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roguerambles · 1 year ago

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AHHHHHHHHH WRITER'S BLOCK IS DRIVING ME CRAZY--sorry I'm yelling

#I wanna write more Tekken x Reader #I've got a Part II for King kicking around my head #and I also want to try my hand at some Baldur's Gate III stuff maybe with my tavs #and I've also got Jax from Mortal Kombat on my mind...#but I hate everything I try and put down #writer's block #fanfic

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lil-binuu · 2 months ago

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20/3/25 update!

okay so i’ve thought a lot about this and i think i just need to step back from this for a while

i’ll still be active, but i’m not going to be producing anything for the time being? :( i wish i could and if i do it’s a miracle istg

this is just because i thought i would be able to balance this and my personal and real life priorities but i can’t :/

however i really need to say thank you to everyone who was here for me and made this past year so special for me i’ll never forget it because it means so much to me ❤️

if anyone wants to talk please do i’m not disappearing forever!!

i’m also kind of stepping away from the fandom slightly and i’m losing more and more time to real life and uni and studies now so it makes sense

i’ve been dealing with quite a bit of stuff recently but all is okay please don’t worry!

i really thought that i could do this yall but i wanna say for the time being i can’t

maybe i won’t ever come back to this but it’s okay because this was always so important to me and you guys will always mean so much to me 💞💕💕

thank you so so so much for making this space so amazing and having so much fun with me and supporting me till the end 💗

i’ll be honest, everything from the past is now kind of bland and i can’t keep trying to relive it because it’s becoming more bitter than sweet.

thank you, seriously, i mean it, for staying with me through everything and i know how it feels to see someone go and i hate to do it but i think it’s for the best that i stop holding out on this and instead just be honest and straightforward that i need to step back and maybe take the next path properly without constantly looking back

ykwim?

i just feel like sometimes it’s better to accept that it was amazing but that it’s over

anyways luv y’all as always and i’ll never stop ok? i’ll never forget the times we had cos y’all are seriously my friends and family here❤️

I LOVE YALL SO MUCH thank you for being here and sharing this with me and making it so special

~ binuu 💕

oop forgot to tag ppl 😭

@xzhdjsj @belladonnadawn @meraki-kiera @peppymintdreams @xxminxrq @dollsprincesa @xxluneilaxxaus @penelopesbaby @shellythecrumpett @souvlia @skrunklebink @rayy2191 @fleurinasblog

#i genuinely love y’all so much you guys mean so much to me #but this is just for the best #i hate feeling like y’all are waiting on me to come back as if everything is the same but the truth is it’s not 💔#maybe in the future we can try something again?#i feel like i’m also partly saying goodbye to the man i started this account for 💀#zsakuva elias #elias x reader #zsakuva #sakuverse #zsakuvafandom #elias zsakuva #fanfic #binuu’s updates #binuu’s retiring yall 🫶 it’s time for me to put the phone down 😭

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seagreenstardust · 11 months ago

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Anyone still calling late game Katsuki an abuser in 2024 is just not paying attention. Full stop.

#bkdk #bakudeku #every time I see an anti post they try to define bkdk shippers as just masking their hate of Izuku #or as inappropriately labeling them as childhood friends and that being the basis of the whole ship #or as of acting on the hand hold scene LIKE KATSUKI DID FOR ELEVEN PLUS YEARS IN CANON without realizing that it went sour that first time #or as abuse apologists #they like to whittle katsuki down to the black and white bully even now #in 2024 #after everything he’s done #all the growing #they like to whittle Izuku down to a helpless child who can’t find it in himself to stand up for himself #even though canon Izuku not only tolerates Katsuki’s moods #he appreciates him and understands him #and finds joy in being around him #literally I get it if you see them as platonic only #that’s so super chill and an excellent dynamic #but people throwing hate at bkdk shippers only ever out themselves as not understanding or comprehending or even knowing the source material #at all #on the surface Katsuki yells at izuku for literally nothing and it definitely rubs you the wrong way if you are only paying surface level #attention #but after dvk pt 2 he literally only yells because it’s familiar #it’s easier to respond that way than to cope with the guilt that’s eating him alive whenever he sees how happy Izuku is just to be around h #he’s flustered #he’s got a crush #but doesn’t have the emotional intelligence to understand what it is or how to deal yet #Katsuki Bakugo is a flawed character who puts in the work to change and if you’re not acknowledging that you are not paying attention #anyway #lol the post a while ago that said ‘if you ship bkdk just admit you hate Izuku and move on’??????#lol I love him so much AND I ship bkdk because canon tells me that’s what he wants #at least I’m paying attention enough not to think he has to be babified

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limonjarritos · 5 months ago

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WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU GUYS DON'T LIKE HARU?! Who else does it like her?

