#anyway happy pride month LMAOOOO

[nycorix]

Inuyasha/Kagome is bi4bi and you cannot change my mind. In this essay I will

[magpies4nights]

21, Falling Down the Stairs (Dev log #16)

Well, it’s been an uneventful 2 weeks since I’ve last updated y’all. I’ve completely finished the computer thing I showed y'all last time, teehee. I'm not gonna say what exactly it is but there's a good route and a bad route, I guess you could say lol. I also made some more sprites because it made me really mad. Therapy <3333

Scale Dummy core teehee

I still haven't figured out the optimizing thing though, because every tip I could find was for 3d stuff, and the 2d questions would always be "answered" with "why do you need culling for a 2D game? It has less data." THIS SCENE IS SO HEAVY MY COMPUTER CRASHES WHEN IT'S NOT IN THE EDITOR, AND IT'S FROM 2019!!! THAT'S NOTHING IN AGE!!!! Wait, is it something??? I don't even know anymore god how long ago was 2019?? Arg.

(AI disturbance overlay from: https://www.tumblr.com/arson-jellyfish69/750555399114080256/put-these-on-the-top-layer-above-everything-set)

But anyways, I'm pretty sure if I got a brand spanking new computer and I ran that puppy on the computer it would start coughing and dying. I've also been thinking of updating the demo again, because I kinda feel bad that it's been left untouched since like May, and some things have changed. Maybe mid June???? July???? I don't know. I'll definitely change the secret room, because I realized if people discovered it by now, they probably are walking into the walls and not realizing it because they are invisible, I remember once I was showing one of my friends that room and she did that and I had to help her. I am top 10 game designers, I know /j

...Anyways, I can't think up on references right now, my brain is mush LMAO. however, since it's pride month...

Yeah, we got the pride flags out. Huah. (not a ship. They're related and Priyah is a minor)

I would have put my headcannons for the cannon GASA4AM:SC characters but They're pretty much popular headcannons sooooo, yeah. lmao. I also kinda don't feel like drawing anymore right now.

Well, I don’t know if I can talk about my life anymore. It’s for personal reasons, honestly. All I can really say is that the weather has been crazy, there was a time when the region I lived in had no power for several hours because of a storm, and that I started summer classes. They are pretty hectic, I'm not gonna lie. I ended up with health problems, AGAIN, so now I'm eating the world's most blandest foods until I'm in better shape. Which honestly I'm thinking it's when they end and I'm guaranteed passing grades (I'd be so happy if I get 70's). I wish I could say what’s on my mind, but right now I can’t. I honestly don’t know when I can again. It’s not for professionalism, I honestly doubt my future employers will somehow link this back to me, as much as I feel like people will try to dig up my past and my present. I'm thinking though once I'm done with this fan game I might have have to stop making games under this name, as gut wrenching as that is. I had to come to that realization, I was incredibly disappointed, trust me. I've been thinking on this since March when my dad was mad at me but if I want to make money, I'll have to go under a different name. I'll see you there when I crossed that bridge though, I'm not going anytime soon with the way this fan game is going LMAOOOO.

[like-wuatafauq]

OH SORRY that's totally my bad, I read your reply last night when I was super sleepy so I must've jumbled up the details in my head >:(

But now that I think about it... 22 years wouldn't even make sense romantically speaking IDK what I was thinking 😭

Your dad is absolutely horrible for abandoning you like that though. I'm so sorry you had to go through something so painful. You don't deserve that kind of heartbreak and betrayal from a parent. That's just unforgivable :(((

But woah 8 years of pining romantically is still a really long time...

I feel you on being hopeful about finding real love someday. Don't put too much pressure on yourself about running out of time! 24 is still pretty young in the grand scheme of things. Plenty of time for your soulmate to come along ^^

And in the meantime if you're looking for volunteers... I mean I'd be happy to keep you company :D

Oops! Haha... just kidding... unless...🧍‍♀️

And I totally get not vibing with media that glamorizes something like love triangles or player behavior but Nana has a special place in my heart because it helped me get through some really tough times years ago. It also made me realize I had super heavy comphet back then LOL

Speaking of... you mentioned your English isn't very good. Does that mean you have a different native language? If so, what is it? :O

AND HAPPY PRIDE MONTH BTW!!!

From ♡

It's okay sometimes I answer asks really late too. And yeah I always hear that "you're still so young to find love" except in my mind if I want a family someday I have to build up trust with someone and its already hard for me to believe ppl.

As for ppl keeping me company, honestly I think I'm gonna wait it out, if my soulmate finds me I want her to know I waited for her. If she wants her spot warm then I'll be the only one sitting there.

