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turnedpalefromlackofsun · 1 month ago

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#on the topic of : the kids are not alright #i have a teacher acquaintance and i saw the 'cease and desist' her principal sent to her #so basically what she was doing was putting her own personal time into borderline passing kids to bump them over the edge #and her principal said to leave them because if too many kids pass the state exams then the school gets less funding #again. title 1 school. so corruption is also a part of this #mind you she was spending time after school as part of the school's own program to help kids. at the borderline.#she volunteered to do this outside of school hours #0 overtime hours for this.#the lore for public school education goes deep #some of my friends and family are crazy. like my mom? she keeps trying to fight the system to get the kids fair education #so she keeps getting written up and then she has to waste time to prove the admin is lying and escalate #theyre killing her. and my mom doesnt stop because of her moral compass.#she literally doesnt stop until everyone in the class can read.#and thats when things get fucked because the parents complain my mom gives classwork and the kid feels humiliated. the principal writes up #up my mom for harassing minorities. and then my mom and I fight the principal with the teachers union. we win but the school year has been #been wasted. same old same old #i was gonna make a joke about being a whistleblower but any educator will tell you. same shit

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hoovesandfloorpaws · 3 months ago

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entire dash mood

#i love you all you legends #and like #same old is same old 🥱#gonna mostly ignore it bc it's honestly a waste of time & energy - always has been #stunt no. 28 in the larrieverse #lmao

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rohirric-hunter · 7 months ago

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Girl help there are people on the LotRO forums who unironically think that the devs should have taken a picture of the real world night sky and painstakingly edited out any constellations that Tolkien didn't specifically mention for the skybox

#lotro #what an immense waste of time that would have been #even if the night sky wasnt meant to be basically the same as the one tolkien knew #you dont have to look at the constellations if you dont like them #its super easy to just. not see them #i say this as someone who was super obsessed with astronomy for many years #its extremely easy to simply not look at constellations if you dont vibe with them #castor & pollux? get the fuck out. hate those guys. i havent even seen them in real life since i was ten years old #just a bunch of random stars there idk what to tell you

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maxmayfieldswalkman · 7 months ago

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it’s so concerning how obsessed people online are with celebrities relationships. the same people who say “they don’t know you and wouldn’t want you” when you stick up for a celebrity who’s done nothing wrong proceeds to drag a man they DONT know and will NEVER know based on RUMORS like we’re in HIGH SCHOOL and proceed to drag his looks like that is ever a good place to go.

#these are the same people bragging about preaching body positivity btw #there’s a reason i never believe people when they compliment me #and it’s because everybody on the internet just fucking lies about their morals!#all the fucking time!#yall just out here telling the truth to try and look good.#you don’t.#first of all if you have to insult someone you could use any valid wrongdoing as an insult #but you don’t even know if it’s true so you go for his looks #which is not a valid insult and makes you look like the bully that you are #second of all #shut the fuck up?#literally go touch grass #like physically #please #there are real things in the world that SHOULD matter to you more than the personal lives of random thirty year olds you don’t know #you CAN do something good in the world instead of wasting your life away on tiktok or instagram getting shits and giggles from bullying #bullying someone you don’t know mind you #but just because they’re celebrities they don’t register as real people in your heads so you just tippity tap away #meanwhile you’re making other people feel bad for no clear reason #you know other people who have similar looks to the celebrity your insulting can read #right?#if you bully a celebrity for their eyes #somebody with similar eyes will probably see that and feel like shit #but worry not dear virtue signaler #im sure next week you’ll be preaching inclusivity again #because this world is made of fake bitches who’ve never been genuine for a fucking moment in their life #anyways #i’m a bit pissed can you tell #i cooked though

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theres-whump-in-that-nebula · 7 months ago

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Why is it always leftover pizza that gives me food poisoning I swear to fucking god

#EDIT: actually never mind it was definitely the blackberry pie that had been in the staff fridge for a solid two weeks #Yes I knew this. Yes I ate it because I thought it was safe. No I’m not very smart #I felt bad because half of the damn thing was still in there and no one was eating it.#I had three pieces not too long ago and felt completely fine #There was one piece left yesterday so I decided to finish it off #I hate how wasteful people are #But at the same time I should’ve just thrown it out because my health is not worth eating old food other people wasted

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liverpool-enjoyer · 2 years ago

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the wasted potential feelings are hitting SO ESPECIALLY hard tonight i need to go to sleep

