#apologies tht it took so long!

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Chapters: 5/? Fandom: Deltarune (Video Game) Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Kris & Susie (Deltarune), Noelle Holiday & Susie Characters: Kris (Deltarune), Susie (Deltarune), Susie's Father (Deltarune), Noelle Holiday, Berdly (Deltarune) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Neglect, Nonbinary Kris (Deltarune), Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Audio Content, Fan Soundtracks, Self-Harm, Original Character(s), Graphic Description, Slice of Life Series: Part 1 of Who is Kris? Summary:

In this story, someone doesn't stick with the script.

The closet to the Dark World is now simply a closet. Suddenly, Susie finds herself stuck in the Light World, with Kris being the only one in-the-know about it all. Suddenly, a friendship that felt solid now seemed uncertain. However, when the alternative is loneliness, some things cannot be hidden.

As the two stick together, she begins to wonder just how much she knows of the human, and as the days go by, someone lurks, waiting in the dark for his time.

Join me, if you please, and we can watch this unfold together.

[smilestimz]

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[eldritch-nightmare]

hi hi !! i was wondering if you could make any creepypastas of your choice (but if you can please include toby) with a final girl reader? you know that cliche of slasher movies, thank you <3

a/n: fun fact abt me my favorite final girls r carly from house of wax and princess from laid to rest. and arkin from the collector. he is everything to me. honestly wasn't all too sure who i wanted to put in this so i just sorta chose at random?? idk maybe in the future i can use this premise for some of the others if u guys want that. this is really short nd kinda bad tho and i apologize for that. i'm trying to ease myself back into writing so tht might b why tbh

warnings: not proofread. pre-relationship?? the romance isn't really there for the most part but the obsession is, attempted murder, gn reader, reader has a younger brother in lj's part, laughing jack is probably actually his own warning i think he's kinda. kinda fucked up in this. many mentions of attempted harm to a child.

includes: ticci toby, jeff the killer, and laughing jack.

TICCI TOBY

He had been tasked to kill you. He doesn't know the reason, nor does he really care. Maybe you knew too much, or maybe Slender had other reasons. Whatever they were, you had to die.

And Toby rarely ever messed up an assignment. He never had any issues killing anyone. Sure, they typically fought back, but he'd always get them in the end. He didn't think you'd be any different.

He was rather... surprised, to put it simply, when you proved to be a challenge.

You didn't want to die, so you fought back. Hard. Honestly, it was impressive how determined you were to live. He's never really met someone like you before.

This is one of those very rare times where he's a bit glad he can't feel pain, because if he could feel the pain he gained from you fighting back, he probably would've blacked out from it.

The only reason you get away the first time is because you had stabbed him one too many times and he didn't really want to bleed out and die, thank you very much.

He still had a job to finish though, so you fighting back meant nothing to him. He was told to kill you, and that's what he planned on doing.

It didn't matter how long it took. Though, as time went on, Toby couldn't help but find himself wondering what he would do with himself when he actually killed you.

He's never found any joy in hunting someone down, but he finds himself strangely excited when it comes to you. It's the first time he's ever felt this way for someone he was meant to murder.

He doesn't really want to let that excitement go just yet, and maybe he's delusional but it almost seemed as if you were having fun with these little life-or-death chases you two had.

Maybe he lets you get away a few times. You would've been dead a long time ago if he hadn't found you interesting.

And who knows... maybe he can convince Slender that you're a worthy candidate to be a proxy... that way, he won't have to kill you.

JEFF THE KILLER

Absolutely thrilled at the idea.

Jeff is a big fan of horror movies, and he's always dreamed of having some final girl type of person that he could never kill.

Key word. He dreamed of it. He's not a big fan of it when it actually finally happens, not at first.

You were annoying, always somehow dodging his knife and managing to fight back against him long enough to make your escape.

Now, normally, Jeff would've just dropped you and gone on with his killing spree. He didn't have to kill you, and it's not like he's scared of you going to the police. He's already on the FBI's most wanted, trust me, he couldn't care less.

But there was a thrill that went through him whenever he got close to killing you. Each time he's able to cut you, he feels his heart pound in his chest.

It reminds him of when he first started killing, and that feeling was becoming addictive.

He didn't even realize how obsessed he had become with killing you until he actually got the chance to kill you. He had you cornered, and there was nowhere for you to go.

He could've ended it right then and there, but he hesitated. Jeff the fucking killer hesitated to actually kill someone. What the fuck? That made no sense.

The hesitation was enough that it gave you a chance to get away, leaving Jeff alone to ponder why he had hesitated.

And during that time, he left you alone.

But trust me, once he finally figures out why he hesitated, he'll be back. You can't escape him.

LAUGHING JACK

Hates it and hates you. Your little brother was supposed to be an easy kill. He had been so desperate for a friend, neglected by his parents, that he was eager to let Jack into his life.

But then you had to come home for the holidays, and suddenly it was hard to get the brat alone without you being around. The only time he could torment your brother was when everyone else in the house was asleep.

When your little brother went to you crying about how his friend Jack was being mean, telling him horrible things, you weren't supposed to fucking believe the kid. You were supposed to be like the others, brushing off the kid's concerns and sending him back to bed.

But you didn't. You believed your brother, and now you can fucking see him, and he hated it. Oh, he wanted to kill your little brother so badly, but he wanted to kill you more for ruining all the fun.

All of the torment on your little brother stops, and instead he starts tormenting you instead. His ultimate goal was to get you to kill your little brother. It would be a satisfying thing for him to see. And maybe even poetic. You're trying so hard to protect him, and you end up being the one to kill him... that would be nice.

But you don't make it easy for him.

Seeing your fear was entertaining, especially when he was able to strike at your insecurities. At some point, he found that he didn't mind how long this little plan of his would take. He just wanted to see what made you cry. What scared you? What had you reeling away in disgust? What made you laugh?

Okay, that last one confuses him and he does not at all want to know what makes you laugh. No. No he does not.

Sometimes, he doesn't even torment you. He just silently watches you, which you find to be arguably worse than him actually trying to cause you harm.

It felt like he was studying you whenever he did that, and you hated it.

And Jack finds himself struggling to hate you the longer this takes. You've become interesting. He finds himself looking forward to seeing you, and he finds himself admiring you whenever you end up smiling when he's around.

Though, that's not something he's quite ready to admit yet.

[t4tpumpkinduo]

ok here's what my beautiful mind says about the dsmp timeline:

lmanberg - 1.5 years (long enough for independence and establishment, long enough for cjack and cniki to join not long after, but not too long tht cdrm control freak isms don't kick in.)

manburg - 1.2ish years (long enough for the war and tensions and bonds and marriages, downfall included in this. thematic that it doesn't last as long as l'manberg)

^ notice three-ish years pass from here. i'm gnna use ctommy as my guiding point uhh. he starts 14 and three years have passed so

new lmanberg - less than a year. ctommy turns 17 in exile canonically and exile itself canonically took place over a couple months so there's that. doomsday takes place not long after, it only makes sense.  el rapids factored into here

downtime less than a year? everyone getting shit sorted, left adrift, lnv is being built after el rapids destruction.

las nevadas: a year onward at the v least, he tortures dream for canon a couple months then ctechno is left in there a few more. i do think the story peeters a lot around these arcs bcs of the lack of cc organization and communication so theres a lot to trim up. using q as a starting point he's like canon 18-19 at the start of his whole dsmp arc cuz he just got outta juvie. if it's been a year and a half for lmb then that means ctommy is 15 so cq is 4 years older than him which tracks, he's their peer and they know eachother prior. if ctommy is 19-20 in lnv tht makes cq 23-24 which again tracks.

cwilb and cschlatt are frm smplive so they're in their early 20s specifically, and their arcs match that. cjack is ctommy's peer and cniki is cjacks peer so they can't be that much older than him, making their ages keep tracking.

cfundy says he's 22 in the revival apology stream, which if you take away 5 years would make him 17 during lmb which i also think is good? young enough to have the arc he does, but old enough to have the arc that he does. i also think my he got time portaled to vault hunters theory is rlly good and cohesive (yk, cwilbur being a young single father, losing his baby and going kinda nuts about it, the baby comes back to you way older and now neither of you know how to navigate it. cfundy canonically is a crazy redstoner and coder WHERE did he learn that from if he was just around cwil cphil his whole childhood. how does he know iskall enough to INVITE him to the dsmp if he can't venture off anywhere. accept time portal displacement into your hearts.)

sm of the other character ages ofc can be departed frm the ccs thematically speaking (csam being older than ccsam on account of being a father, same w ccphil and cphil father + angel of death isms.) but yeah this is my little breakdown 👍 she textual on my evidence don't play w me

[sunfish999]

my relationship w my prnouns is so weird. like. having pronouns that are different from my gender at birth is an inconvenience. Im an inconvenience. i dont hate myself or even feel bad about this; its just not something i can do anything about. i rlly dont care, i just see it as a fact. so, because i dislike inconveniences, i just let people use she/her for me. i used to inform people of my pronouns, but now its gotten to the point where i dont do that anymore. its an inconvenience even for me to have to have that conversation every time i meet someone new, to have them mess up and apologize a million times per conversation, to have them talk about it to other people probably and just have them be confused every time they think about me. it sucks, cuz my old friends kinda noticed that i slacked off on correcting them so they switched back to she/her as well (or just stopped correcting themselves when they make mistakes). And like. I dont feel bad or in pain or suicidal or whatever like i used to when people used wrong pronouns, i just dont really care except for the fact that of course i notice it every single time. it just feels wrong. it just IS wrong. im just like listening to a friend and im like oh thats wrong and i think about it for a bit and then move on. its just a fact of life i guess. the only thing tht sucks is like. do i really trust and love people that use my incorrect pronouns? probably not. one of my closest friends right now has used she/her for me since the beginning and we have never had a conversation about my pronouns. I cant tell if thats sad or not. i guess i dont consider being nonbinary to be a core part of my being tht people need to know about to understand me as a person, cuz like, it changes nothing about me aside from the fact that i just am nonbinary or agender (havent delved too deep into it, i know im not a gal or a guy, could be a combination, could be neither, not sure) but like. It is something about me that i have to think about 24/7 that no one else around me needs to. like. idk this is basically just a rant about how i feel. I dont think anything really needs to change i guess, i definitely dont think i need to change, plus my boyfriend and his family all use my correct pronouns, and my immediate family does too. the rest of my relatives stopped/forgot about my correct pronouns and went back to she/her. kinda makes me sad that they so easily forgot something that took me years of courage to tell them, but i guess we all live our own lives and really only care about ourselves. sigh. that was a long post.

tldr: its pride month. this is just a rant about being nonbinary in todays society

[kanmom51]

Hey Kan ...i love ur blogs...💜💜

I asked more bloggers abt this bt none one thm seems to reply or acknowledge this moment I think....i want to talk to u about a small moment...which may b nt big fr most of the people but fr me...IT IS....

It's really a cute nd beautiful moment....

M talking abt when BTS covered d song "FIX you" ....in tht video at d very end of d song... jungkook turns to looked at jimin nd even waited fr him to look back at him in his eyes ...it's jst may b a 5 sec moment but fr me it's precious nd telling....bcz this song is sooo loving nd emotional....nd it makes me think tht d first thing tht comes to jk's mind at d end of song to looked at jimin nd waited fr him to look back...even if there r 5 more people sitting beside jk's left side in d line...he can look at any one of them if his stare dsnt mean anything abt love or commitment... after such an emotional song...but he still chose to look at jimin....ONLY jimin... bcz there there is no one sitting beside jm....it's a very small moment...nd may b it's nt that important....bt fr me it is....

Pls share ur opinion abt this little moment bcz it's beautiful fr me....

Thanku nd sry fr my bad English....it's nt my first language....💜💜💜💜💜

Hey anon. Wow, what a long time it took me to get to your ask, and my apology for that.

Fix you. What a beautiful cover BTS did to this amazing song.

Yeah anon, this moment, right?

JK turns to JM, waits for him to look at him, nods and turns back.

