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D-RIDING?! PART ONE

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GENDER: FTM READER

SUMMARY: You are quite a popular YouTuber who makes random content for your fans to enjoy until one day you got drunk and "accidentally" posted a tweet in your official account making it go viral for not only the world to see, but even a certain idol you had a crush since 2019.

GENRE(S): Comedy, Fluff, A bit explicit (in part one), hurt/comfort a bit

WARNING(S): Didn't really proof read it or use a Grammer site to fix anything. If I got anything wrong well..ill fix it when I'm not tired (or not). If you haven't seen any BuzzFeed's thirst tweets, you have been warned. The reader is going through every stage of grief. Mentions of drinking, you being drunk, mentions of "Dick Riding", a few of thirsty comments. You're getting called "Pretty Boy." Explicit comments but nothing action, yet. You are a bottom (sorry y'all!) Kinda cringe. You fanboying non-stop.

CAREER: Idol-Bang Chan (26) + Youtuber-Y/N (25)

OTHER(S): all edited by me. Chan has a private channel but he did reveal his YouTube account in this story. Ethan, Antione and SanaVana are your best friends.

Some mistakes on the edits as well but wtv

Please reblog, like or/and comment!

(We are going to pretend this is around SKZ LALALA Era, thank you very much! Not restarting the edits!)

You couldn't believe your eyes when you opened Twitter (Or X...) As you see thousands of notifications of a certain post you made when you were drunk with your friends at a birthday party.

You felt yourself wanting to scream but all you could do is stare in shock, having your mouth hanging a bit while reading the comments stating that your idol, Bang Chan from StrayKids, read your tweet.

Not in private, but apparently he finally accepted an interview with BuzzFeed to read Thirst Tweets.

Since when did he have the balls to do that?

You groaned as you even saw the hashtags that were trending: #YnnityD-RIDE #BangChanThirstTweets #BuzzFeedBangChan #YnnityMoment

You honestly wanted to cry because you didn't know how to face your fans when you make a live stream later. You promised the fans that you were going to play that one horror game that your fans have been requesting.

At this point, you thought about just cancelling it while disappearing. Dramatic but you couldn't help it.

The Bang Chan read your tweet.

Well, you never saw the video and honestly you didn't want to. You found out that your tweet was not only read but even edited into the thumbnail with Bang Chan fine ass self beside it from a friend's screenshot.

You were mentally regretting this while weeping but you didn't want to disappoint your fans from a promise you made so you calmed yourself as you got ready to Go Live.

You place your mouse pad down and then connect a few wires into your computer. You went to your channel as you Go Live, with a title going by "Gaming and reacting to a certain video."

Just by that title, everyone immediately clicked the live.

You sat there, nervously biting your lip out of habit while fixing yourself in front of the camera.

You even waved to everyone while trying not to seem like you about to trust fall on top of a building.

"As you may see from this title, you probably know what certain video I'm going to watch, yes?"

Everyone commented "yes" while a few sent question marks but other than that they are curious of what the video is and my reaction.

"I didn't see the video yet but I immediately clicked on the app, saw my notifications, saw what's trending and even a screenshot from my friend. I am crazy embarrassed. I was drunk and the fact that she saw me tweeted this is the most crazy part. I knew she was my enemy since DAY ONE!" You shouted a bit at the end, joking but honestly not really as you make a dramatic 'number one' finger in front of the camera.

"Anyways, I already got it set up, just let me know if you guys can hear it or not..."

You mentally screamed as you tried to click on the video but you were so hesitant that the fans called you out on it.

"Y'all, we got it! Hold up, I'm just scared of how he is going to react! Ahhh!" You grabbed your forehead as you finally clicked on it.

You watched as Chan nervously laughed at the camera while introducing himself with his hot Australian accent. You felt yourself smiling as you tried not to fanboy just by his introduction.

"Ah, Hello everyone and my lovely stays! My name is Bang Chan, the leader of StrayKids, you can even call me Chris, and today...I'm finally reading your crazy thirst tweets. I don't know how I mentally agreed to this but I am curious so let's get started shall we, BuzzFeed?"

Chan chuckles nervously as he holds a plastic container full of thirst tweets.

You commented how cute he was while admiring him, ignoring slightly at your fans chat box, even not noticing a certain someone has joined your live stream and even commenting as well making the chat go crazy as they try to grab for your attention.

You continue on watching, make a few comments on the thirst tweets, stating that you agreed with half of the tweets he was reading while cooed on his blushing face:

"I want to ride his big nose"

"I wonder what else is big besides his nose, feet and butt if you know what I'm saying"

"I want that man to manhandle me so bad, it's not funny anymore."

"I want him to fuck me so bad! Uhhh PLEASE DADDY!"

You couldn't help help but laugh at a few, almost forgetting that your tweet was in this video until finally, almost at the end of the video, he pulls the last strip of paper and reads:

"Dick Riding? Yes I am. I'm jumping, hopping, creaming, screaming and latching...onto this man dick until we can't anymore. And in parentheses. We not stopping."

Chan covers his face while laughing as he re-reads the tweet again.

"Jeez, this person really must have that much energy to be going in several rounds. Not only that, this person is verified...how confident you are to send this in your official account. Not gonna lie, I feel like I know who this is..."

He squints as he tries to remember.

"I'll probably figure it out later but thank you! I don't think I have enough energy for that but we can try, yeah? Haha!"

Your eyes wide as you literally scream, jumping around and running around the room then stop running as you walk back, rewatching that clip again.

"Wait, he knows me? HE RECOGNIZES MY ACCOUNT- WAIT WHOA!" That's when you sat down on your gaming chair, literally looking like you were about to sink into the floor as you make your eyes focus on the chat that seems to be spamming non-stop.

You lean in, reading the chat as you questioned them what's wrong until you notice a channel you recognized. Of course who wouldn't recognize it, you literally have a crush on him.

The one and only Bang Chan was watching your live.

At this point, you just accepted your fate as you face palmed yourself as more comments started laughing at you.

"Om my goodness, this cannot be real. Ain't no way you are watching this stream..." You nervously said as you see him commented how cute you were.

You smiled as you started to fanboy again.

"This is so embarrassing you guys!"

Time went by as you ended your live stream. You immediately grabbed your phone and laid down on your bed as you opened Twitter (X) to see Bangchan following you.

You followed him back immediately which I guess it got his attention as he immediately texted you.

CB97: Hey, Y/N! It's nice to finally meet you, well through text that is, haha!

Ynnity: I can't believe you not only read my tweet and joined my live, you even FOLLOWED ME IN HERE!? You must be crazy!

CB97: Of course, I even have you subscribed and followed your Instagram on a private account!

CB97: And crazy? Aren't you the crazy one who sent a tweet on your official account stating you wanted to, and I quote, "Jump, hop, cream, scream, and latch onto my dick non-stop" pretty boy?

Ynnity: HELLO?

CB97: Haha, I'm just saying. Plus, you're funny so why not become friends. I'm quite a big fan of you!

You stared at his text, mostly the part when he called you a "Pretty boy" made you roll around the bed, giggling like a damn school girl. Even surprised that he was a big fan, making even more embarrassed since you always mentioned him in certain videos.

Ynnity: Sure!

Ynnity: hope you don't mind how awkward I'm going to be for a bit..I'm still embarrassed.

CB97: That's fine! I don't mind and there isn't anything to be embarrassed about baby, it's cute how you reacted

CB97: You really do love me, huh? Hahaha

You rolled your eyes as you typed your response.

Ynnity: yeah yeah whatever

CB97: Acting like that even though I literally watched your live stream and saw you admiring and commenting my every move

CB97: Anyways, I read a few of your tweets and one caught my eye

CB97: well, besides that thirst tweet, that's my fav-

CB97: That you are going to see our concert, yeah?

All you did was send a 'thumbs up' emoji, indicating that it was true that you saved up money to be in front row seats to see SKZ performance on the 3rd day.

CB97: Cool! Can't wait to see you in person! However, I need to get back to work, I'll talk to you...well you text me when you are up! Bye bye, pretty boy!

YNNITY: don't overwork yourself old man and yes bye bye to you as well!

You laughed when Chan sent a 'thumbs down' emoji as you turned off your phone, smiling again at the ceiling. You couldn't believe it, you can't wait to go to their concert in three days.

Two days have already passed as you already got dressed up for this concert.

Today is the 3rd and last day of their performance.

You are wearing a black waist coat where your belly and other skin is showing along with a leather black jacket, baggy black pants with a nice star belt around It, a spikey silver necklace and black shoes.

You brought a coat just in case it gets cold as you took pics and uploaded it onto Twitter (X), feeling cute.

You rolled your eyes at your friend's immediate response to your tweet as you walked out of your house, stepped into your car as you get ready to pick up the three dorks.

While driving to their destination, you couldn't help but think about what Chan texted you yesterday.

He is excited to see YOU.

You were biting your lip as you tried to not show a smile when you picked up Antione and apparently Ethan who were standing outside of Antione house, waiting.

They both ran inside, Antione taking the front row while Ethan sit in the back.

You then drove off again to pick up Savannah while the two teased you non-stop about getting noticed by your so called 'Future Husband' which they did stop after you threatened them that you will crash this car if they don't shut up.

You finally picked up Savannah who was excited to see StrayKids, mostly seeing all the pretty lady fans as she comments about wanting to see this one girl that she has been texting the last 5 months.

You laughed with your friends, easing your anxiety down. You all couldn't wait to go while singing, well trying to sing, the songs on the radio.

You all made it into the concert, immediately at the front seat, waiting for the concert to start. Antione had his banner ready, holding a sign that says "Changbin, date me!"

Ethan holds up a LeeBit Plushie, shaking it around while holding a picture of Lee Know next to it.

Savannah holds a sign that just says "The Lesbians (Me) loves you!"

You did think about bringing a sign but all you brought was yourself and friends along with a small Wolfchan keychain hanging around your belt area.

