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seunmong-in · 1 year ago

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💋🌧️Kiss Me in the Rain🌧️💋

Pairing: Non! Idol Seungmin x reader Genre: Love at first sight (They did meet before but never gotten close), humor, cursing per usual, fluff, references to video games and anxiety Summary: Unable to go home due to the heavy rain outside, Seungmin is faced with being stuck at Changbin’s house until the rain clears out. But what happens when Changbin’s roommate, who Seungmin has only met once, is also home and steals Seungmin’s heart at first glance? Words: 2.9k A/N: So this may be a bit longer than I intended… but my insomnia got the best of me and my brain kept rambling with thoughts so here we are, my longest POV. I know I said this under my Felix POV but I have to say it again because I can not EXPRESS how much I am grateful and overwhelmed with joy about how many people liked my POV’s!! It truly means the world to me and it makes me strive to write more for everyone to enjoy! If you haven’t read Felix’s or Han’s story and want to, click on their name, it should send you to their stories. Later in the week I will be making a poll on which member I should write next about so stay on the lookout for that in the next couple days!! Anywho, getting on to our scheduled program now, I hope you guys enjoy Seungmin’s story!!

P.s. Who else is going to Lolla this year and is secretly wishing Straykids play Topline or Hall of fame so they can scream their lungs out? I know I am!!

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Oh, fuck me.

Those were words Seungmin thought when he opened the door to reveal the pouring rain outside. He regretted not listening to Jisung when he said it would rain heavily later in the afternoon as he left for Changbin's. Mentally cursing himself out, knowing he couldn't drive home as planned, Seungmin sighed as he closed the door and walked back to the living room, throwing himself on the couch. Seungmin would've gone upstairs to Bin's room to bother him, but his hyung had left a few minutes before the rain started to pick up Jeongin. Pulling out his phone, Seungmin texts Changbin, letting him know that he is staying until the rain dies down and for him to stay safe. He puts his phone away, leans over, and grabs the TV remote. There wasn't much on the TV, so Seungmin watched anime to pass the time.

"Binnie, where the fuck did you put my gaming headset- Oh shit, Hi, um�� Seungmin, right?"

Completely engrossed in the anime, Seungmin suddenly jumps when the soft-spoken voice speaks, pulling him out of his trance. He turns to see Y/n, Changbin's roommate, standing at the bottom of the stairs. Seungmin's heart skipped a beat as he took in her appearance. Y/n was wearing an oversized hoodie that belonged to Changbin and biker shorts. The hoodie engulfed her petite frame, making her look delicate. Her hair was still wet from a recent shower, and the sweet fragrance of vanilla filled the air as she approached him. Seungmin couldn't help but admire her beauty, noticing her glasses slightly fogged up from the shower's steam. He found himself getting lost in her sparkling eyes and felt his heart racing. Although he had met her at Changbin's housewarming party a few months back, Y/n looked different, and Seungmin couldn't resist but admire her beauty.

"Yeah, And you're Y/n, right."

Y/n positions herself comfortably on the couch beside Seungmin, crossing her legs as she nods in agreement with him. Seungmin pauses the series he is watching and turns to face her fuller, a hint of shyness creeping onto his face.

"By chance, where is my wonderful hyung? The bastard misplaced my gaming headset, and I need it to play Overwatch with a couple of my friends."

Ignoring the first part of her question, Seungmin's excitement beams through when Y/n mentions she plays his favorite game. He usually plays with Changbin and Jeongin, but it has been a while since they've played. He primarily plays alone or with Felix and Chan, though they are more severe players.

"Wait, you play Overwatch too?"

Seungmin's voice was filled with so much excitement that Y/n couldn't help but giggle. She got up from the cozy couch and approached the stairs. She looked back at Seungmin, still sitting on the sofa, staring back at her.

"If you want, I can show you my gaming pc setup. It's not much, but it's something," she offers as she continues to walk up the stairs.

With a slight hesitation, Seungmin followed Y/n up the stairs to her room, still feeling shy around her. But as he stepped inside, his eyes widened with amazement. The room was spacious and decorated with album covers and paintings, gifts that his other hyung, Hyunjin, had given her. The LED lights wrapped around the ceiling, casting a warm, inviting orange glow that made the room feel cozy and welcoming.

Looking around more into Y/n's room, his eyes were immediately drawn to her gaming setup. It looked like a gamer's paradise with a customized PC, fantastic LED lighting system, custom gaming keyboard, and sleek wireless mouse in pink and black. Y/n's setup was impressive, nonetheless. While one of her monitors had Overwatch already launched, the other screen had a Word document open, with the title reading "Kiss me in the Rain. "But before Seungmin could see more, Y/n quickly minimized the tab, leaving him curious and intrigued. He couldn't help but wonder what that document was about.

"You write as well?"

