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🍻 svt reacts to your drunk texts.
@hopeless-foolery → "how would the members react to you cutely drunk texting them?"
⌗ ┆i too would be drunk texting svt about how much i adore them... ⁽⁽ଘ( ˊωˋ )ଓ⁾⁾
‧₊˚✩彡 includes: drunk!reader (mentions of alcohol), intentional typos, established relationship, pet names, fluff!!! yipee, slight crack, cussing, [short] headcanons under the cut.
🍻 headcanons .ᐟ
— would make fun of you ✩ jeonghan, junhui, soonyoung, mingyu, seungkwan.
svt have had their fair share of seeing each other drunk, so it should come as little/no surprise that they've got a little bit of a teasing streak when it comes to a drunk you. soonyoung beats them all out by a mile in the sense that he will demand to be drinking with you. he can't have you being the only one having all the fun! if he can, he'll roll up and drink with you until you're both drunkenly blabbering to each other. mingyu uses the opportunity to ask drunk you a bunch of the silliest questions. he'll be very serious as he tries to get you to answer the perilla leaf debate, for instance, because he thinks you're most likely to be a little more honest (and very cute) when you've got a little bit of alcohol in you. as for jeonghan, his exploitation is a lot more light hearted; he's quick to seize the chance to fish for compliments. he thinks it's amusing, how you'll get all flustered in the morning. "no take backs!" he'll claim as he basks in all your sweet words. junhui is similar in the sense that he's already taken dozens of screenshots of your drunk texts. as leverage, of course, but also for him to look back on a rainy day. one of his favorite things is finding ways to surprise you when you're drunk, because he knows you'll get emotional over a random call— or, if he can manage, a surprise visit. seungkwan teeters the line of making fun/taking care, though he often does start with an exasperated kind of joking. ultimately, he'll never be able to resist the urge to make sure you're okay. (think: the famous instance of seungkwan taking care of a drunk wonwoo.) he'll dish out all his jokes before going to find you and make sure you're all good.
— would take care of you ✩ seungcheol, joshua, seokmin, minghao, vernon.
seungcheol would be the caretaker. the moment he gets those drunk texts, he's already gearing up to take you home. he's the gentle hand at the small of your back, keeping you steady. best believe that he already has everything you need in his car's glove compartment. he loves your drunk texts, sure, but he loves looking after you so much more. vernon's more of a the-day-after type of care. he'll show up at your doorstep with a small smirk, teasing something along the lines of "you went hard again, huh?" but he also has aspirin, gatorade, takeout soup. you name it. he won't mention your sappy drunk texts, though he's also secretly taken screenshots just in case you take it back. joshua, seokmin, and minghao all have that similar instinct to make sure you're okay, no matter how happy they might be to see your cute messages. joshua will indulge your drunken babbles while 'subtly' trying you to care for yourself. if necessary, he'll coax you over video call to drink less, using the most honeyed voice ever to get you to cave. conversely, seokmin will stay up until you get home. he prefers being able to pick you up, sure, but when he can't? he'll battle off his drowsiness and will only crash when he gets that 'i'm home' text. minghao, no matter what time you catch him, will be on his feet at any sign of you having drunk one too many. it's the way he loves, after all— to love is to be burdened, but to not think of it that way.
— would be endeared by you ✩ wonwoo, jihoon, chan.
wonwoo may be a little confused, but he's got the spirit! he'll probably sigh to himself when he sees your drunken rambles. (although, if you squint, there's a hint of a fond smile on his face. a warm gleam in his eyes.) he'll let you have your fun and will occasionally shoot you well-meaning reminders, all the while keeping your words in the back of his mind. jihoon would take your words seriously. he's the kind who believe that alcohol can lower inhibitions, can incite sincerity, so he'll be more than a little overwhelmed with your sheer affection. the mere thought of you wanting to take it back would make his heart lurch. like seokmin, he's the text-me-when-you're-home type, except he stays awake for much longer just contemplating your texts and how they make him feel. and chan will try to tease, will attempt to be like his hyungs— prompting compliments, fishing for praise— but when the words sink in? when he realizes that you actually might mean what you're saying? he's so far gone, it's not even funny. he'd do anything to hear more of it. (preferably in person, which is why he's rushing to where you are asap.)
#svt smau#seventeen smau#svt imagines#seventeen imagines#svt fluff#seventeen fluff#svt x reader#seventeen x reader#── ᵎᵎ ✦ mine#── ᵎᵎ ✦ reqs#[ im so sorry i keep doing this to jihoon BUT YOU MUST ALL BELIEVE ME!! ]#[ but also. seungcheol Taking Care of You mmmm the flavor ]#hopeless-foolery
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Currently antagonizing over Deadpool’s skin condition.
Does it have less feeling bc it’s scarred? More because it’s cancerous? Is it tender when people brush his skin? Or is it more of an itching feeling? Do the scars move? Are some places more tender than others? Does he have scars bc of the experiment done on him or is it because he developed some sort of cancerous skin condition after his mutant powers were activated? Is it melanoma? Maybe a basal cell?
