#busy due to college but pretty much active here

[azlrse]

– basically idia's married life with mc

[citruscrisp]

Pikmin Age Headcanons Pt. 1

Kinda been wanting to share what I think each Pikmin character went through to get to where they are in the present! My only request is you don't hate on me for these. Just respect them or give me insight on things I might have missed.

🛠️Alph - Age 22 Grew up watching his grandfather Drake work on aerospace projects since he learned to walk. He goes through school, graduates high school at 18, attends KoTech (Koppai School of Technology) for 4 years and graduates at 22 with his Bachelors in Aerospace Engineering. Straight out of college, he is selected to join Charlie and Brittany on their Pikmin 3 journey to collect fruit and save their planet.

🪴Brittany - Age 24 Graduated High school at 18. Studied at KoTech, majoring in botany in the Life Sciences Academy of the school. Started off in small businesses that ranged from plant-based medicinal studies to help Koppai’s food crisis until being selected to embark on her journey with Alph and Charlie at the age of 24.

🦆Charlie - Age 28 Graduated High School at 18. Studied at Kotech and was part of the Ranger program. He became a space ranger at 22 and goes on ranger missions for years assisting in treasure collection to support his family financially until being selected to go on the Pikmin 3 journey with Alph and Brittany at age 28.

🔵Louie - Age 25-26 Graduated Highschool at 18. For a a year, he didn't do much with his life and often explored the area's around his grandmother's house, such as the mountains behind her house. He didn't go to college and didn't have an idea of what he wanted to do so his family forced him to start getting minimum wage jobs that constantly fired him due to his laziness and obsession with food breaks for years. He finally winds up in Hocotate Freight at the age of 25. Accepting him despite not having a college degree due to the business being pretty unprofessional.

🔴Olimar - Age 35-36 Graduated high school at 18. Studied Biology, got a BA at 22, but didn’t want to take it further. He falls in love in college and marries when he is 25, they have their first son when he's about 26. This makes his son about 9-10 years old. Then they have a daughter when he's about 30. This makes her around 6-7 years old. He ended up at Hocotate Freight, mainly excited to travel space. Hestarted here after a few minimume wage jobs out of college and started at 27. He has been working there for 9 years.

⚫President - Age 40-41 Graduated high school at 18, was very active in business and studied it, getting a masters in business at the age of 24. He became active in climbing the corporate latter at Hocotate Freight, but was also very gullible. He finally becomes president at the age of 35, being president of Hocotate Freight for 5-6 years, replacing Olimar's previous boss.

⚠️PIKMIN 4 SPOILERS BELOW⚠️

📡Yorke - Age 28-29 Graduated high school at 18. Studied at Kotech for 4 years and graduated at 22 with a bachelor's in Aerospace engineering. Went on treasure missions for years to send his family money. Currently continuing to do so.

This is prone to be edited frequently but this is just what I got for now!

[vodika-vibes]

Can I asks for a smutty piece with the prompt “you’re so fucking hot?” Your pick of which clone pls ❤️🙏

The Personal Assistant

Summary: You have a day off, sort of, and decide to spend the day with the love of your life, Commander Fox.

Pairing: Commander Fox x F!Reader

Word Count: 1775

Warnings: Smut, but it's pretty vanilla

Tagging: @trixie2023 @n0vqni

A/N: Did I just come up with a brand new AU to make Fox's life easier? Yes, yes I did. Is this also horribly self indulgent, also yes. I love Fox so much, lol

When you were hired as the Personal Assistant of the Supreme Chancellor of the Republic, you rather expected that the career had a time limit. On account of the fact that the Chancellor, himself, is supposed to have a term limit.

But here you are, Personal Assistant to a man who’s been leading the Republic for going on thirteen years now. 

For all that you’re pretty sure that your boss is a dictator in all but name at this point, your job does have some perks. You’re allowed to yell at Senators, you have a pretty swanky apartment in one of the richer districts of Coruscant, and you’re paid very, very well.

In return, you sort of just…look the other way when it comes to some things. 

Like the whole throwing lightning thing. Or the lightsaber thing.

You’re fairly sure your boss isn’t a Jedi, he’s kind of…angry, for that. But you’ve done your research and it’s not illegal to be a Sith. Actually, you’re fairly certain he’s allowed to be a Sith due to religious protections.

But then, you’re not a lawyer. You’re a college drop-out who somehow landed the career of a lifetime…working for the human embodiment of pure evil.

But, like, who hasn’t?

At least you’ve been able to extend some protection over the Guard. It hadn’t even been hard. Early on, when you started noticing signs of abuse towards the Guard, you just sighed and mumbled something about the Chancellor being far too busy and far too important to do things like give orders to the Guard personally, so he should just work through you.

And he agreed.

In fact, you’re pretty sure that the Chancellor doesn’t even remember the guard exists. And if you pulled a few strings and had Natborn guards working more to protect the Senators, while delegating the Guard to a more active police force, well…you work with the authority of the Chancellor, who’s going to question you? Certainly not the Senators. And definitely not the Guard.

Today, though, you’re not really working. Oh, sure, there are a few things you need to do. Some organization of the Chancellor’s office, a few maintenance requests that you need to make sure are handled.

But Palpatine, himself, is not on Coruscant. It’s election day on Naboo, the day when a new Queen is chosen, and as a Nubian citizen, Palpatine is expected to be there. He’s traveling with Senator Amidala and her Decoys, as well as a few guards from Naboo, but as you’re a Coruscanti citizen yourself, you’re not allowed to join the celebration.

Which you’re thrilled for. It means that you can make yourself home in Commander Fox’s office while he does paperwork. Or…you know, whatever it is that police officers do when they’re not doing police work.

Right now you’re lounging on a couch that you acquired for Fox years ago, you have your favorite music playing on your datapad, as you fill out work orders for the various things in the Chancellor’s office.

The fact that you’re not technically working means that you’re dressed down. Shorts and a tank top, with flip-flops that have already fallen off your feet from how you’re laying.

You hear a deep sigh, and you tilt your head back to regard the man who’s staring at you. “Can you not do that literally anywhere else?” He asks.

“I could go sit on Thorn’s desk,” You reply easily.

“Thorn’s not here,” Fox replies, “He’s out on patrol.”

“Aww.”

“Because I know you,” He continues with a pointed look, “And I know you like tormenting me by flirting with my brother.”

“I have never flirted with Thorn,” You say with a laugh, as you swing your legs off the arm of the couch, so you’re able to sit up and get to your feet.

“You don’t have to,” Fox grumbles, “He flirts with you and that’s bad enough.”

“Aww,” You cross the room and hop up to sit on his desk, and you grin when his gaze drops to your bare legs, “Are you jealous?”

“You’d like that, wouldn’t you?” Fox replies as he trails the end of his pen up your leg from your knee to your inner thigh, a small smirk crosses his face when you shiver, “Do I have reason to be jealous, ner kar’ta?”

Your smile is soft and warm, “Not in the slightest.”

Fox considers you for a moment, and then drops his pen on the desk, and he smoothly pulls you onto his lap. You giggle and drape your arms around his neck, “You’re still wearing your armor, Commander. I’m going to get bruises.”

“You say that like you don’t love the bruises I give you,” Fox teases as he drags his hand up your spine to rest lightly at the back of your neck. “Or that I’m not well aware of how much you like my armor.”

You flush, “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“Of course you don’t,” He draws you into a loving kiss, and you sigh against his lips. “You’re totally innocent.”

“Exactly so,” You reply softly as you rain feather light kisses across his face. He relaxes under your gentle touch, and you smile down at him. Stars, you love him so much. “Fox, I need to tell you-”

You’re cut off when his lips catch yours, “Is it important?” Fox asks against your lips.

“Yes,” You reply, a soft whine slipping from you as he nips your lower lip.