Y/n's heart skipped a beat as she looked down, realizing she had been caught red-handed. Hot flashes crept up her cheeks as she realized that no one, not even Changbin, had ever laid eyes on her writing. It wasn't that she was embarrassed about her work, but the fact that she had always thought of writing as her own private sanctuary, where she could feel vulnerable and have no judgment. Writing was also her second safe place, her go-to whenever she had a panic attack, with Changbin being her first. When distressed, Changbin would soothe her with warm hugs and cuddles until she felt better.

Y/n settles into her gaming chair, her fingers tapping nervously on the armrest. "To be honest," she says, "writing is my go-to when I'm anxious or want to feel vulnerable for a while. There's something about putting pen to paper that just helps me calm down." Seungmin couldn't help but be intrigued by her words. Though the pair rarely spoke when he did come over to visit, it felt nice to be able to interact with her on this level. Not wanting to bombard her with more questions, he simply asked more about the story she was writing.

"What's this story about?"

"It's about two friends trying to complete their bucket lists before the summer ends, and they have to go off to college. They devised a plan to complete each of their bucket list dreams one by one until the very last day of summer. On the last day, the FMC added one more thing to the bucket list she wanted completed before leaving: for the MMC, her newly developed crush, to kiss her in the rain while it was pouring out."

"Kinda sounds like how it is right now," both laugh as Seungmin looks out the window. The rain is still pouring hard outside, and there is no sign of stopping soon. Y/n's phone vibrates as she turns her chair to grab it off her desk. It was a message from Changbin.

"Well, Binnie isn't coming back tonight. He says the roads are bad, so he's staying at Jeongin's. Which sucks cause I still don't have my damn headset," Y/n pouts as she puts her phone back on the desk. Without saying a word, Seungmin gets up from the beanbag chair and exits the room, only to appear minutes later, handing Y/n the headset he took from Bin's room.

"I keep a spare one in Hyung's room whenever I stay over; here use it.”

"Oh, Minnie, you didn't have to."

Minnie... Feeling his face turn red with the new nickname Y/n gave him, he continued to hold out the headset in front of her.

"Seriously, take it. Besides, I wanna see you play. I have to see what my competition looks like."

Without backing down from Seungmin's challenge, Y/n confidently takes the headset, puts it on her head, and connects the aux to her PC. As the match starts, Seungmin is taken aback by her intense focus. He is fascinated by her gameplay, which is different from his own. Despite her unique approach to defense and combat, she continues to win match after match.

Seungmin sat back on the beanbag chair as Y/n continued her winning streak. However, he wasn't watching her play; his eyes fixed on her. He couldn't help but notice the small details of her behavior - the way she would scrunch her nose to keep her glasses from sliding down her face, the little victory dances she did when she won matches, and the lightning-quick movements of her hand when her hair fell over her eyes. He was amazed by her skill and grace, and he felt a sense of awe and admiration wash over him.

But as he watched her, Seungmin realized his feelings for Y/n were changing. A strange sensation began to stir in his stomach like a flock of butterflies had taken flight inside him. Feeling flustered and confused, Seungmin tapped Y/n on the arm and excused himself. He ran out of her room and hurried downstairs to make an urgent phone call to the only person he could think of who might help him figure out what to do next.

"Hey Min, what's up," Binnie answers, yawning mid-sentence.

"What do you do when you like someone?"

"What?"

"Changbin, I know you heard me. Answer my question," Seungmin demands.

"It's Y/n, isn't it? See, I knew it from the first day you met her. Your eyeballs practically almost fell from your face," Changbin teased. There was nothing but silence and embarrassment as the banter continued.

"Jesus, Bin can you shut the fuck up for a minute and help me, please," Seungmin practically begs his hyung. It was rare for Seungmin to say please, nonetheless, curse at anyone. This was serious for him.

"Okay, okay, sorry, I'll stop," Changbin laughs. "What exactly do you like about her?"

Seungmin paused, taking a moment as he tried to collect his thoughts. Y/n is kind-hearted and gentle, with a soft-spoken voice that makes him feel safe. Her writing was outstanding, and he hung on every word she said. However, it wasn't just her mind that he was drawn to. There was something undeniably alluring about her physical presence as well. The way her hair fell in soft waves around her face and her eyes lit up when she laughed - every little detail about her seemed to captivate him.

Seungmin's heart was heavy with emotion, and he knew he couldn't keep it to himself any longer. "Hyung," he began, his voice barely above a whisper, his eyes darting around to ensure Y/n was out of earshot. "I can't help but feel drawn to her. She's like a dream come true, the perfect match for me. Changbin, I didn't expect to fall for her so quickly, and I don't know how to handle these feelings. What should I do?"

"Tell her how you feel. Knowing Y/n, she would be flattered hearing this. Oh, just to give you a confidence boost—you didn't hear it from me—but when everyone left after the housewarming, she thought you were the cutest out of all the boys."

When Seungmin heard that, a bright smile that stretched from ear to ear was plastered on his face. It indeed gave him a boost to follow his heart. Before ending the call with Changbin, he asked for one more thing from Seungmin.

