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fic pride friday
I finally get to start a tag game! Saw this one go by in the wild, and though I couldn’t grab the exact post to reblog, I wanted to bring the concept over to my go-to folks.
Rules: Post your favourite line or passage from as many of your published works as you’d like. Let yourself feel proud of your creations! Tag as many people as you post snippets, so your fellow fic friends can be proud, too.
There’s a little slice of Husbands Era from words to get off his chest (911 / 911 Lone Star):
Times like this, TK honestly thinks he lives for the second that Carlos settles back and lets go. He hopes that feeling never gets old — the way he sinks back into his arms, just a bit, and his limbs lose the last of their tension, like he’s found the exact space where he fits and can exhale with his whole body.
There’s this Carlos and Iris truth swap from to build a home (911 Lone Star):
I think you're my new favorite person, she'd said — soft but sure, like it wasn't something wondrous after losing her dad, just laid in his lap like a gift — and he'd swallowed and said the only thing he could think of that might've been worth as much in return. I think I'm gay. She'd turned her head and smiled into his shoulder, slipping her arm around his to slot their fingers together and squeeze. Fine, she'd said, warm and wry and completely without surprise. I'll drop my 'think' if you will.
There’s this Met Gala moment from scenes from an unfinished story (The Magicians)
Really, he'd said flatly, when El had first shared the idea, you want to go as The Little Mermaid. Eliot had rolled his eyes. Well not the neutered Disney version, he'd answered, the Hans Christian Andersen original. In all its forbidden gay glory. Quentin had blinked, thoroughly confused, and El had given him a look he never did decipher. He wrote it as a love letter, Q, he'd explained, soft and sad, to a man he couldn't have.
There’s this moment before a bittersweet reunion from What Baking Can Do (The Magicians)
He's technically seen El… since; there's a copy made of clay back at the cottage, lying silent and too still in Eliot's bed. But this is the form he knows — towering and full of grace, even bent over a workbench, brows drawn together, sifting flour into a big wooden bowl. Quentin's clearly caught him mid-setup, a telltale line of little clay vessels arranged across one side of the table, and it's sort of fascinating to watch the way he's adapted, the duality of the picture it paints — a faded apron slung over some sort of sheer, gauzy shirt that's tied at his side, sleeves rolled at each cuff to the elbow and hands stripped free of rings, the room's worn wood and stone an unadorned backdrop for the drama of the dark crown of gems that still circles his head. It's an image Quentin doesn't think he could forget, but there's the strangest urge to frame it, hang it, label it in bronze: High King Humbled, 2017. Flesh and bone.
There’s this truly unfortunate timing from Confidence Man (What’s Your Number?)
The Imperial March is impossible to ignore in the best of situations, much less mid-cunnilingus, but trying to would be significantly easier without the subsequent knock on the door. She stiffens, fingers tightening in his hair, thighs clamping down around his head like a vice. "Oh, fuck," she moans, in a way that's meant to be mortified but, to his ears and his brain and every one of his nerve endings, still sounds like she's seconds from flying off a fucking cliff. "Ally, I swear to god," he says, locked between her legs, "if I come in my pants with your mother outside I may never maintain an erection again."
There’s this reflection on the past and present from Ashes and Flame (Every You and Every Me) (The Hunger Games)
I want it to be as it was. A purging of everything that haunts me, down to the smallest detail. But when I'm done, there's only space and shadow in living color, more abstract than anything that came before it. A fiery sunset over the Meadow grass, the shape of mockingjay wings. And two silhouettes on the horizon, together but separate, forever moving forward, and backward, and nowhere at all.
And finally, there’s this unbalanced negotiation from By Any Other (Lucky Number Slevin), which is maybe my favorite cold opening to anything I’ve ever written.
"You need a name." She spreads out the stack of takeout menus she's stolen from the front desk, sprawled on her stomach on their third motel bed in a week. The wallpaper is the worst she's seen yet, and is still somehow better than what was in her old bathroom. "What about Indian?" "As names go? It's a little tongue-in-cheek." He flops to his back beside her, scratching at his stomach and squashing half the pile. "I could go for some Chinese." She wrinkles her nose, wrestling the menus free. "No Chinese. I hate Chinese." "You are Chinese." "Yeah, it's tragic, they revoked my membership and everything."
Tagging in @liminalmemories21, @paperstorm, @carlos-in-glasses, @reyesstrand, @rmd-writes, @lemonlyman-dotcom , and @welcometololaland !
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Percy Hynes White Allegations Debunked
Important note: A majoity of the information is coming from a twitter account FreddysRevenges. I will also be showing you a statement from Percy, as well as a statement from one of his supposed victims, Jane (Her twitter is Relation4y).
I was originally going to link the twitter thread so you could see all the screenshots (there are 41 tweets in total), but then with the changes made to twitter, I was going to screenshot most of it and put it in reblogs. However, the whole thread was uploaded on thread reader so now I will link it and you can view everything. And I encourage to look there as well because I'll be summarizing but not including everything because or else it would be really, really long.
So to start, if you haven't heard of him, Percy Hynes White is a 22 year old Canadian actor. He's been in some movies/shows before but got really popular after being in season 1 of the show Wednesday that premiered last November. In January of this year, he was accused of sexual assault (which has gone back and forth from being assault or rape), being a racist as well as a nazi.
On that note:
This all started back on the 18th of January of this year. A girl named Aries retweeted "proof" of Percy sleeping with an underage girl. Aries added that the girl had lied about her age to the public, saying she was sixteen, but that he'd known how old she truly was. Additionally, Aries said that the underage girl and Percy had been talking since the girl was 13 and she could have sworn that the girl had told her (Aries) that they'd been messing around when she was 13 but couldn't exactly recall.
The underage girl she was referring to is named Jane. Jane is a former friend of Aries, with Jane having ended the friendship in 2020. Prior to that, Jane had been shown on Aries' Instagram page. There are pictures and videos of her doing drugs with her and Aries' other friends. Jane was the only minor of the group. The other girls, all 10 of them, were 18+ with three of them being over 21 years of age.
That same day, on the 18th, Aries lied about the age difference between Jane and Percy. She said that he was four years older than her and would have supposedly been 18 when he and Jane slept together. However, that is not true. Percy's birthday is in October of 2001. Jane was born in March of 2004. That can be proven based on a screenshot of her Instagram bio which previously had her age in it (19), as well as a birthday selfie in which she says I'm 19 now. Hence, the age difference is 2.4 years and not four as previously claimed.
The post that Aries retweeted, the one showing the "proof" was from her friend Kayla who posted the misleading private instagram messages between her and Jane. Those messages made it seem like he'd had sex with her even though he knew she was underage, even though it left out the fact that he was also underage at the time. With both of them being Canadian, the age is consent is 16 and having sex with a 14 or 15 year old is not a criminal offense if the partner is less than 5 years and there is no relationship of trust, authority or dependency or any other exploitation of the young person according to The Official Website of the Government of Canada. 
Aries then doubles down on it. She said that the reason no one had any other proof was because they thought it was normal. She said that Jane, though she did not identify her by name in that particular tweet, "was severely groomed and severely thinks he loved her or something."
But people were able to gather who she was talking about because in another tweet she only censored one letter of Jane's name (J*ne) and based on Instagram story highlights where Jane was tagged. Aries nor Kayla follow Jane and Jane does not follow either of them. Aries had since referred to her as one of her ex friends and says that they do not talk anymore.
Meanwhile, it was shown that Percy and Jane are still on good terms. They follow each other and one of Percy's ex, Katie Douglas, still follows him and follows Jane as well. They've both shown support for Jane's art
All of the information provided by Kayla and Aries was not only a lie, but her (Jane's) history with Percy was used without her consent. She (Jane) tweeted on April 18th that she was not a victim and telling people to stop messaging her on inatsgram. On the 19th, she retweeted the post from the FreddysRevenges account about how Aries lied about the age difference.
On twitter, there were some people were wanting Jane to confirm Aries' story. Aries said she couldn't force people to talk about it and had to respect their privacy. In another tweet, she said they don't talk anymore and she has no way of getting into contact with her. She also claimed that Jane has seen her tweets and made her own choice, implying that Jane had no problem with what was being said.
The user she was responding to then questioned why she would use her without her consent and without verifying anything. Aries said she was responding to a friend, when she retweeted the initial post, and didn't think it would get that much attention.
In multiple tweets, Aries referred to Percy as a pedophile. There are at least seven screenshots that show her saying it. She goes on to say that he likes girls 14-17 years old, again without mentioning how old he was at the time. She also said that he is a "known assaulter and groomer and pedophile in Toronto n me and my bud were victims."
Then we have the nude pictures. Aries was sent two nude pictures of Percy (he was not showing his genitals) by an anonymous account. Those pictures were supposedly sent by him to a group chat he was in with minors. The anonymous account was not in the group chat, but a friend of theirs was and they saved the photos on an old phone. However, there is no proof that the chat was real or that Percy sent those himself. since Aries' tweet, these pictures have gone viral. The anonymous account said that he'd sent those around 2 years ago, which would be around January of 2021. But there are pictures of his hair to debunk this. In early to mid 2020, he dyed his hair blonde. In mid to late 2020, he dyed it back to the original color with it just touching his shoulders from late 2020 to early 2021. His hair in the nude pictures showed his hair shorter, looking like it is slightly past his ears.
There was an article posted when Percy's nudes were leaked. It dates back to June 26 of 2019. That was 3 and a half years before they were posted by Aries. The timing of the article would mean he was 17 at the time and therefore, a minor.
Aries then denied ever posting his nudes. She insinuated that because he was not showing his genitals, then that meant it didn't count as a nude picture. But the word nude is defined as wearing no clothes which he most definitely isn't in the picture. What Aries did, because the pictures were originally from when he was a minor, counts as distribution of child pornography. She denied what she did was child pornography, but in doing so, she admitted in a tweet that those were nude pictures.
What Aries did, sharing the pictures for all to see, with him being naked and without his consent, counts as revenge porn. One of her tweets reads: "my god I am so happy these pics r on the internet. look at him. this who the haters defending. I'm crying laughing thru the pain rn" counts as cause them distress or embarrassment in the definition of revenge porn. It is a criminal offense in the eye of the Canadian law.
There were four girls who came forward--Aries, Desiree, Karis and Kayla via sexual assault, enabling rape and verbal abuse. All but Kayla claim to be a victim of his. No one else came forward. In a tweet, Aries said no one had any proof that he did anything. There are multiples times she's said this. In another one, she said she didn't have any proof, just what she's posting on twitter. Then 10 minutes later, she contradicted herself, saying "cus we got proof" and will let the court legally prove her story. But then 13 minutes after that tweet, she contradicted herself again and said she had no proof.
Someone asked Aries if anyone tried going to the police. Aries said in a tweet on the 18th of January that one person tried back in high school but the police did nothing about it. But Aries is the only one having accused Percy of sexually assaulting her so if she didn't go to the police then no one did. 23 days later, Aries contradicted herself by saying "we did try going to authorities." Once the accusations went viral, Aries said she was going to proceed with legal action. But then she says she hasn't gone to the authorities because she is waiting for Percy to make the first move and it's unclear what move she expects him to make. So if Percy doesn't make the first move and makes a case in a legal setting himself then she won't do it. If she has been talking to lawyers but never presses charges, Percy can't be arrested or be dealt any legal repercussions because the accusations never came into a courtroom.
On at least 9 different tweets, Aries alluded to Percy raping her. But once articles started coming out, she changed her words. She said that he never raped her, that he "assaulted me and touched me, grabbed me, spoke to me and made inappropriate innuendos." She also said that she'd made the twitter thread to shed a light on what he did to others. In another tweet on the 22nd of January, four days after she accused him, Aries said that people may have been misreading her tweets, saying that she did it for her own assault (assault, not rape) and for other people.
But even after that, in February she again referred to him as a rapist (remember, she is the only one who accused him of assault/rape. The other accusers did not).
Aries claimed that she was sexually assaulted by Percy at a party at his house in Toronto at the end of summer/fall, possibly early winter of 2017. But that can't be true because from June 17th of 2017 to December 4th of 2017, Percy was in the U.S to film for the series The Gifted. There is an article that mentioned the location where it was being filmed (Atlanta Georgia). There are also pictures and videos of him attending promo events like the San Diego Comic Con in June of 2017, as well as pictures posted by his co-stars (like Jamie J. Chung) showing him hanging out with them.
What's interesting is that initially, Aries watched Wednesday without a problem. The first episode came out on November 23rd of 2022. Her initial tweets made no mention of Percy or the alleged assault. It wasn't until sixteen days later on December 9th, where she said that seeing Percy (in a show about her favorite character) made her want to die. The next day on December 10th, she re-tweeted a post from Pop Cave and said that she needed him gone from this world.
Her initial tweets contradict what she said on January 18th, in a tweet where she said she'd been trying to tell fans about Percy ever since Wednesday came out. There are (at least) five screenshots of her posts/retweets regarding the show with a couple of them now deleted at the time the threadreader post was made.
On February 10th, she said she only watched the season one time and that's it. That same day, she said she didn't know Percy was in the show until she saw him in the first episode. She added that she called her friend Kayla and they reacted together to him being in the show to which Aries said they were "both sick to our stomachs, shocked and queasy."
In spite of that, they both watched the show. Kayla said that Aries "went into a full blown breakdown." Aries said she wasn't okay with seeing his face. But even with that reaction, she watched the whole season. Percy appeared in all 8 episodes and according to Screen Time Data, had a total of 1 hour and 1 minute of screentime.
Now back to Jane. Remember that Aries had said, though at the time she didn't mention Jane by name, that the person (Jane) was 13-17 and severely groomed by him. That was on January 18th. As I mentioned, Jane's birthday is in March of 2004, so the alleged timeline is from 2017-2021. Kristina, one of Aries' friends, confirmed seeing Jane and Percy together in 2020-2021 when Jane was sixteen. At some point, all three girls were friends. There are dates form late 2020, 2021 and early 2022 of them being on good terms.
And if you remember that in 2017, Aries said she was assaulted by Percy and yet, for 2 years she didn't say or do anything when Jane was hanging out with Percy. she didn't try to stop it or get parents/police involved. It was after the were no longer friends that she actually said something.
The big thing to note is that Aries doesn't even know Percy personally. In a series of tweets from January 19th to February 15th, she said that she doesn't keep up with him, never dated him, didn't go to school with him and never even texted him. The only time they've interacted was at that party in 2017 (which we know is false since he wasn't in Toronto at the time). Even so, she has tweeted about how he supposedly hates acting. The tweet made it seem like she knew that for certain, but in another tweet on the 15th of February, she said that people were talking about it in Toronto and that is how she heard about it.
It goes to show that Aries is relying on second hand information and can't 100% verify what she's saying. Those accusations of him being a racist and a white supremist/nazi supporting are also proven false. The video of him saying a slur was from a movie he was in where he played a racist character in the TV show Them. The white supremist/nazi ideology account that he was supposedly following was an art page ran by an all black artist movement that was made to critique American media.
Aries had said she made the thread to talk mostly about other people's experiences, not just her own. But she's deliberately lied about important details, has not done her own research and accepted unconfirmed evidence. That led to her distributing child pornography of Percy. She's even shown interest in using rumors of Percy's relationship with his ex girlfriend Molly so she can make more posts against him.
Back in may of 2021, a twitter user (braidsbyemily) who is also a local of Toronto, made a post calling out Brycen Davidson. She called him out for physically abusing multiple women. On January 20th, 2 days after she came out with the allegations against Percy, Aries addressed the tweet and that is the only time she does. She said that Brycen was someone who Percy was very close with (I'm not certain how close they actually were/are). She also retweeted from another user, agreeing with the user saying that they must have been trying to talk about it since than (2021) and people weren't ready to listen. But what she doesn't mention is that Bryce was also good friends with 3 of the girls who came forward about Percy (Kayla, Desiree, Karis). Desiree and Kayla have been admitted to defending and protecting Brycen at one point. Aries claimed that she had nothing to do with it when another twitter user pointed it out. But that contradicts when she said/implied when she agreed that they have been trying to talk about it and people weren't listening.
