#because of school i'll definitely be super slow and it can take weeks for me to finish the artwork depending on the complexity

[dian-mian]

Thank you guys for 500+ followers ‼️

As promised, I will host an Art raffle to celebrate this milestone! I am grateful to all of you who followed me and showed me support, even with my self indulgent art. I hope you'll stick around longer!

I will announce the winners at 23 August or later, and I'll DM the winners for their request

[miilkybroz0ne]

I'll be fuckin' you right Seven days a week 🪻⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

Bruce x Fem Reader Smut/NSFW

Warning: Smut, Attempting to get the fem reader pregnant,P*rn mention

-He's is such a smooth talker even in bed

-He'll praise you in bed such as...

"Yeah, baby just like you're doing great for me hun."

"You feel so good baby girl."

"Keep going baby girl, You're almost there."

-His cock is big and thick his cum is milky AF even more milky than all his brothers

-He's has a kink where he likes to cum inside of you even when you clearly said you weren't ready for a baby

-He will beg you to let him cum inside of you, He wants to get you pregnant so badly "You'll be a great mom don't you think if you just let me cum inside of you." He said stroking your soft hair

-He can be gentle when going to town on you but he can be rough if he's really horny

-Bruce is super duper Horny af

-Has a really bad P*rn addiction he will want to jerk off because it reminds him of you

-You guys will be fucking for seven days a week meaning, Monday,Tuesdays,Wednesday,Thursday,Friday,Saturday,Sunday Every hours, night after night and even Every hour, every minute, every second Sevens days a week he's so desperate for you to have a baby with him

-He once give you a pregnancy test as a gift you weren’t impressed but you took the test anyways and it was negative so you guys try again day after days and 7 days a week

"You know baby I'll be fucking you right sevens days a week until you get pregnant with my child!" he said fucking your so hard

"Babe, Don't try so hard to have a baby don’t you want to have fun like explore? having a baby will mean we won't have time to fuck seven day a weeks and you know that right bruce." You said moaning while biting your shirt

"You just loved it when I jump right in don't you and leaving you with that after glow with my cum all over your hot body don't you baby girl." he said going in deeper causing you to let out a yelped

-He loves fingering you so you'll probably get a surprise finger fuck from him

-He would want to do it in public but you think is too risky

-He loves it when you moan out his name super loudly he wants the world even his brother who is staying w him could hear that he's fucking you good during those sevens days a week

-Will cum all over your body, possibly inside of you, mouth, face

-Loved to face fuck you with his huge thick cock

-Definitely a huge fan of cock-warming hey you guys might do it in front of his brothers they won't even noticed they'll just think that you like sitting on his lap but just don't moan but bruce likes to test/tease you he'll definitely thrust a little just to see your reaction

-You almost moan in front of his brothers that one time but they didn’t even hear "You want it don't you huh baby girl, can't even keep a straight face for daddy bruce huh." he said thrusting you a little more which cause you to bite your lips to prevent your moans from escaping your mouth

-He has a full playlist of slowed songs to play during sex just like floyd dose

-Also has a ELD Light and will dim the light to pitch red to set the mood for you both but mostly him

-Will man handle you

-He's dominates you during sex

-Likes it when you suck him off

"I must be favored to know ya." He said while hitting your sweet spot which made you cum as-well him

-He goods at eating your Cunt so enjoyed it while you can

-Bruce is always ready for round 2

-His sex after care are the best he'll bring you massive loads of foods/drinks and he'll even sing you one of his brozone songs to possibly get you to fuck him again for round 2

------------- Anyways, I hoped you enjoyed it anyways fill free to request me at anytime :^) *it might take a while to get back to you as I mentioned before I would just write it on my own without any requests plus I've school and real life stuff so be patient with your request your requested are heard loud and clear <3 --------------- Like and Follow are very much appreciated! 💜🌸👾

[i-cry-everytime]

Oh I love HCs lol

If you don't mind me sharing, here are a couple of mine for IshiMondo;

Whenever they end up fighting over something, the conversations always derail into them just shouting things at each other. They don't understand how it happens, either. Just goes from "YOU NEED TO TAKE OUT THE TRASH WHEN I ASK YOU TO TAKE IT OUT!" to "MAYBE WE SHOULD GET SOME NUTELLA NEXT TIME WE GO TO THE STORE."

They are so awkward when it comes to actually dating. Neither of them thought they would get this far, so sometimes they end up making really awkward small talk, going beet red, then just opting to hold hands instead.

I think it'd be really funny if their relationship is extremely whirlwind. Based on how they become friends for life in less than a day, they'd probably end up married by the end of the week.

(Bonus points if they hardly realize they're dating, too. "Since when were you two dating?" "Dating? Oh, no, this is just what we bros do!" "Bros kiss each other on the lips..?")

Sometimes Mondo likes to randomly hug Taka just to make sure he's still there and that he's okay :)

They don't show much PDA not only because it's not appropriate in a school environment (hehe), but also because Mondo gets too embarrassed to actually do anything.

