#anxiety ftw

[marigoldwriter]

I know that my ideas aren't the best, and that my opinions seem shallow, and that I'm probably not the best profile when it comes to art or writing or anything interesting but HOLY SHIT LET ME BE HAPPY WHAT HELL!

[pama-saga]

Thank you, Nell. ^^

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[anabsoluteagathokakological]

how is it that it is easier to talk to a stranger compared to people you know?

[kushami-hime]

I'm so unhinged I haven't slept in at least 12 hours lol

[stormchaser819]

Me this holiday season:

[darklylucid]

So...while rummaging in the basement, I uncovered a rather large stash of 'dino dig kits' I'd put down there over a year ago that I'd completely forgotten about.

I don't give an entire mischief worth of rat asses if I'm 40 years old...I just had a solid half hour + of entertainment, and that's pretty fucking awesome.

[wwaterlillies]

is it possible to dig ur anxiety out with a medical grade thingamabob ?

[lifefcrged]

i hate the indecision of when i have a lot of muse and am torn between, i could totally power through the 9 drafts i have right now and probably the to be continued memes that people have answered today and tomorrow but then i hesitate because what if i'm too speedy what if i stress people out because i reply too fast and then what if i don't have anything to reply to but i have a lot of muse even though i still have memes in my inbox and starters to write but then i just like psyche myself out and stress myself out and --

[bew-berry]

IM DOOOOOOONE!!!!

HELL YEAH!

I am awesome 😎

[steddio]

why on earth did i wake up at 5 am :c

[vorpalstars]

My vocabulary just consists of:

*says point* (thinks of another thing to add)

"Also..."

[anabsoluteagathokakological]

i am so cool, i say as I scroll through my own blog.

um...can-...uhh..I mean...do-..will you- no wai- , i say when trying to express my feelings.

[brellafaun]

UNHINGEDPOSTING YIPPEE

today's episode is what build a bears i think the brellies would have/get. they take five as sibling bonding and he pretends to hate it but secretly loves it. allison records all of the heart ceremonies and cherishes the videos forever. i'm truly losing it i miss them so much

LUTHER ♡

luther would 1000% appreciate a golden retriever build a bear. he probably really wanted a dog as a kid but reggie wouldn't let him, so this would be kinda like healing that inner part of him (also rebelling against what reggie said!! win!!!). he would probably name it something like rover or scout and get the pumpkin spice scent and some jammies for it.

DIEGO ♡

shaggy highland cow. lila would tease him while they're looking at bears by saying their hair matches. it would only motivate him to get it out of spite. cannot think of a name while at the store, comes up with one once he's home. either gets one of the button ups with a funky print or an all black outfit with combat boots, with no in between. definitely a birthday cake scent guy.

ALLISON ♡

pawlette girlie all the way. classic, but not outdated. likely matches with a bear claire has. she would commit too hard to the bit and spend way too long trying to find the perfect outfit, maybe something that matches whatever she's wearing when they go. gets either sunglasses or one of the fake lattes as an accessory. either pumpkin spice scented or strawberry.

KLAUS ♡

rainbow bearlien no i am not taking criticism. maybe a frog, but this is the funnier option tbh. he would assemble the cuntiest little outfit possible for his bear, definitely using the faux leather crop top and some boots. additionally, he might get the emotional support bear shirt. takes the heart ceremony and birth certificates extremely seriously and gets his laminated. lavender scent ftw (maybe even gets his bear weighted?? weighted stuffed animals are great for anxiety tbh)

FIVE ♡

timeless teddy bear because. he's timeless. okay listen that was funnier in my head. but i feel like he'd dig this guy because it's more like something he would've actually had as a kid. maybe it'd be like a bear he did have, sewn together by Grace. he would pretend that he doesn't want it, but he absolutely does. gets a little suit and shoes to match his (that, or he gets the emotional support bear shirt). the scents are probably a little too on the sweet side for his liking. (if she had planned it out in advance, allison would've gotten him one of the ones that has embroidery on the foot. it'd probably be something simple and grounding for when he's stressed.) immediately emotionally attached. the employees ask if it's his birthday at least twice.

BEN ♡

jennifur the cat. we all know why. but in all seriousness, i think he'd dig this one because he's got a secret soft spot for cats. it's also pretty separated from the aquatic animals, and doesn't remind him of the horror at all. gets a zip-up hoodie and jeans to match his. potentially gets a voice message in the paw, something from klaus or the whole family. fresh cut flowers scent.

VIKTOR ♡

buffalo check pawlette just kinda fits the vibe? idk man, it clicks in my brain just right. the ears and paw pads are a good texture and he jives with it. joins mr. snuggles in the lofty position of on the bed. emotional support bear shirt, little denim jacket, jeans, and boots. maybe the plaid pajamas if he's feeling a more cozy vibe. lavender scent for sure. doesn't get a box and carries it with him as they leave.