JK is looking for JM's attention, his approval that it went well perhaps? I feel that this was an important one for them, and JK was clearly nervous prior to the performance, and even during the performance (note how at some point he almost, just almost, mixes up the timing).

We also had this in the behind:

JM is looking to calm JK down, then perhaps remembers the cameras and backs off?

So, maybe it's the emotional aspect of the song itself or the enormity of performing a Coldplay song and maybe the two mixed together. But it did seem JK was nervous, and that cute soft moment at the end of the performance, turning to JM didn't go unnoticed by me either anon.

It's something they both tend to do, turn to each other before, during and after performances and also when either of them is speaking. They look to each other for approval, they look to each other just to say "go on" or "good job" or "enjoyed that".

Also, JM is JK's person. I've said this many a times. JM is his anchor, his safe place, the person he turns to when he's feeling a little insecure or nervous or happy or proud. And that's exactly what he did here too, JK, turn to JM, make eye contact, head nod and all is well.

[xxdragonwriterxx]

hi hi i was wondering if you could do a Levi x reader x Erwin poly relationship fic where maybe Levi and Erwin are already in an established relationship or sth and both of them liking reader and ig figuring out tht the other person also likes her. Squad leader!reader pls! and could we also see her side of things and hw she knew they were already together so felt awkward or like her feelings were wrong? especially since they were her friends and commanding officers? maybe going to Hange for advice?? fluffy ending pls!

totally understand if you don't feel like writing it but ty anyway :))) - 🦋

A/N: Hey new butterfly anon!!! I’ve got to say, THIS WAS THE CUTEST REQUEST, AHHHHH!!!! I’m really sorry it took so damn long, I rewrote it a few times bc I didn’t like where I originally went with it and then I got really busy with work and I’m currently at a horse show which has been kinda hectic. Unfortunately, life just got in the way, but I finally got it done! I hope this is what you were looking for! HUGE HUGE HUGE THANKS TO THE WONDERFUL @anlian-aishang FOR HELPING ME EDIT THIS LONG ASS FIC!!! YOU ARE THE ABSOLUTE BEST MY LOVE!!! 🥺🥺❤️❤️❤️ Also, I forgot to say this when I meant to, but HAPPY PRIDE MONTH GUYS, GALS, & NON-BINARY PALS!!! 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈 I thought this fic was the perfect one to post this month so I hope you enjoy!!!

🐉Song Recommendation: “Love Like Ghosts” By: Lord Huron 🐉

Word Count: ~7.4k

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🔥Two Sides of the Same Coin 🔥

There weren’t very many people who could read Levi, the mask he often kept firmly placed over his features making it nearly impossible to garner anything about how he was feeling from his expressions, but Erwin knew something was up the moment (Y/N) entered the room, her hair slightly frazzled and her cheeks reddened. She was panting with exertion as she waved an apologetic hand at the officers in the room and made her way to her seat.

“Sorry I’m late everyone! Got caught up with paperwork and lost track of time!”

He could see it in the way that Levi tensed when she sat beside him, his fingers twitching slightly on the table - his version of fidgeting. He could tell in the way he eyed her from the corner of his gaze, his body language screaming with how flustered the admittedly beautiful squad leader made him.

“It’s quite alright, (Y/N), we were just getting started,” Erwin said, giving her a warm smile that she returned in kind, trying to shove down the strange feelings twisting in his stomach at the sight of her teeth.

When (Y/N) finally settled into her seat, Erwin turned back to the map he had been gesturing to before she arrived, picking up where he left off and explaining the route he had designed for the upcoming expedition. As he laid out his plans for the meeting of officers, Erwin kept one eye on Levi, watching him carefully and taking mental notes of his behavior. He raised an eyebrow when he noticed the slight flushing of Levi’s cheeks when (Y/N) accidentally brushed her knee against his and turned to apologize to him before going back to her notes. The strange writhing feeling in his stomach came crashing back into his system, making him feel a little dizzy.

“Hey Shorty, are you feeling alright? Your face is red,” Hanji said, cutting through Erwin’s lecture and drawing attention to the now scowling raven-haired man.

“I’m fine, Shitty Glasses, I’m just feeling a little lightheaded is all. Please, proceed.”

“Are you sure, Levi?” Erwin asked. “I can catch you up on this stuff later if you need to go rest for a bit.”

Levi looked up to meet his Commander’s gaze, a look of pain, restraint, and what looked like... guilt, twisted on his features.

Levi swallowed, “I’m fine.”

“I can take notes for you if you’d like, Levi!” (Y/N) said brightly, her eyes swimming with concern for him. “You do look a little flushed, you shouldn’t strain yourself if you don’t feel well.”

“I said I’m fine, damn it!” Levi snapped, making (Y/N) immediately lower her head and turn back to her notes with a squeaked out apology.

Erwin could tell Levi regretted snapping at her the moment he had done it, but the stoic captain remained silent as everyone else returned to taking their own notes. The commander tilted his head while he watched Levi, noticing how his silver eyes seemed to grow dull, gaining a distant, far-away look as Levi delved back into his thoughts, as if fighting some intense inner battle with himself.

That look on his face made Erwin’s insides twist with discomfort. He hated seeing Levi distressed, but he knew he couldn’t address it here. He had an idea of what was going on, and he figured they needed to talk. Wrapping up the meeting with some final pointers about what to expect on the next mission, Erwin dismissed everyone before quietly slipping through the small crowd to stand beside his captain.

“Come to my office when you are ready, Levi.”

Levi gave him a look before nodding once, turning back to the desk to finish packing away his things. Erwin headed out the door, taking a deep breath as he tried to prepare what he was going to say in this conversation with his captain.

The minute Levi stepped into Erwin’s office, he found lips smashed against his, ripping a quiet groan from his throat and allowing all of the nervousness in his system to melt. His hands immediately found themselves grasping his lover’s soft blonde locks as he pushed himself up against his commander, murmuring softly at the feeling of their chests sliding together, their heavy heartbeats hammering against each other. Erwin let out a satisfied growl and pulled Levi closer, nipping at his lower lip and immediately pushing his tongue past Levi’s opened lips to slowly taste the other man. The kiss was passionate but calm, firm but gentle, not wanting to arouse too much while they were still on duty without seeming too lackluster. When the men finally pulled apart, they were both panting, their foreheads leaning against each other as they fought to catch their breath.

“What was that about?” Levi asked in between gasps.

“Just missed you was all,” Erwin said, a warm grin stretching across his face.

“Oh really? Couldn’t keep it in your pants until tonight?” Levi teased, earning himself a nip on the neck.

Erwin’s smile widened when the unexpected bite coaxed a yelp from Levi’s mouth, ignoring the angry glare thrown his way as he leaned back to give them some space to breathe properly. Icy blue met gunmetal gray as the pair gazed at each other, so full of love and admiration for each other. Erwin opened his mouth to speak when he was suddenly reminded of the conflicted look that had filled those silver hues during the meeting. The same look that had been affecting Levi’s gaze for the past several months. Erwin’s face fell slightly and Levi immediately perked up, his gaze turning sharp as he eyed his lover’s fallen expression.

“Oi, what’s with that look?”

Erwin sighed and Levi couldn’t help the feeling of dread that filled his chest, his brain frantically trying to sift through his recent memories for anything that he could’ve done to fuck things up. Erwin untangled himself from Levi’s hold and turned away to face the windows lining his office, looking out across the grassy hills lining the courtyard with his arms held behind his back.

“Erwin?”

“We need to talk, Levi.”

Levi tried to shove down the nervousness that rose like a tidal wave inside him at those words, at the solemn tone with which he spoke those words.

“About what?”

Erwin took a deep breath, “How do you feel about (Y/N) (L/N)?”

“(Y/N)? In what way? She’s a good squad leader, talented both on the ground and with the ODM gear, and those brats really seem to love her.”

Erwin noted just the barest hints of jealousy underlying his words.

“She’s reliable, quick on her feet, and kind. She likes to help people, but she’s not naive or clueless,” Levi paused, crossing his arms over his chest. “Quite the contrary. She’s proven herself to be a valuable asset to the Survey Corps. Why do you ask?”

“She’s quite beautiful, wouldn’t you say? Attractive? Desirable?”

Levi froze.

“Erwin-”

“I’m not mad,” Erwin said, cutting off Levi’s impending argument. “But I’m not stupid either.”

“I don’t know what you’re insinuating but-”

“Levi.”

The captain, for once, shut his mouth the moment Erwin said his name. This was it.

Levi knew he was in love with (Y/N); had known for months despite his efforts to deny it. He had felt himself falling for the squad leader almost a year ago when she had saved him from certain death during a mission on one of the rare days when he wasn’t completely focused. He had been too caught up worrying about Erwin back at the base, healing from getting his arm bitten off by a titan during the expedition prior, and had managed to get caught in the tight grip of an abnormal, his reaction time slower than usual. Just as he had been sending his silent apologies to Erwin, he had felt the titan let go of his body before he was caught in a pair of strong, gentle arms.

He had tried to convince himself that his feelings were nothing more than appreciation for her saving him, but he had eventually given up trying to lie to himself, knowing that thankfulness wasn’t what made his heart pound every time she was near. Knowing that it wasn’t his gratitude that was making him a flustered mess whenever she talked to him, or causing a hot flush to appear on his cheeks when she laughed at one of his jokes.

That wasn’t to say that he loved Erwin any less. His lover was his whole world, and he wasn’t willing to give him up for anything. He didn’t want to end his relationship with Erwin to be with (Y/N), he just wanted to… expand his world a little bit. He wanted to date both, love both, and give his heart to both. He didn’t want to admit it to himself, and he had spent many sleepless nights hating himself for his feelings. He hated how his heart even thought of betraying Erwin, of belonging to someone else, but he couldn’t stop himself. He wanted to be close to (Y/N), and wanted her to be close to him. He wanted to get to know her, wanted to know what made her laugh, what made her cry, what she loved and what she hated. He wanted to hold her close and kiss her until they were breathless. If she would allow him, he wanted to explore her body, Erwin by his side, and see what made her cry out, what made her writhe in pleasure. He wanted to love her. He wanted her to love him. Both of them.

But he couldn’t. He had to remind himself once again that he was with Erwin, and Erwin alone. And Levi wanted to respect that. He wished with every fiber of his being that he could leave it alone, ditch these feelings and just be happy with the way things were, but he couldn’t. Even so, he had tried to hide his feelings, tried so hard to ignore them and keep them locked away for nobody but him to know about, but clearly, he hadn’t hidden them well enough.

“Erwin, I-”

“Levi,” Erwin said again, still facing away from him.

Levi swallowed hard and bowed his head. He knew he hadn’t necessarily done anything wrong, he hadn’t acted on his feelings or cheated on Erwin, but the guilt still weighed heavily on him. He knew things were going to be different now. No matter what happened, he knew Erwin wouldn’t look at him in the same way anymore.

Erwin took a deep breath before turning to face his captain, the warmth in his sharp blue eyes making Levi’s heart pound with hope. When the commander leaned forward to cup Levi’s cheek in his palm, Levi nuzzled into his touch, his eyes closed as he savored the feeling, desperately hoping that this would not be the last time he would be able to experience this feeling.

“I already told you - I’m not mad. I just want you to tell me the truth,” Erwin said softly, his thumb gently stroking Levi’s cheek bone. “Do you love (Y/N)?”

Levi sighed, dismayed, “Yes.”

He kept his eyes closed, not wanting to see the look of condemnation in the eyes of the man he loved as he admitted his long-standing secret. Erwin was silent for a moment, his thumb continuing to stroke Levi’s face absentmindedly, lost in thought.

“Levi, look at me,” Erwin finally spoke.

Levi swallowed down the bile that rose in his throat before he slowly lifted his head and opened his eyes. The sight of tears streaming down his lover’s face made him want to jump off a cliff, but before he could turn and walk away to hate himself in solitude, he felt a pair of lips smash themselves on top of his to absorb the shocked cry that was ripped from his throat.

