#big yikes at how clingy he is lol

[ryuichirou]

As Malleus' bday is soon, I wanted to ask about any nsfw headcanons you may have for his special day?? I usually ask for sfw but I feel safe here for some reason

It is his birthday! Happy Malleus day!

We do have a post with Malleus-centric headcanons, and we were reminded about this post by Anon the same day you’ve sent this ask lol But hey, it’s been almost a year since we posted those headcanons, and it would be a shame not to write some new ones for Malleus’ big day. Especially considering that we didn’t even fully ship LiliMal when we posted the previous one… yikes!

(I’m also glad you feel safe here :3 Thank you for sending asks <3)

Alright, here are some nsfw Malleus-cerntric hcs~ With a little bit of Sebemal and Lilimal sprinkled throughout.

Malleus doesn’t think about sex all the time, but he gets sudden sexual cravings sometimes – he is a young dragon, after all. This is one of the reasons behind his sudden disappearances: sometimes there are days when he just wants to be alone, because this longing and thirst drive him insane, but Lilia is busy and Sebek isn’t always the best option. Malleus doesn’t masturbate though – it doesn’t feel the same, so he believes it’s not worth it.

Malleus is a pillow princess. He takes the initiative too sometimes, but he prefers to tease and provoke and then enjoy the consequences of his provocations. So when he gets Lilia either way too aroused or angry (or both) and Lilia stops being careful with his body, Malleus loves it the most. Being a prince, Malleus likes being bossy sometimes, but when it comes to “the main event” he just wants to see how Lilia would use his body this time.

Actually, when he’s being “used” by Lilia, it unlocks something very special in Malleus’ mind, because of how significant of a person he is in Malleus’ life… Things are complicated between them, but when he sees Lilia’s feral eyes, it’s like he reaches absolute happiness. Or is it just an orgasm? I guess it’s just more intense than usual then lol

Malleus is also one of the most capricious “bottom” characters: his mood could shift very suddenly and he either gets way more aroused than his lover expects (although Lilia is used to everything) or sometimes loses his desire and wants to be left alone. The latter scenario is rare though… what isn’t rare is for him to get horny and a bit clingy even though he was arguing with Lilia just a moment ago.

This is something that stresses Sebek out a lot, because he is very afraid of angering Malleus, and he is way more stressed about it than he should be. Because what frustrates Malleus is the fact that Sebek holds back. He knows why it happens, but this is probably one of the main reasons why Malleus doesn’t treat Sebek with his attention all the time… this, and the fact that he’ll get way too clingy lol

But in the heat of the moment Malleus really loves it when Sebek gets clingy and his brain gets all clouded and horny and he doesn’t know what he’s doing anymore. These moments, when Malleus is being bitten, crushed under Sebek’s heavy body and frankly disrespected, are what makes the whole thing worth it, especially if he can tease Sebek about it afterwards.

One of his most favourite birthday gifts was something given to him by Lilia a couple of years ago. Well, it wasn’t really an item: Lilia just spent the entire day with him in his bed. This was one of the most indulgent things Lilia has ever done to him, and Malleus was very pleased for an entire week after that, even though his body was very sore (he could’ve healed himself, but he didn’t want to <3). Lilia doesn’t know how he himself survived that…

Intimacy is very important to Malleus, and usually he prefers absolute privacy with no one interrupting him and his lover (in fact, he hates being interrupted). But sometimes all of a sudden Malleus starts craving the thrill of the possibility of getting caught. There is an exhibitionist somewhere in his soul… But it’s not like he has anything to be ashamed about, right?

[preordainedrule]

@lachrymosestorm   :   "Masamune. Why do you even want to be with me? I'm a mess."

     ❝   BECAUSE I LOVE YOU,   ❞   WORDS tumble out easily,   although lacking in grace.   love is a weapon to destroy sadness   /   masamune has no knowledge on how to use this sword.   should he smile or frown   ?   :   chooses to smile,   flooded with emotion.   (   emotion   *   warms him to his fingertips,   takes her hand,   pulls her closer,   wants to enjoy this warmth with her.   )

     ❝   &   EVERYONE’S A MESS IN THIS life,   ❞   he means the past,   accidentally slips back into an older   (   old - fashioned   )    way of talking.   ❝   &   you’re the most put - together person in my life,   dez.   even admitting you’re a mess is ten ri ahead of us.   ❞   a pause   &   a halt on the thoughts which have tangled,   eye glancing upwards as a silent prayer to God to aid him.

     ❝   I WANT TO BE WITH you because you’re the best person i’ve ever met,   ❞   back to rambling,   almost without a cause.  ❝   &   that includes the warlords,   family,   everyone i’ve ever met,   &   you know i’ve met a lot.   ❞   works himself into a state of desperation   :   pulls back,   a deep breath in,   slow exhale.  ❝   anyway,   ❞   he finishes with forced cheeriness,   a smile that refuses to light up his eye,   a quiver in voice that gives away fear.   ❝   i want to be with you because i love you   !   ❞

[asstrolo]

Helloo love, hope ur doing well! Ur blog is literally my fav 💜💜

I was just wondering how big of a role the 2nd house plays in attraction because everytime i get a crush on sm1 BAM theyre a libra (virgo rising here)!!

Everyone always talks about the 1st 8th and 5th house when it comes to attraction and yet

Soo what gives, would love to hear ur perspective, kisses

Are you asking me about my theories on the 2H synastry? Nobody asks me about my theories on the 2H synastry!!1!

2H SYNASTRY:

okay let's see; We've talked a lot about 8H synastry in love and relationships, and it is quite a complicated placement because the house person can easily be obsessed or repulsed by the planet person, and vice versa. Buuuut, we also have the 2H;

My personal theory on the 2H synastry is a little bit less emo and dramatic that the 8H, but it's still very important to know this when you have it with somebody else. The planet person will feel like home to the house person, and the house person will receive a lot of benefits (monetary, knowledge, open doors to new possibilities, etc) from the planet person. Depending on the house that's involved it can be a teacher/student relationship, either way there's plenty of benefits from this house.

The downside of the 2H is that, for it's comforting nature it can become obsessing or resentful, one person will think the other is stoping them from achieving greater things, or that they can't do anything without their approval (also, they care a lot about each others approval, yikes) and while it brings a lot of good things, those good things in the relationship with time can become the bad things, being comfortable with somebody then becoming clingy and unaware of it.

I've been thinking about this a lot, specially when I found out Taylor Swift and Jake Gyllenhaal had a 2H synastry, she's a Scorpio rising (allegedly lol, I'm just going with what makes sense to me) and he has a Sagittarius stellium with Sun, Mercury and Venus in that sign. She felt at home with him and his presence was really comforting, but it could've turn possessive or clingy very easily and she cared too much about what he thought of her as a person, and at the same time resent him for that.

I'm not talking my ass out tho, I myself have this 2H synastry with the closest person in my life, so I have experience with this synastry aspect.

side note but I believe Taylor benefited a lot from her breakup with Jake because she decided to do a major change in her career afterwards and it granted her a lot of success, but not as much success as her 4H synastry with Harry, the most painful synastry experienced I'll tell you why someday lol

anyways.....

[omwriter]

Warnings: None (ask to tag if you feel there should be any) 

(Gender Neutral MC, they/them pronouns) 

How does jealousy look on each of the brothers? These are all implied to be in MC's presence/about MC.

