#but i guess that only went too far
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Your art style looks clean,if that makes sense??I don't know art terms.Your art is very detailed and colorful and i can still tell exactly what I'm looking at and how a character is feeling.
Hope this helps!
Feels like I've done this wrong somehow..
#thank you anon!#i made a comparison but#they look the same#i do remember just going#what would i*not* do while coloring#but i guess that only went too far#mumbo jumbo#mumbojumbo#hermitcraft#might as well get those tags in#oh this is the evil art style challenge or whatever it's called#kinda failed but i like the vibes#no i don't know why they're looking at each other like that
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Carpe Diem, Joker Out | Slovenia, Eurovision Song Contest 2023
#eurovision#eurovision 2023#esc#joker out#slovenia#slovenia '23#carpe diem#another one that underperformed I guess#but I'm sure they'll be fine#how have you guys been? today I had an interview for a job I'm pretty sure I don't actually want#it's too far away and it's in 3 shifts#I could do either but both?? we didn't talk actual €€ but I don't think it'll be worth it#driving more than 45 mins to start at midnight?? I don't think so#I got there and the hr person is actually a woman my age I went to high school with (and same university too)#and one of the other women also looked familiar and that's because she went to the same high school too only she's a year older#ofc the job I actually want has been silent since last week when they did confirm they got my resume#idk it doesn't take that long to look at it and conclude I don't fit the profile (and I don't)#and just tell me 'no thank you'
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potentially batshit headcanon, but i think it'd be funny if these two were related somehow.
#i'm inclined to say they're cousins but it'd also be interesting if they were siblings ngl#gustafa hasn't really brought up his own upbringing so far in my playthrough so i'm running hogwild w/ his backstory#i hc that gustafa's parents were classical musicians and pretty strict (very much the types to force what they think is best on their kids)#he felt like the environment was too stifling not only for his music but also his spirit so he left home as soon as he could#he's still proud about his family's history as musicians but definitely doesn't want to raise his kids like his parents raised him#so that's why he's pretty laid back when it comes to raising bea and encourages whatever she loves doing no matter what#wait now that i think about it carter organizes the music festival in mineral town doesn't he?#shit i'm connecting the dots#carter would probably be older than gustafa so i guess he left home as soon as possible too#he just went the route of joining the clergy to get out of town rather than becoming a hippie like gus#imagine going to the next town over to check out their music festival only to be reunited w/ your estranged older bro >>>#you haven't spoken to in like 10+ years#i feel like they'd be okay terms tho they'd definitely bond over how shitty their parents were#okay i'm having fun w/ this headcanon i'm gonna keep it i think#story of seasons#bokujou monogatari#a wonderful life#friends of mineral town#sos awl#sos fomt#sos gustafa#gustafa (awl)#sos carter#carter (fomt)#hc : (sos) awl / fomt#mj.txt
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to clarify some things just because
this is a funny
i cant claim to know what the inspirations for myhouse were aside from, very obviously, house of leaves
yume nikki itself is inspired by lsdde, but i feel like its usage of wordless Suggested storytelling may have influenced my house, where you can try to piece together a story just from the spaces you travel- in yn you have multiple worlds like that, the first that comes to mind being the hit and run.
lsd dream emulator i feel may have influenced my house Independently from yume nikki, particularly with the way levels interconnect and loop back around on one another in a 3d setting
P.T. definitely belongs here like obviously but consider this: i forgor. and itd look weird if it wasnt a triangle. realistically, its Probably an even bigger influence than house of leaves. i mean, it's PT. its PT.
the complete absence, aside from HoL, of house-centric media is not an oversight because despite everything, myhouse really isn't about the house. the "haunted house" isnt the house itself, it's the doom map of the house- the building is irrelevant, what matters is that its the space Tom created. the reason the house's layout repeats itself everywhere isn't because the house matters, it's because that was the layout tom created in the original map that steve decided to update. do you understand THIS? the house isnt alive, the myhouse.wad is alive. there is a distinction and the distinction is crucial. the analog to the house on ash tree lane isnt the house itself, because there is no real world physical house present in the story, since its only about the mod based on said house. the analog to the house on ash tree lane, to This House (skinamarink acknowledgement), to the monster house, is the map.
thank you for coming to my tedtalk. its 6:30pm and i just ate subway after i started my day at 5pm having gone to sleep at 6 something am with a full xanax following a night of drinking red bull. i need to take my magnesium pills to balance my energy.
btw the gay monster house is something i'm doing myself stay tuned for that.
in truth i dont even know if we can legitimately consider myhouse part of houseposting... but i will anyway because it carries the same spirit. even if its about a doom map. like in fiction its about a doom map.