“Mn, Erwin?” Levi mumbled in between kisses as his lover continued to devour his mouth. He felt a nauseating mix of fear and elation; fear that this was Erwin giving him one final kiss goodbye and elation at the thought that maybe he hadn’t just fucked everything up.

Erwin gave him one final breathless kiss before parting, leaning his forehead against Levi’s, his eyes closed as he tried to organize the thoughts in his head.

“Damn,” Levi huffed, “What the hell did I do to deserve this?”

Erwin chuckled, “Oh, Levi, you have no idea.”

Levi leaned back to look Erwin in the eye, searching his gaze for a hint to how he was feeling. “Did you mean it? When you said you weren’t mad?”

Erwin nodded, smiling. “I’m not mad at you. How could I, when I feel the same way?”

“Huh!?”

“I didn’t know how to tell you,” Erwin said, his large hand coming up to rub the back of his neck. “I’ve been beating myself up for weeks because I didn’t think you’d ever approve, and I was honesly terrified to bring up the idea of a polyamorous relationship. I felt guilty for wanting to love her and I didn’t want you to know because I didn’t want you to think I had any intention of ever leaving you. I was ashamed and tried to bury it.”

Levi blinked at him, unsure how to process everything Erwin was saying. He was in love with (Y/N) as well? He had never imagined he would ever see the day when Erwin developed feelings for a woman. He knew Erwin had dated them before, but after getting together with Levi, he had admitted to being mostly uninterested in women. Now, here he was, admitting to his long-standing attraction to her with the same guilt and fear that had plagued Levi for months. A small smile tugged at the corner of his lips and he took a step closer to Erwin, placing his hand on the tall blonde’s chest.

“Well it looks like we don’t have to be ashamed. I’ll admit, it’s different, but I’m abnormal enough to deal with this, you?”

Erwin chuckled warmly, his hand coming up to cover Levi’s shoulder, pulling him closer. “I want this, Levi. If you’re okay with it, I want this with you.”

Levi leaned in and stole a quick kiss from the taller man, “I want this too.”

Erwin smiled at his lover before a calculating look overtook his features. “Well, now that that’s out of the way, we have to handle the hard part.”

“What’s that?” Levi asked.

“We have to find a way to convince (Y/N) that this is a good idea without pressuring her or making her feel uncomfortable. We need a way to show her that we are both interested without coming on too strong, and we need to be prepared for the fact that she might not be on board with the idea of being with both of us.”

Levi closed his eyes with a heavy sigh. He hated the thought of having to let her go, but Erwin was right. He had been so worried about his lover’s reaction that he hadn’t even considered (Y/N)’s feelings. Relationships weren’t that common in the Survey Corps, many people too caught up trying to stay alive to involve themselves with romance, let alone a relationship with more than one person. There was a strong likelihood that (Y/N) would reject them, and while the thought made Levi’s stomach churn, he knew he’d have to respect whatever decision she made and learn to live with it. At least, if she rejected them, they would still have each other. Opening his eyes again, Levi met Erwin’s gaze, seeing the same turmoil reflected in the Commander’s icy blue hues.

“Well,” Levi said. “If it comes to that then so be it, but for now, let’s try to figure out the best way to get her attention.”

The tight feeling in Levi’s chest lessened a bit when he noticed the fearful look in Erwin’s eyes dull, replaced instead with the fiery determination he most often saw when the commander was preparing to lead a charge beyond the walls. It made the corners of Levi’s lips lift a little, a warm feeling swelling in his chest as the pair made their way to Erwin’s desk, sweeping the surface clean and getting to work on brainstorming their next course of action.

(Y/N) was careful, making sure to keep quiet as she padded down the hall despite the frustration coursing through her veins, making her feel tense and ready to explode. She gritted her teeth, her fists clenched at her sides as she made a beeline for the door at the end of the dark hallway, knowing exactly what she needed after yet another sleepless night.

Stopping in front of the last door on the right, the only door with light still spilling out from underneath it, (Y/N) took a deep breath and knocked, her foot tapping impatiently as she waited for it to open. She heard a crash come from inside and winced at the loud noise despite the small smile that twitched at the corner of her lips at the sound of her friend’s antics. She heard more crashing, some shuffling, and loud cursing before the door finally swung open, revealing a frazzled but beaming Hanji.

“(Y/N)!” Hanji whispered excitedly as she moved aside for (Y/N) to enter. “What can I do for you this fine evening?”

“Wine,” (Y/N) rasped as soon as she had closed the door behind her.

“Bad day?” Hanji asked, immediately moving around the couch piled high with books, plans, and papers to reach the small cellar she had nested in the back corner of her office.

(Y/N) huffed a laugh devoid of humor, “You could say that.”

Hanji gave her a sympathetic look before reaching for one of her personal favorites, cracking open the bottle to pour into the two wine glasses (Y/N) grabbed from one of the cabinets lining the wall. As soon as the wine had been poured, the two women shoved the loads of nonsense from Hanji’s couch to make room for themselves, making themselves comfortable amongst the cushions with relaxed sighs and contented groans.

“Alright,” Hanji said after she had taken a sip, turning her body to face (Y/N). “Let it all out, what happened today that made it so difficult?”

(Y/N) hesitated, taking a long drag from her wine glass before answering. “Are you sure I’m not bothering you? I didn’t interrupt one of your precious experiments did I?”

Hanji waved her off. “Don’t worry about it, (Y/N). I needed a break anyways, I think I would’ve gone crazy if I had focused on what I was doing for five more minutes.”

“Would’ve?” (Y/N) asked with a teasing smile, prompting the scientist to show her a choice hand gesture in return.

“Hey! I’m not that crazy. Besides, you know what I mean, you’re just stalling. Come on, spill.”

(Y/N) sighed. It was now or never. She didn’t like the idea of admitting her secret to anyone, even her best friend Hanji, but she was running out of options. If she spent one more second bearing the weight of her feelings alone, she was going to explode.

“It- It wasn’t really anything specific about today,” (Y/N) said slowly, trying to gather her thoughts. “This has been bothering me for weeks, today was just the day that I couldn’t shove it down anymore without it starting to take a negative toll on me.”

For once, Hanji was silent, listening intently as she took sips of her wine, allowing (Y/N) to take all the time she needed to figure out what she wanted to say.

“Lately, I have been feeling- Well, no, I guess I have a confession to make, I- shit…”

Hanji flashed a sympathetic smile as she watched (Y/N) stumble over her words, as if they were caught on the tip of her tongue but unable to topple off the edge. She let her friend stutter and rephrase her wording a few more times before the scientist took pity on her and placed a hand on (Y/N)’s shoulder, prompting the squad leader to shut her mouth.

“It’s okay, (Y/N), I understand.”

(Y/N) shook her head, “No, this time you really don’t, Hanji. I-”

“You’re in love with Levi and Erwin, right?”

(Y/N)’s eyes widened to the size of dinner plates, her jaw going slack as she stared at Hanji, who was now laughing at her shocked expression. How the hell did Hanji know? She hadn’t told a single soul about her inner turmoil, too embarrassed and ashamed to admit it to herself, let alone another person. Had she been that obvious? She thought she had been hiding her feelings well, but maybe keeping them a secret had been futile, her actions unknowingly spelling out her predicament to everyone around her, clear as day.

She hadn’t even realized she had started hyperventilating until she felt Hanji’s firm grip on her shoulders, her gaze stern yet comforting as she commanded her to breathe. (Y/N) took a comically large inhale before letting it out slowly, forcing herself to calm down.

“I’m sorry (Y/N), I didn’t mean to make you panic,” Hanji said with an apologetic smile.

(Y/N) shook her head. “It’s not your fault, I jumped to conclusions before you could even  finish your sentence. How do you know about that?”

“I could just tell,” Hanji said with a shrug.

“Was I really that obvious?” (Y/N) asked, crestfallen.

“No, not at all!” Hanji said quickly, waving her hands, attempting to clear up the situation before (Y/N) could feel worse. “I just know you really well, so when you started acting just a little differently from normal, I started to observe you more. Trust me, you have not been obvious with this at all, I just happen to know what to look for.”

That made (Y/N) sigh in relief even as a wave of embarrassment washed over her. “God Hanji, what am I going to do?”

“What do you mean?” Hanji asked.

“I mean, I’m starting to crack under the pressure. I can’t keep ignoring my feelings but I’m afraid of what will happen when I act on them. I’m so tired of fighting myself, ignoring what my heart wants, but I think dealing with the guilt of telling them would break me more than dealing with this pain ever could.”

“What guilt could you possibly have from telling them your feelings?” Hanji asked, curious perplexion on her face.

(Y/N) stared at her, a dumbfounded expression on her features, unsure if Hanji was joking or not. She looked serious, but she found it hard to believe that her friend genuinely saw no issue with her predicament.

“Hanji, you do realize we are talking about the fact that I have feelings for two men, both of whom are already in a loving relationship with each other, and have absolutely no interest in women whatsoever, right?”

“Of course I’m aware of what we are talking about,” Hanji said.

“Then how can you not see why I would be guilty about dumping my feelings onto them? We are talking about a couple who love each other unconditionally. They might not show it publicly very much, but I know how to read them and it’s very obvious that they have no room in their hearts for anyone else. How could I ruin that for them?”

“You really think that telling them how you feel would ruin the love they already have for each other?”

“Yes. No… I don’t know,” (Y/N) said. “I just know that they would want to distance themselves from me. They clearly have no interest in women, let alone a woman like me, so why go through the trouble of embarrassing myself and the two of them when I can just suffer in silence instead? I guess what I’m trying to say is, I don’t want to make things awkward between us. I already know it’s a dead end street, so why should I knowingly send myself flying over the cliff on the other side? I’m in love with two gay, taken men. I just need to accept the fact that they are never going to look at me in any way other than a professional one and move on with my life. Find someone who is actually available to love instead.”

(Y/N) took another long sip from her wine, barely feeling the slightly dry, smooth liquid sliding down her throat.

 “I… I know I’m supposed to let go. I’m just struggling to do it. Every time I think I’ve moved past my feelings, they do something that reminds me of why I love them and I lose myself all over again. I forget that I’m supposed to see them as nothing more than comrades and fall head over heels for both of them until reality slaps me across the face and I am reminded, once again, that I am in no position to have them. I just feel tired, and sick, and… gross.”

(Y/N) hadn’t even realized she was crying until she felt Hanji gently swipe the tears from her cheeks with her thumbs. (Y/N) sniffed and used her sleeve to wipe the rest of her face clean before Hanji opened her arms, allowing her to fall into the brunette’s inviting embrace and silently cry into her chest. Hanji cooed softly at her while stroking her hair, patiently waiting for (Y/N) to calm down a little before speaking again. When the squad leader had finally gotten ahold of herself and her wild emotions, she sat up, murmuring a quiet “thank you” for Hanji’s warm support as she untangled herself from the scientist’s hold.

“Look at me, (Y/N),” Hanji said, her hands back on the squad leader’s shoulders to keep her from moving away.

(E/c) met hazel as (Y/N) followed Hanji’s order, blinking away the last few tears when they locked gazes.

“Listen and listen well, (Y/N). I will not sit here and let you berate yourself over this. Your feelings are valid but I will not let you put yourself down over how you feel and who you’re attracted to.”

(Y/N) tried to argue but Hanji was quick to cut her off, a stern expression on her normally cheerful face as she regarded her best friend.

“You are beautiful and wonderful and the best squad leader we could ever ask for. You are not gross or wrong for the way you feel and I will not stand for you to think that way about yourself. I’m sorry it’s so stressful, I can’t even imagine what that must be like, but you can not - will not - tear yourself down in an effort to stifle your emotions. You shouldn’t even be trying to shove down your feelings anyway. It’s not healthy, and I’m pretty sure if you just confessed to them, they would be more accepting than you realize.”

“I don’t know…”

“(Y/N), I have known both of these men since before their names meant anything to the world. I know what I’m talking about when I say they will not push you away or treat you like garbage. Besides, if they ever did do that, I’d cut off their balls in their sleep.”

(Y/N) giggled at Hanji’s threat, giving her a grateful smile that the scientist returned in kind.