"Just don't hurt her, Min. You both mean a lot to me and if things don't go well with you guys, I refuse to take sides. Plus, I don't want to fight you for hurting my best friend; you are too soft and cute to hit."

"I won't, I promise."

Trying to contain his happiness, Seungmin quickly runs up the stairs. Ideas on how he could tell Y/n how he felt started going off like fireworks until he thought of the perfect one. He softly opens Y/n's door just as she stops playing OW. Instead, she had the same document open and was typing away. Feeling like she was being watched, she turned her chair around only to meet Seungmin's soft gaze. She softly smiles and asks, "Everything okay, you were gone for a while. I didn't make you nervous with my gaming skills, did I?"

Chuckling at her joke, Seungmin shakes his head as he approaches her.

"I was just telling Binnie I was staying the night since it's still raining out," Seungmin lied. Though the rain was starting to die out a bit, the roads weren't safe to drive in. Suddenly, Seungmin reaches out for Y/n's hand, pulling her out of her chair and her room. Confused with what was happening, Y/n couldn't help but question what was going through his mind as they both walked down the stairs, heading towards the house's back door.

"Minnie, what are you doing?" Y/n asked as he let go of her hand and opened the door to reveal the rain outside. Though it wasn't as hard as at the beginning of the afternoon, it was still pouring down at a decent rate.

"When you mentioned your story earlier and how the friends had things on their bucket list they wanted to complete, I realized that I had some of my own I have never completed. And well, playing in the rain is one of them. So I was wondering if you wanted to help me with that," Seungmin's cheeks turn bright red as he extends his hand towards her. Without a second thought, Y/n grabs his hand as the pair goes outside into the rain.

As the chilly raindrops cascaded from the overcast sky, Y/n and Seungmin stood opposite each other in the backyard. They gazed at each other with wide grins and intertwined their hands, feeling the warmth from their palms. They began to spin slowly in a circle, their movements cautious at first, and then they picked up speed, their feet sliding on the slick grass. As Y/n lost her footing, Seungmin swiftly grasped her by the waist and pulled her toward him to prevent her from falling. Although the darkness enveloped them, Y/n's cheeks flushed a bright red at the proximity of their bodies.

"Is this okay?" Seungmin asked, trying to read her face to see if she was uncomfortable. The last thing he wanted was to make her uneasy, ruining his chances of possibly being with her. Y/n smiled as she nodded. She wrapped her arms around his neck, softly swaying. The two continued to sway slowly, staring into each other's eyes without saying a word. The moment couldn't be perfect for Seungmin as Y/n, their eyes now connected.

"As much as I want to continue dancing in the rain, I want to tell you something. That phone call with Binnie-hyung wasn't about me staying the night, though I know he would be okay with either way. It was about you," Seungmin starts to explain. Y/n's face turns into shock, and she tries to figure out if she did anything wrong. Seungmin must've picked up on what she was thinking and started to chuckle.

"I want you to know that you haven't done anything wrong. In fact, you have done something that I didn't think was possible. It's difficult to express myself, but I want to take a chance. Y/n, I have strong feelings for you. I understand this may seem sudden, especially since this is our first time hanging out alone. However, there is something about you that draws me towards you. There is so much more to learn about you and I want to know everything about you- your likes, dislikes, fears, and dreams. I want to be there for you in every possible way imaginable. You don't have to say anything now; I don't expect you to feel the same way as I do. I simply wanted to tell you how I feel before I get inside of my own head."

Y/n took a moment to process everything that had been said and looked down for a moment. She started catching feelings for Seungmin too, whose shy and calming manner perfectly fit her sometimes crazy personality. Looking back into his eyes, she noticed that his now wet hair covered most of his vision, so she softly pushed it away, revealing her cheeky smile. She was going to ask him something that the FMC wanted done in her story.

"I also have a bucket list I didn't get to complete. Do you mind helping me," Y/n asked.

"Sure, what is it?"

"Kiss me in the rain."

Seungmin's heart races as he looks at the girl he confessed to. Without wasting another precious moment, he gently takes her hand, his fingers intertwining with hers. He can feel the warmth of her skin against his as he pulls her closer, his other hand cupping the back of her head as he leans in for a kiss.

The rain slowly begins to let up, creating a serene backdrop for their first kiss. Seungmin's lips are soft and tender against hers. As the last few drops of rain trickle down, Seungmin finally pulls away.

He doesn't want to let go of her just yet, so he takes her hand in his, holding it tightly as they both catch their breath. Their eyes meet, as he is the first one to speak.

"So, I assume you feel the same way then.”

"Yeah, I do. And by the way, you don't have to ask; I'm yours now, Minnie."

As soon as she responded, he couldn't help but smile, feeling a rush of warmth in his chest. He pulled her in without hesitation for another passionate kiss, their lips meeting perfectly harmoniously.

After their little moment, the couple realized they were soaked from the rain, so they decided to change into dry, clean clothes for the rest of the night. They spent most of their time playing Overwatch together, with short intermissions in between as Seungmin helped Y/n with her story.