A bunch of fans have showed up—some recognized you as they asked to take pictures, which of course you said yes, taking a few while waving them goodbye. Even Savannah gets to meet the woman that she was talking about, laughing and flirting a bit.

As all of you continue on chattering while the whole stadium gets filled with a bunch of fans, the screens turn on showing a special StrayKids clip, showing all the members walking and posing.

Everyone screams along with you and your friends as well as you see them rising up from below the stage, into positions, ready to perform Megaverse.

You smiled, jumping a bit as the loud music started playing along with fans chanting.

You took out your phone as you started to record while singing some of the lines.

Throughout the whole concert, you and Chan were flirting around when he found you while performing Blind Spot.

He couldn't help but smile in your direction while giving you small hearts. He even goes up to you sometimes, singing a few lines—teasing you—as he walks off.

Even your friends teased you about it, again.

The concert was about to end, your whole body was practically tired from all the screaming and standing up for too long but it was worth it.

All the members lined up as they all said their thankful speech, waving all of them goodbye and couldn't wait to see their fans again next time.

You and your friends left as you forced Ethan to drive since you were so tired.

You were sitting in the front row while Antione and Savannah talked amongst themselves, sometimes Ethan joining in. While that was happening, you open Twitter to see a bunch of notifications again.

Some @ you, showing pictures with your fans along with pictures or videos of you having a moment with Chan.

You smiled as you liked all of them until you got a text from Chan, you clicked the message notification and read what he has sent you.

CB97: Hey, did you enjoy the concert?

CB97: Also you look very handsome with that outfit, very alluring.

You giggled quietly as you quickly replied to him.

Ynnity: of course I enjoyed the concert and thank you! I did say I was trying to attract people in my tweets~

CB97: You did.

CB97: You even got me as well, that one comment from your friend made me laugh that you wanted to be in my Dingie Doom Dum haha!

Ynnity: Well, what if I do? What you going to do about it hm?

Not sure where all that bravery came from but you did it. You waited for him to respond as you did see him trying to type something.

CB97: Well aren't you a brave one.

CB97: why don't you find out. I'll come to you unless you are just trying to flirt. I don't mind as long as you don't mind, love

CB97: I can make that thirst tweet into reality~

You froze as Ethan made it to his house. Seems like you were the only one left as you both stepped out, hugged each other and left.

You stepped back into your car, turning it on and drove off. You wanted to respond, but you didn't want to drive while text so you kinda drove home as fast as you can, feeling yourself getting too excited.

When you made it home, you quickly parked as you stepped out of the car and ran to the front door of your house, unlocking it.

You took out your phone again and responded to him.

Ynnity: Sorry, I was driving

You hesitated for a bit even though you were the one who started it until you finally typed out what you wanted to say.

Ynnity: I don't mind, but how are you supposed to get here? You rented a car?

You took off your shoes, placing them on a shoe rack as you take off your clothes while walking to your bedroom.

You dumped your clothes in a laundry bag, opening the closet to grab your pajamas then walked to the bathroom to take a shower.

Your phone buzzed. You grab and see what he has said.

CB97: I did actually.

CB97: Send me your location, I will be there after I take a shower

You bit your lip as you sent your location, turning your phone off after that.

You step inside the shower, feeling the nice warmth of water hitting your skin as you fantasize about Chan kissing you and touching you.

You wanted this and the fact it's with your idol crush turns you on. You couldn't wait as you continued on taking a shower.

TO BE CONTINUED...

PART ONE -> PART TWO (COMING SOON)

I never wrote smut before 🐺 this sht gonna be crazy. I'm about to fight for my life.

[mj-iza-writer]

Sp Special Containment Part 11

If you are new to the story or need an update for how the story is going, please use the hashtag SP Special Containment. I hope you enjoy. -MJ

Andy peaked into Aramais's room.

"Hey the Director is here to talk to you. Are you okay with that?", Andy eyed Aramais, "keep your slippers on your feet."

"I won't throw them", Aramais laughed as he sat up on the bed.

The Director came in, "yes I'd rather not have those thrown at me, thankyou."

"I wont throw them", Aramais sighed, "so whats going on now."

"Well we may be getting another human weapon in the facility", the Director sighed, "I'm just checking to make sure everyone is okay with that. I've had a lot of meetings already. You three are my next meetings."

"I wanted to go to each of you individually if that's okay, that way you can ask your own questions and voice concerns", the Director leaned against the table.

"Who?", Aramais questioned.

"Mitch", the Director stated in annoyance, "I heard back from my higher ups, they said to destroy him. I can't bring myself to do it. So we are going to try our best to make it work. I just wanted to know what you three thought before I moved forward with this."

"Does what we think make a difference? You'll probably do what you want anyways", Aramais frowned, "didn't you say you didn't want him?"

"I did, and yes your opinions will be taken into account mostly on how we will protect you three from him", the Director smiled, "this will be a trial run, Cass says he is open to being the caregiver."

"Cass?", Aramais looked at Andy.

Cass watched nervously from the monitor room, Aramais was the weapon that intimidated them the most.

"Yes Cass. Is that okay?", the Director looked at Andy as well.

"I have two conditions before I say okay", Aramais sighed an looked back at the Director.

"Yes, let me write these down", the Director flipped a paper over.

"Mitch is to stay far away from Whumpee until I, me", Aramais pointed at himself, "say it's safe, Mitch could easily pretend to be good, until the guards are dropped, then target Whumpee again. This coincides with my second condition, do not trust Mitch alone with Cass. Words are easy to believe..."

The Director cut in, "they may be a junior, but I think they are ready..."

"Do not interrupt me", Aramais glared, "I do not care about Cass's age or rank. I know they can do it, but I also know more about Mitch's training than any of you. We are trained to be sociopaths, and you need to know the signs. Mitch can be a narcissists and twist his way into all of you trusting him. Whether Cass can do it is on them, but you need to watch Mitch."

Cass sighed in relief, they expected Aramais to be completely against them doing this. 'Why is he okay with this?', Cass thought to themself.

"I can agree to these", the Director nodded, "I'd appreciate any help you can offer as you are right, there is a lot I don't know about you guys yet."

Aramais nodded, "okay, I'm fine with him staying."

The Director came into the monitor room with Andy.

"Can I go in there with Aramais really quick, by-by myself?", Cass looked at them both.

"That's fine", they both smiled.

Cass went to the door and was buzzed in.

"What now.. oh", Aramais looked over at the door.

"Hey, I was um in the monitor room... I'm sorry", Cass looked down.

"I kind of figured", Aramais sat up again.

"I've had to fight tooth and nail for this position, everyone saying I'm too young or other things, and that I can't do it. I was expecting you to say the same, and I would have honestly respected your opinion more than any of them", Cass felt like their heart was going to explode.

"Cass, you need to relax before your heart jumps out of your chest, and I get blamed", Aramais looked at Cass with concern.

"I'm sorry, I'm truly terrified of you over any of the others", Cass admitted.

"I know you are", Aramais grinned, "you don't have to be though. I'm not going to do anything, Andy would withhold my slippers from me if I did", Aramais laughed lightly, "your age is of little importance to me, and your rank means nothing. If you want to do this, then do it."

Cass smiled and quickly wiped a tear, "thankyou."

"No need to cry", Aramais grinned, "now go on, take good care of Mitch for me."

On the way to Jaimie's room to see if she woke up an alarm sounded.

Several guards ran by.

"What's going on now?", the Director hurried, with Cass, Andy, and Caretaker trailing behind.

"Mitch is freaking out, guards are being called to contain him", a guard stopped.

"Crap", Cass started running for Mitch's room.

"Where are you going?", Andy yelled.

"Mitch needs me", Cass yelled back, "he said he was about to snap, and I totally forgot to tell the Director."

"Kid", Andy yelled as they ran after the guards.

"Buzz me in", Cass commanded the guard.

"I can't he's out of control", the guard turned quickly, "it's too dangerous."

"Just do it, no guards are allowed in unless I can't get through to him. I need to try first."

The Director came in, "do as he says, let's see what happens. I need guards to be ready though."

Cass took a deep breath before going in.

Mitch screamed loudly as the door closed behind Cass. The chair shook violently with him thrashing.

Cass hurried around Mitch to his backpack and pulled out the book they were going to read.

While opening the book, Cass stood in front of Mitch.

Everyone in the monitor room watched in shock while Cass read from a random page in the book.

Mitch continued to thrash in the chair, but stopped screaming after a few sentences.

Cass watched Mitch as they flipped the page.

"Come on Mitch", Cass looked down at the book and started reading more.

"This is taking to long", a guard complained, "we need to sedate."

"Anyone who disturbs them will be fired", the Director spoke over his shoulder, not breaking eye contact with the monitors, "give Cass a chance."

Mitch gasped tiredly as he stopped thrashing. Cass stopped reading as Mitch started to pant.

"Mitch?", Cass stepped closer, "are you there."

"Water", Mitch whispered as sweat dripped from his nose.

Cass quickly grabbed the water and tipped it for Mitch to drink.

"Thankyou", Mitch squeezed, his eyes shut, "I need to get out of this chair, my body is killing me."

"I'm sorry", Cass frowned, "I'm working with the Director right now."

"Work faster, I told you I was about to snap", Mitch hit his head against the back of the chair, "I-I need to get out of this chair", he yelled.

Cass looked at one of the cameras.

"Cass you do not have permission to do it, do not remove the restraints", the Director clicked the mic on.

"I'm not, but his survival mode is being triggered, he's been sitting like this for a week now", Cass pointed out, "it is causing pain, that is not quality care to allow him to be in pain."

The Director sighed, and looked at Caretaker, "they are so much like you in your younger days."

"Okay, if Mitch can give us two days, we will work at having the room they're being transferred to ready", the Director watched the monitor.

Cass looked at Mitch.

Mitch roled his eyes, "fine."

"He says okay", Cass looked back at the camera.

"Can I at least have the head straps off? Give me something to move", Mitch pleaded, "I've been as good as possible, why can't I get a little mercy here."