“Everything is going to be okay, (Y/N). Just talk to them, before you explode. It doesn’t have to be tomorrow, or the next day, or even the next week, but plan on telling them at some point when you feel comfortable. These feelings are only going to get stronger, and I hate seeing you so upset. You deserve happiness, and achieving that happiness is only going to get harder and harder the longer you sit on this. I won’t lie to you, they may reject you, there is no guarantee that they will be willing to expand their relationship to include you in it, but they will not hate you, that I can promise.”

(Y/N) wiped her face with her sleeve again before standing up, a newfound determination swirling in her gut. “Thank you Hanji, I don’t know what I’d do without you.”

“That’s right, I am pretty amazing,” Hanji said with a dramatic flip of her tangled hair, making both of them laugh at her teasing antics.

“Well, I should probably get to bed. See you tomorrow, Hanji.”

“Goodnight (Y/N)!” Hanji said, watching her friend leave the room and enter the deserted hallway to head back to her office.

As soon as Hanji was sure (Y/N) had rounded the corner, the scientist broke out into a wide, manic smile, her eyes glinting behind her glasses as she too left her room but instead, headed straight for Levi’s office.

Levi groaned at the sound of insistent pounding on his door, squeezing his eyes shut as he tried to ignore it, hoping that the person would leave him alone if he didn’t answer. To his dismay, another round of loud knocking came from outside of his office, causing Erwin to stir behind him with a groggy, confused noise.

“Erwin, you get it, it’s for you,” Levi grumbled, pulling the covers up to his chin.

“No it’s not,” Erwin responded, his voice just as raspy and exhausted. “This is your room, they want you.”

Levi cursed and rolled to the side, shivering as he slid from Erwin’s embrace and placed his feet on the icy wood floor. Yet another series of loud knocks sounded as he made his way through his bedroom and to his office. Flinging the door open, Levi didn’t try to hide his anger at being disturbed, his silver glare sharp enough to kill as he stared up at a smirking Hanji.

“What. The. Fuck. Four-Eyes,” Levi said slowly, rubbing the bridge of his nose. “Do you have any fucking clue what time it is?”

“Awww, you seem awfully grumpy, Levi. Did I interrupt some special personal time between you and the commander?” Hanji teased, her smile widening at the near feral growl it pulled from deep within Levi’s chest.

“What the hell do you want?” Levi asked through gritted teeth, so tempted to slam the door in her face.

“Oh nothing, I just wanted to give you an update on (Y/N) and tell you some new information I just discovered but it looks as if you’re really tired. Maybe I should just come back some other time,” Hanji said. She knew it was dangerous to tease Levi, especially this late at night when she knew he had been wrapped up with Erwin, but she just couldn’t help herself, her elation at what she had just found out from (Y/N) making it difficult to remain serious.

“What new information?” Erwin asked. Neither Levi nor Hanji had even heard him approach. Hanji turned to face the tired commander, smiling when she saw his ruffled hair and shirtless chest. Hanji had never been one for relationships or attraction in general, but she had to admit that a sleepy commander was rather cute.

“May I come in?”

Levi groaned in annoyance at the same time that Erwin said yes, prompting the raven to open the door wide enough for the scientist to pass through despite the grumpy look he threw his lover.

“What is it, Shitty Glasses? We don’t have all night,” Levi snapped once the door had been shut behind her, his arms crossed as he leaned back against his desk.

“Well, I just had a talk with (Y/N). She came into my office to vent to me about something that was bothering her and I thought you should know about it since it involves you two.”

Levi and Erwin shared a look, nervousness fluttering in both of their stomachs. Had they been discovered already? Had she heard about their plans and gotten freaked out? Had they done or said something to unintentionally offend her? Neither of them wanted to screw this up. They had been working so hard to keep things under wraps while they thought of a solid plan to present to her when the time was right, but had they already fucked it up without realizing it? 

Levi took a deep breath, forcing himself to calm down. Hanji hadn’t even told them what it was yet. He glanced down when he felt Erwin grip his hand, giving his fingers a squeeze as if to ground himself. Levi reciprocated the action and turned his gaze back to Hanji, eager for her to continue.

“What did she say?” Erwin asked, his nervousness just barely masked by his rough tone.

Hanji’s smile somehow widened further, her eyes sparkling happily. “She said she’s in love with you.”

Both men tensed.

“W-With which one of us?” Erwin asked.

“Both of you, actually. That’s why she was coming to talk to me. She’s been really struggling with her feelings lately because she feels as if it’s morally wrong to love both of you. Not only because she feels bad about loving more than one person, but she also thinks you have no interest in her whatsoever since neither of you are straight. She feels guilty for having feelings towards you because she knows you are both already in a relationship and she doesn’t want to ruin your dynamic with each other. She has no idea how you two feel, she just feels guilty and scared of her own emotions because she has no idea how the two of you are going to react when she does eventually tell you.”

For a moment, Levi and Erwin were at a loss for words. (Y/N) loved them? Both of them? It almost seemed too good to be true, that the woman they both loved and wanted so badly to have join them in their relationship wanted them as well. But Hanji’s gaze conveyed nothing but the truth, and as much as she loved to tease them and joke around, she would never lie about something so important.

“Did you tell her that we are interested in her as well?” Levi asked, clearing his throat to keep from stuttering.

Hanji shook her head, “No, I calmed her down and gave her some advice about coming to terms with her feelings but I didn’t tell her about your feelings nor that you had confided in me. I didn’t want her to think I was joking around or pitying her. Not only that, but I wanted to give the two of you a chance to confess. This is your relationship, not mine, I didn’t want to take that moment away from you. Besides, she’ll believe it if it’s coming from you. I don’t think she would believe me if I tried to tell her. I did tell her that she should talk to you about it, though.”

“How did she respond to that?” Erwin asked softly, clutching onto the desk behind him for stability as the weight of Hanji’s words washed over him.

Hanji scratched the back of her neck, “Um, she was pretty skeptical. Again, she’s worried about your reaction, so while she agreed that it was probably the best course of action, she wasn’t too enthusiastic about carrying it out. She might not tell you for a long time, not until she is able to genuinely come to terms with the possibility of rejection. If I were you, I’d plan on confessing first, and sooner rather than later. She’s not going to have the confidence to come to you on her own, not for some time.”

Levi nodded, his heart swelling with love and excitement. This was better than he ever could’ve imagined, that the woman he wanted more than anything was in love with both him and his lover, and wanted to be with them despite the unorthodox nature of their possible relationship. He had to hand it to Hanji, albeit begrudgingly, she had played a big role in giving them the confidence they needed and encouraging them to act on their feelings. Without her, he didn’t think they would’ve made it this far.

He could tell Erwin felt the same way. Neither of them had expected anything good to come from telling Hanji. They hadn’t even planned on telling her originally, too afraid that she would immediately run off to tell (Y/N) in a rush of excitement. But she had caught them brainstorming, and had instead heard them out as they explained their predicament before offering to help. Erwin was beyond grateful, and felt so proud in that moment to call her his friend that he couldn’t help but push away from the desk to envelop her in a quick hug.

“Thank you, Hanji,” Erwin said before releasing her, his heart pumping with affection and happiness for both his friend and the woman he was eager to love, Levi by his side.

“It was nothing, Erwin,” Hanji said with a warm smile, returning his hug before parting and raising a hand to her face to fix her skewed glasses.

“Thank you Four-Eyes.”

“No problem, Shorty!”

Levi grumbled at the nickname but reached over to ruffle her hair affectionately, the most physical contact he would ever willingly give to the titan-crazed freak. Hanji beamed nonetheless and sent him a teasing wink before heading for the door, expressing her desire for some hard-earned rest. The two men murmured their agreement and walked Hanji out before heading back to their shared bedroom and climbing into bed, both of them laying awake despite their exhaustion, simultaneously excited and terrified for the next coming day.

They found her in the stable. The sun was starting to set, the evening light painting the sky with the purples, oranges, and pinks of dusk as Levi and Erwin made their way across the courtyard to the barn where a scout had told them (Y/N) was last seen. Sure enough, peeking through the large wooden doors revealed the lovely squad leader, somehow even more gorgeous than usual, grooming and petting her horse as she hummed a soft tune. 

Levi and Erwin knew they were stalling as they paused to watch her move around the barn, swiftly and quietly like a cat, both men silently appreciating the way she looked in the light of the dying sun. Her hair was up in a loose ponytail, so different from the tight bun she normally wore it in to keep her vision perfectly clear during missions and training, and her clothes were casual, perfect for tending to the horses while still looking somewhat professional.

The men listened to her humming get louder as she leaned down to dry her mare’s legs with a small cloth, the fur still wet from the bath she had just given her. (Y/N)’s surprised laugh when the mare leaned down to nuzzle her back was music to their ears, and with a glance at each other, they both knew they couldn’t wait anymore. The butterflies in their stomachs made both of them want to be sick, but they held it together, giving the hand of their lover one final supportive squeeze before they pushed their way into the barn with her.

(Y/N) didn’t notice them at first, too busy making sure to dry as much as she could, but the sound of Levi clearing his throat immediately caught her attention, making her stand up so fast her mare spooked at the sudden movement.

“Captain! Commander! What a surprise!” (Y/N) said nervously with a hasty salute that Erwin easily waved off.

“Hello (Y/N), I apologize, we didn’t mean to alarm you,” Erwin said, his deep voice unknowingly sending delightful shivers down (Y/N)’s spine.

“Oh it’s no problem, I should’ve been paying better attention. Now, what can I do for you two?” (Y/N) was proud of her ability to keep her voice steady, such a contrast to her rapidly beating heart, threatening to leap out of her chest with how hard it was pounding against the bars of its cage.

“We need to talk to you,” Levi said. 

(Y/N)’s face paled. Her brain immediately jumped to the worst case scenario, making her knees go weak at the thought of them finding out about her secret before she could have the chance to explain. They hadn’t even said anything yet and she felt like she was going to break down, the pressure of them possibly knowing making her feel sick. She knew it was irrational, there was no way they could possibly know, not when the only person she had ever told was Hanji, someone she trusted with her life. Taking a deep breath, (Y/N) sorted out her frayed nerves and forced herself to stay calm. She could do this, no matter what they said, she could do this.

“Okay, what about?” She managed to squeak out, completely unaware of their own nervousness.

Erwin closed his eyes and prayed to any deity out there for the strength to say what he wanted to say before meeting (Y/N)’s expectant gaze.

“Well, you see um… we wanted to ask you if you would maybe, possibly, consider um- shit- sorry, I’m trying to find the best way to put this…”

“He’s trying to say that we’re interested in you, brat, and we want to know what you think about it.”

Levi’s blunt words made her gawk, not completely sure this wasn’t some kind of amazing dream.

“Wait, wait, wait, you want… me? Both of you?”

Levi nodded as Erwin confirmed with a quiet “yeah,” his hand reaching up to scratch the back of his neck as he averted his gaze to the stable floor, neither of them able to look (Y/N) in the eye. 

“As in… you want me to be in a relationship with both of you?” (Y/N) clarified, unable to keep the hopeful tone from her voice.

Levi caught that slight hopefulness underlying her words, giving him the confidence to approach her, his movements gentle and slow as if to avoid spooking her. With a glance back at Erwin, who gave him a solid nod in response, Levi reached out to cup (Y/N)’s cheek, his thumb stroking her cheekbone in the same way he knew Erwin enjoyed. (Y/N)’s breath hitched at the feeling and Levi couldn’t help but smirk.

“We love you, (Y/N). We both want you to be with us. That is, if you’ll have us.”

Erwin came up beside Levi, further supporting the raven’s sentiment. Tears started to blur her vision, but (Y/N) blinked them away, her gaze flickering back and forth between the two men she had loved for so long.

“You- You really mean it?”

“Absolutely,” Erwin said, a warm, if not wobbly, smile tugging at his lips.

(Y/N) hesitated for only a second more, still frozen in shock, before she flung herself at the both of them, her arms wrapping around their necks to hold them close as she sobbed her affirmation into their chests over and over again.