(If Wade’s skin is more numb, then I could make a case that he doesn’t like gentle touches bc he can’t really feel them. He likes it when Logan presses bruises into him, even if they fade because then he can actually feel it. He likes rough handling or bites or that freakiness we all know they have. More than just the thrill but because Logan isn’t afraid to make a mark.
Maybe after his diagnosis and after his scars Vanessa was a little too gentle with him. Like he was made of glass. She meant it to be caring but Wade just felt fragile. Broken. In an odd way being broken by someone who knows he can take it and then put back together again feels so much better than someone who’s afraid he’ll shatter. It wasn’t her intention but it’s different with Logan. Who sees Wade as his equal, someone who can take it, who likes the way Logan is and all his rough edges and needs it even.
The more I think about it, the more it seems like Wade appreciates that. He has close friends are alittle mean, alittle rough. They snap at each other and argue and Wade does it back. Al complains about every little thing Wade does but she won’t let him move out. Ellie will always be that bitchy teenager to Wade and they’ll argue about it forever but they’ll never leave each other. Of course Wade loves the gentle moments too but I think he really appreciates that they just treat him normally. He likes someone he can verbally spar with and still know that they would die for him and vice versa. And Logan is the epitome of rough around the edges but would die for the people he loves, which is why I think him and Wade work even when, on the surface level, it seems like they don’t.)
I also like the head canon that Logan’s skin is smooth and not callouses at all despite the fact that he seems like the guy who’d have a bunch of callouses but his regen factor heals them before they can form.
Opposites and all that.
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GUESS WHO'S BACK IN THE HOUSE???
I don't know how frequent these will be but I'm gonna try to pick this back up now that, at the very least, I am done with having to read stuff for mandatory academic reasons.
But before I go back and start over with chapter 33, I'm going to do a little recap of where I think everyone was when I left them, as far as my own notes and my memory allow. I'm probably going to make less sense than before now that I had a 5 month hiatus and I'll probably guess even less of what's going on, but such is life.
This character recap should be read with this song in your head because that's the energy I picture.
she's going through it
doesn't remember shit
thinks ortus was her cavalier
is constantly targeted by alleged gideon aka ortus the first
who actually also told her how to defend herself from him (them? he said "us") (use blood, not bones, of course)
is seen as "lyctor lite" because her cavalier slurping thing "didn't work"
(we think this might be good because of gideon reasons)
improved her necro abilities to "make up" for it
can't really hold the sword
everyone expects her to die
I think she's stronger than they think and that's their mistake
sent letters to herself that she hasn't yet fully read
like I made these recaps that now I'm re-reading, life parallels
gave yandere twin her arm back with necro sex or something
is dealing with an inner chad who is as difficult in death as in life
misses her sister who she thinks is still alive
I also think she's alive
got a new arm through necro sex or something
is kinky as well as yandere
thinks too highly of augustine
wants to be a good lyctor
has issues with her self-perception because she was always the ignored twin, even if she had the necro abilities
sleeps in a room with a lot of nudes
wanted to kiss harrow but was rejected (the second time, the first time was some harrow conspiracy theory thing)
I hate this guy
is very bad at his job
or very good, if his job is to be awful
supposedly he's gonna be killed, but so far no results on that front
had a thing with ice cube barbie aka AL aka annabel lee, allegedly
undetermined what kind of "thing" that was
gets into orgies with his lyctors, apparently
is always reading stuff
has created a system to destroy planets and their energy
this has brought them issues
who would have thought
there are now energy things that are wanting to destroy them
they killed some but have, I believe, 3 still trailing them
claims that what they did was a good thing
doesn't take responsibility for things that are clearly his fault
isn't disturbed by harrow's origin story of baby blending in a necro magic bullet to make her
probably because he has committed genocide himself
is also being hated on by a bunch of rebels whose leader disappeared about 20 years prior
my running theory is that gideon's mom might be related to that
aka Senior Chad
don't like this guy
he's training yandere twin, if we can call it that
dislikes mercygirl a lot but isn't above getting dirty with her and the emperor
you can't convince me there weren't other ways they could have distracted him, but he went for that, so
wanted to help kill alleged gideon aka ortus the first
thinks too highly of himself
explains things in a convoluted way
is treated very poorly
can help people with wounds
thinks harrowcita is very smol and always claims her to be younger than the last time
was involved in the plan of getting emperor reverend doctor john Distracted with Capital D to get alleged gideon aka ortus the first killed
idk how much she knew of the plan before getting into it tbh there wasn't a lot of discussion prior
insists she's not moving not!dulcinea
argues with people all the time
his name is up for debate at this point but I'm sure it's actually gideon
may or may not be involved in things beyond the planet situation
seems to be sort of possessed or something because, in a moment of maybe lucidity or not wanted to protect harrowcita from "us"
maybe he's not the kind one, maybe it's his cavalier, but idk
is probably who the note in book 1 was referring to
wants to kill harrow to protect the emperor, apparently
was about to be killed by not!dulcinea (who doesn't get a section but is STILL wreaking havoc because nobody listens to me)
harrowcita saved his life like in toy story 3 with the incinerator
was seen doing Stuff with not!dulcinea prior to this
emperor john alluded that he may be aroace though
we stan him for that
doesn't get along with the rest
also we stan him for that
has been trying to kill harrowcita the whole time
we don't stan him for that
aka AL aka annabel lee, I think
it wasn't stated but that's what I'm going for
is the body that was in the locked tomb that harrowcita saw
but now is haunting harrow and going around with her but only she can see and hear her
her eyes though are like gideon's maybe
harrow claims to love her
she's also present in the gideon-less past we keep seeing as well
we don't know much about her but if the emperor imprisoned her, we're on her side
canaan house but with a lot of events differently set
starting with gideon not existing and ortus being harrow's cav
ortus is also in a polycule with the fifth
dulcinea is the real one in this one and protozoa is alive
regina george twin was pushed to her "death???" by mayonneise uncle, before he also threw himself
palmolive and camilla are dead in this one
the second house has 1 alive and 1 dead
abigail seems to know a lot of stuff
maybe hadn't she died immediately, book 1 would have been shorter
everyone keeps saying "is this how it happened?"