The Director sighed, "Cass you may remove the forehead strap and chin strap. Mitch don't make me regret that."

"Thankyou", Mitch sighed as the straps were removed. He twisted his head to crack his neck.

Mitch sighed in relief

"Eww, that sounded disgusting", Cass grinned.

"Just wait until you hear my back crack once I get out of this stupid chair", Mitch moved his neck more, "mmm that feels good."

The Director sighed, "there has been way too many problems today", he watched Cass leave the room.

"Cass how did you know what to do?", Andy watched Cass sneak through the guards.

"He said earlier that reading always calmed him, so I though it would help", Cass smiled.

"Hmm", Andy though to himself, "I might have an idea for Aramais, I'll bring it up at dinner."

Jaimie quickly agreed to Mitch staying. Just under the same rule to keep him away from Whumpee.

"I'm glad that was easy", the Director sighed, "I'm not ready for Whumpee though."

"They're next so you better get ready", Caretaker sighed as they entered Whumpee's monitor room.

"Hey Whumpee, the Director is here for a visit, does that sound okay?", Caretaker spoke into the mic.

"Yes", Whumpee smiled.

"Aww look at their smile, now I have to ruin it", the Director sighed, "I'm not talking to Mitch until tomorrow, I'm about done with today."

Whumpee sat up as Caretaker came in, they happily eyed a bag of cookies sticking out his lab coat.

Caretaker grinned, "you caught me already."

The Director came in as Whumpee was opening the cookies.

"Oh good, you have a snack", the Director sighed, "um Whumpee, we need to talk."

"Okay", Whumpee made a concerned look.

"So this was not the original plan. Mitch was supposed to be transferred from this facility, but my higher ups messaged me to do as I pleased with him, but recommended I destroy him. I can't do it, I hate destroying things. I hope you understand, but Mitch is not leaving our facility. I wanted to check in with everyone before I finalize this, you are my last person Whumpee. Are you going to be okay with this?

Whumpee looked at Caretaker then at the Director.

"Uh", Whumpee looked down.

"Even if there is anything I can do to make you more comfortable, name it, and I will work to do it. Mitch will be roomed far away from you and the others. You will not see him until you say it is okay, he won't even be allowed out of his room if you are out", the Director promised, "Aramais and Jaimie have made it clear he is to stay far away from you. Even to the point I need to check with Aramais before that happens, if it happens."

Whumpee searched for words, their mouth felt dry.

"I... I... don't want Mitch to die... but I don't want to know he is near me", Whumpee whispered, "I'm not ready to see him again."

"You absolutely will not have to see him, I promise. There will be scheduled times he is allowed to be out of his room, and you three will be kept in your rooms. The rest of the time he will remain in his room."

"Who is even willing to be his caregiver", Whumpee looked at them in shock.

"Um Cass is stepping up to that role", the Director already knew where this was going.

"Cass?", Whumpee jumped forward.

"Easy Whumpee", Caretaker stepped over to them, "this is going to be a trial run, I truly believe Cass is ready. They will be watched closely by us. You don't have to worry."

"You better watch Cass as closely as possible", Whumpee pleaded.

Cass watched in the monitor room, they gulped.

"Okay, as long as I never have to see them, and you watch out for Cass. I guess it's okay", Whumpee begrudgingly stated.

"Whumpee since he's asking if you want any special favors, maybe you should ask right now", Caretaker whispered.

"Ask me what Whumpee?", the Director looked at them curiously.

Whumpee flashed an embarrassed grin before shoving their face into their pillow.

"Do you want me to ask?", Caretaker grinned.

Whumpee nodded into the pillow.

"Back when Cass was in charge of Whumpee they watched online videos together. Since then Whumpee has been asking for a Squish-um", Caretaker paused.

"Squishmallow", Whumpee mumbled into the pillow.

"Yes that, they look safe. No hard parts or anything. Honestly they're quite cute and soft from what I've seen," Caretaker grinned, "I wasn't sure if we could get Whumpee one to have. They say they want to cuddle with it. They've never had a stuffed toy before."

"We can do that", the Director smiled, "do you know which one you want."

"I've already found the one", Caretaker chuckled, and showed the Director.

The Director chuckled, Caretaker had found a cookie squishmallow.

"That's perfect", the Director nodded, "we'll put in the order for it."

"What one", Whumpee looked up.

"It's a surprise", Caretaker chuckled.

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Whumpee's squishmallow

[quokkawritesarchive]

okay guys… i have something to say.

i don’t know what changed in tumblr over the past months, maybe they changed something in their hashtags or whatever… BUT ITS SO HARD TO RECEIVE ANY INTERACTIONS???

in december i got so many works with over 1k notes in DAYS, but now? did my writing change? is everything i wrote now cringe?? i don’t know. but all i can say that i’ve never had SO LITTLE feedback with my new uploads.

my first ever work that i uploaded received like 200? likes in a couple of days, and honestly that’s the whole reason why i’m still here. i thought it would be easy to reach new followers. but no… it feels like there is a huge wall between me and other creators. (+ they are all friends, so it feels twice impossible to reach their lvl)

of course i will upload the rest of the collab, and i’ll finish the request that i started today (even tho i have no motivation to finish it). and then i’ll probably leave tumblr, because… what’s the point? i write till 5am almost every day, translate it, search for grammar mistakes, to get roughly 100 likes from bots? no thank you.

i saw one ask, where that person said “where are all tumblr writers”. no babes, WHERE ARE ALL TUMBLR READERS!!?? where did yall go??

idk what happened in one month, maybe my writing did become shit, but in december it felt like a whole different platform.

me and every other writer on this app can guarantee you that we are so f tired of likes AND NO REBLOGS. fyi: LIKES DONT DO SHIT. if you want to give your fav writer motivation — reblog. please, ffs, reblog.

anyway. it was nice being in here, when skz tumblr was still alive. maybe i’ll change my mind if the rest of the fics will receive enough love. but as of now… i think i’ll leave.

[jouliejihan]

𝑳𝑶𝑽𝑬 𝑶𝑵 𝑨𝑰𝑹! - hueningkai × fem reader

𝑺𝒀𝑵𝑶𝑷𝑺𝑰𝑺: When Y/N and her eccentric friends decide to host the 'Love On Air' podcast, they think they can heal the heartaches of all HYBE Uni students.  But when love begins to bubble up behind the scenes, Y/N finds herself at the center of a messed up love triangle. While she tries to save broken hearts, a shy student, Hueningkai, does everything to win her heart. With clumsy dating advice, accidental encounters and a chaotic podcast, will love triumph or end up in a hilarious mess?

"Tune in with us guys, cause Love is On Air!"

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0 - the 1st heartbeating tune

[____ sets the camera on his tripod and turns it on]

Hey guys! Welcome to our first episode of "Love On Air"! I am ______, your loving hostess. I'm here alone in my room, venting about my second week as a freshman at HYBE Uni. And, let's be honest, it hasn't been a bed of roses. College is awesome, but my love life? Zero, nothing, null, nil!

[Pause to ______ adjust her microphone]

I thought studying at HYBE University of Media, Technology and Arts would be like fulfilling my life's dream but, ugh, it's not always like that. - she sighed. First, let me tell you about this group dance class, where I was trying to keep up with Choi Yeonjun's fancy but very complicated steps from the Modern Dance class. I thought I was slaying, but when he took a leap, I tripped and landed on my face! It was a complete disaster, everyone laughed at me and I left the room with my face redder than a bell pepper, but in my defense, my coordination skills are still developing, it's impossible for someone to become so good in the day for the night, but hey, at least I brought some cheer to the class, right?

[Pause while _____ chuckles to herself]

Now, let's get to the gossip! You won't believe the dramas that are taking place among our university colleagues. I have hot information here!

Do you know Eunchae? She was seen sharing a kiss with Lee Chaemin, the freshman of Performing Arts in the cafeteria. Not much is known about their relationship, but unfortunately some assholes took pictures of the two's intimate moment, posted them on Twitter and Eunchae was brutally canceled, with hashtag and hate messages and everything, poor her!

But let's be honest here, Chaemin is handsome, gentlemanly and Eunchae is one the sweetest girls in the campus! Whether they are actually dating or just getting to know each other is none of your business! If she's into a freshman 4 years older than her, good for her! Go for it girl, you have my full support!

But wait, there's more! Taesan, the Film class' little angel, is in love with the beautiful Minji of the Music class. But he never had the courage to declare himself because... well, he has an amazing talent for wrapping his own words. Who knew, right?

And last but definitely not least, we have the campus diva, Huh Yunjin. She has an army of admirers, but rumor has it that a mysterious secret admirer is spoiling her with the same cup of decaf coffee, but with cute messages of love! Oh my Eros, who is this anonymous romantic?

Now, let's talk about my own love snafus...or lack thereof. (laughs) As a freshman, my schedule is packed with classes, studies, and social events. There's not much time left for romance. But, hey, I'm here to help you with your love problems! So send in your questions and dilemmas, and I promise I'll do my best to advise you.

[Momentary silence]

Anyway, here I am, immersed in a sea of ​​gossip and love stories. And I couldn't be more excited to help my colleagues at HYBE Uni navigate their emotional turmoil. So, if you have any love problems, be it romantic, friendship or even with your mother picking on you, send me your questions and vents on our twitter @/loveonair or right here on Tumblr! I'll be here to listen and give the best advice I can!

That's it for today, guys. Stay tuned for more episodes of "Love On Air" where love is in the air and chaos is just part of the package!

[she waves to the camera and ends the broadcast]

_______ was sitting in her room, snuggled in her chair while frantically editing the first episode of "Love On Air". She wanted to make sure everything was perfect for the launch. With headphones on, she would adjust audio levels, cut out unnecessary pauses, and add subtle sound effects to give the episode a funny mood to listen.

While the audio was in progress, _____ was also working on editing the video for YouTube. She tweaked the colors, added funny captions, and cut out some embarrassing scenes. She knew that visual appearance was important, so she wanted every detail to reflect the fun, upbeat vibe of "Love On Air".