“Can it wait?” He adds as his lips move to your neck and he leaves a red mark on the side of your neck. “Just a little bit?” Fox looks up at you, desire clear on his face, and he tugs on the hem of your shirt, “Take this off, cyare.”

The important thing you need to tell him flies out of your mind, and you shift slightly, “The door’s unlocked, anyone could walk in-”

“Then you’d better be quiet.” Fox replies with a sly smile.

You meet his gaze evenly, and then, slowly, you peel your tank top off and set it on the desk behind you.

Fox’s gaze drifts from your face to your breasts, and he releases a sigh of pleasure. “No bra today, ner kar’ta?”

“They’re stifling.” You reply, a moan slipping from you as his hands slide up your body to lightly slide his thumbs over your nipples. 

“So you’ve mentioned,” Fox says quietly as he leans in and takes one nipple into his mouth, “Stars, cyare, you’re so fucking hot…”

A long sigh of pleasure falls from you as he lavishes your breasts with his lips and tongue, and you bring your hands up to fist in his hair, “You have such a talented mouth,” You moan out. 

You feel him laugh against you. And then a startled squeak falls from you as he bites down to leave a mark on you. You feel Fox’s hands at your waist and you squirm, “Lift your hips, cyare.” He mumbles, “Need to get these out of the way.”

Somehow, you’re not exactly sure how, he manages to get your shorts and panties off without needing you to get off his lap. You don’t think about it too hard, after all, his lips are still leaving marks on your chest and breasts, and his talented fingers are sliding between your folds, searching for the nub that brings you so much pleasure. 

You fumble with the seals for his codpiece, and you drop the armor to the floor as you impatiently free his already hard cock from the confines of his blacks. 

“Impatient,” Fox chides, pulling away from you for long enough to speak when you start slowly stroking his length with your soft hands. 

“Can’t help it,” You reply with a small pout, “You went and got me all worked up.”

Fox flashes a crooked grin, “That was the point, mesh’la.”

You aren’t able to hold your pout for much longer as he eases you down on his length. While both of you much prefer spending as much time with foreplay as you can, you’re both well aware that there’s a time constraint.

Which is why you’re not too surprised when Fox presses a thumb against your clit as you ride him. At this point in time, he’s an expert at manipulating your body, and at pulling an orgasm from you in a startlingly quick time.

But the same holds true for you.

You bury your face in his neck as you feel yourself hurtling closer and closer to the edge. A quick press of his thumb, and a litany of praises, and your clenching tight around him, muffling your pleasure filled moans with his neck.

His thrusts become hard and quick, using your body to chase his own pleasure while you recover from your orgasm in his tight grip, and he bites down on your shoulder as he spills his release deep inside you.

Fox keeps his face pressed against your shoulder while you press light kisses against his neck and up his jaw. “I love you,” You whisper just under his ear.

He pulls back and kisses you deeply and passionately, “I love you too.” Fox pulls your forehead against his, and you both just exist together for a few minutes. And then he pulls away, “You said you needed to tell me something?” He asks.

You trail your fingers against his jaw, “It can wait.”

“You said it’s important.” He reminds you.

“It is. So important. But it can wait. Just a little longer.” You whisper, and then your forehead drops to his shoulder, “No. I lied, it can’t.”

He chuckles, “Tell me?”

“You’re not going to like it.”

“Tell me anyway.”

You release a shuddering sigh, “Palpatine commissioned the Clones through Dooku.” You whisper, “This isn’t a war, it’s a trap for the Jedi.”

Fox pushes you back enough to be able to stare at you. His gaze searches your features, and then he sighs, “...you’re right. I don’t like that.” And then he pats your hip, “Alright, pretty girl, time for you to get dressed. We got shit to do to save the Republic…” He sighs deeply, “From itself, apparently.”

You smile at him sympathetically, “When this whole thing is over, we’re going on vacation.” You promise as you slide off of him, and pull your shirt back on, “And we’re not getting out of bed for anything other than food and showers for a week.”

“Sounds like a plan.” Fox finishes adjusting himself and he pulls you into a kiss. “Love you, cyare.”

“Love you too.” You reply against his lips.

[brettesims]

On Humanitarianism

I don’t know if there is anything more painful as an advocate or humanitarian than to be silenced, but the mass silencing of advocacy is happening around the world. When you speak out “they”; the powers that be can threaten your work, freeze your social media platforms, delete your whole page, remove your followers - on and on. Since the U.S. Government has ownership over all platforms now pretty much (except this one) - including TikTok; which was said to be Chinese owned and run, but that’s another Government lie. If you’re targeted; that happens across all platforms. This happened to me and it’s been exhausting.

Then there are family or “friends” who have no concept of the world at large or anything that is actually happening with the Zionist regime essentially taking over the world; the “free world” or “new world order” as they call it. Ignorant people add to the silencing, shunning, and canalization of you, because externally it appears as if you are losing social media “clout”.

Advocates and humanitarians are highly educated and functional people; we have to be. So when we can’t use social tools as we aim to use them, it’s a problem. I ran my business from just my Instagram account for years. But with instagrams Zionist takeover and ownership my accounts are shadow banned and heavily monitored.

For awhile I was like, “fuck this, let me just not use it, let me pull away.” But then I realized the platform hiding humanitarians, spiritualists, and artists accounts is just a psyop and mental tactic of dehumanization. Abiding by it - even if there are no “likes” on the posts, would only be complying to the system I advocate against.

A humanitarian without a voice or platform is like an artist without a space to create or art supplies. So, after a year of being more silent than I’ve ever been on social media due a racist, fascist and bigoted regime, that most civilians don’t know they are subconsciously under the influence of… I have decided to activate my voice once again.

I’ve decided to leave the fear behind and a huge reason; maybe the only reason for this new found courage has come from me watching the resiliency, faith and steadfastness of Palestinians standing up to Zionists.

I thought to myself; Palestinians are out here risking their lives daily, under threat of having social platforms taken away, Zionists not only tapping their phones, but also calling them and threatening to have bombs literally dropped their heads. If they can risk all this in a war zone, I can take the risk, be resilient and remain steadfast as well.

Today also marks the one year point of the war in Sudan. Most people know very little about what’s going on in Sudan, because they cut the internet. They have been dark for 2 months now, but it’s sporadic.

I first began learning about Sudan and advocating against genocide in college. I will no longer be silent about it, because while joy and lightness can absolutely be found in war times; we are living in a genocidal world and that’s just the reality.

So I write this; really for myself, but also to alert you dear community that the time is in fact NOW. Actively BE the change you want to see, or you will SEE change you do not wish to actively manifest.

Move forward with faith and grace; using your voice for the freedom of generations that follow. Remain steadfast community!

~ B

[lgcbin]

⸻ 𝐒𝐎𝐍 𝐇𝐘𝐔𝐍𝐁𝐈𝐍 ( 𝟫𝟪𝟣𝟤𝟤𝟧 )

hi, i'm bear, the mun behind son hyunbin (bin). here you can find his profile and bio, and beneath the cut are some shorter facts about him that might come in useful for plotting. you can also find me brain-dumping about him on twt @buttercupful. i also have discord so if you'd prefer to plot there just ask!

