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bennettarthur · 4 months

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I wish I could take this pain from you. I wish we didn’t share it. I wish it didn’t choke me, burning and dark like ashen smoke, blinding me from everything that might have saved me.

I wish I could have you back.

I do too, love.

#just role(play) with it #jrwi arthur #jrwi rp #in character #jrwi the suckening #arthur jrwi #jrwi #jrwi suckening #jrwi show #jrwishow #ooc i hope yall know my aromantic ass is puking a little #in character it isn’t romantic not really #but god it feels a little too close

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hinamie · 1 month

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i don't normally participate in these redraw challenges but it's megumi so i'll make an exception

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #megumi fushiguro #fushiguro megumi #fanart #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #jjk megumi #megumi #looks at clock UHHHHHHHH oops #i got lost in the sauce that is rendering his gd chin and under his lips.... ive been in stylized anime mouth land 2 long i fear #i had forgotten how much of a pain those shadows are :'>>> eSP at a lookdown angle #fought a bit but little did he know i spent years doing coloured pencil portraits. this is My domain #god but the rest of the skin render was so FUN i love . warm grey in2 brown in2 red/orange fr the deep underneck shadow #lip tint heavy blush freckles glossier model fushiguro megumi...........im a believer i fear #had a bit of a hard time finding a middle ground between how i normally draw his hair and a more Realistic take on it #the model in the og has hair that's pretty close but i think the strands r a bit short n too heavily curved fr my tastes #its my brand im afraid i simply must give itfs both longer hair #nothing else feels Right #but god i underestimated how Good this photoshoot is as megu material . i get the hype now i get it #i did the sketch n i looked at it and i had an oh /oh/ moment #smh megumi put those lustrous emerald orbs away before u hurt some1 #his gaze is too powerful . slaps a red bg on him makes him my new icon :)#anyway its 6am it is morning time do i sleep fr like 3 hrs or do i say megumi voice Whatever we shall see

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m-ete0ra · 2 months

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—————Beachside Dreams: The Start of Forever —————

It’s the wonderful @bunnions BIRTHDAY YALL (July 13) so from the bottom of my heart I wish her the happiest birthday, CHEERS 🥂 To one of the prettiest, kindest woman I’ve met. And you should celebrate her too!!!

She commissioned me a a little bit ago and when I heard the idea it hit me just right in my heart, loving partners and a romantic love story and I am super excited because it challenged me once more, but I also feel like I could make someone’s wish come true on their birthday 🥳 because she deserves the world and more on her special day💕🤲

And of course is it a m-ete0ra commission if you don’t find the Easter egg!? Find it if y’all can! Hint: it’s hidden in the background…. Or is it…

#sappy ahhhh mete0ra #☄️ ora talks #katsuki bakugou #bakugou x reader #I know I draw him a lot but every time I do I feel like I make one so very happy which is why I will never stop #Happy birthday to my most wonderful friend #May we be friends in every universe #bnha x reader #bnha commission #BARK BARK AT BUNNIONS BECAUSE WE GO FERAL ON DISCORD #Voted gods little lamb most likely to be slaughtered (cult of the lamb references)#I wanna believe that after they kissed they bumped foreheads #CANON I MAde it canon #bakugou grips her waist way to tightly like bunnions might disappear #OMG YALL NEW IDEA #HIS RING GETS STUCK ON HER HAIR AT THEIR WEDDING #BECAUSE HE CANT NOT HOLD HER CLOSE CUZ SHES AO MUCH MORE THAN HE DESERVES #HES AFRAID OF LOSING HER #LOSING HER…… To me MUAHHAHAHA (EVIL GREMLIN LAUGHJ #happy birthday bunnions #may we celebrate next year together too #❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year

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i love having cats. there's just a Little Guy in my house that i can go annoy when i'm bored

#she's my bestie she's my nemesis she's my comedy partner she's my little meow meow #i poke her she smacks me #i say hi she makes an unholy noise in return #i crochet she sits in my lap and watches #i freak out bc theres a spider & she eats it #and when i keep my door closed for more than five seconds she yowls and scratches like she's been exiled #she truly is The Most Cat Ever #except also not bc she acts more like a person. shes too smart #absolutely unprompted #sorry im just feeling Affection for my small ginger menace #she is currently crouching on the rug trying to Entice me into shenanigans #ohhhh nvm she just brought one of her toys into the room. she wants me to throw it so so badly #get you a cat who plays fetch #and Wont Stop Staring oh my god i can feel her eyes boring into the back of my skull #she's just staring at me from the hallway. menacingly #her tiny murder paws.... her weirdly strong tail that hurts when it slaps me in the face... big ol ears... pink nose... She <3 #i've never had a cat with such a strong personality #sorry *purrsonality #her range of expressions and vocals... unparalleled #helped me carry a bit for a full five minutes a lil bit ago #meowed back in all the right places with the right tone #she knows whats up <3