 (And… here's a fun fact, just for fun!: jealousy = wanting to keep something you already have all to yourself, and envy = wanting what someone else has.. this is the definition difference but for whatever reason these two terms have become interchangeable 🤔) 

Lucifer: 

SCARY . 

… only if MC can recognize the signs. 

To most people he will look super composed, but the more MC actually knows him.. 😬

It's not even in his actions, or his appearance… the room just goes COLD.

If speaking, will be much more curt and biting with his answers. 

(Yikes! Lucifer could have cut that demon clean in half with how sharp that retort was!) 

Might shut himself in his office and avoid them for a bit to minimize any sort of damage 

Mammon: 

Direct usually…but it's about MC. 

In this case, will be weirdly quiet, but… 

SULKING AT ITS FINEST 

Will whine ALOT, especially in private 

sulking gets even worse if MC shows any signs of annoyance, and unfortunately he can usually tell 

(He's gotta be good at reading people to scheme for their money, doesn't he?) 

Gets very clingy as well .. and will be seeking MC out if he doesn't see them for more than like, 10 minutes lol 

Levi: 

Ah, he's too familiar with the feeling.. jealousy and envy run in very similar veins. 

Will actually try to lock himself in his room to sulk on his own 

(He's embarrassed by it 😔) 

If MC gets through to him though/they insist on being with him, he's actually in his demon form 

Tail is never not somehow in contact with MC 

Will never ask or say anything about it, but really appreciates if MC talks to him about why he shouldn't be jealous. It does help 

Satan: 

SCARY PART 2, 

Except Satan is two seconds from ripping everything apart and someone would have to be BLIND to not be able to tell 

(...To be fair it's pretty hard to get him to be jealous in the first place, and good thing too) 

It might be to everyone's benefit if MC does their best to get the two of them out of the immediate situation and into fresh air to breathe 

Calms down fair quickly if given time and space 

If especially worried though, he might request MC to allow space between them for a bit

Asmo:  

POUTING … 

Another one that's super hard to get jealous in the first place though 

Of course MC is getting attention from others! They're too cute to not be, but… 😕

Is polite enough in the situation, but probably the tiniest bit colder 

Was he touchy before? Well, NOW… MC's not going a second without contact of some sort 

If MC and him and intimate, will definitely bring it up later

Beel: 

:( 

Big Frown.. 

 Will do his best not to say anything, but the fact that he's not exactly happy.. well, he doesn't hide it 

Jealousy makes Him Hungry.. catch him eating Hell's Kitchen out of business 

Cheers up relatively fast though, doesn't like to dig too deep into it 

(Digging too deep into negative emotions… dangerous.) 

Belphie: 

Suuuuch a little shit 

Clingy as hell . 

Does not matter where they are, he attempts pulls MC out of the situation to just flop on top of them 

If he fails to do so he's giving anyone else around the ugliest glare 

Casually goes into demon form, similar tail shenanigans to Levi 

Doesn't get over it very easy either 

[galaxietm]

alrighty, here’s a big ol headcanon dump for Chloe! i’ll type up another one later about some of her major canon-divergent notes (that are more notable than these) basically this got way longer than i expected, so i took time to format some parts of it lol honestly, a third of the headcanons are above the read more and the rest are below!

- Chloe is childhood friends with Adrien; met due to their fathers. (honestly, this is one i’ve talked about quite a bit with @burglarlotus​) - Adrien is and has been her only friend since they were kids. They're close to this day and actually communicate quite a bit. If she comes off as clingy toward Adrien, it's partially because of the fact that he's her first genuine friend, if not her only friend for the longest time; so she has a habit of coming off a little clingy or overprotective at times. She always apologizes to him in private later on.  - Adrien’s one of the few, if the only, one who really knows about what it was like with Chloe’s parents, especially her mom, and how lonely she was growing up; and how her personality changed from when she was a kid to a teenager. -- in slight relation to the above headcanon; when she was younger, Chloe was almost the opposite as she is as a teenager; in public, she was quiet, polite, withdrawn (she's still withdrawn, but it was worse when she was younger) soft-spoken and more trusting / willing to see the best in people. 

-- Chloe did gymnastics as a kid. She was actually really talented in it- competing when she was younger and getting several medals. She’s considered picking it up again a few times but more seriously, but she feels like she wouldn’t be as good as when she was younger. -- Speaking of things that she’s done as a child, Chloe learnt ballet and still practices it. She still takes dance classes and honestly; she’s fairly talented at it. Since she still practices it, she stays fit and works out.

& more under the cut!

-- Chloe has a hard time being genuine around people she doesn't know too well; she's been hurt too many times in the past by people who pretended to be her friends- only to backstab her, try to use or mock her for various reasons; as well as feeling abandoned by her mother.  -- Honestly, her mother is a whole other can of worms and complicated feelings. Maybe I’ll elaborate more on this later. (Involves emotional abuse that's definitely affected her confidence because yikes) -- Speaking of Chloe’s confidence? she doesn’t have the best self-confidence and is actually fairly insecure. She masks this by acting brash, loud, confident and pushing others away from her.  -- She has a habit of pushing others away from her and keeping walls up. She knows people don’t like her, she knows that people think she’s heartless and cruel; she hears the whispers and their cruel words. It makes her feel worse; but Chloe’s at the point where she might as well stick with that. It’s better to keep everyone at arms’ length rather than not and end up getting hurt. -- the fact that canon Chloe was willing to move to a whole other country because she felt humiliated in class, felt like no one liked her because of the ways they talked about her and knew that she basically had no friends? (w/the exception of Adrien) Her feeling useless? Really says a lot about her frame of mind to drive her to that point.

-- Chloe constantly wanting to prove herself to her mother? Definitely something that she tries to do. She constantly pushes herself to the limit to try to BE exceptional; exceptional grades, exceptional fashion, exceptional skills, exceptional marks in PE and sports. Focuses so much on doing this that, really; she doesn't think about how she treats others (with the exception of Adrien, the only person she feels like she can genuinely let down her hair and be herself around) as well as taking care of herself (Adrien has to remind her to take a break) and all of its because she wants her mom to notice her and to just be viewed as something other than useless. 

-- Honestly, Chloe’s offered to help Adrien study before. Partially because she knows how busy he can be, also because she's lonely and feels like he's he's only one who understands that.  -- there are times where she views Adrien as her guardian angel, in the sense of him knowing who she is as a person without judging her. He's seen how lonely she is and how she genuinely cares about him.

-- speaking of being lonely; Chloe's gotten used to how busy both of her parents are. Her mother is rarely ever in her life due to living in New York, while her father is busy with his mayoral duties and working on running the hotel. While she's got a... somewhat positive relationship with her father, she's still lonely and doesn't get to spend as much time with him compared to when she was a child. He spoils her instead of parenting her, when all she wants at the end of the day is to spend time with him. All she wants is her father, not the constant string of maids or nannies that he had hired to look after her in his stead. --  One big way that my Chloe differs from canon? She’s actually excited about having a sister instead of getting upset and instantly disliking her. Chloe, who was lonely and felt useless and alone because of her mother, excited to have a sister, something she's always wanted since she was young. So, despite sometimes saying cruel things, she still is excited to have a sister. She’ll work on trying to better herself so that she can have a good relationship with her sister; even if it’ll take some time. -- Honestly, Chloe’s very touch-starved. It’s something that she doesn’t like to acknowledge much, but it’s something that she’s well aware of.