[ tw: death, car accidents, ptsd ]

⸺ HISTORY

hyunbin was born and raised in jongno-gu, seoul on christmas day 1998, to a general practitioner and a middle school teacher

he's the eldest of three children—he had two younger sisters, however the elder of the two is deceased

hyunbin had a very standard childhood, did relatively well in school, and was very active and sociable. he always had an interest in movies and tv shows, but never thought about pursuing it acting

due to wanting a bit more freedom and to 'get it out of the way', he learnt to drive early and got his license as soon as he turned 18, however only about 2 months later he was in a terrible accident (deemed entirely not his fault) that resulted in his little sister's death. despite it being the other drivers fault, hyunbin blamed himself

he suffered terrible guilt and ptsd centered around cars, busy roads, loud noises, and hospitals that he still struggles with to this day, and to try and 'escape' his grief he joined the military after a pretty rough first semester at college studying PPEL (philosophy, politics, economics & law) at hangyang university

during his military enlistment he mostly blocked out his grief and focused hard on performing well in his time there, but was left feeling lost, as well as emotionally and mentally vulnerable after his discharge

he returned to university and started seeing a grief counselor, and got a part-time job at a bakery

due to feeling extremely lost and unsure, and upon a random comment from a friend who said he could be an idol because 'he's handsome', he auditioned for legacy ent. on a whim in january of 2021—to his great surprise, he got in

in the years since he's graduated from university, continued working at the bakery, and developed a strong interest in acting and modelling, having figured out he's perhaps not cut out for the dancing part of being an idol

⸺ PERSONALITY

hyunbin's a man heavily 'turned inwards'. his inner world is complex, and is a place he often escapes to to calm himself, or focus his mind

he's often been called an 'old-soul', and was praised as being 'mature for his age' when he was a child

he can come off initially as somewhat of a mystery—while not shy, nor particularly quiet, he tends to be more private about what he shares, and has a way with getting people to open up to him, without giving much of himself back

hyunbin's the type of person to chip away at problems stubbornly for as long as it takes to work through them—he's a stranger to giving up

it can sometimes feel as though bin's unknowable, yet warm and inviting at the same time

he can be a bit of a perfectionist, and in turn that leads to him being hard on himself, which is compounded by the guilt h still feels over the accident when he was 18

hyunbin tends to gravitate towards men as friends, and has always been a bit of a 'mans man', due to his 'masculine' interests, but isn't outright against making friends with women, especially as he was very close to his sisters growing up

hyunbin enjoys sports, and keeping active, although his job at the bakery and regular gym sessions keeps him physically fitter than most other me his age, especially in his upper body (thanks to carrying sacks of flour) and he uses exercise to work through issues he still has from the accident

[montygreen]

Happy 2023 everyone! Personally speaking, 2022 had some pretty great moments for me! I’ve been working on my grad school applications for my Masters, I’m really enjoying my honours thesis work, I got to sing my little science song parodies for one of my classes on multiple occasions, and I ended off the year by making my parodies streamable! (You should all check out my Linktree and then give me a follow/subscription on your chosen streaming service!)

I also recently hit 12k followers! It’s pretty astonishing to me that so many of you would want to follow and even stick with my blog, with my constantly shifting fandoms and my highly variable activity levels due to school, but thank you so much, it means the absolute world to me.

To show my appreciation, I wanted to celebrate all of you! 

Rules:

Reblog this post

Send me an ask with a ✨ + a request (please be detailed! The shows I’m willing to gif are also listed below)

Since I want this to celebrate my wonderful followers, this celebration is closed to people who follow my blog only.

Shows I’m willing to gif are: 1899, Abbott Elementary, Anne With An E, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, Community, Crazy Ex-Girlfriend, Dark, Derry Girls, Killing Eve, Ms. Marvel, Never Have I Ever, One Day At A Time, Only Murders in the Building, Our Flag Means Death, Parks and Recreation, Schitt’s Creek, Sex Education, Shadow and Bone, Ted Lasso, The Good Place, The Sex Lives of College Girls, The Wilds, Wandavision, We Are Lady Parts, and Zoey’s Extraordinary Playlist

Tagging some mutuals here: @trueloveistreacherous, @barbarahoward, @yenvengerberg, @xoxoemynn, @agentplant, @the-paris-of-people, @thefabulousfab-3, @jakeperalta, @nessa007, @useyourtelescope, @roseapothecary, @catty-words, @jakeyp, @chrissiewatts, @macperalta, @clarkgriffon, @rainbowbonnet, @blackbeardz, @basiltonpitch, @ivashkovadrian, @aryastaark

Posts for this will be tagged #leila’s 12k celebration, so feel free to blacklist that if you don’t want this cluttering your dash! I also cannot promise I will get to requests quickly, school starts again for me on Jan 9th, but I am hopeful that being motivated to fill your requests will keep me giffing throughout what will no doubt be a busy semester!

[nyctophobia-au]

Where I've Been

Okay, so, 'sup babygrills. This is going to be a bit of a lengthy post, but I feel like I should update followers on here as to where I've been because I haven't been active for, like, months.

If you don't care to read all of the stuff under the cut, that's fine. Here's my TL;DR: I've been having issues with mental illness, trauma, motivation, gender dysphoria (?), and have been busy with college and YouTube/social media stuff. However, luckily my HK special interest has returned and I plan on posting more often hopefully. (Mild cw for mental health mentions ig.)

Okay, so, to begin, I've been gone a lot due to responsibilities outside of making Nyctophobia content. So, up until recently, I've been working on graduating from college. I've been finishing up my final class this Summer, but last quarter in the Spring was really difficult for me time-wise and mental health-wise. I've had a lot of issues with depression and anxiety throughout my life, and being at college was torturous and sapped all of my energy. It did not help that, last quarter, I had to be there at the college for six hours of my day five days a week. It was not easy to make art for myself and my channel, much less for this blog.

Outside of college, and I've mentioned this before in passing, but I also make YouTube videos and, at the moment, YT is my income (alongside comms as well). I've been pretty focused on keeping my my schedule at least a little bit consistent, and that alone has been draining and tiring. It also affects the kind of art that I can create, as I have to draw certain things for certain videos. I've been really weary when it comes to making content as of late, and I really need to take a small break so that I can work on stuff I actually want to work on rather than being stuck drawing certain things for the sake of videos I'm not inspired to make.

Pivoting more into specifics about my mental health, I have been needing to see a therapist for a long while, but I haven't had the motivation or the funds to pursue that option up until recently. Hopefully, I will be attending therapy soon. Last year in, uhm, September I had a particularly bad mental health episode and I've come to realise that some events that happened during that time have left me with trauma that I'm still currently working past and healing from. I've had issues with self-harm, depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, and self-perception for a long time, but in the Spring they were stifling and impossible to ignore. Lately, they have been better, though. So, that's nice. There hasn't been just the usual stuff lately (oh no, that's be too easy), but I've gotten jumpscared with gender issues (hooray, my favourite /s) during this time, and am struggling with my self-perception regarding my gender up to current day. (Hi, I currently go by Rot or Sexy Fictional Bug Enthusiast and my pronouns are they/them, but they may very well be they/he soon). Also, I had a bad identity crisis a couple of months ago and had to do this whole rebrand thing that was a lot of work and it kinda sucked away a lot of energy and time.

On top of all of that, ya boy's special interest metre has been focused primarily on OC stuff and other things outside of HK. It's pretty well-known that I have autism and Hollow Knight is one of my special interests. I'm unsure how it works for most people, but my fixations tend to come in waves and fluctuate (though super special meaningful ones stick for a long time). So, like, I had this whole issue with my mind always being fixated more on things outside of HK. It's been my OCs for a few months, but alongside that, I also suddenly became enraptured by The Owl House and my Digimon special interest sleeper agent returned for a hot second there. As of recently, I've been interested in HK again, but have been afraid to start/work on projects related to my AU because of me having to work on OC content for my channel and also for my friends who are invested.

As of right now, I have some more time on my hands to make the content I want to make, and my HK fixation is back (thank fuck). I've generally been doing a bit better in the mental health arena, but I will also be taking some time off of YT and posting videos regularly in favour of focusing on making stuff I want to make. So, like, expect me to be more active here for some time. I might be finishing a fic in the next month (hopefully) as well, and I have some general comic and art ideas. I just want to draw Auric again, god dammit. My beloved. <3

Anyways, thanks for reading if you did. Just figured I'd make a post about this for people who thought I died or something (and for the people who were once interested in my projects on here and are starving for content, lmao).

[spidertalia]

Introduction

I wanted to make a more official introduction post, so here I go.

