#anyway thanks for your comforting messages i feel a little better knowing other people experience online check-in problems

[nordic-language-love]

So many people saying online check in isn't reliable but literally I have never had issues checking in online before which is why I'm stressing to high heaven lmao

[hwanchaesong]

Double Take

Lee Haechan/Donghyuck X Reader

genre & warnings: angst, fluff, suggestive, childhood friends to lovers au, some cursing and mentions of alcohol and sex

word count: 1.3k

a/n: here it is~ thank you so much for requesting! to anyone who wants to request please check out the rules 🫶

"Don't leave me!" you wailed, clinging to Haechan further as he tried to console you.

"Don't worry." he gave you a light pat on the head, grinning at you brightly, "We will always be together! Friends forever!"

Two decades later and his own words continued to haunt him. He did his best to keep that promise, but his bitter expression and balled fist said otherwise.

He regrets inviting you to his frat party. Watching you enjoy yourself with other people, especially with another man is not his cup of tea.

"Keep it up and you might melt the poor guy away." Mark, his best friend, commented at his side, making Haechan scoff.

"What's so good about him anyway?" he asked, annoyance in his voice palpable as he continued watching you converse with Sunwoo.

Kim fucking Sunwoo.

Popular guy, tall, handsome, good in sports. Thank god he's dumb or else Haechan will actually be in a disadvantage against him.

Mark laughed, taking a chug of his beer, "You tell me." he replied nonchalantly before his eyes almost bulged out of his skull.

Haechan wasn't doing any better, seeing you go outside with Sunwoo. Oh, he knows what will happen tonight.

"Dude, are you okay?" Mark placed a hand on his back as an attempt to comfort him to no avail. Haechan could only let out a sigh, slumping in his seat.

He couldn't remember when these stupid feelings surfaced.

Was it back in elementary, when you gave him half of your food because he dropped his on the dirty floor?

Was it back in highschool, when you supported him in a dance contest that he won because you were there for him when no one else believed in him?

Or was it that time, which he couldn't remember clearly, but you ran under the rain. Umbrella completely forgotten as you both played and danced, happiness in your hearts despite the gloomy weather.

"The girl that I like will probably have sex with the guy that I hate." he deadpanned, standing up and marching away like a little kid before shouting a response, "Of course I'm not okay!"

Haechan tried not to think about it anymore, but you're making it harder for him because it seems like you don't plan on shutting up anytime soon.

"He was such a gentleman." you dreamily sighed, telling Haechan your experiences with Sunwoo. "And oh! Did you know that he asked me out on a date next week?"

He couldn't bring himself to listen anymore, but he needs to keep his facade. Thus, he forced a smile, "Yeah? Good for you then, you'll finally have a boyfriend."

You smiled at him, not knowing the inner turmoil that he was going through. Though it began to show itself when the day for the said date comes closer.

Haechan became more distant, failing to message you or do the things that he usually does to or with you.

He doesn't eat with you during lunch, he stopped greeting you in the morning with a hug, he doesn't joke and play around with you anymore.

What is going on?

Haechan was driving around town to keep his mind off of you. He needs to move on from you asap or else he wouldn't be able to hold himself back.

He absentmindedly brought himself to a secluded place near the forest, a place special to the two of you.

This is your so-called 'secret base', a meeting spot where you can spill each other's deepest emotions and thoughts (even tea) and maybe cry about how fucked up your life is sometimes.

He sat on the soft grass, looking up at the star filled skies.

It's pretty, like you.

Haechan flinched, mentally slapping himself because he's not supposed to think of you... but really whose he kidding?

Everywhere and anywhere his eyes land on, it will always remind him of you.

The street arts back in the city reminds him of that time when you both tried doing graffiti after sneaking out of your respective homes in the middle of the night.

The various shapes of the fluffy clouds remind him of his nickname, Teddy Bear, one that you gave to him when you saw a bear shaped cloud. Claiming that Haechan himself looks like a bear, but since he's so huggable, he can never be a vicious bear.

He groaned, running his hands in his hair out of frustration. How the heck can he do this?

The sound of footsteps and ruffling caught his attention, turning around and he sees you in a cute outfit.

"I knew you'd be here." you softly said, walking towards him and sitting by his side.

"Why are you here?" he inquired, knowing that today is your date with Sunwoo.

"I can't." you mumbled, looking down while you played with your fingers, a nervous habit of yours that Haechan definitely noticed.

"I can't continue with the date, because I.." you took a deep breath before you gathered the courage to gaze directly in his eyes, "I'm worried about you."

"What?"

Haechan's breathing hitched. He did not expect that from you, and so, he tried to play it cool, hoping to calm his erratic heartbeat.

"So you decided to ditch your date?" he teased, poking your side which made you pout.

"I did not!" you protested, lightly hitting his shoulder, "I told him that I'll look for you."

It was semi-true. Initially, you had wanted to continue the date but Sunwoo himself said that it's better for you two to stay as friends.

"Y/N, I don't know if you've noticed but you've been telling me stories about Haechan all night. I think we both know what that means."

Sunwoo gave you a knowing smile and pushed your back slightly, thus, you're here.

Haechan hummed, eyes gazing upwards as he mumbled a question, "And why would you look for me?"

You hesitate for a second, contemplating whether to answer him directly, "Well, I felt like I need to be with you right now."

Haechan is by no means patient but he knows his limits, he can control himself during the most difficult times and think rationally yet your words have a different effect on him.

He did not know what came over him, all he knew was that his body moved on its own.

He held your shoulders, turned your body towards him and crashed his lips against yours.

"Donghyuck." you muttered his name in a soft voice when you pulled away from each other for air, and the way you said his name was enough to make him go feral.

One thing led to another and you find yourself inside his car, fogging up the windows and muffled voices filling the cramped space.

"Hyuck!" you squealed when he nipped at the sensitive spot on your neck, a moan followed when you felt him dip his fingers in your heat.

"You're so good to me, baby."

Haechan kissed every inch of your skin, made love to you as if its his last and savored your taste as you allowed him to show you how much you truly meant to him.

He's living in his dream. All the things he wanted, he's now making it happen. But is this okay? Are you okay? Will everything be okay after this?

When you noticed his doubts about the situation, you kissed his nose and whispered, "I trust you."

Then he remembered, back when you were five year olds at the beach . You let him drag you into a cave which is said to have a 'treasure.'

"I trust you." you told him with a bright grin on your face.

You knew how much of a troublemaker he is yet you still chose to have confidence in him. This realization, despite his young age, made him fall in love with you.

As he watches you giggle and cuddle at his backseat, he made a decision that yes, he did love you during the summer, but he sure as hell will continue for a lifetime.

[ladamedusoif]

Hi! I've just read 20/20 and it's so good👓

May I just say that I admire the way you write not only in general, but also that you write Pedro characters fanfiction without massive age gap? I like those too, but god, there are tons of it and it became sooo hard to find Joel (bc 80% of age gap fics is about Joel) being happy with a woman of his age.

I happen to think more and more lately that older women seem more real, thus more interesting to read - young girls are all pretty with their sexy young bodies, etc., and the older you get, the more insecurities you have, and you believe somebody like Joel or Ben has plenty of options when in fact they probably want somebody to feel comfortable with, somebody who they can laugh with *looks at Lydia*

I guess, sometimes young reader is too perfect. How could real person like me ever compete with that? Imperfect characters are comforting and real (they suffer to make us feel better, they're our heros) and they evoke real feelings, you care about them. That's why I love to read non-age gap work when I see one.

Anyway, sorry for rambling, thank you!!🤍

*throws hearts at you and running away*

First, thank you so much for the lovely words about my writing! Here are some hearts in return: 💜💜💜

Honestly, this kind of ask means the world. I’m so grateful and so honoured.

A warning: this will be a long answer. Sorry!

I genuinely felt emotional when I read your words about my decision to write in a way that is either no/minimal age gap or where the reader’s age isn’t specified (because this is possible, and is arguably far more inclusive for reader insert). I particularly like that you’ve chosen to focus on why older OFCs/reader characters are more interesting, rather than on the extreme age gap trope.

I can’t deny that the age gap trope is the dominant one in this fandom’s fic at the moment - most obviously for Joel, but also for other characters. And I sometimes wonder if Visiting would have more notes and engagement if Lydia was a student, not Ben’s contemporary and perfect equal - intellectually, emotionally, in every way.

But as you say: Lydia has a life, has lived, and is imperfect physically and emotionally, like us all. She’s interesting for all those reasons, and more. That’s why Ben is drawn to her, and she to him. (I sometimes wonder how people would feel if the age gap trope was reversed, with a much older OFC paired with a younger P boy…)

This is also why characters like @fuckyeahdindjarin’s Cee and Sugar, in Seams and Palomino respectively, or @lunapascal’s Andie in Curls, or @julesonrecord’s Eva in Shots, or @iamskyereads Beatrice in Compulsion, or the many other no age gap/no age specified characters and reader inserts in the fanfic are so gorgeously engaging. You get it - they’re real.

They’re not all thin, pert, visions of youth as beauty and beauty as youth. Ageing is a privilege, and it hurts me, really and truly, to see the implication that only youth is attractive in so much of the fanfic in a fandom dedicated to a man who has aged so beautifully.

