#but i’m braving thru it anyways

[adriancatrin]

no one told me brokeback mountain was sad

[cashweasel]

What if Valen and Ms Valen were twins? The world would never be able to function. The chaos they'd cause, but also all of us would do whatever they said because... them! (Just a random thought from the day)

Goddd one valen is already a Force,, two of them would be a nightmare 😂 (although they Can and will be very fun sometimes loll),, they’re enablers to each other and headaches to everyone else kskdjjffk and yeah it’s double the hotness but good luck if they both like you you’re in danger💀

I held onto this ask for a while and then decided yknow what? I should draw about it so I did (ft gideon, their bf, bff and favorite victim kakdjfjfj rip💀💀)

[luv-esabella]

What if I used this blog like I was screaming into the void?

[cloudycleric]

i think this is my first ask ever, and it’s a little random and quite a bit ranty but anyways!

i wanna thank u for ur blog and yt channel, and just overall presence in the byler community! your rambles, art, and just content in general provide a lot of comfort to me and i am so grateful for u! u are such a vibe. i chose to give u my first ask bc ur my fave blog here <3

now abt byler in general. it will always be my otp bc i’m really emotionally invested in those two lil boys and their beautiful story.

and personally, it also appeals to me bc i have a crush my best friend (she’s a girl and so am i), and was so afraid of hurting or losing them. anyways, yesterday i finally confessed to them through a letter, and when i gave it to them i told them to only read it when they got home.

and now i’m going thru a difficult time bc it’s the weekend, and they definitely have read it and haven’t responded. it’s not like me to be brave like this, and i’m so worried abt what they’ll say (100% sure they don’t like me back in that way). i’ll see them on monday at school and then go on school camp with them and then sleep in the same tent with them for three nights??? i hope i don’t die.

so seeing your newest yt upload made my day better! helped me take my mind off it for a bit, so thank u for being u!

much love <333

okay its been 4 months since this was in my ask box, but i really hope everything worked out okay in the end!! unrequited love is absolutely terrible & im 99% sure i'm going through the same thing right now but just keep your head up & things will be okay!!

[stevenose]

Feeling this heatwave and very interested in summer adventures with high!steve 👀👀👀

15 high!steve harrington x reader headcanons - summer edition

both NS/FW and SFW concepts

(tw for food play (melted popsicles) and drug use!)

1. you both smoke because “it’ll distract us from the heat” - it doesn’t. it absolutely never works like that

2. you’re in steve’s pool pretty much any time you’re high. it’s nice and big and it’s so fun to float around in the sun. like two babies rockin in a crib

3. steve ALWAYS pushes you off your float/flips it over because he likes when you jump on his back and play fight

4. this nearly always leads to quickie sex in the pool shed because there’s something abt steve’s big hands on your thighs while he carries you around. and something about you grinding on his stomach/lower back while you hang off of his neck and shoulders

5. sharing popsicles. because when ur high it’s not as gross as it seems when ur sober

6. being too high and therefore too distracted and you forget you’re holding a popsicle til it starts dripping on your thighs. cringing at the cold. steve gets on his knees in a nanosecond to lick it up off of you, maybe directing you to hold it over your cock/pussy 💞

7. driving to lover’s lake or the quarry and getting fucked up to the point of forgetting you’re in public. steve ripping your top off to attack your tits with his tongue, rutting his cock up into you

8. DRIVE IN DRIVE IN DRIVE IN. you hotbox in the car during muppets take manhattan before getting distracted because you’re both sitting really close and the air conditioning is making it kind of cold and steve would LOVEEEE to warm ya up <3

8a. getting banned from the hawkins drive in

9. i’ve seen this around before and i’m SO SORRY i don’t remember the person who wrote it 😭 but steve holding his breath for a prolonged period of time and eating you out underwater at the pool (til he freaks out because he thinks he saw a bug and NO he’s not saving you from it sorry)

10. can’t reach your back > steve can you put some sunscreen on me > steve gets carried away because your skin is so warm and soft > you get a fucking sunburn bc he did a shit job > repeat

11. sucking him off thru his swim trunksssss COME ONNNN who care abt the taste of chlorine <3