“Yes! I’d love to be with you! Nothing in the world would make me happier than to get the opportunity to love you two.”

Levi and Erwin smiled at each other from over her head before reciprocating her physical affection, holding her close to them as they had both longed to do for ages. They stayed like that for a short while, the rest of the world falling apart as they held each other in the middle of the barn, the last remaining rays of sunlight bathing the lovers in reddish-gold light as it dipped below the horizon. 

It was perfect. More than perfect. Better than any of them could’ve ever dreamed of as they finally let go of all of their doubts and encompassed the warm, beautiful feeling that was finding their missing pieces.

[mayumania]

ok ik i said no more negative posts but this is more a rant abt my family rather than me so i apologize this will b the last vent post for a while hopefully, tw for drugs

hate the fact that my body does Not react to weed well (im assuming its cus of my extensive med list) bc my entire family self medicates w it instead of going to therapy, whereas im the only one who takes pills for their problems and they wonder why im not as relaxed as them and its bc i have to make sure these three older than me adults dont fucking fall on their face (they have b4) bc they take such high potency edibles

like idc if u self medicate w it but they’re not even attempting at being responsible w their usage. ik this is partially my fault 4 not researching shit but my mom’s husband is a “weed expert” and literally told me the first time i took edibles that 20mg would work as a first time dose

i was beyond euphoric for some time until i was uncontrollably thrashing around whilst hallucinating shit i dont need to remember, eventually started having full on blackouts and severe dissociation

anyways so sorry this is long and probably annoying lol but im so fed up w my family. theres multiple issues but i wont go into All tht

[bvvllg]

enhypen reaction on u getting chased by their dog (hyung line)

warnings//none

heeseung

he laughed

man he couldn't stop laughing at u

like the dog is small

prob small than ur head does

u screamed for the top of ur lungs for his help but he just look at u 🥺

"hee istg im gonna kill ur pet😟"

u threatened him and he took his dog and apologize

jay

he didnt care at all

prob too busy facetiming with jungwon

ur screaming and shouting can be heard but he just dont care 😟

for him wonnie is his first priority

"hyung whts tht shouting from😟?"

"haha dont mint tht it just the tv"

"wow didnt knee u turn up the volume so loud"

jake

aww he just giggled

instead of helping u he asked layla to play with u more

the fact tht u scared of layla is rlly not helping u at all

"jake im scared"

"naur she didnt bite"

he even left both of u alone to continue watching his netflix

or to be more specific..locked u in a room with layla😟

man its gonna be a long day

sunghoon

u told him tht u scared of dogs

so he wants ur phobia to POOSH away so he bring gaeul with him when he came to ur apartment

man u almost got a heart attack watching tht small dog

"i-" "now let me in y/n"

he pushed u and probaly ignored u the whole day bc u didnt want to play with gaeul

u just sit at the corner with a mug on ur hand 😢

[keytomythoughts]

Perfection Imperfections | Chapter 1

Chapter Index 

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Finally, summer break. It’s been a while since I was able to go home. Having to attend high school rather far from my home in Seoul, I never thought that I’d adjust to the new environment. Fortunately, I wasn’t entirely alone, since I stayed with my aunt for the four years of my high school life. School wasn’t so bad, but the homesickness is what killed it for me. Even though it was my parents' idea to send me a rather vast distance—me not being too excited about it, but I knew I wouldn’t get my way in the end—there was some good that came from it. The two only good things, actually. 

I glance outside the train window, the buildings of Busan zooming past me. Sure, it may not be my home, but I won’t lie. I’m really going to miss this place. My phone suddenly vibrates in my lap, glancing down to see a text from my group chat, smiling as I respond.

(Binnie)

R u still on the train?

                                                               Yeah have been for the past like 30 mins

(Eunuwu) 

Going back to ur parents? Or r u moving out?

                                                                                                                      Funny

                                                                        Yk I can’t move out, at least not on                                                                            my own. My parents won’t allow it

(Binnie)

:/

What about Jaehyun?

                                                                            Idk, they rlly dc what he does tbh

                                                                       They’re just hell-bent on me getting                                                                                    into the top schools and shit

(Eunuwu)

Damn, rough

                                                                                                                        Mhm

(Binnie)

Try talking to them, u never know

They might change their minds?

                                                                 Nah, I already know how it’s gonna end

                                                                         Me crying and stuffing myself with                                                                           pints of ice cream

(Eunuwu)

Doesn't sound so bad

(Binnie)

¬_¬

(Eunuwu)

Except for the crying part ofc

But c’mon it cant really be THAT bad

I’ve been over plenty of times, they seem nice

(Binnie)

U’ve been to her house??

                                                                         Yeah him and oppa are friends too

(Binnie)

Righttt forgot lol

                                                                  And that’s bc you were there dumbass                                                                    and half of the time ur either in oppa’s                                                                    room or out somewhere

                                                                  Interaction with my parents = minimal

(Binnie)

That sounds awful ngl :( sorry Hyuna

But hey we should all hang soon!

(Eunuwu)

I’ll be in Seoul for the summer too so y not?

                                                                                                  ��        I miss y’all :’(

                                                                   Ok I should be there around like 5 ish                                                                     so I’ll text then

(Binnie)

Aww I miss u toooo 

(Eunuwu)

*puke*

                                                                                           Shut up, ur just jealous

(Eunuwu)

Me? Jealous?? Of what, ur face?

Yea no thx, Ive got a great face already

And personality 0:)

                                                                               Gr8, explains why ur still single

(Binnie)

LOLL

She got u there bro

(Eunuwu)

Shut up

Ur talking as if u’ve got a gf

Idiot

(Binnie)

At least I didnt reject them as coldly as u did lol 

                                                                                             See? My point exactly

                                                                               Your fAcE scared off every girl                                                                                   in sight bc of tht pErSoNaLiTy

                                                                           I almost feel bad for them, u little                                                                             heart breaker

(Binnie)

He made a couple of em cry I heard

                                                                                                                     Rlly?!?

                                                                                                                         YAH

                                                                                                               U MORON

(Eunuwu)

Bin wtf

(Binnie)

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

                                                                                    U JERK HOW COULD U??

                                                                                              Those poor girls omg

                                                                               Im so kicking ur ass when I c u

(Binnie)

Me 2

(Eunuwu)

Wtf?? Y???

(Binnie)

No reason lol, just feel like it

                                                                                         And this is why ily Binnie

(Binnie)

:D <3

(Eunuwu)

GROSS

                                                                                                        Can it u demon

                                                                                                         Read 4:02 PM

I snort, turning off my phone and placing it back down on my lap as I go back to staring outside my left-hand window again. Meet Cha Eunwoo and Moon Bin, my two best friends. The only reason I got through high school how I did without major setbacks. Sure, there was the occasional homesickness and all, but had I not met these two, I probably wouldn’t have even attended and graduated. 

Being so far away from the place I grew up never really suited me, and they saw it right away from day one how lonely and upset I looked. I didn't seem to fit in, especially since I skipped a grade and was placed in classes that were very advanced for me. Not that I minded the vigor, but it was hard for me to socialize, let alone make friends. 

That’s when I met them. Freshman year in homeroom before my first literature class. Moon Bin, a boy with parted, coppery-golden hair accompanied by his shy, puppy-eye smile and sweet nature, offered me an empty seat next to him in class, even going as far as to share his textbook and asking how I found the school. No doubt, I was embarrassed and immensely shy, stuttering over my words and failing to meet his soft gaze. However, he didn’t make fun of me nor find me odd. All he did was smile, laughing lightly at my slightly flustered state. He stuck his hand out, introducing himself (most people just call him Moonbin or Bin) with that smile of his, thus the start of our new friendship. Since then, he became someone who always knew how to cheer me up when I was feeling down. No moment was ever dull with him by my side. 

Eunwoo, the tall, brooding black-haired and charismatic student almost everyone knew (and crushed on) of, was usually with Moonbin when we hung out together, but he normally kept to himself. Though quiet and sometimes reserved with his intimidating looks, it didn’t take long for him to break the ice with us, the three of us becoming close friends. Promising to stay like this until we went to college and beyond. Regardless if we all diverge and tread different paths, we would always converge and come back to one another. 

Four years flew by and graduation was upon us. Just like that, the two became like family to me, my ride-or-die duo. The two who were able to turn my world upside down, finding solace in a time where I thought it was nearly impossible for me to.  

My thoughts are interrupted by my “Move” ringtone—yes, I’m a huge Lee Taemin fan—looking down at my phone again to see it’s my brother calling. I sigh, picking up the call.

“What?” 

He gasps dramatically. “Is that any way to address your loving older brother after being away for so long?”

I snort, shaking my head. “Loving my ass, oppa. How are mom and dad?”

“They’re fine, living. Didn’t you tell them you’re coming home?”

“Nope, I don’t even text them that often. You already know this..”

He sighs. “Yeah, I figured.” 

There’s a slight pause on his end, but he continues. “You took the three-thirty train, right? So you’ll be here around five or so?”

“Yeah, give or take.” 

I look out the window again to see the endless stretch of greenery and flowing springs, sometimes even children playing in the fields. I grin mischievously, deciding to poke fun at my brother when he doesn’t respond right away. 

“What, you miss me?”

He makes a sound similar to throwing up. “As if. I got so used to the peace and quiet. I’m not ready for it to go away.” 

“Yah!” I realize that I had yelled a bit too loudly and eyes were now trained on me, and I bow my head in apology. I lower my voice, “You’re such an asshole.”

“Oh, I know, but you still love me anyway.”

“Shut up.”

I can hear his laugh resonate through the phone and a smile unknowingly tugs at my lips. I wouldn’t say it out loud, but it’s true. When I lived with my aunt in Busan for the duration of high school, I missed Jaehyun a lot. Though two years older than me, he didn’t seem to alienate me the way my parents do. While I hate the notion that they spoil Jaehyun endlessly and let him do as he wishes, I won’t lie and say that he was a prick about it. He could’ve been, but he never came off as selfish. I’m really close with my brother, shocking as it may be. Sibling relationships are like that—one minute you want to strangle them with their intestines and the next you’re singing duets together. Crazy, but that’s how it is for us. My parents don’t really pay me any attention, so Jaehyun decides to do that instead. Not complaining though. I’d rather take his pranking and teasing over my parents’ demands and reprimands any day.

“Aight, I’m heading out for a bit. Text me when you arrive.”

I smile again. “Will do, but make sure to get me food!”

“Let me think…” He hums, and I can practically sense the smirk on his end. “Nope. Get your own.”

“Oppa!”

Jaehyun laughs. “See you in a bit, Hyuna. Get here safely. Bye!”   

He hangs up the call before I get a chance to retort, and I scoff. Typical of my brother. He knows how much I enjoy street food, and every time he goes out, it’s almost certain that most of the time he stops somewhere to eat. Did he ever bring food back? Sure, but by the time I’d get to it, most of it was gone anyways. That only lasted a little while before I had gone upstate anyways, so he had more food for himself, I guess.

As the train barrels down the tracks, I feel my heart racing in excitement, but there’s also a slight ounce of dread. I really don’t know why. I want to believe it’s because I’ve been away for too long, but part of me knows it’s the fact that I’ll have to face my parents again. Knowing that I only have two months to decide where I wanted to go and what I wanted to do, I know the bitter truth is that those decisions won’t be left up to me. Last time, I was sent to Busan.

God knows where I’d be sent to now.

***

“Final destination of the KTX Busan-Seoul train at Seoul Station is approaching and will arrive at 05:30 PM. The doors to alight are on the right hand side. All passengers are requested to dismount the train upon arrival. Thank you.” 

That’s my stop.

Gathering my bag and hand luggage, I patiently wait for the train to pull up at the station. Seeing the familiar shops and buildings around me makes my legs bounce up and down in both excitement and anticipation. 

Four long years away from Seoul...

Before getting off, I quickly text the group chat and then my brother, letting them all know that I’ve reached safely. Side-stepping the other passengers exiting the subway doors, I carefully land onto the platform with my luggage in tow. I breathe in the air around as I stretch my arms up into the sky, the grin widening on my face.