I know people who have been subjected to anonymous abuse over this issue, which insists they’re just angry old women because “hot celebs won’t fuck you”.

I’m passionate about this for all sorts of reasons. I am more than a little unsettled by the vision of Joel, in particular, as exclusively attracted to much, much younger girls. I sometimes feel that some of the explanations for why age gap is good or better are somewhat problematic (that’s just my opinion, before anyone yells at me, but it’s rooted in experience and the fact that I work with many college-aged people and know the consequences of the age gap fantasy when it hits reality). And there are broader implications for the message being sent to younger readers about ageing, attraction, and female sexuality, which my feminist brain is furious about.

Finally, I am struck by the fact that we often see posts about how the fic world is a broad tent, and that there’s room for everything. Yet when people ask for more fic that doesn’t repeat the age gap trope, or some of us write fics that explicitly avoid that, there’s a reaction against that.

Sigh. You see why you didn’t need to apologise for rambling, for I am a rambling Rose, and endlessly grateful for your kind words and wonderful support. Here’s to a more diverse menu of fic on the dash - the tide does seem to be turning. You may have seen the post that’s been doing the rounds where @tessa-quayle has very helpfully compiled a list of fic that doesn’t involve an age gap or DBF/daddy thing - it’s really good on the need for more diverse reading.

PS: a more general query for the dash: is this such a massive trope in other 40-something male actor fandoms??

[horneybeach1]

hii, i saw you’re taking requests so… okay i have an idea 💡 rhea ripley x reader where they are dating and is halloween and reader has this bad bad bad phobia of clowns (like i do) and her friends always pranks her but on halloween they go to far and r has like a panic attack and rhea tries to comfort her but r is too scared to even talk and then rhea goes into protective mode and threatens her friends

warnings- shitty friends, panic attacks, clown phobia (i didnt go into detail but it’s mentioned so you should be fine but i’ll put this anyway) and lots of fluff

referring to rhea as demi because it’s outside of her character in the ring, but just message or comment if you’d like me to change this!

rhea ripley x reader- no specific gender (but not re read to check)

this is my formal apology for format :)

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You’d decided that once again, your friends were dicks. It’s halloween, and you love it, but you’re scared to death of clowns, like to the point you might throw up out of fright.

You had dragged Demi to a halloween party with your friends and a load of other people you don’t know, but will probably see get drunk (and get drunk with). You parted ways at the start, her going to socialise with other people and get drinks, whereas you went to see your friends and have fun with them. But before you could have any fun, your friends had decided to scare you. I don’t mean a little jump scare, they literally hired a scare actor. So, here you were now, screaming and running away from the person who was petrifying you.

Locking yourself in the bathroom, you sat down and you felt as though you couldn’t breathe. Chest tightening as you panted, trying to get air into your lungs, but failing.

You heard knocking on the door.

“Babe… you in there?”

“mhmm” was all you could get out. Your chest was heavy and your heart was pounding.

“I need you to unlock the door for me princess”

You couldn’t move. Your mouth felt like sandpaper as you sobbed silently.

“Baby breathe…” “Babe?”

Trying to calm yourself down, you managed to unlock the door. Demi came in, locked the door and hugged you. She held you for a while, stroking your hair and just breathing so you could sync your breathing to her.

“Babe?”

She sat down on the toilet seat (closed obvs) and put you on her lap whilst holding you close.

“Tell me 5 things you can see”

“erm… you, the toilet… the sink… the…erm…the mirror and the hand wash?” The words hurt your throat.

“Well done baby, now 4 things you can feel”

“Your hands, your hair, my clothes and… erm… oh! your breath”

“Keep breathing baby, and 3 things you can hear”

“Your heartbeat, your breath and the music” it was faint but you could still hear the music, but it was easier to breathe and talk.

“Good job baby, what 2 things can you smell”

“I can smell… your perfume and… the incense i think?”

“And one thing you can taste”

“The mint i had before we came here”. By the time you got to one, you felt so much better. You could breathe and talk and felt calmer, but that’s just what Demi does to you. She’s your rock (no pun intended for the wrestler- okay maybe a pun intended) and you loved her for that.

“How do you feel?”

“Much better, thanks babe”

“Don’t say thank you, what happend?”

“Nothing, it doesn’t matter”

Needless to say, she found out what happened, and when she did, your ‘friends’ had hell to pay.

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I hope you enjoyed it! I’m sorry if it wasn’t what you wanted with the friends part but i had no clue how to write them. Also, the panic attack is written on my experience with them, and what can calm me down the quickest!

[dokidoki-muffin]

Hello! Not long ago I found your blog, you draw very cool! 😳❤️

I want to ask one slightly strange question. If he seems uncomfortable to you, please ignore my message! Your comfort is more important ☺️🙏

So, the question itself. More precisely, the situation. I've been dating a man for over two years now, our genders don't matter (no, really). They know that I am ticklish and have easily attacked me several times. But it never lasted more than a few seconds. How can I hint them to attack me? I can't say this directly, I'll die of shame (also why I use anonymity). Haha... 🙃

As far as I was able to find out, they are quite good at tickling, but they don’t experience it themselves (UNFAIR 😭)

I really need some help from people who understand this. I understand absolutely nothing about this topic... 😓

Anyway, whether you answer or not, have a nice day! Your art always lifts my spirits for a long time! ☺️❤️💐

Hey 😊 Aw thank you so much!! 💖💖 First of all, thanks for your concern, I appreciate it! 🙏✨ Ayeeee.. I feel you 😅🙈 Revealing this topic to your partner can be such a difficult and embarrassing thing 😬😅 I've been there as well 😅💀🔥 Just figuring yourself out can be so confusing on its own already 😅 I'm not sure, if I can give you really helpful "advice" or anything.. But if it happened before that they tickled you.. how did it happen? Did you provoke them into doing it? (playfully ofc 🙃) Or was it an accident? Maybe you could try if you can somewhat "recreate" these situations, if that makes sense 🙂 As in.. if there is something that might trigger a tickle attack, like stretching on purpose when they are in reach, then you can always try to invite it that way 🤭💖 Something that worked for me in the past was just being a brat in the right situations 🤣🔥 (ofc it always depends a bit on how your partner reacts to certain things 🙃😆) Also I think it's good that your partner isn't immediately going all out 🙂 Exploring things at a good pace that feels comfortable is so important 💖 Especially since they are not ticklish themselves it might be difficult for them estimate what is too much or overwhelming for you. So I think it's better like this than the other way round. (And I absolutely agree 😅🙈 That is unfair af 💀🔥🤣 But who knows.. maybe there is still some secret spot that will reveal itself 🙃🤭) But maybe, if you're too shy to say anything yet, just try your best to still let them know that you're enjoying it somehow 💖 Idk how to describe.. but maybe you can hint them with your body language.. like be affectionate when/after it happens 🙂 Or depending on the situation, if you provoked them into it, provoke them some more when they stop 🙃😆😛 And maybe with a little time they will connect the dots 🤭 Other than that I think just try to enjoy your interactions as much as possible 💖 Even if the development might be slow. I'm sure you will get there 🥰 Yah.. I'm afraid that's all I can say for your situation 😅🙈 Idk if it was helpful in any way 😆😬 And thanks! I also wish you a nice day!! 💖💖💖🥰 And I'm glad to hear that my art brightens up your day! 🙏✨

[positivelypositive]

Hihihi ! First of all wanna say I love ur page sm ty for posting ur personal motivational messages!! They are always so comforting. <333

I just wanted to rant about my major, since I’m in college and that’s like my whole life right now haha.. I keep struggling with getting bad grades (not failing, but not amazing enough to go to a good graduate school in the future). Even though it’s very common since I’m a STEM major in a fairly tough school/major, it doesn’t stop me from feeling like a failure and that I’ll never get better.. I know that I need to just keep taking steps to improve myself and my grades, but it’s so especially hard when my friends in the class are really complacent, settling for the bad grades and not trying to be creative with ways to improve themselves. They choose to be lazy instead and deal with the consequences by dropping a class or a minor that isn’t easy (relatively). I have one other friend in my major who is as motivated as me to do really well, but she isn’t doing the same minor that I’m aiming to do — so we don’t have those classes in common to relate with and help/motivate each other on. So if I’m struggling in the classes for my minor, I know my friends won’t be much help because they’re probably struggling more than me ! Or if they aren’t, they just aren’t as helpful in explaining things because they don’t have an intuitive grasp on it if that makes sense, and would rather just give me their answers.