12. steve accidentally cumming in his pool and he has to make up some crazy story so his parents replace all the water 🤧 he a freak

13. sucking high steve off while he’s floating around the pool 😵‍💫 listening to him whimper and moan and grab your hair with his wet hands, tugging on it, telling you how good you are for him

14. getting high and goin in a lazy river w him and robin (who is sober idt she smoke sorry ❤️‍🩹)

15. wet kisses with steeb who is the softest baby ever and tells u how much he loves you before throwing you in

bonus: remember when u were a kid n u would act like u we’re getting baptized in the pool. was that just me. anyway u and steve do that and giggle the whole time. steve makes up latin words n then gets a little nervous when you tell him to STOP because what if he’s actually summoning a demon :0 and he’s had ENOUGH of that shit (but he acts so brave abt it)

[everythingseasoning]

I started rewatching S2 of AOT and here is a little brain dump (for my own archive purposes)

I finished 3.5 episodes, E26-29 and into E30.

Wow. We see that Eren is such an acts of service kind of guy. He will do anything to save the people he loves… He was willing to die in a snowstorm to retrieve a lost Historia during their winter training. Eren is NOT OKAY with seeing people he cares for get hurt— he turns into an impassioned human whenever he witnesses something unjust. It’s really cool to see that somebody else cares that much for you. Eren will risk his life, do whatever he needs to do, for the people he cares about. And well. It adds up for what happens in S4 and the end of the manga. I fr want an Eren in my life (minus the genocide!!!)

I have a worm making its way thru my heart and that worm is Reiner. Reiner is so brave and manly and it is making me feel some typa way. Couple that with Eren, and the AOT guys are making me not 100% gay. Anyways. Then we have Ymir, who is fiercely caring, insightful, and super tall for Historia. Ymir who I like a lot more this time around, who would take care of who she loves and protects them with all her attention. I feel like Ymir and I share the same level of care for people we love. I like her a lot, I want a Ymir in my life too. She and Historia deserved a happy ending. They all did. (I am also traumatized by Miche and Nanaba’s death — no — I’m not kidding, I just, had a mini trauma episode— which happens everytime I witness something violent, even if fictional).

I’ve been taking notes on the plot (as usual, #mal’s endeavors), and I have to say there is sooo much going on within every character, for all characters, all at the same time. Idk how isayama made this all coherent as one story in one timeline — like how do you do that? for how complicated it is — but like yup. He did that.

(I.e. we get a glimpse of Sasha’s backstory and her journey of being a scaredy-cat girl who only thinks about her own wants, to becoming a courageous soldier—like I’m so proud of her — We’re just starting to see Reiner’s bravery and amazing way of taking action to help the scouts, and then also his split personality disorder— We’re learning about Ymir and Historia’s past.

And it all happens in one damn day).

/// the question is do I squeal about their characters and read fanfiction and adore them — or do I keep watching the show — or do I do my own ff???

[kithtaehyung]

🎧💌not sure if this anon is taken but i got some things i desperately need to get off my chest.

first of all, i’m sorry it’s taken me so long to speak up but also the fact that you’ve brought me out of hiding, MY GOD UR GOOD.

i’ve been a silent reader for a while now, i don’t even know how long. over a year maybe??? whatever, i just know that i stopped by and never looked back. (UR STUCK W ME SORRYYYY)

i’ve been meaning to say something for so long but your writing has become so incredibly personal to me that it scared me a bit. does that make any sense? like being here and experiencing this little community you’ve got felt like a dream. i feel so safe here, and seeing you go back & forth w others also just brings a smile to my face.

realized a while back that i was doing a great disservice by not expressing just how much you’ve influenced my silly little life. i’m doing this thing you see, where i’m trying to be more vocal you know, because wow communication does wonders. so here it goes..

your writing is incredibly intoxicating. your ability to suck readers into this little world of yours? deadly. (NEED YOU ARRESTED IMMEDIATELY).

