#bulletpoint thoughts

[tabby-shieldmaiden]

I’ve decided that I would like to try and write Shonen with Women. Like that one popular tumblr post talking about it. There’s a handful of close-enough cases. But there’s not tons and tons such that you can have something for everyone. I would like to try and write something like that.

And I have decided on a list of things which I should try to engage with, so that I can get somewhere within the vicinity of ‘Shonen with Women’.

The first thing is, obviously, Shonen animanga. I want to try and engage with some of the ones which have like. Female leads. Notably big casts of women. At least 60/40 ratios. I’ve watched Soul Eater and JoJo part 6, and I may rewatch or reread them. I’ve watched Chainsaw Man, and I think I really should read it. I should look at some of the other big names too. I think I’ll get to TTGL and Demon Slayer both for social reasons (friends who like it and who I can talk to about), and because they are short in comparison to some shonen. But some of the longer stuff does interest me. In particular, I have an interest in Naruto, both because to some people, it does seem to symbolise some platonic ideal of ‘Shonen animanga’, and because it is notoriously known for poorly handling its female characters. I think it would be interesting to try and play around with it, therefore.

The second thing is just. Miscellaneous other works which fall under ‘boy-targeted action-adventure story with sff elements’. Which is what most people mean when they talk about capital S Shonen. Like, ‘shonen’ is a demographic, but capital S Shonen is a genre. Most of these works which aren’t animanga are Western works, in particular North American works. This is partially for social reasons, because I have friends who I can talk to about superhero cartoons and miscellaneous other ‘boy’ targeted media. But it is also because I think it will be interesting to compare and contrast and see in what ways things differ, and what ways they stay the same.

The third thing on my list are magical girl media. This is for interest reasons and social reasons. Also, it’ll be interesting to compare and contrast. The escapist heroism fantasy for boys vs the escapist heroism fantasy for girls. What ways are they the same? What ways are they different?

The fourth is like, fringe cases. Things people hold up as ‘Shonen with Women’ already which aren’t quite neatly magical girl. RWBY (which I have previously watched) and Worm (which I have not read) fall under here. But if there’s any more things which are like this, I will keep a lookout. RWBY wasn’t really for me, but I do want to rewatch it all at least once so that I can stew on it and what it does a little more. 

It’ll also be good for me to look at some other SFF works too, since so much of this sort of media has very obvious fantasy and science fiction elements to them. I still won’t read Lord of the Rings though, simply because too many people said that I had to read Lord of the Rings. I couldn’t even sit through the movies. My Mom was watching The Two Towers in cinemas and I think she had to leave midway because I decided it was time for me to be born*. If I ever had a natural disposition, it may just be disinterest in the goings-on of Middle Earth.

The sixth thing is like. I would like to know more about leftism. Economics, certainly, but also. Feminism and queer rights, postcolonialism, disability theory, and all sorts of other readings. This is for personal reasons, to become a better activist. But also, I feel like I will have to be prepared to think about what I see. I need tools to be able to look at the media and dissect it, and see what wasn’t working there, and how I can take things and put them in my own work and make them more informed. If I were to write Shonen with Women, I will have to put some work into it to really make it stand out. I think a part of that will be grappling with all the uncheck assumptions that tend to be put into this sort of escapist media, and seeing if we can escape to better places.

Especially since so many works in my chosen genre are written by white or Japanese men, and I do want to write more obviously Southeast Asian fiction (in the sense of writing informed by the region’s history and culture). I think I will read postcolonial writings and feminist writings and Southeast Asian history and mix it with thoughts on all these other stories. I’ll start small. Learn about my country first. Then the direct neighbours. Learn about the whole region. Then on to South Asia and China and other Pacific Islanders and any other peoples who have had shared histories with the region. And I will keep learning more and more and keep jumping down rabbit holes. This is for my own curiosity, to understand where I am, and how to move forward. And hopefully, because these things are on my mind, they will mix with my animanga and action cartoon thoughts, and it will blossom into something worth writing about.