In tweets from January, Aries made fun of a woman (Angie) who said it (the claims) was obviously all a lie and said she stood with Percy. Aries responded to that by saying look at this dick riding for a man that didn't even hit on her when meeting her she also added 3 laughing emojis. When she says that didn't even hit on her when meeting her, she is referring to her own alleged meeting with Percy (when he'd supposedly made inappropriate innuendos). For her to supposedly be a victim, her response doesn't make sense. Remember that he'd not only done that, but Aries also claimed that he groped her, crept up behind her and touched her back/hips, etc. You have to ask why she would make fun of Angie for not being hit on by Aries' assaulter? Aries then apologized for how it sounded, saying that she was just trying to point out that Angie just never saw that side of him.
But it didn't end there. Aries went on to attack Angie in her DM's. She threatened Angie's safety multiple times, says that Angie doesn't know what she (Aries) is capable of and told Angie not to comment on her posts anymore or she will find her address. She also explicitly told Angie: I will actually end u. Angie posted the screenshots of the messages that Aries sent her, adding that those are going to be sent to the cops and encouraging people to send her other tweets made by Aries if they have death threats in them. That same day (the 19th of January), Aries (perhaps inadvertently), confirmed that the screenshots are real. She claimed that Angie harassed her private socials and tried tagging Aries' family/friends in the comments, however she couldn't have spammed her because she hadn't even accepted Aries' message request.
Aries used the popularity of Wednesday to push her cancelation of Percy. Again, she tried to insist that she's been trying to tell people about him since the show aired but no one listened to her until now--which we know isn't true. Aries then targeted fan accounts of Wednesday and even harassed one account for "stanning" Percy (stanning means to be an avid fan). When Aries replied to a post of the account to tell them why they shouldn't be stanning him, the reply was hidden because the account owner thought it was spam. Aries then called them out on this, questioning why they were still using a picture of Percy for the profile picture. Eventually, the account rebranded and there was no mention of Percy on it at all.
People started to call out Jenna Ortega (lead actress of Wednesday who is also friends with Percy) for not saying anything about the accusations and still showing to be friends with him. At first, Aries said Jenna didn't need to say anything because it wasn't her responsibility. However, it is shown that a month and half later Aries liked tweets that condemned Jenna for still being friends with Percy.
Back in January, just a day after the accusations, someone named Jo made a video on tiktok, claiming that they'd (that's their pronouns) gone to school with him and he'd "used every girl he could to his advantage." The day after that, Aries claimed that she knows Jo. When people questioned Jo, asking for proof, they said that they didn't like Percy and didn't hang around him so that's why there are no pictures of them together. However, Jo is shown to have liked 5 of Percy's instagram posts from January 29th of 2019 to September 6th of 2021. He has not liked their posts nor does he follow them.
A girl named Daisey made a tweet in support of Aries on the 19th of January where she says that "all of toronto has known about percy and his friends for years." She was then questioned about her own experiences with Percy, to which Daisey said that there was a list of sexual predators in Toronto being spread around in 2020 and it had his name in it. That list has not been proven. Additionally, despite supposedly knowing that he was a sexual predator, Daisey liked an instagram post by Percy on April 3rd, 2021. She also has a spam account where she made 2 posts referencing Percy. One of those posts was on January 16th (2023) where she expressed her negative opinion of him. The second post came a day after the accusations where she is celebrating him being "canceled" and showed a DM of someone praising her for "influence" of getting Percy canceled. There was also a link to a fake article that body-shamed Percy and called him "an alleged rapist" even though no one had said he'd raped them. (Remember, Aries said he'd sexually assaulted her).
And so with that, Aries used these stories from other people to add more credibility to her claims. But 6/7 of them never even interacted with him. Not to mention, a lot of these people are those that she knows or claims to know.
If you'll recall, one of the people who spoke out against him was Desiree. She said that Percy let her get raped in his basement by a man, Raphael Irwin. She shared a screenshot of a text with Percy where she explained Raphael's behavior on that night. In the text, Desiree mentioned that there were "more than 10 people there" which implies that he wasn't there physically to know how Raphael was acting which is why she later messaged him about it. This can be also proven (him not being physically present) because in the tweet, she said that he called her afterwards (and supposedly was more worried about the police than her).
Besides Raphael, Desiree says that Percy said nothing while she was being abused by Brycen Davidson, who was also a close friend of his at the time. What she didn't mention was that she was a closer friend of Brycen's and left out that Brycen was friends with 3 out of the 4 girls that came out with accusations against Percy (Desiree, Karis, Kayla, who later clarified that she wasn't a victim and a girl named Emily who is a close friend of Aries and one of the last girls to come out and say something against Percy). So to clarify, Brycen was a friend to all of them and not just Percy.
Keeping that in mind, and the fact that her tweets show her being angry that people aren't believing her/questioning the legitimacy of it, Desiree was called out by 2 of her former close friends for enabling and defending Brycen and accused victims of lying even after seeing him abuse them. One of the girls even said that she's walked past Desiree "100 times" since than and Desiree had said nothing to her about it.
Now let's talk about Kayla. She is a longtime friend of Aries, and initially (on the 18th of January), Aries called her a victim. But when a post from Pop Culture News referenced her being a victim, Kayla corrected that and said she wasn't, that he only verbally attacked her when she called him out. She, like Aries, referenced Percy being a rapist, even though no one came forward with a rape accusation. The freddyrevenges account actually asked kayla who he raped if none of the victims who came forward were raped, Kayla responded and said she wasn't going to "out other people and their names." This is contradicted by her earlier actions when she shared that misleading DM to "prove" that he'd been sleeping with an underage girl (Jane). Both Kayla and Aries used Jane without her consent in order to push this lie.
One of the other girls who came forward, Karis, was not a victim of Percy. She referred to him as her abuser but hasn't elaborated on that. What we do know is that he dated her best friend, Lena, and apologized to Karis for for making her think they were together/playing with her feelings. Speaking of the apology, Aries and Kayla had used that apology as a means of evidence to show everyone that he was admitting for "the things he has done." In reality, Karis had messaged him to explain how he'd hurt her by leading her on, which he then apologized for doing.
Additionally, Kayla had posted (and what was retweeted by Aries) screenshots of texts between Karis and Percy that were meant to show him insulting her (Karis) and sending his fans after her. It's unclear why, but for whatever reason, Percy was cutting Karis off as a friend. She wanted an explanation, he didn't give her one so she called him a skeletor (referencing his skinny body) and told him to eat a burger. What neither Aries or Kayla showed was the story Karis posted. Karis had posted another screenshot of texts. At the time, Percy had been in Atlanta and asked her to visit him. Karis asked him "What would Lena think?" Lena was either his gf or ex gf at that time. He clarified that he meant as just friends. Karis then shared the screenshot, saying, @ me pussy boi as a way to expose him.
In response to that, Percy sarcastically posted to his own instagram story said: omg guys I've been #exposed!! Nearly a MONTH ago I invited [karis*} to Atlanta!! What a horrible thing to offer to a friend guess that means I'm officially #canceled R.I.P "skeletor" AKA pussy boi
** I didn't wanna put her username there but that's what was there
She'd said to @ her and that's what he did. He also only mockingly repeated the bodyshaming insults she'd said to him. You could argue that he probably shouldn't have made the story and just ignored her story, but even so, he didn't just do it out of the blue unprompted.
Lena, one of Percy's ex girlfriend's, was a mutual friend to both him and Karis and even Kayla. They all followed each other on instagram until the accusations came out. Lena then unfollowed Kayla and Karis (who was her best friend at one time) but still follows Percy.
Now a lot of people took Percy's initial silence as him being guilty. But that's the advice lawyers will give you. Karapance Law of Toronto said that by speaking out to defend yourself, your word risks being taken as victim blaming and suggests to take a social media hiatus (which Percy did). He came out with a statement and so did Jane.
Here is Percy's:
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Now I want to talk about some of my own thoughts that I had while looking at that thread.
Right off the bat, the behavior of the girls, especially Aries, is very telling. They're being combative with practically anyone who doesn't just immediately accept their word. If you're telling the truth, we should be able to ask questions. Even if you boiled it down to "well, they're frustrated because people aren't listening!" Their words just don't sound right--like the dick riding comment.
A lot of people seem to think that by Percy being silent about the matter and disabling comments on his instagram, that's an automatic sign to tell that he'd guilty. It's interesting because on the gossip reddit page, Fauxmoi, someone else pointed out that's the kind of legal advice they'd be given in a situation like this but the reddit user said he should have just ignored it. One of those well, if it was me kind of comments.
What's unfortunate is that some of these people who believed the girls will not change their minds even if they see the evidence. There are people who commented under Jane's statement who didn't believe her. They think that she was paid by Percy to say that.
This should be a warning about the dangers of blindly believing any accusation you hear. It's about saying that they're all lies because they're not, but this shouldn't have happened. Percy, Jane, and their families have been through a lot and probably are still going through a lot because of this ordeal. A lot of people haven't seen this thread and the news outlets haven't talked about him much (beyond the initial accusations and his statement). I can't imagine how this must have been on him mentally
I hope those girls receive some kind of consequence for what they've done
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Early MCYTblr Interviews: gayminecraftmen
today's interviewee is @gayminecraftmen, a mcytblr veteran and member of dreamlying! below is a transcript of the questions and answers, today under a readmore for your scrolling convenience.
Q: What, to the best of your recollection, was your experience in early MCYTblr?
A: This is going to be very longwinded - I would say that I had a pretty unique experience during that time. I joined in early July of 2020 after being inspired by georgeeehd/tommyofcolor/lmanburg - all the same person, Reese's blog. Can't for the life of me remember what his first url was. I got my kickstart in the fandom through him, I started out as one of his anons and when I decided to make a blog of my own he gave me a shoutout. The dream team fandom was still very small at the time, so i'd say a lot of my "popularity" was only because I was one of the firsts. There was nothing truly special about what I was posting at the start of my blog, it was basically all dnf. This eventually went hand in hand with truthing, the thing I'm sure most people remember me for, and something I'll go into more detail on later.
Now, as for the more unique aspect of my time; I never looked at my dashboard. I mean, I didn't need to! All I ever needed to do was look at my notifications and people were feeding me information about what was happening in the fandom. I was 15 during my time in mcytblr, I had no real interest in building a community in the fandom if the community was seemingly being built around me. I felt like a celebrity, people in my ask box were concerningly parasocial towards me - I've got some old screenshots of asks that still creep me out a bit. It was all a huge unhealthy ego boost that made me very manic at times. Anyway - because I rarely even checked other people's blogs at the time, I'm a pretty unreliable source when it comes to anything but my own experience. I ended up deactivating on March 13th 2021 because I hadn't been genuinely into mcyt since.. I want to say October or even September of 2020 and my blog had been losing traction since the start of 2021. It just wasn't fun for me anymore.
Q: What was the general fandom attitude towards creators? More specifically, has the attitude around "boundaries" evolved since then?
A: Like I said I can't really speak on the general fandom, but I can say that in my circle the general concensus was "they're celebrities, they'll never see us, who cares?" I mean, it was tumblr, there were no creators around to see us talk about them. There was truly no worry of any consequences. For my truthing circle specifically, if you saw gay, you said gay. Later on down the line I realized that no, dream and george are not planning their honeymoon in Barcelona, but it ended up being funnier to continue the bit than denounce it altogether.
Q: I recall that you were part of "dreamlying". What was that like? (and, as an aside; is it odd to be considered infamous within a tumblr fan community?)
A: Dreamlying was, and still is, just a friend group. That's literally it. Yes, it's a friend group infamous for doxxing, and truthing, and starting a number of rumors, but still, it's not like we were constantly scheming the next big heist. You can find a number of posts detailing the origins of our group on roxytonic's blog, all conveniently tagged as "#dreamlying" so I won't get into all that at the risk of being redundant. And yes, it's incredibly weird to me that people still consider us to be infamous. Myself, especially as I actually only had a bit over 500 followers. (granted, I am aware that many people checked my blog without following and even more had me blocked). I think my least favorite part about it all is all the lies that other people tell about us. Like, while going through your blog I saw a post where someone had said I was the one who wrote the SBI crit post, a post i hadn't even known existed until I saw you talking about it! As far as I know, whoever wrote that post never had anything to do with dreamlying, and they certainly weren't a member at any point. Yes, we are partially to blame for spreading a bunch of lies about ourselves for fun, but to see just how much that spiraled out of our hands is astounding.
Q: Are there any specific dramas/discourse that you remember from the "dreamlying" era?
A: The dreamlying hijink that I think is the most infamous was the leaking of the fact that dream wasn't registered to vote. This was veeerry early on, and wasn't even a group effort, (as far as I remember nothing pertaining to doxxing ever was. It was usually just one member going off on an internet excursion on their own and sharing with the class as they went). I don't even think dreamlying had even been formed yet, or it was incredibly early. Either way, that can be attributed to Reese, as I'm sure many people remember. Finding this out was as simple as going into Florida's voting records and searching up Dream's name, something that had been doxxed by others beforehand. Frankly, I still don't understand why this was such a big deal to people.
My personal favorite dreamlying happenings were the more absurd rumors that we had started. My personal favorite being that dream's legal team sent a cease and desist to dreamwasfound/georgesoot for defamation of character, which was what we told people was the reason for his deactivation. It's insane to me that anyone ever believed that for even a second. Another favorite, one that never really caught on with the public, was that Ranboo was an ex member of dreamlying. That one was never stated outright but I remember a few subtle hints being thrown out. Sadly, I don't think anyone took the bait on that one.
Q: Moving on from dreamlying-- you mentioned being part of "ebblr" [enderbees tumblr]. Was that different from your experience in previous fringe communities?
A: Not to stroke my own ego, but I do think I had a large part in the creation of ebblr. A lot of the larger ebblr bloggers were my anons at one point. I would say the main difference in my time discussing enderbees, was that I never watched a single tubbo or ranboo stream. Every single piece of information that I had to go off of was sent to me through asks. I barely made any original posts on the topic, again mostly just responding to asks. I remember when people were first trying to think of a name for the ship, I jokingly proposed the name "boobees." I got sent death threats for that.
Q: What do you remember from that time?
A: The enderbees timeline is endlessly hilarious to me. I can't remember all of the specifics but I do recall there being a decently specific timeline of their relationship that people agreed upon. What I remember the most though was when Ranboo came to live with Tubbo for awhile on a visa (unrelated: I believe there was also serious talk of him committing tax fraud with said visa). At the point of the visit, people were already convinced they were dating. It seemed that Ranboo was a pretty ungrateful guest and I believe he ended up leaving early. That's when people started theorizing the breakup. It was later revealed on a stream that Tubbo had Ranboo muted on twitter - this really cemented things. I think people even outside of ebblr could see that their relationship was rocky after that trip, they weren't doing streams together much at all and their friend groups seemed to divide. Again, all of this information was fed to me secondhand, so I may be missing a few beats or be hyperbolizing some things, but this is how it seemed to me as far as I can remember.
Q: Is there anything else you'd like to speak on/about?
A: Don't believe anything about dreamlying that doesn't come directly from a member's mouth (roxytonic's blog being an outlier in this case). Second-hand accounts are essentially useless here, considering how much we lied, or "poisoned the well" as roxy put it. So, unless you're specifically looking to gather information on how we were percieved, most of what you're gonna find on us is simply untrue. If anyone happens to be reading this interview and has more questions, I am probably open to answering them as long as they aren't too prying! My inbox on gayminecraftmen is always open, and I really do love talking about my experiences in this fandom.
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To the Shadows that Cry Witch /// Chapter 21
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RAAAAHHHHHHHH WE'RE BACK AND ONLY ONE CHAPTER LEFT AND I CAN FINALLY MOVE ONTO PART 3. The Easter holidays have just started for me so I now have three full weeks to put into the last chapter. This one could be classed as a filler chapter but there's a lot they gain that links to the future so stuff doesn't just appear 'for the plot' - the girls need their hardcore character development before the journey. Enjoy! <3
Summary: Magic was real, but it came at a price. So when two girls end up in the one place they never thought they could reach, strange things began to happen. Good or bad? That's up to them to find out.