3tan is what originally roped me in but it also gave me the opportunity to explore you as a writer and i’m eternally grateful that it did! your stories are some of my favorite, hands down. i was fairly new to this world when i found your writing, and when i say you set the bar so high.. yeah… thank you for that tho. truly. changed my life.

it’s been an honor to see you grow and i cannot thank you enough for letting me experience the joy that is your writing. excited to see what the future holds for everyone involved. even though we all face our own realities, it’s nice knowing we can show up here together and just shout into the void. wouldn’t have it any other way :]

anyways, just wanted to stop by, let you know i’m OFFICIALLY ur bitch (mainly yoongi’s tho DAMN HIM), and extend my gratitude for all that you do.

sending love 𓏲 ࣪₊♡𓂃

(SORRY THIS WAS SO LONG I DIDNT REALIZE UNTIL NOW BUT THANK U FOR BRAVING THRU IT KISSES xx)

AHHH HELLO, LOVE🥹🤍 that anon emoji combo isn’t taken so of course you can have it! It’s all yours🥳

Apologies that it’s taken me a few days to answer! When I get such amazing messages like this, I want to be sure I respond with the same energy and attention. And fkskfldl it’s been busy as hell so I finally have some time to really sit and thank you for all the kind things you’ve said🫂

First, thank you for even reaching out! I know it takes so much courage, even if you’re sending a message anonymously🥺 but you did it and I’m proud and now UR STUCK WITH ME TOO HAHAHA SORRYYYYY🤪👍 it’s all fun and good vibes here, yeah? The community is what makes everything special. Because we’re all just people getting through life, and this is a place we can just relax and have a good ass time🍊

And thank you for reading three tangerines and staying here for the long haul! It’s been a ride and even if I didn’t know you were with me, I felt a lot of energy from y’all so you have helped me, too.

I’m also happy that all these stories and words and characters have helped you in some way. You’re the reason I keep going despite all the.. idk, shit, life throws😅 Because that’s what these fics are all about!

And UR MINE😤 YOONGI GET IN LINE!!! sending you all the love and i hope you keep enjoying your stay!

[eruverse]

I wonder about giving Vanya too much or too big a background trauma to explain his fucked up head. Don’t mistake me, he does have them, but 1) It’s not much different from what other nations go thru 2) one can have mental illnesses without trauma. I’m saying it just might not be a severe PTSD. Eh. Dunno, speaking as an author myself, I think trauma as a character background is overdone to death and I want to be more creative with my own Vanya. Historically he does have them, but I would like to think he too has happy and wholesome moments during his childhood! Personally, I’m not much into wholly miserable characters and as an author I think these types are too cheap, sorry lol.

I’m not against angst, I just don’t like characters who revolve their whole arc and identity around it, lol. What happens to just simply, and bravely living despite everything? Sorry, but this is also harder to do than succumbing to angst!

Anyway, I just would like to see more nuances and balance. Vanya has trauma, but beyond that he’s simply weird and quite dangerous. He has people who despise him, — and he has people who love him and are his friends. People who refuse to understand and accept him and people who keep trying even when it’s hard. Because he’s in the end, simply someone. And yes he can bash your skull in without trauma.

[the-nysh]

I think one thing that is bothering me is what exactly did Garou learn? After the time travel, we know current Garoua development stops with him encountering God. With everything he did before that I guess I’m not understanding how Garou is just “taking” all this? Unless, you know, this has to do with him subconsciously feeling that he lost already. I suppose Tareo could also be another factor. I feel like I’m gonna have to wait until the next chp to get these answers😅

I feel like I might be repeating myself a lot but in contrast to the stuff the manga’s been clearly spelling out, now there's a lot either left heavily implied thru Garou's expressions or purposely(?) unvoiced unlike the end rants/speeches that explained everything in the wc (like literally, beyond the manga’s narration that his future self subconsciously had an effect on his sense of 'acceptance' without resistance, current Garou still hasn’t been able to make sense of things voice his opinions on everything yet - that’s still unresolved.) Unless the manga never decides to clean up all those loose ends on his side (which would be odd), either his story’s been left incomplete (open-ended) to continue in later arcs or we'll hopefully get more answers cleared up in the epilogue ch.