-- When it comes down to it; Chloe is actually jealous of Marinette. Marinette's got a loving family, really artistic and talented, and has a group of friends who genuinely care about her. She’s someone who their classmates can rely on and talk to with ease- while they’re scared to talk to Chloe or even just look at her the wrong way. Chloe’s always had a hard time making friends, while it seems to come so easily to Marinette. -- She can’t help but be envious toward Marinette, when at the end of the day? she really just wants to be friends with her. But she doesn’t know how to be friends with her, doesn’t know how to reach out to her. She knows how cruel she’s been to her; so how could she ask that of someone she’s been so terrible to before? Chloe’s confessed feeling this way to Adrien before, but made him swear not to tell anyone about it. -- Chloe actually cares a lot about Miss Bustier; almost views their teacher as a mother figure because of how kind she is to her and how much she's made an effort to help her. 

[verannaca]

so I saw Frozen 2 for the fourth time

i have so many questions.

there’s a relatively negative (and very long) review beneath the cut so pls read at your own risk. and, of course, spoilers.

I’ve seen Frozen 2 four times now and yikes. I’d kinda hoped it would get better with each viewing, but it’s somehow worse??? I really loved the first movie; it literally changed my life in an incredibly drastic way (don’t ask) but it had been very important to me over the past six years, and...I’m so disappointed.

My initial reaction was disappointment, and I should’ve stuck with it. Like, wtf was that? But some parts were also really well done? It left me so conflicted lol

PROS

Vuelie was a good way to open the film; I quite liked the nostalgia :’)

The intro scene in general was good; I liked seeing more of their parents, although idk what their father was thinking telling them such a tale before bed lmao seems like some shit my mother would do

All is Found is my favourite non-depressing song in the movie, and it opens it beautifully. ERW has a wonderful voice.

The animation really is beautiful; it looks so realistic. Specifically the clouds and the one scene of the waves crashing over the pine trees. It looked amazing!

The music is good but not great. FTFTIF is my favourite; it’s so catchy and cheery. I really liked TNRT, and SY is perfect, but these songs just weren’t as catchy as the ones in Frozen?? I’m thankful for AURORA tho, that was a lovely gift.

Bruni was absolutely adorable (even tho he was an obvious cash-grab for merch lol), 10/10 love Bruni. Bruni + Elsa = even better.

Anna looked absolutely breathtaking throughout the entire movie; the redesign they did animation-wise really works in her favour, and now she’s rocking those Emilia Clarke eyebrows which is a hell yes from me. Her final look gave me all the feels; I can’t say I’m a huge fan of the dress and hairstyle?? it seemed a bit too not Anna, but at the same time, it showed her growth and maturity and I’m very happy with that.

As dark as it was, the shipwreck scene was beautiful. It was handled beautifully; their reactions were devastating. There is a huge con here, but I’ll save that for later.

The ocean battle was really neat. The water looked so good, and Elsa looks good wet???

The whole scene in Ahtohallan was well done; I liked the memories. I wish Anna had been there; she deserved to see her history, too, and it wasn’t fair that Elsa got that spotlight once again.

Everything after Elsa freezing was absolutely breathtaking as well. Anna’s reactions, the song, the scenery-- it was tragically beautiful.

Kristoff had the two best lines in the ENTIRE movie: “I’m here. What do you need?” and “It’s okay. My love is not fragile.” It’s so rare to see a good, supportive relationship in tv/movies, be it heterosexual or homosexual, it doesn’t happen. It’s so rare. So this was a beautiful break from that; the faith he had in her was amazing. Thank u. the real mvp.

The scene with Anna as she accepts the fate of her future; as she takes in a breath and realises/accepts that her home is gone, and her blood family is gone. Everything about it was perfect. You could feel her emptiness. Poor baby needed a hug :(

I liked that Kristoff also hugged Elsa when she returned; it showed that they were friends, which is really important for Anna tbh

I think that’s it for pros??? Now for the cons.

CONS:

Gonna start this off simple: the plot was weak. This is unfortunately not an unpopular opinion; it made no sense. It was too convoluted to the point where nothing was explained.

The pacing was off, and it was ridiculously anti-climactic. The layout in general seemed a bit weird tbh I could definitely sit here and justify all of it, but I shouldn’t have to.

They gave us no reason to gaf about this voice that Elsa was hearing. How long had she been hearing it for? Why was she so drawn to it? Why didn’t she think she was just hearing things? Or maybe she did at one point and then realised she wasn’t crazy? 

There was almost no character development. Elsa was the same as she was in Frozen, but this time, it was just annoying. She never learned or grew. Anna was demoted to a clingy side-character even though she’s the protagonist; I have no words for how frustrating this was to watch. I miss the Kristanna bickering. I liked their dynamic overall; I understand their insecurities and lack of ability to communicate because of it, and I liked how non-toxic they were. Overall, they did love and trust each other; they believed in and supported each other, even though they had a falling out (again and again) and were separated for most of the film (again, wtf?) EA had no development together, and honestly, they were annoying asf as a duo. There was no communication and no understanding. I will say that Anna’s fear and frustration throughout the entire movie was absolutely 100% understandable and sensible; she’d already lost too much before, and wasn’t prepared to lose anything else. I just wish she’d been portrayed a bit differently??? And it would’ve been nice if Elsa had stopped for, like, two minutes to be like, “hey, are you okay, you seem clingy and worried” but instead she just kept running and didn’t gaf.

It was over dramatic for the sake of plot, when it didn’t have to be. Elsa didn’t have to continuously try and push Anna away “for her protection.” They absolutely could’ve done the vast majority of things together. Fuck, they could’ve gone to the dark sea together. Anna could’ve stayed on the beach while Elsa tackled the Nokk. Then when Anna saw that Elsa was perfectly capable of protecting herself, they could’ve parted ways then and done whatever it was they needed to do. Or, Elsa could’ve taken Anna to Ahtohallan?? They may have discovered there that Anna couldn’t enter, but then they’d be given the opportunity to communicate, and Anna would’ve at least been included, since this was her history, too.

If this is a movie about two sisters, why the ever loving fuck is it all about Elsa and her origins? What about Anna’s origins? They were her parents, too. Sure, we ask “why does Elsa have magic,” but why doesn’t Anna have magic? Why was Elsa the “gift”? Why is Anna’s superpower “love”?? And why is that “superpower” only valid when it’s in regards to Elsa? Why is Anna so strong, physically? Emotionally? Personally? Is it just her? Why isn’t she an element, too? What’s with this bridge bullshit? Why the fuckkkk is Elsa the “fifth spirit” when she’s ice and ice is literally just water? I have so many questions.

How the heck was Iduna Northuldra? Did she become “whiter” because she remained inside a castle for twenty years? Or was she always “white passing”? Or was she adopted into the forest? Who are her parents? Did anybody miss her when she ran off to the kingdom? Her scarf was from “one of [their] oldest families” and yet nobody seemed to know who she was? And what do you mean “oldest families”? Are there no remaining members of that family? Nobody who was missing her? Nobody who would’ve recognised her daughters who are literally carbon-copies of her????

