#anyways *posts*

[moth-bells]

I dont think I can ever call myself a hater of any mh character. Im their number 1 defenders in all equal measure (yes, including alex I will get toxic in how I defend him /lh) Like my thoughts will never have to make sense to anyone im sure, i live in my bubble and I am happy (/silly) Legit, though, I love the mh boys. I love them and how fucked up they all are in their own ways, and how all of them have REASONS to be fucked up. Note, everything I say is mostly headcannon from taking things from the way characters act and what info we do have. And you can tell who my ultimate faves are, I am not ashamed of this skjfd /lh Tim is schizophrenic (potentially, I like to think he is) with severe childhood trauma (I mean he was fucking institutionalized and abandoned by his mother there, I'm sorry but theres no getting out of that mentally intact). He obviously doesnt have an easy time socializing. Brian is his first friend ever (and it seems like they meet in college, since Tim doesnt know Brian's friends). Hes been affected by the operator his whole life, though its easy to write it off as his mental illness and ignore it despite how awful it still is. He can't catch a fucking break, at all, ever. I imagine he probably has abandonment issues from childhood, which has led to not seeking out close friendships or relationships. Thats likely *why* Brian is his first friend, as Brian seems like someone who would happily push until he broke that carefully built-up barrier to keep others out. And once he *finally* has friends, people who care about them? Now theyre all dead and hes left to stand in the wreckage. We know even from his medical records that he is ALREADY suicidal by age 6, WITH a suicide plan and access to said plan when hes admitted. Its not hard to imagine that those suicidal thoughts have followed him his whole life and *after* MH as well. His little 'everything is fine' at the end feels like a lie. Hes lying. Everything is NOT fine, but he doesnt need another Jay Merrick to watch these videos and come looking for him. He doesnt need *more* people dying because of *him*. Because they *met* him.

Brian is just as tragic to me as Tim is. Tim has years of experiencing his anhedonia (which can cause emotional bluntness, or a disconnect of his emotions), and this can make it easier to move on from upsetting events. Brian, on the other hand, does not have any shown or hinted at mental issues before the events in 2006. Hes a well-adjusted guy as far as we can tell. Kind, a little goofy, certainly seems to get along well with others. Hes a GOOD person, who cares about his friends, and hes sticking with them even when he *knows* something is wrong. He trusts Alex so much before he's practically fed to the operator by him. From the START, hes affected by lying. Alex lying to him about where they're going, that everything is fine. And Brian pays the price for trusting him. And I *do* understand Tim never revealed his medical history. Tim has said he doesnt remember what the hallucinations he had as a kid were. Hes a diagnosed schizophrenic man in the 2000s. Mental health was not very well understood and accepted. "But Brian was a psychology major, he'd understand more than anyone!" and I return to the fact that Tim was institutionalized at a young age. This man does not have a good relationship with anyone in that field. Trauma is a reality for him, it just is. But at the same time, Brian is *broken* by what the operator did to him. He is *tired* of being lied to. So when he finds Tim's medical records he is *furious*. We know they have a falling out because Brian has been lied to and lied to and *no one* seems to care! But he doesnt hate Tim. I think after their falling out he *wants* to hate Tim. I mean he takes his meds, to *purposely* cause a seizure. He forces it to happen, sits and watches from the closest as his best friend shakes and seizes on the floor and then *sobs* after he comes out of it. He does this with little care to Tim's well being. He doesnt care right now, because its an means to an end. But he cant hate Tim. No matter what, he cant make himself hate Tim. He, as mentioned above, *CAN* understand mental health issues more than anyone in their friend group could have. He'd understand, no matter how much he wants to make himself ignore it, that Tim lied to keep himself from losing his only friends ever. Even though he wants to hate Tim, he just cant. Hes upset with him, but even towards the end that's almost faded. He *is* manipulating Tim somewhat, using his meds as a means to get Tim on his side, but Brian is *not* okay mentally. He thinks in code and binary and hes *not* well. In his mind, the only way to get Tim close enough to even *try* and explain things to him is to *make* him. I really think after Brian left his last message, his name in the code, he KNEW Tim would never have cared to decode it. Tim isn't Jay. He doesn't care about any of this. He has no reason to. Jay was obsessive to find answers and Tim wants it to end no matter what. I mean Brian knows Tim doesnt trust him and has NO reason to. Tim is convinced that Brian got Jay killed. Even if Brian didnt do it intentionally he *did* lead Jay to his death by letting him go. I'm sure he did so to keep Alex from coming and killing Jay while he was vulnerable. But, we know how that ends. And Tim is off his meds. He sees a murderer and he isnt gonna care what that murderer says, so Brian bribes him with his medication. And even to the end, he doesnt want to hurt Tim, so he jumps. (rant being continued in next reblog trust i maxed out tumblrs character count....sorry........./silly)

[pkaykim]

Valentines gift for my girlfriend

Please don’t repost on other platforms!