And then she can sit on top of me when she gets here

Lmaoooo I'm so sorry about that,

But as for the Nana I'm glad that helped you :) fr fr ,don't get me wrong I love the art and a lot of the cute pictures of them together but when I find out more about it I get dizzy. (I genuinely get physical sickness when things involve player stuff)

And I mean I'm fluent in English it's not some drastic thing cuz I type/speak often in English but it's just I look up a lot of words meaning almost every single day. And if someone speaks quickly I might not fully catch it. I often don't understand phrases or words someone tells me. ive tried googling the phrases but google doesnt understand what im asking 🥲 in my mind I have English words cluttered in groups so a lot of the times I misused them when I speak or write. I feel so so so so bad when I do that.

For example one time I wanted to tell someone "I don't want you to think I'm codependent" because i was trying to express how i would like to have them around all the time but if you want space id like them to enjoy it(jfc even now i cant word it properly), anyway the point is I forgot the word codependent so I typed "I don't want you or need you"......yeah it was bad bro.

When me and my bestie were roommates I would say stuff and he thought I was mad but it's just my tone I say it and the words I use. I fuck up sooooo bad I'm constantly apologizing to ppl. So im fluent its just wonky but My native language is Spanish tho :)

Happy pride month to you too!!!

Do you have any pride month plans??

[1892]

Hey lol. So you remember that girl that had an edible and then it was all messy with her ex bf and then I swooped in and she realised she was a lesbian? Don’t worry she asked me to word it like that. So anyway. Found out I was a butch. I’ve got the whole chain on my neck and hair cut and shit. She’s my femme and we’re about to celebrate an anniversary together and she’s baking us orange peanut butter brownies with some ~special~ herbs in them. My girl is so fucking cute glad I saved her from that desiccated grimy barnacle LMAOOOO you’re one of her favorite accounts so happy pride Oliver

oh my god i could literally weep this is a delight. so so happy for u guys and wishing u a great pride month as well…i hope those brownies were enjoyed—have a lovely day :))) <3

[for-the-ninth]

Not to be gay and sad on main during pride month but sometimes I think about all the girls I never got to kiss growing up and it just kinda makes my chest ache.

Like I'm so grateful to have a family I've chosen who loves me and sees me for everything I am now, and I wish I would've had even a shred of that 15 years ago.

I'd always been aware of my queerness on some level. It showed up in little ways I couldn't articulate as a kid. When I watched Disney movies, I wanted to be the prince, because his outfits were cool and he got to be all brave and save the day, AND kiss a pretty lady at the end. I didn't need to see two princesses kissing because my role was already there. I was supposed to be the prince! I just didn't know what that meant.

Sometimes I still don't know what it means. In Feel Good, Mae Martin says: "I'm not a boy. I'm not even really a girl. I'm just a failed version of both," and every time I watch that episode, that quote hits me right in the gut.

I think the sexuality piece clicked for me when I was maybe 14 or 15. My friends and I got drunk together and did what a lot of curious young folks do when emboldened by liquor. I was still thinking about it the next day, and wishing I could do it all over again. My friends said it was nothing, that they would've never touched each other that way had we all been sober.

Another friend had a boyfriend who liked to watch us kiss, and I loved kissing her, so I fought through the squickiness of being observed and chased that little moment of joy whenever I could. She liked to touch me when we were wasted too, but it was always the same story in the morning. "I was just drunk and horny and you were right there," she'd say, because of course I was! I was always right there, ready to chase that fleeting feeling I couldn't get anywhere else because I couldn't see it for what it really was.

I still dated men, though looking back on it I'm not sure I was genuinely attracted to any of them, at least not the way my friends were. But I liked the attention they gave me when my figure filled out, and they still kissed me when we were sober. I don't know exactly how I feel about dating men anymore.

I do know I've never once looked at a man and felt anything close to what I feel when I look at a woman. I know that when one of my dear friends in college wanted to figure out if she was bisexual and I offered to be her test subject (because of course I did), that 10 second kiss was more exciting than every hour I'd spent fucking a man combined. She turned out to be straight.

I know I said this post was about all the girls I didn't get to kiss, yet it sounds like I've kissed a lot of them doesn't it? I just didn't want to be a secret, that thing she did one time when she was drunk, that thing she'll never do in the light of day because it's only meant for entertainment. The girls that kissed me growing up didn't do it because they loved me, they did it because it was fun, and I don't begrudge them that. I just wanted something more. I deserved more, and it's hard not to be sad about that, even if I've got it good now.

[roseybuddy1012]

Pride month posting!!!!

A day late to saying "happy first day of pride month"

But HAPPY PRIDE MONTH HEHEHEHE

Drew my dragonsona Korbin with my flags!!!

I have alot of pride related art ideas, knowing myself i probably wont get them done but lets hope i can lmaoooo

Anyways yeah be gay do crime and be trans throw hands!!!!

Love you all everyone is awesome and valid and no matter where you are in your journey i believe in you and you matter, stay true to yourself!