LILA ♡

mothman. she's the family's own little cryptid. it works. finds the goofiest sleeper she can and bunny slippers. gives him a ridiculously intricate name like Sir Cornelius Weston XXVII. gets diego to record a voice message for her and refuses to tell anyone what it says (it's just him saying "I love you"). laughs at five doing the heart ceremony and refuses to do it when it's her turn. cotton candy scent

...........hargreeves family going to build a bear fic when

[delta-gambit-au]

STRESS-BALL

“And there he was in my mind. Always there, no matter how many times I was asked to forget, my anxiety of not knowing where he went put my performance to test. And I was losing it, mortified by my apprehension and guilt, that he was gone because of me...” — Sears

[[I'M N0T A STR3SS-B4LL]] oh yes pls

I wanted to do something happi because this month is being ruthless with me so I must keep happi thoughts to keep the stress at bay. Also I wanted to practice a lil of vaporwavvy style because that style is beautiful to my eyes 👀

It has a bit of story behind. It's about how Sears (a Blue Addison) kept missing Spamton and even when the other Addisons told them to stop thinking on him already and move on, Sears wasn't able to lift from themself the guilt and remorse they felt inside after abandoning their partner because of the peer-pressure of the others, who forced Sears to pick sides during the awful row that happened at the cyber-grill with Spamton, who was starting to become a successful salesman.

Also yes, articulated joints ftw 😁It's a bit of canon in my AU that all Addisons has like mechanical hands because they use them to interface with terminals and their floating windows. If they deteriorate physically they devolve into articulated mannequins not unlike Spamton, which makes reference to the fact that they are all bound to and being puppeteered by the companies they work with (but still retain some of their free-will for as long as they keep themselves in sound mind and body).

So, yeah, expect more art about the relationship of Sears and Spamton pre-break-off because it's mandatory for me to practice and research their designs. Also, I need to think on the designs of the other 12 Addisons that are part of their co-worker group as they all work on the same company and share the same office premises (yes, so many colours, though there is only a Blue Addison duplicate because he replaced Sears when they promoted within the company and changed job roles).

Going to have some rest now... <pets Spam in all directions of the wind-rose>

(also the pic was inspired by this GIF -- I wish I could animate it but a still picture is all what I can do with the time I has 😭)

[solunstell]

List of bsd headcanons

Dazai:

Has bpd. A lot of his traits remind me of my friends with it

He some kind of trans. Nonbinary. Transfem. Transmasc. Idk he's megender lmao

He's described as appearing very youthful in the first two light novels. I imagine that once the events of the main timeline start picking up though, with all the time stopping or slowing abilities that *dont affect him*, he actually ages faster than the other characters. I draw current dazai with small wrinkles, which also hints at stress and stuff

Also, I imagine current dazai getting tanner as he works in the light, as well as getting more prominent freckles.

Round/doe eyes because that is part of his appearance in my opinion. Seeming unsuspecting and innocent, especially during his mafia days

Bad eyesight in his right eye from being under the bandages for so long. Saw this headcanon and loved it

Similarly, beastzai has bad vision in general

I always call No Longer Human an anti-ability in my head, fun fact

He loves to touch other people. Not a fan of being touched by others unless asked

I draw him with red eyes in color, and usually black eyes in ink (inconsistent artstyle my beloved)

Aroace spectrum

heavy sleeper. Very

Chuuya

FRECKLES and tan from sheep days

He likes to be close to other people more than actually touching. Presence over contact

That shade of eyes that changes colors in the light (but I use a grey base lol)

Also some sort of trans, but in a different way than dazai

Brownish red hair. Not blazing, not just brown

That man is AUTISTIC

One time instinctively kicked a friend with his ability active, expecting them to dodge cuz he's used to dazai easily dodging. They did, but they were SO CLOSE to getting hit. Imagine a confused face like wtf why you try to kick me

Light sleeper, but every now and then sleeps like he just learned how to close his eyes

A lot of his jokes go over people's heads because they expect him to be serious and his voice just doesn't change between serious and not serious

Ranpo

Autism plus adhd ftw

Aroace spectrum

Poe

He/they vibes

Anxiety

Gay af

I can 100% see him being into knitting. Imagine the guide plus ranpo all in matching sweaters

Loves baking. Sooooo bad at it

Lucy

Bi (with a lean towards girlies) she/it

VERY good at baking

But she won't share :(

Atsushi

Anxiety, so much anxiety

Aroace spectrum vibes

Very easily idolizes people and then gets surprised when they actually like being around him

Akutagawa

Aroace spectrum

Autism cuz he is so mecore sometimes

Very trans vibes from me

(I like to imagine him having tourettes cuz I have tourettes and I am Not projecting)

Atsushi (special kitty hearing) and jouno being the only ones who can hear some of his tics. He will be horrified that anyone notices them

Wait no actually I'm gonna incorporate that into my belief system. That's canon now

Mori

Genuinely cares about a lot of his workers, but not all of them

He gives great bonuses for birthdays

He absolutely loves vtubers if bsd were in a modern setting. Rip mori. He'd have also loved vocaloid lmao

Ozaki

Masc energy. Fem energy. Ooh I can see ozaki with any pronouns and identity

Kinda person to accidently either overpack or underpack. Always has painkillers, never has a pen

Ridiculous memory. Incredible gift giver. Would get someone something months or years after overhearing them say they wanted something once

"Whyd you get me a hairdryer?"

