#anti oso

[alucience]

Final WIP

[kraviolis]

my blood fucking boils about how it isn't just a coincidence that the 'afro' part of luz & camila being afro-latina only started being shown more after season 2 in the same exact way the owl house crew got super explicit with how queer their characters are, because it wasnt like they could cancel it twice

[radio-charlie]

Guys did you know it's somehow less fascist to nudge the global south anti-imperialist left in self-destructive directions and co-opt antifascist discussions to drive sinophobia for your sugar daddy than it is to make fat weeb jokes on a 0 note blog

[anonymous-dentist]

Real ones remember my first ever qsmp fic being a Roier-centric superhero au in which Spiderman is dead after being killed by semi-immortal anti-hero Agent Oso over a mysterious white dog named Osito Bimbo, but that’s fine. Spiderman is dead, but Roier is alive, and he’s going to fucking kill Agent Oso, and he’s going to use a goddamn gun to do it

[campanauz]

La frustrazione di avere un nodo in gola da mesi e non trovare le parole corrette per esprimersi.

Questo è uno di quei momenti in cui invidio gli intellettuali veri, quelli che scrivono per mestiere, quelli che fanno della comunicazione corretta un mestiere-mi viene sempre in mente la Murgia che si spiegava con milioni di termini e non ne sbagliava uno, che nella sua abbondanza era asciutta e perfetta, sapevi esattamente cosa intendeva dire- mentre invece io sono qui con un nodo in gola da mesi, dicevo, perché non sono abbastanza: non abbastanza ebrea da essere chiamata in causa, non abbastanza neutrale per poter sparare sentenze sui social, non abbastanza orfana per dare un dispiacere a mia nonna e dire apertamente cosa penso.

Non oso nemmeno dire di essere angosciata, guardo mia figlia e penso: se la perdessi per colpa di una guerra probabilmente mi farei esplodere, distruggerei tutto, e poi prego e mi sento in colpa perché mia figlia è al sicuro e il mondo è pieno di merda e io sono una sola e in mezzo a dichiarazioni orrende e nessuno con cui possa parlarne.

L'unica cosa che mi ha fatto sentire almeno un pochino meno stronza è questa lettera. (riportata dall'avvenire) dove per la prima volta qualcuno che appartiene al mio stesso gruppo genetico dice qualcosa in cui mi riconosco.

Poi dicono che le parole non sono importanti.

[writergeekrhw]

Hello good sir! Was watching "Improbable Cause"/"The Die is Cast" and was wondering why Oso doesn't try to break the quantum stasis anti-changeling device Garak tortures him with? It doesn't appear protected by anything. So couldn't he have just made Smashy Smashy with it as soon as he found his shape shifting powers gone? Especially if it's a prototype... nothing to replace it with...

Uh... I have no idea.

Not one of mine though!

/dodges blame/

[littlebunnylb]

🐻🐻‍❄️🐼🐻🐻‍❄️🐼🐻🐻‍❄️🐼🐻🐻‍❄️

🐾 shows for cubs! 🐾

🐻 we bare bears

🐻‍❄️ we baby bears

🐼 the adventures of paddington

🐻 care bears

🐻‍❄️ berenstein bears

🐼 shirokuma cafe

🐻 special agent oso

🐻‍❄️ little bear

🐼 stillwater

🐻 teddy trucks

🐻‍❄️ bear in the big blue house

🐼 winnie the pooh

🐻 goldie and bear

if you want something added, message me, send an ask, or put it in the tags/comments/replies!

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[alucience]

WIP Animatic

[arafolet]

Cuando el "al-HATEam" se hizo real...

Tengo muchos sentimientos encontrados luego de hacer la misión de Haitham, y no en el buen sentido.

Todo iba bien, maravilloso, hasta que llegué a la parte donde aparece Kaveh...

No sé si es porque estoy sobre-estimando al personaje o simpleme estoy molesta por todos los deseos que ha hecho gastar el desgraciado (incluso llegué a pensar "vaya, qué desperdicio de desos"), pero bajó en mi lista de favoritos de manera escandalosa. Tampoco es que fuera muy fan del personaje de todos modos, pero sí admito que me interesaba.