#myhouse#myhouse.wad#myhouse.pk3#if you people saw the original post youll see this too because we're all housefags who are in the tag looking for content that understands#it. and isnt just like WOW. LIMINAL SPACE. speaking of i think the inclusion of the backrooms and the pool area are a detriment to the mod.#at least the backrooms is a funny easter egg bc you literlaly have to noclip.#nothing major and i guess i only think that because i know about the annoying liminal space trends (emphasis on trends) i love that kind of#imagery and was interested long before their explosion in 2020. same with the backrooms. i was there in like 2018 thinking about the post.#before it all went to hell.#then again i experiened the same thing with analog horror.#perhaps nothing is sacred.#at least our little houseposting corner seems safe because to even care at all you need to understand its nuance#though that didnt stop people from ignoring what made the backrooms creepy and just adding levels and monsters to make an scp ripoff i mean#there is literally a wiki with like numbered articles and shit. its wild.#anyway. if youre reading this all the way down here hows it going? good day so far? do me a solid- go listen to a quick one before the eter#al worm devours connecticut. maybe you already know it but its one of my fav songs ever from one of my fav albums from one of my fav artist#not have a nice life in general though they rule but rather dan barrett who also did giles corey and black wing#did you know hes bisexual? its awesome. he made a song called guilt is my boyfriend. its really good. under the giles corey name
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sorry i needed to say this somewhere and my mom isn't home rn so here it goes because this is making me too anxious
#honestly wtf?#i was going back home by bus right#and no one usually gets off in the bus stop where i get off because it's a bit in the middle of nowhere#but it's the one closest to my house so i get off there#and today was the first time i took the bus at this time so it wasn't either of the two drivers that i usually see#and this one was literally shouting 'do i have to stop in the next one?' and people shout back if yes#(which is not usual because there are buttons to ask for the bus to stop anyway but oh well)#so when my stop was the next one she asked and i said yes AND press the button just in case#also note that i was already standing next to the door by this point#but she just passed by my stop and i was like 'excuse me i had to get off there'#and she got SO MAD at me and started saying 'then why don't you answer when i asked?'#and i told her i did respond and she didn't believe me until a woman that was there told her i did in fact say it#so she went on saying 'i'm not going to do this again next time i won't ask and let everyone tell me when they want to get off#because it's already happened to me twice today'#like girl if it happened more than once i think it's nit my fault here yk#and also the next stop after mine is literally in another town so she got mad again because she couldn't go back#(technically she could bc there was a roundabout only a bit further away but she didn't want to anyway)#so she literally stopped IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD. opened the doors and went 'are you going to get off or what? 🤨'#tbh i was so shocked that i didn't even know what to say so i just got off the bus#thankfully it wasn't too far away from my bus stop and there are not too many cars so it was safe i guess#but honestly wtf was that#like maybe i'm overreacting or something becuse i'm so exhausted after 12 hours at uni today#but that's NOT an appropriate behavior#i'm so fucking tired rn and idek how i went through 12 hours of uni with only one 30 minutes break w/o having a mental breakdown#but this was the straw that broke the camel's back#anyway#ranting#venting#random#maca speaks
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*remembers what they did to Vanny* 500 FUCKING PIPEBOMB ATTACK.
