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Updated my rules a little bit, mostly in regards to replies.
Basically I put my own health first before anything on here. I also have higher priorities in life which I also put first before anything on here. Sometimes I might even be lazy or just too damn tired that I don't wanna work on drafts and such. So I'd highly appreciate it if people don't pester me about replies. Don't even try to get passive aggressive about it too, cuz that's just not how shit works, and honestly if all that continues I'm just going to drop the thread, and possibly hardblock if the harassment overall just continues.
I also believe I have the right to drop a thread if I'm just not feeling it. It's nothing against anybody, and I am not saying anybody is a bad writer. If I'm not feeling it then I'm just not, and I don't wanna force a reply just because.
I'm tired. I work a fulltime shitty job, only getting paid minimum wage. I have 6 animals to take care of... I ain't gonna go into my personal life on there. But if anybody really thinks I forgot about a thread though, feel free to dm me about it, but no promises or guarantees that I'll reply to whatever thread we might have going on.
If y'all put RP first than anything in life then uhhhhhhh....... Y'all need to go touch some grass.
#screaming internally all day everyday (ooc)#ooc#//this is not aimed towards anybody or referring to anybody#if i got a problem with someone i confront them about it and not make a post directed towards them y'all :|#sorry if i sound harsh here#i'm just tired of people getting like harassed and bullied and such over fucking replies?????#didn't think i'd REALLY have to add a few more things to this rule#but i guess people are that dumb now -shot-#anyway time to go lay in bed
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Grey
Steve Harrington x fem!reader
Synopsis: Steve gets a wake up call from yall's daughter
Contents: talks of aging, kids being kids, references to smut but nothing explicit
Steve groans as his consciousness comes to. Something is hitting his face. Someone. Repeatedly.
Steve squints his bleary eyes open as a hand smacks him in the jaw again. A small smile appears on his face even though his jaw stings from the impact. "Morning," Steve's voice is still thick with sleep as he turns to look into brown eyes barely peeking over the edge of the bed.
A quiet voice repeats back ,"Morning," to Steve before arms reach up over the edge of the bed to try and grasp something. Small hands grab the blanket and tug it off of him slightly as the child attempts to climb up. At two and half, Amelia Joy Harrington can barely see above the edge of her parents' bed, let alone get on it.
Steve hoists Amelia up and sits her on his stomach. Steve winces as Amelia scrambles, a stray foot hitting his thigh precariously close to his crotch. Arms are thrown around his neck in a hug as Amelia lays her head against her dad's chest.
Steve feels like his heart could burst out of his chest from the joy he is feeling. A hug from his baby? The best way to wake up in the morning. Who cares if his jaw is still stinging and probably red, his little girl loves him.
Steve sighs in contentment. Steve holds his daughter close until she starts to fidget and wiggle. Amelia sits up and throws her hands in the air. "Happy Birthday!" She whispers excitedly, except she has no concept of how quiet a whisper should actually be and says it in a much too loud voice.
"What?" Steve asks, hand hovering near Amelia's side in case she slips. Amelia's eyebrows furrow as she pouts at him, a look that is an exact copy of you. Her arms slowly lower as she stares at Steve. "Happy Birthday. You old." Amelia pouts at him.
Steve blinks at Amelia in confusion but nods his head. First off, rude, he isn't that old. Steve isn't sure where she gets her unfiltered, blunt commentary (it absolutely isn't him). Second, it absolutely isn't his birthday. Not even close.
"Why uh...why is it my birthday?" Steve asks, unsure if Amelia fully understands the concept. Not sure if he can explain the idea of a birthday to a two (and a half) year old. "Grey." Amelia declares giving Steve whiplash. Before Steve can speak, Amelia points at the comforter," Blue." Steve smiles," Yes, blue."
Amelia points to her shirt," Green." Steve nods. Amelia taps under Steve's eye, lashes brushing against her finger causing him to close it. Steve hopes she doesn't attempt to actually poke his eye.
"Brown." Amelia declares. "Thats right." Steve grins, his girl is so smart. Amelia points to his temple," Grey." "That's ri- what?! No!" Steve's mouth drops open as Amelia giggles. "Uncle Dustbin says grey is old. Birthday makes old. Happy Birthday!"