Still, once he learned it was impossible for him to be the strongest top dog as ‘absolute evil’ (as the one who'd eliminate all injustice other monsters and defeat all other heroes on his own to incite everyone in survival mode to unite & change for the better under his constant 'fear' whew that's a lot to accomplish!) when there was an oddball hero like Saitama who both mocked him & retriggered his worst trauma and who was too absurdly strong for him to defeat anyway. THEN for all he knew some unknown monster (god) tricked Garou into thinking he was 'high' again, and THEN some unknown force punched him out of NOWHERE (caused by his future self + Saitama shenanigans) making Garou think there was something else far stronger beyond even the 'baldy' he already couldn't defeat - like wtf is he supposed to think. 8′D Other than the world will always deal him a shitty underhanded blow where he’ll never get a ‘fair’ chance.

So in all of his confusion, ALL Garou could understand at that point was to expect the only thing that comes next: his awaited end and the 'deserved' killing blow at the hands of the heroes. Who, in his eyes, would only gang-rush him and kick him when he's already down in the name of 'justice' as he's always been used to. :') He’s already been familiar with that treatment ever since his childhood; nothing changed his expectations (disappointment) there. (If anything, the heroes ganging up on him only reaffirmed the worst, so ‘do it and get it over with fools; what are you waiting for!?’) Because if Garou ultimately failed to change anything of value thru his own actions or methods, and he subconsciously knew it was over too (from his future self), then what else awaits him? His incoming death. He already expected what the established way of the world's 'justice' would do to him~ As bleak and morbid as that belief is.

But then!!! The only thing that did change and surprise his expectations was when Tareo rushed in on his behalf, and King (!!!!) followed suit in support. :O To stop the violence and speak up against what was wrong (injustice.) And....what had Garou actually been hoping to incite all along? This time the change (chain reaction) in their behavior wasn't caused by his 'fear' - but it was still because of him in a different way that he didn't expect to receive - their sympathy and support to save him. Thanks to how much he’d always saved and encouraged Tareo. :’) Now Garou observed how someone weak he’d always protected (Tareo) could bravely stand up against the mob to come to his defense, and how someone with ‘status’ (King) could support the weak to enforce that ‘justice’ just with his nonviolent presence alone. :O (Garou doesn’t know King is also one of the ‘weak’ who’d been encouraged to stand up and take action cause it’s the right thing to do.) And well, before Garou could make any sense of that or even speak for himself, others still came in to preach over him and decide things about his life for him, so....really, to be fair, he needs his space to think.

As long as he doesn’t misinterpret Tareo & King intervening on his behalf, or the others sparing him or forcing him to live when he was already prepared to die, as a disgrace... But if Garou learned that because of him, the weak and some heroes were encouraged to take action not thru the influence of his fear (which failed), but thru something else he managed to bring and inspire within them instead...ooooh, then that’s probably an epiphany in the right direction. :O After witnessing how his actions (even unexpectedly) had worth to affect someone’s life for the better, and how he’d never failed to ‘save’ the one he’d always wanted to first (Tareo), especially when it became Tareo’s turn to be strong and stand up for Garou’s sake. :’)) If anything, beyond the path of ‘absolute evil’ (which failed), and beyond the type of unjust behavior in ‘heroes’ he’s never liked or wanted to be like, Garou sees a third way for the true justice he’s sought to exist (thanks to himself) in this world...!! (When he knows where he can Be There, in his own way, to ‘save’/encourage more weak kids to be braver and stronger like Tareo...? We’ll see what Garou thinks of King’s support for Tareo too.) So yes, I hope we do get more voiced (and not just implied) insight from Garou’s side on what he’s learned & realized after everything!

