#but also bc the make my heart ache

[mechawolfie]

if i message you & it’s like 5 am it’s because if i don’t say what i’m thinking withing seconds of thinking it the thought goes to the shadow realm leaving a gaping hole in my psyche until i get distracted by smth else (usually gay thoughts) i genuinely dont expect u to reply immediately so dont even worry abt it

[blobpsycho]

This gif perfectly encapsulates what I love about Tome. All girls have been this gif. Like remember having undiagnosed mental issues and your family makes you go on an outing that should be fun but you’re just pissed off constantly because youre a 14 year old girl? Tome gets it.

Like YOU’RE GOING SOMEWHERE TO DO SOMETHING THAT SPECIFICALLY PERTAINS TO YOUR INTERESTS. But youre a 14 year old girl and nobody will ever take you seriously and you’ve just got this pit of hopelessness in your stomach despite the fact that nothing is technically wrong

so even though youre on an outing planned for you you can’t shake the feeling that everyone is just making fun of you for being so upset over seemingly nothing. These are your friends and family, you deep down they wouldnt do that, but why else would they go out of their way?

They certainly wouldn’t do it for you, right? I mean nothing’s even technically wrong. You’re just being a crybaby and they all must think youre just being a dramatic teenage girl. And you are and you know that you are so why can’t you just get over it and be normal?

And when you finally can’t take the pain that’s screaming in your chest because everything feels wrong wrong and everything is going wrong and everything is wrong wrong wrong you can’t help but cry. And you’re embarrassed and you’re furious and you’re supposed to be mature and you’re supposed to not care but you cry.

Crying feels worse than the growing internal discomfort did because now everyone is looking at you. They’re staring in uncomfortable suprise at what you’re sure is the most unsuprising sight in the world - a 14 year old girl crying. You want to go home but you can’t. You’re 14. You can’t do anything on your own.

You react to the terrifying ordeal of being reacted to the only way you know how - with anger. You monologue through hot tears and sobs and snot how you didn’t even wanna be here and how you just *know* everyone is just doing this to make fun of you and how they should just go on ahead and leave you wherever you are (you know this can’t happen. They wouldn’t leave a 14 year old girl somewhere unfamiliar on her own) and something in you hopes that they’ll yell back, that they’ll treat you like you’re irrational and make you feel justified in your anger.

…But that doesn’t happen. The silence persists but you realize that it’s more contemplative than judgemental. They’re not afraid of you, though you think they should be. Rather than letting them say something sentimental about caring and being concerned or any sappy bullshit that will only serve to make you cry more, you wipe your face on your sleeve continue on your journey.

The day gets better. After everyone gathers that no, you don’t wanna talk about it, it almost feels like nothing happened to begin with- besides the slight exhaustion you feel every time you blink and the intense stress sweat you choose to blame on anything else.

By the time you get home, the day is mentally logged as a good day. You decide - albeit tentatively - that maybe you’re going to be ok. Maybe you won’t be a 14 year old girl forever.

You go to bed and have the best sleep you’ve had in months.

[obihoe]

aughhhh, he is literally so babygirl to me ..

[kitsunabi]

I keep reading the lore and like I am absolutely doubling down on the idea that DF in the animation is 100% not the actual personality of DF. It contradicts like all the lore we’ve received of him.

It is 100% a representation of DH’s personal fears and viewpoints as shaped by his time in the Shackling Prison and skewed perspective from the ones who inundated him with the knowledge of the crimes of his predecessor

[these-written-reveries]

Guys can I confess a little secret to y'all? If you know me it's probs not a big surprise but shhh, just listen...

Sometimes...sometimes the male characters I like give me the ick. And it's been happening more often with 2 particular clown characters 👀

If you know me, you know I identify as lesbian/queer, so like DUH. But I find it interesting that it's happening more often. Basically with any characters played by real people. I think the comphet in me is slowly dying, guys. It kinda worries me bc I don't wanna lose the special love and connections I have with these characters, but I can't help itttt my lesbian brain thinks they're icky sometimes guysss 😭

You know who's never given me the ick tho?