And of course, I will need to go get more life experiences. Learn more things about the world. Engage with non-fiction. Do things which aren’t fiction related. This is also an important part of being a good writer period. It’s not all about media consumption. It’s learning facts about science and going out with family and friends and learning new things, and having all those experiences fuel my writing.

So yeah. I guess that’s it. My list of things I will try and engage with in order to try and write Shonen with Women. My current WIP isn’t quite it. My next WIP idea may be closer. I don’t have a third long-form one yet. But who knows. Maybe after engaging with all these things, I will find something that I can say, while also saying it by writing women battle each other in dramatic, magical and/or scifi-ish fights. 

*Either that, or it was before or after the movie. They were not very clear telling the story.

[pettyprocrastination]

whoever this beloved anon was I am so touched by your kindness! You definitely didn’t have to do this but I am so happy you enjoy this idea and I will happily expand upon it for you!

this is just a collection of word vomit bullet points for the time being but I will happily answer any and all questions about this pair!!

warnings: violence, angst, child death (Sarah Miller), foul language, the same warnings that apply to tlou, reader is Sarah's mom and described as having similar features to her. 

So the general Idea is that you and Joel are happily married before the outbreak. 

You had been Sarah's mother, his high school sweetheart he got pregnant when neither of you were old enough to have any reaction to the pregnancy test other than a fucking panic attack in one another’s arms. but you made it work 

you both worked but made time for one another and your sweet girl, going to museums every other weekend and joel insisting on swooping you off for a date every now and then 

nothing special. He knows you’re more of a diner gal than anything too fancy that makes you both feel out of place. 

On his birthday in 2003, you had planned to tell him that you were pregnant again. But the memories of your own fears of motherhood from all those years ago begin to swirl through your head again and you get cold feel. deciding to tell him the morning after

it is his birthday afterall, you want to focus on him. 

but when you’re woken up in the middle of the night because tommy needs to get bailed out, Joel kisses you sweetly one last time before promising he’ll be back and you can’t shake the feeling that something bad is happening. 

its you that shakes sarah awake that night. shouting at her to put on her shoes when she’s still rubbing the sleep from her eyes because you’ve been listening to the radio for the past two hours, calling joel again and again and again praying for him to fucking pick up but to no avail. 

Sarah, bless your little girl’s bleeding heart is the one who insists you check on the adler’s against your better suspicions and when you find the eldest looming over her daughter, blood and sinew dripping from her mouth, you grab your daughter hand and burst into a full sprint until something slams into your back and sends you tumbling onto their front lawn

its how joel finds you, struggling to keep the once sweet old woman, whose now nothing more than dead eyes and gnashing teeth straining to snap at your pulse point as you push against her while sarah shrieks before your husband runs forward and cracks her skull with a wrench. 

there’s hardly a moment of pause, just enough for him to pull you up and into his arms before he’s ushering you both into the car with an urgency. 

when the truck crashes, you get separated from them. Perhaps at Tommy’s side when the flames rise and create a wall, separating you from your husband, or maybe pulled into the mob of chaos when trying to escape from those already infected-

all joel knows is that you promise you’ll find him: just get sarah to safety and you’ll meet him at the river

Poor thing is already so frightened, held in her father’s arms with tears streaming down her face insisting they can’t leave you they just can’t but her father kisses her forehead and reassures her its going to be okay 

“we just need to be brave, okay babygirl? Your mama’s real tough, she’s gonna be alright.” 

he isn’t sure if he’s saying it to his daughter or himself. 

but when he comes to the river you aren’t there. Only a soldier who points a gun at the scared little girl in his arms and then he loses everything

its when the light is gone from his daughter’s eyes that he realizes. His voice cracked and raw from sobbing that he looks around to see his brother with drawn in shoulders and tears in his eyes but his wife is nowhere to be found. 

Tommy says you got lost in the chaos. Everything was so loud, so sudden that he turned around and suddenly you weren’t there. 

