Cooper is NOT his kid he's NOT Cooper's CG and he's so angry because he's seething with jealousy on the inside and he hates that because he doesn't DESERVE to be jealous

he wants it so bad it makes him feel sick sometimes, that he wants to have all of Bones' attention, wants to be held and coddled and just so completely taken care of. he wants to throw tantrums when upset and scream and cry and still be held and soothed anyway and told that it's okay to get to be the needy and selfish one for once

and he goes thru these phases of "i dont need you" (watches angrily) (lashes out) (both bones and ward reassure and support him) (cooper lets himself enjoy it a bit) (gets angry at himself) (repeat)

but he just soooo.

"why do YOU get to have it. why do I have to ask. why didnt I get to be the needy one as a kid. why did I have to be the easy one. why dont i get to be selfish" and that spirals into "you're horrible for being jealous of other people being happy and comfortable and safe"

he struggles with asking for things or sharing how he feels, but ward and bones also don't want to push him and so it just has this terrible push and pull because Cooper WANTS so BADLY but he won't ask, won't be needy, won't be difficult

and they WANT him to be needy and difficult because they WANT to help and support him, but they dont want to push him away by being too in his space, and it just. ogh. viscous cycles

like. cooper SO BADLY wants a blankie. wants a snuggly toy. wants something that's special to him like how Ward has Gale. but he WONT ASK, he CANT ASK and bones would happily give him anything he wanted, but he wants to support Cooper and respect his boundaries so he doesn't push anything too hard

Cooper loves and hates Ward so much and it makes them feel like such an awful person and it just. it Festers Deep

[k423s]

Kiana Kaslana for the ask game

YAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYAY ty <3

ask game here

My first impression: oh a lot of people seem to like her? she seems very silly.

My impression now: the things i would do just to see her again oh my god i miss her so so so much my everythinggirl..... every part of her story is so poignant to me and i feel like it only wouldve been elevated if they lingered a bit on points theyve already brought up (ex: her complicated feelings w siegfried)

Favorite thing about that character: aourghourghourgh.. her being sooooo stubborn. its super endearing and gets her into trouble all the time i loveeee when a quality is also a flaw <3. in terms of writing i really like hi3 changing her to be a clone since it provides suuuch a fun deviation of the chosen one trope and makes her resonating w the cocoon of finality so much more satisfying

Least favorite thing: early hoyo writing where kiana was written as a pervert sucks a lot esp since the jokes often relied on her not obliging by boundaries :/ it doubly sucks bc like. they were young teens then thats so fucking weird.

Favorite line/scene: EVERLASTING FLAMES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kind of a cheat answer but i love it so so so so so much. chapter 25 in general god. i loeveee kiana being put on trial by the herrscher of dominion and the layers of this herrscher defined by a collection of puppets and a belief in humanitys inherent worthelssness challenges k423's beliefs about herself as a clone and has her stubbornly refusing to believe in the worst in people :'''')

Favorite interaction that character has with another: ough there are so many i dont think i can choose dear god. im just gonna list various ones w different characters. this ones really small but w siegfried theres this one page where he falls asleep on the floor and kiana puts a blanket over him and curls up next to him and he wakes up, putting the blanket on her insteda (she is still on the floor.) its so so sad to me he's a pretty shitty dad to her at that moment especially but :(((( another strong contender is when he meets theresa again and starts asking abt donghua and theresas lambasting him about not even asking about kiana and he admits that he cant or he'll get distracted im going to fucking cry...... lament of the fallen is such an easy one for mei so ill say them in chapter 32 :''') kiana opening up abt her talk with himeko and audibly choking up when she talks about it i feel sick dear god. both telling each other how important they are to each other and the hope they give each other :' kiana grabbing her hand and telling her they'll go home togteher OUGHHH w bronya its definitely their goodbyes to each other. the fact that bronya is so sad that she makes an excuse to leave early because she doesnt want kiana to see her cry and schedules them for video game nights so kiana isnt lonely dear fucking god. another contender is ofc in everlasting flames where she defends kiana and uses the HoR powers to tie her hair up i feel sick theyre soooo sisters to me himekos also really really really hard bc both final lesson and chapter 25 exist but i think final lesson takes it for me. ive said it over and over again but himeko actively not wanting to die but choosing to anyways because she doesnt want kiana to die (even though this goes against the protocol shes been living and teaching by) and that ultimately being the thing that keeps kiana going OUGHHHHHHH. also fuck. the lyrics to nightglow. w sirin its of course that part of graduation trip who would i be if that line wasnt there. fuckkkk. her putting her hand back to align with kianas too :(

A character that I wish that character would interact with more: CHEWING ON MY WALLS. SO MANY PEOPLE. primarily i wish we got to see more of her with like. bronya, theresa, sirin, bianka. i know we got a lot of bronya and sirin alread ybut. consider there couldve been more..