Mondo seems like the easily flustered type to me. It's just funny imagining him getting a quick kiss on the cheek from Taka as he's running off somewhere and being caught off guard so he just hides in his collar.

Taka sometimes says stuff that can be misconstrued as dirty, but he has no idea since he's rather naive when it comes to that sort of stuff. Mondo knows, though, and often refuses to elaborate on why he's laughing lol

Ok that was kind of a lot, sorry lol. I'll stop there.

Have a good day/night ^w^

ANOTHER ASK! THANKS FOR WRITING SO MUCH BTW I LOVE READING ABT THESE TWO!!

These are all super cute! And the head canon that they don't know how to romance is absolutely amazing given that Taka probably hasn't dated anyone before and Mondo has an 11 girl losing streak when it comes to asking girls out! Also i think Taka would be calmer with PDA while Mondo is a bit more expressive, if you know what I mean? He'd definitely be the kinda guy to hold hands with Taka a lot, and he doesn't miss an opportunity for a big ol bear hug, but that's only if there's not a lot of people around. They both silly and get embarrassed easily so they'd take it slow with PDA!

And they have fights like any couple but I feel like they wouldn't last long because they'd communicate really well and express their opinions and why they're upset! Plus the subject change you spoke about during their fights would happen, like, every time they got into one lmao.

GAH I JUST LOVE THIS ASK DUDE THNX FOR SUBMITTING IT ‼️‼️

[a-moth-to-the-light]

Songs of the Summer, 2022: Late to the Party Awards

[masterpost]

Intro

This is a category I've had in my personal Best Of lists for a while, because I always feel bad that I’m super slow with music--I usually don’t fall in love with songs until long after the buzz around them has passed. The way I see it, songs become truly special by finding us at that specific moment when we need them and finally, fully get them--I think that's what it means to say something "aged well". So this list is dedicated to those songs: those that haven’t made it onto any of my previous lists, were released during the 2021-2022 school year (the time period covered by my last Best Of list), and finally caught my eye this summer. This is my [after]party, and I'll be an obnoxious gg stan if I want to!

1. Alive by Lightsum (May 24, 2022)

Before listening to "Alive", I had managed to ignore Lightsum completely. This, I'll admit, was mostly because of petty annoyance at yet another group debuting with a single (I understand that business things influence this but also... come onnnnnnnnnnnn). So yes, I knew "Vanilla" existed, but I didn't listen to it, and I didn't even know about their second song, "Vivace" (very regrettable, as I would have liked it's WJSN-esque sound on first listen).

But then that tiny but explosive sound bite of "Alive" kept showing up in k-tube videos, and after about two weeks of "YOU MAKE ME FEEL ALIVE" blaring randomly in my brain, I caved in and listened to the whole song. "Alive" is delightfully audacious music, fully embracing both the Itzy and the Gfriend sides of the girl-group spectrum so that even if you don't like it, the song will definitely be stuck in your head. It turns out their whole discography is full of dance music that manages to be both crisp and wild-sounding in a way that doesn't let me ignore it any longer--I was missing out last year, and I'm so glad "Alive" wormed its way into my brain and finally won me over!

2. In My World by Rocket Punch (February 28, 2022)

When I first listened to this album, all my attention was on "Red Balloon". I have a preference for the simplest Rocket Punch tracks, ones like "Lilac" and "Ring Ring (Acoustic Ver.)", but "In My World" got to me eventually. TheBiasList sold it as synth in the tradition of "Take On Me" in a review from back when it was first released, and, though it didn't click with me on first listen, "In My World" built a little nest in a back corner of my mind because of this description, waiting for its moment.

And here I was this summer, craving sweet, high-energy girl-group music after Yena won my heart with her summer album. "In My World" was exactly what I needed, and it hasn't lost its grip on me since. The whole song is decorated with fast-moving, shiny things--melodies and synth riffs and high notes--that make it so, so exciting. It's as glossy as "Bim Bam Bum" (yes, I like that one, please don't murder me), but with a kind of energy their other tracks could only dream of!

3. Good Boy Gone Bad by TXT (May 9, 2022)

I formally apologize for not getting this one at first--I was younger then, and I've learned from my mistakes since. My excuse is that I was distracted by the b-sides (hi, "Trust Fund Baby", you still make me unreasonably sad), but I recognize now that "Good Boy Gone Bad" is probably just the best noise ever??!? All the textures--the whispering, the crunchy syllables, the layers of scream-along shout-singing--combine to create something that makes my heart race like the loudest noise music without feeling overwhelming or desensitizing me by the second chorus. The production knows how to be quiet without slowing the whole song down, and the contrasts in volume (can you tell I just really love the whispering in the prechorus?) push some little happy-button in my brain. I think this is the most I've replayed a song in this style since "God's Menu"!