Joel wants to go back but its Tommy that stops him, that dulls the red in his vision to a sad faded pink because his brother points at the orange horizon not too far from them, so much of the city is already in flames. 

“We’re gonna find her, but not there.” 

So Joel searches. for the first year spent in the world post-outbreak its all he did. 

He became a smuggler because of it. 

Information came at a price and he needed to be able to fucking pay it, whether it be in blood or ration cards. He was willing to do anything to find you or any thin thread that lead your way. 

But it’s Tommy that asks him to give up. Not in those words of course. 

The youngest Miller knows better than to say something so cruel that would make his brother, the only person he has in this world turn on him. 

But his voice is worried when he asks him one night in Boston when he hasn’t even had the chance to wash the blood from his knuckles 

“You think she would have wanted this for you?” 

the fight that followed his words was brutal. Vicious insults and scarred fists slamming against each brother until they're both too tired and bloody to continue. Each leaning against a wall for support and Tommy’s wavering voice breaking the silence. 

“I don’t know where she is, Joel. But I do know you're gonna get yourself killed if you keep lookin’ for her.” 

All he can do is nod. 

It’s a few days later when he meets Tess. Who has heard plenty of stories about the elder miller’s brutality and wants him to put that muscle to good use for some extra profit. 

It begins his new life. One that empty and cold but one he can live. 

Until of course, Ellie comes along. The sweet and incredibly opinionated girl that makes him become something akin to the man he thought died twenty years ago. 

its when he’s traveling with Ellie, that it happens. When a warm familiarity has settled between the two because so much blood and pain has been shared he can’t help but see her as something close, something bright even though all he can force himself to utter in her reference is “cargo” 

when theyre traveling through the woods as Ellie chatters away, probing his memory about a movie that may or may not have existed thirty years ago because her descriptions of the plot are incredibly odd he hears a voice shout for them to stop and finds himself staring at a man- no, a boy- pointing a gun at them. 

Ellie stills, but Joel can see enough to know that from the lanky figure and dimpled face that he’s young. Maybe twenty, twenty-two at the oldest, but his eyes dart from Joel to Ellie with a pinprick of fear that allows Joel the time to charge forward and slam him to the ground before wrestling the gun from his hands. 

He has enough to time to tuck it under the stranger’s chin before he hears the sound of the safety being turned off and finds himself looking up and seeing a gun just inches from his face. 

Joel’s head whips around when Ellie’s voice calls out his name in fear, he turns to see another stranger holding her a gun point, shoulders drawn back and a shadow cast over their face by the had obstructing their identity. 

“You hurt one of mine, I hurt one of yours. That a fair deal?” 

Its takes him a moment to recognize you. It’s been so long since he’s heard your voice, the sweet tease when you would poke at him each time he woke up late despite the fact that you reminded him to set his alarm the night before, the times you’d chide him with a harsh “Joel Miller!” whispered in public anytime he was able to grab you a bit too passionately to be appropriate in public but the laughter in your voice let him know you were never truly mad at him. You didn’t know how to be. 

But that sweetness is buried under a cold rasp that cuts through the air as you point a rifle at the scared little girl in front of you.

“You think I won’t?” You’re older now, skin covered in scars from a life he didn’t know you got the chance to live and your eyes are cold as they regard your husband. “Put the gun down and get the fuck off of him, I won’t repeat myself.” 

Joel mumbles your name in awe. The woman he loved, the woman he mourned the one he fought so hard to find stands before him like some sort of hallucination and suddenly the world feels like its spinning until you bark orders at him again. 

“You’ve got five seconds Joel, make a fucking choice before I make it for you.” 

He looks down and realizes the boy under him, the one with the bleeding nose and snarling face has your eyes and his dimples. 

“One.” 

The one above him has Sarah’s hair. Soft brown curls that shine under the sun. 

“Two”

Wait. No, they both do.

“Three.” 

Twins. Jesus fucking Christ you had twins. 