Hello. My name's Spider and I'm a 21 year old college student from the state of Florida, USA. I use they/them pronouns, and identify as an ace lesbian. I've been into Hetalia since roughly 2016, but due to a past bad experience with the only other fan I ever met online, I still struggle with quite a lot of internalized shame over my liking of it. However, I'm working to get past my shame and embrace my love for Hetalia.

My favorite characters are APH America and APH Canada. I'm not too strongly into ships anymore, and I'm honestly pretty chill with most pairings. (-cest excluded, so proshippers please leave)

Outside of Hetalia, I like a number of things. I'm into horror movies/media, rock/punk/metal music, animation, online comics and reptiles (I own five!). Fandomwise, I also like AvatarTLA/TLOK, The Owl House, The SCP Foundation and Taleblr, to name a few.

I'm autistic and I have ADHD. I can struggle with social cues a lot and I'm not great at reaching out first, but I love making new friends and talking (so please, do send me a message if you want to be friends. i'll respond !!). Though, I do need clarification when joking/being sarcastic as I usually can't tell ^^;

I draw quite a lot, so expect a drawing here or there- especially of the Northern American Bros. I might not post art very consistently as college keeps me busy, but i'll try my best ^^

EDIT: As far as languages go, I pretty much only speak English, but I am attempting to learn French. However it'll probably be a while before I speak it on here sdfghjk

You can also find me on Deviantart and my main (Non-Hetalia) tumblr blog !! I'm much more active on my main

[sanchoyoscribbles]

2/2 of my dangan ronpa ocs, the boys! see the first half (the girls) here!

this story takes place after dr2 in an au where drv3 doesn't happen (...just because I made it before that game actually came out and don't wanna factor it in haha, these are actually redesigns of old ocs...)

the setting is a murder mystery mansion. Veronica Belvedere invites her classmates over for a two week stay in her and her brother's family mansion the summer before they're all due to attend an American branch of Hope's Peak together! ...And then murder starts happening. More abt the characters under the cut! OwO

-Andrew was raised by his mother who was the Belvedere's former head butler. When she passed away when he was 11, he took over her role to everyone's surprise, with natural ease. He was raised alongside the Belvedere's and considers them his bosses, but also feels responsible for them. He seems to want to maintain an extremely formal relationship with both of them, despite the fact they act overly familiar to him. Andrew is very formal and polite, but also seems to be hardworking, decisive and confident. He has a very analytical mind, and if something isn't rational he will argue against it. Despite that if his masters ask something of him he will almost never turn them down, unless it threatens their or someone else's well-being. He also seems somewhat adverse to being in the spotlight, stating that a butler shouldn't be seen too much unless needed.

-Rodrique is Veronica's brother, but the two of them couldn't be more different. Despite being twins, Rodrique was always treated as the eldest due to his maturity over his sister, and has been groomed to run the family business and be the heir since he was a child. He is far more serious than his sister, and usually the only one brave enough to try to keep her in line. Rodrique doesn't have a talent, but he is also going to be attending the American Hope's Peak in the reserve department's business course. He doesn't seem to mind not having a talent, instead being a bit arrogant because he knows he'll have more money than most of the talented kids anyway. He is ruthless and rational, and like his sister he can be a little condescending and intimidatingly intelligent.

-Rodrique is Veronica's brother, but the two of them couldn't be more different. Despite being twins, Rodrique was always treated as the eldest due to his maturity over his sister, and has been groomed to run the family business and be the heir since he was a child. He is far more serious than his sister, and usually the only one brave enough to try to keep her in line. Rodrique doesn't have a talent, but he is also going to be attending the American Hope's Peak in the reserve department's business course. He doesn't seem to mind not having a talent, instead being a bit arrogant because he knows he'll have more money than most of the talented kids anyway. He is ruthless and rational, and like his sister he can be a little condescending and intimidatingly intelligent.

-Elliot is a star football player for his high school team, starting the game because his friend was nervous to go to try outs alone. Eli pretty much has his choice of any college in the country because he's that good, but Elliot has hinted at feeling uncomfortable being in the limelight and despite his large stature, seems to have severe anxiety, keeping a small dog (Pooch!!) with him to calm him down. Despite his anxiety, he works extremely well with others, seemingly very tolerant and reliable. Although his weaknesses are being too sensitive or too indecisive, he seems to be aware of these and is actively working on them.

-Theodore was born and raised in a small town- and according to him 'there was so little to do, so I had to find some hobby or I'd go crazy'. Near his house was a small radio station, and he actually got in trouble for vandalizing it, and as punishment as made to help the owner/broadcaster after school, which started his love for radio. He and the owner became good friends and had a mentor/student dynamic until the owner passed and left the radio station to Theo. He was a very social and loves putting on a show, so radio broadcasting came naturally to him. Because of his talent, he knows a lot of famous people having interviewed them, and loves to socialize. Sometimes he forgets boundaries or becomes too friendly or flirty and can make people uncomfortable. He also loves gossip, but hates confrontation when it involves him, so he's more inclined to hide in the background and take mental notes than jump into a fight.

-Paul grew up with his parents who ran a landscaping business together. He followed them around and quickly learned all the tricks and methods and started adding his own flare to it. He's a soft spoken and artistic boy who is eager to help his parents and one day take over their business for them. When he was thirteen he was invited to California to work under the Belvederes as their private landscaper, but he was hesitant to leave his parents so young. They encouraged him though, saying he could always come back, but the new experience would be a great adventure. Since then Paul has lived with the Belvederes. Despite his soft spokenness his favorite genre of music is metal, and he's actually pretty passionate about it, modeling his style after his favorite singer. ...He and Andrew butt heads over his style a lot since Andrew is technically his boss, but Veronica insists she likes Paul's style and expression, so there's not a lot Andrew can really do about it.

-Nat grew up in Florida with his two older sisters and his aunt. He was a bit socially awkward as a child, and preferred to spend his time at the beach instead of with friends his own age. When he entered school he got a teacher who had a fish tank for educational purposes, and got more interested in fish through that. When he was fourteen he got contacted by the Belvederes, asking him to become their live-in aquarist and maintain their huge aquarium. He reluctantly agreed, but seems to regret it. Nat comes off as an antisocial hothead, stating that he prefers fish to people. He has a deep understanding of science and all of the mechanics behind fish keeping and is actually a bit of a bookworm with an intelligent streak despite his appearance. He's an extremely hard worker himself. He also has a hard time recognizing his or other people's emotions or emotional needs.

SO!! In addition to the general bios I also wanted to add, three of the boys here are employed by the Belvedere family! The parents made a point to try and get younger teens/kids their own kids age living with and working with them because Veronica and Rodrique were tutored privately at home, so they were a bit..isolated? (not for no reason ofc, Veronica has SERIOUS attitude problems that led to this being necessary) So Nat, Andrew, and Paul all also live at the mansion pre-story! Just something worth mentioning :3

[thenotsorealdess]

Rules & Info

About Me

Hiya! My name’s Val or Valentina, but you can pretty much call me whatever you want, or call me Dess if you like, since I try not to make too many ooc posts on here. I’m genderfluid and pretty much okay with any pronouns.

About the Blog

This is a blog focusing around Dess from Deltarune, including multiple versions of her. I follow back from @thewholesomebean and am open to roleplay with both mutuals and non-mutuals. However, I may not follow back depending on a blog’s content or how often I expect to interact with them.

Verses

Multiple verses are going to be used on the blog, and they are all listed in the tags section. More information on them can be found here.

Guest Muse

The Vessel is my one guest muse on here, and is available either on request or during events that may happen. If you’d like to speak with them, add a note in parentheses or brackets with “@ vessel”.

Events

There will be occaisional events on this blog, with some related to holidays and others being random ones dispersed throughout the year. Planned events are listed in the tags section.