Anyways, it’s just an overall frustrating experience, but I saw that u were accepting rants hahaha and I kinda needed to get this off my chest. What would u do in my situation? Try to maybe make some new friends? It’s hard because I try to avoid people with big egos (bc they’re annoying 😭 but sometimes they end up being the smartest/most motivated…) but I could also try going out of my comfort zone to meet new ppl, but I also have social anxiety so it’s scary hahahha

Much love 💕

hey anon,

thank you for your kind words! i'm so glad you took up my offer to rant and shared freely. lastly, i'm sorry if i'm getting back to you late. i have been away from my account for a little while and only saw this today.

now, on to what you shared- i want to begin by telling you how proud i am of you. you want to do better even when those surrounding you are complacent. that takes serious motivation. you're awesome!

as for not having someone to motivate you to do even better- i'm in a field where none of my friends or family had any experience so i was a loner for most of my career. eventually, i found people to share with but i understand where you're coming from.

i think youtube used to and still helps me the most. try to look up efficient study methods for your specific subjects or course type. now, it can get overwhelming because youtubers have their on-camera, pretty lives in extreme order.

what you want to do is start small. maybe pick one idea that you see common amongst a few videos and try implementing that. see if it works and then keep adding slowly.

remember to not overdo it. perfection is overrated and for a sincere person as yourself, it can quickly turn demotivating.

take care of yourself anon. you sound like a very pleasant person. feel free to drop by for another rant, anytime. sending you warmth and positive vibes ✨

[persephoneflouwers]

Hi Angie, i hope it is alright that im calling you Angie, this is C.

Sorry for not replying earlier, I hope you are doing good. I’m also sorry to see that you lost someone so important to you, hope you are feeling better now.

I kinda screenshotted your answer to get back to you at a more suitable time (I see that I have the best timing now that the circus is back in town like talk about that wasted time eh Harry, anyway..)

I’m sorry that the fandom evolved into a place where you (and me and I’m sure many others) are feeling bad for voicing opinions that are essentially the fundamentals of being a larrie. The way this has been happening is particularly disheartening when people accuse us of apparently not respecting their closet or blaming them for their closets, like that is some level of gaslighting and guilt tripping.

I guess the fandom became this way now because louder voices are more occupied with following the biggest popstar (their words definitely not mine) of recent years than two closeted musicians that they can see past all the bs H and his team pull to the point where them voicing all the praise and how this fuck-boy persona is a must to make it big are drowning out the reasonable judgments of many levelheaded fans that can still manage to be here.

It really makes me wonder how it would be now with H and L if the fandom could have been more open with our criticism towards their recent way of handling fame, business etc, like im not trying to attribute more importance than we deserve to us as a fandom in their lives or saying we know better than them but we experienced firsthand how they were attuned to the chatter of larry fandom, maybe some tough love is what they need to hear instead of all the coddling (especially H) they are oddly receiving mostly from this part of fandom.

Also, im not trying to sound insensitive but it feels like they are missing Jay-like figure in their lives who im firmly believing was the voice of reason for them (I dont wanna get into this too much out of respect for Jay)

I have so much respect for you (and other blogs like you) bc you guys refuse to give into pressure of following whats come to be “the truth” and still speak your truths, there is nothing off putting about that believe me, it is admirable.

Im sorry if this ask feels incoherent, if it is so, you are gonna understand why in my following ask which would be just for you.

Hello, C 🦋 it’s so comforting to read your messages every now and then. I hope life is treating you well.

I know I made myself a reputation of an hater, but I’m not. I’m just constantly pushing back whatever stupid move they make. I don’t care if it’s good for their business, it’s not worthy on a human level and I fear the day people will start prioritising job and money and commercial success.

I also understand ignoring whatever thing you don’t like is a way to cope and go through this and curate your experience, but still it won’t make it go away. It’s hard at times, especially here - I’m not particularly close to anyone here so it feels like my experience is just me speaking into the void, you know? - and in this isolation sometimes I feel like the evil character but I don’t think I am. I’m a fan like everyone else, except I am very opinionated and more often than not I don’t agree with what I see/read here and there.

But thank you for coming back. I will not post the other part II because I like that little secret between us 😌 you’ll find me here when you decide to share more of your thoughts of course <3

[crisps-craft]

Imma do it again, hi lovely crispy, was wondering about a connection with this boy which I feel very deeply to, you know that song close to me by the cure this cunt makes me feel so nice and I feel alive not in a hole. But he’s not here anymore. Just please look into us.

APS, 🦁 and leoooo

Thank u lovely

4,5,8 house

hi! i hope you are doing well <3 separations are very hard and when i was channeling your energy came through very strong :( here are the cards i pulled:

current situation / energy: 2 of cups, knight of cups, 7 of pentacles, queen of swords, 6 of pentacles

2 of cups tells me that you guys had a very deep connection - i feel like your relationship reached a lot of intimacy and soul connection which i know sounds basic to say but tbh not every connection has that, you know what i mean? that's a very hard thing to find and i think you both held a lot of trust towards each other. i got a visual of you guys laying on a bed facing each others faces just talking - it felt very comfortable and domestic tbh. i saw he had brown hair but i could be wrong lol.

but now in your current situation, im seeing that you are putting energy and emotion towards them and they just ... aren't. they aren't reciprocating the way that they used to and its breaking your heart a lot. okay this could be wrong but i felt the need to say it - do you have blonde hair (i havent read in a while so im a little rusty and i just got weird visuals in my head) but anyways, 6 of pentacles is a card that deals with imbalances of power and you feel like they have you wrapped around their finger and you care so much - they have this power over you. but you don't have that power over them - they aren't its like you are giving your all and they are giving nothing. i remember you mentioned 4/ 5/ 8th house synastry and 4th and 8th house synastry especially is soooo intense. ive had experiences with it too- its like these people live in your heart. these placements develop such a familiar type of intimacy and its such a jab in the heart ugh :( i feel for you.

i feel like you have been reaching out to them on social media / through text but either not getting anything or not getting the same energy back.

the cards kept emphasizing the imbalance of effort that i was talking about earlier - your guides are giving me this message to stop reaching out to them. if you aren't getting the same energy in return - then its not right towards you. they have this power over you and i can see its because of how emotionally invested you were (and still are) and now you are still invested but aren't getting any energy in return and its not right :(

also - tarot is not 100% accurate so only take what resonates and leave what doesn't <3 i really hope that this reading could help and provide some solace. i think that your guides want you to take some time and distance away from it - the situation needs space the most right now. i think you are putting so much energy into it and it has that 8th house energy of being possessed by someone in a way - does that make sense? so i think things will get better for you if you learn to separate from it for a little bit- you will feel more balanced and the situation might even heal too. maybe in a strange way (im channeling rn) the reason why things ended for them was because they were afraid of the power they had over you - maybe they thought things felt codependent? i could be totally wrong though so plz take it with a grain of salt. another message is "its not that they don't care, but they need space right now. don't interpret the space as 'they don't care about me'" i feel like you feel like they feel nothing towards you - but a message that came up is showing that they are also experiencing a lot of emotions if it doesn't seem like it. they are grieving but not showing emotion in a weird way. capricorn vibes

i think giving this connection space will help a lot. ive been there though i get it :( 8th house synastry is veryy intense

[cosmicdreamgrl]

oh! the pinned post 🥺💗 it really suits with your theme huh?! haha but anyway... HI STEPH! i'm here because i've read it a post of yours that really messed up with my own feelings and decided to came here to easy that impostor feeling you're having about yourself and your creations. so i'm going to tell a little thing about my own experience: when i first started this 14 years ago i constanly compared my things with another ones, when tumblr got really viral in 2010/11 with all the harry potter's content i was in the middle of it feeling mediocre because i couldn't make a proper coloring and didn't even know how to put sharpen and etc. like the great ccs alreayd was doing at that time. i saw every big network birth and huge other creators receiving that great attention after me and constanly made the same questions that you made on your post. the worst one was: i will never be as talented or creative as this person will i? and that is the WORST feeling to have as a creator. because you started to doubt yourself, your talent, your colors... and we shouldn't do it because every person has his own colors, his own style. we shouldn't doubt about the encouraging comments people left on our posts or our work in general. every single one of us has his own way to see beauty, so we must believe in that. i took so long to make my bangtan blog because i was so afraid!!! afraid of the people but mostly afraid of myself. i talked about it not long ago on my blog. anyway, honey please don't let this feeling be more than you are! you're talented, there's no "oh you like that person's posts more because she/he is more talented than me" it's your brain trying to confused you. tumblr creators has often this feeling as my personal experience can tell 😖 i particularly am very glad that you started giffing, i really am. because you make things that you like, with your own personal way to make it, your comps are majestic, the choreo gifs, everything and would never be able to do that and it's all fine... i love to see the improvement on your things... but you don't have to be so HARD to yourself. let things be as they are. if you wanna make diff things, so make it, if you wanna keep as you are, so keep it. everything is fine as long as you're comfortable with it. i hope i could make sense, i hate english, but it's the only language i can talk with my friends so... 😔 sorry if i interpreted your vent post differently tho. wishing nothing but the best, sweet. if you need anything, i'm on a message away 🌷

before i begin answering this, thank you for checking in in general pat, it means a lot to know that at least one person cared enough to. also yes, i pinned your post (which i'm very much in love with wbk) and realized it matches my theme perfectly. go figure lol.

as for said vent post? i wish i could say it was a byproduct of the time of the month but as someone who works in a creative field for a living & is now a part time content creator for this site, i think the imposter syndrome is an unfortunate but inevitable side effect. am i aware that it's my own brain playing tricks on me? yes. does it stop it from happening? no. deep down, i know i'm good at what i do; in fact, there's so much i've gotten better at and i'm proud of myself for it but when you see other creators getting more attention and love for their work? yeah, it can be easy to spiral and doubt not only your abilities but your worth and what you actually contribute to this site.