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heyitsphoenixx · 7 months

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never have I related more to ame than in this ep and that’s saying a lot

#wbn #worlds beyond number #all the little social missteps that build up into a literal explosion #that fucking insight check at the beginning.#I have once again been Too Seen #like what good is it being so insightful and curious about the world if no one else will go there w you #also the feeling of being a trapped animal and feeling the cage walls closing in on you and just having to Act #I understand everything suvi did and my heart breaks for her #but god damn. I would be ame lol

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nomairuins · 23 days

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i like overthink everything now it makes me feel so dumb. i used 2 be able to just talk 2 ppl but nowadays every single thing im like Is that actually going to make them hate me. Yes probably. and then i just dont respond which makes ppl hate me. this is how it is

#ive been overthinking 1 light and casual mildly funny response to something but im worried itll come off as disrespectful and dismissive And #make me seem stupid and uncaring all at the same time. and also be seen as insulting. but like idt itd be insulting right like. im not #saying what it is so ig for all you guys know im like I mean if i say All your shit suck ball and i hateit kys. <- thats not the thing i was #going to say #like it doesnt matter now the window for response is closed now but i feel stupid bc i shouldve just said it it was light and casual. im so #bad at keeping convos gojng im convinced im not going to survive. In like a light and casual way like in a He will not make it through the #winter joke way. dw. im not going to do anything bc i had One failed interaction. if i was going to do anythjng itd be bc of the 8000000 #other failed interactions. But im not. anyways. it just makes me feel so useless 😭 like i want to respond i want to talk to ppl so bad but #i feel like i mess things up Irreparably every time i speak OR i take too LONG overthinking my response and then i just cant respond bc its #been too long and then its been 3 years and the only messages ive ever sent r my intro message and 1 message 2 years ago that nobody #responded to at all. or the conversation stopped immediately after. and like i used to be better at this i was lkke. talkative in a couple #muts servers like. i talked 2 ppl daily in those servers and i had fun and like. I was an important part of the group and i felt like it #but i just feel like such an outsider for Everything and its literally my fault bc i cant just like. Talk. The explosion. bc im always like #im gonna try im gonna do it this time im gonna get it back im going to finally be Good connor and im going to fix it all and make a Good #solid friend group and ill find HEALTHY LOVE and i wont selfsabotage and ill move out and have a job and ill balance it well and ill start #all my hobbies and ill have a great routine and be so loveable and on top of it and not stressed and content and happy and roll with the #punches and then theres a single hiccup and im like Well fuckinf whatever im going to be an unemployed hermit forever and im going to die b4 #im 25 anyways so Who cares and also im digging a little hole for myself. and its like. AUGHH ik i just have to persevere and overcome but #even saying that feels so stupid its not fucking hard its Talking to ppl. like. i literally if ive ever said a word to you i had to think #avt it and strategize how to respond right even for like. like. it makes it sound like its not genuine it is #like for example i want to say hey i love your art! but then i freak out and im like thats not normal thats like a rly generic comment they #hear that all the time theyll thjnk im being polite and my brains like hrmmm rewrite Your art changed my life. It shaped me. Ill never be #the same. Nad im like ok too far overcorrected go back and the sentence generator is like Your art has colors 💯 like. GOD. WHY IS IT SO #difficult. and then usually i either just dont say anythinf and feel awful abt it 4ever OR i send it on anon and then i spend like 15 #minutes ibsessively slightly tweaking the apelling and capitalization and punctuation to make sure it doesnt seem like its me just in case #it Is the worst possible thing to say but then i see the response and itll be like AWWW TYSM :] THIS MEANS A LOT or whathaveyou and i feel #stupid bc i couldve just Told them this to their face and it wouldve been a good positive interaction we had. but instead i had 2 hide and #tyoe entirely differently so they couldnt sniff me from my typing style. and it soesnt even feel like the thanks is actually 4 me bc i #tweaked the message sm. and it still makes me happy that the oersons hapoy but its like. that couldve been a nice mutual interaction #like not that i need a personal ty i compliment ppl when i Want to compliment ppl and when its genuine yk. i dont do it so i get mutualpoint