IT'S NOT
harrow reads a note only she can see that keeps getting longer about someone ranting to some guy and there's a potential triangle situation going on and also eggs
I'm thinking it might be a fertility thing but idk
there's a waker/sleeper that behaves like a slasher villain
it's hidden in a coffin nobody can open and kills with a rifle
it also has a gideon-like sword?
not sure how this connects with what's going on in the emperor's bolthole because not!dulcinea doesn't exist in this one, apparently
even though camilla is very much alive and slaying and palmolive is currently a skull in a bag, I'll leave that for the next recap once I've caught up with the entire chapter
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Corroded Coffin Fest Halloween - Greed
Summary: Eddie Munson has some regrets.
Word Count: 1031
Rating: T
Warnings/Themes: Minor FOI compliance, friendship, angst, guilt, regret, self-doubt, self-hatred, desperation, implied trauma responses
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Tuesday, October 29th 1985
Let the record show that Edward J. Munson was a greedy piece of shit.
Of course he was, why wouldn't he be?
He was an attention whore.
A power-hungry fiend when it came to Dungeons and Dragons.
And he sought fame and fortune through his band. Enough that he pretty much broke them up and abandoned them at the first chance when he knew they wouldn't be able to succeed, but he would.
Except he wasn't.
He wasn't those things.
Deep down, he knew he wasn't and his friends knew it too.
They'd forgiven him but he'd taken a while to forgive himself and feel like himself again after the whole demo tape saga. After the idea of a record deal was just dust in the wind, just like his dad, and Paige...
How many times had he apologized to Gareth and Jeff? Or Ronnie and Doug? How many things had he done to make it better? To show them that he meant it when he said that he was gonna be different.
Things were different.
Their friendships were repaired and new friendships were forged. Everything felt a little less dire now that he'd seen his life crumble before his eyes...and then repair itself through hard work and effort.
Things weren't just different, though; they were actually better. There was hope and determination; they could get places, they could make a name for themselves, if only they worked hard enough. No man left behind, no more dickery.
Well, maybe a little bit when he wrote it into a Hellfire campaign.
Sometimes he felt it creeping inside of him though.
It was never obvious until it was too late.
Until he was demanding absolute perfection from his bandmates, because he knew they could do better.
Like he did tonight.
They had their Halloween set at the Hideout to a surprisingly larger crowd than they were used to. Nothing awe-inspiring, just a handful of costumed couples pre-gaming before a party and some younger office schlubs looking to take advantage of Bev's $5 buckets.
But they'd been getting more applause than they were used to, and they all wanted to chase that high.
Especially Eddie.
They'd been doing alright, really getting into their groove. It really felt like that shitty makeshift stage was in some amphitheater for thousands because of that little crowd cheering for a bunch of metalheads dressed as vampires.
Then they got to a last minute addition to their set, one that they hadn't been able to really nail during practice on Saturday because of their Halloween pranking escapade.
In hindsight, Eddie should've have ever let that wrath get the better of him, but he was just so damn done with being treated like shit.
He should've known that, somehow somewhere, it would come back and bite them in the asses.
It started off without a hitch, they were in the groove...and then Dave fumbled the bass.
Actually, he didn't just fumble it; he wrecked their whole cadence and threw them all off.
"Sorry, sorry," he apologized nervously as the song came to a halt. "Sorry you guys. Let's start again. I'll get it right this time."
Eddie, thrown out of the headspace he got into when he performed, floundered as he tried to respond. And the audience snickered at their flubs. Which embarrassed him, and made him upset.
Which made him spiral.
They're laughing, they're laughing at us.
This whole week has been shit so far; at least this set should've been perfect. If we can't even recover from one little missed note, how do we ever expect our music to get us anywhere?
How are we gonna get out of Hawkins? How am I ever gonna get out of this shithole?
They're laughing at us, they're laughing at me.
"No," he commanded and then straightened his shoulders, ready to play again. "Let's just move onto the next song. We've practiced it more."
"No, Ed," Dave insisted and did his own self-adjustment. He stretched his neck and wiggled his fingers. "I've got it this time."
Eddie's short fuse, unfortunately, burned out in record time; he turned on Dave and got right in his face.
