Lost and Found (OUAT fanfic) | Chapter 9
Fandom: Once Upon A Time
Pairing: Captain Swan
Author: cosette141
Words: 7k (this chapter) | 50k+ (so far)
Summary: (Begin Again sequel) Emma had felt lost nearly her whole life, and Killian had lost everything he’d ever found. That is, until they found each other. With the Crocodile dead and Cora turned good, it seems happy endings have returned. However, new crises arise, threatening the budding family between them and Henry. But this is a family that always finds each other… and they have yet to fail. CS, Anti-Neal
AO3
Chapter 9 (under the cut!)
"You'll find a home, too, Emma."
"Sorry, sweetheart, your boy took off."
"Tell me, or I'm gonna make you tell me."
"He's—"
"Emma!"
Emma's eyes snapped open.
Her heart was pounding. Fear was dark and suffocating, the cold sense of loneliness like a grip around her heart. But somehow, it was held at bay. Somewhere beyond it, she could feel arms around her.
And when such a thing would normally terrify her even more, it made her still.
She knew those arms.
"It's all right," came a familiar whisper, his voice a little distressed. "It's just me, love. You're safe."
Emma's eyes snapped up, following the voice, finding Killian, who was looking at her between relief and concern.
At the sight of him, she felt her own relief.
It was just a dream, then.
Emma shut her eyes briefly. They might have been dreams, but they weren't fiction.
They were the worst, loneliest moments of her life, and it was like she'd just lived them all over again. The echo of them played loudly in her head, making her flinch a little—Gold's cane—Neal's disappearance—both times—
"Emma, love," came Killian's voice, softer, a little bit of urgency, and her eyes opened, finding his eyes nervously on hers. When he had her attention, he smiled a little, something shaky but relieved. She felt his arms tighten around her a little; a reassurance.
And somehow, his touch eased the coldness of the nightmares away, like he'd known exactly what had been on her mind.
Emma felt herself sigh with her own relief, and her fingers found his jacket again; a reflex that was familiar now. She laid her head back on his chest for a moment, trying to remind her heart that she wasn't alone anymore.
"Are you all right, love?"
Emma looked at him. His voice was soft, his eyes concerned, his question hesitant.
It took Emma a moment to find her voice.
"Yeah," she whispered. "It… um, it was just a bad dream." She swallowed, trying to shake them off, her fingers only holding onto his jacket tighter. "Or… a lot of bad dreams."
Something sad colored his eyes, and it took him a moment to find his voice, too.
"Nightmares…" said Killian unsteadily, "are an unfortunate effect of the island." Taking a breath, voice a little pained, he said, "In Neverland, Lost Ones are forced to relive their abandonment in sleep."
As if she hadn't done that enough on her own.
Emma hadn't needed more reasons, but she really, really hated Neverland.
Pushing the dreams—the memories—away, trying to bury them where she usually tries to forget them, Emma sat up a little. "Your turn," she said, specifically ignoring the wordless inquiry in his expression, giving him a forced smile.
She didn't need to relive the memories for a third time, and Killian didn't press, only holding her a little closer to him, remedying the coldness in her chest like he'd known exactly how to do so.
But despite how exhausted Killian looked himself, it took quite a bit of Emma's insistence for Killian to finally agree to rest himself. It was as if he couldn't stand to leave her alone, even just in consciousness, after what he knew she'd just experienced.
It was again a gesture that touched her.
That anyone could be as selfless, as caring as Killian.
And more than that, that he would reserve such actions just for her.
But with the gentle reminder that he needed his own rest, that he couldn't protect her if he collapsed from exhaustion, Killian finally relented. However stubbornly. And Emma tried her best not to find his frustration just as touching, if not adorable.
Emma drew the cutlass from its sheath, holding the hilt with one hand, and his with her other. Killian adjusted himself to sleep, however he did so incredibly reluctantly.
He casted his gaze to the forest, like he was scanning as much of it as he could, making certain he was leaving her in relative safety, before looking back at her. There was something so desperate in his eyes, like a sheer resentment that he was human, that he needed sleep.
But he pulled her even closer to him, wrapping his arms around her even tighter, her free hand still in his. And his heavy gaze on hers, he repeated what he'd said earlier, words that sent a chill down her spine at the sheer fear they held. "Don't let go of me, Emma."