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carcarrot · 29 days

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9 people i want to get to know better tagged by @bawnjourno thank you pal!!!!! 💖

last song: my baby must be a magician - the marvelettes

favorite color: purple!!!

currently watching: cheers (new) twin peaks (rewatch) night court (new) and movies every dayyy

sweet/savory/spicy: sweet!! if i don't have a sweet little treat i pass away actually

currently playing: not a gamer but im playing a game called august where i make it through every day of august

current obsession: the latest addition to my assortment of goofy guys, slowly collecting vintage clothing and books, even more slowly working on my film screenplay (and documentary idea. and tv show idea .), very very excited for my upcoming vacation to california for the 3rd time in a row! and if i ever repair the dvd drive on my laptop im gonna start making my own dvds of movies with embedded subtitles that dont already have them on a dvd release bc i cant hear!!!

tagging @footnoteinhistory @bicolumbo @starringvincentprice @mariocki @eddie-rifff @jefffreybeaumont @seaofreverie @jellojellyroll and @crystalblast !! no pressure if you dont wanna!

#that song is number one on my on repeat NOBODY look at me . christ #im like. a little over halfway into cheers its fun #guy that says hes watching a show (night court) when hes still only two episodes in. i will watch more eventually i Promise #rewatching twin peaks is incredibly funny at this stage in my life bc i have the horrifying realization that im older than laura palmer #and i also wonder with each episode why in gods name was i watching this as a kid and it was my favorite show. what a time #as someone who watches movies every day letterboxd is great for the fun of logging them. reading reviews not so much #my poor poor screenplay ive been working on this idea for . wow 5 years #vacation is gonna be so fun and its what i really need after a stressful year. california my beloved #my dvd project let me explain. like obviously i can hear but i Need subtitles i am not going to understand what people are saying #and some dvds just don't have subtitles or closed captions which is when i download the movie and the subtitles and merge them into an mkv #right now they're just on a usb but again ideally i plan to make my own dvds #anyway . again don't feel like you gotta do this if i tagged you #and thank u again daley for tagging me!!#AND IF I DIDNT TAG YOU OR FORGOT YOU CAN DO THIS TOO . i should say

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mellotronmkll · 1 month

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I need to stop having one weird reaction with someone and then letting the anxiety decide in my head that the friendship is doomed because I ruined it like it's my absolute worst trait and I just have to move past it but it's hard

#i have to operate under the assumption that if people have an issue they will tell me but unfortunately this isnt true .#and it has happened to me in the past that i thought everything was ok because people were giving signals i wasnt picking up on #due to the autism so now im paranoid and constantly looking for signs i did something wrong and people are mad #and then i find them where they arent there which perversely does more to ruin a friendship than almost anything else #like the constant Are you mad at me... so i try to force myself not to do that and just #try to again assume that people arent however. im so worried about being blindsided Also of course i naturally dont want to make people #upset so if i am doing something wrong i want to change my behavior. however the fact its nuanced like #where you have to only do that a little bit and then take people at their word most of the time #fucking sucks like you actually are required in relationships to read peoples unspoken signals but you cant do that Too much #and if you misinterpet them its bad... but you cant ask for feedback too much because thats bad too. IT DOES MY HEAD IN actually like #it makes it so hard for me to interact with people because im just worried All of the time . and i have to be constantly like #ok check the facts and adjust behavior. check the facts and adjust behavior. make sure the facts are facts and not jumping to conclusions.#ok how do i do that . ok when do i ask directly. also people dont always tell the truth when you Do ask directly .#and then this is why my whole life i have mostly kept to myself and im trying to stop doing that but its hard because talking to others is a #puzzle for me that stresses me out more than anything else. man this sucksssssss can i just BE NORMAL!!!!!!#i know like Everyone has this problem its a common issue with relationships Communication but it feels especislly difficult for me .i #like cant fathom how other people manage very large numbers of friendships like even being able to count my close friends #on one hand i feel like im barely managing everything and im letting everyone down constantly but again i think thatsnonly my perception/#worry and not even true. god

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zel-zo · 2 years

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External 😊 = Internal 😒

Conan Edogawa my beloved

#shinichi kudo #conan edogawa #Case Closed #redraw #screencap redraw #my art #zel-zo #draw this in your style #oh god i have to do the english names too dont i #jimmy kudo #it feels wrong #but hey i have the manga now so #this little shit lives in my head rent free