#beastars #beastars haru #beastars melon #beastars manga #beastars spoilers #NO WAY I SEE PPL SAY THEY DONT LIKE HARU #no like accident rabbit?#no but seriously i think a lot of haru hate comes from a fundamental misunderstanding of her character #and a lack of understanding that legoshi operates on a weird plane of existence no one else does! haru rightfully calls him out on how #much he doesnt make sense. shes allowed to also have wants and needs and struggles #shes also not informed of all legoshi goes through and has to ask him point blank to open up. she accepts him eating louis leg #like not hesitation. shes given the full story and everything. she is willing to try and understand legoshi bc she wants to understand #haru is also an herbivore who thought her worth was literally just in sex. she lived life knowing shed just die eventually.#shes so so interesting and complex! tho i do blame the author for not giving haru the proper screentime!#she didnt have enough time! and she has even less time in the anime! but she operates on thinking her existence isnt important #on wanting to be the one special white rabbit as well. shes conflicted idk!!!#shes also blunt and puts her foot down when needed liiiike #tag rant over

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good-to-drive · 11 months ago

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It's competitive but I think my favorite Conan anecdote is when he told his therapist "Everyone hates me, they think I have no talent and they wish I would just go away," and his therapist said "That's called negative self-talk and you have to realize it's just the depression talking" and Conan said "Self-talk? I'm just quoting my latest review!"

#I know this sounds like a joke and it is but apparently it also really happened #Conan was telling his therapist he felt like everyone hated him and his therapist was trying to convince him it was all in his head #and he was like everything I just said was a direct quote from a review #this was at his lowpoint when he was like a hair's breadth from getting fired and the press was absolutely eating him alive #gotta respect a guy who's forced to eat shit on national TV and gets absolutely humiliated and ground into the dirt by someone he trusted-#-and he doesn't even bitch about it he just gets right back up and gets a new show and becomes even funnier #like he fully understood that his legacy wasn't about being liked it was about a) treating people right and b) being the funniest man alive #and he did both of those things and continues to do both of those things so I think he's going to be fine #or as he put it “I've been up and I've been down but I have a certain skillset and I'd like to be of use for as long as its viable”#I think he's letting go of acclaim at this point... or that's the impression I got from the nyt piece #not that he's not grateful but he no longer sees it as an objective or even an accomplishment to be loved and acclaimed #it's more about the act of creation and the creative output itself bc that's the part that continues to matter thirty years later #conan o'brien

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chucapybara · 4 months ago

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shitting myself over mavu's character story 5 what do you mean mavuika genuinely does not see it as necessary or something she would or ever need to do, speaking of your sadness and the way the years you left behind have burrowed and carved out a space that could never again be filled. what do you mean you choose to remain at a distance and to speak fondly of the things that make you smile but rarely if at all of the ones that stir the depths of your heart, where only a hollow cavity sits. mavuika sweetheart beloved sunshine, do you not know the beauty of sadness—that it is to be shared, for the burden to be made light? to shoulder the weight of your pain and the loneliness and the resignation that the life you led is gone and everything truly familiar to you could never again be—

#🌑 chuca rambles #mavuika you ruin me. utterly #i think i felt a piece of me just break off #god why is she like this. i hate her (painfully and endearingly)#agonising this woman. infuriating #i just want to take her by the shoulders and yell at her for being an idiot sandwich trying to play atlas #you're so loved. god you are so loved in the past present and future #come sit at the table. put your strength down. we're sitting here with you #i'll peel you oranges and you can speak of anything and everything and i'll kiss you soft in the in betweens #or say nothing at all but god. never just hold on to it #d'you think she holds on so tightly to the memory of those she loves in her mind #because it's something she never wants to see changed by time like she was #to hold everything in those precious moments as they were and always would be #i need mavuika to just cry fr. kiss her tears away and everything #just let her feel

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selfinflictedgunshotwound · 11 months ago

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sorry for only saying this type of shit lately but i kinda wanna drive a car straight into a brick wall at the highest speed possible