"And I said no," he said through gritted teeth. "We move on. We're never gonna make it one day if we're not perfect. You need to be perfect Dave."
"I'm sorry, Ed."
Sorry wasn't good enough. How many times had he said sorry and it still didn't make things better. How many times had his father said sorry and he still was the words
"Or you need to get lost."
The words were out of Eddie's mouth before he even realized.
And then all he tasted was the bitterness of regret.
For a second, he begged any deity or demon that might be listening that it wouldn't blow up in his face. He hoped that it would just motivate Dave instead of hurt him, but he should've known that it was too late. And that no one was listening to his pleas.
There wasn't a god or fate or devil controlling his actions; he only had himself to blame.
As he watched Dave's eyes darted back and forth between his, and he witnessed the tears built up in them...he knew he'd fucked up.
"Fuck you Eddie," Dave spat at him, voice broken and barely audible, and then he turned and stormed off stage and out the back door of the Hideout
Jeff and Gareth's protests and accusations at Eddie fell on deaf ears though.
He knew he needed to go after Dave and apologize; he knew he had to make it better. Instead he just stood there and replayed it all in his head.
Fuck you Eddie. Fuck you Eddie. Fuck you Eddie.
Until it wasn't said in Dave's voice. It was his own.
Edward J. Munson was a greedy piece of shit.
He knew that he was; you couldn't convince him otherwise.
He was too harsh. Too volatile.
And because of that, he hurt his friends.
But, as he ran after Dave so he could apologize, he knew he needed to make it better.
He was the only one who could.
#corrodedcoffinfest#corrodedcoffinfest: seven deadly sins#eddie munson#stranger things fic#eddie munson angst
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leafpin musings because i want to get better at it:
when leafy was allowed back into the group with the rest of the contestants, pin kept her distance. not because she was scared of leafy, mind you; her recent mechanical enhancements and newly reconstructed limbs (thanks, golf ball) would allow for a swift take-down of leafy should she try anything
no, she kept her distance because she felt bad. she was the one who lead the charge against leafy, the one who ripped that map to shreds. she didn't feel bad about it at the time, certainly not. she relished in the fact that that little island stealer was gone from their lives
but time has a way of changing people, of course. her teammates in woah bunch made her realize what true friendship felt like, and that she had in fact felt this before but had thrown it away over a game of rock paper scissors. the cruel jokes puffball and freesmart and the prize wheel played on her made her realize there were truly worse things one could do than stealing some dumb prize for a dumb show. she hadn't realized these things right away, but she had a lot of time after the season ended to ruminate
why had leafy not been allowed on the island, anyway? pin never figured that out. maybe she should ask firey about it? she and he were never really close; they were never on the same team in bfdia, and then he was locked up in some dumb freesmart cage. besides, coiny would probably have a conniption if he saw her talking to The Enemy
thinking about it, what did coiny think about leafy? he was on the same team as her for a while, that's more than pin could say. she couldn't remember the last time he had brought leafy up, but something told her it probably wasn't that positive. maybe she should ask him
and then leafy was eliminated in bfb 3, and pin felt some kind of relief. she could push her thoughts off to the side and actually focus on the competition, at least until she herself got eliminated. she hoped that wouldn't happen for a while. she didn't want to think about it
and then the surprise rejoin happened, and leafy was back, and on pin's team nonetheless. coiny saw the odd look on pin's face, and thought about it for three seconds too little and nudged pin in the side, egging her to go talk to leafy
he always had some strange ability to know when things would work out
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I’ve just noticed Cassian has a bunch of pens stolen imperial code cylinders on his belt here.
This show’s attention to detail just… 😗👌❤️
#star wars#andor#Cassian Andor#Diego Luna#because of course he has a bunch of these things#they get you into places#you can impersonate an officer with them#he really can just walk in like he belongs I love it#and people say this show isn’t star wars-y enough
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NO OK BUT I'M STILL NOT OVER BOOTHILL AND DAN HENG AND THE JADE ABACUS IN ENA'S DREAM!!!!!
For some extra context, I have a whole henghill manifesto I wrote over here, but the tl;dr is that Dan Heng decides to use the Jade Abacus of Allying Oath to save the Express Crew the first time. Boothill urges him to think it over carefully, but he doesn't stop him. And then, the second time Dan Heng decides to use it, we get this instead:
And just! That's so!! so!!!
Because like. We see in the first battle against Sunday that that Jade Abacus is effective, like we really do just get an entire army lead by a whole-ass Emanator of The Hunt right to our location and ready to fuck shit up. It's important. It's incredibly valuable. That is a huge amount of power to hold in the palm of one's hand.
But Tiernan's relic works the same way.
Galaxy Rangers are terribly dangerous. Boothill comments on this when discussing Acheron's motives, because he can't believe anyone would be stupid enough to get The Hunt on their asses. They're considered to be on a level even above The Annihilation Gang.
And now, with the burial relic, he has a way to get thousands of them, almost immediately, and all in one place.