[perdizzion]

our country may not have gay pride but i’ll be damned if i don’t celebrate pride month in any way that i can

[mightyena-musings-yo]

Not to callout Goh but he kinda looks at Ash in a non-heterosexual manner 😳😳🌈

Anyway happy last day of pride month, heres some pride icons of really lovestruck faces Goh makes directly @ Ash from various episodes lmaoooo. Thought it would be funny to put all his super duper not-straightTM faces on rainbow flags. This kid ain't cishet y'all,,,

This is the first batch in a series Imma do as more episodes come out and I get more shots of Goh being lovestruck. (I already got a couple more that didn't make it in cause y'know..Image limit) Plz pokeani keep feeding us with the Goh crushing content!!

These are free to use without credit, in case any one wants them, and also lmk if anyone wants the transparents too, those r free as well. Otherwise uhhhh just,, enjoy ig,, this was mostly self indulgent tbh. Gay rights!!

[seoafin]

i saw a post some time ago about toji being assigned to look after gojo (basically kid!gojo and bodyguard!toji lmao) but the first time gojo sees toji he freaks out cuz,,,,, he's,,, kinda,,,, fine ??? like i wanna believe this is where he's at least 10 or something. aaand he's had a crush on rip!mc since he was like 5 or something idk. so now,,,, he has a crush on her and toji and he's like,,,, what 😃 he has his bisexual awakening !! obviously his crush on toji wouldn't be as serious as his crush on rip!mc but shit he definitely blushes when he sees toji LMAO

overtime tho i feel like after toji and gojo hang out more, gojo's crush fades into nothing and now they just annoy each other and all. toji knew about this kids silly little crush but never mentioned it. he knew that he would grow out of it soon so everything's good ! 😁

then rip!mc and gojo meet again after rip!mc's parents died and gojo still has hella heart eyes for her <3 toji notices this immediately and teases the shit outta him. but shame, rip!mc is just staring at toji like gojo did when he had a crush on him 😭 gojo's like,,, holy shit you too ??? and rip!mc is like what do you mean "you too ??" and toji's like,, oh yeah he had a crush on me when he was kid lol and the both of them are like 😃😃

gojo's shocked, "how the fuck do you know that 😐" and toji's like "bro you were so obvious" and rip!mc is like "i knew you had taste 😁" LMAOOOO

gojo has never felt so embarrassed. not only does his childhood crush know about his past feelings, but now his OTHER crush has a crush on him too so he's just 😁🔫

rip!mc isn't even surprised that gojo is bisexual LMAOOOO

so now when the three of them are hanging out, rip!mc is like "i genuinely do not blame you 🧘🏽‍♀️" and gojo's like "yes i understand but no because he's annoying now 😐 anyways pay attention to me pls 😁" but she's still staring at toji 😭😭😭

then rip!mc meets shoko,,, and boom. bisexuals everywhere. the end. happy pride month 🤪

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH

[johnseedfanclub]

Wip Day~

Tagged by @oorah22

{This is total fucking shit but it’s whatever lmaoooo}

A month or two had gone by. Angel was driving his way towards the Henbane to get to Hope County Jail. The drive was quite long, but he did appreciate the view on the way there. God, how could you ever get tired of this place.

“You know that guy I talked to you about Miss?” Angel decided to break the silence

“Yeas?” Missy replied

“I haven’t seen him in a while... I don’t know if I should be worried...I mean something just doesn’t seem..right y’know?” though Angel couldn’t stand the self entitled man...John...he couldn’t help but realize that John was coming around less until recently. He hadn’t seen him in over three weeks.

“Well maybe it’s good you haven’t seen him” Missy offered “I mean based on what I remember, seems like he’s nun’ but trouble for you” Missy let out a hearty laugh “Wouldn’t be surprised if ya chased him off!”

Angel chuckled “Maybe, he probably got tired of my shit! Ha!” despite his reply Angel still had an off feeling about the disappearance. “Hmm...you think those people took him?”

“Eden’s Gae-t? I mean.. it’s probable. A lot of disappearances have been connected to them” Missy thought for a minute “Wouldn’t be shocked if he was taken”

“Yeah...”

———————————

The two finally arrived to the jail a few minutes after. Missy first stepped out of the car and Angel followed after, heading towards the jail.

“Thought it be much bigger than this...no wonder those Eden’s people runnin’ fucking wild.” Angel muttered to himself

“Come on, Angel! Make haste. I just wanna get this done an’ over with.” Missy called back

“Alright! Alright!...Jesus...” Angel hated to be rushed but he doesn’t blame Missy. Nothing sounds worse then getting called in for a man who thinks he’s a some god. Fucking Christ...

Angel stepped into the jail and looked around “huh...quite home-y for a jail.” Angel had no idea where to go since no one was there, and Missy went ahead of him, so he wandered through the halls.

“Hey! You there! What are you doing?!” A voice called out.

Ooooh shit...

Angel quickly turned “O-oh-! My bad! I apologize. Do you kno-“

A taller woman approached him, not quite happy to see him “You’re not supposed to be here. Who let you in? The jail’s closed.”

“Jesus Christ it’s been less than a fuckin’ minute since you saw me” Angel answered back in an annoyed tone “and now I’m being interrogated. If it’s that important I’m a fuckin’ cop.”