After a few hours of dedicated work, she was finally satisfied with the result. She saved the audio and exported the video, ready to upload them to streaming platforms. Breathing in relief, she stretched and looked at her watch. It was late at night, 12:10 A.M. to be exact.

Deciding it was time to relax a little, she decided to dedicate some time to his favorite hobby: creative writing. She grabbed her notebook and her favorite pen and settled into her soft bed. Seventeen's Same Dream, Same Mind, Same Night started playing on her cphone as she began to scribble ideas and develop imaginary stories, humming the soft melody.

With her head full of ideas, she let herself be carried away by the music and the words that flowed in her notebook. Harmonious chords and comforting lyrics brought a sense of peace as she immersed herself fully in the art of writing.

As she wrote, she occasionally glanced at the Seventeen poster hanging on her bedroom wall. She smiled as she admired her idols, feeling inspired by their dedication and talent. The music continued to play, gently amuzing her.

In the end, the exhaustion of that busy day began to take its toll on _____. Her eyes blinked, her body was limp and she yawned all the time, so she put her notebook aside and lay down on the bed, still listening to the soothing music. Her gaze took one last look at the Seventeen poster before her eyes slowly closed.

As sleep enveloped her, ______ smiled, feeling grateful for the opportunity to follow her passion and do what she loved. With her mind full of dreams and her heart full of hope, she fell asleep, ready to face new adventures the next day.

And so, her room was peaceful, filled only by the soft melody of Seventeen's songs and the promise of a new dawn full of surprises.

A/N: A carat and a thinker? MOM, I LOVE HER! + keep this song in mind, it'll be important!

[mulbruk]

the agony of pronounz: a tale of woe from ludi "mulbruk" tumblruser

i do not like using they pronouns for myself. in the past i tacked them on only bc it felt inevitable that ppl would refuse to call me she, so i gave people a cool little option so they could feel progressive and respectful when they couldnt stomach the thought of me & my fat fucking cock being hashtag girlmode or whateverthefuck. between me being able to more fully embody myself and just... time, i guess, i've dropped the set and i really dislike having it applied to me. that being said i know that they is generally applied to ppl when you dont know their 'nouns (lookie i did it right there did you see) so i try not to get miffed when it happens. more often than not it happens online when ppl don't know me on account of most people in public immediately seeing me and going "that's Girl"/not really internalizing the fun new world of gender dynamics (yes i know it's not new but it's new for Corl Schmebeckerburg who is a 60 year old independent housepainter. you know.)

anyway if i had it my way i wish ppl would default to "it" for me if they weren't sure. i like it way more, and usually if i'm forced to interact with a stranger and my general mood of the situation is "who do you think you are, don't fucking talk to me" i don't want to be called by any pronouns other than it. it feels right! i am a living entity and i have teeth. you will not try to know me. you will not dump powdered sugar on this conversation. for everyone else, and in general? i love using she! i love that the people close to me call me she. i love that people i can generally be friendly and have regular human connections with call me she. rather than "it, or she if we're close" the dynamic feels a lot more like "she, but if you drop the ball and lose my respect within 10 seconds of talking to me don't you fucking dare call me anything but it"

but exhibit a: i hate how she/it reads both visually and vocally and exhibit b: being like "hiiii! call me she/her unless i don't know or particularly care for you; in that case call me it/its!" is not a damn anything. literally who's gonna be like "ohhh my bad. anyway: you're a stupid fucking cunt for your opinions on metallycka and i hope when you die everyone at your funeral is like 'we barely recall who it was' about you."

anyway. business as usual, basically. if you're here you already have the innate she/her pass for me. if not, you would've been blocked well before you had the chance to call me anything else lmao

i dunno what else to post here. did you guys know im a kitty cat meow mwrrrowow

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early 2021 spn destiel tumblr simulator

canondestiel reblogged castielscock follow

i did NOT have a "destiel goes explicitly romantically both sided canon BUT in spanish and THEN misha collins tries to set things straight while in a middle of a divorce on a thanksgiving day" on my bingo list but here we are i guess?!

#the cw sniper's aim was right between his eyes probably

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slickdean reblogged blowjobdean

WHY LA VERDAD????? NO DESPAIR???? #TheySilencedThem #CoWards

#tinfoil hat and clown shoes stay on honk honk

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endgamehandprint reblogged willowdestiel follow

know your herstory ;)

#he was always on our side!!!!!!

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hellerjensenackles

not jensen ackles talking about blue green flannel 😭 go off heller king 😞✊

deanswinchestres-deactivated091

come onn this was on accident and i love the guy but he is at best indifferent to the concept to destile

britneycastiel

he was literally asked for permission to film the confession scene. and he gave his blessing so shut up

castieltops

#destile 😭

#while i think he was maybe not into destiel at the beginning he was an enjoyer of it in the later seasons #because the concept of kissing misha or whatever wasn't scary anymore it was but an everyday routine for him <3 #cockles

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after years of hatecriming and queerbaiting i am done. i am so officially done. i will never watch another cw show. we shouldn't be giving them any money or recognition. in these few easy steps i will explain how it's best to boycott w*lker and what hashtags to use on twitter on the special time at the special date:

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dickstiel

"the original ending was something that i feel would be much better explored in fan fiction anyway" MISHA WHAT DID YOU FUCKING MEAN BY THAT

omegiansensibilities

he also talked about rainbow wings ;_; OH MY GOD what if they are iridescent?!?!?

swiftieenatural follow

IRIDESCENT CAS WINGS ARE NOW CANON TO ME CAN SOMEONE DRAW THIS OMG

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gabrielsamrowena follow

so first they say the bloody handprint was sp8's idea, then they say it was just something that came to them on the spot and then jensen admits it was his idea only to later contradict it and say it was misha's idea???? what is the fucking truth can someone write a tell-all memoir that turns into an hbo documentary already i NEED to know EVERYTHING

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help me and @cockkless were trying to figure it out and we listened to the scene 4647 times and analyzed it frame by fram WHAT DID HE SAY are we hearing things

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hellermishaswift

YOU'RE TELLING ME JENSEN HAS WHAT on his phone???????

#he filmed the scene. he filmed it. he fucking did that. the insane motherfucker did that because he knew. #right? #he had to know that this scene will get buthcered in the end. that the most important stuff won't be in teh final cut #apart from castiel's i love you of course but i guess he might have thought this might be cut too??? #what the absolute hell was going on that set that day

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there is another online con this weekend and i will be livestreaming it here <333

#but also if they mention the plane accident again i will kms and stop streaming <3 ask destiel questions or else 🔪🔪🔪

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do we think that the rogue translator and cw sniper ever explored each oth- [I AM BEING FORCIBLY DRAGGED OUTSIDE] [GUNSHOTS ARE HEARD]

twistanddshouut

no but i bet the no homo intern and the cw twitter intern did tho <3

#if you remember the no homo intern you might be entitled to financial compensation . few people know that :)

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[katnissgirlsmakedo]

i have things to say about my little tv shows now ok. 1) the big thing i know we all care so much about. the change in showrunners for greys from krista vernoff (my enemy for real) to someone new. i had to look her up it’s meg marinis and i have tentatively decided to trust her because i looked up what episodes she’s written and she HAPPENS to be the writer behind my favorite greys episode ever. not that that makes the episode good i was just 17 and there was a scene in there that gay 17 year old beth desperately needed at that time. we don’t have to get into it. also she wrote the last 2 episodes of season 19 which i remember being INSANE in the straight people department (lucas and simone!!!!) so. i’m trusting her. meg i am putting my faith in you. do not let me down.

2) jo and link BORING. don’t care for them sorry! not all straight people are winners some of them are lame and pale in comparison to the interns realness and the iconicity of miranda bailey and ben warren…. 3) speaking of my queen miranda bailey. oh it’s all coming together… full circle moment!! she’s in charge of the interns! she’s the best damn teacher in that hospital! yay! rip what’s his name we hardly knew you. because you were boring. (referring to meredith’s lame boyfriend who was previously teaching the interns and is now moving to boston to be with meredith)

and now. station 19, first of all they set my girl up… they changed the time slot to 10 and made this their last season… all for what. 911??? someone needs to kill themselves for this. i’ll see you in hell whatever abc executive designed this. anyway. 2) the good thing about this being. the end 😐 (and we all know how well i do with endings.) is that finally the endgames will become clear. this is a show in which. SO much has happened with every character’s arc i don’t even remember it all it’s been on for seven years ok it started as a show about a woman trying to fill her father’s shoes on her way to becoming the captain of the fire station they both work in. our girl has lost so many times it is unreal, she has had that captain position stolen from her roughly a thousand times, her romantic life has been in shambles since day one i won’t even go there rn. anyway so from episode one it’s clear that her arc this season now that she HAS the captain title is going to be about becoming the BEST captain, and she will!! i believe in my girl and i always have!! and jack’s arc will clearly be about figuring out his life without being a firefighter now that he has all that brain damage. and so on and so forth. we can finally see an end in sight to these characters hectic ass lives and thank fucking god because station 19 is one of the most stress inducing shows i’ve ever watched. 3) as well as that. the romantic endgames will become clear. i can see the full picture forming i can finally begin to see it all… as i said earlier i have been rooting for jack and andy endgame since day one and frankly if that one in a million win happens. i’ll probably explode idk i never thought what might happen if i actually won there i don’t really expect to. the romantic endgames are not all clear i was using this point as a lead in to point 4. so 4) travis… well i’ve known for years they were always going to go back to travis and emmett. i knew that random british man was not long for my man travis the second he came in. listen. travis and emmett started ages ago, and they broke up and became friends and the actor playing emmett left the show and then they brought him back cuz they liked him so much. and i knew the moment they kept bringing him back. this is endgame and i better get used to it. so it’s a good thing i never had anything against travis and emmett because well it looks like i was right this is endgame bye british guy hashtag america strong hashtag declaration of independence hashtag go back to where you came from etc. sorry i really don’t care for that british man he was like. mildly tolerable last season but i never wanted him to stay around this long it’s fucked up. anyway. loved travis and emmett’s little cheating moment as emmett grieves his shitty dead dad who we all hated for being a republican <3 loved that they had sex in emmett’s mother’s house while she was probably like two rooms away and also i have a keen eye and like that was a room without a damn door they were in when they started tearing each other’s clothes off. as my mother commented. “in the living room???” real as fuck mom… anyway slay. point 3a) vic and ruiz can’t possibly be endgame right. god they probably are. fuck my life 🙄 god he’ll never be ripley…. you had to be there at the time it was the moment at the time….