"You said you needed one. I saw it and thought of you."

"...that was months ago. I got a hairdryer already."

"..." *takes hairdryer back* "sorry wrong person. I don't have my contacts in my bad"

She has perfect vision

Kunikida

Trans vibes. In any and every direction

Adhd af

Will always conveniently have room in his schedule when Aya wants to go do something and needs someone to go with her. No, he's TOTALLY not frantically writing and erasing things, get your glasses updated

You can usually count on him to continue the bit cuz he won't realize there is a bit occurring

[witheringwidgetwrites]

Ok sorry for the confusing ask, I think I got it this time, (it’s different just in case)

obey me with short trans masc reader?

The brothers with some fluffy comfort and anxiety about telling them

Okay! So these are kinda hard to do like, "reactions" for, so I went w some general HCs! Hope that's cool! These are mostly Pre-transition as well! Levi genderfluid Hc ftw too.

These are fairly short, if you would like a more in-depth scenario, let me know, I would love to write one!

When you tell Lucifer, he doesn't give much of a reaction. You assume he doesn't care, maybe worse, he's judging you a little. He approaches you later to make sure it's okay he mentions it to his brothers. You're a little shocked but you give the okay, you see in his private text chat a message he had sent. 'MC is a boy. You will prefer to them as such from now on.' As your relationship grows closer, you small efforts from him. Your dead name is crossed out on old paperwork, and anything new always has your real name on it. When you grow even closer, you confess how nervous you were to tell him, he chuckles at you, smiling before grasping your hand, "my love, I adore you no matter what."

When you tell Mammon, he has a couple questions. He's a little confused, and kind of invasive, but he's got the spirit! "So I call you a boy right. Like, he should give me some of his money." You chuckle and nod. He messes up a few times at first but it's swift and you don't have to correct him, he does it himself. He doesn't make a huge deal out of it, but he makes a face when he catches himself. When you get together, he will loudly introduce you as his boyfriend. You're his pride and joy. Months later, you casually mention how nervous you were to tell him, and he makes a faux offended look, "I'm yer best man! How could ya be nervous to tell me anything? I like ya no matter what."

Telling Leviathan is a little nerve wracking. You're sitting down, playing games for a hours until you've worked up the nerves to say anything. "Can I tell you something Levi?" "Sure! What's up?" He instantly thinks you hate him. You tell him what's up, and a blush fills his cheeks. "Can I tell you something too?" You nod, smiling at him. "I think I'm genderfluid." With that, you both grow closer quickly. He's very accepting, you don't have to tell him much because he's already done all his own research, and had a few trans friends. Later in your relationship, you casually mention how nervous you were to come out to him, he hesitantly grabs your hand with both of his, and kisses it softly, "I like you for you, MC. Don't forget that, okay?" He averts his gaze, blush rushing to his cheeks.

Telling Satan is a little more anxiety inducing than you would have thought. But you had grown quite close, and it almost felt like lying to not tell him sooner. He puts his book down for you as you explain. He nods, asks, if that's all, and smiles at you. "Nothing could change how I feel about you MC." He's quick to change with no issues. You mention months later how nervous you had been, and he frowns a little, "I'm disappointed I made you so nervous, but I'm glad to have you now, as you are."

When you tell Asmodeus, he isn't suprised. "I had a feeling." He'd smile and say. He hugs you, asks if you need anything, or how he can support you. He has many questions. Some about the name, how you chose it, just personal but not super invasive questions, mostly friendly. It turns into a long talk about what your gender means for you, and what he can do to be supportive. After you both got together, months later you mention how you had been anxious to mention anything, and a soft smile graces his soft features. "MC, I love you to the moon and back, for who you are."

Beelzebub is a little nervous when you sit down with him while you're baking together. "Is everything okay, MC?" You explain things to him, voice quiet. Once you're done, a small smile crosses his face. "That's it?" You nod, he chuckles a little, "you had me nervous!" He pats you on the back, before asking if he can hug you. After a few months, you had both gotten together, and you had mentioned how anxious you were to bring it up to him. "Why would you be? Did I give you a reason to be nervous?" He seems troubled for a moment before you explain, and a smile graces his face before he grabs your hand. "I love you for you, MC. Exactly who you are."

Things have always been a little rocky with Belphegor. Because of the incident. But as you grow closer, you eventually tell him the news. He nods, "oh okay." He has no questions, he knows a little about it from Lilith, but that's about it. He is fairly quick to pull you back into his chest and lull you both to sleep. A couple months go by, you've started your relationship, and the topic comes up again. He asks a couple of questions, such as how you picked your name. You casually mention how nervous you had been when you told him, "really? I guess I'm not suprised, I am a little scary." He turns over in his spot to face you, "I love you for who you decide you are."