Tags: Kili x oc/reader - Fili x oc (POV to be written soon) - Thorin's company × ocs/reader (platonic) - fluff - angst - EXTREME slow burn - crack - Bagginshield
Word Count: 8527
Warnings: Nothing I can think of.
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Now available on Wattpad and AO3 (please let me know if links aren't working)
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Part 2: Chapter 21 -
Interesting Concept. Poor Execution.
Brontide (Definition): The low rumble of distant thunder. (Noun / Origin: Greek /ˈbrän‧ˌtīd)
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Bag End, Hobbiton, The Shire – T.A. Monday, 27th March 2940 of the Third Age (Monday, 5th Astron, 1340 in Shire-reckoning)
4 MONTHS LATER
“I’m so happy you allowed me to accompany you three! It’s not every day I’m able to spare time for trip like this.” Gladiola smiled gratefully at the three of us.
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After begging Bilbo to let us travel to Bree for a good month, he finally let up, but only agreed if we went in the spring, strongly insisting we wouldn’t survive the night if we had travelled in the deep winter.
“Bree is a hundred and thirty-five mile trip, meaning it would take a minimum of four days to get there. Meaning that we would have to camp in the freezing cold, because the only proper shelters are at least three detours from the path!”
We had instantly agreed, when we had realised the actual distance, deciding to wait until late March when the weather would be warmer.
Aa couple days before we left, Mrs Greenfoot had walked in on us packing when she was dropping off some spare socks she had knitted. After telling her where we were going, she instantly pleaded to let her go with us, saying how she heard Bree had some fabrics that she was dying to get her hands on, and how her husband was going to be at home full time for the next two weeks, so it would be a perfect opportunity for her to go. We said yes after persuading a reluctant Bilbo, and she shot off to pack, which led to now – on our fourth day of walking.
“Oh I really do hope the markets have what I want. I promised Menegilda I would make her a new dress for her birthday.” Gladiola rambled on as she took in the fields and forests ahead of us, her pace picking up with eagerness.
“I’m sure they will.” Replied Kay, grimacing at the feeling of her aching legs. “It’ll ruin the reputation they’ve built of they don’t.”
“Hopefully.” She sighed. “What are you all hoping of finding?”
“Every dangerous object under the sun apparently.” Bilbo spoke up before us. Stuffing his hand into his pocket, he pulled out a small piece of paper and handed it over.
Taking it, Gladiola quickly scanned the list, her face morphing into surprise and shock at the same time. “Swords?? Why would you need swords?” she queried, handing it back.
“To scare off half the town, in my opinion.” Bilbo grumbled, clearly not happy with the reason we had dragged him so far. “If I didn’t want to go for some of that wine they make, I would’ve said no on the spot.”
“Well, we would’ve gone ourselves if that was the case.” I jived back.
“We just want to know that we can protect ourselves if we ever decide to try and find our way home.” Kay explained.
Bilbo slowed his pace for a moment, as something seemed to dawn on him. “Oh.” He said quietly, a tiny quiver of dejection on his face. “Yes, home. I forgot about uh.. that.” Though he quickly shook that mood off, jogging slightly to catch up.
“Plus,” I added in an attempt to alleviate the mood. “we wouldn’t be looking to own one if we didn’t think it looked insanely cool.”
And with that Bilbo sighed, back to his usual exasperated mood.
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The wall surrounding Bree stretched high above us as we neared the wooden gate, its intimidating nature emphasised by the two-storey stone turrets that flanked either side like a pair of unmovable sentries.
Gravel and dried mud crunching underfoot, we took the last few steps, before shuffling to a stop in front of one of the towering doors. Taking a couple steps forward, Bilbo reached up and gave the surface a few hard raps, before coming back to stand beside us.
A moment passed, and only the birds and the rustling of leaves from the nearby trees could be heard, when a muffled rattling sounded from behind the door. A small hatch near my eye level swung open, revealing the wrinkled face of a man, who, at the sight of us, morphed it into a sour scowl, a stark contrast compared to the warm sun that was beating down on our backs.
“Who’re you?” he barked, his croaky and adenoidal voice matching his unpleasant demeanour perfectly.
When neither me or Kay began to speak, Bilbo quickly piped up, stretching up on his toes to try and see the gatekeeper. “Um, hello?” he called out.
The gatekeeper, quickly stepped back and slammed the hatch shut, before a creak resounded from further down, opening another hatch that was the perfect level to speak with the hobbit, giving me a very strong sense of déjà vu.
The hobbit stepped forward towards the open hatch. “We’re here to stay at the Prancing Pony, for a week.” He explained politely. “To visit the market.”
“Oh?” croaked the gatekeeper with half a smirk. “And what are you here to buy, exactly?”
Bilbo didn’t hesitate to flap the list in front of the old man’s face. “Whatever we need.” He said sternly, before stuffing the paper back in his pocket. “I have visited before, you know.”
Looking between me and Kay, then at the hobbits, his eyes narrowed. “Two hobbits and a pair of human girls, together. That’s not something you see every day.” He muttered, reminding me a lot of a certain Hogwarts caretaker, and I half-expected to see a dupe of Mrs Norris jump out of nowhere. “Tell me, how do you know each other?”
“They’re his daughters!” A voice called out, and the three of us spun around in surprise to face a nervous looking Mrs Greenfoot. “Adopted, of course. And I’m a family friend.” She added with a sheepish smile.
The gatekeeper took his time to eye us all up slowly, his bloodshot eyes scouring whatever he could. Seemingly unable to spot anything he counted as suspicious, he quickly disappeared again with a grumble, the hatch shutting with a snap. Seconds later there was a loud groan, and the door he used to speak through slowly began to open. When the gap was wide enough, the gatekeeper stepped out from behind it, revealing his mousy grey hair and tattered brown tunic and trousers. Raising a wrinkly hand, he impatiently beckoned us forward, quickly scouring the area outside as we stumbled in, before he pushed the gate shut.
Bilbo diligently led the way as we trekked down the main street, dragging Mrs Greenfoot to walk beside him.
“What in Yavanna’s name are you doing??” The two of us heard him cry in a whisper. “People are going to ask even more questions if we call them my daughters! How am I supposed to come up with a story about that???”
“Well go with the story you already have! Because it’s the one you’re going to have to run with for now, Mr Baggins.” She hissed back with a smirk.
Deciding to pointedly ignore the storm brewing in front of us, I turned to the view of the building in front of us. “Very Tudor-like.” I mentioned, admiring the dark beams that contrasted against the cream walls, along with the jettying of the upper floors that stuck out, and the metal grid panes that decorated the windows all around.
Kay hummed in agreement as she walked beside me, the both of us in awe of the once-fictional town that spanned across our view.
“It’s nice to see it not pouring with rain and caked in mud like the movies.” She whispered. I eagerly agreed, very happy about not having to fight my way through several inches of horse-trodden mud.
Grasping our skirts, we twisted between people and horse-drawn carriages, finally stopping in front of a relatively large building, the carved wooden sign hanging above us revealing itself to be the one and only Prancing Pony, and the two of us craned our necks to look up and admire the famous building Reaching an arm out, Mrs Greenfoot hauled the hefty wooden door open, and the four of us took our first steps into the inn.
Approaching the bar near the door, I watched Bilbo wipe the thunderous look on his face, turning away from where he was scowling at Gladiola to face the bartender approaching us.
“Good afternoon!” The man called, leaning his round body over the counter to take us all in with a hearty smile. “The name’s Mr Butterbur, but you lot can call me Barney. What can I do for the four of you?”
“Two rooms, if you please.” Answered Bilbo, reaching into his pocket for the right amount of coins. “Preferably split one and three.”
“Ah, you got lucky!” said Mr Butterbur, sticking his hand under the counter to bring out two keys. “You came at the right time – travelling’s picking up again now that winter’s over.” He handed the keys to Bilbo. “Rooms 5 and 6. Say, will you lot be coming down for dinner? I have a feeling it’ll be quiet this evening and we’re serving roast beef and potatoes.”
“Yes, that’ll be lovely.” Replied Gladiola with a warm smile.
Thanking the bartender once again, we set off, crossing the sparsely populated room of tables, considering it was only late afternoon, and up the narrow, creaking stairs on the other side. It didn’t take long to walk down the upper hallway to find the matching rooms, Bilbo handing us our key before he unlocked the door of his own room, insisting the separation was basic courtesy.
Evening came round quickly, our time spent downstairs in the tavern. Bilbo, Kay and Gladiola were currently sat at a table by one of the windows, and I was up by the bar, sipping a steaming tankard of tea on a rickety stool as I waited for Mr Butterbur to refill Bilbo’s wine.
“Say, I don’t suppose you know a place that could sell weapons?” I asked.
He was quiet for a moment, only raising a bushy brow as he peered down at me. Slowly, he set the refilled cup of wine down, before taking a rag out to wipe the surface. “Depends, what kind of weapons are you looking for?” he said lowly.
“Oh, nothing too dramatic.” I waved dismissably. “My friend and I are looking to venture out by ourselves at some point, you see. And we’re looking for something that’s durable and efficient, but easy to get used to, that beginners can handle.”
He seemed to lighten up again, throwing the cloth down as he braced both of his arms on the bar, eyes darting around in thought.
“Are you sure you two want to do that?” he asked with a stern but gentle look. “I’ve never been, but I’ve heard the Shire is one of the safest places you can live, the world outside? Not so much. Besides, you wouldn’t want to leave your dad alone, now would you?”
I blinked. “My – ?” I spun on my chair, looking at our table when my eyes made contact with Bilbo’s, who already seemed to be staring over with light concern on his face. “Oh! He’s no – yea, he’s uh, only been our.. ‘dad’ for a few months though.”
“Even more reason to stay!” Mr Butterbur said, reaching over to poke my shoulder slightly. “You don’t want to go breaking his poor heart right after he opened it up to let you both in!”
I turned back towards the bar, a solemn look falling upon my face as I stared at the tankard in my hands. “I know it’s just…” I heaved a long sigh. “I had a family,” My voice quavered as I looked up at him with wide eyes. “No, I have a family. I wasn’t brought here by choice, I –” I pressed my palms over my teary eyes as the events from the last six months hit me all at once. “I don’t know how we got here and I can’t get us back.” I cried.
“Hey, hey,” he murmured gently, laying a hand on my shoulder. “I don’t know what the two of you have gone through, but it seems that you’re distressed about the sudden change and you don’t even realise it.”
Blinking through the blur of tears, I looked up at him. “I have a bit. Bilbo’s found me crying at night over it more than once, but I’ve been telling him it’s nightmares of the night he found us.”
“A bad night?” he asked, smiling gently under his moustache.
“Very.” I replied with a wobbly grin. “I don’t think I’ve ever been that terrified before.”
He looked me up and down concerned, eyeing the large pink scar on my hand as I stared at it. He went to open his mouth, when he was interrupted.
“Oi Barney!” A man called from one of the tables nearby. “Don’t suppose we could get another round of mead?”
“I’ll bring ‘em round in a minute!” he called back, before turning to me once more. “Well you two have certainly had an experience, from what I can put together. But,” he lowered his voice again. “coming from a stranger, the best thing you can do, until you can find a way to get back, is to just carry on, and keep your hobbit dad company. Or, you know, find him a spouse – depends on whether he’s the bachelor type or not.”
I choked on my drink at the last statement, looking over at the hobbit with a grin. “Well whoever manages to charm him is gonna need a very strong metaphorical hammer.” I laughed. “Cuz that hobbit has enough stubbornness and resilience to rival the walls of Helm’s Deep.”
Mr Butterbur let out sharp laugh, almost spilling the tankard of beer he was filling. “Helm’s Deep! Blimey, you two must’ve done something insane to persuade him to take you in.” He chortled as he began lining up mugs of mead. “Anyway, you were asking about weapons, and I know of a guy that has a stall in the market square, name it and he’ll probably sell it.”
I perked up at the new subject. “Okay, what area of the square?”
“North-east corner, the blacksmiths.” He replied. “Ask for a man named Seathan Marshsteel. Tall, burly guy with a long dark beard and wavy hair, normally tied in a bun or something. Could be mistaken for a dwarf if it weren’t for the fact he’s over six foot.” He described with a chortle. “He’ll know what to give you, but best you go in the early hours, so the good stuff doesn’t get snagged first.”
“That’s great, thank you so much!” I exclaimed, finally getting up from the stool. Turning to face him fully, I gave him the sincerest smile I could. “And thanks for the advice, too.”
He waved a large hand in dismissal. “Don’t mention it. I prefer conversations with the emotional sober, than the emotional drunk.”
Giving him a laugh and a wave, I returned to the table with Bilbo’s refilled drink and my own, relaying the information Mr Butterbur had given me to Kay. The rest of that evening was spent in that corner, eating roast beef, potatoes and vegetables along with the rest of the taverns patrons, before retiring to bed for the night, ready for the next morning.
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The murmurs of people and trotting of hooves were yet to be heard when I woke the next morning, only the chirping of the early birds, the occasional pair of footsteps scuffling beneath our window along with the crackle and pops of the dying fire across the room could be made out as I blinked the sleep away from my eyes.
I laid there for a while, staring up at the ceiling cast in dark shadows by the glowing embers as Kay and Mrs Greenfoot slept on. It still felt a little strange not having my phone on the bedside table, the calm piano of my alarm floating through my ears. The battery died on the fourth night after arriving at Bilbo’s, and I had cried endlessly, reality setting in as a realised that the only potential way of contacting my family was gone, unless we found a way back. I was mostly terrified of not being able to see their faces, but managed to calm myself slightly when I went through my small collection of polaroids and found a couple family portraits. I had stored them in the envelope stuck on the back page of my grimoire, for safe keeping but also as a way of keeping them near me for good luck. Going back through the polaroids, another stroke of luck hit me as I had found a polaroid of Kay and her mum, along with her dog Barkley, that I had taken on one of her birthdays, the two of them smiling at their dining table next to a cake glowing with candles, and the large dog laid by their feet. I had slid it under her door that night, deciding to give her some time alone with it. She had come to breakfast that next morning not saying much, only quietly thanking me before settling into her meal.
Coming back to the present, I decided it was time for me to get up. I took my clothes to the bathroom, slipping on a set of light briefs and a vest top over my underwear, an extra layer to battle the early spring chill, then sliding on my shift and finally my pale green summer kirtle.
Kay and Gladiola had roused from their sleep by the time I was sat on my bed sliding my socks on. I gave them a quick ‘Good morning’, before lacing up my trusty modern walking boots, and walking out the door to go knock on Bilbo’s.
The hobbit was already up, calling through the door that he would meet us downstairs for breakfast. I returned to my room to wait for the other two, before taking the stairs down.
We got lucky that the tavern served an early breakfast, the four of us able to down the meal and get out the door when there was still only a few people wandering the streets. The sun hadn’t fully risen either, the rays only managing to shine through the gaps of buildings and alleyways, highlighted by the fading mist as the jettying upper floors kept parts of the street within the dark blue shadows of the early hours.
“– well I would like to see if they have any rolls of lace as well.” Chirped Gladiola, chattering away about the fabrics and lace she wants to try and find, and that if she got commissioned to create some more outfits with the new fabrics, she might be able to afford a new sewing desk. “I’ll be refusing any requests from your relative Lobelia, Mr Baggins. You know what she said the other day? Marched right up to poor Melba and asked her why she was wearing dishrags right in front of her friends!” she exclaimed.
“She did what?!?!” Kay shrieked in outrage.
“I know! I’m surprised you Bilbo haven’t done something to sever her from the family tree!” Gladiola said as she turned to him.
“Believe me, it’s the one thing I want.” He grumbled. “I’ve had far too many of my possessions vanish only to appear in her parlour.”
After listening to the two of them slag off Bilbo’s relative, we had finally arrived at the market. People were still sparse, only a few meandering the stalls whilst some sellers were still setting up shop.