#(vent tags feel free to skip)#i shouldve studied more n tried harder #i could have been so smart!#i should have played a sport in high school #it would have been so good for me n i woulda been able to say i did something #i should have gotten a job by now #im twenty years old never worked a day in my life and i rely on my parents for everything #now no job will take me cause i have nothing on my resume.#i also chose to go to college in the same hick town that i live in #i could have traveled!! but i didnt.#my youth is over forever and i have nothing to show for it #i spent my prime years playing video games and watching youtube videos #i spent them with my family who i am forever grateful for #and with all the love and support they gave me ive done absolutely nothing worthwhile #i had so much potential n ive wasted it #im just so painfully unremarkable

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the-casbah-way · 6 months ago

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i found loads of pictures of my uncle i am going 2 cry

#he looked so sweet…..he looks SO much like my dad #i found the last picture of him that my granddad took a month or so before he died it’s so sad #trying to decide if i should tell my mum that i know about him or if i should just keep it to myself #idk if somethings wrong with me maybe it’s because i was already grieving before i found out #but it’s really getting 2 me i can’t concentrate on my uni shit i just keep thinking about it #i think i rlly need to talk about it with someone but i have no idea who or how or what i’d say. but it’s weird because it’s a secret yk #like i’m not even supposed to know he existed #idk. i have a gender clinic appointment next week and i’m going to ask if they can recommend any therapists #me being very very brave and trying therapy again after being forced into it my whole life and ending up a bit traumatised #idk. i feel bad that i’m alive and i’m wasting my life when my uncle got killed when he was just a kid #it makes me feel like i should be more grateful and do more with myself.#and i am going to try but i’d rather he was here instead. same with my granddad #every time i experience something beautiful or good i wish my granddad could experience it because he deserved it more than me #and the best i can do is experience it for him and be grateful. but i would chance places instantly if i could #him and his kid deserve to be here they were so special. i know i don’t know his kid but i’ve heard they were similar #so i know he must have been special too #i found a fb comment today from a family friend i’ve never met and she was saying that she only met my granddad once #but she called him gentle and it made me cry. because he was very scottish and sweary and traditional and masculine #so everyone just assumed he was tough and scary but if you knew him he was really quiet and kind #and i’m glad someone who only met him once could see that #i’m going to be half asleep for the rest of my life i think. i’ve been dreaming since my granddad died and i don’t feel like i ever woke up #nothing has felt real since i was nine years old. everything just stopped and never started again #i’ve just been waiting. i’m waiting for him to change his mind and come back. idk. i don’t know what to do with myself #and i continuously feel fucking insane and stupid for being this way. it’s like fresh grief all the fucking time #but it was fifteen years ago. why does it still feel this way #i can’t even tell people because they won’t understand why i’m still so bothered by it #he was my parent for nine years. i lived with him he was my sole caretaker #i was nonverbal and him and my brother were the only people on the planet who knew what my voice sounded like #he’d think it was silly if i failed my exam because i was crying about him instead #he’d tell me to whisht and stick in. so i will

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sirpeppersto · 9 months ago

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what do you mean. my parents never used the money they were supposed to use to pay my taxes in 2020. and i owe the irs more than my next paycheck by thursday. the day before my birthday.

#they took my tax returns for the past two years and i honestly dont care rn because obviously theyre so awful with money #they need it. of course theyre gonna blow it on bullshit they dont need. but this is a low i didnt expect!#and theyve gone LOW when it comes to getting more money to waste #i sent a pic of the letter the irs sent to my stepmom since she did my taxes and she said she'll figure it out tonight but like.#she literally told me she paid off the money i owed from 2020 taxes back when she had to pay it. now its years later #and not a cent of it has been paid. im so sick of them lying about money. im glad they cant find a house or jobs. now theyre #in the same situation they put me in. except they dont have their parents fucking around with their money!#they better pray im not the one in charge of their care when theyre old bc im putting them in the dingiest home i can find #how fucking selfish. and i bet theyre still gonna try to buy another $10k dog within the next year

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joelletwo · 11 months ago

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put on my usual ignore-house-md dinnertime house md. zone out. zone the fuck in when wilson tells him he doesnt sleep with married men (ep where they remember house got joke-married)

#unless the back half of this season really wows me. which honestly it might from reputation. man i think im #coming down on this show being a massive waste of eight seasons lol. just notttttttttttttttt into it continuing to be the same old house md #ive been seeing for eight billion episodes #but im so close to being done =_____=

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running-in-the-dark · 2 years ago

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I think I mentioned that I was looking into getting a better sewing machine? well, it arrived today 🙈 that happened much faster than planned. I found the model I was looking at at a (relatively) local sewing machine store, for 30% off because it had been in the shop window, so the plastic has yellowed.

