#because it literally has nothing to do with whatever the hell we're fighting for

[hwiyoungies]

tell me why the hell did i just saw someone write "la útera" instead of "el útero"

[sunflowerxthoughts]

Just the two of us- Eddie Munson x reader

Summary: Eddie has a girlfriend. Hellfire hates her, Dustin is not sure yet. What happens when they take the teasing a little too far?

a/n: I made the boys a bit too mean in this one but anything for the plot I guess. I had a bad day so here's some angst.

TW: Bullying, the guys being mean. Angst :(

+ 18 MINORS DNI

Eddie and Y/N's relationship had been new for the both of them and the rest of group. It was hard adjusting. Suddenly there was a girl sitting with them. Suddenly there's someone watching Hellfire. The crowd of drunks now has a girl in them too. And they don't like the change.

It's not like Eddie was spending all of his time with her. He tried to balance it as much as he could. But of course he was so smitten with her he couldn't help but want to spend more time with the literal girl of his dreams.

Dustin... Dustin secretly liked her. She was sweet, he liked having a healthy relationship he could look up to when it came to his own girl and most importantly, Y/N had never judged them. And that was great in his books, but the pressure to dislike her was making him rethink the whole thing.

And now, of course it seems like the most awkward thing in the world. Eddie is late for lunch and everyone is in their usual seats. Only the table is completely silent and she is starting to overthink if she even belongs there. The teasing she could handle, the silence was cutting through her like a knife.

"So" she starts, looking up from her lunch. "Um Eddie is late."

"We can see that, thanks." Mike replies coldly.

"Tough crowd, okay." She whispers to herself.

She eats her lunch in silence, Dustin wants to smack Mike into oblivion until Gareth speaks, and all hell breaks.

"Why are you sitting here then?"

"Sorry?" She asks surprised. Sure Gareth hadn't been nice to her, but this was a little harsher than ususal.

"I asked why are you sitting here. Eddie is not here and the only reason you are welcome is because he is now dragging you by his side all the time. It's annoying."

"Gareth mayb-" Dustin can't even speak before Mike cuts him off.

"It really is, what did Eddie see in you anyway?" She starts to tear up then. No matter how tough you are, sometimes people just break when you have so many kids absolutely destroying you for no reason. "All you do is sit around all clingy, I'm surprised he has not broken up with you yet."

"What?"

"We're all waiting for the moment he realises you are not good enough and he stops waiting his time and our time on you." Jeff adds. "We don't have a DM anymore, we have a lovesick puppy who you somehow have tricked to like you. Good job, but it won't work with us."

"Guys you are being mean!" Dustin tries to stop them while she gathers all of her stuff in her bag. "She has done nothing to us."

"Can it, Dustin." Gareth says, "You aren't welcome here, grab your stuff and just go, do whatever you do when you aren't clinging to Eddie."

"You know what?" She starts, holding back tears. "Fine. I'll go break up with Eddie right now. See how you face him when you take one thing he actually enjoys and throw it down the drain because you are selfish little boys who deal with being bullied by bullying others. You are now at the same level as Carver. Congratulations boys, you've made it. I hope you are happy."

She's out of there before they can answer and Dustin is following behind her trying to stop what is going to be a huge fight for everyone involved. When he sees them talk, he knows it might be too late.

"Y/N wait don't! Don't break up with him please."

"What?"

"I'm sorry Eds, it's for the best. Maybe we're just not meant for each other. It's okay."

Dustin's heart breaks right then and there and so does Eddie's. She doesn't dare mention what happened because she wants him to at least have someone there. Eddie really does value his friends.

She is out there and heading home before either of them really take in what had just happened. Dustin doesn't really know what to say. But the guilt eats him alive when you don't show up in school for the rest of the week and cancels everything. He thinks he is going to explode, but even risking losing his friends, he knows he has to talk to him.

"Eddie can we talk?"

"Not right now."

"It's about Y/N"

That sparks Eddie's curiosity and his whole body language changes. He perks up but he just gets sadder.

"It wasn't for the best Eddie, it was because of them."

"Huh?"

"The guys..."

Eddie sees red. He sets up an emergency meeting and it's a bloodbath. He yells, he cries and he doesn't break anything only because it's school property and he doesn't have the money to pay for it. And after all is said and done. Eddie is fucking ready to climb outside her window.

The knocks startle her from her little pit of despair and ice cream. She knows it can only be Eddie and she doesn't know if she is ready to face him, but she does. Because after all, she'd do everything for him.

"I love you" He says as soon as she opens the window and he falls to his knees.

"Wha-"

"I'm in love with you and I couldn't care less about what they think of you. The only time I haven't felt like a failure outside of Hellfire is with you. And maybe I'm shit at expressing my emotions but everytime you hold my hand my heart just races and when I go to sleep I just want to wake up to see you again. Because for some reason you have decided I get to love you and I'm so, so in love with you."

"Eddie they're your friends-"

"And best believed I yelled at them. You are so nice to them, they had no right to be that mean to you. You make me happy and they should be happy about it."

"I'm not clingy?"

"Please I'd take you anywhere with me if I could."

"I'm not annoying'"

"If you are annoying, what would that make me?"

"My boyfriend, if you'll have me again."

"I'll be your boyfriend anyway you are. I don't care. And you are not annoying." He smiles and grabs her by the waist. "Now" He kisses her. "That's better. How about we put on a movie and forget about the world for a bit. We can deal with everything later."

"Just the two of us?"

"Until the end of the world, baby."

[beautifulhigh]

Hi hi!! It's unfair of me to ask you to actually write the full essay on the rwrb red room kiss scene, but I saw your tags and am very interested in at least what the main thesis would be, if you feel like sharing!! No worries if not 😊 Have a good night/day/whatever time it is where you are!

The last few weeks have been, well. They've Been™ and I'm going to use this wonderful ask to dust off my overthinking tag and write a meta post on this movie, these boys, and then hope more than three people care what I have to say.

The Red Room kiss scene is Iconic™ and Important™ and in this essay I (really) will discuss agency, framing, and why it always had to be Alex to be the one to make the move.

While book!Alex takes book!Henry to the Red Room, here he's waiting. Bundle of nervous energy. He doesn't know what to do with himself, how to hold himself, how to present himself when Henry turns up. He's backlit in this (which is a theatre technique, I see you Matthew) but it also adds to the drama and tension of the scene.

The (in)famous painting of Hamilton, about to bear witness to things.

We jump cut between Alex trying to find... something. Here he is realising his shirt has come slightly undone and he wants to try and be somewhat presentable. At least for the moment. But it speaks to Alex's physicality in this scene because he is shifting and moving so much that his clothing is shifting. There's also an interpretation that this suit represents the formality of the situation - the Prime Minister's dinner, at which he (the First Son) and the boy he wants to kiss (the actual Prinec) are supposed to be front and centre and the picture of formality.