“Four.” 

Joel holds the rifle up above his head and the one boy standing snatches it from his grasp, tossing it to the ground and kicking it far from his reach. He slowly stands, allowing your son- dear god your son- to scramble to his feet. 

Your voice softens just for a moment. “You okay, Duke?” 

Blood stains the bottom half of his face from where Joel slammed his fist into the boy’s nose just moments before, but he nods nonetheless. 

Now, they both stand on one side of you and he can see the resemblance clear as day the same way he would whenever Sarah was by your side.

When you order him to hand over his bag, he does so without question before telling Ellie to do the same. 

She watches him with wide eyes, her hands still up in the air but gaping at her companion as if he had grown a second head. 

“Joel!” “Just do it, alright?”

He doesn’t miss the way you watch their interaction with narrowed eyes until she tosses her bag to you and you slowly lower your gun. 

“Now, you want to tell me what the fuck you think you’re doin’ at my home?” 

[unhetalia]

England headcanons (pt. 1):

Chain-smokes like a motherfucker. Alfred, who doesn't smoke and pretends very hard to think smoking is disgusting, hasn't yet realised where his secret smoking kink comes from.

Currently works for British Intelligence/has infiltrated his own government.

Carries around either a cane or umbrella that hides a sword even though he has never ONCE had to use it. He just feels more comfortable having a sword. (He does also carry around a gun, which, in contrast, has been used often.)

Also carries around his own pen, and absolutely loathes the thought of using someone else's. The pen is a first edition Michel Perchin Serpent in Champagne LE Fountain Pen given to him by Alfred - only ten were ever made and it cost a cool 8k. While Arthur has more valuable things - especially from his time as a pirate and back when he personally knew his royal family - the pen is still one of his most prized possessions.

His favourite tea is actually French Earl Grey - which is Earl Grey with rose petals. Not actually French? But Arthur's still pretty annoyed about it.

As mentioned in a few of my other posts - Arthur is incredibly physical and has kept up with sword fighting and various martial arts over the years, and regularly goes to the gym. He's very disciplined about it.

Tends to eat only for fuel as opposed to enjoyment whenever he's left to his own devices.

If pressed, Arthur will admit his best friend is Francis. Francis would say the same about Arthur.

(Despite their individual body counts, Francis and Arthur have never slept with each other.)

(Arthur doesn't have a lot of friends and has a strained relationship with his siblings, and has always felt that people don't like spending time with him. Even when he was on top of the world, working with his government to become an Empire, he still felt like an underdog.)

On that note, Arthur worked with his government longer than the other Nations, and was a huge part of establishing the British Empire. It made his already fraught relationship with his siblings even worse, and he regrets a lot of it.

Nations get scars very rarely, because very few things have the ability to give them scars - magical weapons is one of those things. Out of all the Nations, England has the most scars.

England is amazing at knitting and crochet, and he gifts Francis crocheted figurines from French cartoons for his birthday every year, which Francis adores. He also knits Canada scarves and gloves and beanies whenever he remembers him.

One of Arthur's most embarrassing memories is getting gonorrhea during his pirate days. He didn't have sex for a month after his healing kicked in - a record back then - and he became a lot more diligent in procuring and using the linen sheaths they used as condoms at the time.

Three of Arthur's back molars are implants made of real gold.

Alfred is the first (and last) person Arthur will say he's ever fallen in love with BUT the closest he's come is with another American - a nurse that took care of him during World War I. She was blonde and blue eyed and once shouted Arthur down when he insisted on continuing to fight even with a bullet lodged in his shoulder. She completely disappeared in April 1917, just before the Americans officially joined the war. He sometimes wonders what happened to her.

[skeletalheartattack]

Im soooooo hungry i neeed.... gaming trivia. tO live 😺

i mostly just have TF2 trivia, as its history has always been something ive always been fascinated with, so i hope these suffice:

The Pyro's Beta Head: While 8 of the 9 classes had their heads redone throughout development (to better show off Valve's new facial flex system), only the Pyro was left untouched, leaving them as the only class to still have their beta head.

