#aworldinwhichimperfect

[callmelittlesanshine]

I feel like I’m never going to have friends who won’t get tired of me

I’m so annoying maybe I really am the problem

[callmelittlesanshine]

I feel like my life has been a cry for help for so long that it’s basically a joke to everyone around me or they think that it’s just my personality or that I’m kidding when I say how bad it gets times

Like yes bitch I actually live like this!? I’m not trying to be quirky or intentionally weird.. I really am shit at life and a little pathetic

[callmelittlesanshine]

“Date myself” nah I’m gonna be my own best friend (totally not because I don’t know how to make friends)

[callmelittlesanshine]

Sometimes you gotta call yourself baby girl while passive aggressively belittling yourself

[callmelittlesanshine]

It’s hard being this pathetic 🥺

[callmelittlesanshine]

Bpd is like going through the five stages of grief 24/7, but the acceptance part just kind of gets left out

[callmelittlesanshine]

Me @ myself: I think I’ve hit a new low

My brain

[callmelittlesanshine]

I’m not religious but I still pray to the fiber, caffeine and nicotine gods everyday and ask them to give me a good shit

[callmelittlesanshine]

How tf do I use starving myself as a punishment but also as some sort of sick reward at the same time??

[callmelittlesanshine]

I fit in size xs tops.. but somehow I can’t believe it :(

Does anyone know if urban outfitters sizes are bigger than other brands?

[callmelittlesanshine]

I never fully fit in

I’m never really good enough

I just want to be perfect so I can finally feel like I belong

To feel like I’m human

[callmelittlesanshine]

I don’t want to be stuck in this flesh prison anymore

[callmelittlesanshine]

I want to find friends to send Ed memes to and to just talk about Ed stuff with, but most of the time I’m too shy/ too depressed to reply to people regularly 😔

[callmelittlesanshine]

Started low restricting and walking 10-16k steps a day (most days)

Once again gained water weight

Disappointed but not surprised I guess

I’m just never good enough.. for anything

[callmelittlesanshine]

Wanted to lose weight but the only thing I’ve lost is brain cells apparently

[callmelittlesanshine]

All I wanted was to be good enough for something and now I don’t know if my dreams will ever come true