I'm evil.
This is a diary entry I wanted to share so yeah, might be a long read!
Dear Diary, I realized lately that I'm not a good person. Call it a "Joker Moment" all you want, but let me explain!
So I've always been an outcast, you already know the stories [previous diary entries that are private] so I don't need to repeat them, and that means that society never liked/agreed with me or my existence. Also, I'll tell you about those some other day, but my past attempts at priorizing my own happiness hurt people.
So when you think about it, I'm evil, aren't I? I have all this darkness inside me, maybe not the kind of darkness that makes a villain that wants to take over the world, but the kind of darkness that leads me to not care about anyone but me!
Ok side tangent that actually is relevant: I used to have phantom limbs about wings. Back when my fursona was an angel, I used to feel tiny little pure white feather wings on my shoulder blades!
A while back, I couldn't feel them anymore, and that's when I knew I needed to change my sona. I changed her after a while to fit more how I felt inside, at least until recently.
I started feeling new wings. I know they are not the same because the old ones felt pure and physical, and these ones feel dark, glitchy and ethereal? I don't know if it makes sense in words, but Vi understands what I mean.
So anyways, yeah. I realized that... Being a pure beautiful angel that puts everyone before her had put a seed of darkness deep within me, and I nested this seed for years now.
Me, Alice, Bunny and her sister, we just been going through a lot in Alice's life, and we have come a point where the light doesn't bring any joy anymore, the darkness inside us is too big.
We are happy this way! I'm glad we're slowly discovering who we truly are, that's the whole point of my existence here. We're evil, a creature of pure darkness that this world hates and villainize, and we do not care!
Yeah, sorry, weird entry I know, I gotta go to class now! I'll talk to you when I get home later Dear Diary!
-Yuki
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I genuinely need help you guys how do I stop binging I’m so fucking obese I can’t stop snacking I hate myself I hate myself I hate my fucking self please give me some tips I beg
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[shaking like a dog] i need to make things. i need to make things. i need to m
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Sometimes I remember that I'll never have grown up. I'm in my 20s, but never really was a child nor a teen. I put on so many masks my entire life I just ended up never being anyone. I end up being a teenager in an adult's body, or even a child in an adult body somedays, and it scares me.
I'll never be able to find "my people" in highschool again, I'll never be able to find out who I am as a person in a safe environment, go through "phases". I was just a husk of a person for over 17 years, barely even alive putting on a "happy normal child" mask around my family, trying to be a ghost in school to avoid getting attacked and putting on a "I do have a defined personality" mask around the people that said to be my friends but ditched me as soon as it was convenient.
I have never been anyone, never had real friends, and now I live in the middle of nowhere, nobody to hang with and just be "me" with, whoever "me" is.
An eternal "middle"
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Prompt 14
Jaskier is sure Geralt ignores most of what he says.
That is, until Geralt leaves his journal behind when he goes to hunt one day. Jaskier trips on it and goes to put it in his pack, light-heartedly muttering to Roach about how much of a slob that man is, before seeing his name plastered all over the page.
He takes a deep breath and prepares himself to read a page filled with nothing but insults and a rant of how annoying Jaskier must be, only to find out the journal is filled with paragraph after paragraph of loving descriptions and insights into everything Jaskier speaks or sings about, including the occasional highly-detailed sketch of him, made with love.
Jaskier reads page after page after page after page after page, and only stops when interrupted by Geralt's shocked intake of breath as he comes back to camp.
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Pre-Prompt fic that ticks some of the boxes was found by @merthurmagic!
It focuses on the drawing part, but it's very sweet! It involves getting together, and the kaer morhen boys! I'm not a personal fan of the way dialogue is written, with angle brackets instead of quotation marks, but it's still a good read!
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