yeah. anyway. lots of wins for straight people tonight. i wish they were real :( also some wins for the gays of those shows, maya and carina as always serving up their bland boring network tv lesbian couple swag. kinda obsessed tbh. maya has had a rough time of it in these seven seasons she deserves to be boring and lame now i think <3 my buddy schmidt still kinda losing the Take Me Seriously war. i fear if these six years have been any indication he never will win that battle. BUT. remember that meg is running the show now…. meg loves him… i mean clearly meg loves him she wrote The Episode….. meg i won’t ask for much but if it’s not too much trouble could you perhaps give a think on bringing back nico before they pull the plug on your show… just consider…. i’d really like it a lot if i got to see him even just one more time….. no worries if not meg i’m not trying to get greedy out here. however if you give my guy a krista core bullshit love interest i’ll kill you myself. peace and love. (krista core means bad btw. we HATE krista vernoff. boooooo) anyway. so that’s my thoughts. heart

[thaminices]

Where are people in Daemyra hashtag claiming it was not love? You guys need to understand they are not who they used to be.

Rhaenyra describe her life as a tragedy after he left her basically. She’s a mother she isn’t in it for the thrill anymore. Rhaenyra wants a partner, but she wants the one she always wanted.

Daemon also isn’t that guy anymore. He sure asked for her hand back then and I feel he meant it. But he was reckless and hangover, he was vulnerable. He beg his brother to give him what he wanted in a spur of a moment. However, Viserys didn’t.

Then he killed his wife and he pulled all his shaenigans at the wedding. Also his concerns about Rhaenyra were genuine and that’s why he asked if that marriage was what she wanted, but when he heard what she actually wanted he lost it. Daemon probably would have done something *very stupid* at that wedding if it wasn’t for crispin cole being the stupidest. But then he left and now we know why!

He spared her of him, of a doomed life, a rotten life with him. Yeah he did! After the mess he understood how he was pushing her to burn in flames with him and she was willing to do it. However he didn’t think it was fair and he thought she was too young and didn’t know what she was asking for, so he left and didn’t come back.

He let her live and try to be happy in that marriage while he tried too. He was sure more successful than her it’s clear. He had a good life with Laena but it wasn’t enough, not for him. Meanwhile Rhaenyra and Laenor tried but it didn’t work so she went to Harwin and he was all the good she had in the tragedy that turned her life, at same time everything got more complicated.

Anyway when they met again they missed each other but both were in a bad place where they lost people who were good for them. Of course, they grieve and that’s why everything had to be more sober and at same time a little somber. There was passion but it was not reckless or an immature thing where you just want to get in each other pants like teens, it’s the longing and the weight of 10 years of tragedy and emptiness that were still with them. There was mourning for their partners and for themselves. Still they didn’t want to wait for a more appropriate moment or even to get each other fully undressed to be complete together.

Rhaenyra said twice she wanted him and their faces in the wedding show that finally they got to be with who they want and love. If they will get burned let it be! They’re dragons meant to be together. Damn all the rest.

Of course, the were terrible choices directing wise in this episode. Scenes could be longer and BRIGHTER, the shots could have been done better focusing more in the actors expressions. But at least for me the tone was JUST right. I hope we can at least get more of them as a couple I think now they’re together they will be just fine after a long time and happy. Even if we know it won’t last.

[jackiebrackettt]

okay so a little lore dump thing for my bitb lab au ^_^ I want to mention that this Will include spoilers (and so i’m putting it under a cut) but please note that I have no current plans to write this fic out more than what you’ve already seen - certainly not to the level where it’s a coherent story at all

however! i am kinda encouraging ppl to write their own versions of it if they want. and if anyone Does do that -> how much they stick with this bit of lore/backstory is up to them

(Tagging @alkalineleak , @kasperconvergence and @transatos bc u guys seemed interested in hearing more :] also! rbs appreciated)

anyway onto the lore:

personally I didn’t want to go too in-depth with an unethical/morally ambiguous lab but there’s elements of that that can be built on. in this au I imagine they’re not all from Galloway bc I think it’s more interesting if Rand Kian and Rolan didn’t know each other beforehand - which feels impossible if they’re all in Galloway

Kian and Becky are exes and this was known by the lab - in fact, they were explicitly seeking out interns who knew either Becky or Rolan. kian’s music career was failing like with canon and someone approached him with the job offer and he took it. the timeline on this is a lil iffy but whateva. kian didn’t know becky was one of the bug monsters until he read the brief and signed the contracts etc etc

the idea here is that the scientists are trying to figure out if previous attachment to a person carries over to the bug-ified version

becky and rolan both turned themselves in to the lab and are there of their own volition. rolan is less there for studying/to help humans and more there bc he doesn’t trust himself and is freaking out. this is why kian says that rolan is safer than becky - as much as becky didn’t want to hurt kian, she wasn’t afraid that she would until it was too late

kian is there because the forms he signed essentially worked as a “i consent to being quarantined if something goes wrong” rand has also signed these. it was Very obvious and they weren’t trying to trick them. kian is mostly just pretending that he’s doing okay and that this is just a bit inconvenient/boring -> he’s pretty freaked out to understate it

relationship-wise: kian had a bit of a relationship with both becky and rolan. both of them very much knew about the other etc etc hashtag poly win! i say “a bit of” bc it was kinda cautious/early stages for both. rolan was starting to open himself up to the idea that he’s not inherently dangerous and then the thing with Becky happened so now he’s back to square 1

now! for the major spoilery bit:

i mentioned earlier that the scientists are specifically looking for interns with connections to the bugs and also that Rand doesn’t have any connection with them. this is bc there is actually a fourth bug monster that they are keeping in the lab and this is the Queen Aka Rachel

once rand gets settled into things they’d probably introduce him to Rachel and then I imagine all hell would break loose - I never really thought too much about plot which is why I’m kinda happy to move on from this idea (also I really don’t need another longfic on my plate o(-( man..) the queen is separated from the other bugs to try and minimise her control over them. i’m also kinda thinking that maybe becky came to the lab specifically to try and get close to the Queen to help her and then kian showed up and things got complicated

real quick: relationship endgame I imagine is nbr+becky dating kian

anyway yeah ^_^ that’s everything I have -> lmk if you have any questions or if ur thinking about taking over this concept from me :]

[discatded]

hunter toh in my botw au.....oh i could go on and on abt this au. i think ill do lumity next?

feel free to ask question abt the au. please do actually. to get you started heres some base info under the cut. its VERY ramble-y.

base character matchups are Luz as Zelda, Hunter as Link, and Belos as Ganon. this au doesnt involve much from TotK bc i havent finished it but. given the story it will definitely come into play!

basic story/plot/exposition is that 10,000 years ago, the sheikah Made a Hero for the future. just in case. extra safety measure or whatever. they saw how difficult it was to overcome the calamity and were like, hey, what if we made the ideal hero for future hyrule? make it easier. and so they do. they Make a Guy (caleb is the first hero (yknow the one in the hyrule historia manga bit) so his bones arent available to use for a grimwalker. so idk if hunter is a grimwalker of the 10k hero or if hes made entirely independently bc the sheikah. probably could do that) and stick him in the shrine of resurrection. this is the true purpose of the SoR: its really more of a shrine of stasis, to keep this manmade hero alive till hes needed. think cryogenic stasis or whatever.

so. hunter sleeps in the SoR for 10,000 years. has an awful time. one of the first (maybe The first) fic i read on ao3 was about what the SoR was like for botw link and it. stuck with me. so now i incorporate it into everything i make for botw if possible. anyways he has a miserable time, which is important because he had this miserable time for 10,000 years instead of just 100. Anyways. like botw link, he loses his memories. unlike botw link, they are inaccessible. period. there is no remembering Shit. besides like. vague vibes that he was instilled with. turns out if you make a person and tell them for their entire short existence that theyre made for a thing, then even if they forget everything else they Will still remember that theyre made for a thing. even if they dont really. so yeah all hunter knows is that he is not a person, that he exists for a Reason, and how to breathe. and other basic bodily functions. hes basically a big baby with a hero complex.

the rest of the au takes place "pre-calamity". i have a vague idea on how the actual calamity takes place (and how to make it similar to botw w/out so much death bc i have thought Very Much about this specific time period and not whatever the hell would be going on a century later. lmao.)

so. when the SoR is Discovered by sheikah researchers everyone is Very Surprised at the Whole Human Boy inside. because well. that should not be possible. this thing was difficult as hell to get into and also there was quite a bit of rock in the way! so they assume him to be dead and just miraculously preserved by the SoR fluid. And then he wakes up screaming (imagine being in the most agonizing sensory deprivation tank ever for 10,000 years and then abruptly being exposed to the world again. not fun!) and everyone is like OH SHIT ITS ALIVE.

eventually they get him out and not having the worst overstimulation meltdown in the history of all time and space and get back to hashtag Researching. some ppl focus on him (taking care of him (like i said. big baby with a hero complex), figuring out what the hell is up with him, etc) and others continue examining the SoR. the ppl with hunter make very little progress. because just bc hes not having the worst overstimulation meltdown in the history of all time and space, it doesnt mean he has a clue whats going on at all. or that hes not still having one of the worst overstimulation meltdowns in the history of all time and space. the ppl at the SoR, however, find a plaque with his name and vague purpose for existing, as well as the sheikah slate. yippee!!!

after all this, once hes less. of a big baby with a hero complex ig. we move to more character-focused stuff than exposition. so ill end this here for now. if you read all this you are very invited to talk to me abt this! i would love that! a good place to start i think would be with explaining characters. most of the important characters in the show are in this au. and i do mean most. there is quite a lot going on

[shewritesfics]

Word Vomit

Pairing: Charlie/Reader

Warnings: Alcohol, drug use, slight panic.