Using the east-rising sun as a reference, Kay and I headed towards the north-east corner, with Bilbo hot on our heels. We waved goodbye to Gladiola, who ventured off with her coin purse towards the colourful fabric stalls on the other side. Walking up the path past stalls selling everything from arrays of meat to bed linens, the smells of metallic blood, spices and cloth filled our senses as our eyes set on a grey canopy propped up by wooden posts attached to a building with a blacksmiths sign hanging from it. Underneath was a counter that was part of the wall, the stall actually being part of the building itself. Approaching the counter, we peered into the shop. Weapons of all kinds lined the walls, even more hung on the racks stuck in the middle of the room like aisles, or on the ceiling like stalactites. The fire in the corner was burning bright, along with the torches lining the walls, filling our nostrils with the strong smell of smoke and the warmth of hot steel, so we figured someone was in.
Kay leant over the counter to try and look around, before calling out.
“Hello?”
A bang resonated through the air, followed by a string of hissed curses. It wasn’t long until a figure appeared hunched from behind one of the tables, clutching and rubbing to back of his head as he muttered under his breath. He gave it one last rub, before standing straight and stretching his back. Placing down the small hammer in his hand, he turned to face us with a frown, though it quickly turned to one of slight surprise. He matched the description Mr Butterbur had given me: Quite tall, about 6’3, well built and muscular, with thick wavy almost black hair, half tied up in a loose bun, with a beard reaching halfway down his chest. He was wearing a pair of loose trousers tied with a thick belt and a baggy tunic rolled up at the sleeves, and covered in patches of soot and grime, his time in the forge on clear display.
Eyeing us up and down, he took his time wandering over, using a cloth to wipe his calloused hands down whilst his face held an expression of poorly concealed confusion. The look increased tenfold as Bilbo peeked over the edge, resting his forearms on the wooden surface to prop himself up. Reaching us, he plopped the rag down, bracing his arms on the counter as his pale blue eyes took the three of us in.
“Can I… help you?” he queried, an accent similar to an Irish one strong on his tongue as he squinted at us, looking as if he couldn’t wrap his head around what was in front of him. I tried not to cough when the smell of smoke increased tenfold, rolling off him in waves.
Nodding, I slapped the list I had taken from Bilbo earlier on the counter. “Yes,” I affirmed eagerly. “We were hoping if you had anything on the list in stock.”
Taking a moment to look between me and the piece of paper, he slowly reached out, pulling the list towards him and picking it up, before grasping the spectacles that hung from his neck by some string, and sliding them on.
He spent about twenty seconds flitting his eyes between us and the list, covering it in black fingerprints until he lowered it a looked down at us over his glasses.
“You three aren’t from around here, are you?” he remarked, his deep, throaty voice resonating through the chill, morning air. “I don’t advertise outside the town unless I speak to you personally, so who told you about me?”
Slightly taken aback by the man’s cautious demeanour, I stepped in the explain. “Uh – we were recommended to visit you by Mr Butterbur?” I managed out, gesturing in the direction of the inn. “from the, uh, Pr-”
“- The Prancing Pony, I know. We’re well acquainted.” He said with a small smile though quickly returned to eyeing us up. “Tell me, what do two young girls and a hobbit want within the weapons trade. You don’t look experienced to me.”
“Which is exactly the problem.” I stated firmly. “We aren’t. And therefore we want to learn how.”
He slowly regarded the three of us with a look, and I prepared for the disappointment of his potential refusal. “Ok,” he sighed, tapping his soot-covered fingernails rhythmically on the wood. “How long are you here for?”
At our silent confusion, he raised a brow expectantly.
“Uh?” Kay vocalised, her eyes dazed in confusion. “A week? We’ve got six days left.”
“And why?” I added. “Do you need time to make them?”
He shook his head. “No.” He stated, baffling us further. Sighing, he began explaining. “None of you look like you’ve seen combat during any day of your lives, so, my proposal is in exchange for six days of dinners at the inn, I give you six days’ worth of basic training.”
Surprised, I slowly turned towards Kay, eyes wide and eyebrows raised. She eyed me back, and grins began to slowly grow on our faces. We turned to confirm the deal, when the hobbit I had forgotten was between us spoke up.
“H-hold on!” he cried, pointing a finger to emphasise his point. “You don’t know any of us. How do we know we can trust what you’re saying?”
Seathan rested on his elbows so he could lean over the counter to face the grumpy hobbit. “Do you trust Mr Butterbur?”
“Mr-” Bilbo sputtered. “We barely had one conversation with him!”
“He did seem nice though.” Kay butted in, and Bilbo whipped his head at her in outrage.
“And it’s a fair deal.” I added, watching in amusement as Bilbo comically flips his head between us, shock evident on his face. “I’ll make you Victoria cakes weekly in return.” I quickly added.
Grumbling under his breath, he eventually gave in. “Fine, they,” he emphasised, pointing to the both of us. “trust the bartender.”
“Then you can trust me.” Seathan replied warmly with a deep rumble of a laugh. “You won’t learn quickly on your own – so meet me outside the inn at 7 o'clock each morning and I’ll give you a rundown of everything. We’ll have breaks at lunch, and finish in time for dinner.”
“Woah, are you sure?” Kay held up a hand to slow him down, brows furrowed in confusion. “Why are you offering this to us so quickly? We’ve only just met you.”
Seathan pushed himself up from his elbows with a grunt, towering over us as he stood to his full height. “My daughters.” He revealed bluntly. “My wife’s not big on me sharing this but they asked the same thing you did. I said no, and they were injured in a small goblin ambush during one of our travels.” A sombre look fell over his eyes. “They have since recovered, but that guilt has weighed on me ever since, therefore I’ve wanted to offer training to girls and women when they’ve been given no opportunity to do so before.”
Kay nodded slowly, happy with the explanation. “I’m sorry to hear that – I’m glad they’re ok now. So we’ll meet you tomorrow?”
“Come round sometime after luncheon today if you can.” Seathan requested. “The sooner I can get swords in your hands the better.”
Thanking him, we wandered back into the depths of the market, it’s scents dominating our senses once again as we scanned for our other hobbit companion.
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That morning whizzed by as fast as we would allow it, our nervous excitement for the afternoon sending a slightly uncomfortable buzz through our stomachs, the thought of what was to come prominent on our minds as we scarfed our ham and lettuce sandwiches down. We had changed outfits as well – I now sat in my cream blouse and baggy brown corduroy dungarees, and Kay in her black tank top with some loose, pale brown trousers that closely resembled cargos, and a knitted cardigan slung on top. Sure, it looked a little modern, but we hoped the earthy colours would keep people’s interest away
When we had finished, we wandered outside, only to find Seathan waiting beside the door, instead of where he said he would be by the blacksmiths. Pushing himself off the wall he slowly strode over, no longer donned in his apron, choosing to only remain in his slightly sooty shirt and dungarees.
“You girls ready?” he questioned as he pulled his curls back to tie them with a piece of cloth. Shifting a little, he looked behind us. “Where’s your hobbit friend?”
Still a bit hesitant about his forwardness, I gave him a simple reply. “He doesn’t want to come – said he had planned this week for relaxing and wine tasting.”
He gave a nod as he chuckled. “Fair enough.” He remarked, and beckoned us along as he began trapsing down the now bustling street, the two of us following not long after.
Leading us down a wide alley just before we hit the market, he led us through some of the residential housing, that slowly turned from the fusty smelling, overhanging town houses that were packed together like sardines, to detached cottages with front gardens lined with crudely woven branches to act as fences, goats, donkeys and the odd cat mulling about the small patches of crops in each one. The town was fully alive now, the sun passing midday as everyone got on with their jobs and chores, voices and shouting echoing from down each passage as we trekked past. We were thankful that the early spring weather had allowed the sun to dry out the large mud patches that would’ve otherwise sucked up our poor shoes, watching the solid cracks and chunks grow in size the closer we got to the more rural neighbourhoods.
Rounding one last cottage, we came face to face with the open countryside, the grass long and swaying in the gentle breeze, with the occasional oak tree sheltering a few livestock from the 12 o’clock sun. Climbing over a rickety fence, Seathan brought us to our destination. A large patch of grass had been shortened – about half the size of a football field, and somewhat recently if the loose grass piles and faint smell of freshly cut grass mixed with the usual stink of livestock said anything. Down one of the edges were several wooden posts that had been hammered into the ground, branches and planks nailed on to make them look like human dummies, covered in chips and gashes where they had been practiced on previously. Down another side were some makeshift archery targets; wooden circles cut from tree trunks with white and red paint hastily slapped on in rings.
Eyeing up the equipment, I blindly followed the sound of Seathan’s footsteps. When they stopped, I turned my head to face him, about to ask what was to happen, only to flail my arms out in an attempt to catch the wooden sword that was flung at my face. Managing to grab it at the very edge of the hilt, I darted my wide eyes to the towering man to watch him chuck another at Kay, who had watched my floundering and was prepared enough to catch it with ease.
Picking up a slightly larger wooden sword, he weighed and swung it around as he approached us. “Ok. We’re going to start out with some wooden swords.” He held up a hand as Kay opened her mouth. “And before you protest, I would much rather you get bruises from these rather than deal with a mutilated limb from an actual sharpened sword.”
Pouting, Kay snapped her jaw shut, and we both trailed after him into the centre of the field.
“Now,” he began, turning to us, signalling for us to place our swords down as he did the same. “I know you two won’t gain the arm strength for swinging swords overnight, so we’ll start with some footwork so you don’t twist the wrong way and fall on your own weapon.”
The next couple hours were spent with us practicing out foot spacing and placement, Seathan reaching down to twist our ankles slightly every once in a while, shouting which way to put our feet when spinning around to face potential enemies as we spun and twisted to each end of the field. It oddly felt like I was back in my ballet classes, learning how to walk on the tip of my toes for the very first time again.
Eventually we were able to pick up the swords, learning how to use our arms alongside our feet as we twisted and turned to block his mock attacks that got stronger and stronger each hour, the man insisting that defence was the first and most important thing to learn when it came to combat.
Sweat was running down both of our backs by the time Seathan had called it a day, the sun now nearing the treeline in the distance as the breeze began to cool the moisture on our skin, sending chills down our backs.
“Ughhhhh I feel so muckyyyy.” Kay groaned as she chucked her sword back in the makeshift chest under one of the nearby trees, holding her arms out in front of her as she tried to pick her cardigan up with the tips of her now mud-stained fingers.
“Tell me about it.” I grumbled, exhausted as I reached down to grab the half-filled water tankard, given to us by a lovely woman who had seen us being worked to death by Seathan, who had actually introduced herself as his aforementioned wife. When she had suspiciously asked what we had used to pay him, she had sighed knowingly when we revealed it was several dinners.
“He only asks for that because I don’t let him.” She had muttered amusedly to us as she refilled one of the animal troughs for us to wash our hands in. “He’d be down there every other night stuffing his face otherwise – says Barney’s steak is a god-send. I told him throwing up on customers after eating it all would have an enormous impact on his business’s reputation.”
After chatting to the friendly woman for a few minutes, we were soon ushered up by Seathan, who had hardly broken a sweat at all that day – ‘the pros of working with a kiln every day, you build a resilience to heat’ he had remarked proudly.
Trudging back through the now-calmer town, we wearily made our way back to the Prancing Pony.
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“By Yavanna, look at the state of you two!!” Bilbo had cried when we walked in, the hobbit gawping at our less-than acceptable appearances. “Yuv’got – mud. Everywhere!” he sputtered, gesturing at our clothes. “Go change, now.”
Snorting at his antics, the two of us dashed up the stairs of the inn, disappearing before we could watch the seething hobbit turn on our slightly nervous teacher.
When we returned having changed into our original clothes from this morning, we joined the two hobbits and Seathan at the table, who we’re all currently waiting for us to arrive before eating the fresh plates of dinner placed in front of them. We sat down and began eating whilst Seathan was recounting what he had taught us as he scarfed down his well-earned meal.
“– yea, they’re getting the hang of it quite quickly!” he stated with a proud grin. “Could say we’ve got a couple of naturals on our hands.”
I smiled back. “I’m just glad we weren’t thrown under the bus straight away, otherwise I would’ve given up.” I joked, but my joking was immediately stopped at the feeling of my throat jamming up, and I clenched my teeth, digging my nails into my palm as I tried not to make it obvious.
Seathan paused, his fork halfway to his mouth as he glanced at me with a bewildered look. “What’s a bus?”
Staring at him, I remained silent waiting for the invisible hands to stop choking me, and he began frowning as he noticed my cheeks turn a slight pink. I flinched slightly as I felt Kay’s foot kick my shin, and my airway opened once again, and it took me a lot of strength to not heave on the spot. I quickly darted my eyes over to see Kay staring at me, silently staring at me as she realised what was going on. Facing the other three, who were looking at me with curious looks, I racked my brain for an excuse.
“Oh! It’s uh.. just a saying where we’re from.” I laughed nervously, still trying to hide my excessive breathing. “We have different names for transport there. Like, um, a carriage is, obviously, known as a carriage, ha ha, but we have nicknames for it, like bus, or.. or car for short?”
A few moments of silence of passed as they processed my rambling.
“Bus is a strange word to call a carriage.” Muttered Seathan, furrowing his brows. “But, if that’s what your lot have named it, then I won’t be one to judge.” He shrugged before returning to stuffing his mouth with potatoes. Bilbo and Gladiola were already back to eating, used to our strange words and sayings by this point.
I glanced at Kay, only to see her glaring at me with raised eyebrows. I narrowed my own back at her mockingly, raising my tankard of tea to my face. “It’s not my fault we’re stuck with medieval people.” I muttered from behind it.
All I got was mashed potato flicked at my forehead in return.
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The following five days flew by, Seathan putting us through intense training that was far more gruelling than we thought. I mean, c’mon, doing ten laps around the field is a tad bit excessive, plus, arms wield swords, not legs.
I regrettably voiced those thoughts to our teacher, who then proceeded to have us do push-ups and lifting heavy tools he brought from his shop every hour, much to our frustration. He also asked if there was anything else we wanted to learn the basics in – I had said archery, after enjoying it a few times at festivals and residential trips with school or the girl-guiding groups I was in. Kay had excitedly said she wanted to learn throwing axes. And then proceeded the extra push-ups and benching, Seathan insisting that if we wanted to learn a practice that required a hell of a lot of arm strength, then it will have to be a daily task of exercise for as long as possible before we got to our full strength. I collapsed in protest at that.
By the time Monday rolled around, the two of us could barely pick up a fork to eat, and Gladiola fretted over us as she helped shovel food onto our forks, whilst Bilbo glared daggers over the table at an amused Seathan, muttering under his breath about the ways he was going to set the man’s giant beard on fire.
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“Oh, you two are going to have to show me what you’ve learnt on the way back!” exclaimed Gladiola as she folded our belongings into our packs, due to our arms and legs still unfortunately incapacitated. “And make sure you give that man the biggest thank you for what he’s done – not just anyone is willing to give up their time for strangers.”
“Yes mum.” Was all Kay groaned, voice muffled from where she was face-planted on her pillow. Slowly rolling over with a prolonged whine, she faced to where I was splayed out like a starfish on the next bed over. “We’re gonna die before we even reach the evening.” She mumbled, face half scrunched by the pillow.
“Now don’t say that.” Lectured Gladiola, whipping Kay’s ankle with a sock as she pattered by with the copious amounts of fabrics and ribbons she had bought, only receiving a short grunt in response. “We’ve got a four-day travel ahead of us, and with that mood, I’ll be forcing you both to carry mine and Bilbo’s packs.”
Slowly pushing herself up, copper strands still stuck to her face, Kay swung her legs over the bed. “Fine.” She mumbled. “We’re up.”
“Good.” Gladiola replied with a smile. “We should have left ten minutes ago, so Kate if you don’t get up we’re leaving you behind.” She half joked as she hauled our packs out the doorway.
“Girlie, c’mon.” Added Kay as she shook my ankle.
Reluctantly, I pushed myself up the best I could, trying to ignore the agonising aches all over my body as I laced up my boots and followed the two out the door.
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“Now remember, you have to do the exercises I’ve given you at least an hour every day, and memorise the tips I’ve given you for hitting enemy’s weak spots.” Seathan lectured, handing us two sheets of parchment. “I’ve written them down here, and I’ve also thrown in some blunt steel swords so you can upgrade when you both feel ready to.”