4. In the Mirror by BOL4 (April 20, 2022)

As a huge BOL4 fan, I was bored out of my mind by this years' album. The day it came out, I sat down to listen to Seoul and just zoned out for a while. I still can't remember what "Seoul" sounds like (my mind just replaces it with RM's track of the same title), and "What Make Us Beautiful", though it did make its way onto a few of my playlists because it sort of fit the mood I was going for, isn't a track I can say I enjoy. So imagine my surprise when I realized I had completely missed "In the Mirror" the first time around (looking back, I'm guessing I just quit the album halfway through and went back to obsessing over Filmlet, the release that got me into BOL4 in the first place).

"In the Mirror" is classic angsty alt-rock, and Jiyoung navigates the transitions between soft, bouncy vocals (think: "Some" and "Hug") in the verses and all-out wails in the choruses excellently. It embraces my favorite parts of the genre by making my heart stop in the moments before the chorus hits, as if I can't help but breathe in deep and prepare to scream along, and by leaving plenty of space for guitar in the postchorus (look, I just really like intense guitar! there's a reason "Blank" is my favorite BOL4 song). I could listen to this one forever--"In the Mirror" manages to fit alongside the best BOL4 fluff (I'll give Jiyoung's performance the credit for that one!) while also coming off as a very genuine exploration of new musical and emotional territory.

5. Super Yuppers! by WJSN Chocome (January 25, 2022)

I thought this one was fun from the first day it came out (that bridge is both hilarious and very satisfying to listen to!), but it didn't find any lasting spot on my playlists during winter & spring. Similar to "Alive", though, YouTube forced me to hear the same sound bite (shuPEO shuPEO geuREOmyo) over and over again, and by the time summer rolled around, the chorus had imprinted itself in my mind and I realized what a triumph of performance this song is. "Super Yuppers!" is no brain only pink dresses music, and each member of Chocome fully embraces the shallow, Mean Girls-esque vocal stylings that entails (NO BUT DID ANYONE ELSE THINK OF "SEXY" FROM THE MUSICAL WHILE LISTENING TO THIS??). "Super Yuppers!" is all aesthetic, and I couldn't appreciate it more.

[wondereads]

Books I Read in October + Opinions

Ahaha I meant to post this a week ago whoops

Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro (9/10)

This is the first of many I read for school. Despite being technically forced to read it, I enjoyed this one! The concept is super interesting, and I liked the writing style. The meandering, stream-of-consciousness writing really serves to enforce the tone of the story. However, I will say that it's pretty unsatisfying at the end. I can let it go somewhat because it's kind of the whole point, but it's still frustrating.

Heaven Official's Blessing Vol. 3 by Mo Xiang Tong Xiu (9/10)

Xie Lian's backstory is absolutely heartwrenching in this volume, and I know we're far from over. I'm loving the slow burn (on Xie Lian's part) so far! The only reason this isn't a 10 is because Xie Lian's past and present each take up about one half of the volume, and they feel a little disjointed as if they're different stories. Still, I appreciated getting back to the present since it's a little more lighthearted. Hua Cheng interacting with any heavenly officials that aren't Xie Lian is hilarious.

Strike the Zither by Joan He (7/10)

I enjoyed this book, I did! I love political and military fantasy, and this book is a combination of the two with a big emphasis on the strategy side of things. I especially like the main character, Zephyr, who was nuanced, complicated, and a great perspective to read from. However, I can't look past the fact that the pacing is all kinds of off. There's just not enough space for this kind of story. There's a huge plot twist halfway through, and it's not paid even half the attention it should. Still, I'll definitely be reading the next book. Check out my full review here!

The Girl With All the Gifts by M. R. Carey (6/10)

This is another book I read for school. It's another take on the zombie apocalypse, a really good one. After all, it's told from the perspective of one of the zombies. It asks interesting questions about what qualifies as humans and what will replace us once we're gone. So then, why did I give it a 6? Because this book is painfully written by a man. Of the five perspectives, the three female ones are perfectly fine. The men, however, won't shut up about masturbation and porn and whatnot. It pulled me out of the story and just grossed me out overall.

Beguiled by Cyla Panin (8/10)

This is actually the first partnership with an author I did! I did a reading vlog with it and everything Still, I can promise you this is my personal, honest opinion. I enjoyed reading this book; a lot of research went into the weaving aspect, and I loved the way the main character used lots of weaving metaphors. I also really like the Irish folklore influences, but I wished there had been more about the world, specifically the political climate. It was slow to start, but we got there! Check out the reading vlog here!

The Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation Vol. 3 by Mo Xiang Tong Xiu (10/10)

This volume was very backstory heavy, but it still had me giggling and kicking my feet. Look, they are very cute! Yes, there is all sorts of tragedy and horrendous corruption stuff going on. Do I care? Kind of, but not really. There was tons of character development in this volume, and I think it ended on the perfect note for the fourth one.

The Secret Garden by Frances Hodgson Burnett (5/10)

Yet another book I read for school. This is a childhood classic, but it also means a lot of stuff went over my head. Such as the vitriolic racism and classism, which is present throughout the entire book. I have to say, it really impacted my enjoyment; I couldn't stop thinking about throwaway lines that basically amounted to certain people being inherently better and more civilized than others. I don't think I'll be rereading this one anytime soon.