Summary: You and Charlie have been friends for a long time, but his worrying finally gets you to confess.

Word Count: 2.9k

Notes: Heyo! I hope you all enjoy this! Can someone pls tell me how to collapse a fic so it doesn't take up the whole hashtag, idk why but that shit bothers me. Lmk what you think! <3 Edit: Guys I fucking figured it out.

Okay, you would be the first to admit, that maybe you had a problem. But, hey, admitting is the first step!

The whole gang had past addictions as well, it’s not like they were any saint compared to you. From glue huffing, crack, and coke, to alcohol. So compared to all of those combined, you were good! They were oblivious anyway, always too fixated on what was happening inside the group to be mindful of outsiders. So, until anyone else saw it was a problem, you were in the clear.

You walk into the bar, and everyone is already screaming at each other to notice, besides Charlie. You quickly tuck into the bathroom, locking it behind you and pulling out your baggie. It’s full, you just picked it up before heading to the bar. You sigh, but a smile graces your face as you pour some lines out. Sniffing them up quickly, you check your face in the mirror before heading out. Charlie excuses himself unbeknownst to the gang and hops right on over to you, cheekily sliding past you to get behind the bar, touching your back lightly.

“Hey hey hey!” He cheers happily. “What can I get for you?” He smiles giddily at you.

You wave him off lightly, “Since you’re not technically a bartender, I’ll make it easy and just take a beer.” Flashing a smile at him and starting to grab some cash from your wallet.

He pops off the cap with ease and slides it over, rejecting your hand with the money and smiling at you.

“It’s on me.” He bows slightly and grabs himself a beer.

“It’s always on you.” You laugh back and take a sip, enjoying the cool it brings to your throat.

“That’s the Charlie special.” He winks at you. A blush comes over your face, he doesn’t know he’s flirting and that’s not his fault. Too infatuated with the waitress to give any person another thought. It was hard, a one-sided crush on someone like him.

He bashed rats! He went into the sewer naked for fun! He slept in a bed with another man and played nighttime games with him! Digging through the trash to find any secret treasure. He drinks paint. He eats stickers. He doesn’t brush his teeth for god’s sake, and you wanted him. Wholeheartedly. You’ve seen the devotion he gives to the waitress, who doesn’t even give him a second thought. Charlie deserves more. He would worship her if given the chance. You’re not jealous per se, but you can have a crush. Charlie is just so intoxicating to be around. So charismatic and happy. He’s ready for anything at the drop of a hat, he may dispute and argue, but he’ll always give in. He’s the wild card, unabashedly unashamed.

He waves his hand in front of you, taking you out of your daze and a blush of embarrassment quickly rages your face.

“Whatcha dreaming about?” He asks a brow quirked and a shy smile on his face.

“Oh! Uh- just uhm hungry.” It wasn’t technically a lie.

“You want me to take you somewhere?” He perks up instantly. Of course, he would, he loves going out to eat. And for free!

You sigh lightly, chugging your beer quickly. “Sure, let’s do it.” Alone time with Charlie never hurt anyone.

“Great! Let’s go to this coffee shop I know…” He trails off, thinking of the waitress. You inwardly groan and roll your eyes.

“Can we go to someplace else?” You try to ask without ground teeth. Charlie deflates, if he was a dog his ears would’ve turned down. You frown, but overall it would be better for you. He mumbles out a quick yes, before grabbing his coat. You excuse yourself to the bathroom quickly and he quirks a brow at you. You give him a pressed smile. Just a few more lines, and then maybe you’ll be done for the night.

You walk out of the bathroom, giddy as can be. Thoughts are running through your mind, and you want to talk away. Charlie notices a pep in your step, he assumes you're just happy for a meal.

The walk there is quick. It’s sunny out and there’s a slight chill in the air. The tip of your nose is tinged pink, probably from the drugs but maybe it’s the air. Charlie is rambling on about something and all you can do is watch him. How he talks with his hands, his facial expressions changing with the story. You’ve noticed that sometimes when he gets a big smile, his ears raise slightly as well. You’re just smiling dumbly at him. Any outsider could see it. You’re sick with love.

At the restaurant, you both order drinks, something frilly and fruity for you, and Charlie just orders a beer, though he’s jealous of your cocktail. You drink it quickly, trying to mask your face when the runs start happening in your throat. Your nose is runny and you’ve been clearing your throat a lot.

“Hey man, are you- like sick or something?” Charlie squints at you, leaning back in the booth. You tense up lightly, finishing the drink and pushing it away from you.

“Uh- no- not that I know off. It could be allergies, you know pollen and stuff.” You wave your hand as if to show pollen flowing through the air. His eyebrows raise and he nods in understanding.

“Yeah, dude, that shit fucks with people.” He shakes his head and finishes his beer. You don’t know how much he’s had to drink today, but you’re hoping to be shitfaced by the end of the night. Sure, it would be easier to drink at Paddy’s, but fruity cocktails are so easy to get down. If you can afford that much coke, you can afford a few cocktails at happy hour.

Charlie is trying to read the menu. Complaining about how there are no pictures that he can look at. You chuckle at him.

“Charlie, I’ll order for you. There’s a meat and cheese platter.” A huge smile overcomes his face, his eyes crinkle and you laugh.

“Dude, you’re just- the best, man.” He shakes his head and smiles brightly. You blush and avoid his eye. “How come you always do that?” He asks quickly.

“Do what?” You ask, confused.

“You just never look at me after I say stuff like that.” He shrugs and starts fiddling with his fingers. His brows pinched together as he focused on the skin around his nails. Your posture gets a bit straighter, and you look at anything but him. Charlie isn’t the smartest person on the planet, but fuck, he is so oblivious when a girl is into him. It’s charming really, he’s just authentically himself all the time. He never shows off unless it’s the waitress. Of course, he’s cocky when it comes to the group, but he never falters.

“It’s nothing.” You turn down his questioning. He backs off when the waiter comes over and you order, getting another drink for yourself while he’s there.

The food is there in a flash and Charlie goes directly for the cheese. You smile and laugh, digging into your meal as well. Coke has an interesting effect on your appetite, but at least you can take it for leftovers if he doesn’t eat it as well. You nurse the drink while Charlie rambles about the cheese, among other things. You listen and nod when he’s looking for a reaction, giving small feedback when there’s a lull while he’s swallowing. It’s almost intimate. The two of you are alone at a dimly lit table, it feels like a date. You weren’t the only one who thought that.

The waiter comes back around with a small dessert and sets it on the table. He clears his throat, “Couples get a free dessert on us!” He smiles grandly and Charlie chokes lightly.

“Oh, man, yeah we’re not dating. Can we still have the dessert though?” He reaches for the plate and the waiter looks at you, quirking a brow. You’re face is flushed with embarrassment and you quickly shake your head no.

“Uh- no. Dessert is free only for couples.” The waiter also reaches for the plate before Charlie holds it away from him.

“Yeah, I mean, I get it man but you already put the plate down and said it was for us. So- I think it’s only right…” He trails off with his defense, it falls on deaf ears. You excuse yourself to the bathroom real quick, shuffling out of the seat and into the single restroom.

You stare at yourself in the mirror. Your hands are shaking lightly as you pour out a few more lines. Your eyes are wild and your face is flushed. His words ring throughout your head. Charlie didn’t mean it to be malicious, you knew that. He would never do anything to purposely hurt you, but fuck, did that sting. You run your hands through your hair, taking in deep breaths and shoving down the hurt that was bubbling in your throat. Exhaling and grabbing the rolled-up dollar bill, you snort it quickly, tilting your head back and breathing heavily. Plugging each nose and breathing in as hard as you can to avoid any leakage. You look at yourself one more time and quickly walk back to the booth.

Charlie is looking at you weirdly. To be fair, you did just run away. It’s been so long since you guys have been friends. It’s been so long that you’ve been holding all of your feelings in. It’s not fair. It’s not fair that this man gets to be delusion about his crush on the waitress when you have been waiting for him. You could love him. Listen to all of his stories, hold his hand when he starts getting nervous, and pick at his skin. Play and style his hair after a risky endeavor with the gang. You would clean his scratches and bandage them. Scratch his back before bed, and hold him closely and softly just before falling asleep. You would listen to his medleys and would hold him from behind, so when he sings softly it would vibrate throughout your body. You would be his warmth.

“Y/N, you good man?” He looks at you with his soft eyes.

“I’m sorry, Charlie, I just keep zoning out.” You dismiss him.

“It’s more than that.” He mutters. You look at him, tilting your head. “I don’t know- you do this thing, man. You just like- disappear all the time.” He shrugs. You scoff lightly and roll your eyes. “You can talk to me, ya know?” His hand comes up and rubs his neck. “You always listen to me…”

A frog is caught in your throat. Your heartbeat pounds in your ears. You look everywhere but him. Anywhere but him. You’ve planned this out so many different times in your mind. The way you would word your confession if what he did that day would preoccupy him more than your talking. It’s been a million in one scenario. His reaction differs each time, but you’ve never dreamt of one where he feels the same. Your yearning has bounds, and false happiness will always be one. Why is he asking all these questions today?

“Charlie…” He leans in after your voice drops. “Can we just go?” The receipt was on the table when you got back, you reach into your wallet and leave cash on the table. He nods and slides out of the booth, eyeing you as your jaw is tensed and you quickly walk out of the store. You’re thankful for the slight bite in the air, focusing on how the cool air fills your lungs. Charlie is in step beside you, playing with the inside of his pockets, biting the inside of his cheek. The silence is nice. You would never get tired of his voice, but you were so close to telling him everything. It’s terrifying.