He's coming undone in this moment because he's the First Son and he's waiting for the Prince, but he's also Alex and he's waiting for Henry.

Ah, yes. The casual lean against the wall. Fancy seeing you here, your Royal Highness, what do you think of the menu? But there's grounding here too. When you're spiralling focusing on a physical point of contact between you and and something can help ground you.

It's also a defensive stance in a way. You shall not pass, I'm not moving. Alex is claiming space and territory and he's controlling it.

"How dare you fucking kiss me, run away, ghost me, then walk into the White House like nothing changed." This is closed off, defensive, protective - probably why it's the quickest of the poses to be dismissed. He's got his back against the wall like he's scared or ready to come out fighting. And, in a way, both of those are true.

Book!Alex is mid-crisis on his bisexuality and while he logically knows he is very much into Henry, he's not gotten to the point of turning theory into reality.

Movie!Alex is more chill about being into guys, but this attraction to Henry is confusing him. He hates the guy. He wants to punch him in the mouth. With his mouth.

(What? That's literally book canon: and if he weren’t already hell-bent on destroying Henry’s infuriating idiot face with his mouth right now, he would consider doing it with his fist.)

Casual lean against the table, less staged and jarring than the extended arm against the wall.

But then Henry walks in and Alex stands to attention and he is... rapt. He is calm and composed and he is focused. We're back to the back-lit position which helps frame him with a near-halo effect.

And you can see that he is relaxed. There's a slight drop in the jaw, his shoulders are sloped and rounded. Because none on what he was trying to convey before matters. Henry is here.

"Look" he starts with - he's expecting a fight. He's expecting Alex to go off on one for the kiss, for the liberty taken. Even if Alex is willing to forget that it ever happened, take Henry's secret to the grave, Henry gets one thing right in this.

"my behaviour was appalling"

Because it was. Look, Hen, I love you and I'm with Alex in the feeling that I will go to war for you to see you happy and safe. But you did kinda kiss him without consent (harsh reading) and you did ghost him without apology (soft reading) and for a boy raised in the Royal Household that... well... it's pretty much top items on the Very Bad Behaviour list. He did not act with decorum or dignity, he did not act in the way that his status and position demands.

(That's OK, Hen. Because the boy under the linden tree wasn't the Prince. It's OK to not be him, and Alex is going to spend the rest of his life loudly loving the man, not the prince.)

"Shut up, stop talking." // “Shut up, shut all the way up, oh my God,” Alex hisses

Because even though both versions of Alex said he wanted to talk to Henry, in the moment that's the last thing he wants to do. And actions speak louder than words, right?

Why it had to be Alex

Henry needed to make the first move, that New Year's kiss, because there needed to be something to make Alex realise that this thing he's feeling is very much reciprocated, and that Henry wants it too. If Alex had kissed Henry for the first time on New Year's Eve/Day then it would have been too much of a leap. Alex, at whatever stage of his bisexual journey, has no clear idea of Henry's orientation at that party. It's only with retrospective viewing that he realises that Henry was low-key flirting, and that the sharing of these deeply personal moments wasn't just a "two bros in a hot tub" thing.

So Henry had to kiss Alex first but then he had to run because there was no way that the mostly-closeted, private Prince could accept that a) he fucking kissed a boy, b) said boy is the one he's been dreaming of since Rio/Melbourne, and c) the boy kinda?? kissed him back?? Henry will have been having a low-grade anxiety attack all through January (and trying to reclaim some control with the date he went on in the book).

In this moment, Alex knows all the pieces. He's played this logic game to its conclusion and he knows all the facts. 1) Henry is gay. 2) Henry is into him. 3) He's into Henry. That last fact is something Henry isn't fully aware of (or at least can't bring himself to believe it to be true) and so it has to be Alex.

He doesn't want Henry to say something that would get in the way of this, doesn't want to hear any kind of pre-prepared speech of "yeah, we're better off as friends" that always happens when the couple get too close to getting together too early in the run time. Alex is full on shutting that down, shutting Henry up, and he gives as good as he got.

"Wait a minute" // Henry’s too shocked to respond, mouth falling open slackly in a way that’s more surprise than invitation, and for a horrified moment Alex thinks he calculated all wrong, but then Henry’s kissing him back, and it’s everything.

And this time it's both of them. Framed between Hamilton and the books. The American political trailblazer and the literary. In the space between? There's our boys.

Alex's hand is on the wall again and he's controlling the space but Henry is very much in it. He's protective but in a different way.

In one frantic motion, Alex knocks the candelabra off the table next to them and pushes Henry onto it so he’s sitting with his back against—Alex looks up and almost breaks into deranged laughter—a portrait of Alexander Hamilton. Henry’s legs fall open readily and Alex crowds up between them, wrenching Henry’s head back into another searing kiss. They’re really moving now, wrecking each other’s suits, Henry’s lip caught between Alex’s teeth, the portrait’s frame rattling against the wall when Henry’s head drops back and bangs into it. Alex is at his throat, and he’s somewhere between angry and giddy, caught up in the space between years of sworn hate and something else he’s begun to suspect has always been there. It’s white-hot, and he feels crazy with it, lit up from the inside. Henry gives as good as he gets, hooking one knee around the back of Alex’s thigh for leverage, delicate royal sensibilities nowhere in the cut of his teeth. Alex has been learning for a while Henry isn’t what he thought, but it’s something else to feel it this close up, the quiet burn in him, the pent-up person under the perfect veneer who tries and pushes and wants. He drops a hand onto Henry’s thigh, feeling the electrical pulse there, the smooth fabric over hard muscle. He pushes up, up, and Henry’s hand slams down over his, digging his nails in.

The sensibility of the suits is on its way out, they're not the First Son and the Prince. And Alex is taking the lead.

Agency

Henry is somewhat passive in this - although he is fully engaged - but it's Alex who set this in motion. Pun intended. Alex who pushed him against the wall. Alex who pushed him up onto the table and hiked his leg up around his hip, Alex who is driving in. Because Alex needs Henry to know that third fact. The one he's worked out, the one that Henry is just catching up with. This isn't payback, it's not some prank. Alex Wants™.

There's a scene I'm writing in my current FirstPrince WiP in which Alex and Henry have a charged moment. And Henry wants to act on it but those princely sensibilities get in the way and he can't let himself be led into doing something that could be used against him. If Henry made all the moves then the accusation of him taking advantage, of the inherant imbalance that comes with status and titles and positions of power. So in the scene, and here, Alex takes the lead. There's no way anyone could accuse Henry of forcing Alex into doing this.

(Good luck getting Alex to do ANYTHING he doesn't want to.)

So Alex gives and Henry takes and he gets the memo very quickly.