“I don’t see a badge?” the woman sounded suspicious

“Are you- MISSY! HELP! I’M BEING HATE CRIMED.” Angel yelled.

“For fucks sake I asked what you’re here for! What fucking cop-“

“What is going on here?” another man came in, more concerned about the yelling than seeing Angel

“Literally go pick on someone your own size- Oh. Wait a minute he’s cute- What’s your name hun?” Angel cooed at the other man

“Staci...uhm...” Staci stopped for a second and leaned in towards the woman “Joey who the fuck is this?” he quickly whispered

“I dunno but he sounds like another asshole to me” Hudson replied

“Another WHAT?”

“ANGEL!” Missy’s voice boomed “What did I TELL YOU about keeping up?!” She grit through her teeth

“WHAT DO YOU MEAN I-“ Angel tried to protest before being cut off

“ANYWAYS. I’m so sorry if he caused ya’ll any trouble.” Missy said apologetically “This is Angel, one of the other deputies that transferred from our station back in the city.”

“Really..?” Hudson questioned “I’m sorry Missy but doesn’t he seem...unfit? He’s quite....shorter than the rest of our-“

“It’s been less than ten minutes and I don’t like this bitch-“ Angel blurted out

“Angel-“ Missy sighed “He’s never like this he’s very friendly and a hard worker. And though he is shorter-“

“I ain’t short.” Angel interrupted

“Than the rest of our units HE his very skilled and professional, even in the most dire situations” Missy finished, giving Angel a reproachful look.

“Damn straight.” Angel said with Pride “I been trained like a soldier ever since I was younger”

“How old are you now?” Hudson remarked

“‘Scuse me?” Angel was about ready to pounce

“Joey please- Sorry about that she tends to not be careful with her words” Staci laughed nervously

“Yeah she better be careful because a nine millameter sounds nice right about now-“ Angel suggested

“YOU TWO-“ Missy nearly yelled but still kept her composure “Just- go to Whitehorse....he’ll tell ya’ll about the plan.” Missy snuck a quick glance at Angel before walking off. Shortly after the three headed to Whitehorse’s office.

“What plan now?” Angel asked

“You should know but I guess you were busy wandering the halls” Hudson spat in reply

“What the FUCK is with the locals here-“ Angel said aloud

“Hudson...” Staci looked at her “We’re planning to go to one of Eden’s Churches to arrest Joseph Seed”

Joseph Seed....Seed...Something about that name felt familiar...he couldn’t quite put his finger on it but he had a feeling it might have to do with that richy rich guy John he met a few months back...maybe- no...he can’t be connected right? If he was that would mean he could’ve gotten himself killed too easily right? Right?...

“We’re gonna detain him then fly him back to Missoula and hopefully it’ll be the end of that” Staci said.

“Yeah, Hopefully.” Hudson agreed

“Why you say that?” Angel tilted his head slightly

Hudson sighed “..where do I start. I mean awhile back this church, now a fucking cult, was peaceful and they actually seemed like a friendly group of people. They helped out the community, held small barbecues and events, and even helped out the less fortunate”

“Okay and...?” Angel drawled

Hudson continued “And all of a sudden they changed. They started saying this...Collapse...something about the world ending was coming or something and-“

“They went fucking nuts.” Staci finished “They started pulling people out of the road, their homes, some would even be ambushed while taking hikes and shit. Many wouldn’t make it back but those who did said that the cult was using some drug called the Bliss to turn them into the walking dead. If not, they would manipulate you into joining their fucking project.”

“Manipulate as in what? Some hypnotic shit?” They both nodded and Angel’s eyes widened “You’re fucking kidding? I thought they were just some weird ‘drink the Kool-Aid’ type of group.”

“Absolutely fucking not” Hudson barked “these fuckers torture you if you don’t listen to them or help out with their weird religious cause. Then they kill you if they find no use of you.” Hudson shaked her head “I pray for those poor folks who got tied up with Eden’s Gate...”

“Oh fuck no- Why the fuck I gotta put up with this shit?” Angel said in

“Cause all of our other deputies been taken by them.” Staci said nervously

“Staci!” Hudson spat at him

Angel stopped between them and looked at Hudson, then at Staci, then looked forward, and back Hudson.

“YOU’RE FUCKING KIDDING?” Angel yelled “WHY DID YOU CALL MORE THEN IF WE GON BE KIDNAPPED?!”

“Staci? Joey? Who’s out there?”

“Just a visitor!~” Angel starts to walk back “Ya’ll fucking funny if you think something was gonna happen. I got PTSD I shouldn’t even BE here.”

Hudson grabs his arm, pulling him into Whitehorse’s office “You are our last like of hope. You are NOT leaving.”

“Swear to god my life’s a goddamn movie” Angel said under his breath “Get off of me” Angel protested as he shook Hudson off his arm “I better get payed good for this shit”

Tagging: @oorah22 @mrspaigeomega @muse-1498 @ohfaiths @scungilliwoman @johnseedyesking @ anyone who wants to join in <3 (no pressure to those tagged its totally optional!)