You end up in the back alleyway of the bar, reaching for the door before Charlie steps in front of you, leaning on the door.

“Dude, what gives?” You ask and reach for the handle, but he’s firmly leaning against it, not budging in the slightest.

“You’re just being weird, man.” He shrugs and looks at you, a pleading look in his eye that drives a stake right through your heart.

You waver for a second. “It’s nothing, Charlie. Genuinely, it’s fine.” You avoid his gaze, he crosses his arms over his chest indicating that he’s not going to be moving for a while. A frustrated sigh comes out and your hand comes up to rub your temples. He shrugs and gives you a pressed look. “Why do you even care?” You ask a small bite in your tone.

“Cause you’re important to me, ya know? I- I like- just having you around…” His head tilts and his look softens. “I like you, dude.”

You scoff and shake your head, a small laugh falling from your lips. “Yeah, sure, you like me.”

“I do man. You’re just like- so cool dude.” His hands drop as he tries to explain something with his hands. “It’s just like- I dunno- my day just gets better when you’re around.” Your heart jumps, breathing falters before he continues. He takes in a deep breath. “Just a great-no-like awesome friend.”

Your heart sinks. Your stomach knots. Your hands shake.

Charlie's mouth is moving but no noise comes out. The only thing you hear is your panicked heartbeat. It vibrates throughout your whole body, making your knees buckle with each pulse. He notices your silence, though it’s somewhat usual, the air is thick. He sees how your jaw tenses and how a glazed look is on your face.

“…you good?” He stutters out. You laugh sharply, your hands coming up to your heated face and bringing a cooling sensation. You take a deep breath in, lips pressed together in a thin line. You clear your throat, not even sure what’s going to spill out of your mouth.

“Charlie.” Okay, starting strong! “It’s- I mean- you just- I’m so-” Fuck, dude. You shake your head in disbelief at the situation, hoping the blinking would somehow make it disappear. He’s watching you struggle with furrowed brows, which makes it even more frustrating, he must think this is so fucking weird. “I just…” You trail off, taking in a deep breath, and locking eyes with him.

“I’m so in love with you.” You rush out. He stills. His hands fall to his sides and his eyebrows shoot up in surprise. Your heartbeat is through the fucking roof at this point, and your breathing is erratic. You can’t read his look, the information processing. You look away from him now, arms coming up to self-soothe. His mouth opens but you cut him off swiftly.

“And I know the waitress is your one true love or whatever, but she doesn’t even like you!” You state, exasperated. It’s harsh coming from you. “She doesn’t even care, Charlie.” Your tone falls flat. “She can go by every day without thinking about you, and god, sometimes I wish I could do the same. You haunt my thoughts like the ghouls you’re so sure of…” You laugh and look down. “It’s pathetic really, how often you drift through my mind. You know, the first time I came to Paddy’s I was just trying to use the bathroom, but you looked at me. God, the way you looked at me. The smile on your face when I waved, my heart stopped beating. I only stayed cause I had to talk to you, fuck, I needed to hear your voice. The bar is so scary too, but I just needed to be around you. I craved the feeling of your eyes on me and how you would always stop whatever you were doing just to say hi. You have an awful beer selection that I don’t even like, but when you serve it, it tastes like liquid gold! And the way you tell stories gets me so entrapped, how you’re so passionate-”

His hand is holding your cheek, lifting it to look at him. Your eyes are hot and glazed, tears threatening to spill over. His look is soft, his touch is warm but you can feel the callouses against your cheek. God, he’s holding you so softly, like you're fragile. His other hand rests on the back of your arm, thumb stroking softly. Your breath is stuck in your throat, shock is evident on your features.

“God, Charlie.” You laugh as tears crawl down your cheek. “I’m so sorry. I don’t know why I said all”

His lips are on yours. His lips are on yours.

You close your eyes and your hand cups his face, his lips are so warm, and so soft compared to what you dreamed about. His facial hair tickles you softly, which is oddly endearing. He’s pulling you close, holding you as if you’d crumble, you fear you might if he lets go.

The kiss ends sooner than you’d like, his face is unreadable besides the small smile that graces his lips. You bet your eyes are wild, your skin is covered in goosebumps by this point.

“But- the waitress-” You try to reason with him.

“Doesn’t matter.” His voice is firm. “Nothing matters if I have you.”

Nothing matters if I have you.

[tearsandwishes]

weekend vent dumps #4

FUCK 2022 BECAUSE THE NEW YEAR GOTTA BE LIT.

Imagine studying of midterms during Christmas Eve? COULDNT BE ME HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Nonetheless, how are you guys doing? Well? Good.

Anyways, I have a problem, or it's more like my account has a problem. Tell me why there's a lot of pornstars following me. Honestly I'm not complaining but, WTF. Literally I was checking my follower list because I found it sketchy that I kept on getting a follower each day.

TELL ME WHY I WAS LOOKING AT PORNOGRAPHY. It's not like I'm complaining but WHY. I thought I had nice innocent followers looking up to someone who had similar experiences as them.

It's not like I'm complaining but whatever, lets get into the depths of this week...

Can we please talk about the hashtag #xblackreader? And the meaning of it for the people who are clearly dumb.

The hashtag #xblackreader is a hashtag for us black people to feel comfortable. As you can see, sometimes, fluff, smut, or even headcannons itself are sometimes not inclusive.

Who remembers the y/n epidemic? Well y/n was usually described as a pale girl, with blonde hair and blue eyes. When I was 13, I was confused as fuck when I read that I had straight black hair, a slim waist, and a 4'11 figure (I'm 5'1 wtf).

Now the hashtag #xblackreader, helps black girls like me (DO NOT BE LIKE ME AND WAS EXPOSED TO WATTPAD YOUNG), to have relatable experiences/ features.

Now the reason why I'm complaining today is, well, smut.

The smut community is going through it. And I mean the "kinks" in this community.

Now I get it. Calling someone "master" and getting whipped and playing with your own FECES is apparently a thing. Now tell me that isn't sketchy.

Now as a black person, and a woman with sexual desires, HOW THE HELL DO PEOPLE ENJOY THAT. Not only that, how the hell do you get turned on by getting called a "slave"? BITCH YOUR BEING CALLED A SLAVE.

Now if someone called me a "whore" or "slut", do you think I wouldn't want to cry? I WOULD FUCKING CRY. I would be like "Why would you say such things, wtf." Not, "OMG DADDY FUCK ME!"

Which is why, #xblackreader exists. For people like me, who doesn't like those kinds of things, because, these could lead to micro-aggressions and cause racism antics. Next thing you know, my white boyfriend would think it would be okay to call me the n word.

So, please, respect black spaces and let our people have what they didn't have before. Have the respect and praise that they need and deserve.

So my take on this week is well, SAYING FUCK Y/N.

"Don't try to lessen yourself for the world; let the world catch up to you."

BEYONCE

HAVE A GREAT MERRY CHRISTMAS GUYS 🎄

[phoebehalliwell]

I mean, if you want gossip, welcome to my tale of questionable decisions! Let me set the scene for you. The relevant players are me, my female friend, and a guy who we've both been befriending. (The setting, mostly irrelevant but must be added to emphasize the Questionable Decisions of this tale is a church group. As in we're all in the same church group. What the fuck at me) Anyways, friend has gotten some flirty signals from guy and is interested but not willing to do anything unless he's explicitly into her.

Meanwhile, I end up becoming closer friends with this guy bc we went to an arcade a weekend night, accidentally had too much, and then had a full on breakdown on how my ex bf almost definitely sexually assaulted me. The guy (nice guy not ex bf, he has no more relevance to this story besides my ~trauma~) ends up hanging out with me a few more days, in part bc I am Not Handling this well. (ha ha, i'm repressing it atm again, this seems like a better idea!) We end up being better friends tho, and I find out that he is into my friend which great!

Issue is that my hormones are fucking stupid as hell and I. haven't even kissed anyone since said ex bf and guy friend is nice to me and I am reasonably sure won't be weird about it. So basically: we ended up making out on my couch. for a while. Additional context: I outright told him beforehand that I didn't want a relationship with him and this would be a one-time thing that I would almost definitely never bring up again. Which: not wrong. He's a great friend and I like hanging out with him but we're fundamentally incompatible and I'm just not into him that way. (Seriously, the entire thought process on my end is that he has proven multiple times that he won't hurt me, will stop if I ask, and is chill enough that it won't need to become a thing.)

He had to leave after a while, because y'know time and I basically talked him into asking out my friend. So please, imagine this scenario. Me and him, having just spent two hours making out on my couch with the full understanding this was a one-time thing, now standing on my porch at midnight as I try to talk him into asking her out while he expresses doubt that she's into him. I've done it tho and he's gonna ask her out tomorrow. This is the current situation as of fifteen minutes ago.

My expectation is frankly that while we may talk about it in the future, bc he is currently only person alive who knows about my trauma, it will never happen again. (Like I said: I'm really not into him like that.) Admittedly, not totally sure on what'll happen with him and her but a legit possibility that they end up going out (and he's already promised me to not tell anyone about it, which he won't bc of who he is as a person) and it going well. Honestly, idk if I really need advice bc I do legitimately think that this will work out fine for everyone but may I get an f in the chat for what the fuck was I thinking. Any advice about the situation will be gladly accepted tho! (Also anything about dealing with said trauma bc like I said. I am. not handling it v well oof.)