#trying to keep it together so bad because i already know the problems and solutions and whatnot but i cannot do anything #i desperately just need to do something. accomplish any task. actually several would be nice. but i cannot stand just letting life go by #while i watch other people have the things i want. or even metaphorically living my dream like. that should be me why am i settling for thi #i hate even talking about this because i feel so stupid when i know it's not even a real tangible problem and that i actually DO have real #problems to tackle and the ability to do so but i'm choosing to be upset over the stupidest things i could possibly be sad about #and i can't even be sad about it in a normal way i'm cycling through like several different reactions to smth that isn't even real #or if it is real i literally do not have tanglible evidence for it one way or another like i'm driving myself insane for no reason #i can't even get catharsis because all i'm doing is digging a deeper hole for something i never should've gone back into in the first place #because i KNOW how i am i KNOW how i react to things and i still chose to do it lmao.#and i continue to choose to go through this shit instead of actively trying to change my life because... i'm lazy? and stupid? idk #negative self-talk isn't gonna get me to do anything either so let's just say i'm feeling particularly unmotivated like usual #i hated being a teenager but i really do miss when all my problems just amounted to 'someone was mean to me on tumblr today :(' or i failed #a test in chemistry or something. like i yearn for that simplicity becasue at this point all i'm doing is ruining my own life LMAO #i'm too scared to live i'm too scared to die so i just sit here and fantasize that life could be amazing if i wait #and i'll magically get everything i've ever wanted if i just wait long enough. and i know it isn't true and i still wait for it to happen.#because honestly like. i think deep down i am just convinced i will fail at anything i do when that shouldn't be what scares me.#what scares me should be never even allowing myself to fail because i never tried to do anything at all with myself or my life #like. wake the fuck up. get off your ass and put in the effort. learn some skills. gain independence and stability and discipline and do it #just live please i'm begging you just live so i can be happy don't i deserve to be happy... why am i not letting myself be happy #i'm literally keeping myself trapped in this negative feedback loop ON PURPOSE because teehee shiny toy #and it doesn't matter if the love is real it doesn't matter how i feel like i'm just using it as a distraction i can't say it's motivation #because it's barely motivated me at all. i have to start being realistic. 25 & just realizing you actually have to participate in your life #anyways. i've cried i've agonized i've pictured killing myself in 30 different ways. i think the only way i'm gonna feel better is #to just actually try this time without giving up. wish me luck

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wereh0gz · 9 days ago

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There's a lot of things I wanna improve with my art IN THEORY but at some point I got so tired of trying and "failing" to learn certain skills that the mere thought of actually DOING it makes me wanna throw my drawing tablet against the wall. I need to fix that

#isa barks #like i want to learn how to draw environments and improve my rendering and texture and all of that #but i'm so terrified of any perceived failure that i feel like i can't leave my comfort zone anymore #even tho when i was younger i was much more willing to at least try doing an environment or scene or something #even if it didn't turn out exactly how i wanted it #and i know it helped me improve! there's a few older pieces that i looks back on and am still very proud of!#but i just don't do that anymore. i'm sticking to just character drawings and it's not really helping #i think part of it too is feeling like i don't have the time or energy to put into it #the idea of drawing a big piece with a background more complex than a gradient with a few shapes feels like too much right now #i wanna have fun and broaden my horizons but if i take too long my brain will start hating everything abt it #i feel like that happens with my writing too in a way. and writing always takes a long time for me so #anyway. yeah #eventually i want to take some time and find a resource for learning these sorts of things that's easy enough for me to understand #and actually sit down and practice stuff and study artists i admire and like. actually learn new things #i just wish i wasn't so exhausted all the time

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ambersky0319 · 2 months ago

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Store managers said even a few minutes overtime will be a write up

I'm calling bullshit

#i work in a fucking deli you think im getting everything i need cleaned in exactly 2 hours?#on a slow day yes bc guess what im not helping customers til 8 #but on days like today where we have a sale? and are pretty busy??? fuck no #and! itd be so much easier if we could shut things down even just slightly early (even 30 min could help)#but nooooooo #wednesday when i close imma shut down one of the slicers at like fuckin. 5. (start earlier) cause thats what slows me down #after 8 when i gotta sharpen then clean them all on top of putting food away. collecting dishes. wiping down counters and scales #wiping glass. the wing bar. the whole bird case. sweep. spray the floor. scrub it. then push all the water into drains #or idk do very quick cleanings of the slicers. SOMETHING to speed it up by 8 #if i somehow do get a write up im gonna call up my union rep and see if a literal few minutes overtime to finish cleaning is fine #bc its either a few minutes overtime or some shit don't get done (like my cook today didnt get to do her floors cause she was #cooking until 7 and it takes a while to clean the fryers on top of all the other dishes. machines. counters and WALLS. and the back floors!)#my coworkers have claimed the union does jack shit and maybe thats true. or. there is a chance they just werent fucking annoying about stuff #cause like. i get it the store doesnt wanna pay overtime. then it should give enough time for us to PROPERLY do our job #otherwise itll be half-assed and people will get written up for THAT instead #and id get it if theyre annoyed if youre like. 20+ minutes overtime #but fucking 5 minutes? or even just 1 (as manager warned/threatened)???? if i do get overtime for those minutes i guarantee its barely #anything considering i get paid 15.50 an hour #anyways. im pissed off. and skipping asl tomorrow even if i risk the administrative drop #im skipping the day of that deadline but my grades are decent (a B that I can turn to an A so long as I don't miss more assignments)#so im not too worried. if my professor asks i will say i was incredibly sore (true. my arm/shoulders/back/legs/feet hate me rn)#as well as exhausted (also true. i got home at 10:30 its currently 11 and im wound up so i definitely wont be getting to sleep for a while #and i dont fancy trying to do asl on like. 5 or less hours of sleep with a sleep-and-magnesium (i forgot to take the vitamin) deprived brain #anywho hope yall have a better night 👍#amber's shit you can ignore