i'm doing my best to undo this mentality, it's a work in progress to be sure. i know you and so many others appreciate my creations, that's what keeps me going on some days because if not, i think i would've quit ages ago. truth be told, sometimes i still feel like it but i do enjoy the process of making gifs and trying out new things, so don't worry i'm not going anywhere in that sense. but i was serious about taking a break from posting for a bit, i'm feeling the emotional drainage and i need some time to recover before i get back into the swing of things.

i digress, thank you for taking the time to reassure me and honestly just being one of the sweetest & most supportive people here. i couldn't be more grateful to have you in my life, i hope you take care and i hope you get better soon (i saw your post about having an infection, ooft). all my love as always 💞💗

[bewitchingivy]

Hi. I would like to participate in your valentines game. 🦄 :)

Initials- D.Z

Sun & Moon- Libra

Rising- Gemini

Preferred pronouns for them- he/ him

Your reading-

their first impression of you-

His first impression of you will be that you are a generous soul but you also don’t hesitate to stand up for yourself. You might be enjoying with friends when you first meet him and he would see you as his muse form the start. You might also give him an impression of you being hard working. Song-(Beautiful by 1D)

your first date together-

You guys might go to a coffee place or somewhere there aren’t a lot of people. He will make sure to spend time to get to know you and make you comfortable. I am also getting that you guys might play some games at home by yourself like truth or dare to get to know each other better and have fun in your own way. Song- (Sway by Micheal Bubble)

how would they show their love to you-

They will always have your back no matter what. They will always try to be strong for you and make sure to provide for you and the family. Their love language can be gift giving or spending quality time with you. Song- (Count on me by Bruno Mars)

❛ love again ; entry #002

Hello! Thank you so much for joining my game and for following the rules <3 As promised, here's your reading! I hope you'll enjoy it :)  Remember to take what resonates and leave what doesn't!

his first impression of you: 

I'll Get the Coffee by Kathryn Gallagher He would find you very attractive and endearing, but I get the feeling that when you first meet him, you might be feeling and looking exhausted or stressed, and he can see this but finds it cute somehow. Despite being tired, he'll notice how you keep up and make him feel comfortable to be around you. He will also make the effort to do the same and make you feel more relaxed. He wishes you could just slow down a little bit though.

your first date together:

Hey Stephen by Taylor Swift This is when you're just getting to know each other, I feel like the date will mostly involve just you two talking, I'm getting a picture in my mind of you being in the park. Oh! Another clear vision came to me of you two strolling down a promenade, particularly when the sun had just set and streetlamps are lighting the way. This will happen after being somewhere like getting dinner, and the two of you will enjoy each other's company and talking with each other.

what you should know about him:

Would That I by Hozier He'd really love to get to know you, but then a part of him is scared of falling in love with you. He might have gone through troubled relationships (romantic or platonic), and he's sincerely worried and afraid that what if your relationship will be just the same; he's also afraid of the thought of you leaving his life. (i relate so bad with your person, fam lmfao)

what he loves about you:

Halley's Comet by Billie Eilish OMG. WHAT DID I SAY? PLEASE LISTEN TO THAT SONG. BECAUSE ITS LITERALLY ABOUT BEING SCARED OF FALLING IN LOVE. And oh I love that song so much. Ahem, anyways! Here's what I strongly feel intuitively; despite being scared of falling in love, he would love how you take those fears of his away. It's gonna be terrifying for him, but something about you will reassure him so much that everything's going to be better than the experiences he had before. They love how sincere and honest you are.

how he shows his love to you:

In My Blood by Shawn Mendes He loves to help you out with anything, from the smallest to the big problems you have. He would help you in a heartbeat how to deal and solve any problems. I'm getting acts of service love language from him.

signs you'll see about him:

just like magic by Ariana Grande You know that you've met him or will soon meet him when you or him will be ending a relationship (friendship, romantic, etc.) Are you applying any laws of manifesting into your life? Because I just got the message that you'll know it's him because, like if you scripted what sort of partner you desire, mostly, if not every single thing in your script; it's ticked off. Exactly your ideal type.

a message from him:

Fine On The Outside by Priscilla Ahn "I just wish I could be here for you and comfort you at this time when you're not feeling well, but alas, we haven't met yet. Do me a favor please, take care of yourself, okay? Also let go of other people's expectations of you, stop trying to please others because you will end up losing yourself. Do things for you. Don't be afraid to become your most truest self, ok?"

my feedback:

omg, i've got many times that their love language is either gift giving or quality time 🥹🥹 aside from that, the first meeting where i'm enjoying time with my friends is another validation that i've also heard from pacs and exchanges. cafe is another repeating message, also saw this in a dream twice !! also, the truth or dare is new and i find it really adorable </3 i hope i'll get to play that with him someday, HEHE. Thank you so much for the reading!

Please don't forget to leave a feedback, tell me what resonates and what doesn't, and whatever you want to add! :)

[youmustbestrongernow]

Hey, not a question, just a quick reminder that your writing is absolutely amazing and it is currently keeping me company most nights when my insomnia prevents me from getting much sleep - I've said it before and I will say again, no matter what you write or who you write about, I will always appreciate reading it and enjoy your storytelling.

Like, I've talked about your druck fics to my roommate several times this week because I'm re-reading one of them, and she doesn't even know the show. Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that you are freaking talented and your writing matters to people! I also hoped you had a good new years and are doing well in general!! Alright, I'll stop now, thanks for coming to my Ted Talk that is: Theo writes in a way that makes me feel less lonely in the loneliest hours of the night and I am grateful for that

All the best! xx

Ok so last night I couldn't sleep at all, my insomnia has been pretty bad too lately. Then i got this message and I went to bed with a smile on my face, it was so touching.

Just the idea that my writing has brought you comfort, I mean that’s really why I shared so much in the first place.

For a little while there I lost... not my passion but my I guess motivation/drive for writing, and I really really missed the comfort it provided me, it felt like such a loss. It’s only really toward the end of last year when my spark came back, everything felt ok and settled again.

But I am writing again now, and like yeah it's not as intense and quick as it was when I was writing druck, but actually that's probably a good thing, I think I burnt myself out there. Now I'm working on something I originally wrote years ago, when I was figuring myself out and everything felt hopeless and difficult. And now things are still difficult but now I have hope and I guess more life experience so the whole tone of the story has changed, and it’s really fun to work on. It’s great fun to kind of work through things, with the fun of a fantasy setting. Butt his is something I originally wrote and filed away, with no plans on sharing, I have a whole host of slightly messy stories on my hard drive like that. But I don’t know, I like the idea of putting it out there (somehow) and hopefully easing a few people’s loneliness

That’s so wild that you talk about my fics with your roommate! But sometimes it hits me like how many people my stories reached and touched, and like I’m not showing off or anything, I just never expected much from them when I started posting. Yeah they were super precious to me. And it was always so nice to get nice comments that they were being enjoyed, but it was the comments that they helped people, or that they resonated with others experiences, those are the ones that made me feel less alone.

The winter break was actually pretty rough and lonely for me, because I was pretty ill, but I’m doing much better now, and feeling so hopeful for this year. It’s going to be damn unsettled but in a good way, lots of good things to come.

Anyway all that just to say, I really really appreciate this message, it brought me a lot of joy on an otherwise uneventful and restless evening. I suffer terribly from loneliness at times, and while writing my little stories was a great comfort, sharing them and hearing that they helped other people was always both astounding and wonderful.

[irinamitr]

i dont have any advice for you im just here to say im in a very similar boat [it always makes me feel better to know im not 100% alone after all]

but i also struggle with figuring out if im aromantic or if i just have high standards, and then i dont even know if those standards are actually high or if its simply that people rarely pursue me [and even then is it because they arent interested or is it because i dont put myself out there?] like the idea of dating someone feels incorrect, but is it because i think i wouldnt get anything out of it or is it because i cant see someone ever seeing me that way? do i set myself up for failure and only get interested in people who i Cannot Have because im just generally self sabotaging or because i dont want to be with anybody? i dont think theres any real way to know other than to date people, but thats a task that seems impossible to me.

anyways, have a good day! i hope you enjoy what you read and find lots of time to do it.

oh how the world works, out of all the people you meet in life to find the first one to voice something so perfectly similar to my experience on tumblr! but that actually means so much, i was writing those words into the void without expecting anyone to see and seeing your message was extremely hopeful, thank you so much for putting it all into words!!

i feel like i could be okay with being aromantic and except it for what it is but how hard it is to to understand those feelings and know for sure. no one ever seems to feel this way, everyone around have their crushes on people at all times but i just never understood it, you know? only those unattainable figures, but even so i feel like with time i would lose interest and no single person would ever be able to hold my attention for long. or maybe i just never knew anyone on that personal level where you love someone unconditionally. i feel like love exists only as a concept but never in reality, it all feels so hollow.

and oh, i actually wanted to have a little experiment and maybe just try going on a date? just to see what all the fuss is about. but every chance i got close to doing it, i immediately retreated and i never seem to find the courage to do it. i don't want to lead other people on when i know that it would only be an opportunity to check that experience out of "want to try" list.

you say that the idea of dating feels incorrect to you and i also can't even imagine a situation where i would be comfortable with someone in relationship. it takes a lot of work and trust and maybe i am too selfish for that.

maybe there's no way of knowing but to live and see where it takes you. i hope you find your answers with time! and that whatever it is it would bring you comfort. maybe you would meet someone and would be able to heal. and if you are actually aromantic, it is probably just as good. society was built around this romantic love concept but it's not all there is, the world is huge and a lot of things can bring you happiness! thank you again!!