Eso, añadiendo el martirio de que el juego se cerrara cada cinco minutos por la horrible señal de internet...

En medio de mi frustración decidí ver alguna cosa random en Netflix, nomás para quitarme la negatividad de encima.

Tal vez fue mi inestabilidad emocional lo que me llevó tomar una decisión tan masoquista como para ver una serie que por todos lados te dice "ESTO ES UN OTOME", género que odio con mi vida uwu

Los primeros capítulos son PURO CRINGE, donde te lanzan en la cara todos clichés de juegos/animes simuladores de citas, explicados por la criatura más desesperante y castrosa del universo. Tratando de convencer a la protagonista de porqué es necesario darle relevancia al romance en la vida. Al comienzo tratan de ocultar(y ni tanto) el mensaje machista con chistes incómodos y muchas acciones ridículas.

La historia va de eso, obligar a la protagonista a cumplir con el estereotipo emocional para una chica: enamorarse.

De la nada aparece Riri, un ser mágico, con forma de papa con orejas de oso y traje de mago, que ha venido de otro mundo para poner en marcha un proyecto de dudosa calidad moral, donde OBLIGAN al sujeto seleccionado a entablar una relación romántica por medio de chantaje, confiscando previamente sus 3 objetos más preciados en la vida, ya que estos son los responsables de desviar la atención de la protagonista de sus potenciales parejas.

Riri es un personaje desagradable en todo sentido, carece de empatía y es completamente insensible a los sentimientos humanos. Fuerza situaciones "románticas" cada vez que se le da la gana y poco le importa si eso perjudica a alguien más.

Anzu como protagonista es preciosa, calificada por el bicho castroso como "La anti-heroína clásica", es la clase de chica que prefiere pasar sus ratos libres jugando videojuegos en su habitación y comiendo dulces. Tiene una obsesión con su gato Momohiki que utilizan como chiste recurrente, aunque a veces es algo incómodo. Anzu es muy carismática, tiene una personalidad fuerte y explosiva, pero la sensatez suficiente para no entrar en la etiqueta "protagonista estúpida de otome", en realidad, en la mayoría de casos ella acaba cumpliendo con el rol de "príncipe"

Además de la enorme variedad de exagerada caricaturización de en Anzu (y Riri) en diferentes situaciones. Es tan incómodo como gracioso... xD

Los primeros capítulos son insufribles. Estos se centran en Riri tratando de "convencer" a Anzu de cómo ha desperdiciado su vida al evitar el romance, y las situaciones absurdas que provoca para "incentivarla" a "tomar el camino correcto". Todo eso basado en clichés de simuladores de citas como:

-Chocar con un chico guapo al dar vuelta en una esquina mientras corres con una tostada en la boca por ir tarde a la escuela.

-Quedarse a solas con un chico guapo mientras no hay nadie en casa.

-Que tu amigo de la infancia tenga sentimientos románticos por ti pero trate de ocultarlos, aunque sea demasiado evidente.

Entre muchos, MUCHOS otros clichés de anime.

Odié cada vez que pronunciaban "chico guapo", y lo hacían al menos seis o siete veces por capítulo...

Pasamos a los "novios potenciales" de Anzu~

La verdad, estuve muy reacia a seguir con la serie porque me incomodan muchísimo los "harem", o harem reverso en este caso, así que la verdad no esperaba mucho de esto.

Para mi fortuna, con el paso de los capítulos la serie pasa de ser un puñado de cringe a una constante burla hacia los otome. Pero sí, hay situaciones que resultan muy lindas, que curiosamente son las que se dan de forma natural y no debido a las intervenciones inoportunas de Riri.

Y también debo admitir que los chicos son encantadores.

El primer "candidato" que nos presentan es Kazuki Tsukasa, a quién nos presentan como el típico ikemen de carácter frío y reservado que rechaza a las chicas nomás porque quiere... (?)

En realidad, es un chico amable y comprensivo, pero intenta mantenerse al margen para evitar que sus acciones le lleven nuevamente a una situación complicada.