✨ Anime boys ✨

They're the furthest from being real men so obviously me likey 😍 They're pretty and not too realistic and they got the masculine look/energy that makes my heart go 💓 (I'm talking to you, Bakugou Katsuki, Kirishima Eijirou, and all the other MHA boys that have me in a chokehold). It's honestly a match made in heaven.

I guess I should've known the comphet wouldn't be able to stand the test of time. The beast is growing weaker inside me. After all this time, I see it as an old friend, and I am sad to see this happen. I salute you, old pal. You've made my life hell in many ways, but what would I be without you?

Gayer. Definitely gayer. But I digress...

I'm being so silly 🤭 but forreal guys, idk what to expect of my future with these characters I've long considered to be f/os of mine. I don't think my love for them will ever fully fade away, but I feel myself growing more distant from them 🥺 I used to be able to overlook the icky parts and now I can't ignore it as easily 😭 this is supposed to be a good thing for me and here I am all pouty and sad about it pfft but I'm sure the self shippers out there will somewhat understand. These have been my comfort characters for a long time. I don't wanna lose the bonds I've formed with them 🥺

Anyway, I'm still totally cool with writing for these characters, I enjoy it so much still. But as for my personal relationships with these characters...the connection feels a little weaker these days 😔 but that doesn't mean it's the end! I might wake up in a few weeks head over heels for them all over again. Guess we'll see, huh?

If you read this far, thanks for helping me carry the burden of this very serious confession. I'm afraid the weight of it was too heavy to bear alone for a moment longer. It had to be said 😭🤭

[lqcb97]

[randomositycat]

Rikuson chapter continues

I just love my baby boy i want better for him

[hella1975]

need to know ur thoughts on phoebe bridgers day after tomorrow

too many thoughts about it usually i compartmentalise songs into ‘this hits bc it relates to real life’ and ‘this hits bc it relates to The Blorbos’ and depending what mood im in and what’s on my mind i lean towards one or the other, but oh my god???? the themes of conflict and homesickness and a (presumably young) soldier writing home???? that is so applicable to so many fandoms?? ‘and it’s so hard… and it’s cold here’ while im at UNIVERSITY???? insanity i have to skip this song sometimes genuinely

[frillyfacefins]

In retrospect it's kinda funny that my porny MST3K-style Lucifer/Lilith/Paimon fic has them making fun of not just an A24 production, but the appearance of the A24 logo leads to this little exchange:

He took a first sip of what turned out to be a vodka-and-coke as a silent black-and-white logo for something called „A24“ came on, followed by some more artsy-fartsy logos and then white text on a black background.

„Oh damnation, don‘t tell me this is one of those arthouse movies…“ Paimon groaned into his chalice. „Hush, dear boy,“ Lucifer said, patting his knee. „You are sure to like this one.“ He rolled his eyes, then he read the text. Old lady, bla bla bla, beloved wife, devoted mother, cherished grandmother, funeral, burial, whatever. While the text was just hanging on a black background for way too long, a weird loud noise began to sound from the background, only to be immediately silenced when the image changed to a tree house. „I swear, if you are making me sit through some Canne bullshit, I am going to be exceedingly pissed, my King…“ he grumbled, earning himself a little pinch to his thigh. They were in something like an atelier for doll houses - obviously the abode of a complete psychopath - and soon the camera stopped at one of them and slowly, slowly, slowly started to zoom in. Paimon was about to bitch some more about how he did not want to sit through whatever piece of crap Sundance had shit out that year, when the doll house room suddenly became a real room with a teenage boy sleeping inside of it.

[nomazee]

i need people who write midoriya x reader to write about him with the intensity and complexity of the people who write midoriya character study fics on ao3

[zaras22]

I miss her

[boyghcst]

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[orcelito]

Really is a coping kinda night huh lmao

[elegyofthemoon]

i miss exploring areas and unraveling stories by exploring :/

[ehslye]

**DO NOT REBLOG (please or I’ll cry)

i need u to all look at @theswell’s drawing of jelly rn

[stinkrascal]

in theory i could go back to posting straud legacy while i work on the vlad/brie backstory reprisal but i’ve already told myself i don’t want to go back to my legacy until after the backstory reprisal is done bc it gives important context to my legacy. but still :-( i miss my sims so much