Fact number three. Alex wants this too.

Then Movie!Amy walks in on them (which IMO is way funnier than Book!Amy hissing through a crack in the door) and these idiots try to act like they weren't redefining International Relations a second ago. Alex is by the painting, Henry is by the books. They've gone back to their sides and they're playing at being interested in what they find there. But they're not, it's all for show, someone who gives a passing glance at this point sees this part of them, this side of them The First Son and the Prince: the politician and the literary.

They're both backlit, they're in line even if it doesn't look like it, Alex is no longer on Henry's right, and they're both trying to act like the people that others could see them as.

But we - and they - know better. 1) Henry is gay. 2) Henry is into Alex. 3) Alex is into Henry.

4) Everyone is on the same page now.

(Also I know Casey talked about seeing the Red Room on a White House tour and so that's why they included a scene in that room in their book, but I cannot ignore the fact that red = love and passion and danger and fire [the counter to the water motif] and it's a warm colour designed to excite.)

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

Am I the asshole for getting a restraining order against my anti-vax sister and her family?

I know that sounds bad but hear me out.

So I (27 M) and my wife (28 F) recently had our first child together six months ago and my parents and sister have started coming over to see our baby girl.

I didn't let them see the baby when she was born because unfortunately my wife and I were in a bad car accident. (Drunk driver ran us off the road and the car rolled down a small cliffside until it flipped over and crashed) we're both ok but my wife is now wheelchair bound and our daughter had to be delivered and put in an incubator for the rest of pregnancy because my wife was only 26 weeks pregnant at the time.

It was a miracle that our baby even survived.

But because my daughter was born so early she has a lot of health problems, including an incredibly weak immune system.

This is where the Am I The Asshole part comes in.

Obviously because of the horrible circumstances my family, particularly my sister, have been very patient on not being able to see the baby until everything settles down.

Well things have settled enough that we felt comfortable enough letting my parents come over to visit and meet their new granddaughter.

And that would've been fine if my sister (30 F) hadn't come too.

My sister is an anti-vaxxer. A hardcore anti-vaxxer.

Like full on believing in essential oils and healing crystals and literally ANYTHING other than traditional medicine. And considering the fact that she spent the entirety of my wife's pregnancy sending her guides for "vaccine detoxes", what essential oils to use and constantly pressuring her not to get our daughter vaccinated...yeah.

(Luckily my wife is way too smart to actually believe that bullshit and kept leaving my sister on read whenever she would start)

So my sister came over and brought her three children with her. None of her children are vaccinated.

She wanted to let her unvaccinated spawns near my heavily immunocompromised infant daughter.

Two of the three spawns were both sick with colds.

I cannot believe she would be that stupid.

So I yelled at her, telling her to take her children and leave because they sure as hell arent coming NEAR my daughter. She yelled at me saying that she wanted to see her niece and her essential oil covered gremlins would help give my daughter "natural immunity" and other anti vax crap. I argued back that if my daughter catches whatever PREVENTABLE diseases the kids are carrying she could very likely DIE.

And it turned into a whole big fight in the driveway. I ended up punching my brother in law (sister's equally anti-vax husband) in the face when he tried to push past me and let the children into my house. (He also punched me twice after that)

It was an entire mess.

Eventually my parents dragged my sister and her husband away and made them leave with their kids.

Once that whole ordeal ended I gave the entire driveway a deep clean and threw out the clothes I was wearing that day. (Call me paranoid but I do not want ANY risk of my baby girl getting sick and very possibly DYING because of my sister and her family)

My wife and I have my sister and her husband blocked on everything and I'm working on getting a restraining order against those people because there is no way in hell you could convince my sister to just vaccinate her children. So I do not want her, her husband or her children anywhere near my family ever again.

So Am I the asshole? My sister certainly thinks I am (my mother told me. she's been yapping away to her facebook group friends about how unfair and horrible I'm being when she did nothing wrong)

What are these acronyms?

[lotus-pear]

I saw when you said you liked lyric analysis so here is: My rant on why I think Demolition lovers by MCR is one of the most skk coded songs ever

Fyi I'm putting the lyrics in italics

Hand in my, into your icy blues

-chuuya has blue eyes (sometimes ig)

And then I'd say to you “we could take to the highway. With this trunk of ammunition too”

Motorbikes do sometimes have a small trunk at the back, and it be being filled with “ammunition” but no guns makes sense as Chuuya can use gravity manipulation on them like that scene with the helicopter

I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets

Dazai is suicidal but honestly my take on things that he really doesn't want to die alone, and in that context of the story imo if one of them dies the both die in one way or another

I'm trying, I'm trying

To let you know how much you mean to me

In their own twisted way they do care for each other

And after all the things we put each other through

And I would drive on to the end with you

They have put each other through hell, especially Dazai to Chuuya but like I said, the way they care for each other is twisted

A liquor store or two keeps the gas tank full

Being for real they both have issues with alcohol

And I feel like there’s nothing left to do but prove myself to you, and we'll keep it running

They are both kinda petty and don't like losing, especially to each other but I feel like it goes deeper than that.

They both want to “prove” themselves to each other, because at heart I think they are too incredibly insecure people trying to love each other

All we are, all we are is bullets, I mean this

They have both time and time again being used as pawns in other people's fights, that what the pm dose, no one cares about them accept each other

You're the only one

Like a bed of rose's

There's a dozen reasons in this gun

I mean, have you seen this official art

Also Chuuya literally shoots Dazai, I know it was the plan and whatever but still

And as we're touching hands, and as we're falling down

Cough cough I'm looking at you dead apple

I'll meet your eyes, I mean this forever

Firstly, they make way too much eye homosexual eye contact and secondly

They are forever, in every universe forever in one way or another

And that concludes my very gay rant

OMG SKK SONG ANALYSIS??????? THANK YOU SO MUCH THIS WAS SUCH A JOY TO READ THIS FITS THEM SO WELL😭😭😭

[cuddlyscribe]

As long as requests are open I'm gonna be a major nuisance! 😁 More Kazuya plz! This time with fluff (mostly anyway) Really wanna spoil him. This time loving femdom s/o is planning to give him an awesome birthday! Both SFW cuteness and some NSFW if possible. Thanks in advance!

[thank you so much for your patience as I finished this!! and please, I love nuisances!! 😂 your requests give me life and I have been loving writing all of them! I hope you enjoy!!]

Kazuya probably doesn't even know it's his own birthday. Like this man is so overwhelmed with his plans for world domination and fighting his child that he doesn't have the time to think about celebrating. And if we're being honest, he probably hasn't thought about his own birthday since he was a child.

But he knows that you have to be up to something when he notices that you're hiding things from him, being secretive. He knows it's nothing terrible or bad, but it does pique his curiosity. He won't let you know that yet, though!