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jackass-jones · 4 months ago

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Yeah the mouthwash game is pretty good

#the klock keeps ticking #gonna have to stew on this one a lot and probably go back from the beginning and analyze everything #but uhm. damn it goes so hard #just some things I WAS able to pick up that I wanna highlight #the whole ‘take responsibility’ thing has so many meanings but the way jimmy avoids responsibility for everything thats his fault #and takes responsibility for all the wrong shit like taking on the captain role after the crash and his ‘reckoning’#is him so not getting it at all and taking it upon himself to ‘save’ curly #he really does go ‘i learned my lesson’ while not learning shit its so good god #its so infuriating how it ends and its so good and it hits too hard ugh #i love the way curly is portrayed like he does seem like a nice well intentioned guy and a good leader #but like. everyone except anya is a man. so first off we cant say hed be as well regarded if more women were around #and the way he enables jimmy its too real like. he personally hasnt seen jimmy be that way so oooh #surely he cant be beyond reasoning with surely he just needs someone to talk to #its a very good subtle way of showing complicity cuz curly really isnt ill intentioned but he doesnt grasp the severity #and anya is trapped in this really unsafe position and her other coworkers are a kid and a drunk #also the way she acts around jimmy in his pov where shes like praising him is like #can be interpreted as her being scared of him and trying to stay on his good side #or jimmy being full of himself so his image of her is warped as some damsel fawning over him #and the way curly post crash cant speak or move he can just watch with one eye #and he in a very fucked up sense ‘takes responsibility’ for not putting his foot down with jimmy cuz he watches the guy be a horrible #captain and he literally experiences frequent assault cuz oooghh god the painkillers oof #their dynamic is very well written just the resentment and adoration jimmy feels is so fucked #he wants to be the biggest man he sees curly as the cake at his special party #forces curly to eat his own leg saying ‘someday he’ll thank me’ UGHHH #also the mouthwash itself symbolizes a lot of shit ive not gotten to think about yet but honestly one of the hardest hitting parts of the #game for me is the reveal that the stuff these people were risking their whole lives to ship was just. mouthwash. poor quality too #like stopppp its too real like we’re supposed to devote our lives to capitalism and kill ourselves for it and its literally for something so #so fucking worthless like you put everything into this but you contribute nothing to society #im def hitting the tag limit so ill finish with. curly in the cryo chamber absolutely going to die and the credits rolling #jimmy is so stupid and you know hes kissing his own ass for this and will survive i hate it its very good

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xoiue · 4 months ago

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im a fan? fan behavior? hell yeah. hell yeah i am

#or maybe i just genuinely enjoy this litte thing. what abt that?#wdym im meat riding cause i expressed an interest in smth???#im over here trying to express my interests n im being told that im “dick riding like crazy”??? for liking music???#yk what id rather ride her nonexistent one than yours actlly. id pick hers over urs ANY DAY #“the dick riding craaazy” gtfo noone was tlking to u at all learn to mind ur business. not everything ur big ahh ears pick up is ur busines #srry that last comment's diabolical im js tired the guy like who r u?? u aint all that but mayb u r the bag of chips with them pringle ears #im sorry im feeling hateful i need to put down the phone now

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satancopilotsmytardis · 1 year ago

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As someone who took a four year hiatus from a fic and worked on other things in the meantime before coming back to the fic: it's good that you're not burning yourself out by forcing yourself to finish one fic before starting another.

Keep up the good work! ✨️

Thank you! I'm pretty good about allocating my time and only working on things when I'm ready to. I know how sharply my writing quality tanks when I force myself to work on something I don't want to. Thank you for the encouragement!

#i did try to work on Changing Currents last week and it took me 6 hours to weite 2k (i can usually do 1k in 45 minutes)#and i fucking hated everything i wrote during that session so i decided to put it down again #tanco speaks #ask #asks

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gilgil-machine · 6 months ago

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