Reference Posing Medics: In "Trailer 2", there are two Medics who are in their reference pose, during the first-person sequence of the Scout running through RED's base. While their role isn't clear, one likely theory is that they were meant to be camera positions for shots that were ultimately removed, in favour of the Scouts perspective, and Valve just forgot to remove or hide them. The second Medic even turns to look at the Scout as he runs by, maybe further proving their original purpose.

The Teaser Corkboard: While we don't have a clear idea as to what Valve had been planning with the "Teaser Corkboard", one likely theory is that it was created for the proposed update that would've included both Asteroid and Cactus Canyon, due to the few mentions of "Future", the blueprint of the rocket engine from Half Life 2 Episode 2, and Poopy Joe. Also worth noting, the two posters that were added with the corkboard share similar styles Asteroid and Cactus Canyon.

The Balls of Steel Taunt: Originally, The Love & War update was meant to include a lot more taunts than what ultimately shipped. One of the few to get scrapped is a taunt called "Balls of Steel", where the initiator would dare other players to kick them in the groin. While we don't have footage of this taunt, we do have voiceline files that reference the taunt's intention, as well as the name. The few files that remain were reused for other contexts, such as the Soldiers Conga taunt, where his "Ooh!" and "Ahh!" lines were originally his pain sounds for the taunt.

[revasserium]

in 2023, i wrote and posted 76 things to this blog and... i think that's something to be proud of :)

[kindahoping4forever]

👀

Ok, so a few things 😂

Merch store is down, which it typically wouldn't be for a tour announcement (especially since they now have a specific tour merch site) so it could be more than just tour. (Live album finally, perhaps?)

Ashton's tweet yesterday implied more festivals, not necessarily just more shows.

Last year there was a lot of talk about them spending 2023 not only playing the festival circuit but hitting up countries they hadn't in years (if at all) and there was very aggressive chatter particularly about Latin American shows earlier this year.

So all that in mind, my guess would be a tour similar to the "2017 Summer Tour" where it's a combo of international festivals and one-off shows in countries they don't often visit.

But also historically this band and their team don't always go with the decisions that make the most sense so really who knows lmao

[quatregats]

Having a real autism moment over the idea of doing fieldwork

[theinnermeyoullneverknow]

I fucking hate "wealth management" companies.

[courfee]

my way of world building is to write an entire prequel story

[yeonban]

When you're conflicted on how to feel about your beloved's supportive opinions...

[tabby-shieldmaiden]

Series of somewhat related thoughts that are on my mind but I can’t seem to synchronise into one thing, so here they all are in bullet point form.

I’d recently watched this documentary about how Lego developed their Journey to the West themed IP as a way of breaking into the China market. And it’s like, interesting. But I guess I don’t feel super jazzed about the whole thing even if I enjoyed the cartoon that was made, because both Legos and Journey to the West have always just been around since I was a kid, and I do know that this is all effectively a way for a company to make more money, at the end of the day.

Some stuff from the documentary stood out for me though. Like, mostly because this was all very framed as Westerners trying to ‘understand’ Chinese people and Chinese culture. It’s pretty clear who the assumed audience of the documentary series is. And I kind of want to see how a Chinese team would make such a documentary.

There was also the fact that the Chinese executives were very much framed as like upholding ‘the standard’ for Chinese cultural products. Which does raise some questions in my mind. Namely, how do we define who is Chinese, and who gets to be the ‘gatekeepers’ of Chinese culture? It’s a group which encompasses over a billion people. Which standards and ideological wells are these executives drawing from?

In particular there was talk about how they wanted to portray Mei. She was included to balance out the (still very male-dominated) gender ratios, and to ‘modernise’ the story in that regard. And she did get some notes about irreverence/impoliteness and how that may be jarring to Chinese audiences. Which is like. Hm. So this is something I think about a lot. Something something Singaporean Chinese autistic woman with an interest in feminist thought and action, as well as writing female characters.