Following & Blocking

I will not outright block someone unless they make me uncomfortable. Otherwise, I’ll just softblock and move on. However, whatever you want to do is entirely up to you, it’s your decision, not mine.

Writing Style

Asks directed towards Dess will be answered in quotation marks with Dess speaking. Responses to roleplay starters will be formatted in a third-person style, with dialogue bolded and thoughts italicized. Texts will be in brackets and will have the character’s name in front of them.

Activity

I’ll be somewhere around semi-active, but I will try to at least check the blog once a day and reblog some roleplay things. I may go through long periods of inactivity due to getting busy or burnt-out, but I’ll try to announce when those happen.

Boundaries

Despite my muse being an adult in some versions, I am a minor and will block anyone who sends me anything with 18+ content. Occasional PG-13 jokes or implications and such are allowed, but if it makes me uncomfortable, there is a chance I likely just ignore it unless it is extreme. Flirting towards my muse is acceptable so long as the character doing it is in a similar age range to that version of the muse.

Shipping

So long as it isn’t pedophilic, incestous, or toxic, I’m alright with shipping between my muse and anothers.

Content

There will be content including darker topics, though I will do my best to tag any potential triggers when they come up. If there is anything that you would like to be tagged, please send me an ask and I’ll be sure to do it.

Asks, DMs, etc.

My asks are open to anyone, though I’d prefer to not have too many asking questions about me. Personal questions can be directed towards my main blog. DMs are mutuals only, and I will not do any roleplaying in DMs.

Tags

Verses

#a frozen god [og/main verse]

#angel get me out of here [undertale verse]

#guess who never left [never left au]

#its so dark here [void au]

#where the hell am i?? [dark world au]

#this is such a drag [college au]

Other Characters

#my sister <3 [noelle holiday]

#gotta love him [rudy holiday]

#mother [mrs holiday]

#little bastard [kris dreemurr]

#goody two shoes [asriel dreemurr]

#baker supreme [toriel dreemurr]

#dads friend [asgore dreemurr]

#restraining order [berdly]

#good kid [susie]

#absolute badass [undyne]

#full of puns [sans]

#weird old man [gaster]

#the kids alright [chara]

#deserves a hug [vessel]

Events

Currently only planned, some dates will be decided on at a later time and added here.

#colorless event - the Vessel takes over the inbox for a day

#tell the truth event - will apply to any verses, Dess has to tell the truth no matter the question

#undertakeover - Undertale Dess takes over, and she has some rather interesting opinions

#love is in the air event - it’s Valentine’s day, and Dess has dared anyone to try and make her flustered, even platonically (February 14th)

#spooky season event - Halloween has come to town, and the typical spooks and scares have taken over Hometown (October 31st)

#holiday cheer event - with Christmas approaching, Dess has unfortunately been subjected to the infectious holiday cheer of her family (December 25-26th)

#trapped doe event - Dess is taking on an escape room on her own, and has enlisted the help of this blog’s followers to help her

Miscellaneous

#strangers ask me questions [ic ask meme]

#bored as hell [starter memes/prompts]

#who? [anon asks]

#well theres your answer [ic ask meme answers]

#late night thoughts [ic posts and stories]

[a-god-in-ruins-rises]

What's your ideal solution to our obesity issue?

as with most issues, i want it attacked from all kinds of directions.

first and foremost, one angle of attack is an angle i think would help with a lot of our social ills: build denser, more walkable cities. upzone, subsidize public transport, build bike lanes, build more "green space", build more grocery stores, etc. build an environment that encourages people to get out and walk around (or ride bikes). this will also help build a greater sense of community which should, ideally, help people's mental wellbeing and we know that poor mental health can affect obesity.

which leads me to my next point: better, more accessible mental health treatment.

honestly, just more healthcare in general. the more accessible healthcare is the more preventative measures can be taken. make health/nutrition classes a more standard part of healthcare.

and that requires more (and higher quality) research into health and nutrition.

unironically, subsidize gyms. gyms memberships can be expensive. have the government subsidize the cost for low-income individuals. or give tax breaks for gym memberships. or just government subsidies weight management classes or fat camps.

reduce work week. overworked people are stressed and sleep less and have less time to be physically active or cook healthy homemade meals, all of which contribute to obesity.

not sure how this would be done but there should be an effort to create adult sports leagues. sports are huge in high school and college but after that, unless you're one of the lucky ones that play professionally, most americans will probably never play a sport again for the rest of their life. i think we should create adult sports leagues. not only would this make people healthier but i think it would foster a greater sense of community as well. maybe have government sponsored athletic tournaments with a bunch of cash prizes? let's get greco-roman in this bitch.

also there's my dream about mandatory militia service. one weekend every month or something everyone will have to muster at their local militia armory and do some intensive physical training.

education. make health and fitness and home economics more serious parts of the education system. i know some places still do home ec but my school didn't. it should be mandatory. you'd be surprised how many adults i know who don't know how to cook and who primarily subsist on fast food. teach people how to cook, yo. and teach them how to eat healthy. i'm not sure how to get people to take physical education more seriously. maybe make it a bigger part of their overall grade? make sports mandatory? bring back corporal punishment? lmao. also, part of education includes educating parents. i've discussed elsewhere how i want to create a new "reimagined" family planning organization and one thing that it would emphasize is educating parents about nutrition and keeping their children healthy and active.

fat taxes and healthy food subsidies. part of the reason why people opt for fast food and junk food so much is because it's simply really fucking cheap. tax foods with sugar and high fructose corn syrup in them and subsidies whole foods. also wouldn't be opposed to literally taxing obesity itself, sorta like they do in japan. also, here in california we have this program where people's food stamps are worth like twice as much if spent at local farmers markets. i don't know if the data is out but i can say from personal experience that it seems to be pretty effective. farmer friends of mine have told me about how much more business they've had lately and how a lot of it is due to food stamps. would love to see a program like this applied at an even larger scale.

stricter regulations on junk food advertisement combined with an intensive "anti-junk food, pro-healthy food" propaganda campaign.

i think this would be a start.

[grapefruitey]

ignore this it's my application for providence peak

out of character

Name: G

Preferred Pronouns: She/her

Age: 26

Timezone: Central

Activity level: Medium-High

Triggers: Self harm

Anything else?:

in character

Name: Thalia Clark

Faceclaim: Angela Sarafyan

Gender & Pronouns: Female, she/her

Age: Forty

Birthday: August 2, 1983

Occupation: Fitness brand owner and teacher at Humming Bee

Neighborhood: Downtown townhome

Are you filling a wanted connection? Filling Saul Weissberg's third ex-wife connection

Anything extra: None yet!

biography

(this is long and I cannot write a realistic muse for the life of me, like I also can't believe I wrote this much)

trigger warnings - death, final girl trope, adoption

Her childhood was picturesque. A standard nuclear family in the fast growing Denver with a younger brother and parents who hated to sleep away from each other. Thalia was a happy but slightly odd kid with an early fascination with computers. Her father worked at one of the early computer companies in the 80s. Her life fell apart when her family was killed in a home invasion. Her hiding spot was on the roof where her mom used to take her up to stargaze. She went into the foster system for only a year.

Thalia was adopted into the Clark family when she was eight. She was sure it was just luck. Her adopted sister, Kathleen, was already in college but still stepped up to be a great older sister due to their parents already busy lives. Kathleen's friends called Thalia 'Wednesday' due to her ghoulish nature for the first few years of her life with the Clarks.

She lived as free a life as a kid could live. After her traumatic beginnings, homeschooling was the best option for her. Thalia was very smart and preferred her own company (or Kathleen's) for many years. The sisters became extremely close even when Thalia shifted to attend Providence Peak High School. She coasted between the science club and student council. Shifting from Wednesday Addams to Elle Woods was a shock to her family but the morbidity remained just under the surface.