The shipwreck scene and the following scene pissed me off soooo much in the theatre lol First, it really was beautiful how they did it, but the interactions felt out of character. Elsa brought up the memories of their parents’ demise without consoling Anna at all. Not only did she just do it without at least a warning, she then proceeded to leave her behind in her own fit. Which, okay, yes, to an extent that makes sense; she was over-ridden by guilt. But those were Anna’s parents too. Elsa was all she had, and Elsa left her behind. I just- AND THEN in this moment of severe grief and horror, as these terrible things were revealed, Anna was pushed away again to be left on her own to deal with things alone. She’d JUST sacrificed her own feelings for Elsa, and Elsa’s response was to shove her away. WHY. I just??? hello??? Like, Elsa does care about Anna, right? That’s canon? So why tf would they write her like this?? jfc

Every single new character was wasted potential. Mattias above all else was very interesting, and should’ve had at least ten minutes more screentime??? I liked the scene of him and Anna discussing whatever, but there should’ve been more. They both cared more about Arendelle than anyone; they were both sworn to protect. There could’ve been more of an on-screen relationship there. (and don’t fucking come at me with your gross-ass ships please, tyvm). Honeymaren and Ryder were there for ??? merchandise? A reason for Elsa to stay behind? Queer-baiting??? I don’t get it. They did,,, nothing. Yelena? Did nothing. Why do these name-characters do nothing?? What’s the point???

This was advertised as a “big adventure” but had hardly any adventure. Frohana was apart for most of the damn movie, the action scenes had little consequences, the “climax” was ??? what, Elsa freezing? Who cares?? It’s obvious she’s going to come back. The wave heading for Arendelle??? Yeah, that would’ve been a good climax if it actually did any damage. But no, I guess Elsa can teleport now? aight. and now she gets to play hero again even though she didn’t do shit

The plot(?) was very predictable, and didnt really have a twist. Old white guy kills innocent POC. Okay. That’s real life, yeah? It’s shit; it happens, but why was this whole movie based around that? Was it a political statement? We don’t really need more political movies these days??? People are aware, and things are shit as is; idk it just felt forced. But this is a v controversial subject so imma shut up lol

THERE ARE NO CONSEQUENCES. Unless you’re Anna. Then you suffer severely cuz,,, fuck her, right? The entire cave thing (as beautiful and needed as it was) could’ve been prevented entirely if Elsa had just fucking communicated. But instead, Anna had to suffer again in such a severe way. Her feelings DID have consequences; they effected her severely and even influenced wreckless behaviour. But then?? it’s all over. And suddenly, it doesn’t matter. Suddenly, who cares? Elsa returns and is (for some unforeseen reason) magically forgiven. This ISN’T HOW SISTERS ARE. If my sister pulled half the shit Elsa did, the first thing she’d be greeted with is a slap across the face and a very loud “fuck you.” THEN she’d get a hug and some tears. You don’t fuck with people’s emotions like that. And the fact that there were no serious consequences is infuriating.

Anna becomes Queen without context. Did she want to be queen? Did she suggest it? Did Elsa decided “eh fuck it i’m bored, your turn” and just dump it on her? Anna is a free-spirit. Yes, she was absolutely devoted to her kingdom; her people always came first; she was an incredibly loving and selfless princess, but was she truly prepared to give up that freedom to be Queen? I think she fits the role beautifully; she was absolutely born to rule. But is she happy? Or is she yet again cleaning up Elsa’s mess, since that seems to be all she does?

Why did Elsa stay in the forest? Is it because she felt like she belonged with the spirits? With the people? Away from civilisation? All of the above? None of the above? And how did that conversation go with Anna? How did she explain; “hey, I know I died and fucked you up and promised that we’d always stay together, but I’ve decided I’m gonna leave you behind again and stay here with these people I barely know.” Did Anna object, or did she see the positives of being away from someone so toxic???? It makes no senseeeee, they were so good together in the first movie; it all feels so out of character. Both of them feel out of character.

There were few (very few) moments in which they really were like themselves:

The charades scene.

“You think I’m c R A Z Y?”

Head tilts with Bruni.

Anna laughing at Elsa’s braid-stache.

Elsa making toys for children.

The pleasant Kristanna scenes at the beginning.

Anna’s anger scenes.

Even Elsa’s personal drama???

but that’s it? I’ve seen it four times in theatre, and a few times online (though mostly in pieces) so I don’t think I missed anything. Perhaps I’m blinded by the frustration that this film caused. Overall:

The plot was weak.

The animation was beautiful.

Kristanna wasn’t the Kristanna we truly know?

Elsa was dramatic and annoying because she had no development.

Anna was demoted to a clingy side-character and was given a half-assed purpose.

The music was meh.

There was too much and yet somehow not enough.

It was a mess.

Six years. SIX. I-

ugh.

final note: PLEASE ANSWER MY QUESTIONS IF I MISSED SOMETHING. I think it’s also important to note that if you went to the theatre for 2 hours of entertainment, that’s great, but not the same as those of us that have dedicated six years of our lives to these characters? So please don’t come @ me if you were just a movie-goer. I also wanna say that there were a lot of parts of this movie that I loved and will hold onto, but overall, the movie as a whole was meh. I LOVED Anna & Elsa in Frozen; they had good development and had reasons for being how they were. They had a good dynamtic and worked well together. I hated their relationship in F2; it was toxic and forced in many ways; they didn’t interact nearly enough, and when they did, they were bitching for the sake of plot, which was very frustrating.

This isn’t a hate post so please don’t come at me lol my opinion is entirely irrelevent in the grand scheme of things, but hey, we’re here to chat and share, right?

sigh.

[beautifultaemin]

high school crush!haechan

HIGH SCHOOL CRUSH SERIES:

jaemin | haechan | taeil | chenle | kun | jungwoo | mark | renjun | jeno | jisung (everyone else coming soon!)

hope you all are ready to uwu because uwu it’s a soft scenario this time uwu. as usual, i haven’t proof read this, sorry if there are any mistakes! pure fluff!

screeeeeeeeech soFT HAECHAN LETS GET IT BOIS

haechan’s a jokester in nct

life of the party

in high school, it’d be the same

he’d be the class clown who makes everyone laugh and say the strangest things in class when the teacher asks him a question to try and avoid the fact he wasn’t listening lmao

he’s a pretty good student though

a solid b+ in pretty much all of his classes

apart from science

yikes

the boy needs some help in that class

pretty much everything in science is okay apart from chemistry

it’s okay chan i hate chem too ew

he just doesn’t get the whole idea of it, it confuses him up

especially when the equations and formulas come into place like you know the periodic table you’ve kinda gotta memorise, yeah, he hasn’t memorised it

lol

too many big words

anything that the teacher teaches goes in one ear and out the other

which is why when ya’ll needed to do an experiment for your final and find partners

he finds you!!

since ya know you slay at chem and he doesn’t so it’s a good combination

and he just comes and sits next to you before your friends even get a chance to get up from their seats

and grins at you and you go al uwu inside

and he asks if he can be your partner and ofc you don’t mind

so you say yes

and this is where the soft crushing all starts

eeeeeeekkk

now before haechan asked for your help in chem class

he already had a bit of crush on you

and when it came to being your partner in chem

he’d wanna impress you

and his version of impressing you is with corny as heck jokes

like okay so ever since you two became partners he’d sit next to you or if he couldn’t sit next to you, he’d try sitting near you

if he was next to you then he’d whisper some lame ass joke like

“what do you call an alligator in a vest?” (hc)