Como consecuencia de las artimañas de Riri, acaba viviendo en la casa de Anzu, forzando una serie de situaciones domésticas que podrían impulsar la relación entre ambos. Poco a poco Kazuki comienza a sentir aprecio por Anzu, pero sigue siendo muy prudente con la forma en que se relaciona con ella. Cuando él le aclara que tampoco tiene intenciones de establecer una relación romántica, ambos comienzan a tener una relación más fluida y amena, irónicamente.

Los últimos capítulos tratan mayormente sobre él y nos cuentan con más detalle su pasado y todo lo que ha debido soportar en los últimos años.

Posiblemente mi personaje favorito ywy 💕

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Hayami Junta se presenta como el segundo "novio potencial" para Anzu.

El amigo de la infancia que está perdidamente enamorado de la protagonista pero no se atreve a confesarle sus sentimientos. Un chico honesto y considerado, quizá un poco ingenuo, con algunos problemas de autoestima... Es adorable.

En un comienzo, Anzu cree que Riri le ha lavado el cerebro con sus poderes mágicos, pues el chico aparece repentinamente en su puerta por la mañana, pero ella no tiene idea de quién es. Para evitarse mayores problemas Anzu decide seguirle el juego, y se sorprende al percatarse de que, efectivamente, Junta sabe muchas cosas de su pasado, pero ella asume que Riri aplicó control mental sobre él.

¿Plot twist para Junta? Resulta que efectivamente fue el amigo de la infancia de Anzu, pero la transformación que tuvo durante la adolescencia (y el hecho que se mudara a otra ciudad por 3 años) dio como resultado que fuera imposibles para Anzu reconocerlo. Pues desconocía su nombre real y simplemente lo recordaba como "Tonta" (en el doblaje latino lo llamaron "Tontata" para que no sonara raro), el niño gordito y tímido que jugaba videosjuegos raros con ella.

Tras un incidente con un ladrón de ropa interior (japoneses y sus fetihes...), nuevamente forzado por Riri, la mamá de Junta le ofrece a Anzu dejárselo como guardaespaldas, todo bajo el argumento de "una chica no puede vivir sola e indefensa".

De modo que acaban los tres viviendo en la casa de Anzu. Aunque, contrario a los planes de Riri, en lugar de potenciar la interacción romántica con alguno de ellos, tanto Kazuki como Junta acaban siendo la barrera del otro.

Antes de llegar al tercer "novio potencial", se me ocurrió la maravillosamente estúpida idea de revisar como eran las voces originales, porque hasta el capítulo 6 había visto todo en el doblaje latino.

El karma funciona rapidísimo conmigo...

Mi mundo se vino abajo cuando descubrí que mi precioso Kazuki tiene la voz de Umehara... O sea, comparte voz con Al-Haitham... ¿¡¡POR QUÉ ME TIENEN QUE PASAR ESTAS COSAS A MI!!? OTL

Como sea, eso no hará que mi amor por Kazuki disminuya, lo que ha hecho es salvar a Haitham de irse al banquillo de los indeseados con Keqing.

De hecho, ahora me parece gracioso.

Y por último ~

Koganei Hijiri es el típico niño rico que vive en su burbuja de grandeza y cuyo ego solo es comparable al tamaño de la galaxia. Representa al estereotipo de príncipe malcriado que se ve afectado por el rechazo de la protagonista, pasando de ser un completo narcisista a un tsundere en pocos pasos. A medida que avanza la historia reduce su uso de la palabra "plebeyos".

¿Lo mejor que tiene Hijiri?

OBVIAMENTE hablamos de la voz de Hanae Natsuki, que por más chillón o desalmado que sean sus personajes es casi imposible odiarlos.

Y, por supuesto: Tsuchiya. Su chofer/mayordomo/guardaespaldas. Interpretado por el todo poderoso: Tsuda Kenjiro, o sea, Dainsleif.

[unhonestlymirror]

"On December 15, 1937, after the directive No. 50215 signed by N. Yezhov, the so-called "Greek operation" of the NKVD began. In 1937-38, everything that supported the Greeks after the loss of their homeland - the Greek language, schools, technical schools, publishing houses, theaters - were canceled and banned.