Another character from another fandom that reminds me of that character: this is so fucking humiliating. bruce wayne. he doesnt struggle w his humanity the exact same way as kiana does but they both struggle with/are motivated by feelings of guilt and love of humanity. also. arc city kiana. i rest my case.

A headcanon about that character: aurgh ok sm i havent posted about before. man. i just think she has such complex feelings during her st freya days. i think she'd stay up late and think about her dad or think about days where she was didn't have the domesticity she has now and feel so thankful for it. i think st freya dorms was both hard and easy for her to settle into. i think she and bronya have spent some nights staying up together playing video games because they both feel that.

A song that reminds of that character: i'm still here by the john rzeznik o7 its soooo himeko and kiana to me.

An unpopular opinion about that character: i don't think i have any unpopular opinions about her actually skjhbdfbhd

Favorite picture:

these two :''

[cinnamoo-n]

using tumblr for the righteous purposes it was created for; RANT TIME!!!

straight to the point- i need to emotionally withdraw myself from my boyfriend for a while. we were sleeping on call (well i was, its 4.5 hours behind for him) and i woke up at 2 am having a nightmare. i have those often but usually i distress mumble in my sleep and turn around n it passes. when i wake up from it, and he has seen it happen before, i am in a very disoriented state of mind as well as physical being. i cannot feel my body, i struggle to grasp for air, my hands are sweating, i have visual hallucinations of someone staring at me from the corner of my room. anyways, its BAD. i was crying out his name but he was not responding, having kept his phone somewhere else. i texted him. no response. so i call my bestie up instead n ask her to help me calm down. note; the reason for my nightmare also had something to do with the conversation i was havin w this bestie before i went to sleep + how it interacted with my overall terrible mental health atm. so yea when i calm down, i text him again n he doesnt respond again so i hang up the phone, ANNOYED and UPSET that its been over an hour n he hasnt checked him phone yet (the only medium of communication we have right now so its so important its basically our life line). so i angry text him saying “whats the point of sleeping on call if ,,, well ur not even gonna. BE on the call”.

too much shit later,, after being called stupid, annoying, entitled, we cut to today, and i have been collecting myself back from this episode for the past 2 days before addressing it. i am balancing my feelings and his feelings too. what does he do? makes me admit my faults alone while arguing that if he admits his then it will make him a doormat. more than anything, i am so baffled by the use of the world “entitled”… no one has EVER called me that before infact if u know me, u know i am not entitled in the least bit possible… it hurts me so much that he has this idea of me somewhere in the back of his head. its like he doesnt even know who i am. i do not care about accusing him of being a bad boyfriend, i cares abt the emotional needs it was underlying which is reassurance and availability. its so unbelievably hard to make him understand my side of the story.

anyways,,, this is not the cure but im emotionally withdrawing myself from him for im left believing that my vulnerability in seeking understanding and reassurance i was stupid to have allowed my hearts and minds bias of love and own sufferings to turn to sounding like wrongful ill worded accusations, and for this to be misconstrued as ego and entitlement on my part and to hear in response how annoying and stupid i am, it is stupidity to expect intentional softness and unconditional acceptance from someone who’s having a war with themselves about things that have nothing to do with me because that will only result in unintended hurt. my fault here is my over sensitivity. that i have to control my sensitivity before choosing to depend on others.

[highonthought]

Single gorl

So danny broke up with me today, officially. He called me as I was on my way to an interview. I answered and let hime know that I couldn't talk just yet bc i was busy. So, I went to my interview, did awesome, got along well with hr. And I called danny after. Part of me was hoping that he would be apologetic, and sorry for his confuison, and for hurting me in the midst of his confusion. But, no. There was no confusion. He spoke with a meek certainty. "I dont think im in a place were i can be in a relationship" , "I think, I just want to be single right now."