Kind of want to take a look at how other Lego properties write their female leads, the ones aimed at a ‘western’ audience. See what the differences are. (Mei seems a bit more respectful of her ancestry than average, is my current impression.)

There was also a comment about how initially Sandy (the Sha Seng stand-in) came off as a little ‘feminine’ at first. That was a note that the executives wished to change as an attempt to appeal to Chinese children (boys really; their test audiences were all boys). Which is like, interesting. Coming from someone who is familiar with what the local queer community does, I know for a fact that Journey to the West themed drag is very much a thing. (Granted, they tend to riff more on like, Tripataka/Tang Seng, and Sha Seng is deemed as more ‘masculine’ these days, but still...!)

The thought of picking up drag or crossdressing is coming up to me again. Should I do Sha Seng themed drag if I ever do?

It was interesting watching mostly white writers trying to ‘portray’ Chinese culture. Doing all this research. Going to China and getting their scripts reviewed over and over again by Chinese executives. In the sense that when I watched the cartoon with my retired Primary School Mandarin teacher godmother, she did say that the cartoon ultimately still felt very USAmerican. (And I was with her on that lol, it still very much felt like it was drawing on the trends and traditions of that genre of work more often than not.)

I also recently read this article about cultural authenticity by Vietnamese-American Som-Mai Ngyuen. And some points that were made in the article being fresh on my mind + the documentary talking about trying to authentically represent China is well... making me feel a certain way I can’t really put to words.

Incidentally I’m reading a book about Chinese factory workers published in the 2000s. China’s moving away from that now, and the race to the bottom means that a lot of Western companies are looking for work in different countries. Like Bangladesh and yes, Vietnam.

Lego has at least one Vietnamese factory coming up. It’s apparently carbon neutral and costs a billion dollars. They’re using biodegradable sugar cane plastic now. Who’s farming the sugar cane?

It’s a good cartoon and I had fun with it. I watched the Mandarin dub. Should I watch the English dub? I kind of want to. Maybe some day my Mandarin will be proficient enough such that I could compare and contrast and see how the experience differs.

It’s very emblematic of a lot of things still. A lot of things.

I should read like Beowulf or something and try to see if I could write something weird with it.

I dunno man. These are all just brain noises, and I guess I am only one perspective on these things. I hope someone gleaned something interesting from my thoughts though.

[unhetalia]

America headcanons (pt. 1):

America's super strength was a gift from his mother before she left. Her one last desperate attempt to protect her youngest child.

America needs to eat A LOT in order to maintain his strength. This wasn't the case when he was younger, but either the spell was only self sustaining until he reached adulthood or ... something else, America doesn't know. Doesn't really want to know. (When he doesn't eat enough, he gets incredibly hypoglycaemic.)

He had vegetarian phase after watching a documentary on the meat industry. Unfortunately, aforementioned strength and its dietary requirements meant he wasn't able to maintain it. Secretly, he was relieved he had a good reason to start eating meat again.

Has a genius IQ, and is endlessly curious. Sometimes he'll disappear for a while because he's getting a degree in whatever thing has interested him. If asked, he'll say his true loves are mechanical and aerospace engineering, as unlike some of the more theoretical sciences, he gets a tangible end result.

Currently works as a physicist at NASA.

Really out of touch with himself, especially in regards to his own sexuality. None of this is because of puritans, like most people would think - he has just run himself ragged so much since he gained independence that he's never once sat and thought about a lot things that isn't the next project or hanging out with his friends.

If he did ever think about it, Alfred would label himself as demisexual. Also, he would figure out he was gay as opposed to bi - something he currently believes because that tends to be the norm for their kind.