“an investigator” (hc)

it’d take your entire being not to just hit him and laugh in the middle fo class tbh

but if he was sitting away from you, he’d pass notes to you

at this point everyone thouht you were dating tbh

cause then you’d start hanging out together and become really close

slowly you’d start getting a crush on him too

honestly, how did the both of you not realise how much you liked each other if every time you saw each other you’d both be really shy till haechan says a dumb joke

which is why your friends and jaemin and jeno would decide to set the both of you on a “date”

well actually, it was supposed to be a group study session but everyone bailed at the last minute

wow

aren’t they all just trash

jks they cool

but since they all bailed, it’d be haechan and you at the nearest cafe sitting across from each other with your laptops out, some small cute cupcakes and hot chocolate because neither of you liked coffee

since you knew your stuff, you helped haechan with chem

and every time he remembered a formula you’d smile at him, feeling happy that you’ve managed to help him!

and when he sees your smile at him, he’d smile because omg he’s been trying so so hard to remember everything and impress you and make you feel proud of him eek

prepare for some cliche because in the middle of all the hard studying, you’d both eaten cupcakes right but there was only one left and omg both of you go out to reach for it

but in your defense, you were looking at your book and flicking through your notes

while haechan was trying to write the essay for chem

so without realising the both of you reached out for the cupcake and touched hands

and looked up at the same time

and pulled your hands away really quick and haechan would clear his throat softly and in a small voice go “y-you can um- have it...”

but you’d want him to have it because he’s worked hard the last few weeks

and so it’d turn into a soft joking argument about who deserved the last cupcake

and you’d say “please haechan, take it. you’ve worked so much on chemistry you deserve it”

and you’d kinda start to compliment him and tell him that you’re proud of where he’s gotten too in the subject and he loses himself in your voice and kinda zones out but  he’s still listening and starts smiling like an idiot because

you’re so cute when you’re trying too explain your proudness over him and he’s just a whole softie at that point and you notice and you kinda stop talking and poke his nose which gets him outta the daydream

and you ask “why are you smiling like that...?” cause he’s never done that before???

and he just panics a little cause oh no he was staring at you too long ajsjsjsjdhhf and he just goes “i like you!” and then cover his mouth and turn bright red like

bright bright red

and he looks away

and you’d be so shook as well

and omg

you’d fiddle with the end of your shirt and reply to him with “i-i like you too”

b o i

he fREEZES

and looks at you and goes “really?”

and you nod and it’s all soft and shy and he looks up at you and you two look at each other and uwu you both giggle over it quietly

and haechan says “i was kinda, like scared...of telling you how i felt”

and you’d say “me too actually” and then he laughs a bit and goes “i can’t believe them” and you’d be confused till he points to the other side of the cafe and you just see jaemin and jeno and your friends like cheering silently at the both of you eek

anyway after that

be prepared for more lame ass jokes

and corny cute pick up lines from then on

he’d be really clingy in a good way after you say yes to being his gf

like he’d hg you whenever he got the chance

and steal your food too

which would result in you hitting his arm softly

but he’d pout at you and whine

and you’d have to feed him for him to shut up

but he’s cute so you let him off

and basically high school crush haechan is soft and cuddley and it’s a really soft, fun and exciting relationship!

[pindaleng]

Asks Part 2 - 150 asks

blackdowning asked:

all of the taylor asks please and also all of the 150 asks from a couple days ago thanks

Get ready for a ride

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

Teasingly with my friend Holly

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

Shy af

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

My bestie @blackdowning :’)

4. Are you easy to get along with?

I think so! Unless we’re good enough friends that all I do is find ways to antagonize you

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

Romantic “like”? Hope so but don’t know them that well ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

People with really nice smiles and laughs and have a great sense of humor because help me if I have to explain memes or can’t make them laugh (because I’m hilarious)

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

Lol no way

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

Thinking of what to text @blackdowning

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

Yikes

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

My roommates!

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

"New year old me my bed is probs gross now“

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

King of My Heart - Taylor Swift

Bad At Love (Stripped) - Halsey

Over You - Miranda Lambert

Over You - Ingrid Michaelson, A Great Big World

Can I Be Him - James Arthur

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

Um idk, if I’m comfortable with them?

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

Yupperdoodles :)

15. What good thing happened this summer?

Discovered Wynonna Earp and Carmilla :’)

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Yikes nope

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

Yessir

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

LOL nope but he likes my Facebook roasts to our mutual friend sometimes

19. Do you like bubble baths?

What kind of person doesn’t??

20. Do you like your neighbors?

Don’t know my apartment neighbors but maybe the ones across the hall could smoke less weed that’d be great

21. What are you bad habits?

Scratching my head and releasing dandruff, rubbing my face as it’s peeling, shaking my leg, staying up late doing nothing, procrastinating, etc.

22. Where would you like to travel?

Want to go to Japan one day! But otherwise not sure. Europe in general, Australia, Canada? Places with good food and comfortable living arrangements.

23. Do you have trust issues?

Why is this question in so many asks yes I do move on what a clingy question jeez

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

Going on tumblr

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

...all of it? :’)

26. What do you do when you wake up?

Grumble about being awake

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

Uhhh I think I’m pretty okay with how it is rn

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

My besties

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

Yikes no thank goodness

30. Do you ever want to get married?

Probably! #TaxBenefits

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?

Yeps!

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

Um threesome friendship? Elise Bauman and Natasha Negovanlis cuz I’d be a third party observer as they forget about me and just get to watch them be super great all the time 

33. Spell your name with your chin.

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

In a badminton class rn! I’ve also played sports for funzies like tennis, volleyball, swimming, and basketball

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

Heck that’s hard. Without TV? Especially if they couldn’t have music in them. But like I’m such tv fandom trash it would be so hard.

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

Hahha yes

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

Um nothing or how’s it going or 

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

Super funny. Great listener. Eye crinkles when they smile/laugh. Bright smile. Laugh that makes flowers grow. Driven.

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

There was a store in Epcot Japan that I could spend like my entire life in. Craft stores, and department stores with plaid/button ups/dressy clothes

40. What do you want to do after high school?

Um in college rn so... college?

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

Yuggerduggers

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

I’m either super exhausted or irritated or uninterested

43. Do you smile at strangers?

Yess’m because I get unreasonably bothered when people don’t smile at me cuz then I think I did something wrong lmao

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

Um bottom of the ocean like under a bajillion pounds of water how cool is that

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

Responsibility and food

46. What are you paranoid about?

SO MANY THINGS. 

47. Have you ever been high?

Tried but didn’t work

48. Have you ever been drunk?

Erp yep

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

Um secret projects

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

Maroon

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

All the time??

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

Me? :’)

53. Favourite makeup brand?

Uh covergirl? Don’t really wear makeup 

54. Favourite store?

Teeturtle (online store) has pretty nifty stuff

55. Favourite blog?

@blackdowning

56. Favourite colour?

Red

57. Favourite food? 

Sushi

58. Last thing you ate?

White Cheddar Cheez-its

59. First thing you ate this morning?

Milk with instant coffee, but first actual food PB&J

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

Once was a winner of a letter to santa competition my local newspaper hosted when I was a kiddo and got a stuffed bear

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

Nope I’m too much of a goody two shoes

62. Been arrested? For what?

For stealing people’s hearts ;) jk never been arrested

63. Ever been in love? 

Don’t think so

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

Was leaving their house and then awkwardly talked for forty minutes by their door then fill in the blank

65. Are you hungry right now?

I literally always am so

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

Um tumblr friends r real friends

67. Facebook or Twitter?

Twitter

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

Tumblr

69. Are you watching tv right now?

No

70. Names of your bestfriends? 

Internet and Food

71. Craving something? What?

Sushi and love

72. What colour are your towels?

Red and pink

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

Just one

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

I have some on my bed!