The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins (10/10)

It is my firm belief that this book is one of the best dystopian novels ever written. It addresses a plethora of issues in a way that is serious but understandable for teenagers. Also, it doesn't fall into the black-and-white worldview that other famous dystopian novels (i.e. 1984) fall into. People from the Districts can be awful and corrupt, and people from the Capitol can grow and be kind. Katniss is a stupendous main character, and the political atmosphere for the future books is perfectly set up. Check out my review here!

Howl's Moving Castle by Diana Wynne Jones (10/10)

This is the third time I've read this book in a year and a half, and I still had the time of my life. This time around was a bit more analytical, and I especially noticed a lot of Jones' family life reflected in this story. I love Diana Wynne Jones' writing, and Sophie is one of my favorite protagonists ever. Her no-nonsense attitude is exactly what I love in a heroine, and I love her and Howl's dynamic. The side characters really shine, especially Calcifer, who is a fan favorite for good reasons. Check out my review here!

Shades of Rust and Ruin by A. G. Howard (8/10)

A. G. Howard is one of my favorite authors; I love her writing style, and she does great retellings. I really liked Nix, the main character, and I loved the worldbuilding, which meshed traditional faerie lore and steampunk aesthetic. However, this book is strikingly similar to another book of hers, Splintered. So much so that I was actually waiting for elements to line up with each other (which they often did). It was really entertaining, but I just can't get over that, so it's rating dropped a bit. Check out my review here!

Where the Mountain Meets the Moon by Grace Lin (9/10)

This was a really sweet children's book; I can't believe I've never read it before! It pulls a lot from Chinese mythology and culture in both physical items and creatures and ideological themes. The illustrations are beautiful and clearly inspired by traditional Chinese art. The message is sweet and pushed in a way that will get through to children but doesn't feel like it's being forced down my throat. A lovely book!

The Golden Enclaves by Naomi Novik (10/10)

I could not have asked for a better conclusion to this series. I was in great distress half the time, but that feels about par for the course while reading The Scholomance. El and Orion's story came to a beautiful close while answering all the questions yet to be answered about the magical world. The message is lovely, one that isn't often told in adult fantasy. It destroyed me, and I am very happy about it. Go read The Scholomance trilogy.

Bonus! November TBR

The theme this month, in honor of NaNoWriMo and my attempt to write a fantasy novel, is classic fantasy (+ some ARCs and overflow from previous TBRs)

Le Morte D'Arthur by Sir Thomas Malory

The Serpent's Shadow by Mercedes Lackey

A Wizard of Earthsea by Ursula K. LeGuin

The Queen of the Tearling by Erika Johansen

His Majesty's Dragon by Naomi Novik

Good Omens by Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett

Arrows of the Queen by Mercedes Lackey

Interview with the Vampire by Anne Rice

Song of Silver, Flame Like Night by Amelie Wen Zhao

Emily Wilde's Encyclopedia of Faeries by Heather Fawcett

Damsel by Evelyn Skye

Gideon the Ninth by Tamsin Muir

[kyunsies]

OMG OK FIRSTLY CONGRATULATIONS X 30000000! I AM SO PROUD OF YOU FOR GRADUATING AND I HOPE YOU ARE SUPER PROUD OF YOURSELF AND YOU ARE SUPER BRILLIANT!!

FR, knowing everything you've been through and all the doubts you have been feeling... seeing you achieve this is so amazing. I feel like a super proud mom/sister/idek you are incredible! I bet your mom is super super proud of you!

How do you feel about the interviews? I'll keep all my fingers and toes crossed for you that you get what you wish! Let me know how it goes, ok?

So on my end... I kept getting treatment the first two months this year and it was really good and helpful... and then we got these hugs companies working with us for projects and honestly all my self-care went out the window. Like, I was only being looked at or working on big movies and tv shows which was amazing but it also just sapped everything out of me and because I put so much pressure on myself.I like even for the smallest project I ended up putting 1849302 times more pressure on myself and IDEK... it was funny because it was really cool but also I was really numb all the time and I got a bit worried? So now I'm trying to dial it back and get back to myself a bit more...

BUT this is so cool that you've just seen MX because I DID TOO! They were in Europe (as am sure u know) for KPOPFLEX and I got to be there cause of work which was... I mean I still have a lot of emotions. SO MANY EMOTIONS. I'm sure you feel this way too, like, with 2384923 emotions in your memories about it :D. It's so cool that you started the NCT blog though - my friend was with me at KPF and I think she fell in love with Mark, but they were all amazing.

Are you resting and finding time to do nice things for yourself too? Are you still living in the same accom or have you moved somewhere nice? Also did you ever get the chocolate I set you?

Love you lots!