His circle of close friends include Japan, South Korea, Taiwan, Philippines (female), and India (female). It's a friendship built from a mix of loving food, science, tech and buying knick knacks, and they love going to each others' countries and trying both fancy restaurants and cheap eats, or showing off ridiculous op shop purchases they've made or the latest games they've discovered/books they've read. It's genuinely a really wholesome group. (Note: I think I veered away from the canon of America not having any friends besides Mattie and England because I genuinely think America is fun? He has interests that are really solid bases for conversations and hang outs and while he's loud he also doesn't get mad or offended easily. He has a positive energy and is the right kind of weird to find other weird friends.)

America tends to be emotionally closed off even with his close friends, and only feels comfortable being vulnerable with Tony. He considers Tony his closest friend, and secretly fears Tony will one day leave Earth and go somewhere else.

Alfred can build a car, but can't drive one. He once tried to borrow Arthur's car to learn - it didn't work out, since Arthur was too furious with him for lugging it around to even hear him out.

Alfred is actually amazing at cooking, but barely any of the Europeans - or China - acknowledge it on the basis of him "butchering" their foods, aka changing even the most minor thing. Younger countries like Australia and New Zealand who aren't as ... strict about authenticity, tend to really enjoy his cooking. (And England, who falls a little bit more in love when America bakes him a steak pie.)

He has diagnosed seasonal affective disorder, which plays into him always gaining weight during winter. He has special blankets he only uses for when he's feeling sad, and his homes are filled with heat lamps.

[hiruzensux]

Hiruzen x Enma size difference issue (bc i'm horny and have no self control)

(under a cut bc vague to semi-graphic descriptions of sex (and related injury at the end there))

Just thinking abt these two and how they can fuck without Hiruzen dying / suffering permanent injury, because I think they're up against some anatomical challenges.

(Apparently i couldn't decide whether this was supposed to be a logistical analysis, a joke, or just horny.txt, so... apologies for the tone fluctuations throughout)

It’s safe enough if it's Hiruzen in the penetrative role + Enma receiving, but i don’t know if that’s going to be quite enough for Enma? i think Hiruzen is reasonably well-endowed in relation to the rest of his body, but he’s a pretty small guy, and Enma is... Large™️. I’m not usually especially into fisting but that might be the only thing for it here

re: Hiruzen's ass: Enma’s fingers look like a pretty satisfying size but i’ve seen his nails and i have Concerns lmao

But there’s plenty of other stuff they can do besides penetration...

There’s always handjobs; Hiruzen using both hands, Enma using... idk a few fingers?

Oral is an option, but i’m honestly not sure Hiruzen could get his mouth around it; mostly just a lot of licking while, again, his hands do most of the work

Frotting is size-difference-friendly. I’m sure intercrural is a big hit with them too (Hiruzen seems like he's got fuckable thighs)

You know, I bet they could actually do both at once; Enma can be behind him and Hiruzen squeezing him between his thighs and if they angle it right, Enma's dick is big enough to slide through with enough length leftover to rub against Hiruzen's with each thrust (and can you imagine how that must look from Hiruzen's POV? or fuck, EITHER POV — Enma can just lean forward and see everything over Hiruzen's shoulder, bc he's fucking huge)

...Honestly though, i don’t think Hiruzen would be able to resist the challenge; that enormous cock haunts his dreams and calls to him in a language his ass can’t ignore

Hiruzen on top just dripping with lube, hovering over that towering erection (freshly doused in its own bottle’s worth) trying to spread himself open as much as he can

Enma’s like “You don’t have to do this...” but in his mind's eye Hiruzen sees Kagami's face and he's just like “Yes. I do.” and just sits on it

it takes a minute or so of sitting on it; shifting around, trying to get that huge head into that tiny hole before it finally goes in and oh fuck that tearing feeling can’t mean anything good but it’s just so tight and full and it’s really too late to turn back now—

neither of them last even 10 thrusts before they both cum

...and hopefully it was worth it bc now Hiruzen gets to decide whether he's going to Danzō, Biwako, Tobirama, or just to the general hospital to explain, crying, that he needs emergency suturing INSIDE his ass bc he was having inappropriate relations with his summon and was actually horny and stupid enough to try to take his massive monkey cock

[mishkakagehishka]

I have like.... 3 different things I want to send you asks for but I just don't have time because... long... (as a hint I have been thinking sooooo much about eye horror and Yan Mika since you mentioned it. That's just one of them though)

I need some vacation days so I can let lose and get some time and energy to think more about these things... So many thought that I have to beat with a broom because uni...

