#anyways LISTEN TO OTHER AUTISTICS

[autisticthings]

@rurustims provided me a lesson that nonverbal and verbal shutdowns are COMPLETELY DIFFERENT!!

I will be researching soon and posting about it cause this is important!!!

gist from what they said: (semi)nonverbal is permanent and affects the autistic being all the time VS verbal shutdowns are due to meltdowns/shutdowns/burnouts and doesn't affect the autistic being 24/7

when I was in middle school I went an entire week without talking, because of an "experiment". really I was just nonverbal, it was the most relaxing week of school I've ever had.

EDIT: I was informed that nonverbal is the wrong term!! I was actually experiencing a verbal shutdown!!!

[javierduffy]

but when they're out on that river bank alone, what javier should be loyal to doesn't feel as confusing anymore

[krisalyce]

in a keepblr full of tiana/dexiana discourse i will be the dam shipper

[keungking]

imagine getting casted as an omega. the showrunners look at you and say yeah you look breedable enough

[jamiebluewind]

Today has been one of those "Sorry! I couldn't hear you over the texture of my socks" days.

[lunarrosette]

Liking someone who’s also autistic who has the same hyperfixations and special interests is silly bc I’m just “subtly” flirting when I’m making fake “cast list” of just assigning characters to my friends

Like omg I think u would eat up Martin (it’s true they would) and I mean I’m Jon bc Jon is literally me everyone agrees

Or trust u r Curt and I am Owen

I’m not slick BUT maybe someday it’ll get there

[inkats]

my boy-coded behaviour for most my life makes my exploration of gender due to newfound freedom era lean more into feminine things but my anti-capitalist feminist value system makes this feel like a betrayal of my moral code.

[mellyoraa]

yeah, just as expected, going to the Käärijä concert actually tipped me over the edge into properly listening to his discography and getting super into it, but also into getting super into HIM iykwim

[cicadidae-tm9899]

guys off topic question but if San from Ateez was a bug which bug would he be

[insufferablemod]

hheeeyyyy heyyyy go check out this song im very normal about yall B)

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

Books of 2025: ODD THOMAS by Dean Koontz.

This was a reread for me! I remembered it being An Inspiration for one of my own novels (which I'm revising now, which is why I am Returning To My Inspiration Roots), but hooo boy did I forget Exactly How Influential it was. The syntax, the tone, specific images ("apocalyptic crimson," neon and sixth sense, aimless wandering for a guiding Feeling about bad things, hello????)--Odd Thomas is 100% Driscoll's precursor, and I think they'd be friends!

Odd is a fantastic fry-cook who can also see dead people (they don't speak)(he doesn't know why)(he helps them when he can) and strange shadow creatures that portend horrible violence. He gets premonitions and weird feelings, and he uses those to try to stop a massacre that's been haunting his dreams for years. (The Goodreads blurb is better; I'm not sure how to distill this sanely, but I love it so much--it's weird, it's fucked up, it's funny, it's sweet, it's unhinged.)

Overall, this held up well! There was more fatphobia than I remembered (published in 2003 whomst??), but I do still really love Odd, and it hurt A Lot to know what was coming--couple instances of neat foreshadowing that I didn't pick up on my first read, and I was still delighted by many of the phrasings and humor. Still an all-time fave series for me, and I'm glad I revisited it!

[horrorknife]

“what if david in saw xi” You guys need to understand that david is not real or canon

[unproduciblesmackdown]

billions could only have a gay man, who was married, and died by the end of that season; only deal with taylor's upending of presumed cishettery by having everyone who's not terrible be automatically down without putting some crisis about it on them, as the better approach to trying to have people talk about it (true, certainly in this case); extent of its room for rian's latent nonbinariness being "never wearing skirts/dresses, always wearing makeup though"....all that is to say, even with neither of them allowed to be "truly" cishet, b/c that's the rewarded realm for superior people, billions could never do winstuk. but they could be kissing right now

[become-a-robot]

oh no. what if i misinterpret these deliberately vague and/or abstract song lyrics and everyone hates me and I get a bad grade in listening to music (remembers the TMBW Interpretations page) NVM I'm good

[sirpseudonymphoapish]

homestuck ramble about the beta kids and their weird queer identities

Jade Harley is trans and figured it out super early and yeah her grandpa is old fashioned but also doesnt care. like yeah ok I'll call you jade you can be a girl i guess why not. yeah you can buy a bra and grow your hair out. and she lives the best life bein a girl n shit and the rest of the beta kids always knew her as a girl cuz she figured it out so young so win win

um years years later idfk i havent finished homestuck yet john is talking to jade like wait you're a transgender ?!! o wow no judgement but i couldnt tell haha and jades like ok thanks john smiley face

n johns like isnt it normal to feel like a girl sometimws though how often do you have to feel like a girl to bw one and jades like what and johns like dont get me wrong im definitely a boy but sometimes i can imagine myself as a girl and it feels cute i guess? and sometimes i feel like somw other unknown thing and idk its probably stupid but how did you figure out you were a girl and not just a girl sometimws and jades like ok john i think u might be a girl and johns like what

long story short john becomes john/june goes by she/they mostly shes genderfluid and is still a boy to an extent but shes transfem and starts to present more neutrally/feminine and shes like woah thats awesome so cool i didnt know i couls do that

similar thing happens with dave and rose

rose realizes shes a lesbian very early on and she can just tell that dave is fucking queer but she doesnt say much about it cuz she figured shed let dave find out on his own. she jokes about it sometimes like haha dave are u drawing gay porn or something and dave jokes back like haha totally but it completely slips his mind

fucking years later daves like hey howd you figrue out ur a lesbian and rose tells him and daves like hm. its not the same for boys though right cuz like the way a guy is attracted to something is soo different and rose is like. the gay gene runs in our family dave and i think ur gay and daves like no. fucking way

dave goes thru a crisis realizes he was in love with john this whole time and is distraught about it because john likes girls and wouldn't like him back the same way and then finally after a lifetime of denial and slight internalized homophobia hes like okay maybe i do like dick and rose applauds him like about fucking time bro good for you

waves hello hi i havent finished homestuck this is just what runs thru my head at 80 miles per hour when thinking about it

[angry-geese]

New guy at work made the mistake of mentioning Jojo and I proceeded to spend the next thirty minutes explaining parts 1-6 to him