Accepting the objects gratefully, we pushed some coins into the man’s hands so he could reward himself with some extra meals, thanked him profusely as we stood by the entrance gate to Bree, trying our best to ignore the lingering stare of the gatekeeper as he peered suspiciously at us.
“Oh, I almost forgot!” said Seathan, marching hurriedly over to a long leather pack that was propped against the wall surrounding the town. Returning to us, he loosened the strings of the pack and pulled the contents out.
“Here’s a set of throwing axes for Kay, and a bow and arrows for you, Kate. I also threw in some polish, oil, and tools for sharpening the blades of the axes and arrows, along with replacement strings for the bow and whatnot.”
“What?!?!” we both said consecutively.
“We can’t accept that –” “It’s too much! – ”
“I paid for it.”
Freezing, the two of us slowly turned until we faced Bilbo, who stared back, before sighing.
“You two can’t be taught all that and expect to leave with hardly anything.” He explained almost nonchalantly, pulling out the crumpled list we had written. “You wouldn’t have gotten anything on your list.”
A beat passed, before I flew down and scooped him up into my arms.
“WHAT THE – ” he sputtered.
“Father.” I said. He froze.
“Father.” Kay repeated, reaching over to continuously pat the curls on his head.
He whipped his head between us with panicked eyes. “WH- I’M NOT YOUR DAD – PUT ME DOWN!”
“Told you he adopted them.” We heard Gladiola mutter to Seathan.
Eventually placing him down, the two of us knelt down to drag him into a hug, despite his grumbling.
“Thank you.” Kay whispered. “For everything.”
With a sigh, he settled, reaching up to wrap his arms around us both. “You’re welcome, but for the love of Yavanna don’t make me regret any of it.”
With matching cheshire grins, we assured him we wouldn’t, before clambering up excitedly to receive the pack of shiny new weapons from Seathan. And within a few minutes, we were waving a hearty farewell to the blacksmith, yelling our goodbyes and thanks until he disappeared behind the closing gate.
Walking through the trees, we chattered away endlessly about the events of the past week, failing to see the two pairs of glowing blue eyes, watching us from the treeline.
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2 MONTHS LATER
A couple months had passed since we had arrived back in the Shire, and a lot had happened since then.
We had shown Gladiola the techniques we were taught during the evenings when we were on our return trip, and she had pleaded that we taught her kids, saying how they had always wanted to play knights when they were younger. A couple weeks in, Kay and I had stumbled across a clearing on the outskirts of Hobbiton, surrounded by trees and seasonal wildflowers with a scenic view of the town from where it was further up one of the hills. It was a perfect spot; close enough to Bag End where Bilbo could sit on the bench by his front door and watch us, but the trees made it private enough for us to set up targets to practice both our weapons training, along with our magic, without the risk of someone stumbling upon us.
The most exciting part, however, was meeting Bertin Grubb, who owned the pony stables across town. After seeing the lean muscle we had begun to develop on our arms from the training, he had offered us a job assisting him with caring for the ponies, figuring we were tall and strong enough to handle the animals when they were being stubborn. It took a while getting used to, having to bend down excessively to use the small hobbit-sized wheelbarrow, or the rake with a handle too short for two girls at least twice the height of the average hobbit. But he eventually managed to get us some suitable enough, and we thoroughly loved every second, excited to finally be able to pay Bilbo back for everything he had done, especially when doing a job as fun as ours.
 Except for shovelling the horse crap.
It stank.
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Bag End, Hobbiton, The Shire – T.A. Friday, 5th May 2940 of the Third Age (Highday, 15th Thrimidge, 1340 in Shire-reckoning)
The sun was barely rising when Kay and I got up, readying ourselves for an early shift when we received a letter that Bertie had received two new animals and needed the extra hands earlier than normal.
Trudging down the path as the birds sang their morning song, we munched on the poached eggs buns Bilbo had shoved into our hands as we were about to step out the door, before he had promptly marched back to bed for a well-earned lie in.
Blinking away the sleep from my eyes, I mumbled a conversation with Kay as we walked between the hedges lining the path. Soon enough, we neared the stables, only to see a frantic looking Bertie, who seemed to be nervously waiting for us whilst tightly clutching his cap between his short fingers by the wooden archway leading in. When his wide brown eyes landed on us as we rounded the corner, he cried out in relief.
“Oh thank Yavanna you’re here!” he cried, jogging over to us. “A friend of mine found them wandering the outskirts looking all muddy and he begged me to take them cause they were eating his crops but they’re so large I don’t know what to do with them! I –”
“Woah, woah! Hey!” I raised my voice slightly to cut off his rambling. “What do you mean large? What are they?”
“Horses!” he wailed, dragging his hands down his face. “Giant! Horses!”
Kay perked up, trying to look through the archway. “Really? Can we see them?”
Bertie looked up at her with a sweaty forehead and hopeful eyes. “That’s the thing.” He laughed meekly. “I was hoping you two could take charge of them? I’m afraid I might get stepped on if I go near them again.”
Following Bertie into the stables, he led us to the end stalls, to where there were two of possibly the tallest horses I had ever seen in my life.
One was patterned like a cow, black and white patches covering it’s body, the other pitch black, with only small, pure white socks colouring the ends its fluffy hooves, and a singular white star-like stripe running down its head.
Feeling like one of those girls in those magical horse novels, I slowly approached the black one, its features resembling those of a Shire horse – fitting, considering where we were. Kay’s looked like a Clydesdale, and I watched from the corner of my eye as she neared it, wonder glinting in her eyes as she offered her hand. I followed with my own, looking up at the beast that towered over me, the top of my head barely reaching its snout despite my tall height, as it’s black eyes peered back down to meet my own dark brown ones.
“Now you know why I can’t look after them myself.” Bertie half-laughed, flitting his eyes between the two animals, keeping his distance from the two animals as he watched, scuffing his heel against the floor like he wanted to bolt. “They’re girls, so hopefully won’t be territorial or anything that could cause issues with the ponies.”
I snorted. “I’m pretty sure you’ve just given the ponies two empresses to worship – they’ll probably follow them around the pasture like loyal minions whenever they’re together.” I grinned as I faced the poor hobbit, who looked on the verge of trembling.
He took a shaky breath. “Ok, well, you can do what you like with them, just make sure they don’t go mental and destroy half the place. Please.”
“I doubt they’ll do that.” Piped up Kay, who had now managed to start stroking the snout of her horse. “If you managed to get them here without a fuss, then they should remain docile.” She gave him a reassuring smile. “Hopefully.”
After that, Bertie quickly wrapped up the conversation, clearly desperate to get elsewhere so he didn’t have to face the two powerhouses bunking in the stables next to each other. He had mumbled about finding saddles and equipment large enough for them, before quickly scurrying off.
Turning back to face the horse in front of me, I reached up to gently place my hand on its sloping snout. “What’re you naming yours?” I asked, turning to her.
Looking up at the pink snout that was trying to nibble at her hand, she pondered for a moment. “Mmm, something like Calhourn maybe.”
“Nice.” I complimented. “I thought you would’ve gone for something like Moo Moo.”
She snorted. “That’s something you would go for.” She paused. “But it is a strong contender. Perhaps I’ll have it as a nickname.” She turned to me. “What’re you gonna choose?”
“Spleens.”
“No.”
“Ok, how about Felony?”
“Better, cooler, sounds like a name, but maybe choose something more… socially acceptable.”
I grunted in annoyance. “I want a name that disturbs people when they hear it – it’ll be a good conversation starter.”
“It’ll also be a good way to start the conversation of creating Middle Earth’s first mental asylum.” Kay deadpanned. “You can name something like your first pet cat Spleens, but not a horse that you could be riding into battle and potentially have written down in history.”
“But it’ll be the most remembered.” I pouted.
“And the most judged. Now, save the poor horse her dignity and give her a nice name.” she demanded.
“Doo Doo Daggins.”
“I swear to god.”
“Ok! Ok!” I giggled, petting the horse’s snout as she nudged at my hand. “Something fancy then.”
She nodded. “Yea, maybe something that relates to something you do? I don’t know – your witch stuff has a lot of fancy words in it.”
My eyes lit up. “Ohh! What about Hecate!? It links to my practice, and could be some type of dedication to her as a deity!”
Kay raised her brows. “That’s actually not bad. You gonna give her a nickname?”
I pondered for a moment. “Yea. Spleens.”
Kay just sighed.
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shinsengumi-archives · 11 months
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Hello! I just wanted to say that I love this blog! I've been interested in Japanese history for a while but I've only recently started building up on it.
I've tagged your Ikedaya post (not sure if you saw it) where I talked about Okita. You mentioned he had a fit? Would you care to elaborate what info can be found about his condition and tuberculosis?
I think he may have had a fit during Ikedaya due to physical exhaustion because his body may still have been weakened from his condition and holding one floor/battling several enemies can still exhaust you.
What do you think? I'd love to hear your thoughts on it. Thank you and have a nice day! 🫶🏻
Hi, I'm glad you like my blog!
According to the translated Japanese Wikipedia:
Works of fiction always have Soji OKITA coughing up blood and collapsing during the fighting in the Ikedaya Incident. However, as mentioned above, this anecdote is not supported by researchers. Reasons include the fact that the description of Okita's coughing up blood only appears in Kan SHIMOZAWA's "Shinsengumi Shimatsuki"; Okita participated in the hunt for the remnants of the Choshu forces (see "Akebonotei Jiken", the Akebonotei Incident); and there is a record ("Koshi sensoki" Kanefumi NISHIMURA) of him joining Isami KONDO, Toshizo HIJIKATA, Kanryusai TAKEDA and Shinpachi NAGAKURA in the Kinmon Incident the following month, and if his tuberculosis was advanced enough to cause him to cough up blood, they would not have dared to let him go. There is another anecdote that after the Shinsengumi's group medical examination in around 1866, the shogunate's doctor, Ryojun MATSUMOTO, left a note that 'one of the members had pulmonary tuberculosis', and it is thought that the man may have been Soji OKITA. In 1867, the disease seems to have progressed enough that people around him noticed it; Shikanosuke KOJIMA in "Ryoyu jitsuroku" said he contracted it in March; according to Kanefumi NISHIMURA's "Mibu Roshi Shimatsuki", he was seriously ill around September when the quarters were moved to Fudodo Village; and in a letter to Kondo dated October 13, Kojima wrote that he was worried about Okita's worsening condition. Given the above, when Okita's health condition worsened so critical that he could not bear fighting was from autumn to winter in 1867. It is also thought that his intense exercise might have been an added burden on his lungs and aggravated his illness. The scenes of Okita spitting blood and falling unconscious at the Ikedaya in works such as "Shinsengumi Shimatsuki" seem to have originated in Shinpachi NAGAKURA's "Shinsengumi Tenmatsuki", which, while not mentioning spitting blood, does describe Okita falling unconscious. He may have suffered a light and temporary heat stroke following the intense battle, which took place on a humid and extremely hot day in early summer, and it is thought that his condition did not raise any questions about his lungs for those close to him, including Kondo and Nagakura.
So it's likely that Okita didn't have tuberculosis during the Ikedaya Incident and only collapsed from heat stroke.
According to shinsengumi-no-makoto, "Okita tended to eat very lightly and would even leave banquets early. There’s a possibility he had an unbalanced diet because of this", so maybe even without tuberculosis, he was never really healthy which might be why he was the only one who collapsed.
I've read that tuberculosis could remain latent for a long time, so someone might catch the disease and go without symptoms for many years, but once it reaches the point of coughing up blood, people usually die within a year without proper treatment, so it's unlikely that Okita was already coughing up blood in 1864. If he was already infected during Ikedaya, it might have only made him get tired easily and faint from exhaustion.
If you want to learn more, you can check out the posts tagged #tuberculosis for more information :)
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Chapter Three (Tyrri), pt. 1:
Hey did you think Cunningsworth is a big city? Get ready for Whitecrux
Sitting pretty at the very centre of the Hearthlands, this thing is a metropolis
It’s very much in the same vein as Cunningsworth though: lots of back alleys that make for a much better path to the university than the main roads
Additionally, there’s some kind of really dumb roadblock on the main road. The stupider the better.
Tyrri makes it through the back alleys with little issue before reaching the university, and sitting in the highest tower is Headmaster Tasslemore
He’s a much older man than Professor Elber, much more classic wizard-looking (rather than Elber who was wearing basically just a tweed jacket, this game exists around the same time as OT2 because suits in a fantasy setting are fun)
He asks to see the water samples, and after a little bit of looking, comes to two conclusions
One: the non-elemental magic in the water appears to be biological in origin
Two: the filaments that make up the crystals very closely mimic the muscles in the heart
He says that he’s going to take the rest of the day to look further into it so he can draft up a preliminary report, and sends Tyrri away
He isn’t very fun. Not that I care.
The road is still blocked so Tyrri takes the back alleys again
Something bad finally happens to the university student walking alone in alleys as a pair of people try to steal her messenger bag (which has all of her notes and equipment)
Fight ensues, the two assailants are notably casters
After thoroughly trouncing the duo, Tyrri demands to know why they would go after a research student of all people
She’s broke as hell and her equipment matches that
They explain that they’re independent researchers and are just completely starved for gear
Why not go to the university? They look around that age and it would be a crime to make schooling so unaffordable that people straight-up couldn’t take courses
Like, no one would be awful enough to not at least have a basics course at a cheaper price
Well you’re not gonna believe this but
The duo leave her alone after it becomes clear that they’re no match for her
Tyrri is NOT sleeping good that night. Something something her black-and-white view of the world being challenged by the idea that a person who helped her being bad actually
In spite of the fact that she was supposed to go bright and early to head to the university she returns back to the place the duo almost mugged her because what they said is messing her up
She returns to find them in the same place and starts talking things out
Their names are Willie and Dante, they’re brothers, and their parents moved to the Hearthlands from the Deltalands in hope of better education for their sons
 The University of Whitecrux, in addition to its many other descriptors, is also hellishly expensive to get into
Tyrri is pissed but refuses to explain why, stares at a wall silently for a bit, and then says that she’s going to go beat the everliving shit out of the headmaster
Willie and Dante are free to tag along and do so gladly
As the three march into the university, a guard spots them
“INTRUDER ALERT. THOSE DAMN KIDS ARE BACK.”
“Guys what did you do.”
“Yeah we may or may not have tried to pull the same trick we did on you, on the university.”
With that delightful bit of dumbassery that most certainly should have been brought up beforehand, we jump into…
The Third (technically second) Dungeon: University of Whitecrux
You’d think that you already explored here but you’re WRONG
The first time Tyrri came here it jumped to a cutscene as soon as you opened the door and cut straight to her entering the headmaster’s office (jokes about it being too many stairs for her 4’11” twig frame ensue, she SMALL)
The enemies here are exclusively elementals paired with a single spellcaster, and armoured guards
Why does a university have armoured guards on its payroll? Don’t ask me. Ask the headmaster.
It’s fairly linear, just heading up and up towards the top of the tower
Definitely lots of hidden goodies to find like in Professor Elber’s office; there are going to be side quests here later on
Tyrri continues her streak of having real shitty dungeons because I truly have nothing to say about this
It’s a university with a bigass tower on it. What else do you want me to tell you.