That fear in his eyes, that desperation, stilled her heart.
"I won't," she whispered, squeezing his fingers a little for his reassurance this time.
At her whispered promise, he finally, finally, shut his eyes.
Only to open them again, finding her still there, before shutting his eyes again.
And repeating that, three times more before finally shutting his eyes, and leaving them shut.
Emma had known she should keep her gaze on the forest, but she couldn't help watching him.
He'd canted his head back against the wall when he'd shut his eyes, but as she watched him, the wince in his features, the pain he carried with him, eased as he slipped from control. The tight grip of his arms lessened a bit, and his head slipped a little, falling to her shoulder.
And Emma suddenly found herself with a sleeping Captain Hook.
Emma found herself studying Killian's features, what he looks like without fear. And she smiled, still unable to believe that he was somehow hers.
It still, even though she's fallen asleep with him a few times now, stunned her that he relinquished his every control in her presence.
She knew him; knew him as Hook, and as Killian, and knew that he trusted nothing and no one.
But… he trusted her.
Not even just that—
He trusted her in the most frightening place he's ever known.
It was something that Emma would never, ever take for granted.
She just still didn't quite know what it was she did, what it was about her, that had granted her such trust, such… devotion from him.
It suddenly made her think back to when she'd been with Neal.
She and Neal had a relationship she had thought was love, and… and maybe it was.
But it was also a relationship of convenience.
At the first sign of trouble, the first time Neal had to choose between something and her, he hadn't chosen her.
There was no devotion.
Even if she believed that he'd left her solely to make sure she found her parents and her destiny…
He didn't have to leave her in prison.
He didn't have to leave her alone in prison.
He didn't have to leave her, period.
He could have come back.
But he didn't.
She simply wasn't more important to him than freedom. From his father, or from anything.
He might have loved her, but he loved freedom more.
And from the conversation she and Neal had on the Jolly Roger, he hadn't changed one bit.
And Emma wondered why it felt like that hurt more now than it did way back then.
Emma pulled her gaze from the trees again to watch him
Killian had saved her life, risking his for both her and Henry, more than once.
And here he was, still protecting her, putting himself at risk when she was the one person the demon on this island wanted.
No one in her life had ever wanted to… to protect her before.
For the longest time, and even still, she hadn't ever felt like she was worth protecting. Or worth… anything, for that matter.
Killian made her feel like she was worth something.
And it was something she understood, because he was worth everything to her.
Emma felt something hitch in her chest, an echo from one of the dreams—nightmares—memories—she'd woken from.
"He's gone."
The worst of the nightmares, the one that chilled her more than any of the others.
The docks.
When they'd found Henry, and Killian was…
…gone.
Those minutes before Regina had located Killian on the globe, Emma had thought Killian was dead.
She'd once thought that the loneliest she'd ever felt was in the foster homes, watching families take every other child home, except her.
Then, she'd thought it was in prison, after Neal had left her.
And more recently, when Neal had left her again, to the mercy of his father.
But in those minutes after finding Henry alone on the docks…
Emma knew.
That moment was the loneliest she'd ever felt in her life.
Emma felt herself curl a little deeper into Killian, as close as she could get.
Killian was here with her, safe, though they weren't completely safe yet. However, Emma had already decided that she wasn't leaving here without him.
No matter what.
So, she made herself return her gaze to the forest, her other hand tightening around the hilt of the cutlass, determined to keep him as safe as he's kept her.
-.-.-.-.
It was a few hours later, of Emma watching the forest with a vigilance she hasn't used since her teen years, that Emma realized something she hadn't realized until now.
And it was when Killian had a 'nightmare' of his own.
But, again, not a nightmare—
A memory.
A little shudder ran through his form, and Emma had torn her gaze from the forest, finding his eyes still shut, his face drawn into a horrible wince.
And it had stilled her heart, the pain in his face, the hitch in his breath, the speed of his heart she felt through their touch.
"In Neverland, Lost Ones are forced to relive their abandonment in their sleep."
Abandonment.
He'd been abandoned.
But it truly only made sense, she realized then, that he had been abandoned.
It was the familiar pain in his eyes, the pain that could never really be healed. Scars that never truly went away.
It was the understanding they shared, that only seemed to grow deeper with time.
"Your parents… they don't understand what it's like to grow up the way we did."