I wasn't sure how I felt about that (the website only said it was a floor model or something similar, then someone from the store called and told me the specifics and asked if that was still okay), but honestly? I never ever would have paid the full price, it was just too much, I couldn't justify that. but this reduced price was only a little more than the ones I had been looking at before (that were not great quality and probably wouldn't last very long).

I am very particular about things like this but I'm trying to make myself accept that it really is not that bad. it actually looks kinda cool. I just have to get my brain to accept that it's not a flaw, it's just a completely superficial and insignificant thing that doesn't affect its function at all. it's good that this machine that works perfectly won't end up in a landfill just because it doesn't look brand new.

I only got to try it a little bit today because I wasn't feeling well but damn, the difference to my old machine is huge!! it's so much more fun and easy to use - I love having the needle threader and that it can automatically cut the yarn when you're done. and with the start/stop button it's actually really fun to wind bobbins!! I always hated that on my old machine.

I skimmed through the manual earlier (and put page markers in it so that I can easily find anything later) - it did seem somewhat overwhelming at first. I've never used or even seen (irl) a computerised sewing machine, so of course it did! but it already felt much more familiar after just using it a little bit today. I love it 🥰

(also, I think the fact that it doesn't look perfect and brand new actually helps - I'm not afraid to use it in case I 'ruin' it!)

#I really hope I'll use it a lot #I didn't use my old one much because it was just such a hassle.#mainly little things that didn't work right #and something as simple as the way you have to thread it not being labeled clearly on the machine itself #I've got memory issues and found that very annoying (and in the end I drew the instructions on with sharpie because it got so frustrating)#I've also bought a.. probably stupid amount of little sewing things that I've wanted for years.#and an iron (got the old one second hand for 5€ and it will not stop dripping). and a set of thread (I only had thread that was old and/or #really bad quality. I can only get about 5 colours locally AND it's pretty expensive. so a set made sense... 😬)#it's the same thing every time. I get (more) into a hobby. I buy every fucking thing. I do it all day every day until it stops being the #most interesting thing on earth. and then I pick it up again like once a year but always feel guilty for not doing it enough #annnnyway #I'm very excited about all of it right now #I'm hoping it'll last a while #I mean. I've been interested in sewing for over a decade. I just never had enough money to really get into it the way I'd like #so. I don't think it'll ever completely go away at least #I've bought a bunch of vintage sewing patterns on ebay and I'm really excited to try them #I'm thinking I'll do some baby clothes first - I don't know any babies at the moment but baby clothes are small and also very adorable #so even if I mess up they'd still look cute 😂#and I wouldn't have wasted too much fabric haha #personal

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confetti-critter · 1 year ago

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The night is young and I am free to do whatever my heart desires but unfortunately I have once again found myself trapped in the Time Prison and so I

#the good old 'I don't feel like doing anything including doing nothing and I want to go to bed but I know I'm not tired'#WEH.#I'm enjoying typing but I don't want to commit to practicing typing for real so I'm just making excuses to type more #I was looking at custom ESC keycaps because I was thinking about that whole community of ppl obsessed with keyboards and like I get it I #like the clicky clacking and keyboards can look so pretty but some of those key caps man wtf.#why would you want 3D transparent donald duck ESC key from temu what is wrong with you #saw a set of key caps that were little kittys with little kitty ears n I was like fuuuuuuuuuck #49.00 USD probably 100000 CAD+shipping goto helllll #I was thinking about what if I had like confetti keycaps and a custom kittycake esc key or like an actual little cake and matching desk mat #or even just a new cute mousepad cuz mine is old as fuck and I spilled vegetable cream stew on it once #and then I was thinking like sighhh and wouldn't it be cool to have arcade carpet on the stairs leading down to my basement hovel and #rainbow lights along the ceiling corners and what if I painting my bedroom like I wanted to do and sighhhhh #I haven't been wasting my money buying shit like that but I'm thinking about it again.#but the same thing stopping me from doing anything at all is stopping me from wasting my money which like that's good I guess???????#gosh I really like typing why did I stop doing daily typing practice #oh yea The Thing Stopping Me From Doing Anything At All #meow meowm meow meow meow #ok I really gotta tear myself away from my computer and brush my teethses and try going to bed #I already played minecraft earlier it's fine I didn't do NOTHING tonight it just feels like I did #and tomorrow is another day #and next week is a short work week thank fucking christ almighty #literally cuz its easter sunday and he was in that tomb but he escaped or whatever he did #thanks jeezy boy #you maybe shoulda milked it for like half a week at least #moved the big ass boulder like have an inch at a time #*pause for laughter*#that s from my new stand up comedy routine do uiuop like it djfskll;askjdgflksjdflksajdflksjdf the dsjalkjfolidasfgjoiweljsdalkjflskdjflak #meowww #I am the only one I know on here who 'talks' this fucking much about absolutely nothing #I do all this and my poor followers can click read more and spend time reading alllllll this garbage