#em.txt#WHY#how can you see the fucking absolute fire that is building up & go. 'yeah douse it. now bring back peepaw AGAIN'#BUILD HER UP 2 GAMES EARLY --- & THEN DO NOTHING!!!!!!!!? FUCK#WE CAN'T HAVE WOMEN DO THINGS IN FNAF I GUESS#the company's scop was too big & they developed the game seperately from the environment & made the environment above the game#cut playable vanessa sections. cut vanny appearances.#remove all the plot make vanessa a bitch throw in some invisible walls call it done. 30 dollars now please#security breach isn't just bad. it's not fucking done.#the thing normally with cut content is i can usually agree like 'okay this game cut this but that was a smart choice'#it can be better for time or budget & it can make for better writing.#for instance all the cut content in ahit is neat & as much as i like moonie it's smart to cut his character to build up other ones#& makes for a tighter story & less convoluted area that's more fun to play#when i look at the cut content for security breach their are obvious issues.#it's obvious the company's scope went too far. you built too big an environment. you built the environment before your game.#you prioritized a cool area to the point you expanded the mall from 1 story to 3. do you think that time could have been speant elsewhere#& the other problem is the insane fucking crunch that scott cawthon as a dev placed on himself & others to maintain relevancy#a single person locking themselves ina room for months to stay relevant is fucked. a game studio physically cannot do that.#you see shit in the prerelease like they wanted a bowling minigame a kart minigame a freeroam minigame etc#what about vanny? what did you want with this character? you clearly had something in mind#but we needed to cut it so we can fit in mazercise i fucking guess or chica's bakery or trash heap#here's what we have: less than 1 minute screentime. the 2 vanessa ending comic. that's it#oh wait i forgot. 'vanny. sounds like vanessa & bunny. this cabnot be a coincidence ' & THEN IT NEVER COMES UP AGAIN#princess quest used to be about that bitch in golden freddy you retconned it to be about vanessa SO DO SOMETHING WITH THAT#her whole shit is apparently in service to william afton. why isn't she in the afton fight at all#does she not know he's down there? is he unrelated? does she know she's working for the mimic? is she not working for him?#is she at all related to the fucking bunny from ruin or like what#what about the rainbow hair. what about her tech prowess. what about the cut missing kids only referenced in duffle bag messages now.#fuck you & fuck me as well why can't i be passionate about hvac systems#why's it gotta be this shittass gsme.
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#ok so reflection time#i’ll be honest i didn’t listen to fitf right away bc i had just gotten out of treatment and i was scared to listen to ANY new music that#might trigger any sad emotions and send me spiralling lmao but !#this time last year i was just starting to settle into myself#i went on a great first date and to my first mosh pit (even tho it was an indie band?)#and even tho i don’t rly talk to the person i went on the date w anymore that night will always be so special to me#i went w my bestie too and it was just such a stark reminder of the beauty in life#and when i did finally listen to fitf#it honestly changed me#i was so overwhelmed w pride for louis#like he’s come so far and the music he’s making is not only amazing subjectively#but feels so authentic to him (as much as i can tell that from not knowing him personally anyway)#and like genuinely i never could have guessed how great this album would be if you’d asked me to guess what his solo music would be like#when 1d ended and just#so so grateful for this album and the people it’s brought me closer to#hearing most of it live was insane and amazing and i’ll never forget it ever ever ever#thank u louis for making music ur way and blessing us all w it#the community at large is obviously not perfect but there are some parts of it that just take my breath away#the sense of belonging i felt at his show#unparalleled#he has a way of making ppl feel safe enough to just be themselves#and i admire that so much#when i think about the kind of person i wanna be that’s the first quality that comes to mind#so so grateful rn#ty universe ily#rowyn rambles
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#hi i’m gonna ramble a little feel free to skip over this#i’ve just felt so lonely these past few weeks#like the closest friends i had both went out of town and neither told me and i had to find out through instagram#and like idk if it’s my fault for always being so closed off and not reaching out to ppl more or if they just … don’t wanna talk to me#and i’m happy that they’re doing stuff that makes them happy and that they’re doing well but like#they both have bfs which is fine but that means that they almost automatically have someone else to do shit with#and they have closer friends too so they hang out with them more i guess#all this to say i don’t really have anyone i’m close with so i just … don’t have anyone to do that stuff with#like a coworker was saying they wanted to go to the beach with their cousins or siblings or they went on vacation with friends recently#and the only person i’d wanna do those things with is my mom … and then we can’t go bc we’re broke and have other things to pay#and i wish i could travel on my own but it’s not safe here and ngl i don’t have money to go out of the country besides needing paperwork etc#all this to say that: did i fuck up choosing a bsf in hs that was thousands of miles away that now i don’t have a genuine connection with#anyone in the same area i am?? should i have opened up more to ppl overall?? should i have tried harder??