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archersartcorner · 2 years

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So Starstruck Odyssey grabbed me by the throat and rocketed it’s way to second place campaign for me (TUC still has first in my heart ❤️) but uhm. Can you tell who my favorite character is. It’s definitely not Skip I promise why would you think that-

#okay I like his lil brain slug autistic ass. sue me LMFAO #my art #described #dimension 20 #dimension 20 a starstruck odyssey #a starstruck odyssey #norman takamori #skip takamori #prince valdrinor #before I got to the last episode I was thinking up an au where Norman and Skip learn to coexist symbiotically in the body. then the finale-#-came around and was like ‘HEY THATS CANON ACTUALLY’ and I’ve never felt more satisfied in my LIFE THEY LEARN TO LIVE TOGETHERRRRRR #I was thinkin of the fact that the sorta fatherly desires came from Norman. and Massive Daddy Issues Skip. put those two together and-#-what if Norman just adopted the little slug that was sharing his body with him. whabbout that #I just like the idea that they become close like OUGH inject close Norman and Skip directly into my bloodstream thanks #I wanted to draw Skip more like a slug too so. slug boy. I gave him eyes just cus I wanted to give him a lil more expression but he still-#-can’t physically see. they’re more useful for his psychic/life sensing but he has no physical sense of sight through them #he’ll come out of the body sometimes cus he knows Norman and the crew will keep him safe. and after spending so long in the cold he-#-enjoyed the warmth and safety the folks on the wurst provided him.#I feel so many things about Skip good fucking god HE’S A SLUG AND I LVOE HIM #skipperskip

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totheidiot · 6 months

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i hate that the solar eclipse just now serves as a reminder that nobody loves me.

#🍂 arian's shit #IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL AND NOTHING HAPPENED. but yeah #i will always think of the solar eclipse i witnessed and think about that #two people one of them my friend the other i thought i could consider my friend but HE PROBABLY DOESN'T GIVE A SHIT.#they both talked and did their things and laughed and they are so damn close to each other it almost made me cry and reminded me that #it was such a profound moment too when i realized what was going on #they were in another world that didn't have me and i get that. i do. they have known each other for a year and i abruptly showed up #two months ago and one of them we are getting close she likes me around #at least i think #the other one he is nice he is supposed to be like this he is nice to everyone that is who he is #so what is happening: he is completely indifferent to me. most he did was remember my name and face. but he is nice.#i like them both so so much it almosg does hurt when i stood there awkwardly almost like i was intruding #and i realized that i have never not been close to anyone #no acquaintances all the friendships i have had they sre the reason why i live and i know that they live for me too #we have known each other since kindergarten. they held my face and cried and told me that i was love when i was leaving for the last time #they love me. i am sure of it.#but now i don't have anyone near whom i do love. people don't love me. i used to be love.#it also hurts that i am Average Person In The World #i am not funny. i do not have unique quirks. i do not have a single talent.#all i am good for is saying the wrong things all time.#even in my old life i was someone. someone who isn't the same as the person who saw the solar eclipse today and felt all this #i was the idiot. I WAS THE IDIOT. i was the writer person.#i don't feel like any of these things now. they had a thing in common: their capacity to love and be loved.#i love very easily but i am not an easy person to love.#vent post #god this is such a small little thing i am the most pathetic thing in the world #feel free to scroll away don't even read this shit #arian contemplates his universe

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malaierba · 5 months

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Crying over Kinniku and Iromatsu, cry with me @ the "Karamatsu dies and becomes a ghost and does his best to pretend he's still alive" fic (linked as a source)

#Osomatsu-san #mr Osomatsu #fic rec #Karamatsu #so everyone knows kaijuumatsu is the greatest thing since sliced bread to me #thinking about (spoilers) Jyushimatsu realising that he's looking at his dead brother and that the expression he's looking at is the same #expression of surprised terror that Karamatsu wore upon death and that that was the last thing he felt and Jyushi feeling so afraid that he #had to leave the room and KARAMATSU'S HEART BREAKING WITH EVERY STEP HE TOOK because all the saw was his little brother #(the brother that lets him baby him the most too and gosh Kinniku are so tight they vibe so well together) being afraid of him????#i feel ill ILL going insane #and the iromatsu one-sided argument oh my god #Will there ever be a more superior trope than Ichimatsu getting mad at Karamatsu for lying and keeping things from them. i don't think so.#i just think of the pizza skit and how focused Ichi was on Karamatsu revealing his honest thoughts about his stupid his siblings were being #and i think of them in highschool and how it's hinted that they were close until ichi made popular friends and imagine being Ichimatsu and #looking at the ghost of your brother and remembering a time when you were his only confidante and also struggling to remember when was the #last time that he hauled your drunk ass home (one of the few remaining moments of brotherly caretaking that you allow from him as an adult)#AND I FEEL SICKKK I FEEL ILLLLL I'M SHAKING AND CRYING SUDIWHDKWKDJD AAAA hell #((it's such a good fic please read it. please be as abnormal about the IMPLICATIONS as i am too))