We.
He'd said we.
How hadn't she caught that earlier?
Emma had suddenly realized that they had far more in common than she'd known—and they'd had plenty to begin with.
But before she could whisper her own attempt at easing his pain, something else caught her attention.
But it wasn't a noise.
It was a… lack of noise.
The jungles of Neverland were more ominously quiet than any forests Emma had ever known—even those in the Enchanted Forest—but even so, Neverland still had the general noises of nature.
Except, now, those noises were gone.
Emma's eyes on the forest, her hand around the hilt of her cutlass tightening until her knuckles were white, Emma felt her heart speed.
Nothing moved.
But every instinct in her told her they weren't alone.
And she had been alone enough in her life to know the difference.
Looking at Killian, who was still asleep, Emma whispered, "Killian." When he still slept on, her voice gaining a little more fear, she whispered, "Killian. Hook," she stressed, pulling her hand from his to shake his shoulder.
She didn't have to; the moment her fingers left his, his eyes snapped open, and his hand shot out to catch her wrist.
"Emma?" he said breathlessly, awake in an instant, a little disoriented, but no less panicked. His eyes found her, and she watched relief hit him like a tidal wave.
"Something's wrong," she whispered, and she felt Killian's body go rigid.
His hand on her wrist only tightened.
Killian's gaze snapped to the forest, and in half a second, his own instinct seemed to catch what hers did. Quickly, he looked at his sword still lying at his side, then his hand around Emma's wrist. Something tortured slipped through his eyes, and he met her eyes, something desperate in them.
Desperate, and terrified.
"My hook, love," he whispered quickly.
Understanding instantly, Emma's fingers wrapped around his hook, knuckles even whiter than her hand around her own sword.
They both stood carefully, Killian's eyes sharp and vigilant, scanning the forest like a predator.
Or, more like prey wary of the predator itself.
Approaching the opening of the little alcove that had seemed so safe only minutes ago, Killian pulled Emma behind him, his entire body so tense Emma thought he'd snap.
They stood there for a long moment, in that unnatural silence, waiting.
Until—
"Emma!"
Not a second later, Killian had knocked her to the ground, his body shielding hers as an arrow embedded itself in the wall of the hillside, right where they'd been standing.
"Run," breathed Killian, panic lacing the single word, sending an ice-cold chill down Emma's spine.
Killian pulled Emma to her feet, and they ran, disappearing into a set of trees just as a schwick of three arrows struck trees inches from them.
Emma's heart in her throat, she winced as bark sprayed from the close calls, and she and Killian only ran faster.
"Lost Boys," hissed Killian, both out of irritation and fear. "Their arrows are laced with Dreamshade—poison," he said breathlessly as they ran. "Stay close to me!" he breathed, more desperate than Emma's ever heard him.
She needed no encouragement, but sheathed her sword, grabbing his elbow with her other hand in a death grip.
Killian took a sharp right, and Emma followed seamlessly, flashes of running from cops from years ago running through her mind, but she had never been this scared before.
Back then, she'd had nothing to lose.
But an arrow suddenly whistled through the trees from the direction they were heading, and Killian pulled Emma sharply into him, grabbing her and yanking them both out of the way as the arrow sailed an inch over his shoulder, embedding in a tree behind them.
Footsteps were suddenly running toward them.
"This way," breathed Killian, pulling her through the trees, finding themselves running through a clearing, heading for an even darker part of the jungle, an easier place to get lost.
But halfway through—
"Emma, get down!"
Killian was already pulling her down, bringing them both crashing to the ground once again, his body again shielding hers, a whistle of air cutting inches over Killian's back.
The arrow implanted itself firmly in the trunk of a tree behind them with a thick schink, and Emma's heart pounded in her throat.
And jumping out of the shadows—
Lost Boys.
Four Boys appeared, each taking one corner of the clearing, inching in on them. All armed with arrows.
Killian and Emma were on their feet at once, Emma's fingers still clutching Killian's hook like a lifeline. Both she and Killian, back-to-back, eyed the Boys.
They were surrounded.
She could feel Killian shake.
"We can do this the easy way or the hard way, Captain." said one of the Boys, seemingly the one in charge, who looked barely older than Henry. "Hand over the Savior, keep your life."