[landfilloftrash]

🏳️‍🌈 HAPPY PRIDE MONTH !! 🏳️‍🌈 ✨My dnd character died ✨

Bury your gays momence✨✨

ANYWAYS SARCASM AND HUMOR TO DISGUISE MY DISTRESS OVER LOSING HIM ASIDE; wAAAAAHHHHHHHHH my boyyyyyyyyy ,,,,, HE’S NOT EVEN SAFE WHILE DEAD MAN I LIVE IN A SOCIETY.

This is technically second part of a comic, which explains how my boy died, but I am not gonna be lining/coloring that for awhile so have Charles and Addrus in their last canon interaction.

I’m so so so sorry Charles :,,,D

small edit; lmaoooo this was my 69th post

[softschofield]

hii! i saw your post and i'm so happy you're taking historical accuracy questions because i'm writing a 1917 fanfic and need some consulting: do you know how they assign the men that signed up into their regiments / units? is it random or is it based on where they signed up from? because scho and blake must've come from very different part of england going by their accents alone but sometimes we see a group of boys signing up together and ending up in the same regiment? thank you!

(i actually answer what you want to know like, 3/4 of the way down if you wanna skip to there LMAOOOO ily ♡)

okay, okay, i’ll get to the rest of your wonderful question in a second, but i just have to share something that has broken me: in the autumn of 1915, fearing that the BEF would reach a point where it couldn’t be sustained by volunteers alone, kitchener’s director general of recruiting, the earl of derby, launched the derby scheme. what this scheme meant was that every eligible man between 18 and 41 who was not in an essential occupation had to declare themselves.

in january 1916, as a result of this nation-wide survey, and with the BEF now certain that volunteers alone would not be able to fill the ranks at the rate that kitchener’s new army soldiers were being butchered across the channel, every single man and childless widower between 18 and 41 was offered three choices:

enlist at once,

attest at once under derby’s system, 

or, on 2 March 1916, be automatically deemed to have enlisted.

in may 1916, the bill was then extended to married men.

this means that it is entirely possible scho didn’t voluntarily enlist - that he had wanted to stay with his wife and his daughters, that he had been forced into service through conscription, and that he had arrived at the front just weeks or days before thiepval.

anyway!!!! honestly, it is very difficult for me to work that out, and i’ve been trying to for months. as far as i can tell, at first it was based on where they had signed up from, and then, as the volunteer army was all but wiped out at the somme and enlistment numbers slowed to a trickle, conscripted soldiers were assigned, for the most part, at random. i believe it had something to do with the allocation of regimental numbers, which were generally issued to recruits chronologically and in sequence. 

what i do know for a fact is pals battalions! when derby and kitchener realised that they could exploit local pride and close-knit community bonds, they introduced the concept of pals battalions, which meant that if you and all your mates signed up, you’d be guaranteed to be placed in the same battalion for the adventure of a life time! and they did sign up, in their hundreds of thousands. 

what this meant when they actually got the front was that a whole town could lose its entire population of military-aged boys, many of them under-aged children who had lied about their ages and been signed up by complacent recruiters who turned a blind eye, in one single day. as the highest number of pals battalions were raised in the north of england, this meant that the north was hit especially hard and that entire villages were essentially wiped out and/or spiralled into mourning by just one afternoon’s fighting. but pals battalions were raised across the whole of britain, including the south. 

the 8th (service) battalion of the east surrey regiment, however, was not a pals battalion, nor were any of the devonshire regiments. 

and- oh no wait i just found the information i’ve been looking for for months, and i was half right!!!

so basically, prior to the introduction of conscription in 1916 - and i’ll just talk about the regular army here and not the reserves or territorial force - recruits had a choice of which regiment they would be assigned to. kitchener, hungry for anyone and everyone to enlist and trying to make it as appealing as possible, did away with the stipulation that all recruits serve for a period of 7 years followed by another 5 in the reserves, and introduced a new form of “short service”, in which men would serve for “three years, or the duration of the war, whichever the longer.” to reiterate, during this time of enthusiasm and eager enlistment, recruits had a choice of which regiment they were assigned to. 

following the disappointing results of the derby scheme, the british government introduced the military service act on the 27th of january, 1916. conscripted troops were no longer given a choice as to which service, regiment, or unit they joined, though men with a preference for the navy were given priority. all british males were now deemed to have enlisted on the 2nd of march 1916 – that is, they were conscripted – if they were aged between 19 and 41 and resided in great britain (excluding ireland) and were unmarried or a widower on 2 November 1915. this act was extended to married men, and the lower age dropped to 18, on 25 may 1916. 

so, to answer your question, if scho enlisted before january 1916, he would have been given a choice as to which regiment he was assigned to - and, given that his home in cookham was just across the border, it makes sense that he would have chosen the east surreys. however, if he was conscripted, he would not have been given a choice and would most likely have been assigned to them as a matter of convenience. 

