I want a partner because I want someone to know me completely and love me anyway and I also want to know someone else completely and love THEM anyway but also I just kinda want someone who will massage my head for me when I get a migraine
I occasionally get the urge to just grab my gf and kiss her because I’m frustrated with how cute she is (and ofc she doesn’t see it) and my feelings are too big and all encompassing for my brain to handle. I’ve got so much love to give her and words only express so much (the feeling ranges from a longing to kiss her fully to just wanting to hug her and pepper her with kisses). I got it bad lol
I am grateful every day of my life that I am bisexual because every sexually charged interaction I have with a woman is just dripping in unfettered nervous autism. kicking the soccer ball in your own team’s net core
Cannot even begin to express how badly i need a relationship where i ask them to bring me some comfy clothes and they bring me their own clothes instead of mine
Y’ALL I AM ABOUT 20 MINS INTO THE STREAM AND IM ALREADY SOBBING AND SCREAMING AND SHAKING AND FUCKIGNDJGFKSHFKSHFKGKSHDHSFJJD AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
You don’t want to make them uncomfortable or ask too much or too often.
But you know not checking in isn’t good either.
But it hurts to think of the possibility they don’t want you in the way you want them…and you spiral.
Having little to no self esteem is hard, especially when you come from a background of trauma and know you shouldn’t see yourself this way…yet you don’t feel deserving of anything.
It’s soon time to ask again, and maybe pry and ask what they’re waiting for. Or if they even feel the same…
i read gideon the ninth about 10+ months ago and i was not much of a fan and felt extremely let down by it but then i read harrow the ninth and it was like. okay. this one is fun. turns out i just disliked gideon as a narrator and that was all