The most ironic thing about fucking all this is that I am normally the most drama-free, chill person ever and never get into trouble and then I did this. To repeat: what the fuck at me!

legendary behavior on your part honestly like. like?? idk i'm with you i think this could turn out fine maybe. like obvs there are good odds it doesn't but like. ❤️❤️❤️❤️. like aint nobody gotta know like first off i totally believe in like the principle of making out with your friends. granted i rarely do it for like two hours with the homies but like making out for two hours with someone that you're into is also like not that weird of a thing either imo like making out with someone at the club!! you guys are both just there it's both just vibes like!! idk it's normal!!! i feel sooo hashtag phoebecoded rn i do feel like this is incredibly dumb advice but im also hashtag team you. i think this is gna be fine. but also yeah like really don't let her know. like. that's just business between y'alls just silly haha business and it's like if you get it you get it but if you don't it's really confusing and hurtful bc it's harder to get it if you already like the guy you get what i'm saying. but yeah. hope things work out for your friend and homeboy. homeboy sounds chill. also they're both so relatable for refusing to do anything until they know for sure it's reciprocated the amount of the times i have had to hold my homies at gunpoint (and vice versa!) to ask out the guy who clearly likes them... well it's a modern (?? or not idk i'm not old) rite of passage. wishing u all luck. keep me posted im nosy owo.

[lovecolibri]

Any thoughts about why the 911 fandom has shockingly (at least to me) high levels of multishipping/willingness to drop Buddie as soon as new female love interests enter the picture? It's unlike any other fandom that I've participated in, truly. I'm not like...outrageously pissed because I recognize that this is a fictional show and I have real-life issues that take priority, lol. Buuut I'm about as pissed as I ever let myself get over fictional shows.

The reaction of so many "Buddie shippers" to Buck and Eddie's new love interests has been like cold water thrown on my face. I've seen people quite literally abandoning ship, even though we know practically nothing about these new characters and haven't even seen them interact with the guys, all because they are conventionally attractive??? I thought that people were joking at first, but now I'm seeing very earnest threads on Twitter and posts here on Tumblr about how these women are so hot and funny and sweet, and they'll make peace with no Buddie because of the "happiness" that these women will bring to Buck and Eddie. Whaaaat. Am I living in La La Land for finding this EXTREMELY strange??? We haven't even seen Natalia with Buck, or Eddie with Marisol, and we got, like, 2 minutes of Eddie with the other lady. Was it unpleasant like Eddie and Ana? No. But was it truly compelling, or moving, or anywhere in the vicinity of a Buck scene? FUCK NO.

At the very least, I wonder why these people are still blogging and tweeting Buddie content, why they still consider themselves Buddie shippers, when they've admitted that they'd be perfectly content to sacrifice years of Buddie potential and development for virtually unknown women. The reality is that heterosexual ships nearly always win out - especially on network TV - and seeing these people align with that against a same-sex ship? It gives me an extremely icky feeling. And if you point out that this is odd, you're suddenly accused of misogyny? Again, whaaaat. I'm having flashbacks to BuckTaylor, when a bunch of people jumped ship but quickly realized that there was NOTHING to work with, and tried to come back to Buddie. Maybe it's the same people doing this now! But God, if it's this annoying before we even meet the women, I can't imagine what it'll be like when they ctually enter the picture. I've already unfollowed 20 people and see that list only growing. Cultivate your experience, sure. But it's kind of sad because I tried to do that in the first place. Anyway, I've been pretty shocked by how quickly some people have turned on Buddie.

First of all, I will say some people are perfectly happy multi-shipping and that's fine! It's absolutely not for me personally with a couple I'm invested in (or for you apparently) but some people are happy going with the flow and there's nothing wrong or bad about it. They can still like Buddie and share Buddie content from a fandom perspective and be interested to see where the actual show is going with different couples. I don't get it, it's not how I engage, but I'm not going to tell other people their way of engaging isn't right, or that they can't share Buddie content at all if they are okay with Buck or Eddie ending up with someone else.

With that said, I completely understand how it can be difficult to see especially against a mlm couple that the show doesn't seem to want to commit to, but also refuses to clearly state it WON'T happen while paralleling them to the other couples instead of the other friendships on the show.

For me, I've been leery of following blogs since my season 2 RNM days which was lot of mass unfollowing, and again when I let my guard down and had followed a bunch of people and then s5 and LD happened. So instead of following a lot of blogs, I prefer to go to the search page in tumblr and just do "911". No hashtag so sometimes I get irrelevant things that were just tagged something like "hello 911? I'd like to report a murder" but it gives me things tagged with all variations of 911, 911 on fox, 911 tv etc, as well as LS content AND the search will not pull posts that have a tag you have blocked! So I have blocked tags for characters/ship I do not like, I have blocked anit-tags for characters/ships I love, and then I can see if someone posts content I enjoy but don't see any content they post that I don't like. I don't need to follow everyone or see everything on my dash because some blogs are multi-fandom for something I don't like, or some blogs post about characters I don't like, but not enough for me to want to block them entirely. And sometimes I don't want to block a blog that posts buddie fics I like, but I DON'T want to see other fics about characters I hate.

Filters are EVERYTHING and I think it's important to know you don't HAVE to follow blogs to see their content, you can just go into the search! You could do "buddie" instead of 911 and get similar results, even more so because it won't be pulling as much generic 911 stuff. I already filtered out the "Natalia" tag AND put it in my filtered post content just because FOR ME, I don't want it in the search, AND for people I DO follow, when that filtered post comes up on my dash I want to see which blog is posting about it and what my personal emotional state is in before I choose if I want to see the post or not. I'll probably remove the filter at some point, we literally know nothing about the character, but right now I'm not in a place I want to see it. 🤷🏻‍♀️ And that's okay! There is a lot of relief at knowing it's not going to sneak up on me unprepared. That's how I am currently curating my experience in full, not just my dash and I HIGHLY recommend it. Some people won't tag for things which is why the "filtered post content" is great, and I have also started using the "find in page" option on fics so I don't get jumpscared with an untagged character appearance.

So hopefully these options are helpful! It's what works for me, and while I do still block blogs occasionally, I'm also not going to be going to every blog and researching every opinion they've ever had before deciding on reblogging from them. I do often now do a *little* checking before I decide to follow a blog, but that takes spoons so typically I just stick with reblogging from the search and then checking my dash when my brain isn't in hyperfocus on 911 mode.

(so if you've ever followed me and I reblog from you and never followed back, this is why. I'm a little shy about following back after my bad experiences and don't always remember to check out a blog that follows me in order to decide to follow back AND/OR I see your posts in the search all the time so I forget that I don't actually follow you 🤷🏻‍♀️)

I hope you find some peace on your dash nonnie, but don't feel like you have to give up on seeing some good Buddie content from blogs just because they post other stuff you don't want to see. Filter that shit out and enjoy the Buddie stuff! Whether that means unfollowing and just seeing their posts in other reblogs or the search, or being fine with following and just scrolling past the "this post contains filtered content" notifications, whatever works for you! (I personally end up clicking the "see post" option and always end up as the dead dove meme, so unfollowing and just using the search works best for me since I have no self control.)

[mundanemelusina]

So I’m feeling embarrassed but also like… I can’t NOT share this story…

So like any terrible fanfic, let me start this real life story by telling you what I was wearing. Yellow platform crocs. a light green dress with daisies all over it, mid thigh length and very loose. A pink mid thigh length skirt under to poof out the dress more, that have shorts underneath for modesty. And over top that, a lightweight lavender oversized button up shirt that I was kinda wearing as a jacket.

I know you don’t exactly care, but the important part is: cute and light bright colors and a misleading amount of hidden layers.

Now the setting: it’s around 7pm on Sunday. It rained a bit from 5-6:30. The weather said no rain but cloudy all day. The weather lied. That’s ok. It happens. I was walking to see a play at my local outdoor summer Shakespeare company. One of my best friends was acting, and I got her some opening weekend gifts. The rain had let up. So I thought I might as well go see the show.

Now let’s be clear: I walk. I do not car. So I make a 30minute trek to the theatre, and about 20 minutes in, it begins to rain again. Not just rain. POUR. My platform crocs are about 4 inches thick. And the roads became rivers that my platforms could not suspend me above. In less than ten minutes. But I’m almost there I’m not going to turn around now. Even if the show gets cancelled I can give her the presents.

I get to the theatre and it starts to let up a bit. It looks like they aren’t gonna perform so I start to head to the backstage area to play delivery lady (this was ok bc I have worked in that theatre before and the people in the cast all knew me. Do not do this if you are an average citizen) anyways because I’m an Austen heroine, I took a tumble.

A big tumble.

I slipped on a hill of mud and slid down it on my ass about 15 feet.

I was COVERED in thick goopy poopy-looking mud.

Now I know you’re thinking: ok but Fable what did you do?

Well kids what can you do? You pick yourself up. You check for injuries. And you walk to the neared building and use the rooftop runoff to TAKE A SHOWER RIGHT THEN AND THERE. Bc like. What were my options??? Go home??? NO. I had a gift to give. I couldn’t get a ride anywhere. I wasn’t going to mud up someone’s entire car.

So I washed me and my clothes.

Now here’s where it gets embarrassing:

If you’ve become my friend in real life you’ll know I have a long laundry list of things that makes men attractive to me. Top of which is young dads. Not being a hashtag daddy, but being a father???? Bro I will mount you right here and now. I also like tall guys, beards, silver hair, rich is not a downside to be sure, kind, smart, and I kinda adore vets who live a gentle or artistic life???

But fable does such a man exist?????

Who should be right there, but a tall, silver, bearded, kind, smart, insanely rich lawyer, father, veteran, and board member of of the Shakespeare company!!!!! Who I promptly shoved my purse and phone and do-not-wets at as I began to wash my whole body in my sin runoff in front of. IM FUCKING WASHING MY ASS WHILE THE MAN OF MY DREAMS WATCHES IN ABJECT HORROR BECAUSE IM COVERED FROM NECK TO TAINT IN FUCKING MUD

Anyways he is a saint and held my objects but good fucking GOD I wish to perish.

Side note the mud came out very well and nothing was stained. But I was literally lifting up my skirts and scrubbing fucking detritus from my cooch in from of this beautiful man. And he kept LOOKING but like not in a “oo hot” way but bc my underwear was bold bright comic book patterned.

They also did NOT cancel the show so I sat in completely drenched clothes outside in 55-60 degree weather for two hours after the sun went down, shivering like an idiot.

Anyways this will be a core memory or whatever. Bye