Once she graduated high school, Thalia moved to California to follow in her dad's footsteps. She was dropped out of university pretty quickly after being recruited by a soon to be well known company: Apple. She was one of the leads on developing the first ipods. Thalia made a number of very clever investing decisions and soon made enough money to just live off her ever-growing savings. Then Kathleen called from New York after a bad day and Thalia moved her life to the East Coast.

Shifting into the socialite lifestyle was exhausting and Thalia found her niche in one of the newly growing exercise communities. New neighbors owned a pilates and yoga studio that she started working at more as a way to pass time. Her life in New York was easy if not predictable: teaching or personal training, attending events as a socialite, and spending as much time with Kathleen as possible. Then she fell in love and here world turned upside down.

Despite her sister strongly advising against it, she married Saul Weissberg and her life started revolving around him. How could it not? He was charismatic and attractive, intelligent enough to verbally spar with her, and he made her comfortable enough to drop the constantly preppy act. At first the electric chemistry and constant social outings was all she needed but Thalia soon grew unhappy. She was losing who she was and was unhappy at just being 'Mrs. Weissberg' (especially when she refused to give up the name of the family that was so kind to her).

With Kathleen back and thriving in Providence Peak, Thalia started reevaluating things. She had a very successful fitness brand and more investments than she knew what to do with. After enough pestering, Saul agreed to move back to Colorado to try to start his own firm. Unsurprisingly, their problems persisted and they ultimately separated. Thalia only permitted Kathleen an 'I told you so' referencing the ironclad pre-nup. Thalia took her belongings and bought a townhouse downtown.

She works at the Humming Bee teaching yoga and pilates at her leisure. Thalia doesn't do much day-to-day work with her brand. Instead she helps her sister at the university and tries to avoid her ex-husband who she still has very confusing feelings for.

[littlemanacrea]

New blog post!

New blog post is up! This is a long one, but it goes into detail about what's been going on for me personally and for LMC over the past ~3 months + details plans for the next 4-6 months. Give it a read here or check it out in full under the break below!

Happy belated new year! + updates

It’s been about 3 months since my last blog post, so I figure it’s past time for an update! First off; happy new year! We made it to 2024! I think 2023 was pretty rough for a lot of people, myself included, so we should all feel proud that we made it another year. Existing is exhausting, and every new day is an adventure. I definitely struggled a lot in 2023, and want to go over some of that in this post. With that said, let’s get into the nitty gritty of things…

First up, as of tomorrow I’m attending classes again. It was supposed to be today, but class was cancelled due to inclement weather. My schedule will be completely full Mondays and Wednesdays (8:30am-6:30pm CST), so if you reach out on those two days please allow some extra time for a response. Tuesdays I’ll also be in class, but I only have two on that day as opposed to three on MW, so I’ll have a little bit more leeway that day (I expect I’ll be occupied 10:30am-4:30pm CST). My planned schedule is Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday as class days (with Tuesday evening open for commission work as necessary) and Thursday, Friday, and Saturday as work days, with ideally Sunday as an off/relaxation day but I’ll be using it to keep up on commissions and emails if I need to. I understand that college is a big commitment while I work on clearing out my queue, but I truly feel that it’s the best option to move forward and continue to grow as well as plan out a career and the next 5-10 years of my adult life. Emails/updates/messages will be responded to daily on Thursdays through Saturdays and I’ll do my absolute best to have quick turnaround times on Sundays through Wednesdays, but can’t guarantee it. Regardless, I’m instating a new personal policy of replying to all emails within 24 hours. Communication is still something I’m struggling with and working on, but I am very much dedicated to improving and holding myself to a high standard of customer service. I’ll also be updating my email signature with a few more tidbits of info to reflect as such :) Additionally, anyone awaiting a response to their email or a progress update will be receiving one this week.

Next up, some personal updates! I had a bit of a bumpy ride closing out 2023 due to aging out of my parents’ insurance and having to get my Very Own Insurance Plan. I was rationing my meds until the 1st because I couldn’t afford to pay $200+ out of pocket for them, which resulted in a brief period of poor communication and general sluggishness/feeling like a zombie (those of you with ADHD probably know exactly what I mean). As of January 5th, I’m back on all my meds for good and don’t foresee any issues occurring with getting them, as they’re free with my insurance plan and I live in an area that doesn’t seem to be affected by shortages, thank god. I was also able to pass my first semester of college with a 4.0, which I am INCREDIBLY proud of, and one of my long-term goals this year is to get healthier and more physically active as well as be more open and transparent with myself and my work/the costume making process. This year I’m also aiming to claw my way out of the messy financial pit I ended up in, thanks in part to the Financial Audit podcast by Caleb Hammer. I highly encourage watching it if you’re financially illiterate, temporarily in a bad spot, or you’re just looking for something to listen to. I didn’t receive much of a financial education in my impressionable years and thus ended up in a rather poor spot, and I very much want to fix that and start building toward my future. This podcast and accompanying resources is helping me a TON in that regard. This brings me to my next topic, which is commission and business updates.

The first thing I want to address is ongoing refunds for those whose commissions were cancelled or delayed; ALL refunds will be returned no later than February 8th. I’ve been refunding people as quickly as I can over the past few months with income from my shop and finished commissions, and I’m pleased to announce that the last refunds should be sent out by that date and I do not anticipate any delays. Picking up the pieces of my struggles over the summer has been an incredibly difficult process for me personally, as it’s been incredibly embarrassing to let people down and to feel like a failure as a business owner, but please know that I am dedicated to making things right with each and every person affected, no matter what “making things right” may look like. I started my business in 2019 with no prior experience managing a business, and that was my first mistake I think, and I feel so incredibly sorry to anyone whose cosplay plans/convention plans/finances I’ve negatively affected due to my lack of experience and lack of business etiquette. I was very much “taking things as they come” and struggled very hard with time management and reasonable expectations from myself, which I am still working on, and looking back on it now I think I was destined for failure and lucky to have made it as far as I did before it became a problem. I’ve been doing a LOT of self-reflection as well as attending bimonthly therapy sessions while working through this process and while I think I’ll be able to manage taking on one or two commissions at a time (read as: per semester) after my queue is emptied, I don’t feel comfortable opening commissions on a larger scale for the foreseeable future. My current plan is to finish my 2-year fashion degree and then go to my current college for a 2-year business degree, then transfer to a university to major in fashion and minor in business. I love being able to create things for people, but it’s been made quite clear that I need a real education in business before I can do things at the scale I was trying to do them. None of the mistakes I’ve made or things I’ve done have been out of malice, but I understand that I’ve had a negative effect on people regardless and I want to be able to rectify those effects and make sure nothing like them ever happens again. And to be clear, for anyone who isn’t aware: I’ve missed deadlines for multiple clients due to poor communication and poor time management, as well as struggled to refund cancelled or overdue commissions due to a fragile financial situation (part of which is compounded by not being able to properly manage my time and get commissions finished quicker). If you’ve heard or seen someone recommending to not work with me, this is what they are referring to, and I’m incredibly ashamed of it. The issue has still been ongoing, albeit on a lesser scale, while I work on cleaning up the mess and that’s the primary reason I’ve had commissions closed since August. I don’t expect the people I’ve affected to forgive me, but I do ask that anyone watching or reading to please allow me the chance to prove that I’m working on changing and becoming the business owner I should have been from the very beginning. If anyone would like to reach out to discuss these issues, be you a past client, current client, or someone who wasn’t personally involved, I am happy to discuss anything and everything in more detail through email (which can be found via my Contact page).

On a lighter note, let’s briefly talk shop updates. I’m taking a backseat on artist alleys this year to focus on commissions, with the exception of applying for Naka-Kon as it’s within 15 minutes of my house and thus a very small financial and time commitment. I’m also letting new products take a backseat for the same reason; new items will be fairly sparse until my queue is emptied as I want to focus my money and time on commissions until everything is concluded. I should have been doing this last year as well, but the time management was again an issue here; I thought I could handle having my hands in multiple pots and justified it by “diversifying my income” in order to bring in more money to issue refunds faster. I will still be running my shop, as it brings in enough money to be worth the small amount of time I do spend filling orders, but don’t expect any new items for at least the next 4-6 months.