I am split. I cried in waves today. Rolling waves, some small, some big where my boogers are running down my face, and i can taste the salt no matter how often i wipe my face. Im split between believing him at face value, that he doesnt feel any romantic feelings towards me, that i became just a chore to him. Im split between that and beleiveing that he broke up with me to not have to deal with a relationship in case he is deployed. The world is, crumbling. I hope for freedom to prevail. This scenario allows for him to be a martyr in his desicion to leave me. So that if he goes, really goes, I dont die from grief. I dont spend the rest of my life mourning him. Well, We mingled for almost two years. I'd say that gives me, mmm 24 weeks to sit in heartbreak. Thats 6 months. I love him still, even now. Maybe if I knew his real reasons. Maybe if he cheated. Maybe if he told me how unattractive to him i was. Maybe if he said i was gross to him. Maybe if he said he didn't like my traits, my mannerisms. Actually, I do have "I don't know if i love you anymore". Danny doesn't do anything irrationally. Thats one of the things i loved about him, he had such sense. Knowing this, I know he did not lie, no matter how desperately i'm hoping he did.

He was the only person to message me through ig. Now, every notification i glance at my screen with a small tug in my heart praying that its him, coming to his senses. I still cant believe it. He left me. Danny left me. It was supposed to be us. High school sweethearts, who found each other again. We were different, i thought that made us stronger, it was cute. I guess I'm the romantic. I have my career. I have my family. And ill always have the memories of us when He did love me. The man i miss and long for now, doesn't exist. I think he faded away long before danny actually wants to admit to me. But, ill choose to beleive it was after our one year anniversary, because the letter he wrote me was too beautiful to be fake. Thats what i want to beleive. Im gladd he was my first boyfriend. Because when there was love, the love was true, and innocent, and kind, and tender, and young. We will always be young in our love, in mine. I kept the pictures. When I am old, and sick, I know i will be happy to look at myself, young 20s, being happy. Because in all my memories and pictures with him, I am happy. Except today. But like i said, today he was not the daniel i once loved. The man I loved could not bear to make me cry and ache like this.

[forsakenbythenarrative]

i can do my best to explain my experience with it but it will be a bit long:

there's nothing more religious than self discovery except maybe transition. but something about being able to pick out your soul and explain it without requiring or regarding your physical state is quite religious i think. like, what's more spiritual than separating and comparing body and soul.

my own experience with this is actually just that theres sort of this horror and also glory to being chosen for a task by God. when you're given something that, though other people can perceive to an extent, really is only visible to you and God, you get a lot closer. like, i cant fully explain it but i always come to God as myself, raw and unguarded because we both know how he made me and we both know what he's asked of me. but also the reality is, God is the only 'person' you dont have to come out to. cause even yourself you have to look in the mirror at some point and admit the truth but God always knew. sometimes a shared secret is the deepest intimacy.

plus, god loves his strange people. he loves unique things. god likes seeing you use the freedom you have to do what you will with his creation and he likes to see you get creative with it. god admires those that engage with his tasks. he doesnt like you to just settle for whats been given to you. if there's one thing at all that god doesn't want your life to be, its boring. all of gods chosen people ford their own paths. its quite a way to admire gods tasks, as well, to take them on yourself a bit. what a way to love god? to replicate his favorite things? he assembles and disassembles and reassembles bodies over and over again, like the creation of eve through the mutilation of adams body. and he likes to alter things. god likes making things grow and change.

(also a quote i love that kinda also encapsulates this:)

I genuinely do wonder sometimes how people can watch god tear bodies apart, and command people to deny the nature of their flesh and demand name changes at important life transitions and think hes somehow anti-trans.

there's sometimes this false narrative that "god made you that way for a reason" ('that way' often meaning born with the body you were born in) but i always think 'sure yeah but god also made us capable of change for a reason.'

at the end of the day tho, what i think it REALLY boils down to is that transness and religiousness are both rooted in the same thing: in the seeking out. whether its God or gender, youre searching within yourself and out in the world for something. when you are faced with a question like transness, you have to dissect yourself a bit, you have to seek out truth, learning to find within yourself that which a doctor could not diagnose you with is an inherently religious thing.

it's something you have to seek out yourself like how the divine is there like so close it's knocking into you, but you'll only find it really if you're looking for it. same as with gender for transgender people. your gender is within you somewhere and usually crying to get out but sometimes you have to look for it to really understand it.