- 💥

LDSLKJ HI ANGEL i'm so sorry i didn't get to this yesterday angel !! but THANK U SO MUCH TRULY IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME <3 it feels weird to say i am officially done with my academic career,,,,,,,, like it all went by so quickly but so brutally slow at the same time and i can’t believe i’ll never go back :’) its crazy bc now i have to do real life things which is exciting and terrifying all at once !!! nursing school was the hardest thing i have ever had to overcome for real like i know is ay it too much probably but no one knows how hard it is besides nursing students: literally all of the tears and anxiety inducing energy you put yourself into 4-5 years of your life is insane but we made it and thank u for being around for my hard times during school <3

about my interviews !! i feel really good about them !!! i knew the ppl who interviewed me because as i mentioned i did my preceptorship at this children’s hospital and they all said good things about me, so i’m just waiting to hear back from them !!! i have noticed w this hospital in particular it’s just taking a really long time; for example i applied in early march and didn’t even get confirmation on my interviews until late april, and i didn’t even have my interviews until the last week of uni for me which was the first week of may ;_____; so it’s been about 2 weeks since my interview and it’s just taking a long time, so i just hope i hear an answer sooner rather than later :’)

SO ONTO YOU !!!!! i’m really happy you’ve been getting treatment and i guess to an extent work is going well for you !!!! but it’s so hard :( overworking yourself/putting pressure on yourself over little things but i can’t say i don’t understand how you feel, bc i felt the same way during uni ;____; you just want all of this stuff to pay off so not working hard doesn’t seem like an option ya know? i hope later on these past few weeks you’re able to have some self care days yeah? you’re always working hard i feel ;_____; which is not a bad thing at all but definitely can burn yourself out :(

ALSO SDLFJ AAHHHH YOU WENT TO KPOP.FLEX thats soooo cool <3 i hope u were able to get a good seat bc that stadium or arena looked very big lfjskld but !!!!! yeah they came to my hometown and we were in a theatre so it was quite intimate ;______; i had the best time of my life, i miss them so much already and i can see how kpop concerts (at least ones at smaller venues) are addicting bc the atmosphere is like, insane and everyone is having a good time <3 i’m glad to have this experience to remember i had such a fun time and the were AMAZING <3 but as for now i am babysitting to make money just to fill the gap in time between now, when i take my nclex exam, and when i start working !!! and i’m still living in the same place but once i get my job, i will definitely be relocating which will be really exciting <3 

[meditating-dog-lover]

Health and Fitness Update (05/09/2021)

So I had a much better week this time.

I finished my classes and my exam, so now I never have to go back to school ever again.

This took a giant load of stress off my back, it genuinely did. My life is headed in a positive direction. I am so happy and relieved, I feel like I can smile and breathe again. I feel less miserable.

I feel like I can dedicate more time to my personal health now. This includes better sleep, better scheduling, physical care, self-care, etc... I have many improvements to make, I'm definitely looking forward. I might even consider going to a spa. There should be a good one in the new area I'm moving too. Less screen time is another big one. I feel like this past year aged me a lot, I need to take it easy and slow down.

I still have my thesis left, but to be honest I am almost done. All I need to do is write my Powerpoint, get that and my thesis reviewed, submit those and present. I've presented slides a handful of times before so it shouldn't be a big deal. Since I'm way less stressed now, this won't be much of a bother for me. And after that, I get to leave my lab and take a breather. I worked so hard on this and I am so exhausted.

I am moving to a house in a month. I am definitely looking forward. It's in a very nice area. I haven't lived in a comfortable house since 2009 so I'm happy to be able to live in one now! The driving in that area isn't as crazy as it is here, so I'll be doing a lot of that once I move. I'll have way more time to do that since I have much less work to do.

I also get to see my grandma in a few months, and I really can't wait. I miss her so much and I haven't seen her since 2 Decembers ago because of COVID. I've also been spending a lot of time with my dad and I am so happy about that.

I feel like I can go back to my old self-care routine and go back to enjoying the cute fun stuff I used to enjoy like reading, writing, history, arts, music, old movies, etc... I definitely lost interest in these things. I know losing interest in the stuff you love is a sign of depression. However I cannot make that conclusion about myself since I was never diagnosed by a medical professional. But I certainly know that I was feeling super miserable. Thankfully I am starting to feel better.

I am getting my second vaccine shot on the 19th. 2 weeks from then I can wear my mask less often which is great.

I have my dentist appointment in a few days. To be honest, I got the hang of taking better care of my teeth. Eat less refined sugar, eat more fat soluble vitamins, eat more minerals, drink water in between meals, take a supplement, brush, use mouthwash, floss, and sleep well. I just need to find a good long-term toothpaste and learn to breathe from my nose while sleeping. Going to the dentist every six months helps too.

I am slimming down more and more each day. I found a super healthy approach to health and fitness since January. I eat foods I really enjoy and foods that taste great. I learned to cook and bake, which itself is a form of art. I just make sure to eat balanced and to take it easy on sugar and fat. In terms of exercise, I found that a balanced routine works - cardio (both LISS and HIIT) and strength training (bodyweight and weight lifting) does the trick. I am going to start exercising 3x a week rather than 4 because 4 is a lot. Plus I'll do 1x bodyweight, 1x HIIT , 1x weight lifting, and several times per week walking (whenever I can really). I'm going to keep this up, but I definitely found a balanced, solid and longterm plan I can stick to. I am so happy. Months from now I'll be at my target.