[fat-feminism]

Not our place

A white woman’s thoughts on her race’s need for minorities to “move on”

Last night, while I was scrolling through one of my favorite Facebook pages—For the love of old houses—I came across a house in Mississippi that just floored me. It was beautiful.

Then, I started reading a little more about the house. Built in 1792. Located in the southwest corner of Mississippi on 135.88 acres of land. Old outbuildings on the property. I felt sick. I had no doubt in my mind that this was probably, at one time, a plantation and a slave owner’s house.

Now granted, I could be wrong, but that’s not likely. It’s even located on Plantation Road. So, I wanted to read the comments. I wanted to see if anyone else had the same gut-punch reaction I did about the property.

Many did. Some of the comments said things like:

“Amazing house…beautiful…but I couldn’t live in a place with the history this house likely has.”

“It’s pretty on the outside but with a dark horrid history on the inside. Ruins it all for me too.”

“Would love to know more history about the house if anyone has information… think that would impact whether someone would buy the house (the description is so “cheery” but I strongly suspect the history isn’t, unfortunately).”

“I could never live in a house in the South that was that old and which has ‘outbuildings’. The vibes even from the pictures make me a little uneasy.”

“The govt should buy this house and give it to an African American family as reparations.”

“The suffering that went on here, and people here glorifying this place. The total denial is mind boggling.”

I was relieved to see others with the same reaction. Unfortunately, far more people were talking about how lovely it was, and how amazing it would be to live there. This, as a previous comment I shared stated, was mind-boggling.

Then, I came across one specific comment from a Black woman who stated:

“No thanks. As a Black woman all I can think of is how many people who looked like me were servants there. I could never be comfortable.”

I wanted to stand up and clap when I read that. It is exactly what I was thinking. Not that the servants and slaves looked like me, but that I don’t know how anyone could be comfortable in a house or on a property where such atrocities occurred.

Then, I read the replies to her comment—made by several very white people:

“I can’t understand people who frequently return to locations of pain and sorrow only to have the agony of those experiences revisit their heart. Unless you have a purpose and resources to change what is damaging to yourself and others, avoid the discomfort.”

“politically charged architect. Such a disgrace to those who think that way. Y’all need to grow up”

“Now tho you could own it and rise above those times.”

“Jesus Christ, can’t people move on…”

“You probably can’t afford it anyways!!”

This is when my mood switched from disgusted to angry. Let me pass on a little message to my race: When your ancestors commit atrocities on the ancestors of black people, and you live in a society that still effectively works to oppress those same people, you do not have a right to tell those people when they should “move on” from something or “let go” of something.

Black people, Native American people, Latinx people, etc do not have to move on and forget the atrocities of white people so you feel more comfortable with your life. We don’t get to decide that because we are the ones who perpetuated them.

And I’m saying that as someone whose family didn’t even come to the US until well after slavery. That doesn’t change anything.

Black people don’t owe us anything. Not one damn dime, place at their table, or an ounce of their forgiveness. Strangely, in many cases, they give it to white people anyway. But they don’t owe it to us. And they sure as shit don’t need to whitewash their history or hide their feelings on it to make us feel better.

If the last two years taught America anything, it should be that the veil is pulled back. We can see the oppressive policies our society has put in place to continue to rule over minorities. And we should do everything in our power to break those policies and put in place a society where Black and Brown lives matter as much as White lives. Where Black and Brown people are allowed to hold up the mirror of history to white faces and say, “This is what you did to us!”

And we should be forced to look.

[honeyabyss]

Different ways to say I Love You (minus Luke)

Lucifer:

Lucifer isn't the best at saying what he actually feels due to his pride getting in the way, but he makes it up with small gestures

he is very observant and often knows what you need before you know it

putting on the fireplace in his study when he notices you start to rub your hands or shift your legs to warm them subconsciously

refilling your cup/glass while he pours something himself

"You should have dressed better, I can see you're shivering..."

his snarky side comments might sound like he's annoyed, but he actually cares and worries

he will most definitely put his cloak around your shoulders and keep you close to him with a hand on your waist

he's conflicted between staying subtle and showing you off all the time

"Aren't they looking amazing today? Haven't you stared enough yet? You're making them uncomfortable!"

when you're in private he becomes more open and affectionate, but still tries to play it down

him moving with his work away from his work desk to the small coffee table, sitting side by side with you, just to have you close

when he's feeling stressed he tends to intertwine his fingers with yours, seeking the comfort and familiarity of you

Lucifer tries to give you the same he feels when he is with you comfort, peace, a place to hide from the rest of the world

"You are my save haven! I don't always have to be at my best when I'm with you!"

Mammon:

"Hey! Look what I've brought you home. Ain't I the best?!"

small gifts are a regular occurrence with the Avatar of Greed, which don't always have to be the most expensive, extraordinary or thoughtful ones

"I was on the way home when I saw this and thought of you...you needed this right?"

it could have been the most ridiculous thing like a single paperclip, but he'd be so proud to have noticed and remembered you were having troubles organizing your papers yesterday

him being a tsundere makes it hard for him to openly admit or show his love for you sometimes, his thoughts are full of you and he is constantly complementing you and how much he wants to hold you in his arms or kiss...but actually vocalizing or holding and kissing you seems to be way harder

though that doesn't hold him off to keep you close and hold hands in front of others, you're his human and everyone shall know, you're his and his alone, they'd be mad to try and steal you away

as his sin is Greed, hoarding stuff happens often, most of the times he sells them to be able to get money, but every single thing you'll give him will hold a special meaning in his heart, will show off your gifts to brag

but material love isn't the only thing he can give, he'll also gladly give you all his time

he'll randomly invite you to go take a drive with him, just get in the car and go, no set destination, just Mammon and you away from his brothers and all the others

when you're alone he'd still be nervous, but cuddling will happen a lot, though he is always blushing a bright red

"If I could choose to have one treasure in my whole life, I'd choose to only treasure you!"

Leviathan:

being the Avatar of Envy, he is quick to loose his temper when you're talking or even dare touch other people, he'd be rather alone with you, but that doesn't always work, so being open and mindful about his sin is a must

"Soo what did you two talk about? Not that I mind...but you can also talk about everything with me, you know that right?"

he knows that his social skills aren't the best and that he doesn't know about to many normie topics, but he'll try his best to listen to you and come up with responses and ways to keep the conversation going

he wants to make sure you know he loves you so badly, but all he knows about love is from animes or games, so he often tries to recreate romantic scenes only to get thoroughly embarrassed

"d-d-don't laugh! This i-i supposed to be ro-romantic...."

he tries to keep you close to him as much as he can when you're outside

he knows how anxiety inducing it can be for him, when someone suddenly touches him, so he always asks you first, as embarrassing it is to ask you to hold hands or kiss, he feels better knowing you want this too

when he is playing his games, he dislikes it when you disappear out of his vision, wanting to make sure you're still there and letting you know he hasn't forgotten about you even though he is currently concentration on his gaming, he'll keep you in his lap with a furious blush on his cheeks and he might see the game over screen more often but it's definitely worth it

"You make me overcome my weaknesses, just give me time and I'll make you happy!

Satan:

"The weather is nice...do you want to take a walk with me?"

Satan enjoys spending his time with you in any way possible, a simple walk, reading sessions, visiting your favourite places, discovering new cafés, exploring galleries and museums, as long as you're around he is open to try anything

lazing around in his room cuddled up next to you with a good book will stays his favourite though, he has you for himself and it feels reassuring to know you stay with him even on the normal and eventless days

Satan isn't too handsy, but he does keep your hand in his wherever the two of you are, even if you only making your way to the kitchen, he is not exactly jealous just happy to call you his and show it

the subtle intimacy of handholding speaks volumes to him, to others it may seem like the most ordinary couple thing, but he likes to experiment and if his stupid idea of only holding 2 fingers makes you laugh then it was a full success to him

no matter how much control over his sin he has sometimes he breaks too, after getting out all his anger, he tends to be exhausted and feels vulnerable, he'll just sit down with your hands intertwined and his head resting on your shoulder, seeking comfort and affection

"Have you smiled yet? I smile every time I think of you!"

Satan will leave small notes to make your day or send you messages on your DDD when he can't be around you

"Did I ever tell you that you feel like home to me? I hope I can be your home as well!"