#or is it just fucked up that the only ppl i know who like the same things i like and who bond with me over them live so far away??#like is it me?? am i the problem??#i just wanna go to the beach man … i wanna go on vacation and relax and not think about fucking dying alone#no one even cares about me i swear#if i got fucked up in a car crash or something and landed in a hospital or fucking dead for all i know who would even care
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birdmen isn't a queer metaphor? then why are they all called eggs before they awaken? checkmate
#just thinking thoughts...#stray bird thoughts#to be clear: the English scanlation opted to lean into angelic imagery instead and went with the term 'cherubs' for the unawakened#but the original term in the Japanese text is 'egg'#LMAO I have no clue if the word egg is even used in japanese in that sense#hell I don't even know if the usage of egg within the transgender community goes back that far#most sources online have the term entered into databasesin 2019 though it FEELS like the term's definitely been around for more than 3 year#and obviously birds. I know. I'm jesting#it is simply yet another pin on my corkboard of coincidences that begin to look insane when you stare at it too long#to be fair the only reason I noticed was when I submitted the storyboards for ttt as my final project#and my teacher's notes had the words 'egg motif?' circled next to my draft#and I was like huh yeah I guess there is an egg motif going on#but also. the like. second panel of the manga is a fried egg.#<-deranged man with spittle flying from his mouth jabbing at his stupid queer metaphor corkboard
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#the past 2 nights I’ve had dreams with the guy I kinda have a crush on & went to the same hs/college with (but only had like 1 conversation)#like always my dreams take place in some kind of school setting#first dream was I walked around for awhile till I found one particular classroom that I went into#I then had to do some kind of project in front of the class that involved like acting??? but could have someone else help me#after looking around for a moment/I asked him to help me with my project#so he did/ I had to go to a couple of marks around the room and act out a couple of scenes#he helped out with props and was also like acting alongside with me#in the end after doing all the scenes/we did good and got a good grade#last night was a hella weird dream in the first half#I guess like me and him were like already dating and comfortable together#maybe a bit too comfortable cuz uhh I was in the bathroom in the dream and he was with me… in the stall#idk we were there for a little while and I guess he was just waiting for me#after I was done we walked together to class but uhh the bathroom like transformed into a classroom so we didn’t go that far#we were watching a movie in class and had to take notes I guess#then for some reason I moved away from him and sat closer to the front but my view was blocked by the projector#still can’t get over the fact that the past 2 nights I’ve had dreams about him…#he also recently reactivated his personal instagram account after awhile cuz some sketchy page of a girl was threatening to blackmail him#god… I really do have a crush on him… it was his birthday last week too and he reposted a video his mom posted and he grew a beard 🥰#god I wish I could talk to him and get to know him more but I’m too chicken and too afraid#I think soon I’m gonna talk to my best friends about this and see what they think/say#UGGHHH I really do like him a lot don’t I??? 🥰😖👉🏼👈🏼#jazz uses curse! 💜
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i did know beforehand that seeing cats live was probably gonna do something to me. did i know it was gonna do this? no i did not
#talk tag#like. listen i went through a brief period at the start of last year after i first got into cats where i hyperfixated#but it was NOT this intense#i literally have not listened to anything but the cats soundtrack for the past week#it's the only thing i talk about#i rewatched the 98 movie and then i watched two other productions and i'm planning to watch another one tomorrow#and the only reason i haven't watched even more productions is i haven't found any so far but i'm still on the lookout#it's the first thing i think about when i wake up in the morning#when i'm not listening to the soundtrack i've been walking around the house whispering the entirety of the naming of cats to myself#i was going through really severe persistent art block but i've finished and posted two drawings this week. because of cats.#you know the 'instead of brain there is [thing]' meme? i am living that for real. instead of brain there is cats.#i guess what i'm saying is if you think there's too much cats on my BLOG you should try being in my head#or in a discord server with me. or in my house.#jellicle talk tag