When morning arrived, and the roads were clear, Changbin came home and peeked into Y/n's room. He saw Seungmin sleeping beside Y/n, with his arms wrapped around her. Her head was resting comfortably on his chest. Changbin smiled and took out his phone to send a picture to the boys' group chat. He knew Seungmin might be annoyed with him later, but for now, he was happy to see his friend with his dream girl.

#stray kids #straykids imagines #straykids smau #skz fluff #skz fanfic #skz imagines #skz scenarios #stray kids x reader #stray kids fake texts #seungmin #skz smau #skz seungmin #skz changbin #stray kids x you #straykids fluff #stray kids imagine #skz x y/n #skz stay

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steven-reblogs · 6 months ago

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"You have a huge point. I.. yeah. I should listen to Jake more. I understand it wasn't the best!! Just—my brain hurts a lot. But it's okay. You're here, right? We are fine."

[he's!! Trying to calm himself down!! He's taking mental notes of many things! As in sight, feel, smell, hear, and taste! [Basically, he's trying to ground himself.]

"I understand what he did was horrid. However, I also understand that you all care for me. Unfortunately, I suppose I'm not used to it. Hence my outburst. Which, again, I do apologize for. Also, please don't be sorry! You're trying to help. Which is greatly appreciated. However, I suppose I shouldn't have thrown so much on you. I don't wish to stress you out anymore. I understand you're my dad, which you may wish to help me; however, if you don't feel comfortable yourself, please do inform me. I wish to help you also. No longer focus on me. Please, is there's anyway I can help you? Let me know. Alright?”

[Hai moon! I offer up your son! His hair seems to be a mess. His eyes are puffy, and his cheeks are probably stained from crying so much! Also, this time? He's not in his usual suit attire. Sure, he still has slacks? But Sly seemingly has Joe's shirt on their shoulders! His voice is probably cracked. He is… A mess.]

"I just wanted to check in with you. Hha. If.. it’s a bad time I can come back later.-“

@ask-steven-stevenson

hi steven! you are currently in xis sisters house! xis sister isnt here at the moment, however, so its just you n moon. xe steps forward, attempting to reach out before hesitantly folding xis hands to xis chest. xe looks concerned.

hi! hello, kiddo! nonono, its never a bad time for you to visit! is something up?

#<- you're good i think. mayeb i got it....#<- im so sorry OEGEHDJD #I WILL 🔥🔥 stop yappin ab that.#again. apologies on my end. if I ever made you uncomfortable please do tell me.#but also!!!! m. modven are you okay?.???.?? <:(#<- i should be fine ^^#anywho back to our regularly scheduled program :3!#starflower duo #human arc

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chronophiile · 6 months ago

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i hate being told i dont know what im talking about when i talk about oppression and bigotry just because im radqueer- first of thats a fucking example in in of itself but either way, i didnt spend the last ten years being bullied, harassed, attacked and almost killed because of my identity IM LITERALLY INTERSEX TRANSGENDER I KNOW WHAT BEING TARGETED FOR BEING YOURSELF IS LIKE ??? like stfu with the ��you dont know what its like” like honestly get the fuck off my blog im not even gonna post the anon im so pissed rn

anywho back to your regularly scheduled programming of coins :3

edit; like did they even see my post about being intersex or what??

#the doll speaks { text posts }

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alexiroflife · 8 months ago

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guyssss thank you so much for the well wishes for school i actually love yall so bad

im also SO sorry about the little lag this week, i had to get adjusted to classes and my schedule and everything but the first week has been really really good so far i love being at school

ANYWHO back to daily scheduled programming, i got some ideas i'm fiending to write 😈

I HOPE EVERYONE IS DOING WELL AND HAPPY SEPTEMBER 1ST!!!! MUAHHHH

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loudn0isesart · 6 months ago

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Guys i swear I'm still crazy. Anyway new art today featuring my real life buff as hell 12 year old sister as my muse.

Guys she's actually so pretty I love my sister yall should too. Anywho first quarters almost done. Should be back to normally scheduled programming soon!!!

#my art #illustration #original art #study #digital painting #digital art

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k3y2myh34rt · 2 months ago

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[[ 'sup, gonna be on to do replies today, but I'm also making a post to advertise me new muse here in case my pals want to interact with a brooding hedgehog voiced by the brilliant Keanu...

Anyway, it's movie verse Shadow. Give the poor lil' guy some love, yeah? Anywho, back to our regular scheduled programing!]]

#;ooc yabber #[[ love him. he needs love...even if he might punch ur face in for it.]]