Asmodeus:

so many praises and compliments, like you can just sit there looking at your phone and Asmo just coos

"You look sooo pretty!~ let's take a picture together to remember this moment!"

he will take a lot of pictures of you and him, just to look at for himself when he misses you, to show off to his brothers and Solomon, or to the whole Devildom through posting it on Devilgram

he simply enjoys to look at you, though it always ends in a warm hug , kisses and praises

he may not be very poetic or thoughtful with his touches, but he always gives it his all, some feelings he just can't describe in words so he just holds you close to show you his feelings

spa days, shopping tours and going into the club happen often, though he understands if you're not up to it some times, but he will whine and demand to spend you day differently with him

he can't help it he wants to spoil you and show you off, he's is almost never jealous, rather proud even when someone flirts with you, that doesn't mean he'll give you away

"Come here, let me just hold you. You fit perfectly into my arms..."

as the Avatar of Lust, physical touch means a lot to him, not only in the sexual way, but most in importantly in the way of craving affection, he wants to be hold and to hold you, give him all your attention and he'll be happy

"Thank you for staying and accepting me!"

Beelzebub:

sleepily walking through the hallways into the kitchen to keep Beel company while he has his midnight snack and just sitting next to him talking about your day

"Thank you for staying awake with me, do you want me to get you food as well?"

with Gluttony as his sin, food is big part of his daily life, but he doesn't just eat to satisfy his hunger, but also because he enjoys the food, no matter how hungry he is, he'll offer you even the last piece to make you happy

sharing new food and old favourites of his alike, Beel likes to share his food with you, as he feels less hungry in your company anyway

seeing you happy and full makes him happy and full as well, so he puts you first most of the times, letting you choose what you want and going along with your preferences

"Anything is fine with me, you can choose for us."

Beel is also very active, playing Fangol, training and etc, he often invites you to train with him or tries to teach you new stuff, if you don't want too that's fine as well, you can watch and he may try to impress you a little bit, but he won't train much when you're around wanting to rather spend time with you

bear hugs. just you walking basically anywhere and Beel suddenly hugs you tight against his chest, nuzzling your face and having a huge grin plastered on his face

his affectionate hugs and kisses come out of nothing, surprising but welcome, some times he forgets his strength and you'll have to remind him, he'll hold you very carefully then asking if this okay

"I feel complete with you, so just stay by my side!"

Belphegor:

"Lay down with me, I nap better with you at my side!"

obviously nap time with lots of cuddling, he just drapes himself over you, holding you close and sharing his warmth with you...if you're lucky you'll even get a small goodnight kiss, but only if he's in the mood

Belphie is a bit too straightforward with his words and sometimes ends up being a bit mean when he doesn't really want to, so in crucial moments with you he tends to become quiet and seek out to hold and hopefully show you his feelings

Belphie isn't handsy but he loves to cuddle, he may not always hold your hand when taking a walk but as soon as you two sit down he'll hug you close without saying a word

when he finds you sleeping somewhere without him, he is a bit hurt at first but he recovers quick, he'll make sure you're resting comfortably, the pillow is soft enough and that the blanket keeps you warm, even going to the length to bring you his own blanket if fell asleep anywhere but you're room, without a doubt he'll feel tired after taking care of you and will fall asleep right next to you

"Sleeping without me...unbelievable...I'll just have to squish myself next to you then.."

his other passion stargazing always ends up with him hugging you and telling you about the different constellations and it's stories until you fall asleep...only when he is sure you're dreaming he dares to run his fingers through you hair and lowly hum a lullaby into the otherwise silent night

"Let's dream our life together and promise to make it true one day!"

Diavolo:

as the prince of Hell, Diavolo only ever knew people who treated him with respect, always leaving him to feel lonely and out of place, but then you came and you weren't scared neither did you treat him like a prince, you made him your friend and soon more

with you he feels finally complete and he tries to show you his appreciation and affection any free moment of his time

he'd buy you anything you want not caring about the price, but please tell him that a small and thoughtful gift makes you just as happy as anything else

being with you always has him giddy and bursting with love, he can't hold back and will shower you in attention or at least watch you do your thing

"You're looking radiant my love! I can't believe you're mine!"

similar to Beel he has these affection attacks where he'll just suddenly have the urge to hug you and shower you in kisses

being prince requires a lot of paper work, which he dislikes, when you're around he'll indulge himself in a few more breaks than he should, ending in him having to work overtime much to his dismay

"Will you stay up waiting for me at home?"

He knows it's a selfish thought, but he loves the feeling of coming home to you and getting greeted, he feels at peace when you're there and wait for him

"I'll never have to feel lonely again, when I have you!"

Barbatos:

as a butler time isn't something he has much of, so he some times feels like he can't give you enough, he'll try to meet as often as possible but often it's only for an hour or so a day

"Do you need anything else? More tea? Anything?"

He'll probably be stuck in his butler role and try to serve, completely disregarding himself, just grab him and make him sit down

Barb isn't used to physical touch and feels less comfortable to hold you in public, handholding is the maximum for him, he probably needs some time to get used to the more affectionate things

but when in private gentle touches, soft hugs and small kisses are his thing, just small reassuring stuff while you two relax and talk about daily life

he is more of a listener and he enjoys listening to your voice, it's one of his comfort things, hearing your voice means you're safe and that helps him keep calm a lot...he may not show it, but on the inside he is always worried for you living in between demons, he's on of them he knows how dangerous it can get

phone calls while he works happen more and more often as your relationship progresses, the need to see you gets stronger, but he can't just leave work, so you'll talk over the phone

"I missed you so I had to call. How is your day?"

night-time is his favourite, no work, no on watchers, just you two and your love for each other, if only it could be always like this

"One minute with you feels like eternal bliss, imagine our happiness if you'd stay with me forever!"

Solomon:

Solomon has watched many people die in his life, so he got used to not getting attached too much, falling in love with you wasn't planned, but he can't help feeling clingy with you now

he'd play it down, aloof as he always seems, but on the inside he is screaming at you to not go at the end of the day, just one more hug, one more kiss, maybe stay over the night?

he'd never say it out loud and every time he does say something affectionate something teasing or a 'just kidding' follows, scared he might seem too clingy

"You're my everything, without you I feel like I'm suffocating...just a joke I'm breathing fine, see?"

he's always touching you in some way, holding your hand, arm around your shoulder, his hand on your waist, back or knee, whatever he just wants to feel the warmth of your skin telling him you're still there

he has lived through so many human lifetimes and experienced so much, he's happy to share all the good stuff with you and show you the most wondersome places in all three realms

the bad stuff though he keeps to himself, guides you away and hopes you'll never experience it

"Hey! Surprise I was close by and I thought we could take a walk?"

Solomon loves spending his time with you in whatever way, just whisk him away to whatever activity you'd like, surprise dates are his favourite, he doesn't want to plan out his whole life

"Now is my favourite moment with you. Why? Because I'm with you!"

Simeon:

Simeon as an author has his way with words, being able to spin them just right so every moment will become perfect, but he's more used to writing than talking and he'll use that to his advantage

"Even in the darkest of nights, your beauty lightens the room!"

expect love letter, sweet notes and poems written by him, hidden your schoolwork, waiting for you on your desk in RAD, on your pillow at HoL, anywhere he can sneak them to he will

and trust me he'll get so happy when he finds out you kept every single one of his writings

he also loves cuddles but only in private, in public he'll restrain himself to simple handholding or guiding you through the streets with your arms linked together

he enjoys to spoil you with attention, doing whatever you want, often it leads to cooking where as Luke likes to join in too, long walks, reading sessions, late night movies and cuddles, or even just long conversations about everything and anything you two can think of

"My lamb, may you come over and help a poor author who has lost his inspiration to write?"

when he is stuck with his writings he likes to take a break with you and hold you tight in his arms listening to your suggestions until he feels inspired again, no pressure though he can keep writing any time he doesn't have to come up with something on the spot, just distracting him for a bit works too

"I may have found paradise in your arms tonight, do you think your heart may be so kind to let me stay?"

[alycosworld]

guess who🤡 heyhey 💕 here. I’m pretty sure by this 2nd request u can tell that I’m a very emotional person🧍🏻‍♀️ and that I’m a person that seeks alot of comfort from fictional characters because i dont have a life and good friends.

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putting a divider here so u dont have to read everything and can look out for keywords!

purple—> person

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I’m not sure if u r comfy writing kazuha so if yr not I’m sorry u can ignore this! i just want a fluff comfort for reader who got like REALLY scolded for getting bad grades for exams because u have no idea how angsty I’m feeling rn:( my parents just literally like scolded me like there was no tmr istg- so i just need really fluff comfort. so a kazuha x NB(non bibary)!reader

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Anyways again tysm u have no idea how grateful i am if you accept my request!!!<3 get lots of rest and drink water. only do this if you want to!

byebye<3

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Kazuha's Wise and Whimsical Words

Kaedehara Kazuha X Reader

A/N: aaaa 💕anon ily!! being emotional is completely fine and I would be honoured to become of your good friends!! I will be a part of your life, private message me if you're ever feeling down! I just want my readers happy because they make me happy aaaaaa 🥺

with that being said, i love this request! My parents were so hard on me when it came to exams, but as soon as I broke away from their expectations, I started to appreciate my grades more. I'll leave the real comforting words for Kazuha to say but NO ONE SHOULD EVER be disappointed in yourself if you tried your best. Thank you for your support and the request, I hope the story makes you feel better. Enjoy!

ps: I took into account the fact that not everyone has a mother and a father and not everyone has two parents at all, so only one parent is mentioned here and they are left gender neutral so it's easier to picture yourself in the story.