it's almost like the self discovery of transness is training for searching for the divine if that makes sense. the way it all relates to the physical and the psychological and the outside world, finding who you are can often feel like a different version of the task of finding God.

can someone write about the relationship between being trans and being religious. i have so many thoughts that i cannot word properly but being religious and being trans are the same thing i think

[maveras-posts]

More✨RANDOM✨Sebastian HC

My Random Headcanons for our Beloved Demon Boi:

Sebby is a SKILLED singer (Tho he only sings to himself)

Imagine Sebastian singing into the handle of a broom while he’s cleaning I-

Regularly buys outfits for his cats😭🤚

Is very CULTURED, has indulged in many cultured hobbies & expertise

CAN and WIIL speak EVERY LANGUAGE ✨IMAGINABLE!✨

From art, music, especially opera, literature, culinary arts and of course the ✨VIOLIN✨

It took him over a CENTURY to learn violin

Sebby couldn’t control his strength so he BROKE MANY

Would rage quit and ✨YEET✨ the violins

Will never admit it but…HE LOVES WINE

Literally after a hard day of dealing with the manor’s BS he will lovk himself in the WINE CELLAR “The master isn’t of age…can’t let it go to waste.”

Only gives him a buzz for a few moments but it gives him ✨NOSTALGIA✨ (Wine has been around for THOUSANDS of years)

Sebby is SO PETTY…GODDAMN

Uses his powers to pull pranks on the servants (They annoy TF OUTTA him…so he scares them in spite)

Makes servants belongings appear in random places (It rly fucks with them mentally)

Lowkey tho he loves the servants and wouldn’t trade them for the world (They all are like his younger siblings in his eyes)

Sebby & Agni have so much CHEMISTRY

Sebastian doesn’t want to pursue (Is insecure that Agni won’t accept him if he knows what he is)

Honestly why Sebby doesn’t pursue anyone (Is insecure about being a demon)

Truly is not like the other demons, the others make the group look bad

Sebastian & Agni wrote letters to each other for the rest of Agni’s life (Sebby keeps them to this day)

Took it HARD when Agni passed away

Still thinks of him at least ONCE A DAY

Wonders what life would would be like if he settled down (I’m GONNA CRY-)

We all are wondering how old his man is—HE DOESNT KNOW EITHER

Sebastian quit counting after a few ✨millenniums ✨🤦‍♀️

In Modern Day, he has a lil hobby that being… SCARING the souls of teens that play with OUJIA BOARDS

All he does is speak Latin and they freak TF OUT

Also Sebby has a few tattoos now (Has done some on himself…HE HAS TO BE GOOD AT EVERYTHING-)

Would be a ✨GOD✨ at rap battles

DEDICATED to the Wikipedia for Ciel Phantomhive

The community knows this and Sebastian basically says “Trust me bro.” for HIS SOURCE

Wouldn’t be surprised if he has written a couple books on Jack the Ripper (It’s still a case based on theory)

Is DEEP into the conspiracy theory rabbit hole

Sebby finds it funny that humans have thought of these ✨WILD THEORIES✨

Knows the answers to most, will never tell “It’s for mankind’s better good not to know…”

Hates to admit, but doesn’t mind Grelle’s company from time to time (Still keep in touch every so often)

Still has the occasional ✨TEA✨ with Undertaker

Is supportive/protector of the ✨ALPHABET COMMUNITY🌈

Lowkey feels bad for LGBTQ+

Has seen the HORRORS the group has been through during the MILLENNIUMS

Also a ✨FEMINIST✨

Is DISGUSTED by society’s treatment of women

Has saved MANY women on the streets through the years (From assault, catcalling, harassment etc.)

MANY MEN have suffered a “Horrible demise” At least how Sebby puts it (Consumes their SOULS)

Sebastian still believes that Mankind is beautiful (Has seen both the good & evils)

“Humans are a beautiful mess.”

Finds us interesting and still finds it ✨FACINATING✨ to live among us

[themediummultiverseau]

So now we know that papyrus is aware of the ghost, but what does he think of each of them? (Doesn't need to be every single one but maybe just the ones he most often heard about? Tho i wouldn't mind all of em either)

Maybe why dream and killer are fond of him, and what do the others think?