It sure as hell feels good to be back home.

I try my best to maneuver through the crowds, but it doesn’t stop the rush of people knocking into me. At times like these, I curse my genetics for favoring my older brother instead of me in terms of height. Eventually, I come to a clearing and when my eyes glance upwards, I spot a rather familiar dark brown-haired six-foot-tall male amongst the small crowd waving me over.

“Hyuna, over here!”

I gasp, my eyes widening. “Oppa!”

He smiles as I begin walking towards him, my feet hurriedly moving across the concrete. The distance between us shortens and I abandon my luggage as he opens his arms wide. 

Only for me to sucker punch him in the stomach.

He yelps in pain, grimacing as he holds his abdomen. “Shit, that hurt. What has Aunt Sua been feeding you up there? Rocks?”

I smack his shoulder, my blood slightly boiling in anger. “Yah, why didn’t you tell me you were coming?! Do you know how much money I blew off for the bus fare?”

He straightens his back before going to rub his shoulder, then behind his neck.

“Fine, fine. My bad. I wanted to surprise you, but I guess that didn’t work, did it?” 

I cross my arms over my chest, huffing in annoyance. He sighs, nodding.

“Okay, okay, I’ll compensate you. Dinner’s on me.”

At this I grin, blinking excitedly. I grab onto his arm and shake it vigorously. “Really? You mean it? You’re the best, oppa!” 

“Look at this brat..” he taunts, shaking his head. In a flash, he headlocks me and rubs the top of my head harshly with his knuckles, upsetting the neatly-tied auburn ponytail. 

“Yah! Quit it!” I smack his arms and flail in protest, but he chuckles, saying this is what I get for cunningly finding a way to exploit him the minute I stepped back into Seoul. 

What can I say? It’s a talent. 

He lets go eventually, and I try to smooth down my already-tangled hair. I grumble incoherently but Jaehyun pulls me into his embrace, wrapping his arms around me. His free hand gently pats the side of my head in comfort.

“Welcome home, sis.”

I stand there stiff for a second before hugging back. He squeezes me tighter and I find myself smiling into his shoulder. 

“Good to be back,” I whisper. 

We stand like that for a moment before he pats my back a couple of times, us pulling away from each other soon after. He reaches behind me to grab my hand luggage as he shoulders my bag. I tell him that I can carry them just fine, but he starts walking away from the platform to the parking lot. I call out after him as I run to catch up, and I can see the corners of his mouth twitch. Jaehyun leads me to his car, a sleek matte-silver convertible Mustang. My mouth drops open in shock at its stunning beauty, my body forcing itself to remain composed for the sake of avoiding public self-embarrassment. 

He throws my luggage in the back seat before he turns to me, smirking at my expression. “You like it?”

“Shit, do I like it? I love it!” I run my fingers over its metallic surface, the silver exterior gleaming in the evening glow. Grinning, I stare up at my brother who catches my gaze as I stand next to the driver’s seat, my fingers already curled on the handle.

“Can I—”

“No.”

“Please—”

“Nope.”

I pout as I pull my hand away and step to the side. Jaehyun chuckles, rubbing my head playfully before getting into the driver’s seat and starting the car. The engine purrs to life as my brother pulls out his shades and wears them. He looks at me and cocks his head to the passenger seat. 

“Don’t just stand there. Get in.”

Smiling, I quickly make my way over to the other side and slip into the passenger seat. I barely have time to buckle in before Jaehyun speeds off. I scream in fright, but he laughs heartily, telling me to let loose.

With the wind harshly whipping around us, I close my eyes and tilt my head upwards, absorbing the remnants of my childhood in a place I’ll always call home. A place where my heart always feels at ease.

My name is Jung Hyuna. I’m eighteen years old, and this is my story.

Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 |  

[qis-diamant99]

before 2021 ends,

I want to wrap this up by sharing the things that i went thru this year. so many things happened in just a year. I feel like i’ve grown too, from all the mistakes, from the wrong ppl i met who hurt me, etc. I learn. i learned a lot. Earlier this year, i met someone. who i never thought would give me so much trauma, and pain. Till this day, when i think about it, i got gaslighted and manipulated to the point that it took me months to recover. To convince myself that its never me. Im not the problem. I was finding reasons why did the person have the heart to do tht to me cause i would never do that to him. I still justified what he did at the very beginning bcs i was inlove with him. I was depressed thinking if there’s anything wrong with me that made him do that. Basically, i was used. Taken for granted. He knew all along that he would hurt me at the end, yet, he kept me long enough for his benefit. when he was lonely, sad, thats when he searched for me. But when he didnt know what to do, he was confused, he just throw me away like im some trash. But im glad tht i threw him away too.. When he got back with her, despite telling me shits of how much he got hurt by that girl, he went back to that anyway? Whats the point rlly? I was the one tht told u to fix things with her. & the audacity of you to say “i cant have what i want” when u couldnt “leave her”. In other words, u’re saying tht she’s not wht she wants actually

I’ll never forget tht. I’ll never forget how u let me suffer alone without an apology for the argument, for the last call we had, for all the traumatic words u said to me. I still cant find myself to forgive u for tht. I’ll never forget when u said “u gave me comfort. And she didnt” now i cant even imagine if she knows u said that. I have all the call records of u saying tht in case u think im lying. And i can show tht to her too. Or to everyone if i wanted to. But see how i keep quiet? be grateful. Also, Remember when u gaslighted me with denying that u forgot tht u said u love me? I swear to god. Thats the worst thing someone can ever say. The damage i had to endure after hearing all that tho. U have no idea. Now imagine her even knowing that u said u love some other girl behind her back just easy? lol. When i was moving on from you, thats when i realise every single thing. Every thing was connected. I realised u did me so wrong & i just let it happen? And i even became the better person by apologising for something thts clearly not my fault in the first place. I was so manipulated. Yes, i sent u tht long message. I meant every single word i said there, at that time. Bcs i was so still inlove with u. When i even took my time to go to a quiet bookstore just to talk to you when i was outside with my friends, bcs u were scared of getting covid, i was shaking bcs i was so worried abt you. Wow i cant believe i did all tht to someone who decided to bluntly played me & had no remorse. & u had the audacity to tell me that she was there for you at the end of the day? After talking bad about her to me? After demonising her? And u didnt even tell me earlier? Do u even care about how i felt at the time, at our last call when u said tht? I was so well fooled. I was so so blind. and of course, you ghosting me just shows how much i deserve so much more than that & you def dont deserve me. I shouldve not responded to ur text when u start double texting me and calling me etc at the beginning when i tried to stay away frm you. And i made it clear. I had good intentions all along. My love was pure & but u decided to play around. Never again, i go thru tht. But thank you btw, thank you. Bcs of you, i learned not to settle for less. She can have you all she wants. Until she knows what u did to her of course. But thats not my job to let her know. When the tables have turned, good luck. U better be grateful, that i shut my mouth abt you. U better b counting ur blessings frm now on that i dont tell her anything until now. Just know tht the things u did to me, is such an asshole move. Remember, u dont get to treat people like this and pretend like nothing happened w/o any payback. Enjoy it while it lasts. What goes around comes around. Mark my words.

Happy new year to you. This will be the last time i talk about you or even think abt you or even say your name. For sure, i no longer feel the pain in my heart when i hear ur name. But i still find the things u did was unacceptable bcs i know i dont deserve it. No one deserves it. Im closing the book here, today. Also, Miss sabrina azli deserves to know the truth. I have all the proofs with me. but wtv, till then. Goodbye.

[eeriefeelingsat3amuwu]

What were the octopus and the spider doing?

Characters: Remus, Virgil (Sanders Sides), Janus mention, Roman mention- minor spoilers for SvS Redux

Tw: cursing, blood, slight gore (it’s Remus, what do you expect)

Relationships: platonic Dukexiety because it’s my JAM bro

Genre: Idk man, fluff? Something like that but not quite as fluffy? Just...my boys doing shit together

Like, dudes, I love these two idiots, they’re my boiis and I would kill for them. Enjoy...this and I apologize for any mistake that was made by me being a clueless Europian Who’s shit with English spelling. Especially double letters. Ugh.

Virgil was laying on his bed listening to one of his playlists and being really bored. He didn’t wanna show face up there because everything hurt (physicaly, for once) and he just wasn’t in the mood to deal with the others’ shit right now. He fucking hated everything. The wedding was a total disaster and he had to keep Thomas’ head down during it, so he was tired. He very well knew that the callback would’ve been a better choice, but that would be siding with Janus and he kinda hated him. A...lot of stuff happened between the two of them and they had a falling out a few months back, so they acted like bitches around each other now. So, thanks to that, he was exhausted, everything hurt and he was done™️, all because he held a grudge. He sometimes really hated himself. So he just started singing along to the songs and pulled out his sewing kit and a dress he was working on right now and just got himself into work. He was so lost in the music and work that he hadn’t heard another side pop up in his room. And so he was notified of Remus’ presence only when he threw a hand on him. Just. A hand. He screamed and fell off the bed. “Jesus fuck!”| “Remus would be just enough Virgey.” answered Remus with a smug smirk. “Oh fuck off bitch! And why are you even here? Shouldn’t you be, like, driving Deceit crazy or laying in a ditch full of mud and blood by now?” Remus snorted as he leaned down, grabbed the hand of off the bed and placed it back on his wrist, moving it around until the bone clicked back. “Well, I don’t know what you’ve been doing down here, but Double D went up there,” he said pointing towards the ceiling, “and laying in a ditch seems boring, so I came to either A: annoy the shit out of you; or B: beat your Just Dance high score. It’s up to you emo.” Virgil rolled his eyes snapping his fingers (placing his dress safely in the closet) and stood up, dusting his hoodie. “That ain’t fair Dukey, you’re gonna annoy me whatever I choose. So, I present this: we beat Janice’s high score in Just Dance, since he’s still better then the both of us, and if they ain’t done by then I’ll show you a few pieces of clothing I’ve been working on recently and we’ll have a show. How ‘bout that?”| “Great ideas Virge. I approve! And...I’ll be there first!” he screamed and took a running start towards the door. Virgil yelped and ran out behind him. They raced down the hallway towards the Dark Side commons and it looked like Remus was winning, but there was one place where they needed to turn left and since Remus was running really quickly, he rammed right into the wall whilst Virgil summoned his spider arms and swung like Spider-man around the corner, landing in front of the sofa. Remus groaned and got up from the floor stumbling over to Virgil and patting him on the back before colapsing on the floor again, face down this time.

“Yo Re, you alive?” asked Virgil poking him with his foot. “Ughhhhhh, fckng waaall, tht wsn’t fairrr.” could be heard from Remus. Virgil turned him around and helped him get up, laughing out loud when he noticed that he broke his nose. He grabbed it and with the words “Dude, don’t cum please.” snapped it back into position. Remus groaned, but thankfuly obliged Virgil’s request. The two of them were playing Just Dance for the next half an hour or so until they FINALY defeated Janus’ high score by switching when one of them got tired in the middle of the song. They cheered and then a loud bang could be heard from upstairs. They screeched like the demons that they were and jumped onto each other. “What the fuck was that?!” Virgil screamed as soon as the sound stopped, his voice warped. “I don’t have a fucking clue, but I sincerly hope that Jany deals with it before it comes down here and eats us alive like fucking oysters leaving only our skin!”| “That isn’t helping you cunt!”| “I know! Sorry, defense mechanism.”| “I know, sorry, I’m KiNdA stressed right now!”| “Please stop screaming.”| “Sorry...”| “Yea...could we maybeee go to your room? It’s a bit more soundproof then the commons.”| “Oh sure! Let’s go.” Virge said and teleported them.