The creak of the loose floorboard in the hall notifies Steve of your approach. You peek into the doorway of the room, seeing your two favorite people. One looking aghast and the other giggling at her father's reaction.
"What's going on in here?" You ask, leaning against the doorway. "Grey. Birthday." Amelia announces, like it explains everything. And it does in her little mind.
You hum in response, looking at your husband who seems lost for words. Amelia slides off of Steve and off the bed, Steve guiding her so her feet land on the ground absent-mindedly. He would never let her fall or get hurt. Or you.
Amelia half walks half dances in your direction. A prance in her step, she stops in front of you and grabs your hands. "It's daddy's birthday," She says before headbutting your leg. You chuckle and pat her head as she dances out of the room, in her own little world.
"You lying to my kid again?" You ask once Amelia is gone. Steve sputters as he sits up," I did not- our kid- did not lie." "Uh-huh, sure," you say sarcastically. Steve rolls his eyes at you as he gets up out of bed.
Steve stretches as he rocks on his feet, back cracking, before strolling over to you. "Good morning," Steve mumbles, hand landing on your hip. You hum back as he leans in and kisses you. Soft. Slow. Sweet. Leaving you longing for more as he pulls back.
"Love you," Steve says, fingers running along the waistband of your pants. "I love you too," you want to melt into him. Curl up in his arms and stay in this moment. Let the love and adoration fill the air around you.
"Do I look old?" Steve is the first to break the silence. Your brow furrows in confusion," huh?" "Amelia she," Steve huffs out a laugh," said I have grey hair." You chuckle as you bring a hand up, fingers threading through his hair," You have some but its nice." "Its nice huh?" "Makes you look distinguished. Handsome." You bite your lip and look up at him.
Steve knows that look. Knows it well. It's the look you gave him the first time you moved past just making out. The same look you gave him on your first anniversary. The same look you wore on your wedding night. The same look you gave before Amelia was conceived.
Steve can't help the smirk that spreads across his face. If getting old gives him that look, well, he won't complain.
"What about me?" You ask, batting your lashes. "Beautiful," Steve kisses your cheek," Gorgeous," he kisses the corner of your lips. He continues to alternate between kissing all over your face and praising you.
"My love," Steve whispers before kissing you softly on the lips. You sigh into the kiss, one hand tangling in his hair, the other trying to pull him closer.
A loud crash from the living room has you two pulling back from the sweet moment you stole. "What was that?" You call down the hall. "Nothing!" Amelia yells back, making you sigh but smile. Steve can't help but grin too. His life was a little hectic dealing with a rambunctious child, but he wouldn't trade it for the world. And he thinks, if life is like this, he can manage getting old with you. He wouldn't want it any other way.
#Steve whines to Robin later who just sits there laughing until she cries#Until he points out she's aged too because she has laugh lines from smiling and then she spirals just a bit#He has to hold her hand and tell her its a good thing and she goes on a rant about anti-aging and its harder for women then men#How there's all this extra pressure and Steve is aghast like he isnt dumb he knew there was but he never heard it all verbalized#He comes home and kisses you and gets on his knees and tells you he loves you#He then begs you to let him show you how much he loves you wanting nothing more then to use his tongue on you#I mean why would you not let him#And when you lay in bed cuddling after he thinks again he doesn't mind aging if he's doing it with you#You wake up abruptly in the middle of the night and startle him awake#“Oh my God Amelia is going to go to high school and get a boyfriend” you whine#Steve just mutters an oh God and immediately starts thinking if it would be TOO much to have the nail bat when he speaks to said boyfriend#You both think about it for a long time meanwhile Amelia is asleep in her room with drool running out of her mouth hugging a stuffed animal#Anyways Steve nation we up??? This has been drafted for awhile but not posted but I am inspired#And I saw this and went oh yeah post that#So here it is...for u...on this fine Friday early morning#Jade is talking#steve harrington x reader#Steve harrington x you#Steve Harrington x y/n#Steve Harrington/you#Steve Harrington/reader#steve harrington x female!reader
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Omg that's so sad :(( /gives them some food and gifts :∆
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The critters get nice sweet treats and some nice blankets and plushies. Look at them having a great time.