Killian's left arm flinched, pulling Emma even closer to him, her back hitting his. "Not a bloody chance," he hissed.
She could hear the shake in Killian's voice, in his muscles.
He knew how outnumbered they were, and how much a disadvantage they were at when the Boys had arrows, and themselves, only swords.
Emma's heart pounded.
The Boy stopped where he was, yards away from them, and the other Boys did as well. Emma and Killian were surrounded, and Emma was forgetting how to breathe.
"You heard 'im, boys," said the Boy, the hardness in his face only darkening. "Get the Savior—Pan needs her alive." Emma felt her heart stop at the same time a shudder ran through Killian. The Boy's gaze flicked to Killian. "Kill the pirate."
All four Boys aimed their arrows.
At Killian.
Emma only held Killian even tighter, hopelessness like a physical pain, feeling useless adrenaline racing through her—
She stilled.
Not adrenaline.
Magic.
She had magic.
Emma released Killian and shut her eyes.
The moment she released him, he flinched.
"Emma!" cried Killian.
But Emma just let his panic fuel her own, her absolute fear at the thought of losing him.
And it happened quicker than it did back in Storybrooke, in Gold's shop.
The thought of protecting Killian rushed magic through her like an electric current.
Her eyes snapped open, and she felt the magic rush to her fingers.
Safe.
Safe.
Safe.
The word kept repeating in her own head like a desperate mantra.
And then…
It worked.
An intense white light erupted from her hands, exploding out from her, circling both herself and Killian, just as the Boys released their arrows.
Emma felt Killian move to attack, but the arrows didn't even reach him.
The moment they reached the wall of light, they snapped on impact.
Her magic was like a shield.
The Boys had cowered from the light, shielding their eyes, but now that it settled, hovering around herself and Killian, one Boy growled aloud and attacked it with a sword, but it was like he'd struck cement. He grunted, staggering back.
And Emma shut her eyes, envisioning what she wanted, needed, every ounce of her fear fueling her magic.
And she breathed out.
As she did, the light exploded outward, throwing all four Lost Boys backward, crashing them into the dirt, unconscious.
The light slowly faded, leaving Emma and Killian standing alone in the clearing.
Safe.
"Emma…" breathed Killian, whirling around to look at her, eyes wide with shock. And then she was suddenly crushed in his embrace, one that she reciprocated just as tightly. "Thank the bloody gods," he whispered.
He was safe.
They were safe.
Her heart was still pounding, and through their touch, his was, as well.
"Emma, you're bloody amazing," he breathed over her shoulder.
Emma felt tears sting a little at the words, and she let out a shuddering breath, a shaky smile finding its way to her lips.
"Come," he said quickly, however, sheathing his sword to take her hand with his, as if he didn't trust his hook to keep her close. "Before they awake."
They didn't stop running for what felt like ages, putting as much distance between themselves and the Lost Boys as they could.
But finally, out of breath, they stopped, and Killian was pulling Emma to him in another crushing embrace. One she again met with just as much ferocity as he did, burying her head in his chest.
"That was scary," she breathed, out of breath.
"Aye," he agreed, just as exhausted. Emma felt his hand at the back of her head, pulling her into him even closer. "We need to find your parents and get the bloody hell out of here," he said breathlessly.
"But how?" whispered Emma, unable to keep the doubt from shaking the words. They pulled back a little, and he casted his gaze around the forest, that looked just as identical as every other part of it. "They could be anywhere." she said, brows kneading.
Killian let out a frustrated breath. "Aye," he agreed with a furrow in his own brow as they scanned the trees. "We could be walking bloody circles around them."
Emma took a shuddering breath, feeling her heart just begin to slow down, following his gaze just as hopelessly. "I just wish there was a way to find them," she whispered. "Or even Neal," she said with an exhausted sigh. "He and I used to have this, like, code to find each other—something he made up in case one of us got in trouble, but it was through newspaper ads and—"
Killian suddenly froze.
He pulled back from her sharply, whispering, "That's it."
"What?" asked Emma, hope soaring in her chest at the look in his eyes.
But Killian only drew his sword, and used the tip to draw a series of cuts and crosses in the trunk of a tree.
Emma lifted a brow. "What's that?"
"A map," he murmured, a wistful look in his eyes, as he approached another tree, seemingly at random, drawing another series of different cuts and crosses into the bark.