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roseofcards90 · 2 years ago

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Really just want to get Tuesday and Wednesday over with :/

#being forced to dog sit pretty much but it’s not like I’ll be doing a lot #because I’ll just be anxious over my presentation on Wednesday that’s all I’ll be thinking about #I feel like I just wasted another opportunity and I won’t get that again until like Christmas maybe #it feels like nothing ever ends and I can’t be with the people I want to be with #I’m just stuck in the same old :/#I’m sorry if messages have been infrequent lately 😭 I’ve been going through it with school rip #my posts

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floral-hex · 1 year ago

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It’s hard to make music when you have no instruments or software or skills or talent and also you don’t actually know how to play anything or make music and you’re dumb as hell

#hey it’s about that time of year where I get the urge again to try and make music before getting frustrated and quitting #don’t let your inability to do anything right get in the way of messing everything up forever and ever amen #every time I sit down to try and set up software and whatnot I end up wasting half a dozen hours before giving up #repeat once or twice every year or so for the last decade #how did I used to do this junk??? whaaaaa? I don’t understand computers.#I have an ooooold laptop buried in a box someone with sooo many unfinished songs. albums and albums worth. mostly just missing vocals #I used to sit and work on music for hours and hours #pretty much the only productive thing I did my first year of college was make an album #and now I’m just like… I don’t understand how anything works. I’m so old.#but I guess it’s… ya know… it’s been awhile and you can’t just expect to jump back in with the same skill and comfort #you’ve got get all the tedious beginning stuff out of the way. that’s just how it goes. it builds and builds.#it’s the opposite of eating an elephant. it’s frankensteining and elephant. gotta do it piece by piece.#basically I got another hand me down laptop. clean slate freshly wiped.#then I spent about 5 hours just setting it up and thennnnnn getting a bad virus bc I’m stupid as hell and don’t want to pay for software #I lost my software installer I already had so I rushed to 🏴‍☠️ the first decent one I could find #and then when I got warnings I said ‘meh the antivirus is probably exaggerating’#ARE YOU KIDDING ME!? ARE YOU STUPID!? you trust the illegal file over your own antivirus!? whatttt!?#i am very stupid #at least the laptop is pretty much empty. just gonna do another clean wipe and start again. hopefully smarter.#I really want this. I hate HATE talking about things I want to do because I invariable always fuck it up #it’s so stupid and sad but if pressed I would easily say my old shitty music are the things I’m most proud of in my life. even if they suck #I stopped making music when I moved to NY to be with my ex and I haven’t been able to get back into it since #I don’t even like music. it’s stupid and I’m half deaf. fuck you I hate you.#okay I love you bye #you can ignore this #text

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fuwaprince · 2 years ago

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#waiting ever so patiently for ppl to fall asleep so that I can microwave some mashed potatoes...#in the past two days I have not had enough food #yeah that's all the time and yes the calorie deficit is kicking my ass #but fuck I am so hungry rn and have been since early this morning #once ppl are in bed I'm going to warm up potatoes and peas #pls godoka let there be a little more for me #in my own place I'll be able to use the bathroom and eat food whenever I want #I won't even have to expect shame #I won't worry about earning my food by working my ass off for someone else #I'll just get to eat when I want and in peace not in the dark and as quiet as a mouse #I'll light myself a candle because why not and help myself to homemade soups #i really want to cook for some reason but using the kitchen pisses ppl off bc they can hear the sounds of my existence #i hate that if i don't do enough to them that they think i just lose the right to eat bc they perceive me as a waste of resources #i stood up all night and wandered around crying over the same old same old... came home at like 5am #i let myself sleep in and ik they think i haven't contributed enough to earn any food today #“what good is a man if he only eats and sleeps?”#that's all they see #trying not to smoke and trying to cope in other ways like writing about it #at least school is tomorrow and I'll get to see my dear profs again #i cried reading their happy thanksgiving messages over email last night