#cccc#hmscritters#cccc heart#cj heart#cccc mind#cj mind#cccc soul#cj soul#critter asks#Also I've decided from this ask onward that I'll start marking them towards the critterpost count.#I originally wasn't going to but I wasn't expecting to get so many asks.#I haven't been making that many normal critterposts lately because I've been responding to asks.#So! Asks that have doodles or drawings of critters attached to them will count towards the critter count.#I'm not changing the previous ones- this only effects new asks from here on out.#Anyway... admin did also take some time to eat sweet treats and lay in bed for a few hours with plushies..#So now I feel good enough to answer more asks.#Sorry for the wait!
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i think it's unfair that anxiety can cause an upset stomach. why are you doing all that.
#i woke up anxious and it's progressed to me being straight up scared but i have boxing today so it'll probably b fine#i might say i hate working out but i do like the fitness boxing classes ive been going to and working out always makes me feel better#and it's just insanely effective against anxiety#sometimes i think i'm normal and then get hit with the reminder that i do in fact have kinda bad social anxiety#and it's soo dumb#i'm literally laying on my bed scrolling tumblr but my body thinks it's being hunted for sport#sometimes when i get scared i get this weird like dizzy/shaky/nauseous and other stuff feeling and it's only progressed a few times#to like. being bad? idk how to explain it but it's annoyingg. it's probably a blood pressure thing or something bc i think mine is kinda low#but it always reads as ideal if i go to a doctor bc i'm so scared of doctors it spikes up gvfhxbdkdnd#anyways just some light silly fact so i can stop shaking for no reason#cant even do anything about it rn bc i have like 20 minutes before i need to leave so that's no time to do stuff#anyways i needed to rant a bit#i will b fine when i go outside to take a walk to the gym to do the boxing thing and walk back with a friend#but rn it's soo annoying so i need to distract myself#bc like i know im in no danger rn but my body seems to think otherwise#ahh whatever#leevi talks
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going to sleep, time to imagine my comfort fanfiction for the night! (<- favorite character getting violently nonconned)
#tw noncon#i swear im going to bed now i swear last post#just. i settled into bed and my brain went okay! torturing jacob time!#anyway. if roth would kiss him without his consent. we can go further with this.#jacob ‘im drinking what this guy gives me without suspicion or checking if its poisoned’ frye. my boy. you are getting drugged about it.#im sure roth would have enjoyed it greatly if jacob would have fucked him willingly. unfortunately he won’t. sad! oh well! he’ll get what#he wants anyway!#and now i get to lay here and go :3c as i think about jacob experiencing the horrors and then barely making it back to the train only for#evie (<- just heard about the factory fire and pissed) to start yelling at him about trusting roth until jacob (<- not okay. also got#mystery drugged.) throws up and she realizes oh. oh something’s wrong. i don’t know what’s wrong but something is really really wrong.#yayyy!!!! fun sinking pit in her stomach feeling for evie and jacob miserable and traumatized and sick and thinking she’s gonna keep yelling
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Wait I just remembered. There's only 4 (or 3???) more weeks now until mine and Zooble's 1 year anniversary
#may 25th. I can't believe we're already almost there :D#idk what to do or draw for that day#I don't think anything I can say do kr draw would show Just how special they are to me#I considered doing a drawing every dya until the 25th#but there's No way my inflammation would allow that lol#anyway man. what was I even doing this time last year??#I can't remember so it must've been during my breakdown where I began isolating myself further#this time last year I was probably laying in bed staring at the ceiling#unable to sleep and trying desperately to find a reason to keep going#little did past fitz know their reason to keep going would come to them soon <3#also sorry if I counted the weeks wrong. Im too sleepy to count lol
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2h car ride 6h train ride and then dragging very heavy baggage through this stupid neighborhood and now I have to climb a ladder to lay down in bed are you crazy
#the loft bed is a fucking curse man#im not gonna lay down anyway cause i have to go to the store#but the amount of times i just laid down on the floor to rest just cause od this stupid fucking ladder#bagaż kurwa
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paul holden who shows up at the curtis house for thanksgiving dinner because he can’t bear the blank walls, the table full of food that wouldn’t get eaten, his father’s cold stare across the table. paul who’s welcomed inside with no questions asked, given a spot at the table, and is treated like a part of the family. paul who enjoys the atmosphere and the kindness of darry and his family but he knows he’ll never quite fit in with them, and he’ll always have his own�� well, what you could call family.