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"(Y/N). This is not at all what I expected. What happened to you?" Your parent asked sternly.

"Well, I--"

"I don't want to hear any excuses. Your predicted grades were much higher than this!" They said, raising their voice.

"I'm sorry, I--"

"Sorry is not going to improve your results! Do you really think that now is a good time to be slacking off? You have one more exam period before university. I don't care if you pass those exams, I want you to excel. And if you don't, you are not attending Sumeru Academia, whether they accept you or not. I am not paying for you to study overseas, only for you to get mediocre grades." They said, making you even more anxious than before the exam.

"But I got above the average!"

"By two percent! And the average was low." Your parent said, narrowing their eyes slightly and upsetting you with their belittling gaze.

"Realistically--"

"Realistically? Realistically?! If you want to study realistically, you should find someone else to pay for your education. When you want to study successfully, you can come back." They slammed the stack of sheets that displayed your results on the table with a loud bang before folding their arms as you grabbed a jacket and stormed out of the house, tears running down your face.

You walked for a while in the night, before eventually finding yourself in an area you were less familiar with. After recognising it to be somewhere near your boyfriend's current residence off Beidou's ship, you made a beeline for his place, knocking on the door and hoping, praying he would be alone inside.

The door soon opened and Kazuha stood there, initially with a smile on his face but it soon dropped when he saw your expression.

"(Y/N)? What happened?" He asked.

"C-can I come inside?" You sniffled.

"Of course, Love. Come in." He said, ushering you into his quaint little place. You stood by the door that closed behind you before Kazuha pushed the coat you had lazily draped over your shoulder onto the floor and enveloped you in his arms.

You broke down in his embrace. You had done better than most of your fellow students, and frankly, you were kind of proud of your result. But it was foolish of you to think that your parent would accept anything but perfection. They said it was all for you, but you were doubting it. Did you even want to go to Sumeru Academia? You had had your heart set on it since you were a child, but maybe that was only because your folks always envisioned you going there.

"Why are you crying, my love?" Kazuha asked, sitting you down near the fire to warm you up and standing up to get you a blanket and a hot cup of tea.

"I'm not good enough." You mumbled. If it was anyone else, they wouldn't have heard you. But your boyfriend could listen to the wind "talk" - he was very attuned to quiet and subtle noises.

"Nonsense." He smiled, bringing you the blanket as you listened to the water boil in the background.

"You're more than good enough. Everyone who knows you adores you - no one more than me, of course." Kazuha chuckled, eventually setting down two cups of tea and sitting in front of you on the floor.

"Public opinion won't improve my grades." You said, now more stoic than upset. You had almost become numb and desensitised to degrading comments that after you cried a little and calmed down, you'd be straight-faced and almost emotionless. It didn't feel good, but it was certainly better than feeling bad.

"So this is about school." Kazuha nodded, gesturing for you to continue explaining why had happened.

"They keep talking about my grades. They said I shouldn't be slacking and that I'm not going to get to Sumeru Academia and that they want me to do better...maybe I'm interpreting it wrong. Maybe they're trying to encourage me?" You wondered aloud, thinking that somehow you were the problem. As soon as you said "they", Kazuha knew who you are referring to and sighed.

"Encouragement and doubt are two very different things. Unrealistic expectations, detrimental practices, emotionally, mentally or physically taxing improvement - none of that is going to help you. In fact, it'll make you feel worse. When you really think about what you have to do to achieve perfection, you'll only realise how unattainable it is. You'll fall into a perpetual spiral of intellectual destruction." Kazuha said.

"Then how the hell am I gonna get the best results?" You asked worriedly.

"You won't. No one will ever get the best results because more people and more previously unforeseen factors will come into play. What you can achieve is your best results. Your grades are a product of you, not the other way around. They are no measure of your worth, they cannot define you, and they do not have to be a part of you. If you don't ace one subject, you don't have to hang on to that or turn it into some strange part of you. You can't cling to it, it's impossible to cling to a piece of the past forever. That's not to say you don't learn from it, but it doesn't need to become some villainous trait - in the end, it is only a grade." Kazuha shield at you. His words warmed your heart more than the fire or tea, and they even seemed to dry your tears and allow you to mirror his expression.

"And at the very least, you can hold your head high knowing that you had the strength to participate in an exam when not everyone does. You went in, sat through it, attempted the questions and walked out. Not everyone has the courage to stay; some don't even have the courage to start. That goes for any endeavour you face." Kazuha said, before inching closer to you.

"Feeling any better?" He asked. You nodded instantly. Of course, Kazuha's wise and whimsical words had bettered your mood, it was Kazuha for Archon's sake.

"Good. Maybe we could go for an evening stroll? I'll treat you to dinner if you haven't eaten." He offered.

"Can...can we just stay like this for a little longer? I think being alone with you is nicer." You smiled.

"Of course, Angel. Anything you want."

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this was less physical fluff than I intended, but I think I do comfort with direct words and dialogue best, so I hope this is okay. honestly, everything kasha said is what I would've wished to hear when I was in this situation. I'll probably post a rant about my own exam experiences because this request got all my past feelings to resurface.

thank you for reading, I hope you enjoyed!

[thestarrynightslover]

I'll Make It Okay for You - Part 2

Pairing: Harvey Specter x Reader

Word count: 2,765

Warnings: Discussion, yelling, some angst, mentions of drugs, drug abuse, drug withdrawal, rehab facility and insecurities/self-sabotage (very, very slightly, tho). 

Summary: You can read Part 1 here. What happens when (y/n) (y/l/n), Harvey’s secret crush and a junior partner at his firm, openly defies him in front of everyone? 

Disclaimer: I don’t own the show Suits, or its characters, also not associated with it in any way or know anyone involved with it.

A/N: I think that this turned out better than Part 1? As always, I’m not sure, though. Just to make it clear here, I’m still on season 4 of Suits, so didn’t wanna get too much into any canonic details, self-preservation, lol. Anyhow, I hope you like it, and, ofc, feedback is always appreciated.

(y/n) = (your name) (y/l/n) = (your last name) (y/n/n) = (your nickname)

You and Harvey stayed in the embrace for a while, as you sunk in all the comfort emanating from him. He'd even started stroking your hair. The whole situation felt so intimate, that, by the time the two of you finally pulled away from each other, it was almost as if there was this cloud of embarrassment hovering around you both.

"Err… I'm s- sorry, I shouldn't have, um-" You started saying nervously but he cut you off.

"No, it's okay. And, um, I'm really glad you told me what happened… It's definitely a lot to deal with. And I was a complete asshole this morning. So I'm sorry." For a moment both you and Harvey just smiled at each other, sitting there in a comfortable silence. Until he decided to break it: "So, um, did you get her a lawyer? I'm assuming you wouldn't wanna represent her yourself because it could be problematic…"

"No, uh, yeah. It would be problematic.” You corrected him. “But the most I could do was make the cops get her a public defender, cause I called my dad when I was on the way there and he just wouldn't have me paying for anything else. He is a retired cop, so the pension isn't too great, the pride though… And I’m already covering Lisa's treatment because it's her best shot, but this…"

"And he wants to teach her a lesson." He completed what you were trying to explain.

"Yes."

"And you don't agree with him?" Harvey asked, almost reading your mind.

"Well, it's complicated. Because when I see what Kat's doing with her life… I get just as frustrated as my parents, and I really do want what's best for Henry." The fact that your sister wasn't what's best for her son was only implied. "But she's my little sister, you know?" As he nodded in understanding, you went on: "I wanna help her, but, at least for now, I think I'm just gonna wait and see if mom and dad change their minds… Which I think they will do! I mean, my dad was a cop for years. He knows what those places do to people. As much as we all desperately want her to get her shit together, I don't think that prison is where she'll succeed in doing so." You finished, voice filled with concern.

"Well, I don't think I would be as lenient, and compassionate, as you are, but I do see your point." Harvey told with a sympathetic smile. "Besides, she is your sister. And, trust me, I know what it is like to go out of your way to keep a sibling outta trouble." He added with a tired sigh, making you wonder how much you really knew about the man sitting in front of you.

"Either way, now I don't see much that I can do for her at the moment. Gonna try and have her attorney keep me posted, of course, but…" 

"Yeah…"

"I just… I can't help but feel guilty about all of this, you know?" You said, after having stood up and turned your back on him, finally letting on what was bothering you the most to the other lawyer.

"No, not really, I don't." He stated simply while you just looked back at him with a shocked expression on your face. "I mean, there's not a single approach on this that makes me think you're to blame for anything." He explained himself, standing up as well this time.

"Harvey, I-"

"No, (y/n), let me stop you right there. What I see here is a family going through a rough situation with one of its members. Then three of the other members just try to do everything they can to get out of the initial situation, while another one just keeps making more problems for her family. And, right now? Today? You walked out on your bosses, risking a lot, to take care of your nephew. So, tell me again, how is it that any of these things happening to your sister are your fault when you’ve done nothing but help everyone in that goddamn family of yours, huh?" He asked you in a sarcastic tone.

“Well, it is very much my fault because I’m her big sister! I should have been there for her! Advising her, helping her, just, just being her friend…” You confessed your regrets to Harvey. “But, instead, I was too busy making my career.”