"A map to what?" asked Emma, watching him do the same to a third tree.
"Us," he said, continuing the trend of what looked like a completely random choice of trees, and seemingly random symbols on each.
"I'm not sure my parents will be able to read that," said Emma, brows kneading.
"It's not meant for your parents," said Killian, giving her a little smile.
"Who, then?" asked Emma.
"Baelfire," said Killian, something heavy in the way he said the name.
"Neal taught you one of those codes when you were both here?" Emma asked, brows raising, hope rising.
But something shifted in his gaze, and he said, "It was something I taught him."
Emma felt herself pause with surprise.
And, yet again, wondered what the hell Neal and Killian's history was.
"Do you think he remembers it?" asked Emma breathlessly, watching Killian continue to leave the markings.
Looking at Emma, desperate hopefulness in his own eyes, he said, "I bloody well hope so."
-.-.-.-.
Mary Margaret walked closely to David as they trekked through the Neverland jungle, Neal ahead of them, cutting their path as they found dead end after dead end after dead end.
Mary Margaret was no stranger to woodlands, especially dangerous ones, as most of her travels were in a land rife with Regina's spies and the Royal Guard.
But this land…
It was like none she's ever seen.
It was ominous, it was dark, and it was chilling despite the fairly tepid temperature of the island.
The idea of Emma out there, all on her own, lost…
A shiver shot down her spine.
With the tense silence between her and David, every one of those dead ends only tightening their muscles more, Mary Margaret's mind traitorously sank into all of the feelings she's tried so hard to push away.
But maybe if she never pushed them away, pushed Emma away, they would not have lost her in the first place.
Every footstep drilled more guilt, more regret into her.
How could she have wasted all the time she's had Emma back? How could she have ignored her own daughter's suffering?
How could she have left her in the first place?
No matter what was at stake?
And only making it worse, only sinking the claws of guilt into her more, was the nightmare she'd had, that she couldn't seem to shake.
Never before has she had a dream that felt so… real.
She could still feel the emotions linger, even after several hours.
Loneliness.
Hopelessness.
A sadness that was like a physical, cold grip around her heart.
As much as she tried to shake it off, she couldn't.
She just kept thinking about what it would have been like for her to have grown up like that, without parents. If her parents had left her, willingly, even if it was to protect the Kingdom.
It only intensified what she felt, and she knew without a doubt that she wouldn't have cared who it would have saved.
She would have been absolutely, completely devastated.
Just like the little girl in her dream.
Just like—
Mary Margaret again tried to shake herself free of the emotions, heat prickling at her eyes, and she found herself looking even more adamantly through the trees for any sign of Emma.
Mary Margaret was a little surprised that David hadn't commented on her silence, as ever since Emma had disappeared yesterday, David had taken immediate note of her tension, her fear, and would whisper something hopeful to her every few minutes.
But he's been just as silent, just as… withdrawn as she's been.
And it suddenly made her pause, because she didn't realize that until now.
She looked at him. He wasn't looking at her; his brows were drawn together, eyes scanning the trees, but something was going on in his mind, too. He seemed a million miles away.
"David?"
He jumped at her soft voice, like he forgot she was there.
"You okay?" she whispered, though she knew neither of them would be until they found Emma and brought her back home safe.
David let out a breath. His brows kneaded again, tighter, like he was trying to decide whether or not to speak. But he finally relented, "I… I ended up having a nightmare last night, too, and…" Something sad passed through his eyes. "I'm just having trouble… shaking it."
Mary Margaret's brows lifted in surprise. Her own brows kneading, she said, "Do you want to… talk about it?"
He hesitated a long moment, like he wasn't sure. Then, "It… it just hit a little too close to home, I guess." His voice caught a little, and her hand instinctively grabbed his free hand.
David barely reacted.
As if he had to force himself, David unsteadily began, "In my dream, there was this… little girl."
Mary Margaret's hand dropped from his in shock.
David didn't notice, continuing, "She was—"
"—in an orphanage," finished Mary Margaret in a whisper, face whiter than her namesake.
David's eyes snapped to hers in shock. "How did you know—?"
"I had the same dream," she breathed. "She was… she was huddled in bed, and—"
"—wishing for her parents." finished David, the words barely audible.
Mary Margaret felt tears touch her eyes, and she nodded, unable to find her voice.