Another goal I have is to slim down my calves since they are muscular. The only way you can slim down muscle is to stop using that muscle group. I'm going to stick to workouts that don't overwork my calves and I will avoid those that overwork them. I'll definitely create a list post on here of exercises I feel cause bulkiness. I think my calves bulked from doing a lot of strenuous walking. But slowly and surely I'll figure it out. I like Rachael Attard's program because her goal is to slim down legs. I'll definitely draw some tips and pointers from her.

So overall, I'm headed towards a positive direction. And I am so happy about that. I've been feeling so miserable since November/December but I am getting better now. There are other areas in my life I need to improve, but these are the main ones.

I hope the rest of my spring and my summer work out in my favor, I know they will. I also want to look into clothes and makeup too.

~HEALTH IS WEALTH~

[patchofsunlight]

i'm usually better about taking care of myself😭 bc i already had to start drinking more water for band and i usually have snacks anyway, plus i can usually tell if i actually might pass out or if i just need slow down but that parade was definitely an oopsie😭 i can only think of like 2 more times where i might have passed out and all the other times i was dehydrated, but i think everybody is used to it by now😭

when me and my brother were younger we would either get along super well or be yelling at each other and there was no in between😭 now it's more neutral😭😭

taking about how i met people is always fun for me because besides being intimidated by literally everybody my first impressions are always interesting😭 it's usually either we were around each other a lot for whatever reason and then one of us said something funny so we're friends or something really weird happened and we just kept talking after😭 like me and the one friend have definitely known each other for 3 or 4 ish years now and we had our first one on one conversation in september😭 we were also talking about elementary and middle school and i made a joke about my elementary school crushes but everybody was embarrassed by theirs😭

my projects are going...😳🥴 another friend has both classes with me and was helping me a bit but it's not that i'm having trouble with the work itself i just actually have to go and do it😭 but we're on break right now so it's easier which is good😎

my favorite is korra but i love bolin a lot too, who are yours so far?

but i accidentally stay up late all the time too😭 it makes sense for me because i'm definitely more of a night person and i already have a weird concept of time, but what usually happens is i'll go "i'm gonna do this and then go to bed" and then something distracts me but i still want to do the first thing and then all of the sudden it's 3😭

i'm good tho! today is christmas eve so me and my mom were going through gifts because i'm impatient and some of them weren't really wrapped so we opened them anyway, i accidentally spilled this bath bomb thing on my floor😭 but i also got one of these plague doctor plushes i always get instagram ads for because me and one of my friends said we'd get them and match😎 but i mostly chilled today

what about you? how are you, did you get to write anything or study? -🍓

HEY BABYYY SORRY FOR THE WAIT I WAS OUT OF TOWN FOR LIKE A WEEK AND A HALF WITH NO STABLE INTERNET CONNECTION OR DATA BUT IM BACK

strawberry..... omg. that’s- god. yes please take care of yourself LMAOOO

PFFFT FELT that’s just how having a sibling works

ANDKWKSNWK NGL I LOVE THAT. GOOD FOR YOU. ALL FRIEND-MAKING TACTICS ARE VALID. i never know how i get friends im usually just vibing and then it happens. it’s wonderful

how did that work go!!! tell me!!!

ugh BOLIN I ADORE HIM HES DEFINITELY MY FAVORITE NCKWKDKEK he’s just...... so nice........ i love him. but i love korra and asami too!!!!! specially asami she’s such a bad bitch and i love her so much

EXACTLY. going to sleep is so much work. i have so much shit to do. humans should’ve out evolved the need for sleep already. let’s all be awake all the time until the end of time

that sounds so fun!!!!! did you like all your gifts??? AND BRO GNEJXKWKS HOW DID YOU SPILL THE BATH BOMB THING HOW DID THAT HAPPEN. and the plushie 🥺🥺🥺🥺 thats so fucking cute. who’s gonna get matching plushies with me, huh????? who???? i CRAVE I T

i’m alright!!! i’ve been resting a lot so it’s time to go back to studying 🥴🥴🥴 but i hate...... studying LMAOOOO specially bc i’ve basically finished studying for portuguese, literature, history, geography, sociology, philosophy, and biology (worry not i have done it over the course of months not in like 2 days LMAOOO entrance exams ask for too much i’m just a child please) which is the shit i LIKE so now i have to go through math, chemistry, and physics. and it’s a nightmare. i hate it here i despise it here. i opened up my studying questions for physics and i felt the urge to cry. why must i go through this.

and i haven’t written at ALL LMAOOO FKEJXKWKXK YEAH 🥴🥴🥴 i have my most important entrance exam january 10th so i think i’ll not write until after that. idk i’m just NERVOUS. cant college just let me in. do i have to take an exam. i hate my life

what about you, strawberry??? how have you been??? did you have a nice christmas??? a nice new year’s eve??? how are you