One time while you were working on his card, he manages to just teleport behind you somehow and peeks over your shoulder. You quickly hide what you're doing from him, but he just smirks and gives you a kiss on your temple. Now he's got an idea of what's up, and he thinks it's possibly the most adorable thing ever.

Yet the excitement of his special day doesn't quite strike him until it's the morning and you're already out of bed, which is not normal at all. Kazuya's instinct is to worry instantly, but when he smells something incredible coming from the kitchen his worries fade away.

There's balloons and presents set out on the kitchen island, confetti strewn about the counter and on the seats. It's a quaint sight, nothing fancy or spectacular but you've clearly put your heart and soul into it. That and whatever amazing thing you're cooking up right now.

Kazuya is... Speechless. He almost doesn't know how to express his gratitude or his feelings at all right now because that part of him has been closed off for decades. It's amazing how all this time he's been with you, you've slowly and carefully helped him let down his walls around you. Frankly, he never thought he'd get to feel excited about something like this ever again.

The rest of your day together is spent with the same calm yet jovial mood. Kazuya opens his presents and carefully inspects each one with a grin. Everything is exactly something he'd want; you really do know him so well. But as cliche as it might sound, none of that compares to the love that he feels when he's around you. Now that is truly the best gift you could've ever given him.

SPICE under the cut!

And let's be real, what birthday for your man is complete without some incredible birthday sex? If you want to make sure that Kazuya feels that extra bit of love and appreciation on his special day, please make sure that you worship this man like a god.

Hell, this is still Kazuya we're talking about. Can you say god complex? He'd never admit it, but he'd probably come just having you worship and praise him and touch him all over. He doesn't treat you in a degrading way, but he absolutely loves to know how much you love him too.

Oh yeah, this man is all about the cock worship. Please please tell him how good he stretches you out and how there's literally no other man on the planet that could make you come over and over like he could. It makes his head spin like nothing else.

I also just get this feeling that Kazuya would SO have a breeding kink with you, but that's a whole other request that I would write immediately if asked LOL

[mod2amaryllis]

...ok. i really didn't wanna admit this but it's driving me nuts and i have to go public.

........i did watch the r*ngs of p*wer NOW,,.

HANG ON. gimme a chance. so,

jose and i love lord of the rings. it was the first thing that brought us together. watching it with our highschool friends was our meetcute of "omggg u also have appendices memorized??😳!" i was convinced trop was gonna suck also fuck amazon but jose's the most give it a chance man on earth like this dude loves everything but he especially loves lotr. he will take whatever he gets. so i was like sigh.... ok. you're gonna watch it anyway, I'll sit in, I'll give it a chance. to support my husband who i adore.

it's important to me that you understand this. that i was, definitively, NOT hate watching. i was going in with as open a mind as i could muster. and guys?

that shit sucked so so fucking hard.

ita bad! it was really really so bad. and i had to acknowledge that, ok, we will never get another good lotr trilogy. the formula that enabled the lotr to be such a gorgeous passion project will never come together that perfectly ever ever again, so i don't really wanna compare it to that standard. but this was like.... just bad television. just deeply unlikable stuff.

as i slowly started to pick up hints that even my loves-everything husband was, thankfully, not enjoying himself, i prodded with a, "i think the actors are doing their best with very very little to go off of" and he considered this, nodding and admitting, "yeah it's just okay." this, from jose, is about as scathing as it gets.

right away, the writing. it's bad. at times unbearably so, ranging from bursting out in laughter at the middle school level moments of triumph to looking away with literal nausea at the emotional beats. it's like a group of 19 year old male business majors minoring in anthropology got together and competed to see who could write the most moving speech, and there's your script. every word, delivery, expression is like they're saying the most dire thing that's ever been said. sometimes you get attempts at friendly banter trying too hard for charm, or commonfolk wisdoms, but mostly it's so so so serious guysss this is SERIOUS definitely the stakes are soooo high can't you tell by the way the actors' jaws are always clenched? nothing in middle earth has ever been so serious.

there's a boy and his mother (who's embroiled in a human/elf romance that lacks any of the tender, captivating distance between aragorn and arwen, but based on the music, we're definitely supposed to think it's on level). at one point when things are, again, Getting Serious, and she's like remember when you used to have nightmares as a kid? remember what I'd say? I'd say: In the end, this shadow is but a small and passing thing. There is light and high beauty forever beyond its reach. Find the light, and the shadow will not find you. ok, 1) did you? did you say that whole thing to your kid? yeah i bet you did sure bronwyn, and 2) this illustrates the most annoying pattern in every filmed lotr property beyond the original trilogy, which is the attempt to top the original trilogy. oh did you like that thing gandalf said? then you're gonna LOVE A THIS.

and galadriel. ohh galadriel. they girlbossified galadriel so hard I'd call it character assassination. it's egregious. personally insulting. galadriel is an interesting and powerful character who's simultaneously ethereal, feminine, calm and soft with moments of fury. well the trop writers saw that they were like hang on... she can't be powerful AND gently feminine that doesn't make sense. no. she has to be PISSED the HELL off!!! she's not like other elves. she's tough, she's gonna show these BOYS how to sword fight. also there's a hot MAN she's gonna have DYNAMICS with because, can't stress this enough, she is not like other elves.

they keep trying to make another "into the West" or "edge of night" like SHUT UP. SHUT UP. SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU WILL NEVER BE BILLY BOYD. YOU WANNA BE BILLY BOYD SO FUCKING BAD IT MAKES YOU LOOK STUPID. ENOUGH. the credits song on the final episode is just someone singing the one ring poem. literally. like it's the one ring to rule them all poem word for word set to a painfully obvious into the west copy.

there's so much more. and i swear on GOD i was trying to give it a chance. my mistake. i shouldn't have done that i was wrong i messed up by watching the r*ngs of p*wer i wish i could take it back.

but nobody else waste your search analytics. nobody investigate. just look at this tumblr post and know: it was as bad as you thought it'd be like don't even sweat it.

[docholligay]

Dr. Holligay Tries Things That Aren't Running: Boot Camp

This one is a bit of a cheat, because I do this class every week. But it, in fact, is not running, and is helping fulfill a bingo, so I'm counting it.

By its own admission, Boot Camp is an advanced class that is by most definitions the hardest class offered at the YMCA. It is an intensive strength class broken up by bits of sprint-style cardio. It's about lifting heavier, going faster, doing it cleaner. I always, always, sweat ONTO THE FLOOR in Boot Camp.

It's always done in stations, that you do in a rotation, and these generally include different parts of the body. Today had a lot of shoulder presses, and chest presses, but also a fair amount of FUCKING PUSHUPS and weighted reverse burpees. Interspersed with line sprints about every four stations.