#oh yeah this is precanon so darrys parents are still alive#also after dinner paul goes with darry back up to his room#cause he can’t go back home#not right now he’s already in for it#and they lay together on his bed and paul tells him about thanksgiving dinner at his own house#but not quite why he left#oh and also the entire time pauls there pony and soda are looking at each other and giggling#they’re the number 1 peril shippers guys trust#help idk if any of this even makes sense i fear i am crashing out abt oneact comp tomorrow#anyway#my post#peril#paul holden
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Books of 2024: ALWAYS COMING HOME by Ursula K. Le Guin.
The people have Spoken, so I'll be reading this 618-page brick next! The cover page credits the author, an artist, a composer, a geomancer (??), and the author of the intro, so. I suspect I'm in for a Ride™. I am both Excited and Intimidated--will report back on how this goes!
#books#books of 2024#always coming home#ursula k. le guin#book photo#book photography#anyway yeah this counts as Driscoll Adjacent for my writing project needs because ~post apocalyptic community~#the back cover says 'the kesh are a peaceful people who reject governance and the constriction of gender' so like. promising.#also 'maintain a healthy community in which everyone works to contribute to its well-being'#it's a fictional ethnography which is why it's intimidating lol#i read about how she opened this book in one of her other books lol. an essay collection i think#the tenses are wild right off the bat#'the people in this book might be going to have lived a long long time from now in northern california'#like ma'am. please.#i am but a humble little writer working a mind numbing office job. you want me to do WHAT with my brain.#anyway. excited but Intimidated#the book does lay open flat pretty well at the midpoint though that's promising (i've been having wrist in bed issues)#(i've been having wrist in general issues but i usually read lying down in bed)
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Waving Koneko off, Renzou plunged his hands into the warm inside of his pockets and sat down. He gave it a breath or two before tilting his head back and laughing. “You don’t gotta spy on me, you know.” He turned to face Light as he perched on the arm rest of the bench like an overgrown imp. “That’s kinda my job.”
Light cocked his head, shooting Renzou a smarmy grin. “And here I thought I was doing a pretty good job.”
Renzou shrugged and tilted his head back. The clouds were overcast today. The sun drifted low. He closed his eyes. “Shouldn’t you be botherin’ Bon or something?”
“Research requires a clear head.” Light hopped off the arm rest and circled around. His poncho fluttered with the breeze. He didn’t sit. “What better way to clear one’s head than some fresh air?”
“Bon gettin’ some fresh air too then?” Renzou gestured loosely above his head. “Or that only apply to you?”
The barking laugh he gave was nothing but delighted. “And here I thought spies weren’t capable of caring for their marks.”
He’s not my mark, Renzou thought. But Light likely already knew that. He hunched forward. “He’s my friend. Of course I care about him. I’d be a pretty shitty person if I didn’t.”
Light regarded him with a curious gaze. As though Renzou were some kind of creature trapped under a glass and zoomed in on under microscope. Renzou stared back, undaunted.
“I’ve asked around about you, Shima,” Light said, tone nothing but pleasant. “Life you’ve lived so far - this choice seems pretty outta the blue for a guy like you.”
Renzou didn’t answer.
“Ryuuji-“ Light gave an exaggerated sigh, flashing too many teeth for his next words to be any genuine concern. “You really hurt his feelings, kid.”
“I know.” It doesn’t bother me felt as clear as it was unspoken. He stood and shrugged. “His feelings are his feelings. Not much I can do about ‘em, yunno?”
Light took a step back, allowing Renzou to circle around him. “Why’d they really send you back, kid?”
Renzou glanced over his shoulder and grinned, easy as ever. “Just ‘cause we’re similar don’t mean we’re the same, Lightning.”
Another delighted bark of a laugh. Light’s eyes were full of mirth. “And here I was thinkin’ ya had no clue about yourself yet.” He gestured out to Renzou with undisclosed glee. “You keep surprising me!”