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char2cute · 1 year ago

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2/6/2024 , Tuesday

😌 : Life has been pretty good, I can’t really complain about anything. My financial situation could be better but I am slowly working towards that. I currently have a job and I’m waiting to finish the process of starting a second job. I will be working five days a week which will take some getting used to but I am believing in myself. My graduation program starts in May, I’m not quite ready for that but I’m enjoying my break. I’ve also started talking to this guy but the communication is terrible. I haven’t really said anything bc I don’t wanna ruin it you know? I’m gonna try to do things differently this time and ease into it. He’s very handsome and sweet but corny ( I like ) which is cute. Anywho enough rambling, I’ll be back sooner or later lol . I’m gonna try my best to do at least two post each month. I’ve been trying to make a daily schedule and also working out, reading, writing…etc . Three days in and I’m doing great let’s just hope I can keep it up with my short attention span. Peace ✌️

#Spotify

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oneguardian15 · 1 year ago

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i’ve learned something new about myself in finding these gifs. walton goggins in glasses could kill me and i would die happy. i mean look at him

sorry for the glasses detour, back to our regularly scheduled programming

another thing i’m learning… granted, i’ve never seen justified besides just briefly in passing when my dad used to watch it so don’t rip me apart bc idk anything about it BUT. i think i might wanna ship boyd and raylan??? jesus christ i don’t need this. but i love it. anywho, moving on…

anyone else obsessed with the way walton goggins always moves his head?

like i’m not even sure how to explain it but he do be moving it a certain way

#long post

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urmomsstuntdouble · 5 years ago

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guys i love my partner so much. shes so good. she smells nice and has a good sense of fashion and thinks her hair isnt red and she introduced me to an awesome new liminal space last year adn shes so kind to me and <3

#sorry yall definitely didnt need this but im love her #guys oh my god i love her so much #anywho back to your regularly scheduled programming #ry talks #ceros posting

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oh-my-damn · 2 years ago

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Sorry what? I’m a new follower and did not know ur best friend knew her?

Well, welcome to the forest, anon!

I just want you to know that I am indeed a writing blog and will remain one once this blows over. We'll be back to our regularly scheduled programming soon.

If you're new, I can give you a brief rundown:

The Stranger is based heavily on me and my life (Ames' aspect of it) and the idea came to me bc my best friend (the one who knew Alba) is an actor. We used to joke that he would help me meet Chris one day. That is how that book came to life.

Taylor in the book is based on said best friend, FYI.

Anywho, he's an actor, has done some stuff for netflix etc etc (he had dinner with Madonna not too long ago, my mom giggled when I told her LMAO. ANYWAY) he knew her back in 2017/18 if I recall, they spent NYE together and hung out a bunch when he was spending time in Portugal.

When I first showed him pictures of Chris' "rumored" girlfriend back in summer 2022, he screamed "HE'S DATING ALBA?!" and I was like 🤨 "you know her?" and he was like YES

and proceeded to show me a ton of pics and vids of them from the time they were hanging out (including a vid of them that included some... substances LOL)

So yes, he did use to be friends with her, but unsurprisingly, she dropped most of that friend group when she started getting more famous and they are no longer in contact.

Hope that clarifies things and welcome to my little forest !! ❤️🥰

#mandy answers #chris evans #the stranger #mandys besties

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darthmaulification · 3 years ago

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vox nihili | anidala

A/N: hee hee hoo hoo i love writing angsty character studies, and i LOVE to bully, harass, and otherwise torment anakin. 😌🤲💗 he is my horse plinko.

anywho, i just wanted to say that i’m very thankful and grateful for all y’all that follow me and take the time to read/reblog/comment on my stuff. i’ve got some really sweet comments here on tumblr and on AO3 recently, and although i haven’t directly responded to them (@ depression LOL), i do read them and giggle whilst kicking my feet. thank you very much, from the bottom of my heart. 💕💗💕💗

i hope to go back to my regularly scheduled program (maul smut) soon(?), but i’m only human and i’m just trying to stay afloat in my day to day, y’know?

that being said, please enjoy! kiitos!! 💕💕

summary: it’s worse when it’s quiet.

content: angst, past anidala, ghosts, referenced death and injury, guilt, regret, the all-consuming horror of being, anakin as vader never knows a day of peace, tangible flashbacks, hallucinations (?)

word count: 1,326

He hears it in the brief moments of peace.

After the TIE fighter’s thrusters shut down, when only the heat of them wavers the air. After hangar bays clear of Stormtroopers, the lines of white plastoid and obedience drawing to their respective quarters or to another distant battlefield to another distant death. After countless conversations with wiry, self-serving men, discussing their wiry, self-serving plans for what to do with the Rebels spotted on Dantooine.

He hears it in the fleeting quiet of walking down long, sterile corridors, where no one speaks unless spoken to. He hears it during the doors opening to a room of gray uniforms, when voices hush to silence. Then in the gaps between inhales— however desperate— and in the terrified eyes of a weak man and in the shaky, trembling, collective exhale of acceptance when yet another commanding officer lies upon the durasteel floor, dead.

They call him Lord, those wiry, self-serving men who love nothing more than a hierarchy to submit to, all the while convincing themselves that they somehow hold some inherent superiority. It’s laughable, their propensity to look down upon others and sneer, but deep down they know their place and will never have the courage to challenge the powers that be.