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

Ummm 15-20?

75. Favourite animal?

Pandas

76. What colour is your underwear?

Wouldn’t you like to know ;)

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

Chocolate

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

Mint Chocolate Chip

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

Pink

80. What colour pants?

Blue jeans

81. Favourite tv show?

Supergirl

82. Favourite movie?

Ugh hard one I don’t really have a fave. I really like Now You See Me1 and 2, the Pitch Perfects, The Carmilla Movie, Almost Adults, The Big Short, Polar Express, and I’m sure I’m messing some

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

Who tf likes Mean Girls 2 better??????????

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

Mean Girls

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

Karen

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

Crush?

87. First person you talked to today?

My roommate Holly

88. Last person you talked to today?

So far, my other roommates Hope and Victoria

89. Name a person you hate?

Nick St. Clair

90. Name a person you love?

Betty Cooper

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

Anybody I want to fite sum1

92. In a fight with someone?

Don’t think so

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

Many many

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

Also many lots love sweaters and hoodies

95. Last movie you watched?

How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days

96. Favourite actress?

Just one??? 

97. Favourite actor?

uhhh Chris Wood maybe? Tom Hanks?

98. Do you tan a lot?

Did when I played tennis in high school

99. Have any pets?

No :(

100. How are you feeling?

Great B)

101. Do you type fast?

Decently quick!

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

SO MANY but also trying to just accept it instead of feel bad about it

103. Can you spell well?

W-E-L-L

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

Yessss

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

Um not like super cool burning couches and ten feet tall fires but just chill roasting marshmallows ones yeah

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

Probsa

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

Yes! It was fun

108. What should you be doing?

Studying for exams stop attacking me

109. Is something irritating you right now?

I’m tired and IT’S SO FRICKEN COLD OUTSIDE

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

Hm I don’t think so

111. Do you have trust issues?

I'm against monopolies so you could say I have issues with trust (anti-trust get it haha I’m hilarious give me money)

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

@blackdowning

113. What was your childhood nickname?

Awk didn’t really have one

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

Yupps!

115. Do you play the Wii?

Uh duh it’s great

116. Are you listening to music right now?

Mmmhmm

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

Who doesn’t?

118. Do you like Chinese food?

YES

119. Favourite book?

Freakonomics

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

Kinda

121. Are you mean?

Average ye

122. Is cheating ever okay?

I use google all the time for my hws so I hope so

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

Lol no my white shoes rn are getting pretty dirty

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Yes <3

125. Do you believe in true love?

Yes <3 <3

126. Are you currently bored?

Yes but I also have a heck ton of stuff I need to do oop

127. What makes you happy?

Making other people laugh/smile

128. Would you change your name?

If it would make it sound cooler yah

129. What your zodiac sign?

Gemini

130. Do you like subway?

Delish I might get some soon

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

Lmao

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Literally this was already a question who made this

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

London girl with an attitude We never told no one but we look so cute Both got way better things to do But I always think about it when I'm riding through - Bad at Love by Halsey

134. Can you count to one million?

Is that before or after seven

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

Idk if it’s the dumbest but in an interview I said I knew what a company did and then said it wrong but they hired me anyways so who rly won

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

Closed

137. How tall are you?

5′4″?

138. Curly or Straight hair?

Straight in reference to hair

139. Brunette or Blonde?

Brunette? Closer to black hair

140. Summer or Winter?

Summer

141. Night or Day?

Night

142. Favourite month?

June

143. Are you a vegetarian?

Nah

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

Dark chocolate ftw

145. Tea or Coffee?

Coffee

146. Was today a good day?

Yeah :)

147. Mars or Snickers?

Um Milky Way should count under Mars right

148. What’s your favourite quote?

“No matter what happens in life, be good to people. Being good to people is a wonderful legacy to leave behind”

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

How else do u explain how a russian nesting doll ended up in my apartment freezer when neither me nor my roommates did it.

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

Uh literally don’t have a book near me rn might update later when I find one

[miallday]

✨2019✨ Jan.-July.

wow. You were a hard year, but you had a great ending to it.

January: I let go of my toxic relationship of 5 years. I let go of his entire family. We ended on a bad note.. pretty much all of them. Sarah and I had an awful fight. I was angry during one of my conversations with Maia. I was so hurt. I remember I was also broke. Like I had less than $100. I went through all my savings for 6 months. I am so blessed I was able to pay all my bills.. all on my OWN. I moved out from my apartment, separating myself from those familiar faces and became a live in nanny. I started school again.. from scratch. I went to school and worked, but I was still broke since I didn’t get paid. I lived off the 200$ a month from my church job. I wanted my head shaved. This is an easy decision. It had been over a year of thought. Jacob was so kind to do it for me. That was the first time I wore his clothes. I liked it. That was also the first time I slept on his bed. I was scared, I didn’t sleep well that night. But waking up that morning it made me happy. I was ok. Now I’m just bald. Yikes. But I liked the wig look... until hair started growing in. In the month of January I began praying to God so much. I remember one night I spoke to God and asked him to show me what to do. Show me the Autrys true colors. To show me the cards. Lay them on the table. Later on that month I had a dream giving me the answers. Time to let go. Jacob called me telling me about Shonté getting this chicks # and stuff and she looked just like Stefany. Jacob came to my rescue again. Jacob, Marcus and I went out that night. I remember it was the first week living at carols. My first Friday night out!! To zen! I’m 21! It was so fun! Jacob suggested putting my phone on airplane mode and the next day I ended everything with Shonté. He told me to go fuck myself... then texted me saying “ i dont know when but one day I will show you that I love you” lol... that’s the “love” I had for 7 years. (5 + the 2 we were talking.) wow. I wish none of that happened. I am embarrassed of it all. I had no self love at all. I didn’t know what love was. I was trying to find love in all the wrong places. I look back and I wish I could just hug my younger self. I am so glad I am out of that. ALL of it. I was in so much pain. I am thankful for Jacob. I really am, but I am also so proud of myself for finally choosing myself and my happiness. I put myself first for once in my life.

February: I wanted to ignore the hurt that I was feeling. I regret ever talking to justin. I shouldn’t have done it. I knew it was wrong. I didn’t want him to kiss me. I wanted to move my head, but I was lonely. I’m sorry. I knew you loved me since the 7th grade. It was nice catching up on life. We may have been best friends but Sam really did take you away from Zahria and I for years. I tried to tell you that we were just talking. I knew I didn’t want more, I’m sorry for going along with those conversations. I shouldnt have sexted you. I shouldn’t have made out with you in your car. I led you on. I am so sorry. It was wrong. I was lonely and I thought maybe our long friendship must mean maybe there could be more. But you were too much for me. You took me to meet your whole family on our first date. I spoke to everyone of course, but you continuously asked “are you having fun”. Ugh Justin I missed my friend. I hated when we were in the car stopped at a red light you’d want to kiss me over and over and over. I’d say stop & you wouldn’t. I didnt want this. I could never love you the way you needed to be loved. I am so happy you found someone, but Apart of me regrets losing my guy bestfriend since middle school, but after all that happened it’s too late. You became clingy and told me you loved me too fast. It was only a month. & you’d say it so often. You made me feel suffocated. I didn’t have that love connection with you. It was TOO much for ME. You’d call me every night around 7/8pm and you keep talking until 1am. I’d get frustrated bc I’m serious about my sleep. I’d say bye and you would somehow find another topic. So I even told you to give me space. While you were blowing up my phone I was sleeping next to Jacob in his bed, getting high and doing acid with him. Nothing happened ever, but you never knew. You just knew I was there. That’s how I knew I didn’t want this.. I could never commit to you. I knew you weren’t it. I wanted to be around Jacob more than I ever wanted to talk to you. And I’m sorry. This one day before work I walked up to a church and I sat down on their bench outside. It was like 8pm and I spoke to God. I asked him to show me if you were meant to be in my life.. not to long later God showed me the answers. The fact that after I went to visit Jenn for her birthday and Jacob mentioned who she saw him marrying I knew it was me but I was afraid I would be right and things would get awkward. But somehow Jacob smoothly brought up our pact by 30 if we were still single we’d get married and I was ok with that. Or when we did acid that day I was making a floor angel.. before we fell asleep I told you I didn’t mind being with you if by 30 we didn’t have anyone. My heart was with Jacob before I even knew.