[scpercyjackson]

How much the PJO books mean to me as someone with ADHD

Hi I feel like no one has had a post like this so I'm gonna post one kinda long story and if anyone wants to add on saying what the PJO world means to them please feel free to reblog with your stories or you can message me with your story cuz I'd love to know:

So when I was in the seventh grade I had an english teacher (who was absolutely amazing btw) who assigned the class to all pick a fiction book to read and write a report on. She took us down to the library and I remember looking at all the books not having a single clue what book I wanted to pick. I despised reading. I was extremely slow and I could never comprehend what was on the page. I could read 5 pages of something and not tell you a single thing of what I just read. I walked around the library aimlessly trying to get away with just picking up a short book and getting the hell out of there when I saw the first book of the Percy Jackson series "The Lightning Thief." I remembered I had just seen the movie a couple weeks before and my friend had complained loudly that the movie was horrible compared to the book and she told me to read the books instead. I didn't know what she meant cuz I actually quite liked the movie. I decided to take her word for it and I picked up the book, not knowing what I was getting myself into. In the first few pages Percy had explained how he had ADHD and Dyslexia and how those learning disabilities had affected his academic life and social life. The more I read the book, the more I realized that, other than flipping letters and words around and not being able to read, his personality, traits and behaviors, the way he talked without thinking of consequences, the way he had trouble focusing on reading, the way he realized, as a demigod with ADHD, he saw too much, not too little, and how he was so fidgety and restless, constantly moving all the time just to pay attention, all of those things were basically describing my whole life. I started to recall memories of times my teachers told me to stop wiggling in my seat or to be quiet and pay attention, or how they would look in sympathy at me when they saw that I had trouble understanding and recalling what I read even though I definitely could read. I remembered that I was always frustrated when I couldn't understand something the first time I tried it. My sister excelled at piano when we were little and then I would get frustrated, slam the keys, and cry because I couldn't get it as fast. I remembered always being the "slow reader" and finishing last on readings when everybody had already moved on. My room (and my life tbh) was a disorganized mess. I realized while reading the book that I might have ADHD. I was 99% certain. I ended up doing so much research on it that I was convinced. I was even more convinced when I had basically devoured the first PJO series in two months, quicker than I ever read before and the most books Ive ever read in that amount of time. My parents were shocked at how I was all of sudden reading all the time. Finally in 11th grade when I became so overwhelmed with the amount of reading junior year required, I told my parents I wanted to get fully tested for ADHD. Thankfully they understood and told me they've suspected for a while I might have ADHD. When the psychologist who tested me finally told me I definitely was ADHD I almost cried. Not meaning to sound dramatic, but I felt like my whole life finally made sense. I was able to get accommodations in high school and now college. I finally knew that I wasn't dumber than my peers. In fact, the psychologist actually told me my IQ was slightly higher for someone my age which was actually common among kids with ADHD. This all became possible because I had picked up "The Lightning Thief" in 7th grade because my teacher forced me to. Since then, the PJO world has grown so much with so much representation for so many different kinds of kids from LGBT kids to people of color and to the disabled (I grew up with gay relatives and friends and it was nice for Rick to depict my type of family as normal. I also grew up as a mixed race girl with a physical disability and, unknowingly a mental one too so it was amazing to finally see people like me be main characters in his stories). I found myself relating to Percy, to Annabeth, to Thalia, Nico, Reyna (as a puerto rican who had trouble keeping friends), Leo(who was hispanic and super ADHD and loved cracking jokes to hide pain), Sadie Kane (as a semi white passing colored girl), and so many of his other characters. I finally found a world where I belonged and I'm never gonna give that up. I hope other kids like me have found themselves in these books as I know I definitely have.

Thanks for reading : ) I'd love to hear your stories so please reblog with them or message me or follow me and I'll be posting a lot more about my thoughts and theories on the PJO world.

[mysme-hcs]

Match-up with a male: I'm 5'1" and 112lbs, not very active. Don't exercise on my own, but I'll wander town/nature if suggested; mostly I'm indoors, likely on my computer. Love to write, sing and pun. I smile and joke easily, and befriend everyone I can. Can't handle too much social interaction; have anxiety/depression issues I don't share with many. More likely to smile and hide to deal with problems on my own than ask for help, but it can noticeably affect me and last for days/longer. (1/6)