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"all the people who like Charlotte didn't watch the show and are misogynists"
Can't believe I just had to see this take with my own eyes but that's what I get for following the main tags instead of my trusted mutuals
#Cruddy rambles#Listen. Yeah. She got hit with the villain beam in the latter half. But honestly? Valid of her#They treated her like shit the entire first half of the season#Lewis included. She was constantly pushed aside and treated like crap by Cleo who *BROKE UP* WITH THE GUY CHARLOTTE HAD A CRUSH ON#Lewis constantly ditched her. The girls hurt not only her BUT TARGETED HER MOM DURING A WORK EVENT#Yeah honestly she went too far in the latter half of the season but she doesn't deserve the hate she gets#And she didn't deserve what the writers did to her#Remember how she *specifically* asks Cleo if she can spend time with Lewis and Cleo goes 'yeah no problem'#And even after getting her powers and probably realizing what they did to her and her mom she STILL tries to be friends with them#And is treated like absolute shit#'she's so reckless she's using her powers in public' HELLO?????? YOU DO THAT EVERY EPISODE???#You guys almost got Lewis arrested because he had the gall to- let me check- accidentally get the job CLEO GOT HERSELF FIRED FROM#But no *Charlotte* is the one who deserves all the hate in season 2 right /s#Yeah sorry I hated her when I was like 7 because I was SEVEN. And then I got older and realized how horribly she was treated#And how horribly the writers took her character and shoved it into the role of a villain#Her character genuinely did not deserve what she got handed but honestly. She deserved a little vengeance. Seriously.#After what they did to her mom... I would be fucking pissed too. After how Cleo was nasty to her after BEING GIVEN A GIFT. I would've never#Forgiven her. Charlotte was so much nicer than she could've been and she was STILL pushed out of the group#She even took Cleo aside to apologize and ask for permission to go after Lewis WHICH CLEO GAVE. And then STILL treated Charlotte like garbo#Sorry I just. Wow. It's what I get for following the main tags I guess but. Wow.#Like yeah sure hate on Charlotte for doing what the girls have been doing for an entire season and a half but openly#I guarantee if the girls did the exact same things Charlotte did it would've been framed in a Girl Power light and you would've ate it up#Locking Charlotte in a flooded room? Haha Cleo and Emma giggle to themselves while they walk away and music plays. Hashtag girl power.#All the times Cleo uses her powers to dunk on Kim I don't hear anyone talking about.#It's only ever when Charlotte does it. Because the show frames it as being bad.#Use your heads guys. Come on.#Yeah she messed up a few times. But so do the girls??? And they're constantly forgiven. Charlotte is never given that opportunity. And why?#Because they needed a villain. that's why. That's the only reason why.#She's held to this standard that nobody else in the show is.#You want a good villain to hate? Hate Dr. Denman. Hate Sophie even. But Charlotte? She didn't deserve any of that.
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A wip of the current Weird Smut fic, though we haven’t wet reached the actual smut. Might be all y’all ever see of it but I still think this part is funny
#writing in present tense is killing me idk why I chose it#but I went too far already too late to go back#I just noticed here there’s no names only ‘he’s but in the actual scene the flow is better I promise#plus it’s very easy to guess who’s saying what
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maybe its not queercoding TO YOU. I get it though
#chatter#this post is about seirei beceause im cringe and care about yaoi men now#reigen arataka fruity as hell for no reason .#yeah im shipping him with the very nice man who is nice to him and shy! so what!#i can have a boring fucking ship! as a treat!!!!#I wanted to write smth for myself so i went to the wiki for some sparknotes <-- only has seen the anime#<-- waiting for a physical copy to read the manga because i love my sweet baby boy mob so much i have to hold him in my hands#and theres sooooo little going forwards for them okay ........ as far as i can tell#which is so sad like youre really gonna save a man with yr umbrella which represents your unhealthy desire to hide away#for fear of being seen and misunderstood and hated for who you are#which in the process destroys said umbrella#while the man is a guy with level 1000 imposter syndrome who actively hides behind a veneer of charisma#because he simply doesnt think hes anything special and fears that if others dont think he is then they wont like him anymore#and that their storyline ISNT about going forward and having the strength to open up to others in a way that really matters#and the ability to be genuine and vulnerable even when its terrifying?#while having gay sex?#is that really too much to fucking ask?#I jest but also it really seems like they only have two big moments when that feels like such fertile ground for an emotional arc sjdfhs#idk i expected there to be more but ive only ever seen like two things. SAD. guess i have to make it myself
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past me was insane. i actually wrote 3 pages of spenserian sonnets for a fire emblem 3 houses zine.