And you can't tell me that wouldn't be something extremely useful to Boothill, like literally life-saving. He's wanted by the IPC. He makes his living as a bounty hunter. His whole driving motivation in life right now is to do whatever he can, up to and including throwing away his own human body, to ruthlessly hunt down one man and kill him in revenge. Like that has to be dangerous, the IPC is a massive entity with far-reaching influence and money and power and weaponry. He surely must have already had some close calls.
Like can you imagine it? Galaxy Rangers are solitary creatures. If Boothill were to find himself near death, he would probably be all alone. Do you think he had regrets? Did he wonder if anyone would find his own burial relic? Did it feel the same way it did when they melted his flesh, replaced it with metal? Did he lay there with his vision slowly blacking out until he thought of home, and family, and the little daughter who he never even got to hear her first word, until he was so full of fury that he could prop himself up on his rage like a crutch and find help?
Tiernan's relic would have been like a get-out-of-jail-free card. Just for one time, no matter where Boothill was, someone would find him. The Galaxy Rangers aren't sociable or organized between themselves, but they help their own. Someone would save him.
He chooses to give all of that up to help Dan Heng.
And I just cannot get over it, especially the wording of it, the pause before he speaks, the gentle way he tells him to hold onto his once-in-a-lifetime treasure...!! He wants Dan Heng to leave this to him! He wants him to keep this precious item that will help him save his companions again in the future! And maybe it's just...wishful thinking, me reading too much into it? But I mean. Just the way he says it...
I really do think it comes from a place of deep kinship and respect. That there's a lot of thought and feeling behind that statement. Something from one Pathstrider of The Hunt to another. Boothill fought for his home and his family, he fought really really hard! But. Sometimes that just doesn't matter. And now he's watching Dan Heng fight for his, too.
When he made that decision the first time, Dan Heng was in the parlor car of the Astral Express. He was completely removed from any danger. He could have chosen to get the hell out of Dodge and not look back. Obviously we know he would never even consider such a thing, but it was technically an option, and Boothill watched him decide to go back into the proverbial lion's den for his friends anyway. And I'm sure that was part of what sealed his decision, to later use Tiernan's relic instead of the Jade Abacus to summon enough people to disrupt Ena's Dream. Because he greatly values ideas like righteousness and justice and saving people, and Dan Heng so beautifully embodies all of that and then some.
Boothill doesn't have people to protect anymore, only ghosts to avenge.
And there is just something so endlessly endearing about him wanting to help Dan Heng, to make sure his friend doesn't go through that the way he did.
#honkai star rail#henghill#boothill#dan heng#hsr#hsr boothill#hsr dan heng#bootheng#I feel like I'm just repeating myself a bunch and not saying anything orz#spinning my tires#do you get me. do you feel me.#do you understand my vision#does the blood in your mouth taste the same as mine.#I'm frothing at the mouth over here Hoyo how dare you get me so into a ship OTL#there are few things that get me in the heart so hard as 'character loses everything and uses it to make sure no one else goes through that#just#ARGH#Because Dan Heng has suffered so much in his life but it's never been this specific kind of loss.#He never had any kind of family to lose in the first place. He didn't until Himeko took him in.#But Boothill has been through all that and it sucked and he already really likes and relates to Dan Heng.#they're like two goofy little peas in a pod haha#so of course he wants to protect him#How could his heart not be swayed by him?
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#I've played with irl atheists and catholics and everything in between#but it rarely feels like faith is a real factor for anyone-- DM or player#outside of‚ again‚ divine spellcasters and Big Epic Plot Things#I mean there are a couple of 'RAAAHGH FUCK THE GODS >:C' edgy backstory types but#no one is just Normally Culturally Religious and it's WEIRD#like it's not even a matter of faith in dnd! the gods are LITERALLY OBJECTIVELY PROVABLY REAL#so what does that MEAN for the average person! how does it shape language? business? culture?#where are the people wearing holy symbols like amulets-- or the way modern christians very casually wear crosses?#blessings over meals? prayers before bed? burnt offerings?#and like I enjoy thinking about world and culture building but I know that's A Whole Thing but even just like...#it doesn't feel like anyone believes in gods at all except clerics and paladins#like they DO because they factually exist but in the same way I 'believe in' like. the president of france.#like yeah he exists and is important to some people but has no bearing on my life whatsoever#that's such a fucking weird approach to the DIVINE in a polytheist world where those gods are YOUR CULTURE'S GODS??#I am bad at this myself but I'm not religious so it's harder for me to remember what Being Religious All The Time Casually is like lol#funny enough my character with the most intentionally religious background in this sense#is one of my ones who's ended up wrapped up in Big Plot God Things lmao#'aubree starts the campaign with a holy symbol of yondalla because of course she does why wouldn't she'#'oh okay well she's gonna get deeply and personally entangled with a bunch of death gods immediately' fdkjghkdf oh!! welp#you don't really pray to urogalan unless you're breaking ground for a new building or someone just died so it's STILL weird for her lol#but at least I had the framework there of 'oh yeah the gods exist and matter to me and my everyday life and culture' in general#about me#posts from twitter
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a friend who'd wait :)