it’s almost certain, then, that blake was conscripted, even if he had been wanting to enlist as soon as he turned 18 and wasn’t unhappy about that fact. he, therefore, would most likely have been assigned to the east surreys at random, perhaps because they had just suffered heavy casualties and needed to be bulked up. and this definitely makes sense re: their accents and different class backgrounds!!

same probably goes with smith’s regiment - that hodge-podge of cockney and scottish and liverpudlian is almost certainly a result of conscription. as desperation for cannon fodder increased, the BEF started taking almost anyone, half-trained and half-disciplined and handed a rifle, and that sentiment is very much reflected in the seemingly random assortment of ages and backgrounds you started to find in any one regiment.

phew!! we got there in the end! :’) x 

[brothalynchhung]

2019 overview.

this year.. was fucking two years in one. also a little late again but whatever. this is going to be long as FUCK. 

started 2019 in dubai

spent the first couple of days in Dubai on the beach

YOOO AS AM WRITING THAT IT FEELS SO FUCKING LONG AGO HOLLYY SHITT

went to London and just fucked around dt and chinatown lost that damn snake ring fml

I got drunk eating dumplings watching Jeffrey star in that bed LMFAOOOYOO LMFAOOOOOEGJEORIGHSREUG

got back to Ottawa and it was straight GRIND from the get go

back to my last semester of uni 

back to club m (omg.. I miss:( kinda lol)

started that govt job

back to social media marketing for Dubai

3 jobs + school basically

did that dumbass STUPID FUCKING govt job all the way in quebec that I woke up for and travelled for everyday 

would go straight to gym, work again, or school fml

wasn't entirely bad I kinda needed it cuz I applied to a million jobs during that time and did school work LMAO also printed a lot of important shit and got paid so whatever

CAME TO TORONTO IN MARCH W TRAND OMG I FORGOT THAT WAS 2019

SAW VINCE STAPLES!!

AND The fortune teller who like prophisized all this shit goddddd 

iconic if I must say

little did I know...

I miss movati fml lol

working at club Monaco omg ugh they gave me life honestly

fun times w trang cc precious Courtney mich JACK Amanda Raman donia even tho she annoying lol and whoever else I worked w jana jil Daria honestly I just miss Courtney LMFAO uhh jenn was cool too 

I'm never going to forget that place I swear to god I have so much loyalty and pride for my memories for that place im never going to take my experience there for

chilling with avid Vinny and like Alex a bit LMAO he would randomly ask to chill it was weird

that Chinese dinner and chat time thing in his car WHAT WAS THATTT

chilling like a scrub a cu with hector and that crew goddLMAO

avin vin rideau gang

visiting avid at nordstorm the Rui girl and Herman lol he was sofunny

MY BODY IS FOR ME NOT THESE BITCHES LMFAOO 

last class with strangle omg he was iconic honestly 

trang pargol fidede zainab mannnn honestly shoutout old Ottawa friends 

xinyii!! and jelly!! my last times with them

I miss Xinyi so much :( im so happy I got to see her before leaving she was so nice I wish her so much success 

remember working those last shifts at cm like.. yo I feel like things are going to change and my days are numbered.. I feel it. 

did interview after interview, applying EVERYDAY to escape 

the amount of focusing I did on applying around feb and April like I was just focused on working and getting out of there

did two interviews in like 2 hours always on the go always moving always working 

and then like clockwork.. at the govt job.. went to the bathroom knew? to bring my phone with me.. and then right when I left I got a call from mk went into that empty conference room and got the offer. cried. accepted. life changing

I honestly just left that place... went to cm and just.. resigned... put my two weeks in...

and it happened literally in my last week of the govt job..

like fate 

immediately went home told cc precious fam 

fam weren't happy 

BUT I FINALLY ESCAPED!!!! LOOKING BACK ON THIS BLOG AND EVERYTHING I FINALLY F I N A L L Y GOT OUT OF THERE THE BITCH ASS CURSED SHIT CITY NEVER GOING BACKEGIUEHGEIRUGH 

shout out precious for helping me honestly he helped so much 

found my place through hmida who held it down

that whole condo scenario LOL godddd my landlord a HOE

met zgy gvy at precious while I crashed a night

THE MILLIONS OF RIDESHARESSS GOODDDDDD

remember the one I took last minute from Yorkdale LMAO that one wasn't bad honestly I slept good

moving my things packaging them up. like yo.. lol

bringing the boxes from shoppers godddd LOL 

finally landed in Toronto with my place

waiting outside for 5 hours for my damn keys crazy with my suitcase lol... 

THEN FINALLY GOT TO MY FIRST PLACE!! MY FIRST RENTAL CONDO ALL ON MY OWN NO ROOMATES JUST ME

unpacking my things

like just finally having my own place mannn that was my dream for such a long ass time

getting around dt a bit getting used to tdot... 

crazy exciting 

then... 3 days in..

...

met that bitch that fucked me up 

met everything I ever wanted in a person? physically and interest wise and yet?

nothing? 