The class is made for self-starters. Jessie, our fearless leader, says that her job is to keep "The laid-back pushing yourselves, and the little psychos from killing yourselves." You pick your own weight in each station. If you ask for a modification, she'll give it you. But also, she will call you on your crap.

Jessie has two sides. One of them is the "Fareeha Amari teaches a fitness class side" These saying include:

"You're not tired! We're fifteen minutes into class for god's sake." (ignoring that we did a quarter mile sprint followed by 30 jumping jacks followed by 15 jump tucks followed by 10 donkey kick jumps and THEN we headed into the lifting and burpees and whatever the hell else she had planned for us. )

"If it doesn't challenge you, it won't change you!"

"Doc, I thought you were a runner. Faster sprint!"

"Make this class worth an hour of your time! Push! Push! Push!"

And then she has the, "Honoring your effort" side. These sayings include:

"You're gonna feel so good about this in ten minutes!"

"You showed up for yourself today, great job!"

"Doc, your pushup progress is awesome!"

"Everyone remember this is against the you of yesterday, the you of last week, the you of last month. NOT YOUR NEIGHBOR."

It is the only class I take where I literally cannot run after it. I am blown out like a sprinkler system in October. I finish and I have NOTHING left. I am sore not even the next day, but the same day. I had to change my run training because I can't do speedwork for days after the class. The entire time I'm in class I am fighting it. At least once a month I almost cry from frustration because I can't physically do something, i can't push it any further. I am easily one of the bottom 50% of the class--this is a 95% Jock Class. It annoys the FUCK out of me.

I love this class! I feel like I've taken myself as hard as I can go, and since I started taking it regularly a little over a year ago, I have gotten much stronger and put on a few pounds of muscle. My goal at all times is to be able to beat up about 95% of my followers, and this aids me in that noble and lofty goal.

Jessie handed me my sticker before class today. She doesn't worry about me leaving.

[kitkatopinions]

ALrighty!

Spoilers for RWBY ep.... 8 I think? Below the keep reading as well as criticism:

So I was wrong about the Cat. I wish it had turned out to be a morally dubious good guy, but whatever, guess the writers wanted yet another 'the person guiding you is actually not trustworthy' plot.

Here's what I'm gonna say - Neo got fucking taken over and possessed the moment that she actually started getting a spotlight as a villain? HATE that shit. I want Neo, not just some conglomerate taken over by the cat? And I don't like that she talked at all. It should've just been the cat's voice.

Idk if Little is dead or not, but I really don't care about or like Little, so if they are dead, okay??? Better than having to see them again tbh.

Seeing people 'resurrected' but all wrong was kind of dissatisfying? Torchwick was the only one of them who was actually used well (because rwby is going through plotpoints at the speed of light in fourteen to sixteen minute eps so of course we can't sit with things,) but his voice acting was off and so it messed with the immersion some. I don't blame them for not being able to get an exact copycat and I don't think they tried very hard since they didn't need Roman for long, but still, I wish his voice actor had done better. The animation of him was pretty good though.

Ruby ascended? Fuck that shit! I have hope that we're actually going to get 'Ruby down in the tree realizing what 'ascension' actually is, but first off, I wanted Ruby to have a breakdown and struggle, not to be full on suicidal and decide to basically kill herself. Second of all, if this means 'no more Ruby' I am going to be so pissed off. This is Ruby's show, right? Or it's supposed to be! Even if this means that we don't get much Ruby for the next two episodes, I'm still gonna be mad. The 'development' we've gotten so far is just Ruby being in pain, and then seemingly dying? I'm trying not to count my chickens before they hatch or whatever, but this could be worst case scenario, people.

The moment where Ruby was getting attacked by everyone who was dead was... Well, first off, it was weird. Because A. Why would Neo bring in Clover, Leo, and Ozpin? Was she just bringing in everyone she thinks that Ruby may have sort of known who died? Second off, why does Neo think Penny cared about Ruby most in the world? When did she have access to that information? How did she know to use Penny that way? Third off, I liked the 'Ruby strikes out at Ozpin, only for Neo to replace him with Oscar' thing in theory but I would be wrong if I didn't point out that once again the only member of Team RWBYJNOR with dark skin gets the most violent things happening, which is a bad pattern. I get that it may be because Oscar is actually more like Ruby's friend than the rest of her team atm (which is sad,) but I just think the writers should be aware that this is a thing they do that they maybe should correct. Maybe they could've had it be Weiss or Yang that Ruby 'accidentally killed' in these visions? Just a thought. Fourth off! I liked how Neo transformed people into Ruby's alive friends and family, judging her for the 'murder.' Fifth off, I just gotta say the combat was not good for me once again. Neo literally has several people there fighting for her, and they all shot like stormtroopers? Ruby's discombobulated and depressed, so her going down without much fight isn't the problem, the problem is that Neo alone by herself should have been able to easily bring her down, let alone with her clones there to help her. Maybe she only knew Roman well enough to really replicate his style, but Neo and Roman? Tag team of the century!

On to... Team WBYJ. I'm not even gonna get into the fact that Blake and Weiss were more sympathetic to Ruby's struggles than Yang was (I am really frustrated with Yang this season,) but they all just stand there and do nothing while Ruby drinks down poison? What the hell? That is not a freaking good look, guys.

Anyway... I don't know how to feel about this episode, but I'm mostly frustrated and disappointed. And on the other hand, I guess we got good pics of Roman and Neo? I'm gonna have to wait to form a concrete opinions on this ep until we can confirm what the frick actually happened next ep, but for now, it's looking like another 3/10. I got some enjoyment, but overall a bad experience once again.

[fabdante]

Reboot question:

Do you think Dante KNEW that Vergil was gonna die from that final stab in the chest at the end of their fight? Cause like. He kinda just let him go and seemed to think that he'd be fine. Like, Dante still talks to Vergil like he knows Vergil is gonna be a threat after this, so presumably Dante thought Vergil would just walk that stab to the heart off. And probably with good reason! We see Dante poking at his own heart in a bathroom once during a flashback, and presumably this is the first time Dante's ever gotten in this big of a fight before (I mean, Dante basically fought Mundus and Vergil back-to-back), so maybe he just figured Vergil would be fine?

Idk. I feel like if Vergil comes back as the new King of Hell and tells Dante Dante fucking KILLED HIM with that last stab, Dante would just be devastated and shocked, because he honestly thought Vergil would be okay after that. That Vergil would just portal back to the safe house we see them using after the Order fell, and that Vergil would have medical supplies there or something. (Unless Dante and Kat went there afterwards and found the place wrecked or unused.)