They were both caught in the silence for a moment, both reliving the same moment from their dreams.
"How can we have had the same dream?" whispered David. "Neal said we weren't even supposed to dream here…"
"I don't know," she said just as hollowly. She wiped a tear that fell. Eyes welling with more, she looked at her husband. "David, it was horrible. I've… I've never felt like that before. It was… it was like I could feel what that little girl felt."
David's eyes were tortured. Moisture in his own, he said, "Do you think that's how she felt?"
He didn't say her name, but Mary Margaret knew exactly who he meant.
Mary Margaret felt another tear burn down her cheek, having wondered that with every single footstep since.
A tear slipped down David's cheek. "How could we leave her?"
His words were barely more than a breath.
They were laced with the same raw guilt Mary Margaret felt under her skin.
After a moment, Mary Margaret wiped her tears. "We'll find her. And… and we'll make it right."
David gave her a smile that was anything but happy, but he nodded.
"Guys."
Mary Margaret and David suddenly looked ahead, where Neal stood a few yards ahead of them, stopped next to a tree. He was staring at the trunk with a sort of shock.
Mary Margaret and David approached him. "Did you find something?" asked Mary Margaret eagerly.
"Yeah," said Neal, reaching out to touch the bark of the tree, and Mary Margaret could see a series of cuts and crosses that looked fresh.
"What is that?" asked David.
A hint of a smile touched Neal's lips. "A map."
"To what?" asked David.
Neal looked up, his eyes settling on a tree a few paces away, with a different set of cuts and crosses. "Hook."
"Hook?" echoed David, brows shooting up. "How do you know he did this?"
"Because," said Neal softly. "He was the one who taught it to me."
Mary Margaret's brows lifted. She looked around, seeing almost every tree in the vicinity with a mess of cuts and crosses, all different. She couldn't even begin to try to decipher it. "How can you read that?"
Neal, with a newfound vigor, straightened. "I… spent some time with Hook when I was here." Something unreadable passed through his eyes. He shook himself. "Long story short, he created this specific code just for the two of us in case we got separated."
"So…" said David slowly. "If Hook made this, then… he escaped Pan?" asked David with surprise.
At the idea, Mary Margaret felt the ghost of a smile at her lips, at finally hearing some good news.
"Yeah," said Neal. "These aren't more than an hour old." said Neal, inspecting the cuts in the bark. "And…" He looked at them, smiling faintly. "Emma's with him."
Both Mary Margaret and David looked at him with shock.
Hope rose so sharply in Mary Margaret's chest it stole her breath.
"How—how do you know?!" she asked breathlessly.
"Because," said Neal, "he made this for me to find; I'm the only one who can read it. He couldn't have known I'd be here unless Emma told him."
Mary Margaret and David exchanged a look.
That hope rose, and it chased away some of the numbness that had set in ever since they lost Emma.
She wasn't alone.
She wasn't alone.
She was with Killian.
And he was alive.
"Let's follow it!" breathed Mary Margaret desperately.
"Let's."
The unfamiliar voice made all three of them flinch.
Neal, Mary Margaret, and David spun around, drawing weapons as one, and David moving reflexively a step in front of Mary Margaret.
And standing in the path behind them, was a boy.
A boy who looked no older than sixteen, with an arrogance like a cologne.
A boy who grinned, like he'd just drawn a winning hand.
A boy that Mary Margaret had a very cold, horrible feeling she knew the name of.
"Run!" breathed Neal, utter panic in the word.
For the first time, even David heeded Neal's instruction without argument. But before any of them could even move an inch, they were seized from behind by Lost Boys who appeared like ghosts out of the darkness of the jungle.
Mary Margaret, Neal and David fought desperately, but the Lost Boys were even stronger than adult soldiers. Mary Margaret's heart pounded, hope disintegrating as quickly as it had come.
"My," said the boy, with arrogance that made Mary Margaret's muscles only tighten more. "What a greeting." With an even more smug grin, he said, "I would have thought grown ups had better manners than that." That smug grin had a sharpness that made the hair rise on the back of Mary Margaret's neck. "Let me introduce myself." His smile grew. "I'm Peter. Peter Pan."
Mary Margaret had already known who this boy was from the fear in Neal's voice, but his introduction, the proof, chilled her to the core.