To conclude this post, I want to again apologize. I feel very guilty and ashamed for letting things get as bad as they did, and I’m deeply sorry to anyone impacted. I hope that by the time I make my next blog post, I’ll have more positive updates to share regarding this process and can start showing the results of my first big steps toward marked improvement. Thank you to anyone who has read this far and to anyone who has ever commissioned or supported me. I want to make you all proud going forward.

[pick-myself-up]

Well hi there!

It’s been a couple years since I last touched this blog and I can’t decide if that’s a good thing or not. I don’t believe it’s a bad thing that I feel like posting now- I was just scrolling through old side blogs and realized that I was once a lot more active here.

I used to use this space as a journal. Not a daily one nor even monthly, usually, but a place to get some thoughts out and written down somewhere before they got overwhelming. I don’t find myself needing that kind of space anymore, but I’m glad it was here for me when I did.

Let’s see. A summary of how life’s been since I last posted here:

My partner and I set a hopeful date for our wedding, both got jobs, and failed excellently at planning the wedding due to everything that came with the new jobs. We managed to get hired on at the same place, which was great! I started a month before my partner so I moved into company housing here a month before he did and I went back home on days off to help pack the apartment. Wonder of wonders- we managed to find an apartment for pretty cheap rent that we were able to immediately sign on and got to move everything from the old apartment to the new one within a day. However, our jobs kept us so busy that we weren’t able to do anything more with the new apartment for a few months, so it basically acted as a giant, expensive storage unit until we got a vacation week and were able to move most of our things (and ourselves) from the company housing to the new apartment. So yay! We’re in the new apartment and it’s a decent space! It took us a couple more months to find the time to get the rest of our belongings out of company housing, but luckily there were no new hires, or not enough new hires, in that time frame to necessitate us rushing to get our things. That final move out of the company housing was just over a year ago now! Since then, the apartment has been fine if a bit cramped because my partner and I both own A Lot Of Stuff. The front bedroom, which we intended to use as a crafting/gaming room, is its own storage room but at least it’s all out of the way and not underfoot like it was in the last apartment!

We both love our jobs here, which is a lot more than either of us could have said about our previous non-college jobs! He’s mostly doing what he studied in school and I’m doing something that I only barely scratched the surface of in my final semester, but I’m really enjoying it! I do still eventually want to get back into what I Actually went to school for, but for now I’m pretty content with where I’m at and the people I work with. I’m going to be asking for a raise next year (because I’ll be damned if I continue to be the asst head of our department for a 3rd year and still get the pay grade I’ve been getting since I got here)! Overall work has been going really well! Every few months there’s a new challenge and I really enjoy the change of pace from time to time- I never thought I’d get sick of doing the same thing every day in my line of work, but it does wear on me after a while. I love getting a new project in and experiencing the process all over again every now and then.

! Most recently our cat has been pretty sick and the vet bills have been atrocious. Paying off the credit card for that won’t be fun, but at least we had that option. He’s doing much better now, back to normal in every way - including zoomies at odd hours of the night and trying to climb the drying rack like it’s a kitty jungle-gym. We never thought we’d be so glad to wake up to him scratching on the box spring as we were when he did so after not eating and hardly moving for 2 days.

Oh! The wedding! We finally FINALLY have an actual date set and a venue secured and a deposit down and IT’S HAPPENING!! We’re so excited!! It’s been a couple of years of failed attempts at planning because we either couldn’t afford it or didn’t have the time BUT NOW IT’S REALLY HAPPENING! We have about 9 months to prepare! Those months are gonna fly by FAST, we know, but at least we already have a lot of the bases covered. We have a photographer, baker, videographer, the officiant, and the venue decided and confirmed! There’s a lot left, of course, beyond those parts but it’s still more than I hoped to have at this point in the planning!

Basically, life is going pretty okay right now for us. We both still have our own mental health issues to contend with, that’s never going away, but we’ve gotten a lot better at working with and helping each other through the rough patches. It’s never going to be perfect but that’s okay.

[yourdogwalkerhasanonlyfans]

pt. 2

story continues in the spring of 2016. i was completely reeling from a miserable existence. things were going pretty badly in all areas of my life: at work, in my romantic life, and with my personal health. i got out of one of the most horrifying relationships of my young life and felt so free for the first time that i went on Tinder, which lead to all sorts of debauchery. simultaneously i was planning to meet up with some friends to have my first MFF threesome (i guess i should talk about my first ever threesome which was MMF sometime).

i was also royally fucking up my financial situation by maxing out any credit card that i could get my hands on. pretty much all the things that someone does who is spiraling .. i was doing them.

over easter holiday i booked a super nice hotel room with a jacuzzi (that i could not afford) for a few nights and invited someone from Tinder one night, had that threesome with friends one of the nights, and had just a platonic friend who was driving through town come by for a night. i think i was alone maybe one night. i know i spent a huge amount of money on credit cards, ordering room service, being high and drunk the whole time, just really checking out from life.

not long after that bender, on mother's day evening, exactly one year after i graduated from college, i got into a fight with the guy i was sleeping with / mostly living with at the time (who i met on Tinder). we had been drinking all day at his family's house, then we smoked a bunch, then kept drinking which was usually a pretty good setup for me to blackout. remember - at this time i am also on a heavy dose of psych meds + struggling with an eating disorder; might have weighed 90 pounds at most. so it's 2 or 3AM, there's me, him, his two pit bulls, and my siamese cat. at his apartment, which is located above his family's business (a porn shop). i was a complete mess. screaming and fighting and acting physically violent. i locked myself in his bathroom, poured a bunch of my Klonopin out into my hand, looked at myself in the mirror, and took the pills. i probably peed, then lit a cigarette, and went back out to the couch where he was sitting. i guess i doubt he was just sitting there - i'm sure he was following me around and trying to get me to tell him what i did while i was in the bathroom. either way, i know i was still actively drinking a beer when i told him that i took a bunch of pills. he was clearly not happy about that confession. i was probably starting to fall asleep at this point. all i really know is that he was probably all pissed off, because he didn't want to call an ambulance and attract attention, which forced him to drive me in his work van to the ER. in the shuffle of us being extremely intoxicated & fighting we had misplaced the keys to my car. which in hindsight was actually probably a good thing that we couldn't find my keys because i know before i took the handful of pills i had been trying to leave his house and drive away because it was that unbearable to be there - i would have probably died and/or hurt other people if i had gotten behind the wheel that night.

i wasn't driving, however, my very drunk and high boyfriend did have to drive the somewhat short distance to the closest ER. i literally fell out of his van onto the pavement when i opened the door, which i had many bruises from & confirmed happened, due to my lack of memories. i guess i was rude and belligerent to the ER staff. my BAC was 0.2 and i had an alarming amount of THC & benzodiazepines in my system. i think i had also been taking some pain killers here & there. either way, i was basically a zombie of a human. they flushed my system with charcoal because too much time had passed since taking the "handful" of pills to pump my stomach. i'm sure that i was considered borderline emaciated, as well.

i woke up around 1PM on that Monday with IVs in both my ankles & both hands. i was severely dehydrated in addition to needing to be detoxed. i was alone in a room. i could see the nurse's stand outside the door and started yelling for someone to come help me because i didn't know what was going on. no one was paying any attention to me and i was frustrated. i started banging my arm against the bedrail. someone eventually came in to tell me that my sister was on the phone, which was very confusing to me because i didn't even know where i was.