March: Jacob and I began hanging out. During my spring break we went out to eat. We drank. I got high from brownie crumbs you shared with me. We drank. In the Uber I leaned on you and I dosed off, but you put your hand on my leg. I felt it but with you I wanted you to keep you hand there. We got to his place and we talked about tattoos. You even helped me decide what to do with mine and then we ended up wrestling. It was fun. Nothing more. That whole week we hung out. I went to go visit you in pentagon city. We texted daily. Anyways, Wednesday March 13 you kissed me. A couple days before I had a feeling something would happen between us. I was in shock that you kissed me. I dont know, I just never put mind to it. I accepted you for who you were, but I always turned my head bc I knew your body count. I am sorry for judging you. I did accept you, but that kept me from looking at your direction the whole time we were friends. I dont know if that sounds shitty of me. There was also something going on between you and Zahria and I really didn’t like it. In all honesty I didn’t want to give her your number the first time. Back in cityside. Big yikes. Anyways. I liked you. I liked how it felt when you kissed me. I wanted to know if you’d kiss me again. Then next morning you kissed me and said “does that answer your question.” So cute. From this moment I told Justin to let me go and find someone else. I didn’t want to waste his time. I wanted to do things right. For St.Patricks day Jacob invited me out to DuPont circle! This parents were there. That night was fun. Jacob and I clicked in a different way. We were out together. I held his hand for the first time outside. I also called him bby. There was a connection. I remember that night pretty clearly. Anyways, Jacob & I had sex like a week later. I wanted to. I wanted you. I wanted you since my 20th birthday. On acid I looked at you when I was laying on my bed and I literally said I wanna fuck him but I knew that was wrong of me to think that. I wasn’t scared the first time we did it. It was definitely better than my first time lol. And it was mutual and we were sober. That.. helps me.. in all honesty. All the time I think of that and I smile. The next day.. oof it was the first time I ever had good sex. It was hard having sex with you for a while after that though. I really felt like I lost my virginity. It was rough for a while. I am so lucky. I was always embarrassed but you helped me feel better. I’m sorry for bleeding on you. I really appreciate you comforting me every time... you are so sweet. I remember that following day you took me over to your parents house. That was my first time there. He brought me to his parents house ASAP. I met Shonté’s family 3 years later and that’s because I came over during Christmas break and his parents decided no one should spend Christmas alone in another state. Yeah I was literally going to stay at his dads apt alone if his parents didn’t want me to come. Yikes. You obviously really did like me. Don’t worry I can’t wait until you meet my brother and my nephews. My nephews are my treasure, so you are very special!!! I remember the last day of March.. March 31st we went on our first date!! No ones ever gone all out for me like that... I was speechless. You took me to the fish market. You got a small bowl of clam chowder and I got fish and chips. We walked down king street and we went to go see Kai. You paid for our tickets to get on the ferry. I’ve never been on that one!! It was cold but there was a beautiful view. We got to NH and we passed by a spicy sauce store. We still have to go there!!!! Then we got on the Ferris wheel. I had so much fun with you. The first time I went on it I didn’t have much of a good time. So thank you for giving me a better memory!!💗

April: Jacob called me his girlfriend over text. I remember I completely ignored it. You pointed it out and I told you I wasn’t your girlfriend until you ask me. I’m glad I stood up for myself. I wanted you to know I am different. April 12 we woke up super early and took acid. We spent the whole trip in bed binge watching breaking bad. I love that. Later that night you casted a slideshow for me. That’s when you asked me out. I found it so cute and I loved the effort you made to ask me to be your girlfriend. I went and got tested this month. I was scared tbh. I wish I would have been smarter and asked Jacob some more serious questions before having sex without a condom. But when we had sex I was okay with it, i could have said no put one on but i really wanted to know what you actually felt like too. & I loved it. I could never go back. Well unless I find those vibrating condom thing. We gotta try. But anyways. I didn’t have peace of mind until my dr. called. I don’t mean to judge. But I’m glad all is good. School was going well! I was working on my website. I was nannying and teaching Jonah Spanish on thursdays. I was also making $ in the side with Sophie, and Guy& Coleman as well as the church! I was productive... you see.. not smoking weed.. I was sober. This is why I’m harder on myself. I could be doing more. Anyways. April was a good month.

May: In May I finished my spring semester!! I took 5 classes. All A’s and B’s. I worked SO hard. I remember I stayed up all night until 4am studying my history notes. Over and over and over. Took a 2 hour nap and went to school. Took my finals and had to hurry and pick up Jonah for tutoring. It was so nice to go out to eat for dinner that day. I was proud of myself. I finessed my communications professor to bring my grade from a B to an A. It took some convincing but he did it. He gave me those extra points. I went home for Mother’s Day. This was wonderful... 2019 I finished paying off to install my moms tombstone. And my brother and I went to see her for Mother’s Day. We got her a bouquet of red roses. Her favorite! It was nice even though my brother was a total dick to me on that 40 minute Uber ride. Zahria didn’t hang out with me this weekend and I was very upset about that. She was mad that I was going to see Michael. Michael and I still speak tbh. Mostly about drugs and life. I was always a real friend to him since freshman year. But now I understand where she was coming from. Jacob and I would FaceTime each other at night now & fall asleep. So cute. I went back home and it took sometime to be okay again. That toxic, negative energy back home is some serious shit. Summer semester started and I only took one class for 6 weeks!!

June:

Pride was so much fun. I wish I went the second day, but I had school and work on Monday. I didn’t want to be out late on a Sunday. But I really had a great time. Too bad I’m so awkward. This is the month Jenn was helping me speak up to Carol and Aaron about the contract. I was terrified. THAT WAS HARD FOR ME. That was so hard for me. But I did it. I spoke to them about it and I decided the best decision was to move out. It’s crazy bc at this time I found my love for champagne. I was drinking so much of it. Tbh that’s how I gained so much weight. Alcohol!!!!!! Anyways. I was sitting in Jacobs closet and he came to talk to me. We talked about what happened and you brought up if I wanted to move in with you. I said yes. So I gave my decision. They didn’t want to give me any money. I would get $200 a month for food if I worked more hours from the morning. As well as no summer tutoring so I would have to readjust my hours on the weekends and I wasn’t about it. So I cleaned up my room. They wanted me out ASAP. Marcus and Jacob helped me moved half my stuff. The other half Aaron helped. They weren’t in a good mood that days Carol gave me a hug though and told me she loves me. I closed another chapter. I was nervous and worried to move in with Jacob but it wasn’t too bad.