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romantically-yours · 15 days

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I just wanna go on dates with her

#thoughts #oni talks #oni has a crush #sapphic yearning #I have a speed dating thing I’m going to with a friend she needs it and I already bought a ticket #but honestly I just wanna go on dates with this one girl but we’re not technically dating so that feels so silly to say #I can’t tell if it’s friendship or slowburn vibes and I don’t wanna rush into things in a toxic U-Haul way but like #idk I just wanna do cute shit together I wanna take care of her when she gets home from stuff and help her work on things #I wanna shower her in all the stuff that reminds me of her and that I think she’d like but also I don’t wanna do too much #I feel like I should not be this committed when we’re not committed but like I wanna be? i can’t tell if I’m being normal or weird #I wanna get her flowers and cuddle and shit man #I wanna do all those romantic tension things like doing each others makeup those practical massages holding hands #lap stuff and like I wanna hear about her day and stuff and I’m just like aaaahhhhh #i wanna see her flustered and happy and also I wanna be buff enough to pick her up without water #I think I’m going a little gay insane I don’t have enough experience to navigate this shit Yall #how the fuck am I supposed to tell where platonic closeness and sapphic closeness begins and ends and shit #my sentimental ass can’t stop associating her and bringing her up but I can’t see her as often now so it’s like ahhh #how am I ready to delete all my dating apps and shit and we haven’t even kissed the sapphic yearning has overtaken me yall #I keep watching sapphic shit as I do and it keeps working me the fuck up send lesbian gods or smth #we just exchanged socials so now I can bomb her with silly little gay memes and she sent me hearts and like #she got me giggling and twirling and kicking my feet and shit

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thaumasilva · 2 months

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sometimes i think my lasting burnout wasn't that bad and should've been cured by now and then i remember there were times in senior year where i'd walk back from my poetry seminar close to psychosis

#t #experiencing absolutely unprecedented levels of magical thinking because the poetry talk got a little too close to theology #straight-up started feeling like a god

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danidoesathing · 5 months

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I agonized over which to pick because I just want to ask about all your fics in progress!! I narrowed it down to two and that's just going to have to be ok

the world is staged and the script is set (you cannot change the ending)

Jukeboxes and Maple Syrup

its very funny you pick those two because those like. two of the only three on that list that ISNT lord huron related lmao. those are both hatchetfield fics ive started in secret. regardless those are the main ones im working on right now SO

the world is staged and the script is set (you cannot change the ending) is a fic based on the ending of TGWDLM where like. you know how in the credits where Emma starts begging the audience for help? and like. you know how in TTO how the audience is also referred to by Bliklotep's title? soooo the fic is the ending but i throw him in the mix and ramp the already existing horror of "begging for help and being ignored a cheering crowd" by going "realizing said crowd has been treating your suffering and death as a source of amusement right before you die". only fun times in hatchetfield

"She stumbles to the edge of the stage. The stitches in her leg have come undone and there’s blood seeping through the bandage. That is real. Emma is real, and she needs to help right now."

Jukeboxes and Maple Syrup is a fic that takes place directly after the end of Yellow Jacket that focuses on Daniel and Sophia like. right after the ending. we dont really see them after the Otho fight and we still have no clue is Sophia is even ALIVE and also i miss them dearly. the fic mostly focuses on Daniel trying not to have a panic attack in Miss Retros because one friend is missing after almost dying and the other is in the hospital after also almost maybe dying and he doesn't really know what to do. Not a whole lot of plot it's mostly him trying to deal with that whole. mess. luckily he's got Miss Holloway and Duke to make things a bit easier (responsible adults? in MY hatchetfield? its honestly only these two but its better than nothing)

"He feels so stupid. Sophia is in the hospital and she might never wake up. Hannah is missing and could be kidnapped or dead or worse. And he’s just sitting here in a cozy diner with pancakes and orange juice, and Hannah’s Jacket but not Hannah and not Sophia."

