#btw I’m fine I’m just venting

[dysentarynation]

It really sucks not being close to anyone. At least not for longer than they find you entertaining and/or useful; which never seems to be very long. God dammit, I thought this time was gonna be different. Fuck sunshiny ppl, they never actually fucking care.

[fruitisthenewvegitable]

*scrolling through old messages with someone I don’t talk to anymore* Oh so that’s why I have [X] fear/why I was always upset about certain things/why I don’t talk to them anymore. Oh.

[galaxicalphoenix]

Tumblr is the best place to scream into the void. it doesn’t hurt quite as much if no one gives a shit because that’s ok. it’s just Tumblr.

[l3viat8an]

Little friendly reminder to be nice to me in my ask box :) if I haven’t gotten to your ask yet, it’s just because I’ve been busy or I don’t have an idea for it yet- I’ll get to it! Just don’t be rude if it takes me awhile-

[def-not-kaz-brekker]

It’s not fucking fair that you’re expected to have friends to be happy it’s not fair that your fucking brain needs people to produce the happy chemical it’s not fair that people feel miserable because they’re lonely because they know they’re no one’s favorite person that in a group of people they’d get chosen last and that sometimes they try to convince themselves that it’s okay they’re not important after all all that matters is that their friends are happy that’s all that matters they exist for other people and therefore they have no boundaries they would do anything for their friends so they never tell someone when it’s too much because it feels selfish everything feels selfish their laugh when they say they don’t know even saying the word “I” in a sentence feels fucking awful so they bury themselves under coping mechanisms and relate to characters who also always feel distance from others and they slowly realize that they feel so distant because of trauma that singles them out and acknowledging this trauma makes them feel so fucking selfish because it’s so small compared to other people’s but it there and they never talk about it because it’s just fucking selfish so they read whump fanfictions of those characters and try to imagine themselves in the place of the character who then gets taken care of after getting so hurt but there are always the people that the character loves and that love that character there and they just feel a pang of jealousy because they never got close enough to a friend to cry to them when they’re in emotional pain never close enough to be held gently with reassuring whispers in their year and they just long to be loved they just want to be loved so much and they don’t know how they don’t know if they want it platonically or romantically from that person or from that other person they just need love so much and they cry silently at night in their room to not wake their parents and just try to imagine ranting about all this to the characters they love and then they cry more because those character would probably hate them if they knew that person in real life and everything just hurts so so much but not always usually when they’re alone at night and they just sit there and realize “wow there’s no one who knows me completely that loves me” and it just hurts but don’t worry they’re always fine that’s what they tell people anyways

[masked-creator]

I know this isn’t like my usual content but I just wanted to vent tonight so here ya go 👍🏼

[leosabi]

i hate that it’s possible to like…feel complete and utter terror, but be unable to express it. like, you can feel that you’re in imminent danger and your body just forces you to go about your day. what’s up with that. can’t you let me get it out of my head? why can’t i scream or cry?

[moony-ghoul]

psa if someone says “if you keep contacting me i will take legal action” don’t continue to contact them with threats

[trueloveandy]

me and my friend were having a good discussion about things. idk it was more me rambling and him listening because he was tired and he told me how my thing with Bedussey is probably more than a hyperfix and I was like yeaaaahhhh probably. like it has consumed every waking moment of mine for months … uhm. since may or smth. thinking about that rn like yeaaahhh… maybe ii gotta look into this more

[the-scintillatingsinner]

hey guys might take a break icky thoughts are coming back lmfaoaooaoa hahahahaa I’m going to rip myself organ from organ

[roseatedramon]

overreaction

[blurrycow]

the teenage depression that all the movies were talking about has finally hit and it is not poetic, I think about interacting with anyone face to face and want to cry, i have been holding back tears for the past four days, i am in an infinite loop of despair, I have been listening to therapy by all time low over and over again for an hour

[an-undercover-bi]

Being disabled in academia is awful.

[saul-goodboy]

heyyyyyy guess who just got out of a car accident!

[scorpioaqua]

i’m not tagging this bc it’s not 2013 and i don’t want to start ~discourse but i know my moots will feel me so

you have to severely misread gar’s character to think he antagonizes raven ON PURPOSE just for the hell of it.

you have to severely misread raven’s character to think that just because she doesn’t outwardly show emotion to someone on a daily basis, it means there is no emotion present.

and i’m not even talking about romance right now. like this is not even a shipping thing. there are people who are fully convinced that gar and raven hate each other, like are not even friends, because of their exaggerated dynamic in a children’s cartoon which is quite obviously played up for comedic effect.

[castielmacleod]

Any other neurodivergent people ever get that anxious feeling where you feel kind of weightless and exposed and like… Not Real. And it feels like the only thing that would help is if someone literally laid down their full weight directly on top of you. Or something. Does that make sense