July: Jacob always tries his best to make me feel welcomed. He moved his desk over and gave it to me. He moved his shelf and fridge to make more space. You were okay with me taking the closet. You never once complained. You were okay that I had a lot of things. I was so worried about it all, but you always comfort me. I started working with Andrea. It was a blessing answered from God. I remember telling Jacob I wanted to take care of another 3 month old again.. and then Bradley came along. That baby brought me a ton of happiness whereas Jackson gave me headaches 🤣 I felt good. I was in school. I was making money. I was also babysitting Cora a lot. I made a little over $500 in 3 days. I saw Guy & Coleman. Jacob, Marcus and I went to Dave & busters. I had a lot of fun. I love that wizard of oz machine. I also came across this letter I wrote for myself back in 2016. I was suppose to wait until 2021, but I read it anyways. Wow I accomplished a couple things in there, but the way I saw my life planned was SO WRONG. hahah. I went and renewed my cpr license. The instructor was tough. I was afraid she wouldn’t pass me. I was doubting myself but I had studying. It was just a lot of pressure. I am so proud of myself for passing and I have a renewed certificate now. I ended the month saying goodbye to the Barhydt’s. They moved back to MA.

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1-65 except the ones you already did

ok this is A LOT so sorry if you’re on mobile

1: Do you have a crush at the moment?

answered

2: Have you ever been deeply in love?

answered

3: Longest relationship you've ever been in?

like........unofficially almost 2 years but official a combination of 2 months then 7 or 8 months idfk 

4: Have you ever changed for someone?

i absorb the personality of everyone i ever talk to but like, not intentionally

5: How is your relationship with your ex?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA i hope we never speak again or if we do it’s just so i can be like FUCK YOU again tbh,

6: Have you ever been cheated on?

nah

7: Have you ever cheated?

nope

8: Would you date someone who's well known for cheating?

what the fuck no

9: What's the most important part of a relationship?

umm......communication? trust? all those words people throw out that are true and real but i love being very open at all times so truly communication

10: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?

serious i guess? my last “fling” was kind of a disaster so idk 

11: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on "breaks"?

NOPE NOPE NOPE almost fell for that bullshit and it’s basically what ended my last relationship so absolutely not no thanks!!! not for me

12: How many people have you ever hooked up with?

i hate the phrase hooked up bc it could mean anything from kissing to sex so i never know how to answer this?! i already made a post the other day sayin ive kissed 4 people so theres that i guess 

13: What's one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship?

answered

14: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?

idk you do you but like, personally before like........16 seems too dangerous imo bc you are Children but as long as it’s safe and whatever idk

15: Do you believe in the phrase "age is just a number"?

no bc it’s usually used by predatory older dudes but i mean age differences are fine as long as it’s not creepy and terrible. but don’t say this as a 24 year old dude as an excuse to date a high schooler

16: Do you believe in "love at first sight"?

answered

17: Do you believe it's possible to fall in love on the internet?

that’s like, exclusively what’s happened to me so, yeah

18: What do you consider a deal breaker?

i don’t have like a specific list in my mind or like one THING i cannot tolerate but i guess a huge one would be anything having to do w not tolerating mental illness bc that is my entire personality

19: How do you know it's time to end a relationship?

when they make you feel shitty more than they make you feel happy

20: Are you currently in a relationship?

nop

21: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?

yeah i’ve seen it happen and work out fine

22: Do you think people should date their friends?

sure why not, it’s nice to be friends then have it turn into something or whatever. i like relationships based off of friendships 

23: How many relationships have you had?

um i’d really only count like, one, so......1

24: Do you think love can last forever?

yeah i love happy old couples

25: Do you believe love can conquer all things?

um.......not really??? that’s like, a big statement, 

26: Would you break up with someone your parents didn't approve of?

no because i dated someone my parents disliked for a long time

27: If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be?

answered

28: Do you think long distance relationships can work?

absolutely tho i’m not huge on them for myself

29: What do you notice first about another person?

answered

30: Are you straight, bi, gay or pansexual?

me all the time: IM GAY AS HELL

but really i’m bi 

31: Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness?

answered

32: Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?

haha........................................................................................yeah and it’s fucked up my entire psyche so (-:

33: Do you want to get married one day?

yeah!

34: What do you think about getting your partner's name tattooed?

sounds like a very bad idea and also wouldn’t even be like aesthetically pleasing so no thanks

35: Could you be in a relationship without sex?

probably? idk

36: Are you still a virgin?

no i’m a sinner

37: What's more important: Looks or personality?

personality but obviously i like people that i am physically attracted to so.....i mean its both but i am very big on personality which is why hookups arent rly my thing too much

38: Do you enjoy love films?

do i enjoy them? i will SOB at them, so, 

39: Have you ever given anyone/received roses?

nope

40: Have you ever had a valentine?

answered i think

41: What's your imagination of a "perfect date"?

getting drunk and taking a nap together

42: Have you ever read "Romeo & Juliet"?

i did for school in like 8th grade 

43: What's more important: Your partner or your friends?

gotta get that balance. don’t neglect either of them

44: Would you consider yourself "romantic"?

i call myself a hopeless romantic constantly

45: Could you imagine to date one of your current friends?

yes

46: Have you ever been "friendzoned"?

fake concept. i had high school crushes that never went anywhere but that doesnt mean friendzoned really so no

47: Which "famous couple" is your favorite?

i don’t pay attention to thos things honestly................mulder and scully

48: What's your favorite love song?

i have an entire playlist of love songs, hmu for it, but ummm probably first day of my life if thats considered a love song

49: Have you ever broken someone's heart?

eh. kind of. complicated

50: If you're single, why do you think you are?

i’m ugly

(bc i have been single for like...2 months and thos things dont come fast)

51: Would you rather date someone who's rich but a douchebag or someone who's poor but a nice guy?

poor but nice guy 100%

52: Are you good at giving other people advices regarding dating/ relationships?

ehhhhhhhhhhhhh not really i mean sometimes? i don’t know it depends on the situation 

53: Are you jealous of couples when you're single?

LOL.............yes i am known to get kinda salty

54: How important is it to make a relationship official (p.e. on Facebook)?

eh. i like having it be Official and known as a thing but other than that idk

55: Would you consider yourself "clingy", "overly attached" or "jealous"?

i will cling to you with the force of a thousand suns (but try to play it cool and fail yikes)

56: Have you ever "destroyed" a relationship?

nah he did that (side eye emoji)

57: Do you think it's silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart?

me: i’m going to kill myself when we break up

so like, no, but don’t do it because i didn’t and that was a dumbass mindset

58: Are you the "dominant" or the "submissive" part in a relationship?

the MOST submissive you will ever meet, in your entire life, please dominate me

59: Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner's birthday or your anniversary?

answered i think

60: What's your opinion on open relationships?

whatever works for u but probably not my thing

61: Who's more important: Your partner or your family?

my siblings can fuck off but parents and partner are both important

62: How do you define "cheating"?

????????? is there more than one definition??? its fuckin cheating. dont flirt or do shit w other people. 

63: Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate?

it doesn’t make me feel awesome to think about but it’s not like, an issue

64: Do you think Valentine's Day is overrated?

me when im single: yes

me if i was in a relationship: NO (HEART EYES X1000)

65: Would you consider yourself a "cuddler"?

WOULD I? CONSIDER????????????? I DONT CONSIDER ANYTHING. I KNOW FOR A FUCKING FACT I AM. i will cuddle 24/7 365 baby