She had faced many evils in her life, Rumplestiltskin, Regina and Cora at the top of that list.
But, somehow, this boy radiated evil more than all three combined.
Pan's gaze suddenly settled on Neal, who had gone ghost-white.
Without a word, the two Lost Boys who were each restraining one of Neal's arms, dragged him toward Pan. He fought every step, teeth clenched, a growl escaping him.
"Now, Bae," drawled Pan, taking a step closer to him. "Is that any way to greet an old friend?"
Neal glared at him, but said nothing.
"Is that any way to thank me?" asked Pan, with a fake-hurt voice. "I did let you leave Neverland, didn't I?"
"I escaped," Neal ground out.
"Have you, though?" countered Pan, gesturing to the forest, and Neal's skin lost another shade of color.
"Release us now!" demanded David as he fought the hold on him, voice barely containing his fury, and underneath it, his own fear.
And it only sped Mary Margaret's heart more, because she could count on one hand the amount of times she's seen David scared.
"Henry isn't here," said Mary Margaret, a heat of both relief and fear in the words. "And you're not going to get him." she said firmly, even when her voice shook a little.
Pan's grin, that Mary Margaret had expected to falter, only grew.
"Then," said Pan slyly, "it's a good thing I don't need him."
Confusion sparked between Mary Margaret, David and Neal, in a moment of hesitation.
What?
"Then what the hell do you want?" growled David.
There was that smug grin, even wider than before.
"I want," said Pan, grin even wider, "Emma Swan."
Mary Margaret's heart stopped.
David's struggles froze.
Emma.
Emma.
Pan wanted Emma.
Panic like no other took hold of Mary Margaret's heart, and suddenly she couldn't breathe.
Neal had only gone whiter.
"I never needed Henry," Pan went on, amused with their fear. "My plan had always been to use Henry to lure Emma." said Pan, something even more twisted in his expression. "And how charming to see Emma's loving parents so worried about her." He turned his gaze to Mary Margaret and David. "However…" His gaze burned into theirs, mock confusion making him tilt his head. "Didn't you abandon her so she could save you?"
That struck both of them hard enough to nearly make them stagger.
"What do you want with Emma?!" demanded Mary Margaret.
"I'm surprised you're concerned," said Pan flippantly. "Abandoning your child, and then leaving them alone in Neverland?" He took another step toward her, coldness replacing the smugness as Mary Margaret's heart fell to her shoes. "Quite the parents you two are. She's an orphan without and with you."
The words were like ice driven into Mary Margaret's heart.
David looked like he'd been punched.
"And how convenient, that I am looking for the Savior," drawled Pan, advancing on Neal, who was still frozen with shock and fear and defeat. "And the one person able to decode the pirate's map to her location is right here."
Neal was whiter than the moon.
"Release us now!" David burst out again, furious words backed with every fear and hurt that had struck him all the same.
"I don't think I will," said Pan, finally losing the smug grin. "Taking her by force has proved more… difficult than I had anticipated." His eyes gave away just how frustrated it seemed to make him. "It's only sensible to use you two as some… motivation for her surrender."
No.
Emma.
Mary Margaret fought.
"Leave her alone!" she cried.
But Pan just took another step toward her, nose inches from hers, and he said, "Is that your answer to everything?"
And her voice died in her throat, her struggles ceasing as a tear burned down her cheek.
Then, Pan turned to Neal.
"Why, where are my manners? This is no way to welcome back a friend, is it?" said Pan with a mock-pout. "Boys, release him."
The Lost Boys restraining Neal let him go.
"Ah, ah, ah," said Pan when Neal jerked toward Mary Margaret and David, and suddenly the Boy holding Mary Margaret pressed a blade to her throat.
The knife was cold, sharp and barbarically made, and Mary Margaret gasped.
"Mary Margaret!" cried David, trying to get free, stark fear in his eyes.
"I only need one of her parents to use as leverage. If I have to, I have no problem killing one of them." said Pan, all amusement gone and replaced with a coldness that would have made Rumplestiltskin look harmless in comparison. "If you try to save either of them," said Pan darkly, "I'll kill the Queen, and Felix will kill you, Bae." He snapped his fingers, and suddenly another Lost Boy had appeared, almost as wicked-looking as Pan himself, a sword in his grip, held threateningly in Neal's direction.