Opening the doors to the headmaster’s office once more, a verbal spat breaks out
Headmaster Tasslemore demands to know why Tyrri would do this, Tyrri can easily explain as much
She was a street kid growing up, but she was able to scrounge and save enough from an early age and get schooling, work her ass off for scholarships, and get into the University of Cunningsworth (UoC is like. The Qamarian standard for how expensive a university should be. Its still too high but its closer to reasonable than THIS)
It was a truly awful time and she wouldn’t wish it upon anyone, even if they had tried to rob her the day before (quick glance back at Willie and Dante)
Headmaster Tasslemore. Does not like that. He does not like that the preliminary report he had drafted up had been for one of those rats
The natural thing to do? Throw it out the window. One of the siblings is thankfully able to intercept him before he can do that but some magic-enhanced keep away ensues
The room steam with rage on both sides, we leap into…
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im brand new to caratblr, so i have no way to compare a before & after, but lately i feel like smut writing has been taking over fandom in general. (which sucks for someone like me, who 99% of the time does not enjoy nsfw content & generally actively avoids it). and i feel like no matter what the actual reason numbers change, we're always gonna blame ourselves? bc i feel like that's just kind of the default for creatives. (also i hope you know i love ur writing, i have a lot of it q'd up ssksjf)
know that i'm probably gonna go through ur masterlist later (i peeked and read ur dk drabble and its SO cute omg, if i don't reblog it later today then u can beat me up behind a wendys)
i'm not really sure where i'd fall on stuff like this since i only actively joined caratblr back in march and started this blog like. soon after (i was originally just gonna make gifs lmao). but i like to think i've been here for enough time that i can comment on stuff like this (plus there's people who i think have definitely been here waaay longer who feel the same way as me).
i hope no one thinks i'm bullshitting them when i say that it's completely fine to write smut? like i said in my original post, i do it too (i don't broadcast tht sideblog here bc 1. i know i have minors following me, if someone sends an ask off-anon i'll privately reply w it and 2. i'm not gonna constantly write for it since it's just something i do for fun and to get some feedback), no shame in it as long as you're tagging properly + using a readmore. trust me, i don't traverse tags often but every time i do there's always mistagged stuff that's fully there. sometimes it's like... waaay more hard than other stuff tho and i wish people would use a readmore.
it does suck for both ppl who avoids nsfw content + minors. smut is fun to write an all, but idk i'm the kind of person who likes to write more plot-oriented stuff ig? or just domestic fluff. stuff that makes people happy.
but yeah! i fully get that. i think it's kind of in our nature to wonder what we're doing wrong even if audiences change. it's shitty and usually not a manner of thinking i fall into often, but despite like... the followers and the support i've gained over the past few months, it's hard not to notice when i stop seeing familiar names pop up in my notes. some people i think drifted from tumblr entirely (genuinely fair, have fun away from this hellsite lmao, (key voice) PLEASE save me from HERE skdfhsd) while others i think might have just changed their tastes. other people are genuinely busy.
it's just hard to not wonder and start to blame myself for stuff.
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✨ Fic Writing Review 2023 ✨
I haven't actually been tagged by anyone but I saw @bereft-of-frogs give it a go and thought what the hell, why not (I hope you don't mind me tagging you 💜). I also don't have anyone in mind to tag but if you see this feel free to tag me (or not) and give it a go yourself!
Words and Fics
192,428 words posted according to ao3 but at least 90k of that has been carried over from previous years.
Broadly speaking, I've written for two fandoms. The Witcher (Netflix series and Blood Origin) and Jedi Fallen Order/Survivor.
14 fics posted, but again two of those were started in 2022 and another in 2020, all three finished in the beginning of this year.
13/14 of the fics posted/updated this year are finished, one started but on hiatus while my current jfo WIP continues to consume my brain.
Speaking of, said WIP is curently sitting at 132k and only has two or three chapters left before I can start editing.
most recent fic: It's only slaughter, we're only liars (jfo)
longest: that would be A Quest for your Memories (the Witcher), the fic that was haunting me from March 2020. Originally supposed to be a one shot, it ended up being 51,734 words long.
shortest: Echoes (blood origin, 1,118)
Top Fics by Kudos
A Quest for your Memories (794)
I'd Burn So Bright It Blinded (623)
What's The Point (440)
If You Ask Me For My Fire (299)
After The Blood Comes The River (211)
Unsurprisingly they're all witcher fics since it's a much much bigger fandom than jfo/s
Gonna give some love to my personal faves since the Jedi ones can't compete:
It's only slaughter, we're only liars
No more time for my loss
Touchdown
My fandom fic events in 2023
Whumptober which took up a lot of September but was a lot of fun. I enjoyed coming into it with a new fandom since I didn't bother last year.
Upcoming Events and Projects for 2024
My priority at the moment is to finish my current WIP and then start editing it. While I'm doing that I might try to finish off some of my older fics that have been left hanging.
After that I've already got a whole two part thing planned out that will hopefully be a litte shorter that I'm really looking forward to getting to. Beyond that, I don't know. I'll continue to tie up loose ends (there's a lot of them) or I'll keep writing new stuff. Either way, I don't see me stopping any time soon.
I've had a lot of fun writing this year, though for a couple of months I was worried I was running out of inspiration (mostly because my then current hyperfixation was waning). But then Jedi survivor came along and I've been hooked ever since. I didn't used to think I was capable of writing long fics but between finishing a couple of 50k's and now having such a long WIP I can see I was just being silly. "Do it scared" is good advice.
Happy new year!!
Rules & Tags* below the cut!
Rules: Feel free to show whatever stats you have. Only want to show Ao3 stats? Rock on. Want to include some quantitative info instead of stats? Please do this. Want to change how yours is presented? Absolutely do that. Would rather eat glass than do this? Please don’t eat glass but don’t feel like you have to do this either.
*I usually do stuff like this on my sideblog but that's not where my main focus is any more and idk how many people know about my main. Hence why I don't want to start tagging fandom people. Also idk many people in the jfo/s fandom or who has already done it.
So no tags becasue I'm too shy basically and I don't see that changing any time soon sadly. I love being tagged, I'm just bad at reaching out first...
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Chapter Three:
Hey did you think Cunningsworth is a big city? Get ready for Whitecrux
Sitting pretty at the very centre of the Hearthlands, this thing is a metropolis
It’s very much in the same vein as Cunningsworth though: lots of back alleys that make for a much better path to the university than the main roads
Additionally, there’s some kind of really dumb roadblock on the main road. The stupider the better.
Tyrri makes it through the back alleys with little issue before reaching the university, and sitting in the highest tower is Headmaster Tasslemore
He’s a much older man than Professor Elber, much more classic wizard-looking (rather than Elber who was wearing basically just a tweed jacket, this game exists around the same time as OT2 because suits in a fantasy setting are fun)
He asks to see the water samples, and after a little bit of looking, comes to two conclusions
One: the non-elemental magic in the water appears to be biological in origin
Two: the filaments that make up the crystals very closely mimic the muscles in the heart
He says that he’s going to take the rest of the day to look further into it so he can draft up a preliminary report, and sends Tyrri away
He isn’t very fun. Not that I care.
The road is still blocked so Tyrri takes the back alleys again
Something bad finally happens to the university student walking alone in alleys as a pair of people try to steal her messenger bag (which has all of her notes and equipment)
Fight ensues, the two assailants are notably casters
After thoroughly trouncing the duo, Tyrri demands to know why they would go after a research student of all people
She’s broke as hell and her equipment matches that
They explain that they’re independent researchers and are just completely starved for gear
Why not go to the university? They look around that age and it would be a crime to make schooling so unaffordable that people straight-up couldn’t take courses
Like, no one would be awful enough to not at least have a basics course at a cheaper price
Well you’re not gonna believe this but
The duo leave her alone after it becomes clear that they’re no match for her
Tyrri is NOT sleeping good that night. Something something her black-and-white view of the world being challenged by the idea that a person who helped her being bad actually
In spite of the fact that she was supposed to go bright and early to head to the university she returns back to the place the duo almost mugged her because what they said is messing her up
She returns to find them in the same place and starts talking things out
Their names are Willie and Dante, they’re brothers, and their parents moved to the Hearthlands from the Deltalands in hope of better education for their sons
 The University of Whitecrux, in addition to its many other descriptors, is also hellishly expensive to get into
Tyrri is pissed but refuses to explain why, stares at a wall silently for a bit, and then says that she’s going to go beat the everliving shit out of the headmaster
Willie and Dante are free to tag along and do so gladly
As the three march into the university, a guard spots them
“INTRUDER ALERT. THOSE DAMN KIDS ARE BACK.”
“Guys what did you do.”
“Yeah we may or may not have tried to pull the same trick we did on you, on the university.”
With that delightful bit of dumbassery that most certainly should have been brought up beforehand, we jump into…
The Third (technically second) Dungeon: University of Whitecrux
You’d think that you already explored here but you’re WRONG
The first time Tyrri came here it jumped to a cutscene as soon as you opened the door and cut straight to her entering the headmaster’s office (jokes about it being too many stairs for her 4’11” twig frame ensue, she SMALL)
The enemies here are exclusively elementals paired with a single spellcaster, and armoured guards
Why does a university have armoured guards on its payroll? Don’t ask me. Ask the headmaster.
It’s fairly linear, just heading up and up towards the top of the tower
Definitely lots of hidden goodies to find like in Professor Elber’s office; there are going to be side quests here later on
Tyrri continues her streak of having real shitty dungeons because I truly have nothing to say about this
It’s a university with a bigass tower on it. What else do you want me to tell you.
Opening the doors to the headmaster’s office once more, a verbal spat breaks out
Headmaster Tasslemore demands to know why Tyrri would do this, Tyrri can easily explain as much
She was a street kid growing up, but she was able to scrounge and save enough from an early age and get schooling, work her ass off for scholarships, and get into the University of Cunningsworth (UoC is like. The Qamarian standard for how expensive a university should be. Its still too high but its closer to reasonable than THIS)
It was a truly awful time and she wouldn’t wish it upon anyone, even if they had tried to rob her the day before (quick glance back at Willie and Dante)
Headmaster Tasslemore. Does not like that. He does not like that the preliminary report he had drafted up had been for one of those rats
The natural thing to do? Throw it out the window. One of the siblings is thankfully able to intercept him before he can do that but some magic-enhanced keep away ensues
The room steaming with rage on both sides, we leap into…
and because tumblr is. i dont know stupid or homophobic or something it's not letting me send the full thing. stay tuned.
the roadblock on the main road is that there’s a single cat sleeping in the middle of the road and there’s a huge crowd of people gathered around it just. watching it
also I’m understanding the ‘classic wizard’ vibes from tasslemore. you really put him in a wizard tower huh.
ALSO tyrri learning that the university is stupidly expensive to get into and IMMEDIATLY deciding she’s going to go beat the shit out of tussle more is absolutely perfect. I love her more than I already did
and ooo cliffhanger!!!
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thesoulspulse · 1 year
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I posted 427 times in 2022
That's 82 more posts than 2021!
393 posts created (92%)
34 posts reblogged (8%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@dp-marvel94
@ecto-stone
@kennymayovo
@floralflowerpower
@krossan
I tagged 427 of my posts in 2022
#danny phantom - 413 posts
#thesoulspulse - 390 posts
#the soul's pulse - 389 posts
#the souls pulse - 389 posts
#thesoul'spulse - 388 posts
#danny phantom oc - 142 posts
#danny phantom fanfiction - 117 posts
#oc - 114 posts
#danny phantom fanart - 107 posts
#original character - 107 posts
Longest Tag: 80 characters
#but no seriously i love getting fanart from people of my precious cinnamon buns!
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
Regarding The Ancients (Part 2)
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I think this screenshot says it all. In the last post I talked about the Ancients in general and there are a lot of great candidates for who they were in the Danny Phantom cast. After all, villains could count among them too because all Skulker said was that “...a group of powerful ancient ghosts banded together in a last ditch effort to defeat the King” which when you think about it doesn’t necessarily mean they were all ‘good’ ghosts. They probably had no choice but to become allies to take down someone who threatened the balance of both worlds...
Part 1: https://thesoulspulse.tumblr.com/post/698786699553177600/regarding-the-ancients-part-1
Still, I like to think of most of them as the good guys so we’ll start with them.
Clockwork is obviously the most logical choice because not only is he already wearing a purple cloak that’s extremely similar to the Ancients in the flashback, but he also has statues of the Grim Reaper, aka Death, all over his tower along with lots of scythes. But it makes sense given how he’s probably old enough to have known Death personally. Bonus points if they were brothers since time and death go hand in hand.
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Got another stained glass window redo! I really like how much better it looks!
P.S. Technically this is for the sequel story but I haven't decided whether to combine it with the current one or not.
Haunted Soul: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/14016455/1/Haunted-Soul
123 notes - Posted March 1, 2022
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Danny Phantom Randomness (The Way of the Ninja)
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“Infinite Realms” is a really interesting episode despite being from Season 3 since it gave us a lot of cool concepts like Blood Blossoms, Frostbite & the Far Frozen, and the Infimap. And in the most recent chapter of my fanfic “Nevermore” I wanted to come up with a way to get Danny and the gang to Salem and figured why not use the Infimap since Vlad wasn’t there to steal it in this timeline? Still, this one scene where Danny was a Ninja always stood out to me for some reason and now I think I know why...
On the surface it looks like he staged this dramatic entrance but what if there was a bit more to it than that? What if the timing was a little off and Danny, Sam, and Tucker got there a bit earlier than Vlad and Danny actually trained with someone in the Ninja ways? Say, a guardian spirit he warned about Vlad trying to take over the kingdom?
To be fair, Danny’s a fast learner so picking up sword fighting probably wouldn’t take too long. And better yet, it would explain how Danny managed to blend in so well in this scene because I’d like to think that if Vlad didn’t already KNOW it was him, Danny learned how to mask his ghost signature Ninja style.
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To cease the storm… To end the fear… The sword must sheathe… In pumpkin near!
~ Danny Phantom, Season 1, Fright Night
Original:
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My #1 post of 2022
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Once I got started on this, I couldn’t stop. Literally all I meant to do was make some line art for later out of a title card template I found to redraw from scratch for Halloween, but I got carried away while experimenting with some recolors as you can see...
I did redo Danny’s face since there were a lot of subtle differences between the concept art and the final version. Still, I’m sure you all know how much I love the Fright Knight so here’s another preemptive drawing since October is right around the corner!
Disclaimer, this is purely a work of fanart and Ray Leong gets credit for the original line art since they used to work for Butch. I don’t want to get in trouble or anything for using it so I won’t be sharing the line art template I made for this just in case, I will share a link to the original its based on though so they get proper credit!
Lineart: https://www.flickr.com/photos/ray_leong/2314966970/in/album-72157604059837585/
Official Title Card:
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motownfiction · 2 years
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Human of the Year: The Lucy and Sam Parallels
After saying I’d write about the parallels between Lucy and Sam, I am making good on my promise … to myself. Again, I feel kind of bad about writing all of this material because it’s a little weird of me to analyze my own work. It’s also really fun, and I’m having a good time. So do with that what you will, I suppose.
Much like the parallels between Sadie and Will, I didn’t exactly intend for there to be parallels between Lucy and Sam. They didn’t really exist in my earliest iterations of the characters (Again, if you remember who they were before … no, you don’t!), and the two of them having this much interaction – both directly and indirectly – is a fairly new concept for the two of them. That is, while I spent a lot of time telling my original audience that the old Lucy and the old Sam were as close as siblings, I didn’t spend a lot of time showing the two of them together. I very much prioritized the relationship between the twins, and while I still think that relationship is important to showcase, I’ve shifted to really diving deep into the other relationships in the clump. But that brings me back to Lucy and Sam, whose parallels I noticed well before I noticed the ones between Will and Sadie.
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(it gets long -- even longer than the piece about will and sadie. click below the picture feat. lucy and sam’s face claims to read more self-indulgent meta about my OCs, lol)
It all started when I was going through my most populated tags on the blog back in either March or April. I noticed that my two most populated character tags were the ones for Lucy and Sam. Seeing Lucy in the top spot didn’t surprise me. While this universe is an ensemble effort, she’s always been the main character of sorts. Seeing Sam in second place, however, was a bit of a shock. I don’t think I realized just how much I’d been writing for him. He’s in fourth place now, thanks to the length of Goodbye, Yellow Brick Road, a series about what happens after his death, but having him in second place was a real eye-opener for me. One, I realized I didn’t actually want Sam to be the second lead of this universe – I wanted it to be Will, and now, I think I can safely say that he is. But the second thing I realized was that if I was writing Sam almost as often as I was writing Lucy, then they must be more alike than I ever thought. So, I looked into it, and of course … I turned out to be right. If anyone’s curious, their Internet tarot game personalities also match up in interesting ways. Like Sadie and Will, their Enneagrams are also different (Lucy is 3w4; Sam is 7w8), but their tritypes both have a fun-loving 7 in them. In MBTI, Lucy is ENTJ, and Sam is ENFP, which means they both have very private feelings and are varying degrees of good at playing the boss. But that’s just for fun. The rest of this post will go over some of the parallels between Lucy and Sam and why I think they’re kind of fun and cool.