“And what the hell’s wrong with that? Look, I’m a big brother too. I get it. Ever since we were kids our parents imbued us with the role of ‘the responsible one’, always telling us to look after the youngest… But, hey! If you just threw all of your work up in the air and left running every time your sister had a run-in with a problem, you wouldn’t have made it this far! Not in this field anyway!” He practically spit the words in your face, going to battle with your self-sabotage, which was a very new side of you for him. “And you’re a freaking great lawyer! One of the best that firm’s ever seen. So don’t be sorry that you didn’t sacrifice all of that for being better than the amazing sister you probably already were!”

“You simply can’t know that.” You stated in a low voice, not really knowing how to respond to everything Harvey had just told you. He really thought all that about you?

“Yes, I can!” He yelled back, stepping closer towards you. “I can know that for a fact, because,” he started again, his face pretty close to yours this time, “because, I’m beginning to finally understand, even if just a little bit, who you really are. And because I always notice all the little things when it comes to you, which, in my experience, is how you actually get to know someone. You know, the details.” He told you in the sweetest tone, giving you a charming-Specter-like smile, he leaned closer, if that was even possible, God, was he gonna kiss you?

You had to pull away slightly, just enough for him to get the message. And, boy, how you regretted it! Sure, normally, you’d have a ton of bad things to say about him, but after that night… It wasn’t really that bad of an idea, the one of Harvey kissing you. No, nuh-uh! What were you thinking?! If much, you and Harvey were beginning a friendship there! And you couldn’t, or wouldn’t, let some ridiculous thoughts about how great he smelled rob you from that opportunity! Your inner struggle was interrupted by him saying:

“Hum, I- I should probably go, right? It’s, um, it’s getting pretty late…” He said nervously. You should be relieved right now. Because this assures that things between you and Harvey (your new friend?) aren’t gonna go too off the railroads anytime soon.

“Yeah, yeah. I’ll, uh, I’ll walk you to the door.” So why is it that you sounded almost disappointed when you said that? “You know what they say, you gotta walk people to the door if you ever want them to come back…” You joked a little, trying to lighten the mood.

“Yeah, right.” He shot back simply, with a small smile on his lips. “Bye, (y/n). Have a good night.”

“Thanks, you too.” You watched him turning around to leave when you remembered there was something else that Harvey deserved to hear from you. “Uh, Harvey!” You called out.

“Yeah?” He asked, turning back around to face you. And before you could even think it through one more time, you were already jumping in his arms, wrapping him in a tight hug.

“Thank you. For tonight. For everything.” You told him, as he slowly put his arms around your waist, hugging you back.

“It was no problem, (y/n), really. That’s what friends are for.” And, just like that, your day ⎼ turned into night ⎼ had gone from Earth to Hell, and, now, to Heaven.

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Around 7:30 in the next morning, as you gathered some of your work stuff, you heard someone knocking on the door. Who could it possibly be this time? You asked yourself while walking there to open it.

Once again you were surprised to be met by none other than Harvey Your-New-Friend Specter standing at your doorstep. With your supposedly locked-up little sister in tow. What the hell?

“Before you say anything,” he started, “this time I come bearing gifts!” He practically beamed at you, as Kat threw herself in your arms.

“Yeah- yeah, um, I can see that.” You stated, still very confused with the whole situation.

“Thank you so much for sending your friend to bail me out, sis!” Your sister squealed out. She looked so pale and thin; winter-like clothes on, even though it was only the beginning of the fall; and she was shaking. Effects of a rushed withdrawal, you guessed. “You’re the best! Now, where’s my little baby?” She asked you, as if everything that had happened was nothing.

“He’s, uh, he’s in a day-care facility. The best in the city, you have nothing to worry about.” You informed her, who seemed rather relieved to hear that news. “Can you, uh, can you please stay here for a minute while I talk to my, uh, my friend in the office, Kat?” You asked her with a calm smile on your lips.

“Yeah, of course. I’m not gonna break anything I promise!” She told you, sounding a lot like a wicked child.

“No, um, I know you won’t. If you want something to eat, please, help yourself.” You assured her, motioning to the kitchen.

“Oh, no! I’m not hungry! Mr.Specter took me to a diner before we came here.” She let you know, which just made you even more surprised, and confused.

“Oh, he did? Well, that was very nice of yours, Harvey. So, come with me?” You asked him in a sort of mockery tone while pointing to the room he’d just been in, the night before.

As soon as the two of you stepped into the office, Harvey started desperately: “(y/n), before you come at me for not running this by you first, just, please, hear me out for a second.” He pleaded with you, to which you just nodded your head. “So, last night. I heard what you said about your dad, and you don’t have to worry about paying me anything. I’m representing your sister as a friend of yours.”

“Wait a second. You mean you’re taking this pro-bono? Harvey, you do that and the whole firm is gonna know. And you promised.” You quickly accused him, even though you were very thankful for the way he just stepped up to solve one of your problems.

“I know! Let me finish, will you?” You nodded again while muttering an apology. “I’m not going to break your trust. And I’m not handling this pro-bono. The only people I’ll have to loop in are Jessica and Donna. And you know they won’t say anything.” He told you, but you were still a bit confused. “And, before you even ask, no, that doesn’t mean that either you or your family will be paying me anything. Also, I got your sister a spot in a top-of-line, very discrete, rehab facility, I have a friend over there, who said we can drop her off at any time. I just, um, figured that it’d be the best if she got professional help this time. Plus, on my talk with her, she agreed to sign papers that make you and your parents Henry’s temporary guardians. I really think that Kat wants to turn her life around this time, (y/n). She was very- Did I do something wrong? Because, err, you know me… I always find it easier to ask for forgiveness instead of permission, but, this time, I really did think that this would make you happy...” He trailed off with a confused look on his face while scratching the back of his neck

“Oh, I am happy.” You told him, still looking absolutely stunned.

“Then why, uh, why don’t you look happy?” He asked, sounding a bit hurt.

“It’s just that… I’m kind of surprised. How did you even think of all those things?”

“I, uh, it’s like I said yesterday, I notice things about you. And I really listened to what you told me last night. So I just started thinking about ways that I could solve this thing for you, ways that I could make you happy again throughout all of this storm.” He told you and it had to be the sweetest thing you’d heard from Harvey (hell, from anyone!) in your entire life. “But I understand that I overstepped, and I’m-” But since he just wouldn’t stop talking anymore, you had to cut him off in order to shut him up.

His eyes were in absolute shock for a moment, as he just stood reactionless in your grip. But then he got the message and pulled you closer, grabbing your waist tightly while your hands stood firmly wrapped around his neck. You were pretty sure that neither one of you was still breathing at that point, but you didn’t care. Because, God, his mouth tasted so good in yours, it was like they’d been made to kiss each other. The despair both of you were investing in the kiss was huge, but it was turning into a calmer kind of fire, as the air started becoming too necessary again. He pulled your mouths apart for a minute, you resting your forehead on his shoulder.

“You know…” He started, still catching his breath. “When I mentioned you coming at me, I hadn’t really envisioned this.” He joked, a victory smile on his lips.

“Ah, well, you know how upset it makes me when you simply won’t shut up.” You shot back with a shrug of your shoulders, smiling at him.

“Huh. Wish you would’ve shut me up like this every other time.” He mocked, earning a smack in the arm from you. “Ouch! Why’d do that?”

“Because you were being a dickhead, ruining our moment.” You gave him a fake irritated glance.

“Oh, c’mon! Tell me you didn’t think about it too!” He challenged, and you didn’t feel like giving him that kind of win at the moment, so you just pulled him back in for another kiss. One that may have lasted a little longer than it should have, considering that you two still needed to take Kat to rehab and, then, go to work so you could try and save your job. But, what could you do if he, and his body, and his mouth, and his eyes, and his everything were the only things that mattered?

As he rested his chin on top of your head ⎼ that was laid on his chest ⎼, you looked up, pulling away a little, him making sure you wouldn’t fall off the small couch. “Thank you, Harvey. For everything you did. For listening. For being here right now. For everything.”

“Don’t thank me, (y/n). You’ll never have to thank me for anything. I just want you to promise me one thing.” He stated seriously.

“What?” You asked, a bit hesitant.

“That, from now on, you’ll tell me all about it, every time you have a problem.” That was easy enough, you thought. But, you being you, simply had to ask.

“So that you can be here for me?” You questioned him with puppy eyes.

He just chuckled lightly. “Well, that too. But, mostly, so that I can make it ⎼ whatever it is ⎼ okay for you.” Your heart was on the edge of not being to take it any longer. What could have you possibly done to deserve that man?

“Okay, I promise.” You said, watching his expression begin to soften already. “But, only if you promise me the same. Because I wanna make it okay for you too.” While you thought Harvey was simply gonna say yes, he started laughing at you.

“Always the kick-ass corporate lawyer, I see.”

“Would you even have me any other way?” You joked back, more relaxed now.

“Yes, of course! I’d have you in any way you came to me. Which is why I promise too.” With that, you didn’t have any other choice but to kiss him again, because crying over the fact that Harvey Surprisingly-Romantic Specter was an absolute cinnamon roll was not an option.

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