[hanasnx]

https://www.tumblr.com/hanasnx/748893150778654720/i-left-you-for-the-academic-trenches-finals-and

my finals are going pretty well!! i’m like 2 assignments away from getting to be a full time stay at home daughter for a few weeks

for one of my finals i need to analyze a piece of unpublished writing and my prof recommended we use fanfic for that part and if i was brave i’d use one of urs <3

-🧚🏼‍♀️

— link.

woo hoo. i hope you party hard (go to bed early, eat well, and get plenty of rest and hydration) during your stay at home daughter time

tbh i don’t rly get if that’s bravery or not. i tell my coworkers and old friends—even one of my sisters cos it came up in convo—i run a smut fanfic blog i don’t see a point in hiding it when we’re playing catch up. anyways. i’m honored you thought of me, analyzing my writing is a very high honor even if you can’t go thru with it

[dlnj]

Damn man, I didn’t really know where else I could go to vent this out, I know no one here knows me or what I go thru but man oh man can my life be such a nightmare . My wife convinced me to feel safe enough to tell her things I would never tell a soul (maybe I still didn’t lol she can be very cold ) but some how she got that I like diapers out of me, that was the first thing and went mostly ok. She started out supportive but the first chance she felt she needed to use it against me . Then I told her I was Bi-sexual after she pushed and pushed and pushed and told me what I was never accepting my answer of “I’m not sure “ which is the gods honest truth . And then somehow she convinced me to come out to her as a trans-girl . Which I was terrified to do. Yup so glad I did that. She made me feel safe even told me she loved it only to turn around and throw that at me too. She had me living life at homes anyway as a female , and for the first time in my life I actually loved myself . 39 years and I got maybe 2 weeks of loving who I saw in the mirror . But I got to tell you after that emotional ass whopping I’m not dressed as a woman at all right now. Took all the make up off, and went back to not loving me and she just wants to be on the attack so I guess today is about to get so so so so much worse. I actually thought and believed that I was going to be brave enough to start the transition process . But now I’m on my 3rd floor bedroom sitting alone balling me eyes out and climbing back into my shell . I’m really very disappointed in the world for making us folks who live life a little differently ashamed of who we are . I was seeing myself in the mirror as a girl too, even when not in makeup or girls clothing and again loved who I saw. But now I’m crying , having a non stop panic attack and feel like the only safe thing to do is go back within myself and just pretend my way thru life til one day when I die and then maybe the world will read my story of how the world can bully a good soul into loosing their minds and being so emotionally distraught that they are numb all the way over and feel weak , out of energy . I got nothing left to give when it comes to me trying to have friends and family , they all leave me after a while there really must be something wrong with me. Anyway thanks for letting me vent .

[memidgenotsofteroreasier]

Weather report

Blustery day, kaloo kalay! If March is coming in lion-like, then by the 31st there will be warm, balmy longer-than-12-hour days (which is what you can expect anyway, after the Equinox). I’m going to have to brave the wind and waning chance of rain. There is snow in them thar hills, only you can’t see it because they are shrouded in the clouds that are now circling eastward.

We have a tarp over a building we keep hoping to re-roof, but have not had the wherewithal. Well, said tarp has had a rough time of it and finally was sawed asunder. I was reminded of a Sacred Harp song, ‘When thru the torn sails the wild tempest is streaming’ is how it begins. Check.

Bodacious, that’s what I call this kind of wind. I had asked a tree guy to come out and he had promised the first of the year, but the weather has not cooperated and I think I may have dropped off his list. One thing I do know: not today.

[hearttstopper]

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[sandersstudies]

One of the baristas at a nearby Starbucks makes me lose my mind every time I’m working there by saying things that are not outside the spectrum of normal human words but are just slightly off-the-wall.

Barista: Welcome to Starbucks, home of delicious, what deliciousness can I put in motion for you today?

Customer: ... Can I get a trenta pink drink please?

Barista: Go big or go home, we here at Starbucks appreciate your commitment, what else can I get started for you?

***

Customer: Nitro cold brew with shots of espresso please.

Barista: Brave of you to commit to staying awake for three days, anything else today?

***

Barista: *slams open drive-thru window* HI HOW ARE YOU?

Customer: ...I’m pretty good.

Barista: Are you ready to be even better? Because you’re about to be. *hands them their coffee* 

***

Barista, realizing that a drink was made wrong: *slams open window* SO how do you feel about surprises?

Customer: ....they’re okay.

Barista: Great because I’m about to give you one.

***

Barista: You have two drinks so I am going to hand you two straws which means, FANTASTIC news, these straws double as drumsticks. / You have one drink so I am going to hand you one straw and, promise not to tell anyone, this straw doubles as a magic wand.