They listen, they obey— And he does too, after all the noise. It’s after background clamor that Vader couldn’t be any less invested in, when things wind down...

... It’s at its worst in the isolation of his meditation chamber. After the walls collapse in and lock him behind black durasteel, when every sense he has— except his mind and thoughts— is completely muted. The air is sucked out and leaves a vacuum, a void, and it’s at its worst because Vader has too much time— and silence— to think.

It begins mere seconds after he’s sat down, when his helmet is off and his meditation has begun.

There are no shadows in the bright whiteness of the lit chamber, yet somehow she finds a way to watch from them.

Aren’t you ashamed of what you’ve become?

He hears her voice. The same as it was a lifetime ago— silvery, determined, with far too much willpower in the words. It exists in a new plane now, akin to a fuzzy memory he can’t quite place the location in the timeline of, or like believing his name to be called when no one has said a word. Her voice, something nearly imperceptible, but there enough.

“I have no shame.” Vader replies to Her, and he formalizes the pronoun because Her means less than—

Yet you feel it. You cannot even speak my name.

She talks again, and this time Vader feels the words in the flesh and bone that remain of his body. He clings to the cold leather of his suit, to the unfeeling metal and wire, the lifeless code and data that control his movements. Vader latches on to what isn’t him, and it’s not that he’s afraid of facing Her, it’s only because she speaks and disrupts him. Annoyances. Petty squabbling. He’s never been fond of distraction, and she clings like a leech.

“You remind me of the fools that surround me. It’s a disgrace to your former status.” Vader’s baritone rings out and cuts the air like a sword to the wind. His fists clench over his knees, the leather of his gloves groaning. He can feel Her watching, Her gaze boring into the center of his spine like a pick.

Of what? The Queen of Naboo? Senator of the Republic? Your wife? The mother to your—

“Silence.” Vader commands, and the Force around him, that swirls in his meditation chamber, cowers in fear. It retreats from the iciness of Darth Vader’s demand, slinking into the crooks and corners to avoid his wrath. But Vader does not allow it to leave, he grabs the reigns and pulls it back, unforgiving. The Force screams, and Vader chokes it into submission.

She gets caught in the crossfire, gaping and gasping, clawing at his invisible fist like she had so many years ago. Her presence shakes, the grip tightens.

“Yield to me.” He hisses, and his bare eyes begin to burn both without the protection from his helmet and the fury that strikes within them. Then, without warning, it's as if the lights dial up to their highest setting, and the flash causes Vader to falter. She falls from his hold and becomes the air.

No. I will speak, and you will hear me.

Her voice bellows, suddenly as loud as thunder or standing beside an angry, rushing waterfall. Gone is Her breathy femininity, Her tenderness— she commands and demands, she turns raucous and to stone.

“You have nothing that entices me.” Vader replies simply, and maybe he lets vindictiveness get the better of him because he adds, “You are nothing to me.”

I don’t think you believe that.

“You know nothing of what I believe.” And she never truly did, not even when they had their last meeting on the fiery domain of Mustafar, when he gave Her all his reasons— not even when Her eyes went wide-eyed and petrified from lack of oxygen, not even when he discarded her to the dirt.

Then why do you entertain a ghost?

Vader can’t get that image out of his head: A brown-haired, stony-eyed woman in white lies sprawl on the ground, a vivid picture against the black sand. He can’t help but remember each time he kissed her, each time she smiled against his cheek, the scent of her skin, the maternal swell beneath her shirt—

“You are no ghost. You are only a figment of the mind, a distant, insignificant memory that refuses to be forgotten.” Vader rises to his feet, mechanisms whirring and bolts latching and locking in place. He convinces himself that he is not fleeing, that when he grabs his helmet and places it back onto his head, that he is not trying to smother Her voice— to silence the noise.

You can’t. I am relentless. I am all your consequences of all your sin. You will never be free of me— I am the tie that binds.

“I will forget you. Everything falls— even the mighty, even the memory.” Vader wheezes and presses a series of buttons on his abdomen, and the chamber’s walls begin to unlatch. Air hisses from their opening hatches, the rush of noise is deafening, like tectonic plates throwing themselves into volcanic eruptions.

The walls around him have lifted, broken into two halves that appear like a pair of hands, fingers like lotus flower petals. Sharp metal edges, smooth durasteel, phalanges that claw and keep within their clenched grasp the beast on their palms. Vader does not move to leave, he only stands and keeps standing, and the firm floor beneath his boots begins to feel like hot stone and shifting sand.

I am always here.

Vader can hear the low thrum of an idling ship, then voices yelling in crescendo, then the metallic hiss of a lightsaber unsheathing. He can see its glow from his peripherals— azure, cobalt— and the eyes of the man that wields it: Sky blue.

Then he sees Her again, tossed to the ground in a barely conscious heap of a grief that will take Her and the unborn to the grave.