SO CONFUSED I MET SOMEONE WITH EVERYTHING I THOUGHT I WANTED

first hookup? lost v? 

new city new job new life new home lost v new everything

in 3 days. 

my life crazy..

spent the whole time like until October till low-key NOW just thinking about it bitterly 

my feelings up and down I was drowning in obsession and confusion

I know I fucked it up but it was fucked up since the beginning

shook everything about what I thought I wanted in gl or a person

standards are definitely raised and all men trash and hoes Idgaf

I feel nothing towards nobody

my whole mind switched to money and power. 

gl I love you but you're not here and we got a lot growing to do so imma see ya ass in a couple of years 

anyways started working at mk!!! craziest 3 month probation thing I had 

HOWWW DID I DOOOO ITTTTTTT 

met so much people... holy shit.. zgy,gvy,hailey,gab,aisha,priya,rach,lisa,alex,DANIA, goddddd

clubbing.. mon., thurs... weekenddd... wake up... 8:30 work

how did I do it.... fuck lol

met a lot of hoes.. fucked with Sunday once more before he died bye bitch ass hoe.. Leo, sleeve, uhhh that's it I think actually

CABANNNAAAA

OMG I SAW SEAN PAUL LIVE ICONICC YOO THIS FUCKING YEAR LMFAOOOOO

omg YEAH I SAW NCT IN MY FIRST WEEK OF TO WITH PARGOL LMFAOOO YOOOOO

damn this year was crazy I keep forgetting shit

all the weird ass ppl I met at cabana omg the humber guy YOO THE ASIAN GUY WITH MY KEYS LMFAOOO ZGY FUCKLMFGIESH

omg tsf lmao and like yeah all the clubbing ppl in to fuck 

half and half like didnnt know if I liked it or not but it was crazy

still think about that Frans night the damn milkshake and food omggg

just spent summer exploring to trinity Bellwoods ossington like summer stories clubbing stories

managing my double life lol

SPIDERMAN OBSESSION LMAOOOO TO DISTRACT MY MIND FROM THAT BITCH ASS HOE LMFAOOFREJGIEURHSTESUIH THEN I FOUND OUT HE HAS A WHOLE WIFE AND BABY YOOO LMFAOOO

good distraction made work fun when I needed it during my last months of probation LMAO

omg going home during lunch and then back to work ICONIC

leaving the girls at my place and coming back for lunch LMAOOO god really iconic honestly showering and going back to work sleeping hoeing all that LMFAO 

omg the time I left Leo at my place YOO LMAO

still have that expensive ass sweater LMFAO WAT A SIMP

those drunk texts he sent Me in august and I punked him off LMFAOO 😩😂

men trash 

darren Chris rob goddd all those damn ppl I met the one guy who saved me during that blacTHE BLACKOUT CABANNA NIGHT GOD THAT WAS A MESS LMAO TITTIES OUT EVERYTHING but yeah he was low key useless I forget his name highboy but whatever

YOOO THAT GIRLS TITTIES I SLEPT ON NGEIRGHEUHUE ICONIC

I got catfishes twice 😩 the change bitch and the John bitch airehguerihserh FUCKKK LMFAO

AND THEN THE CHANG BITCH WAS TRYNA SAY OH U JSUT LOOK TO ARAB THATS WHY WE HAVNET TALKED AGAINL IKE BITCHHHHH FIRST OF ALL UR A WHOLE CATFISHFHERGUERBKSHETERU AHERUIGESRUYR LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO 

and then I catfish Sunday to punk him off for revenge and call him a thot and thought he was talking about me for catfish when it was just about another bitch he was hoeing with cuz he a hoe.. Jesus my life wild

SO MUCH SHIT THIS SUMMER UHERGHSREG

gained weight fml I don't even wanna mention it iDONT WANNA TALK

even if it is muscle I dDONT WANNT TALK ABOUT IT

the cabana pool jump... godd... walking home drunkregiuhersguhe fucK 

summer was crazy

nada and mama coming wow that was annoying I rlly can't do family even though I love them

getting high swimming the catfish racing munchies arguing with Alex LMAO 

eating out with Dania gab Lisa the normal ppl I met lool

a lot of stress of money and where I want to go I was in a hella rush idk why I think everything happening so fast made me not want to slow down at all but im finally slowing down 

priya end of the year rebel tiff stuff 

basically drowning in depress and regret around the end of summer cuz everything calmed down and I had the time to think and reflect about everything and yeah.. got super depressed

that bitch cc and her bullshit yo just fucking go bye

notice how there's like no memories with her like yeah there was but they were just annoying cuz she was annoying highkey

thanks for bringing my shit from Ottawa tho dumbass LOL eat a dick

THE HOT TUBBBB SUMMERSSS AND SUMMER NIGHTS 

omg all my emo ass walks at night to the port and water and trillium park in the morning aiohreughresehre writing with my journal god that was actually nice tho 

super peaceful so happy to live near the water highkey

always in between losing myself who am I what do I do now who am I like did I lost myself did I ever have myself

major existential crisis

how did I survive work god 

musicmusiscmusicccc

moviesmovesmoves

readreadread

actually I had a lot of night walking home from the club sad

omg remember the ovo guy fucking loser liar 

as usualllll 

RECORDRESCORSDCRECORDDSSS SO MANY TDOT IS PERFECTT

ugh what else fuck too much shit happened OH YEAH

my birthday with the girls and the bbq!! the cake!! omg so nice :((( so funny lol

that weirdo ass man that I still see in the gym sometimes god help me lol 

passing my probation!!!! and then like finally fitting in and feeling apart of mk and the “family” lol