#im posting this very late because i was sort of weary of how it came out and ended up messing w it until it was like 4am oops.#and i have plans tmrw so... oh well! i did my best and ill put it out while i can!#and i tried to make the scene match barnard's colors lol#finn's ocs#finn's art#i know i said id do more sillay stuff with the simpler screentone only style but i had a couple more of these in me#and this is the first piece im making thats like an actual part of the story too rather than just setting stuff for fun#i wanna write something to go with it too but for now ill just sort of briefly explain the context in the tags here:#barnard has a pretty bad case of OCD and his compulsions have made it difficult to make friends in the past#he was never outright bullied or anything but people just didnt really have the patience to deal with it#he has compulsions that include stuff like walking through doors until it feels right and needing things to be perfectly aligned#which in group settings has lead to people having to wait for him to finish his rituals and join them#they might find it tolerable at first but eventually they grow impatient and hes just... not invited to stuff anymore#but juno is a newer member of the guild who ends up frequenting the same library. hes also kinda a little weird#and they dont become fast friends or anything but just sort of naturally spend time in the same place#though they never plan meetups they eventually fall into a routine. around the same time theyd just both be at the library#and read next to each other. and maybe talk a bit. and eventually they end up walking back to the guildhall together#since theyre going to the same place after all. and juno always waits for barnard outside the door#eventually barnard asks if this bothers him. juno kinda just tells him 'of course it does' without any malice or anything. just a statement#barnard is surprised and apologizes and juno says not to. but the next day juno doesnt show up at the usual time.#barnard assumes hes committed somekinda more by bringing it up. he ends up staying there late reading to get his mind off it & not ruminate#but when he leaves juno is in fact still waiting for him down the hall (see pic) having collected a bunch of books literally abt ocd#he fell asleep bc barnard stayed later than expected. and hes an eepy guy generally. and also one very bad at expressing himself#but now barnard gets that juno's 'of course it [bothers me]' had the implication of 'but its worth it' which no friend has previously done.#and from the interaction juno was also able to understand that this isn't something barnard just does for the hell of it so. he studies.#and checks a bunch of stuff out because he thinks it could help his friend too (theres ocd workbooks and such- i remember working w them)#and thats the point where they became more ''friends'' than ''pleasant library acquaintances''#from there on they also do get into juno's problems. whole other bag of worms. but this specific scene is more about bernard from his pov#sorry about when i said briefly explain. i lied </3#but compared to the whole sequence im picturing its brief so shhh
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I just finished padawan by kiersten white and had a blast with it -- it was exactly the kind of thing my brain craved this week, just some nice character study and adventure story stuff for my brain to chill in. thoughts:
a) I love obi-wan and his poor anxiety-ridden teenage self so so much. peak a delight to have in class to the point of nervous break representation, someone help him. local boy manages to become parentified child to an absent father somehow. that part where he's so afraid he's so bad and useless that the force itself might just decide it doesn't want him after all........ heartbreaking. that's exactly what I would have thought at sixteen too probably. (also my personal headcanon has always been that obi-wan is on the ace spectrum, so that was a very nice thing to find supported in this book! canon is vast and can support any number of stances that way honestly everyone should go hog wild with it in whatever manner they please, but that's always been my vibe)
b) qui-gon fucking jinn if you don't step up and do something to help the child in your charge with his ACTUAL DEBILITATING ANXIETY DISORDER RUNNING HIM RAGGED other than ask him to meditate so help me I will come over there and do maul's work for him ahead of time I swear to fucking god
c) no, really, it says some not very good things about qui-gon's mentorship abilities that obi-wan really only manages to grow and be calmer when he's outside of his influence. I know this book means you to come away with the feeling that obi-wan takes a big step towards enlightenment and adulthood on this trip (and I do think that's also true to be clear!), but there is a part of me that also thinks that just as much as personal and spiritual development what we're seeing here is an avoidant attachment style definitively entrenching itself as a result of having no adult that can be consistently trusted to meet him emotionally. (which also makes a horrible kind of sense, thinking about what obi-wan and anakin's relationship is going to be like in the future -- obi-wan is avoidant and self-contained when it comes to trying to deal with his emotions, and anakin skews far more anxious and towards lashing out, and they never quite understand each other for all the love that is there. you can trace that all the way back here. sins of the master, huh.) obi-wan finds some agency and catharsis in being able to help a group of abandoned children, you say. hm. I'm sure this means nothing and has no parallels in his own inner world. you let the kid think you'd completely abandoned him instead of communicating with him openly for like five minutes. For His Own Good of course. Wow I didn't realize I was this angry about this but here I am once again livid on obi-wan's behalf, actually. 'I'm an incredible teacher and this lack of honest emotional communication I'm fostering in favour of (benign!) manipulation is never going to come back and bite the jedi order in the ass, surely'; the qui-gon jinn story
#as someone who has been asked to meditate to cure mental illness since I was like twelve: obi-wan should be allowed to kill. murder even#star wars#padawan 2022#obi wan kenobi#I may of course be doing some projecting here but knowing how it turns out..... I don't think I'm entirely off base either#I uh. I wonder a little bit at how the jedi actually approach mental health in general because obi wan is A Mess in this#and no one fuckign seems to notice or care b/c he's obsessive about not making it anyone else's problem lmao#he's been allowed to develop crippling eldest daughter syndrome among a bunch of enlightened force sensitives#there is so clearly a lot of warmth and wonderful things in the jedi temple don't get me wrong at all! but uh.#they've clearly got some weak spots that will also be there by the time it's anakin's turn with the generational trauma lol#star wars meta
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i still cannot believe that people actually read my posts. case in point: i got this notification (from @tumblemumbler, thank you) and laughed until there were tears.