I fear this one might get long again asdfghj bare with me

First, a bit on my reading of Downfall (skip the first two paragraphs if that's not interesting asdfghj): I've always preferred the idea that what we see happening in Downfall is less like, literal for the most part and more something Vergil is imagining in his head after passing out on Eva's grave. I realize Word of God canon from Ninja Theory asserts that it like, is supposed to be taken literally but the textual canon of the game itself doesn't really lend itself one way or the other. All we have is Vergil near death passing out and then whatever Eva is (since we don't really know what Eva is) telling him that he did die at some point, though nothing to substantiate that claim beyond her word on the subject. (I tend to treat word of god canon as secondary to textual canon)

But in my reading of the game, I've always just sort of assumed Dante didn't kill Vergil and rather just almost did, something still very scary and unnerving for Dante to grapple with (also I imagine made more complicated by the fact him and Kat after the game likely don't know if Vergil is alive or dead after he left, and that speculation is enough to cause a lot of problems for both of them mentally which is something that comes up a lot in a very 'fab wrote this fan fic for fab' fic I posted, Crossroads of Catharsis and Contemplation asdfghjk)

HOWEVER, like I said, I know Ninja Theory has asserted with Word of God canon that we're supposed to take Downfall literally. So if we take Downfall literally like, Vergil does die after the fight with Dante because we are told by whatever Eva is that he died and this is sort of his own little personal afterlife hell that he needs to crawl out of.

And I am pretty sure Dante had no idea he killed him. The way both Dante and Kat (who has just begged for Vergil's life) implies to me that both thought he'd just heal like the twins do and he'd be fine. The fact Kat in particular does not seem too particularly concerned that Vergil is in dire straights. So I think at the point they're both at with the end of the game, both probably think Vergil will be ok.

I think when things begin to turn is when Vergil just...doesn't communicate with either of them. And that's when they both probably start wondering if he is actually alive or not.

Dante at the end of the game to always read to me as not entirely in control of his devil trigger, thus why it got so bad and Kat had to come over and snap him out of it. Which I definitely think would add to Dantes distress if he were to find out he actually did kill Vergil, even if Vergil got better

[metal-mum]

It's that time again on a Hideous Mass Monday!

Demons are so cool in this silly little game and the fact there's very little information about them makes room for crazy theories.

Such as the possibility of demons being pack/territorial creatures.

Cerberi most definitely are pack creatures, very rarely is one truly alone in the area (both dormant and active). That or a Malicious Face is around it as well, which may be a good enough substitute for the lack of another Cerberi (looking at you, 2-2). Though Cerberi have stronger bonds with each other than random demons, hence why they enrage when their kin die.

Malicious Faces don't seem to care or mind on the other hand, a couple of them being completely alone with nothing around. Though pairings seem to be pretty common as well, and most of the time a dormant Cerberi is in a room close by. Maybe they're just adaptive to their situations? Since the lone ones are usually found in super tight spaces while open ones seem to pair up with other demons/kin.

Then you have Hideous Mass. This thing is absolutely territorial 100% and whatever Hell is doing for its amusement by teleporting them places is aggravating!!! The 1-3 Hideous Mass has no other creatures close by, the enemies are literally rooms away. The thing was dormant till we walked in and, reasonably so, pissed at the intruder. Then you have the two in Heresy, which almost throws the whole "Hideous Mass is Territorial" theory away, till you realize these two may have been competing with each other. They only stopped because an unauthorized blue robot walked in and interrupted it. Nobody likes a third party! Once more other enemies aren't even close by, a whole room and hallway away from the two. Only once you kill one do they start flooding in.

Feeling bad for the one in P-2 though, poor guy got teleported in with four Cerberus (and it will kill them itself over time. Granted by accident but it's funny). Also going to mention how the Virtues that spawn there are extremely far and completely out of Hideous Mass' mortar range. Of course it's most likely to make the fight harder but hey, we're here to have fun and theorize!

[saltygilmores]

Thoughts While Watching Gilmore Girls- Season 1, Episode 21 (Love, Daisies, and Troubadors) Part THREE.

Please check out my pinned post for the rest of season 1 as well as part 1 & 2 of this season finale. We resume our regularly scheduled program, which is Buttzilla Forrester in the middle of a jealous rage, trying to manipulate RoryGil (who isn't even his girlfriend anymore, by the way).

I HATE IT when Rory apologizes to Dean like this and she's done literally nothing wrong! It's so sad. My feelings about later seasons Rory are...a mixed bag to say the least, but I will defend Season 1 Rory with all my might.

Gaslighting: to manipulate (someone) by psychological means into questioning their own sanity. Buttzilla: Your boyfriend's waiting. RoryGil: He's not my boyfriend, I hate him! Buttzilla: Whatever. Biggest fictional piece of shit on the planet. Literal dogshit stuck to the bottom of your shoe. RG: Dean, stop! Buttzilla: Why. RG, Pained and Unconvincing: Cause I love you, you idiot. You know there are literal people that find this exchange romantic? Not many,as The Dean Forrester fandom is small and they seem to know their place and not emerge from the shadows. But they exist. Uh oh. I hear corny music... it's happening...

Alexis is frozen solid. She is not moving. Her mouth isn't moving. Her hands are not moving. Her spine is stiff. I don't even need to post pics or gifs of her kissing Milo to compare the two, we've all seen them.

Easy there, JarPad! Release that poor girl from your kung-fu grip! Screen shots don't illustrate the frantic speed in which he is mashing his mouth against hers either. Oh no, now we're getting into the closeups. I'm so sorry for doing this. I hope you can forgive me.

She's a woman, not a lemon! Jesus christ! The vein in his neck is throbbing.

If you would like me to further ruin your Thanksgiving, imagine this following disturbing but absolutely true scenario: Rory and Dean sleep together. Dean refuses to go down on her, fucks her for 15 seconds, finishes and has this same stupid smile on his face, all "was it good for you baby?" and Rory's like "Sure, you did great, tiger." and he believes it. Also Lindsay. Poor Lindsay. #JusticeForLindsay Ugh. I survived. We all survived. Ya'll okay? Diet Logan witnesses this and puts down Rory's books, probably traumatized into being a better person, because I know I was close to promising I'd find Jesus if only that kiss would mercifully end. We cut to the Indepdence Inn and Michel and Kirk arguing because Max took Lorelai's "1,000 yellow daisies" suggestion very, very literally and the Inn is now filled with fucking flowers. Kirk Job: Flower delivery man. Lorelai stands there in stark silence admiring the daisies while Michel calls daisies "Pitiful little things, a notch up from weeds", which is also what I think of Dean Forrester. This relationship is going to LAST....! ...For about another four episodes. Max: I didn't propose to you because we were fighting. I proposed because I love you. Lorelai:

"Help. Me." MM: We're in a bad pattern Lorelai, and we have to break it. That's why you proposed to end an argument, got rejected, didn't have any discussion about it whatsoever like grown ups, pretended it didn't happen, took an off the cuff suggestion she gave you way too literally, then waited exactly one more day to propose a second time. Goes into a blathering Mediocre English Teacher Speech about how books just can't compare to real life blah blah blah. Look, in my occasional headcanon where Jess Mariano grows up to become an English teacher he would never be this fucking pretentious. Lorelai: "God you talk so good." To be fair, he doesn't exactly propose to her over the phone, he's all "think it over" but this thing with the daisies feels really manipulative. How the hell is she gonna say no now? Lorelai bursts into Luke's Diner. Luke: Ahhh, you made me spill. He said the same thing while he was fixing her porch rail.