(im sorry i havent answered this, ive just been so drained and i just dont have the mental or physical energy to draw for it, but the guilt has been eating me alive, so im gonna write this out, and i might edit it to add art after if i can)

lets work in areas, we'll start with the park ghosts, and then year order, then ill give paps answers as to how he feels about them at the end

Nightmare - He admires Papyrus's enthusiasm, and can see how he very clearly cares about his brother very strongly, and admires how close they are as siblings, something he wishes he had with dream. He also sees how him and dream similar, at least, how he remembers dream to be.

Cross - He sees the hidden strength that others do not in him, but also sees his peaceful nature within. Always sees the good in everyone, believing that they can be the best version of themself if they try, something he wishes he could have himself.

Dust - is kinda scared of him, but once he saw that he wasn't like his brother, he warmed up to him, wishing his brother was like him, someone who cared, and when sans told paps about this, paps offered to be his new brother, dust smiled for the fist time in a long while when he got the news

Horror - He wants so desperately to hug paps, and thank him for everything he has and still does for sans and their makeshift family. When paps learned of Horrors past, he told sans to bring him some of the spaghetti he was making, and leave it as an offering for him to have. Horror cried when he got the food. Paps insists that even when he doesnt go with sans to see them, that he take food for him, and Horror is so honoured

Killer - He sees Paps as the brother he never had. Killer didnt have any siblings, the only one i believe - minus blue who im working on behind the scenes - and in the ghost family, he's the youngest, he kinda sees paps as his baby brother, but doesnt want to share that cus he feels like he'd be stealing him from his real brother if he did, which is silly, paps has enough love for everyone.

Hospital

Dream - he relates to paps, and sees his younger self in his carefree attitude. He sees the adult Paps is, still so hopeful about the world, and wishes he still thought that way.

Geno - doesnt really interact with him much, he likes him, but theyre not very close. Genos kinda a mum friend, and sees paps as someone in the group of people he cares for, but they dont spend much time together

Town

Ink - routinely forgets of paps existence, when he's reintroduced, they get along great, and tend to hype each other up when talking about topics theyre interested in, very eager to hear about the others interests

Lust - while first wary, lust if very comfortable with him now. lust tends to be cautious with everyone he meets for the first time, due to his past, but he sees that paps is a good person, and sees him as what everyone should be, a shoulder to cry on, and a friend to lift your spirits ;)

Error - He doesnt really care about paps, he doesnt really care about anyone, but sometimes paps will offer him some wool or some knitting needles, and is now in his good books, though he'll refuse to admit it

paps :

Nightmare - he tries to help him see that he doesnt need to be so uptight all the time, everyone around him loves him, he doesnt always need to be "perfect," hes perfect to them all the same

Cross - He thinks Cross is so cool! While obviously paps is very cool, sometimes deep down he doesnt really believe it, but Cross really is! he hopes one day he will be just as brave and cools as him!

Dust - He feels really bad for him, he just want to give him a big hug, but he cant, so he'll make do with silent one sided comfort. he understands what its like for there to be so much noise in your head, that sometimes you want to scream, sometimes all you need is a hand to.... not hold

Horror - He's very glad that such a great baker likes his cooking! sometimes, he'll ask horror for new recipes, or tips to try, and together they run a small cooking blog online, stating that they have and old family cook book, and want the world to have access to those recipes, with sans typing it up for them - Its Ghost written ;)

Killer - He's very energetic! If he was visible to him, he'd love to show off cool magic attacks or have a friendly spar with him! They'd get along like a house on fire - just dont tell Nightmare that

Dream - Hes so sad to see the light squashed out of someone once a beacon of joy, and he hopes that with a few more people to speak to, and someone to show him the world can be good, that spark will rekindle - but maybe dont word it like that

Geno - He's very nice! Very mature, if a little morbid, he want to get closer to him, maybe he just needs to visit a little more!

Ink - Hes very cool! A very talented artist, and he like all papyrus's puzzles! sometimes they'll talk for hours about new ideas

Lust - he doesnt understand why lust wont show himself to him, that what his power is, right? But he respects that maybe he just doent want to! thats okay, he cant see the other ghosts either, if lust wants space to be happy, he can give him that

Error - He sees him as sort of like a cat, antisocial, but will begrudgingly tolerate your presence, one day he'll get him to like him! he refuses to give up!