He exhaled with relief when they landed in his room and went to the closet. “Let’s just do this shit. Still better then going up there.”| “Agreed. And you are actually really good at making clothes. What am I gonna wear? Skin? Uncleaned fur? Dead bees?”| “No. You’re gonna be wearing a dress Rere. I’m not making them out of dead bees. If you’re a good bitch and don’t rip them/ cover them in blood or any other substances, I’ll let you do my nails after. Deal?”| “Deal! Oh! Are they long? Maybe I could use them to scare the shit out of Roman in his beaaauuutiful castle...I should write that down!” Remus said and snapped a torn up notebook into his hand along with a pen. He poked himself in the thumb with said pen and used his blood as a filling, writing down three or four lines. Virgil could see only a few words (Remus wasn’t known for his amazing handwriting), but even with the words he did see, he knew that maybe he should stop by Roman’s room afterwards and tell him that he probably shouldn’t stay in the imagination during the next full moon. He pulled the dress out of the closet and checked them. Everything seemed to be fine, but one can never be too careful, so he checked the inside as well and grabbed a tape measure, measuring Remus’ chest, hips and waist. After he was sure everything was fine, he gave him the dress. Remus looked at them and actually stayed silent for a while, so Virgil counted it as a win on his part. Remus then jumped into the dress and got tangled up in the cloth, falling to the ground. Virgil snickered, helped him up and untangled him, moving the dress so that they would fit better. After he was done he turned around and gave Remus a pair of shoes to go along with the dress and when he put them on, turned to look at him. He nodded to himself. Re looked good. The dress was made from a lot of different layers of green cloth, each of them in their own shade of the colour. They were short, only going down towards the knees, but one part of the dress were black leggins, which went all the way down. The skirt was layered and looked like a flower, with multiple layeres of green in the bottom and a black overcoat on the top; the top of the dress was made from black leather with neon green laces tightening it. The sleeves were puffed and made from two types of cloth - a silky dark green that made up the sleeve and a seethrough lime green on top, slightly scrunched up. Neither the sleeves nor the skirt would be restraining any movement, so they were both pretty and practical. The boots that went with them were tall and black going almost all the way up to the knees and they had neon green laces - they looked the same as the top of the dress. They had platforms, but no heels, again, made to slay with style (and slay dragon witches without tripping over something, it is Remus we are talking about). Remus’ eyes actually sparkled when he saw how he looked in said dress and he twirled around, laughing when the skirt spinned. Yes, he was obnoxious, loud, had a very specific style and most of his thoughts and ideas were gross, but that didn’t mean that he hated looking cute. He was actually very soft, but he rarely let anyone see that. Virgil been knew tho. Like, what would you expect? He grew up with him and even though they were supposed to hate each other now, they were still best friends. And that won’t change. There was this one night, a pretty long time ago, Virgil still lived with the ‘Dark Sides’ and he and Remus were sitting in a tree, laughing about some new prank they pulled on Janus (hence why they were in a tree and not inside), when Remus looked at Virgil and told him: “You’re my brother, right? You might not be Roman, we might not be related, but you’re my brother!” And Virgil, even though he was a bit surprised by this, responded with a “Yep!” And that hasn’t changed.

Tags: @nyamafriend @exhaustedauthor @definietlynotsatan

[the-hilda-librarians-wife]

Wife’s Hilda Rewatch - The Storm

Alright y’all, I just took a History exam and I have two hours until my next class, so let us take this time to rewatch Hilda because honestly I need it *finger guns*

I wonder why Hilda didn’t tell Johanna what was wrong right away. I mean, they are very close, and telling people your worries usually helps.

*remembers past episodes*

Ah, yes. That would include mentioning she wrestled a ghost.

I know Frida is The Nerd of this show, but come on. When Hilda was picking a station on the radio, she skipped the one about a large beast being seen on Trolberg and just got??? Really happy with the weather report??? She’s s little bit of a nerd too, even if she doesn’t want us to know.

She is PURE.

And you know what else is pure?

“I know it’s hard to believe, but I don’t actually know many people with central heating” Whoever writes the dialogues for the creatures in this show has my ecternal love, I swear

I need to ask, I NEED to ask

Has anyone sketchbooked this scene?? Johanna is stuck with the snow, and then comes the librarian to help, maybe she lives nearby, or maybe she takes her to a coffee house or something... anyone? Or must I do it myself? Because don’t test me, I will do what I need to.

YALL I DIDN’T REMEMBER THAT RAVEN WORE A ROBE THIS IS THE FUNNIEST THING. HILDA DIDN’T EVEN HIVE IT TO HIM, HE JUST RAMSACKED SOMEONE’S CLOSET AND STOLE WHAT-

AND HE GOT HIMSELF CAKE TOO. WHICH HE ATE WITH A FORK.

Gotta love the “My sincere apologies to the three of all people who actually tune in into the frequency” because oh my, if it isn’t me when I take too long to update a fic.

“But... my cocoa” I stan one (1) powerful bird creature.

Hold up. Did David know Raven? I mean, we only saw Raven in The Bird Parade before this episode, and he wasn’t friends with Hilda yet. Did he just... not questioned that Hilda was friends with the ancient powerful entity which brought good luck to their town? Like

Hilda: Oh I know we’re on a rush to the weather station but this is my friend Raven btw

David, lifelong inhabitant of Trolberg who knows this creature’s lore BUT also knows Hilda:

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STOP for a few seconds. This is the “let’s appreciate the Hilda colour pallete” time

Thank you for your attention. Now back to the episode.

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You know what, for all her flaws, I admire Victoria van gale. The moment she realized that the trio wasn’t there to snitch on her or anything, she got so excited to talk about her science with children. No one who gives away stickers can be actually evil.

I mean COME ON. i know she’s an antagonist, but she’s not a villain like I see some people saying.

AND she likes coffee, which gives her points with me. Bean water drinkers unite

I also love how she just downright confessed tht she has instruments for controlling the weather. She didn’t even try to pretend, even though no one would believe a child and a talking Raven if they went back to the city and spread her secret.

“She’s a mad scientist” David do you honestly think that anyone who studies STEMs has their head i the right place?

Can we take a moment to appreciate that Raven didn’t even bother to argue with Hilda’s plan? This really is the episode of “this might as well happen”

Every time I watch Hilda coming in the room and discovering the baby weather spirit I remember that post where it’s like Van Gale’s face on a youtube video named “top ten anime betrayals”. Hehe what a classic

“You don’t know what ai had to do to catch it” Damn, this was said with such despair, such madness, that I truly want to know what it was. Wow, congratulations to the voice actress.

And it was SO SAD to see the bureau falling to pieces. Like. Dude. That was her home, her workplace, the place where she spent the most time and studied the subject she loved. I mean yeah, she did something pretty bad, but I don’t think she deserved this. Anyway, ready for my bs rating?

Wife’s Episode Score:

+5 for Raven in a robe

+5 for excited scientist Victoria Van Gay

+10 for giving me sketchbook fic ideas

+5 for all the “this might as well happen”

+2 for giving us a chance to see the colder colours of the colour pallete

Anyway, now I have one hour before class starts again.Thanks for having stuck around! 

[mysageukinbio]

JHB '81 Episode 23 as a list of incoherent Discord messages (ft. very, very many typos)

Episode 23

[8:11 PM]Ok JEong's in the Palacec, teh king is exciteed to see her

[8:12 PM]my internet is shit today apparently

[8:13 PM]The King went to se eOk Jeong himself, which is alpparently a lack of dignity

[8:15 PM]Ok Jeong and Sukjong have a tearful reunion

[8:16 PM]Ok Jeong: I am such a criminal

[8:16 PM]Sukjong: No I am, for making you go through this

[8:16 PM]"I've waited so long for this day"

[8:16 PM]OOk JEong b begins to cry and Sukjong wipes her tears

[8:17 PM]Inhyeon's court maids are spying on the situation

[8:17 PM]Skjong escorts Ok Jeong inside

[8:17 PM]The court maids report to Lady Oh

[8:18 PM]Lady OH: "Such an embarrasing sight. SThe Kinng welcomed Jang Suk Won himself!"

[8:19 PM]"If he was thinking of you he'd never do that"

[8:19 PM]"What if she gets arrogant?"

[8:19 PM]InhyeonL: do you want me to whip you?

[8:19 PM]I never sent you to spy on her

[8:19 PM]"You're lost your dingity as my head court lady!"

[8:20 PM]Some more crying

[8:20 PM]Sukjong: you must've spent so much time crying

[8:21 PM]It's been 6 yesrrs, but time has not touched you

[8:21 PM]Ok Jeong: That's because resentful women are not aged by time

[8:21 PM]"Don't leave me again!"

[8:21 PM]"Please, love me forever!"

[8:22 PM]Sukjong: Get us some food, neither of us could eat before out of anxiety

[8:22 PM]Scandalous hugging ensures

[8:23 PM]Lady Han tells Jangryeol about Ok Jeong's meeting with Sukjong

[8:24 PM]"You can hear their laughs from outside her chambers"

[8:24 PM]JAngryeol: Nice to know the King is so happy

[8:24 PM]Inhyeon: Now you can go spy on her, it's my duty as a legal wife

[8:25 PM]"Only to take care of her, and make sure nothing goes wrong"

[8:25 PM]Lady Oh: Oh everything is fine there :/"(edited)

[8:25 PM]Inhyeon: Great!

[8:26 PM]Inhyeon isn't as not-jealous as she days though

[8:26 PM]She's thinking of what might be happening

[8:26 PM]Inhyeon tries to ward off the jealousy

[8:27 PM]Inyeon feels lonely with Sukjong at Ok Jeong's place

[8:27 PM]Inhyeon: "Ho wstrange, why can't Is leep?"

[8:28 PM]Ok Jeong visits Inhyeon the day after

[8:29 PM]Lady Oh doesn't like that

[8:31 PM]Lady Cheon and Lady Oh have it out

[8:31 PM]"Lady Cheon: "Jang Suk Won is here to the Queen"

[8:31 PM]Lady OH: "Jang Suk Won? who's that?"

[8:31 PM]Lady Cheon: You don't know hwo JAng Suk Won is?

[8:31 PM]Lady Oh: How dare you? So rude!

[8:31 PM]Lady Oh: The Queen is still sleeping

[8:31 PM]Lady Cheon: Please tell the Queen

[8:31 PM]Lady Oh: Are you fucking deaf?

[8:31 PM]Laydy Oh keeps Ok Jeong waiting

[8:31 PM]Sukjong checks in on Ok Jeong

[8:32 PM]Lady Kim: She's still in front of the Queen's Palace, waiting to see her

[8:32 PM]Sukjong: The Queen must be jealous!

[8:32 PM]It's noon now

[8:32 PM]Lady Cheon: please tell the Queen Suk Won is here

[8:32 PM]Lady OH: I TOLD YOU SHE'S SLEEPNG

[8:33 PM]Sukjong's disappointed in the Queen

[8:33 PM]Lady Kim: She's just sleeping

[8:33 PM]Sukjong: I don't believe it!

[8:34 PM]Sukjong: This must be so hard on Suk Won...

[8:34 PM]Inhyeon: OMG i woke up so late!

[8:34 PM]Lady Oh: Jang Suk Won is outside

[8:34 PM]"She's so spiteful, I made her wait for 2 hours"

[8:35 PM]Inhyeon: How rude o fyou!

[8:35 PM]Commercial break!

[8:35 PM]And we're back

[8:36 PM]Ok Jeong finally meets Inhyeon

[8:36 PM]Ok Jeong: It's my honor to see you. How can I ever replay you?

[8:37 PM]Inhyeon: I't's my fault it took you so long to cocme back

[8:37 PM]"We may be of diffrernt background, but we serve the same husband. Le's not be jealous"

[8:37 PM]"It's for the sake of the nation's peace"

[8:37 PM]Ok Jeong: Yes, Your Majesty'

[8:38 PM]Jo Sa Seok and Prince Dongpyeong visit Jangryeol

[8:39 PM]Jo Sa Seok: It's like a dream, Jang Suk Won is finally back!

[8:39 PM]Prince Dongpyeong:The Southeners are goinng t be backc in power soon, all thanks to you

[8:39 PM]Jangryeol: That's thanks to Jang Suk Won, not me

[8:39 PM]Sa Seok: how is she?