Cute.

"I just got manipulated back into a shitty relationship wtih a shitty male!" "Me too Mom! Me too! This is so exciting!" Happy Thanksgiving!

[violetlunette]

Your review for chapter 4

The exam is fine in isolation. You can tell by looking at it that the purpose of this exam was so that Izuku could punch a giant robot, break three of his limbs, and save and be saved by Uraraka. Bakugo also got a high score in a test that catered perfectly to his quirk. It succeeded in its goals and was a very memorable moment. The first time Izuku ever went SMASH. MHA really hit at the perfect time when superheroes were big and it provided constant action. Maybe a bit too much in retrospect, since we never got much Academia in the My Hero.

The problem comes with Shinso in the sports festival.

An invisible girl managed to pass it. That same invisible girl got a higher score on Aizawa's physical test than Izuku, despite her quirk doing nothing for her. What's Shinso's excuse? The logic here is that Toru was either punching robots or rescuing people, and Shinso failed to do both. I think we're supposed to care about and feel sorry for this kid though? The only message you can take away from this is that he's lazy and wanted to coast through with his quirk. But we're meant to want him to get into the hero course and feel hype when he's training with them. He wasn't mad because the test was unfair, he was mad because his quirk didn't work on robots. There's persistent fanon that the robots had secret off switches, which despite all the years of the MHA fandom being a thing, nobody's been able to dig up where that was stated. I don't believe statements without evidence, and nobody's ever been able to provide proof of this. But even if we assume this is real...

It makes Shinso even more of an idiot. Apparently UA provided a back door to help kids who couldn't punch robots get in, and he was too daft to see it. So the story wants us to see that the exam was unfair, but someone who gets literally zero advantages from their power in the test passed it. He spends a lot of time griping about other people having perfect quirks and living a charmed life. Toru destroys his argument entirely. I bet she wishes she had Brainwash. There's also Koji. It wasn't until the Joint Training Arc that we learned that Koji has enhanced strength from being a rock person. I don't recall a moment before that which we could know this. Tokoyami for example has a bird head. But he doesn't display any crow traits, such as mimicking sounds or having superb eyesight. His are just cosmetic. Koji's personality isn't the type to have animals get hurt fighting robots, and it's unlikely that there were conveniently placed bears for him to use nearby. So he must have punched robots too, I guess. We know NOW he's enhanced, but at the time of the sports festival he'd be another person whose quirk wouldn't have helped him much, because he doesn't see animals as disposable tools. None of this matters or would be thought about by anyone if not for Shinso bringing attention to it. By the way, since I'm talking to you right now, when are you doing another poll? I like those.

Oh shoot, I forgot to mention the punch! Yeah, Hori really does do well on the action scene when he pulls them up. (Though there’s a little much lately, but I guess that’s the audience.) I’m with you though. If it ain’t in the manga or official work, it doesn’t count, especially if it’s an important plot point, like in this case. Some may argue that Shinso didn’t get in because he has a “villainous” quirk but we’ve never seen anyone bothered by that, especially the heroes. What they do say is that he failed the hero course because his quirk isn’t a combat quirk. But that always raised the question; how the hell did Toru get in then? She’s not strong physically and, at this point, has no way of disarming anyone. We’ve seen she’s not an academic genius, so it wasn't her brains that got her in. Fans can speculate all they like about buttons or whatever but without proof, it’s just a plot hole. (Plus, buttons were never mentioned so how would Toru know about them? It’s more likely she got in the way Elle Woods did without the GPA backing.) But I’ll talk more about it when I get to the sports festival and not sporting a fever. I think I’ve touched on this in previous posts if you want to look it up. Just search the Shinso critical tag, and you’ll find it. As for the polls, I’ve been playing with posting one, so I’ll just do it. Just keep following!

[myrddin-wylt]

What the hell is anon going on about? We don't even own these characters like...

And like you said, we're drawing from the same source material so we're bound to come up with similar if not the exact same headcanons.

Also, the whole nations dying headcanons has been done to death (pun not intended). Which isn't a bad thing, it just means there are not really any original takes on the subject. And you want me to go all the way back to like 2012, possibly farther to credit the original person to say nations can grow their limbs back? Who's to say the one anon considers the "original poster" of the headcanon didn't take it from someone else, who took it from someone else, who took it from someone else and so on.

Also also, sometimes others headcanons will influence me without realizing it. But often times in the mix they become my own/I don't remember where I first heard the headcanon.

Sorry, this just got me heated 😅. Like I can't explain it. Headcanons are kind of different than art and fanfic. I don't think they need to be as harshly protected as anon is making it out to be.

When I see someone with the same headcanons as me I don't immediately think they stole my idea, I just go "Hey you're very smart 🤝"

at this point I've gone on too much but I wanted to respond to you so: it's very annoying for a few reasons but like. as an aside. there's a reason people are entitled to their work and the form it takes and the effort put into it but they are not entitled to their general ideas, especially not when drawing on the same material. and I think a lot of the irritation is because we've likely all had to tell ourselves that exact thing, because there's nothing quite so annoying as realizing you aren't as uniquely creative as you thought.

idk man I just wanted to talk about Vampyr crossover so I started with nation biology. like Arthur has to have a vampire for a doctor because no human in the world could get him to admit that he does, in fact, feel pain. and not only that, but he's vulnerable in several ways due to historical injuries that he sustained because he was 'too weak' to avoid them or heal from them or whatever. and Arthur won't admit important shit like that because that's his actual canon characterization, so most of the time Jonathan has to use his blood sense and manipulation skills but he does that fairly easily because the game revolves around the player being able to pick all the exact right dialogue options and be a total manipulative bastard until you can figure out what these people are suffering from because they literally will not just tell you even if Jonathan is their literal doctor.

this includes characters like Thomas Elwood, who sustained serious burn injuries during his time fighting in France in WW1 and who has physically healed but still feels immense pain because he has a psychosomatic condition, and the only way you can unlock the hints for his character is to figure all that out yourself without saying the wrong thing because the game runs on an autosave feature so you can't go back and fix mistakes and the characters WILL clam up if you say something wrong. there's also, hold on, Harvey Fiddick who fucked up his hand and needs surgery but the doctors keep fighting over what procedure to do and they aren't sure if he'll ever actually get full use of his arm back anyway because sometimes injuries heal wrong or never fully heal at all. like the only thing that makes Arthur different from any of them is that he has historical flavor.

like I'm really trying to emphasize the degree to which I've been thinking about nations having old injuries despite their healing abilities and how their biology differs from humans. also I'm stalling because I keep getting my ass kicked by this goddamn sewer beast. also I'm trying to get other people to try this game because I love it. ALL THAT ASIDE--

[nonpracticinghumanbeing]

(Hey, guess which terrible little ball of anger I'm writing about yet again. Also, this is basically therapy for me. So tw for mental health issues, past trauma and a lot of self-loathing I guess? Lol.)