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Always eager to learn, from history to languages to cooking. I'll try anything at least once. Rambled about the Elder Futhark multiple times; don't get me started on mythology (especially dragons, shocker). I also love to debate and listen to others ramble. When researching (probably for writing) I'll take lots of notes, with different colored pens and whiteboards and sketches. I'm... thorough?I have THE MESSIEST room; hard to get motivated to clean without music/outside influence. But I'll (2/6)

do my job, and then some; it's important to do your work, and do it right the first time. I swing between eating a lot to forgetting to eat; I do better with reminders. Sometimes like the cutesy little sister, or the worrying supportive big sister. Easily startled, not easily spooked. Think all animals are adorable/cool. (Except bees.) Generally have a good idea of who means well for me, who means ill, who I can open my heart to and how seriously I should take what they say. Apparently good(3/6)

at entertaining kids and keeping them in line? Will support others as much as I can, and step up to take care of something they won't/are having trouble with (i.e. work tasks, flagging down waiters, asking awkward questions, apprehending shoplifters, etc.).I can cuss up a storm, but am professional when required. I'll stop if someone's uncomfortable. (I have kid-friendly swears JIC.) The one who says "press cancel" instead of "press the red button" in case someone's colorblind. Compliments (4/6)

on appearance don't mean much, but comments on singing/writing/etc. make me awkward and bashful. I try to be fun, for as long as I can handle it until I retreat to my lair! I'll be silly to make someone laugh/feel normal, or join in on the silliness someone else already started.But I will get serious, and I want to be taken seriously when I do even if I'm smiling. When I say I love you, I mean it, even the fiftieth time. Privacy and honesty are also important. Definitely want someone I can (5/6)

[ha]ve fun with, discover the world with, who wouldn't push if I need quiet/alone time, but still offer his support. Sometimes, just a text or being there is enough. But cuddle-days are also welcome. He'd have to deal with my awful habits/quirks though: Sleep is fickle, I make odd (sometimes cat) noises, can be forgetful, and will get hit with anxiety/depression without warning. A slow relationship is fine. No kids in the immediate future. (6/6) Phew! Sorry for rambling aha. Hope this works for you?

Sure! Since you said this was your first match-up, I tried to make it super special :3

I match you up with....

Yoosung! 

Yoosung isn’t very active either (he pretty much sits around and plays video games all day) so you have nothing to worry about here!

But sometimes he’d try to get the two of you out of the house and take a walk every night after dinner

It’d be super comfortable, the sun setting and his hand in yours as you walk along the busy city streets and chat on park benches

And when you both have tired out, he’d be open to cuddling and listening to each other ramble

LOLOL most likely has dragons and other mythical creatures, so if you want to, he’ll teach you 

Loves hearing you talk about dragons and mythology because both they and the fact that you know so much about them is really interesting to him

Even though he doesn’t pay attention in school he’d take a class in mythology just so he can talk a little more in-depth with you, same goes for any of your other interests ;)

Yoosung also enjoys cooking, so the two of you can try out new recipes and he can share tips from both himself and his mother

No matter how bad or good, Yoosung will always laugh at your puns

Also loves hearing you sing and if you think he won’t compliment you about it until he’s blue in the face, you’re quite wrong

Anything you write = he’ll read

Not just because this boy adores anything and everything you do, he genuinely likes your writing and is interested in your characters

If there’s anything you need to research for your writing, he isn’t above taking you to every bookstore/library/Noogling everything/or asking 707 for help finding what you need

Constantly surprises you with new notebooks, pens, and sketchbooks to help with your note-taking

And oh boy

It’s canon that his apartment is insanely messy (cockroaches, mold, etc) so the two of you together....

RIP

Sooo (mostly because of Jaehee and Zen’s complaints) you’ll have cleaning days once every two weeks!

It sounds lame but since you’re a hard worker and he doesn’t want to disappoint you, everything will get clean in no time

what even are these, I’m so sorry this is all random lmao

He doesn’t like to argue with you, but he’d be open to debating sometimes!

He most definitely needs help staying on task/focusing/and just overall doing his work, so having you around helps him immensely

Don’t need a ton of social interaction? He’ll take your needs into consideration and try to take you out of uncomfortable situations

He also understands that problems with depression and anxiety are private matters, but he hopes that when things get bad you’ll come to him

Would learn how to tell when you’re upset and would automatically try to take care of the situation or would just be beside you. Again, he knows they’re private matters, but he doesn’t want you to feel alone

Anything you want to learn, he’ll try to take up as well and turn it into a couple activity ^-^

Yoosung also likes animals, and he’s probably terrified of bees too

He’d be willing to sacrifice himself to them if it meant you being okay though

Yoosung thinks that you being good with kids is adorable!

He obviously wants some, but if you don’t then he’ll drop the subject

Finds your support sosososo encouraging

Yoosung was honestly a little shocked by your swearing at first, but it quickly grew on him and sometimes he uses a few of them oops 

You don’t need to tell him to take you seriously because he always does

 he’s okay with stepping away for a while to let you be if you need space or to be alone, he’ll just make sure to remind you that he’ll be in the next room

The two of you are always saying “I love you”, once Zen and 707 threatened to deafen themselves if y’all didn’t stop

Yoosung also would rather being around someone who is fun, so he often tries to make the time you spend together enjoyable

Can’t sleep? CuDdLeS under warm blankets and stuffed animals surrounding you

Would rub your back and play with your hair until you can fall asleep

If you’re forgetful, he has your back! In fact, it makes him feel more important to you when he can remember something you can’t

Expect cute little texts all throughout the day

Hope you enjoyed your match-up!