[8:39 PM]JAngryeol: THey're fine

[8:40 PM]"I may have called her back, but the Queen and JAng Suk Won have to get along"

[8:40 PM]Sorry: "They are getting along"

[8:40 PM]"I non longer care about parties, be it Westerners, Southerners, Noron or Soron"

[8:41 PM]"Everyone has to get along for the nation to be at peace"

[8:41 PM]Sa sSeok doesn't like the sound o f that

[8:41 PM]Song Shi UYeol: They're getting along?

[8:41 PM]Min Yu Jung: Tht's right, JAg Suk Won's submitted to the Quene's authority

[8:42 PM]Min Jeong Jung (Inhyeon's uncle): Everyone's finally getting along, for now

[8:42 PM]Song Shi Yeol: I don't think she's getting along

[8:42 PM]"She's greedy, somethihng will happen soon"

[8:42 PM]"How dare a lowly cocncubine steal favor from the Queen?"

[8:43 PM]"It's too bad we couldn't stop her from entering th ePalace, somethingn bad will happen soon"

[8:43 PM]Ok Jeong's mom is here to see her

[8:43 PM]Ok Jeong says everything's fine

[8:44 PM]Ok JEong's mom: I'm so happy for you

[8:44 PM]Ok Jeong: The Queen is so amazong andn pure

[8:44 PM]"She's way better than Queen Ingyeong"

[8:45 PM]"That worries me"

[8:45 PM]"I want to show my family I'm better than any noblewoman"

[8:45 PM]"She has the Westernenrs behind her, I have the Southerners"

[8:46 PM]"But the Westerners are in power, so I have no power"

[8:46 PM]Ok Jeong's mom: ???

[8:46 PM]Ok Jeong: "I'm almost 30, the King won't like me anymore"

[8:46 PM]"So I need power"

[8:47 PM]"THe Queen's family won't leave me alone, and I can't bear being left alone or kicked out again"

[8:47 PM]"I must start the fight. I must give birth first"

[8:48 PM]"I'll do anything - ghosts, magic - I just need you to help me"

[8:48 PM]"It's not too late for me, although i wish i'd gotten a child before"

[8:48 PM]"I can't give the Queen a achance to be favored"

[8:49 PM]"I have to sever the King's trust in the Queen"

[8:49 PM]Ccourt Lady Yu and her friend (the favored court ladies) have something to say

[8:50 PM]to the Queen

[8:50 PM]"She deserves to be whipped"

[8:50 PM]"Jang Suk Won is slandering you!"

[8:51 PM]Inhyeon: "Suk Won would never do that"

[8:51 PM]Yu: "Jang Suk Won is doing everythinngn to get pregnant!"

[8:51 PM]Inheyon; "kk but idc"

[8:51 PM]"Don't see me again if this is what you're going to say"

[8:52 PM]Lady Oh: "those rumors from the servants are all over the Palace, pelase watch out"

[8:52 PM]Inhyeon: "I'm writing a letter, get out"

[8:52 PM]Lady Oh finds two crying court maids

[8:52 PM]They heard Jang Suk Won's court maids slandering the Queen

[8:53 PM]When they called them out, they beat them

[8:53 PM]Andn Lady Cheon let them

[8:53 PM]aLady Cheon slapped the court maids

[8:53 PM]Lady Oh is mad

[8:54 PM]Lady Oh: Did you hit these maids?

[8:54 PM]Lady Cheon: yeah so?

[8:54 PM]Oh: Why? Because they called out rumors?

[8:54 PM]Lady OH: Where is your dignity?

[8:54 PM]"How dare you stare me in the yee?"

[8:54 PM]Oh slaps Cheon

[8:55 PM]Jang Suk Won: What's going on?

[8:55 PM]She's asking Lady Cheon

[8:55 PM]:ady Cheon tells Jang Suk Won what happened

[8:55 PM]JAng Suk Won: "How dare you slap the Queen's court maids?"

[8:56 PM]"Apologize to the Quen's court ladies"

[8:56 PM]"Never mind, I'll spologize instead"

[8:56 PM]"Lady Cheon's fault is my fault, I'ms orry."

[8:56 PM]Lady Oh is overwhelmed

[8:57 PM]Sukjong wants to vsit Ok Jeong for her tea

[8:57 PM]He hears her crying from outside her chambers

[8:57 PM]End of episode!

[kanmom51]

Yesterday...i commented on a jikook video and someone replied me there..saying all shippers are the same in the fandom..toxic nd liars. And after... they said tht they ship liskook and jenlisa and jimin with a girl too but i don't remember her name now.So after listening to her....i asked them back "you ship the boys with girls only..are you homophobic?" And the answer they gave was "yes"...

I just want to say that it is so sad that someone who i assume like the way they were talking and their pfp... is a young soul and still thinks that love should be based on genders.It breaks my heart that they openly saying this without even thinking that bcz of this types of statements...LGBTQ people are not getting their rights they deserved. What's wrong if two PPL of same gender love eachother? What loss they're causing you? In my country..i know some people who are in their 40s now and closeted gay nd still living a single life..(may b just in public eyes but still they can't live openly here at all) bcz gay marriages are not legal here and every one who doubt them of being gay...are throwing hate and cheap comments towards them in a regular basis on social medias. It's so sad to see that a person whose now in his 40s...still living in a closet cz of people like these.Evryone deserve love...you only live once...hope people understand this and change their mind..atleast our youth..young people so that our future is not like this. Sometimes i get scared when i think these situations and thn jikook. They have powers, money....they can live wherever they want in future if they don't want to live in a homophobic country... but normal people don't have that..it makes me sad to see tht homophobia still exists in this world to this much extent.

My apologies it took me such a long time to get to your ask anon.

It's funny how they called BTS shippers toxic and liars all while they are shippers themselves only with girls. So shipping is ok as long as it's done between a male and a female...

Indeed your conclusion of them being homophobic so true, and well, they themselves confirmed it without any kind of hesitation or shame.

it is sad.

It's sad there is so much hate and prejudice and discrimination.

I too wish people were would just be BETTER.

[obviouslyelementary]

Worth it - Creativitwins

I love them so much. Set after SvS Redux (Putting others first) (whats the name of this video whatever Roman is upset)

Tags: Light angst, creativitwins, Remus is Roman’s older brother and no one can change my mind. 

ALSO please do not say things like: “I wanna see Remus angst” or “I bet Remus felt bad about this” or everything like that. This is my interpretation of Remus, and in my interpretation, Remus does NOT feel angst like the other sides. He DOESN’T CARE about Janus calling him the ‘evil brother’, he DOESN’T CARE about being ‘abandoned’, he DOESN’T CARE about everyone loving Roman more than him. Cool? Cool. (Sorry those comments in my fanfics make me feel icky so I wanted to make that clear!)

Anyway enjoy!!!!!!!!!!

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When they were little, everything was so easy... they didn't know right of wrong, they didn't know bad of good, they just knew they loved each other, and they wanted to spend the entire day together, playing and having fun in the imagination.

As they grew up, they took sides, they fell apart, and they didn't mean it, but it happened. It happened so fast and suddenly that when they met again, it was like they were seeing the exact opposite version of themselves right in front of them. And it hurt, knowing they now were like water and oil, and they would never mix again. They would never be the same again.

And before they knew it, they were so far apart from each other they didn't even recognize themselves anymore.

But one day that feud had to end. That uncomfortable feeling had to be taken away from them, they had to come to terms with each other again.

They just never thought it would be like this.

Roman had his room locked to all the sides. Patton had been trying for hours to talk to him, say he was sorry and trying to amend things. Janus had kept a constant eye at the bedroom, making sure he wouldn't miss the moment Roman stepped outside to apologize. Logan didn't quite understand that silent treatment, but he also tried to bring some sense to Roman through the door. Virgil left notes under the door, trying a different approach, but they were never answered.

They decided Remus would have to be the one to enter and solve the issue.

No one else had free access to the imagination apart from the twins. And since Roman wasn't opening his door, Remus made his way through the longer path, getting inside the imagination fields through his door and travelling all the way to Roman's. He had to sail over a huge sea, and walk through open green fields and dark forests to find Roman's bedroom door, but eventually he found it, deep within the thick woods, carved on a big tree.

When he opened the door, it was like he was entering a whole new world.

Roman's bedroom had never looked like this. His room was, usually, a large royalty room, with a huge bed, comfy blankets, red and golden adorning all little nicks and crannies, a large dressing table, closets, dressers, thick rugs that covered the floor, windows to the imagination that usually shone the bright sun of a warm day of summer. Usually, the room was beautiful.

But not today.

Everything was the same, but it looked like an abandoned tower. All the golds and reds were grey and brown, ripped apart and dusty with age. The floor was cold and made of stone, and the room itself turned so much smaller, like a dungeon cell. Remus looked out of the window next to the door and saw how high they were, in the tallest of towers, with the sky dark, threatening the world with rains and thunders. He winced as he heard one in the background, and turned around again, looking through the darkness without finding Roman anywhere at first. The room seemed empty.

But then he checked the bed again, and noticed a lump on the dusty and old blankets, approaching it with hesitation and gently placing his hand over the lump, feeling the warmth coming from it, different from the rest of the cold room.

"Ro?" he asked, softly, and sat down, staring at the blankets. After a moment, it shifted, and a groan came from underneath it.

"Leave me alone" he grumbled, softly, and Remus could hear the coarseness in his voice probably from crying. That made the duke's usually empty heart squeeze a little, and he touched Roman's body again, squeezing it gently.

"Ro... talk to me bro..." he said softly, like he usually didn't, but he knew he had to do this. No one else had a chance. "Please?"

Roman didn't answer, but Remus heard a quiet sob coming out of the blankets, and they shook just slightly. So Remus had an idea, remembering something from long ago, snapping his finger and making it appear in his hands. Then he snapped his fingers again, his clothes changing to comfy pajamas, and made his way under the blankets, just like Roman was, seeing his back turned to him.

He nudged Roman with the stuffed animal on his back, and Roman groaned softly, turning around to face Remus with his eyes filled with tears and an angry expression on his face.

"I told you to g... mister Arthur?" Roman gasped, his angry expression disappearing as soon as he saw the stuffed doll, old and dusty, and even a bit ripped, but completely intact otherwise, his little foam sword and button eyes exactly how Roman remembered. "Wha... how?"

"I stole him from you" Remus said, looking down at the stuffed doll tht looked a bit too much like Roman, with the stash and the sword and the stylish hairstyle "when we fell apart... when you decided not to be my friend anymore. I wanted to remember you somehow. Sorry."

Roman looked at Remus, and then down at mister Arthur, gently taking him from his hand and caressing the little doll. He remembered when he had made it, so long ago, and his eyes teared up even more, wrapping his arms around the doll and hugging it firmly, as if that would settle him down. Remus watched in silence, because he wasn’t good at words like the others, or good at hugging, or good at anything really. But he knew he was the only one that could reach Roman, at least a little.

So he watched as Roman began to sob quietly, hugging the doll, curling up on himself, and he did nothing, laying down quietly next to his twin, staring at him with a feeling of fulfillment in his heart that probably no one else would feel in the situation. He could imagine Virgil and Patton freaking out to see Roman cry like that, and he could imagine Janus and Logan's confusion, not knowing what to do, but Remus knew his little bro.

He knew he just needed time.

"R-Rem, hug me" Roman whimpered suddenly, in a voice so child-like that it was almost cute, and through his sobs he looked up at Remus, needy and upset, and Remus gave him a nod and a smile, moving closer and wrapping his arms around Roman, pulling him close until he was settled against his chest, face pressed against his chest, hands holding tight onto his pajama shirt.

Remus leaned down and gave him a kiss on the head, and hummed contently when Roman sobbed even louder and squeezed them together in a tight and uncomfortable hug.

Remus wasn't a good brother. He wasn't good at words, and he wasn't intelligent. He didn't think twice before teasing Roman and pranking him, and he didn't doubt his own ability to be the most annoying bitch there ever was.

But unlike the others, he knew exactly what Roman needed. Because he was his little brother, and he would defend him from anything, even if that meant being put aside again.

He didn't care.

As long as Roman was his happy, convinced self, everything was worth it.