I write A LOT about Izzy. Both here and on Facebook. And I have very strong opinions about him, which causes really violent reactions from some people (including being called an abuse apologist for merely pointing out that he believed he was doing the right thing when he made a deal with Badminton and one person actually comparing him to a certain genocidal Austrian painter). I really DO understand why people hate him, he's a terrible abusive man and for many viewers his behaviour may be triggering. That's absolutely valid.

But. The more I think about it the more I understand why he's so important to me. And not just because we're both sad little masochistic boys, even though I don't think I'll ever get over getting proper representation when it comes to kink being an integral part of my identity. I also see something of myself in how terribly broken he is. As someone whose parents' treatment made them struggle with anxiety their whole adult life, I really sympathise with him even though I do realise he's a truly awful man.

You see, when you've been conditioned to believe there's something inherently wrong with you, it really changes you. You learn to hide who you really are and you create a person you present to the outside world that you only claim is you. You wear that as an armour meant to protect you from the world. You believe no one would ever accept the real you, so you spend all your energy on pretending to be what you think is acceptable. You learn not to talk about how you feel, because you can't risk exposing yourself. You take everything that hurts, lock it in a box, put that box under your bed, and throw away the key.

When every single day is a struggle, you become hyperfocused on staying alive in a hostile world. You have neither time nor energy for anything else when you're fighting for survival. Things like love or happiness are for other people, you can't pay them any mind 'cause if you slip up it may actually kill you.

So you find whatever it is that lets you get by and you cling to it for dear life, because your life may literally depend on it. (I have my routines that keep me stable, he has his lager-than-life legend of a captain who makes him feel safe.) And you become pathologically protective of it. If anyone threatens your source of stability, you put everything you have into making them go away, because however unhealthy your way of life is, you can't even imagine an alternative.

Years pass and nothing changes in your life, because you can't afford to let it change. You see people around you thrive and live their best lives and you just don't know how to do that. So you become angry, and you become frustrated, and you become violent. And sometimes you are violent towards those around you and sometimes you are violent towards yourself. And you come to hate your life, but at the same time you're too scared to do anything about it.

And then - if you take a second to stop and think, something I've been lucky enough to finally manage and that Izzy desperately needs - one day you realise just how hopeless it really is. That surviving is not living. That the armour you've been wearing all those years has long since become your skin and you don't know how to be yourself. And that if you want to start making things better you need to pull that old box from under the bed and deal with what's inside. And that is TERRIFYING, and it hurts like hell, which is why many people choose not to do it their entire lives.

So. What I wanna say is that I think I understand what he's going through. Yes, he's an abuser and a homophobe, and a racist. But I don't think he's inherently evil. As @internerdionality once wrote, both him and Ed are abusive because they are afraid and not because they take pleasure in hurting people. That doesn't make it alright by any means, but it makes me want to see Izzy get a redemption arc. Con saying that Izzy wants to be better but doesn't know how was like getting fucking stabbed for me, because that literally was me for years and years before I managed to get myself even a little bit together. That along with Daddy Jenkins' way of smashing cliches makes me want to believe he can get a happy ending. Because yes, I take this personally.

[androgynousblackbox]

Not me, rewatching the last season to get ready for the new one and crying over Rick and Birdperson's arc 😭 Rick's whole thing is that he doesn't care, and he really put himself out there like that and admitted that he loves BP, both his current self directly stating it and his past self expressing it in his own toxic, fucked up way. Rick really went "Nothing matters to me but you do" with everything he had.

And he was *rejected*

Double and, despite that, he still loves BP. He still admits this, and still does anything to bring him back.

I also think about how much this factors into his relationship with Morty. He holds himself back because admitting how much he loves someone is vulnerability, and he can't be rejected again, so its better to push them away first, so he constantly switches between being hot and cold, caring so much Morty means everything to him and him not caring what happens.

I just. Aaaaaaaah

What I love so much about their arc is that you perfectly understand WHY Birdperson rejected Rick. It's not some shit "but we're both guys", "but I don't wanna break our friendship uwu", not even "but I don't feel that way about you", but rather that Birdperson WANTS to care about something, about everything, and he knew the way that Rick suggested to him was only ever going to make him miserable in the long run. Maybe Birdperson COULD have corresponded his feelings all along, we don't even know that, but not with this Rick that doesn't see any value on the things he does. Rick absolutely fucked up so badly when he told him that the war that they just fought didn't mattered, that the fight for his species that was practically genocided didn't mattered, that all the lives of his friends and families could all just mean nothing... Man, you can see the way that hurt Birdperson and how no fucking love confession was ever going to make that okay. If I were Birdperson and we just won that war, at that moment, that would have been the last time I saw Rick for even suggesting that bullshit. Like, I know in fandom we are so used to babify Rick and be "but his feelings uwu" but Birdperson literally survived a fucking genocide during a moment of war, and here is this fucker telling him that all of that is meaningless, and he just... let's him down SO easily, so much more easy that Rick deserved. Like, for real, fuck Rick, Birdperson is the real one fucking angel that deserves so much better than whatever Rick was offering. You get from where he was coming from. The show never demonizes him for it nor tells Rick that he was right on any way for that, just like they never demonize Unity either for dumping Rick and the toxic relationship they had. And Rick doesn't get that because that is his coping mechanism, always running away, never letting himself just feel, just changing whatever wasn't working by going somewhere else, never picking a place to call home and just give a fuck about something. They were always fundamentally incompatible on that sense and until Rick figures out his own shit (like he seems to be doing just NOW, by sticking with his family despite everything), they were never going to work out. He is quite literally on a hell of his own fucking making. Birdperson knew that wasn't healthy, just like Unity ended up learning the hard way too, and made the right choice. You and me, as the viewers who like Rick, have to sit with that knowledge and come to terms with the awareness that this is so something Rick has to fix on himself, that no partner, no relationship can do for him, not even Morty. And all of this without the show directly telling you SHIT, because it trust you to see it yourself! Because they trust on their audience to be emotionally mature to understand it! THAAAAT is some motherfucking good writing, like fuck anyone who dissed that season, for fucking real. I fucking loved it so much. I fucking love this show, my fucking god.