I will always be here.

All around him, the heat swelters. The sky is overcast in black plumes of smoke, and yet the sun beats down around him. Rocky cliffs crumble and lose their stone, sending boulders of black sediment into the slow-moving pits of liquid magma and tar. Sweat drips from his bangs, he can barely see past the tears and the raw, pulsing anger.

Forever.

Anakin feels fire lick at his skin, and Padmé watches the hollow man crumble.

Part of you will always lie upon black glass sand beside a lake of fire while flames chew upon your flesh.

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obliviatestudies · 4 years ago

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3rd YEAR of UNI

hey everyone! if you’re just stumbling upon this post and are new here, i’m going into my 3rd year of undergrad in bio for health sci a.k.a pre-med sorta deal! i did this post last year and u guys loved it, i also think its a great ways for us #studyblrs to share more . this is just an update into what courses i’ll be taking this year, life updates, tips i learnt from last year + more!

PICKING COURSES

my courses:

I'm a health sci bio major with a double minor in chem + business! so here is what my full-time year of studies looks like (5 courses per semester)

physiology of neurons & muscles

human development

structural biochem

metabolism & bioenergetics

neurosci

statistics

lab in cell & molecular bio

molecular bio

fundamentals of marketing

managing projects & business plans

for freshman, your courses are pretty set and you likely won't have much choice around what you actually want to take, so unless you're an upper-year, you likely won't see more interesting course titles like what i have above. not much for an update in this section, i planned most of my courses last year, but the most frustrating thing that happened was 9/10 courses i wanted to take were in my fall semester originally, so i have to do A LOT of rearranging, anywho.....

scheduling:

i'll link last years post here as i went into pretty deep detail of how i schedule my courses and how you can too!

other tips + updates:

it’s always okay to change your programs!! (ie. major, minor, specialist) don’t let the standard of “a 4-year degree” fool you into thinking you can’t take longer. its always a good idea to look ahead and try to plan, but this age of our lives is when we're changing the most and really finding who we are and what we want to do with the rest of our lives. it's definitely not something to rush.

if you have to do summer courses, or retake courses, or take an extra semester, don't beat yourself up. it happens to 99% of people!

take me for example!! i went into school thinking 100% i wanted to go down the med path, now here i am starting my 3rd year and I'm not so sure. I'm more so looking at doing my masters in physical therapy. you change, life changes, and you find what works BEST for you and the path you want for your life.

ALSO your path doesn't have to be linear, or the typical; if you want to go to med/law/other post grad school, but your grades or extra curricular didn't necessarily cut it, that's okay! maybe you'll work somewhere for a year or two and go back to school and get in. basically what I'm trying to say is if there is a career path that you love, don't give up, and don't think you have to get there the same way as someone else did.

currently, my fall courses are all completely online (minus 1 in-person tutorial) i hope most of you will be in-person, unlike me. but i'll continue to post both online and in-person study tips as the year progresses.!

LIFE BESIDES SCHOOL

this summer i was lucky enough to work as an online PT, and this will probably continue part time into the school year. besides my other social accounts kinda blowing up, working on Syrse Dawn, I've been crazy busy with everything. I'm a little worried about balancing everything come the school szn, but as usual, i always prioritize my school work

we love academic validation haha....no but seriously, i love learning and school, and doing well has always been important to me, so while my work is important, mental health and school come first.

right now some passion projects and summer bucket list things I've been working on are finishing a current novel I'm writing (haven't finished writing one since 2015), reading 1 more book, filling a sketchbook, going for a sunrise swim and honestly just spending as much time with my friends as fam as possible!

• • • • • •

like last year, i’d love to create a chain of studyblrs doing an update like this, sharing their courses for the year, how they organize them, updates + more! so if you get tagged, add to this chain + tag 5 more studyblr accounts!!

i’m tagging: @studyblr @felix-studies @studyingatsunrise @luminous-studiess @starrystvdy @studylustre

if you have any questions for me, my ask box is always open! i answer all the questions in my ask, so don’t be afraid to hit me up there

hope this helps you a little bit and you get to learn a bit about me xx

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spiritshaydra · 4 years ago

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Looks like I haven’t posted art here in months and this is my fourth time trying to add a description to this because it keeps getting purged whenever I switch tabs >:(

Anywho, here’s some Pokémon gijinkas I finished earlier in the week ^^

Additional info stolen from my amino post down below c:

Howdy!

This took me WAY longer than I thought it would. I started this group back in December, and only now just completed it ^^

I’ll be showing them off in the order I finished them along with some info on each character c:

✨Here they are!✨

🏙 Reshiram 🏙

She’s not as complex as the rest of the batch because she started off as just a headshot test and practice for drawing humans ^^’ then everything else kinda just got more complex. Her design is more of a work in progress than the rest.