they had the rhyme and syllable counts and everything
#shitpost#ive never posted it b/c its weird to just like post the poem i guess#and the illustrations that were made to go along with it were made by someone who only has an instagram so i cant contact them#to ask if its okay to post?#maybe if i post untagged with just a link to their profile or w/e#but eh#who the fuck wants to read spenserian sonnets#faerie queene au for fe3h claude#TO BE FAIR THO. THE THEME OF THE ZINE WAS ARTHURIAN LEGEND#so like i understood the assignment and went way too far ofc
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it is very frustrating because my mom does not know What The Deal Is but she certainly Suspects (for good reason. to be fair to her.) and she has Insinuated and she has Implied but she has not asked anything specifically. and its...not unreasonable for her to do this i guess because the last relationship i was in i didn't tell her for a year and a half. because the relationship BEFORE that was my first and it was with a girl and i asked her EXPLICITLY AND URGENTLY to not tell my dad about it because he was a massive homophobe and i knew this and saw this where she did not and she told him anyway and i have not trusted her since though, having few other options, i have continued to confide in her things that i should not confide in her that have then mysteriously made their way through all our shared coworkers back to me. and its.....its so. i don't know what to do about it. she..."stalked" is the wrong word but she followed my blog against my wishes and knowledge as a child and the more i lost trust in her and stopped talking to her the more she pried into my private life. i know my sister had similar experiences with her. and it has created this cycle where i keep trying to keep her out for my own privacy and dignity and safety and she just gets even more desperate and pathetic trying to get in after breaking my trust over and over and OVER again but i live with her and depend on her for far too many things and so it just. is this. awesomesauce
#have talked about it a bit with a few people and its...difficult?#i have always felt like i was the person standing between my parents when my dad was at his worst#and as kind of like. someone who failed to protect my family from him#and the last few months ive started recognizing patterns where 1) when my parents were united#was when there was a common threat and that common threat was ALWAYS me and my insanity. which feels. bad#and 2) my mother had no one to talk to about the horrific shit he said and so often ended up relaying#some of the worst things youve ever heard to me and my sister very conversationally#every thing he said about me that haunts me i heard when she told me and then went 'ha! isnt that so stupid he would say that?'#like. i guess its. she was a...i hate using it here but a Victim in thatsituation but im also starting to learn#that she was also a collaborator. and that she failed to protect us or take care of us often because she was scared of him#or sometimes because she agreed with him or hated/resented us or whatever. its. um#it is difficult. and every time i try to change and talk openly around her instead of being passive aggressive as i learned from her#she responds in the same guilt trippy icy way and says i am pissy or i think too black and white or do i think shes a bad person#and so i cannot...i cannot grow with her because it HURTS. every time. and ive just kind of...found it harder and harder to talk to her#at all. and her pain fills the apartment because she sees it happening. and it makes coming back here every day#even more unbearable even more crushing and i don't know what to do about it#it has been so weird. ive been trying to...change and grow. to be Real. to be truthful and to communicate well#for my friends and coworkers and family and i feel i've come so far sometimes#and then when it comes to her i just don't know how to do it because i don't trust her.#and when i try it only hurts both of us and i can't explain that to her because she WILL take it personally and she#she...everyone is capable of change. i believe that. to be alive is constant changing. but she refuses.#when she asked me if i thought she was a bad person she answered her own question going 'i dont think so.#i think you see things so much more black and white than i do and you're so easily offended and sensitive. i think im a good person'#not in a...not in a combative way but in a sincere way. and its like. i dont think i even responded i was fucking flabbergasted#where do you even GO from a statement like that lmao!!! god. its so frustrating. it is so so so fucking frustrating
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