[zeezeepearl]

ok im going to #seriouspost for a second here. I don't think Harry Potter is a manifesto. I think it was a flawed passion project that millennials latched onto because of the fantasy of sticking it to their mean teachers and arbitrarily categorizing themselves (hogwarts houses; it's the thinking millennial's astrology). I think the fact that the series got popular when and how it did was very much a product of its time.

I don't think Harry Potter is the biggest symbol of JKR's bigotry. I think the most flagrant sign of that was how she responded to critics. I watched her become radicalized in real time. I watched how she doubled down on her racism when she was called out for the ways she promoted her tragically mid fantastic beasts movies. I watched her chase marginalized teenagers with a double digit follower count off of twitter for daring to criticize her thought process, and no one with any kind of power standing against her because she was the one who was paying them. This isn't to say Harry Potter is without flaws. This is to say she really didn't give a shit about that. Getting rich and powerful is a hell of a drug, and she had enough sycophants that she had no reason to care about what her critics were saying.

She was convinced that she was a martyr; a voice for the unheard; a leader for the ages, so of course her detractors were the bad guys. And I think we should take this to heart. We should see this as an example of how easy it is to get radicalized; if you think of yourself as a paragon of virtue, you are going to think that whatever you see as good and right is an objective fact. Most people don't know this, but the majority of terfs start out as trans allies. You are not immune to propaganda! You are not immune to falling into dangerous ideologies!!!

This is why the most important thing you can do as an activist is to listen. Do NOT think you're above being wrong; do NOT develop a god complex; do NOT form an identity out of being right all the time. Involve yourselves in the groups you claim to speak for. Listen to trans women; share resources that help trans women; familiarize yourself with the diversity of experiences that trans people have and the struggles they face.

No, none of you are as bad as JKR because you don't have her money or her power. You will likely never have the capacity for harm she does. But check yourselves. Do not affirm yourselves into thinking you always have the moral high ground. Watch yourselves; humble yourselves; check yourselves for signs of cult behavior and internalized prejudice. You are always learning. You will always be learning. Do not allow yourselves to get a power trip from brushing off marginalized voices.

[daftpatience]

slow down for your disabled friends. thats like a bare minimum kindness that we shouldnt have to ask for. i love that youre so quirky and walking fast is a cool personality trait to you and all that but i bet you can count your physically disabled friends on less than one hand

[mroddmod]

the queen of the disco or whatever

[tiredandoptimistic]

Nothing hits like "romantic couple and a third guy who's not dating either of them but is definitely a part of this dynamic"

[kensatou]

good thing from jp twitter this week is queen of old man yaoi michiru sonoo discovering the term old man yaoi

update: somehow it got impossibly more wholesome

quick translation: おかえり: welcome home あ 終わった 終わった: ahhh, it's over! it's done! コーヒー? お茶?: coffee? tea? コ~ヒ~ ありがと: coffee, thank you~ ネクタイレア★★ ネクタイ取るレア★★★★: seeing him with a tie on, rarity level ★★, seeing him take a tie off, rarity level ★★★★ にあうな~: it suits him~

also please do follow: AraigumaSha: sensei's twitter account marureviere: maru, who does such valuable work highlighting bl manga for an international audience

[yardsards]

everything in this life is temporary. except that fandom hyperfixation from when you were 14. that thang will be with you forever there's no escaping.

[arcanegifs]

ARCANE LEAGUE OF LESBIANS: 2x08 - “Killing is a Cycle”

[etz-ashashiyot]

Happy freedom weekend to all who celebrate!

[tawnysoup]

Found my fav Slay the Princess route recently. Dragon my beloved. Your horrifying beak mouth was an impossible-to-refuse lip syncing challenge 💖

Shoutouts to @blacktabbygames for making such a cool game!

[rioblitzle]

working retail

[rovermcfly]

I think a lot of people are forgetting that on tumblr fandom used to be practiced very differently. now everyone fucks off to their discords or tumblr groups to discuss everything with a select few, making tags be nearly only used for posting some finished fanworks or not at all

a decade ago people didn't have tumblr groups. people didn't even have dms. if you wanted to talk to anyone about anything you had to make a post, or send an ask (which more often than not would get published and thereby become a post in the end too)

so next time you think "I have a fandom thought but I have to find a small group of hyperspecifically like-minded people to share it with in private" remember all the freaks you could be missing out on meeting by keeping the tags dead. use tags, make friends. fuck discord.

[maskenjager]

I can't unsee this

[clearlydusty]

Bro thinks she could just thug it out

[atomiccryptid]

Ok, so you've been isekai'd to the dnd world and may or may not die due to the class you've been assigned. Better question. Are you human? (spinner wheel of all dnd5e species)