#arm the poc

[hobohobgoblim]

[flordeamatista]

Glimpse of You

pairing: Beach Bar Owner!Ari Levison x curvy!Reader (any body type)

concept: Your darkness will be drained away by him. Because you gave him air, he'll let you breathe and release.

word count: 1.3k

warnings: Chronic pain, fatigue, anxiety, orgasm pain therapy,poetic smut (f receiving), talking about medication, angst feelings–feeling useless and weak, body worshiping, nicknames : my soul — princess

a/n: I dedicate this to all my love ones suffering from chronic pain. It may not be your struggle exactly, but this man would do anything for you.

Beta by the lovely @lookiamtrying

Thank you to my loves for encouraging me to write this @lfnr-blog-blog-blog and @mrsmischief209

Masterlist

There are times when you need to use a whip to help yourself up, and although you take punches after punches, you'll see the light at the end of the tunnel 

Your body curled even further into itself after a sharp stab. When it creeps into your life and takes away your joy of just being you, you are overtaken by it. Cry like waves into a dark night of pain and no one will understand why you cry. Because of this pain, you know this illness has no cure, just the ability to deal with it. 

Yes, it can make it numb, but you don't want numbness, you want freedom.

The waves of the dark thunder ripple upon your body as you drown in another cry. The bathtub continued to claw at your body, but you couldn't defend yourself. As you float with your head up, breathing heavily from your pain self, the water around you begins to soothe the burn. 

Your hands pushed up against the walls of the tub, trying to crawl to the edge for succor, for salvation. The fire surged its way to your fingers, and the white-hot pain swept over the rest of your body. Your hands gripped the edge of the tub, but the pain spread to your fingers and they dropped. Your body felt like it was boiling, and you screamed into the dark ocean of your torture.

 Cool water washed over your body, causing the burn on your body to rest. The room was ablaze with agony. The pain that accompanied it surged across your body in waves. 

Like a companion, the pain surrounding is so alive, so painful. 

You open your eyes, but the world is blurry. Your gaze is drawn to a face. His face is filled with sorrow as he stares deep into your eyes. There is nothing like his eyes in the world. There is calm and relief in it, and you have seen the world.

Ari's face is swallowed whole in the pain you are in. Your pain is his pain. He wants every drop of pain inhaling in your body to be gone because he only wishes every breath of yours to be painless. Unless he is plying your body with the most beautiful moans. His mission is to free your body. After that first night and that night in his club, he known you for a few months and started running after you.

His words make your mind less painful, and you feel a rush of relief. The pain would be less confusing if it was separate from you. 

“my soul ?'' His words forced their way into your mind, calming you like no other. 

Having weakness in front of him is not what you're used to. Traveling around and teasing him for months, now he sees the weak side of you. An individual suffering from chronic illness cannot be loved in this way because this is when one can be strong for days and then dark for the next.

It's natural to love strength, but do you love me for my own weaknesses, because I have demons of pain of my own?

In managing chronic pain, one must always be prepared for the next flare-up, never quite knowing if the threat has passed or if it is just saving its energy for the next attack. 

There had previously been a wide range of medications prescribed by doctors, including high-strength opiates, anti-inflammatories, and lidocaine injections. Pain was managed with medication, but fatigue, nausea, and concentration problems resulted, making you feel worse.

You even tried a yoga retreat but it only improve your flexibility. You traveled around Europe to be free and live your life to the fullest, but your fullest was Ari that day.

"Princess" he repeated, then you understood. It has a deeper meaning to him now than when he first said it.

He is telling you that he is you.

He lifts you out of the tub and towards his bedroom, he lays you down to ease that pain.

You flew out of your skin and the pain still felt real.

 ''Ari, we don't have to do this,'' you said. ''We don't have to do this for me.''

“I'll take it from you and just need to let go. ''It's my job to make you fly, sweet love ''

Your upper body was tickled and stroked as his lips swayed with each kiss. He gently rubbed your sides while tracing patterns on your thighs after pausing at the hips to brush his thumbs over the lines that nature had so skillfully drawn.

Because he is ready to take your pain, his voice did not carry pain. There was still heat surrounding you, but no fire.

With a blue sparkle in his eye and a playful smirk, he hovered over the fleshy mound, named after the goddess of love. He slowly laved the full length of your folds up to the top, without breaking eye contact. Your pulse quickened, you reached for Ari's hair, threading it through it and gazing at him as your hips rose off the mattress.

He continued to kiss you down. You whipped a sound that echoed down Ari's spine as he teased your little bundle of nerves with his mouth and fingers, reveling even more in the sounds you made and the way your body tensed. 

He is transforming your pain sensitivities into desires for enjoyment.

''Ari,'' you whisper. The voice has not changed, the pain is still there, but you are separate.

You're not sure how your body is even moving right now, your fingers clenched so tightly in the bed sheets that you're about to rip them apart with your nails as you clench around Ari's fingers. Suddenly, your legs shiver, your back arches, and you gasp as the pain goes away. Coming down from the orgasm happens gradually, and you squirm.

You cry a gust of dark wind and rain, tears dripping from the edges of your eyes like railings carrying sorrow and remorse.  With the slightest effort, the arms felt heavy to move, ones that could not bend or lift. 

He relaxed his jaw, allowing his tongue to slide deeper into his mouth, expertly peeling back the thin layers of flesh with the tip before poking inside, like a bird harvesting fruit. The more Ari surrendered to the taste, the more you hummed, driving him insane with vibrations that increased the more Ari lost himself in it. As he penetrated you, fully holding your hips, precision was only at the back of his mind. 