***

Barista: Here are those cake pops, I plucked them fresh from the tree myself.

***

Barista: *slams open window, holding drink* Amazing, fantastic, delicious, you are a very lucky man/woman!

***

Barista, realizing drink is being delayed or remade: Looks like it’s gonna be just one minute so they have time to put the extra love in.

***

Barista: I’ll be with you in one hot second. *beat* WOW that second sure was hot!

Anyway she has a few dozen catchphrases she rotates appropriately and it’s both distracting and fantastic to listen.

[stepffan]

spent my afternoon figuring out how to download itsuki’s book on kindle, putting it thru two translators and consulting various dictionaries because i’m not fluent in reading japanese lmao

anyway here are some fun facts i learned!!

before the age of 3, shoma used to love vegetable sticks, and said he would eat any vegetable. frequently hospitalized for asthma, however, he had to eat a lot of mushy vegetables served by the hospital and was put off of them. Itsuki also says that Shoma recently stopped eating sashimi, as well as foods with a crunchy texture, like pears.

Shoma does, however, love sweets, cake and chocolate in particular. When Itsuki, Shoma and their mom get dessert together (shoma gets chocolate gateau and itsuki gets a strawberry tarte), Shoma and his mom will finish their own portion, plus whatever Itsuki doesn’t finish (he says he’s not so big on sweets himself).

Shoma is very scared of insects. One time a cockroach appeared in their room and shoma went ham trying to kill it with the bug spray, not caring if he incidentally sprayed itsuki with it.

Itsuki often followed shoma to the ice rink, and considers himself to have grown up at the rink. he was a very brave kid and not easily intimidated by adults — one time when he was little, he took the liberty of ordering a large pizza without permission, handing cash to the rink receptionist to pay for it, and then ate the whole pizza by himself.

Machiko-sensei said she wanted to train Shoma regardless of whether he was skilled or not, because he skated with refinement/elegance (not sure exactly, her words were “品があるから”.) Mihoko-sensei said she initially wanted him to join their club not on account of talent or anything like that, but because he was cute lol. she said did not expect him to grow so much

some of the contents already have been summarized and shared online, like the Q&A portion, so I proceeded with the expectation of it being pretty redundant, but i actually rly enjoyed it. It’s only like 10$USD and 100% worth it just on account of the many, many cute HD photos of baby shoma and itsuki

[larentsaloud]

MJ & KAVIN ASKING THE IMPORTANT QUESTIONS: EP 6 AKA DETAILED ACCOUNT OF MY MENTAL BREAKDOWN

TIME TO WEEP IN ALL CAPS

OK sluts, mommy is back and by this I mean myself the adoptive mom (paper work pending) of Thyme and also his biological mom. One of us is not 🌚 evil.

Below I shall cry in words about the latest HOT mess that is episode 6. (SPOILERS)

In no particular order. It will most likely just be me screaming in italics AND ALL CAPS while listening to wrecking ball on repeat. 

I am mentally ill, yes, why do you ask? 

I thought we have already established this. Proceed at your own risk. Let’s put out tiger fur coats on and make ourselves comfortable. 

*CLEARS THROAT*

REPEAT AFTER ME: I CAME IN LIKE A WRECKING BAAAALLL🔥

AND SCENE:

OK. I’m glad we got this out of our system. I sort of like to start at the end, with your permission. In fact even without it. But oblige me. 

So, the scene is the end 5/5 and Kaning, MJ and Thyme are playing basketball (OMG ARE THE RUMOURs CORRECT IS GORYA ON ATHLETIC SCHOLARSHIP AND WIL THEY HAVE BASKETBALL MATCH BECAUSE ALHLKDASHJD). 

LOOK AT THE PUPPIEST????™️

Thyme is wearing what appears to be tiger stripes. Before you say ‘NOT again’ I will bite you. 

WAIT. 

I NEED TO MAKE A QUICK DIVERSION...

I actually am crying because he wore that soft sky blue cloud hoodie and it utterly broke my heart. Why? Ha. WAIT_FOR_IT.