Now, you have to remember, Papyrus cant see the ghosts, and while he can kinda feel where they are, he cant hear them (with the exception of horror, but thats not his voice) so -

Imagine Sans sitting in the corner translating everything for paps to hear FOR. EVERY. CONVERSATION.

mans just a walking Ouija board at this point

[akicult]

aot trios babysitting

cw: none, sfw

characters: eren, armin, mikasa, jean, sasha, connie, reiner, annie, bertholdt, hange, erwin, levi

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eren, armin, mikasa

- they’re definitely organized/know what they’re doing

- mikasa’s the only reason why they’re doing so good.

- the second mikasa leaves for the bathroom, the boys are left staring at the baby hoping and praying she doesn’t start crying.

- but obviously, she does.

- “shit, what do we do?”

- “eren don’t say that, there’s a baby!”

- “armin, it can’t understand me.”

- the boys are scrambling for ways to make the baby stop crying: rocking it, holding it, shushing it, all the while quietly arguing and telling each other how they’re doing it all wrong.

- as much as armin would like to think he’s good with children, he absolutely isn’t. this baby hates him.

- eren, however, had no will to be there. he’s only babysitting for the money.

- but he will try to help at least a little

- the two of them are whisper-shouting at each other, saying “no, give me the baby,” over and over again just tossing this poor child between two sets of arms

- “i was gone for 5 minutes.”

- mikasa will be able to take the baby from eren’s hands and the second the baby opens her eyes, she’ll stop crying. mikasa just has that charm on anymore.

- the boys are obviously confused, but utterly thankful the crying is over.

- great, now just three hours left.

—

jean, sasha, connie

- who and their right mind trusted these three with a fucking baby?

- the second historia drops off the baby, they go off to do something else.

- “hey sasha, wanna play wii?”

- “hey hey hey, wait, we have a baby to take care of!”

- sasha and connie will look at jean with a blank face, eyes bored and ignore him completely.

- jean’s left holding the baby, probably like a football or far away from his chest because, once again, who and their right mind trusted them with a baby?

- the baby somehow doesn’t start crying until an hour into mario kart, the three of them almost completely forgetting about this child and immediately giving each other the, ‘oh fuck’ look.

- “what does it want?” “i was about to win!”

- since no one is standing up to see what the baby wants, jean has to after losing a game of rock paper scissors.

- he grabs the baby and holds her, nervously patting her back since he’s seen people do that from time to time.

- when the crying doesnt stop after 15 seconds, connies quick to complain and say he “can do so much better.” (no he cannot.)

- another five minutes pass and they’re all gripping their hair, nearly pulling it out of their scalps just because of this baby’s crying.

- “what if we dropped the baby off on someone’s porch?”

- “connie, it’s not our fucking baby!”

- they’ve tried everything. feeding, changing the diaper, burping, but nothings working.

- now this baby hates them.

- but who could blame her? because, i’ll say it one last time, who trusted these three with their baby?

—

reiner, annie, bertholdt

- they’re the most trustworthy with babies.

- they’re all weirdly really good at taking care of children? like, annie’s good at cradling the baby, bertholdt is good at changing diapers, and reiner is good at…well…sitting there and looking pretty.

- basically, annie and bertholdt don’t even trust reiner to hold the baby.

- he might be good, but he’s never given the chance to know for sure.

- “can i hold her now?”

- “no.”

- they know instantly what to do when she starts crying, which isn’t often since the baby has grown really fond of annie.

- not to mention, annie really likes this baby too. but she would never admit it.

- bertholdt’s extremely gentle with her, he’s scared he might hurt her if he doesn’t hold her like a feather.

- she looks like a little speck compared to him. he’s tall as hell, after all.

- and although he’s the older, taller, more mature one, he’s so intimidated by this 1 foot baby.

- she doesn’t even know how to say “hi”, yet he’s so scared to know what she’s thinking.

- “is she judging me? oh my god, does my breath smell bad, is that why she’s making that face?”

- like boy, calm down, she’s just a little gassy that’s why she’s making that face.

- reiner thinks every time the two of them are distracted he’ll get the chance to hold the baby, but no. it’s like they have eyes on the back of their head.

- although their babysitting might not be the most entertaining, it’s definitely the more productive route.

—

hange, levi, erwin

- oh boy.

- definitely not worse than jean, sasha, and connie, but still not good.

- in all honestly, hange has no idea how to get a baby to stop crying. not even a little bit. actually, hange’s only good at getting a baby to start crying.

- and that’s exactly what happens the second the baby is dropped off in their arms—she cries.

- “what? already?!”