The command for the deployment of national operations on the February-March Plemun Central Committee was given by Stalin. It was he who declared about the bourgeois countries "which surround the Soviet Union, waiting for an opportunity to attack it, smash it, or, in any case, undermine its power and weaken it." These states, Stalin argued, "send twice, three times as many wreckers, spies, saboteurs, and murderers into the rear of the Soviet Union." Greeks were also among the "objectionable foreigners."

The most massive and bloody was the "Polish" operation. In addition to it, the following operations were carried out: "Romanian"; "Latvian" - it was first extended to Estonians, Lithuanians and Finns, but then a separate "Finnish" operation was carried out; "German"; "Bulgarian" and "Macedonian"; "Korean"; "Chinese". There were even "Iraqi" and "Afghan" operations. They also had a "Greek" one. Moreover, the Greeks were "taken" not only "Russian" (in the sense of Soviet), but also "Greek" - citizens of the Kingdom of Greece, who were in the USSR on completely legitimate grounds.

There was no connection with Greece, as with a capitalist country. During this period, the entire able-bodied male population aged 18 to 50 was shot or died in the camps. The exact number of victims has not yet been established. But it is known that the most bloody "Greek" operations were in the Donetsk region and the Krasnodar region. Only in Ukraine and only in the cases of "Greek counter-revolutionary organizations" in 1937-1938, 5474 people were arrested, and only in the one and only Donetsk region, only in January-October 1938, at least 3470 Greeks were shot according to the sentences of the OSO and the "troika". Only in the Krasnodar Territory in 1938, 5767 Greeks were repressed. Moreover, almost all, judging by the notes on the list, were shot, only literally a hundred or two were “lucky” - they were sent to camps. In total, today we can say that in December 1937 - May 1938, as part of the "Greek" operation of the NKVD, about 22 thousand Greeks were shot: 99% of the "Greek" executions occurred precisely in 1938. The logic was the same as during the executions by the Chekists of hundreds of thousands of all other Soviet citizens.

The basis for this work is the Greek colonies in the Rostov-on-Don and Krasnodar regions of the North Caucasus, Donetsk, Odesa and other regions of Ukraine, in Abkhazia and other republics of the Transcaucasus, in the Crimea, as well as widely scattered groups of Greeks in various cities and areas of the Union.

Directive No. 50215 dated December 11, 1937 read: “The materials of the investigation establish that the Greek intelligentsia is conducting active espionage, sabotage and insurgent work in the USSR, fulfilling the tasks of the British, German and Japanese intelligentsia."

“Along with espionage and sabotage work in the interests of the Germans and Japanese, Greek intelligentsia is developing active anti-Soviet nationalist activities, relying on a wide anti-Soviet stratum (fists-tobacco growers and gardeners, former merchants and entrepreneurs, smugglers, speculators, currency traders and others) among the Greek population of the USSR”.

The Greek intelligentsia and clergy were shot or completely repressed. This is what distinguishes Greek tragedy from the tragedies of other peoples. There was no one to pass on to the next generations the achievements of their Greek culture."

Source

[vampthropologist]

Informed by oso-san friend that I should put anti-incest things on my blog for my safety. If you didn't figure it out with Korekiyo Shinguji in my blog bio, I fucking can't stand incest!!!

[shouta-edits]

Oh my god I loved the OsoKara stimboard!! Thank you, thank you, thank you! I seriously am considering trying to make some kind of openly pro-ship kind of blog because shit is just way to complicated to reblog to any of my current blogs OTL. It just sucks that the Ososan fandom skews so heavily anti on this webbed site. Otherwise I'd be reblogging a bunch of your stuff, you're so great at this! Seriously the stimboard was perfect and Karamatsu loved it too. I really hope you guys get the traffic you're hoping for because you definitely deserve it! I also wished you showed up on my dash more often, at least I could give you more likes as well rofl. Anyways, thanks again! Take care! -Oso

I'm glad you guy's liked it! It's kind of strange that the OSOMATSU SAN community on tumblr is mostly full of antis because of osomatsu san's crude humor. It's all up to you making a blog, I support it and my advice would be to block people who have proship dni (obviously) and make sure reply's are off on your post (if you have trouble shoot me a dm I can help you with that :) ) It's weird i not showing up on your dash often, even though i use the main tags... weird im not sure how to fix that :(

[orphancookie69]

My Infertility Journey: Part 4

Yeah, future me needs to go in the past and tell past me to not be crazy. Well, they have not arrived yet-part four starts. The sooner I get in the drivers seat the sooner I park my car in the winners circle I hope....Just hopping on late? Here is Part 1, Part 2, and Part 3. 