“I’m not a complete idiot,” Renzou said. “Figured it out long before I become a spy.” He flashed a wide grin. “Not that hard once you realize everyone else ain’t lying just for fun all the time.” He tips his head towards Light. “Must be nice being your way though.”
“It ain’t bad,” Light agreed. He eyed Renzou carefully. “But I can see why someone would rather go your way.” A brief lull as a bird crowed overhead. Then, “You’re still coping to shit, you know? Just ‘cause you’re being vague don’t mean you’re not admitting to anything.”
Renzou’s grin widened. “I’m a heartless bastard who lies for fun and doesn’t always totally understand why people care about one another.” He laughed. “That make it less vague for you?” He shook his head. “This ain’t a trap, Lightning. You’re not gonna go around telling people I’m broken.”
Light raised a brow. “I’m not?”
“You like experiments,” Renzou said easy. Light’s brow arched higher. “I’m an experiment. Besides. Only people you’ll hurt are the others. I’m fine with it. Don’t know how else to be.” At Light’s lack of response, Renzou snorted. “You think you’re the only who can ask around?”
“Nah.” Light shrugged. “Just surprised.”
“Was more interesting than homework, I’ll tell you that.”
“I bet.” Light’s easygoing face fell. “Who told you you were broken?”
Renzou just raised his hand over his head. “Have a nice one, Lightning.” As he walked backwards, he shot him double fingerguns. “Don’t work Bon too hard now! Otherwise he’ll get even more on my ass about not doing my homework.” He spun around on his heel and headed forward. “See ya!”
#me: time to go to bed#also me: spends an hour writing this while laying down instead of trying to sleep and now its 3am and i have to get up in 4 hours#OH WELL#renzou shima#lewin light#blue exorcist#aspd!shima#my writing#my fanfic#anyway i read from like chapter 120 onwards tonight and that was fun#final battle is very interesting so far. also shima blacking out and killing a bunch of bugs is 👀👀👀👀👀#wanna know more about that#idk how accurate this is. im still rolling these boys around in my head like unpolished marbles and slapping my own hcs on them#also again it is. 3am. and i should be sleeping lol#so good night good bye so on and so forth#happy talks blue exorcist
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Fwb with Oliver who expects he’ll have to break things off once you get too attached but it’s worth it for a little fun except u never get too attached in fact ur the one who has to tell him it’s over bc he’s gotten too clingy
#I’m thinking I’m having thoughts#my avoidant attachment comes out soooo full force w bllk men it’s crazy#but anyways…..u meet u hook up once#u think it’ll be a one time thing which ur cool with#but the Oliver proposes u make it a regular thing#it’s too good u get real slutty (and so does he) he’s not satisfied with one time#probably does some cheesy don’t fall in love w me speech#but u know what this is#except at some point lines start blurring#and Oliver starts to come over without even looking to have sex#he just wants ur company watch a movie order food#boyfriend things#except Oliver is not boyfriend material and he doesn’t think he’ll ever be#and while he knows he maybe should stop it#he can’t#cause he likes u#and maybe it has to end but he wants to keep it going as long as he can#until one day ur asking him to meet up#and telling him u don’t think it’s a good idea to keep hooking up#and the truth is ur falling for him#and u know he might be feeling the same way#but u tell him that u think he’s treating u too much like a girlfriend#u lay out the facts#he has no choice but to agree#he knew it was coming he just didn’t expect for u to be the one to break it to him#but now he can’t sleep bc he can’t call u before bed#and every time he hears your favorite song ur all he thinks about#and sometimes he picks up snacks u like when he’s out for when u come over but u don’t come over anymore#he’s never been so torn up about someone in his life#omg I reached the tag limit bye
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anyways everyone pray for me i have to get my blood drawn tomorrow :(
#yearly labs auuughhhrhghhh i hate youuuu#i was SO good at getting my blood drawn and then ONE TIME i nearly passed out because i was anemic!!!!#and now EVERY TIME i get my blood drawn this happens!!!!!!!#do u know how embarrassing it is to have to ask the quest lab phlebotomist if i can please lay down so i dont pass out.#one of them said it's normal tho :( like it happened once and now by body just Reacts like this Every Time.... ARRRHGHHHGHGHHHH#Still annoying!!! i dread it!!! especially with all the labs im getting it's prolly gonna be so muchhhh#i unironically bring an alcohol wipe with me every time i go so i can sniff it because. brother. the other option is death#(aka throwing up and passing out. probably at the same time)#anyways bed time!!!!! im hungry#txt