#you're always welcome to ask again if you wanna see the other ones <- please god im desperate for attention #unfortunately. ive been infected by the alien blue shit (hatchetfield brain rot) sorry #slap my ass and call me paul matthews cause i dont even like musicals but. the silly horror comedy with a side of eldritch fuckery got me #and all the silly little characters got me too. hannah paul holloway duke ethan lex richie emma pete daniel sophia my beloveds #idk how but they managed to make an exact copy of me in 2017. hate his weeb ass (deeply agonized yet deeply affectionate)#i have lots of feelings on hatchetfield but i dont post about it much. or like at all lol #im actually almost done with the world is staged. like really close. just need to finish up the beginning and then clean it up #dani speaks #asks #ask #also fucking with the nmt2 timeline by making miss retros still a thing in yellow jacket despite it taking place after killer track #i want daniel and the kids to have some actual good adults in their life. my timeline now.#(god bless ethan is trying so hard but he is. not good at being responsible.)#i wanted to write about Sophia too but she's like. in a coma #if i ever get a burst of inspiration then i might write a second part following her waking up and being ok and getting panacakes with danie #(and dealing with hannah just. having left hatchetfield overnight without a word)#might be fun who knows

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seilon · 26 days

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pro: ran into a coworker at a bar last night who I don’t really talk to usually (he works upstairs, I work downstairs) and we talked and im pretty sure we were highkey flirting and he bought me a drink and the bar merch shirt i was interested in and thanks to the power of alcohol i guess i asked for his number and he gladly gave it to me and. yeah

con: i have the second worst hangover i have ever had and have been fighting for my fucking life just to eat saltines

#it’s getting better but only now that it’s like. 6pm #as weird as it sounds part of why this sucks is that I volunteered to come into work today cause there’s a concert going on nearby which #usually means we’re at least somewhat busy -> make better tips #and I couldn’t go in because well. you know #I’ve been sick and dying in bed all day unable to move or eat or anything #let alone take the bus and go to work #but. as much as I wish I didn’t go this overboard I don’t totally regret last night cause.#yeah. potential thing going on with cute coworker guy. OH and potential job opportunity at my favorite bar in town #apparently said coworker Also has a job at the bar in addition to where we both work and the bar is hiring barbacks at entry-level #so I have someone to vouch for me and the bartender we were talking to seemed to really want me to apply too #one thing that’s kinda funny to me about all this is that the first two places (a bar then a club) we were at felt really mid because they #were packed with way too many straight people (at a gay bar and a gay club)#but the bar we ended up at (where we ALWAYS end up at. it is the oasis. it is the only thing I can rely on) felt. like. not overwhelmingly #straight? at all? I mean part of it’s just luck in a way with just who happened to be there and all that but it’s also that the staff seem #pretty significantly populated with queer ppl #I complained to the bartender about how the club we were at (one of the biggest gay clubs in the city- if not The biggest) just felt kinda #meh because yeah maybe there were some guys dancing in jockstraps and whatever but the crowd itself like. did not feel largely queer #or at least didn’t have the spirit I’d hope for in a queer space if that makes sense. felt very conventional. not enough wild outfits and #makeup and gender fuckery and so on #and the bartender was like dude I KNOW right? I went off outside there once about the invasion of cishets when this space isn’t FOR them #and so on and so forth. and god that was So real.#so the experience at my beloved bar last night was like. 1) guy comes up behind me just to order a drink but i was saving a seat for my #friend who was in the bathroom and mentioned that in case he was looking to take the seat. chatted a little. ended with him pointing out #that a guy nearby was trying to holla at me.#2) I look over and yes. the dj is. in fact. looking directly at me and mouthing the lyrics to whatever song was playing pointed my way.#it was pretty sweet honestly I think it was partly cause I looked like I was shy and alone #3) whatever gay shit was going on with my coworker and i. amusingly he seems to get more flamboyant when he drinks just like i do.#im not 100% sure what his sexuality is but i Am 100% sure it is Not straight. but yeah. if it hadn’t been so close to closing time ive been #hardcore wondering where that would’ve gone. maybe its for the best that i had to go when i did cause i was pretty drunk and who knows when #I could’ve hit the amount of drunk it takes to like outright say hey just so you know i’d suck your dick right now if you wanted

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