- they all just kinda stare at her for a second before acting on something.

- they start with the basics, seeing if the baby needs a diaper change or if she’s hungry.

- and by they, i mean erwin and hange. levi wants nothing to do with this messy child.

- he’s only there because they asked, plus he knows erwin and hange are probably going to fuck up at some point.

- who trusted hange with babysitting?

- who trusted erwin with babysitting?

- “give me the baby”

- levi will take the baby from hange and probably determine she needs her diaper changed. but no way in hell he’s doing that.

- hange won’t mind, so they’ll do it.

- yikes, this baby won’t stop crying and now she probably hates all of them.

—

[laesas]

About the violence ask thing:

10,17,21,9,20,4

10. worst part of fanon

Daddy Chan. Every time there is a "subtle" background ChanBig where Big "slips up" and says "Yes daddy" I literally vomit into my own mouth. If i see it again I will start chundering into envelopes and mailing them to people as I see fit.

17. there should be more of this type of fic/art

Vers fics: When an author takes a "stereotypical" dynamic and plays with it, it tells me they've actually thought about the characters, their likes and dislikes and motivations. (it also says gay people like what they like during sex and it literally doesnt matter just like real life!! but that's besides the point!!).

I'm much more likely to read a ChayKim or PeteVegas oneshot *because* of an authors willingness to play around with character dynamics. I've read some outstanding PorscheKinn fics where Kinn is revealed as treating topping as the least 'gay' way to be gay (and as we learned in the very first scenes of KinnPorsche: "do you still like gelato" - being gay is treated as a weakness/thing to mock) so any exploration of being gay + sex acts as subversion/rebellion is so tasty delicious to me.

ALSO JUST KENBIG IN GENERAL. ANY ORDER. ANY TIME. THEYRE FUCKING. EVERYTHING. TO ME. OK GOOD.

21. part of canon you think is overhyped

Genuinely loathe to admit that I lost interest in Kinn x Porsche when they started being happy-clappy "in love" around episode 8-9. I apparently only love bitches with severe problems lmao.

9. worst part of canon

Other than the absolute tonal dissonance between some of the scenes (KimChay breakdown to helicopter sloppy my behated) - I think KinnPorsche completely missed a trick when it came to bodyguard deaths affecting the other bodyguards. I know I bang on about Big and Ken as my favourites, but having 2 of the highest ranking bodyguards die- one of which was a trusted traitor and one of which died protecting Porschem- affect??? noone??????? Especially when the fact that nobody mourned BIG - who died for Kinn's LOVE and for Porsche. The fact that Kinn barely mourned Big could have absolutely played a super interesting role in Pete's decision to leave. It could have sowed seeds of doubt in Porsche's trust of Kinn - and if they HAD left space for Kinn to grieve the loss of his closest bodyguard, it could have really reshaped Kinn and Porsche's whole dynamic in an interesting way.............. idk. I think it's a loose end and a poorly handled opportunity for interesting characterisation. But the extra time did make room for KinnPorsche fart jokes sooo it's fine. I'm not seething. :)

20. part of canon you found tedious or boring

I will defind Jeff Satur to the ends of the earth. BUT AND HOWEVER. I genuinely think that the direction for Kim's interactions with Chay were relatively poor and far too focused on Kim/Jeff looking pretty than like... showing genuine emotion. Barcode seemed to act rings around Jeff at times, and yet in scenes where he *was* allowed to show emotion (see bar scene and polaroid scene!!!) he fucking smashed it. But scenes like WDYS at the end lacked emotional depth because the production was too worried about Jeff looking good on camera for a music video clip rather than the emotional payoff of the scene...

I also think KimChay could/SHOULD have absolutely been lesbians. There's something so fucking lesbian about KimChay I could cry. I nominate Silvy Pavida as Kim and Fah Yongwaree as Chay. but that's just my lesbian opinion.

4. what was the last straw that made you finally block that annoying person?

fdhjkhsknhdajksh GOD. I honestly don't block all that often. I hate to end on an actually sour note but - just people treating the Build situation as "tea" or "entertainment" or "hashtag drama" when like...... it was just so serious to me. idk. I definitely blocked a few people that I personally think handled that badly.

That said while I generally dont block often, I did block someone yesterday for blazing stranger things fanfiction with no readmore onto my dashboard. It was like 6k+. It was just quicker to scroll up and block than get to the bottom of it haha

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