it's true: i want to take fox mulder to the zoo. i'm guilty as charged. i wanna point at some lions and be like "woah", and see if he thinks the lions are amazing, or if he tries to play it cool and deny that sense of wonder you get from seeing a magnificent beast. is it so wrong to want to take a full grown man out to see the Creatures, and then watch him enjoy the gift shop.......? to find a nice little novelty tie with the funniest animal from the day on it...? to say, hey fictional man, let's put aside that decades long quest for answers on the existence of aliens, and marvel at some otters splashing about... now wouldn't that be lovely?
#in my head this is just my little diary no one reads so going through tags and comments are sososo fun#because we are experiencing a Thing communally! which is the best!#and i have to say everyone has been SO kind and funny and helpful and great about how i'm trying to avoid spoilers#so thank you to everyone who comments or reblogs i have fun seeing your commentary on my commentary!!!#i also of course think scully should go to the zoo but it's just that mulder has that energy where i think he really needs it more#now scully on the other hand i think she needs to go to a museum. neeeeeed to hear her takes on modern art.#give her something to really think about and ponder the place of humanity now vs in the past. what it means to be alive. is it to create?#i know she would have a deep and profound reaction to seeing an everyday object from 3000 years ago and i want to share that with her#and with her litany of biology facts i think that there is no choice but to take her to the science museum to look at dinosaurs and dodos#you will not find all of these things in one museum which is why we need to go to a bunch of them#when i get further in y'all i WILL write a fic where our duo goes to a museum and also a zoo. i want to have a better characterization firs#like a beach episode level scenario. i'll look into real museums in the DC area in the 90's and everything.#we'll see. we'll get there <3
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Cola and Pretzel Play: Stardew Valley ✨✨
I just think they're silly
#this is several headcannons bunched up into one thing so im not even gonna try to explain#cola and pretzel are freinds i think. i think pretzel is friendly with all of steaks freinds but cola in particular likes him#stardew pretzel is a glam cowboy who loves flowers a lot#he n elliot are also close but he mostly talks to willy and fishes#cola dating sam because. of course he is honestly i don't think theres another person hed be remotely interested in dhdhdhd#also his character is covered in scars bc he keeps dying in the mines. pretzel has not died or passed out once#they have many cows and no chickens. pretzel is scared of the chickens#ANYWAYS#ff cola#ff pretzel#stardew valley#sdv#food fantasy#willy stardew valley#(mentioned)#note the first thingy is not ship. cola is just a lil silly
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so if you romance and ascend astarion you can kick him in the balls when he tries to turn you and it’s just very funny, he’s so pissy about it. so much for the most powerful vampire of all time or whatever, he stamps around like a toddler and then leaves forever
#i’m glad i saved before that choice so i can go through all the scenes i wouldn’t have got otherwise#(‘that choice’ meaning ascension)#im Fascinated by a whole bunch of stuff if you ascend him#like if you succeed on the detect thoughts (or maybe insight i forget) before he turns you to see what he think of you#it says something like ‘he will always see you as degrading yourself while you choose to be with him’ which is just BONKERS INSANE#like not confusing or anything. just wild to include. in a good way; like yeah of course that’s how he feels#and then the narrator follows it up with something like ‘but isn’t that what you want?’#like i’m glad they do actually try to impress upon you how fucked this dynamic is. they’re not trying to make you think it’s a good outcome#(i know there’s discourse about this and it’s very annoying)#(people who are like ‘actually it’s romantic and kinky’ uhh 😬)#(but then people who are like ‘how can anyone think this is ok’ and direct that towards anyone who enjoys playing it)#(like no it’s fun and genuinely interesting and i can see the appeal. just not when it comes to analysing the relationship)#(most people are aware that this is a bad dynamic they’re just playing a game chill out)#(like when i said 😬 about it being romantic/kinky i mean that from the perspective of analysing the story not personal enjoyment)#(anyway. moving on)#like i did that specific bit of dialogue probably a month or more ago and only once (because the test was really hard)#and it’s been creeping around in my head ever since. i love it lmao#i saw a video of that kiss where he makes you kneel a while ago and didn’t quite believe it was a real thing#but no it’s one of his actual default kisses. amazing#like i’m definitely gonna do a playthrough where i get everyone to make the power-hungry soul-destroying choices#and i might have to romance astarion again for that one because he definitely seems to have the most bad-decision relationship content#although he has the most relationship content full stop so it’s not surprising#but i think that’s the only one that notably changes your character during the playthrough rather than just the epilogue#personal#ash plays bg3
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......... who's gonna tell him ... .. ill do it @markiplier
