i like you more than i should pt.3
i've liked you for 5 years and i'm so tired of "playing it cool" because fuck, i like you so god damn much and it's becoming harder to hide it as the days go by.
you're literally all that's on my mind and i can't help but think about you all the time. it's crazy how we barely talk and all our interactions consist of solely eye contact and the rare occasions in which you say something and i reply, or you saying something and me listening because i love your voice so much (also because i don't have the guts to say anything in that moment because i'm so hung up on what you're saying).
i wish i were more outgoing and extroverted so i could strike conversation with you. i wish i had more confidence so i could meet and hold your gaze rather than just catching your eye and looking away because i feel like i'm going to do something stupid if i look at you for too long. i wish we'd gotten closer 5 years ago, i wish i'd met you earlier, i wish i was able to actually be around you without just being around you.
i thought my feelings for you would go away overtime, but fuck, everyday i fall even more and more for you and at this point i've accepted that this is how it will be. maybe one day i'll grow up and you will too and eventually you'll find someone and maybe so will i and then you'll just be my "first love," but until then i don't think my feelings for you are going anywhere.
and honestly, i'm okay with that. i like you a lot, like a lot a lot and i'm completely fine with it. i know i'll probably never have the courage to tell you how i feel about you, even though i so badly want to tell you how much you mean to me and how perfect you are in my eyes and how i absolutely adore every part of you, i won't and i hate it. i hate that i can't and i hate that i'm okay with it. it's the worst feeling ever, because everytime i see you walk past me or catch your gaze my first thought "oh god he's so pretty" or "fuck i like him so much" yet the fact that i can't tell you any of this eats me up day and night.
it's crazy how you can literally do the smallest, most basic, simple thing ever and i will be absolutely enamoured by it- by you. because you are so special to me, i can't even put it into words. it's like my heart and mind know everything i feel about you but when i try to explain it i'm never able to because it's as though the feeling i have for you is meant to be a part of me and not anyone else- not even you.
but oh how i wish i could do something about it, that i could tell you and maybe take a chance to see where things would go if i bared my heart to you, but i know i won't and that scares me a bit. because even though i like you more than anything i've accepted that i won't be able to tell you because it just won't work. you're like the brightest star in my universe and i'm like that astronomer that watches the sky from a telescope- close but not close enough.
so i'll stay as i am, admiring you from afar, because by god you are the most gorgeous person i've ever seen and as long as i get to see you as you are, i am happy.
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cant tell you how bad it feels to constantly tell other artists to come to tumblr, because its the last good website that isn't fucked up by spoonfeeding algorithms and AI bullshit and isn't based around meaningless likes
just to watch that all fall apart in the last year or so and especially the last two weeks
there's nowhere good to go anymore for artists.
edit - a lot of people are saying the tags are important so actually, you'll look at my tags.
#please dont delete your accounts because of the AI crap. your art deserves more than being lost like that #if you have a good PC please glaze or nightshade it. if you dont or it doesnt work with your style (like mine) please start watermarking #use a plain-ish font. make it your username. if people can't google what your watermark says and find ur account its not a good watermark #it needs to be central in the image - NOT on the canvas edges - and put it in multiple places if you are compelled #please dont stop posting your art because of this shit. we just have to hope regulations will come slamming down on these shitheads#in the next year or two and you want to have accounts to come back to. the world Needs real art #if we all leave that just makes more room for these scam artists to fill in with their soulless recycled garbage #improvise adapt overcome. it sucks but it is what it is for the moment. safeguard yourself as best you can without making #years of art from thousands of artists lost media. the digital world and art is too temporary to hastily click a Delete button out of spite
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People liking your personal OCs is still such a crazy feeling, I've been doing this for years and ppl asking about them still fills my entire heart with warmth and idk how to handle it
You enjoy this fictional guy I made up for fun?? Whose only content is random artwork or writing made by me and a handful of other artists at most? They have no show/book/game with a large fandom, it's just one person with an art blog?? I love u
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Yes, Greece still exists, we didn't all die 2000 years ago. Yes, people speak Greek. You people are so fucking stupid for real. So many of you claim to love ancient shit but can't even acknowledge the actual living culture of the people whose mythology and classics you romanticize. You keep leaving annoying comments about how you just forget Greek people still exist, thinking you're being quirky because you love ancient stuff soooo much that you forgot about the people it came from. You think about it so little you don't even realize that an actual Greek person has to read this shit, making it clear how little you actually care about the culture beyond the romanticized (and westernized) mythology. Don't claim you love Greece, don't use our mythology anymore if you can't acknowledge that we're still around without making it about how little you think about us. It's mind boggling that you'd think a Greek person would read this and think you're anything but obnoxious. Explode.
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PSA: i keep seeing posts about staying cool in extreme heat that include advice like "gatorade is bad actually!" and "don't drink fruit juice it'll just dehydrate you!" and neither of these are true!
regarding fruit juice: there's apparently a misconception that Any Sugar At All will dehydrate you, and that's simply not true. yes, sugar will make you pee more when consumed in large amounts, but 1) the natural sugar in fruits won't do this to you 2) great news! a lot of fruit juices exist without any added sugar in them! 3) honestly even having a glass of the fruit juice with added sugar won't completely dehydrate you as long as you're also drinking water throughout the day. if its hot you deserve a cold treat of a drink!!! can't go wrong with fruit juice!!!
regarding gatorade: maybe this isn't an every day drink, but guess what: if it's 110F/40C or hotter outside, and you don't have AC, or you're moving around a lot outside of the AC, and you're sweating buckets: that's when you drink a gatorade.
gatorade exists to replenish all the electrolytes (salt) and glucose (sugar) that you sweat out. YES it is meant for athletes to drink during intensive work outs and not necessarily for people who aren't doing that kind of exercise. BUT GUESS WHAT! when you're sweating buckets because you had to walk to the bus in extreme heat, that's intensive exercise. please feel free to drink a gatorade after that! that's its intended use case!!!!
no: neither of these drinks should be a total replacement for water. but drinking a lot of water and then treating yourself to a fruit juice with lunch is a good idea!!! drinking a gatorade becuase you just had to walk for 20 minutes in the heat is a good idea!!!
Please Stop Spreading Misinformation About Drinks!!! It's fine if you drink things that aren't water!!!! Yes you should probably always be drinking water but drinking something else As Well isn't going to hurt you!!!! okay!!!! its fine!!!!!!
honestly so long as you are consistently getting Any (non-alcoholic) fluids in you, you're doing great!!!!!! okay!!!! i love you stay safe <3
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