She’s a living lie detector :)

🎆 Palkia 🎆

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She took a LONG time to draw and is probably the most complex. Sorta. She’s also probably one of the first gijinkas I’ve designed so her design is pretty solid for now. She’s based off of Roman gladiators and Valkyries. Palkia is also a total jock with a short fuse that constantly gets in fights with her brother, Dialga. She’s kinda a loud idiot but that’s okay. She’s also very rash and tends to act before thinking. Will kick down doors and attempt to put brother in a headlock. Probably chugs sport drinks and punches drywall. Will challenge poor unfortunate souls into doing arm wrestling matches. Has very strong opinions on science fiction. (Stuff with space is superior!) Curses like a sailor and likes to get creative with insults. Cannot organize things at all. Room probably looks like a bomb went off. Has the worst handwriting in her family. Middle child and the shortest out of her siblings. Is uncomfortable around Giratina but feels bad about it.

🌄 Giratina 🌄

Giratina’s another one that I’ve had designed for a while and am pretty happy about it! I tried to give her a more inhuman and unsettling appearance (gaunt features, pale skin, sunken eyes, long limbs, digitigrade legs, four arms, etc) She’s pale from the lack of sunlight and her hair is borderline uncontrollable. It’s in a constant state of poofy rat’s nest.

Believe it or not, she’s probably the friendliest out of her family despite her off putting demeanor. She completely lacks social skills and is still trying to learn how to speak normally after being locked away for eons. She’s best friends with a Shaymin and has gardening as a hobby. She just really wants friends :( She likes stupid paranormal shows and animated movies. Not violent at all unless provoked. Absolutely fascinated by car windows and toasters. She’s the second tallest and the “baby” out of her family. She wishes to have better relations with her siblings and parent but struggles :(

🌺 Shaymin 🌺

Shaymin. Oh boy Shaymin. So with her I was wanting to do something completely different from the usual Lolita and cutesy based gijinkas. So I made her a punk :) Shay acts like she eats nails for breakfast and isn’t afraid to fight god. She’s short but by god, she’s going to go for the kneecaps. She has a nasty temper and is very protective of her strange noodly demon bestie. Taught her how to garden. She’s loud, argumentative, and ‘Tina’s siblings are probably more scared of her than the Terror of The Distortion World. Does not do well in cold weather. She rides a motorbike, and is the one who generally drags ‘Tina around to get her used to the normal world. Big fan of slasher films and loud aggressive music. Loves nature and is generally enthusiastic about funky plants.

Very short. Very aggressive. Wears stud covered platform boots.

🪐 Arceus 🪐

Oh boy. Arceus.

He was VERY hard to design but I think I’m happy with the results. For now. I wanted him to look somewhat regal and nasty, and not exactly human.

He’s a major asshole, prick, and elitist, and is petty to the highest degree. Got offended whenever someone suggests that he should go to an anger management class. Probably a Karen. He’s the type to wear a fluffy bathrobe while drinking box wine on a lawn chair on the porch to look scornfully at the neighbors whenever they get too close. Not a great parent. (Loves his gaggle of goblins in his own strange way) Kinda hates everyone. Rude. VERY VERY short temper. VERY stubborn. He’s short and is going to make it everyone else’s problem. (Refuses to just... change his height himself. ‘Cause he’s some primordial creation entity. He just... doesn’t) He woke up one morning and just chose violence. takes great pride in his creations. Awful taste in music. No sense of style. Cant dance. He’s offputting and unsettling to be around because he has a very “off” feeling about him. Really really likes to get the upper hand on others. There are a f e w times when he actually acts like a decent person. Likes to put an air of regality onto him even though he’s a total train wreck. Wears three to four inch heels.

🌌 Dialga 🌌

DIALGA. I also wanted to do something different with him! So I made him a nerd. He likes to take things apart and put them back together. Especially clocks. He’s more level headed than his sisters and has a longer fuse than Palkia. But he’s also very stubborn. He’s a total workaholic and perfectionist. He doesn’t sleep much and can be a nervous wreck whenever he’s behind on whatever schedule he runs on. He gets into fights with his younger sister a LOT and will often try to use her as a lab rat. They’re sorta like Yzma and Kronk. But he’s less diabolical and Palkia’s more aggressive. Like Palkia, He also has very strong opinions on science fiction (Stuff with time travel is WAY better!) he’s also very organized if not organized chaos. He wears a heavy pair of boots that one could hear from a mile away. Think large goth boots with metal in the soles somewhere. Also a metal head. He will blast loud metal or rock music (sometimes more classic rock. Depends on the mood) as he works on whatever insane project he decided to tinker on. He has a large collection of very cursed socks. Somewhat poor eyesight. Generally easier to get along with than Palkia who’s more abrasive. He tends to think more before acting upon things. Probably runs on entirely coffee and energy drinks. B A D taste in fashion. But not worse than Palkia. Likes to read. Not very good handwriting. Tends to bump his head on doorframes. Will walk into things if lost in thought. The tallest out of his family and the oldest out of his sisters. He’s somewhat afraid of ‘Tina.

Approximate Time Taken: About 27 hours

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