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Oh fuck tomorrow I'm going to be a little birthday boy I keep almost forgetting
#it's probably bc i dont have specific plans im just playing it by ear based on how the newborn will be#(the amount of time I'll be needed w the other kids basically depends on how much sleep the parents got the night before lol)#so i dont wanna be out too late... ahh i miss the club bro i wanna go#i love kids just to be clear which is why i do this but i also think I've gotten any child rearing out of my system#so i dont want my own. in a way it's freeing bc my future will just be for me and i won't have to worry about this stuff long term lol#ah but if I'm free on the 4th theres also something else i wanna do so maybe i shouldn't get drunk anyway#maybe just wait for the next free day 🤷♂️ we'll see#I've been highover BAD though shit lasted until like 8pm the next day. and i had to take the day off w the kids#luckily there happened to be other family there that took over but dude it sucked. i remember trying to help them in the morning like#ok sorry 4 year old trying to find pants i have to lay down in your bed you can do it by yourself i believe in you#so. taking the day off was a good call for their sakes too lol#he was fine just to be clear he could've done it on his own either way. i was just unhelpful 😅 i promise im usually way more attentive
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Biking!!!! To actual locations! Can you imagine that.
#some shit#needless to say im the all time champ laying in my bed awake breathing thru all the sensations and panic they cause lol#will i need to sleep agaiin later... probably. anyway#didnt go really much futher than i walk. but. imagine this. faster.#i cant go for that long tho cause again. HAND. OUCHIES. also the seat. honestly. bdbdhdb#i know these things can be changed but u know. i dont know shit or dick here
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should i be asleep right now???? probably. but i cant do that right now because im busy crying about the parallels between step and argent.
#like. shes a vigilante situated in los diablos that caught the attention of the rangers#she spent most of her time distancing herself from them because of a secret pertaining to her skin#and yet ortega wormed their way into her heart anyway. became her closest friend despite the danger she posed to them#enough that she helped them set up their secret hideout#a la ortegas words- “that used to be your job”#meanwhile with chen he relies on her as a teammate but he doesnt Trust her#as for her powers: she and step are the only ones who could control the nanovores#did step save her life in the nanosurge?? most likely. but it was her technopathy that kept the nanovores from eating more of her and -#started rebuilding her#in also laying on the floor thinking about how argent and step can/was taught to be what people require of them#argent with her shapeshifting and step with their being a regene#all because of the very truth that would drive the people they love away should it be found out (supposedly)#MOSTLY THOUGH. RAT KING. SHARKS. BRAIN FRIENDS#THEY SHOULD BE FRIENDS WITH EACHOTHER I THINK#THEY DESERVE TO BE#argent#fhr#pulp speaks#ok i. need to actually go to bed now. goodbye worlds
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i mostly have down days but then i’ll go and send audio messages about one series for over an hour, write 4k books about an entirely different book, and then for about forty minutes fall into a rabbit hole of the third, and then i’ll pace around my basement speaking to myself about a fourth unrelated thing
and i will still feel deeply unmoored and not alright
#hey what’s going on#not pjo#chitter chatter#tea reads tag#btw i need to go back to therapy but I can’t until I graduate in two years so. lol.#basically: my commute and class and work times mean I can basically only do it on. weekends.#a friend said it sounded like [online therapy system where I was no showed THREE TIMES] or better help were my best options probably#(friend works in mental health)#and I was like very cool. I will not go to therapy then.#anyway how am I doing? I think bad tonight but in the opposite direction than usual? maybe bc I laid in bed for like 7 hours yesterday#because I had an awful migraine situation going on#what if I used this energy to write or draw wouldn’t that be CRAZY#anyway I should like. lay down. maybe it’s a melatonin night I’ve been trying to take less of it#I haven’t made a post like this in ages im trying not to over share but I feel. I mean. you probably get it at this point right#anyway#I gotta stop saying anyway#shut up tea
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