CLARK KENT AND SCOTTISH MANS MAKING MY LIFE EVRYDAYYYYYugh love them

got a moomin from Scottish mans 🥺 love him

anyways got depressed drowning in obsession.. nothing surprising there 🙄 

got high and drunk like bottom of the barrel... 

right before pargol came LMAO 

oh yeah I went to Ottawa because yo I was going out of my mind about losing myself.. needed to go BACK to the place I hated to find myself

went back and it was like??? everything was the same.. still saw vin and avid and Herman at Rideau still had bbt with them 

still fucking around hector and that whole crew had Ivan his girl moe.. ribal..Kyle YO lol that weird ass club experience AS USUAL Ottawa clubs trash god

apple picking same year in a row wit z <3 and hamza and fams lol

saw the kids and got to be stupid again loool 

anyways came back to my actual life

like it just felt weird knowing that the place I had all my memories and experiences in like.. felt nothing

even the forest felt weird like I didn't need to be there anymore?

as much as tried to drown myself in obsession and my past and bad habits.. I couldn't?

im being forced to move forward and learned Sunday was the last experience it was just eye opening

after the emotional shit I sat down again and had a whole purging 

I never felt that bad and horrible and drowned in obsession since raglan..

like.. deleted the hidden pictures... the feeling.. like I've done this before...

that was the final straw..

you think its over just because I am dead but its not over..the games just begun.

never again. 

anyways I met Aisha!!! love her vibe with her heavy

introduceed me to the sugar shit YOOOO LMFAOOO

THEN WE STARTING PIMPIN AND MAKING EXTRA MONEY

NO MORE MONEY STRUGGLE 

GOT FUCKED OVER HEART TURNED COLD NOW WE FOCUSING ON MONEY CAREER POWER PLAYING THESE HOES FOR THEY MONEY AND RECLAIMING MYSELF 

weird ass fucking people but get the money and go 

stack up crazy and saving up this past few months 

and just chilling w friends and therapy sessions

scheming and planning for the future

therapy sessions

got close with Lisa

oh yeah BOLO!! UGH BEST GYM

ALSO OMG I FORGOT I SAW BROCKHAMPTON AGAIN!!! AND SOMEHOW GOT TO THE BARRIER AND LITERALLY HAD SO MUCH INTERACTION WITH KEVIN LIKE SINGING TOGETHER AND THEN HE CAME DOWN SAID I GOTCHU AND TOOK TWO PICS WITH ME FUCKGIERGEIUTHSEUH THAT WAS INSANEEE MY LIFE WILDDDD 

iconic holiday party and New Years with again like random weird ppl and my girls exemplifying how wild and fresh the whole experience of this year was 

at least I be waking up warm and clean in MY PLACEby myself with no bullshit 

just like.. got a new place new job new city basically live the life I always wanted? reading movies? new friends no problems? wtf how my life change so quick

new interesting experiences

getting drunk high dancing at my place out in these streets just meeting bare people all these new people and experiences holy shit... 

and like yeah im not where I want to be but this progress and process is FUN now 

everything a strategy and a move and love staying busy 

wish I had more free time tho I never feel rested my life fucking crazy LOOL

that weirdo bitch who thought he was dating me UGHHH BOTTOM OF THE BARRELL JUST FOR A CAR AND FOOD BITCHARE U CRAZY 

power trip crazy im so sorry jfc 

anyways block and move on

met Chris and we still talking for like 3 months in a row god... lol gunna see him Saturday idk was the HALE going on 

im like surrounded by hoes???? and I don't want it GOD I JUST BEEN FOCUSING ON ME AND MONEYFUCK EVERYONE ELSE 

idek what else maybe im missing shit but this whole year wild best year of MY LIFE though

idk what the fuck gunna happen in 2020 cuz my split lives and the chaos and playing hoes and always thinking about opportunity and abundance and money got my mind and moves all wrapped in strategy but we only ONNLY ONLYYY GOING UP from here no excuses lets fucking go I always say this but 2019 was fucking wild and you know what.. lets fucking go 2020 LETS FUCKING GO as long as I don't gain weight LMFAO lets fucking GO. money and power on my mind exclusively. gl imma see you in 2 years. focusing on bigger things but at least im OUT HERE and ESCAPED and we onLY ATTRACTING AND MANIFESTING ABUNDANCE