August 2022: 

A week after the ERA comes a cycle. This is highly unusual as it does not normally come that soon. Second half of the month is the start of round 4. Initial ultrasound and bloodwork scheduled to see if the body is on the starting line. Now let’s talk about the definition of insanity, it is doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results. Based on the ERA, I am perfectly fine and we have been doing this with proper timing-so initially they said we are going to move forward with no changes. At consultation, they mentioned adding Intralipids-IV injected twice during the process. I am open to this idea, more than the anti-coagulants, because I think my body can only handle so many injections. I only have two more embryos at this point, and while I want to make sure they have the best odds of sucess-there are physical limitations of being...ya know...human? 

The results from the blood work came back, my hormones were too high. So they are having me wait and we will reassess on next cycle. I am happy that this news came from the doctor, I felt like it was better to wait and give the body a break. But for some reason, it felt like it would not have as much credence as it does coming from the doctor backed by “data”. I am looking forward to my break and plan on getting a family trip to Havasu in before my next cycle. PARTAY! No but otherwise this is a great time to hunker down and see if I can’t get some good training in for game day. Using muscle stims, heat, massage, and exercise to promote healing of the area. Maintaining diet and exercise to see if I can’t lose anymore weight before then. 

September 2022: 

Have I ever mentioned how much of this process is PLAYING THE WAITING GAME? But waiting has its own perks. So far just waiting for a cycle to come, estimated to come around the middle of the month according to P Tracker, and see if hormone levels are good enough to move forward. Also, I am (heavily) playing with the idea of implanting two instead of just one. My own doctor says the odds are better with just one, but I have heard a lot of other doctors/patients have success with 2. Part of me really likes the idea of implanting both and having this be the last round, for better or for worse. We will see what the doctor says. 

So my body decided to get stuck in “period limbo” this cycle. I get all the feels but none of the results. Doctor did a “wellness check” on me and decided to reset my cycle with a week’s worth of Birth Control. Then we are going to move on the next cycle. I picked up my prescription and then took them, one a day, for a week. My doctor puts me on Enskyce, and man I usually get all of the side effects: migraines, nausea, and lack of energy. 

October 2022: 

Body goes into cycle and then on Cycle Day 5, we went in for an appointment. Ultrasound and bloodwork looked good, we updated my thyroid panel as well. Now starts injections and the new element this time-intralipids. They are to be done at a third party facility, Oso Home Care in Irvine, in week 4 (before transfer) and after transfer. I am (attempting) to schedule an appointment with Oso Home Care after my next Ultrasound/Bloodwork appointment with Fertility Care in Brea. Ya know the one appointment(s) before implant. It is kind of crazy how much happens in a month. 

Drugs: EV (Estradiol Valerate), Dex (Dexamethasone), P4 (Progesterone), hCG, Valium, Doxy (Doxycycline Hyclate), Medrol (methylprednisolone),

Vitamins: Baby Aspirin, Prenatal vitamins (NAC, Prenatal, Omega 3, L Arginine, Coq10, Myo Inositol, D3)

Suggestions: Keto diet/Fasting, Exercise, Proper Injection Guidelines.

Price: $5,000+ (Fertility Care), $100+ (MDR Pharmacy), $550 (Oso Home Care), 

Here are some Injection Guidelines:

Before: Ice the area

During: Inject the right area, Massage it after

After: Walk it off a bit, Use a heating pad

In Between: Arnica, Massaging to promote healing

Check: Infection (red, raised/bumpy, burning, itchy)

Note: Injections are intramuscular, and depending on the injection, there are only so many spots you can inject. Just because there are other muscles, does not mean you can use them even if your areas are “out of commission”. You just gotta keep them in commission!