ALSO MJ AND KAVIN CHEST ALERT (*passes out*)

Do you all understand what I said is right about him wearing these clothes as armour???

I told you a few times, that he literally wears the tiger print as a way to gear up for a fight, he even said it himself when talking to Ren about his date outfit. 

Apologise to me and Thyme now. 

Press here to send me a personalised five page apology I dare you. 

My boi needed to feel invincible about his date. 

So, when he wears ANYTHING THAT IS NOT ANIMAL PRINT ITS A WARNING SIGN HE IS BEING VULNERABLE. 

THIS IS ME CRYING. (TAYLOR’S VERSION.)

Sigh. 

Anyway. 

Thyme runs after Gorya at the end of ep 6 5/5. 

You all know in your heart that he will witness the world’s most heartbreaking moment. I know it. I still watch like maybe it won't happen. Maybe he will catch up with her and explain...

Fxck. 

The conversation between Ren and Gorya was extremely powerful. Shame I didn't have a hankie handy, innit Gorya? We could have really used one. 🤧

Damage was executed in🔥 perfection. 

What I wanted to point out though, was that when Gorya broke down into Ren’s  arms has it ever struck you that it’s incredibly strange to feel so much empathy for him and cry this hard? 

My initial response when I watched the other versions was: she really loves him, this is how I cried when my partner told me something sad about their past. 

HOWEVER.

I’ve been thinking. 

She is not crying JUST for Ren. 

Bare with me. 

When she tells him, just because you are not loved by the person whom you love, doesn’t make you worthless---isn’t she actually talking about herself? 

And Thyme? And everyone in that fxcked up hexagon...

Aren't those pent up emotions due to the fact that she can see herself in Ren, she identifies with him and sees also the pain in herself and in Thyme for not reciprocating each other's feelings? 

It’s one big mess. 

What hurts me the most about this? 

When Thyme stood with Gorya in the yard after he picked up that stupid hankie  he said: I can see how people fall in love with Ren. 

Never mind Thyme, mommy loves you you just wait for the adoption to go thru.

He was implying that nobody loves him. 

Because Ren is that kind of fake friend. 

He will destroy your only budding relationship because he is sad about being rejected so he claws onto the girl who sees the world with innocence and sincerity, has guts to fight for what she wants. She is open, frank, wears her heart on her sleeve. She is LOT like Thyme actually. She is brave tiger. RAWR.

What Gorya is REN IS NOT. 

He is so fake, because he is everyone’s friend and thus nobody’s. 

So here we have Thyme thinking, let me be the first one to apologise, he told Gorya he will do his best for her. 

HE WILL WAIT for her to feel the same way before he asks her again (to date him).

MY GOD?! do you see me doing squats and cartwheels in my rocking chair because alkhdasjklhjashdj????

NOW WAIT. 

Remember when Hana showed up and Thyme was all starved for love??

Did he go for it? 

NO. 

That’s the difference between fuckboi Ren and Thyme. 

Ren literally uses Gorya to save himself from heartbreak. 

Gross. 

SO when she breaks down, it’s all the pent up stress of being bullied, violated emotionally, physically and all her boundaries have been pushed by Thyme to the point, where she even tries to walk the fine line of two friends in the same group being interested in her, she is battling with the pressures of having two guys express interest, but it’s also the all the horrible stuff that’s happened to her since she waged a war on Thyme. 

It’s like a cry to the universe.

IT’S HER CRYING WHEN HE SAID: WE WERE FROM DIFFERENT WORLDS. SHE IS NOT STUPID. SHE KNOWS HER RELATIONSHIP WITH EITHER OF THEM IS DOOMED. 

It’s not just about Ren and his own aching heart. ITS ALL OF IT. 

*POINTS TO THE MESS*

Sigh. 

I felt the earth shattering sobs, tied up with gratitude to Ren who was the first one to show her mercy. 

Unfortunately he will be the one to destroy her sanity pretty much from then onwards. 

Ren wants what Thyme has.

This is personal. 

Change is dangerous. 

His trembling hands...

Sealed her fate....

They’ll all have to pay the price now...