In a lot of ways, Lucy and Sam’s parallels are the inverse of those between Sadie and Will. Everything I said and explained for Sadie and Will can be pretty much explained again here. They’re connected through their connections to those two other people, which makes them connected to each other, even if they don’t always seem like the most obvious duo unto themselves. Where Sadie and Will are positioned like rotating sidekicks, Lucy and Sam are firmly rooted as the heroes. People look up to them. As Sam points out, people notice them. Other people want to be as smart and as strong as Lucy, and they want to be as charismatic and kind as Sam. But it wouldn’t be interesting to just go over why Lucy and Sam are the inverse of their closest friends. It’s more interesting to look at what uniquely unites these two characters and why I love to think about it so much.
Before anything else, I think it’s important to consider how this group of friends came to be. Sure, they were randomly organized into a seating chart in first grade based on their birthdays, but it’s actually a little less random than the characters often make it seem. Sadie and Sam are twins. They’ve known each other since before they had memories. Will and Daniel are from around the neighborhood, and their parents were all casual friends who put them in the same playgroups well, well before the start of first grade. First grade may have been the first year they really chose these friendships for themselves, but those first four relationships were dictated by time, place, and parentage. Lucy … isn’t part of that. She was born in New Haven, Connecticut and lived around there until the age of six. Lucy did a whole year of formal schooling in Connecticut. She had other school friends for an entire year. They all forgot about her after her parents got tenure-track jobs in the metro Detroit area and moved away, but Lucy had an established life on the East Coast that she still remembers. Everyone else in the Pisces desk clump was quite familiar and comfortable with one another, but then, there’s this new girl who seems … kind of weird. She reads really big books for a first grader, she has a slightly different accent and speech pattern, and she’s just not someone they’re used to seeing. It’s a miracle they don’t ignore her completely, despite sitting with her for almost every second of the school day. And why don’t the rest of the Pisces ignore Lucy? We could say it’s because Will immediately had a crush on her, which is true, but Will is not the leader of the gang. Sam is. He’s the most outgoing, the least likely to be embarrassed by anything that ever happens, and the most gregarious, as Lucy writes in her letter to him in twelfth grade. The story goes that Sam pulled out a bag of M&M’s and passed them around for the desk clump to share during snack time early in the year. Daniel chose the tan M&M’s, which Lucy reacted to, and they were all friends from that moment on. But it’s not as incidental as it looks. Sam chose to share those M&M’s during school at their assigned seats. He could have chosen to share them at any other time with the people he already knew and loved. Sharing them in class suggests that he wanted Lucy to be part of the sharing. Sam has known Daniel since before they could eat solid food. He knew Daniel was going to pick the tan M&M’s. He already thinks it’s weird, but Lucy doesn’t. He wants to see if it will get a rise out of Lucy, too, and he wants to see if that will bond them. He’s six and a half, so he can’t put it in such nuanced terms, but it’s what he’s thinking. As children, Sam sees something in Lucy that he thinks he wants in his life – in all of their lives. Later, when Lucy says that Sam is the reason why her life is as full and happy as it is, she’s not lying or exaggerating at all. Sam saw something in her, and she saw something in him that made her feel comfortable enough to respond to him. But what is it? What do Lucy and Sam recognize in one another?
While Sam certainly wouldn’t see it this way, I think I’ve made it pretty clear that the two smartest characters in this fictional universe are Lucy and Sam. They go about conveying their smarts very differently (Lucy is a diligent and competitive student; Sam has an incredible memory and eye for detail.), but they have similar skill sets and interests. Both are interested in the arts and philosophy in their own way. We know that Lucy studies literature, and even though Sam doesn’t do the college thing in the same way she does (or anyone else in this particular universe does), he’s still interested in some serious philosophical shit. The difference between what they do with this intelligence is, admittedly, stark. Lucy decides to turn her intellect into a job, and for Sam, being brilliant is little more than a hobby. I think, though, that they learn from each other about how to either take it easy (Lucy) or push through the difficult things (Sam). For instance, Lucy tends to open up emotionally after talking to Sam (not even so much Sadie, which is interesting, even to me), and I’m pretty sure that just being exposed to Lucy’s indefatigable work ethic is enough to inspire Sam to open up his own business. Each of them (somewhat silently) knows just how smart the other one is, and each of them (very silently) knows that intellectually, they’re the twins of the group. They influence each other’s intellectual behavior, but they do it in subtle ways that even they occasionally miss.
Originally, my next example was going to be somewhat silly, but I think it’s actually more profound than I was giving it credit. Lucy falls in love with Will in her early teen years, and at the same time, Sam falls in love with Will, too. At first, I was just going to jokingly point out that they have similar taste in men. But it’s not so much their taste in men as it is their choice of Will, in particular. What is it about Will, this sweet, dorky boy who spends all of 1980 and 1981 tripping over his own awkward gazelle legs, that makes people like Lucy and Sam fall in love with him? And then it dawned on me. Lucy and Sam are constantly doubting whether they’re good enough to exist in the world, and Will reminds them that they’re more than good enough. He loves them unconditionally, even when they don’t remember how to show the same love to themselves. I know this sounds like they love the fact that Will is their sidekick, and maybe they do. But I don’t think either Lucy or Sam sees it that way. I think each of them sees Will as their equal in every way. The thing is that Will has no reservations when it comes to showing his love, even though he’s not one to actually say the words I love you. He externalizes a lot of what Lucy and Sam internalize so much that they forget it’s there. Will brings their feelings out of those private, dark spaces and encourages them, which both Lucy and Sam really need.
And this brings me to my next point, which is that Lucy and Sam will talk themselves out of their own feelings in favor of something more practical at every turn. For instance, despite being deeply in love with Steph and seeing a future with her, Sam opts to break up with her after their final year of high school. He doesn’t want to do this, but he feels this very practical obligation, anyway. It leaves him in a lot of turmoil for the rest of his life. Speaking of the rest of Sam’s life, Lucy’s response to his death is also interesting. She knew Sam for a long time. She loved him. He was her friend. But when he dies, she refuses to really cry for him. She refuses to really properly or publicly mourn or miss him. She knows those feelings are there somewhere, but she doesn’t want to show them off. Lucy has Sam’s mourners in a hierarchy, and she’s just not in the tier where she can cry for him. It simply doesn’t make sense. She believes she’d be taking away from or making light of other people’s grief. On the surface, it seems like both Lucy and Sam are stepping back from their own feelings to support the people they love, but that’s not really the case. They’re hiding from their own feelings because they don’t want to feel them. Both Sam and Lucy would prefer a world where they didn’t have feelings, though they can’t help their humanity. While Lucy does a much better job of concealing her emotions than Sam does, they both have the same complicated relationship with having and expressing a feeling.
My next two points seemingly contradict each other, but I promise they don’t, in the end. Out of all the Pisces, Lucy and Sam are always the most truly and authentically themselves. They don’t put on an act with people. They are who they are, and if you don’t like it, then you can leave. Sam and Lucy listen to their music, eat their food, and behave how they want to behave. Sam’s not going to cave to his parents’ desire for him to be a good student because it doesn’t feel right to him. Similarly, Lucy isn’t going to compromise her competitive streak just because it’s unattractive or unappealing to other people. Sam doesn’t want to get married just because it’s a “stage of life” for most people. Along those lines, Lucy isn’t embarrassed that she got married in high school because she was already in love with Will, and it was what she wanted to do. What do they care, as long as they’re doing what they want to do? What do they care, as long as they’re living the lives they want to live? They’re so uninterested in other people’s opinions of them. It’s terrific.
At the same time, though, Lucy and Sam are very aware of their reputations. They’re very aware that people notice them and set them apart from the crowd, in part because they work so hard to separate themselves from the crowd. Lucy and Sam don’t even consider themselves a part of society. But that doesn’t change the fact that they don’t want the world to happen to them. They want to happen to the world. They want to be their complete and total selves, but they also want people to notice those selves and think they’re great. They’re not hiding behind worried masks in the same way Will and Sadie do. They’re putting on a show because they want you to look. It’s not enough for Lucy and Sam to impress themselves, to think that they’re good enough because the people they love will always love them. They want to be adored. (For the record, I don’t think this makes either Sam or Lucy narcissistic, even though it may seem that way. I think it makes them dramatic, but they’re both too caring to be truly narcissistic.)
To wrap up this screed, my dynamic tag for Lucy and Sam is friends of distinction for a reason. They’re both people who want to be seen, and no matter how hard you try, you can’t miss them. But they’ve chosen to be friends with each other, despite these similarities, despite the fact that they might have butted heads in another life. They’re more alike than they are different, even though Sam’s purposeful underachieving ostensibly separates him from Lucy’s never-ending workload. And it absolutely sucks that their parallel lives don’t last very long.
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noforkingclue · 3 years
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Teasing (Zemo x reader)
Summary: You weren’t sure how this game started between the two of you but you knew that yo weren’t about to lose to him.
Everything tag list: @greenrevolutionary
Warnings: None, just some teasing
Author’s Note: I had way too much fun writing this! I hope everyone enjoys it!
“You don’t trust me.”
You looked at Zemo over the top of your book and raised an eyebrow.
“You don’t say,” you said looking back down, “After tearing my friends apart you really expect me to?”
“And yet you’re here.”
“Only because Sam and Bucky asked me,” you said, “If they hadn’t asked me I wouldn’t be here.”
It was strange being in Zemo’s private jet. A small part of you was excited to fly in one but you had to keep reminding yourself who it belonged to. Sam and Bucky were both fast asleep but you stubbornly refused to even though you were exhausted. Someone needed to stay awake to keep an eye on Zemo.
“You can trust me,” Zemo said, breaking the silence, “You must be tired.”
You closed your eyes and took a deep breath to calm yourself before looking over at the Baron. He was resting his chin on the palm of his hand and looking at you with a soft smile on his face. You shifted nervously under his gaze and didn’t miss the smile that pulled at his lips.
“How can I trust you after everything you’ve done?” you asked
Zemo didn’t reply. Instead he stood up and sat down in the seat opposite you. You pulled your legs up to your chest to avoid touching him and continued to glare at him. Zemo, ignoring your discomfort, reached over and plucked the book form you grasp. Your breath hitched as his fingers brushed against yours and for a split second Zemo paused at the contact. However, he swiftly closed your book with a snap causing your to break out of the spell.
“You’ve lost my place.” You said
“It wasn’t a very interesting book,” said Zemo, “Sleep and when we land I will give you something more to your taste.”
He stood up and returned to his original seat taking your book with him. You shot him one last glare, which was received with a smug smile, before turning over and shutting your eyes. You were very tired and it didn’t help that Zemo was right.
It was a very boring book.
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 It was late but yet again you couldn’t fall asleep. There was something about this place that made it difficult to get to sleep, you didn’t know if it was jet lag or the fact that you had to be so close to Zemo. You didn’t trust him and you were waiting for the moment that he was stab you, Sam and Bucky in the back. Waiting for his inevitable betrayal made it hard to relax around him.
“You’re up late.”
You jumped as a smooth voice broke the silence of the night. You spun around and saw Zemo looking at you with a mixture of curiosity and amusement. You just glared at him as you grabbed a mug and tried to look for the tea. A soothing cup of tea always used to help you get to sleep and you hoped that tonight would be no different.
“You’re looking in the wrong place.”
You closed your eyes and took a deep breath, determined not to let Zemo get under your skin. You heard him walk towards you as you continued to ignore him. You got up on top of the counters and kneeling on them you opened the cupboards, stubbornly refusing to acknowledge your unexpected companion.
“It would be easier if I-“
“Be quiet.”
You didn’t mean for your voice to be so harsh. You looked down, embarrassed at how rude you were being, before glaring at Zemo. He was standing next to you and he didn’t seem surprised at your outburst. Instead he just smiled and held out his hand.
“I understand your distrust of me,” he said calmly, “But I wish you no harm.”
You looked at his hand in suspicion but when Zemo just wiggled his fingers you sighed. You reached down and took his hand and to your surprise Zemo helped you down off the counter. It wasn’t as if you couldn’t get down on your own but that little action made your heart flutter. You stumbled slightly and Zemo steadied you by putting a hand on your waist. As you looked up you realised just how close your faces were and you felt the blush creep up your neck.
Zemo remained impassive as he pushed you back slightly. You gave him a panicked look when you back hit the counter and you realised you were trapped. Zemo leant closer towards you and you felt his hot breath fan over your face. You could’ve believe the position you were in, you never imagined that you would find yourself trapped against the man who had done so many horrible things to your friends.
“The tea you were looking for.”
As quickly as it had happened Zemo had moved away. He pushed a container of loose leaf tea into your hands and you looked down at it in bewilderment. You tried not to think of the way Zemo’s hands clasped around your own as he gave it to you or the way they lingered there for just a second. When he finally stepped away you were left flustered as he laughed and called over his shoulder,
“Goodnight. I do hope the tea works.”
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 You jumped when the door to your room was opened and you looked over at Zemo who was standing in the doorway. The two of you stared at each other for what felt like an eternity before Zemo coughed and said,
“Apologises. I wasn’t expecting you to be in here.”
“This is the room Sharon gave me,” you responded dryly, “Who were you expecting to be in here?”
“I was looking for James and Sam.”
“Well they aren’t in here. You can leave now.”
However, instead of leaving Zemo walked closer to you. You looked at him in the mirror as he stopped right behind you. You were wearing a dress that Sharon let you borrow for tonight’s party and you were trying to get the zip done up. Without saying a word Zemo took the zip and pulling it up the last couple of inches you couldn’t get. It was a moment of intimacy that you weren’t expecting from him. His hands grazed your back as he did your dress up and you couldn’t deny the electricity between you.
“You look beautiful.” Zemo said quietly finally breaking the tension and dropping his hands
“Don’t think you’ll win me over by giving me false compliments.”
“I’d never lie to you.”
You froze as Zemo trailed a finger up your arm and you shuddered under his touch. He leant closer and breathed in the scent of your perfume. You shifted awkwardly under his gaze, the familiar sensation that there was a deeper meaning to it settled in your stomach.
“Wait here,” Zemo said at last, “There is something that I think you might want to try.”
Usually you would’ve snapped at him and left the room but something made you stay. You waited for what felt like an eternity until he returned with a woodened box. He opened it and your breath hitched when you saw a beautiful pearl choker. Zemo stood behind you and careful put it on. You heard the soft click of the clasp latching but to your surprise Zemo didn’t move away. He put his hands on your shoulders as the two of you made eye contact in the mirror.
“See,” he said quietly, his breath ghosting over the shell of your ear, “Doesn’t that look so much better?”
You looked over at him and your noses brushed together. Your eyes flickered down briefly to his lips before snapping back up to his eyes. Zemo smiled at this as one hand moved from your shoulders to the small of your back. Slowly he took a step towards you forcing you to walk back against the mirror. For a moment neither of you breathed, too caught up in each other’s gazes. Then, ever so slowly, Zemo leant forward. His nose brushed against yours and you felt his lips softly graze against yours as he said,
“We should get going. We don’t want Sam or James to come looking for you and see you in this position.”
He took a step back and walked towards the door. When he didn’t hear you follow him he looked over and beckoned you to follow him. You gritted your teeth as you marched towards him and pushed passed him. You don’t know why the bastard was making you so flustered but you weren’t liking the feeling that had settled in the pit of your stomach. The sooner you got away from him the better.
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 “Hey,” you called as Zemo ran passed the container you were in, “In here. I think that there’s something you’ll want in here.”
You smiled to yourself as you leant against the hood or the car and waited for Zemo to return. You knew that it wouldn’t be long until he found you. You looked up shyly when you heard approaching footsteps and saw Zemo standing at the entrance of the container.
“Well,” he said with a smirk, “Hello there.”
“Hi.”
He stopped directly in front of you and put his hands on the hood of the car, trapping you against it and himself. He looked you up and down before looking back up at your face. You just raised an eyebrow and adjusted the collar of his coat.
“We should get going,” you said innocently, “The others will need our help.”
“They can wait,” Zemo pressed closer towards you, “Right now there’s something more important that requires my immediate attention.”
“What’s more important than saving the lives of my friends.” you brushed an invisible speck of dust off his coat.