Your darkness will be drained away by him. Because you gave him air, he'll let you breathe and release.

Sensed you were close, Ari sucked again at the swollen little nub, flicking the tongue at its tip, sending you over the edge. You moaned his name as your body uncoil like a spring released from tension. A sigh escapes your lips. You're hot and heavy, and your skin is burning.

For the first time in years, it took several minutes to realize that ecstasy Ari had completely eliminated severe discomfort. The painkiller was cured of agony with pleasure at that moment, and this was the best treatment. 

In spite of the harshest waves, he will hold out to the tide so you can keep growing and blooming

[gloriasato]

i havent watched a single spooky month episode in my life but these two kinda funky

[sukibenders]

The way some people are reacting to the Oscar nominations, specifically in regards towards Barbie, and many other things surrounding it holds certain undertones, especially when they then start to go and deny America Ferrera's talent among other things, that are very concerning. Like let's not do that. Especially if you're writing an article for a newspaper (LA Times) that makes digs towards the other films and their nominees, mainly who were women, and say that that proves the point of Barbie. Even though the point of the film was that women have to work harder than men just to get their foot in the door, not about shaming other women, but I digress.

[halo-lll-odst]

consistency? what's that?

[drbtinglecannon]

Hunter's absolute obsession with sewing and him low-key bragging about getting neater stitches than Darius is what I'm gonna cling to rn

"I-it's not like I don't wanna return! I just, uh, need a way to pass the time. That's all."

And the way he chooses to pass the time is with a hobby Darius initially taught him and then Camila helped him further. The two adults that Hunter has the most connection to, combining into the main outlet Hunter uses to express and enjoy himself.

Anyway I'm normal about all of this.

[xannerz]

part of our job as arm*nians is to remind amerikatsiner that it's okay to be critical abt tur/aze!! you wont be racist for criticizing their fascist policies and war crimes!! uwu it's okay!! ""brown"" countries can also be imperialists 💖 and it's okay to call them out on it uwu

[flannelepicurean]

One of my besties, who knows my taste in media: fr, you need to play coral island. it is gay AF. like we are reasonably sure the artist drew gay dudes for DeviantArt or something

I've had it on my Steam wishlist for a while, because I love me a "little tasks" game, and I love it when there are more POC in the cast. Then I got me a gift card from some dear folks, and I was like, "You know what? It's time."

THEY. WERE. NOT. KIDDING.

The art is legitimately very, very good. I love the character designs.

EVERYTHING IN THE GAME IS BEAUTIFUL AND PRECIOUS. The music is lovely. The environment is GORGEOUS, and the use of 3D in the landscape of it is really nice without being overwhelming.

There are a whole bunch of middle-aged people in the cast of characters, and I just want to adopt every single one of them. THE MINI-SCENE. OF CARPENTRY MOM. AND CARPENTRY DAD. HELPING YOU SET UP THE STUFF. IN YOUR HOUSE. It destroyed me like a Sailor Moon villain beholding the power of love. Interracial "capture the critters minigames" couple with the "we've been married for 30 years and hey, amirite?! hee-hee, love this one," energy? ADOPTED. Betty. BETTY!!! AdOpTeD. I cannot cope.

Random animals everywhere. Dog named Taco that splashes in the fountain every day, and if you try to talk to Taco, it says, "Taco is busy and can't talk right now." YA GODDAMN RIGHT. Dogs, cats, Fennec foxes, rabbits, a lizard. I don't even know what else. And those are just the pet-type animals I've seen! There's also WILDLIFE all over the island!

All the farming, fishing, mining, tree-chopping goodness you'd expect from this genre. But also OCEAN STUFF. And I didn't know this was so important to me until I had it, but you can RUN IN THE SHALLOW WATER AREAS. Low tide pools, trickling bits of streams with pebbly bottoms and stuff, and also just...what looks like ankle-deep water that has a clear path within a larger body of water. Water's part of the landscape, not an automatic barrier. And that's SO FUCKING COOL.

Anyway, play Coral Island. It's not 100% done, but goddamn. I'm like 8 days into the first season, and I never want to leave.

[sariels-world-ella]

A short low effort comic based off a conversation I heard in real life

Undertale by Toby Fox

[thevalleyisjolly]

I wish literally any other one of the nominated movies this awards season won instead of Oppenheimer. No offence to the actors (although really, what the hell did RDJ do that was so exceptional), but I'm physically upset that they rewarded such an Oscar-bait movie.

[beauty-of-nyx]

I find it so funny that people are actually getting mad that we're all gravitating towards Hob/Dream and saying it's because they're white men, and that we should be writing about other tags because there are more confirmed queer and poc characters than these guys.

[hobohobgoblim]

The only thing stopping a bad guy with a gun is a good boy with a gun.

[velvetstreets]

I’m trying to initiate having my tummy peek out in certain outfits bc all tummies r good tummies but I’m struggling putting it into practice for myself 😩

[volvolts]

tbh i always thought apoo was meant to look something like a walkman or at least a radio cassette. like his head shape pre timeskip looks more tube-y and old school robot to me and he didn't really have that >:} energy yet. i didn't see the ape resemblence until he became more prominent in wano

[bisaster-energy]

nimona is going so hard rn I'm only 20 minutes in bruh

[somacruising]

I’m sorry but if I see anyone of my mutuals reblogging the C*stlevania Netflix show then I’m immediately unfollowing