Thr... three... and eye horror.👀 pun-intended emoji

Definitely don't overwork yourself, though </3 uni is tough, for you i'm certainly a lot more than it is for me rn dhsbdndn so dw ab taking your time♡ i'll be waiting patienly :>

[crushcandles]

I had a ratball couple of days at work that dried up all my TV energy. Good to be back for the weekend, dumping thoughts about Stranger Things S4.

S4E4: Poor Max, always getting the rough treatment. First, a stepbrother. Then Indiana. Then her stepbrother dies and now this shit? Erica 💛 - u deserve that Nintendo with Duck Hunt. Steve’s bitchy leg cross when he sits down 😍. Okay, after a further 30 seconds of exposure, I very much ship Nancy and Robin. Them in Nancy’s room was fantastic. Oh my god, the way Mike and Will are small mouth pleased about saving themselves and everyone else, so cute. This is a great episode for them. And their plan leading to more Argyle makes me very happy. Robin’s speech was totally bonkers but worth it for the low-five (I thought they were going to hold hands??? I am BOARDING this ship). But not loving the Silence of the Lambs business, no thanks.

I’m not currently that interested in the Russia/Hopper storyline, but him getting emotional over tasting peanut butter was touching. Won’t lie, I tuned out a lot of Victor’s story - it was just a B-minus horror movie. Omg biographical details about Billy. Omg Billy. Omg Max and Billy (a relationship sorely underdeveloped). And of course, nightmare Billy, my beloved. Ah, the song everyone’s been talking about. Max (and Lucas) 💗.

[husbandhannie]

wip tag game

tagged by: @bitchlessdino @dinosbestie @junhui-recs @wooahaes @gfcheol @bfwonu game: post the names of all the files in your wip folder regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it! and then tag as many people as you have wips.

i've been tagged in the wip game by multiple people so now i have to unleash my wip (no matter how half-baked) titles on the world, something i try not to do since more often than not i don't finish any of them.

tagging (only if you want to, guys): @neonun-au @starlightjoong @rasparagus @97-liners @chogiwapadada @librarian-stacks and anyone else who wants to - feel free to say i tagged you!

note: titles with * next to them are just bulletpoint ideas with no proper writing. yes, i know i can't give snippets of these....but i thought they deserve to be here.

sfw wips:

mads surprises me with jeonghan: an almost nonsensical fic where i celebrate my birthday with a handful of my mutuals and svt members, and my mutuals just talk to svt members while i try not to make a fool of myself in front of surprise guest jeonghan

au where choi seungcheol teaches you how to ride a bike *: just a cute scene-by-scene where choi seungcheol teaches you how to ride a bike

chan historical au *: for sol hehe. can't give away much more.

joshua historical au *: where a dashing racecar driver helps you out when your corset is too tight. it's not as scandalous as it sounds, i promise.

joshua + getting over *: where you move to a new city after a break up and joshua hong becomes the rock and friend you didn't think you needed. it's almost two years later when you realize you might be ready for another shot at love, and it's with none other than mr. gentleman himself.

vernon + medical appointments *: where vernon accompanies you to an eye test and vaccination appointment, and you can't help but wonder how he has no idea how much you like him.

nsfw wips under the cut:

jeonghan making out: after years of lingering looks and unaddressed chemistry, you and jeonghan make out on your couch.

jun flower shop au: your boyfriend surprises you at your flower shop one night with a costume you said you liked.

scoups exes-to-lovers *: an nsfw extension of my scoups exes-to-lovers fics on the sfw blog.