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woahajimes · 2 years ago

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i feel such an incredibly frustriating yearn

#when i went to ecuador everyone was so warm #like strangers to you probably not since its dangerous and crime rates and stuff but the general love and care dynamics are so different #like im super anxious and closed up and im not very touchy nor do i say a lot but it wasnt ALWAYS like this and i thought oh maybe i just #grew up but also maybe i just moved to canada #like yeah canadians are super nice but friendships are so strict and dynamics are so like. idk its different #I mean there's obviously the fact that i havent' met a lot of people and that i am closed off and stuff but at least in my old school in #Ecuador friendships are the same and theres boy/girl friendships and its not romantic and hugs are normal and #ive messed up so many guy friendships because of that like im “oh my god yes new guy friend unlocked” and sudenly ive been sending them #mixed signals all along even tho im like yeah we chillin and ahhhhh #like #if i got shit wasted drunk here id probably get filmed and posted on the gc #but in ecuador i did get terribly drunk and i was with a friend (guy) and it was a pool party #this party i did not KNOW it was a pool party so i got thrown in with jeans and all but i got super drunk and everyone was kinda drunk and #there was a point in which he like sat me down and kept giving me water and like its just that care that #ah in canada it could never #at least not at this age i dont think #not at my school at least lmao #like in everything theres no judgement and theres a general friendship thats really good #god i miss it #but i never really had it #yk #like im gonna talk a little more abt this party k #it was the whole graduating year bc we're seniors and they all knew each other #nobody knew we were getting in the pool but by the time i got there EVERYOEN was in #like in jeans and school uniform and all #and people were like DRAGGING YOU #like it was all laughs and skjfhjkdhjjhkdhjkdfsjkhdsjhkdsfkjdfjkhdfs #like physically throwing you in the pool #obv no harm bc it wasnt deep but like everyone was just #like bridal style and wrestling and there were drinks and music

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fromthemouthofkings · 4 months ago

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A group of far-future linguists and archeologists suddenly *poof* into existence in front of me. One is holding a tablet. "What is the difference between 'red sauce' and 'tomato sauce?'" they ask me. "The distinction is not clear in extant texts from this time and place."

"Uh, they're the same thing," I tell them. "Who are you?"

"Yes!" the being with the tablet exclaims.

One of the other researchers groans. "No! My thesis...months of writing wasted..." One of the others comforts them.

"Now, what is this object for?" The first researcher holds up a discolored, dinged-up plastic object. It's clearly been buried in the ground for quite some time, but the two holes and the scuffed plastic window are distinctive.

"That's a cassette tape. You record music with it."

"Interesting, interesting." The being enters something on the tablet.

"How are you speaking English?"

"Sophisticated translation technology," one of the researchers confides. "We are students of your society. From the future."

"What does this pictogram represent?" The researcher with the tablet turns it around so that the screen faces me.

It's the eggplant emoji.

"Sex," I say. "Why do you need to ask me this if you can time travel or whatever? Can't you just go wherever you want to go and look around and see how these things are being used?"

The beings shift guiltily and look at each other. "Technically, travel to times and places prior the advent of time travel is strictly prohibited. Paradoxes, you know."

"Oh."

"We must get back before our advisor returns to the lab. Just don't tell anyone you saw us, alright? The space-time continuity depends on it. Can you do that?"

"Uh, sure, I guess?"

One of them pats me on the head. "And don't go to Mars."

"Okay. Wait, why? Is it dangerous?"

"No. Just not worth it."

The group disappears in a shimmering light.

The cassette clatters to the sidewalk behind them.

Out of befuddlement, mainly, I pick it up. It's clearly old, discolored and scuffed, but it still has tape in it.

I carry the tape around in my pocket for a while. The curiosity builds. I want to know what's on that tape. I don't have a cassette player anymore, so I go to Goodwill and pick up the first one I can find, praying that it still works. I plug it in. It turns on.

I slide the tape inside. It's dirty, but it still seems to be in decent shape. I snap the player closed and hit play. The wheels begin to turn. I hold my breath.

A familiar tune starts up. A wobbly voice comes out of the machine.

We're no strangers to love

#flash fiction #microfiction #my writing #>:3

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