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débutante diaries

weekly journal entries reflecting on my teen years, advising teenage viewers for their adulthood debut

My ignorance sabotaged me.

As smart as I was as a teenager, I didn’t know any better making a lot of past choices. I either followed the misguidance of my mother or had to figure things out myself because no guidance was available.

How could I know any better when my parents, grandparents and other adult authority figures were equally immature?

Immature and ignorant about money, womanhood and specifically dating.

My ignorance has led me to experience many harsh lessons. Lessons that made sure I smartened myself up.

Not even harsh lessons. In fact, many of my “shoulda, coulda, would’ve,” moments come from reflecting on misuse of my time.

Instead of listening to music on my hour plus journey to work, I wish I was listening to podcasts about financial literacy and investing (like Bitcoin! Damn I should’ve!)

Instead of giving grown ass men access inside my teen body, I wish I could have educated myself on abstinence and how to practice hypergamy with boys my age. In addition to preparing myself for dating up as an adult.

I won’t waste time wishing anymore. Instead, I am choosing to teach myself game I deserved to know as a teen. Game about these boys (men now). Game about life and how evil, Shiesty people keep the world balanced.

I have entered a new, interesting part of my womanhood. One which has me reflecting on where I’ve been in life and where I’m going.

Where I’m going is determined by the steps I choose to take. That’s why I’m making more wiser moves, starting with journaling about my teenhood instead of trying my hardest to forget those memories, some memories being my darkest moments.

2024 is already starting off an interesting year. So, let me sign off by stating an intention for success:

I have evolved into a woman who inspires strangers on sight. My aura, attitude and accomplishments attracts additional abundance. I am proud of the person I am and the progress I’ve made.

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