#IM KIDDING ALKJNFGADFBG IM SORRY MARK BUT YOU'RE THE ONE WHO NAMED THIS PLAYLISTTTTTT#actually you know what on the slim to none chance i submit this at Just the right time and it gets a bunch of notes#and he somehow does actually see this post#(hi sappy/backstory tm incoming feel free to continue scrolling lmao>>)#mark you helped my mom so much#she was sick for 5 years and in that time as she got weaker and more tired what she had an abundance of was Time#and as someone who since losing her has now also become extremely depressed i underrstand Even More how horrible that kind of Time can be#to have and go through and be frustrated and devastated and bored out of your mind#but some of my friends started me in watching your videos#and she was my best friend#i shared everything with her#so of course i shared your videos too#and we would watch a lot of them together but you also have so many on your channel from so far back in addition to the new ones#that she had plenty to go back through and watch on her own while i was at school#we always felt like your humor and mentality fit right in with the rest of the household like you were a longtime friend#or neighbor from just down the road who we spoke with regularly or smth idk it was just so easy for your videos to be engaging and upliftin#she could have a playlist on to fall asleep to and be distracted from everything coming up...and that means more#than i could ever begin to thank you for#i think fnaf had been one of the things id been introduced to you through..and then tiny box tim we loved tiny box tim#back when you were first getting into making shorts and improving equipment/editing quality i always thought it would be so cool#if we somehow ran into one another on the street somewhere and i could offer to help#because i was watching those videos too! i want to make them as cool as possible and im going to school for it i know tips and tricks#and by now im sure youve probably surpassed what i know haha the INSANELY awesome and frankly gorgeous cinematography and impressive#but anyway... i know she had those videos to fill the Time when i was at school#and sometimes when i wasnt but when i was too exhausted#and i know you made her laugh and smile through it all#and that means everythingto me#ok well thhat got sappy fast sorry everyone christ#ive thought so many times over the years about trying to write something in the comments on a video or send an email or something and like#i feel bad same time cos i know soooo many people have similar stories or treat youtubers/celebrities like theyre actual saviors and angels
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still thinking about the time i did one of those hunger game simulation things with the characters being all the strixhaven student npcs, my strixhaven campaign's party members, and extus narr + one just labeled 'the rest of the oriq' it was actually so goofy because tell me how the oriq immediately set off a bomb killing 4 people INCLUDING THEIR LEADER??? tell me how all the party members died almost immediately except for my character who got tragically betrayed by one of his friends??? tell me how the last two people alive were the biggest fucking nerds in the entire school?? fucking URZMAKTOK and DRAZHOMIR??? tell me how the SOPPING WET CAT of a minotaur that is drazhomir won????? also quentillius died of dysentery on day 1 which is the death he deserves.
#it was so funny#i should do another one#also in the hombrew second half we're doing we have these “”“four”“” high ranking oriq members to deal with#and they would 100% accidentally blow up extus and probably themselves#a bunch of dumbasses#and yet they've managed to avoid us murdering them in cold blood#(it's because our DM has yet to get us to actually fight them)#we kinda could've fought “”“”“”“one”“”“”“”“ of them but uhh he expected a lot of us#severely overestimated our ability to catch on to things#to be fair to us he's had a year to catch on to the fact we are not very bright and still expected us to catch on to his plot twist#sooo ermmm I say we are not at fault here#also of course my character isn't going to immediately murder someone without a real good reason to#what did you expect#like 2 sessions prior I spared a bunch of sahuagin and we almost died because of it 😭 bro#strixhaven#strixhaven a curriculum of chaos#dnd strixhaven#strixhaven dnd#strixhaven npcs#possum rambles
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when the intrigue starts intriguing (fic snippet under the cut because what do you know. sharing my writing still gives me the Horrors)
(so i have a lot of thoughts about Cameron as a betrayer even though he is one in this fic, because he's seriously just looking for a reason, ANY reason, to not betray anyone at all. he's desperately trying to find the tiniest of ways to excuse himself into doing the right thing, and Neil WILL NOT GIVE IT TO HIM. not even out of malice, he just wears his heart sewn to his sleeve like it's fucking applique. this plays into a bunch of dynamics re: fic that essentially end up as "jesus CHRIST, this guy isn't suited for politics", but i think it's summed up well here - Cameron asking Neil for a reason to make him stay, to stop him from reporting back to Neil's father, and being met with mockery, because in Neil's view, what's the point of befriending a traitor? they remain a traitor anyway. and then from Cameron's view this is the final straw on the back of the camel.)
#this didn't make any sense at all but hopefully it's more clear in the wider sense of the fic#i also have thoughts on neil as a character - he acts of course and he acts around his father but#when it comes to his contemporaries he only ever acts when it comes to himself#he's fairly honest i think about how he feels about everyone else#and i exaggerated this a bunch in the fic because you know. dramatic irony. tragedy. all that good stuff#and cameron is so easily swayed by anything he doesn’t need to be exaggerated. no offence man.#also if the names thing is confusing it's because there's an odd 'everyone has three names' system i've put in#you know how it gets with fae#htoo writes#dead poets society fic#dead poets society fanfiction#anderperry#<< sorry anderperry tag there is no anderperry here but i'm terrible at organising my blog#dead poets society
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