my sister told me that my friend had contacted my boyfriend on facebook after she received a really concerning voicemail from me the previous night. i, of course, have no recollection of this, but when i arrived to the ER and they said they had to admit me, i made two correspondences. i emailed my boss and told him i wasn't going to be at work due to "hospitalization for dehydration." then i called my friend and left her a voicemail telling her a similar story. apparently i told her that "[boyfriend] had taken me to the hospital but that i am okay." so my friend wakes up, gets that voicemail, gives me some time to get back to her, when i don't respond she panics a little and starts looking on facebook for the boyfriend. once she got in touch with him, he told her where i was, and that he left because he had to go to work, and didn't know how to get in touch with any of my friends or family. my friend then contacted my sister, who i guess after calling the hospital and confirming that i was indeed there, she left work & called my mom, telling her to prepare herself to be picked up because they had to go see me in the hospital. i guess it was a simple and not-too-surprising phone call for my mother to be receiving. everyone kinda knew what it was about.

my sister said on the phone to me that her and my mom were coming to see me .. not to pick me up. which was confusing for me to hear. not sure the exact order of events, but eventually a case worker came into my room and explained to me that i was at risk of hurting myself and the hospital couldn't release me to my family. they explained that i would be moved to another hospital & put on a 72-hour psychiatric hold. they said i would be able to talk to someone there about being released after a few days. they said i could either do this voluntarily, which was highly recommended and positioned as the best choice, or else the hospital would have to involuntarily commit me, which sounds pretty much as bad as it is. if committed involuntarily, it means you can be held at the psych hospital for much longer, as you'd have to appear in front of a group of case workers and essentially explain why you think you know better than doctors and other medical professionals. people who recently overdose aren't usually thought to be able to make smarter decisions than doctors, which means the appeal is 99% of the time denied, causing the patient to be scrutinized even closer, and as i said, held at the hospital for "liability reasons" for even longer than if you had just gone of your own volition. long explanation shortened: if you admit you have a problem and need help, go get the help, show people (/make them believe) that you want to continue to get better, then they will let you go out into the wild again. play the game and do what they tell you to do and it'll be over way faster than if you fight it.

as i reflect on this and write about it now, these words come to me easily. they make sense to me, as i exist now. of course i needed to go somewhere for treatment. but at the time it felt very confusing. i was not aware of these types of protocols. i really genuinely did not understand why my family was coming, but i wasn't going home with them. even though i was thoroughly confused, i signed the form to voluntarily commit myself.

it took a while but eventually they found a bed for me at a psych hospital. they said i'd have to be transported on a stretcher via ambulance, for liability reasons, but that my sister could ride with us, with my mother following behind in her vehicle. it took at least 30 minutes to get to this other facility, and it was getting dark outside, if not dark already. i remember joking around a lot while in the ambulance .. i always make jokes when uncomfortable or in tense situations. good ol' defense mechanism. i was encouraged when the EMT person told me that the facility i was going to allowed smoking cigarettes (this was not true).

we arrived to the psych hospital, and i remember when they were wheeling me inside an elevator, still on the stretcher, someone made a comment to my mother about ".. she is quite thin, isn't she .." this fuzzy memory is something i won't ever forget. my mother solemnly nodding, as if she hadn't really really noticed how bad i had gotten until i was laying down on a stretcher with sharp cheekbones, dark sunken eyes, chapped lips, protruding collarbones, bruised arms, & hip bones poking out from under a thin hospital gown & even thinner hospital blanket. i guess some things are easier for complete strangers to see.

my experience while at the psych hospital is something that will take up a lot of my time & mental energy, so i will continue with that next.

if you read this, thanks for your time.

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Conway: ‘I Reached a Point Where I Wanted a Normal Life’

She loved Sally Wiggin. LOVED! And what Pittsburgher didn’t love Sally Wiggin. The new anchor, who retired in 2018 after 38 years with WTAE, set a journalistic standard that Laurie Conway wished to follow. “I really did love Sally Weigand. She was the greatest when I was growing up. Everyone girl I knew who wanted to be on TV wanted to do the news like Sally Weigand,” confessed Laurie Conway. “She did it the right way.” A 2005 graduate of Chartiers Valley High School in Bridgeville, Conway was graduated from Bethany College’s impressive Communications program in 2009. In 2010, Laurie Conway was hired by WTRF TV-7. “TV was my dream,” Conway reported. “My dream since middle school was being on TV. It’s all I wanted to do. I wanted to be a journalist. I loved the news, the Weather Channel. I loved the news and I loved consuming the news. Everything I did, from middle school to high school to college, everything I did was to get that dream job a the TV station. Conway was hired by WTRF TV-7 as the overnight producer in 2010. “I was fortunate to get hired by WTRF as an overnight producer, and that was the slowest position on the totem pole,” she recalled. “But then I worked my way up over eight-and-a-half years and it was great. My last four-and-a-half years I was the evening anchor were terrific. That’s when Wheeling became my home.” And that’s when Conway’s priorities changed. “I reached the point in my broadcast career where I was going to have to move to continue, so I made the decision to stay right here,” Conway explained. “Plus, I reached a point where I wanted a normal life with a normal schedule with normal hours because in TV, you’re pretty much on call most of the time. “For a lot of years, I worked some pretty funky hours, and I wanted normal. That outweighed everything at that point,” she said. “So, here I am. I do miss TV, and I will always miss it. But I doubt I’d ever go back to it.” Now that she's made Wheeling his full-time home, Conway has become even more involved with her community. The Chamber Chapter Kurt Zende took the reins of the Wheeling Area Chamber of Commerce as the organization’s new president following the Main Street Bank Fantasy in Lights Parade in November 2021 after Erikka Storch resigned from the position to become the executive director of Project BEST. Zende then hired an assistant in Mike Howard and Conway as his director of marketing and communications, and since the Wheeling Chamber has hosted a plethora of events with the intention to gather and grow. “Networking is an obvious reason to become a member of the Chamber of Commerce, and those opportunities are there all of the time, but it’s really true that you get out of a membership what you put into it,” Conway said. “We have members that pay their annual dues but they don’t interact very often, but we also have people who are on the other side of that because they are very active on a weekly basis. “We have a group we call our ‘Chamber Champions’ because they are a group pf young professionals who want to get the word out about their business and all of the business in their (respective) area,” she said. “And, if we have a member who feels they are getting what they want out of their membership, they should give us a call to talk about it what it is they are looking for from their membership. Like I always say, it’s all about growth.” One event that’s proven popular is the organization’s ‘After Hour’ outings that are hosted by a member business once per month, and as more time passes since pandemic precautions were lifted, the crowd has grown larger. Conway is engaged to Joshua May of Wheeling, and the couple hopes to tie the knot within the year. “Our After Hours events are popular and we’ve had some great ones lately that have been held in really neat places,” Conway said. “Since all of the Covid restrictions were removed, it’s been a gradual process with people coming out a little more over time, and it still a bit difficult to get some people out to our event. It’s understandable after what we went through, but we’ve not experience problems. “We have several of those After Hour evenings coming up and I’m looking forward to those because I feel, over time, people will see that it’s safe to mingle once again,” she said. “We also have several events coming up where we’ll partner with our Chamber friends from Marshall and Belmont counties because we have to have that regional mindset, that’s for sure.” As a reporter, she asked the questions. These days, though, Conway often finds herself on the opposite side of the stereotypical Q&A paradigm. “I do love my work with the chamber and that’s because I feel as if I am learning something new every single day,” she admitted. “I’ve always hated when I’ve felt like I’ve hit a brick wall with the jobs I’ve had. In the past, I’ve felt like there was nothing more to learn, and that’s when I’ve lost that zest. “Plus, this is not a position I ever saw myself being in when I entered the workforce, so that’s allowed for me to grow in so many different ways. Every day, I learn so much, and I really do love that,” Conway explained. “It’s been a blessing during my first year and I really can’t wait to keep moving forward because we have so many terrific events on our schedule for this spring and summer.” Conway joined Kurt Zende (president) and Mike Howard (vice president) just over a year ago. Read the full article