The phone tag that was had was fun by all? Honestly as much as this is not my first rodeo and this should not worry me, the intralipids worry me a bit. Really the scheduling process being the slowest thing ever doesn’t help anything either. Be careful when doing research too, it is not always as helpful as you would think to know what you are signing up for. Also, the slow time between the first and second appointment where there is only an injection every 3 days is lovely. So I barely got my appointment for the intralipid place, if I did not call, that might not have happened. Then went in for the next ultrasound, the last one before implant. Ultrasound was good and blood work was TBD. 

This starts the next phase of the process. From here we add 4 hCG shots, add 2 times a day of p4, and continue with EV every 3 days. Also, for the hCG...the first injection has to be in the back area, but the smaller ones can go in the stomach to give the back a bit of a break. Round one of the Intralipids happens. The dexamethasone comes off the schedule just before implant-a couple of meds get added for a couple days around implant. Implant happens, this time it will be a boy (currently between the names Roland and Kai). After implant it is suggested for up to 3 days of rest. Then we move into November (after playing the waiting game) to confirm the pregnancy. 

Oso Home Care...Intralipids: Its a cute little place in Irvine. Kind of disorganized and busy but it would seem a lot people go to a facility like this. I got there early. I spent 2.5 hours in the chair. Yeah, kind of a long time. The gals that work there are sweet, but I don’t like how they had to prick both my arms to get it to work. I felt strange after? I am not sure how I was supposed to feel. Based on when I left and where home is, it took an hour to get home. But I hope in the future that since I am already in the system that booking is easier, and I kind of have a better idea of what to expect. Dress comfortable, don’t bring a book. 

Ovation Fertility...Implant: I always forget COVID never stopped being a reality for hospital establishments. I always forget to bring a mask to these things. Arrive 15 minutes early in Newport Beach, take a Valium an hour before. Implant goes well-go home and rest. Also, if they let your partner in-film the implant. 

Implant day is a day of rest, and this time I am trying to take two more days of rest after. I am an awful patient and this is hard for me to do. Post transfer we ran low on p4 so we transitioned to 1/2 crinone and 1/2 p4 for the every 12 hour injections. There are enough drugs on hand to get through to the pregnancy test and once confirmed, we stick with this or go all crinone. I don’t remember my last boys’ implant well but this time around, my left uterus feels like a battle zone a bit. 

Trimester Breakdown:

Part 1: 10/7-1/8

Part 2: 1/9-4/12

Part 3: 4/13-7/15

November 2022: 

An appointment was set up to have a blood draw/pregnancy test on 11/7. What was the time like before? I felt most, if not all, the symptoms. Pray tell, what are the symptoms of the first trimester?

First Trimester Signs: Nausea, Metallic Taste, Foggy Brain, Cramps, Tiredness, Breast Tenderness,

For me, and according to old wives tales, boys are supposed to be worse. This round definitely felt different as I felt very sore for up to a week after implant. Google says this is ok but man, it was kind of odd. The first blood test of Week 4/5 happened and TBD. If this goes well, I go two more times-two days apart. In theory the HCG a pregnant body produces should double every day. The first time you are able to view anything on an ultrasound is week 6. The next, and final, intralipid appointment would also happen that week. 

The first blood test was good and positive, the next blood test the values should of doubled...and they did not. They increased but did not double. The office wants me to see the third test before jumping to any conclusions. The second blood draw was a 15% rise. The third blood draw was a 66% rise, so they kept us on the schedule and we scheduled the first ultrasound at 6 weeks 4 days. They also had me schedule my second, and last, intralipid appointment for that same day. Prior to going to going into the first ultrasound, there were 50/50 odds that this is a viable pregnancy. 

We went in for an ultrasound and there was a gestational sac, but nothing that could be seen in the sac. They did a blood draw, to confirm the hCG is rising as a pregnant body should be. I had an intralipid appointment but they wanted me to move it, and wait for the results. The beta was rising, so we stay in the game another week. Order more drugs from MDR Pharmacy and scheduled another ultrasound for the end of the week. The intralipid appointment was moved to the same day as the next ultrasound. 