Zemo grabbed your hand and pressed a kiss against your knuckles, never taking his eyes off of yours. You had to fight the creeping blush and adjusted your legs so you were sitting in a more comfortable position. Zemo swiftly stepped in between them and moved his free hand up your thigh.
“Do you know how long I’ve been waiting for someone to do this with me?” you asked
“Too long I imagine.” Zemo said quietly
“It’s funny. I’ve worked with people who throw themselves it dangerous situations that could result in their deaths but as soon as you mention something like this,” you gestured towards the car, “They’re suddenly worried about my safety.”
“They shouldn’t,” said Zemo as he brushed along your jawline, “You are more than capable of looking after yourself.”
“And that’s what I like about you.”
Zemo tensed in shock as you continued,
“You don’t treat me like some fragile little doll that might break. You seem to know me, know my limits. You know exactly what, and who, I want.”
“Then tell me what you want.”
“It might be easier if I just show you.”
Zemo’s eyes darkened at your words and a playful smile pulled at your lips. Your hands sunk into the fur lined collar of his coat and you pulled him towards you. Zemo licked his lips as he openly gazed at your slightly parted lips. His hand moved from your jaw to the back of your head and he moved closer. You leant forward and gently brushed your lips against his. You heard a soft moan come from him and felt the hand in your hair tighten as he locked eyes with you once more and-
“Huh?”
The jingle of keys made Zemo pause and pull away from you. You gave him a playful smile and jangled the keys at him. Zemo looked between them and you and for once it seemed you had caught him off guard.
“I always wanted to ride in a sports car,” you said as you slipped out from Zemo’s arms and sat in the passenger seat, “But nobody would take me. Why,” you gave him another innocent look, “What were you expecting?”
“Nothing.”
Zemo’s tone was harsh and clipped and a small part of you registered that you might’ve gone too far. Still, you looked at his annoyed expression, it was worth it for what he had done to you.
 *
 “Alright,” you muttered when you heard someone bang on your bedroom door, “Alright I’m coming.”
You had only opened the door a crack when Zemo pushed it open. He glared at you for a second then slammed the door shut and grabbed you. He pinned you against the door and leant in close. For a moment neither of you spoke, you just took in each other, until Zemo said,
“What was that you were doing earlier?”
“Just the same thing you were doing to me.” You spat back
Zemo’s face went eerily blank and for a second you became worried. Then he smiled at you and roughly pressed his lips against yours. You closed your eyes a moaned into the kiss, not caring about the please smirked you could feel against your lips. Your hands moved to wrap around Zemo but before you could touch him he grabbed your hands and pinned them next to your head. Zemo broke the kiss and gave you a teasing smile.
“What’s wrong?” he asked mockingly, “Don’t you like this?”
You tried to free yourself but Zemo held on tightly. He leant closer and whispered,
“Careful. As tempting as it might be I have no intention of bruising you at the moment. I do not expect Sam or James would be too please with either of us if they saw that.”
Zemo leaned forward to claim your lips once again but this time you were quicker. You turned your head to the side and Zemo kissed your cheek. He sighed in annoyance and said,
“Do you really want to play this game?”
“You’re the one who started in.”
In a flash you were pulled away from the door and flung onto the bed. You didn’t have time to move before Zemo was on top of you. He swiftly clasped your wrists in one hands before leaning down and saying,
“I’m not planning on letting you out of this bed for the rest of the night. I think you need to be punished for your actions earlier, don’t you?”
You didn’t have time to respond before Zemo had once again gave you another passionate kiss. You tried to free your hands but Zemo gave a warning squeeze. You were going to spend the rest of the night under him and if you were being completely honest, you weren’t complaining about it.
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lamatisse · 4 years
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not sure how to make an introduction for this tutorial. i might have gone too extra because it’s so long...but this is highly requested and i said i would do this as detailed as possible, so here we go!
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adobe photoshop 2018 (ahoy, matey!)
topaz lens effects (just for grain)
srwe (sometimes, but not for this tutorial)
reshade (i dont use a specific preset)
drawing tablet (wacom intuos art)
macbook pro mid-2015 (but bootcamp)
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//part one
grab a screenshot from your own lovely screenshot folder! mine is straight from my reshade screenie folder. then crop it how you like it! my original screenshot size is 2560 x 1600, and i almost always cut the background out. this is how i do it:
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click color range, then click on the background of your sim. the little screen above will look like that. the background should be white. it’s easier when it’s a fully solid color. those are my settings above. click ok! the selected area will have those teeny tiny marching ants.
click quick selection tool, then select and mask...
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i drew over these circled areas using the “add brush” i showed above. use “on black” viewing mode, then make sure that the sim is completely filled black (it’s the unselected area). use shift edge so there wouldn’t be any of the original bg left over. my settings are shown above. then click ok if you’re all done. press delete and then ctrl + D to unselect. the marching ants should be gone. go ahead and crop it!
after cropping, i resize the width of the photo to 1280px! always!
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i create a new layer for my background, then add in the psd that i use for my edits. (i hide my psd layer while drawing)
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sometimes i also use liquify to edit things like this:
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//part two
i use a soft round brush to do everything! it’s literally from adobe, but i changed a few things like the flow jitter in transfer.
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red areas are usually where i put the shadows, purple areas are usually where i put the highlights
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i usually do the shadows before anything else! it’s pretty simple. using the brush i showed above, i create a new layer.
use the eyedropper tool on her skin, then pick a slightly darker shade. change the blending mode of the layer to multiply, then draw the shadows.
right click on the layer, then select “create clipping mask” to make your life a little bit easier. an arrow will appear beside your layer.
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//part three
this is where i draw over the features. let’s look at her face. these are basically what i think it needs:
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pay close attention to the imperfections and clean it up! that’s what makes it “sharper” in my opinion. small brushes will do the job! something like this:
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define the edges!!! define!! zoom in and take a look!! even though these are tiny little details, it makes a whole lot of difference! the eyedropper tool is your best friend!
i start with a big brush and then i use smaller and smaller ones as i go, which creates the sharpness. go a little darker as well! im not very skillful with my graphic tablet, so i add stuff bit by bit since it tends to become too harsh when i just go for it! im not as talented as some of u here ;-; i just wing it and pray it doesnt look too bad. half of the time im just experimenting since i literally do not know where some shading goes
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i wont be showing every single thing, but basically that’s the idea! i’ll add in the stuff i pointed out above and more shadows. sometimes i might turn down the opacity of some layers if they look a bit too much. here’s what we got so far:
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i also like adding some face pores using this amazing “skin texture 1″ brush from this brush pack!
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//part four
for the highlight layer, i change the blending mode to either overlay or soft light. use a slightly bigger brush for the bigger areas. use the eyedropper tool on her skin, and instead, pick a lighter shade.
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let’s start adding highlight to the purple areas i marked above!
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try to enhance the highlight on tiny details too such as the eye corners! if you want something more dramatic, create a new layer and do an overlay layer this time! don’t be afraid to add some on the hair, eyes, lips etc.
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//part five
ok lets add some not decent looking hair strands. i almost always avoid this part because i literally have 0 idea on how to draw hair. i use the “hair base” brush from the same brush pack i linked to above and also have smoothing on to about 35%! the eyedropper tool is still your best friend! just follow the flow of the hair and i guess you’ll be fine ???
i’ll also fill in the annoying gaps beside her neck
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unhide your psd layer and wooowweee
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//part six
select all the layers, then click create a new group!
select the new group, then hit ctrl + J or right-click the new group, then click duplicate group
right-click the duplicated group, then click merge group!
i do this so i have a backup of the collapsed layers and can make changes anytime.
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i use the sharpen brush on small details i circled below. i used to do stylize > oil paint or topaz clean before, but since the personal action that i use blur things a lot, i try to keep small details visible and sharp.
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next is smart sharpen, my settings are below. sometimes i go for a smaller radius, but it looks like this most of the time.
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my personal action set consists of this:
duplicate the layer that you just used smart sharpen on, then click lens blur!
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below are my lens blur settings
turn the opacity of the layer (that you just put the lens blur on) to 40%
select both layers, right-click then merge layers!
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duplicate the layer again (yes, again) then right-click, choose blending options.
uncheck the R located on the “channels” under “advance blending” then click ok.
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an icon will appear on that layer!
make sure you have that layer selected, then click the Move tool
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then hit your arrow left/right key once or twice! i do it once because i only want a subtle 3d effect! go ahead and merge those layers!
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last step is the grain effect. i use topaz labs > topaz lens effects. if you don’t have this, you can also use filter > noise > add noise that photoshop has.
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these are my settings:
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//final look!
here’s a before and after gif! (here’s the finished edit) i hope everything’s clear! i’m really bad at explaining things (っ˘̩╭╮˘̩)っ
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feel free to tag me when you use this tutorial for an edit!! i would like to see it! i hope this helps! ♡\( ̄▽ ̄)/♡
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barnesbabee · 3 years
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ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ ꜰᴏᴜʀ- ᴡᴏɴᴅᴇʀʟᴀɴᴅ
WONDERLAND MASTERLIST ⇜ ᴘʀᴇᴠɪᴏᴜꜱ - ꜰᴏᴜʀ-  ɴᴇxᴛ ⟿
CHARACTER LIST:
White Rabbit - Choi Jongho Absolem (Blue Catterpilar) - Kang Yeosang Cheshire Cat - Kim Hongjoong Mad Hatter - Choi San Haigha (March Hare) - Jung Wooyoung Tweedle Dee - Song Mingi Tweedle Dum - Jeong Yunho Bloody Red King - Park Seonghwa
[Send me a DM, an ask or comment to be added to the tag list] Big thanks to my dear friend @smallfrye for making the banner <3
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“She, my friends, is going to trick the King.”
The room echoed with gasps from the crowd.
"Aaaabsolem," the Hatter sang "are you trying to take my place as the mad one? That is not very nice!"
"I'm dead serious. The King has obviously taken a liking to her, she came back to us with a dress and with her head still attached to her body. The King took her for a stroll in the garden! She's the only one that can get close to him. Get close to him, and kill him."
You tilted your head and furrowed your eyebrows as you looked at him in disbelief. Was he serious?
"Sir, or whatever it is I'm supposed to call a caterpillar, I'm not about to kill someone."
"Tell me, what are you going to do?"
You gulped. You didn't know what to do. You didn't know where you were, you weren't even sure you were alive. But from not knowing what to do to committing murder, it went a long, long way.
"I can help you get close to him. That is as far as I'll go. I don't know the laws of this place or the morals anyone has, but where I'm from you can't just kill someone."
The hatter walked closer to you and caressed your cheek.
"My dear, the only law in Wonderland is that you can't disrespect the King's wishes."
"And does the King wish to die?"
The Hatter laughed loudly.
"I supposed not... Sucks to be him I guess! Off you go!" The Hatter said, grabbing your old dress and pushing you into a room to get dressed back into the horrid black and red, heart-decorated dress.
Once you came back all of their faces scrunched in disgust. The King really had ruined red for everyone...
"Alright beautiful, hmm here's the deal," Cheshire told you, twirling and swirling around in the air before settling right beside you "I have so kindly volunteered to take you to the castle. You're not entering thought, you will lay right outside under one of the trees, and you will pretend to be passed out, as our dear Tweedles inform the King that they saw a pretty lady with a black and red dress passed out not far from the castle. The card Knights will bring you in and you will tell the King you were scared when he started yelling. Apologize. You have to apologize, make sure he knows that you think you're in the wrong, because if he starts thinking that you blame him for something he'll lose his mind... And you'll lose your head!"
His tongue grazed along his sharp teeth and he chuckled lowly.
"And that's where Hatter comes in. After a few days, you tell him that he should get a new crown, a bigger one, and you suggest him to commission one from your good friend Hatter. And when Hatter tries to get the measurements, he'll kill the king. Make sure you find the witch in the castle, the King keeps her locked in a cage where she can't perform her magic."
You looked around the room, meeting everyone's expectant (and slightly insane) eyes.
"Fine, but you have to promise that while I'm away you find a way out of here, to send me back home."
The Wonderlanders looked around, with uncertainty in their eyes. They agreed to the promise they knew they would never be able to accomplish. They didn't even know where to start! But if lying was a step closer to their freedom, then so be it.
After going over the plan once more, Cheshire escorted you to the palace. The trip was mostly quiet, aside from his incessant humming and occasional curious questions about your origins. Cheshire kind of scared you... Although he was quite small compared to everyone else you had met, something about him made him very eerie. Maybe it was the way he smiled so widely, maybe it was his sharp teeth or the way his fearless eyes stared at everyone with a seemingly ghoulish look, but the fact was that he scared you beyond belief.
"Hmm, we're here darling." Cheshire sang in his creepy, mellow voice.
You looked at him briefly and watched him disappear into thin air without so much as a goodbye.
You laid under the big tree. The stump was purple and its blue leaves formed a big heart (unsurprisingly), and the soft foliage slowly fell beside you as you tried your best to seem passed out. Soon enough you heard the familiar heavy footsteps and rustling of armor, and you assumed the card Knights were near.
"Miss?" A raspy, deep voice called, as the owner poked you with his sharp spear.
Classy.
You slowly opened your eyes and pretended to be confused with your surroundings.
"Miss it appears you have passed out. The King requires your immediate presence in the castle."
The faceless card Knight commanded two other Knights to pick you up, and so they did, carrying you to the castle not so gently. Once you were past the big, heavy gates you could see the King anxiously (or furiously, you couldn't quite tell) pacing around the big garden decorating the front of the castle.
"Here she is, my King."
The cards released you roughly, nearly pushing you onto the ground.
"Careful! Idiots!" The King yelled and scurried to help you.
He looked into your fearful eyes, and although he could not recognize emotions to save a life, he could tell something wasn't right.
"Should we go for a stroll? I must talk to you..."
You accepted the King's request by taking the hand he extended to you.
"I-I'm sorry for running away, I shouldn't have done that."
You looked down at the grass as you apologized, too afraid to look him in the eye.
"Do I scare you?"
You stopped dead in your tracks and glanced briefly at the King. His eyes were not evil but showed curiosity and hurt instead.
There was a conflict in you, between wanting to be honest and wanting to keep your head. You flinched suddenly as the King's cold hands held yours.
"Please be honest, if the reply must be yes I promise there will be no consequences..."
You gulped.
"Well... Yes, you do scare me a little."
The King looked at the ground, with an adorably confused expression and scrunched nose.
"I guess I could have guessed that... But please, what scared you? What can I do to... not scare you?"
You were baffled that the tyrant King of this land was willing to change for someone like you.
"You must calm down Seonghwa, the way you yelled at someone because of the roses really scared me... Especially the way you asked to get them killed."
The King looked genuinely confused.
"But darling, don't they look so much better in red? Besides, what am I supposed to do to the incompetent peasants?"
"Well, maybe you could reward the people who do well, so the people who don't do well will work harder!"
The King had a disgusted face as you suggested that.
"My darling they are hardly people..."
You looked at him apprehensively.
"Fine, I'll consider your proposal, but only if you join me for dinner. I want to get to know you better."
"I accept your invitation, I have some questions myself."
The King took your hand and lead you inside the palace and up the slippery marble stairs. Everything in the castle was adorned with gold, and every wall had a painting of the King. Both of your shoes clicked against the floor in a movie-like way as you made your way into the big dining hall, that had all types of expensive-looking food.
"Where should I sit?"
The King stood behind a chair right on the other end of the table.
"Here, of course, opposed to me."
You cocked your head and looked at him as if he was stupid.
"Seonghwa how are we supposed to talk if we're so far away?"
"Hm..." The King thought for a second, tapping his chin with his index finger "Well I suppose you could sit next to me."
You smiled and took a seat next to the one where the King sat. It was pretty obvious from the extravagant, unique chair that it was there where he usually sat to have his meals.
"Well, I don't mean to sound rude but I don't even know your name. What should I call you?"
You watched a frogman served the King a couple of slices of whatever animal was roasted and served in a silver platter in front of you. You hadn't even realized he didn't know your name.
"Y/N, my name is Y/N."
"Oh! What a peculiar name! Tell me, Y/N, what is it that you want to ask me?"
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