Neal was frozen, looking from the knife at Mary Margaret's throat and the sword at his.
"Go ahead and try, Baelfire," said the Boy with the sword to Neal—Felix. "If it was up to me," he snarled, "I'd have killed you for your disloyalty the moment you stepped foot back on Neverland."
The glare Neal shot Felix was fueled with so much anger she thought he'd explode.
"I'll tell you what," said Pan to Neal. "In addition to sparing the Queen and letting you live, I'll offer you a deal."
The word deal made Neal flinch.
"Not. Interested." Neal ground out, utter contempt radiating from each word.
"But you haven't heard what I have to offer," drawled Pan, grinning something Mary Margaret would see in her nightmares for years to come. "I am prepared to offer you what you want most." That smile only deepened. "Emma."
All three of them froze.
"Yes," said Pan at the shock in Neal's eyes, slowly circling him like a vulture. "I know how much you care for her."
Something horribly pained passed through Neal's eyes.
As did something unreadable.
Something that looked like a sad kind of hope.
And it made Mary Margaret's heart stop.
"I only need Emma's power," drawled Pan to Neal, stopping in front of him. "You follow that path," he gestured to the markings on the trees, "you get her to come to me willingly…" He smiled. "And you can have her when I'm done with her."
Ice slid through Mary Margaret's veins.
Emma.
No.
Gods, no.
"Don't listen to him!" growled David, fighting the arms on him even harder. "Don't you dare!"
"Don't, Neal!" cried Mary Margaret, wincing when the knife pressed harder against her throat. "Whatever–whatever happens to us doesn't matter!" Her eyes burned. If it was their lives or Emma, she didn't have to think.
She'd die before anyone could even touch her daughter.
"Don't do this!" breathed Mary Margaret desperately. "Don't! He's lying to you, Neal!"
Neal looked frozen to the spot, utterly unsure of what to do.
Pan smiled at his indecision, like one would when they knew they had a fish on the hook.
"Emma, Bae," drawled Pan enticingly. "Everything you've ever wanted can be yours."
Neal was a statue.
Taking a step toward him, Pan tilted his head. "If it's the pirate you're worried about, I can take care of that for you." He smiled sickly. "I'll kill him; get him out of the way." A gasp escaped Mary Margaret's throat, and David went frighteningly still. Pan ignored them, continuing, "What other chance do you have of getting her, Bae? Let me help you." He stepped closer to Neal, who looked utterly torn. "All you have to do," said Pan, voice slick like poison, "is help me."
Emma.
Killian.
No.
"Neal, don't," breathed Mary Margaret, a tear burning down her cheek.
Pan grinned at Neal, who was still frozen. "All you need to do," said Pan, "is follow the pirate's path, and get Emma Swan to Skull Rock. Get her to come to me willingly. Tell her…" He smiled. "Tell her it's just about saving her parents." When Neal was still stock-still, Pan took a step closer to him, voice slick with twistedness. "I'll make you look like a hero. I'll make it look like you tried desperately to save her parents and her pirate from their deaths. You'll be the shoulder Emma can cry on."
"He's lying," breathed Mary Margaret desperately, ignoring the sting of the knife at her throat. "Neal, please!"
"Don't you dare, Neal," growled David, unhinged anger and panic tearing through his voice.
Neal looked at her and David, then back to Pan, a war of emotion in his eyes.
Then, he looked at the marks on the trunk of the tree.
And, slowly, turned back to Mary Margaret and David.
With an expression like an apology.
Then, he turned around, and ran through the trees.
And Pan grinned.
"Neal, DON'T!" cried Mary Margaret, a tear burning down her cheek, as she fought.
"You son of a—!" growled David, fighting even harder.
"Drug them," came Pan's sharp, cold voice, "and take them to Skull Rock."
Emma.
Emma.
No.
Panic shot through her light lightning.
She fought, and fought and fought—
Until she felt a sharp prick at her shoulder.
Weakness traveled through her instantly, and she and David both collapsed in the hold of the Boys, everything going black.
But as their vision wavered with loosening strength, Pan leaned into their blurring vision. "Don't worry," he said with mock-concern. "You'll see your daughter again. One last time." That wickedness was back, as he hissed, "Before I kill all of you."
And just like her hope, Mary Margaret was gone.
-.-.-.
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