Oso Home Care...Intralipids: This trip was shorter, already in the system and they have an idea of how quickly you take the liquids and what not. I believe this time was about 3 hours? 

Also, I am keeping track of my weight, as women who are overweight before need to be careful how much weight they put on. When I checked on it, I actually had lost weight. Between my keto diet, morning sickness, and other pregnancy symptoms. In the first trimester one can lose a bit, but should this trend keep up in the second trimester...we got problems. Went in for the next appointment and while it was still not where it was supposed to be, there was improvement in both Beta (blood draw) and ultrasound findings. By this time I am almost 8 weeks along and there should be some major organs created, like the heart. 

December 2022: 

The next ultrasound would be interesting as it was kind of the determined trip to “call it”. Why would I want to call it? Because since implant, it has been very “we don’t have good news but we have not bad news so keep injecting”. And the body can only take so much for something that they said was most likely to end in bad news? But the doctor makes a good point that while certain things should be in place by this appointment, babies can be “past their due date” so if they are slow to grow, as long as they grow, it is fine? As the train carrying the passenger, the “limbo” is annoying as hell. 

The Week 8 Ultrasound: Yeah, so that went about as good as that was going to. The doctor finally called it. It is sad, bumming, annoying, frustrating, relieving yet unwantedly so. They are three options to resolve this round: to let it happen naturally, use drugs to help “speed things along”, or get a D&C. For now, we are going to cancel medications and assess in another couple of days. Did a blood draw to see where the beta is, and establish a comparison point for declines in the future. 

For the next blood draw, I could of gone to my Fertility Care office-but with us at the sad end of the process-and them not being part of our insurance-we decided to finish the process in slightly more complicated insured way. They ordered the blood draw at Quest Diagnostics. I made an appointment and the results were sent to Fertility Care. I have seen some insurance that covers infertility, but for the most part that is a sad joke. Some jobs cover that too. If you need that as an option, it’s worth looking into. 

Pay attention to your body. I had sharp pains on my lower left abdomen area the day before the blood draw. Like, bad enough to make me basically pointless the rest of the night. The next day they continued, and I called it in. I am now on the alert for heavy bleeding and those pains, as the combination means bad news. But should be signs the body is starting the miscarriage process. To speed things up, they put me on Letrozole and Acetaminophen-COD. This will be my first time having a drug induced natural miscarriage.  

Four pills at night for 7 nights, bleeding can last up to a week. Blood was being drawn at Quest Diagnostics and the beta hcg was going down. I used pads for a week to “measure” how much I was bleeding, more than two pads in two hours was bad news. Blood draw to see where we were at, luckily enough for all involved-there was no hemorrhaging. The second week of miscarriage recovery-less blood, less medications, but no less feels? Research shows it could take up to 6 weeks for my body to get back to “normal”. There are some herbs and vitamins I can take to help, but mostly it was rest and food and relaxation. 

So, what happened? While there are no answers, there is a scientific name for this. Funny how that works out huh? Here is what I think happened: 

“ A blighted ovum, also called an anembryonic pregnancy, occurs when an early embryo never develops or stops developing, is resorbed and leaves an empty gestational sac. The reason this occurs is often unknown, but it may be due to chromosomal abnormalities in the fertilized egg.” (Source: https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/pregnancy-loss-miscarriage/expert-answers/blighted-ovum/faq-20057783)

Because this is an IVF process, and everything is tested and in some ways controlled, I doubt it is because of any chromosomal abnormalities. But it is crazy how many variations of miscarriages are out there. And really, even in the same person’s journey-no two are the same. Oh to know so much yet so little. 

Honestly, this is a very tough process. I am not sure what to think. Doctor thinks we should implant (IN ME) the last embryo, possibly changing nothing, and see if it works when I am mentally and emotionally ready. For now, the only thing for sure is its BREAK TIME. Is it too soon for a surrogate? I don’t understand how I can be such a medical mystery. It is a very strange feeling. 

[miffybnuy]

pronoun requests!!

hii i wanted to make a post to encourage people to ask for pronouns with a certain theme!! we also do this for fictives/irls or just kinnies! here are the fandoms we do!!

- madness combat

- picos school

- friday night funkin (most mods)

- eddsworld

- my little pony

- danganronpa (every game besides ultra despair girls only because we never played that one :( )

- homestuck

- object shows (mainly bfdi, oso, hfjone, and ii though others are fine too!)

- hylics

- sonic

- hlvrai

- happy tree friends

- smile for me

any one you dont see here, feel free to ask if were familiar with it anyways! if not, we can always look into it

heres fandoms we will REFUSE to do for our own comfort!

- jjba

- dsmp/mcyt (though this doesnt mean you cant request minecraft related pronouns!)

- undertale

like i said, we also do themes! this involves aesthetics, colors, imagery, certain topics or ideas, anything you want! 

heres themes we will refuse to do

- traumacore

- anything pertaining to self harm or suicide

- any problematic things (basic dni things, this also includes slur pronouns)

- anything involving things or people we dont want interacting with us or do not feel comfortable with

[DNI if proship/comship, kink or 18+, dd/lg, endo/endo supporter, anti xeno/neos (obviously), transmed, basic dni (transphobic, homophobic, racist, etc), tupla/tupla supporters, and people who use he/him for chihiro fujisaki from danganronpa! (thats more so because im a fictive of her)]

ask any questions you want!! and if we arent familiar with a fandom, feel free to explain it!

- chihiro (she/tech/💻/bug/.exe)

[morrigan-madretierra]

Michelle Renyé

Durante abril se popularizó en redes sociales una pregunta que comenzó como afirmación desde mediados de marzo. La pregunta es: Si estuvieras sola en un bosque ¿preferirías toparte con un oso o con un hombre? La afirmación inicial, fue emitida al final de un video por un usuario que aparece como "callmebkbk" quien hace contenido educativo anti-misógino y dice: "...si estás a solas en un bosque, ver a un hombre da 10 veces más miedo que ver a un oso". A partir de allí, circuló la pregunta de arriba, dirigida a mujeres y luego a papás con hijas mujeres, tanto en redes sociales como en encuestas callejeras en varios países. Nueve de cada diez mujeres dijo que prefería encontrarse con un oso. Preguntaron luego por qué preferirían al oso y aquí van algunas de las respuestas que llamaron mucho la atención y enfuerecieron a varios hombres, confirmando los razonamientos ya emitidos. Aquí van algunos de estos razonamientos: Si un oso me atacara, no me preguntarían qué llevaba puesto. Si sobrevivo al ataque, no tendría que ver al oso en las reuniones familiares. El estado dormiría al oso después del ataque, pues los guardabosques no argumentarían que tiene un futuro brillante. Si hago como su estuviera muerta tal vez el oso me dejaría en paz. Mínimo el oso no lo haría durar tres horas. Los servicios de emergencia sí me ayudarían si llamo por un ataque de oso. Un oso no lo grabaría y lo mandaría a todos sus amigos. El oso me ve como ser humano. El oso no lo haría por diversión. La gente me creería si digo que un oso me atacó. Al oso no le causaría placer. Lo peor que un oso podría hacer sería matarme. El oso vive allí, el hombre probablemente me siguió. El oso no escondería mis restos para volver locos a mis familiares. Nadie va a decir que me gustó el ataque del oso. Si tanto el oso como el hombre me quisieran atacar, es más probable que el oso me dejara en paz si gritara lo suficientemente fuerte. Pregúntenle a Junko Feruta, Sadie Robinson o a Shanann Watts si preferirían al hombre o al oso. El oso no actuaría diferente cuando se da cuenta de que hay testigos, el oso actuará como oso. El oso no buscará hablar contigo primero, si sabe que estás en el bosque probablemente no lo verás. Nadie diría "no todos los osos" ¿Se dan cuenta de lo alarmante que es, que nueve de cada diez mujeres hayan dicho que prefieren morir en un ataque de oso que encontrarse a solas con un hombre en un bosque? Por cierto, los hombres encuestados también eligieron al oso. Luego ante la pregunta y, si tu hija estuviera sola en un bosque, ¿preferirías que se topara con un oso o con una mujer? Todos eligieron a la mujer. ¿Sí lo entienden o son parte del problema?